#[ and also do forgive me on discord-- it's pretty much a 'my social is very limited' thing for now. ]

[yuelun]

Sincerest apologies for the little bout of silence here (and on Discord, respectively)— the beginning of May is always a little bit of a 'fragile' and emotional time of the year for me due to a personal loss, but I'll be back here very soon enough. No frets, Guizhong is banging pots and pans in my head at every single given occasion; when I said one needs multiple hands to deal with her, I wasn't kidding.

[hypnag0g]

Do you have examples of your web/graphic design-ish art on hand? I've caught glimpses and it's some REALLY excellent stuff

howdy! thank you so much for this wonderful ask, i very rarely get the chance to talk about my web/graphic design stuff, so seize any chance i can get! you'll have to forgive me for how scattered this everything is, my graphic design stuff normally ends up as a smaller part of illustrations, so a lot of it is gonna be cropped, haha.

my hypnagog header is probably the thing i'm most proud of, it was the first custom font i ever made that felt like i captured what i saw in my head. kind of a clunky way to put it but before this i'd change my header logo and general "branding" like once every three months, yet this one has stuck around for like 2ish years!! here it is in my classic colorway and my new green/orange one.

here are a couple of my older logos for a bunch of random projects (a comic about evil horses, a defunct community project, a bunch of little glyphs for hypnagog before i settled on my current aesthetic, and one for story about evil clones)

here are three posters i did for a couple of classes, they're more illustrative than graphic design but there's still elements that feel close enough to gd for me to post lol (a pitch poster for ANOTHER comic i was working on, an editorial piece about the recent HPAI surge, and a quick zine about my experiences with internet horror)

and FINALLY. here's my web design stuff. full disclaimer, i learned how to code on neopets, and i've never been able to break free of it's pull, so p much everything i've ever done for web design has all been on neopets, or on clone sites that emulate it pre-2007.

i'd love to link you these two but they're unfortunately behind a login screen on my current petsim of choice, so i hope the screenshots will do! these two are pet lookups coded from the ground up to look like social media profile pages (fun sidenote: Butch has a normal profile, Ransom is a silly hacker stereotype, and he had no choice but to "customize" his profile when faced with the insanely unsecured back-end of LUNET.)

aside from that, my other most recent web project was developing a really sleek character directory for my toyhou.se. i made all the graphics on this page and i'm super proud of it, haha.

oh i almost forgot. i also have a bunch of really dumb banners that my friends and i use in discord in tandem with a bot that posts them on command - most of them are intentionally designed to look bad, but some of em (especially the data "webba" banner) were made with a lot of care, haha.

i think i might be forgetting some things, but that's pretty much it! my next big project is building out my neocities - i'll definitely post about it when its finished because i wanna use it as a secondary posting location for all my stuff :o]

thank you again!!!!

[exqviis]

hello hello! my name’s isa   ( 23, she/her )   and i’m here to a) ask forgiveness for posting this so DISGUSTINGLY late and b) introduce you to amara chaichana who is a new-ish muse that’s kind of a mixture between rachel green, julien calloway, and song jia, and has been lingering in my mind for the past couple of months. i’m really excited to meet and write with all of you - so if you’re interested in plotting please don’t hesitate to click the lil heart button, or just slide straight into my dms! my discord is also available upon request, if that’s your preferred way of communication!

look who’s joining the infinite tour! only AMARA CHAICHANA, who is the STYLIST of KWON SOMI (MICHELLE). i’ve heard whispers that the 24 year old is pretty AMBITIOUS but lowkey DEMANDING. also, doesn’t she remind you of NICHA YONTARARAK (MINNIE)?

i always start my intros with links for BIO / STATS / PLOTS / PINTEREST – though i should say that the biography is still unfinished ( coming …. soon-ish? ) and the pinterest board is also under construction ;-; i should also mention that i’m ASTRONOMICALLY bad at writing intros and this will probably be all over the place – please bear with me

amara grew up in los angeles CA as the only child of a famous model and an acclaimed movie director – so upper class and very privileged ( read: spoiled ) and lucky enough to grow up incredibly loved and cared for

very much involved in the hollywood scene from a young age, accompanying her parents to many of the events they attended and walking her first red carpet at the age of seven. none of it bothered her at all – not the bright light of the camera flashes, nor the cacophony of shutter sounds, and least of all – the attention. she loved it – reveled in it, even. so it came to no one’s surprise when amara finally dipped her toes in the nepo scene at the ripe old age of fifteen. the long days spent on movie sets as a child bled into her teenage years, though now she was the one standing in front of the camera, instead of lurking in the background

okay so maybe it wasn’t all sunshine and rainbows like she thought. maybe the media was a lot more ruthless now that she was older and maybe her friend group cared more about her connections than her. so what? it totally didn’t play a part in her packing her bags and exchanging hollywood’s glitz and glamour for new york’s skyscrapers – not at all

( to be fair it was only the cherry on top – in reality, she’d been planning the move for quite a while and this only gave her the final push to go ahead with it )

got into parsons on her own merit, enrolling into their fashion design program and graduating as one of the top students in her generation. gathered as many internships and courses under her belt as possible and then moved again – this time to seoul SK, where, for the first time ever, people didn’t really care about who she was or who she knew

she’d been interning at vogue korea for about a year when one of the editors recommended her for one of the stylist positions on the tour – and who was she to say no to the prospect of doing what she loves while travelling the world?

okay now for some personal info

→ although she’s been away from la for quite a while, social relationships and the image she presents to others are still just as important to her and something she’s very careful about. she’s gotten quite good at talking a lot about herself without actually saying anything substantial. she has tried to be more open with herself and others, but almost subconsciously slips back into this mindset as she’s not really used to anything different

→ unfortunately this also kinda means she does a bit of a ‘push and pull’ or ‘hot and cold’ with a lot of people where she wants their attention and wants them around, but pushes them away when she feels like they’ve gotten too close

→ she still cares about other people! very easy to be around, always ready to chat about anything and everything and help out in any way she can. likes to make people feel special and important – just as long as, you know, you don’t ask any personal questions

→ flattery may not work on everyone, but it does on her – though she hates to admit it. amara’s easy to sway, you just gotta put in a lil effort and know the right words

→ very detailed, very dedicated, very determined. also incredibly competitive – not to the point where she’d actively sabotage someone else for her benefit but she definitely tries to stay a couple of steps ahead when it comes to the things she wants

[mrstransformersfanfiction]

A little facts about this writer: 🇦🇺 🌹📚✍️

Sit your ass down, have a bloody cuppa to read cause you're gonna need one 😂☕. I ain't going to deal with nothing in 2022 this year and is all going to be positivity and lots of love for 2022.

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Discord:

ejtyler2018

I'm new to this piece of shit area. So I am very rarely on it for a very long time and as you know I'm a busy bee. So don't get mad if I'm not a talker. 💜 I just write when I feel a muse on. If I don't have then I don't.

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[20/2/2022] all my writing social websites:

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I am rarely on Wattpad just so you know. My primary ones are Fanfiction and archive of our own. Though I was also introduced to like quotev that a friend on Tumble recommended. B/c I was so damn busy with my studies this year please forgive me for not updating a lot of anything this year. That's why I took a long break from writing. Welcome to follow me on Wattpad but this is my rarest to go to on the site just FYI!

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Fanfiction post account

https://www.fanfiction.net/~torianscriber2012

My first account. I did have two but b/c I wrote a crossover fanfiction for NCIS Los Angeles and Hawaii Five-0 before I was an idiot for forgetting what was my second account.

This is my primary account stored with all my Transformers fanfiction stories that I was really proud of and definitely much better than my primary school age stories I written when I was like in sixth grade 🤣 for reals.

Try Skylia2016 b/c I'm pretty sure it says DeletedConfirm. I lost major motivation and hit a massive writer block when I felt like doing something very different for a side hobby and didn't know what to do or how to complete the plot story. I love those two series and still watch them until now. So if you're a fan of Hawaii Five-0 like me, well, aloha to you b/c Steve McGarrett is my all times hero! 💜

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Archive of Our Own Pinned Post

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Bio author: TorianScriber2012

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I was a former Roleplayer writer, a multimuse writer. I am a firm believer in writing that all writers should enjoy their own creativity, that Fanfiction is only for fun and should be respected. Writing is not a job and no hate should be ever tolerated. This is a dedicated page only for my stories that should have been written and all from hearts desire.

English is not my first language. I'm actually multi linguistics language and speak 3 languages at home. I support foreign language too and don't care if you make fun of people that can't speak well.

I love MARVEL more than I love DC.

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Fandoms the writer know of are:

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• Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy IX, Final Fantasy IX, Final Fantasy X, Final Fantasy XII, Final Fantasy XIII, Final Fantasy XV.

I use to love the Final Fantasy fandom but b/c of drama excuse me for beginning to block as I have zero intention to associate with it.

• Thor

• Hawaii Five-0 and NCIS Los Angeles

• Kingdom Hearts series 1 - 3

• Avengers Infinity War, Avengers Endgame, Civil War

• Guardian of the Galaxy

• Batman Begins, The Dark Knight, The Dark Knight Rises only Christopher Nolan trilogy movies

A true story:

• I have been on Fanfiction since 2012 and I have been off for a very long time b/c I learned to accept criticism in regards to me being as a second language writer or that my ideas are too complicated, or to be simpler than to be overly long paragraphs.

• I have been criticised for a character that's been loved when writing a NSFW for a fandom, rudely bashed out of own creation and a lot of hate. So, a side note on this I take seriously, if you really hate the way I do it, don't even bother being my friend and literally leave my account and if it disturb you when you become a fandom protector for stupidity reason when I enjoy exploring my creativity ideas, please feel free to use the block button.

You can still flame people like me and there may be people like me who will end up picking my ideas in the end. So go get other writers who won't enjoy either if you go on bashing them! Just saying. If you have serious problem on NSFW dark themes bashing, please feel free to leave my account b/c I can be a very dark writer theme plot.

If you adore a character from a beloved fandom and got put off, no one asked you to read the way I write to ruin your day. You chose it in the end. I'm just stating the obvious facts people have against me back then. Hence, had happened on countless occasion and blowing up my DMs after.

I will literally throw your ass out myself. Don't tell me later that you won't stalk me when I prefer a quiet small group and I certainly won't spend my day chasing people who hates me. I focus on people that is levelled with me and match my energies not people that doesn't help me grow as a person and as a writer. There's a major big ass difference.

• I have been sent with hate in regards on the way I portray certain characters due to a fandom loved and protected when I don't even take Roleplay writing at all seriously. I just see it as a side hobby and my characters writing portray was definitely a lot of hate. I learned that if you been sent a hate, that means you are absolutely doing something right about your writing.

• Know that I don't tolerate any dramas. I will block anyone that have a problem with me on the way I don't follow headcanons. I am the type of writer that believes solely in creation, that all writers should explore their own unique ways of writing and what makes them happy. I am typically the most boring person people will ever meet so don't stalk me, ya!

