strawberymilktea
strawberymilktea
who could ever leave me darling but who could stay
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strawberymilktea · 1 day ago
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elle + baby fic just always hit the right spot i don't know how one can get this amount of cuteness over through writing but here it is
Hi! Baby fever anon.
I’m stealing 🍼 as my emoji if it’s not already used.
Any ship x reader. Their kid begging for something but no one has any idea what the kid is saying. The kid is saying something like “kima” (idk) and no one knows what the kid wants until one of the parents friends figures it out immediately
hi babes! thanks for the request. I took it in a biiitttt of a different direction, so I hope that's alright! it also ended up being wayyy longer than i intended it to be, lol whoops.
Spencer Reid x single mom!reader who translates [2.6k words]
CW: kid fic, reader works for the FBI - but not the BAU - as a translator, her daughter speaks toddlerese requiring more translating, brief allusion to Spencer having a rough go of things lol, fluff
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Spencer likes children; probably loves them, really. 
His godson is one of his favourite people in the entire world and he always has a blast when Jack is around. Perhaps that’s not a lot of experience with kids, but he’s read a lot of books – he could even deliver a baby, should the moment arise – and he thinks Rossi might just call him kiddo for as long as they both should live. How much more is there to know?
And really, a nearly twenty-one month old could hardly be considered a kid. By eighteen months she would have left the title of baby and moved into toddlerhood, and she’d remain a toddler until about three years old. 
So, he’s not meeting a baby, but he’s certainly not meeting a kid, so what is Spencer so worried about?
Dating you has been easy; so easy that Spencer couldn’t help but wait for the other metaphorical shoe to drop. Because there was always a second. Life had never been easy for Spencer before, so why start now?
Meeting you had been easy; you worked for the FBI. A translator and a friend of Penelope’s, you were a consultant for a case and imperative for the BAU’s success in a high stakes situation. 
Finding a way to ask you out on a date had been easy, too, seeing as you beat him to it. It was easier to ask for a second (and third and fourth) after enjoying your company for five blissful hours one evening and recognizing that you had enjoyed his in equal measures. 
You telling him that you had a daughter wasn’t a surprise, either. Spencer had overheard Penelope telling you to give her sweet darling angel baby a big ol’ kiss from her auntie pen to which you responded that you absolutely would, and if Penelope hadn’t answered Spencer’s questioning look the second you’d left the room, you were quick to tell him when you showed up for your coffee date-turned-dinner date-turned-drinks. 
Spencer hasn’t spent a lot of time imagining himself with a child; he hasn’t spent much time imagining himself with a partner, either. He spent a lot of time hoping for a partner and a domestic life, yearning to be known and understood and loved, but never thought to imagine it. He never had the time. Didn’t have the stomach for it nor the mental fortitude. 
But he finds that as quickly as he might be falling for you, he already loves your daughter. How could he not? The way you light up when you talk about her, the smile on your face when you show him pictures, all the ways that she is so completely and utterly you had his mind daring to imagine what it might be like to live his life with the two of you by his side.
But he’s getting ahead of himself. What else is new? 
He’d asked you what you were up to this Saturday, as he often did; most weekends dedicated to you when he wasn’t away on a case.
His hopes fell when you smiled sympathetically at him. 
“Actually…Hallie and I have plans for a picnic with the ducks at the park this weekend.” 
Spencer wanted to smack his palm to his forehead like one of those cartoons, wondering how he could have forgotten. Well, it was less that he forgot and more that time had gotten away from him; cases making days and weeks, the working week and the weekends all bleed and blend together finding him treacherously asking you out on your Hallie and mama Saturday. 
Maybe this was the other shoe; he couldn’t respect your time as a single mother or the importance of your child. If one of them has to go, it should be him. It will be him. 
You threw him for a loop. 
“Would you like to join us?”
Spencer has hesitated asking if he could meet this perfect child of yours because he wasn’t her parent and it was ultimately up to you. And, while the decision to introduce your child to a new partner is a personal one, experts have suggested waiting at least nine to twelve months after a relationship has become serious before introducing children to a new significant other, depending on their age and maturity level. Now, Hallie might be your child but she’s not a child; she’s a toddler, a fresh one too at only twenty-ish months. And for all Hallie knows, her and mommy are going to feed the ducks and, just maybe, a lanky guy with a satchel shows up too. 
So again, why is Spencer so nervous? 
But those nerves blow away with a gentle wind when he sees you approaching; he has his own plaid blanket spread out on the grass weighed down on one end by his satchel and him on the other.
He quickly replaces his own weight with the tome he’d been reading in favour of approaching you, your arms both full, one with a large bag and the other, your daughter.
Hallie. 
She eye’s Spencer warily as he approaches and he finds himself smiling, thinking ridiculous things like she’s got a keen sense of discretion about her; maybe she’ll go into the FBI like her mom, or be a profiler like him.
“Here, let me take that for you.” Spencer offers, arm already extended towards your bag that you let go with a sigh of relief. 
“Thank you, Spence.” You say in greeting like he’s done something miraculously kind for you. Like you aren’t doing him the greatest service by gracing him with your presence. “Sorry; we fell asleep in the car…”
The we is an empathetic response to the fact that your toddler has a line imprinted into her cheek from her car seat and her downy soft hair that one can only find on babies is pointing every which way.
“...so if she seems grumpy, it’s not personal.” 
“I work everyday with SSA Aaron Hotchner; I’m well accustomed to not taking grumpiness personally.” 
You let out a tinkering laugh at that – familiar with the Hotch-brand of severity – and Spencer’s heart soars; it soars again when Hallie’s nearly Hotch-level glare softens at your temperament. 
If mom trusts you, I’ll give you a shot, she seems to be thinking. 
Spencer helps you spread out your picnic blanket beside his own before the three of you sit down. 
“Can I have your soother, Hal?” You ask sweetly, holding your hand palm up at her. 
Her little eyes flicker over to Spencer once and then over the rest of the set up, landing on the bag that promises her picnic lunch before she complies, plucking the pacifier out of her mouth and dropping it into your waiting hand. 
“Thank you, baby.” 
“Mic mic.” Hallie states surely as she leans forward to pat Spencer’s green plaid blanket beside your multi-coloured quilt with a clumsy hand. 
Spencer’s brows furrow; a riddle he can’t solve. His eyes flit to you in a silent plea for a translation.
“Picnic.” You agree with Hallie, a wink in Spencer’s direction. “That’s Spencer’s picnic blanket.” 
“Mine’s green.” Spencer offers, pointing to the aforementioned colour where the lines aren’t impeded by shades of beige and a soft salmon. “Yours has some green, too.” 
Hallie moves her foot away from where Spencer’s finger points to her blanket, but she hums in acknowledgement. His eyes flit up to yours, and the encouragement he didn’t realize he needed is written all over your face, laced into your sweet smile and soft eyes. 
“You hungry, baby?” 
“Me doh.” 
Mic mic means picnic, Spencer is already categorizing the sacred language your toddler has come up with, desperate to be able to communicate with her. Me doh is new… 
He wonders how long he might need you to continue your role as FBI translator before he can manage without your input. 
You don’t seem unhappy to help, though. 
“Since we only come once a month, we get ourselves a treat.” You tell him; half abashed, half cheeky as you pull out a happy meal from your bag.
“McDonalds.” Spencer surmises. 
Hallie enthusiastically agrees, “me doh!” 
“I didn’t know what your go-to order was, though, and Penelope was thoroughly unhelpful in that department. So I just got us a bunch of nuggets to share, if that’s alright?”
“That’s perfect.” Spencer agrees readily, shifting closer to you in honour of sharing and in hopes of affection. You deliver on both ends, resting your hand on his knee for a few moments as you slide the box closer to him. “Thank you.” 
Spencer knows it’s not polite but he can’t help but laugh at Hallie; the pudgy little thing sitting primly on her picnic blanket and using a napkin to wipe her face after every bite she takes. You tell him it’s a side effect from when you were introducing her to solid foods; baby food is disturbingly messy, you tell him, and you wiped her mouth after every bite. She still does. 
Spencer thinks you’re not only a beautiful woman, a talented agent and polyglot to boot, but are also a brilliant mother, as most mother’s tend to be. 
He thinks, though, that you’re quickly becoming one of his favourites. 
The food is finished and Spencer offers to take the garbage to the trash, hardly sitting again before Hallie lets out a rather theatrical gasp. 
“Mama!” She squeals, a hand jutting out and pointing at the lake that this park is named after. Though, he figures this probably constitutes a pond, which are shallower than lakes seeing sunlight able to penetrate the bottom, which allows for a different variety of aquatic flora to grow.
You smile as you see what has Hallie so excited. “Okay, baby. Can you wait two minutes? I have to put my shoes back on.” 
But Hallie doesn’t seem keen on waiting, standing and doing a little jig on the spot; a dance to Spencer’s eyes, an impending tantrum to any parent’s. 
“I can take her.” Spencer offers quickly without really thinking it through. He’d have offered if it had been Jack; he wouldn’t have even offered if it was Henry, just taking the boy's  hand and heading over. But this was fresh, tentative. 
“Are you sure?” You ask, pausing in your shoe tying which elicits more frustrated stomps from your daughter. 
“Of course! I’d love to feed the ducks.” 
You seem wary, though Spencer is smart enough that he can tell it doesn’t seem to stem from a lack of faith in him. Perhaps – and maybe this is a stretch on Spencer's part, but – you’re afraid of the second shoe, too. 
So, Spencer decides to be the brave one, gently plucking the container of corn and peas you’ve brought for the waterfowl and holding out a hand to Hallie. 
Spencer smiles at her discernment again, though all it takes is one quick look back to you for an encouraging smile and another quick look towards her feathered friends before Hallie opts to take Spencer’s hand. 
It’s a slow trek to the waterline, but Spencer doesn’t mind; he has nowhere else he’d rather be. 
Hallie waves a polite hand at the ducks before reaching over into the container Spencer has opened and taking a big handful, throwing it as best she can. She squeals in delight at their excited quacks and splashing as they all dive and fuss over the vegetables. 
“Cah, cah.” Hallie says, and Spencer refuses to turn and flag you down for help. 
“What was that?” He asks, crouching down from his bent position in an attempt to speak to her face to face. 
Hallie repeats herself, this time with a finger pointing at the greedy birds. “Cah, cah.”
Spencer’s brows furrow at the water as he analyzes her linguistic patterns. Mic mic was picnic, me doh was mcdonalds; she’s clearly making an effort on most syllables, consonants seem harder for her to enunciate. Spencer also has context clues: she’s pointing at the ducks, but ducks is one syllable and he knows her to be capable of both the d sound, the ck sound. 
And then it clicks. 
“Do ducks say…quack quack?” 
She beams; unbridled joy at being understood. “Cah, cah!” 
“Way to go!” He cheers, bringing a hand up to her belly and giving it a pat, his smile growing wider as the toddler squeals like she’s being tickled. “You’re so clever.”
Hallie seems to think about that, staring out at the cacophony of ducks and splashes as she internalizes his words. 
“How’s it going over here?” Your voice comes as a surprise, but not a shock, forcing Spencer’s gaze away from your daughter and towards you. 
“Hallie just informed me that ducks say quack quack.”
“Cah, cah!” She cheers as she tosses another fistfull of peas and corn at the offending animals. Spencer nudges her back away from the edge of the water, wary of her little baby toes being misinterpreted for vegetables. 
“She’s pretty good at that.” You tell him, a proud smile on your face as you brush back some of her downy hair. “It took her a long time to talk; she still doesn’t say much, but learning languages is hard.” 
“Very hard,” Spencer agrees, “though, it’s actually considered much easier for babies to learn languages than adults. Children are naturally wired to learn languages, their brain's plasticity is particularly adept at absorbing sounds, structure, and the vocabulary of any language they’re exposed to. Adults have a harder time fitting new language patterns into the existing neural pathways they developed and solidified when learning their own native language.”
Spencer realizes suddenly that he’s sitting; the grass-turned-mud slightly damp beneath him as he leans back on his hands. Smiling lazily and pleased out at the pond while you and Hallie stare at him.
Hallie’s the first to break the silence, though Spencer doesn’t need a translator this time. “Wow.”
You’re second, only to laugh at your daughter’s response to Spencer’s infodumping. 
“He’s pretty clever, huh, Hal?” You ask, though you’re smiling at Spencer. 
A mumbling sound comes from Hallie, and both of you direct your attention to her as she scowls at the water.
“What’s that, baby?” 
She sighs; tired. “Keh fur.” 
“Clever.” You croon, beaming with pride and love and Spencer wants to figure out how to bottle up the essence and preserve it for centuries to come.
He settles for committing it to memory. 
“That was a hard one, too. Consonants seem to cause her some trouble, which is typical as she develops the fine motor skills required to enunciate. And, I’m sure you call her clever all the time, but I only said it once before you came over, and that was a second time. So, to repeat it that quickly is-”
“Keh fur.” 
“Right you are, clever girl.” Spencer tells her, gently chucking her under the chin. 
He doesn’t know what he had been so worried about; what either of you had been so worried about. Clearly if there is another shoe, it wasn’t going to drop today. 
Spencer is starting to wonder if it will ever drop at all; he hopes not. He finds himself very interested in spending many more days of mic mics, me doh, cah cah, and keh fur girls, imagining all the other things he’d love to teach Hallie, if you’d let him.
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strawberymilktea · 2 days ago
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how lucky do I have to be for this work of art to drop just when I'm in a slump and can't find anything to read before bed
When Time Stood Still
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Pairing: no outbreak!Joel Miller x fem!reader
Summary: In a universe where the apocalypse never happened, Joel gets drunk and regrets breaking up with you, resulting in a video tape he wishes he hadn't sent... Set in a timeline somewhere around Joel's 40th year around the sun, where he hasn't allowed himself to really love anyone since Sarah's mom - at least until he met you.
Word Count: ~3.5k
Tags/Warnings: alcohol, mentions of a stroke/aneurysm, broken hearts, angst, regret, fluff
A/N: This idea came to me after watching Pedro perform "For All The Lovesick Mad Sad Geniuses" by Ngozi Anyanwu as part of the 24 viral monologues by the 24 Hour Plays. This fic is based around Anyanwu's incredible monologue and Pedro's performance of it. Please give it a watch, especially if you'd like a visual representation for half of this fic 😅
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They say that some things have to be felt to be understood.
A sentiment you had never subscribed to. If you could imagine it, you could understand it. That was how you saw it.
Until the day that Joel showed up at your door at 10am on a Sunday morning, hair disheveled and brows furrowed, chest rising and falling with heavy breaths.
Time really did stand still then.
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You hadn't seen him in months. Hadn't expected to see him now at your front door either. It just wasn't the kind of thing one expected after a break-up. Hoped for maybe, sure. But expect it?
Not in a million years. Not after he'd shattered your heart into a million tiny pieces, fragments so little that even months later, you were still in the process of gluing it back together; trying to find matching fragments in a sea of chunks and shards. They cut you sometimes, sharp edges and all, memories bleeding into the now. It made you wonder now, just for a moment, if you were hallucinating him.
"Did you watch it?"
The hallucination spoke with his voice - Joel's voice - and then it pushed past you (with all the force of a very real being) into your living room.
You watched as Joel marched over to your couch, shaking up the blankets you kept on it for comfort and warmth, then digging through the cushions.
A cold draft blew around your bare legs. While the Joel-shaped person blew through your living room, you stood by your front door, handle in one hand, a sagging slice of toast in the other. The bite that was still in your mouth had taken on the consistency of cement.
Is this what a stroke feels like?
You could only briefly wonder if you had blown an aneurysm before hands were on your shoulders and you heard your name being spoken in that awful, awful favorite voice of yours.
"Hey, hey. Focus. Did you watch it?"
This version of Joel was different than the one you knew. His hair was a bit longer. Messier too. There was more silver in it. Bags under the eyes, dark and heavy. They matched the dark irises that were boring into yours. Your Joel's eyes had always been warm, like a cozy fire that was happily crackling on in the background. This Joel's eyes had none of that. His were dull and empty, like a fireplace long forgotten.
You liked your version of Joel much better.
Like a bizarre game of ping-pong, you matched this Joel's eyes as they flicked back and forth between yours. Left-right-left-right.
A deep sigh, and though you didn't think it possible, the light in his eyes darkened even more.
"Of course you saw it. Of course. Fuck."
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He sat on your couch, face in his hands. Another cold breeze blew through your open door and rustled the loose papers on your dining table. With goosebumps all over your legs you closed the door to your apartment, sealing whatever hallucination had blown through inside of your apartment.
"Would you like a glass of water?" Stroke, hallucination - you figured it couldn't hurt to be polite. There was a guest in your house, and you had manners.
It was also the only thing you could think of to say.
Because what was the alternative? Demanding to know what he was doing here? A plausible choice, if he was real. The jury was still out on that one.
You set your slice of toast down on the nearest end-table, the strawberry marmalade having lost all its appeal. It'd have to go on the "forbidden items" list once this was over, joining its brothers and sisters with memory-jogging-capabilities. Another thing lost to Joel Miller. Would the list ever end?
Once you dared looking over again, you found the Joel imitation staring at you like you were the alien in your own house, not him.
“I also have coffee.” Did figments of imagination prefer caffeinated water? You didn’t know.
He regarded you for a moment longer, then nodded slowly, as if coming to terms with something he’d been struggling with.
“Of course you’d wanna talk about it,” he mumbled, seemingly more to himself than you, then: “Coffee’s fine.”
Talk about what?
You filled a mug for him, then repeated the question out loud.
'Joel' accepted the cup with a dry snort. “You’ve always been too kind for your own good. Y’don’t gotta pretend. Go ‘head. Lay it on me. I deserve it.”
A somber expression took place on his face, one you’d seen him put on before meetings with clients he knew had a bone to pick with him.
You blinked at him, trying once again to figure out if this was happening or just a really absurd dream.
“Umh.” You felt the strong urge to reach for your phone. Didn't Google have an answer for everything? 'how to tell if a person is real' 'how to politely ask if someone is real without coming off as crazy' 'signs of mental breakdown' Wouldn't that be a fine addition to your digital footprint.
You cleared your throat, hands nervously twitching at your sides.
“Uh… don’t take this the wrong way. Please. But, umh, what the fuck are you talking about?”
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Joel's fingers fumble across the screen, accidentally swiping back and forth between the photo and video option a couple of times. A frustrated sound bubbles up from the back of his throat before he finally manages to settle on the correct setting. A tap of his thumb, and the countdown starts.
10, 9, 8, 7...
The visual on the screen shakes as Joel hastily props his phone down against the makeshift stand he created out of books and manuals. It's not perfect, but it'll get the job done. Hopefully.
Little beeps accompany the dwindling numbers until there's silence. He glances up at the screen, half-convinced he's fucked it up again - but there's the big red stop button, along with counting numbers at the top.
The tape's rolling, metaphorically at least.
A grin breaks out on his face. Victory. He did it. He's doing it. He's doing this.
He's going to pour his all into this video. Gonna put into words what has been trudging through his brain in an endless loop. He's gonna make you see, that you're still here, in his heart, his brain, his every fiber-
The numbers are going, running away from him. The tape's rolling, and he hasn't said a word so far. Out loud.
The smile falls from his face as he sombers, focuses.
"Hi."
The greeting hangs heavy in the air. It sounds unfinished to his ears, lacking one of the many endearments that used to follow his hellos.
"I... I, I, I..."
He had a plan. A speech, if you will. All laid out and practiced in his mind, but now that he's doing this, talking to you... He knows it's just his phone. But it's not. He's not talking to a mechanical box, he's talking to you. And that knocks the wind out of him.
Joel takes a deep breath, steeling himself for what he knows he has to say. Needs to say, or his head will implode. His chest might too.
It's now or never.
"I was thinking about you. I always do, around this time - every time of the day, actually... Uh, anyway. You're probably not even thinking about me." He's moved forward, more subconsciously than purposely, leaning towards the camera.
"Do you? Ever think about me?" Please say you do. "A little?" Please.
The picture of your smile enters his mind, distracting him momentarily. God, he misses you like a desert misses rain.
You're getting off track. Shit.
"What was I saying. What am I... What am I saying...? Don't lose track. Fuck!" He straightens momentarily in the hopes of straightening his thoughts along with his spine. This is so stupid. What is he doing?
"What am I saying!" He can't help but grin at his own incompetence. You used to lovingly tease him for it, the way his mind would sometimes scramble mid-sentence when he looked at you. God, this is awkward. He had a whole speech planned. Where did it go? What did he want to say?
Joel rubs his hands over his face, then claps them together. Focus.
He had a speech. A point. Time to bring it across.
"Do you remember - d'you remember when we saw that - what was it? Uh..." Fuck, what was it called? He snaps his fingers like the memory will snap back into his brain if he just does it enough. What was it called?!
"You remember?" Please say you do. "They used to be in these big ass expensive fuckin' buildings - you remember? What are they called... Erm-" What's the fucking word! Joel can't remember for the life of him. Perhaps the various whiskeys he's had have something to do with it. Either way, this is going nowhere. He's trying to make a goddamn point, for Christ's sake!
What were they called, what were they called? He knows he has one of them lying around. The papers that used to come with them. Probably still do. The little leaflets, you saved so many of them...
Joel doesn't realize he walks out of frame, nor the ruckus his search causes. Shit, this place is a fucking mess. But he knows there's one of them somewhere. He has kept them all, even if he didn't keep you. Don't think about that now. Don't. This is why you're doing this. Focus! Too many empty beer cans. He swipes them off the counter, along with his toolbelt. It doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is... There!
Joel hurries back to the camera, holding up the leaflet triumphantly. It has the word "PLAYBILL" stamped across its front. "Plays!" He beams at the camera. Finally. "This dude." He raps his finger against the thick paper. "The Last of the Sad Mad Geniuses," he reads the title. It was one of the first ones you and him saw together.
"Remember plays?" You have to. There's no way you forgot. "Songs?" You used to sing them all the time. In the shower, in the car. "Poetry?" He'd read them to you, verses you found in old books you picked up at the flea market. Your head on his lap, one of his hands in your hair-
God, why did he let you go!
You probably don't remember any of it.
"Yeah, me neither." The beer and whiskey slosh around in his stomach. Fuck, his head is kind of spinny too. Wait, didn't he have a point?
"What was I saying?" A point, yes, he had a point. "Right, umh." The play.
Joel holds the pamphlet up again, taps its cover. "Remember we saw this play, and you laughed so hard you peed a little..." You had been so embarrassed, but it just made Joel love you even more. Your joy was contagious. It'd make everyone smile. Him. Sarah. Most of all him. It makes him smile now too, just thinking about it. What was that line again?
"What was that fucking line in the play? How the fuck did it go? If - if if if -" Get it the fuck together, Joel. Focus. What was that line?
"If you got one friend when you die..." He hears your echo in his mind. It's hollow now, not as clear as it used to be, your voice slowly fading into obscurity as the days without you begin to outnumber the days when you were still his. If you got one friend when you die...
"...then you got something most people never have." He finishes the line and takes the verbal punch to the gut. Who knew theater could predict the future? You'd been his, and he had cast you away. For all the good reasons, the good and bad, though they all seem bad now in retrospect. Why the fuck did he push you away!
"And I tried to quote that shit back at you..." He sees you clearly now, down in that alleyway about a block away from the theater, your eyes shining with tears of laughter. "And you laughed at me, cause I fucked it up-" Like he always did. Like he had, with you. Finish the story.
"And I kissed you-" And then he threw you away. Suddenly, the tears are too thick to hold back. They burn in his throat, on his tongue. Fuck, fuck, hold it in, hold it in. Joel's breath trembles as he speaks again. "And you let me-" God, it hurts to breathe. His chest is too tight for his lungs to spread. There's not enough air, not in his lungs, not in this room, not in his heart. Fuck, his heart. It hurts so bad.
"And it-" Breathe, he has to breathe. "And it rained like we were in a fucking movie! And life was never better than that." The sobs come as the truth hits him smack in the face. He loves Sarah with all his heart. But you? You completed him. Filled in the cracks that opened when Sarah's mother left him. You made him whole.
Which means that he not only broke your heart, he broke his own too. In trying to do what he thought was best, he broke the both of you.
Joel thinks this just might be the moment that death comes and takes him. Almost hopes for it as he faces the ugly truth of his own actions. "Shit," he curses through his tears, then again. "Shit! What am I saying?" Didn't he start this full of confidence, with a plan? "Wh-what was I saying?" Breathe, Joel, breathe. Focus.
"Right. Right!" He remembers, now. The question he meant to ask.
"Why did you have to love me like that?" None of this would have happened if you hadn't loved him, after all. He wouldn't be here, suffering worse than he did after the mother of his child left him, left them. He wouldn't have to face the fact that his good intentions had been anything but.
"Why did you have to love me back!" It comes out in a yell, all wound up and tight like his anger is inside of him. At you, at himself. Mostly himself.
"You know? Why'd you do that?" Why did you? Love him back?
"You'd have to have known that you'd - you'd send me into a kind of madness, you know. Sometimes... Sometimes I think, maybe, uh... I made you up." Say that you were real. Say that we were real. "Sometimes," Joel whispers and wishes nothing more than to hear you answer him.
"So I go into the quietest parts of this house and... I whisper your name. I wish I could scream it." He should. "I should." Should he? "Should I scream it? I will. I should." He inhales deeply, your name already at the tip of his tongue. Just say it. Scream it. He wants to. He does. But his throat is locked up, your name heavy on his tongue like lead. Try as he might, it won't roll off.
The air dissipates out of him like a deflated balloon. He's dizzy, his stomach in an uproar. His pulse pounds in his ears.
Joel glances at the screen of his phone. Five minutes in, and he's only made a fool of himself.
"Yeah, I... I can't send this." What the hell was he even thinking?
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Joel sat on your couch like a statue made of stone as you watched the video. If you'd had looked up from your phone, you'd have seen him flinch and cringe during various moments, but alas, your attention was fixated on the video Joel had sent you.
You hadn't seen it before he arrived. As a rule, you avoided your phone until after you had finished your breakfast, and Joel had interrupted you right in the middle of it. To be fair, the rule had only recently come into place, more specifically after Joel had broken up with you. Not immediately after, only when you noticed that you would scroll through his old texts and stalk his business' website like a madwoman, or - well, like a woman with a broken heart. You knew it was unhealthy and getting you nowhere.
So you hadn't seen it, not when he had sent it and not the morning after. Not until he showed up at your door like a ghost from the past you had tried to summon with your heart every day since he had cast you out.
You could hardly believe your eyes nor your ears.
The Joel that had recorded this had clearly been intoxicated. That, or someone had switched out your version of Joel for one that spoke a lot more openly about what he felt.
Silence filled the room when the video ended. You saw your own stunned reflection in the reflection of your phone screen as turned black.
"Umh-" You searched your mind for the right words, for the appropriate reaction. What did one say in a situation like this?
"I know," Joel interrupted your thinking before you could get anywhere. "M' sorry. Shouldn't have... I shouldn't have sent that. Or recorded it to begin with." He scoffed. "Just goes to show wha'a fool I am. M' sorry you had to see all that." Joel didn't look you in the eyes as he spoke. His eyes landed on your half eaten toast instead. "Sorry I interrupted your breakfast too." You saw him run a tired hand over his face, heard him sigh. "Guess I'm sorry for a lotta things these days."
Was he? Sorry? For breaking up with you?
For all he'd said in the video, that much still wasn't clear. You could assume, of course, but you had also assumed that Joel had loved you enough not to send you on your way, and you had been wrong about that.
"Why did you love me, Joel?" It wasn't quite what you had intended to ask, but it was close enough. You could tell it caught Joel off guard by the way he froze in place.
He took so long to answer that you were almost convinced he wasn't going to, or that he didn't know how. You couldn't have blamed him for the latter. It was hard to summarize why you loved the people you did, especially when put on the spot. To his credit - and your surprise - he tried regardless.
"Because you made me whole." He said it quietly, but with conviction. And then, for the first time since you had clicked play, he met your eyes. "Cause you love loudly and without fear, n' I loved it so much - you so much - that it scared me. Terrified me, actually." Joel was on his feet now, slowly approaching you. "What you gave me, I haven't felt that since Sarah's mom left. Hell, if we're bein' honest, I never allowed myself. But with you..." He came to a stop in front of you, and now you could see flickers of that warm fire in his eyes again. "Never had a choice."
Though he looked more like the Joel you knew again, you were starting to doubt his realness once more. How else could you explain the man you loved so deeply standing in front of you, telling you all you'd wished to hear ever since he had cast you out?
"You took my choice, too." For all the good he was saying, there was still a lot of hurt inside of you. "When you told me to leave, you took away my choice of staying with you despite your fear." The words felt wide and heavy, awkwardly shaped lumps that you had to force out of your throat and over your tongue out into the world. You blinked ferociously, trying to keep the few tears at bay that had pooled in your eyes.
Joel's face twitched and crumpled at your words. His arm jerked, like he was fighting an instinct, and then he brought a thumb to your cheek regardless, wiping away a single tear that had managed to escaped.
"I know," he rasped, visibly trying to control himself. "N' I'll spend my whole life makin' it up to you. If you'll let me."
And despite the pain he had caused you, despite the many nights you had cried over him, you didn't need to think twice to know your answer. You still loved him, after all. And in spite of it all, it seemed that Joel Miller still loved you too.
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ROLL FOR REDEMPTION - E.M. (series)
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SUMMARY: in which Eddie cuts you of his life, under his girlfriend’s influence, discarding mementos of your friendship. As you withdraw, becoming a shadow of yourself, Eddie feels trapped, clinging to a small reminder of you. PAIRING: Eddie Munson x Female best friend
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ONE : The Silence That Breaks You
The air in Hawkins feels heavier tonight, like the sky itself is pressing down on your chest. You’re sitting on the worn-out couch in your living room, the one with the frayed armrests and the faint smell of cigarette smoke that lingers from years of Eddie Munson sprawling across it, his boots propped on the coffee table, his laughter filling the space like a song you didn’t know you’d miss until it was gone. The TV hums with some late-night infomercial, but you’re not watching. Your eyes are fixed on the phone, mocking you with its silence.
It’s been two weeks since Eddie last called. Two weeks since you heard his voice, all gravel and warmth, teasing you about the way you always steal his fries at the diner or how you can’t keep up with his D&D campaigns because you’re “too busy daydreaming about dragons instead of slaying them.” Two weeks since he looked at you with those big, brown eyes, the ones that always seemed to see you, really see you, even when you felt invisible to the rest of the world.
You shift, your thighs pressing against the couch, and you’re suddenly hyper-aware of your body—the way your curves spill over the cushions, the way your hips take up space that Tara, with her sharp cheekbones and willowy frame, never would. You’ve always been plus-size, always carried yourself with a quiet confidence you built from scratch, brick by painful brick. Eddie was the one who helped you lay those bricks. He was the one who’d sling an arm around your shoulders at school, glaring at anyone who dared whisper about your weight, his presence a shield against the world’s cruelty. “You’re a goddamn queen,” he’d say, grinning, his rings glinting under the fluorescent lights. “Don’t let these idiots tell you otherwise.”
But now, Tara’s in the picture, and she’s not just a girlfriend—she’s a wedge, driven deep between you and the boy who’s been your anchor since you were twelve. You can still see her face from that night at the Hideout, her blonde hair catching the stage lights as Eddie’s band played. She was all sharp edges and possessive glances, her hand curled around his arm like she was staking a claim. You’d been in the crowd, cheering louder than anyone, your heart swelling with pride as Eddie shredded his guitar, his hair a wild halo under the spotlight. After the set, you’d hugged him, your arms wrapping around his leather jacket, the familiar scent of weed and Old Spice grounding you. “You killed it, Munson,” you’d said, and he’d grinned, ruffling your hair like you were kids again.
Tara had watched it all, her lips a thin line. Later, when you’d gone to grab drinks with the band, she’d pulled Eddie aside. You didn’t hear their conversation, but you saw the way his shoulders tensed, the way his eyes flickered to you before dropping to the floor. When he came back, he was quieter, his usual spark dimmed. “Tara’s not feeling great,” he’d mumbled, avoiding your gaze. “Gotta take her home.”
You’d nodded, swallowing the unease in your throat. “Sure. See you tomorrow?”
“Yeah,” he’d said, but there was something hollow in his voice, something that made your stomach twist.
Tomorrow came and went. Then a week. Then two. No calls, no Eddie showing up at your door with his van blaring Metallica, no late-night drives to the quarry where you’d sit on the hood and talk about everything and nothing—your dreams of leaving Hawkins, his plans to make it big with Corroded Coffin, the way you both felt like misfits in a town that didn’t understand you.
You tried reaching out. A voice message: “Eddie, it’s me. Just checking in. Call me back, okay?” Silence. You even swung by the trailer park, your heart pounding as you knocked on his door, but Wayne answered, his face kind but tired. “He’s out with Tara,” he’d said, and the pity in his eyes cut deeper than you’d expected.
Tonight, you can’t take it anymore. You pick up the phone, your fingers trembling as you dial his number. It rings once, twice, three times, and then—his voice, but not really. It’s his voicemail, the one he recorded in a mock-serious tone, pretending to be a radio DJ: “You’ve reached the one and only Eddie Munson, master of the fretboard, slayer of dragons, and all-around badass. Leave a message, and I might grace you with a call back.” The beep feels like a gunshot.
“Eddie,” you start, your voice cracking. You pause, swallowing hard. “I don’t know what’s going on, but… I miss you. Did I do something wrong? Just… call me, please.” You hang up, and the tears come before you can stop them, hot and heavy, blurring the room around you. You curl into yourself, your arms wrapping around your middle, as if you could hold together the pieces of your breaking heart.
