#'but isaac u don't have an about up yet'

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Idk if it’s cause his face claim is Oscar Isaac but Ciro is taking up way more of my brain space than I think you intended. do u have any of his lore in your back pocket? a tragic backstory? who he had his kid with? were they in love?? IS HE HAPPY? anyways. i appreciate you and i hope you’re doing well!! sending love

Thank you so, so much! I'm starting to feel a bit more up finally, and my moods are leveling out I think!

And ABSOLUTELY! TEN PIECES OF CIRO LORE:

Ciro and his wife Elisa (Sophia's mom), were a Mobster Power Couple, and madly in love. She worked alongside him and ran various aspects of the business. She was cunning yet cheerful, loved classical literature like he did, and they had plans for a large family. They both figured if one of them died, it would be due to 'business'. Sadly she passed away incredibly suddenly from an aneurysm a few years after Sophia was born, leaving him a widower and a single father. His daughter for a time was the only thing keeping him going.

He's made a good recovery since then with some therapy and has found he loves being a dad and is quite happy running his businesses, criminal and not, though he spends a substantial amount of time worrying about Jane, and would be even happier if she were safe. But he definitely feels like he's doing what he was meant to do, and feels like God approves in his own way.

Romantically (something rarely touched on in TRT), he's had some flings and short-term relationships with various people after his wife passed, mostly women and a few men, but he hasn't had anything serious so far, in part because he's been so focused on Running The Empire and raising his daughter(s) (and other adopted stray feral murder children like Eli). Though if he finds his second special person, he'd be willing to consider something more serious.

At the time of TRT, he has five cats, all former strays because this man can never resist picking up the lost, human and animal, and there are a variety of cat rescues around Los Angeles that find themselves mysteriously funded by an anonymous donor.

He's decent at guitar and piano!

In TRT the incident where his childhood dog was killed by a boar is mentioned. In his attempts to rescue his dog, he got thrown aside into a tree - that injury caught up with him later, which is why Matt notices arthritis in his knee and an altered stance when scanning him over!

Ciro and Natasha Romanoff know each other through (sketchy) business and are on friendly terms.

He's the eldest of his siblings (1 brother and 2 sisters).

He didn't always plan on being a crime lord but after running face-first into some governmental/legal corruption as a teenager, his thought process was roughly along the lines of, 'I could do better than them.' He likes to think he's kept his promise - there are a surprising number of people in his city, especially in certain neighborhoods, who tend to look to the Ferryman's justice and authority first over the police or legal system. His punishments are often cruel, hard, and unforgiving, but if you follow his laws and keep your mouth shut, you generally don't have much to worry about, and because he minimizes collateral damage and invests in the neighborhoods (to encourage loyalty if nothing else), most are happy to look the other way.

He 'introduced' himself to SHIELD by mailing a few specific agents the tongues of HYDRA operatives, complete with coins, after those operatives attempted to Fuck Around in Los Angeles and quickly Found Out. One of those SHIELD agents happened to be Phil Coulson. The two have a bi-yearly, location-randomized coffee meetup, which is how Ciro wound up with Agent Thompson's card after Coulson vouched for her record!

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LTLVC WINS $50,000

The groupchat × reader insert

~This will basically be about LTLVC YouTube vid part 4 and how the reader reacts to each groupchat member's elimination.

•(DO NOT READ IF U HAVE NOT SEEN THE VID YET, THERE WILL BE SPOILERS!) There will be use of y/n, reader will go by she/her(sorry) this is my first time so tell me if anything's wrong and pls give me requests. Don't be a silent reader and plz give request...enjoy

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NICK'S ELIMINATION:

We are about a million hours into the challenge and everyone is doing good so far, or that's atleast what they're trying to show. I'm also trying to act off as if I'm not tired by moving around and talking alot. Right now I'm currently eating hot fries while swinging from side to side in my chair. We just finished doing lights off and during lights off I felt like I was losing it mostly when tanner danced as a floating shirt and having nick get mad at us for not being able to be quiet for 5 mins (I was the main person being loud)

"tanner are u still there?" Isaac asks since tanners been quiet, "yea I'm still here, I'm watching the Simpsons look!" Tanner says as he shows us his phone where he was literally watching the Simpsons on Twitter. "Nick?" Isaac moves on to asking Nick since he looks a little too asleep. "Mmm" nick responds to Isaac since he's too sleepy to even respond correctly. "Bro ur barely awake" Isaac tells Nick since he can practically see Nick having on from just a thread, "no I'm just keeping my eyes closed, I'm listening to y'all's conversation.." nick says with his eyes still closed, "bro your actually kidding there's no way your getting sleepy this early its ridiculous" I say to nick cause honestly it is outrageous, "im not sleepy im just bored since im sitting here doing nothing and im fucking cold!" Nick says slightly irritated for being accused of sleeping.

A little bit of time goes by, I'm watching YouTube videos to keep myself entertained, everyone else is talking to each other about God knows what then grunk makes a statement on how Nick looks like Eminem so I take a look at my discord and see Nick with his head down with his hood on. Everyone starts making comments on how he's asleep, then we all turn silent and start whispering to see if Nick responds then suddenly we hear him snoring and all of us practically freak out quietly. "Nick if you don't respond in 10 seconds then I'll remove you for falling asleep first 4 times in a row" Isaac says while whispering. "This is embarrassing" I say very quietly.

10.9.8.7.6.5.4.3.2.1.0...

Isaac then removes nick from the call and all of us were honestly shocked for Nick to fall asleep and get eliminated that early. "Did anyone's else's heart rate like start going up cause mine did" Larry says equally as shocked as everyone, "dude there's actually no way he got out this early, he actually wanted to stay for a long time bro I feel bad" I say since Nick was talking non stop how this year was his year. "That's a new record" tanner says while laughing, "Isaac you have to make the tweet, one down" Larry tells Isaac with tanner still laughing in the back. "He really didn't want to get out yet" yumi says while still shocked, "yea he didn't even get to play lethal company with us" yumi says. Then Larry and Yumi start acting like Nick when he said he wasn't asleep. "He's going to be so mad" I say already knowing how Nick is, "he's probably still asleep bro" grunk says. Nick then joins the call again seeming a little more awake, "hey man wassup" grunk says to nick, then Nick starts talking about how he just had his head down. "Dude you were just sleeping and snoring away" I say and tanner laughs, "you did this to yourself, why'd you do this to yourself, you chose the most comfortable position to sleep in". "You get in the most coziest spots". "Why do you get in the most coziest spots like come on", me, tanner, and grunk start shaming on Nick for practically self sabotaging himself. Nick then says his final goodbyes before leaving the call to sleep while we still have to stay for $50,000.

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GRUNK'S ELIMINATION:

I don't even know how long we've been awake and I don't even remember how long ago yesterday was. After Nick left we had some surprising guests like Santa (who said I was on the naughty list for always being loud and screaming at the boys), and Nick also joined back to the call for a little bit, which we terrorized him for eating almost a dozen donuts. We are doing lights off right now and Larry has a special challenge for us called the black market challenge that he had planned since last year. For the black market challenge we had to listen to men whimpering for SIX WHOLE MINUTES. "That was like cross my heart and hope to die send me to hell now God challenge!" Yumi says after being fully annoyed by the whimper audio, "I'm never participating in the black market challenge ever again" I say after being traumatized, "I'm not gonna lie but that did not feel like 6 minutes, that felt like an hour" tanner says while laughing.

"well I'm going to bed dude, I have to prepare for exams tomorrow" grunk says while sounding sleepy and also a little bit sad. "That's a very mature thing to do grunk, I'm proud of you" I say so grunk doesn't feel fully disappointed in himself for giving up on $50k. Larry then makes a statement on how grunk was a good soldier while Yumi flashbangs himself multiple times while smiling like an insane person. Grunk then explains how he knew he wouldn't have been able to win after hearing Yumi being fully committed to the challenge. "You know what this as a message for everyone to never let a last to leave vc ruin your college" everyone laughs at what I said. "Yes, yes I know but next year imma clear my schedule" grunk says. Everyone says their goodbyes to grunk as he fist bumps his camera and leaves.

"this call looks empty dude" Yumi says as now seeing how far he came, "I'm watching AI Santa clause" tanner says out of the blue "what???" I say while laughing. "Dude I feel bad, ISAAC WHAT THE HELL!" I scream at Isaac, "what did I do?!!" Isaac replies back confused, "I don't know I just need to argue to keep me awake" I say while talking in a much lower and calmer way. "Now I see why you got put on the naughty list" yumi says, I then look at the camera shocked and jokingly hurt, "alright you know what then I'm gonna leave the call" I say while closing my eyes to make it more believable that I'm going to quit, "NO ACTUALLY DONT!" Yumi screams at me to "wake" me up, "yeah that's what I thought keep that same energy" I say and I go back to my phone while Isaac laughs.

