#❓ unknown

[autistic-daniil-dankovsky]

being a system is fun 'cuz sometimes you'll be like "hey, who the fuck am i"

[eldritchtaur]

the feeling when two headmates keep arguing over who wants their lore to be written more and made into an actual fic--

this is directed @ william and crytox who keep arguing about whether or not I should write urban fantasy fnaf (with a mix of "nothing went wrong" au) or LOZ (technically focusing on lorule but shush)

i might just say fuck it and work on my original fantasy story™️

[endlich-allein]

Richard, unknown place, August 1998 © Barbara Stiller

[victarin]

fumbling around with more ideas for ?????? this. i have a few vague thoughts floating around in my brain & i need to develop them some more bc this feels like it’ll be fun (for me!)

so far all i have is being caught in a house with a very scary but loving glitch-ghost-being (think fnaf 4 minus the mauling!) (maybe a little bit of mauling. depending on your choices) (like a dating sim! platonically!) yes they are a little scary but it’s okay bc if they like you they’ll go catch a fish for you :)

[quasaricsouls]

Got too silly (tried to dig into possible trauma) and got new guy jumpscared (brain shoved a fictive at us who i’m pretty sure is a trauma holder)

[daydreamers-sys]

Whoever made up the term “enbian” I am holding you gently. My nonbinary attraction to other nonbinary people is very very gay.

[rnbpostings]

I wish every mutual in America a very pleasant I hope you have headphones and I wish you well

[systempositive]

i cant tell if im a fictive in a system or just a fictionkin blergh :( do u magically have any advice for figuring it out ?

So we have actually dealt with this! Here's what we did:

If you currently "feel like" the host (shift or fronting), try calling out to the other.

If you're currently the other (shift or fronting), call out to the host!

You can also probably write down a message who whoever applies.

Hope this helps!

[the-crown-constellation]

We have been very blurry the last few days and we're not sure why. Just can't tell who's fronting most of the time. And when we do figure it out it only lasts a little while before we don't know again. This sucks.

[calicos-stimboards]

what is that..... its the unknown!

🎭 🕷️ 🕷️ / 🪞 ❓ 🪞 / 🕷️ 🕷️ 🎭

[autistic-daniil-dankovsky]

am i even fucking Real

[eldritchtaur]

feeling the plural post on main so shoutout to not last night but the night before where we had such a vivid dream that even right now we can vividly visualize and then being like "wow this is so oddly specific i sure hope this doesn't mean we got a new headmate"

and then us staring into the camera sighing dramatically as we add someone to our list of headmates

(thank you chai for showing up we love you but jesus christ you really hit us with your whole dramatic backstory before meeting you huh)

[endlich-allein]

Paul, unknown place, May 1998 © TTO

[youthnighttarot]

Who’s your FS/SO……❓❓❓❓ PAC

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Your Selections 🧞🧞🧞🧞

Pile 1

Tarot Cards: 10oS, 2oP, 5oC, 8oC

You may go through some sort of loss, and or this may be them. This may also resonate as a rejection of the sort as well. ( either you or this person) So this may be a rejection or some type of loss you or your person goes through. They may live in New York specifically, (I’m getting this for some) or some type of urban area where there’s a city nearby. They may bring in a wealth of opportunities for you…they may also just be a wealthy man/woman in general. They have deep pockets and often provide opportunities to and for you…this is to help you move past the traumas, heartbreaks, and grief…they know how to turn loss into a money earning opportunity. (They are good at making something out of nothing) You may receive a promotion or they may have just received one…you see them as a grounding and stable force. There a bit insecure and don’t like to celebrate or go out much…even when your person receives the promotion they would rather stay inside to themselves and relish. This comes from a place of insecurity because they don’t allow themselves to enjoy the fruits of their labor…like going outside and mingling. This person has had a lot of loss and grief in their life. They think about their goals a lot and how they will achieve these goals….Even if they do they don’t/wouldn’t know where to go or what to do from there. They have been ignoring the ace of pentacles that was right in front of them. There is a sense of fear of the unknown and not know where to go. You both love one another and there’s a great amount of passion between the two of you…you may not like a lot of the same things but you both seem to blend without trouble. You have harmony and balance with this person…this is truly someone who is a divine counterpart…this is a soulmate….you will both feel very comfortable with one another….you teach one another how to let go specifically this person. Allowing control to be relinquished and allowing life to take you where it takes you…this is something your spouse/so will learn from you…they have a hard time finding balance between their life and their career. They could be behind at work right now…they feel trapped…whatever they’re going through is really hard on them at the moment they need rest. I just want to hug your person pile 1 🥺.