The next day, you’re at the diner, picking at a plate of fries you don’t want, when you see them. Eddie and Tara, walking in hand-in-hand. He’s wearing his battle vest, the one you helped him sew patches onto, each one a memory—Iron Maiden from the concert you snuck into, Dio from the time you saved up to buy him that record for his birthday. Tara’s clinging to his arm, her laugh sharp and bright, cutting through the diner’s hum. You sink lower in your booth, hoping they won’t see you, but Eddie’s eyes find yours, and for a moment, it’s like the world stops.
His face softens, and you see the old Eddie—the one who’d stay up all night with you when your mom was sick, who’d drive you to school when your car broke down, who’d tell you you were beautiful when you felt like nothing. But then Tara tugs at his hand, her eyes narrowing as she follows his gaze to you. She says something, too quiet for you to hear, and Eddie’s expression shifts—guilt, maybe, or something worse. He looks away, and they slide into a booth across the diner, his back to you.
You want to scream, to march over and demand answers, but your body feels heavy, like you’re sinking into the vinyl seat. Your fries grow cold, and the waitress gives you a sympathetic look as she refills your coffee. You don’t cry, not here, not where they can see. But inside, you’re unraveling, the threads of your friendship with Eddie pulling apart one by one.
That night, you’re back on your couch, staring at the ceiling, when the phone finally rings. Your heart leaps, and you scramble to answer, nearly dropping it in your haste. “Eddie?” you say, your voice raw with hope.
“Yeah,” he says, and it’s him, but he sounds different—distant, like he’s speaking through a wall. “Can we talk?”
You nod, even though he can’t see you. “Please.”
He asks you to meet him at the quarry, the place that’s always been yours, where you’ve shared secrets and dreams under a sky full of stars. You drive there, your hands shaking on the wheel, the radio off because every song feels like it’s mocking you. When you pull up, he’s already there, leaning against his van, a cigarette glowing between his fingers. The moonlight catches the silver of his rings, and for a moment, he’s the Eddie you’ve always known, the one who’d fight the world for you.
But when he looks up, his eyes are heavy, and you know something’s wrong. You climb out of your car, your sneakers crunching on the gravel, and you stop a few feet away, your arms crossed over your chest like armor. “What’s going on, Eddie?” you ask, your voice barely above a whisper. “Why are you avoiding me?”
He takes a drag, exhaling smoke that curls into the night air. “It’s Tara,” he says finally, his voice low. “She… she doesn’t like how close we are.”
Your stomach drops. “What do you mean?”
He shifts, his boots scuffing the ground. “She thinks it’s weird, you know? That my best friend’s a girl. She says it makes her uncomfortable, and… I don’t know, she’s got a point. I don’t want her to feel like she’s competing with you.”
“Competing?” The word tastes bitter. “Eddie, we’ve been friends for years. You know I’d never—”
“I know,” he cuts you off, his voice sharp, but then he softens. “I know, okay? But she’s my girlfriend, and I love her. I don’t want to mess this up.”
The word love hits you like a punch. You’ve never heard him say it about anyone, not like this. You want to argue, to tell him Tara’s wrong, that your friendship isn’t something to be thrown away, but the look in his eyes stops you. He’s already made up his mind.
“So what are you saying?” you ask, your voice trembling. “You’re just… done with me?”
“No,” he says quickly, stepping closer, but he stops short of touching you. “It’s not like that. I just… I need to put her first. She wants me to… to take a step back. From you.”
The words cut deeper than you thought possible. You feel exposed, your body too big, too much, like it’s the reason Tara feels threatened, like your existence is the problem. “Eddie,” you say, tears spilling over now, “I’m your best friend. We’ve been through everything together—your dad, my mom, all the shit Hawkins threw at us. And now you’re just… letting her decide who you can talk to?”
“It’s not her deciding,” he says, but it sounds like he’s trying to convince himself as much as you. “I’m choosing this. For her. For us.”
You laugh, a hollow, broken sound. “You’re choosing her over me.”
He doesn’t deny it. He just looks at you, his eyes glistening, and you realize he’s hurting too. But it’s not enough to change his mind. “I’m sorry,” he says, his voice breaking. “I don’t want to lose you, but… I have to do this.”
You want to scream, to shake him, to make him see how wrong this is. But you don’t. You nod, wiping your tears with the back of your hand. “Okay,” you whisper. “If that’s what you want.”
“It’s not what I want,” he says, but it’s too late. The damage is done.
You turn and walk back to your car, your heart a heavy stone in your chest. He calls your name, but you don’t look back. You can’t. You drive away, the quarry shrinking in your rearview mirror, and with it, the boy who was once your everything.
Back home, you collapse onto your bed, the room filled with ghosts of Eddie—his old bandanas tied to your headboard, the mixtape he made you last summer, the Polaroid of you both at the arcade, your arms around each other, grinning like nothing could ever tear you apart. You cry until your throat is raw, until your body feels empty, and you wonder if you’ll ever stop feeling like you’re too much, like your size, your presence, your love for him was always going to be a threat to someone like Tara.
The phone doesn’t ring again. The silence is louder than anything Eddie ever said.
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strawberymilktea · 19 days ago
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the complete knock (ii) — bob reynolds
⟢ synopsis. joaquín convinced you to stay in new york as a chance to regroup... and maybe look into who the hell this bob guy is. and just when things could not get any worse, john walker finds you both under the ruse of wanting to talk.
⟢ contains. spoilers for thunderbolts*, sequel to this fic right here! a lot of plot. reader is described as female. reader and joaquín are sambucky children of divorce :( joaquín is sooo baby brother. a bit of stalking happens, walker is a punching bag (i love him tho), reader is crazy stubborn, #justiceforsamwilson.
⟢ wc: 21.2k+
⟢ author’s note. bob wears bunny slippers. that is all i had to say.
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You should’ve been halfway back to Washington by now. Maybe already unpacking your bag in your bedroom, or sitting shoulder to shoulder with Joaquín on the couch while Sam paced in front of you both, jaw clenched, hands on his hips and brow furrowed like he was about to crack the floor with how hard he was pacing back and forth. He’d be muttering something about how disappointed he was, how you went behind his back and dragged yourself into this morning’s breaking news cycle.
Instead, you were still in New York, sitting across from Joaquín in a café that toed the line between ‘upscale diner’ and ‘hipster brunch spot.’ Somewhere in Mid-Manhattan, near enough to the buzz of the city, but tucked just far enough to feel like a secret. Still, it was too close to the watchtower for your liking, just down the street.
The café had all the trimmings of old New York: polished floors, and red leather booths, but filtered through the lens of reclaimed wood walls and Edison bulbs.
It was early enough that there were only a handful of people occupying the other booths. Old soul music hummed softly from the speakers overhead, and a couple of waitresses bustled between tables, laughing in Spanish. There was a white man across from you who was poking into his own breakfast with a strange mannerism only filthy rich people would have.
The mug of coffee in your hands had gone lukewarm. The latte art was so nice that it made you hesitate even to drink it, but you also wondered if you could force yourself to have an appetite after last night.
Joaquín had convinced you to stay just a little longer; said it might help you feel better. He sat in front of you in the booth, wearing an I LOVE NYC shirt, sipping from his cold brew as if he hadn’t dragged you out of bed at five in the morning for a run around Central Park that took an hour and then saw the sunrise. Which then became a detour to Times Square before it got crowded. Which then became breakfast out, because apparently, room service wasn’t “authentically New York enough.”
And now? Now you were here. Staring into a latte you didn’t ask for, stomach coiled too tight to even think about food, wishing you could leave the city already.
You hadn’t said much since leaving the gala. Not in the van, not in the elevator ride up to your hotel room, not even when Joaquín offered to stay. You’d nodded, locked the door behind him, and then downed whatever overpriced minibar bottle of tequila you could find. Maybe two.
You kept replaying it all. The way the crowd went quiet when the cameras caught you with Valentina. The fake smile politeness as she wrapped an arm around your shoulders and whispered poison in your ear.
The words still echoed: What’s loyalty really worth?
She wanted you to betray Sam, as if enough people hadn’t already done that.
And then there was Bob.
Fuck that guy.
Fuck Bob.
You went back to nursing your coffee, eyes glazed, ears barely catching the low hum of the voice of the lawyer Joaquín had hired as he explained your legal options. You weren’t sure what he was saying. Something about image rights, team misrepresentation, staying away from De Fontaine and possible lawsuits: you nodded because it was easier than arguing.
Joaquín said you would stay just until noon like this city hadn’t already taken enough energy from you. And you agreed because part of you still hadn’t figured out what to do next.
Besides, it was only eight-thirty in the morning by the time you both got your drinks.
“…And those are just a few steps I’d recommend moving forward,” the lawyer said smoothly, adjusting his glasses as he sat back. “I’ll be honest, this isn’t exactly my usual wheelhouse, but I think we’ve got a decent case if we frame the whole thing as a misunderstanding. Especially if De Fontaine keeps using ‘Avengers’ without clearance.”
His tone was calm. Unbothered. Confident, even. You couldn’t tell if that made you feel better or worse. You probably could have avoided this entire situation if you had stayed home and told Congressman Gary to suck it.
“Yeah, thanks,” Joaquín said brightly, finally glancing up from his laptop.
The man stood, reaching for the sleek red cane that rested against the booth. “Well, you’ve got my number,” he said. “Call if you need anything. I’m happy to keep looking into it.”
“Thanks, Matt,” Joaquín said again, giving him a grateful smile.
“Seriously,” you added, your voice a touch warmer now. Maybe it was the way Matt had actually made the whole mess sound… manageable. “Thank you.”
Matt turned in your direction, that easy smile not fading. “Don’t worry. If you want to push the misunderstanding narrative, you’ll be fine. And if Valentina keeps branding this team as Avengers, there’s a solid case for misrepresentation, especially if your likeness is being used to imply endorsement.”
You nodded. “Right. Yeah. Got it. Thanks.”
Matt paused, as if catching the hesitation in your voice. “You’ll be okay,” he said, then offered a small wave as he made his way toward the door.
Joaquín watched him leave, the bell above the café door giving a soft chime as it swung shut behind him. Then he turned back to you with a grin that was way too proud for someone who’d just hired a lawyer from a newspaper ad. “He seems nice.”
You narrowed your eyes over the rim of your coffee mug. “Where’d you find that guy?”
He pursed his lips, “You said we needed a lawyer. I got us a lawyer. He has really good reviews on Yelp. One of the best in Hell’s Kitchen.”
“Hell’s Kitchen? You made that pour man come all the way down here for us?”
“He offered,” Joaquín said defensively, “Matt said he preferred to meet in person anyway. Besides, we need someone who’s not scared of Valentina. The man literally sues billionaires in his spare time.”
You set your mug down a little too hard, making it clink against the saucer. “We have lawyers. Sam knows people. Actual governmental legal teams. With offices. Why didn’t you call one of them?”
“I didn’t realize we needed the god of lawyers to step in,” he muttered, exasperated as he rolled his eyes. “Relax. We’ve got more than enough to blow this thing wide open. The press photos alone are enough to raise suspicion, and the way Valentina keeps parading that ‘New Avengers’ name around? That’s grounds for a cease and desist.”
You leaned back in the booth, rubbing your temple as you exhaled. “We don’t have as much as you think.”
“But we will.”
You didn’t respond, you just turned your head and focused out the window again. Outside, the city moved on without you. Pedestrians marched by in layers of spring coats and scarves, dodging puddles and taxis like it was all muscle memory. There was something comforting about how oblivious they all were, how none of them had been at that gala last night or had their name blasted across every trending tag before noon.
Inside, the warm smell of eggs and expensive coffee lingered in the air, but you couldn’t shake the sourness sitting in your stomach.
Joaquín, thankfully, didn’t push. He went back to typing on his laptop, though you could tell the silence was killing him. His foot bounced under the table. Occasionally, he muttered something to himself, probably reviewing the security cam footage from the gala again, probably rewatching the exact moment Valentina draped an arm over your shoulders like she owned you.
The two of you were dressed down, in civilian clothes (if Joaquín’s tourist merch would count as such), and baseball caps pulled low. Your sunglasses sat folded beside the ketchup bottle and sugar packets, next to the fresh copy of this morning’s Daily Bugle. Your photo was front-page centre. The shot of you in the dress, frozen between Valentina and Yelena, half-turning like you weren’t sure if you wanted to be there or bolt.
At least you looked pretty.
You wondered if Bob had seen it.
The thought hit you suddenly, out of nowhere, and lodged itself in your chest like a splinter. You hadn’t even realized you were still thinking about him, not actively, anyway, but the memory of his face lingered stubbornly. The way he’d looked at you like he didn’t know whether to reach for you or let you go. The way he’d said your name, low and careful. Like it mattered. He felt like a scent on your jacket or a song stuck in your teeth. Something stupid and soft that wouldn’t let go.
You pressed a hand against your thigh under the table, grounding yourself. It wasn’t the time.
A waitress approached not long after, balancing two plates in her arms with the practiced grace of someone who’d been doing it since before either of you were born. Her hair was tied up in a neat bun, a pencil tucked behind her ear, and she gave your table a friendly smile.
“Three pancakes, three eggs, and three sausages?”
Joaquín perked up immediately, pulling down his headphones and sliding his laptop to the side like he hadn’t been glued to it for the past twenty minutes. “That’s me, thank you.”
“Berry waffles?”
You raised your hand, and she set the plate down gently in front of you before asking if there was anything else either of you wanted. You both politely declined, and she left.
Joaquín didn’t waste a second. He picked up his fork and immediately began cutting into his mountain of food. Syrup pooled fast over his eggs and sausages.
You just stared at your plate. The waffles were warm, the fruit arranged in neat little clusters, but your stomach still felt like it had been twisted into knots. You poked at a strawberry without much commitment.
“So,” Joaquín said between bites, reaching for his cold brew and sipping loudly from the straw just to get your attention like a child.
You didn’t look up, just stabbed a strawberry on your plate.
He tried again. “Do you… Do you wanna talk about it?”
That time, you met his eyes. His smile was soft and a little tentative, but he was holding himself like he expected you to throw your drink in his face. His shoulders were hunched, eyes flicking between you and his plate like he was bracing for impact.
“Talk about what?”
He blinked at you, then gave a pointed look. “Last night.”
You frowned, “We already debriefed.”
“I—I know that,” he said, fork mid-air. “I meant, like, talk about it to me. As friends. Just… me and you. Like we usually do.”
You didn’t answer right away. The quiet between you stretched long enough for the sounds of the diner to filter in again; the clatter of dishes, the sizzle from the kitchen, someone laughing faintly three booths over. Then you sighed, setting your fork down with a metallic clink against the ceramic.
“It’s just...” Joaquín tried again, not looking at you now, like the words would land better if he said them sideways. “You’ve been kinda like… a pain in the ass. To put it nicely.”
That drew a faint grin from you, brief, reluctant, but real. No one could needle you quite like him. Maybe that’s why you both worked. Maybe that’s why it always worked. You rolled your eyes, not quite ready to give in.
“I just don’t understand why you got us a lawyer off Yelp.”
Joaquín pulled a face, somewhere between defensive and done-with-you. “It’s not about the lawyer, man.”
“It kinda is, though.”
“No, it’s not. I’m talking about what Valentina said to you.” His voice dipped low, more careful now. “And… y’know. That Bob guy.”
“Can we not?” you muttered. The words left your mouth too quickly. “Not here, Quín.”
He didn’t say anything. Just watched you for a second longer, his fork hovering above his plate like he was debating whether to say more. Then he dipped his head, gave a short nod, and went back to his food.
You cut another piece of waffle and chewed slowly. It was good, golden and fluffy, the syrup pooling around the edges—but it didn’t warm you the way it should’ve. Didn’t ease the dull pressure blooming in your chest.
Across from you, Joaquín had only taken a few more bites before he set his fork down and wiped his hands on a napkin. He leaned forward, elbows on the table, voice a little quieter this time. More careful.
“We’ve done a lot of missions together, right?”
You glanced at him, wary. “Right.”
He nodded, like you’d confirmed something only he knew how to track. “And we’ve both done our fair share of flirting here and there. You know… for the job. Sometimes not for the job.”
You gave him a look, already spotting the slow grin building on his face. “Not this again.”
“I’m just saying, we do pretty well for ourselves. I do especially well.” He smiled. “Like, remember that Peruvian girl from last month—?”
You glanced at him from the corner of your eye, spotting that dumb smile on his face he only has when he's about to say something stupid. “Uh-huh.”
“Well, remember how I—”
You didn’t even let him finish. “Oh my god,” you groaned, putting your fork down again. “Is there a point to this story? Because I really don’t think I can stomach hearing about that one again.”
He had the decency to look mildly sheepish—just a flush rising to the tips of his ears—but it didn’t stop him from doubling down.
“It was good sex.”
You snorted. “Mediocre at best.”
“You weren’t even there.”
“And yet, I know you need to get laid more. You talk about this girl like she changed your life, and then you follow it up with ‘she liked my jacket.’ That’s it. That’s the story. You slept with her, and she left the next morning.”
“She did like my jacket,” he muttered defensively, half under his breath.
“You need to get laid more.” You repeated into your coffee.
“I need to get laid more?” he scoffed, eyes narrowing. “You need to get laid more.”
You leaned forward just slightly, squinting at him like you dared him to double down. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
He blinked at you, deadpan. “You know what it means.”
“Enlighten me.”
“It means,” he said, drawing the words out slowly for dramatic effect, “you need to get laid.”
You rolled your eyes so hard it physically hurt. “I get laid.”
“Not enough,” he shot back, mimicking your tone with a mockery of concern in his voice.
You jabbed your fork in his direction. “More than you.”
“Sure.” He waved his hand dismissively, like he’d already let you win for the sake of moving on. He tugged the brim of his cap lower over his forehead, leaning back into the booth. “Can we circle back to the actual point here?”
“Whatever,” you muttered, voice low, flat. You stabbed at your waffles again, syrup pooling under your fork.
He pointed at you then, vaguely, as if trying to name something intangible. “See, this is what I’m talking about.”
You didn’t look at him, but he kept going.
“You’re off. Last night, you took a few hits—I mean, emotionally. I’ve never seen you like that before. Not really.” He scratched at the side of his jaw. “Valentina was just trying to get in your head, you know that, right?”
You let out a bitter, breathy laugh and grabbed the newspaper from beside the salt shaker. “It’s working.” You held it up with both hands and shook it for emphasis. “‘Reformed or Recruited? Meet the New Face at The New Avengers’ Table.’” You slapped it down in front of him, the headline side up. “I could kill her.”
“Okay,” Joaquín said, glancing around the café, lifting both brows. “Maybe don’t say that so loudly in public?”
You ignored him, still staring at the article. “It’s just—she talks like she’s already won. Every word out of her mouth is loaded. Like no matter what you say, she’s already said it in her head and spun it into something smarter. It’s so fucking frustrating.”
Joaquín didn’t interrupt. You kept going.
“She knows things. Things she shouldn’t. About me. About you. About everyone. And the way she talked about Bucky—” Your voice dipped again. “She’s got him on a leash. She has to be blackmailing him. There’s no other reason he’d stick around a group like that. You remember how long it took for him to even trust us? How much work Sam put in for us? And now she’s got him sitting next to Walker and a bunch government rejects that should be facing lifetimes in jail.”
Joaquín was quiet for a second, stirring his drink with the tip of his straw. “I know. I’ve been thinking the same thing. Maybe she’s got something from his Winter Soldier days. Something buried.”
“Maybe,” you murmured. “But I don’t know. He made peace with all that. Or he was trying to.”
Joaquín nodded solemnly. Then, with perfect timing and a shit-eating grin, he added, “She probably found his butt pics or something.”
You recoiled, immediately groaning, “Ugh, gross, Joaquín. Come on—I’m eating.”
He laughed into his straw, biting it. “I’m just saying. It would explain a lot.”
You tried to keep your glare steady, but your mouth twitched, the corner threatening to pull upward. You hated that he could do that, break through the spiral with the dumbest thing imaginable. But maybe that’s why he was still your first call every time things went to shit.
Joaquín’s voice softened a little. “You know she doesn’t win just because she made the headlines first, right? She wants you rattled. She wants you to think she’s got it all figured out. But she doesn’t. You’re better than her.”
You looked down at your plate, the fruit now limp and soaked through with syrup, and slowly pushed it aside.
“I just hate not knowing,” you said quietly. “Not knowing what she’s playing at. Not knowing what Bucky’s really thinking. Not knowing if any of this is going to matter.”
“It matters,” Joaquín said without hesitation. “And if it doesn’t yet, we’ll make sure it does.”
That finally made you look at him.
He gave you a lopsided smile, stupid, warm, stubbornly sure of you in a way you weren’t even sure of yourself right now.
“You’re not alone in this,” he added. “You’ve got me. And Sam. And probably, like, three semi-legal encrypted files Matt just handed over.”
You huffed out a soft, reluctant laugh. “God, you’re annoying.”
“Yeah, but I’m right.”
You didn’t say it out loud—but maybe, just this once, you didn’t disagree.
Your phone buzzed against the table, and both you and Joaquín froze, mid-sentence, mid-chew. His fork hovered halfway to his mouth. Your eyes locked on the screen.
The display lit up, just enough for you both to see the name.
Captain Sammy!
Neither of you said anything at first.
You’d been waiting for this. Dreading it, really. That’s why your phone had been sitting so close to your plate all morning, screen facing up, volume on for messages only, buzz setting maxed out. Every scrape of cutlery, every breath between words had you waiting for this.
Joaquín leaned in slightly, eyes scanning your face. “Is it Sam?”
You nodded, slow. “Yeah.”
“What’s he saying?”
You didn’t move right away. Your hand hovered over the phone like it might burn you. “I don’t know. I’m… too scared to open it.”
His brows pulled together, and he leaned further across the booth, trying to read the message upside down. “Why hasn’t he messaged me yet?”
“I don’t know,” you repeated, this time quieter, and your thumb swiped across the screen like muscle memory. You tapped into your messages.
Your stomach twisted before your eyes could even process the text.
Call me soon. We need to talk.
You winced.
“Well?” Joaquín asked, watching you too closely. “What’d he say?”
You turned the phone toward him.
He read it, then leaned back slowly. “Woah.”
“I know.”
“No emojis?”
“No.”
“He used proper punctuation.”
“Yeah. Caps. Periods.”
Joaquín let out a long whistle and slouched deeper into the booth like the air had been sucked out of him too. “Shit. He’s so pissed.”
You exhaled hard and tossed the phone facedown onto the table like it might accuse you of something else if you looked at it any longer. Your shoulders slumped, and you dropped your head into your hands, the motion knocking your cap off in the process. It hit the seat with a soft thump.
“God, I’m so fucked,” you groaned into your palms.
“Hey…” Joaquín’s voice softened. No teasing now. Just warmth. He reached across the table, his fingers brushing your wrist. Gently, he coaxed your hands away from your face. “We’re fucked. We’re a team. We both get fucked together.”
You stared at him for a second.
Then winced. “...Dude.”
He blinked, mouth twitching, and then his expression crumpled into a wince of his own. “Yeah, yeah. I heard it as I said it.”
You shoved his hand away, and he laughed. It was the kind of laugh that let you breathe again, even if only for a second.
You rolled your eyes, but your smile gave you away. “Do you wanna book a plane home or should we just drive back?”
“Let’s drive,” he said without missing a beat, already pulling his laptop closer. “The longer it takes to get back, the better. We need time to stall.”
“I’ll rent a car.” You thumbed open the app, scrolling through the available options. “Any preferences?”
“I’m not picky.”
You nodded absently, letting the words pass between you like background noise. Your finger moved down the screen, but your mind wasn’t really following. Each name—Toyota, Chevy, Honda—blurred past you.
The pressure had started to settle beneath your ribs now, a slow-building ache that hadn’t let up since last night. It pulsed quietly with every breath. You tried to ignore it, tried to act like you were okay, like you weren’t picturing the message on your phone or imagining the conversation that would come when you finally called Sam.
But you weren’t okay. Not really. You hadn’t been okay since that tower. Since Valentina’s voice crawled into your skull and made a home there.
The sound of Joaquín tapping at his keyboard pulled you back to the present.
“Hey,” he said, his tone cautious, like he already expected you to roll your eyes again. “I know you said you didn’t want to talk about last night anymore, but that guy you were talking to—Bob? I managed to get a voice match, and I did some digging for you.”
You didn’t look up. Your thumb hovered over a rental listing. “I really don’t care. Do you want a Honda or—”
“Well,” he cut in, “his full name is Robert Reynolds.”
You froze, just for a second. Just long enough for Joaquín to notice.
“Jesus,” he added, grinning like he couldn’t help himself, “you were flirting with a guy named Robert.”
You lifted your gaze, flat but not without bite. “Shut the fuck up.”
He laughed, light and triumphant. “There’s not much on him. He’s kind of a nobody, to be honest. Valentina must have wiped him or something. He’s got an old Instagram account but hasn’t updated it since before the Blip. Mostly middle school, high school stuff. A couple of mirror selfies. Not much else.”
You didn’t mean to be interested. Not really. But your head perked up anyway.
“Let me see.”
He angled the laptop your way without a word, thankfully.
The screen showed a grid of filtered, slightly overexposed images, pictures that fit from the time they were taken and posted. Group shots at what looked like house parties. Underage drinking and smoking. A photo of a dog. One of the sunset, blurry and underwhelming, captioned ‘summer’ with a cute emoji of the sun. Most of the posts were book covers, titles you vaguely recognized; a few you’d read yourself. The kind of things people share, not for anyone else, but just to remind themselves they were still here.
He didn’t post himself often.
But one picture stopped you.
A younger version of him stood beside someone in a graduation gown. His hair was shorter, his face leaner, his body thinner. He wasn’t wearing a gown himself. Just a hand shoved awkwardly into a hoodie pocket, the other slung around the person beside him. Still, he was smiling—kind of half-hearted, like he wasn’t sure what to do with his face. It was the same mouth, same sharp features. But softer.
You stared at it a moment too long.
You weren’t sure what you were looking for. Maybe something to prove he wasn’t a threat. Or maybe something else entirely.
You could still hear the way he said family, like he believed it, like he needed to.
You hated how easily he’d gotten under your skin. How, even now, some part of him was curling its way around your thoughts, threading through your brain like smoke through a vent. He was weird, and there was something about him that felt too big to look at directly. Like if you focused too hard, he might burn a hole through you.
You tried to tell yourself it didn’t mean anything. You tried to tell yourself he didn’t matter.
But your hand was already resting on the corner of Joaquín’s laptop, scrolling gently through the next photo. And the one after that.
And you didn’t stop.
You didn’t realize how long you’d been staring until Joaquín cleared his throat.
“He never graduated,” he said, “Dropped out.”
You blinked, sitting up a little straighter, “What?”
Joaquín tilted the screen back toward himself. “I couldn’t find any school records past sophomore year. No GED either. He just kinda... worked odd jobs before disappearing.”
Your eyes scanned what was left of Bob’s social media feed. Just ten posts in total. Ten fragments of a person whose edges were too slippery to pin down. Still, that didn’t stop the strange kick in your chest, like your body knew something your brain hadn’t caught up with yet.
“Disappearing?”
“Yeah. And it gets weirder.”
He clicked over to another tab. The brightness of a mugshot hit you instantly.
“There’s a criminal record,” Joaquín said. “Not sealed, surprisingly. Valentina’s people probably missed it—or didn’t care enough to clean it up.”
You leaned closer as he continued.
“An assault charge from one of his part-time jobs years ago. He attacked a civilian.”
“At work?”
“Yeah,” he said grimly. He tapped the keyboard again, and up came a police scan. Bob, older than in the Instagram posts, but still younger than last night, sat facing the camera with a vacant expression. His cheeks looked hollow, his eyes rimmed with red and shiny with unshed tears. Sweat slicked his forehead, and his lips were split as if he’d been grinding his teeth on them.
“He was on drugs,” Joaquín said, his voice a little quieter. “Methamphetamine.”
You vaguely remember him mentioning he was sober.
“…Jesus.”
“And,” He continued, hesitating only slightly, “he was wearing a chicken costume when he got arrested. Like, full mascot getup. Worked at Alfredo’s Bail Bonds. I don’t even know what that is.”
You frowned. The ache in your chest curled tighter as if the image on the screen weighed something you couldn’t name. Bob didn’t look dangerous in that photo. He didn’t look angry or unhinged.
He looked lost. Like he’d already been falling long before anyone ever thought to arrest him.
“It’s not funny, Joaquín.”
“You’re right. It’s not.” Joaquín glanced at you. And even though the grin tugged at his lips, he raised one hand in surrender. But the humour was still there. You know he didn’t mean anything by it, not really. You could tell he was just trying to lift the mood. “But like… come on. A chicken costume? It’s objectively a little funny.”
You scoffed, reached across the table and closed his laptop with two fingers, giving him a flat look. “You’re the worst.”
“Shut up,” Joaquín said, flashing you that stupid grin again as he tugged the laptop back toward him. “You love me.”
The warm morning sun was finally starting to cast a glow through the window and onto your half-eaten plate of waffles.
Joaquín opened his laptop again and tapped a few keys, lips pressed together now. “I still don’t get what he was doing in that tower last night.”
“He knows Valentina to some extent. We know that much,” you murmured, watching him out of the corner of your eye. He nodded, gaze fixed on the screen, but your voice dropped with the weight of what you were about to say next.
“…He called Bucky family.”
That made him pause. He turned toward you fully, his brows lifted. “Family?”
“Yeah,” you said, quietly. “Like Walker. Starr. Belova. He said they saved him.”
You watched Joaquín’s expression shift, his usual spirit tempered by something more focused, sharper around the edges. He leaned forward a little, propping his elbow on the booth table again as if the change in posture could help him wrap his head around it.
“Saved him from what?” he asked. “When?”
You shook your head. “I don’t know.”
He frowned. “You didn’t ask?”
“I didn’t really get the chance,” you said, your voice catching for half a second. Then you exhaled. “Or—I don’t know. I just freaked out.”
“You freaked out? You?”
You gave a dry, humourless laugh, fingers fidgeting with the edge of your napkin. “You haven’t met him. He just… he threw me off.”
Your voice was quieter now, almost drowned out by the soft rumble of a waitress rolling a cart past your booth.
“I was already on edge after everything Valentina said. Then he shows up, out of nowhere... and he acts... he was really sweet, actually. And I know it’s stupid but I let my gaurd down. Then he said Bucky’s his family, and I—” You stopped yourself, shaking your head. “What the fuck was I supposed to say to that? ‘Cool, same’? I don’t even know if Bucky considers us family.”
Joaquín rested his chin in one hand, looking thoughtful. “I mean… I probably would’ve asked him more questions. Try to figure out who he is before jumping to conclusions.”
You shot him a look.
“I’m just saying,” he continued, hands up in defence. “The idea of them saving him could be legit. Like—it could go back to what happened in New York a few months ago. The whole Darkness or Void incident. That was a mess. Maybe he got caught in all that and they pulled him out or something.”
“Maybe,” you said, still not convinced. “Lot’s of people got caught up in that. What makes him so special?”
Joaquín exhaled through his nose. “Could’ve been one of those publicity saves. You know how they’ve been staging those lately.”
Your lips pressed into a thin line. You hated the thought of that being true. That Bob was just another pawn in Valentina’s carefully calculated optics campaign. But there was something else in your gut. That didn’t feel like the whole truth. Bob had looked at you like he knew something. Like he’d seen something you hadn’t yet.
You rubbed at your eyes. “Are there any records of that?”
“No,” Joaquín said, tapping his finger against the side of his laptop. “Not really.”
You sank back into the booth, staring at the streaks of syrup on your plate.
“It doesn’t matter now,” you said after a long breath. “We’ll probably never see him again. Or Bucky, for that matter.”
Joaquín shook his head, his expression tightening. “Don’t say that. He’ll come back.”
“You think so?”
“Yeah,” he said without missing a beat. “He can’t stay away from Sam for too long. Those two go into, like, withdrawals if they spend enough time apart. Sam starts getting all twitchy. It’s weird.”
You let out a soft laugh, “Yeah, right.”
Joaquín grinned, kicking you from under the table. “Hey. Fun fact. Bob’s from Florida.”
You raised a brow, skeptical. “What, you think he’s from Miami too?”
“Sarasota Springs.” He said, “Makes sense, I guess… with his criminal record, it kinda tracks. Rich, by the coast, drugged-up suburbia. Perfect place to arrest a meth-head chicken.”
You shot him another glare. “That’s not funny, Joaquín.”
“I’m sorry!” he shrieked when your foot connected with his shin under the table.
He was not sorry—his laugh betrayed him. He kicked you back with zero remorse. The table wobbled with the weight of your childish back-and-forth, your drink nearly toppling as Joaquín banged his knee into the edge, cursing. You stopped before either of you caused a spill.
But then, he froze.
Not the usual kind of still, either. He stopped laughing mid-breath, spine straightening with a jolt, and his eyes cut toward the window in a way that immediately froze your blood. The humour drained off him like a tide pulling back to sea.
Your own posture tightened. “What?” you whispered.
He didn’t answer; he just grabbed his sunglasses and slapped them on, even though you were indoors. That alone told you how bad it was.
“Get down,” he muttered, reaching across the table and sliding the newspaper to you. “Look casual.”
You snatched it without a word, unfolding the pages like you cared about the stock market. Your heart beat too loudly in your ears, and your eyes scanned the ink without registering a single word. Still, you followed his lead, the two of you falling into sync like clockwork.
