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I feel this SO hard😭, I can't give you mic tape and cue at the same time

Headset hell

When someone talks in your free ear at the same time someone is talking on headset.

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I want a reality TV show shot like The Office but it's about a high school theater department. Like the tech crew is the warehouse guys and it would be great just lemme tell you

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I'm going to be as cringey as I want today and future me can go fuck themselves

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An open letter to my parents

I remember that morning, the one where the sun was shining and the air was soft and the trees stood tall as their armor was stripped off by the changing seasons. Oh, is that not enough to jog your memory?

Well, how about this then? This was the day that you sobbed and clutched your breast when you found those texts from me. The ones which I sent under a protective shroud of midnight, hoping against all odds that it would be able to protect me. It didn't.

You looked at me with watering eyes and asked if I was a lesbian. I answered that I honestly didn't know, I said I was bi, and the hope I saw in your eyes when you realized that I still liked guys was enough to make me wish I had said yes.

You don't know this, but I heard the prayer you murmured under your breath before we got in the car that morning, and I knew.

You don't know this, but I ran into the arms of my bestfriend as soon as we arrived at those school doors, and I started to sob as well.

I broke up with my girlfriend later that month.

And you were sympathetic. And I hoped.

Then, I got a boyfriend,

I could tell that you thought this was the end, and I learned that any love I had for women was not welcomed in our house.

You didn't tell me, but you would cough when I mentioned how cute Zendaya was or how I'd want to marry Wonder Woman. I could tell.

I broke up with him over quarantine and I could tell that although my heart was not broken, yours was.

I cut my hair this quarantine. Locks of curls tumbled to the ground, and I smiled, it felt good, I felt free. I locked eyes with you in the mirror of that salon and I saw fear and dissatisfaction. I went to my next trim alone.

I got a shirt that said Make America Gay Again, and I laughed with glee when my rainbow socks completed the outfit. I tried to hide it, but you found it and in thinly veiled comments you told me that politics were best kept out of clothing. There's a reason why the books with gay characters I read have a spot in the back of my closet so you can't find them. I still have the shirt, but I'm too anxious to wear it now.

I bought a bi pride flag without you knowing. I used your Amazon account and put $10 under your pillow, which was more than it was worth anyways. You let me keep it and even helped me iron it, but you also changed your Amazon password and hung an old bible verse on my wall.

My ex-girlfriend got together with another girl from my school. We're all friends, and I shared how lonely I was since my breakup. How I wished I had someone. I didn't think my phrasing was odd, but you looked and me and said, don't worry, all the boys will be over you, you'll get a boyfriend, a boy will make it better. I didn't think that was very odd either, until you emphasized it and looked my dead in the eyes the entire time.

So, I'm not afraid to be myself, I'm just nervous, and you're not supporting, but you're not openly homophobic either. I wish there was a divide so I could be justified in my anger, but there isn't.

You don't know this, but I know that you ask my sisters if this is just a phase. It's been 4 years, so maybe. But still. You don't know this, but the words you throw around hurt me. And when I correct you, you laugh.

You wonder why I want to run away to Asia or Europe, or NYC or LA, but you never wonder what causes my daydreams. I hope this reaches you eventually, because fuck. I'm scared.

Your daughter

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My sister and I have this inside joke (I have no idea where it came from) where any time someone on TV says the words "I saw it", we turn to each other and earnestly say in a terrible British accent, "I sarw it THOUGH, I really sarw it!!!!!"

And if that isn't love, I don't know what is

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my fast food's dining room is open for limited hours due to COVID-19, and lemme tell you, watching 6 people stare at you through the windows for 20 minutes waiting for the dining room to open at a place that's in the middle of nowhere is surreal, don't they have better things to do???

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living in America and seeing posts comparing foreign police forces with ours is wild, like the y'all could go up to the cops to ask directions?? I would never approach an officer, I'd literally be too scared because of all the stories that I've heard

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Me, working that fast-food drive-through during a lunch rush bc I'm essential: Hi sir, your total is $11.65, are you paying with credit today?

Him, just very tired and sleepy for 12:30 in the afternoon: Yes, I am *hands me the card*

Me: Wow! This card is so cool! I love that painting that's on the card!

Him: *looks a slight bit more interested*

Me: It's called A Sunday in the Park or something right? By somebody named George maybe??

Him: YES!! *he proceeds to babble on about it until his order is made*

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glad all the gays like plants because I would CRY if my future spouse won't dissolve into a puddle of tears if one of their plant babies wilts even just a little

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Honestly, so glad a side effect of queer coding a lot of female villains is that I see every female on screen as queer because as I get older, the women in movies and TV shows just get more and more attractive in their butch and witch aesthetics

If you liked the hex girls growing up. Your definitely not straight

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I'm in orientation for a new job, and the videos are like propaganda. I'm not a "family member", I'm employee who gives my time and effort in exchange for money, that's the transaction. Don't try and fool me into attempting to be loyal to your corporation because I'm just working for you, it's not my life and it shouldn't be.

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I’ve never told anyone that...

I’m scared of being in a car during heavy rain or thundering because I think that I’ll be struck by lighting and die

I shave the tops of my feet

Every time I go through a door, if it has a lock I lock it. I’m not sure why I do, but if I don’t, I get a nasty feeling inside

The worst thing i could do would be like my mother which is why I don’t want children

I talk to my plants when I think they might be sad, I named them all

My toenails are very small because I cut them too short as a child and now they grow that way

I would rename myself Dean

I destroy things slowly over time when I’m stressed, but small things like erasers or my lips

I can only fall asleep on my right side, anything else makes me extremely uncomfortable 

I want to be a ballerina

I believe that flat rocks with holes in them reveal the fae if you know where to look

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Don't be a stranger, just be strange.

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Radical revolution is sometimes the only solution.

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honestly, it just vibes, worm rave

Worm on a string theory

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Groovy Flowers

When you see those psychedelic patterns, there's no need to fear

Grab your bud, lose that tie, and get your ass in gear

Shimmy without a care, throw that glass into the air

Tonight's all about you, so don't let the world intrude

The lights may be blinding, but as you can surely see

Everyone is grinding to the best of their ability

Grab a stranger's hand, spin until you puke

But don't forget that no matter what, you're still hella cute

So when you see those psychedelic flowers, don't worry bit

They're just there to remind you that everyone has a place in the world where they so happen just to fit

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Time

Does it erode love away slowly year after year?

Or does it cause a cataclysmic breaking of the stoney denial of love?

Does time highlight all the errors of man?

Or does it expose all truths under clinical light?

Does time destroy nature's natural order?

Or does it rewrite history?

Does time ever stop to consider who it suffocates with forgetfulness?

Or does it pick and choose with care those who will become great?

The real question is, does it really matter which is which?