You are allowed to have your own opinions. If you have a problem with non head-canon of a fandom, the way it is design, the way writers portray a character, let it be let go. Don't send us anon hate if you hate something. It's beyond bloody childish.

If you don't like the writer, block. Don't chase the writers, use the button. Don't anonymously go through accounts. I think is overkill. Respect their privacy please and leave them be. It's weird and obsessive. Very creepy as hell I might add.

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TorianScriber2012: what she loves about Transformers Prime and Bayverse points: 🌹📚✍️

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• Massive fan of: Ironhide, Dreadwing, Jazz. I'm also okay too with Ratchet. Too shocked when the Bayverse decided to write our favourite bots off the movie. I was so gutted. Long live the Transformers! Can we have a Transformers emoji? Like seriously! Please! I will use it!

• Diehard fan of Dreadwing lover here. He needs a sparkmate for crying out loud. Stupid Megatron killing him to save that little backstabber Starscream. I mean how could you! 😩😭💜

• Types of fics I really enjoyed: William Lennox x Ironhide friendship lots of whump moments please I beg someone to write one for me too. I don't see many on Fanfiction. I enjoy a lot of whump, angst and bromance broship big time. Probably too much 😂.

• Enjoys a dirty smut fics NSFW of bots and female humans 🙈 before I end up falling heads over hill of Wheeljack x Female oc human please. I dare someone to write another one. I'm going crazy! -slams fist on table- I may end up asking you to write me a request because I'm a hoe on it

• Massive fan of OCs female humans and we all have different cups of tea.

• Currently in progress with my three fics: Rogue Alliance, Stand By Me and Until Death Do Us Apart fanfiction novella series in Transformers Bayverse and Transformers Prime.

• Mature contents will be separated in relation to my stories for smut purposes 😝😏 this author is very sinful you have been warned!!!! Plays with dark themes a lot. So if you don't like dark themes I suggest turn back around.

• No Roleplay community anymore. I certainly am very against people saying people on statuses because leads to many miscommunication and misunderstanding. This is due to a personal experienced from lesson learned.

• In her early 30s. If you are a minor under age 18+ please keep away from my sinful thoughts because this page won't be for you. You have been warned!!!! 📚✍️

• Don't expect me to always be on Tumblr. It is very much okay to talk with me in messages but I am not always here everyday. I can be very slow during my work days and school lecture especially working days!

So if I reply you on due to timezone reasons that's okay cause you can too. I don't mind. I'm not the type of person that says: oi, why don't you reply to me. No man. I'm very introverted and don't chase anyone.

I'm highly introverted ass. I'm just going to say it out here. 🌏📚

• I do stalk memes/fanfiction and archive of our own for my own amusement and am a very introvert person.

• Does not follow at all marketing people. I only follow Fanfiction, Transformers memes and fans to connect. You can say I'm a novella crossover writer and singular series alone.

• VERY AGAINST ANYONE that STEALS PLOT IDEAS BECAUSE THERE WOULD BE HELL TO PAY! I do not condone this at all and have huge respect to creative writers as already mentioned.

I was asked earlier in the week if I take on requests: so I am going to spill it all out here for you guys:

• At this stage I am not taking any requests due to real life reasons. But vice versa I will asked you to create a gift fic for me if I want to dare someone to write for me.

• Likes and interaction through post is very okay. Keep in mind I'm a very introvert writer and sometimes I also don't know if I should interact with people or over doing things. So if I'm a little weird to you, I apologised just in advance.

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• If you are a Roleplayer I am sorry to say I will not follow you at all. I made a big promise to myself I will never go back to that bullshit community for mental health reasons. This goes to all fandoms! I would unfollow you instantly if you are a Roleplayer. I'm adding this on because I feel very dishearted at the thought of Roleplay with very good reasons.

• I don't tolerate people that steals stories or oc characters. Please respect creative writers because they put time and effort very much. I applaud all creative writers that writes from their hearts and all work should be protected is something I highly support. Technically should have a rule on people plagiarism on own plot stories. 🔒📚

• If you throw a drama at my way, a block will be on instantly and I won't tolerate nonesense. Respect admin choices. I don't care if you do it but I don't use block for no good reasons. That's what's is there for. The reasons I would block also if it is telemarking advertisement and definitely not interested in any other areas but writing only.

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Keep in mind as in experience of mine:

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• Always consult with me and I also don't tolerate gossip. I don't tolerate cyber bullying either. To me it is highly not professional. Do not ever get me involved or asked me to side with you. There is something called boundaries. I got my own problems to deal with and something called life.

• I make take a long time to reply at my own pace. Please don't feel like you're ignored. It's not my intention. Keep in mind this writer is very introverted person and chat when less stress free, less busy. Writers have real life too please. Mun will check in when can 📚✍️

If you end up reading my fics pay attention to the human holoforms so you can have a clear picture what they look like. 💜📚

I can be an emotional ass at times when I read a fic before people look at me weirdly and say this bitch is a mess 🤣

~ ★ You are welcome to follow me: I do keep up with authors statuses ★~

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[dramionecommentfest]

Reader Profile: Kiwi05622

The Dramione Comment Fest is the fest where readers take center stage! We’re excited to feature profiles of some of our readers throughout the course of the fest. First up, we have the most delightful and lovely @kiwi05622​!

Location: Middle East Hogwarts House: Slytherin Pronouns: she/her When did you start reading Dramione? How did you originally find fics to read?  I started reading in 2017… I think. Or was it 18? I'm not sure anymore. But one of those years lol! So yes, I'm still relatively new to the fandom. But I have devoured so much that it's come to the point where all the stories I've read have started to mingle with each other, and I can't tell you which story is which unless it had a massive impression on me and stood out. How did I find fics? I had this friend of mine, who was a closeted fic reader (I will never forgive her for not introducing me to this world sooner) that kept on dropping these obscure hints my way whenever Harry Potter would come up in our discussions, which was often. She would call me and ask what I'm doing, and my answer would either be, I'm reading HP, or watching one of the movies. She never once judged me or asked me why I'm spending so much time re-reading and rewatching, and I love her for that. One night, she got a little frustrated with me when I whined about NEEDING MORE of it, and she snapped. She was like KIWI JUST GIVE ME TWO CHARACTERS THAT YOU LOVE, and I shyly replied Hermione and Draco? She had the audacity to sigh (she is not a Dramione lover by any means). She sent me a link to Ao3 with a message "Welcome to my life, and I wish you luck stepping foot inside this black hole. Bye.” because I didn't know better. I didn't know what I was getting myself into, I clicked on the FIRST link I found, and this is how Bleak Manor by Pushthebutton became the first story that made me -surprisingly- fall in love with Dramione and fan fiction.  How have you gotten more involved in the Dramione community? What platforms/websites have you participated in, and which do you like? I'm not VERY involved in the fandom, if I'm honest. I'm an introvert by nature. Even though I started reading years ago, I only started joining Facebook groups last year. From there, I stumbled onto Tumblr (which was the weirdest platform I've ever been on, but now I LOVE IT), which then led me to Discord. This is where I'm currently stationed. I'm not as active as I used to be on Facebook. I also reached out to many people on Discord and found friends that I no longer call "internet friends," and I find it easier to communicate to authors over there.

Tell us about any reading preferences or practices!  Okay, I won't talk about my past habits, because looking back, it was really unhealthy. But I remember I used to read at every waking hour; I would only *sleep* to generate energy to keep ongoing: Goodbye food and social life. However, now, I dedicate time to reading, and it's usually 2 hours before I sleep. So I'll have dinner, and then open up my kindle and read until my eyes can't stay open. My days are usually spent talking to friends and doing many things that need to get done. I started off reading with my laptop until my boyfriend got annoyed by the bright lights emanating from my screen (honestly I didn't even think about reading from my phone). He later suggested reading from the iPad, and I stuck to that for a fair bit, until one night, I ran out of battery, and I couldn’t find the charger, so I reluctantly read from my phone, which I later obviously loved. I could read on the train, while making dinner, taking a walk (because we all need to exercise at some point). Then, after my boyfriend was SURE this wasn't just a phase, and I'll probably be reading for the rest of my life, he surprised me with a kindle, and the rest is history.  

Do you like to leave comments? If so, what is your advice for leaving comments?  If I'm completely honest with you, sometimes. I'm guilty of moving on from a chapter to chapter without taking a moment to comment. Telling myself that I'll go back and let the author know how much I enjoyed this part or that part. But I forget. Once I'm done with a story, I want to MOVE ON to the next one. However, in the past year, I've made an active effort to write down everything I feel on my phone while I read on my kindle, so I can go back and paste my review. That’s the other thing, I read SO much from my kindle, that it makes it so easy to forget to go back online and submit a review. And with Discord, I usually read with my friends, and sometimes the author will be there while we talk, theorise and flail all over their work. It's a much more interactive experience. I think authors would prefer that over a thank you. This isn't to say that a thank you doesn't go a long way or isn't appreciative, but honestly, how many times can an author say you're welcome? Or thank you for reading? This takes me to the second part of your question. The one advice I would give is, don't expect a response back. Do it because you genuinely liked it. Suppose we keep expecting and wanting the author to respond, especially if a chapter gets SO MANY reviews. In that case, it might seem disheartening to the reviewer, and they're left feeling unseen or that their review was lacking, which isn't the case most of the time. Tell them how it made you feel, which parts did you love, which string of emotion was plucked and left vibrating in your chest. Tell them that. But also, saying a simple thank you is enough. Personally, I would go to the last chapter and tell the author how much I've enjoyed their story if it's a story that was posted years or months back. If it's a story published years ago and they seem inactive, I would slide into their DMs and flail all over the story. You'd be surprised how many actually respond.