You tried to guess what had set him off. Your brain jumped straight to Sam, storming through the front entrance, arms crossed like a disappointed dad at parent-teacher night. But no. He was still in Washington, right?
You glanced over the paper’s edge. “What is it?” you hissed.
Joaquín didn’t move much—just lowered his voice to a whisper through clenched teeth. “It’s Walker.”
You blinked, lips parting in disbelief. “What?”
“Shhh. Shut the fuck up.”
You straightened up ever so slightly, trying to look calm, normal, bored, but you angled your head toward the door.
“Where?” you whispered, barely moving your lips.
“By the entrance,” Joaquín murmured, adjusting his cap lower. “With the ghost girl.”
You squinted subtly. “Ghost gi—?”
Ava Starr. You caught sight of her instantly, despite Joaquín not needing to say her name. She stood like someone perpetually mid-departure, her hair pulled back and jaw set tight as she waited at the counter. Her arms were folded, and she was already halfway through her order. Beside her, unmistakable in his broad, self-assured posture, stood John Walker. He wore a sun-bleached military jacket and—God help you—that stupid beret. His eyes weren’t scanning the room yet, just the menu above the barista, but that could change at any moment.
You ducked back behind your newspaper like it might physically protect you. “We should just… lay low until they leave,” you said under your breath, acting like it was all casual. “The last thing we need is getting caught with them. Especially now. If anyone sees us here with them, it’s gonna look real convenient.”
“Okay,” Joaquín murmured, fingers tightening around his coffee cup. “But I’m telling you, if Walker starts walking this way, I’m crawling under this booth.”
You almost laughed, but it didn’t quite make it out. Instead, you focused your gaze on your plate, trying to pretend your nerves weren’t crawling all over your skin.
The seconds ticked by with unbearable slowness. Joaquín took a sip of his drink, eyes still hidden behind his glasses and the screen of his computer. For one full, glorious moment, it seemed like maybe—maybe—they’d leave without seeing you.
“Hey, guys,” came a voice behind you. Too familiar. Too smug.
Your stomach dropped.
“Funny seeing you here in New York.”
Your spine stiffened like a board. Across from you, Joaquín let out what had to be the quietest groan of his life, a barely audible sigh that still managed to scream you’ve got to be kidding me.
You didn’t look right away. You already knew who it was. But slowly, cautiously, you turned in your seat, past the half-finished plate of fruits and the folded newspaper still clutched in your hand, to find John Walker standing at the edge of your table.
Hands on his hips, back straight like a soldier reporting for duty. That signature smugness twisted his mouth into a grin that looked about ninety percent forced and ten percent calculated. A politician’s smile, one he’d probably been coached on.
Ava Starr stood just behind him, half-shielded by the oversized sweater and black trench coat she was wearing, and her baseball cap pulled low like you were. She sipped from a takeout cup like none of this had anything to do with her. Still, her eyes flicked over the two of you, sharp and curious. There was intrigue there, and something else. Something like suspicion.
“Walker,” Joaquín said, dragging his sunglasses off and trying on a smile that was just a little too wide to be natural. He leaned back against the booth like he wasn’t one second away from bolting. “Long time no see, man. When—when was the last time we saw each other?”
Walker didn’t miss a beat. “I don’t know, Torres.” He tilted his head, pretending to think about it with mock sincerity. “I think it was about two, three years ago? When you pled against me in court.”
Joaquín blinked, just once, then let out a breathy, “Right, right.” A stiff nod followed, and you caught the colour blooming in his cheeks before he turned back to Walker, trying to recover. “Wow. Time flies. How’s Olivia?”
Walker’s jaw flexed, the grin faltering just slightly. “She’s fine,” he muttered through clenched teeth.
“Happy wife, happy life, am I right?”
“Ex-wife, actually,” Ava said casually, her voice cool and clipped—and British, you noted, catching you a bit off guard. It was the first time you’d heard her speak. “She took the kid and left him.”
A sip. Deadpan. Not even a blink.
Joaquín flinched like she’d hit him. “Oh—uh. Sorry.”
Walker sighed, running a hand down his face, but he didn’t look particularly angry at her for saying it. If anything, he just looked annoyed, maybe even tired. Like someone who didn’t have the energy to defend himself anymore.
You cleared your throat, eyes narrowing just enough. “Who’s your friend?” You asked it knowing full well who she was. You had files on every single New Avenger. The question was less about gaining information and more about playing the game. Buying yourself time. Pretending this conversation was normal when every instinct in your body said otherwise.
“This is Ava,” Walker said, gesturing toward her with a lazy flick of his wrist.
Ava offered a faint smile, small, and polite, but with an unmistakable edge of sarcasm. It was a smile that said she knew exactly how uncomfortable you were, and she probably felt the same way.
“Hello,” she said.
“Hi.” You nodded once, tight-lipped.
Joaquín, ever the icebreaker, leaned forward in what was possibly the worst possible moment. “I gotta say—your powers are so cool. Like, if I could have powers, I’d want something like yours.”
You didn’t even have time to stop him.
Ava blinked, a smirk tugging at her lips. “Thanks. The cells inside my body are tearing themselves apart every second. Chronic pain. Constantly.”
He deflated like a balloon with a hole in it, sinking back into the booth. “Oh.”
“Sorry about him,” you said, giving Ava a small shrug. “He never knows when to speak or what to say.”
Ava gave a short, amused nod. “It’s alright. I’m better now, anyway. My cells only tear apart on my command.”
“That’s nice.” You tried not to show it, but the offhandedness of that statement—how someone could say something so gruesome with such ease—did something to your stomach.
Then Walker turned back to you.
“See, I thought I saw you last night,” he said, voice casual in the most deliberately uncasual way. He scratched at his beard.
Your jaw tightened.
Of course he saw you last night. You saw him too. He knew it. You knew it. And the fact that he was pretending like this was just now dawning on him made your teeth itch. Especially since your photos from that gala were currently trending on half the internet. The press had already decided what it meant. You didn’t need Walker playing coy.
“Yeah,” you said, smiling sweetly. “I saw you too. Then you turned and walked the other way before I could say hi.”
Ava snorted into her drink, reaching over to smack Walker’s arm. “You ran off?”
“No—” Walker started, but you cut him off with a tilt of your head and a raised brow.
“You did.”
“I didn’t run off,” he said, defensive now. “I just had business to attend to.”
You didn’t bother replying. He was still talking, but his words blurred into the background as your phone buzzed once again on the table beside you. Sam. Probably asking when you'd be ready to talk or when you were coming home.
You caught Joaquín glancing at the screen, and a silent understanding passed between you both. Time to wrap this up.
You turned back to Walker with a pleasant enough smile that didn’t reach your eyes. “Did you need something, Walker? I mean, it’s great to see you—” (lie) “—but we were just trying to have some breakfast before we went home.”
“Home? You’re leaving so soon?”
“We’ve got things to do. It’s a long drive back.”
“Oh, come on,” he said, waving a dismissive hand. “We can fly you back to Washington. No problem. You’d be home before sunset.”
You blinked once. “No thanks.”
Walker chuckled, a low, dry sound that barely passed for humour. “You should come by the tower anyway. We’ll show you around. It’ll be fun.”
You couldn’t think of anything that had to do with John Walker being described as ‘fun’.
Also, he wasn’t exactly subtle with the way he asked the two of you to go to the tower with them. You didn’t know what was up there waiting for you, and you didn’t want to find out. You just wanted to go home.
“Really,” you said, the word coming out like dead weight. “We’re good. We’ll just get the bill and go.”
Right on cue, the waitress showed up, sliding the receipt onto the table with a bright smile that faltered the second she noticed Walker and Ava still hovering beside your booth. She glanced between all four of you, sensing something off, the way people do when they walk into a conversation that’s gone a degree too cold. Without a word, she walked off, her shoes squeaking faintly against the linoleum.
The table went still for a beat. Then Ava finally spoke.
“We know you talked to Bob last night.”
That shut you up. Just like that, your posture went a little rigid, shoulders tensing into steel as the name settled like a stone in your gut. It landed like a trigger pull. You tried not to be too obvious but you were failing.
Joaquín was worse, he froze mid-bite, his fork hovering just an inch from his lips before he slowly set it down. His eyes darted to you, then back to Ava.
Ava shifted slightly, her voice calmer now, but precise. “We also know you asked about Barnes.”
That got you. You didn’t respond; you didn’t need to. The fact you were suddenly locked in, gaze narrowed, said enough. She had your attention. And she knew it.
Ava scanned the café. Her eyes didn’t linger too long on anything, but you recognized the sweep, measured, tactical. The way a person looks when they’ve been taught to watch for threats before they come through the door.
“We’re not with Val,” she said. “Not in the way you think. Just… give us a chance to talk. Somewhere private.”
You nearly laughed. Or maybe you wanted to. Or maybe you wanted to scream. Somewhere private? As if that didn’t set off every alarm in your body.
You didn’t know Ava Starr beyond what you and Joaquín had pulled from the files: taken by S.H.E.I.L.D. as a child, quantum instability, a near-lethal skill set. You didn’t know John Walker beyond the courtroom footage, the headlines, and everything you watched from the sidelines, a man who still believed he deserved redemption without ever earning it. You also knew he had taken a dangerous dose of the super soldier serum, making him violent and twitchy.
But you definitely didn’t know them well enough to follow them into a quiet place with no exits or no witnesses.
And you definitely did not want to be caught walking around New York City with them. The last thing you needed was another headline featuring your face beside the likes of John Walker. And Joaquín? You weren’t about to drag him deeper into a mess that wasn’t his.
But before you could say any of that, before you could even start lining up all the reasons this was a terrible idea, you heard: “Okay, sure.”
Your head snapped around. “Quín?”
Joaquín had turned his hat backward, that familiar nervous tell masked behind the casual flip. He was already sliding his laptop into his bag, fingers moving with a kind of focused ease that suggested he’d been waiting for this the whole time. Like part of him had been waiting for someone to finally offer an answer, any answer, and now that it was on the table, he couldn’t bring himself to hesitate.
“What?” he asked.
“You can’t just—”
“What?” he said again with a little more attitude, zipping the bag closed. “You’re always saying how much you hate being in the dark. They’re offering answers.”
“They could be lying,” you shot back, sharper than you meant. “This could be a trap, or another setup.”
You said it like they weren’t standing right there, and you didn’t care if they heard. They could take the hint or choke on it.
He shrugged, cool, easy, frustratingly calm. “Then we’ll find out.”
You stared at him, your chest tight all over again. He meant that. You could see it in the set of his jaw, in the way he shouldered his bag like it didn’t weigh a damn thing. That unbearable sincerity, that same stubborn belief in people that made you trust him, was now steering him straight into a situation you didn’t trust at all.
You wanted to snap. Wanted to grab his arm, drag him out of the café and into daylight, anywhere but here. A bitter remark rose in your throat, hot and ready to be thrown—about the last time he leapt before looking, the last time he decided to be a hero and ended up flatlined for two full minutes on a hospital table, blood-soaked and broken and somehow still apologizing for it afterward.
But the words caught in your chest.
You didn’t say it. You didn’t even whisper it.
You just looked at him. Tried to say it with your eyes, with the hard, silent glare you shot across the table—don’t do this.
He didn’t meet your gaze.
Instead, you turned, eyes locking onto Walker and Ava, your voice low and sharp. “How’d you find us?”
Walker raised both hands, a placating gesture you didn’t buy for a second. “We didn’t follow you or anything. Personally, I couldn’t care less about what you two are up to.”
You bristled at the you two, and you hated how they started to drag Joaquín into it.
“But,” Walker went on, “Yelena’s been tracking you since the gala.”
Your blood ran cold. “What?”
He said it casually like it was nothing.
You blinked, stomach lurching. There’d been no tag, no weight in your coat, no itch along your back where something might’ve been placed. You’d showered. Slept. Walked half the city this morning without even realizing it. And that was the point, wasn’t it? You never saw her. Never felt it. Never even noticed.
Because Yelena Belova didn’t need a tracker when she was one of the best Red Room assassins. You only couldn’t understand why she hadn’t killed you when she had the chance.
Unease coiled at the base of your spine. You felt exposed. Like someone had peeled back your skin and left it raw in the open air.
“Please,” Ava said again. Her voice was quiet, almost too calm, but there was something underneath it, something tense and taut like she hated begging for trust. “Just hear us out.”
Your stomach continued twisting, hard. Every instinct screamed don’t go. Don’t let them get you alone. Don’t let Joaquín near whatever this is. But you could already feel the decision slipping away from you.
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The elevator couldn't have been any fucking slower.
You swore you could hear the grind of the gears behind the panelling, dragging each second out like a countdown to something awful. The small screen above the door blinked from floors 37 to 38 to 39 with glacial slowness.
You thought this building had state-of-the-art technology remodelled. Why the fuck was their elevator so damn slow?
Your chest was caving in on itself, a familiar panic clawing up your throat and settling behind your ribs like a second heartbeat. Every inch of this place felt too polished. You hadn’t forgotten how sharp the Watchtower felt—like walking into a wolf’s mouth made of steel and luxury.
Your brain spiralled—clawing through every possible worst-case scenario like it was trying to prepare you for all of them at once. You hadn’t even gotten to the part where Valentina might be standing on the other side of the doors. You could already see it: that smug, all-knowing smile she wore like lipstick, arms crossed, voice dripping with venomous delight. She’d say something like “Took you long enough,” and you’d want to punch her in the teeth, even as you walked willingly into the trap.
Matt would kill you.
Your lawyer had explicitly warned you to stay away from anything remotely connected to Valentina. Wait it out. Stay clean until the dust settles. This was the very opposite of that.
You rubbed a thumb across your phone screen, opening and closing your texts with Sam. The messages were still left unanswered. You had typed seven different versions of a reply: “I’m okay”, “Just give me a second”, “Long story, I’ll explain later” and deleted them all.
You couldn’t leave him in the dark. You didn’t want to be like Bucky. But how the fuck were you supposed to explain this?
‘Call you soon, busy talking to John fucking Walker’?
Joaquín shifted beside you, close enough that you could feel the low heat radiating off his arm. He wasn’t saying anything, but his tension mirrored yours—jaw clenched, eyes locked on the doors, hands flexing at his side. You could see it in the way his fingers curled and uncurled at his thigh like he was ready to move, run, or punch someone if needed.
If you were to die, at least you could blame it on him.
Behind you, Walker and Ava stood just a little too casually; coffee cups in hand, speaking in quiet tones you couldn’t catch. Not that you tried. Every nerve in your body was too loud already, the soft hum of the elevator music a scream in your ears.
They were calm. You weren’t. That alone was reason enough to worry.
You glanced at the elevator buttons. No emergency stop. No backup plan. You weren’t sure what you’d even do if you had to fight. You couldn’t land a hit on Ava unless she let you. She could phase her entire body into atoms and probably rip your spine out if she wanted to. Walker? He definitely had a gun. And he was superhuman. You’d go down in minutes. Joaquín too.
No. Fighting was not an option.
But running? That window was already gone. You’d known that the moment they cornered you at the diner. There hadn’t really been a choice. They would’ve followed you all the way back to D.C. if they had to.
So here you were. In a box of steel, crawling toward confrontation, heart slamming against your ribs like it wanted out. The air was too still. Too thick. Your reflection in the brushed metal doors looked sick. Unsteady. Tired.
Joaquín glanced at you from the side, like he could sense what was happening in your head without you saying a word. His hand hovered near yours, not touching, but there. Just in case.
You should’ve just gone home. Should’ve skipped breakfast, told Joaquín to let it go, and gotten on the first flight out of New York before any of this spiralled.
Your spine ached from tension as you shifted in place, uncomfortably aware that you were still wearing the same clothes you’d gone running in earlier that morning—damp with city sweat and stale adrenaline, clinging wrong to your skin. No time to change, no time to breathe. They hadn’t given you the chance.
The elevator slowed. You felt it before you saw it—an unnatural stillness as it glided to a halt on a floor you didn’t recognize. One that hadn’t been accessible during the party last night.
Your pulse ramped into overdrive. You braced yourself, watching the doors split open with agonizing slowness, and for a split second, you were sure something was about to go horribly wrong.
Because something was there.
A long, black cylinder slipped between the doors just before they finished opening. You didn’t wait. Instinct took over—you lunged back, grabbing Joaquín and yanking him behind you as your heart rocketed into your throat.
“What the hell—?” Ava started to say, already stepping forward, but you weren’t listening.
You were listening for an explosion.
And it came.
A loud pop! cracked through the elevator like a gunshot, sharp and close. Joaquín jumped, slamming into your shoulder, and your breath caught, chest tightening as you threw your arms up. You were ready for anything—smoke, gas, flashbang, worse.
The four of you stood frozen, fists clenched, muscles coiled, every instinct screaming fight.
Then… something fluttered.
Light. Soft. A delicate brush against your cheek.
You opened your eyes slowly, blinked once, twice, and saw colour drifting down around you. Red. Gold. Silver.
Confetti.
Tiny scraps of shimmering paper were falling in slow spirals over your head, clinging to your sleeves, catching in Joaquín’s curls. You glanced down and realized you were still gripping the front of his shirt like a lifeline, your knuckles tight in the fabric. He looked just as stunned as you did, eyes wide, jaw slack.
Behind you, Walker groaned loudly, swearing under his breath. “Oh, for fuck’s sake.”
You finally looked up. And there, standing just outside the elevator, was Alexei Shostakov grinning like a child with a confetti cannon in his hand.
“Surprise!” he boomed, shouting your name, his voice echoing off the high ceilings.
You blinked at him in disbelief. Your body hadn’t quite caught the memo that you weren’t about to be murdered (which could still happen), it was still locked in a battle stance, heart trying to punch its way out of your ribs.
Sunlight spilled through floor-to-ceiling windows lining the lounge beyond, bouncing off the glossy, marbled floors and catching in the confetti still drifting down like ashes from a very sparkly apocalypse. The room stretched wide and open—modern, luxurious.
Alexei took a triumphant step forward, tossing the cannon aside with a clatter and reaching for your hand like he hadn’t just given you a heart attack.
You didn’t take it, your fingers were still trembling, but he didn’t seem to notice as he tugged you into the room. He waved his arm grandly toward the entryway, where a crooked banner hung overhead: WELCOME TO THE AVENGERS! The lettering was large and smudged, still drying in places, and the fabric sagged slightly in the middle.
Paint-streaked fingerprints decorated the edges, and sure enough, Alexei’s hands were splotched in red and blue. He must’ve made it himself. That realization made your head spin harder than the confetti had.
Your mouth parted, trying to find words, but before anything could come out, Walker stormed forward and beat you to it.
“What the fuck is all this?”
Alexei dropped his hand, puffing out his chest with dramatic offence. “It is party!” he declared, gesturing at you with a broad, proud smile. “For our new member! Did you not read the news?”
He turned to you again and slapped a heavy hand against your back, nearly knocking the air from your lungs. “Congratulations, my friend. We are very happy to have you on our awesome team.”
“No. No, no, no,” Walker muttered, dragging a hand down his face like he was already exhausted. He stomped up beside Alexei and grabbed his arm, pulling him gently, but insistently, away from you. “No party.”
“What do you mean no party?” Alexei protested, wide-eyed. “This calls for… what is word? Celebration! She has joined the Avengers!”
“No. We do not need to celebrate, there’s nothing to celebrate.” Walker hissed, his voice strained as he pointed back at you. “This isn’t—she’s not joining the team.”
Alexei looked at you, expression falling. “You’re not?”
“No.”
“Oh,” he said.
Walker guided him off toward the far end of the lounge—a massive open-concept kitchen with gleaming appliances and a dining area you were certain had hosted at least one illegal meeting in the past month.
“Sorry about him,” Ava said, stepping beside you now. Her tone was breezy but fond like she was used to this. “I’d say he’s not usually like that, but I’d be lying.”
She reached over and gently plucked a curl of confetti from Joaquín’s hair. He blushed, mumbling something under his breath that made her grin wider when he tugged his cap back on again.
“I’m gonna go find Yelena,” she added, stepping away. “She’s around here somewhere. Make yourselves at home.”
“Wait—” Joaquín called after her, taking a cautious half-step forward. “Valentina’s not… here, right?”
Ava laughed without turning back. “God, no. She’s probably halfway across the country by now. Besides, she can’t hurt you if you’re with us.”
You weren’t sure if that was comforting or worse. You tried to make sense of what that even meant as she disappeared up a set of spiralling steel stairs toward the upper floor.
The silence that followed made you acutely aware of your surroundings for the first time. This wasn’t just another floor in the tower. This was where they lived.
The room you stood in opened into what looked like a shared lounge and rec space. Through the transparent panels of frosted glass, you could see a massive sunken living room just ahead—an enormous circular couch built into the floor like a pit, all pointed toward a huge flat-screen TV mounted on the wall.
Through the windows, the whole upper side of Manhattan was seen and Central Park stretched out in the distance, green and gold beneath the morning sun.
The marble floors gleamed beneath your shoes. A massive, shaggy rug near the couch looked warm and strangely lived-in. The entire space looked lived-in now that you got a better look at it, cluttered with mismatched mugs, throwing knives, forgotten jackets, guns, socks and someone’s boot kicked off to the side. It was the kind of mess that told you, yes—this was where they really stayed. A home, despite how cold and glossy it looked at first.
“Bet you’ve never been greeted into a home like that,” Joaquín said quietly, almost hopeful.
You turned on him so fast he barely had time to register it before your hand smacked the back of his head, knocking his hat off.
“Joaquín. What the fuck are you thinking?!” you hissed, voice low and sharp, even though you were sure no one was listening. “We shouldn’t be here. We can’t trust these people.”
He rubbed the spot you hit, wincing and bending down to pick up his cap from the floor. “I know. Okay? I know. I’m sorry. I just—I really think we should hear them out.”
“Hear them out?” You blinked at him, disbelief carving out your words like broken glass. “What?”
He stepped closer, voice dropping lower, more urgent. “Listen,” he said, eyes flicking around like he was afraid someone might actually be listening. “I don’t think John Walker would willingly try to talk to us if it didn’t mean something. Think about it—that guy fucking hates us. And Bucky doesn’t mess around. If he’s even entertaining working with Walker, it’s gotta be for a reason.”
You stared at him like he’d just lost his mind.
“Are you hearing yourself right now?” you snapped. “No, seriously, are you hearing the words coming out of your mouth? Did you not understand anything that happened last night? Bucky’s—he’s not doing this—Valentina said—we already know—he’s being blackmailed—” You struggled to find the words because you really weren’t sure if he even was. “This?” you waved your arms around frantically, “this is literally the one thing Matt told us not to do. He told us to stay clear of anything even remotely tied to Valentina and this fucking tower—”
“Okay, okay—”
“—And now we’re here. Willingly. Jesus Christ, Joaquín. We are putting ourselves in a worse situation by the minute. We need to leave. Now.”
Your fingers closed around his arm as you spun toward the elevator, dragging him with you before anyone could return. The urgency prickled along your spine like static.
Joaquín tried to pull free. “Wait—just wait a second—”
But then your phone started ringing. The sharp, sudden sound sliced through the moment. You flinched, instinctively reaching for it.
You didn’t need to check the screen to know. You already knew. Still, when you looked, your chest clenched anyway.
It was Sam.
His contact photo filled the display—an old picture from last summer’s cookout, blurry and sun-drenched. He had an arm around your shoulders, the both of you mid-laugh, framed by folding chairs, paper plates, and the golden glow of fireworks behind you. Bucky had taken the picture, you could see his thumb in the corner. You could also see Joaquín cut off on the side, the photo taken seconds before he tried to bomb it.
“Shit,” you muttered under your breath.
“You gotta answer that,” Joaquín said.
“I’ll answer it later.”
“I think you should answer it now.”
You turned your glare on him so fast that he almost took a step back. “I could kill you.”
He raised both hands in surrender. “I’m just saying.”
You flipped him off as you turned away, stalking into the nearest hallway. You didn’t want to go far, you didn’t trust this place enough for that, but you needed space. Air. Somewhere quieter to breathe.
The hallway stretched narrower than expected, cooler too. The light dimmed as you moved in, shadows creeping in like something alive. The apartment’s polished glamour fell away here, replaced with something colder. Raw concrete walls. Steel framing.
You slowed when you noticed what was displayed along the wall.
Glass cases lined the corridor like a gallery—each one holding weapons. Blades, a shield, and a blackened skull mask with a hollow stare. Scorch marks bloomed along the gear like they’d been found in a fire. The plaque caught your eye:
Antonia Dreykov.
You didn’t know who Antonia Dreykov was. But you knew how people treated the dead when they didn’t know how to let go. This seemed something like it.
Your hand drifted to the case before you could stop yourself. One of the smaller knives had been left slightly off-centre, the glass not fully locked. You slipped it free, weighing it in your palm. The metal was cold but familiar. Comforting in a way that made you hate yourself.
You tucked it into your pocket, then took another. Not because you planned on using them. Just... in case. You couldn’t afford to be the only unarmed person in the apartment.
You kept your back to the wall, thumb hovering over the green Accept Call button on Sam’s contact. You weren’t ready. Not for the sound of his voice. Not for the questions. Not for the disappointment he wouldn’t bother hiding.
Because no matter how reckless Joaquín had been to get you here—you still came.
You bit the bullet and answered, bringing the phone to your ear with a shaky breath. “Hey.”
“Don’t ‘hey’ me.”
His voice was calm, but there was steel beneath it. Not anger, but the obvious disappointment you expected. Concern, tight and braced behind his words like he was afraid of what you’d say next.
“Sam…”
“Do you wanna talk or should I?” he cut in firmly. “Because I need a very good explanation as to why your face is all over the damn news.”
You exhaled, slow and uneven, pressing the heel of your palm to your forehead.
You knew he wasn’t trying to berate you. Sam wasn’t like that. His voice didn’t carry malice, not even now, when he had every right to be furious. You knew it looked like you’d gone behind his back the same way Bucky had. And while your intentions had been good, that didn’t matter, not when Valentina had twisted it, splashing your name across every headline like you were some kind of defector.
“I’ll talk,” you said quickly. “I’ll talk. Just… let me talk, okay?”
A dozen excuses lined up behind your teeth. Every one of them was flimsy and easy to knock over. But lying to Sam? You couldn’t stomach it. Not after everything. Not after he’d trusted you.
“I fucked up,” you whispered. The admission stung worse than you expected. “I thought… maybe I could talk to Bucky.”
There was silence on the other end. A pause, heavy with surprise. “Talk to Bucky?” Sam echoed, more cautious than confused now.
“Yeah.” You rubbed at your face, suddenly cold despite the weight of your spring jacket. “I got invited to their black tie event. Congressman Gary sent the invite, and I was going to say no—I swear—but then I thought, maybe… maybe Bucky would be there. And if he was, maybe I could corner him. Ask him what the hell he was thinking. Why he left. Why would he join them after what Ross offered you? And he knew. Bucky knew and I just couldn’t understand why he would... leave.”
You leaned back against the cool wall of the hallway, careful to keep your voice steady. Just far enough from Joaquín’s line of sight. Just close enough to watch him, still poking curiously at things he definitely shouldn’t be touching.
“I just…” You shook your head. “Things haven’t felt right, Sam. None of it makes sense. One minute Bucky’s fighting to get Valentina impeached, the next he’s... working under her? The fuck? He shuts you out and I thought maybe... I could find out why. Maybe I could fix it.”
On the other end of the line, you heard him sigh. He murmured your name, and it made your chest ache.
“You were right, by the way. Valentina’s a total snake,” you said quietly, trying to fill the silence because it made you feel more uneasy. “I came in looking for Bucky and walked out with half the press calling me her newest toy.”
“She really played you, huh?”
“Like I’m her bitch on a leash.”
Sam let out a short, dry laugh that made you feel a little better. “Yeah. She does that.”
“We think she did the same thing to Bucky. Joaquín and I, I mean. Got in his head.”
“Wouldn’t surprise me,” Sam murmured. “But listen… I don’t want you carrying my mess, alright? I’ll deal with Bucky. That’s on me.”
“I just wanted to help.”
“I know, kid. I know. And I know your heart was in the right place. But next time… just talk to me first. Please.”
There was no guilt in his voice. Just a quiet exhaustion. A gentleness that somehow made it worse.
You nodded even though he couldn’t see it. “Yeah. Okay.”
A pause stretched across the line. Then, softer: “Are you two okay?”
Your hand tightened around the phone, glancing down the hallway like the sound of his voice might give something away. You caught sight of the display again—the glass case, the weapons, the skull-like helmet and the burnt suit. You didn’t even know who it belonged to. But you’d still taken the knives.
That probably said something about where your head was at. Obviously not good.
You cleared your throat. “Yeah. We’re okay.”
“Good,” Sam said. “When do you think you’ll be back?”
You hesitated. “Tonight, for sure.”
There was another small beat. “Alright. We’ll talk more then. Maybe we can clean up this mess of yours, yeah?”
“Okay.”
“Stay out of any more trouble.”
You broke a smile, frankly a little panicked. “We’ll try.”
The call ended with a soft click, and you stood there for a second longer, your thumb still resting against your phone as if it might ring again.
You did feel better. Not safe, but... better. Like you’d finally caught your breath after running too long on adrenaline and guilt. The tightness in your chest had lessened, the weight of what you’d said to Sam lifting enough for you to think clearly again.
You slid your phone back into your jacket pocket, already piecing together an escape route in your head. Get Joaquín. Get out of this tower. Back to the hotel and then home, away from politicians and new-age Avengers and whatever the hell this place really was.
But when you turned around, someone was already waiting for you.
Yelena Belova stood by the mouth of the hallway you’d come in from, arms at her sides, not moving. Her blonde hair was loose now, falling messily around her face, not the slicked-back style from last night. She wore a worn grey hoodie and loose pants, a silver chain glinting at her collarbone, and faint smudges of yesterday’s eyeliner still clung stubbornly beneath her eyes. Her hands were tucked deep into the kangaroo pocket of her sweater, shoulders propped casually against the wall like she’d been there a while.
“Hey,” she said, nodding once.
You froze, your entire body tensing instinctively. “Uh… hi.”
You didn’t move toward her. The space between you was the only thing keeping your pulse from skyrocketing. It wasn’t fear, not really—not the kind you’d feel around someone like Walker. It was more like wariness. The same kind you’d feel staring down a loaded gun with the safety off.
She straightened slowly like she could sense your unease. Her hands slipped from her pocket, fingers spread slightly, palms open like a silent I’m-not-here-to-fight gesture.
“I didn’t mean to interrupt or anything,” she said carefully, her voice thick with a Russian accent, stepping forward just once. “Sorry.”
You didn’t reply. Didn’t flinch either, though your muscles stayed tight. There was something different about her, something calmer than the confusion of last night. Something that made you hesitate before writing her off completely. She was a lot shorter than you expected now that you had a better look.
She pointed vaguely to herself. “I’m Yelena.”
“I know,” you said.
“Oh.” She gave a slight nod. “I know you too, then.”
“You were spying on us.” The accusation left your mouth before you could stop it, sharp as a blade. She had been, her eyes on you the moment you’d stepped out of that gala, leading Walker and Ava right to your heels. You decided to leave out the part that you and Joaquín had been spying on them too, before the gala.
Yelena winced, visibly. “They told you about that?”
“Yeah.”
“Sorry,” she said again, and this time she took another step forward. You didn’t move back. She noticed. “It wasn’t personal. Everything happened so fast…” she trailed off, not bothering to lie.
You remembered the brief, icy introduction last night. The short nod. The way she kept her distance but still watched. You remembered the moment she looked at you like she already knew what mistake you made by just being there.
“And sorry about my dad,” she added, nodding toward the lounge. Confetti still clung to the floor. “I tried to tell him. But he’s, you know… dense.”
You stared at her for a second, “It’s fine.”
Her shoulders dropped slightly, as though your words had released a little pressure she’d been holding in.
“I was hoping we could talk.”
You narrowed your eyes. “About what?”
She hesitated—just for a second. Then: “Valentina.”
“What do you mean?”
“I want your help,” she said, voice low now, the trace of her accent curling around each word. “To take her down.”
If someone had told you two hours ago that you’d willingly be sitting in the residential level of the New Avengers Tower—with John Walker of all people—you probably would’ve laughed, then punched them in the throat for saying something so profoundly stupid.
But here you were.
Your footsteps echoed on polished floors as you followed Yelena into the common space, sunlight spilling in through massive, floor-to-ceiling windows that made the entire room glow. The city stretched far below in every direction. The furniture was modern and the air smelled like lemon polish.
You didn’t sit right away. You stood behind the couch with your arms crossed as Yelena handed Joaquín a small USB stick like it was a grenade. You were halfway through convincing yourself to walk out when he plugged it in. And then… you stayed. Not because you trusted them. Not because they’d earned anything. But because if what they were saying about Valentina was true, if this was the crack in her foundation, you needed to see it for yourself.
So now you were seated stiffly on a sprawling U-shaped couch, the leather cool against your legs. Joaquín sat beside you, his knee brushing yours every now and then as the two of you leaned in toward his laptop screen, silent. He scrolled slowly, eyes narrowing at every pixelated image, every fragmented document. Your jaw ached from clenching it too long.
“Holy shit,” Joaquín muttered under his breath. “How did you get this?”
“Mel left her laptop open and I snooped,” Yelena said casually, shrugging.
There wasn’t much—a few blacked-out files with top-secret headers, jagged audio clips spliced together, blurry footage from surveillance drones and security cams—but it was enough. Enough to start mapping connections between government disappearances and political scandals, between untraceable funding and medical supply routes that didn’t quite add up. The FBI had been speculating De Fontaine’s place in the CIA for years.