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TANNER'S ELIMINATION:

I didn't even bother to keep track of time anymore, at this point I'm army crawling my way to stay awake. Yumi is talking to me but I'm mostly responding to him in a mumbling way or in a short way. Larry takes notice that I'm getting sleepy so he also starts talking to me while trying to make me laugh but as Larry tries talking to me, Yumi ends up being the one responding to Larry while I just zone out and contemplate life. I soon see tanner walk off somewhere to the right but I don't think much of it cause of all people, he's the main one that keeps moving around. "y/n, you good?" Isaac asks me as he sees me being quiet, "I'm straight, I'm Gucci, I'm pure, I'm at my finest right now, if you ask me how good I am right now id tell you I'm good" I say rambling and mumbling on words, "what?!?!" Larry says while laughing at how drained I am right now. "Y/n you can not fall asleep right now! I'm not ready! I'm not there yet!" Yumi yells at me knowing that if I fall asleep then he's gonna want to leave the call. "Woah who said I was falling asleep, did u not just hear how fucking fresh I am right now" I say no longer mumbling, "where's tanner?" Isaac asks, "I think he went to the bathroom I don't know" Larry answers Isaac's question and we continue talking about how Isaac's dad was practically giving us a little nap break, "no cause I remember when I got eliminated the first time, I was going to play it off as a joke" Larry says while trying to keep himself awake, "dude I remember that, I felt so bad but it was so funny" I say while laughing a little. "It's like when you're in class and your feet fall" Yumi says as he acts as if he fell over but got woken up in class, "exactly like that then you gotta check to see what everyone else is doing and they're all reading" I say while laughing starting to get a little more energized. "Is tanner still in the bathroom?" Isaac asks but no one really answers him but instead Yumi makes a new conversation about his PC being bipolar or something.

We then all hear a phone ring and we go quiet, "who are you calling?" I asked the question that Larry and Yumi wanted to ask, "are y'all 100% sure that tanners in the bathroom?" Isaac asks while being a little bit suspicious. "I heard him say he was going to the bathroom". "I didn't hear him say he was going to the bathroom" Yumi and Larry say almost at the same time, "when tanner says he's going to the bathroom, we don't know" laughing a little Knowing that tanner would do something dumb like that. "Imma head downstairs to get a bowl of cereal, you want me to check in tanners room?" I ask Isaac, "yea can you do that please thank you" Isaac responds to me and I head out of my room. I walk into tanners room and although it's dark I can still see the big dark figure laying on tanners bed that so happens to be tanner himself, I let out a quiet giggle and I walk over to his PC. I bring his mic close to my mouth "he's laying on his bed playing angry birds" I say very quietly and I let out a breathy laugh, I then go to tanners bed and I take a picture, after the picture I take his phone and show Yumi and tanner that I have his phone, "he's knocked out cold, he's dead asleep, he's out dude" I say before having tanner leave the call.

I got my bowl of cereal and I walked back into my room to still hear Yumi, Larry, and Isaac talking about tanners elimination, "wait y/n did you take a picture?" Isaac asks me, "oh yeah let me send it to y'all" I say while laughing a little while still remembering how tanner looked while asleep. "No yea I walk in there and he's fucking asleep, I didn't get a good picture of it tho but he only has 2 stars on every level" I say to the people that are still left in the call, "wait what I thought you get 3 stars automatically if you complete the level" Yumi says a little shocked on how much of a noob tanner is at angry birds. "Alright new challenge y/n, we listen to lullaby music while watching the herds till we fall asleep" Larry says while chuckling, "we get tucked in, a binky, and a warm glass of milk" Yumi butts in, "alright I'm down" I say while being sleep deprived.

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LARRY'S ELIMINATION:

I'm already sleep deprived and at this point I'm finding everything funny for some reason and it doesn't make it better when Yumi won't stop talking about something dumb. "What's up with my lighting? What are you talking about? Are you jealous? Are you jealous cause you're poor? Oh you're not gonna get the 50k to help you buy it cause you're poor and you're gonna just stay poor" Yumi rambling to Larry about his lighting and I keep just keeping laughing at absolutely nothing, "oh yeah well you're so rich-" Larry cuts himself off from laughing, "y/n what are you laughing about?!!?" Larry asks while also laughing at me laughing about nothing. "Dude they're both at their breaking point" Isaac says while watching both Larry and I laugh non stop, "they're both losing it" Yumi adds on to what Isaac said.

Isaac then starts asking me why girls like thongs, "dude i don't know I haven't worn those in like ages" I say while calming down from laughing, "she hasn't worn a thong since 100 B.C" Larry says while laughing which caused me to laugh again. "No dude they just feel it different then what we feel" Yumi says but then quickly adds on how Isaac is gay for even thinking that, "no for real tho I think it has something to do with preventing less sweat and not to show our pantie lines" I say while still laughing a little, "oh no yea that too, girls don't like to show their pantie lines, yea I said that" Yumi says..."You did not say anything close to that" Isaac says. Isaac and Yumi start talking about whatever and I just kept zoning out to the point that I was falling asleep so I sat up straight and tried butting into their conversation to hopefully wake me up. "Isaac wake Larry up right now. There's no way he's sleeping, start the count down dude wake him up" Yumi says to Isaac while Isaac tries asking Larry what cuervo meant and he got no response. "No Larry better not be asleep I swear to god-" I say but got cut off by Isaac "wait wait okay 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1,0" Isaac counts down in a very unenthusiastic way. "KICK HIM! KICK HIM NOW!" Yumi yells at Isaac, who still gave Larry more time to wake up just in case he was trolling, "No dude they got Larry" I say fake crying as if he died. Larry then joins back after Yumi finishes his little celebration for being apart of the last 2, "dude what the fuck happened" I say to Larry, "no here's the thing- oh my God my heart is fucking beating fast!" Larry says and then he explains how him getting eliminated felt unreal and that he's not gonna be a sore loser about it which caused Yumi to compliment Larry for being a good teammate. "Bye Larry cheer for me in your dreams, imma win this for you" I say to Larry before Larry jokingly blows a girly kiss and wave at his camera then leaving.

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THE FINAL 2:

It was just me, Yumi, and Isaac and we were both over it. My strategy simply didn't work but instead back fired at me. I was supposed to talk and argue with everyone so I can stay awake but instead I ended up zoning out almost halfway through which caused me to become even sleepier. "Isaac if you paid me $5000 right now, I'll leave" I say as I'm trying to leave the call with atleast a little bit of money, "no absolutely not" Isaac says while being completely over everything going on, "okay how about $5,000.50¢?" I say still trying to leave the call with just a little bit of money, "ooo you know what that's a good deal I would take it" Yumi agrees with me, "what no, you guys do realize that I have to give the winner 50k while also paying the loser 5k?" Isaac says trying to reason with me and Yumi but we still don't seem to get it and Isaac just gets frustrated.

"on the scale from 1-10 how sleepy are you Yumi?" Isaac asks Yumi so that he too can stay awake, "I would say, I would say, I would say, I don't know, id probably say-". "DUDE WHATS YOUR SCALE AT RIGHT NOW??!!" I scream at Yumi cause him not comprehending is causing me to not comprehend either. "I don't know id say I'm in another planet but I'm not sleepy, like I'm in another planet that higher and better than y'all's planet" Yumi says and it goes silent, "...imma be honest with you, for someone that says they on another planet, you don't look like you're on another planet right now?" I say while laughing a little which caused Yumi to laugh, "no cause y/n laughs at her own jokes" Yumi says while laughing, "honestly if y/n could date herself she would, wouldn't you y/n?" Isaac asks "if I could fuck myself I would trust me" I say without a single thought in my brain and all Isaac and Yumi did was laugh.

"okay one of y'all has to be on the verge to quit and I'm taking a bet that it's y/n" Isaac says in hopes of riling y/n up so she can stay awake, "how'd you know, Isaac's so smart, you're a smart guy Isaac" I say in a sarcastic tone cause I am on the verge of quiting, "Isaac you know y/n got invited to a Christmas party yesterday" Yumi says since isaac conversation plan didn't work out, "YEAHHHHHH" i say in a very cheer tone, "you're going for the food aren't you?" Isaac says, "yeah" I say back to my calm self while looking at my phone and Yumi laughs.

I'm looking at my phone and my mouth literally hangs open and my head starts feeling like 50 pounds so I nod off for a little bit since Yumi and Isaac are talking so a couple seconds of sleep wouldn't hurt. I feel relaxed, I feel better, I feel fresh, I feel happy, I feel...wait...why's everything quiet? I open my eyes to see my PC on the general chat and my heart completely falls to my ass. I panic and I see that Isaac and Yumi are still in the call so I quickly join. "Y/N WHAT HAPPENED?!!??" Isaac screams in my ear and I'm still shocked like I don't even know what's going on, "dude I swear I wasn't even asleep!" I say as I have a shocked face the whole time and no longer feeling sleepy, "I was actually rooting for you y/n, I'm so disappointed" Isaac says while Yumi cheers and laughs. "IM JUST AS SHOCKED AS YOU ISAAC WHAT THE FUCKKK" I say also disappointed in myself cause I came so far and I never won any of the LTLVC, I thought this year was also going to be my year. Yumi and I have calmed down but Yumi is still chatty and hyped up at the fact that he won $50,000, "Isaac...am I still gonna get the $5,000.50¢?" I ask politely, "no get the fuck out the call, congrats on winning Yumi, imma go to sleep leave me alone" Isaac says as he disconnects me and Yumi and I headed to sleep Knowing that I could've won half a million.