What is your all-time favorite fic you’ve read?  ALL TIME FAVOURITE is such a difficult question to answer. So I’ll compromise and tell you which one I really really really LOVE but also list a few that I can't be parted with. If my room was caught on fire and I had all these stories in front of me and I had to only choose ONE I would say Risk Reward Ratio by @MissiAmphetamine and its sequel! Okay, I know I cheated, but *sigh* honestly I love it. And I’m not sorry about it either. It's not what you would typically hear because it's not really a fluffy story and there are some questionable actions, plots and let’s not start discussing their relationship. But you see, I enjoy a story that questions my morals sometimes, where I find myself asking “what would I do in this situation?” Plus, as you’ll see below, I have a thing for angst with a happy ending. That being said, I also love love love these stories and they each hold meaning to me, because I've read them at various stages of my life: 

Redemption by @anondracomalfoy (wonderfully written story and very enjoyable!!! It’s a memory trope mixed with some suspense)

Revert by SUPRNTRAL LVR (this is when I found out that I can actually cry while reading a story lol) 

Remain Nameless by @heyjude19-writing (I will FOREVER love this story and no one can taint it for me. If you ONLY knew how much this story means to me *cough* I spent every moment I wasn’t reading this making her moodboards that's how much it moved me *cough*)

The Art of Betrayal by @hathawaywrites

Across The Hall by @takingflight48 (this one just hold a special place in my heart)

Thirteenth Night by Nelpher (This is the story that changed my mind about memory loss trope which is my LEAST favourite)

Nightmares and Nocturnes by @olivieblake (one of the most creative and unique war stories ever written)

Hindsight by @floorcoaster (This changed my mind about T rated stories)

Broken by @inadaze22 (this taught me a lesson to READ THE TAGS, but the pain was worth it)

Sugar and Spice by @inlovewithforever (ummmm do I need to say more? This is one of the best triads I've ever read)

Looking Glass by @kyonomiko​ (Every time I'm in a rut I go back to THIS and it never fails to bring me back to life and remind me why I fell in love with these two. It's light hearted, funny and has my second OTP. it's a win-win for me)

Find Your Way Back by @willhavetheirtrinkets​ (Musyc) (I will forever rec this story to everyone)

Pound of Flesh by @pennilynnovus​ (HELLO STRIPPER DRACO! This one tore my heart out, I love it!)

Honestly, the list can go on and on and on. There are just SO many good ones out there that I haven't mentioned yet, but I wanted to list only a few that I will always go back and re-read. Also, just because I haven't mentioned the ones that we keep seeing everywhere, doesn't mean I didn't enjoy them or loved them! 

What fic gave you the most feels? Definitely “Risk Reward Ratio.” It gave me SO much feels. Some were good, and some were pretty bad. It took me on a wild roller coaster ride. I was happy, sad, angry, happy, sad, angry. I laughed hard in some places, I cried even harder in others, I wanted to pull my hair out MOST of the time, and some parts were oh so good the butterflies wouldn't settle the fuck down. But ehh I like what I like, and I'm unapologetic about it. :D

Who is your favorite side character from any Dramione fic? This one is easy! Theo-fucking-Nott! Without a shadow of a doubt. You want to make him the most awesome sidekick character, go right ahead. The best bro, be my guest. The one that has secret feelings for Hermione? GIVE ME THAT TRIAD!!!!! You dare to make him evil? FUCK YES! I'm SO here for it. Even if he is one, I will STILL love him. I always get slightly giddy when Theo makes an appearance, and I tend to enjoy the story that much more. He's an interesting character to me because he's ambiguous. Canon never gave us much about his personality and reading how everyone interprets him makes him one the most versatile characters in my humble opinion. :D

Last question: Do you really like kiwis?? Hahaha!!!! Yes, I really do. This name was given to me by the people who were worried I had a mild obsession with kiwis. You don't have to ask me what I need from the store, because my answer would always be “we've run out of kiwis, BRING ME SOME MORE.” However, let me just make it clear that I'm not a heathen and I don't eat them with their skin on (no judgment if you do).

Thank you so much, Kiwi, for sharing with us! The Dramione community is lucky to have you <3 

Don’t forget, sign ups for the Dramione Comment Fest close February 6, 2021. Check out the rules here and sign up for the fest here.

[wskiha]

hello hello, everyone!! it's been a very long time since i last tried an idol directory so please forgive me if i'm a little rusty 🙈 for starters, here is kiha's profile and here is his career page, under the cut are a not so quick rundown and a couple of plot ideas. so please leave a ♡ on this post if anything catches your eye and/or you're always welcomed to my ims! i also have discord so if anyone prefers to plot through there just let me know 💖

ABOUT HIM

ahn kiha. a busan boy that moved to seoul in 2014 to live the big dream with big house, big cars and big rings. phoenix's main vocal and ladybug's #1 fan. he has liked them since their debut and he even auditioned with one of their songs (you've probably heard about this story or twice if you know phoenix/is close to him), has all their discography, knows all the choreographies and most of the songs.

used to drag one of his older brothers to go with him to the few fan meetings he had the opportunity to go.

either way. his core family is his parents + two older brothers. he and his brothers were mostly raised by their grandparents because mom and dad were always too busy working or traveling for work. and as a matter of fact, it was his granddad that showed him the path to music because he was part of an orchestra (played the violin) before retiring and was kiha's first music teacher and his favorite.

that being said, kiha is used to being not only the baby™ but the pampered baby™ and it shows in how much natural aegyo that he has and how shameless he's about it, also very much affectionate. even if you're not his friend friend, he's a leech.

but he's also self aware enough to see that he's not the youngest anymore so he has some pampering to do now instead of just receiving it. doesn't really mind it, doesn't really love it unless he's using that to tease someone.

kiha is very perceptive, especially about people, picking up mood cues and things like that and he reacts accordingly.

and as a good libra, he hates conflict but also is good at managing them because he mostly just wants to get it over with.

he's very interested in producing — participates in producing phoenix's songs — and actually his true interest in the entertainment industry was to be a producer, but decided to first try out as an idol to get the feeling of it sort of thing? also do some nice networking ngl but then ended up really enjoying performing and singing, just being part of phoenix overall.

the one thing he hated, however, about being part of phoenix was their predebut reality show. he felt awfully exposed to beginning to end but i guess every cloud has a silver lining because it really got him to feel close to the other members and he's very very fiercely protective of them — even if his bond with them was mostly (not entirely but very mostly) born out of this solidarity that they were in that same shit show together.

and that definitely affected how he is today since he's much more closed off about his emotions — albeit still friendly and with no problems with social interactions?? idk if that makes sense. it's just that he's the type to have lots of friends but not friends friends — and keeps most of the people that he meets at arm length and it's just very hard for him to let people in unless they're already in or they're part of phoenix — as it was explained in the bullet point above.

but overall a very chill boy with whining tendencies and protective instincts of a mama bear. also i probably still forgot a thing or two about him so i'd strongly recommend checking out his pages as well.

PLOT IDEAS

childhood friends! someone back from busan and they could either have drifted apart and are trying to reconnect now or it's like you've never been apart and cut off communication— or it could be indeed that you never cut off your communication — and you're still as close as you were back when you were idk five.

friends he met when he was still a trainee and keep in touch even after you ended up "separated" because of his (or your) debut or because of a change in agency.

producer friends! someone he hangs out with that also produces and you two always have fun together playing around with melodies and tunes so there's always one song coming out whenever you two hang out (even if most of the time it's not a serious one).

someone needing help with their singing? he's a good and patience teacher, 10/10, would recommend.

fellow ladybug fans??? he'll still argue he's #1 but it's always nice to meet people he can go all fanboy about and they actually join him.

someone who realizes that even though kiha is friendly with them and calls them a friend, he's still somewhat distant or it just feels like he's holding something back so you're either hurt and confront him about it because you've been friends for a while now or you just try to somehow close that distance between you two (maybe asking to hang out more often??? creating more memories together??? have more "bonding" moments???)

phoenix fans??? and he's your bias??? or idk he's a fan of your group??? and you're his bias?????

@/ladybug members, you could've heard of this boy that auditioned with your song and is such a huge fan so you're a little curious about him? especially when he's in the same company?? just pls come to talk to him

the obligatory "we're just friends but apparently our fans/fandoms ship us together so we could either make this awkward or milk the heck out of this because why not"

someone younger than him that he can't help but go all older brother on them because they just awake that side of him.

someone older than him that can't help going all older sibling on him because kiha just awakes that side of them.

idk i'm open to pretty much anything!

[gaiapaia]

Kermit and Friends: God Bless America

Kermit and Friends was all over the news cycle last week.

From Elisa Jordana being interviewed in US Weekly Magazine, to Wendy Williams addressing Elisa and Andy Dick on her show, to even Fox News covering the story.... everyone wanted to discuss the bombshell Elisa dropped last week on Kermit and Friends regarding Andy Dick's most recent arrest.

All of this began on Tuesday evening. Elisa's birthday was on Wednesday and she remained relatively quiet on her social media and in the Kermit and Friends Discord. So what happened at her birthday party?

Andy forgot about Elisa's birthday. No shocker there. Still, Elisa managed to get Andy on the phone and paid to have a car go pick him up. To Andy’s credit, he got in the car. Unfortunately, that’s the only credit he will receive from this point forward.

When Andy arrived, the first thing Elisa did was introduce him to her lovely mother. Instead of small talking and exchanging pleasantries, Andy immediately asked Elisa’s mom if she had any pills she could give him. Yikes!

Andy would only stay at the party for a short while. He showed more attention to Lisa Vanderpump than he did to Elisa, and then he would run off to go hang out with the guy who allegedly broke his ankle, Lucas.

So Andy pretty much ruined Elisa’s birthday. Does he care? Of course not. Andy wouldn’t talk to Elisa again until Saturday night when he called Elisa to ask her to pay for his hotel bill. After Elisa declined, Andy hung up on her and blocked Elisa on Instagram. This is really sad, pathetic behavior.

Elisa is claiming she’s officially done with Andy. The thing is, Elisa has one of the most forgiving souls on the planet. All Andy would have to do is have one nice conversation with Elisa and she’ll most likely then treat him (and his friends) to dinner. Who knows if Andy will even do that though. I personally hope not, and if he does... maybe Elisa will keep her foot down this time and refuse to allow Andy to keep hurting her like this.

I’ve been friends with Elisa since 2015. I could do a run down right now of the guys Elisa has dated since I’ve been blessed to know her, and I wouldn’t have anything good to say about any of them except maybe Gonzo, which honestly was just a fling.

Elisa deserves better than this. I desperately hope throughout our friendship that I set some kind of precedent to show Elisa how she should be treated by anyone who claims to love her. If I can get one thing out of my efforts these last 5 years, it’s that. It’s fine that Elisa doesn’t love me back... but it’s my main wish that she someday understands how I treat her is how the real man in her life should treat her. And hopefully that guy has many other amazing qualities to offer too, because Elisa deserves that as well if she’s going to give her heart to someone.

For all my bickering and griping about the men in Elisa’s life this last decade, we met a lovely young woman yesterday by the name of Mel who’s had it even worse than Elisa!

Mel is Jesse G-Rider’s ex-girlfriend. She was a part of the infamous trap house gang right before Elisa became emerged in it. Mel’s relationship with Jesse was extremely abusive, to say the least. There were cases of petty jealousy, beatings, drugs... you name it, it most likely happened.

Jesse called in highly upset with Elisa for having Mel on the show. Jesse claims he has a restraining order against Mel despite the fact that Mel moved all the way to Detroit, Michigan to escape Jesse.

Jesse then threatened Elisa with legal action, claiming it’s illegal to help a person contact another person who has a restraining order against them. Newsflash to Jesse: first of all, that’s not illegal, dumb dumb. Secondly, YOU called into the show. Elisa didn’t call you with Mel on the line. So even if in some ass backwards World where you could press charges against Elisa, they would be dropped immediately because JESSE initiated the contact by his own free will, and it’s all on recorded video.