Where you may meet them..?

So I’m getting three scenarios.You may meet them when you are traveling…possibly on a hike of some sort or a mountainous area. For others I’m getting may meet them in the court of law 👩🏾‍⚖️ (lolllll I’m rolling)…possibly outside of a place where law or justice occurs…police department 👀. And the third is like at a big garden…botanical gardens perhaps…they may even be a neighbor of yours. You may both be walking away from something that no longer serves you…you may even feel an injustice has occurred. You will move away from this energy with time. You may also meet at the workplace. Once you meet the hard work you put in will finally pay off.

Extra Messages: 1313, overthinking, loss, soul contract, 11, Christmas 🎄, winter

Pile 2

Tarot Cards: 3oSrv, AoC, Strength, 4oS

The first thing I heard was courageous and brave. Your fs/so is very intuitive…they may at times be seen as lazy. But it’s the fact that they spend more time overthinking and, worrying then doing or putting forth actions. They are really good at whatever their career is but they have this feeling and tendency to not feel good enough for you or for they life they have. They are very connected to their emotions but often get deemed as a lazy person…they really just be procrastinating…they are extremely unfocused and can’t get work done….so much so they miss opportunities. They are constantly bouncing back and forth between a lot of unhealthy thoughts. They need to put in the effort that they know they can or they will continue to fall into thin bottomless self pitying habit. Thinking if you will like something they are doing for you…they are extremely obsessive about you and may be possessive as well. They’re constantly thinking and never really doing….they think they’re not good enough anyway so why even try. They will get into a thought process or habit and keep on thinking about. You both are compatible and there is a lot of love here between the go of you. They will offer you a lot of love…this may be my TWFL pile for some of you. They may have been betrayed in the past by someone or there bad habits chased pasted lovers away. You both will create an alliance together and truly be able to build a stable foundation and connection with each other.

Where you will meet..?

You may meet your future spouse/so at a gathering of the sort. I’m sensing a family gathering. (It reminds me of a yt video I was watching talkin about country ninjas havin a party yea yea yea🤣🤣) So your person may be southern Lml. It could be a family reunion or class reunion…you may have met this person prior to this gathering…you may even notice these obsessive characteristics…you feel they may a bit emotional immature. Pile 2 you may be walking away from fighting or fights into your new peace. A message from spirit {You are being offered something special and yet you reject it why..?} This person comes in with passion and mysteriousness that drew you in at first even though you may not have been very impressed by them. They are coming to offer you a cup of love!💜

Extra Messages: 555, 44, 55, celebration, celebrity, wild side normani, I wanna drive you crazy

