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Thinking about Out of Time, specifically the ending, which, in my opinion, is one of the best Rimmer scenes of the franchise. It's one of those moments- like his sacrifice for Nirvannah in Holoship or his insistence that Lister burn his soldiers in Marooned as a gesture of friendship- that hint at the potential that he has, deep down, of being noble, heroic, kind. What's particularly interesting about this scene, though, is that up to this point, Rimmer has often been shown as having a fascination with power, with militarism and fascist aesthetics. This is among his worst, most dangerous traits. You see the extreme outcome of it in Meltdown, what I think is Rimmer at his most abhorrent; he is the cause of the death of an entire group of people all because he wanted to live out his power fantasy of being a strategic military general, watching the battle at a distance like he describes in Marooned. Of course, as others have pointed out in their own posts, Rimmer's desire for/adoration of power likely comes more from his desire to be loved and prove he's deserving of love, but its consequences can be horrific. In Out of Time, when he encounters a version of himself that is an *actual* fascist sympathizer/apologist, he is disgusted. He is the one who wants to fight and who says, "Better dead than smeg." Whereas his future self says he would rather die than live like rats as the present crew do, our Rimmer would rather die fighting than live a life of ease and comfort while rubbing shoulders with bloodthirsty, power-crazed dictators.
And I think it's really interesting that the episode before this one is Rimmerworld. The aspect I often think about (that I wouldn't be surprised a lot of other fans also often think about) is Rimmer's 550+ years of imprisonment. It's such a disturbing concept, being kept in solitude for that inconceivably long, that its apparent dismissive treatment as a joke and lack of any real impact on Rimmer haunts me a little bit and I'm glad there are a few fics out there that explore the aftermath more thoroughly. But before he ends up in that situation, he 1. Abandons the others- the seemingly only people who have ever come close to caring about him- to die, leaving them to flee in an escape pod, and 2. Creates a civilization of clones of himself that he clearly bases off of the Roman Empire (a notable inspiration for many fascists). The first is significant because it shows the contrast between his cowardice in that situation and his lack of it in Out of Time. But the second point here, about the creation of his civilization, may show why that contrast happens between episodes, the reason for it. The civilization of Rimmerworld, based on an obsession with power, inspired by what we can assume is Rimmer's own idealized view of the Romans and empire in general, is the same that causes his centuries of suffering. So the next episode, when he sees another version of himself willing to get along with the kind of people like those who imprisoned him (who, albeit, were also versions of him)...I don't know, maybe the events of Rimmerworld did have some notable effect on him after all, at least for a while; maybe that's why he was so sure in his decision that the crew fight even though he knows they'll die trying.
Or maybe I'm just being ridiculous and overthinking things
#Sorry! having Thoughts and had to ramble about them#Also I'm blanking on if Rimmer still shows intetest in dictators and the like after series 6#There are still episodes about his admiration with authority (Officer Rimmer Mechocracy etc.)#But besides a comment in Timewave Kryten makes about him collecting figurines#I can't recall many others#Red Dwarf#Arnold Rimmer#Original Post#Oh wait! I remembered he has books listed on his revision timetable in The Beginning#can't recall who by though and I'm too lazy to look it up right now lol
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I don't know anything about baseball
Bonus:
In case you can't read my shit handwriting:
Nanjo: having the time of his life
Naoya: wishing he was at the casino
Mark: Doesn't know the fuck hidehiko wants
Brown: Asking Mark for gum so he can look cool
#persona 1#persona#kei nanjo#naoya toudou#masao inaba#hidehiko uesugi#reiji kido#sorry I'm very persona 1 minded right now#its makes me happy drawing them and drawing the idea for fanarts I had for years lol#this is also very messy and the anatomy is atrocious but I went with more feeling and stylization that anything else#I was going to draw the mask thingy they use for mark but got extremely lazy
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I think your tags on the post about Paul's song Suicide got cut off. I was invested, and want to hear the rest of your thoughts :) Maybe you could put it all in a separate post if you don't want to add it as a reblog?
hey, thanks for this ask! It's always nice to have someone that wants to know my thoughts. I'd love to know yours on the subject too!