Anyway, Mel was fantastic on the show. She had cute little elf ears, top notch internet and audio, a nice gaming chair... Elisa was impressed by all of this, as I was I. Mel looked like a professional streamer and she was a good storyteller that was also very vulnerable and honest. She’s everything Elisa looks for in a Kermit and Friends star. Hopefully Mel will become a regular in our community.

During Mel’s interview, Sharmin Smith went in head first about the horrors of abuse and what America needs to do to help women like Mel out. As a survivor of abuse, Sharmin has some strong feelings on the matter and she was not shy to share them. Even though her Presidential bid for 2020 was unsuccessful, I hear by declare Sharmin Smith President of Kermit and Friends. In my book, that’s why better than being President of the United States of America!

We love America on Kermit and Friends though. Yesterday was July the 4th and Elisa invited Tony Alexander on to discuss his career in the American military and what he’s heroically done to help fellow veterans who have had a rough time adjusting to normal life once they returned home from the war. Tony was a class act through and through, and it was great to see Kermit make a new friend like him on Independence Day.

Another US veteran joined the show, Kermit’s old pal Chris Christine. She said a lovely prayer and then randomly flip opened the Bible so that God could choose a special passage to share with all of Kermit’s beautiful friends. She landed on 1 Kings 6, which is about Solomon building a temple of the Lord, much like Elisa has built the Kermitarian Church!

Claire from New Jersey called at the beginning of the show to ask Elisa her thoughts on Wendy Williams’ segment about Elisa and Andy. Wendy wasn’t very kind - she made light of Andy’s addiction despite being an addict herself, she told a very distasteful joke about Bill Cosby getting hired before Andy ever would, she mispronounced Elisa’s name on purpose, and she claimed that Elisa was trying to use Andy for success. So funny how the ignorant morons who say stuff like that don’t realize it’s been Andy using Elisa this entire time... it’s honestly sexism. Wendy as a woman herself should know better, but I guess her IQ just isn’t at a place where she could ever grasp that.

Sigmond returned to Kermit and Friends this week. Elisa kindly invited Sigmond to her birthday party on Wednesday and by all accounts, he was a superb guest. He even bought Elisa a present! Yep, Sigmond Twayne's Mental Cookbook was his gift and Elisa seemed to love it. This led to Gonzo calling in to ask why the book is so cheap on Amazon. Sigmond, remembering that it was Gonzo who called him a serial killer last week, said Gonzo is a liar and that the book cost $37 on Amazon. Well, Gonzo was actually being truthful because at the time of this blog entry, the book is on sale for just $8.76 from it’s listed price of $37.00. Do NOT miss out on this AMAZING deal and buy your copy today by clicking here! 

Of course, Kermit and Friends isn’t Kermit and Friends without some spectacular musical performances. Boy, were we blessed with some good ones for the 4th of July. Elisa’s dad Craig returned to the show to beautifully perform a patriotic song from the 1700′s in which I sadly can’t find the title of. Sigmond’s partner Wappy performed an incredible original song and covered Pool Shark by Sublime. Elisa would also play one of Sugar’s awesome music videos for everyone to enjoy. Good stuff all around from Kermit’s unbelievably talented friends.

All in all, it was a very eventual Kermit and Friends, one absolutely fitting for Independence Day. The future seems more uncertain than ever, but as long as Kermit has all her friends to enjoy, everything will be A-okay. Can’t wait to see what next week’s show will bring :)

[vanquishedvaliant]

The sidedish is scrolling your blog and not finding you talking about new anime

I must not be hip enough to recognize precisely what you’re getting at by ‘sidedish’, but I just don’t usually post it much on tumblr unprompted anymore because writeups are a pain, they don’t usually get much traction, and I’m more than satisfied talking about it in discord with people that are actually going to listen and respond.

I DO have thoughts on new anime I can serve if it’s that in demand, though. 

Here’s what I’m watching this season with some initial reaction ratings based on the first couple episodes

New this season;

Wonder Egg Priority 10/10

UraSekai Picnic 10/10

Kumo desu ga, nani ka 8/10

Kemono Jihen 9/10

Hortensia Saga 7/10

Soukou Musume Senki 7/10

Gekidol 6/10

Sequels;

Cells at Work 9/10

Cells at Work: Black! 9/10

Uma Musume Pretty Derby 10/10

Tensei Shitara Slime Datta Ken 8/10

Log Horizon 8/10

Dr Stone 10/10

Continuing from last season;

Higurashi ... Gou 10/10

Hanyou no Yashahime 6/10

Jujutsu Kaisen 10/10

I’m also watching the original Higurashi in between off days to catch up to where Gou is, since I’d never seen it before and it’s clear I’m not getting the full story in Gou anymore without it.

Deeper thoughts under the cut.

Wonder Egg Priority and Urasekai Picnic are the clear AOTS contenders. Both are at once extremely superficially similar but very different in practice, and both bring something unique and charming to the table.

Urasekai is extremely notable at being a well executed supernatural adventure anime that is also a yuri; as much as I love pure romances like Bloom into You or Adachi and Shimamura, it’s very rare that we get anime with lesbian main characters or WLW romance where the romance itself isn’t the focus, that includes a serious, intriguing plot alongside the elements of romance. You know, like straight people get without a question every single story ever.

It’s got this very classic cryptid / SCP / otherworld adventure feel and has the right comedic and tension beats to be quite good, though its long term impact will be determined by what kind of further message it has.

Wonder Egg Priority immediately comes off with extremely powerful vibes in the vein of things like Flip Flappers, which I mean in the highest compliment. A surreal, metaphor-filled story of dreams and desires and well laid subtext, with colourful, exotic action and a snappy pace. This one’s extremely interesting to me, and its first episode was masterfully efficient in setting up its premise both aesthetically and thematically.

The real test for Wonder Egg will come with time; this is a story that trades heavily in meaning; so it’ll have to run longer and come to a conclusion to really test what kind of impact it’ll have. For now, I’m VERY interested and cautiously optimistic.

Spider Isekai is a charming twist on the typical flood of fantasy game / isekai stories placing our protagonist at the extreme low end of the power curve, and quite UNLIKE Slime Isekai or most others on the market like last season’s Kuma Bear, this one seems intent on keeping her there rather than immediately granting her insane godlike powers and thrusting her back above the curve.

The parts of the show that focus on the spider herself are lovely; there’s a real tension and sense of stakes in her struggle to adapt, slowly getting used to her new body and gaining levels and abilities, making even simple conflicts against frogs or lizards seem life threatening and serious, giving us a real reason to root for her.

On the other hand, the show frequently switches focus to... the entire other classroom of isekai’d children which is by far less interesting. There’s potential in there somewhere for a story about mass isekai’d kids adapting, but other than some details like one girl being gender swapped, and another being the class pet, there’s just really not much interesting about them at the moment and these sections just feel like a waste of time while waiting for the Spider to come back.

I don’t doubt that they’ll eventually meet up and have their stories intertwine... but at the moment, I don’t think I actually want that to happen. We’ll see where this one goes.

Kemono Jihen took me by surprise, and I wasn’t planning to watch this one unti l saw some screencaps. But the first two episodes have been outstanding, giving us a fantastic supernatural mystery detective agency plot and characters with real emotions, eye catching action scenes, and a compelling mystery.

Definitely looking forward to more of this one.

Hortensia Saga seems like a fairly typical fantasy war chronicle RPG story. It feels very in the vein of early to mid era fire emblems, and I happen to like anime like this that are solidly executed, like Grancrest Senki a while back. It’s doing a good enough job so far to keep my interest. Nothing game changing here, but a decent offering.

Soukou Musume Senki; this one also comes across in the standard seasonal fare of superpowered teenagers fighting aliens, this time with power armor and mild isekai elements. The monster designs are good this time, and the second episode brought us some nice moral / political dialogue showcasing some level of self awareness and depth. It’s fun so far.

Gekidol this show wants really badly to be compared favourably to Shoujo Kageki Starlight Revue. They’re hamming up the theatre tropes, putting out specials, sliding in secret background lore. First episode was fairly interesting, but the second seriously dropped the ball with its half assed Idol episode, and incredibly tone deaf play at a heartwarming moment.

I’m gonna keep watching this one for now, but it really needs to prove to me it has some meat and isn’t going to just keep borrowing tropes from other shows to lend it superficial “deep” merits.

For sequels,

Cells at Work is as cute, wholesome, and info-taining as ever. I think the OP this time is missing a little oomph, but the show itself is still going strong.

Cells at Work: Black! is offering a new take on it with a slightly darker and mature setting with a stressed out alcholic smoker at risk of contracting STDS, with a little bleaker tone and harsher stakes. It relies on the background of the original Cells at Work to work both tonally and narratively, but with that support it provides something quite interesting and unique.

The usual Cells at Work metaphors and humanization of bodily processes are just as excellent as always, and I’m giving special credit to the sketch about alcholic liver damage being compared to drunken abuse of host club employees, displaying a perhaps obvious if natural juxtaposition of the physical and emotional damage the substance abuse is causing to both the body itself and others around them.

Uma Musume; Horse girls! Racing! Just as surprisingly excellent as last season, giving us a fantastic sports story anime with charming characters and balanced stakes, with a good helping of humour. Easy recommend.

Slime Isekai: This one’s still going strong but has diverged from it’s original premise quite seriously. There’s nothing intriguing about this being an isekai  about being reincarnated as a slime anymore; and he’s way too overpowered for any of the combat to have any stakes. What it DOES have however is a fascinating look at the birth of a fantasy nation of monsters, politics, science, and social development of a varied and multicultural monster nation. And THAT I’m still in for.

I will seriously never forgive them for making Bobcut Lizardgirl into a regular ass human though. It has a serious problem with de-monsterizing its character designs and seriously reducing their appeal.

Log Horizon the true king of MMO isekai is back after 7 long, long years, and it’s jumping STRAIGHT into the depth of its political intrigue and deep understanding and development of the socio political issues inherent to its setting. Somewhat dry as ever, but truly fascinating for those looking at a more serious exploration of what the concept of living in a game actually means.

Dr Stone: I don’t have to hype this up, do I? Mad science speedrunning the development of human culture from the stone age up! This time they’re going to war! They made cell phones and cup ramen out of rocks! It’s heartwarming, emotionally rich, entertaining and informative, and funny as all hell. A classic for sure.

Higurashi. Everyone knows higurashi. Thing is, I just never watched it. We thought Gou was going to be a remake, but then it ended up being Rebuild of Evangelion, so I stopped at episode 12 or so and went back to watch the original. Classic horror mystery.

Yashahime. Yikes. This one’s... well. I don’t have any especial nostalgia or affection for Inuyasha like many people, but Yashahime is clearly a very middling approximation of it. There’s things to like here, the main trio of characters are all great designs, Moroha standing even head and shoulders above them as a truly endearing goblin child, and it really does feel in ways like 90s toonami fare. But there’s some lack of depth going on here, and I just don’t even know what to say about the Sesshoumaru pedophilia thing. Extremely questionable plotting.

