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seanflnnerty · 2 months

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"How many times am I going to hear you say 'family' tonight? Do you really mean it? Family means us, together."

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 4 months

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Good morning, Sleepyhead.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.

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lotus-lamps · 2 months

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like father like son

hes just toji but smol

#art #digital art #artblr #lotus drawdles #artists on tumblr #jjk fushiguro #jjk fanart #jjk #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jujutsu kaisen #megumi fushiguro #gojo satoru #jjk gojo #wow i was wondering why the tags looked so dry and then i remembered that its obligatory for me to rant here.#no wonder the tag process was so short last time... lmao i completely forgot #anyway expect more gojo megumi father son content because i love their dynamic #au where megumi grows up getting raised by gojo pls.#better yet make it satosugu and have him get two extra stepsisters #also the second image is probably the most fun ive ever had while drawing lmao #i love baby megumi hes so cute #present megumi is also very cute #blorbo #i want to squeesh his cheeks #sorry about gojo though idrk how to draw him lol #its not actually the first time ive drawn him. but it is the first time ive drawn him hair down #anyway bye bye. im thinking about opening commissions right now

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juney-blues · 6 days

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june egbert is proof that half of you people can't even comprehend the idea of a pre-transition trans woman.

#juney.txt #no canon media depicts her as a girly girl fully out she/her pronouns gender stuff all figured out yet #so it's still a ''headcanon'' and not a valid incredibly supported reading of her character in the text as it exists #and if we're gonna do any gender stuff with her at all it's gonna be in incredibly safe ways #appealing to tme sensibilities #because the idea of someone presenting for a long time as masculine. EVER becoming any kind of woman #without any qualifiers or compromises or multigender-ness #is unthinkable to you people for some reasons that we do not have words for #it just makes you uncomfortable for reasons we probably shouldn't examine

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queerprayers · 1 year

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i want to say first of all that i fully respect a community's/denomination's/culture's right to have closed practices. i am not entitled to other people's traditions, and when i am a guest in a space i understand that everything is not automatically for me. and i know i do not have to understand to respect.

and also! when i go to a catholic church and can't receive communion i want to fall on the floor weeping. what do you mean i can't have him he's right there. sorry my baptism was the wrong kind of baptism. i'm hungry and you want me to become someone else before being fed.

#lutheran alert but will NEVER understand closed communion. i respect it. but i do not get it #none of us will ever be holy enough to hold jesus within us but we do every day anyway. and so we are #communion is what brings me to god. to put a barrier of entry on that. to say you have to believe certain things or be in a certain state?#idk it doesn't sit right with me.#again i respect it i have catholic family ik the beliefs/history/good intentions.#but i need to come out as an open communion fan #roman catholicism didn't exist yet at the last supper. jesus said do this in remembrance of me.#everyone who does this has already fulfilled the requirements to be present at the table #i think that was the only hard part of my grandfather's conversion. that he could break bread for me at the altar but couldn't give it to m #i would give anything to watch him preach one more time (he's retired/sick now)#but more than that i would give anything to be fed by him again. to eat with him as our lord commanded #just once.#i will have to be satisfied with the foretastes of the feasts to come that i have received from/with him. we'll have that again

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chiropteracupola · 5 months

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granby + iskierka + keynes

#em draws stuff #em is posting about temeraire #temeraire #iskierka #john granby #doctor keynes #<- I do not know if keynes ever gets a first name so This Shall Do for tagging purposes for the present moment #speaking of which. my logic here is that granby is always getting whopped upside the head and stabbed and shot and dropped from high places #and therefore I think he should maybe cultivate his relationship with his crew's surgeon. because he is going to Need to.#keynes now. My Friend Keynes. I reallyreally would like to know More About Him and how exactly someone ends up as an aerial corps SURGEON #what is UP with this man I would like to KNOW about him #I would like to write fic even maybe. Hello Sir. Your Backstory?#designwise he ended up looking like patrick gallagher who you may be aware of for his role as awkward davies masterandcommander #which was not entirely intentional but I did end up leaning into it as I went on with the drawing.#he looks a lot like many people's version of tharkay here... I should make an effort for distinguishing them by drawing More Tharkays.#either way. keynes and gong su my favorite tem characters I don't really see anyone drawing. my underappreciated blorbos...#(this is maybe because I'm only on book 3 but) keynes is certainly on page a deal more than certain fellows I could name #anyWay. we are slowly creeping up to drawing BigLarge Iskierka but not all the way there yet. Stay Tuned.

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moeblob · 4 months

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Impulsively shoving a guy's hand in your mouth after having the thought "oh just like when my little sister used to prick herself on a rose thorn" and then immediately being treated like a pet who ate something they shouldn't have? Wonderful. Thank you, Thane.