Okay super long text post under the cut
On “Suicide” 1956 and 1970
My interpretation of the meaning of Paul’s early song “Suicide” and its purpose on his debut solo album
The verse Paul had written in 1956 goes,
“If when she tries to run away
And he calls her back, she comes.
If there’s a next time, he’s okay
Cause she’s under both his thumbs.
She'll limp along to his side
Singing a song of ruin. I’d
Bet he says nothin’ doin’
I, I’d call it suicide.”
The song’s protagonist can’t leave an abusive relationship. The abuser knows it doesn’t matter what they do, the protagonist will always come back. Even when they’re limping, even when they vocalize their knowledge that this relationship is damaging, they’ll always come back, and the abuser is nonchalant. In the end,the singer likens the protagonist’s return to the relationship to suicide.
Just as the woman in the song is under her husband’s thumb, around the time this was written, Paul was very much under his father’s thumb. This was not due to any lack of self-direction or courage on his part. Jim was physically abusive (like the husband in the song) an addict, extremely controlling, and emotionally both unavailable and volatile. Still, in the same way that the woman in the song always goes back to her husband, Paul loved his father. It’s likely that Paul’s unusual degree of deference to his father was a combination of self-preservation and a genuine desire to help and please his father. Jim was also honest and well-liked, a lot of fun, intelligent, talented, a buyer of wonderful presents, and a supporter of Paul as a musician, and Paul felt great admiration and gratitude to Jim. And yet, Paul is not only the protagonist of “Suicide.” He’s also the singer. And the singer knows this relationship is destructive – bad enough to be likened to deadly.
So, “Suicide” is about Paul’s relationship with his father.
Enter John Lennon. Based on John’s perfect knowledge of “I lost my little girl” a full dozen years after being first shown it, I’m inclined to believe John was fully acquainted with the song “Suicide” and though I think pigs would fly before Paul would discuss its meaning with John, it’s not unlikely that he had his guesses.
It is also my tentative belief (based on the wording of the quote in which John talks about Paul and Jim and the issues with control and violence, the fact that John hit a lot of people, but never Paul, and the documented fact that John Lennon is intensely perceptive when it comes to Paul McCartney) that John knew Jim hit Paul. John hated Jim for all the same reasons Paul obeyed him. He hated that Jim was abusive, and he hated that Paul loved him. But. And here’s where I might be stepping on some toes. John and Jim share some important similarities.
Positives first. Both men are praised for being honest to a fault (Jim owning up to gambling debts and John being open and brash in interviews). Both are well-liked by almost everyone who knew them (People go on and on about what a gentleman Jim was, what a stand-up guy. People always think they’re John’s best friend after spending three hours with him) Both recognize Paul’s talent and give him the support he needs to pursue it (John obviously to a much higher degree) Both are described as being the life of the party and the center of attention.
Now negatives. Both men are highly susceptible to addiction. Both men pressured Paul about his lifestyle. Both are known to have been violent toward people they loved (although John was never violent toward Paul. This is important, and will be revisited). Both men had difficulty controlling their emotions or expressing them in a healthy way.
John eventually won his battle with Jim, as he states very proudly that Paul chose him in the end. He stood up to his father, as John claims he constantly begged him to do, and cast his lot with John, their partnership and their music. And, obviously, it was the right decision. Not only because it resulted in the greatest musical collaboration of all time, but because with John, Paul exchanged violence for softness. John was capable of a shocking level of care and tenderness, and for many years that was absolutely lavished on Paul. And I think they were both privately proud of that fact.
Jump to late 1969 / early 1970. John’s actions during the divorce (forcing Allen Klein – another violent and controlling man – on Paul, manipulating – self-admitedly – George and Ringo into turning against Paul, threatening – accidentally or on purpose – to treat Paul the way he’d treated Cynthia in their divorce, etc.) were hurtful enough to Paul that he was, in fact, suicidal (barely finding the strength not to suffocate himself in his pillow, taking way too much of everything, half-hoping he’ll overdose) and when he is finally pulling himself up again, he’s ignoring all John’s attempts to get him to come back (songs, interviews, letters, post-cards).