[firesfelt]

{ tyler posey, 25, genderfluid, he/him/they/them ) NEVAEH ANDREWS was seen listening to NOSERINGS AND SHOESTRINGS BY NINA NESBITT on their way to BARTENDER. NEV is known to be PROTECTIVE & TEMPERMENTAL.

oh lewk it’s pacey back again with some more gremlin children. first of all, i’m pouting over the fact that the addition of nev means my streak of only using fcs with names that begin with ‘a’ is over, but we had a good run ! also forgive me that this intro won’t match the others but i cannot be arsed to faff around with photoshop rn. plus i have a zoom thing in like an hour so let’s see if i can get enough info out in that time let’s goooooo.

so nev is,,,,,,, a little shit.

the tldr of them is they’re a musically inclined pasta lover with really great intentions, but a horrible execution. they’re currently attempting to get custody of their two youngest siblings ( the other sibling being my other Newest Addition, farrow, who is far less delusional about how likely nev getting custody is ) after the death of their beloved mother. very much here for the bants and a good joke, anxious 70% of the time, v protective, very much a mess. 

the extended version is as follows: nev’s mama was a humble seventeen when they were born, much to the displeasure of her family. upon hearing she was expecting, miss harmony andrews was promptly disowned and never spoken to again. charming. she did everything she could to provide for nev ( and later, their three siblings ) and build a good life for them. their dad didn’t stick around for very long at all, and was gone by the time nev made it into the world, so it was just harmony and lil nev for a long time. my gal thought she was being original with their name, and didn’t realise it was kind already a name people had, and a name usually given to baby girls, but she didn’t care --- nor does nev. they love their name; their mum gave it to them.

their mum was pretty unlucky in love over the years, but she did get three more kiddos out of her failed endeavours. all the kids have different dads, but nev really hates anybody referring to them as their ‘half-siblings’ -- they’re just their siblings, y’know ?

they were a super tight family, and one of their distant relatives forgot to write their mama out their will before kicking the bucket, so guess who eventually got a house too ? life was grand, all was good

nev was always an anxious creature though, which eventually lead to full-blown anxiety as they got older. it reached its peak when they were a teenager, and there was a rlly rough period of time where they sought help via inpatient, and has been doin better since, but obviously still struggles ( and obviously the death of their mum has made things worse )

their littlest sister is the absolute light of their life ( honestly, they’d be happy just getting custody of her, but morally they’re like,,, well if i wanna raise her i should prolly try with my brother too lmao rip ) and while they and farrow don’t always see eye to eye, they’re p close 

but at the end of the day, nev isn’t a suitable guardian. they work nights, don’t earn anywhere near enough to fully support themselves let alone two kids, don’t have their own place and are currently crashing with a friend and his parents, and the kids’ social worker has definitely seen them lose their shit inappropriately at least once or twice. it’s just,,, not gonna happen ? his hatred for the kids’ foster parents is incredibly irrational, and they’re just not.......... Right ( ???? ) in this scenario. like, they feel the kids should be with them and that’s what’s best for them, but it just............ isn’t ?

so there’s like a lot of angst in this kid’s life

but legit it’s not all doom and gloom, they’re an absolute meme of a person in general 

they’re pretty good at their job tho ! they can be super chatty -- one might even say charismatic if they’re being generous -- and friendly, and they really know their way around a bar, so it’s a good time, and they have a good time for a lot of it. but like i said, doesn’t earn them a massive deal to live off of, but it’ll do. i don’t have anywhere sort of in mind in particular, so happy to plot some stuff or whip something up myself !!!

they’ve been in huntsville their entire life, so connections of all kinds are for sure on the table 

( remember when i said i had a zoom thing in an hour ? well rip that was yesterday lmao, lemme finish this up ) 

kiddo’s always been musical, and they’ve been in a long string of bands over the year. love the idea of them currently being in a band w/ some rlly close pals and it’s just the combo that finally Fits ? like their ideas mesh well and they work well together and they have a lot of fun ?? whereas old bands just caused nev grief in the past a lot of the time ??

where emika’s general gender identity is ‘shrug emoji but i’ll go with what i think fits most’ nev’s is more,, they see gender as the spectrum it is, but they’ve just sort of astral projected behind her eyes style and is just an orb sort of floating around above said spectrum, vibing around. 

v aware i have messages to reply to btw ! i’ll be over on discord in a mo, feel free to shoot me an im if you wanna plot ! like i’ve said before, i’m 1000000% game for anything 

hopefully farrow’s intro gets up earlier and easier lmao love you all byeeeeee

[terzas]

『 gemma chan. thirty-nine. cis woman. she/her. 』 oh heavens, is that WILHELMINE TERZA BURCHARD from FAIR LANE i see roaming around mapleview? minnie may’s always calling them -FICKLE & -VOLATILE. i happen to think they’re not that bad! they’re a pretty cool LANDSCAPE ARCHITECT and every time i’ve seen them, they’ve always been +PROTEAN & +IDIOSYNCRATIC. i hope i see them around again! 『 bar. twenty-two. gmt +3. she/her. 』

howdy ! elo it’s me, wrinkle free brain barb ! i’m so pumped to be here n introduce u to my baby terza. here’s her pinterest board if you’re interested ( pls im a virgo i love pinterest i live for it lemme make boards for our muses id d*e ) ! <3 don’t hesitate to dm me on discord ( bar !#3161 ) or here. 

terza’s . lowkey a new muse so pls bare with me while i waste ur time rip

okay so .. willhelime “will” terza burchard spent her first 12 years on earth with her father, half brother ( cld be a wc later wink wonk ) and grandpa.

they lived in a grand, gothic-esque house in the outskirts of mapleview ! so u can say she’s a townie? maybe. idk. 

growing up she had no social life bc <3 her grandpa n pa were . conspiracy theorists <3 her father especially was big on supernatural n apocalyptic shit n in his fatherly way, made sure terza n her bro were safe from the aliens comin to snatch them up yikes

age 12, terza’s father was declared d*ad after he didnt come back from his annual ~hunting~ trip. of course, this meant harsher rules on terza n her bro because . grandpa didn’t want to lose them too. highkey tragic. very understandable . i mean .. kinda not when ur a teenager with raging hormones n a thrill for stupid shit lol.

still, she loved her little family. wished her brother cld have normal parental figures n be normal but did the best she could do with the given.

age 18, terza packed her shit n moved away for college where she studied landscape architecture. the virgo, taurus n libra in her chart jumped out

she hated herself for abandoning her family but also thot she was destined for . better things , i suppose.

clung hard onto her wealthy friends, used their connections to build her own network.

as the self made business woman she is, she’d been livin her best life in different european countries, seekin the everlasting beauty n perfection.

as our lord n saviour jenny slate once wrote, there is this ribbon of loneliness ( n sadness ) running thru who she’s no matter how much she flaunts her perfect, rich clique, social media followers n impeccable portfolio. its just there. the guilt. the heavy burden of her past idk : /

had to return to mapleview six months ago by grandpa’s health’s been deteriorating n she cn no longer deny her past.

um. 

personality wise i think she just ?? wants ?? something to call her own? 

doesn’t open up easily. fears of being seen, if tht makes sense.

“i fear i will be ripped open and found unsightly." YEA....

i feel like. shes the type to cheat. wink wonk exes connection yea <3

the type of friend you’d call to bury a body .. until she cuts an immunity deal n rats u out bc gotta look out for the #1

extremely caring, likes to buy ppl stuff just bc she can ?? 

prefers to see the beauty in everything, but doesnt mean she has rose coloured glasses on. in fact, shes a skeptic ( thanks to her upbringing ) n judgemental ( a tru virgo ) and actually sees the world in black & white.

“ ‘i dont care’, i say, caringly, as i care deeply” lmao... yeah....

i truly hav no connection ideas my brain said get tht fire exit door im off im so sorry forgive moi bUT im a sucker for angst : ) so theres that.

i feel like i didn’t do her justice idk i have a vision but its my first time properly writing her idk. sovvy 

[sanderssideswriting]

Might write this later idk but like here’s some prinxiety

Roman is a prince and heir to the throne of spain (or some other country either way he’s a prince)

He’s pretty sheltered and all that

the press swarm him wherever he goes, trying to get a good picture maybe even a story of the prince

He doesn’t go outside the castle a lot and has little to no internet access and when he does it’s heavily monitored

Logan is one of Roman’s only friends and going to be his royal adviser when he takes the throne, just like his father it the king’s adviser

On Roman’s sixteenth birthday he asks his parents to go to Canada for a year (bc screw America) and be a normal teenager

they reluctantly agree as long and Logan goes with him

They make a backstory for Roman and make it believable (so there’s no of that “My name? my last name? uhhhh Prince, Roman Prince. Yeah that’ll work and won’t give me away for sure” shit)

Roman even gets a phone, as long as he isn’t on any social media and doesn't get pictures take of himself

First day of junior year and Virgil hates everything. His only friends are Remy, Patton and Dolan and he is not looking forward to another year of school

Then Roman García walks in and Virgil didn’t care

there was no love at first sight or anything

He puts up his hood turns up his MCR and prays the new guy doesn’t sit next to him

He does

Roman tries to be nice and strike up a convo with him. 

Virgil just flips him off and turns the music up louder

Roman is kinda surprised since people usually talk to him

of course then he makes it his mission to befriend the emo

He tells Logan

Logan being Logan is like “we befriend his friends and then befriend him”

Roman does Patton, Logan works on befriending Dolan (I love loceit ok shut the fuck up)

Soon they’re in the group and Roman tries to befriend Virgil

“Geez Garcia you’re so polite and have such good manners what are you a prince?”

panic

“I’m afraid not emo nightmare but if I could be I would,”

hat starts the nicknames and teasing between them

Virgil has a panic attack one day and Roman tries to help as much as he can but he doesn’t really know how to help

they end up just sitting there, Roman next to Virgil but not touching him in case he reacts badly to contact

Virgil starts to trust him more after that

then one day he sees his Roman

wait no, Roman isn’t his, what’s he thinking?

Holy fuck I love princey

That’s around the time Roman realizes he likes Virgil

At this point Logan and Dolan are together (but are keeping it a secret, Logan says he has strict parents, a lie but he has to) 

They realize their best friends like each other

hijinks ensue, lots of making plans and cancelling them at the last minute leaving only Roman and Virgil together on a not date

Roman is clueless until Logan is like “forgive me for saying to Prince Roman but you’re so motherfucking dense how can you see what’s right in front of your face?” Then laves

Dolan does something similar with Virgil (it wasn’t planned it just happened) “Just tell him you love him you bitch,”

Virgil chucks a pillow at his head

Patton also knows but isn’t as direct, though he helps with the shinanigans

Then right as they get together maybe a few days later Virgil is like “it’s stupid but let’s make a tik tok” they do, it’s stupid, meant to be a meme

the press finds out and Logan and Roman are caught

they see them outside and hide

Logan goes into royal adviser forgetting about their Patton and their boyfriends “I’ll get an escort out of here, don’t look at the windows don’t show your face, and don’t get your picture taken,”

“What the fuck is going on?”