Pile 3

Tarot Cards: QoSrv, QoP, PoSrv

This is definitely someone you know or someone that you used to know. There is an overarching nostalgia to this connection. Your fs/so my also be just very nostalgic in general…they like to dwell on the past but not in a toxic way. They have fond memories of their mother during their childhood…this person may not to work in groups 🤧👀…like they don’t do well having to anchor up multiple people. They like to work by themselves and be by themselves for the most part. They’re a straight shooter…what they say they mean what they mean they say and this is something they picked up from their father figure…your person’s parents have played a major role in their lives. Their dad was a very no nonsense type of person….while they aren’t like that they are very brunt which is why they may not be able to work in groups/ fond of working in groups…this person likes to hike or walk in peaceful spaces. They have had someone screw them over during there childhood…possibly may have been the mother for some. (13:13 on the clock) This person is very wise and has a lot of wisdom. But they have unhealthy habits to the point where they shut of when things aren’t going the way they intended for things to go. They have a more traditional approach to life. They are definitely a masculine energy. This person believes in the sanctity of marriage/partnership and, they will respect it as well as you. This could be related to the fact that they didn’t see their parents respect their marriage…they may have separated or gotten divorced…which highly affected your FS/SO. This effects how your FS/SO even interacts when they collaborate with others….or are involved in something requiring teamwork. This person will come in fast but very recklessly…they tend to make head first decisions without much thought or planning ahead. Even if they know the outcome will be bad. (Just be careful and take notice to this so they can work to correct this) You may have resonated or been drawn to pile 2. I say this because there’s an immaturity it’s just not an emotional immaturity. Like your FS/SO lacks maturity when it comes to thought….while pile 2 is emotionally lacking maturity. Their thought process May throw you for a loop 🫠🥴. In the past they had to walk away from something that was causing them grief and, along the way they began to develop this mentality. This may be there defense mechanism. (555) This is a person who can be very diplomatic when they view is necessary. They can create balance. This person is willing to take the middle ground and they’re willing to compromise. They’re willing to be the bigger person…even though their thought process may be a bit wonky they can control themselves. They know how to take control of their thoughts when they see fit or again the need to. They seem to not do will in social environments…they are very antisocial or just stand-offish.

Where you’ll meet them: You may meet your future spouse when it’s cold outside. It could be snowing for some of you. It may be around winter time…you also may just live in a very cold area. It’s a time where you’re feeling left out. You may feel as though you are not apart of something..? And they feel the same way…they want to be apart of something. You could be reaching out for help and they may be one of the people who help you. I going back to the snow…it could also be harsh weather conditions. You could feel as though your person takes their time with something….they may be doing something where you see them taking the time. They may even talk with at a slower pace. This will stand out to you. Even though this person is traditional the place you meet them will be anything but the sort. It will definitely be an usual place or environment. They usually wouldn’t have even gone to a place like this…..and yet they found themselves there. They could have rested or they were laid back in some way. This may be because they have had a victory and they’re soaking in the moment. But this place is not what they would call a “traditional” setting (could be a bar) This could be a hotel because I’m getting they are resting their or going to rest….could also be a party and they’re laying on the couch. You will meet after a much needed rest and self-care for you and your person. You could meet on the internet. You may meet at a time when you and your FS/SO are isolating yourself from the world or social circles. You haven’t been able to be productive during this time. You will have an opportunity either creatively or social to expand your life/career. You could even meet in a creative place or come together or create something together. (Be careful because they don’t do well with collaborating if that’s the case) (Whoever they are needs to get that together) You may have walked away from something causing you to stagnate….this open new doors for you and allowed for you step into opportunities and circles you were blocking yourself off to before. This is why this wonderful opportunity is coming to you pile 3. Someone may also be stubborn.

Extra Messages: 333, 111, 555, 1313, Immaturity, Creativity, Introverted, almost there princess 👸🏾 &the 🐸, The greatest love, 66

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[quasaricsouls]

oh yeah btw aspenfrosten made a userboxes blog called @/aspenboxes soooo. just so you guys know.

[meazalykov]

redirection II

esmee brugts x barcaplayer!R

last chapter: redirection I

next chapter: redirection III

Walking into my apartment, I shut the door and place my black nike sports bag on the bench in the foyer. There was a light breeze in the kitchen because I left the balcony doors open when I left home this morning.

I didn't want to do anything right now since I had a busy morning. I had to wake up at 6am, eat breakfast, get to Ciutat at 8am, complete paperwork and contracts, do medical tests, take pictures for my first day, and have my first training practice with the team.

The excitement in my body wouldn't go away though. Barcelona is the best club in the world currently, I had high hopes for this season and just want to contribute to the team.

