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puppyeared · 2 years

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I just skimmed through the art part of your blog and holy bajeebus your LMK art is so beautiful and the headcanon ideas you come up with are so good I wanna steal em-

Kinda wanna see like a part 2 of the little angst you did between MK and Macaque a while ago. It's so interesting and I wanna see Macaque's reaction in your art style. (You don't have to of course, it's just a suggestion [idk if i spelled that right])

Thanks for reading and hope you have a good day/night!

Hope this is to your liking ^^

Part one here

#I’m sure there are some character nuances im forgetting but well 🤷🏽#I want their misunderstanding or whatever they have going on between then come to a head. literally just going ‘wait what’#for me I think it’s entirely possible that there was an actual fight and maybe tension leading up to that point #cause I feel like macaque is not just bitter about thinking he died to wukong but maybe some stuff that built up to that #maybe the fight was just the breaking point. maybe they’re idiots who don’t talk about it because they think they’re on the same page idk #chipper-smol wrote a cool theory abt them using macaques ‘you’re nothing’ line in s4ep1. from what I understand it could be a direct parall #parallel to when he said that to MK right before MK regained his nerve and hit macaque in the eye.. since flying bark foreshadowed monkey mk #waaaay back in season 1 (where his shadow is his monkey form in the opening) i think that could be deliberate #and they could have gotten billy to voice an entirely different line for that scene. but they reused his line from s3 #in a very specific scene with wukongs narrative foil. hm #that aside I would have liked to hear billy voice the ‘you abandoned me’ line that would have killed me. but that’s just me lol #also looking at this I should have shaded the last frame to make it look more dramatic and serious but I ran out of time :(#if anything I want to see MK try and help them get back together. poor kid tries so hard to understand people so I think it would be cool to #see that happen. that’s what I like about him.. he asked macaque why he was working for LBD instead of accusing him of dooming everyone bc #he wants to and he tried to comfort spider queen by admitting he was scared of LBD too 😭😭#my art #myart #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #Monkie kid #lmk spoilers #Lego Monkie kid spoilers #lmk macaque #six eared macaque #lmk sun wukong #lmk swk #lmk MK #lmk xiaotian #lmk season 4 #Lego Monkie kid s4

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maomango-doodle · 1 year

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Dumping all my old Strike Hawk art here

These 3 pages are titled "Lost and Found". It's not rly related to any particular event in the story (it's just the aftermath of a mission here) But i'd probably situate it after chapter 8 with the whole Camu ordeal. I wanted to show how Kamui has found people that accept him and care for him while Camu is left behind, living through Kamui

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bacchuschucklefuck · 4 months

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love thinking kipperlilly spends her afterlife looking for lucy in a familiar forest

#not art #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #like. does she have a mean of knowing lucy and yolanda got sent to cassandra's domain to hang out for a bit #kipperlilly's isolation means so much to me. she is punished for everything she's done she just doesn't pick up on it #until the moment she dies! one more funky thing that mirrors riz in which he's actively tried to cultivate a community and denied it #until the bad kids. while kipperlilly does not want or care about a community she just wants someone who validates her #but she does Need a community so she latches onto the person she lets closer to her to fulfill her emotional needs #she took the ritual willingly so this might genuinely be her first death. probably terrifying #probably not even enough bandwidth to feel mortified. maybe immediately seeking something comforting out of instinct alone #lmao honestly thinking too much abt fantasy high afterlifes gives me a headache And a visceral fear #Im not religious but I grew up in a culture with a dominantly buddhist/taoist cosmology its Scary that u just go to A Place after u die!!#and then ur still urself!!! thats scary to me what do u mean u stay like that forever. thats fucked #but yeah I think this influences how I see kipperlilly turn out a little bit. in a sense I think of her as being a ghost now #yknow. trying to solve something from life so she can move on and. stop living this life etc #man the reveal that lucy took being killed pretty seriously and is like yeah the others are decent and even sweet #and probably was just trying to hold her party together and do what she thinks is moral by hearing kipperlilly out #lol lmao etc. gods I gotta wonder how kipperlilly's mindset handled jawbones' help #it really is damn tragic tho. I stand by what I said folks like this will complain and be nasty to be around #but they dont have enough desire to inconvenience themselves to off the bat do something abt what they find unfair or whatever #its when theyre handed the seemingly very easy means to be right that they'll start being dangerous #its horribly tragic that the supposed metaplayer and the self-perceived mastermind turned out to ultimately be just an useful idiot #yknow what. I think personally in my heart kipperlilly moves on from her afterlife the moment she says sorry #doesnt even have to be to lucy but that's probably gonna be who received it #ah.... teenage rebellion. teenage gamejacking