Logan and Roman don’t have time to explain, they run out a back door trying not to get spotted

in the palace Roman is on lock down, he broke the rules and can’t leave his rooms.

Then Logan does the unthinkable, he breaks the rules. It’s just an old phone that he can use to message their friends over discord but it’s enough

Roman tells them everything

“You’re telling me you’re a REAL FUCKING PRINCE PRINCEY?”

“Yes”

“Holy fuck”

“I know, sorry I couldn’t tell you”

“tbh it all makes sense now,”

Logan breaks another rule

after Roman hasn’t left his rooms for two weeks Logan helps sneak him out. 

they fly to Canada to meet their friends

“The fuck are you doing here Princey?” Virgil asks when they see him

“I had to see you one more time, we had to get a fairy tale ending,”

“This is far from a fairytale ending Princey,”

“Roman, the press are coming,” Logan warned

Roman kissed Virgil “see you soon my love,”

Virgil laughed “You fucking better, or I’ll drag your royal ass out of that palace myself”

“Please do, It’s very boring,”

Logan drags Roman away the press right on their heels

Roman passes the crown to his brother, Remus, saying that he didn’t feel like he’d be a good enough king for Spain

Roman and Logan return to Canada, they don’t go back to school but they live happily ever after

Damn I’m on a role today 

[prisontoybox]

//4, 36, and 37 for the ask meme.?

4 "what made you choose this muse?"

🦊

I had already been rping on discord with a friend privately, I chose Six as I only played LN1 and VLN at that point and he wanted to be Mono. I found the way I had Six being different from most fanon after looking at the fandom once I finished the game, but I loved her still. Then after LN2 I joined a server (GO LITTLE NIGHTMARES COUNCIL!! <3) and tried to reuse her there since she was the only one I had used so far. Then she was still different to the one I already had before, and while that got frustrating I just started throwing onto her a different verse sort of, then dumped some other interesting ideas from that verse and finally put her on a real blog because I'd love to share more about this whole divergent idea (and then proceeded to not share much about her story and world. Oops.).

🖤

Honestly upon starting the DLC RK was already my favorite kid. He sort of looked like my close friend (mentioned above) and his nightmare started in water, a fear I had for a long time after a bad experience. Plus blue kid. Then after beating the DLC I started looking for fan stuff about him and saw a Shadow Seven fanart, and the whole possibility of "the Lady splits the children into an empty form with conscious and some memory, and an empty soul who is literally a shadow of themselves" was already playing in my mind. It took a while til I actually brought up later on asking if anyone would be interested in that sort of character, and now he's been built on along with his role of being employed and s'mothered by the Lady. I love this brat.

36 "do you share any similarities to your muses?"

🦊

I too have short and long term memory loss from trauma, I feel bad for throwing that on her but I have some vent plans for her in case I need it. Builds character, don't worry Six. I was also pretty hidden to myself as a kid, despite my extroversion. Also, I very much love foxes, and I did buy the fox mask when I never buy aesthetic DLC otherwise. ^^;; But hey, technically that means she beat Hard to the Core!

🖤

I too can be a stubborn brat, especially about emotions. Especially younger (maybe a little older than him though) I'd deny any emotion and stuff, then go cry and hug people after a bit. We've both always been softies inside up til now.

37 "do you have any differences from your muses?"

🦊

I have never killed or eaten anyone! But in all seriousness, I try to be polite even when I'm upset about something, and trying to write her being a socially confused mannerless child can be a real struggle. 😖 Recent example, both times she ate with the Mirror Man (@/distortingmirrors)I wanted her to thank him so bad. I'm also much more likely to approach someone in conversation first with jokes and stuff, she will...stare at you from a short distance quietly. I'm just too talkative and (semi-)open.

🖤

Again with the mannerless children! But he is and will be much better at being productive than me. I'm literally procrastinating folding laundry while my grandpa is coming tonight right now. (Although my mother probably won't threaten to kill or eat me for being lazy.) I also could NEVER touch a cigarette, even if I wanted to they smell so bad! I do have an addictive personality, so at least that's one addiction that I don't have to face. I also can't hold grudges as well or long as he can, I try to forgive fast (am Christian) and even when it's hard to and there's people I will never want to be around it's still important to forgive, but I don't think Kid will be able to bring himself there for a while when it comes to Six after festering this long. Even in the Lord and Lady verse, he probably has problems he's getting over.

[yggdrasil-mith0s]

Ludger is one of my favorite Tales characters of all time for many reasons. I relate to him so much. Here is basically a ball of anxiety. He doesn't talk much or reveal hardly anything pass surface level personal information. I'm the same way. He is honest and open if anyone asks him personal questions but he isnt going to outright tell you or bring it up. He only answers if he is asked about personal stuff. I am usually the same way. I will say I have gotten a lot better and I can open up pretty easy to my friends on this blog and discord for this blog. He is an amazing chef and I am a pretty good cook but he doesn't boast about it (neither do I but granted I am also not that amazing of a cook). He is very quiet and mature. He also stepped up and helped Elle and looked after her which I did for my little sister after my dad passed and mom became an alcoholic. I basically missed out on any sort of "real childhood" and I feel like Ludger did too. He experienced the death of his loved ones at a young age like I did but he used it to grow and love others. Example: brother and elle (which he forgave Elle and is very forgiving in general which I am). He helps everyone he can which I try to do. He doesn't argue and kind of just accepts things (like his debt and other scenarios he is thrown in) like I do. His anxiety hurts him socially but he is a really kind, gentle man who wants others to be happy even if it means he loses some happiness or does things he doesn't want to necessarily do. Even if he is being used or hated on he generally turns a blind eye to it and continues to be kind (when elle is being a brat or Spirius takes advantage of him). He is just really kind and tries to help everyone even when he can't. He listens and is always honest when people ask him personal things. His anxiety gets in the way and causes him to be quiet and reserved but he also keeps pushing forward. He tends to care more about others than himself sometimes and just wants others to be happy. Here lives everyone and forgives easily. Her is Ludger and Ludger is me. Also debt. Massive debt.

[nessafms]

new  york’s  very  own  NESSA  LOCKE  was  spotted  on  broadway  street  in  𝓳𝓲𝓶𝓶𝔂  𝓬𝓱𝓸𝓸  𝓿𝓲𝓸𝓵𝓪  𝓯𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻  𝓽𝓪𝓼𝓼𝓮𝓵  𝓱𝓮𝓮𝓵𝓼  .  your  resemblance  to  kylie  jenner  is  unreal  .  according  to  tmz  ,  you  just  have  your  twenty  two  birthday  bash  .  while  living  in  nyc  ,  you’ve  been  labeled  as  being  finicky  ,  but  also  alluring  .  i  guess  being  a  scorpio  explains  that  .  3  things  that  would  paint  a  better  picture  of  you  would  be  expensive  diamonds  clinging  to  delicate  fingers  ,  makeup  swatches  on  tan  skin , &  wine  induced  giggles  .

GREETINGS  ,   cuties  .   i’m  gi  ,  9teen  ,  and  go  by  she  and  her  pronouns  .  i  kind  of  suck  at  introductions  ?  so  please  excuse  all  of  the  rambling  and  unnecessary  comments  that  are  throughout  this  .   nessa  is  kind  of  my  baby  ?  so  im  super  super  excited  to  bring  her  into  this  group  and  play  her  once  again  and  even  more  excited  to  write  with  all  of  you  !!!!!!   everything  you  need  to  know  about  her  is  under  the  cut  ,  and  if  you  want  to  plot  please  give  this  a  heart  and  we  can  do  so  (  or  message  me  on  discord  ,  𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐛𝐮𝐝𝐝𝐲#1776  )

*  basics 

FULL  NAME.  nessa  ryan  locke  .

NAME  MEANING.   pure  ,  holy  ;  butterfly  . 

REASONING.   it  was  suppose  to  be  vanessa  but  somehow  ended  up  being  just  nessa  by  the  time  she  was  actually  born  .

NICKNAMES.   ness  ,  nessy  .

PREFERRED  NAME.  ness  and/or  nessa  .

BIRTH  DATE.   november  third  ,  nineteen  ninety  eight  .

AGE.  twenty  two  .

ZODIAC.  scorpio  .

GENDER.  cis  female  .

PRONOUNS.  she  and  her  .

SEXUAL  ORIENTATION.  heterosexual  .

CURRENT  LOCATION.   moved  to  new  york  city  at  the  age  of  nineteen  ,  (  click  here  to  see  her  residence  ) .

PLACE  OF  BIRTH.  los  angeles   ,  california  .

HOMETOWN.   los  angeles  ,  california  .

FATHER.  jared  locke  ,  actor  .

MOTHER.   jillian  locke  ,  former  model  .

SIBLINGS.   nirvana  locke  ,  emerson  locke  .

BIRTH  ORDER.  youngest  .

PETS.  wolfie  ,  husky  .

HAIR  COLOR.   originally  a  black  color  ,  though  it  tends  to  go  from  black  to  a  light  brown  and/or  a  blonde  color  . 

EYE  COLOR.  brown  ,  but  she  takes  pride  in  the  small  specks  of  green  .

DOMINANT  HAND.  right  .

HEIGHT.  five  ft  six  .

TATTOOS.   nessa  has  five  tattoo’s  all  together  ,  the  first  one  being  something  that  resembles  the  fire  emoji  on  her  right  inner  hip  she  got  with  her  group  of  friends  .   she  has  a  rose  on  the  left  side  of  her  boob  ,  which  she  got  strictly  because  she  thought  it  was  pretty  .   she  has  two  butterflies  behind  her  left  ear  ,  a  smiley  face  on  her  right  upper  butt  cheek  ,  and  finally  the  words  ,  ‘  take  care  ‘  tattooed  on  her  right  arm .  

PIERCINGS.   she  has  five  holes  on  her  right  ear  and  seven  holes  on  her  left  ear  .  

DRUGS  /  ALCOHOL  /  SMOKING.  no  (  beside  smoking  weed  here  and  there )    ,  yes  ,  no  .  

SOUNDTRACK.   self  care  ,  mac  miller  .   angel  ,  the  weeknd  .  fetish  ,  selena  gomez  .  bitter  ,  fletcher  .  july  ,  noah  cyrus  .  bad  news  ,  kehlani  .   after  hours  ,  the  weeknd  .   needy  ,  ariana  grande  .   save  myself  ,  ed  sheeran .  p*$$y  fairy  ,  jhene  aiko  .  girls  in  the  hood  ,  megan  thee  stallion  .  