He puts out his debut solo album, the content of which makes John angry, though to an outsider, there doesn’t seem to be much there in the way of messaging.
Here’s what we get of “Suicide” a the end of “Glasses”, right before “Junk”
“ . . . song of ruin, I’d
Bet he says nothin’ doin’
I’d”
The part Paul chose to include was the abuser’s shrugging lack of surprise that the protagonist has returned, yet again, despite their knowledge that they’re walking back into abuse. I believe Paul’s message to John here is this: You were the one who taught me that there is a certain level of treatment I should expect from people who say they love me. Now that you’re the one who’s hurt me, you have to deal with what you’ve created. I’m not just going to come back to you with my tail between my legs and act like nothing happened. You taught me better than that. I’m really leaving. We’re really over.
#thanks for the ask!#that was thoughtful of you#Sorry I'm too lazy to find sources for all this#But I'm supposed to be studying for the LSAT right now plus I'm a new mom so#They're out there I swear I'm not making any of this shit up except for my theories#Seriously thanks though#this was fun#Paul McCartney#John Lennon#The Beatles#Mclennon#Jim McCartney
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Uruughghrgh I still need to build her... Forever stuck at E1
Linktree / Commissions / Ko-fi
#arknights#skadi#skadi arknights#happy big butch friday everyone#lesbian#lesbian artist#artists on tumblr#i should build her but I'm honestly so lazy when it comes to grinding in these games bc it gets in my nerves with how long it takes#so unless I need you RIGHT NOW you not getting built anytime soon sorry to all my ops that are gathering dust :((#that or I need to be insane in the membrane for you (Ling)
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💋 *bite bite* 💋
#dincobb#din x cobb#my art#vampire au#monster mash#this is my tag for this AU I'm too lazy to go back and change it up now#vampire din#I think... that's what I'm settled on finally#marshmando#marshalorian#I flipped din around way too much and I'm afraid it shows#dincobb fanart#sorry for not posting or doing anything recently I've been busy having the greatest impostor syndrome episode of my life#I'm dealing with it with spite but god my odds aren't the bestest here#a true shame for Din (I worked out the lighting right the first time and then flipped them around too much! D:) but I like Cobb very much
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okay! fun time: send me a red heart, a yellow heart, or a red AND yellow heart to receive a random DAVOS (red heart), AERON (yellow heart), or a DAVRON (red and yellow hearts) headcanon from me!
#under love's heavy burden do i queue.#davron#brackwood#davron ask memes#davos hcs#aeron hcs#davron hcs#okay yes the text is orange but i'm too lazy to code it and orange is right there lmfaoo#ALSO I'M SO SORRY I DIDN'T HAVE ASKS OPEN UNTIL NOW I FORGOR!!!#pell is kinda stupid sometimes!!!#😭😭😭😭#but PLEASE send me asks!!!!!#anything at all ❤💛
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waterstones special edition of the chalice and the gods i love you
#books talks#LOOK AT THE SPRAYED EDGES#They aren’t on the top or bottom which big sad come on waterstones do better#BUT STILL#pjo#percy jackson#the chalice and the gods#precious book i have been waiting all day and now it is time to READ#i’ll be back and very extra unnormal in a couple of hours#not sorry for the inevitable reblog storm#also yes the nails are blue no it wasn’t intentional but i love it nonetheless#last time i was like this about pjo on tumblr it was boo i'm p sure#also getting this from the mailman was so sweet!!#he was like 'i've been delivering a lot of those (gestures to my waterstones parcels) the past few days- something happen?'#OH YES IT DID#did i intend on posting a fic before i let myself read tcotg? yeah but also lazy and the book is RIGHT THERE
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When will this end, exactly?
Seriously, can I have a specific date or something because I've sure as hell had enough and am begging everyone to just *move on* already.