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[bungiri]

FINALLY got around to doing a slight redesign for wren and figuring out how i wanna draw her SO HERE SHE IS !!!

posted some close ups way under the cut bc i didn't realize how small my handwriting is IM SORRY

if u don't know her yet here's my stardew valley expanded based farmer oc her name is wren <3 she's a half witch who isn't very good at magic, but is more capable than people tend to think.

EDIT: ok i still get likes on this as of the day i’m editing this post so i thought i’d mention that this is outdated asfk. if ur at all interested in seeing wren’s new intro page u can find it here although it’s not as detailed as this one is

the only person who consistently believes in her and has never doubted her is her father, alejandro, who is an experienced adventurer based in pelican town. he is well known in various guilds (specifically the castle village guild) for not only his physical strength and mastery of the sword, but his optimism and abilities as a natural born leader. since he's a member of the guild in pelican town, he'd often bring wren to town since she was a little girl all the way to the present day.

on the other side, wren's mother, dolores, is much more critical of her and has had high expectations of her since childhood. she expects wren to practice her magic by the book and strive for perfection. protective and often overbearing, dolores wants wren to remain in their small town without consideration for her daughter's desires. the two of them bond over their love of fashion and dolores often spends a lot of time making clothing and accessories for wren to wear by hand.

as much as i want to make this an infodump about her Lore, i don't wanna give away too much bc i wanna do vague art about it first !!! she has 2 very good reasons for running away to the farm and is quickly overwhelmed as she tries to adjust to her new life and make money. she isn't gonna quit though because she doesn't wanna have to do the Walk Of Shame back home and admit to anyone that she couldn't do it. thankfully some of the townspeople (marnie, marlon, pierre, gus, linus) are familiar with her and help her out in her first few weeks.

i don't have a clue what isaac's backstory will be like but the idea that he and wren are childhood enemies is drilled into my brain LMAO. they haven't set aside that childhood beef because when they reunite as adults they're still snarky and hostile towards each other. isaac thinks she's a spoiled nepo baby who has only gotten accepted into the pelican town guild + is being considered for castle village entry because her dad is so cherished in the scene and he thinks they can't outright say no to her. he also believes that she's not cut out for Adventurer Life™️ and that she should just stick to farming and failing at magic or whatever it is she does. wren can also be very reckless (she gets it from alejandro) which isaac believes can possibly put not only herself but other people in danger (Valid Point). wren is stubborn though and is sick of people doubting her. isaac has never been particularly nice to her in the first place so why should she listen to him fr !!! however things happen and they eventually smooch so ?!?!?? enemies to lovers.

idk what Else to add pls do ask questions if u want,, i'll definitely be doing more art of her soon

CLOSE UPS !!! not very detailed thoughts just some notes hopefully u can read it

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fenglian coded songs!

because i'm actually so ill about them </3 plus this gives flashbacks to those english assignments in high school where you'd choose songs based on a piece of literature and explain ur choices... wait u didnt. u didnt do that. uh. moving along.

time to expose my mildly terrible music taste HSDGFH

boy by isaac dunbar!

"if only we were right, seasoned with time" god. they were right person, wrong time vibes genuinely it makes me so insane to think about. i love hualian dearly, ofc, but fenglian has such a special place in my heart because just think about everything they shared and everything they did and everything feng xin sacrificed for xie lian that xl was too young and too hurt to see

"if i were homesick, you're remedy-wired / picking up herbs in the morning time / i'd wait for something more" hello? already heavy on the pining vibes, plus i love the fenglian "you are my home" vibes... sobs... fx would take care of xl to the end

tell her by bruno major!

just like. listen to it as a love letter from xl to fx...

"still she will come back around / nothing could shake her / repeat or replace her / i've finally figured that out", xl realizing how much he always needed fx, xl realizing that he was perfectly loyal but xl was too scared

"tell her she's more than i dreamed i would find / she's always there in the back of my mind / if you should see her, ask her if we'll work it out" fx was literally so perfect you don't understand dies loudly... and he definitely left a lasting impact on xl forever

leaving the last two lines for of the song as a surprise if you haven't heard it yet and you decided to give it a listen, i promise it'll be great :]

lover's rock by tv girl!

"because love can burn like a cigarette / and leave you with nothing" i have. no more to say. just. that's everything i have to say about this i could talk sm more but that's what i want to leave it at

dear my all by mingginyu!

this one's in korean, so allow me to be your terrible translator (genuinely my korean skills are so bad nobody ever taught me so let's see if i can cook) (alternatively, use google translate)

"you can tell me everything, all your secrets / i'll never hurt you again" xl to fx, telling him that he can lean on him and promising o be better this time <3

"you're allowed to rest, you've been running for so long / it's okay to blame the things that have hurt you" fx to xl, telling him that's entitled to peace and happiness after everything he's been through

i tried google translating some of this because i didn't know if mine made sense but aughhh i can't explain it but the translations on google are all... awkward? i can't tell if it's just the context of the way my family speaks korean and the way i've come to understand the use of certain words but either way i'll leave it at that SDHFGJSD

late again by peter manos!

"yesterday came and went / you are my closest friend / i'll never understand / don't want you to see me cry / even though i've seen you cry" they truly were. pretty good friends despite the way their relationship formed. they would've had a much better relationship if they weren't prince and servant but whatever that's still a trope HSDGF so we take that W. they both seem like they'd struggle a bit to be vulnerable with each other but slowly grow more comfortable and that makes me so soft

"i wanna tell you everything is alright / begging you to tell me everything is alright" this one makes me lose it. the first one gives xl vibes (wanting to tell fx that he's okay and he's sorry and things worked out okay) and the second is fx vibes (wanting to know that xl is okay, regretting leaving even though xl told him to leave, wanting to know he's safe)

untitled v.2 by cavetown!

i'm literally never gonna be free from cavetown getting associated with media i'm into am i

"i know my hands aren't warm enough to hold your cold, cold heart" fx feeling like a failure when it came to being able to save xl from The Horrors

"and i know my bones aren't strong enough to keep me from falling apart" both of them fr, they were going through it like crazy. they were constantly on the brink of collapse. someone send some help

"and did you know that every night i play your favourite songs on repeat? it helps me sleep" i think. when they were separated for so many years, they kept reminders of the other around with them. for a little bit of bittersweet comfort

back to you by flower face!

"don't fight back / don't look at me like that / don't forget I'll never quite forgive you / but i'll pretend to" okay but xl realistically thinks nobody will ever forgive him. he would eternally believe that fx holds things against him aughguhaguuhguh angst has me in a chokeholdd

"how will I release you now? / how can I forgive myself when I'm still in love with you?" yeah. pining and separted fenglian keeps me up at night can u tell lmao

"and it's always back to you again / always back to you, my friend" because it really is always back to them! time and time again it's back to them, the two of them together again in differently painful situations and it makes me die inside

i am a world class yapper, please forgive me </3 i also went hard on the angst i just i love my ships a lil angsty (<- writes fluff 80% of the time)

also i didn't forget abt the role jian lan played in fx's life during the time when xl was banished and struggling! this is just focused on only xl and fx's relationship during those times. besides, a lot of signs indicate that fx loved them both dearly, and it hurt a lot to lose them both.

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hi pls tell me literally anything abt ur vampire story thank u. mwah