(also not pictured is Thane apparently trying to scrape your tongue with his hand BEFORE pouring the holy water down your throat because NO. BAD.)

#bewitching sinners #palmier baker #thane verashkova #accidentally ingesting vampire blood because of big brother impulses is wild #also the reason hes so alarmed is bc in that world you kinda soulbond to others and thats how you soulbond as a vampire #you drink each others blood and so hes flipping out because while he hasnt had your blood yet #hey your ex is going to absolutely kill me if we bond on accident and i dont think i wanna die like that!#which is VERY cool to know thank you thane im so glad your concern is actually less of being bound #but about being murdered thats really cool #also the fact thane is found in the library studying with arshem my beloved ex and is BRIBED TO LEARN RECIPES #by arshem with vials of mixed blood hes just CASUALLY CARRYING is like hey man #thank you for being group mum i love you for it #and then later on arshem actually is like oh thane you can drink my blood later since you havent fed for a while #and thane is super chipper about it like HECK YEAH THANKS !#hey boys youre adorable thank you for existing in this incredibly fucked up world #im in a choke hold with this otome im sorry #you ever try to be nice to a guy and think surely this will help him a little bit then you get background lore #and you realize youre probably making things A LOT WORSE FOR HIM by being nice #im going through it with my emotions as i learn about palmiers actions pre game swap so like #dude please i am BEGGING YOU palmier please have ONE redeeming quality in you at some point #i want to adopt one of the love interests as my son though and im obsessed with the fact he can speak fish #my son can speak to the fish and he gives me fish as a present bc i might need it later #and i do actually in fact need said fish later for another quest #thankyou my son i love you and i appreciate you youre amazing #gonna have to draw arshem at some point and everyone will immediately go yeah that makes sense

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thelilylav · 3 months

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I’ve gotta admit as much as I know Darabella is a flawed ship (and some of the ppl who are anti for it have legit criticisms I love y’all for pointing it out cause it frustrates the hell out of me too trust) they’ll always just kind of be it for me.

Because as much as it was an “I can fix him” trope, as much as Rosabella could be selfish and Daring’s flaws got cranked up to 1000, she was also the first person to look at him after his destiny, the thing he dedicated his life to, failed, when people were questioning him as a prince and putting pressure on his and Apple’s relationship and tell him that, like, maybe it would be alright? Maybe this wasn’t his destiny, and maybe that was okay.

And the part that really gets me? She’s the first person after this happens to tell him that it doesn’t matter what’s on the outside, which as much as you can like other Daring ships or him whatever he desperately needed to hear. Not even cause he was selfish, that’s not what I’m saying, but bc he placed his whole identity on this image that people concocted for him based on him appearing the perfect prince. He was handsome, he was talented, and he was handsome! So who cares about him as a person?

Idk man. You spend four seasons (I watch the specials on Netflix so that’s why four idk if it’s three to some ppl or whatever tho) watching him be praised for his looks, watching girls fawn over him, and of course he enjoys it so nobody really questions how much he enjoys it. And then you get this girl, this girl who owes him nothing, this girl who (contrary to popular belief apparently) has a life of her own and people she cares about outside of him, and she’s nice to him. And she’s the first person after everything happens to just be nice to him, for the sake of being nice. Something about that will always hit different for me

#it’s her seeing him as more than the perfect prince that he’s been told he has to be his whole life #and maybe she doesn’t approach that perfectly sure but also maybe she’s human and a teenager and she’ll fuck up and make mistakes #but the foundation of their entire relationship is that moment of reaching out and connection #and just saying i’m here with you. i don’t know you that well and i don’t care about you that much and i have a million reasons not to be #but i’m here for you anyway. because you matter and i don’t know if anyone’s told you that yet. and maybe #idk. maybe you need to hear it #anyway sorry i’m not trying to start shit i’ve just seen so many ppl shitting on them in this fandom #and some of the critiques i agree w! i’m not saying they were written perfectly there’s a ton i would change abt their writing if i could #(which i do. through fanfic)#but i just wanted to offer a reason i personally attached to them among all the ppl ranting against #if anyone wants to present their own opinions (RESPECTFULLY) tho #i’d be happy to have a conversation abt it! i love talking abt stuff like this feel free to leave rants in my notes guys #ever after high #eah #rosabella beauty #daring charming #darabella

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hyakunana · 5 months

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I was yesterday years old when I realized I've been coloring my Exo wrong all this time — but instead of updating in game, I'm retconning my art

#destiny 2 #destiny the game #destiny art #bungie #exo guardian #the young wolf #oc guardian #fanart #in which alfa the hunter was legit born with wormhusk palette in her head before it ever existed #ngl i was bothered a long while with the white head for many reasons #1. too bright 2. elsie's head is also white 3. didn't fit her color scheme #so prb if she had white head i would change to a golden tint bUT THEN REALITY SLAPS ME #PAST ME HAS BEEN RIGHTER THAN PRESENT ME WTF #fun fact tmblr ppl i got my own apartment 8D not living there yet tho #gotta buy literally everything else but AY biggest part is done