#i'm sorry nobody has ever heard of breaking the fourth wall#because that's literally all that was - judi dench reading poetry to the audience for several minutes#like you know they just use them as the thumbnail too because it'll get clicks#when i can assure you there have been SO many more movies with shit endings#but that doesnt get lazy views right?#we get it cats 2019 had its issues - but if you do not like or get cats to begin with#i think you should have your rights to say anything about this movie taken away#anyway lmao this is boiling my beans way more#extemporize backchat#like how many times had watchmojo used cats now as a clickbait thumbnail - too many#and yeah theyre *watchmojo* so who cares but they are playing towards an audience who very much#eats consistent cheap shots up - it's a consistent fuel of a fire that should have been suffocated years ago#because you've beaten the horse to death
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#sorry for disappearing again aaaa#i still check my dashboard from time to time but i'm just too lazy to post anything right now#just been super busy too. i finally landed the job i've been dreaming of for years and i'm so happy :'D#personal
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not to overreact on main but.......why do white people go to actual effort to engage in microaggression like i am genuinely so.
#this man is just flat out calling me by my last name no title in front of it nothing#he did it in his first email and that was whatever he may not have known but when i replied i signed off w my first name#he used it once#and now we're back to just addressing me by my last name and like......idk i hate it#it is genuinely easier to use my first name to use the name i signed off with why are you not#and this is why posts about how we need to be kinder bc white people are 'trying' regarding our names just bother me bc it's like#it is so often laziness#so often people not giving a shit and not bothering to check#i can tell when it's laziness and i can tell when someone's genuinely trying#i would never get on someone for genuinely trying#but if you demonstrate being able to address me correctly and then.....stop doing that#what am i supposed to think lol#this happens so often i'm just tired. why am i supposed to suck it up when you can't get my damn 4 letter name right#delete later#sorry. it's been a Week lol
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The thing is I really fucking want to work. I joke about being self unemployed and all that but I don't know what to do with this free time and I'm terrified of what not being able to work means for me. At some point in a month or two I'm gonna try and get a part time job and I know it's gonna fall apart. But at least then I know. Know I'm fucking useless and will never make enough money because of this fucking body of mine. I'm trying so hard to be positive but this fucking sucks. I'm too disabled to work unless i have a miraculous recovery and at some point I'm gonna have to suck it up and apply for benefits and go through that hell.
I spent over a decade fighting depression, dyslexia, bullying and just a eduction system hostile to me, and I was so close! Despite everything I had suffered up till that point I was on track to get a great graduate scheme and work my way up an engineering company, but then all that was ripped from my hands. My friends got them, and I'm left behind. I was just as smart, as clever, as passionate, and I'm facing the liklihood that I can never work, more than maybe a very flexible short shift position after years of management and recovery. My life was ahead of me, but it's been fucking stolen from me.
#Sorry I just need to get it out#I fought so hard to prove myself over and over and its all for fucking nothing#HELL#If I didn't push myself so hard. Maybe my body would be in better condition#If I took peoples words about how I would never be anything. Just a lazy little bitch who's fucked in the head#i'm scared#And I'm so fucking angry at what's been taken from me#As I watch my freinds pass me by as they escape into jobs#While I'm stuck here#I DID EVERYTHING I COULD TO GET OUT AND GET OPPORTUNITIES AND ITS FOR NOTHING#Rotting away on the streets where was born or rotting away in this place that I'm now trapped in#Fuck sorry#It wasn't meant to be like this#It was meant to go right for once
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Violence moodboard :]
#pink posts#tw flashing gif#tw flashing images#flashing images#tw flashing lights#um. let me know if i need to tag more stuff i just wanna destroy stuff right now#oh shit yeah i need to put in the#me#<-- i'm too lazy to change the tag sorry
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Hi, it's me! The anon who asked about Cain with The Demifiend's design. Now that you mentioned it, the Nahobino's (a character from SMT V) human form could be Abel's design.
Hello! nice to see you again. I don't know this character either and I really hope this is the one you are referring to.