HEHEHEHE THANK U FOR ENABLING ME i have a lot to say but i'll try to keep it as brief as i can (spoiler: i failed)

so the story is still unnamed for now but it's about a universe that's very similar to ours but vampires exist :] the original vampires are descendants of the fae but those aren't around anymore, nowadays the only vampires are the ones that used to be human but got turned at some point in their lives. however, their fae ancestry still plays an active part in their turning and it grants them supernatural abilities

vampires are different all over the world, influenced by diet, environmental parameters, and genetics. this is how bloodlines are created; different classifications of vampires that sort them based on their abilities and physical appearance, which are altered by their bloodline. if you're gonna be nitpicky you could say that there's hundreds if not thousands of different bloodlines to be found all over the world, but generally vampires stick to a select amount of easily identifiable bloodlines where slight variations in abilities are allowed to make it easier to categorize them. i haven't figured out all the bloodlines yet but i'll make a separate post about that one day when i do :]

generally speaking bloodlines mean very little other than for classification; some are very big, others are smaller, but they're not really "families" or close knit communities with some exceptions here and there (isaac's bloodline for example is very rare because it's hard for them to successfully turn other people; this causes them to be a close knit community because they have to stick together if they want their bloodline to survive). they do have different weaknesses and some are even killed by different things than others, which is why the classification system is important for mainly vampire hunters; but as a general rule of thumb vampires are killed by either a hardwooden stake through their heart or an explosive silver bullet directly to the brain

humans are mostly aware of vampires, as in governments are painfully aware of it and take different measures all over the world to either keep the rest of the country in the dark about it or try to make life as easy as possible for all parties involved. generally speaking, no country is actively hostile toward vampires and it's not really a shock to find out that vampires are in fact real. it's kind of a special mix of awareness and also just not really caring all that much, and it's theorized that the fae ancestry of vampires has an influence on this

in the united states specifically, most people know about the existence of vampires and just let them live unless they become a problem. vampires can become a problem in several ways; most of these problems are centered around the feral sense of vampires, which kicks in when they're starving, sick, or have become withered, which is a permanent state of being feral. while in this state, they will drain their victims of blood almost entirely and they can go on for hours if not days; and in some cases, the vampire will be struck with their "urge", and instead of killing people they end up turning all their victims until their urge is sated

for this, vampires have two sets of fangs; their regular puncture fangs, which are their normal fangs that can extend a little bit to make them sharper and perfect for drawing and drinking blood; and their venomous fangs, which extend from their gums and only show when the vampire wants to turn a human. the venomous fangs are painful to extend and retract (like a werewolf transformation; but werewolves don't exist in this universe), and are worth significantly more money than puncture fangs for vampire hunters looking to sell trophies of their kills

vampires can also become a problem when they create a nest somewhere. this nest can spread disease under humans like wildfire which is why most nests in densely populated areas are destroyed as quick as possible. vampire spawns from a nest (human victims that get taken into the nest and are turned by the influence of the disease rather than through bite) also carry this disease and are generally very unpredictable with controlling their feral sense, which is why they usually don't live very long either

vampires generally live in harmony with human beings. of course there's differences between smaller towns and bigger cities, but generally speaking vampires don't drain their victims entirely and only drink as much blood as necessary to feed without killing or turning, making them a lot less of a problem than if they would kill or turn every single one of their victims. there's even a balance between vampires and vampire hunters; some vampires are even hunters themselves, and there's plenty of vampires who lend their services to vampire hunters in need of assistance with a nest or a withered vampire. these kind of threats are just as dangerous for regular vampires as they are for humans, which is why mutual trust and aid is required to maintain balance in the world

because of this, vampires (generally in big cities only) live by a code that can be compared to whatever is going on in the john wick universe. a vampire hunter can safely enter any vampire club; they're not seen as a threat until they make themself a threat. many of them have business with the important vampire lords and ladies in town and some even call each other friends, or more. in smaller towns the rules aren't written down and treated as laws such as in the bigger cities, but generally they handle the same kind of structure; a vampire hunter in town that's not there for you specifically should be treated with caution but isn't your enemy, unless they make themself your enemy

the story centers itself around jericho, a big city on the west coast somewhere in the south of oregon near the coast. it's a popular city for vampires since it's one of the only cities in the united states that has actual accommodations for vampires so they don't have to work night shifts and all that, in addition to an actual underground part of town making it easier for them to try and live a normal life. you can compare it to night city a little bit because of its night life and vast amount of bars and clubs except it's with vampires and also not set in the cyberpunk universe; in terms of technology it's more like our world :]

the story currently has four main characters but i'll surely make a bunch more of them further down the line

heavenly rowiński is a famous (and infamous) vampire hunter in the united states who travels around dealing with vampire problems left and right. he's recently shown up in town for unknown reasons and it's causing a bit of chaos in the vampire world; some are excited and curious, others are scared. meanwhile heavenly is hanging out in clubs playing carousel (vampire russian roulette) with vampires and getting his blood or his dick sucked. yeah he's also there with a reason but for now he's just doing that. sorry. he's trans also

isaac is a priest and a vampire who runs a church in jericho. it mostly serves as a shelter for humans and vampires alike, as well as a community center, food bank, and blood bank. he was hunted by heavenly many decades ago but left alive; the two will reunite in the story and heavenly will end up aiding isaac with the blood shortage in town

sun yeong is a vampire who recently moved to jericho. she got turned on an old gig heavenly did in chicago, which only mildly inconvenienced her. nowadays, they help vampire hunters out on gigs and are studying vampires to try and understand how feral sense works and if becoming a withered vampire is the fate of all vampires

thaddeus is a contractor in jericho. he sets vampire hunters up with jobs and has been working with heavenly for years now, thinking of him as an annoying little bastard but in a slightly affectionate but mostly exasperated way. naturally he's not all too happy that the guy is in jericho now but also considering there's problems on the streets he's also happy about it. but also not. but also yes. but also no

[a-deadly-serenade]

nocturne review, ramblings

obvs spoilers for the show down below.

so, i'm gonna be real with y'all; i dont think i would have watched this if not for one of my mutuals spilling the beans about alucard making an appearance 💀 s4 was ok and a fine conclusion to the og castlevania that started this animated franchise, but i dont think i will ever get over the absolute fumble and frankly, insulting way they wrapped up s3. even s4 had its cringe moments, like lenore getting a peaceful sendoff and carmilla getting to kill herself. but, i digress. i was going into nocturne with an already negative mindset and that may have made me more critical of the show. can u blame me though? lmao

i had seen a few clips and screenshots on twitter when they dropped the first 3 eps early and... they only helped solidify my decision to remain skeptical of the staff's writing capabilities. shit was already a little hazy and wishy-washy with their portrayal of isaac in s2 and how they treated hector thruought the show (not to mention the two asian-coded characters in s3). let's just say, the netflix castlevania team doesnt have the greatest track record when it comes to writing poc characters. so, when i saw screengrabs just outright stating that this show was going to deal with historically accurate racism? hm.

obvs as a white woman, i can only go so far on this criticism of the writing, but i dont really understand why they needed to include this? the comparisons and allegory of freedom from indentured servitude to the french revolution, was very weak and bare bones at best. you can keep the motif of the church existing on exploitation and blood of the people-- a whole cross section of the world was involved in the crusades, which is the priests & his entourages whole deal--but, why couldnt annette just be a witch? why did this "historical accuracy" need to get involved with the time period? bcuz the french revolution was name dropped? your main villain is a hungarian countess from the 16th century that made a pact with an EGYPTIAN goddess to become all powerful. like.

and also..... why the FUCK are vampires getting involved with the intercontinental slave trade bro??? 😭 theyre immortal beings that have seen the rise and fall of empires and can do whatever tf they want and go wherever tf they want and they choose to..... own a plantation? give af abut the economy? with selling goods??? okkkkk. also, this line of dialogue is insane to me:

you cant have a central theme of your story be standing up against the oppressors and then make said oppressors fantastical monsters. what kills me is that they've delved into the monstrosity of humanity in s1 and s2, and yet, when you bring in one of the most monstrous things humanity has ever done in its history for the sake of historical accuracy, you turn the very perpetrators into something mythical, and evil that the common folk had no chance of ever defeating even if they tried. its just overall, very messy and they certainly were not the creative team to try and tackle something like this.

speaking of, the writing, again, it definitely left something to be desired. there are moments that are good, don't get me wrong. episode 6 is a particular favorite of mine, shining through with its wonderful character moments b/w annette's soul searching with her ancestors, richter and juste's heart to heart, and olrox's confessions to mizrak. tera's sacrifice to ensure maria's safety is also really well done, as well as maria's final confrontation with her father in the church. however, these were fewer and farther between than i would have liked. a lot of the scenes that played out just fine, were ultimately sullied by this series' incessant need to insert swearing into every other sentence. its something that bothered me nearing the end of s4 especially, and i've just grown tired of it. it honestly takes me out of the scene to constantly hear fuck thrown out every 2 seconds for literally... no reason. i promise y'all can write meaningful and impactful dialogue without having your characters swear lmao

the writing itself is what unfortunately makes the first half of the show kind of drag a bit. the story doesn't really know what it wants to do. none of these new characters are really given time to breathe and be really fleshed out, bcuz every time things settle down and we're given the chance to learn more about their motivations, its like they're almost scared they'll lose your attention and any down time is immediately followed up with an intense action sequence. which, dont get me wrong, if theres one thing they dont disappoint with--its the action. but, i dont think that was ever up for debate to begin with. however, i believe that the characters really suffer bcuz of this. if you've never played the games, which, i believe most people tuning in to watch these series never have, you would have no idea who maria or richter are, and, i really don't think they were given enough time to be fleshed out. half the time, richter's dialogue just ends up being naive, walmart trevor belmont sarcastic one-liners and poor maria ping-pongs b/w the blandest, generic, wonderbread toutings of 'revolution' or calling richter a dick, wanker, or anything in b/w. episode 6, one of the better episodes as mentioned previously, is where we really get to see some actual growth around richter especially. there were moments where his trauma could have been further explored earlier, but they kind of got shoved to the wayside in favor of dragging out the interworking bw all the villains. which.....