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reksink · 20 hours

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Furred Attempts at One's Self

#my art #my ocs #furry art #furry oc #AKA FURSONAS RAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH #I've been finally meaning to rip that bandage off and revist my hyena-sona and as you can see there's no time like the present!!#It's actually been a really refreshing and overall happy process so far and I'm happy to share these small bits of it hehe #This all came from the fact I'm getting into the habit of animal studies again and I felt like this would be a nice test of my knowledge #I'm still forever learning but I think I'm on the right path of capturing the face structure of a hyena and in turn other canviorous mammal #My furrysonas are also vessels to give myself bodymods I'm way to scare to get to I just keep winning hehe #Perhaps I'll look just as cool as this...so day #Also fun fact: The reason I choose a capybara as a sona is because I was a capybara in my friend's Cult of the Lamb playthrough hehe #Ever since I've been connected to the large wet rodents; and I wouldn't have it any other way #THAT AND THERE'S BARELY ANY REFERENCES FOR CAPYBARA PAWS HELP ME #I must make them accurate and yet the limits of search engines pain me #That and hyena noses are tricky to understand but I shall digress

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet!#here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress!#you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better'#i Immediately started doing Worse!#i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now!#okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um.#i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually.#love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me.#perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that!#with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!!#gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

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todayisafridaynight · 6 months

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no ones ever gonna understand how much i love daigo doin this stupid shit after dissolving the tojo

#snap chats #is this a gaiden spoiler. its been like five months catch up you nerds #ANYWAYYYYY NOO I LOVE HIM ....... this whole bit is like four seconds long but i love it so much #i just reminded myself i should probably make gaiden/y8 videos for daigo.. i'll make it a JP/ENG comp or somethn.. one day #not soon tho like its barely anything since he's not in those games Long At All but still. im lazy 💀#excuse me while i gush about daigo for twenty minutes now because hehee HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T GET OVER IT #this is literally the middle aged equivalent of going yippee like YOU CAN TELL HE'S SO RELIEVED IT'S SO CUTE #got the energy of a student with crippling anxiety after they somehow get through giving a presentation without throwing up #AND his lil smile ......... thank you gaiden you made me wanna eat drywall with daigo's sad puppy dog eyes about kiryu #and then immediately made up for it a minute later #sorry i keep scrolling up to look at him and i love him so much. what if i threw up #i dont like using babygirl lightly but this is actually the most Babygirl frame of him ever ive decided #thats my boy .... i love my boy so much ..... he's so cute ... come so far in life congratulations king ..... ily ...#him lookin up at the sky for a minute just to breathe i know he thankin god for the fact he somehow isnt dead yet #im gonna ignore the fact all of this was for naught so i dont bash my head against a wall anyway stan daigo #im gonna be sick i love him so much #if i redraw this later shut up. i love him...#this is why i try not to look at cutscenes anymore cause when i do i feel my brain being put in a microwave and start to melt #its not my fault i love my guys so much .... ok bye i have work to do ....#and then when i finish that work i can go back to loving my guys YAAAAAY !!!!!!!

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w1tchybusiness · 6 months

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i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.

#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up #to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart #that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is #everything about it makes me incredibly autistic #from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers #to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players #and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the “post-ruin scifi” tale #it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby #and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance #and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell #SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD #IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO #SPOILER WARNING #i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game #i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m #i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about #fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible #for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say “i helped that! i did that!” was an incredibly good feeling #the story really spoke to me on a deeper level #and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result #so to do absolutely everything that i could #to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail?#and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe?#felt like i got kicked in the stomach #i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN.#which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the “you lost” scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful #but MOTIVATING.#my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself #i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra #and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance

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fluffs-n-stuffs · 7 months

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A special colored version of one of my all-time favorite Destiny Bond panels to celebrate Eusine day :} 🎀💕✨

#SILLY MAN DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 💖💖💖💕💕💕💕💕💕#I can't tell y'all how tempting it was to make his blouse a dark grey I was so incredibly close he would've looked so hotSKDJFSJKDFNSND /lh #though I ultimately went with the white since it helps to make him look younger (as he's meant to be here)#I don't believe I've ever mentioned it before - but in the Destiny Bond canon; younger Eusine's around 19 (with present day being 28)#Since I like to believe he only really got to start his journey once he hit 18 (and could freely leave his home)#He met Morty around a year into his search (who's the same age as him) :}#that's your DB fun fact of the day akjsdjkasd #I actually Do have a solid idea on how the two actually met for the first time buuut I'm saving that idea for another day hehee #in the meantime --- here's to our whimsy yet elegant and extraordinary Suicune hunter 🤲💖💖💖✨✨✨#pokemon #pokemon gsc #pokemon hgss #eusine #mystery man eusine #eusine pokemon #pokemon fanart #eusine day #みなきくんの日 #ミナキの日