“This confirms it,” Joaquín said quietly, glancing back at the others. “Valentina’s the chairwoman behind the O.X.E. Everything Bucky said… about human experimentation, black-site trials, illegal trafficking, missing personnel…”
Yelena stood a few feet away, arms folded tightly across her chest. Her posture was tense and Ava sat on the armrest beside her, fingers curled tightly into her knee, expression locked somewhere between guilt and resolve. Walker hovered by the window, pretending to be disinterested as he squished a stress ball, probably taken from a therapy office.
At least you hoped he was going to therapy. You hoped all of them were, actually. They peculiar group with a lot of... problems. You did not have to be a genius to know that.
The tension between them all was heavy, but not disorderly. Rehearsed, maybe. Like they’d already had this conversation among themselves a hundred times, and now they were looping you in it.
“Great,” Yelena said, straight to the point. “So you’ll give it to Sam Wilson? Say a friend slipped it to you?”
You and Joaquín exchanged a look. Just one. That was all it took. If you handed this over, if you made it official, if Sam went public, it would burn everything down, this false sense of security Valentina had built to the press, this twisted team parading as heroes. This was it. The key. The proof.
And even though part of you wanted to spit in every face in this room and walk away, you also wanted Valentina Allegra de Fontaine to fall. To rot for what she’d done and gotten away with.
“Sure,” you said slowly, “we could.”
“But,” Joaquín added, eyes narrowing, “if we turn this in, you’re all going down with her.”
Walker straightened from where he was loitering, his arms dropping to his sides. “How’s that?”
You glanced at him, your patience thinning. You figured he would understand the most since he was in the Army, a decorated officer at that. But then again, all he ever knew how to do was take orders from someone else, no questions asked.
“Because you didn’t just work under Valentina. You were her operatives. Whether you realized it or not, you were complicit. You consented to all of this. You willingly helped execute illegal missions. You helped bury all traces of O.X.E.. Mind you, an illegal corporatization.”
Walk huffed bitterly, “Thought I was doing the right thing.”
“By stealing? Hiding evidence? Killing people?”
Ava shifted uncomfortably, and Walker’s stress ball nearly popped.
“We were her clean-up crew,” Yelena said finally.
“Right,” you replied, the corner of your mouth lifting bitterly. “Clean-up crew. Wiping traces. Silencing threats. Tying off loose ends. If someone tried to go public with O.X.E., whistleblow, or even just poked their head into the wrong corridor—what then?”
Ava spoke up, quiet and dry. “We were sent in.”
“Exactly,” Joaquín said. “What you’re describing? That’s illegal black ops. Domestic and international interference. Unregistered kill orders. You were running operations that not even the Pentagon would dare put in writing.”
Walker frowned. “Okay, but—”
“You don’t understand,” you cut in, voice tightening. “You show up in these files, in this footage. As long as you're in it, you’re leverage.”
Joaquín leaned back slightly, arms crossed now. “We could have you arrested right now. Everything you just gave us is enough for a military tribunal. Long-term sentences. Treason, obstruction, conspiracy. Pick your flavour.”
Yelena didn’t flinch. “But you won’t.”
You couldn’t help but frown at such confidence. “Is that a threat?”
She let out a snort. “No. You would know if I was making a threat. I’m very clear. You also won’t arrest us.” 
“You sure about that?”
She nodded once. “I’m willing to be. Because if you’re sitting here, reading this, it means you care about stopping Valentina... maybe helping new friends along the way. Because that is what you do. You help people, yes?”
You rolled your eyes, you could hardly consider them your friends.
“That’s what we’re trying to tell you, even if we help there isn’t much we can do to keep you out of trouble,” Joaquín said, “You think you’ve been using De Fontaine? This evidence goes both ways—and if she falls, she’s not going alone.”
“She probably knew you'd kill her if you could.” You said, “That’s why she gave you everything. The tower. The team. The illusion of purpose. Something that felt clean and heroic. It’s what you wanted, isn’t it?”
Across from you, the shift was subtle but telling.
For the first time since you stepped into the room, these guys looked… uncertain.
Ava glanced down, studying the tile beneath her boots like it might give her a way out. Walker crossed his arms and chewed at the inside of his cheek, jaw working, but saying nothing. Even Yelena, unmoving as a statue, had a muscle twitching along her jawline.
Silence settled in—tense and humming, like the room itself was holding its breath.
Then Walker broke it.
“If that’s the case,” he muttered, tone flat, “you might as well arrest Bucky too. Y’know—for his Winter Soldier days.”
You didn’t like that. Not just the deflection, but the name. It struck a nerve.
You hated that Walker brought Bucky into it now. Hated even more that the drive you’d been digging through for the last hour or so had nothing about him. No trail. Nothing to explain why he’d joined the team. No answer for why he was there the day everything went to hell—why he was helping them when the sky turned black and New York vanished into chaos for twenty agonizing minutes.
No one had explained a thing. No one had tried.
Joaquín’s mouth twitched. “Bucky was pardoned. Publicly.”
“So was I.”
“Yeah,” you said, “For killing a man in a public square three years ago. But we’re not talking about that. We’re talking about everything you’ve done since then. The black ops. The cover-ups. Evidence tampering. Political interference. Murder. Do you think a pardon protects you from three years of new crimes? Of acts of terrorism?”
Yelena scoffed, “Terrorism?”
“Did you or did you not bomb a building in Malaysia?”
“It was just one floor…” she muttered. “and Valentina owned it and the lab. Hardly an act of terror… or what you said.”
“Civilians were hurt.”
She didn’t say anything at that.
No one spoke.
Not because they didn’t have something to say, but because they weren’t sure how to say it anymore.
You could feel it now—how fragile the balance was. The way this whole thing had felt so certain when you walked in. Like the truth would be enough. Like justice could be clear-cut.
But now, it was murky.
You glanced back at the laptop, watching Joaquín continue to open new folders, skimming through them. One of the files showed grainy security footage from the vault they’d mentioned—one of Valentina’s archives. You could make out the three of them, half-lit in the shadows and red emergency lights, walking through sealed crates. Just behind them, in the back of the frame, was someone else. A body dressed in hospital scrubs.
You blinked. “Wait. What’s that?”
Ava followed your gaze, her expression unreadable. “It’s just a test dummy.”
“That looks like a man—”
“We need to focus,” Yelena interrupted, suddenly stepping forward, distracting your view of the screen. “If we waste time worrying about the wrong things, we’ll all lose.”
“You could try for a sympathy pardon,” Joaquín said eventually, eyes back on the drive.
Ava looked up, confused. “Sympathy pardon?”
You nodded. “If you turn yourselves in. Cooperate. Help take Valentina down, publicly and completely. There’s precedent for it. Limited sentencing in exchange for full debriefs. If you start working with the courts instead of hiding behind her money—”
Walker snorted. Loud and dismissive. “Turn ourselves in? For what—saving New York?”
“Congrats,” Joaquín said. “You’re heroes. You and every other vigilante in this city. The only thing that makes you different is that Valentina can market you. And you let her instead of coming clean right away.”
“You might see ten years,” you counted. “Maybe eight. Less with good behaviour. But keep hiding behind her... it’s just gonna get worse.”
Walker paced now, muttering something under his breath.
“Awesome,” he said louder. “Awesome. So this was a waste of time. Thanks a lot, Yelena. Now we’ve gotta worry about these two running off to Wilson with this. Then the press. Then all this?” he waved around the space surrounding you all, “All this is gone!”
Ava raised her voice carefully, almost hesitant, glancing at the short blonde. “What happens to… you know. If we do turn ourselves in? Where will he go?”
Yelena’s expression shifted for the first time.
“I don’t know,” she admitted, quiet now. Her hands drifted to her hips, fingertips twitching like she was resisting the urge to fold in on herself. Her head dipped low, eyes on the floor.
You weren’t sure who they meant. But it was clear from the way everyone avoided eye contact that whoever he was, he wasn’t just another asset.
Joaquín sat up straighter, eyebrows pinching. “What’s Project Sentry?”
Ava flinched. “Lena, I thought you cut that out.”
She moved fast, hand darting toward Joaquín’s laptop. He tried to pull it away, but she was faster—phasing into thin air and reappearing at his side, yanking the drive from the port and slipping it into her pocket like it hadn’t happened at all.
You never even got the chance to see what he was talking about.
You stood up, preparing for a fight. “You can’t pick and choose what gets turned in or not.”
“Are you serious right now?” Alexei’s voice boomed from the hallway as he stormed back in. He had disappeared a few minutes ago under the pretense of “getting snacks for the guests,” and now he returned with arms overflowing—half-crushed bags of potato chips, trail mix, something suspiciously resembling astronaut food.
He dumped the haul onto the coffee table and glared at Yelena.
“Lena, you said you wanted purpose. This—” He gestured around the room like it held meaning. “This is our purpose!”
But Yelena still wouldn’t meet his eyes.
“It’s built on lies, Dad.”
That made Alexei bark out a laugh, one with no humour in it—just tired frustration.
“Everything is. The whole country runs on lies. At least we did something good. We saved people. Because we’re the Avengers!”
The word Avengers didn’t sit right in your mouth anymore. It felt hollow coming from them like they’d tried to slap a fresh coat of paint over a burned-out house.
Joaquín’s tone was dry as he leaned forward again. “I mean, technically, there’s enough on the drive to bury De Fontaine for a long time without bringing you guys into it directly. But if any half-decent detective picks it apart, it’ll all start to unravel. Eventually, it’s going to lead back here.”
You saw the doubt flash behind Ava’s eyes.
“And even if Valentina is arrested,” Joaquín added, “then what? The funding still stands. The CIA owns the New Avengers. Someone else just like her will take her place. Same game, new face.”
You were just about to speak, something sharp about this group’s complete lack of accountability and morality, how their so-called heroism was held together by delusion and money when the elevator chimed.
A soft ding. Too soft to mean anything, and yet it sliced straight through the tension like a blade.
You stiffened on instinct.
Joaquín reacted just as fast, snapping his laptop shut with a harsh click that echoed louder than it should’ve. You didn’t move, couldn’t. Your breath caught in your throat as the rest of the room stilled. Not a sound. Not a single goddamn sound.
A slow, creeping dread tightened in your chest.
“Shit,” Yelena muttered under her breath, almost too quiet to catch.
And then chaos in silence: hands on your shoulders, your back, Ava’s voice in your ear, sharp and focused.
“Move. Now.”
The next second blurred. Joaquín was pulled off the couch beside you, your hands and knees hitting the expensive carpet before you fully processed what was happening. The couch loomed above you. Your back scraped along the base as you were shoved beneath it, knees pressed awkwardly into the floor, spine hunched to fit.
Your breath hitched as the space closed in, dim, and a little dusty, the underside of the furniture creaking against your weight. You could see the stretch of rug in front of you, Walker’s boots retreating as he kicked Joaquín’s bag under the coffee table. He shoved the laptop in after it with even less care.
Above you: Yelena’s fuzzy purple socks. Ava’s boots, planted like guards. Their stance wide. Ready.
The heels came first. A sharp, deliberate cadence—click-click-click—on the marble. The sound bounced through the space with the confidence of someone who had never once questioned their right to be heard.
And then the voice of the very woman you hated most at the moment. Familiar. Arrogant.
“Bob, what do you need a phone for?”
The name alone felt like a gut punch.
Bob?
Fucking Bob?
The shock didn’t register right away. It slid in sideways, a slow prickle along your spine before crashing into you all at once. You hadn’t even considered him—not since the whirlwind of last night, not in the scramble of digging through drives and false leads, not in the silent fear of what might still be buried. Bob Reynolds had slipped your mind entirely the moment Yelena showed you those files.
And now, here he was.
You twisted your head toward Joaquín, who was already looking at you. His jaw clenched tight. Eyes wide. Shoulders wound like a coiled spring. You could see the thought flash behind his stare—both of you thinking the same thing.
Holy shit.
Then you heard it. His voice confirmed that he was there, too. Low, quiet. Soft in that uncanny, almost youthful way. Still his.
“…to talk to people.” he said.
Your stomach sank. For a beat, you could only stare at the ground, your mind racing. An image flitters through your mind’s eye. A dark balcony. Warm fire light. Big suit. Dark, tussled hair. That nice smile of his.
Above you, the sharp click of stilettos came to a sudden halt at his words.
Through the sliver of space beneath the couch, you spotted the edge of Valentina’s pencil skirt. Sleek black, tailored to a blade-sharp silhouette. Her shoes were thin and spiked, gleaming slightly under the overhead lights. Beside her, a pair of soft bunny slippers, nearly swallowed by the cuffs of soft-looking, faded baby blue pyjama pants.
That was him.
Bob.
And someone else. A third pair of feet, neatly poised in polished flats. Pressed trousers. You couldn’t tell who, only that they stood slightly apart.
Valentina’s voice again, laced with sweet condescension. “To talk to people?”
Bob seemed to hesitate now, his voice smaller. “I just thought—”
“What’s all this?” she cut him off before he could finish. “Did someone give Alexei another confetti cannon? Seriously? You know the cleaners are going to start charging us combat pay. Just look at this place.”
A beat of silence.
Then the soft shuffling of someone stepping around the coffee table. You held your breath, instinctively pressing yourself flatter to the floor. Your shoulder brushed against Joaquín’s chest. You felt him suck in a quiet, sharp breath. You wondered what would happen if you were caught.
Above you, the room shifted.
Yelena’s voice came first, Russian-rough and stripped of patience. “What are you doing here?”
There was a pause. Just long enough to feel it.
“I’m sorry?”
“We thought you were en route to California,” Ava chimed in. Her tone was light, but the edges were too clean. She was trying too hard. That alone made your stomach twist.
“Oh. Right. California. Mel—?”
“The jet will be ready in one hour,” a smooth, polished voice cut in. Feminine. A little anxious. Definitely not one of theirs. It must be the third person.
You turned your head slightly toward Joaquín, careful not to make a sound. He didn’t move—only lifted his brows, then mouthed: the assistant.
Of course. Mel.
You nodded once, your heart hammering.
“See?” Valentina said breezily. “We’ve got time. So tell me… what’s this mess about?”
A clumsy chorus followed:
“Oh, it’s nothing.”
“Just messing around.”
“Nothing?” Valentina echoed, with just enough doubt in her voice to rattle the moment.
And then, soft again, Bob.
“Val…?”
“Yes, Bob, honey. What is it?”
“The phone.”
“You want a phone?”
“…yes, please.”
“Okay. Fine. Mel, get him a phone. We have plenty.”
“What kind?” Mel asked.
Valentina exhaled. You could practically feel the irritation coming off the woman in waves, even though you couldn’t see her. “What kind—? Any kind. I don’t care.” There was a pause, and then her voice dipped again into that overly sweet register that set your teeth on edge. “Bob, what colour do you want?”
“Oh. Any colour’s fine. Thanks, Mel.”
“Sure thing, Bob.”
You heard Mel’s shoes retreating. Then the doors dinged again, distant, followed by the mechanical swoosh of the elevator sliding shut.
“So…” Valentina said, dragging the word. “Who’s the banner for?”
Alexei jumped in too fast. “Banner? What banner?”
“The big one. By the elevator.”
More shuffling. A murmur of uncomfortable voices scrambling for footing.
“Oh, that banner,” Yelena said.
“The one by the elevator, yes,” Alexei added, awkwardly.
“Missed it earlier,” Walker threw in, humming with forced casualness.
Your breath caught. They were bad liars. Terrible liars that were going to have you and Joaquín caught. You felt your body instinctively press closer to his, every part of you suddenly aware of how fragile this moment was. If one of them slipped up... shit.
“What’s the deal with that?” Valentina pressed.
Silence.
You could feel the group faltering. And for a moment, you were sure someone would fold.
Then Yelena’s voice again. “We thought… with the headlines today...”
“There might be a new addition,” Ava said, cutting in with a cleaner tone.
“A new team member,” Walker followed, steady, trying to cover the tracks.
Valentina laughed. A quiet little thing, amused and bitter all at once. “Oh, well isn’t that sweet.”
A pause.
Then Yelena pushed: “What’s… what’s the deal with that?”
“Nothing’s confirmed yet. It’s still in the air,” Valentina said. The click of her nails against a screen followed. You imagined her scrolling through messages, “She’s a tough cookie, isn’t she, Walker?”
His answer was dry. “Right.”
“I just thought this team could use someone a little less…” She trailed off, teeth behind her voice.
“Less what?” Ava asked, carefully.
“…like you guys.”
“Like us?” Walker repeated.
“Melodramatic,” Valentina said, and you could hear the malice in her voice. “No offence.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” Ava asked.
The sound of Valentina shifting again, heels clicking softly against the marble, the dull swish of her skirt brushing behind her. “Well, it’s not a secret that all of you have done some pretty messed up shit. People don’t trust you. And trust is branding. It’s everything. If we bring in someone tied to Wilson—one of Captain America’s right hands—suddenly, we’re legit. We’re palatable.”
You’d already suspected that was her idea, that selling you out had been nothing more than strategy. Calculated. Self-serving. You hadn’t believed a single word of the bullshit she fed you last night, not the part about being “special,” or the vague promises of a bigger purpose. It had all been smoke.
Still, something about hearing it confirmed, hearing her say it so plainly, like she was already pulling your strings, lit a fire low in your chest.
You weren’t her puppet.
You weren’t anyone’s.
And the fact that she thought you were that easy to bend, that she saw you as just another tool to wield when convenient, made your skin crawl.
“And how do you plan on pulling that off?” Yelena asked, her voice a notch sharper now. Less curious, more hostile. Defensive.
“Aren’t you full of questions today?” Valentina didn’t even try to mask the irritation in her tone. “That’s for me to worry about, hun. Not you. Why don’t you all relax? Enjoy yourselves. Kick your feet up. Make the most of it until the next villain of the week shows up.”
Her words lingered like a smirk in the air, condescending, smug, and venomous.
It was only then you realized how cold the floor had become beneath you. The chill was creeping into your skin, seeping through your clothes, biting at your joints. Your hands had curled into fists without meaning to, nails digging into your palms, the tension wound so tight in your chest it hurt to breathe. Beside you, Joaquín was breathing fast and shallow, barely audible, but enough that you could feel it.
You released your fist and your fingers started to move on instinct, brushing against the knife you’d taken from the display case earlier. You hadn’t even realized you’d been reaching for it. The cool metal kissed your fingertips, grounding you. You closed your hand around the hilt, the weight of it settling in your palm like muscle memory.
Across the room, Valentina’s heels clicked softly on the marble as she began to walk away, casual, unhurried. “Where are you guys keeping the liquor now?” she asked airily. “I can’t fly sober, and there hasn’t been a restock in the kitchen since last night…”
Her voice trailed off as she disappeared around the corner.
Then you heard the soft shuffle of slippers on tile, a nervous fidget. “W-wait. Who’s joining our team?”
Walker answered, bone-dry. “That girlfriend of yours from last night. You know, the one you scared off?”
There was a pause.
“Oh. No. It’s not—” Bob stammered, his voice flustered, uncertain. “We’re not… You think I scared her off?”
You hated that something about the way he asked that fluttered against your ribs, like a moth against a windowpane. Ridiculous, considering the circumstances. You bit down on the feeling.
He didn’t get an answer before Valentina returned, heels striking the floor like punctuation. “Found it,” she announced. You heard the clink of glass. “Alright, Mel and I will be gone for a few days. Don’t do anything stupid. And Bob, your phone will be downstairs.”
And just like that, she was heading back toward the elevator. You watched her feet vanish from view. Then the soft ding of the lift. The whisper of the doors sliding shut. Gone.
You exhaled for the first time in minutes. The pressure in your chest finally let go, but you still didn’t release the knife. Even when Joaquín began shifting beside you, his legs uncoiling. Yelena’s voice came from above, low but audible: “It’s clear.”
Joaquín started crawling out from under the couch, but you reached for his sleeve, grabbing him without thinking. Just for a second. He glanced back at you.
Then you nodded. He moved. You followed.
Your hand stayed in your pocket, curled tight around the blade.
“Were—were you there this whole time?” Bob asked, his voice cracking on the question. He stepped closer to the centre of the room, joining the others.
You finally looked at him.
Gone was the suit. Instead: a grey sweatshirt, soft and clean, and thrown over a pair of baby-blue pyjama pants. And on his feet, bunny slippers. Actual bunny slippers. You had thought maybe you made it up in your head. But no. You blinked. Then you looked back up at his face.
“Hey,” you said.
“Hi,” That same, dopey grin split his face and you almost felt your own lips move to return it. But you stopped yourself and pushed the feeling back down, “What are you doing here?” He had that same bemusement from yesterday as if he was just happy to be here. Wherever here is. 
“We were just leaving,” you said, crouching to grab Joaquín’s bag and laptop from under the coffee table. You shoved them at him.
This time, he didn’t argue.
Maybe the brush with Valentina had knocked the fight out of him, or maybe he finally saw the writing on the wall. Either way, Joaquín was already jamming the laptop into the bag and pulling the strap over his shoulder.
“Leaving?” Yelena echoed, surprised.
“But I just woke up.” Bob frowned.
You didn’t answer.
You had heard enough.
Valentina was still a manipulative bitch, and now you had proof sitting on an old drive tucked into Ava Starr’s pocket. But this team? These people? They weren’t exactly running to stop her. Didn’t seem nearly as willing to hand over that evidence now that they knew it’d be trading their own freedom and newfound fame and luxury. You also knew they weren’t being entirely honest with most of it, so what was the point?
And Bucky?
He could eat shit for all you cared.
“You said you’d help us,” Yelena said, voice quieter now, tight, trembling at the edges like a thread pulled too taut.
“No,” you shot back, sharper than intended. “We said we’d listen.”
Joaquín stepped up beside you, his voice steadier. “Unless you hand over that drive, there’s nothing we can do for you.”
Ava’s stance hardened. Her hand flexed at her side. “You can leave,” she said. “But the drive stays here.”
That made Walker flinch. “Wait—what?” he barked, stepping forward. “You’re just gonna let them walk? After what they know? They’ll have us on The Raft by tomorrow.”
Alexei groaned, rubbing at the back of his neck. “I can’t go back to prison.”
“Prison? Wait—what are we talking about?” Bob interjected, blinking between everyone.
“God forbid you ever take responsibility for anything, Walker,” you said coolly, your eyes on the blonde man. “That there are consqueneces for your actions.”
His jaw twitched. You could see the pressure building in him like steam behind glass, his shoulders shaking. “Don’t get smart with me. You think I don’t know about consequences?”
Your fingers curled tighter around the handle of the knife in your coat. Cold steel kissed your palm, grounding you. You didn’t flinch as Walker loomed over you, not even when the heat of his breath hit your face.
“I’m sure you were starting to get it once your wife left,” you murmured bitterly.
Walker squared his shoulders like he was about to make good on the threat behind his scowl, or maybe hit you hard enough to knock your teeth out.
“Woah, woah—no fights here!” Yelena suddenly launched herself over the couch, landing between you with a firm thud. Her socks scuffed slightly on the rug as she extended both arms, placing one hand on your chest,.
It was oddly gentle—so soft you almost forgot that those same hands had likely killed thousands. Her palm rested right over your heart. You wondered if she could feel how fast it was beating.
“No fights,” she said again, a note of pleading curling into her voice. “We can’t get blood on the carpet. It’s new.”
Her words were light, but her eyes weren’t. They were serious—tired, even. Like someone who’d already bled for too many causes and was still waiting to find one worth it.
“I don’t want this,” she said firmly, now addressing the whole room. “None of us do. We’re on the same side. We’re just… on different pages.”
“That’s generous,” Ava muttered.
“No. It’s the truth,” Yelena shot back. “Valentina wins when we fight. That’s how she does it—she divides, she confuses, she corrupts.”
You met her gaze. And there it was: the flicker of desperation she was too proud to hide. Not fear, just a weariness, like she was sick of surviving in a world built on grey lines and crossed wires.
“…She’s right,” Joaquín said reluctantly. There was a tightness to his jaw as if it pained him to agree with any of this.
A heavy pause settled. Dust hung in the sunlight pouring through the tall windows, undisturbed.
Then Yelena turned back to you, her voice softer this time, almost hollow. “Is there really no other way to stop her?”
You hesitated, your mouth opening before the words were fully formed. You wanted to have an answer, something solid, something certain. But all you could offer was the truth.
“I don’t know,” you said quietly.
Because you didn’t. You weren’t a strategist. You didn’t sit in war rooms or comb through legal loopholes. Your background was in the Navy—flying jets, executing orders, staying alive. Similar to the work of every other person in this room. The closest you’d ever come to investigative work was chasing the Flag Smashers, or trying to clear Isaiah’s name when the system nearly buried him for something he didn’t do.
Your grip on the knife loosened. You hadn’t realized how hard you’d been holding it until your fingers started to throb, blood returning like a warning. You let it fall back into your jacket pocket.
“We’re not lawyers,” you added.
Walker took a step back—not far, but enough. Just enough to mark the shift. His breathing was loud in the quiet, uneven. His fists were still balled tight at his sides, like tension waiting for an excuse to spark again.
But he didn’t come closer. You almost felt bad for bringing up his wife.
Yelena nodded slowly, “Do you think Sam Wilson could help?”
That question hung in the room. It was different from the others. More personal.
You caught it in her voice first, a crack in her composure. Distress, raw and unpolished. Her eyes searched yours, not for strategy, but for hope. She was asking you to believe in something, even if she couldn’t anymore.
And the others were watching too—Ava, still guarded but listening; Alexei, wringing his hands; even Bob, with wide, unknowing eyes.
You looked at Joaquín. He met your gaze and nodded once.
“He could,” he said.
“But will he?” Yelena pressed. She needed an answer that sounded like a promise.
You hesitated, shoulders sinking under the weight of everything unsaid. The silence stretched, heavy with reluctant hope, weak trust and a dozen unspoken things. Then finally, with a sigh that felt like it pulled from the base of your spine:
“…Yeah,” you murmured. “He’s pretty understanding.”
Yelena nodded once, slowly, like that alone was enough to make something shift. Then she extended her arm behind her, her fingers flicking in silent command.
“Ava.”
“What?” came the flat reply, bristling with suspicion.
“Give them the drive,” Yelena said, jerking her chin toward you and Joaquín.
Ava blinked, incredulous. “You can’t be serious.”
“Give it.” Yelena didn’t raise her voice. She didn’t need to. The words landed sharp and sure, heavy with a quiet authority. Whether it was her posture, the chill in her accent, or the way she stared Ava down without blinking, it worked.
Ava rolled her eyes hard enough that you were sure she saw her own brain. But still, she stomped over, pulling the small drive from her pocket and shoving it into Joaquín’s hand.
He took it wordlessly, slipping it into his jacket without fanfare.
Yelena turned back to you. “I trust you’ll do what’s right.” Her voice softened, “I just… I want to do good. Be good. Like my sister.”
You blinked. The honesty in her tone caught you off guard. You stared at her for a beat, the brows on your face knitting together. There hadn’t been a moment yet where you felt like you couldn’t trust Yelena—if anything, she was the only one in this dysfunctional little collective who seemed a little more grounded in reality than the others. Steady in her beliefs.
You nodded slowly. Not just to acknowledge her, but because you understood. You wanted to be good too. Like Sam.
“Sure,” you said.
“Unbelievable,” Walker muttered. He threw his hands up and stormed toward the spiral staircase, his boots thudding too loudly for the steps.
You met Yelena’s eyes one last time. She raised her brows at you funnily, a silent ignore him written across her face. That earned the smallest smile from you, which she returned, not quite warmly, but not unkindly either.
“Bye, guys,” Joaquín called, already moving past you toward the elevator with an urge to get the fuck out of this place.
“Bye,” Ava called back with a lazy wave.
Alexei flopped onto the couch like a man ready for retirement. “We will see you later, new friends,” he announced, already unlocking an iPad and flicking through apps with surprising focus. Only then did you notice the ridiculous shirt stretched across his chest—his own face beaming up at you.
Of course he owned a shirt like that.
Yelena gave you one final nod as if to say I’ll handle things here. You held her gaze a moment longer before turning toward the elevator.
And there was Bob.
Still standing there quietly by the steps of the sunken living room like he didn’t quite know where to go next. His hands hung awkwardly at his sides, and when your eyes met, he gave you a shy little wave.
You raised your hand and waved back.
What a strange turn of events, you thought, stepping into the elevator beside Joaquín.
It felt like your world had been flipped upside down, spun sideways, and then set back upright—all before noon. Great. So much for Walker flying you back to D.C. Not that you were exactly heartbroken about it. At least you were finally getting out, and better yet, leaving with more than you'd hoped for. Thanks to Yelena.
Joaquín pressed the button to the lobby, his movements brisk but silent, like he was still trying to catch up to the emotional weight of the last hour or so.
You both stood in silence as the doors began to slide shut.
And then suddenly they didn’t.
Another body slipped through the narrowing space.
“Jesus!” Joaquín hissed, jerking half a step to the side. “What the hell—?”
“Sorry!” came the quick, sheepish yelp.
It was Bob.
His eyes were wide, hands lifted like he’d just stumbled into a hostage situation instead of an elevator. “Val said my phone’s downstairs…” he offered lamely, voice trailing as he glanced between the two of you. “Hey.”
“Hey, man, ”Joaquín huffed out a breathless sigh, “Scared the shit out of us.”
That made Bob crack a grin. He gestured toward himself like he was still catching up to the social rhythm. “I’m Bob.”
“Joaquín,” came the reply, quick and warm.
You couldn’t help the small smile tugging at your lips. The three of you must’ve looked like the beginning of a joke: two randos and a guy in bunny slippers walk into an elevator. Bob’s pyjamas looked like they hadn’t seen the outside of a laundry basket in days, wrinkled in all places, but you thought the slippers were undeniably cute.
“Yeah, you’re the Falcon, right?” Bob asked, turning to Joaquín with a genuine light in his eyes.
Joaquín puffed up slightly, the pride flickering across his face before he nodded. “Yeah, I am.”
You rolled your eyes, but the fondness came easy.
“That’s cool,” Bob said, his grin stretching even wider—until it didn’t. Until it faltered just enough for you to catch the flicker of something behind it. He glanced at you again, eyes darting nervously before he dropped his gaze to the floor. “So um… I guess you know about me now.”
The elevator hummed beneath your feet, descending gradually.
“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you,” he continued, voice quieter. “I wasn’t sure if… I was allowed. Or if I should. Are you… afraid of me now?”
Your heart thudded once, harder than expected.
From the corner of your eye, you saw Joaquín shift slightly, his body tense, watching, waiting to see what you’d say.
You drew in a breath, trying to steady yourself before you looked at Bob again. His posture had crumpled slightly under his own words. Shoulders curled in. Smile gone.
“Why would I be afraid of you, Bob?”
His gaze lifted, hopeful, but guarded.
“Because of what I did.”
That brought you up short.
You’d thought you’d had enough surprises for one day. Apparently not. Apparently Bob Reynolds had more where that came from, like some twisted magic trick where he kept pulling the rug out from under you, over and over again.
The elevator hummed. The floor numbers kept ticking down, steady and oblivious.
You swallowed. Almost afraid to ask.
“…What’d you do?”
He winced, rolling his shoulder like it physically pained him to answer. “That thing… in New York.”
You blinked, trying to process. When you didn’t respond, he looked at you, hesitant. “You read my file, right?”
“We didn’t… get that far,” you muttered.
But your brain was already scrambling to fill in the blanks. Every major incident in New York flashed behind your eyes—there were too many to count. Alien invasions. Robot uprisings. Sorcerer nonsense. But then you narrowed in. The one that had involved the New Avengers. The one the news had dubbed The Darkest Day. The terrifying grainy footage you’d seen during the hearings. The impossible collapse of light, sound, and structure. The city submerged in absolute darkness.
You stared at him.
“I’m sorry,” Joaquín said slowly, “You’re telling me you’re the one who turned New York into a black hole? You?”
Bob scratched the back of his neck, visibly squirming under the weight of it. Another awkward move, nervous, even. “…I didn’t mean to. I swear.”
And that was the kicker. That was when the full weight of who he was finally settled on your chest.
Bob. The Bob who tripped over your dress last night. The Bob who sat by a fireplace and made you smile until your face hurt. The Bob with an Instagram account full of second-hand paperbacks and soft, orange-pink Florida sunsets. That Bob—was the same man who apparently swallowed half of Manhattan into a void.
And now he was standing in the elevator, right between you and Joaquín, in bunny slippers.
It took all your effort not to show how much that messed you up. It set your heart racing, made it pound a tattoo against the underside of your ribs hard enough that you can feel it all the way up in your throat like it was trying to get your attention: this isn’t normal. This isn’t safe.
But then Bob gave you the exact same, uneasy, shy smile as before. Only this time, it’s much harder to meet it with one of your own. You forced a tiny twitch of your mouth upward, barely there, because Joaquín was right beside him too, and you were almost certain he was freaking out enough for the both of you.
You’d seen the footage. You’d read the transcripts. Sat in on court hearings. Heard survivors speak. The sheer level of devastation. The fear. The unanswerable questions.
And that was him. This man in the elevator. The man who smiled at you like he still hoped you didn’t hate him.
The elevator dinged, and the doors parted to reveal the glossy, open expanse of the lobby. Joaquín stepped out first, more hurried than usual. You followed on autopilot, your head still spinning.
The three of you drifted toward the grand lounge area, hovering near the secretary’s desk, not quite ready to separate. Like no one knew what to say next.
“So,” You begin awkwardly, “Bob. That’s... that’s pretty... uh, how’d that happen?”