AESTHETICS.   emerald  hues  forming  into  a  distant  memory  ,   soft  laughter  in  the  dead  of  the  night  ,  luxurious  material  clinging  to  honeyed  skin  ,   tired  hues  ,   the  glow  of  neon  lights  lightening  up  a  dark  room  .  

LINKS.  here’s  her  pinterest  !! 

FUN  FACTS.   she  has  a  three  year  old  husky  ,  whom  she  treats  as  though  she  carried  him  around  for  nine  months  .  she  has  a  obsession  with  acrylic  nails  ,  you  will  always  find  her  with  something  different  every  two  weeks  .  she  always  has  her  toes  painted  ,  usually  baby  something          baby  pink  ,  baby  blue  .   she  enjoys  switching  up  her  look  which  includes  hair  changes  whether  it  be  sporting  a  wig  or  actually  dyeing  it  .  has  a  talent  of  painting  but  normally  doesn’t  have  the  time  or  inspiration  to  do  so  .  a  music  bug  ,  she  has  to  be  listening  to  tunes  if  she’s  cleaning  ,  cooking  ,  bathing  ...  hates  the  gym  more  then  anything  but  has  a  personal  trainer  (  she  spends  most  of  the  time  avoiding  )  to  kick  her  ass  in  shape  .  rarely  diets  and  with  this  she  has  a  bad  habit  of  eating  whatever  her  body  craves  .  she  loves  waffle  fries  ,  and  prefers  a  burger  over  a  chicken  sandwich  .   she  hates  neon  green  ,  don’t  fight  her  on  this  .  she’s  a  bit  of  a  car  junkie  and  constantly  purchases  them  despite  not  needing  to  .  her  worst  habit  is  online  shopping  ,  she  will  spend  thousand  of  dollars  at  ONE  store  .

*  background .

stranded at  the  age  of  five  ,  a  stuffed  elephant  in  hand  and  confusion  lingering  on  skin  .  only  small  glimpses  of  heart  felt  moments  to  ease  the  tears  .  one  moment  she  was  there  ,  and  the  next  she  somehow  slipped  through  the  cracks  .  not  even  the  power  of  hollywood  being  able  to  track  down  the  angelic  emerald  hued  model  .  instead  ,  her  father  had  to  wrap  his  arms  around  his  three  children  and  fabricate  a  story  that  would  not  shatter  their  delicate  hearts  .  but  the  damage  was  already  done  .

drenched  in  sovereignty  and  affluence  ,  the  privilege  of  being  privilege  had  always  been  a  reality  ,  even  before  the  disappearance  of  her  mother  .  a  celebrity  child  ,  grew  up  in  the  spotlight  and  had  ears  filled  with  comments  from  millions  who  did  not  know  her  .   not  a  sob  story  ,  unless  you  considered  her  mommy  issues  .  inherited  her  father’s  ambition  and  her  mom’s  trust  issues .  started  branding  herself  at  the  age  of  seventeen  ,  a  trend  setter  .  the  title  of  social  media  personality  was  granted  to  nessa  before  it  was  even  a  thing  ,  and  she  did  not  stop  there .   ventured  into  the  beauty  industry  ,  building  an  empire  from  top  to  bottom  .  and  eventually  even  created  a  fashion  line  with  her  older  sister  ,  even  after  all  the  red  warnings  .

but  the  finer  things  in  life  did  not  come  with  all  blessings  .   her  delicate  hands  drenched  in  cold  glue  ,  shattered  pieces  clinging  for  their  lives  with  expectations  of  being  put  back  together  again  .  adored  and  envied  by  the  world  ,  but  the  outside  looking  in  did  not  see  bent  back  constantly  picking  up  pieces  of  her  sisters  who  crumbled  with  even  the  softest  poke  .  addiction  controlling  every  aspect   of  her  sisters  lives  ,  and  the  relationship  she  shared  with  them  .  it’s  never  been  pretty  to  watch  the  ones  you  love  self  destruct  and  take  everything  you  love  and  trust  down  with  them  ..  hard  to  look  them  in  the  eyes  as  anger  and  heartache  consumes   you  .  and  even  harder  to  forgive  .  

forever  fighting  the  demons  her  mother  instored  in  her  ,  and  the  demons  her  sister’s  stir  up  .  her  only  breath  of  fresh  air  being  her  daddy  ,  and  the  way  he  always  has  her  back  (  no  favorites  are  played  but  we  all  know  )  ,  and  the  life  she  helped  build  for  herself  .  wants  to  be  rid  of  hands  that  hold  her  back  and  take  and  take  until  she  has  nothing  left  ,  and  instead  plunge  into  the  world  of  living  for  herself  and  new  york  city  granted  the  brunette  that  opportunity  .  

*  personality .

affection  sings  to  her  in  the  form  of  a  love  song  ,  her  love  language  .  digits  itch  to  hold  friends  hands  ,  and  lean  on  lovers  shoulders  .  uses  pet  names  like  her  vocabulary  only  consists  of  the  word  angel  and  baby  .  a  chatter  bug  that  hides  vulnerability  with  ebullience  and  teasing  manners  .  impulsiveness  that  jumps  out  at  all  the  wrong  times  ,  and  a  carelessness  that  teams  up  with  her  pettiness  to  make  all  the  wrong  choices  .  feels  replaceable  and  easily  disposable  ,  makes  her  fear  of  ever  letting  anyone  get  too  close  .  finicky  ,  hard  to  please  and  even  harder  to  totally  figure  out  ,  some  would  say  she’s  hot  and  cold  .  tries  to  stay  out  of  her  head  with  burying  herself  in  work  .  knows  how  it  feels  to  feel  like  you  are  nothing  ,  and  fills  that  whole  with  giving  back  as  much  as  she  can  .  silly  and  sometimes  ditzy  .  loves  too  hard  for  her  own  good  ,  and  has  a  bad  habit  of  letting  people  back  in  even  when  they  do  not  deserve  it  or  her  ..  has  a  softness that’s  desperate  to  escape  .   hates  love  because  she  understands  what  it  can  do  to  you  and  loves  just  as  much  for  the  same  reason  .  built  a  wall  around  her  heart  to  avoid  adding  any  more  scars  ,  and  will  save  you  before  she  saves  herself  .  holds  on  to  people  a  little  too  tight  ,  because  she  hates  going  through  the  process  of  letting  people  in  all  over  again  .  a  twenty  something  year  old  who  craves  a  mother’s  touch  but  holds  a  grudge  that  sometimes  causes  her  to  miss  out  on  people  .   always  just  wants  to  feel  like  she’s  worth  making  sacrifices  for  .

* career . 

kylie    cosmetics  ?  nessa  cosmetics  ,  a  brand  built  at  seventeen  years  old  and  has  only  grown  from  there  .   collections  that  consist  of  collabs  with  close  friends  and  family  (  when  she’s  talking  to  them  )  ,   and  season  /  holiday  collections  .  does  something  for  her  birthday  ,  november  third  ,  every  year  .  has  a  collection  dedicated  to  her  zodiac  sign  , scorpio  .   constantly  changing  her  formula  to  better  her  brand  ,  and  does  everything  hands  on  .  does  most  of  her  work  from  her  office  .   can  find  her  instagram  stories  to  be  her  swatching  her  latest  products  .  favorite  thing  of  hers  being  her  eye shadows   (  applaud  for  the  pigmented  ) .  good  quality  ,  inclusive  and  diverse  (  more  then  actual  kylie  cosmetics  )  is  the  most  important  thing  when  it  comes  to  her  brand  . 

launched  nessa  skin  a  single  year  ago  ,  and  has  worked  on  it  for  the  last  three  years  .  her  latest  child  ,  and  plans  to  only  grow  it  .  skin  has  always  been  super  important  to  nessa  ,  and  delivering  her  supporters  with  products  that  will  actually  work  is  her  main  priority  .  

a  youtube  channel  with  ten  million  subscribers  ,  youtuber  as  a  second  job .  it  starting  as  a  hobby  and  a  way  of  connecting  with  supporters  to  becoming  something  she  cannot  imagine  not  doing  .   her  channel  consists  of  mixed  content  such  from  fashion  hauls  to  makeup  videos  to  even  vlogs  that  involved  her  friends  (  and  family  )  doing  stupid  things  .  

em  &  ness  ,  a  clothing  brand  her  and  her  sister  are  developing  .   features  trendy  street  wear  ,  more  to  come  soon  . 

* connections

the  childhood  friend  that  reminds  her  of  simpler  times  ,   mud  pies  in  the  back  yard  and  riding  their  bikes  around  the  neighborhood  .  secrets  and  promises  of  being  friends  forever  that  felt  secure  but  feel  short  .  bonded  forever  maybe  ,  but  constantly  feeling  like  strangers  .   (  or   they  could  still  be  close  friends  )

the  family  friend  that  their  parent(s)  swore  were  going  to  end  up  together  ,  though  if  the  two  caught  any  talk  of  that  would  scrunch  their  nose  ups  and  shake  their  head  .  or  at  least  they  did  for  a  while  ,  until  lines  started  to  fade  and  the  comfortableness  felt  like  something  more  ..  not  together  now  ,  but  constantly  a  what  if  ,  the  idea  still  runs  in  their  minds  but  is  a  friendship  worth  something  that  might  not  work  out 

a  friendship  or  more  so  platonic  soulmates  ,  if  you  see  one  you  know  the  other  is  not  far  behind  .  they  are  somewhat  extensions  of  one  another  ,  swear  they  cannot  survive  without  one  another  .  the  one  person  nessa  trusts  the  most  ,  someone  who  has  never  hurt  her  or  left  her  .  her  person  .

the  bad  influence  that  plays  on  her  impulsiveness  .  talks  her  head  up  to  get  even  or  take  that  tenth  shot  because  why  the  fuck  not  .  anytime  something  bad  almost  happened  ,  like  that  time  we  almost  got  a  fine  ,  she  was  with  this  person  .  and  while  she  adores  them  ,  she  knows  they  aren’t  exactly  the  best  for  her  .

the  friend  group  you  cannot  help  but  envy  ,  constantly  plastered  on  one  anothers  instragram  feeds  .  has  their  own  groupchat  that  does  nothing  but  blow  up  .  shopping  trips  in  italy  and  vacations  in  greece  .  do  not  always  get  along  but  there  is  always  love  in  between  them  .  they  are  constantly  in  her  vlogs  ,  and  would  kind  of  be  like  her  very  own  vlog  squad  .

the  friends  with  benefits  who  swear  they  are  just  friends  ,  and  the  sex  means  nothing  .  despite  the  fact  that  they  linger  a  little  too  long  in  one  another’s  bed    .  and  the  promises  of  this  will  not  ruin  anything  become  blurry  when  they  connect  on  a  deeper  level  .  and    it  gets  confusing  when  their  affectionate  comes  to  surface  ,  but  regardless  they  are  just  friends  .

