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we’re sewn together

he’s born to mesmer

beside, astride him

i die inside him

pt. 1

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The Asset is not allowed to touch people, but sometimes he has permission to touch his Commander.

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Can we talk about Chris' understanding of Steve and how much Steve being selfish means in CACW?

in an interview, Chris says Steve won't think things like 'ah another day to save the world' because that kind of thought is 'self-involved' and it 'requires a certain type of egotistical approach to his own awareness.' He also says Steve thinks the way he does partly because that's just who he is and also to keep his 'sanity.'

I don't always agree with Chris' interpretation of Steve but his acting choice is informed by his version of Steve and in this regard, considering how much Chris emphasized the selfishness of Steve's actions in CACW, it's a huge fucking deal.

By Chris' words, Steve's thoughts don't start with 'I'. It's not 'I'm going to do XXX' or 'I have this responsibility', certainly not 'I feel like doing YYY.' They start with objectives: 'Coffee. Gym. Beat bad guys.' To some extend I think it's almost mechanical. (no wonder he's never happy)

But in CACW Steve's actions can be summed up by 'he chooses Bucky.' It's not 'save Bucky', it's not 'for the greater good', it's just Bucky (Chris famously said that Steve was fighting for Bucky not the Accords). It's a choice made out of emotions, it's personal.

So when Chris said Steve was selfish in CACW I don't think he meant that Steve was being, well, selfish, but rather he was for the first time acting out of personal desires. (still not true but you do you Chris)

Perhaps Chris thought Steve went to Azzano to save Bucky and the rest of the soldiers and crushed the plane for the greater good and burned SHIELDRA to the ground purely because that was the right thing to do, but even with all that, Steve in CACW just stopped giving a fuck about anything else. The world can burn I just want my Bucky back.

It's also interesting that Chris said Steve thought and acted that way for his sanity. This connects to the idea that Steve is just a giant black hole of repressed feelings and emotions, he knows that if he isn't careful those feelings - his dark side - will come out and cause serious damage as it did in CACW. Again, by Chris' interpretation, Steve making a personal choice is a huge fucking deal: Steve was losing control of his rationality and the cause? Bucky.

Is it a coincidence that Steve's dark side, his feelings and emotions are always connected to Bucky? Stucky was in the fucking narrative.

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i just can't believe Steve looked at Bucky like that. let me remind you, this is the same person. what's wrong with you, man

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i asked ai with Bucky's voice to say a phrase from the 13 letters. yes, "so how long have i loved you for? womb to tomb, sweetheart." i'm dead now. first i cried and was hysterical, and now i'm dead. wish the same to everyone

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Happy 10 years I guess

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i think that i can never forgive Marvel for not having a single scene of how Steve and Bucky communicate in ordinary life situations after Bucky's memory returned. i mean, not on the battlefield and not on the run. in any calm atmosphere . they had been apart for so long and deserved at least a few calm scenes in which no one wouldn’t try to catch or kill anyone and the world wouldn’t be on the brink of disaster. we needed a scene like this. they needed a scene like this.

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Presenting: CATWS in 3 minutes

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i'm dumb as fuck. just started to watch 911 a week ago. before that, i saw several gifs of Buck and Tommy. my brain decided to process this information just partially and only remembered Buck. so, now i’m on the season 2 and exactly until this moment i thought that Buck would be with Eddie. but a couple of minutes ago i saw gifs from season 7 again....

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till the end of the line

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he looked right at us like he didn’t even know us

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Captain America: The Winter Soldier 10th anniversary really makes a bitch wanna go rewatch the film, read some stucky fic and rip their hair out like it's 2014 again huh.

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i hope we’re still friends

yeah

i hope you don’t mind

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i watched endgame just once in 2019. it feels like i have some kind of psychological attitude that prevents me from rewatch it. thanks marvel for the broken heart, it still hurts

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i shouldn’t be jealous, you aren’t even mine

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true love waits

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