He winced again, more out of embarrassment than pain. “Um. I don’t really know. My memory’s been foggy since I went through the experimental program,” he admitted slowly. “It… it comes back in pieces sometimes.”
Your brows rose. “Experimental program?”
“Project Sentry,” Joaquín muttered, eyes narrowing as if the puzzle was finally clicking together in his head.
You blinked. You’d known of De Fontaine’s side projects. Rumours of off-the-books enhancements and reconditioning efforts. Human experimentation. Yelena’s files had confirmed them, but you never knew the name of it. You never knew it was called Project Sentry.
You looked at Bob again. Jesus. Bob was one of Valentina’s experiments. That realization settled cold and sharp in your gut.
“Yeah, that one.” Bob nodded sheepishly. “But I don’t remember all of it. I get flashes. I remember getting injected with stuff... being blonde… getting killed.”
You stared, concerned, “You… remember dying?”
He blinked hard like he was trying to shake the static off his brain, or maybe trying to forget it. Then he looked at you—really looked—and something softened again in his expression.
The corners of his mouth twitched up and a blush grew on his cheeks.
“…Don’t worry, though,” he added, voice softer now, more tentative. “I remember you. Don’t think I’ll be able to forget you, actually.”
This time, you did manage a smile.
God. That line shouldn’t have hit the way it did, but it did. Somehow, it fractured the version of him you were just starting to piece together again. Mysterious World Ending Shadow Guy and Sweet Bob From Party were the same fucking person. And you weren’t sure if that was comforting or horrifying because you were growing flustered at his comment.
From the side, Joaquín snorted. “Smooth.”
You caught the way Bob’s blush deepened, the colour rising visibly along his cheekbones. He ducked his head, clearly flustered.
You shook yours gently. “Don’t listen to him.”
“…Okay,” he said earnestly. Then, after a beat: “So… you never got to the part about the experiments?”
You inhaled, slow and careful, trying to find the right words, trying not to sound like someone who’d had the wind knocked out of them several times over in the span of an hour.
“I don’t think your friends wanted us to know,” you admitted.
“Oh.”
Just that. One word. But it carried something heavy, something almost brittle underneath. A quiet, hollow kind of disappointment.
It stopped you cold.
Part of it was guilt. Upsetting Bob felt like kicking a puppy that didn’t even know what it had done wrong. But the other part, the more rational, still-on-edge part of your brain, reminded you of who you were talking to. Of what he’d done. And maybe it wasn’t a great idea to make someone who once tore a city in half feel unwanted.
“Bob?”
The sudden voice snapped you out of your thoughts. You flinched. Joaquín immediately straightened beside you—his hand half-rising on instinct. Both of you spun, the tension surging through your limbs once more.
A woman dressed in black was already walking toward you, shoes clicking lightly across the lobby floor. She faltered slightly when she took in the three of you together, but her smile held firm. Calm. Polite. Her hands extended a small box toward Bob.
“Um, here’s your new phone,” she said.
You recognized the voice. Mel. Valentina’s assistant. Which meant someone—likely everyone—was about to find out that you and Joaquín were here.
You returned her smile with one of your own, both of you sharing the kind of strained politeness that only came from being on opposite sides of a very expensive, very fragile chessboard.
“Thanks,” Bob said, taking the box carefully. Mel nodded once and turned, gliding away as quickly as she’d arrived.
Bob looked at the box like he wasn’t sure what to do with it. Then his gaze drifted to Joaquín—just a glance—but when his eyes found yours again, he was flushed and fidgeting, all over again.
“Phone,” he chuckled nervously, rubbing this thumb over the side of the box, “yeah, um… I asked for a phone because I—Walker said I should just ask you—uh,” he huffed, blinking hard as if to gather his thoughts. “I know you’re leaving and all, but… it was really nice to see you.”
He gave a kind of half-shrug like he wasn’t sure what he meant by that until it was already out.
“I honestly thought I wouldn’t—see you again, I mean,” he went on. “I thought I’d messed it up. Back when I brought up… uh. Bucky.”
Yeah. That moment had soured everything fast. You hadn’t thought you’d see Bob again either, not after that mess. For a while, you’d convinced yourself you didn’t want to. But you also knew that no matter how many hours the drive back to Washington took, you’d probably spend all of them scrolling through his old Instagram posts—those quiet book reviews, those blurry sunset photos, that one stupid post about jelly beans you think he posted when he was high.
You didn’t crush on people easily. Even less so on people tied to your work. But with Bob, it had happened fast, softly, then all at once.
His honesty caught you off guard again, and you felt a flush rise to your own cheeks. Joaquín’s head turned toward you, a little too quickly, a little too hopeful, and you could practically hear the gears in his nosy little brain turning. That bastard.
You ignored him.
“Yeah,” you said quietly, eyes on Bob. “It was nice to see you too.”
And God, wasn’t that the understatement of the year?
“Can I—um…” he shifted on his feet, thumb brushing over the edge of the box in his hands. “Do you think I could have your number? For when I finish setting up my phone. In case you… still want to talk.” His voice softened, almost hopeful. “I really did like talking to you yesterday. You can say no, that’s alright.”
You weren’t going to say no. And honestly? You doubted Joaquín would let you. He’d been silently rooting for this since he stepped on your dress—he was a hopeless romantic under all that tactical gear.
Still, that didn’t stop the soft, fluttery weight building in your chest. Like your stomach had filled with butterflies in mid-takeoff. It made you feel… like a teenager. God, when was the last time something had made you feel like that?
“Sure, Bob.”
You must’ve caught him off guard. His eyes widened a little. “Really?”
“Yeah.” You smiled. “Do you have a pen?”
His whole face lit up in panic. “Uh—no. Wait, hold on—” He spun, glancing around frantically.
Joaquín, bless him, was already halfway to the secretary’s desk, digging through an Avengers-themed mug filled with pens. He came back triumphantly, tossing one to Bob, who fumbled it slightly before returning to you, grinning like an idiot.
“Here,” he said, holding it out.
You reached for it. Your fingers brushed his—warm, solid, and really soft—and the moment was small, fleeting, but it sent a pulse through your wrist all the same.
“Where can I write—?”
Bob didn’t hesitate. He rolled up the sleeve of his sweater, tugging it past his elbow in one smooth motion before offering his bare arm to you.
You stared.
Not because you were trying to be weird. But holy shit.
He was built like a statue someone forgot to put on a pedestal. Long forearms, defined muscle, a vein trailing up the centre of his arm like it’d been drawn there on purpose. His skin was golden and warm and very, very nice to look at.
“My arm’s fine,” he offered casually, but his voice cracked just enough to betray him.
You blinked, pulling your gaze back up to his face. He looked away, sheepish. Maybe he caught you staring. Okay, he definitely caught you staring. But then again, he was also sneaking glances of his own. His eyes lingered on your mouth for a second too long. A tiny flick down your neck, then away.
He had more shame about it than you did.
“Alright,” you said, trying not to grin like a fool. “Don’t move.”
You stepped in, gently taking his wrist in one hand and steadying the pen with the other. The contact sent another flutter up your arm, but you focused, carefully writing your number across the warm stretch of skin.
One, two, three digits at a time.
By the time you finished, you felt a little breathless.
You let go, reluctantly, and stepped back.
Bob was red. Visibly, unapologetically flushed from his cheeks down to the base of his neck. Still, he gave a quick, grateful nod and tugged the sleeve back down, much to your disappointment.
He took the pen from you, fingers brushing again, and gave you a soft, “Thanks.”
“Of course.”
“I’ll, uh… I’ll text you. Once I figure this out.” He lifted the phone box with an amused smile. You realized you could have written your number on the box instead, but you refused to say anything about it. His voice was still quiet, but it held a kind of warmth you hadn’t expected to hear again so soon.
“I’ll be waiting,” you said.
He laughed under his breath. Then, almost like he didn’t trust himself to say anything else, he gave a short nod and turned away. You watched him cross the floor toward the elevators.
Halfway there, he paused. Turned slightly. You thought he was going to say something, another goodbye, maybe a joke, something. But he just gave you a little wave. Kind. A little bashful.
You waved back, lips still curved in a smile.
“And they say romance is dead,” Joaquín snorted into your ear, slinging an arm dramatically around your shoulders as soon as the elevator doors shut.
You groaned, but it came out more like a laugh. “Oh my God, shut up.”
He leaned all his weight onto you like an overgrown, smug barnacle. “You were totally about to kiss him. Don’t lie. I saw the look on your face. So did he. I’m kinda disappointed, actually. Was fully expecting a public display of—you know, soul-consuming makeout rage.”
“Shut. Up.”
“You’re smiling,” he said in a sing-song voice. “You like him.”
“I will kill you.”
“You like him.”
You rolled your eyes so hard it actually hurt. But your cheeks were warm, and the flutter in your chest hadn’t totally calmed down. You weren’t even that mad. Not like you had been this morning when your entire life felt like it was fracturing under the weight of secrets, lies, and political backstabbing.
Now? You were still exhausted. Still confused. But something about Bob—awkward, charming, possibly world-ending Bob—had given you a moment of quiet in the middle of all of it.
“I bet you’re glad we stayed longer.”
“I lost a few years of my life from stress,” you muttered. “But yeah. Sure. I’m glad.”
Joaquín finally stopped leaning on you, but he kept his arm there, resting it across your shoulders like a shield. You fell into step with him, the two of you weaving through the flow of people on the sidewalk, the city alive around you in a way that felt almost… normal again.
Then, softer, “So what now?”
You glanced sideways. His joking edge had slipped off somewhere between steps, and now you could see the fatigue settling over his face. He looked as drained as you felt—eyes tired, jaw clenched slightly like he was holding something unspoken just behind his teeth.
You didn’t blame him. You were both running on fumes.
“We get the fuck out of here,” you said simply.
He let out a hum of agreement, nodding once as if the idea itself was a balm. But then he hesitated, giving you a sidelong glance.
“We’re not telling Sam about any of this, right?” he asked. “Like, the whole… following Walker into the tower part.”
“God, no,” you said immediately. “We’ll tell him I found the drive last night.”
“Perfect.” He grinned, satisfied. “He doesn’t need to know you almost got swept off your feet by a guy in a chicken costume.”
“Joaquín.”
He laughed and pulled you a little closer, and the two of you kept walking, two specks swallowed by the sprawl of Manhattan at noon, leaving behind the kind of chaos you weren’t sure you could ever fully explain. But for now, you had your answer, and you’d get the hell out of here.
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the complete knock — bob reynolds
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⟢ synopsis. you’re only here to try and understand why bucky’s suddenly gone off the rails and joined a new team, leaving you, sam and joaquín in radio silence. the last thing you expected was to find comfort in a stranger. a kind stranger named bob.
⟢ contains. spoilers for thunderbolts*, takes place during the 14 month later period. nothing too crazy, mostly plot. reader is described as female. bob is a cutie!! reader and joaquín are sambucky children of divorce :(
⟢ wc: 9.7k+
⟢ author’s note. wrote this with a vague idea and a dream. i don't know. don't ask pls.
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You were here strictly for business.
The lobby was all polished glass, military-grade charm, and propaganda dressed in gold. Cameras flashed like fireworks along the crimson carpet, catching every inch of shine from designer suits and sharp smiles. A towering digital screen looped the promo again: "The New Avengers: Built for Tomorrow." You watched from the fringe as the montage played, the images slicing together in quick succession—John Walker throwing the shield with over-practised precision, Yelena Belova dismantling a room of dummies in under twelve seconds, and Ava Starr phasing through a concrete wall with a smirk. Hero shots. Sanitized. Manufactured. All of them.
You didn’t blink as you were ushered to an elevator.
Growing up, the Avengers Tower never really felt real to you. Sure, you’d seen the photos, the documentaries, the endless footage of press conferences held on its front steps. Hell, you’d even walked past it with your parents whenever you visited New York—but it still felt like it belonged to another world entirely. Untouchable. Almost mythic.
You never imagined you’d walk inside.
And yet now, riding the elevator up with a slow-climbing hum and nerves that prickled beneath your skin, all you felt was dread.
It was a strange kind of emptiness—the feeling of finally reaching something you once admired, only to realize it had been gutted and repainted in someone else’s image. The marble floors had been waxed clean, but the history here wasn’t. You could still feel the ghosts under the polish. Somewhere between the seams of the rebuilt walls and reprogrammed elevators, there was once a legacy. Real one. But it didn’t belong to the people in charge of this event.
You were crammed in with a handful of Congress members and defence contractors, all of whom smelled like cologne and quiet greed. Congressman Gary was there too, smiling too much, already half-drunk from the limo ride there. (He said it would be the only way he’d survive an entire night listening to people praise Valentina Allegra de Fontaine). Gary had been the one to suggest your attendance might smooth things over. It might make the New Avengers feel like someone from Sam’s camp was willing to listen. Get on their good side—that whole thing.
But you were here for an entirely different reason. His invitation was exactly what you needed to get in, though.
Underneath your gown—sleek, formal, and designed to draw no conclusions—you had a mic stitched into the seam of your strapless bodice. Hidden, but live. Your earpiece buzzed softly with Joaquín’s voice, casual as ever.
“If Sam finds out we’re doing this, we’re so dead.”
You bit the inside of your cheek, trying not to be overheard as the elevator operator gave a rehearsed speech about the tower’s restoration—how it stood now as a symbol of “unity, rebirth, and strength.” You resisted the urge to roll your eyes. The tower didn’t feel like a symbol. It felt like a stage.
“He’ll take away your wings at most,” you murmured, gaze fixed forward. “Relax.”
You could practically hear Joaquín pouting through the comms.
“I just got them back.”
“Then let’s not make a scene. Gary said it’d be good optics to have someone on our side here. We’re doing Sam a favour.” A pause. Then, quieter: “I’m surprised you didn’t want to come with me. You’re cleared for field work.”
“No, thanks. As much as I adore red carpet politics, I don’t think I can be in the same room as de Fontaine without committing a felony. Might get myself in trouble.”
“And I won’t?”
“You’re better at smiling.”
“You’ve never seen me smile.”
“Exactly.”
You exhaled through your nose, the tiniest edge of a grin forming before you could stop it.
“Just... try not to piss anyone off for five minutes, yeah?”
You didn’t answer. The elevator chimed. The doors slid open with a muted ding, and you stepped into a wall of flashing lights and artificial warmth.
The event space had been reconstructed on the upper floors, a showroom designed to impress donors and government officials alike. White marble floors stretched endlessly beneath towering banners that hung from the ceilings like monuments. Each one bore the new emblem of the team—sleek and stylized, but hollow. You could see the press eating it up already.
A digital display behind the podium read:
WELCOME TO THE FUTURE.
MEET EARTH’S NEWEST MIGHTIEST HEROES.
Your stomach turned.
“You still with me?” Joaquín asked.
“Yeah.” You nodded once, moving deeper into the room as your eyes scanned the crowd for familiar faces. “I’m here.”
“I’m gonna need camera access,” he said. “There’s a chip tucked under the gem on your bracelet. If you can slide that into an outlet somewhere, I’ll be able to map out the floor’s electrical system. Should help me locate the control room.”
“Guy in the chair,” you muttered, lips twitching into a faint grin. It was impressive—his gadgets, his confidence. Typical Joaquín.
Congressman Gary had vanished into the crowd, but you didn’t mind. Better alone than attached to a man who introduced you as a pet project. You plucked a glass of champagne from a passing tray, the cold stem grounding in your fingers, and sidestepped toward the edge of the room.
An outlet revealed itself by a floor-length curtain. You knelt, as if adjusting your heel, and casually broke the gem from your bracelet, slipping it into the socket with practiced ease.
“Okay,” Joaquín said, voice clearer now. “Give me a minute to get my bearings. While I’m working on this, try not to look like a loser in the corner. Mingle or something.”
You scoffed under your breath. “Easy for you to say—you can talk anyone’s ear off.”
“You calling me annoying?”
“Yeah.”
“Wow. Go see if you can find Bucky while I work on this, would you?”
Right. Bucky Barnes.
You weren’t here to mingle. You weren’t here to sip champagne or shake hands or sweet-talk your way into the New Avengers’ good graces. You were here for Sam. And more specifically—for Bucky. Wherever the hell he was hiding.
The plan was simple enough in theory: Get a read on what Valentina was playing at. Try to talk to Bucky. Get ahead of whatever fallout was brewing between him and Sam before it turned into a full-blown civil war again. You’d offered to go because no one else would.
Joaquín was trying to stay neutral (and failing). Isaiah had dismissed Bucky as a long-lost white man with too many ghosts. And Sam refused to speak to Bucky since the news broke about the New Avengers. And Bucky hadn’t said a damn word back.
So here you were. You were the only one left who might still be able to stand in the space between them without setting off alarms, even if you were biased.
You still didn’t understand how Bucky could do it. How he could go from testifying before Congress about accountability and reform, to standing beside Valentina Allegra de Fontaine like she hadn’t personally undone everything they’d fought for. Like he hadn’t been there when Ross tried to throw his friends all in cells. (Sure, you weren't there for it either, but Sam told you all about it; the accords were one of the reasons the Avengers broke up.)
Valentina wasn’t just dangerous—she was calculated. Clever. The kind of dangerous that worked in the shadows, smiling for cameras while quietly tying strings around people’s necks. She had her ex-husband arrested, sabotaged Wakandan outreach missions, and picked through the wreckage of post-blip heroes like she was drafting a fantasy football team. The fact that she now had a unit of enhanced individuals marching under her payroll and calling themselves the New Avengers made your stomach turn.
And Bucky was one of them.
You believed Valentina was guilty the second Bucky first mentioned she’d recruited John Walker. Walker—who had murdered a man in public, with blood still wet on the shield—and somehow walked free. Charges vanished. Headlines redirected. Now he was being repackaged as a hero again, and Bucky was standing next to him like nothing had happened.
You couldn’t wrap your head around it. No matter how many angles you looked at it from, it didn’t make sense. And the more you thought about it, the more it burned in your chest.
What was he thinking?
Why hadn’t he said anything?
Why wasn’t he here?
You pulled in a slow breath as you stepped further into the room, letting the sound of clinking glasses and diplomatic small talk wash over you like static.
The room was grand in a gaudy way—shiny surfaces and marble floors that reflected the chandelier light too harshly. Everything screamed polished excess, like they were trying to distract from the blood under the polish.
You tried to scan the crowd for Bucky, but there were too many faces, too many government suits and PR smiles, none of them him. You told yourself that when you did find Bucky, he’d have some kind of explanation—something to loosen the knot in your chest, something that could push down the rising anxiety. Something that could explain how the man you once trusted was now parading around in a suit under Valentina’s thumb.
Instead, you found Congressman Gary. Or rather, he found you.
He was already three glasses of champagne deep—five, if you counted the shots you’d seen him down on the way—and he beamed like he’d found a shiny toy in a sea of suits.
“There she is,” he said, slinging an arm around your shoulder like you hadn’t just been avoiding him for fifteen minutes. “You have got to meet some of these people. Big names. Big wallets.”
You were too polite to shrug him off, even as he dragged you into a circle of De Fontaine’s investors. Their grins were just a little too sharp, their eyes a little too eager. The way they looked at you made your skin crawl, like you were a chess piece they hadn’t quite decided how to play yet.
You smiled tightly. Shook clammy hands. Answered vague questions. Nodded while they spoke about “opportunities,” “rebuilding legacy,” and “rebranding heroism.”
One man leaned in closer, his breath thick with bourbon. “You know,” he said, voice oily, “with your background, you’d be a perfect candidate for the new team. Valentina has a real eye for talent, and we’re building something bigger than what came before. Something better. You could help shape it from the inside.”
You swallowed your disgust with a sip of champagne. “I’m not really looking to join anything right now.” That was a lie. You already had a seat in the team Sam was putting together. But he did not need to know that.
He chuckled, as if that wasn’t an answer.
“Okay, I’ve got eyes,” Joaquín said suddenly in your ear. His voice broke through the haze like a rope thrown across stormy water.
You exhaled in relief. “Excuse me,” you told the group, already turning away. “I need to grab a drink.”
They nodded, already moving on to the next opportunity in heels. Gary wasn’t too happy, though.
You drifted from the circle, walking slowly toward the open bar. On the way, you passed a tray of themed hors d’oeuvres—tiny “Avenger” sliders with edible logos, cupcakes shaped like shields and guns.
A mounted camera in the corner caught your eye, its red light blinking lazily above a velvet-draped sculpture.
“See me?” you muttered.
“Yeah, I see you,” Joaquín replied.
“Still no sign of Barnes.”
“Scanning crowd pings now,” he said. “Either he’s ghosting the place or he got another haircut and I can’t recognize him. Which would be so like him, by the way.”
You sighed and accepted another drink from a passing server, something dry and too expensive, and kept moving.
You figured you’d shaken at least six hands tonight that belonged to people who’d love to see your head on a stick—if not for the lucrative optics of you standing here at all. You were an opportunity to them. A symbol. A bargaining chip in a war they didn’t even understand.
Your dress caught suddenly.
You stumbled—only a step, but enough for the chilled drink to slosh dangerously near the edge of the glass. You turned on instinct, hand rising to fix the silk scarf that had slipped from your neck and shoulder.
A man stood behind you, wide-eyed, hand half-raised like he’d been about to catch you.
“I—I’m so sorry,” he stammered. His voice was low, a subtle rumble barely audible over the layers of clinking glass, conversation, and ambient music. “—stepped on your dress. Sorry.”
You blinked, caught off guard.
He looked like he didn’t belong here. Not in the way the others did. No glossy name tag, no designer smugness. His suit was clean, but not flashy. Understated.
“It’s fine,” you said quickly, instinctively adjusting your scarf where it had slipped from your shoulder. You shook out the fabric of your dress around the ankles, heart skipping in the echo of that voice. Something about the way he said it—apologetic, soft, like he genuinely meant it—caught you off guard.
“Sorry,” he mumbled again, even quieter this time, eyes dropping to the floor. His dark hair fell over his face, almost like he was trying to shrink three sizes. You could hear a faint, awkward laugh in his voice. “Uhm… yeah. Sorry.”
He didn’t linger. Just turned and slipped back into the crowd before you could even process anything. No second glance. Just a gentle pivot and a few long strides back into the crowd, swallowed instantly by the sea of shoulder pads, press passes, and sharp perfume.
You stood there for a second, staring after him.
He moved differently from the others. No performative swagger. No politician’s posture. No tray in his hand, so he’s definitely not a server. He was quiet in a way that made you feel like you’d imagined him, like he’d only brushed through this reality for a second before vanishing into another.
You didn’t recognize him.
And you should have.
For all the files you’d scoured, the profiles and photos, the research you’d buried yourself in to prepare for tonight, you’d made it your job to know every player in this room. Who to watch. Who to avoid. Who might be useful.
But not him.
You turned back toward the bar, but your mind didn’t follow. Not entirely.
Who the fuck was that?
You were just about to ask Joaquín to pull a facial scan when something in your periphery stopped you cold.
John Walker.
He was only a few steps away, mid-conversation with some high-level sponsor, until his gaze landed on you. And then he froze.
The look that crossed his face was quick, recognition, discomfort, maybe a flicker of guilt, but he buried it just as fast, turning away without a word. He pivoted like a man avoiding a ghost, ignoring the way the sponsor he spoke to called after him.
“Walker just made a hard left into the hors d’oeuvres,” Joaquín muttered in your ear, low and amused. “You see that?”
You exhaled, more irritated than surprised. “We’re not here for him.”
“Yeah. I think he knows that too. That’s why he’s pretending he’s got important shrimp to eat.”
That pulled a faint smile from you, biting down the urge to laugh.
Typical. The last time you’d seen Walker in person, he was seated in a courtroom with his jaw clenched so tight you thought he’d snap a molar. You’d testified in his case, alongside Sam, Bucky, and everyone else who had to witness what happened in Madripoor—what he did to that man in the square. The shield, slick and red. The silence afterward, heavier than any explosion.
You never fought him. Never had to. But you'd been on opposite sides of that mess, and he knew it. Hell, you’d spoken directly to his discharge. Your words were probably still echoing in the back of his skull.
The way he turned away just now… yeah. He remembered you.
“I’m surprised he didn’t start barking about national security,” Joaquín quipped in your ear again. “Do you think we should trail him?”
You hesitated. You didn’t want to. Just the idea of following in Walker’s smug footsteps made your jaw clench.
But Joaquín pressed, “He might know where Bucky is.”
And that was the problem—he was right. And you hated how much sense it made. Of course, Walker would know. You also hate how Walker and Bucky were probably friends now.
A camera flash caught your eye, and you instinctively straightened your posture, smoothed your expression. No time for a scowl, even if that’s all you wanted to wear.
You adjusted your gown, tugged lightly at the hem, checked the wire hidden at your waist, and started walking in the direction Walker and that ugly barret he wore had vanished.
The crowd shifted around you like tidewater—polished politicians and strategic handshakes, investors with too-white smiles and drinks that cost more than your rent. Every few steps, someone waved. A few shook your hand like they knew you, like you were an old friend they’d been waiting for. A woman asked for a photo. Another leaned in and whispered, “Are you joining the new team?” like it were a secret worth selling.
You deflected with a nod and a vague smile, each interaction leaving a layer of static behind your eyes.
It was strange how quickly the attention shifted now that you were in the spotlight. Recently, you’d spent most of your career standing behind Isaiah while Joaquín and Sam did the talking. You liked it there. It was quieter. Easier to breathe. Now, suddenly, they were holding out chairs for you at the table.
The whole thing felt like theatre. Scripted and glassy. Lines rehearsed. Costumes ironed. Every player doing their part beneath the blinding stage lights.
You still weren’t sure what was worse—that Bucky accepted Valentina’s funding, or that he and his new friends let her call them The Avengers.
Sam was right to be angry. He should be. He’d already turned down President Ross’ private offer to hand him the reins of a military-funded global response team. The same offer that Valentina had repackaged, repurposed, and handed off to people who were too coward to say no.
“He’s on the east end, talking to Ava starr and another woman. I think she’s Valentina’s assistant. Oh—shit. He just pointed at you.”
Your chest tightened. You turned too fast, momentarily losing your bearings in the rotating lights and mirrored walls. East—east—
And then someone stepped into your path.
A wall of a man appeared in front of you so suddenly, you nearly collided with him; broad-shouldered and bearded, dressed in a burgundy suit that looked just a size too tight across his chest.
He smiled widely, eyes bright like he’d been waiting for a moment like this all night.
“I know you,” he said, voice thick with a Russian accent. “I’ve seen you on the televisions. You shake hands with the new Captain America.”
You blinked. “I—uh, yeah.”
“Ah!” He laughed, clapping one heavy hand to your shoulder with surprising gentleness for a man who looked like he could punch through drywall. “Very brave of you. Very good. You look different in person. In a strong way. Like a panther. Or mongoose.”
You tried for a diplomatic smile. “Thanks, I think.”
“Oh! Where are my manners,” he said, dramatically straightening and offering his hand. “I am Alexei Shostakov. The Red Guardian.”
You knew that, but you didn’t know he’d be so... loud.
You took his hand, his grip warm and firm. “Pleasure to meet you, Alexei.”
“Kind. Very kind,” he said, eyes gleaming. “You remind me of my daughter! You have same fire in eyes. Around same age, too—you could be friends! Yelena is always looking for new friends.”
Yelena Belova. That name lit something up in the back of your mind. You’d seen the files. The attempted murder of Clint Barton. Her brief status as an independent threat before being absorbed, quietly and conveniently, into Valentina’s new game.
And suddenly, Alexei’s smile widened even more.
“Yelena!” he bellowed, cupping his hands to his mouth as if you weren’t standing in the middle of a very public, very polished gala. “Come meet new friend!”
Several heads turned. Cameras flashed—bright, blinding. You winced against the burst of lights, regretting everything from your dress colour to your decision to show up at all.
But it was too late. He leaned in beside you, one arm suddenly draped over your shoulder like you were posing for a family Christmas card. “Smile!” he boomed, and before you could protest, he struck a dramatic flex, biceps pressing into your back like steel girders.
You caught a whiff of expensive cologne and vodka.
In the corner of your eye, a flash of short, bleached blonde hair was making its way through the crowd with frightening determination. Elegant, yes—but there was no mistaking the sharpness in Yelena Belova’s gaze. She wore a sleek black suit like it was made of knives, a funky eyeliner design, hair slicked back and every step carved with purpose. And beside her—
Your heart dipped.
Valentina Allegra de Fontaine.
Poised. Smirking. Watching everything.
“Be careful. Yelena is coming your way with Valentina.”
Thanks for the warning, Joaquín. Delayed. But thanks nevertheless.
You stood up straighter, willing your heartbeat to slow down even as Valentina’s eyes zeroed in on you like a predator clocking a foe.
Wonderful.
You leaned slightly toward Alexei, trying not to seem as panicked as you felt. “Can I ask you something? About Bucky Barnes?”
“Ah!” he exclaimed, cutting you off before you could finish the question. “Bucky! Yes, yes. The Winter Soldier. Very cool. Very handsome. Like Soviet James Dean.”
You blinked. “I mean—do you know where he is?”
But Alexei was already on another tangent. “We fought in Uzbekistan once, did you know this? I threw him through a door. He did not like that. But I like him. I like him very much. Quiet, serious type. You know he never answers my texts?”
“Right. Yeah. That tracks.”
And then—
“Oh, what a pleasant surprise,” said a voice sharp as champagne fizz and just as bitter. De Fontaine. She cut into the conversation with the smoothness of someone who was always in control, grinning like she knew a secret you didn’t. A glass of bubbly dangled between her fingers, catching the light just enough to draw attention. As if she needed help with that.
“I was just about to introduce you all,” she said, placing a perfectly manicured hand on Yelena’s arm as the blonde finally joined your little nightmare circle.
“What is this?” Yelena asked flatly, eyes flicking between you and Valentina.
Valentina didn’t bother to answer—just gave a smug little hum and tugged Yelena closer, corralling her between you and Alexei. The four of you shifted automatically into position, an unspoken reflex in rooms like this.
You could feel the cameras turning like sharks in bloodied water.
Flashes burst across your vision. The moment was already captured—your stiff shoulders, your frozen smile. A picture-perfect lineup of cooperation.
And you could feel it: this wasn’t a coincidence.
This was intentional.
Valentina leaned in, voice cool and sugary against your ear as more bulbs burst. “I am so pleased to see you here,” she cooed, “considering how close you and Sam are.”
“I mean, I had to come congratulate you,” you said tightly, lips barely moving. “Recreating the Avengers. That’s… big.”
She beamed at the cameras, teeth white and wolfish. “Someone had to.”
“Of course.”
Another flash. Another frozen pose.
You winced. Sam is going to kill you.
Valentina fielded the sudden swarm of questions like she was born in front of a podium—deflecting, redirecting, charming. Every answer was deliberate, each word chosen like a chess move. Stability. Legacy. Global confidence. Alliances.
They lapped it up like champagne, snapping photos, nodding, laughing. You stood beside her, barely blinking, jaw tight behind your polite smile.
You weren’t meant to be part of this show. You were supposed to be on the outside looking in from the in the crowd.
When the flashes finally began to die down and the clamour shifted elsewhere, Valentina turned with that too-perfect, too-white grin. She glanced at Yelena and Alexei like she were dismissing children.
“Would you two mind?” she asked, breezy as ever. “I’d like to have a quick little chat.”
Yelena’s gaze flicked toward you. Not unkind. But cautious. Reading you like a live wire.
“Is everything all right?” she asked, her brows subtly knitting.
“Oh, everything’s perfectly fine,” Valentina replied before you could speak, her hand already at your back. “Go fetch a drink. Mingle.”
It wasn’t a suggestion.
You barely had time to glance back at Yelena—at the slight, suspicious narrowing of her eyes—before the crowd swallowed her and Alexei whole.
Your earpiece crackled to life. “She’s taking you to the balcony,” Joaquín said, voice low and taut. “There are no cameras there. I won’t be able to see, but I can still hear you.”
There was a pause, then: “I’ll keep looking for Bucky.”
You barely managed a breath of relief before Valentina cut in, sharp and smiling.
“Bucky’s not here tonight, if that’s really why you’re here.”
You stiffened mid-step.
Joaquín swore in your ear. Something heavy hit a surface—maybe his fist against a table—and you heard the scrape of a chair.
“What do you mean?” you asked, your voice light, falsely sweet. “I came to celebrate you.”
You crossed the threshold to the balcony.
It was quieter out here, eerily so. The muffled pulse of the gala was dulled by glass and distance. The cold kissed your skin through your dress. You could feel it biting at your exposed arms, but you welcomed the sting. It was honest.
Below, the city stretched like a glowing circuit board. Skyscrapers hummed with light. Traffic moved in golden veins. It was beautiful in the kind of way that felt removed. Untouchable.
Valentina’s heels clicked once against the stone floor, then stopped.
“Cut the bullshit,” she scoffed, voice low now. “We both know that’s not true.”
You turned your head, slow and steady. Her eyes were already on you. Unflinching.
“Where’s your friend?” she asked casually. “The little Mexican one?”
You flinched—just barely. Your jaw clenched tight.
Valentina smiled wider at that.
You opened your mouth to answer, to lie, to throw her off, to say something clever, but she leaned forward before you could, voice barely above a whisper.
Her lips were close to your collarbone, eyes locked on your chest. On the mic she couldn’t see.
“Hola, Joaquín,” she murmured, velvet-smooth. “¿Cómo estás? How’s the arm? Still broken?”
She pulled back with a grin full of satisfaction. Joaquín didn’t respond—not a breath. But you felt the burn of it in your gut. He heard her. She knew he was listening. And that was the whole point.