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p1x1x · 4 months

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me pushing myself further with my art drawing really cool perspectives and whatever with the Duo and then i turn around and make lame cutesy ship art waaahhah 😭😭😭

dont read the tags on this if you havent watched gbc i just ramble spoilers 😭 just uhh screaming yknow. mostly mmnn but i like the other characters i swear its just these guys are making me insane

#UGGGGGGGHhhH the duo ever rn…#theyre jsut. so important to each other #supporting each other in their honest expression #FLIP OFF THE WORLD #and i mentioned once on twitter about how real mmk’s fear was #music is everything to her… so for those songs she wrote of her own expression to not be accepted or seen as successful..#yeah that Hurts #i totally get the feeling of wanting to quit… bc why would you want to be hurt that way…#OUUGGGH music (art in general) being able to leave a mark on people…! it can change people…! dont stop making art…!!!!!#but then there’s the side of me that sees all those moments and be like Hell yeah thats some romantic shit… wooo codependency yuri…#going into romantic ship mode #ouggggh but theres also the slightly messed up fact that mmk saw nn less as nn and more as her own past self #and how mmk was not really guiding nn the person so much as she was trying to fulfill her dream through nn #(ok my wording might get confusing but im RAMBLING OKAY)#GOD NN’S VA AND LINES WERE SOOOOO GOOD #mmk stuck in trying to amend her past…! but nn pulls her back to the present #back to reality and shows her that she can still fulfill that dream that desire…!#you saved me with that song its that important and i love it so i love you who laid bare your feelings #UGH THE TRUCK SCENE THAT THAT THAT UUUUGGGGHHFHH #she loves the real mmk…!#god what was i saying with codependency yuri earlier…?#oh right nn only being able to keep going now bc of mmk #hhhhhhhhh #and well. mmk having her happiness depend on keeping nn going (bc of yeah. seeing her past self in her…)#but the confession makes mmk realize what she was doing #(yet still good stuff for codependency yuri)#ok im shutting the fuck up now 😭

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longagoitwastuesday · 11 days

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Kusakabe, dear, you're too beautiful to be saying that kind of stuff

#jjk spoilers #All the prettiest characters were brought back from apparent death #Nobara was okay and it's true that when I read the lawyer's and Kusakabe's fights against Sukuna I thought it was being kept vague #but to pull a Nobara with all of them... idk #No one stays dead here except for the people who actually care for the kids and by that I mean 'including Yuuji'#kinda lowkey bitter about it #Don't get me wrong I like the characters and also they're super pretty but idk It makes death feel cheap? And the high stakes kinda fake?#Choso Gojo and Nanami actual only characters who died apparently #Well. Poor Itadori #And Kusukabe goes and runs his mouth that way in front of the kid. He is not entirely wrong but also he very much is #And yes he also says 'don't worry it's not for you to feel guilty over anything you're just kids' but also he did very much say that thing #about it all being Gojo's fault for not killing Itadori. In front of Itadori who feels guilty for that precisely #and in front of Megumi who asked Gojo to spare him and also went through the experience of Sukuna using his body as well #So Kusukabe's reassurance about them just being kids and not to feel guilty falls a bit empty #It does feel in character but man it truly makes one appreciate the way Gojo and Nanami dealt with the kids a lot more haha #Ui Ui seems like a dear #Anyway... this chapter felt a bit lame for the most part for me? I like the idea of the characters discussing the could have/would have #and feeling guilt and helplessness over their choices but the way it was done felt a bit lame and without any real emotional punch #It felt more like an explanation to the reader in an awkward way. And there's a lot of empty chat about guilt and grief #without any of the characters really giving off a grieving air about everything and everyone they've lost #And this is precisely what I felt was going to happen with this manga's writing haha #I truly don't understand this kind of writing choices. Contrary to some other shonen writers this author did seem to have the potential #to write this kind of thing well besides the worldbuilding and powers and fight stuff. It's truly a pity. It so breaks my heart #And still this is considered one of the good shonens. Well. WELL haha #I do think shonen can be good! I just think it falls almost always even when there's potential into bery shallow writing #I don't know. Maybe I should read that one Alchemist manga #I've been repeatedly told that one's good and it does seem like it doesn't do... this. But I find the art style so not to my linking #I wish I had never gotten into JJK for real for real. I absolutely adore it. I always end up frustrated. It could be so good. Genuinely good #And yet it's just okay in a sort of forgettable way. What a pity #Everything good ever is present but it never dares do anything to fully explore what it sets. It just does the typical shonen stuff

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