if i'm gonna talk about the villains. my initial thoughts were that nocturne was going to be a one-and-done, standalone series with its own self contained story that would be wrapped up in these 8 episodes. i was wrong. and i really dont know how they're going to keep this story going. erzsebet is already a very weak and uninteresting and, honestly, confusing ? villain? for more than half of the series, she's talked about as the mysterious and all powerful Messiah and theyre gathering all these sacrifices for her to bring her back and create an army of night creatures. why is she considered powerful? bcause she made a pact with Sekhmet, an egyptian goddess. why did she do this? who knows! why does she have such a devoted cult of loyal followers when she hasnt done anything but kill a lot of people? again, who knows. why did maria's father think that a VAMPIRE would keep him in cahoots during this whole plan and not immediately fuck him over once she got what she wanted...? who fucking knows. olrox is the most interesting of the villains but even he isnt fully explored. the motivations are just not really explained very well and the buildup to erzsebet's arrival was so sudden that i literally thought i missed an entire episode. one minute, shes hiding in the shadows and the next ? waltzing in on a golden chariot and being heralded as the people's savior?? so damn messy and honestly? i really could not have cared less about her. which is insane to say, bcuz shes literally based off of a real countess who's case and life were a special interest of mine. i just... why an EGYPTIAN goddess?? shes from HUNGARY. were there no goddesses in europe to pull from she could have made a pact with? idk man it just makes no damn sense.

i am definitely more than a little peeved that this wasn't even the complete story, bcuz they did such a poor job establishing erzsebet as a villain, that i really dont give af what crazy shit they come up with to extend the story. you show her being a big badass in the very last episode. ok, you as an audience member, are immediately shown why dracula is so feared within the first 10 minutes of the first episode. and all of that wasnt even HIM fighting!!! the worst thing i've seen miss countess bathory do over here is summon a crazy orb and turn into a furry. like, where is the story going to go from here? they fight tera? save edouard and have a night creature alliance? make maria or alucard (yes, i'll get to him) summon the portal again? which btw... machine from HELL? im not even gonna touch that can of worms. somehow bring olrox back to.....? help kill bathory? idfk

and man...... i was hoping against hope that when i found out alucard was going to make an appearance, that it was just going to be some neat little cameo at the v end of the series after the main story had concluded. a little nod, a little treat to the audience that the next series would be encompassing the events of symphony of the night. maybe we'd even get a depiction of maria and richter when theyre older, i dont know, anything but throwing him in there as an overpowered hail mary to save the day. we couldnt just let these new characters figure it out and triumph in their own way? we had to drag him into this, now? i cant even tell you how disappointed i was when i saw that sword pierce drolta. ME! the resident alucard fan since i was like mf elementary school!!! ugh.

i think this is it for me and netflix castlevania lmao im a grumpy old man and miss when it was mainly fun easter eggs to the games, like how they brought in juste or how olrox turns into a big green monster and has an attack that sends flying skulls your way, or the REMIX of RICHTER'S THEME!!! but its just gotten so silly and the writing hasnt gotten any better..... from now on, im going to simply stick to the games that made me fall in love with this series in the first place & let this be the last time i ever feel the need to bitch about new 'netflixvania' content.

[skittidyne]

hi skitty!! i wanted to ask how is necromancy book 2 going? i loooove love loved the first book and im excited to read the second (whenever its out, so happy to wait however long it takes u)!! anything u can share about it?

hello my beautiful anon, i love you especially

let's do bullet points! that's how i usually live my life here

the first draft* is not completed. i'm not sure it's even half done.

*large parts of it are well out of the first draft territory due to how fucked up the process of book 1 was and i never want to go through it again

i still don't have a title. it'll prob be the last thing to get finalized hhhhhhhh

no i don't know why i didn't title the thing "how 2" either

i have not worked on it actively for several months (i MOVED did you know) but for some reason viv and dana are my nighttime thoughts lately. i should harness this.

i still vaguely hope to have it out later this year.

the 75k here is 15 chapters and none of the interstitials written, since i also write those last to make them Appropriate

there's another 20.8k in deleted/need heavily edited/moved piles elsewhere in the manuscript. all of this wiggling around in a BIG part of why i don't wanna actively work on it >C

now for the actual fun bullet points!

walker is finally present in-story and in isaac's plot

thomas is full rev in his own subplot and characters (he's about to become a single father while trying desperately to woo a not-so-silver fox)

the mark & viv relationship is very painful

the viv/dana is EVEN GAYER. but. dana has nightmares. :c i'm sure this will be fine tho

chris is gonna take two levels in badass in this book and it's not even close to her final form

emil only gets one level in badass. i don't think he gets That Spell in this book. i'm not sure we can handle him having That Spell in too many books.

sam remains the goodest bean even as he peels back the curtain on isaac's motivations and finds himself agreeing with most of them.

isaac begins his villain domestication arc because the universe just wants him to be social. unfortunately, it doesn't go extremely well. the power of friendship can't fix everything!

i don't have a nosebleed count right now but obviously there should be more

do you like hammond and rory pain? you're in luck! they get bumped up a couple levels in plot relevance after their field trip to the dreamlands last book. and it's all pain! gay pain! congrats on unlocking this for them.

we'll finally meet caoimhe in person. not sure about her husband just yet. still minor but i think she and dante are gonna be the minor characters i fall horribly in love with for this project...

we'll also get to meet [REDACTED]! (hint: the book ends in a certain warehouse.) i'm very very excited. they get to be sporadically present until the big reveal at the climax, too!

other characters i'm excited about: a certain invisible stalker, who gets bumped up in appearance order for thomas' subplot. that character is one of the most changed in role and personality and i'm excited for her!

i have too many characters and i will not apologize for this. however, i will not be writing any novels with such a huge cast ever again. someone please save me via buying my books

i should work on this this weekend, hmm... someone please remind me of this in 24 hours

[ace-hell]

Ok so i started castlevania a few days ago and here are my thoughts so far:

-gruesome, more than i expected, but its fine

- gosh i love trevor

-i absolutely LOVE trevor, sypha and alucards friendship. Priceless, there's bickering but not in a childish way its nice to see it

-alucard is a bebi

-hector is super autistic coded and he a bebi too i liek him

-it was understandable from the moment carmilla came in that she'd betray Dracula and all but SHE HIT HECTOR! AND THE WAY SHE TREATS HIM? that bitch

-draculas last moments understanding he is trying to kill his son and accepting his death was touching. I think he wanted to hug alucard one last time before trevor cut off his head

-it still fucks my brain how brainwashed and stupid people can be over an ideology and belief and when you understand its an ADULT? idk it still shocks me that the church actually treated people like that. Horrible

-i know i won't get it but im still having hopes in everything i see for even a small jewish representation

-hector gonna die isn't he right?

-can't get over the fact that deaculas last name is tepes(tepesh) which sounds like tipesh in hebrew and it means stupid. Lmfao for me his name is "vlad dracula stupid"

-sypha is a super cool character, stronk magician smart woman

- kinda wanted to see more of godbrand but eh i don't feel like i missed something

-ALUCADS LIL DOLLS OF TREVOR AND SYPHA!!! HOW HE MIMICS THEM!!! absolute bebi

-plz save hector #justiceforhector (i know he helped the genocide of humanity but how can you stay mad at him huh?)

That's it for now, started S3 let's see how it gets even more fucked up

Update:

-GOSH i fucking LOVE trevor hehe

-alucard is still a bebi yes yes

- SUMI AND TAKA???? SO ??? BEAUTIFUL???? I-wow

-why everyone whispering

-have confused feelings about lenore, she is a very cool, pretty and interesting character but i feel like she'll kill my baby hector

-btw hector is a sub confirmed

-hectors nudity was NOT something i was prepared for, much less than the gore

-istg isaac and that captain were flirting at one point

-the head of the priory is so fucking creepy like yes dude we get it, we see them, put them away. Where did he get all those eyes from. And disgusting as hell.

-"what the fÜCK is a toilet paper" had me dead, my favorite line yet.

- me at the beginning of S3ep9: "wow half of the main characters fight for their lives while the other half are fucking". Me at the end of S3ep9: "oh. Oh, well nevermind. I knew it will come to this"

- i just KNEW lenore will betray hector ay ay ay. For alucard less, but not mid fucking oy vey

Update 0.2:

-im still so mad about the whole ordealwith sumi and taka

-hector?? I have so many things to say and questions to ask. You go girl, ily.

-alucard is STILL a bebi.

- can't imagine his pain by seeing how someone takes rhe soul of your parents and just tortures tgem for their own needs, thinking they are doing something good. Horrible. Poor kid

-trevor????? TREVOR ???? trevor. T R E V O R ???????? TREVOR!!!!!! U CAN'T DIE NOO I LUV U PLZ DON'T DIE

-wow lenore's ending was... Disappointing i gotta say. She just didn't wanna sit in her castle all the time so she just went to the sun to burn.

-trevor is alive!!!! YIPPI !!!