She got what she wanted. You could see it in the eyes, the tilt of her head, the calm sip from her glass, the curl of smugness just under her lipstick.
Valentina turned her back to the railing, facing you fully, her glass catching the amber light of the city. Her smile didn’t crack once.
“You know,” she began, like she was catching up with an old friend, her voice silked with charm, “you don’t have to keep playing both sides. It’s exhausting, isn’t it?”
You said nothing. Not because you didn’t have something to say, but because the words wouldn’t form. Your brain was too busy calculating exits, signals, whether Joaquín could hear any of this, or if he was already doing something stupid like storming into the gala uninvited.
“You show up with a wire,” she continued, waving her champagne flute like it weighed nothing, “a dress like that, pretending you’re just here to smile for the cameras.”
Her eyes dipped slowly, then back up.
“You do look stunning, by the way,” she added casually. “But we both know you’re not here for the press or to butter yourself up to me or my team. You’re listening. Recording. Digging...”
The flute met her lips again. Sip. Deliberate.
“Looking for Barnes,” she said. “Like he’s going to whisper some grand truth that’ll fix whatever little crisis your friends are having.”
You could feel your jaw tighten. Every word she spoke landed like pressure against a bruise you didn’t want to admit was there.
Valentina tilted her head, studying you with the kind of gaze that belonged in an interrogation room, not a rooftop party. “You’re sharp,” she said. “Good instincts. It’s why Sam keeps you close, right?”
Still, you stayed silent. Because anything you gave her, she’d twist. She already was.
“But let me ask you something,” she said, voice a shade lower, softer. “What’s loyalty really worth—if the people you serve are always the ones left bleeding in the dirt?”
A pulse of heat shot up your neck. You didn’t move, but she saw it.
Of course, she saw it.
“And for the record,” she added, twirling the stem of her glass, “I don’t have anything against Sam Wilson. Poor guy. I pity him, actually. The shit he’s put up with just for carrying that shield—God.”
She clicked her tongue with exaggerated sympathy.
“I’d kill to have Captain America on my team. The real one. Not Walker. That man is a pathetic as it gets. Hair-trigger temper, zero emotional intelligence—”
“Sam would never work with you,” you said, sharper than intended.
Valentina’s smile widened because you finally said something worthwhile. “Oh, I know,” she said, almost gleefully. “He’s a purist. One of the last. His morals are steel-tight. Fucking unshakable. A real Boy Scout. Steve Rogers made a good choice.”
And that was the part that hurt—the part that made you swallow back a flicker of doubt you hadn’t expected to feel.
“Where’s Bucky?” you asked, voice quieter now. “I just want to talk to him.”
She didn’t even hesitate.
“Bucky’s not missing or anything,” Valentina said. “He’s busy. Doing a job for me in Pennsylvania. Cleaning up some loose ends, you know the deal.”
You felt it before you could stop it—that tiny, invisible shift in your expression. Something cracked. Something gave her an answer you hadn’t meant to give.
“That supposed to scare me?” you asked, though it already kind of did.
“No,” she said. “It’s supposed to make you think. About options. About what someone like you could do with the right resources. With the right funding. Imagine it: you with your own team. Autonomy. Access. No more red tape. You make your own shots. We clean up whatever mess you leave behind. And, get this, you even get paid for it.”
You glanced toward the city, anything to avoid her eyes. Lights. Windows. Warmth. All of it felt so far away.
“And if I say no?”
“Then someone else says yes.”
She stepped back, brushing something from her blazer sleeve. “Just think about it,” she said, all silk and sugar again. “We could use someone like you. You belong in rooms like this, you know. Not chasing ghosts, or waiting for Wilson to approve your next move. You’re already breaking. I can see it. You wouldn’t be here tonight if you weren’t. I’m sure Captain America won’t be happy seeing your name in the headlines tomorrow morning: The Next Potenital Avenger.”
Her smile held, framed in the cold, glittering dark of the balcony. Then she turned and walked past you, the soft graze of her shoulder against yours more intimate than it had any right to be. A mockery of closeness.
“Enjoy the rest of your evening,” she said, already stepping back through the doors. “Tell Sam I said hi.”
The glass door shut behind her with a quiet click.
And the cold came in fast.
Not just the air, but the after. The silence. The wrongness of being left alone up here, the wind biting now that you weren’t so focused on not showing fear.
Your body finally remembered it was yours. Your fingers hurt from gripping the railing too hard. You eased your hands free, flexed them, saw the white draining slowly from your knuckles. You still couldn’t feel them.
Your mic hissed faintly to life, and Joaquín’s voice filtered through the static like someone calling out to you underwater.
“…you okay?” he asked, strained. Urgent.
You didn’t answer right away. Your mind was still racing through what Valentina had said, how easily she’d dodged your defences, how easy she was to turn your presence into a publicity stunt, how well she knew you—or at least thought she did.
She must be blackmailing Bucky. That must be it.
You kept staring out at the skyline like it might give you an answer. It didn’t. Just glass and steel and lights that blinked too slow to feel alive.
“No,” you finally muttered.
It didn’t come out strong. It came out cracked. Like the inside of your chest had gone hollow, and you were just now realizing it.
Joaquín exhaled through the comm, like he’d been holding his breath.
“I think legal action is our next step,” he said, tone snapping back into focus like a lifeline. “We can sue them for the name. Trademark it. Or maybe—maybe Sam tries to talk to Bucky again? We’ve still got options.”
You didn’t respond. Not yet.
The railing under your palm felt like ice. You blinked hard, fighting back the sudden sting in your eyes. Not from fear. From frustration. From the way every word she said still echoed in your head, sticky and sharp, leaving splinters behind.
You dragged in a breath.
“…that fucking bitch,” you scoffed.
“Yeah… I don’t like Valentina either.”
You jumped.
The voice came from somewhere behind you, softer, unsure. You spun around on instinct, stepping away from the railing.
That man.
The one who stepped on your dress earlier. He was sitting now, low in one of the patio couches near a sleek electric fireplace that flickered lazily against the dark. The flames glinted off the patio doors and caught the edge of his profile—brown hair, downturned mouth, eyes wide like he was the one who got caught.
You hadn’t noticed him when you came out here. And now that you really looked… you realized why.
He wasn’t trying to be seen.
He sat in the farthest corner of the couch, hunched slightly, knees close together, hands clutched like he didn’t know what to do with them. Like someone had planted him there and told him to wait. The firelight danced across his face, softening him. He didn’t look threatening. Just... startled. And oddly apologetic for existing.
He offered a small, nervous smile. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to, like… scare you.”
There was genuine concern in his voice—concern for you, not about you. That was rare.
“It’s fine,” you said, because you didn’t know what else to say.
“Who’s that?” Joaquín's voice cracked through your earpiece.
You didn’t answer right away.
Your eyes stayed on the stranger, and for a moment, you debated whether or not to even breathe too loud.
“I don’t know…” You muttered.
“Okay, uh… I’ll try to do a voice match or something—see if anything comes up. Keep them talking.”
The man must’ve noticed the way you were half-turned, the way your fingers brushed against your ear.
He shifted slightly. “Who’re… who’re you talking to?”
You froze. And then, with a wince: “Uh… just… myself. Thinking out loud.”
There was a pause.
“Oh,” he said. “Yeah. I do that too. All the time, actually.”
You weren’t sure what to do with that. You weren’t sure what to do with him.
He looked different now compared to earlier. Still awkward, still nervous—but less like he was trying to shrink into himself and more like he was trying his best to meet you where you were. His eyes held yours this time. Not for long, though. They dropped to his hands and shoes after a while. But it was long enough to feel it.
You took a cautious step forward, angling yourself toward the fire, toward him, but still keeping a healthy distance.
“You um… You know Valentina?” you asked. Stupid. Of course, he did. Everyone at this party did.
“Uh… yeah. Something like that,” he said, rubbing the back of his neck. “I wasn’t like… eavesdropping or anything. It’s just—there’s a lot of people in there. And it’s… quieter out here.”
He hesitated, then added: “I’m Bob, by the way.”
His voice wavered, but not from dishonesty. He said his name like he wasn’t sure it would mean anything to you. Like he just told you his name to be kind.
You gave him a nod. Not a smile. But not cold either.
“Hi, Bob.”
A beat passed.
You debated telling him your name. Joaquín would probably advise against it. But you weren’t feeling tactical anymore—you were feeling tired. Bruised in a way you couldn’t name. And maybe you just needed to feel like a real person again. Like someone who wasn’t being puppeteered.
So, after a pause, you gave him your name.
Bob blinked. Then he offered a small, shy smile that cracked at the edges.
“Cool. Hi,” he said, breathless. His brows furrowed as his gaze dropped lower, his eyes catching on your waist, your hips. “Uh—sorry again, about your dress. I didn’t mean to step on it earlier. You looked like you were in a rush and I—well, I was definitely in your way.”
You felt your lips twitch. The barest curve, not sharp or defensive. A faint grin. Delicate. “It’s alright,” you said. “Bound to happen at places like these.”
His head tilted slightly, curious. “You come to stuff like this often?”
“Not often. Just sometimes.”
And it was only then that you realized you’d stepped closer.
Your arms had casually found their place against the back of the couch across from him, hands gripping the cool metal frame as your scarf drifted with the breeze behind you. You weren’t leaning in exactly, but the distance had shrunk.
When did that happen?
You tilted your head, letting your eyes linger a little longer now, more curious than guarded. You assessed him with a little more attention now.
“I’m guessing you don’t come to these events much?”
Bob immediately shook his head, a nervous, breathy laugh escaping his lips like it was running away from him. You could see the cloud of it in the cold night air, swirling and vanishing between you.
“God, no. This is my second one and it’s—it’s been a lot. I think I’m gonna ask to just stay in my room next time.” He gave a little shrug, slouching a bit. “It’s not like I do much anyway. I mean, I’m allowed to talk to people, and I like talking to people, but I’d rather not sometimes.”
That made you blink. Allowed?
The word snagged on something in your mind. There was something disarming about the way he said it, like he didn’t mean to offer that information but also didn’t think it was worth hiding. You couldn’t tell if he was joking, oversharing, or both. But it was too strange to ignore. Like it slipped past a filter that wasn’t built right. It made you hesitate, if only for a breath.
But he wasn’t watching your reaction. He was staring at the flicker of the fire, letting the silence sit between you like it belonged there.
You folded your arms gently across your chest, the smooth material of your dress whispering beneath your fingertips.
“You seem to be talking just fine with me,” you pointed out, softer now.
Bob looked down at his hands. Then back at you. Then away again.
“I… well…” he stammered, voice catching on another shy, almost embarrassed laugh.
And then you saw it.
The blush. A warm pink crawling up from the collar of his white shirt to the apples of his cheeks. Subtle, but not subtle enough to miss. Especially not in the glow of the firelight, which danced over his skin like it had a crush of its own.
“I… yeah, I... I don’t know. Some people are easier to talk to than others, I guess.”
Your mouth twitched before you could stop it.
“Yeah,” you said, “I’d say so.”
The smile that tugged at your lips came easier than you expected. Not just polite. Not guarded. Honest. Probably the first one you’d let slip all night.
Seriously, who the hell is this guy? And why did he make the night feel a little less awful?
He was cute. Not the kind of handsome that announces itself the second someone walks in the room, but the kind that sneaks up on you, quiet, awkward, totally unsure of how much space he takes up and trying not to be a bother. Like he wasn’t used to being looked at for too long and didn’t know where to put himself when he was.
You’d seen a lot of people in this world wear confidence like a costume. Bob didn’t even try. He wore uncertainty like a second skin, and somehow, it made him feel… real.
You liked the way he didn’t crowd you. Didn’t puff out his chest or pretend to have all the answers. He sat with his knees slightly knocked together, most of his hands swallowed by the sleeves of his jacket, like even they were too bold to leave out in the open. Maybe he was anxious. Maybe a little broken in the places that never healed right, but he felt safe. Your gut told you so.
And that made you more nervous than anything else tonight.
You caught yourself watching him again. The way he kept his hands mostly hidden in his sleeves, shoulders rounded forward. His suit was clearly tailored but still seemed a size too big, like someone had tried to wrap him in something expensive just to prove he belonged. And still, it worked.
His hair was brown and shaggy, a bit longer than most people would have it at these events, barely even styled, but you kind of liked it. It gave him a strange charm, even if the loose curls hid his eyes whenever he ducked his head.
You weren’t used to thoughts like this. Not ones this soft. Not ones that fluttered in your chest like nervous birds. Not often. Not like this. Not here. Not in places like these.
You came for Bucky. That was the plan. Show up, find him, talk. Clear the air. Maybe start patching things up with your broken little found family—cracks and all. But Bucky wasn’t here. Valentina played you like a fiddle, and now the whole night had soured. Tomorrow, you’d wake up to press statements and headlines, scrambling to explain why your name wouldn’t be on the next New Avengers roster. You’d spin it clean, of course. That’s what you did.
But none of that mattered yet.
In this strange little pocket of quiet, just outside the hum of power plays and champagne politics, you kind of just wanted something normal. Not mission normal. Not cover-identity normal. Real normal. A conversation that didn’t hinge on leverage or patriotism. A moment that wasn’t already weaponized.
Maybe you could stay for another half hour before you disappeared and joined Joaquín in the van downstairs, counting your losses.
And maybe it was the firelight, a flicker here, a flicker there, warmth and glow dancing in the night that influenced you. But you found yourself leaning forward a little more, walking around the couch, smoothing your hands down the front of your dress. You straightened your spine, trying to will yourself into being brave.
“Would you...” You paused, “um. Do you wanna grab a drink with me?”
Bob blinked, eyes flicking up to meet yours. He sat up straighter at the invitation, startled, like a puppy hearing its name for the first time. His lips parted. For a split second, you swore he looked excited. Maybe even hopeful.
But then he deflated.
His shoulders fell, his expression shifting to a quiet sort of apology as his eyes darted away. “I... I can’t. Sorry—”
“Oh.” You blinked, trying not to let your smile falter.
“I want to,” he rushed to say, almost stumbling over the words. “I do.”
“It’s okay—”
“No. No. I would. It’s just... I’m—I’m sober now.”
Your mouth opened. Then closed.
“Oh.”
“I’m sorry—” he added quickly, like he was terrified he’d ruined something.
But you shook your head, even stepping a little closer without realizing it.
“No. Don’t be sorry,” you said gently. “Seriously. Congratulations. That’s a big deal.”
He smiled at that, small and grateful. A little crooked and thin-lipped. It was cute.
“Thanks.”
You hesitated a moment, then tilted your head. “Can I ask how long?”
“Uh…” He scratched the back of his neck, eyes flicking upward like he was counting the months with the stars. “I think about a year now. I’ve only really started keeping track since I moved here, so... maybe like, seven? Eight months?”
You smiled softly, your heart unexpectedly warm.
“That’s still a long time.”
He gave a sheepish shrug, and his cheeks pinked again, like he didn’t quite know what to do with your praise. Like no one gave it to him often enough for it to feel normal.
“Some days feel longer than others,” he said, the corner of his mouth twitching at his own tease.
You couldn’t help the laugh that bubbled out of you, quiet, but real.
“What are you…?”
Joaquín’s voice fizzled to life in your ear, cracking the quiet like a crowbar to glass.
“Are you flirting right now?”
You froze, the smile instantly tugging at your lips again despite yourself.
When you didn’t answer, he laughed.
“Oh my god, you’re totally flirting right now! It’s so bad, but you so are! Who even is this guy?”
You turned ever so slightly, subtle as you could manage, and pressed a knuckle into your ear to mute him. Your cheeks warmed in tandem with Bob’s.
Bob blinked. “Sorry… did I, um—was that weird?”
“No, no,” you said quickly, maybe too quickly. “That wasn’t you.”
He just nodded, like your word was more than enough. Like you could’ve told him the moon was fake, and he’d say, huh, never really thought about that before.
You moved to take a seat across from him, the fireplace crackling softly between you like a low, slow heartbeat. The warmth of the flames painted him in golds and ambers, the flickering light catching the softness in his eyes and the loose fall of his hair.
You fidgeted with your fingers out of instinct. And across the fire, he mirrored the motion—thumb twisting around his knuckle, pinky tapping rhythmically against the inside of his sleeve. There was something strangely reassuring in that shared nervousness, like you were both waiting for the same storm to pass.
You let out a quiet breath, tension easing from your shoulders. “You said you moved here? Like, New York?”
“Yeah,” he said, nodding. His shoulders dipped too, visibly relaxing just a touch, like your voice permitted him to breathe. “I… uh, I lived in Malyasha for a while. But I’m from Florida. Born and raised. Where—where are you from?”
You tilted your head slightly, watching how intently he tried to keep eye contact and how quickly he broke it again. “I flew in from Washington.”
“D.C.?” he asked, and you nodded.
His eyebrows lifted, eyes wide for a split second. “Wow. Do you work in the White House or something?”
You huffed a laugh, smiling into your words. “Sure. Something like that.”
His head bobbed along with the answer.
“So you’re like… a really important person here.”
You laughed again, this time wider. Your teeth showed. It surprised you how easily you let your guard down. “I wouldn’t say that.”
But he was smiling too, softer now. Less anxious.
“You are,” he said, more sure of himself now. “I saw the way people looked at you tonight. Not—not that I was watching you or anything… just, it’s hard not to. You’re, um…”
You saw the moment he lost his words, saw them spill and scatter like marbles across a floor. His blush deepened, blooming across his cheeks in a full, unmistakable deep red colour. He ducked his head, eyes falling to his shoes again, and you watched him fight a shy, apologetic smile.
“…I can see why they’d want your picture.”
And just like that, your heart softened.
You leaned in a little, elbows resting against your knees. “Thank you, Bob. You’re really sweet, you know that?”
Bob looked up again, startled by the compliment, his mouth parting slightly like he didn’t know what to say to that. You weren’t sure if anyone had ever told him that before, and if they had, you could guess they didn’t mean it the way you did now.
He didn’t belong here. That much was obvious. Not with people like Valentina, not with cold smiles and polished lies. Not with mercenaries, politicians, and millionaires who hide behind their money. You could see it in the way he sat too stiffly on a velvet chair meant for lounging, in the way he tugged at his sleeves or tucked his hands away when he felt exposed.
“What’re you doing in a place like this, Bob?”
He blinked, tilting his head like he wasn’t sure what you meant.
You smiled, eyes squinting a little as you leaned forward more. “I mean, are you like, a sponsor? Investor?”
The words didn’t even sound right on your tongue, not when directed at him. The image of him swirling champagne and talking stocks was so laughably out of sync with the shy guy currently pressing himself into the couch cushions like he wanted to disappear.
“I don’t think you’re here for the politics,” you added, and there was a touch of something playful in your voice.
He chuckled softly, eyes crinkling at the corners. “Me? Gosh, no. I don’t… I don’t do politics.” He scratched the back of his ear, sheepish again. “That’s Bucky’s thing. I’m here for my friends.”
And just like that, your whole world tilted.
Your smile dropped before you could stop it. A subtle shift, but you felt it everywhere: in your spine, in your lungs, in the weight of your hands resting suddenly still on your knees.
You straightened. Slowly.
“…You know Bucky?”
The question came quieter than you intended, and Bob must’ve heard the change, the sudden stillness in your voice. His smile faltered, and he went still, too, sensing the tension without understanding it. His posture shrank, as if unsure what he’d stepped into, as if trying not to take up more space than he already had to upset you.
He nodded, a cautious kind of affirmation. “Yeah. He’s my friend.”
That stunned silence stretched long between you.
“I… I know he’s your friend too,” Bob added quickly, the words spilling out like he was trying to fill the void before it grew too wide. His voice was quieter now, softer around the edges, almost apologetic. “I heard you talking about him to Val, I—I thought maybe…”
You weren’t sure why he kept talking. Maybe because you hadn’t said anything. Maybe because your smile had disappeared too fast, and he could feel the way the mood had shifted even if he didn’t know why. His nervous ramble wasn’t meant to hurt, you could tell that. But it did. It did because the moment he said Val, something in you knotted tight again.
The warm glow you’d felt around him moments ago started to dim, curling in on itself like a candle snuffed out mid-flicker. Your heart gave a small, stupid lurch—embarrassed at how quickly you’d let your guard down. Of course he knew Bucky. Of course he was close to Valentina. The pieces slid together too easily now, fitting into a picture you didn’t want to look at.
You tried to pull yourself back together, quickly and quietly. You reminded yourself this wasn’t supposed to be about comfort. It wasn’t about soft smiles or normal conversations or maybe asking someone out for a drink. You came here with a mission, no matter how personal it was. To find Bucky. To set the record straight. This—this moment of peace with a stranger who felt safe—wasn’t supposed to happen.
He called her Val. Like they were friends. Like they knew each other beyond just work. Like he wasn’t just some shy, nice guy who complimented you under his breath and blushed when you smiled at him. Jesus, were you that easy?
A strange bitterness bloomed in your mouth. Not anger, more like disappointment. At yourself, maybe. For forgetting, even just for a second, what kind of place this really was.
You stood up.
The decision was sudden, impulsive, a small motion made louder by the way Bob flinched. His eyes followed you, something tentative and uncertain flickering across his face.
You reached for your earpiece, thumb brushing over the button to unmute Joaquín.
But Bob stood, too. Slowly, almost clumsily, like he wasn’t sure if he was supposed to follow you or stay where he was.
“Did I—did I say something wrong?” he asked.
You froze. Your fingers stilled over the earpiece. You hadn’t expected that.
You turned, not quite facing him fully, but enough to catch the look on his face. His brows had drawn together, confusion etched faintly into his expression, and one of his hands was lifted just slightly, hovering in the air between you like he’d started to reach out and changed his mind halfway through. There were still several feet of space between you. The fire crackled low between you both, casting shadows across the expensive furniture and marble tiles.
“I’m sorry if I did,” he said, voice smaller now. “I didn’t mean to upset you.”
That stopped you. “No… you didn’t…” You said, the words stumbling out, half-formed. You didn’t know why you tried to soothe him. Maybe it was the way his eyes had gone wide or the way he seemed to dread the thought of you walking away just when he was finally starting to settle into himself. It stirred something in you. Something that made your chest tighten.
You could’ve said never mind. You wanted to. Pretend his words hadn’t struck a nerve, hadn’t made your heart twist in your chest. But they did. It bothered you.
“You didn’t upset me,�� you repeated, softer now. “I just… wasn’t expecting that.”
Bob blinked at you. “Oh,” he said, so gently it almost got carried off by the breeze.
A silence fell between you again. You wrapped your arms around yourself against the wind as you turned to look at him.
“Who are you, Bob?”
He straightened, caught off guard. “I’m... I’m Bob,” he said. “Just... just Bob.”
You tilted your head. “That’s it?”
He opened his mouth like he was about to say more, but nothing came out. His lips parted, then pressed shut again, the words retreating back into him like they were scared to be seen. He just shrugged helplessly. Like that’s all he had left.
And yet he kept looking at you like he was begging you not to go. Not yet.
You sighed, bringing your fingers up to your temple, pressing cold skin to your warm forehead. There was a pulse pounding there now, dull and insistent.
“I just…” You started, voice cracking faintly. “I came here looking for Bucky. I thought maybe I could get him to come home.”
“Home?” Bob asked carefully, his eyes soft.
“Yeah. With Sam. With us.” You hesitated, glancing through the tall windows behind him. The light inside spilled gold across the floor, where laughter echoed and people clinked glasses without a care in the world. Your eyes landed on the group you’d been avoiding all night—Bucky’s new team, huddled together with drinks, grinning like it was just another night to celebrate.
It made your chest hollow out.
“Ever since he joined Valentina’s little fuckass team or... whatever this is,” you said, gesturing vaguely toward the gala behind you, “everything’s just been so... shitty.”
You looked back at Bob, surprised to find that he’d stepped a little closer. Just enough that you could see the way his jaw twitched, like he was working through something he didn’t know how to say.
“Sorry,” you muttered, suddenly self-conscious. “Not to, like, dump all that on you.”
The cold bit into your arms. You rubbed them quickly, wishing you’d brought a coat.
“It’s not...” Bob started, and then, more firmly, “It’s not a fuckass team.”
You blinked. “Sorry?”
“They saved me,” he said, voice trembling just a bit. “Lena. Bucky. The others. They’re my family. We... we take care of each other.”
You stared at him, something icy curling low in your stomach. “Yeah?”
“Yeah,” he said again, earnest. “I know it probably doesn’t look like it from the outside, but... they gave me a chance when no one else would. They didn’t treat me like I was broken. They... saw me.”
You wanted to believe that. You really did. But it felt like trying to swallow glass.
“Right,” you muttered, too tired to argue. “I have to go.”
You turned, reaching for your earpiece.
“Wait,” Bob said suddenly, like he’d only just realized this was goodbye. “Will I... will I see you again?”
You paused, fingers still hovering near your ear. The balcony lights flickered faintly behind you, and the sound of the city buzzed low in the background, as if the world were holding its breath.
You didn’t turn around right away.
Part of you wanted to say no. Make it easy. Clean.
But when you finally looked back at him, at the boyish worry carved into his face, the way he stood there with his hands half-raised like he didn’t know whether to reach for you or let you go, you felt that ache again. The one that whispered that maybe, despite everything, he meant what he said. That maybe there was still something worth salvaging in the strange, quiet warmth you’d felt earlier. Something real.
And you desperately wanted it to be real. You wanted it to mean something.
“I don’t know,” you admitted, voice barely above a whisper.
Bob swallowed. Nodded like he understood.
But his eyes lingered on you like he hoped the answer might change.
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strawberymilktea · 19 days ago
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between book pages and baked pies (r.r.)
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summary : He came in on Thursdays. Always looking for new books to read. Always smiled like he didn’t quite belong anywhere. Then, you asked him to pretend to be your boyfriend for one night. And he said yes.
Then you found out he’s the Sentry —
and suddenly, pretending doesn’t feel so simple anymore.
pairing : robert 'bob' reynolds x reader / sentry x reader
content : basically just fluff, fakedating!au, fakeboyfriend!au
warnings : none
word count : 7k
⋆˙⟡
Thursday, 10:43 am.
You glance up, and there he is.
You’ve seen him before. Always on Thursdays, always around the same time. Always with that same energy — like he doesn’t quite belong to this world, or maybe just doesn’t expect to be noticed in it.
He has messy hair, a too-worn jacket, and the kind of posture that says please don’t ask me anything, but I’m also not in a hurry to leave.
Today, for the first time, he meets your eyes.
You smile. “Back again. That’s three Thursdays in a row.”
He blinks, like he’s surprised you’ve been keeping count.
“…I like it here,” he says, voice quiet but not shy. Just gentle.
“Most people say that when they’re avoiding something,” you joke lightly, leaning your elbows on the counter. “Bad day?”
He shrugs. “It’s a day.”
Fair.
He heads toward the fantasy section, the same corner he always drifts to. You try not to stare — you really do — but it’s hard not to watch the way he slows down at the shelves like they’re familiar terrain.
After a few minutes, he returns with two paperbacks — both epic fantasy, both with weathered covers and dramatic titles like The Hollow Crown and Ash and Sovereign.
You ring them up, sneaking a glance. “You like the ones where the world almost ends?”
He gives a faint smile. “Sometimes I like when it doesn’t.”
You pause, curious. “You a writer?”
He shakes his head. “No. Just… a fan.”
“I get it,” you say, handing him the bag. “Books are a safer way to live dangerously.”
He smiles at that. A little more real.
Then, on impulse, you ask, “So, what do you do?”
He hesitates just a second longer than most people would.
“…Sometimes I help save the world,” he says, deadpan.
You blink. And then you laugh, because there’s something about the way he says it — so dry and sincere — that it’s obviously a joke. Or at least… you think it is.
“Wow,” you grin. “That’s bold. You a firefighter or a Marvel cosplayer?”
He shrugs one shoulder. “Something like that.”
You hand him his receipt, eyes narrowing playfully. “Well, mysterious world-saver, if you ever want book recommendations, let me know. We’ve got a great section for heroes with identity crises.”
He nods, turning toward the door. “I’ll keep that in mind.”
He’s almost gone when he pauses and looks back.
“What’s your name?” he asks you, and you tell him.
He nods once. “I’m Bob.”
Then he’s gone.
The bell chimes again — sharper this time. Final.
You stand there for a moment, watching the door swing closed behind him. Then you shake your head and go back to restocking the display.
Still, for some reason, you keep thinking about him.
Bob.
⋆˙⟡
Your phone lights up with the most dangerous contact in your list: Mom.
You stare at it for a second, debating whether to let it go to voicemail.
Then you sigh, hit accept, and brace yourself.
“Hi, sweetheart!” your mom’s voice practically sings as you answer. “I was starting to think you’d forgotten how to use a phone.”
You smile, mouth full of lukewarm noodles. “Hi, Mom. You called me yesterday.”
“I know, I just missed you. So sue me.”
There’s a beat where you brace yourself. And sure enough—
“So, listen,” she continues, far too casually. “Next Saturday we’re doing dinner at our place. Just the usual — your aunts, cousins, possibly Grandma if we can coax her out of her crosswords. Nothing formal, but, you know, nice.”
“Mmhmm.” You sip your drink, waiting.
“We were thinking 6 o’clock. And of course we’ll do something vegetarian for you—oh, and listen, your cousin Chelsea is bringing that new boyfriend. Super cute. Works in finance. Wears suits on weekends. Can you imagine?”
There it is.
“Anyway,” she adds, far too lightly, “I just thought I’d ask — are you seeing anyone these days? Anyone worth bringing?”
You snort. “Bringing where? Into the lion’s den of a family dinner?”
“Oh come on,” she laughs. “We’re not that bad.”
You give her a look she can’t see. “Last time Aunt Diane tried to set me up with her neighbor’s chiropractor, and Uncle Marty asked if I’d frozen my eggs.”
“She meant well. He didn’t, but—still.”
You roll your eyes. “No, Mom. I’m not bringing anyone.”
“You’re not?” Her voice dips into gentle disappointment. “Not even just as a friend? You have such a sweet personality. I feel like people must just gravitate to you.”
You hum noncommittally, casually glancing toward your bookshelf. Your eyes drift to the spot where you keep returns and holds — including two fantasy books still waiting for a certain quiet customer to pick up.
You think of Bob, his soft smile, the way he said “Sometimes I help save the world” like it wasn’t even strange.
But you say nothing.
“Anyway,” your mom chirps on. “No pressure. Just… you know. You’re not getting any less amazing with time.”
“That’s not how time works, Mom.”
“Semantics. Just let me know, okay? We’ll keep a seat open. Just in case.”
You sigh and mutter, “Okay.”
She’s already launching into a story about a raccoon in the neighbor’s shed by the time you close your eyes and groan into your throw pillow.
You definitely don’t have a date.
You definitely don’t need one.
…But your brain is already wondering what Bob looks like when he’s not rain-damp and bookstore quiet.
⋆˙⟡
Tuesday, 11:07 am.
The bell over the door rings, and — like clockwork — you glance up.
There he is.
Bob.
Same as always, but also… not. His jacket’s still weathered, but he looks a little more put-together today. Hair slightly neater. Like maybe he didn’t get caught in a wind tunnel on the way over. Less cryptid, more mysterious traveler passing through town.
He doesn’t say anything at first. Just gives a quick scan of the room before heading straight for the back... for the fantasy section. His usual.
You try not to smile.
Try.
“Tuesday this time?” you call out from behind the counter, tone light. “Switching it up?”
Bob glances over, mouth tugging up slightly. “Had some time.”
You nod, watching as his hand drifts over the table display near the entrance — new paperbacks, some with gold foil titles and overdramatic taglines. He doesn’t stop there long. Just a brush of his fingers across the covers before moving on.
“You sure it’s not just the emotionally damaged swordsmen calling to you again?” you add, moving toward a nearby shelf with a stack of returns.
He raises a brow, pausing in front of a familiar book. “Maybe I like consistency.”
“Bold choice in this economy.”
That gets you a huff of amusement, soft and unexpected.
He picks up The Lantern War — you know the one. Mid-trilogy. Sad prince. Betrayals. You’ve read it twice and cried both times. He opens it, flipping through the first few pages with surprising care, like he’s searching for something he might have missed the last time he held it.
You lean against a nearby shelf, casually.
“You know,” you begin, tone half-teasing, “you don’t talk much, but you’ve got this whole mysterious loner with a tragic past thing going on.”
Bob looks up — startled, but not annoyed. Just a little caught off guard.
“People pay for that kind of vibe on dating apps,” you add quickly, before you lose your nerve.
He blinks.
You wince. “Sorry. That was weird. I’ve just… been talking to my mom too much lately. She’s on this campaign to get me to bring someone to a family dinner and now I think I’m starting to project ‘potential boyfriend material’ onto every semi-normal customer.”
Bob doesn’t laugh, exactly — but something close. A breath. A smile. Small and real.
“I’ll take that as a compliment,” he says, gently placing the book under his arm.
You nod. “It was meant to be one.”
The air shifts then. Not awkward — not yet — but quieter. You both stand there for a beat too long, not speaking. The store is still around you: soft music playing low, dust motes catching in the light near the windows, the occasional creak of the building settling. Cozy, lived-in quiet.
You watch him for a second longer than you should.
He always lingers when he’s here. Not like he’s killing time. Like he’s… catching his breath.
You don’t say it — not aloud, not now. But something clicks. The beginnings of an idea. Stupid, insane, utterly desperate.
Still.
As he approaches the counter, you glance at him sideways.
He wouldn’t. That’s insane. Would he?
He pays in cash, always cash, and nods politely.
“Thanks,” he says.
“See you Thursday?” you ask, voice light, playful.