a  trio  of  three  friends  who  are  always  seen  together  ,  best  friends  could  be  the  world  to  use  to  describe  them  (  bonus  points  if  its  all  girls  )  .

the heart  breaker  ,  the  person  that  fucked  her  up  for  good  .  ruined  the  way  she  loved  and  left  her  with  a  lot  of  regret  and  heart  ache  .  she  swear  she  hates  them  ,  but  she  hates  how  much  she  loved  them  and  how  close  they  got  to  her  .  hates  how  they  went  from  knowing  her  more  then  anyone  to  being  someone  she  cannot  even  look  in  the  eyes  anymore  (  bonus  points  if  it  involves  them  cheating  on  her  ,  extra  bonus  points  if  it’s  angsty  as  hell  )  

the  drinking  buddy  she  confides  in   ,  a  glass  of  wine  and  a  lot  of  shit  talking  that   always  end  up  in  talking  about  personal  matters  .  they  are  a  ear  and  someone  to  lean  on  .

the  on  and  off  fling  ,  their  back  and  forth  being  nessa  and  her  refusal  to  let  them  in  completely  .  her  feelings  for  them  scare  her  ,  and  she’s  not  ready  to  walk  down  the  road  of  being  with  someone  again  .

other  things  i  want  include  ;  unlikely  friends  ,  enemies  to  friends  ,  friends  to  enemies  ,  lovers  to  friends  ,  friends  to  lover  ,  ex  best  friend  ,  ex  friends  in  general  ,  ex  friends  who  miss  each  other  terribly  ,  other  youtubers  she  collabs  with  ,  other  ceo’s  of  makeup  brands  /  skin  brands  she  has  a  rivalry  with  because  the  media  made  it  seem  like  they  hated  one  another  .

[nixfms]

hello    ,    babies       !       my   names        peach       &        this   is   my   baby  nix.   i’m  super   excited   for   this   group   bc   i   love   lil   oc   celeb   things   so   i’m   happy   to   be   here      !       below   you   can   read   a   little   about   nix       &       give   this   a   like     for  me   to   come   bother   you   for   some   plots     !

✫  *ﾟ LUKE HEMMINGS  ,  CIS MALE  ,  HE  /  HIM  :  did  you  hear  phoenix  ‘  nix  ’  orion  is  joining  the  cast  of  exposed  after  him buying off pictures and videos of him under the influence that contradicted his claimed sober life  was  revealed  ?  the  twenty  three  year  old  singer  with  52m  followers  is  trying  to  clear  their  name  after  they've  become  known  as  the  resident  paradox  in  the  mansion  ,  and  it's  clear  that's  spot  on  because  they're  quite  -  secretive  &  -  vindictive  ,  but  also  +   luminescent  &  +  benevolent  .  you  know  they're  heading  to  the  confession  booth  if  you  hear  tattoos  together  by  lauv  blasting  ,  most  likely  talking  about  how  they're  more  than  private  agreements  behind   closed  doors  ,   ducking  away  from  paparazzi  ,  gleaming  blue  eyes  ,  &   perfectly crafted  reputations .

𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙞𝙘𝙨.

full name  :  phoenix nicolai orion

nicknames  :  nix

age  :  twenty  -  three

birthday  :  august  9th   (   leo   )

occupation  :  singer.

hometown  :  sydney  ,  australia

orientation  :  bisexual  ,  biromatic

𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚.

height  :  6′4″

hair color  :  blonde

eye color  :  blue

tattoos :  left  sleeve  rose  piece  ( reference  )

piercings  :  previous  snakebites  ,  removed

𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠𝙜𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙙.  triggers  include  :  death  /  car  accident  ,  drug  / alcohol  use  ,  divorce  ,  abandonment.

phoenix orion or nix is typically known by just that - nix. doesn’t mind nicknames but usually just goes by nix.

hails from sydney  ,  australia.  born to a small family that didn’t have a lot.  dad worked during the day and mom worked at night so nix never really saw much of either of them until the weekend.  spent most of his time with his older sister. she was 100% his best friend.  was a relatively well behaved child.  got along with most people. didn’t get into too much trouble  ,  though there were a few detentions here and there.

trigger   ///   high school is when things got a little rough for him.  his parents were going through a hard time  &  when he was a freshman  ,  they filed for divorce.  he leaned a lot on his older sister who had just started college.  his family wasn’t exactly the closest knit system  ,  but as he began to go between mom  &  dads house it got a little difficult for him.  

trigger heavy   ///   when he felt like he finally had a good system  ,  he got a phone call one night that his sister had been in a car accident  &  within the next 24 hours she had passed away. sixteen year old nix had his word rocked because his sister was his biggest support system.  he had a super hard time coping. 

within the next two years  ,  he threw himself into music.  had already been utilizing social media to get his name out a little bit but hadn’t put a big focus on it.  his sister had taught him guitar  ,  keyboard  ,  and they would always sing together  &  diving into music made him feel closer to her again.  together  ,  the band decided that they actually wanted to try to do this professionally.  started off making little youtube videos on their own  &  eventually decided that they needed to make a big decision if they were going to get big.

taking a big risk  ,  nix released a single and moved out to la and exploded with fame.  got picked up by a company  &  immediately fell into a certain image. portrayed as very innocent  &  kind since he was 18.  immediately clung to the idea of being clean  & pure.  however as he got older  &  more  &  more famous  ,  temptations became harder to avoid.  so he balanced a party lifestyle privately while upholding his good boy imagine privately.  continued to tell fans he would never touch drugs or alcohol but continued to go out  &  get fucked up  &  avoid the cameras.

management has had to buy off tons of images on his leaving a club or party drunk or high or both. struggles a lot with losing his sister  &  turns to things that he shouldn’t to enjoy himself. however  ,  got caught up in the lie he was telling  &  didn’t have a choice at some point.

fast forward to the exposed and out comes all the pictures he bought off  ,  showing off relationships he shouldn’t have had  ,  &  states of being clearly under the influence.

so he’s current stuck in the place of not knowing what to do to get his fans to forgive him : actually get clean , or start being him.

𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙮. triggers include  :  none.

he’s definitely not a bad guy  !  struggles with some things but is generally nice. is portrayed as a super sugary sweet innocent boy and isn’t exactly that  ,  but he’s not rude or mean or anything like that. just definitely not as innocent as the media says he is. 

publicly surrounds himself with people that’ll make his image look good and privately spends time with people who wouldn’t. 

has a pretty decent sense of humor and loves anyone he can laugh with. isn’t exactly the class clown of the group  ,  but will always slip in a little joke here or there if it comes to his head.

a cuddly boy  !  as soon as you call nix your friend  ,  you’ll have this entire 6′4 body sprawled over top of you and he will just sleep there.  loves body contact and feels more comfortable sleeping next to someone than he does alone.

is basically one big paradox.  some people in the industry catch on to the fact that his media portrayal isn’t really him  ,  but he keeps the act going around most people so it’s hard to tell what’s real and what’s not real. 

definitely sleeps around a bit  ,  but keeps it on the absolute down low.  i’m nearly positive the media thinks he’s still a virgin  (  despite saucy lil songs )  and he just lets them.

loves posting on social media and interacts with his fans a lot.  preaches about what his management thinks that he should  ,  which is what got him into this whole mess to begin with. 

𝙚𝙭𝙩𝙧𝙖.

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[the-writers-bookshelf]

Hi. How are you? Please I need an advice. So a long time ago a used to write fanfic, and I want to start writing again but when I re read what a used to write I don't feel inspiration or I feel like I lost the spark I had and that whatever I write won't be enough or as good as want it to be. Any advice you can give me? Sorry for my english.

Hi lovely!

So, first: your English is excellent! ♥

Feeling like that spark is missing is never a fun thing to experience. But I promise every writer feels that at some point. It’s usually not a magical solution, it’s a long-term commitment to hunting down what made you love writing in the first place. But it’s worth it! 

Some suggestions I have:

1. Write for another fandom.

Sometimes, you just don’t have the same level of interest in that fandom anymore! Maybe you need a new fandom to spark some interest in writing again!

2. Find some writing friends or join a writing group.

Sometimes, it’s necessary to fly solo in the writing process. But if you’re lacking inspiration, you definitely need some other people to hang out with to feed your creativity and give you a boost again! This can be a long and complicated process, depending on your personality and how well you like to socialize. 

For me, personally, socializing is not my thing. So I’ve tried m a n y writing groups that didn’t work for me and I ditched them to seek out something else. But I’m finally finding some discord groups that work for me! So if you don’t find something that works right away, keep looking!

3. Don’t write for fandom, write for something else.

Fandom can be...complicated. Especially since the landscape of fandom seems to be changing into more about consuming rather than feedback and that’s a very slippery slope for a writer who is low on inspiration. You WILL burn out faster than anything else.

If you’re interested, you could try looking up short story or magazine submissions. Some of them have prompts that might inspire you! (Some of them also have a little cash reward for being accepted for publication and hoo boy, that’s a pretty strong motivator!)

4. Write something just for you.

Because you’re feeling low in inspiration and extra hard on yourself, maybe you just need to write for you for a while. Don’t show anyone what you write. Don’t worry about polishing it up. Maybe even don’t re-read it. 

Just write. Anything. Everything. Try to find the joy in writing that you had when you first started out.

Julia Cameron in “The Artist’s Way” recommends a process she calls “morning pages” where you write 3 pages every morning. Write anything that comes to mind. Don’t stop. Empty your brain. Push past that negative voice saying “this is terrible.” 

The point of the morning pages exercise is to let yourself create without criticism. Writing needs to be messy first but sometimes our brains just don’t want to accept that fact.

I’ve modified the morning pages - not in the morning because I am so not a morning person - and I’ve been doing it for about 7 years now. It’s definitely a lifesaver. You might try it and see if that helps get past that inner critic.

5. Change up your writing routine.

Our brains want variety. But when we sit down in the same place to write all the time, with the same method, our brains get bored and don’t want to do the work.

If you write on the computer regularly, in your room, maybe take a notebook outside (if you can). Change your settings. Change your routine. Change SOMETHING just to see what happens and if that sparks something!

6. Be patient and learn to forgive yourself.

As someone who is verrrryyyy self-critical, I know how exasperating and disheartening it is to look at your work and not like it. So you have to actively remind yourself of how much you’ve improved, how far you’ve come.

Your brain is lying to you, trying to trick you. You have to rebel against it. You have to remind yourself of the compliments people have given you or the joy you’ve felt as you put words to the page.

And then you have to tell yourself, “It’s okay. I’m not feeling my best but I made a small step of progress today. I’m proud of myself for that.”

It sounds a little silly??? But you need to challenge the negative rut of your own self-talk. It’s not easy and it’s a constant work in progress, but keep trying, lovely. Keep writing. ♥

I hope that helps!