-ain't no fucking way they revived dracula and lisa omg wth

-hector is alive!!! I was wrong about him!!! Good

[altschmerzes]

for that post u reblogged!! Is there a scene you can’t wait to write for a WIP (the same story?) :)

oh boy IS THERE EVER

there's scenes i'm like, beyond jazzed about for all my wips tbh but for same story particularly, man, there's some real good ones (at least i think so) coming down the pipe so lemme just bullet some out real quick. there's too many to narrow it down to just one. so, here we go, list of top scenes i'm PSYCHED to get to in ted lasso mediafic:

one of the things i really enjoyed doing in barn raising (my 2x08 tag) is that every character in the main/secondary team cast had what i called their "spotlight moment" where they got to have a moment individually or in a small group that highlighted them and how they were dealing with and relating to the situation. i am also doing that in same story, for the characters who don't have like, repeated/recurring threads and more extended scenes (like dani and, though his haven't come up yet, sam). some of them have already happened (jan, half of moe's) but a lot of them are still coming up (isaac, colin, thierry, richard, the other bit of moe's) and i actually really love those bits. i love working with some of the more secondary/minor characters, those parts always end up really fun and i develop a lot of thoughts and feelings on characters i may not have otherwise!

we have not seen the last of roy's sister and i'm really looking forward to writing her again. there's i think... three? three more scenes with sarah kent and one in particular where she and jamie chat about the fact that he's been at roy's for a while and she says some things about that to him that puts it in perspective, and that scene is one i've had planned for a while and is an anvil of a conversation. i like writing her a lot, and this talk needs to happen.

jamie's first game back after the attack. what i'll say about that scene is i did manage to get myself choked up working on it already using the baby shark song.

i mentioned that sam's scenes/mini arc has yet to arrive and that's one i'm really looking forward to as well. it's been quietly building off-screen for a while, so to speak, and when it boils over it results in some of my favourite conversations i've drafted. i adore sam and he's been really fun to write, and he's got some valuable stuff to contribute here. i'm a little nervous on how the resolution of some stuff he's working on is gonna play out but i think if i can pull it off it's gonna be great.

about one million other things. i could keep going but i won't, for your sake more than mine XD

[marcoillea]

challenge two - the siblings & sibling adjacent

14 girls have been eliminated. 10 gone after interviews. 4 more after first dates + random interactions. now three weeks into the selection, 21 girls remain. giselle, imène, and solène make the cut.

selection week 4 rolls around, and raquel is turning 21. an important birthday does not mean a ball, but raquel does know how to entertain herself. here is how this challenge will go...

1. séfora and shiv

unsurprisingly, raquel has convinced her brothers of doing something neither of them wanted to do. isaac, of course, is wholeheartedly on board with the idea. the idea is most definitely not a good one, but it will be entertaining for the bday girl at least. your OCs will get pulled into danisaarco's shenanigans for this. we will coordinate with you the details. sneak peek: unrelated to raquel's bday, important people are in the palace for a meeting with the queen. raquel has prepared a scavenger hunt for danisaarco to complete while this meeting is happening. sneaking into rooms they shouldn't will be involved.

2. giselle, imène, and solène

raquel's bday has reminded marco that his siblings are some of the most important, opinionated people in his life. it would be good for them to interact with the selected past being in the same room. this challenge you will have to pick one of the two siblings to rp with. if ester somehow gets really big brain, we could finagle both royal siblings into the interaction, but the requirement will be at least one. raquel or daniel. whoever it is, we can dm to figure out why the encounter happens. as "accidental" as it will be, we are sure those two rarely leave things to chance. the rps don't have to be long, but hopefully this will be interesting. perhaps something your OCs can later bring up with their love interests.

3. yousef, javi, and raúl

u are there to look hot, but if you want, feel free to dm and coordinate any rp u would like with raquel, daniel, or isaac for funsies.

REMINDER: this challenge is still three weeks in OC world. includes the last week of may + first two weeks of june.

you can have side rps with people/romantic interests/royals as needed. the challenge is just something you will want to coordinate into those three weeks of OC time. you have two weeks to rp and post the shenanigans, be it on tumblr or via link on chats. I SEE NOT EVERYONE POSTED LAST CHALLENGE, WHICH IS FINE, BUT WE ALSO WANNA SEE WHAT YALL GOT GOING EVENTUALLY. (1st challenge time has been a bit rough for us, so we won't complain about y'all yet).

this challenge's deadline will be sunday, june 10th at 07:00 PM (PST). if you have any questions, dm us on chats!

happy rping :)

[klutzyroses]

IkeVamp Suitors HCs: Reaction to being S/O's role model

Part 2 Part 3

How would they react to finding out their s/o has wanted to be like them since childhood?

Suitors: Napoleon, Isaac, Dazai, Jean, Vincent

Napoleon

He turns away from Jupiter for a moment, slowly turning to gape at you.

"...Come again?"

When you repeat yourself, more sheepishly this time, he blinks a few times as he stands there with his arm idly extended for Jupiter to perch on.

Well...

He expects this from Sebastian but from his nunuche?

It feels odd but in a good way.

He feels proud that he made an impact on you before even meeting you, and his surprise turns to amusement as he meets your gaze with a teasing smirk.

"Nunuche, why would you want to be me, when you could be you?"

Letting Jupiter fly free, he walks to you and pulls u close by the waist, while he holds your hand, pressing a kiss to the back of it while his jade eyes stare into yours.

"Thanks, cherie, that's cute. But I'd rather have you instead of another me."

Isaac

He wasn't ready for that.

"W...what did you say?!"

He dropped his screwdriver on his desk. That's how shook he is.

What are you supposed to say when your beloved says something like that?

He had no recollection of anyone saying anything like THAT to him.

"Y-Y/N, w...why would you want something as awful as that?

Be like him? Why?

What about him was worth aspiring to be?

When you answer that it's because he's always been your role model, he is lost for words.

"I...well...thank you?"

He doesn't know what else to say so he just hugs you in his arms while pouting a bit, his cheeks flaming with embarrassment and maybe just a bit of joy?

He finds it embarrassing but you are too cute for him to resist.

"That's...nice of you, darling...thank you.

Dazai

Oh. Oh dear...oh my.

He stops mid-writing and looks at you sitting on the futon, from his own position at his desk. Trying to process what you just said.

He's your....role model?

He blinks owlishly.

He appreciates the sentiment, he really does but...he really, REALLY wouldn't want you to be like him.

"Oh dear, I sincerely hope you don't intend to pick up my bad habits, I make for a terrible role model, my sweet~"

He says that jokingly with an airy laugh but he means it.

He loves you the way you are and for you to be like him...would be his biggest fear realized.

Regardless, he beckons you closer and has you sit on his lap, where he cuddles you for being so sweet, unable to resist kissing your forehead.

"You're adorable, Y/N-chan. However, I would much prefer you were you, rather than trying to be me, my love."

Jean

...

What exactly is he supposed to respond?

He isn't sure how to feel about that.

"...Why would you say such a thing..?"

Upon hearing he is your role model since you were a child, he is baffled.

Who in their right mind would want to model themselves after him?

He wouldn't like the idea. Not at all.

You were the light in his life and the last thing he wanted was to dim it by imprinting his darkness on your bright light.

So he takes your hand, interlacing them together as he looks into your eyes with an almost piercing gaze. His grip is tight yet gentle, safe and caring.

"I do not want that. You are far better than I, to have you become someone like me would make me very unhappy, mon amour. It is better for me to say that you are my role model, and you are someone I can only hope to aspire to be someday."

Vincent

He pauses his painting and looks at you over his shoulder.

His expression is basically ❓❓❓

"Me? You want to be like me?"

When you nod, he blushes slightly but smiles brighter than the sun.

He is flattered really. Aren't you so sweet?

He is so happy that he has made an impact through which he can inspire those in the future.

And it means the world to him, coming from you especially.

He can't help but cup your face in his hands and peck your lips lovingly and rub your noses together, laughing sweetly.

"You're such a sweetheart, Y/N! But I think your perfectly fine just being yourself, so please stay the same, alright, scatje?"

🌸

[thebisexualdogdad]

Could u do a teen wolf allison X vampire male reader where the reader is at a lacross game standing next to allison and the lacross ball flies fsst towards her face and with our super vamp reflexes we caught it before it could hit her (think amazing spiderman scene with the basket ball)

Allison Argent x Male!reader

You were new in school and hadn't made a lot of friends yet, Allison Argent however was nice to you from day one. 

You didn't understand the school's obsession with lacrosse but when Allison invited you to go to the game with her and Lydia you couldn't say no. 

What was happening in the game you couldn't say but when the crowd cheered you clapped along to seem interested. 

The referee blew his whistle signaling the start of the next play, Allison's friend Scott had just scored a goal to put the team in the lead with only a few minutes left in the game so tensions were high. 

Suddenly your senses go off and you reach a hand up swiftly catching a ball that had been flying directly at Allison. 

"Woah," she says in shock, as you casually throw the ball back to the field. 

"You okay?" You ask her. 

"Yeah," she nods, "yeah I'm good." 