He pauses, then shrugs. “Maybe.”
You watch him step back out into the sunlight, his silhouette framed by the door before it swings closed behind him. The bell chimes again. He disappears down the street, a figure in motion.
And you’re still watching the door when the next customer steps up and gently clears their throat.
Right. Work.
You turn back to the register, hands moving automatically — scanning books, making small talk — but your brain’s somewhere else.
⋆˙⟡
“Hi, honey!” she sings the second you answer. “Don’t panic — this is not a ‘guilt you into bringing a boyfriend’ call.”
You snort. “You literally said the word ‘boyfriend’ in the first sentence.”
“Okay, technically,” she says, unfazed, “but I’m just calling about the family dinner this Saturday.”
You sigh and lean against the counter. “I know, I know. 6 p.m., casserole, deeply invasive questions from Aunt Diane—”
“Oh, speaking of Aunt Diane,” she says sweetly, which should’ve been your warning, “she knows this great guy from her pickleball league—works in insurance, divorced once, only a little bitter. She wants to bring him to dinner for you to meet.
Your stomach sinks.
You stare at your fridge like it might offer an escape hatch.
“I—Mom, no.”
“Well, honey,” she says, trying for innocent, “you haven’t said you’re bringing anyone. And if you’re still single—”
“I’m not.”
Silence.
Your heart drops into your socks. You scramble.
“I mean. I am. Seeing someone. Kind of. It’s been, like, a month.”
A pause. Too long.
“You are?” she says slowly.
You wince. “Yeah. I didn’t want to bring him because, you know, the whole interrogation-by-relatives thing. I didn’t want to scare him off. He’s… kind of shy.”
Your mom gasps like you just told her she’s finally getting a grandchild.
“Oh my god, why didn’t you tell me sooner?! What’s he like? Is he nice? Where did you meet? Does he like dogs?”
“Mom, calm down,” you say quickly, pacing now. “He’s just… quiet. And really kind. And, you know. Nice.”
You mentally kick yourself.
“Well, now you have to bring him,” she insists. “If he’s already survived a month with you, he’s clearly got staying power.”
You laugh sharply. “Gee, thanks.”
She chuckles. “I’m just saying — you never bring anyone. This is a big deal.”
You force a smile into your voice. “Let me talk to him first, okay? I’ll see if he’s up for it.”
“Promise me you’ll try.”
“…Promise.”
You hang up, staring at your reflection in the microwave door.
Mouth open. Brain screaming.
You just fake-dated someone in a conversation.
Now all you have to do is actually find someone to play the boyfriend you’ve apparently been dating for a month.
You think of Bob. The quiet guy who reads about broken heroes and once joked about saving the world.
And for some godforsaken reason…
…you think he might actually say yes.
⋆˙⟡
Thursday, 12:45 pm
It’s raining again.
Of course it is.
A slow, steady drizzle beads against the front windows, softening the city outside into watercolor shapes. Inside, the shop smells like paper and cedar polish, with a hint of peppermint from the tin you cracked open after lunch. A jazz cover of something vaguely familiar plays from the old speakers near the register, barely audible over the patter of rain and your quiet muttering.
“Two days late on the shipment, again, and if they swap my fantasy order with true crime one more time—” you grumble under your breath, balancing a stack of returns against your hip as you shuffle toward the front display. “Who even wants twelve copies of Stabbing for Dummies?”
You sigh, crouch to fit the bottom shelf, and toss a glance at the fogged-up door.
“I swear, if one more teenager asks where we keep the smut, I’m moving to the mountains. I’ll sell rocks. I’ll become a rock girl.”
The bell above the door chimes.
Right on cue.
You straighten just a little too fast and nearly drop a paperback. “Welcome in,” you call absently, trying to sound composed — but you already know.
It’s him.
You don’t need to look.
Still, you do — and there he is.
Bob stands just inside the doorway, rain misted in his hair, the shoulders of his dark green hoodie slightly damp beneath a black denim jacket. His jeans are worn in the knees. The laces of his boots are uneven. He looks like he walked through the rain on purpose, like the storm outside didn’t even try to stop him.
There’s a quietness to him that doesn’t feel awkward anymore. Just familiar.
“Back to your usual Thursday shift?” you ask, setting a book down and turning toward him fully now.
He gives a one-shoulder shrug. “It felt wrong not to.”
There’s something steadier about him today. He still carries that bone-deep kind of tired — like his body’s been holding something heavy for too long — but his gaze doesn’t flick away as fast when your eyes meet. He lets the quiet settle for a beat before moving deeper into the store.
You catch yourself smoothing your shirt before following him.
“Let me guess,” you say as he veers toward the back. “Fantasy section?”
“Always.”
You trail a few paces behind, grabbing a book that’s been reshelved in the wrong genre. There’s no one else in the store right now. Just the two of you, and the occasional whisper of rain against the windows.
He stops in front of a display and picks up The Sword Beneath the Throne. Studies the cover like it holds some secret he hasn’t cracked yet.
You rest your elbow against a shelf. “That one’s going to wreck you emotionally,” you warn, teasing. “But, you know. In a noble sacrifice kind of way.”
Bob glances over. “Good to know.”
You hesitate — just for a second. Then you inhale, let the moment linger, and say: “Hey… can I ask you something kind of weird?”
His eyes shift to yours — cautious, but open.
“Sure.”
You clear your throat, suddenly aware of every sound in the store. “So… hypothetically,” you begin, with what you hope is a breezy tone, “if someone were being — let’s say — aggressively pressured by their entire family to bring a boyfriend to a dinner—like, a big one—”
“Okay,” he says slowly, still holding the book.
“And they may or may not have panicked and told said family they’d already been dating someone for a month… someone who does not, technically, exist—”
Bob’s brow arches slightly, the corner of his mouth twitching.
“Go on."
“Would it be completely unhinged to ask you to maybe… pretend to be that person? Just for a night. Three hours max. There’s pie.”
Silence.
Bob doesn’t laugh. Doesn’t recoil.
He just watches you.
And you, of course, rush in to fill the quiet.
“I know it’s weird. And probably creepy. And I swear I’m not dangerous. You don’t even really know me. But you’re the only person I know who could pull off being quiet and normal enough to not scare my mom or make my aunts think I’m secretly dating a war criminal.”
His expression shifts — thoughtful now, not unreadable. Still holding the book, but not looking at it anymore.
“And if it helps,” you add quickly, “I already told them you’re shy. So you wouldn’t even have to say much. Just… look human. Maybe compliment the stuffing. Smile once. Pretend I’m charming.”
He tilts his head slightly.
“You want me to pretend to be your boyfriend?”
“Just for a night,” you say. “No pressure. No long con. Just mashed potatoes and survival.”
“…Because your mom threatened you with a pickleball player.”
You blink. “Wait. How do you—?”
“You talk while you shelve books,” he says simply, mouth quirking. “I pick things up.”
You gape at him for a beat. Then snort.
And then laugh. A real one. It escapes before you can stop it — bright and ridiculous and yours.
Bob… smiles.
It’s small. A blink-and-you’ll-miss-it thing. But it’s there.
“So?” you say, biting your lip. “Would you consider it? I can’t offer much. Just pie. And probably embarrassing levels of gratitude.”
He sets the book down.
Looks at you.
A long moment passes.
“Okay,” he says.
You blink. “Wait — really?”
He nods, like it’s the simplest thing in the world. “Why not.”
“You didn’t even ask what kind of pie.”
“I trust your judgment.”
You squint at him. “You’re either the nicest person alive, or wildly unhinged yourself.”
Bob shrugs. “Can’t it be both?”
Something in your chest tightens — in a good way.
“Dinner’s Saturday,” you say softly. “At my parents’. Here's... the address?” you added as you handed him a yellow post-it note with your parent's address in red ink, which was actually written not even ten minutes before.
You wrote it thinking that there's an 80% chance he'll accept it.
And he actually did.
He nods. “Should I wear something nice?”
“Honestly,” you say, “if you show up looking like less of a cryptid than usual, my family will be thrilled.”
“I’ll see what I can do.”
He turns to leave, hood pulled up lazily as he disappears into the rainy street — a figure blurred by drizzle and glass.
And you?
You stand behind the counter, staring after him.
Your hands are a little shaky. Not from nerves.
From relief. And something else.
Excitement, maybe.
Because somehow, against all logic and odds —
Bob said yes.
⋆˙⟡
Saturday, 5:49 pm
“Not too much sugar,” your mom says over your shoulder, peeking into the mixing bowl as if she doesn’t trust you with a spoon.
You hold the measuring cup up dramatically. “Mom, you’ve raised me. If I die of poor pie proportions, it’s on you.”
She snorts and hands you the nutmeg. “Don’t tempt me.”
You smile, despite yourself. The kitchen is warm in that nostalgic way — cluttered, golden light filtering in through the curtains, something soft playing from the old speaker by the fridge. You’re elbow-deep in pie filling, sleeves rolled up, and trying not to think about how insane this all is.
You’ve told everyone you’ve been dating someone for a month.
That he’s meeting your family.
That he’s sweet and shy and real.
And in about fifteen minutes, Bob — your fake boyfriend — will be at the door.
You’re 85% sure he’ll show up. Maybe 90.
…Okay, 75.
“Do you need help with the crust?” your mom asks, and for once, she sounds like she’s trying not to pry.
You glance at her. She’s avoiding eye contact. She definitely wants to pry.
“Nope,” you say, pressing the dough into the pan. “Unless this is a metaphor for my love life, in which case, yeah, I could use a full support team.”
She hums noncommittally and starts slicing apples, her back to you.
“So,” she says, “you never told me how you met him.”
You hesitate. “The guy I’m—bringing tonight?”
She nods. “Mhm.”
You stall by rinsing your hands.
“It’s kind of a quiet story,” you say carefully. “We kept running into each other. Same place, same time. It just… kind of happened.”
“Hm.” She tosses apple slices into the bowl. “And you like him?”
You look down at the dough beneath your fingers. Think about his awkward smile. The way he listens like it costs him something. The warmth in his voice when he said, “Thanks for inviting me.”
You nod. “I think I do.”
Your mom looks over, something soft in her face now.
“Well,” she says gently, “I can’t wait to meet him.”
You smile and slide the pie into the oven just as the doorbell rings.
Your heart stops.
Your mom turns toward the sound.
You wipe your hands on a towel and take a breath.
“Okay,” you mutter to yourself, “moment of truth.”
You walk to the door.
And open it...
You expected nerves.
You did not expect him to look like this.
Bob stands on your porch like he walked out of a cologne ad and got lost on the way to GQ. His dark button-up is rolled at the sleeves, fitted just enough to draw attention to muscles he normally hides under worn hoodies. His hair—usually floppy and rain-wrecked—is now styled neatly back, just messy enough to look effortless.
You blink. “H-hi.”
He smiles—bashful, but sure of himself. “Hi.”
Before you can gather your thoughts or your dignity, he leans in and kisses you on the cheek. It’s warm, brief, but confident. His hand grazes your waist like muscle memory.
“I hope I’m not too early,” he murmurs.
“No—uh—no, perfect. You’re perfect. I mean, the timing. The timing is perfect.”
You step back to let him in, praying no one heard that.
As he crosses the threshold, he glances around, eyes scanning photos on the walls, shelves stacked with family memories. You take his coat. His scent lingers — fresh and faintly minty.
“My mom’s in the kitchen. Brace yourself.”
He chuckles. “Noted.”
You walk him into the war zone of casserole dishes and cousin chaos.
Your mom spots you both from the dining room and gasps like she’s just been cast on a reality show. “There he is! You must be Bob!”
Bob blinks for a moment, surprised she already knows his name. You shoot her a look that says Mom, please, I am begging.
He recovers quickly. “Yes, ma’am.”
“And polite!” she says, delighted, patting his arm like she’s already ordering him to call her ‘Mom’ by dessert.
Dinner unfolds in a blur. Plates are passed, stories fly around the table like darts, and somehow Bob navigates it like a pro. He even laughs at your uncle’s tired jokes. When your grandma comments on his posture, he adjusts with a quiet “Yes, ma’am” that makes her beam.
At one point, your youngest cousin, Milo, squints at him from across the table.
“You look really familiar,” Milo says, tilting his head.
You freeze mid-chew. Bob’s fork pauses halfway to his mouth.
“I get that a lot,” Bob says calmly.
Milo frowns. “Like, weirdly familiar. Like—superhero familiar.”
“Milo,” your mom cuts in, “eat your green beans.”
Milo shrugs but keeps sneaking glances.
You let out the breath you didn’t know you were holding.
And about halfway through dessert, something happens.
The TV is on behind your mom’s head, low volume. Just the news playing — no one’s really watching. Your dad’s closest to it, half turned in his chair, focused on his pie.
You’re listening to your aunt ramble about her new garden mulch when the news anchor’s voice shifts tone.
“—dramatic footage of the Thunderbolts’ mission this past Wednesday—”
Your brain barely registers it.
You glance at the screen.
Explosions. Screaming. Concrete cracking like bones.
A familiar flash of red and black—John Walker. Then Ghost phasing through debris.
And then—
Golden light. Blinding, unmistakable.
The Sentry.
A blurred shot becomes a close-up.
He’s floating mid-air. Hair wild, cape tattered, jaw clenched in focus. Glowing.
It’s not grainy enough to deny. The face is clear. The posture. The jawline.
You choke on your pie. Eyes widening.
Bob.
You snap your gaze toward him.
He doesn’t move, but his fork slowly lowers.
Your eyes dart to your dad. He’s starting to turn toward the screen.
Before he can react—click.
The TV cuts off.
Silence.
Your dad frowns. “Did the TV break again?”
Bob shrugs, wiping his mouth with his napkin.
Your relatives resume their conversations without a second thought. Bread is passed. Laughter resumes. No one’s the wiser.
Except for you.
And Milo, who is now staring at Bob with slack-jawed awe.
You place your fork down slowly. Your pulse is in your throat.
Bob meets your gaze across the table. Calm. Cautious.
You clear your throat.
“Hey,” you say sweetly, plastering on a smile. “Can you excuse us for a second? I just need to talk to my boyfriend for a minute.”
He rises without protest.
You grab his arm, steer him down the hallway... past photos of you in braces, past the coat rack, past everything normal, and into the dim, quiet hallway near the laundry room.
Then you turn, look up at him, and whisper—
“What the hell, Bob?”
You shut the door behind you.
Bob leans casually against the wall — too casually — like he isn’t literally the man you just saw hovering over a burning building on national television.
You cross your arms. “Okay. Start talking.”
He looks down at his hands, fingers laced. There’s a strange stillness to him, like he’s waiting for a storm he knows is coming.
“I didn’t lie,” he says quietly.
You stare. “Bob. I watched you on the news. You turned off my parents’ TV. With your mind.”
“I said I help people,” he replies, looking up at you now. Calm. Earnest. “Sometimes I help save the world.”
You gape. “I thought you meant you were a firefighter. Or a teacher! Or like, I don’t know, a really good therapist!”
He huffs a soft laugh. “Sorry. That probably would’ve been easier.”
“You’re—” You lower your voice, leaning in. “You’re The Sentry. You’re an actual Avenger. Or—Thunderbolt. Or—whatever the hell team you’re on.”
“Technically, I’m sort of on loan.”
You give him a look. “That's not the point.”
He’s quiet again. But not defensive. Not evasive. Just… waiting. Letting you process.
And you are processing.
All the little things you overlooked:
The quiet strength in how he moved.
The weird evasiveness.
The stormy energy he sometimes carried like he was trying to keep it bottled.
You exhale, the adrenaline finally catching up.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” you ask, softer now.
“I didn’t want you to treat me differently,” he says. “I liked the bookstore. I liked that you didn’t know. You talked to me like I was just… Bob.”
You blink. “Is that your real name?”
“Yes.”
“And you really read fantasy novels?”
He actually smiles. “Especially the sad ones.”
You hesitate. Your heart is still pounding, but your voice softens even more.
“You came to dinner,” you murmur. “You sat through my uncle’s knee replacement story. You complimented my grandma’s brooch.”
He lifts a shoulder. “Wasn’t hard. I meant it.”
You stare at him.
The man who eats lemon muffins on Thursdays.
The man who shyly kissed your cheek.
The man who casually shut off a television with his brain.
You rub a hand over your face. “I dragged The Sentry into a fake dating scheme because my mom thinks I’m undateable.”
His voice is gentle. “You didn’t drag me. I said yes.”
You glance up at him. “Why?”
His gaze softens. “Because you asked.”
You swallow.
He takes a step closer. His voice lowers, almost shy again. “If you want to call this off now, I’ll understand. I’ll tell them we broke up before dessert. I can cry if it helps.”
You laugh — a short, startled sound — but it breaks some of the tension.
You look up at him. “You’d really do that?”
“I’m a very convincing fake ex.”
You’re quiet for a moment. He’s still standing there — not defensive, not cocky — just Bob. The same Bob who buys fantasy novels and waits for you to recommend the good ones.
The same Bob who just blew your entire reality to pieces.
And yet…
You find yourself saying, “Let’s just get through dessert.”
His brows raise slightly. “You sure?”
You nod. “We can panic later.”
He smiles. A real one. Small. Grateful.
“Okay,” he says. “Back to the pie.”
You nod, open the hallway door, and walk back toward the dining room together — fake-dating The Sentry, one awkward spoonful of whipped cream at a time.
You return to the dining room with Bob beside you, and despite the mini-crisis that just played out in the hallway, somehow… everything continues like nothing happened.
The pie’s been sliced. Plates passed around. The table is filled with the comforting hum of your family talking over each other, laughing, sneaking bites of dessert before their coffee cools.
Bob slips into his seat beside you, and when your mom asks if he wants whipped cream, he nods and says, “Yes, ma’am,” with a small smile.
She beams.
You stare at him for a second longer than you should.
He’s calm. Almost too calm. Like he’s pretending to be human in a sitcom, and somehow nailing the part.
Milo won’t stop glancing over, like he’s replaying the Thunderbolts footage in his head. But thankfully, he keeps his mouth shut.
You press your knee against Bob’s under the table.
He glances at you.
You mouth: Thank you.
He just nods.
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When the dishes are finally cleared and your aunts start hunting for their coats, you help your mom carry plates to the kitchen. She’s humming. Actually humming.
You try not to let guilt claw at your chest.
After a few minutes, coats are zipped, goodbyes are exchanged, and your mom pats Bob’s arm like he’s already part of the family. Your dad claps him on the back and says, “You handled the chaos pretty well, son. That’s promising.”
You’re still not sure whether that’s a compliment or a threat.
Finally, it’s just the two of you at the door.
You walk Bob out onto the porch. The sky’s dark, but the porch light gives his face a warm glow. You wrap your arms around yourself, partly from the cool air, partly because you don’t know what to do with them anymore.
“I’m sorry,” you say quietly, leaning against the railing. “I dragged you into that mess because I panicked and lied to my mom and I never expected you to actually say yes or look like that or—”
Bob steps forward and kisses you.
Soft. Sure. Warm.
It happens in the span of a heartbeat — his hand resting gently on your cheek, the kiss itself lingering just long enough to make you forget where you are.
When he pulls back, he whispers, “Sorry.”
You blink, stunned.
He jerks his thumb toward the window beside the front door.
You turn.
Your mom is standing there, mostly hidden behind the curtain — watching. Her expression is somewhere between victorious and smug.
You groan. “Oh my god.”
Bob chuckles. “She’s committed. I respect it.”
You shake your head, trying not to smile. “That was mean.”
“That was method acting,” he teases.
You hesitate, then reach out and fix the collar of his jacket. “You really didn’t have to do all this.”
“I wanted to,” he says. “I meant what I said — I liked being asked.”
A beat.
“I still do.”
The air between you shifts — warmer now, quiet but honest.
You nod once, not sure what to say. Not sure what this is becoming.
He opens the gate and starts to walk down the path. Just before he disappears into the dark, he turns back.
“I’ll see you Tuesday?”
You smile. “Tuesday.”
And then he’s gone.
You close the door gently, heart fluttering like it’s trying to tell you something. You lean against the wood for a second, exhale, and whisper to no one:
“…Oh no.”
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Sunday, 7:36 am
It starts like any other day.
You stop at your usual corner café, order your iced coffee (half sweet, extra ice, just the way you like it), and wrap your hands around the plastic cup like it might ground you.
For a moment, the world feels normal.
You walk the next block with your earbuds in, the playlist soothing, the city humming gently around you. It isn’t until you pass the magazine stand by the subway entrance that something feels… off.
Your eyes drift lazily over the covers as you walk by.
And then you see it.
Front and center. Bold red font. A full-page photo.
“WHO IS THE SENTRY’S MYSTERY GIRLFRIEND?” (Shocking New Romance Revealed — Civilian Involved?)
You stop mid-step. Your breath catches.
Your own face stares back at you from under a blur of porch lights and lipstick smudged from a very real, very public kiss.
You nearly drop your coffee right there.
But it only gets worse.
Because as you turn the corner toward the bookstore — just a normal Tuesday morning — you don’t see the usual handful of early customers waiting for the shop to open.
You see a crowd.
No — not a crowd. A swarm.
Microphones. Cameras. People standing on tiptoes, phones raised high, shouting questions at… nothing, because the store isn’t even open yet.
Your stomach drops.
Your name gets shouted from somewhere in the noise.
And then, mercifully — your brain does the one logical thing.
It panics.
You spin around. Your foot hits the curb. Your coffee slips from your hand, hits the sidewalk, and explodes in a cold, sticky splash.
“Hey—hey! That’s her!” someone yells behind you.
You don’t look back.
You duck into the narrow alley between the bookstore and the laundromat, heart hammering, air slicing sharp into your lungs.
Your mind is racing with every terrible headline, every awkward question your mom is probably getting right now, and how very not normal your life has become.
And then—
“Hiii.”
You scream.
A figure drops from the fire escape like it’s nothing, landing in front of you with the elegance of a spy movie villain and the expression of someone who just finished a cinnamon roll.
Blonde. Tactical jacket. Combat boots. Sunglasses perched on her head like she accessorized mid-mission.
She smiles. “So. You’re the girlfriend?”
You stumble back a step, heart in your throat. “I—I’m—who are you?!”
“Yelena,” she says cheerfully, offering a hand like this is a brunch date. “Bob’s teammate. Sometimes assassin. Don’t worry, I’m nice-ish.”
You don’t take her hand. You just stare.
“I was sent to retrieve you,” she continues, already walking past you like she owns the alley. “Big mess. PR nightmare. Possibly global. Thought you might need help.”
“I—I’m fine,” you lie, inching toward the wall.
Yelena glances down at your coffee-covered shoes. “You’re not fine.”
You exhale shakily. “How is this real?”
She grins. “You kissed The Sentry on your porch. Now you’re in a tabloid warzone. Welcome to superhero dating.”
You press your palms to your face.
Behind you, the voices are getting louder.
Yelena tilts her head toward the street. “Wanna escape this circus?”
“…Yes.”
“Come on.” She tosses you a hoodie from her bag — black, oversized. “Put this on. You’re going to Thunderbolts HQ.”
“What?”
“Bob’s waiting,” she adds casually, “and he looks very stressed. It’s adorable.”
Your heart thumps harder.
You pull the hoodie over your head, the scent of leather and something faintly metallic catching in your nose. Yelena nods approvingly, then leads you toward a black SUV idling around the corner — quiet, sleek, and somehow completely unnoticed by the mob.
As you duck into the backseat, she climbs in beside you and shuts the door.
She tosses a protein bar in your lap.
“You’re going to need energy,” she says. “They’re gonna love you.”
The SUV pulls away.
The shouting fades behind you.
And your life? Well. It’s never going to be quiet again.
The SUV glides through a checkpoint, into an underground tunnel, then up a ramp. You think you see a guard tower disguised as a billboard. Or maybe you’re hallucinating. That’s possible too.
Yelena’s sitting casually beside you, texting someone, while you clutch your protein bar like it might shield you from public scrutiny and government agencies.
Finally, the vehicle stops. The door swings open.
Yelena hops out and waves you after her. “Don’t look nervous.”
“I am nervous.”
“Then pretend you’re not. That’s what we all do.”
You step out into a huge glass and steel atrium. Sleek floors. Tall ceilings. Giant screen with the Thunderbolts logo rotating in slow, dramatic fashion. Men in suits, agents in gear, someone zipping by on rollerblades like this is normal.
You? You’re in someone else’s hoodie, dried coffee on your pants, and your brain’s still processing “Bob is the Sentry.”
Yelena leads you through a corridor like she’s returning a library book. “Try not to look directly at Valentina unless you want to end up as the face of the team’s diversity initiative.”
“…What?”
“Just smile and nod.”
Yelena leads you down a bright hallway, past glass walls and security doors, through what feels like the inside of a top-secret airport crossed with an IKEA showroom. You’re still in someone else’s hoodie, your coffee’s long gone, and you haven’t quite recovered from the kiss-seen-round-the-world.
She swings open a door, and inside it’s surprisingly normal — couches, a kitchen, the sound of a blender whirring. A few Thunderbolts glance up.
Ghost gives you a quiet nod from her seat at the counter.
John Walker grins, already sharpening a teasing remark.
Bob stands awkwardly by the sink, like he just got caught sneaking a cookie.
“Well, damn,” Walker says, leaning against the counter. “I thought Bob was making you up. Or buying girlfriend stock photos online.”
“John,” Bob says flatly.
“I’m just saying, we’re happy for you, man. It’s cute. Weird, but cute.”
Ghost sips her tea. “He’s been checking his phone like a teenage girl since Saturday.”
Bob looks like he wants to phase through the wall. You try not to laugh — and fail. A little.
Then the doors behind you slide open, and Valentina Allegra de Fontaine enters like the final boss in heels.
She smiles, perfectly calm. “Glad you made it. Cute outfit. Hope you like government buildings.”
You blink. “Uh… thanks?”
Val flips open a sleek tablet and doesn’t look up. “So here’s the deal. We can’t exactly walk this story back without making it worse. You’re already part of the narrative. The kiss happened. The porch photos are out. Bob looked… well, shockingly competent.”
Bob mumbles, “Thanks?”
Val finally meets your eyes. “So. Option one: go home, brave the cameras, and let Reddit guess your social security number. Or option two: we give you a place to stay. Quiet. Safe. With a door that locks and, if you ask nicely, a reading lamp.”
You glance at Bob. “Would I… be staying with him?”
Bob visibly stiffens.
Val shrugs. “You’d have your own space. This isn’t The Bachelor. We’re not trying to force anything.”
Bob relaxes.
You think about it for a long moment. The tabloids. The porch. The look on his face when he saw you today.
“…Okay,” you say. “But I want a real lock. And maybe snacks.”
“Done,” Val says, already walking away. “Yelena, get her something from the vending machine. And no shrimp chips.”
Once the others drift off, you find yourself alone with Bob again — sort of. You’re standing near the couches, and he’s holding a mug like it’s a prop he forgot how to use.
You glance at him. “So.”
He looks up. “So.”
“You, uh… handled that well.”
“I was sweating the entire time.”
You smile. “Didn’t show.”
There’s a pause. The good kind.
“I’m sorry you got pulled into this,” he says.
“I’m not,” you admit, then quickly add, “I mean—not the whole national-news part. That sucked. But, you know. The bookstore. The pie. That stuff.”
He looks at you like you just handed him a book he didn’t know he needed.
He fidgets. “For the record, I didn’t just kiss you because your mom was watching," he says. You tilted your head.
Then, again, he softly says: “Do you think… once this blows over… maybe we could try the real thing?”
You consider it, heart full but calm.
“…We’ll see,” you say.
He grins.
So do you.
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A/N: i have SO MANY prompts/scenes in my head for bob that i had to list it down on my notes (this is one of them). PS i wrote this when i was suffering from a writers block in the middle of writing the second part of Psyche. PSS i cant stop writing about bob (not that i want to) it's making me crazy
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I’m gonna pack my things (and leave you behind)
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summary: You’re five years old when Darth Vader kills your mom. Or — so you think — your parents.
pairing: han solo x skywalker!reader (eventually), platonic skywalker family x reader
word count: 4.3k
warnings: so many feelings, reader's anakin and padme's daighter, also she's a itty bitty haunted by the force, anakin and padme die but it’s not really explored much (yet), mentions of childbirth, nightmares, mentions of anakin’s demise on mustafar, one swear word i think
author's note: I know y'all want an update on the heir and the wolf and that the star wars fandom is as dead as pope francis but PLEASE HEAR ME OUT ON THIS ONE 🙏🙏🙏 this is for the 2 people that said they would read it lmao
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You’re four years old when your mum comes back to your apartment on Coruscant with the happy news. 
She nears your room, where you're trying to screw back together a toy lightsaber that you somehow managed to dissect — tongue sticking out of your mouth, a concentrated pout prominent on your face. You’re really your father’s daughter, she ponders sometimes, thinking back to that blonde boy on the sand planet that managed to build a whole robot with scraps. The nurse droid, RO-N4, is dutifully watching your work, assuring that you don’t hurt yourself in the process and hinting at the pieces that should go back together; she raises her head when she sees that Padmé has returned. 
You jump up when you notice her, running to give her a big hug, almost making her lose her balance; but she’s used to it, and wastes no time in hoisting you on her hip. The robot stands up, ready to gently reprimand you, but your mother gingerly shoos her away with a smile. “Why don’t you go out with Threepio on a walk? I’ll stay here with her. We have something to discuss.” she winks at you, “Some serious girl talk to do, am I right?”
You giggle — that childish, innocent laugh that makes hours of relentless debates in the Senate worth going through — rubbing your cheek against hers. “Yeah! I have shoooo many things to tell you, mama!” 
The robots follow the senator’s suggestion, stumbling their way out of the door, and you soon go back to the area dedicated to your toys to show her your hard work. “Look, mama!” you’re basically jumping up and down in joy, holding up the pieces of the once toy lightsaber. “This is the cyber crystal–”
“Kyber crystal, sweetie.” 
“Ky-ber crystal. And then this is the one part of the handle with the switch–”
You could go on and ramble for hours, she thinks. She’d happily listen to all and any of your thoughts and wonders and never get tired from it. Soon enough, Padmé’s lying down on the soft sponge puzzle pieces of the playmat that serve to prevent any possible injury from falling over. We’ll need to change those soon, she thinks absentmindedly, she’s already grown out of the always-falling-over phase. 
She isn’t sure of how much time passes; at some point your ramblings slow and you scoot closer to her, sniggling in her lap. “Mama,” you mumble, yawning. “‘m so happy that you’re here. I missed you a lot today.”
Her heart breaks. A hand carding through your locks, she smiles sadly, “I know, sweetie, I’m sorry that mama has to work so much. But I promise it’s just so that once you grow up you will be able to live in a peaceful Galaxy, without ever worrying about learning how to fight like your papa.”
You perk up. “But I wanna be like papa when I grow up.”
She shakes her head, feigning her best scandalized expression. “How dare you? What am I, chopped liver?” she takes you in her arms and blows raspberries in your cheeks, making you squeal and thrash around. “Nooo! Don’t, mama, it’s ticklish!” 
“What about being a senator, mh?” she offers, not unkindly. “We can fight too, you know.” She puts on her best imitation of Palpatine and presses a matter of utmost importance, “Senator Skywalker, what do you think we should have for dinner as of today?” 
Your chuckle makes your little chest rumble against her belly. Your surname is not Skywalker — it is Amidala, often Naberrie when on Naboo, but never have your parents referred to you as that; they mostly leave it out when asked, avoiding the question but never stating either the truth or the cover-up. There’s still hope to change the Order, Anakin always says, that one day she can wear my surname without it causing a scandal. And Padmé believes him: and she believes that when the time comes, you’ll be rightly known as Senator Skywalker. 
Suddenly, you go quiet. “I want papa,” you whisper it like it’s forbidden — it kind of is, but you shouldn’t know that. Padmé’s heart breaks a little again. Anakin was sent out on a mission two weeks ago and hasn’t even been able to keep in touch ever since, making you miss him terribly. 
She laughs as softly as she can — she doesn’t want to hurt your feelings. “No can do, sweetie. Papa isn’t due to be home in at least another three days, but I’m sure that once he’s here he’ll be elated to spend some time with you. Besides, you can’t eat papa for dinner.” she rests her cheek on her hand, patting the free space next to her. “Until he comes back, it’s just you and me. What would you like to do tomorrow? I have no Senate meetings.” 
You scoot closer, lying down on the spot she just patted, curling against her chest, “Can we see Ahsoka, then?” 
She chuckles a little quieter now. Her and Anakin still don't know how to explain to you that she left the Order a while ago and has no intention on returning to Coruscant any time soon. “Ahsoka’s away like papa, honey. But I’m sure that once she comes back, she’ll be just as happy as he will to spend time with you.” 
She smooths your hair back, pressing a lingering kiss to your forehead, pressing her hand up and down your back. She wonders how good of a sister you’ll be; and even if she knows you’ll be wonderful with the new baby, she still can’t bring herself to say it out loud. “How about I make some shaak meat and then get you prepared for a good bubble bath?”
You look up at her, pouting, “But I’m big now! Do I really have to bathe?” 
Padmé bursts out laughing. “You’ll have to clean yourself your whole life, sweetheart, to hopefully not smell like a bantha.”
You huff, glaring at her. “Papa barely even showers.”
“Papa stinks. He was raised on a planet with barely any water and still considers showers optional. Do you ever hear me tell him how I love his perfume? No, that’s because he doesn’t use any. You hear me sending him to sleep on the couch because he smells terribly, though.” 