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estuaryorange · 2 years

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Thinking about how few shits Stede gives about the distress of the crew really makes the bathtub scene hit even fucking harder like Lucius keeled over in front of him and he was just annoyed fuckery rehearsal was interrupted but Ed has a flashback and panics and he breaks open his own fucking door and sinks to his knees beside him and says Ed’s name in the tenderest voice and I am oN fIrE

Oh you’re dying Lucius? Inconvenient and rude. Ed is upset?!?! Fuckery, what fuckery ARE YOU OK EDWARD would you feel better if I tell you that you’re good at maiming people please don’t cry I’ll forgive you for planning to murder me I’ll do anything to stop you looking so desperately sad let me just touch you gently let me make it better

#thinking about #@chuplayswithfire #post about Izzy's toe #and #@ourflagmeansgayrights #response to it specifically #ofmd meta #It also really gets me in this scene that they’re each other's first real friend?#Like Ed is upset for a lot reasons but finally having someone he cares about and not wanting to kill them is one of them #Stede finally has someone he cares about who’s well being is more important than his self interest #like he was so excited about the fuckery but abandons the grand finale to check on Ed without a second thought #part of that was that the fuckery was to impress Ed anyway but the man put his whole dramatic idiot pussy into it #they’re both selfish bastards but they make an effort to care about something other than themselves for each other #anyway the bathtub scene makes me feral #my first watch I was having a blast and invested as hell #but that was the scene that tipped me over into unhinged hyperfixation #hurt/comfort is my genre foks #ofmd #genltebeard #blackbonnet #what the heck I'll also tag u emmy incase you miss it bc this seems like something you would also want to bite your own arm about #@xoxoemynn

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aeolianblues · 5 months

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one last thing I will say on that topic. Americans getting upset about you calling out Zionism. When you're not talking about Judaism or in fact, about religion at all. When you're talking about a national military funded by a country that has been dropping bombs on the middle east since the 1980s. But then I suppose when people who are so so so comfortable with equating a whole religion, or further a whole entire group of multiple ethnicities, with simply 'terrorism', are criticised on any aspect of their wrongdoings of course they must think we're talking about their whole religion. Literally every word is a projection.

#I lost all respect for that person honestly. I used to think they were quite cool. I put up with a lot of blatantly horrendous shit thinking #'surely it's only a defensive thing. Surely they're only talking about the sadness within their community rather than actively supporting #the mass killings of thousands of people. Surely they're a teacher they've got to have that empathy with kids being murdered'#No! The fucking full clownshow. And now I've been feeling like an idiot all day— like why did I go 'let it slide' x 100 #why should *they* walk away feeling like they've got some sort of moral superiority here and why should I feel like I've been struck down?#Why am I the idiot that didn't block them four months ago #Anyway sorry to everyone who's had to watch me spam about one (1) negative interaction *all day long* it will subside soon #I'm just stinging from the fucking. Utter blindness.#We've always said someone's comfort doesn't override someone else's right to survival #as a literal genderqueer person they KNEW that. They'd uttered the same fucking sentence #but alas the pinkwashing that makes me so frustrated with Americans sometimes. It magically doesn't apply where racism is concerned ✨😃#The US really is bombs dropped by rainbow-painted aircrafts; that meme should not be this accurate #anyway I'm glad that person is not in my life anymore. I'm glad my dash has one less abomination to repeatedly show up on it #and I have every right to be angry and I will be. I just won't bother you lovely folks with it

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lilaccatholic · 10 months

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how do i do it though. how do i let go of the bitterness and the hardness when they kept me "okay" for so long? does it come when i finally leave? can it ever?