Turning on my phone that was in my back pocket, the time read 1:23pm. Well, in Europe it's 13:23. However, it would take me a while to get used to that as an American.

I saw a few texts from a phone number I didn't recognize too.

Hi y/n!

What time are you free later?

We should go to La selva. It's a restaurant in the city. I haven't been there before but Ingrid recommended it :)

I blushed as I remembered the conversation with Esmee earlier. I appreciated the idea of going out to eat with her, I want to build bonds with my new teammates the same way I had with my old teammates back in Washington.

Considering that I've meet her today, I couldn't say that I had a crush on her (yet). That would be too fast. However, I thought about her on the drive back to my apartment. I'm excited to spend time with a new friend and teammate.

y/n: Esmee!!!!

y/n: I'm free around 17:00/5pm. I have to do some things for my apartment and I'll be ready.

y/n: I just looked up the location to La selva restaurant. It's not too far from my apartment. Its 6 minute walk from me :)

I added Esmee's phone number into my phone as "Esmee :)" before I clicked off of iMessage to go on instagram. Clicking on my notifications, I saw "esmeebrugts followed you 5d" meaning that she followed me five days ago.

Going on her profile, I see that some of my friends back in america follow her and she follows a couple of them back. Everyone kind of knows each other in this sport so I am not surprised.

I don't go on instagram when I am not posting, so I felt bad when I saw that she followed five days ago. I followed her back immediately.

s/n went back to America earlier with our mom and I miss her already. We walked on the Barceloneta Beach before dinner last night, celebrating my new life in Spain. She took pictures of me and I feel happy enough to post them on Instagram.

(pretend this is you in the pictures)

y/n.l/n

barcelona, catalunya, españa

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loving barcelona already 🌞💙

comments

y/nhive THE PRETTIEST

ingrid_engen So cool 😍

malpugh obsessed with you 🥹

woso21 when she scores in her debut I will be there

leahwilliamsfan8967 ME TOO!

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trinity_rodman 🔥🔥🔥

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When I told Esmee that I had to do things for my apartment before the dinner, I wasn't lying. Throughout the past week I've been decorating my apartment so it felt like home. I know it will take a while to get used to this place, since I am across the Atlantic Ocean in a new country away from my old home.

three hours had passed and I've finished completing everything for my apartment. I picked up my phone from the coffee table and the time read 4:12pm/16:12. I saw I've received 5 text messages from different people:

Esmee :) 2hrs ago: La selva isn't far from me as well, see you at 17:00!

Trinity R 2hrs ago: Heyy girl! How's Barcelona?

Emily F 2hrs ago: *sent 2 TikTok attachments* you at camp 😭💀

Unknown number: Hi its Ingrid!

The first person I texted back is Ingrid, I gave her my number before she left training earlier with Mapi. I changed her contact name to just "Ingrid E".

y/n: Hi Ingrid!

I texted Trinity back as well, saying that Barcelona is great and asked her how she's doing back in Washington. I reacted to Esmee's message with a like and Emily's with the "haha" reaction.

I had about 45 minutes until I had to meet Esmee at La sevia, so I quickly went into my bedroom and changed into a different outfit than what I had on this morning.

Deciding to do my usual hairstyle (imagine whatever you want, reader <3), I placed on a bit of brow gel concealer mascara blush and lip balm as apart of my makeup routine. I constantly checked the time on my phone, making sure that I am not late to meeting Esmee. I promise this obsession over the time just isn't due to my interest in her, with friends I'll try not to disrespect their time by being late to an event.

After putting on my outfit (photo above^), I checked the time and it's finally 4:45/16:45. I grabbed my purse, put on my sandals, made sure to lock my apartment door, and followed my phone GPS towards LA sevia.

Stepping outside, the warm weather with the nice breeze made me smile. My white oversized button up shirt flowed with the soft breeze. Usually, my social anxiety would plague my thoughts about hanging out with someone new in my life. I used feel shaky and hesitant about these situations. However, I promised myself that I would be more open with others once I came to Spain.

