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.. sketched me

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Middle doing work cuz we feel like a disgruntled teenager pulling the weight on the school project again

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Added a dni

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Hello! Welcome to the ask blog about my special interest and adjacent hyperfixations!

I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL!

Nothing I say should be taken as 100% fact or as your primary resource for ANYTHING!

I generally know what I'm talking about but that is not a guarantee, please don't use me as your only source especially if you think you have something I talk about.

You can ask about our system, our syscourse opinions, or just general questions about DID (and associated trauma disorders)!

We don't know everything, so if your ask goes unanswered we probably just don't know! Or we haven't seen it!

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We will only be responding to things somehow related to our system or disorders <33 if your ask has nothing to do with these it will be ignored I am sorry.

DNI; Transids, Endo/pro-endo, Radqueers/pro-paras, anti-self diagnosis

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Specifically the part about the age being younger was from multiple HC-DID systems I know! I can try to find the sources they shared but I was mostly thinking on what I could remember at the time! I think I phrased "higher dissociation" wrong, I more meant more structural bits, and how it affects each alter/the system as a whole! I'm at work but when I'm home I'll try to find the information I used! Most of this is from my own experience and my friends, though, so not everything will be correct! Always do your own research as I'm not an expert 🩵 just a nerd. /gen

So!! What's CDID?

Okay so, based on our knowledge and understanding, and well, having it, I’ll give my best run down!

C-DID is Complex dissociative identity disorder!

You might say “but DID is complex” yes! It’s just a categorization, not a separate diagnosis.

You need to have a few things to be a C-DID system that aren’t always common in DID systems!

You have to have multiple subsystems, sidesystems, and higher dissociation (often leading in more alters). This type of DID is one that comes from often more intense more prolonged trauma. While most DID can develop into being 9-10, C-DID is widely agreed to be developed earlier.

In some cases certain types of trauma (RAMCOA) are considered needed, I do not have ramcoa trauma therefore won’t be discussing it but I have severe dissociation, a lot of subsystems and side-systems and a pretty high alter count. I also have pretty intense trauma in areas of things that may be associated with ramcoa, though that does not apply to me. I won't get into my trauma here, as it's not needed, but the term can be applied to trauma outside of ramcoa occasionally, though I do say it shouldn't be thrown arround! Just having a high alter count and subsystems does NOT mean you have C-DID.

I do not use the term C-DID lightly, it simply applies to my system well! It is not about trauma Olympics or anything like that, which some think. It's about being able to categorize and help your system heal by knowing how it works!

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Do you have any fictives?

Yes I do! We're kind of fictive heavy, but not all of our fictives relate to source, and some don't call themselves that!

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I'm not going to give sources to back up my lived experience. Gatekeeping does not prevent conditions from forming, and I don't want to get into my trauma on the internet. This seemed in bad faith and made me uncomfortable, I am not an educator, as my pinned says. /gen

So!! What's CDID?

Okay so, based on our knowledge and understanding, and well, having it, I’ll give my best run down!

C-DID is Complex dissociative identity disorder!

You might say “but DID is complex” yes! It’s just a categorization, not a separate diagnosis.

You need to have a few things to be a C-DID system that aren’t always common in DID systems!

You have to have multiple subsystems, sidesystems, and higher dissociation (often leading in more alters). This type of DID is one that comes from often more intense more prolonged trauma. While most DID can develop into being 9-10, C-DID is widely agreed to be developed earlier.

In some cases certain types of trauma (RAMCOA) are considered needed, I do not have ramcoa trauma therefore won’t be discussing it but I have severe dissociation, a lot of subsystems and side-systems and a pretty high alter count. I also have pretty intense trauma in areas of things that may be associated with ramcoa, though that does not apply to me. I won't get into my trauma here, as it's not needed, but the term can be applied to trauma outside of ramcoa occasionally, though I do say it shouldn't be thrown arround! Just having a high alter count and subsystems does NOT mean you have C-DID.

I do not use the term C-DID lightly, it simply applies to my system well! It is not about trauma Olympics or anything like that, which some think. It's about being able to categorize and help your system heal by knowing how it works!

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DID is wild because wdym I have three of the same person all with differing names?