You end up eating your dinner — vegetables included — without a fuss and going to take your bath like a champ. Somewhere along that timespan both the nurse droid and C-3PO came back home to be of help in cleaning the kitchen as Padmé prepares you for bed, lying down next to you and reading to you one of the stories in the hologram that Anakin bought on one of his last missions. 
MId-story, she notices you get eerily silent. She carefully turns her head, trying to understand if you’re already sleeping, only to find you more awake than her, eyes open wide. “Is… is everything alright, sweetie?” she asks, a bit bewildered– just a moment ago, you looked like you were about to fall asleep, and now you look like you’re ready to fight everything that could be thrown at you. 
“Mama,” you whisper it like it’s a secret, “I just remembered. How are they?”
She blinks, confused. “Who?”
“The twins,” you say, “Luke and Leia.” you pat her belly as if to state the obvious. 
She looks at you, horrified — she found out she was pregnant today, and no droid or doctor mentioned twins. “I– sweetheart, what?”
You lean your head, confused. “I saw them yesterday in a dream. They asked me about you.” 
Her heart almost stops. She laughs nervously, looking at you with wide eyes, expecting you to say something about the weird and absolutely not real dream that you had, but instead you just stare at her, completely serious. “What… what do you mean?” 
You frown. “If you don’t know, then I can’t help you. Nighty night.” you tuck yourself under the covers and curl above her chest once again, sighing happily. 
Padmé’s heart feels heavy. It’s happening again– you murmur something about having had a dream, say something even more alarming, then completely ignore what you just said and act like nothing happened. It’s getting worrying — Padmé managed to get you out of the Jedi program last year just because of her status as senator, but she is sure that this year, she won’t be as lucky. The quantity of midi-chlorians in your blood can’t be hid, unfortunately, and in probably less than a year she will be forced to give you up to the Temple. 
Anakin’s sure you will make a great Jedi, but your mother’s worried — and how can she not be? Her husband’s more away than he is at home, and with the war going on, it’s already a miracle he manages to visit Coruscant. The fact that you seem to possess your father’s horrifying ability to dream about possible futures doesn’t ease her worries. 
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“I’m just worried about her–” 
“But why? She’s young, she’ll be trained–”
“She will, but I don’t want her to be haunted by the thoughts of possible futures and whatnot.”
It’s late. You’ve already gone to bed, shushed by Anakin’s stories and anecdotes from his latest mission, and even if this should be a carefree and happy moment because her husband has managed to come back home unscathed again– your mother just can’t get something out of her head. 
Anakin huffs and puts his hands on his waist, looking at Padmé like she’s crazy — there it is, where you got your attitude from. “I can always call one of the Temple guards and tell them that there’s a Force-sensitive kid here. They can train her until I can take her as Padawan; it’ll take, what? Six, seven years? Hopefully I’ll be done with the war by that time and will be able to focus on her as my padawan.” 
His wife crosses her arms, glaring at him, “I don’t want her as your padawan,” she grits out, “I want her safe, here, where we can have a decent relationship and she won’t be stripped away from my arms.”
He leans his head and raises an eyebrow. “Sweetheart, I can’t make her dreams go away. I don’t even know how to make my nightmares go. But at the Temple, they can teach her how to control them, how to use them for her own good– for the Order’s and the Republic’s own good–”
“You say that just because you wouldn’t have any problems in seeing her,” she sniffs, “you’ll be a welcome, familiar presence in the Temple — but it is known that they don’t let anyone outside of the Jedi enter.” 
His shoulders drop, and he starts shaking his head. “Padmé…”
“Don’t. Don’t tell me that we have to give her up to the Temple, because I don’t want to and I won’t–”
“But we’ll have to, Padmé, they’ll teach her everything she’ll ever need and–” 
She bursts out crying. It might be the pregnancy, or the fact that she still hasn’t told him about it and it’s eating her alive, but she’s much more emotional than usual. “I don’t want them to take her away from me!” 
Anakin’s eyes soften, his posture breaks, “Oh, dear,” he mutters, pulling her in his arms and letting her cry out in his chest. “It’ll be alright,” he murmurs, lips pressed to her head, “we’ll find a solution for everything.” He still doesn’t know when or how, but he’ll try with everything he has to solve this situation to the best of his ability.
He had honestly thought Padmé was exaggerating when she said that you were having visions, probably thinking it was just baby babbling or something, but he is proven wrong that same night, when he is abruptly woken up by the sound of the door of their bedroom opening. 
“Papa?” you call out from the doorstep, voice sleepy. 
He manages to get himself out of bed — when he’s home, night duty is always on him, as Padmé already deals with it enough while he’s away — and, yawning, he walks off to you and kneels down to your level, sending a glance to your bantha plushie safely tucked under your elbow. “What is it, sweetheart?” 
Blank stare on your part, you look at him like a war veteran would. “You were being burned, papa.” 
He blinks and counts to five before accepting that it’s way too late in the night — or early in the morning, he has no idea — to deal with this type of shit. “Okay, listen– how about we go catch some fresh air outside, hm?” 
You let him pick you up without any protests, curling up in his arms as you whimper quietly. He drags his feet along the pavement of the apartment, sliding open the door to the terrace that overlooks the whole city; it’s like it never sleeps, always someone going around and about with their speeders, lights often left on in the apartments below. The night air sends a chill down his spine and he instinctively holds you tighter in hopes to shield you from the cold. 
“Mum told me about these dreams you’ve been having,” he starts slowly. 
You hum, pressing closer to him, the plushie squashed between you two. Your eyes look tired, almost older than you actually are, and his heart squeezes at the sight. “Papa, do you know Darth Vader?”
His heart skips a beat. He knows no Vader, surely not a Sith named like that, but the fact that you dreamed about it almost makes his knees buckle. He mentally promises himself to make some digging in the archives and reports for any Vaders that might be hiding out there. “I don’t, sweetheart. Do you?” 
Your brows furrow, your little hand patting the skin above his heart. “I don’t think I do.” 
He presses his lips into a thin line. “Well, what does he do in your dreams?”
Your frown deepens. “I never see him. But Obi-Wan’s afraid of him– or, or angry at him, I’m not sure. Maybe both.” 
His frown mirrors yours. You’ve never met Obi-Wan aside from a time or two when he was assigned as bodyguard to your mother, but that was years ago; you shouldn’t be able to remember him. “How do you know who Obi-Wan is, sweetheart?” 
You stare at him like he’s stupid. “Isn’t he a friend?”
“I mean, I guess he is, but you’ve never actually met him, have you?”
“Then I think I will.” you cuddle back on his shoulder like nothing happened. 
Yeah, we gotta send this one to the Temple, he bitterly thinks. The thought of your mother alone in this apartment after years of having you around makes him sad, but there’s no one else apart from the masters there that could help you — he would try to, if the war wasn’t stripping him of all of his free time. 
Anakin has no time to properly train you. As of now, he could manage to give you chopped notions and barely any principles; in the Temple, all the Jedi solely focus on the younglings’ training, a luxury he can’t afford right now. 
She’s still so young, Padmé’s voice rings in his head, I don’t want her to forget about me. 
Six years old might be already too old for a youngling, Anakin ponders, but five years old would be perfect. They still accept kids that age. 
Another birthday for Padmé, he decides, another birthday and then off to the Temple she goes. 
Except, he doesn’t know there’s no time for another birthday. Not for Padmé, anyways. Nor for him, too, some could argue. 
“Papa,” you mumble, “could you sing me that lullaby?”
He chuckles affectionately. “Aren’t you getting a little too old for that?” He teases, with no actual intent in ever stopping to sing Ghost Star to you. You could be forty and him on his deathbed and, if you asked, he’d still sing it for you. “Ghost star, wonder where you are; Ghost star, are you very far? All night long, I will sing your song, if you watch over me…”
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You do end up properly meeting Obi-Wan. That is, unfortunately, after — for what you know — both your parents die. 
The air in the spacecraft is eerily still, as even C-3PO is stunned to silence. The tears on your cheeks have long since dried, and you keep fidgeting with a small, faintly glowing cube in your hands  — the only thing you managed to take with you when your mother loaded you into the spaceship directed to Mustafar. She’s — was, was, was — able to open it, but you still have no idea how to do it; your father promised he would have taught you to, but… well. He now never will. 
The cries from the med bay stopped a while ago. And while you’re still so young, you know that the silence means nothing good. You might not be a master of the Force, or know enough about it to understand fully what it means, but you’ve felt it — your mother’s presence slipping away in favor of two smaller ones. 
Finally, after a time that seems never-ending, Obi-Wan emerges from the door connecting the hallway with the infirmary, his expression full of sorrow. He looks surprised by your calmness, almost as if he had expected you to have gone crazy by now. “Hi,” he breathes lowly, tired and remorseful. How do you tell a kid her mother’s dead when just a few hours ago you had to break the same type of news about her father? 
After he understands that you’re not going to reply, he gets closer and kneels in front of you, taking note of the cube you’re holding in your hands — a holocron. Does she know how to open it, yet? “Hey, kid,” he tries as softly as he can, “I…”
“Mama’s gone, isn’t she?” You interrupt him. Obi-Wan almost stumbles; the look in your eyes is scaringly similar to the one Anakin had sometimes, strangely old for your age. “I felt her slipping away like papa did.” 
His lips are pressed into a thin line as he puts a hand on your shoulder. “I’m really sorry,” he says it even though he knows it won’t change anything. “We tried everything, but even the medical droid had no idea what to do.”
“Oh,” C-3PO mumbles as R2-D2 beeps sadly. “This– this is horrendous news.” 
You nod absentmindedly, like you’d seen it coming. “Are Luke and Leia okay?”
He raises his eyebrows. “Who?”
“The twins. Are they okay?”
As even Padmé looked surprised by the fact she was having twins, he wonders how in the world you knew and gave them names. Your mother left no names behind, and he had thought about just naming them after your parents, but if you already had names picked out… then it’s not his place to name your siblings, is it?
“They are.” C-3PO sighs in relief as R2-D2 lets out a happier beep. “Would you like to see them?” 
You nod timidly, almost stumbling as you stand up from the chair you sat in and taking Obi-Wan’s hand when he offers it to you. You’re still gripping on the holocron like a lifeline, its dim glow faltering every now and then. “Do you know what that is?” He asks, pointing at it as the door to the infirmary opens. 
You glance at it, unsure. “Dunno. Mama always played the hologram inside when I missed papa, but I tried opening it and it didn’t work.”
If Padmé managed to open it, then Anakin must’ve programmed the holocron so that the Force frequency needed to open it was small enough that she could play it; even if you were a prodigy like your father, though, it would be impossible for you to open it without directions or a minimal training. 
The nurse-droid your mother brought with her is feeding some milk to one of the twins when you enter — Obi-Wan guesses she might have had it with her the whole time, because he doesn’t remember this ship having such a thing as baby formula in its stocks. 
RO-N4 places the infant back in the cot with the other twin as soon as they burp, and since you’re still too short to properly look at them Obi-Wan has to take you in his arms for you to have a good peek. 
“This is Leia,” he murmurs softly, pointing at the baby with small tufts of brown hair. “She was born first.” He then points to the smaller, uglier and balder twin, “And this is Luke; he was born right after.”
You coo, pushing your index finger against Luke’s cheek. “They’re so ugly,” you state, not exactly with the intent of insulting them– just saying what’s in your mind. 
Obi-Wan chuckles fondly. “Well, I’m sure you were at least as ugly as them when you were this little. Pretty much everyone is.”
You turn to him, holocron still in hand, hesitantly nudging it to him. “Mister Obi,” you say, calling him with the nickname that later on will stick to him for pretty much your entire time spent with him, “do you know how to play this?”
He nods, taking the holocron in his hand and changing his hold on you so that he can use his other hand while still keeping you upright, “This is a holocron. It’s used by Force users to store information and files, and it opens if infused with the Force. Let’s see…” 
He concentrates on the cube, focusing a small amount of Force within it, then delicately twists the corners as it starts to glow steadier. Just as he expected — the smallest amount of Force that even Padmé could’ve been able to conjure up. The holocron starts to float, projecting a hologram in the dim-lit room. 
It starts with Anakin, clearly just knighted as a proper Jedi: he’s still a bit scrawny, his hair’s yet to grow after the braid and the small ponytail for padawans had been cut. He looks a bit embarrassed to be in front of the camera as a small baby’s cries echo in the recording. “Do I really have to do this?” He mutters. 
A laugh comes from the side, and the baby’s cries get louder — maybe closer to the camera. “Of course you do!” It’s Padmé’s voice, amused but clearly tired, stabbing directly into Obi-Wan's heart. That poor, poor girl… “It’s the only way she’ll stop crying, and since you’re mostly off-world, she’s mostly crying. This will solve a lot of my problems — even the droids are starting to go mad.” 
A pair of arms and a swoosh of a dress appear to the side, and suddenly a crying infant is trusted into Anakin’s hands. It’s you, his master realises, crying as if the world’s about to end, face all red and pudgy, definitely a bit less ugly than your siblings. Your father’s eyes soften in a way that makes Obi-Wan’s heart ultimately crumble. 
“Hey,” he murmurs, cooing and humming as he presses kisses all over your cheeks. He winces as your face contorts even more, “Now, c’mon, don’t look at me like that,”
“Please, Master, just sing the song!” It’s C-3PO’s voice in the distance, full of despair and anguish. “Another sob and the metal holding me together might just turn to rust!” R2-D2’s beeping seems to be of the same idea as him. 
Anakin huffs, glaring down at you with no real hostility. “You’re one hell of a spoiled baby, you know that?” 
Your cries continue nonetheless. He glares at the camera. “Padmé, I love you, but if anyone else ever sees this, I’m divorcing you,” 
“You would never,” your mother’s knowing voice is a mere rumble in the distance as Anakin settles to hold you tight to his chest, pressing a kiss to your forehead before starting to sing. 
“Ghost star, wonder where you are; Ghost star, are you very far? All night long, I will sing your song, if you watch over me. Ghost star, hiding in the night, all your friends are all so bright… when the sky is clear, I can sense you near, looking down on me. Ghost star, silent in the sky, now I start to wonder why. Show me your light; I've waited all night. Ghost star, won't you sing with me?” 
He sings the lullaby multiple times until you’re completely knocked out, dismissing Padmé when she offers to take you back to your room, preferring to keep you close for another while. His stare as he looks at you is so tender that Obi-Wan can’t believe he just had to leave him to die.
Soon enough the recording restarts, the same banter and song again, but he lets it play. Every word is a guilt trip, every laugh a stab in his chest, and the image of Anakin with a baby happily sleeping against his chest might just be the end of him. 
By the time he finally shuts the holocron off both you and the twins are passed out; he tries to convince himself that the hole in his chest isn’t gnawing away at the last bit standing of his sanity. He looks at you, carding a hand through your hair, of the same tenderness as your father but with the same curl of your mother's, and decides here and there to never tell you about what really happened on Mustafar. Not that he really had the intention to do, as of now, but… you don’t deserve to know about Vader. Obi-Wan won’t let you live with the knowledge that your father killed both himself and your mother, no. 
And so, the lie about Darth Vader killing both Senator Amidala and her loyal guard, Anakin Skywalker, who lost his life fighting for hers, is born. 
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strawberymilktea · 2 months ago
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i hate this show i hate it fuck i forgot how bad it would hurt i knew ot was coming but i forgot how bad it would be fuck (i was sobbing the whole episode)
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strawberymilktea · 3 months ago
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more yellowjackets season 3 finale thoughts so major spilers!!
the more i think about Mari dying the sadder i get. she knew she was a part of the plan to be a distraction so Nat could get away. she immediately locked in and did everything she could to buy Nat time. and really Shauna was the only one full on haunting her, the other were either in on the plan or just doing their own thing. and then she dies and is dehumanised in such a horrific way. the way she's stripped and dragged naked through the snow. the way she's the only person they string up fully nude and drain like some kind of animal, not even giving her the respect they gave the others of covering her up to preserve some semblance of her humanity. and Shauna ordering them to give her Maris hair is fucking disgusting especially for her to use it as a fucking decoration for her little queen outfit. i legitimately can not see any redeemable qualities in Shauna after that. there's no trauma she went through, absolutely nothing, that can make me see her as a redeemable person.
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strawberymilktea · 3 months ago
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strawberymilktea · 3 months ago
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!!spoilers for yellowjackets season 3 finale!!
okay so I just watched episode 10 and I don't care how much hate this season has been getting I fucking loved it. I love how they didn't pull some shit just to be unpredictable and switch who pit girl was or who the antler queen was.
Mari being pit girl was kinda what everyone thought would happen and I'm glad they stuck with that and didn't switch it up just because people were expecting it. We really only had 4 candidates for pit girl, Robin and Gen are such none characters that it being either of them wouldn't have really had any impact, and it being Hannah would've in my opinion been a waste of her character and this very interesting addition of an adult women to the group dyniamic. I honestly love Mari and I think there's something so poetically tragic about her being one of the ones that wants to go home the most and the one that stands against Shaunas bullshit (even if not always doing so outwardly) and her dying so soon before they get to be rescued and go home.
When it comes to the antler queen it was very much between Lottie and Shauna for most of us and Shauna is the one that makes sense with how kinda withdrawn Lottie has been from the leadership and decision making in the group. I really liked the theory where the antler queen was actually Jackie and they were hallucinating her but with Hannah being a part of the group that didn't really make sense since she never knew Jackie so it being Shauna made sense. I feel like her time as queen is going to be where she's the most tyrannical dictator like, even more so than she's been as simply the leader of the group. I've always hated Shauna as a person but her as a character is just so amazing and complex. Like I can truly see how all the trauma, the losinv the baby and Jackie and everything combined, has led her to becoming what she has. It's also a bit like she's not letting herself be a better person out there. She's completely separated herself from her humanity that a lot of the girls, especially Natalie, are so desperately holding on to in what i personally believe is a trauma response and an attempt to protect herself from what's happening. I think that's also shown in the adult timeline where adult Shauna is writing her journal entery, she forgot a lot of what happened out there but now that she's letting go of her humanity again by eating Mellisas skin and killing people she's starting to remember all the things she did last time she let go. It seems to me that the other girls remember more of what happened out there than she does but she doesn't really realize that. I think it's really interesting how the show isn't attempting to make her seem like the good guy and they're not afraid of doing so because a lot of shows nowadays just won't let their main characters be bad in any way.
I think that Callie being the one that caused Lotties death is kinda meh, I honestly don't really have an opinion on it. I think I'm going to need to rewatch the show before I form solid opinions on a lot of what happened. I honestly wasn't fully paying attention to Callies storyline so a rewatch is definitely necessary. I do think Callie and Jeff finally leaving Shauna is fantastic and good for them and I'm really excited to see how that reflects on Shauna psyche next season becase we already see her going mental over it and they've been gone for like a day. Also I'm kinda upset we didn't get a Lottie plane scene but when I thought about it a bit more it kinda makes sense. The common consensus is that the plane after they die is taking them back to the wilderness and it's like they can't escape it even in death, but Lottie was never trying to escape it. She always embraced it as a part of herself and didn't need to be brough back because she was always there.
I think Tai eating Van as a way of always having her with her even after she died was beautiful and i adore when cannibalism is used as a metaphor for love and longing so i really liked that. I've seen a lot of people not liking the way Van died and I truly understand because Van was one of the best characters in the show i think the parallel of no one saving her from the fire and smoke in the plane crash for her to survive and her saving everyone from the smoke only to die heraelf is really poetic, and while I would've liked to see more of adult Van and had her character fleshed out more I think the way she died is fitting.
And finally my queen Natalie. I love her. I love her working together with Misty and Hannah to sneak away with the phone thingy to ctach a singnal and call for help. I loved the scene of her screaming on the cliff. Hannah dressing up as Natalie to trick Shauna so Natalie sould sneak away was fantasic and I can't begin to imagine what they'll do to her as punishment and how they'll kill her. In generall I'm really curious to see how the rest of them will die assuming that we really do only have 8 survivors. I do hope they don't introduce more survivors in the adult time line cause I think it's a bit too late in the show for that especially with how the introduction of adult Melissa was received. I was scared that they were introducing another one when Tai was talking to someone at the restaurant and they weren't showing who it was for so long but I'm relieved it was Misty because honestly introducing a new survivor in the finale would've been a bad decision.
I really enjoyed this season and I truly dont understand a lot of the hate it got from people. I think for next season the thing I would like to see the most is how Travis actually died and how all of that happened and obviously the teen timeline stuff like how so many more of them die and how they get rescued and what they do to Hannah. Also I want to see more Natalie and Travis interaction and how they made their pact but with Shauna finding out Nat is gone I doubt they'll get a chance to chat when Nat gets back to camp if she even decieds to go back and not just camp out somewhere else to stay safe.
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strawberymilktea · 3 months ago
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I'm so insanely exicted for the season finally of yellowjackets tomorrow it's insane the last time i was this exicted was maybe for arcane and jjk
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strawberymilktea · 3 months ago
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i fear i am so deeply obsessed with this series i have been spiritually changed
snowed in
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is it a man? a beast? no! it's the abominable gojo!
synopsis: for a cash-strapped starving scientist such as yourself, finding a yeti would've made the discovery of a lifetime. there's just one tiny problem - he found you first
pairing: yeti!Gojo x researcher!Reader
content: mdni, angst and fluff and eventual smut, cryptid!Gojo, this one is probs gonna get REAL insane, reader trying her best to tame this beast, he's man-like but i mean still-, forced cohabiting, is it kidnapping if he doesn't know what kidnapping is?, soft (and fuzzy!) Gojo, somehow we've landed on monsterfucking guys this is my formal apology, EXTREMELY protective gojo, hurt/comfort, more tags to be added!
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fanart for it here !!
asks ... #re: snowed in
pls lemme know in comments if you wanna be tagged<3
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strawberymilktea · 3 months ago
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back on my Arthur Morgan shit
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he’s so-
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Finding flowers and putting them in Arthur’s hair cause he’s so beautiful 😭😭🩵
oh my god 😭😭 here is what played in my mind in this moment
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“what’re you doin?” arthur asked quietly, voice rough with sun-drenched drowsiness as he lay in the flower spotted meadow with his head in your lap. the sounds of summer gave way to his deep timbre and the hush of the river fell onto your half deaf ears.
arthur’s hat lay beside you and currently acted as a bed to the bundle of flowers you had plucked from around you. deep purples, faint yellows and sweet pink petals lay carefully plucked and waiting as you began to tuck their stems carefully into arthur’s ashy brown hair.
“hush.” you replied scoldingly, though the curve of your lips spoke of nothing but bliss as you crowned him with the colors of the earth.
arthur opened one turquoise eye to look up at you, amused to see the sly grin that plastered itself onto your face, and let out a faint hum of satisfaction as he once again closed his eyes and allowed himself to fully surrender to the peaceful place he found himself in.
it was one of the first warm days of the summer and after a quick breakfast of coffee and venison, the two of you had ridden towards this little slice of heaven near horseshoe creek. the sounds of the camp vanished before the song of the wild and it was here that the two of you settled in pure enjoyment of the scene around you. arthur, given the chance to relax, had promptly settled his head into your lap and sprawled onto his back.
when all the flowers had found their place in his hair you took this moment of stillness to admire him. the strong lines of his face were sun-marked and scar flecked. fine wrinkles sprawled like sun beams around the corners of his eyes and his full mouth sat pressed in a perpetual pout that made you smile.
you brushed a thumb over the coarseness of his short beard, ran it over the strong shape of his jaw. it was incredible that he could not see how beautiful he was, how sweet despite his sins. the marks of years passed seemed as much of a stain to him as it was a means of worship for you and even as you studied him now you felt as though the years had strung the two of you together.
his eyes opened again, serious and beautiful. you felt your throat thicken up with the pure joy of meeting them.
“c’mere.” he muttered, hand traveling up to brush a stray piece of hair away from your face. then, his fingers hooked beneath your jaw and urged you down.
when your lips slotted against his, his mouth sweet with the taste of wild raspberries, you considered the absurdity of praying, and how your words of gratitude would not be enough thanks to whatever force had brought him to you.
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HAHWBWHWBWSNWHWJ guys im going to cry i love him so much. he is truly so…. SOOOOO….. ugh if i describe him again yall will get another 20k words.
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strawberymilktea · 3 months ago
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stop this is so cute and cool
I had an original idea
teen!john who, at sixteen, is all lanky limbs, scruffy hair, and a permanent scowl that doesn’t quite match the mischievous glint in his eyes.
teen!john who sneaks into the orchard with you because damn it, apples shouldn’t cost money when they’re just sitting there, ripe and waiting.
teen!john who grumbles as he kneels down, letting you climb onto his shoulders, his hands gripping your legs tightly. “Be quick, before that old shit comes out,” he mutters, shifting under your weight as you reach for the best apples.
teen!john who’s bouncing a little on his feet, “C’mon, c’mon—yer takin’ too long—” but you just shush him, tossing the apples into the burlap sack below. He barely catches them in time.
teen!john who, just as you snatch the last apple, hears the unmistakable creak of the barn door swinging open.
teen!john who goes still as the old farmer steps out, rifle in hand, and barks, “Hey! Get the hell off my trees!”
teen!john who doesn’t think—just moves, practically throwing you off his shoulders in his rush to bolt, grabbing the sack and yanking your hand.
teen!john who runs so damn fast, boots kicking up dirt, your laughter bubbling beside him as he grumbles, “Ain’t funny, we almost got shot!”
teen!john who, after a few minutes of breathless running, collapses in the tall grass with you, both of you panting and sweaty, the stolen apples rolling out between you.
teen!john who glares at you when you giggle, his cheeks red from the chase. “Ain’t nothin’ funny ‘bout it,” he huffs, crossing his arms.
teen!john who watches as you take a bite of an apple, the juice running down your chin, and rolls his eyes when you shove one toward him.
teen!john who takes it anyway, grumbling, “Yer a bad influence, y’know that?” but he’s got the smallest smirk as he bites into the apple.
teen!john who, despite the complaining, would definitely do it all over again—just for that laugh of yours and the thrill of getting away with it.
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the idea of this hypothetically happening to me will haunt me in my nightmares but it was so good it will be worth it
Dear Elle, I think you write humour and romance together so well! So, I have a request for you: Remus x female reader pairing. Idiots in love. Sirius wants to celebrate his birthday at a comedy club with his best friends, and he makes sure Reader and Remus are seated at the front and center table - because he knows the comedian is famous for his crowd work. And the night goes exactly like he planned: the comedian is reading them to filth all night, teasing them relentlessly until they are forced to admit their feelings for each other - and then FINALLY, FINALLY act on said feelings after the show. Thank you so much, you are amazing. ♥️🐺♥️
hahaha I think you might have a bit too much faith in me, but I decided to give it a go! don't worry though, I will not be quitting my day job to take up stand up comedy 🫡 thanks for your request - I hope I didn't completely botch it! [also switched it to James' bday since it's coming up soon <3]
Remus Lupin x fem!reader who get read to filth at a comedy show [1.4k words]
CW: jokes and references to sex, talking about dick size, Remus and reader are horribly uncomfortable but much better sports about it than I would have been, conniving friends
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Remus is going to kill his best friends. 
“So, what’s your situation?” The comedian asks as he points between you and Remus, pacing before the two of you on stage not unlike one of those fiersome lionesses on an African savannah watching her prey cower in the grass. 
Remus hadn’t thought all that much about James wanting to go to a stand-up comedy show to celebrate his birthday, but he should have recognized the red flag that was Sirius insisting on a table right in front of the stage and that you and Remus sit up front and beside each other. 
“We’re friends.” You reply, bashfulness colouring your tone that has Remus’ elbow making contact with your own in silent support even though his own cheeks are burning something fierce. 
“Oh nice, nice.” The comedian says, grimacing out at the crowd as if saying are you hearing this? “Do you want to be just friends?”
What Remus wants is to melt into the floor, but there’s a protective ire that blooms in his chest at the thought of leaving you to the wolves all alone. “I love being her friend.”
“Awe, that’s sweet.” The comedian continues, making himself appear busy adjusting the mic stand. “So you don’t want to fuck her?” 
The crowd roars. Remus’ stomach threatens to migrate to his throat. 
“I’m only asking!” The comedian laughs, holding his hands up in faux surrender. “She’s quite fit, no? Wait, sorry, okay. Are you into birds? I should have started with that. You like birds?”
“Sure. Yeah.” 
“Sure, yeah he says.” He translates for the wider audience. “So you are into birds, but not this one?” 
Remus shifts in his seat, not missing the snickering coming from a soon-to-be-terminal Sirius, James, and Peter. 
“She’s a lovely girl.” 
“But not lovely enough to fuck?” 
“I didn’t say that.” Remus counters, hardly able to hear the resulting laughter from the pounding in his ears. 
“What about you, doll? You into blokes?” The comedian moves onto you, and Remus finds himself stuck in a ceaseless cycle of being grateful that the attention is off of him, horrified that the attention is on you, jealous that you have someone else's attention, and jealous that your attention is directed elsewhere. 
Fuck, he’s pathetic. 
“I am.” 
“You into this bloke?” 
“I-”
“Why are you so red, mate?” The comedian laughs, interrupting you to poke more fun at Remus. He pinches his lips between his teeth and shakes his head, looking up at the exposed pipes of the pub hoping for either the patience of a saint or to be struck by lightning, either would suffice. 
“Christ the two of you are hopeless. Did you come together?”
“They’re part of a group!” James hollers; the rest of your (traitorous) friends waving their hands in response. 
“Thank god, maybe you lot can explain to me what the fuck this is all about here?” 
“They’ve been dancing around each other forever.” Sirius explains, hardly flinching when Remus lands a kick directly to his shin under the table. 
“Don’t look at him like that.” The comedian chides Remus excitedly. “You’re the one who had the audacity to show up to a comedy show with an absolute ten and have done nothing about it.” 
“This was his idea!” Remus tries to defend himself, but the comedian doesn’t buy it. 
“Sorry mate; maybe if the two of you weren’t so hopeless, they wouldn’t have had to resort to such drastic measures, yeah?” He pauses for some laughs. “Change starts from within.”
“Preferably within her.” Peter jokes, earning him a round of laughter from the crowd that quickly has the comedian levelling him with a glare.
“Oi! Shut the fuck up, yeah?” He barks. “Who’s the one with the mic? Taking the piss is my job tonight.”
It garners more laughter – finding Peter almost as red as Remus is – though the comedian’s serious facade falls as he winks at Peter good naturedly. 
“So, tell me, friends, why has nothing happened here yet?” He asks the group, pointing at you and Remus though he now seems wholly uninterested in what either of you might have to say on the matter. 
“He’s shy.” James coos patronisingly, slapping Remus on the shoulder as he does. 
“Oh he’s shy.” The comedian scoffs with a theatrical eye roll. “Please. Oh, poor me; I’m seven feet tall and have lovely hair and eyes and a massive cock.” 
Remus throws his face into his hands and fights against the urge to cross his legs lest anyone start trying to decipher the size of his cock through his trousers. 
“See! Look at the size of those hands! Fuck me, mate.” The comedian laughs. “You know what they say about big hands, hey doll?” 
The question is clearly directed at you; Remus can’t even bring himself to remove his hands from his face to see how you might respond. 
“That’s right. Massive hands means massive imposter syndrome. Apparently.” 
Remus sinks lower in his chair and crosses his arm, pretending he isn’t watching you in his periphery. 
“Can you all imagine being seven feet tall, fit, and clearly clever enough to make as pretty a friend as this, and then not feel confident enough to go for it?” 
The laughter from the crowd seems to be answer enough for the man with the mic. 
“Christ, if he doesn’t have a chance, what hope do the rest of us have?” He asks no one in particular before he pauses in front of you again. 
“What about you? What’s your problem, hm? Why’ve you not climbed him like a tree yet?” 
You simply laugh, and Remus can only imagine how hot your cheeks must feel as you wring your hands together in your lap. The sight has Remus smiling to himself. 
“No, no, you know what? You guys are right, the elephant really ties the rest of the room together.” He jokes at your lack of response. “Come on! Don’t tell me you’re shy too!” 
Your silence on the matter has him throwing his head back in exasperation; the crowd hollers behind you. 
“Bloody fuckin’ hell. This is awful; alright gorgeous look here – look me in the eyes. I’m gonna ask you a question, and I need you to answer me, okay?” He states solemnly, bending at the knee to level with you like one might with a fussy toddler who has decided the world has ended because they dropped their lolly. “Would you, or would you not, like to go to pound town with Mr. Massive Cock here?” 
A slightly hysterical and nervous laugh bubbles out of you but you nod your head yes, and Remus wonders if it’s possible for his blush to have travelled from his ears, to his cheeks, to his chest, and right down to his arse. 
“Great! Oh my god, we’re getting somewhere folks. Alright, you.” He moves onto Remus, shifting over a few steps so he’s crouched in front of him in much the same way. “Would you, or would you not, like to horizontal tango with the hottie with a body?” 
Remus makes a show of reluctantly admitting that yes, he would, hoping that it isn’t terribly obvious that he is completely and utterly in love with you as well.
“Brilliant!” The comedian cheers, garnering cheers from the other audience members. “Finally! Now was that so hard?” 
Remus loses track of what (or who) the comedian moves onto when he feels your ankle meet his; your leg bouncing nervously under the table as you refuse to make eye contact with him. 
Though Remus’ stomach is still in his throat, he braves himself to place his hand on your knee – cautious at first when the shaking halts, not knowing if it’s due to you falling tense or relaxing – and smiling when your hand gently settles on top of his. 
Remus steals a glance across the table at a rather smug looking Sirius, James, and Peter. 
Remus is going to kill his best friends. 
Right after he thanks them for the pretty girl’s hand he’s currently holding underneath the table of a comedy club.
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