I turned the corner away from my street, heading to walk straight for about a quarter of a mile. Suddenly, I saw a group of girls. One girl had box braids with a nice orange sundress on. Another girl was a redhead with freckles, she wore a pair of jeans shorts with a green shirt. The third girl, who was closest to a restaurant door they were standing out of, was brunette and wore a 22/23 barcelona kit with a pair of light washed jeans. These girls were a few years younger than me, if I had to guess.

When the girl in the Barcelona shirt saw me walk by her, she gasped before coming up behind me and tapping me on the shoulder. I didn't walk past her to ignore her, I figured that since I'm new to Barcelona I wouldn't be recognizable yet.

"Are you y/n l/n? You look so pretty in person. Sorry I- um- wow I am such a fan of your talent." The shy girl spoke with a Spanish accent. I smiled at her as her two friends stood behind her, looking at me with admiration too.

"Thank you so much! I appreciate your kind words." I responded.

The girl pulled out her blue cased iPhone to give to her friend, "I can take a picture with you?" she asked. I responded yes kindly.

After taking pics with the three girls, I continued to walk to the restaurant. Turning onto the street were La sevia was, I heard my imessage notification go off in my back pocket.

I clicked on my lock button to see that I received a text message from Esmee, the time is currently 4:57/16:57. The restaurant is in view from where I am walking so I wasn't late.

Esmee: I am here! I got us a table already so I am inside

Y/n: I am right outside. Heading in now :)

As I approached the restaurant, I stopped and took a deep breath as my nerves started to increase in unfamiliarity. My social anxiety won't ruin this potential friendship I want to have.

I smiled in awe when entering the steakhouse . The place has beautiful lighting, nice vinery, and was pretty spacious. There was nobody up front at the hostess station, so I continued to walk into the restaurant to find Esmee.

As I turned the corner, I see the Dutch girl sitting. She had her familiar braids with her back facing towards me. She's looking down towards her lap so I know she is on her phone.

If I knew her well enough, I would've scared her from behind. A "boo!" could've been funny. Oh well, next time I will.

"Esmee!!!" I said going to sit down in the seat across from hers. The chairs in the restaurant were hanging from the roof, the whole area was pretty.

"Y/n hey!" Esmee clicked off of her phone and placed it upward on the table. I placed my bag in the chair beside my left leg before I fully acknowledged Esmee's appearance.

I cannot deny it. I found her attractive since seeing her at training this morning. She had this shy and sweet aura to her. Don't get me started on her adorable smile...

She wore a black nike hoodie and had on a nice gold necklace. I can't see her pants from below the table but I believe I saw black cargos when walking towards her from behind.

"I'm sorry I am a little late, a fan recognized me and asked me for a photograph." I giggled. I knew I didn't have to apologize because it was exactly 5:00/17:00 when I arrived, I just hoped that she didn't wait long.

"It's totally okay! I just sat down when I saw your message about you being outside." Esmee responded. The dutch accent when she speaks English is pulling me in, emotionally, as I look at her with a smile.

Be cool, y/n. I thought to myself.

"Okay that's good. I didn't want to keep you waiting." I commented.

"You're fine no worries... so I see a fan recognized you already." Esmee said with her recognizable smile.

I laughed lightly and was going to respond until a waitress came up to our table.

"Hi I'm Maria, I will be your server tonight. Can I get you started with any drinks?" The brunette, who had French braids in her hair, smiled at us.

I looked at Esmee, seeing if she wanted to answer what she wanted first. She nodded her head at me, offering for me to go first, we nearly laughed before I said to Maria, "I'll just take a water." Esmee wanted the same thing and Maria smirked at us before walking away.

"Yeah a fan did recognize me. She had on a Pedri shirt and stared at me walking by her before she stopped me for a picture. She had her friends with her and they were so kind." I said.

Esmee nodded her head, "That's good. I'm glad they were kind to you."

"Same, the last thing I need for the end of my first week in Spain is a mean person coming at me." I shook my head at the possible thought.