Scott is on the field staring at you, in just as much disbelief as Allison at your extremely fast reflexes. 

"I'll be right back, I have to go to the restroom… go team," you say, excusing yourself from the stands to collect yourself after the scene you just made. 

"Did you see that?" Allison asks Lydia. 

"Uh yeah he just saved you from getting a black eye," Lydia responds.

"That was unreal, you don't think he could be… supernatural or something do you?" Allison whispers to her.

"If he is then you have a type."

"And what is that supposed to mean?" Allison scoffs.

"Oh please Ali I know you like him, why else would you invite him to come with us tonight," Lydia laughs. 

"Because I know how hard it is to be the new kid in school," she says defensively.

"Yeah sure let's go with that," Lydia chuckles. 

After the game Allison and Lydia confront you in the parking lot while they wait for Scott, Isaac and Stiles to go out and celebrate their win. 

"So are you a werewolf Y/N?" Lydia asks bluntly. 

"I'm sorry?" You say surprised. 

"There is no way a normal person could catch that ball like you did," she goes on. 

"What Lydia is trying to say is we know that not everyone at this school is… human… so... are you?" Allison asks. 

"I'm not a werewolf," you assure them and they both sigh in relief, "I'm a vampire." 

"Oh great, another thing we have to worry about," Lydia groans. 

"Your friends Scott and Isaac are werewolves aren't they? I could smell it on them, I'm actually here because I heard Deucalion was in town with his group of deranged mutts looking for the true alpha," you tell them.

"How do you know about Deucalion?" Allison asks. 

"Because six months ago he killed my entire coven and I'm here to get them justice." 

[lesbicosmos]

heartstopper episode 5 thoughts

-this is why me and my friends don't play monopoly, it would end in chaos. also it's boring.

-elle is so goddamn pretty in this scene i am so in love with her oh my

-slightly unrelated but i need charlie's owl mug like rn

-honestly the amount these two flirt in form, how nobody else figured it out i have no clue. guys ur meant to be being subtle 😭

-tao's comebacks >>>

-"do you like this girl" "well...her dog died." HIS MUMS FACE IS TOO FUNNY OLIVIA COLMAN I LOVE YOU

-like there was ever any doubt who nick would choose between charlie and imogen

-isaac casually reading radio silence like this isn't giving me an existential crisis over whether time travel exists in this universe bc that book literally mentions nick and charlie and is set like 3 years in the future

-once again, YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE BEING SUBTLE GUYS IF U WANT NO ONE TO KNOW STOP GIVING EACH OTHER HEART EYES IN PUBLIC 😭

-**insert tao looking tiny in the doorway in the bathroom scene in the comic**

-also moment of appreciation for elle's outfit, her style is everything and i'm in love with her (yes im gonna bring up that every time i mention her, i'm in love.)

-nick looks legitimately terrified of tao and i don't blame him (also the bloopers of this scene are <3333)

-i need to know the context for why charlie's scared of the dance machine.

-nick apologising and explaining the imogen situation and charlie completely understanding just shows how much they care about each other and how much they communicate. nick could not be less like ben if he tried

-the way nick says he didn't have time to go out and buy anything yet still had time to put so much care into that frame and he definitely panicked over whether he chose the right photo or put the stickers in the right place. this mf just wanted to be a disaster romantic and i love him for it

-subtle detail i noticed: the way nick's hand shakes slightly when he moves it to the back of charlie's neck when they kiss, he's so nervous about kissing him in public but also really wants to do it

-has/will nick ever beat charlie at mario kart? probably not

-that moment between tao and elle and the way she looks at him i love them so much

-i love the scene between nick and imogen, i really want them to be best friends in season 2. she's so understanding even if she doesn't fully understand exactly what nick's going through, and the way she doesn't pry or continue to try and get him to date her, she just accepts it and moves on. also nick was so brave for talking to imogen about it in general. i also love how she makes a joke out of it when they're with harry and doesn't say why they actually didn't go out because she knew harry would make fun and ask questions. just ... imogen heaney <333

-i do have to say im kinda mad about i want to be with you by chloe moriondo being played at the end of this episode after the nick and imogen scene because it's such a nick/charlie song in the comics, hoping it gets reused in later seasons in one of their scenes

[clumsyclifford]

Hello bella my love <3 dw I saw nothing. Ahh I feel like a little kid at a candy shop I want a little bit of everything! but in the interest of making this game functional please tell me about "theo vs liam in the great quest for morality: kitchen edition" bc it has bella written All Over It, with a small side of frat cake? Ok good night I love you!

hfjglmdkj hello team i love u so much and per our discussion i will tell you about the brain is a funny place wip instead of thiam kitchen edition. and i will give you a frat cake briefing as well. i feel like im reading off the discussion topics for a meeting we're about to have. fdlhkgsmfdj okay let's get started im going to put a cut because this is kind of lengthy otherwise

ask me about my WIPs

so! oh the brain is a funny place OBLIIIIIVIIIIIOOOOON does not actually have anything to do with diet soda society. that was just the song i had stuck in my head when i originally started this doc and started writing the fic, so when i went to close the doc i needed to give it a title. but i have a sort of superstitious thing about doc titles, where when i start a fic but don't totally know where it's going or if i'll finish it yet, i feel like giving it a proper real title is like dooming it to never be finished. so i try to give my WIP docs very non-title titles (as i'm sure you saw) so i don't jinx myself into never finishing them. so anyway. that's the explanation of the TITLE of that doc.

as for the CONTENTS of the doc. well as you know it's a teen wolf fic, specifically a stydia fic. quelle surprise, i know. it's a 5+1 (quelle surprise again), and it centers around the idea that stiles actually already knows lydia's in love with him, and has known for quite some time. so the concept is like, five times a werewolf tries to tell stiles how lydia feels, and the one time lydia tells him. but also it's like, five times stiles already knew, and the one time lydia also knew. i was very inspired by the iconic exchange in the 6a finale where she goes "i didn't say [i love you] back" and he says "you don't have to" it just really made me think like.......he knew, yknow? like he didn't need her to outright say it in order for him to know it, he just knew anyway. and i guess it's probably a stretch to say he knew the whole time, starting from just after 3a, but this is fanfiction and i do what i want. plus, like. stiles is a very very astute guy, AND he's been in love with lydia for most of his life, which means he's probably been actively searching for signs that she likes him back, so you would think that the second she starts exhibiting those signs, he would pick up on them.

anyway. the reason it's five werewolves is because they can smell emotions (chemosignals) and the idea is that basically everyone knows before lydia (bc in 6a they make it pretty clear that she never really knew she loved him until after The Plot Of 6A happened. i don't know if i should actually spoil it for you. whatever). i have all six sections of this planned out at the minimum but only two of them are written so here's a snippet of the one with isaac because i fucking love isaac:

“You don’t seem surprised,” Isaac says. “That she loves you.”

Stiles shrugs. “I know her,” he says simply. “I pay attention.”

“Then do something about it, genius.”

“Nah,” says Stiles, shaking his head, “I took my shot sophomore year. If she wants something to happen, it’s her turn to make a move, and she won’t do that.” 

“How do you know?”

Stiles lifts a shoulder. “Like I said. I know her.”

so that's that one. i'm very excited to eventually finish it.

as for frat cake!!!! frat cake frat cake frat cake aka the frat cake fic that i will hopefully (god-willing) one day finish. i've talked about it before, here. i actually feel like i've talked about it more than just that one time but i cannot for the life of me find where OH I FOUND IT okay there's also further discussion of it here. essentially it is a frat cake au. here is a snippet, for your enjoyment.

“The drinks are not bad,” Luke agrees. He lifts the bottle and takes a swig, then offers it to Calum. “Want some?”

“I’m good,” Calum says, lifting his shitty beer. “I mean, it’s kinda gross, but straight vodka’s also kinda gross, so…six of one.”

“Yeah, and my mouth has been on this,” Luke adds, inspecting the bottle. “Hella unhygienic.” Because frat brothers are really the poster children for hygiene.

“That part doesn’t bother me so much,” Calum admits, taking a closer step.

[mcyt-amber-tftsmp]

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ 𝐑𝐚𝐧𝐛𝐨𝐛 𝐅𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟 𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐀𝐥𝐩𝐡𝐚𝐛𝐞𝐭 #𝟏

A = Attractive (What do they find attractive about the other?)

Ranbob loves your giggle the most. He finds it adorable and cute and this sometimes causes him to blush a lot. He would do anything to make you giggle and that would mean either kissing you on the neck or tickling you.

You on the other hand, love his heterochromatic eyes. You find them unique and you just love to look at them.

B = Baby (Do they want a family? Why/Why not?)

Ranbob would most definitely want to have a family but he's scared that he will do something to hurt you or his child and his not really properly stable considering he has the enderstate but he has learned to control it but then again he's still a bit worried.

C = Cuddle (How do they cuddle?)

