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Rewatching Merlin with my friend and I think most of my comments have been “shut the hell up bro” to Arthur’s dumbassery

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"you don't owe anyone anything" You are a tar pit. Speak for yourself. I personally owe the cafe employees my dishes put away and my friends a listening ear and small scared insects a cup and a gentle trip outside. Hyperindividualism is a rancid infection borne of capitalism and willfully misinterpreted therapyspeak and I will defy it by continuing to be kind regardless of whether or not it benefits me personally

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My sims when they wake up at 1 am to take a bubble bath

I think my life would be a lot more enjoyable if I could experience the need to shower as a physical urge like being hungry or needing to pee. So instead of sitting here like "eugh I know that I probably should, but I don't want to get up, uuuuuugh", I could just get pressured by a compelling need to go in the shower that I can't ignore, and can't focus on anything until I've finally given in and taken the damn shower.

And just stepping in and turning the water on would be a blissful instant relief like ohh fuck yeah that's good, this is precisely what I needed.

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Getting my friend into Hatchetfield is funny because they judge me when I talk about how Grace is my favorite character and remind me that she probably killed an innocent person. Who’s their favorite though? Fucking Max Jagerman.

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At home. straight up bouncing on it. And by “it”, haha, well let’s jusr say, my bed.

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You can teleport one (1) single individual live seagull into any time or place in history. Where would you choose to put it to best fuck with peoples' heads and cause as much confusion as possible?

I'd pick Tutankhamun's tomb, just behind the sealed door, 30 seconds before the seal is broken and the tomb is opened. Imagine throwing that into the curse myth - just as these people are about to crack open the greatest cold one in history, knowing that this is what they'll be known for from hereon, they open the door that must not be opened, and out scatters a frantic, deeply baffled bird, entirely healthy and intact, fluttering away never to be seen again, with no apparent way of how it got in.

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The treasures of the wild (berries) have no price, but they do not come without cost. The forest accepts no money, I paid for these berries with a pint of my own blood (the mosquitoes fucking got me).

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when i first heard about the male loneliness epidemic i was like oh yeah close camaraderie and bonding between men is often discouraged in favor of competition or, if not discouraged, at least filtered through a lens of individualism that precludes deep connections. and then i learned what people meant by it (men arent getting laid) to which i say skill issue

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Roughly 6 months in and the US is already at the ‘full blown concentration camps’ stage.

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I remember when people pretended to care about bees for a few years because they were an indicator species and now I’m getting replies to that post like “idc if all bugs die as long as we get rid of mosquitos and flies and cockroaches” YOURE GONNA FUCKING DIE!!!!! WE WILL DIE TOO!!!!! WE WILL ALL DIE WITHOUT BUGS!!!! IM NOT KIDDING!!!!

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FASCINATED by grace-ruth-richie implied friendship in workin' boys. they hang out outside of school? grace is good enough friends with richie and ruth to actually come to the premiere of ruth's first show WITH richie, half to protest, but ALSO to support ruth? when did that happen? how did that happen?

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I’ve been thinking about the line “Darkness will spare my soul” a lot lately. It’s the very last line in Nerdy Prides Must Die and whenever I hear it I get CHILLS but for a line that is never heard before in the show it seems so important.

That’s when I got thinking. It’s my belief that since the beginning of the show the Lords in Black slowly began creeping into Grace’s mind. Evidence being Blinkys line “We’ve been watching you Gracie”. What if the Lords and Black have been targeting Grace to manipulate her into becoming their pawn?

Y’know how in Black Friday Ethan appears to Hannah even though he’s dead and it’s clear he’s not real? What if a similar thing happened with Grace during Dirty Girl? Or maybe the Lords were the ones who put the fantasy into her head in the first place. And when Grace is being interrogated by Shapiro she says that it wasn’t her plan, it was gods plan. What if it was gods plan, just not the god she thinks.

This leads to the Summoning. During most of it Grace is completely silent. Then she’s just straight up gone during Cool As I Think I Am Reprise. Then of course she has sex with Max and gives up her chastity, her most prized possession. Grace believes that having sex with Max before will send her to hell, and that didn’t change after Max died. And at the end we see that Grace still has the black book. What if between Max’s death and The Best of You Grace summoned the Lords in Black again and asked if they could save her from being damned? Then of course the Lords aren’t gonna tell her she’s not going to hell, this is probably exactly what they wanted. So she makes a deal that if she continues to kill “dirty dudes” around Hatchetfield as sacrifices they’ll save her soul from eternal damnation.

Darkness will save her soul.

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If you're reading this...

go write three sentences on your current writing project.

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textures and colors of the bark of Methuselah the coast redwood

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anxiety will have you thinking things like "will everyone hate me if i order coffee at the coffee shop" and "will people think i'm crazy if i work out at the gym"

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like the return of the r slur and horrible fatphobia and gay jokes and the misogyny oh my fucking god can we talk about the misogyny. we have culturally regressed to the eary 2010s but when you try to call people out they’re liek ohhh it’s just a joke 😂. i’m sorry but i don’t want to hear jokes about pedophilia or about rape or about racism that is not funny and it never will be. everything is ironic and if you get offended it’s cuz you’re a crazy femnazi who cares too much. because it’s apparently uncool to take anything serious or do anything with actual sincerity anymore

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maybe i like my tech a little bit inconvenient