#babes i actually relate to the frigid angry woman more than im comfortable with but this time there's no prince coming to save her and idk #i was never beautiful but i was and am angry and capable and that's served me well but being angry is exhausting #it's a birthright i can't give to a younger sibling. it doesn't transfer.#i dont inspire devotion. there's no version of this that ends with me waltzing with a true love.#im not the type you launch a thousand ships for.#so what's left?#who am i when i have no one? when ive spent my life making *me* less to make others more? when im nothing but a useful piece of furniture.#i know God loves me! i love Him! but it's not the same. i want *people* to love me. i want to be someone that theyd fight for.#im feeling that 'women have minds and hearts but im so lonely' scene from little women 2019 so much right now.#except im not jo. my family loves me but theyd never do for me what jo's would do for her. theyre also all focused on surviving.#i feel like a military ration. there to be consumed but cast aside the moment something more palatable comes around.#how do i become consumed with joy? how do i let go of the cynicism? its all thats kept me safe! but its choking me too.#its like tony stark in iron man 2. the thing thats kept me alive this far is killing me. i need to find an alternative but its looking like #ill have to synthesize a new element to make it happen and that freaks me out.#ive always been derivative. never an individual. how do i become a trailblazer when my job was always to hold the hand of the one blazing #the trail? how do i become myself happy and free?#because i WANT to be more #i WANT to be more than anger and coldness and a useful idiot. i WANT to be me and be so so happy #but i dont know how to get there #and if someone suggests therapy im shooting you. i dont want to listen to one more person pretend to care about me and tell me #all the things i need to change and spend even longer not learning how to think for myself #i want to be more than this. but i also cant stand the thought of taking up any more space than i do #anyway.#anyone who's read all this thank you and i promise im fine im just in my feelings today lol #im going to work out and get some happy brain chemicals flowing and then ill take a shower and itll all be good.#please dont worry about me! im just having A Moment TM #lilac rambles

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kaisollisto · 2 months

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#tko_art #im posting this in advance cuz im on vacation 😔#i hope the weather isnt shit #🤞😋#and i hope i can turn my brain off to enjoy it #instead of stressing about art and progress #and capitalism and how much time im “wasting” like an idiot #😴😴😴😴#why do i think so much #i hope i have fun #and most importantly i do not cry #in front of my friends #i think i'd have to kill myself #or throw myself off a bridge and drown #what's the point of being rich if I wake up alone #or something something #i'll tell u more if u don't mind #but i'd hate to waste your time #it'll be okay #truthfully i think the problem is more so i find comfort in my sadness and don't know how to exist in any other form than that #being sad made me who I am #insert pain is what made me a sister warrior sobbing emoji #why would I want to change that?#it'll be ok trust

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aftermathing · 3 months

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#Howwwww is it 5am already I want to go home #I begged my parents and sibling to let me go home to my own bed and they wouldn't let me #I don't want to be the solution to our family problems I want to go be alone and not here #I understand me being around more would make our parents nicer and give my siblings someome sane to talk to #But I want to die and I don't want to be here and I don't care about any of these people #Once again them forcing me to go to their house made me miss an assignment. So that class is genuinely failed now.#It makes me so frustrated I could cry. Every time I say I'm doing school work #Or say I can't drop everything and drive forty minutes to their house. they laugh at me #They genuinely laugh and say I'm such a liar and I'm faking and there's no way I ever do any school work #I'm actually shaking I'm so frustrated they don't understand. That's how long it takes me.#Why can't they just realize I'm a dumbass fucking idiot. I'm so fucking stupid #I'm literally so stupid. Intellectually I'm a fucking idiot and I am so useless and slow.#Stop trying to believe I have potential to fucking waste #The fact is there is no potential but I'm fucking wasting anyway #I'm so. Dumb. When I say I'm doing school work I mean I looked at the tab and got nervous about how overdue #everything is and how I'm failing and everyone wants me to leave my safety for their own inane bullshit #I wouldn't be failing this class at all if I had been able to complete the first week on time #instead of like. sitting outside a convention center alone and in agony for Five (5) hours.#Kudos to the devil for creating the exact perfect circumstances to kill me in particular #I should reach out and go to a friend's house and it would be good for me. But.#There's no way I'm going to see or speak to anyone in this state of everything #Everyone else around me seems to have improved in mental health I'm not going to ruin that by making them let me come over #No one really believes any of the problems I have like even I don't. how are you that stupid. just stop having these problems.#I can't go to a friend's house when I have problems like this. Last time I had a breakdown and scared the fucking host and #their partner had to be the one to comfort me because I was crying too loud for autistic ears :(#I can't do that to anyone again #I'm not kidding when I say I'm a huge burden genuinely I exist to be upsetting and inconvenient and frustrating #I am literally the most selfish person to ever have existed. Just objectively. I don't care about anyone or anything at all.#I don't love my friends or my family and I don't care about what they want or need. truthfully.#I just want to sit in my tiny room where nothing changes and no one expects me to drive anywhere holy fucking shit it's 6am