Ranbob cuddles you like you are a teddy bear. He will just hold you close to him and you would fit literally in his chest considering you are shorter than him while he's like 7'0. he would just pick you up and place you the way he wants to honestly. He's literally the big spoon and wouldn't the little spoon anytime soon because of his huge ego.

D = Dates (What are dates with them like?)

Ranbob would sometimes do picnic dates somewhere in Mizu or at beaches in the overworld considering he likes things simple and you do too. But if you consider hanging out with him while talking about history a date then yes that's like a date nearly everyday. You enjoy them a lot to be honest.

E = Everything (You are my ____ (e.g. my life, my world...))

"You are my everything." That's one of the common things you would hear Ranbob tell you. He would say how you have helped him to become a better person and how you have helped him control his enderstate. Yet you even forgave him after he had killed your brother, Isaac knowing it wasn't him.

F = Feelings (When did they know they were in love?)

When you first came to Mizu, Ranbob didn't really think much of you. But you came back everyday so he wouldn't be lonely in the underwater city and slowly and gradually he fell in love with you. How? One day he heard you giggle so cutely that he started to feel warm and fuzzy inside and could feel his face heat up.

You got to know that you were in love him after the many visits. You loved his personality and how passionately he talked about certain topics and you would eagerly listen to him talk about these things.

G = Gentle (Are they gentle? If so, how?)

Ranbob would be always gentle and careful with you. If he did anything to hurt you, he would beat himself up for it both mentally and physically cause he never had the intention to hurt you at all. Being gentle with you is the first thing that comes up to his mind when it comes to you.

H = Hands (How do they like to hold hands?)

Ranbob is the type of guy to always hold your hand cause he doesn't like letting you go. he would put his palm over your hand while sitting close to each other or would always be holding one of your hands while he is kissing you or when you two are walking side by side.

I = Impression (What was their first impression?)

Ranbob didn't really think much of you when he first met you. The only thing when he saw you that came to his mind was how similar you and Isaac looked. Of course you came after Isaac came here with his friends and was killed. Though he did like how you were invested with the history of the place and everything. He thought you were pretty okay in his book.

When you met him, you got a bit startled considering you have never seen an enderman hybrid like him and you found him interesting to say the least.

J = Jealousy (Do they get jealous?)

Oh ho ho! Very! If Ranbob sees someone flirting with you, he would glare at that person's direction or would just come up behind you while putting his arms around your waste and glare down at the person. He literally has a nertherite sword hung around his belt to prove that he wants you to leave or things well get messy.

When it comes to you, it's just you feeling slightly insecure about yourself and just keeping yourself at a distance.

K = Kiss (How do they kiss? Who initiated the first kiss?)

When it comes to kissing, Ranbob is the first one to do it cause you are shy to initiate the first kiss anyways. He would mostly smirk at you and give you a kiss on the lips. He's too bold so he makes the first move. His kisses are warm and passionate and pretty long. He would just kiss you most of the time to either tease you and make your flustered or just make you feel loved.

L = Love (Who says 'I love you' first?)

Ranbob would be the first one to do so. His ego is too big for you to say it first. He would say it one a daily basis after he said it for the first time. It would always make you smile and he liked that a lot.

M = Memory (What's their favourite memory together?)

One of Ranbob's favorite memory would be when you both were reading with each other in the library and how you fell asleep on his shoulder. He found it cute. You would have to say that it was your favorite memory too.

N = Nickel (Do they spoil? Do they buy the person they love everything?)

Ranbob doesn't really spoil you much or at all considering you don't want to be spoiled at all. Though on different occasions he does buy your favorite flowers and would buy you other things such as a necklace or something that reminds him of you.

O = Orange (What colour reminds them of their other half?)

Neutral colors remind you of Ranbob. Black, grey, white is just kind of his aesthetic. Yellow and purple would also remind you of him considering his eyes. When it comes to you Y/F/C (Your Favorite Color), it reminds him of you a lot.

P = Pet names (What pet names do they use?)

Ranbob would call you 'sweetheart' most of the time cause that's his favorite pet name for you.

You would just call him Ran but sometimes Prince. You just think it suits him.

Q = Quaint (What is their favourite non-modern thing?)

Ranbob would sometimes cook with you. You basically taught him how to cook properly and so now he just helps around with most of the things. He just likes doing this with you.

R = Rainy Day (What do they like to do on a rainy day?)

Ranbob would mostly stay inside during rainy days. Though one thing for sure is that water doesn't really have much effect on him like his ancestor Ranboo. He would sometimes go out in the rain but not all the time.

You on the other hand would just go out with no hesitation cause you love the rain to the point you dance. Ranbob would just smile when he sees you smiling and dancing happily in the rain.

S = Sad (How do they cheer themselves/others up?)

if Ranbob sees you upset, he would waste no time and hold you close while peppering your face with kisses and whisper sweet nothings to you. he hates seeing you upset and would do anything for you to make you feel better.

If you see him upset, you go over and hug him. That's what it takes to make him feel slightly better. You would stroke his hair since he likes it when you do that.

T = Talking (What do they like to talk about?)

Both you and Ranbob love to talk about many things which include history but would talk about random things too.

U = Unencumbered (What helps them relax?)

When you both cuddle it helps both you and Ranbob to relax. Considering physical touch is your love language along with words. It's mostly Ranbob who feel stressed about things. When it's you feeling stressed he would just cuddle the heck out of you and not let you go.

V = Vaunt (What do they like to show off? What are they proud of?)

Ranbob is literally the dominant one in the relationship and he loves to show it off just to make you ticked off and annoyed by flirting with you which would result you in puffing up your cheeks in embarrassment which he finds adorable.

W = Wedding (When, how, where do they propose?)

Ranbob has been thinking about marrying you after being together for a many months. He was really nervous in doing so but he built up the courage to do so. He did however made this a surprise by taking you on a picnic date at the beach as he made your favorite food. Later when it became late at night, he stood up and proposed to you in which you said 'yes' and he was practically feeling very happy when you accepted.

X = Xylophone (What's their song?)

Thinking Out Loud - Ed Sheeren. It just reminded both of you when you both heard it. Basically it was the song used when you both waltzed together when you both started dating after two months and you would have to say he was a really good dancer when it came to waltz.

Y = Yes (Do they ever think of getting married/proposing?)

Ranbob practically wanted to marry you the first time he even started to date you so that's definitely a yes. Not sure about you though considering you were a bit nervous.

Z = Zebra (If they wanted a pet, what would they get?)

You would both get cats if you two ever considered getting a pet. Ranbob is practically fond of cats in general and would get one or more but only if it was okay with you which was good.

[argisthebulwark]

OH MY GOD THE BOYFRIEND DUNGEON THING! So I actually own it & have played it multiple times cuz its fun and the whole drama around it really pisses me off cuz its a really inclusive game!! And you can do so much in it!! But everyone's mad cuz there's LIGHT stalking and unwanted advences (yes they happen, but, as someone who playd the game, I don't think they were that bad and at the most were just very uncomfortable. They mostly happen over text but I just never answered that charaters texts so I never really HAD to interact with him unless he was there as a part of the plot) AND THEY WARN YOU BEFOREHAND!!!! THERES LITERALLY A HUGE WARNING RIGHT BEFORE YOU PLAY THE GAME!!! You can't get mad about the light stalking and unwanted advances IF THEY WARN YOU ABOUT THAT BEFOREHAND!!!! AND because there is ONE gross incel-y character every1's having a little baby hissy fit about it which just!! AAARRRGGG!! IT MAKES ME SO MAD!!! Cuz like i said i've played it & u can tell there's so much heart behind it and it makes me mad its being held to these impossibly high standards. The creators put their blood sweat and tears into this game and people are mad because.......there's a problematic character??? Like, have you ever heard of a villain?? VILLIANS ARENT SUPPOSED TO BE LIKABLE!!!! YOU'RE S U P O S E D TO HATE HIM AND FIND HIM CREEPY AND GROSS!!!! So yeah, the drama surrounding it is BULLSHIT that makes me VERY ANGRY but I've just been avoiding it cuz it is a REALLY fun game and Isaac the estoc has completely stolen my heart. But yeah, I havn't seen much discorse about it here, I think it's all mostly on twitter, and that place is a fucking disasterzone anyways. Anyways, you should check it out of you want and if anyone reading this wants to talk about it please come to my inbox this is my new favorite game and im dying to talk to someone about it. 

(God, I'm so sorry this got so long, but I saw that thing you reblogged about it and wanted to come tell you about it but I didn't mean to go off like that oops) 

ok yeah i've read a lot online about it and it does seem like the reactions about it are really. inflammatory. i bought it literally the day it came out and haven't played it yet because i can only be obsessed with one roguelike at a time and hades has me in a chokehold. i recently played dream daddy, a game that i was admittedly hesitant to play because of the reactions. i purposefully sought out the scary ending using really specific instructions and was pleasantly surprised when i got big ol content warning. i don't really use twitter for anything other than keeping up with melee events lmao so luckily i haven't seen much discourse. i think the only reason i'm aware of it is because of some article from kotaku or some similar publication.