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Does anyone like to front more than others?

Yes! Our host (Moss, me! Lol) likes to front and so do quite a few others, a lot of us are apathetic to it but I and the other co-hosts try to front lots.

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Does you having autism and adhd mean the whole system does too?

Hi!! Great question!!

So with autism and adhd since they’re something you’re born with, yes all of my system has it! Though at varying degrees! Some might seem “less” autistic and some might seem “more” autistic, but it’s just how the symptoms present differently for everyone! And some of the system tries to mask the symptoms more to appear normal. The same with the adhd!

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DID rant

I don’t think people look into the other aspects of dissociation enough and just focus a lot on switching and alters. I don’t think enough people realize that dissociation and memory gaps can happen with the same person front the whole time. People don’t think enough about how intensely dissociated you can get and never switch.

I have a near constant headache, I can nearly never trust my memory, and I HAVE to rely on others I know to inform me of events and things even with how much I try to stay on top of them. I cannot remember birthdays, faces, or names. People get offended I don’t know their birthday but I do remember that you like this one band. I don’t control what I do and don’t remember.

I would never blame my actions on dissociation, I still try and live my life and be kind to everyone but that means that I do forget everyday things sometimes. I’ll forget a task at work I always do or say something and not even hear myself. My voice and hands are often distant and fuzzy even when I’m not switching.

My dissociation is SEVERE and gaps in my memories appear without me knowing. I’ve forgotten whole movies, days, there are months, near years missing from my life, and no one has that info, not another later, not a gatekeeper, it’s just gone.

It's not just about the alters.

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How many alters do you have? If its a lot, does everyone manage to know eachother? :00

I have approximately 200~ ish alters/parts! Less if we count subsystems as one alter which I usually don't. We used to have more! With healing and trauma mixed in people have gone dormant/fused and then split back off/come out of dormancy, so the number fluctuates!

And actually, not everyone knows each other

We know of each other usually, but sometimes people just end up not crossing front together so they never communicate! Its a bit difficult to explain, because we know mostly of each other, but not entirely?

We all have a basic spread sheet of the most known alters in our head, but it could be wrong/off for each alter lol

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So!! What's CDID?

Okay so, based on our knowledge and understanding, and well, having it, I’ll give my best run down!

C-DID is Complex dissociative identity disorder!

You might say “but DID is complex” yes! It’s just a categorization, not a separate diagnosis.

You need to have a few things to be a C-DID system that aren’t always common in DID systems!

You have to have multiple subsystems, sidesystems, and higher dissociation (often leading in more alters). This type of DID is one that comes from often more intense more prolonged trauma. While most DID can develop into being 9-10, C-DID is widely agreed to be developed earlier.

In some cases certain types of trauma (RAMCOA) are considered needed, I do not have ramcoa trauma therefore won’t be discussing it but I have severe dissociation, a lot of subsystems and side-systems and a pretty high alter count. I also have pretty intense trauma in areas of things that may be associated with ramcoa, though that does not apply to me. I won't get into my trauma here, as it's not needed, but the term can be applied to trauma outside of ramcoa occasionally, though I do say it shouldn't be thrown arround! Just having a high alter count and subsystems does NOT mean you have C-DID.

I do not use the term C-DID lightly, it simply applies to my system well! It is not about trauma Olympics or anything like that, which some think. It's about being able to categorize and help your system heal by knowing how it works!

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READ THIS!!

Hello! Welcome to the ask blog about my special interest and adjacent hyperfixations!

I AM NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL!

Nothing I say should be taken as 100% fact or as your primary resource for ANYTHING!

I generally know what I'm talking about but that is not a guarantee, please don't use me as your only source especially if you think you have something I talk about.

You can ask about our system, our syscourse opinions, or just general questions about DID (and associated trauma disorders)!

We don't know everything, so if your ask goes unanswered we probably just don't know! Or we haven't seen it!

I ask for 16+ interactions only, please and thank you!

We will only be responding to things somehow related to our system or disorders <33 if your ask has nothing to do with these it will be ignored I am sorry.

DNI; Transids, Endo/pro-endo, Radqueers/pro-paras, anti-self diagnosis