"Have you had any fan interactions here since Tuesday?" I asked Esmee. It's Monday today so Esmee arrived to Barcelona before I did.

"I had a few actually. A few Oranje fans saw me and asked for a picture. I went to Mexico with the team for a friendly on Thursday and was able to meet more fans there too." Esmee commented. The Barcelona team had a friendly in Mexico against Club America from what I saw on their Instagram pages. My contract wasn't signed until a few days ago, when they came back to Barcelona, so I wasn't able to go.

"You're so lucky! How was Mexico?" I smiled.

Esmee looked up, thinking about her few days for the Club America friendly, before looking back at y/n with a smile.

"Mexico was fun. We didn't walk around or do much. However I saw an old teammate from PSV that plays at Club America so that was nice. uh---- it was nerve-wracking too." Esmee said.

"I understand, it was your first time playing with the team. Friendly or not. Being nervous and excited is normal" I validated her feelings.

"That's true. I did good in Mexico so the worry was for nothing." Esmee lightly laughed as I looked at her with a blush.

Maria came by with our waters and asked what we wanted to eat. Realizing that we spent most of our time talking instead of looking at the menu, we asked for a few extra minutes. The waitress accepted it and smiled before walking away, giving us time.

Esmee and I look through the menus deciding what we want. Most of the menu was in Spanish, so we had to flip to the English part of the menu. While looking through the menu, Esmee and I didn't talk. The silence between us wasn't awkward since there was a nice jazz song playing throughout the restaurant.

"Have you ever had salmon?" I asked Esmee. The girl looked at me with a smile before nodding. I smiled back before saying, "I never had salmon before. The salmon with pineapple and avocado sounds good though." I say.

"You never had salmon before? You should try it, it's good." Esmee said as she looked back at her menu.

"Okay, I'll try that." I closed the menu and placed it in front of me on the table. Esmee looked at the menu for a couple of more seconds before closing it as well, "I'm going to get the same thing." she smiled.

"Copy cat." I joked.

"I am not copying you.... you just have good taste." Esmee rolled her eyes playfully which made me laugh.

"I'm just kidding Es. You can copy me as much as you want to without me feeling annoyed." I smiled before freaking out internally, "oh my god, I hope she didn't take that as flirting. I don't want to freak her out already." I thought. My face still had a smile and Esmee lightly laughed so I dropped the thought.

After Maria came back and we ordered our food, Esmee and I took the opportunity to talk a lot more. We discussed our soccer/futbol journey before coming to Barcelona, our families, our upcoming game with Madrid CFF, and our love for video games. We have a lot in common.

The Dutch girl never mentioned having a girlfriend while she talked about the people close in her life, I took note of that.

Maria came back with our food around 45 minutes after we ordered. Esmee and I didn't talk much as we had our food but it's okay. Again, the silence wasn't painful or awkward to me. Other conversations from people around us and the light music kept my mind occupied.

I didn't want to stare at Esmee, since that would be weird for our first time hanging out, but she looked so pretty. Sometimes when I looked at her, she already looked at me with a shy smile. This made me blush, she noticed it but didn't say anything.

The check came back and the price wasn't expensive at all. Esmee and I forgot to ask if we could split the check but we didn't want to bother Maria who is helping with other tables.

"I can pay for it!" I say as I place my sliver credit card on top of the receipt on the table.

Esmee shook her head no as she placed her credit card on top of the receipt, handing me my card back.

"I offered to take you here so it's on me." The dutch said. She wasn't lying but I didn't want to make her feel obligated to pay for my food when I can.

"Yeah but-"

"Y/n, it's okay." Esmee spoke softly before Maria took her card and walked away. I blushed knowing that couldn't debate with the girl.

"Okay but next time I am paying."

"There's going to be a next time?" Esmee teased, her eyes filled with admiration.

"Oh absolutely!" I said enjoying her company.

Next Chapter: Redirection III

a/n: long chapter, hope you enjoyed :)