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vicdeangxo · 10 months

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Måneskin posted on Tiktok | @ykaaarr

#* . ⊹ all this lust for just onе touch › victoria #* . ⊹ loud kids from the streets of rome › måneskin #// this killed me. my comfort idiots

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seaofolives · 2 years

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look at him! he's just a dumb nature boy who loves foxes

#ghost of tsushima #sakaisaturday #i love him so much he's very important to me #idk if i can already call him my comfort character but he's getting there #my idiot ace boy who kills everyone before he asks questions* 🥰🥰🥰#* - yeah it's not him it's me #im the one killing everyone before i ask questions #sorry for the slander jin #(but you're still ace)

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miamicommune · 6 months

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#miserable psychotic fucking idiot im so tired of being this way #don't know how to express to people that it doesn't go anywhere good from here.#there's not going to be any buildup to anything good in my life that there'll be no grand crescendo or zenith it's passed it's already gone #from here it's a glacial decline and it's unbearable. there's no comfort in anything anymore it's all just. this. stagnant and exhausting.#can't bring myself to keep going for that or stagnation or for life staying as is. this will kill me. i am not going to be here for long.#it's exceptionality or im going to die and the former was always a pipe dream.#i can't live so what else is there.#to all things an end.

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trainingdummyrabbit · 8 months

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man. apropos of nothing, its fucking crazy having been a pokemon fan just about literally my whole entire life and Still feeling like a stranger in the community

#like yea its my one thing id feel comfortable classifying as a special interest to me. would Still look like an idiot talking to ppl KDJGN #yea i know a lil about the games; love pmd its my everything. but im not Nearly smart enough it feels like.#like i dont know anything abt the mangaverse. theres human characters people would kill for and to me theyre just #That Guy That Was There Once. apparently they have character arcs?#and despite growing up on the anime i dont know shit abt that either. it fucken. went on without me.#and now theres guys There that i dont know too! and people talking like its obvious stuff! calling em names ive never heard!#girl im a stranger in my own house!!!! what!!!#piktalk

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krenia · 1 year

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WHIPLASH

HA this THIS was what's Aiden was originally made for not the convoluted lore my brain made !! [I'm not undoing the lore]

#anytime i drew oc x canon its like directly injecting serotonin into my veins #ESPECIALLY AidenxEthan it makes my brain very happy theyre both dear to me #nott putting this on the ethan tag its already mostly me #theyre very dear to me i cannot stress this enough my comfort idiots [just a dude x a literal killing machine]#hhhhh my brain is very content i can sleep peacefully now #arknights oc #art #illustration #oc art #I CANNOT OVERSTATE HOW IMPORTANT—#this piece will keep me going for WEEKS #ok no rant over #my art #aiden-oc

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dirt-str1der · 2 years

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I dont care about majima x sagawa btw but i care a lot about their relationship regardless because i want them to have the most toxic dealings and skewed power dynamics with each other as possible and i them both to have increasingly warped perceptions of each other (worlds most incorrect uncle-nephew relationship)