I think it's a good proposal for a design. Very interesting. I read a little about him to find out how he could relate to Abel, and I think his personality fits a lot with what the Fandom could attribute to Abel.
If you have more ideas for Cain and Abel or if you are working on an AU it would be nice to hear more about it.
I kinda like the SCP interpretation of the brothers and I'm thinking about making a small AU based on it, because I think the series should really show the side of the story of the winners who were victims of sinners and how Charlie's Redemption project would affect them emotionally. Especially souls who still carry trauma with them, and Abel could be a good character to explore these themes.
#hazbin hotel au#fanfic ideas#hazbin hotel abel#i want to make that SCP AU but i'm full of work right now#and i'm kinda lazy#so is really a big maybe#sorry for the late reply
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i hate that people seem to value my potential worth with a bachelor's degree ("you'll make more money!" as if my degree program isn't one of the least useful degrees if you're not going into med school) over my mental health. as if monthly OCD-induced and autistic meltdowns aren't bad enough.
it's not like i'm a semester or two away from graduating. i have a couple YEARS left. i'm still technically in my third year in my degree. i can only manage 3 courses at the very most and any more causes me to burn out and my executive dysfunction plummets
#vent#this isn't even mentioning the fact that i NEED. to get out of this house#it feels so selfish to say that but i live with people who either can't or don't want to actually learn#to better themselves#so i live with an extremely ableist person who would rather call my grandparents lazy over acknowleging the fact#that my grams does indeed have several disabilities that cause chronic fatigue and pain#or yells at her (autistic) son because he interrupts her in conversation and doesn't ask about her day#like.... sorry your rsd is so bad you have to passive-aggressively mention how you feel like no one cares#but don't be surprised when you move to the US to be with your partner and you never hear from your son again#not unless YOU call HIM#i can't tell my mom this because this is her sister i'm talking about and those two are so close#i kinda just want to sink into the void rn. i don't know what to do#i really hope i can get my autism assessment done in july or august and then i can maybe not do classes in the fall#i need to speak to a councellor and then my academic advisor#but i think i have enough courses to graduate with my associate's degree#and then i can go to the employment services agency for help finding a job#because it's. it's bad right now#long list of jobs i've applied for and it's like they haven't even reviewed my application#only one of them just went 'nope' and i was like 'okay cool thanks for the email you did not send'#edit this woman is also dating a trump supporter so like
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I have fallen for you baiting with the Zelink kids, I’m begging to hear something about them
If you need something specific maybe their names and favorite hobbies or who they most take after
Whauwie YES
OK OK SO, so far i have built already how they come to be and all, I'm just working on how life will be like after totk (dont have the game yet, but friends do so imma be asking for sum help)
But so far, we have 2 kids! Both of them are girls, 3 years apart. Older sister is named Sonia (yes in honor of Queen Sonia herself), and the youngest is named Adira
Sonia is more like her dad, especially in terms of looks, but she had inherited her mother's eyes and thurst for answers. She's very energetic and adventurous, and likes helping others
She tends to be the guinea-pig to alot of her sister's projects and creations since she has almost no self preservation. She enjoys it tho, thinking it as a fun activity to try out new things and hang out with her sister. She also enjoys carving things, mainly toys and masks. Most of her sister's toys were made by her when they were around 11 and 8
Although she is usually quite the airhead, and not really the brightest (like her dad, cough-), she definitely inherited her mother's overthinker mind. Doesn't help that she also tends to think little of herself, being the firstborn of the Princess and Hero themselves, alot of people put her under alot of high expectations and although her parents tried their best to show she didn't have to prove her worth, the gossip around town was hard to ignore, doesn't help the fact that her sister has started to become a prodigy to her mom, creating inventions to help hyrule and planning to bring the royal system back when she's old enough
Sonia though, has no intention of bringing the royal life back, nor to continue it. Like her dad she wants to explore, she's fascinated by history and wants to disvover every small relic left unseen. And she wants to travel beyond Hyrule one day as well and help those she comes across her path. But also perhaps, escape the duties and expectations others put on top of her, and perhaps prove herself better then those expectations
