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i miss being skinny

but i like my long nails

i miss feeling small

but i really hated the cold

i miss getting complimented

but i can do 5 pull-ups

i miss the control

but my mom seems happy

i miss being skinny

but now i can breathe

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i miss wanting to be awake lol

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can a dancer or former dancer pls tell me i didn’t ruin my life by quitting dance

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why does my mom miss the mark entirely

she keeps yelling at me bc i’m not doing my school work and she says things like:

“you make everything so difficult”

“do you enjoy not doing it, is this what you want”

“it is so hard having to deal with you when you don’t do anything”

alternating days she says things like:

“i’m worried about you”

“i think you’re depressed and i want to get you help”

“life shouldn’t be this hard”

??????????? GROW ONE MORE BRAIN CELL AND PUT THOSE TOGETHER WOMAN

she thinks i don’t do my work bc i don’t want to which to be fair is what i say every time she asks me why i don’t do it but i can’t explain why i actually can’t so idk what else to say

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I went on a road trip with Hozier, and he told me everything was going to be okay.

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“Lord it would be great to find a place we could escape sometime”

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hozier hits different when you’re gay and yearning and the world feels apocalyptic huh

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meirl

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has someone done this already,,,??

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Radical notion. 98% of “Thinspo” blogs are not “pro ana” they are just people with eating disorders. And the people who look for and at thinspo blogs are mainly other thinspo blogs.

Is it healthy? No. But is it a community? Yes. A picture of a thin person doesn’t cause an Ed, sorry to break it to you.

(And LEGIT pro-ana blogs are run not by people with Ed’s but by sick fucks who fetishise them)

This has been a PSA.

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hi i’m seeing no one talk about this cover??? this is HAUNTING, it’s dedicated it to everyone who’s died from the coronavirus so far especially healthcare staff i just,,,

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has someone done this already,,,??

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My skin makes me want to die.

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reasons i’ve cried in the last 20 minutes:

i am in the shower

my tissue ripped when i grabbed it

my skin is dry and scaly and flaking off

when i blow my nose it hurts like hell bc off my raw skin

tried to avoid blowing my nose so i sucked all of the snot up instead but now it’s streaming out of my fucking mouth instead and that is disgusting

tried blowing my nose delicately but snot ended up all over my top lip and that is disgusting

my deodorant

i saw my stomach in the mirror

i saw my unshaved body

shaming myself bc i used to be okay with not be shaved but now i’m not

a strand of hair caught on my nail

my mom

my mom

my skin hurts so fucking bad

my nails are ugly

i’m giving myself wrinkles from my crying face and it’s worse bc of how dry my skin is

writing ^

a tear fell on my lap

i can hear my brother being functional

i couldn’t figure out how to spell functional

my fucking skin

rereading the list

my friends that i ignored at school bc i was scared i’d start crying

my stomach

i’m out of tissues

my bedroom door is really hard to close

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how will i sit on my boyfriend’s lap if i’m so fat?

alternatively,

how will my girlfriend sit on my lap if i’m so boney?

also alternatively,

neither exist.

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gay irl