#Listen to my problems #sagawas like majima chan i bought pudding for you since chewing is hard right now and majimas like (muffled) can you kill yourself . and #sagawa is like (laughs) keep up that tone and ill break your jaw again #like obviously sagawa isnt doing charity work putting majima back on his feet because majima has to pull his own weight too but over time #majima became less of an ‘investment’ and more like his hotheaded young apprentice / nephew who is really smart (sagawas very proud of him)#but also doesnt know anything good for himself because hes an idiot and sagawa needs to do everything for him sometimes or he’ll pull the #most ASININE stunts imaginable. like kid i do Good by you and you do the same for me as long as you keep your head down and run the grand.#he cannot fathom why majima wants to claw his way back into the tojo because sagawa Knows shimano and he Knows that shimano is bad news and #will definitely send majima into the jaws of death over and over and seriously what a WASTE of good talent !!! unfortunately majima is the #same type of stupid as his oath brother but it doesnt mean he wants to see the kid get himself killed (wise words from a man who got himself #killed) | and majima ... it was not difficult to start going crazy about sagawa at first sight because he just came out of a very violent #place where every touch meant more torture and pain then suddenly hes being put in the capable hands of a man whos like a fucking angel #sagawa feeds clothes and bathes him and majima cant help but act like being cared for is the worst thing thats ever happened to him theres #too much touching and hes completely dependent on sagawa who checks his weight daily and changes his bandages and cleans his leaky infected #eye and he wants nothing more than to be left alone but he cant do anything by himself and hes too devastated to be grateful. its gross !!#and whenever he inevitably breaks the hell down sagawa is always there to hold and comfort him and what the hell else can he do but seek #comfort in the only person that ‘cares’ about him when sagawa is so good at pretending ... is he pretending ? who gives a fuck anymore man #sagawas punishment and comfort all in one ... hes a means to an end .. hes majimas caretaker and his gaoler. the guy who knows everything #about him and the one who’ll use every last bit of it against him oh god wait #this is just isabelle and emma damnit damnit im gonna go read purromised neverland again

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sensitivegoblin · 7 months

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Vent

#'dont make me watch you all night'#great so my depression and the fact I wanna die constantly is an inconvenience to you? oh darn sorry #my dad is such an idiot sometimes he used to be the smartest man alive#now I'm scared n dealing with the world on my own #I wanna die so badly it's not fair that I'm not allowed #I'm not even important why do you even wanna keep me around #I can't comprehend someone truly loving me in the end everyone just wants something from me #so many people that I thought I was gonna spend forever with disappeared #I can't take this anymore I don't wanna live another 25 years I'm getting sick at the thought #I'm supposed to call for help right now....but I know no one can help me #they can stop me from killing mysrlf n hold me against my will that's it #no one can make my life better.....#I just wanna die so fucking bad #my dad just sucks at comfort and then he dumps sad shit onto me #the only thing that's gonna make me feel better rn is pain #I just wanna die my life sucks so fucking bad why do they wanna keep me here im fucking useless

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rewrentless · 1 year

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#i am not doing well #i overheard my parents the other night talking about how they dont accept me that they dont believe in nonbinary genders and how they #hate it so much #ive been out for 6 years and i know they struggle to understand especially my dad but my mum has always said she supports and accepts me #she helped me legally change my name and said her and my dad would pay for my top surgery if it ever happened #shes always doing research and asking questions so i thought she understood at least a little #i feel betrayed and abandoned by the only people in my family who i thought actually accepted me and would stand up for me #guess it was a fucking lie #this is literally my worst fear come true im so anxious and scared of people making fun of me behind my back or #lying that they like or accept me out of pity #i dont know how to wrap my head around that i cant trust my mum my comfort person #i feel like an idiot ive been saying for years how lucky i am to have parents who are trying who support me who encourage me to be who i am #turns out theyre no better than my aunt who blamed me for turning my cousin gay and trans they just lied cause they thought id kill myself #ive been wanting to move out for a while cause if my dads drinking and temper but i cant stanf being near them rn #i cant really do anything though cause nearly all the student accommodation is full and i dont know the process for renting #my mum has me so sheltered from reality i dont know how to do anything #im so tired

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