She loves her sister tho, despite everything, and will never admit to her how jelouse she actually is of Adira. How jealous she was of Adira of being able to hang out with their mom so much, have so much in common with her, sometimes she wonders if she has anything from her mom other then her eyes
Adira is alot like her mother, especially in the looks department, but she has her father's eyes and thurst for chaos. She's usually quiet, but very sassy when needs be, and although seeming quite shy, she got quite the temperament and wont hold back her tounge
Like mentioned previously she becoms a prodigy to her mom, creating and getting invested on inventions to help hyrule and planning to bring the royal system back when she's old enough. She spends most of her time studying and working on anything technology finding it fun to see what possible outcomes it came give
Although sometimes the pressure is too much, as much as her parents give her the liberty to explore her interests, as she had started to show advancements in her creations and helping hyrule, as well as proclaiming to bring back the kingdom (even tho she was a child when she said that), all eyes were now set on her and she is terrified of any failure, and to disappoint everyone, she usually confides on her sister who never cared of her status and just liked to be around her for her (and well, she felt too embarrassed about it to tell her parents about it, they didn't need to worry about such simple things in her eyes, they already fought the townsfolk so much bc of that, she didn't want to make them dislike her parents bc of her)
She admires her sister alot, looks up to her and wishes she could be as cool as her, as free as her, but she isn't good in any sort of physical activities and is usually just stuck in the lab. And that causes a smidge of jealousy as Sonia is able to bond more with their dad then Adira ever could, she feels like she has nothing in common to her dad other then his eyes and need for chaos (which the second part was something looked down apon by others)
And those are the basics i have so far, there is more but I'm unsure about it for now, and aren't 100% concrete yet, so i wont share at the moment
But before i end this, here are some small fun facts:
Both Sonia and Adira are pure glutons, just like their dad XD. They have cooking sessions together quite often, helping around the kitchen when they can;
Sonia loves horses as much as her dad does, but she is terrified of riding them, because when she was little and riding one for the first time, the person who set settle on didn't do it properly and she fell, head first into a rocky ground, and to add onto it, the horse stepped right onto her pinky. Now she has small panic attacks trying to ride them
Sonia actually used to hate Adira. Since Adira was a rainbow baby, Zelda and Link did kinda get overprotective with her, and accidentally neglected Sonia. That didn't last long after Sonia did cause a whole scene with running away and almost getting killed- but that's likez a whole other story in itself lol (i might make a more detailed post about this later). But after that incident they were able to work things out and Sonia ended up being way more protective over Adira then her own parents
#also sorry for anything that sounds off#I'm no native English speaker#and i tend to go to google to see the right words to use#i couldn't while writing this bc i was in the airport and ut was a mess XD#and now I'm too lazy to get it checked#so hopefully it still makes sense anyways#also fun fact#the horse incident is exactly what happened to me when i was young#and as much as i love horses I'm terrified of riding them now#I'm working on it tho XD#loz#loz botw#loz totk#loz link#loz zelda#zelink#zelink kids#sonia#adira
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Have you seen how lazy the house is?
All kinds of shit congress needs to get done and johnson is constantly like "hey... another vacation?". I'm pretty sure they're taking another one next week and they just came back from a two week one last month
Do some work you lazy fuckers
#I don't think it even counts as a conspiracy to say a lot of this is johnson trying to stall on Ukraine aid#cause he know if he puts it to an up or down vote it'll pass; and you watch him and he's doing everything to kill it#trying to get a new version so maybe the senate could kill it; just everything to refuse to just vote on the fucking version the senate mad#lying lazy stupid fucker; of all acting us politicans right now I think I like him the least and that's with heavy competition#and as far as him wanting funding for israel... bitch if you cared about that you'd pass the ready made bill sitting on your desk for month#I'm sorry; not even pass; just put to a vote; you could vote against it even I don't care#but like... funding is literally on his desk and he cares so much he's gonna try and draft new stuff instead#not that I like that part of the bill in the slightest; but for me the aid to Ukraine outweighs pretty much everything else#given how badly it's needed
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