#( idek man )

[raamitsu]

[mitchievousness]

hey what the FUCK is up with the svsss flesh creatures??????

[ohposhers]

finally colored these old doodles of that troll i hate

[einelitas]

Here's my knuxouge kiddo

He's the new guardian of the Master Emerald and he takes pride in being a warrior like his dad

He's friends with Sora who'd too often asks him to go on homme fatale missions. Despite having natural charisma that Rogue has, Brass doesn't enjoy flirting with strangers

[aeonfish]

my big project is still underworks, so here's this silly comic :]

...they've both lost the one braincell, it's somewhere else

[barblaz-arts]

Super messy doodles of the roomies being roomies (ft Thornhill and her halfassed dorm mothering)

[krekee]

Like mother like daughter

[theworldisalways-ending]

whateva more weekly roll posts because i fw this comic heavily... THIS TIME THEY ARE FROM 2024! AND NOT 2021!! the joy of artistic progress!

i kinda regret giving him the Red and Gold helmet color tbh i've always viewed him as like blue and silver but im Trying to make my drawings more Saturated... (ugh) and it didnt look good with blue and silver

i'll probably paint him as blue and silver at a later date who knows.... we'll see B)

[monstrous-angels]

So TL;DR The Remake Trilogy is Sephiroth's attempt at a "fixit" fic where he ends up ruling the universe and -oh what's this- Cloud is here too.

Just calling it right now. We'll see in 5+ years while we wait for the last entry in the series.

[colorpuzzled]

hey guys

[acowardinmordor]

Eddie mumbles something about how he's always wanted to try it and kisses Steve in the Upside Down because he figures he's gonna be dead in a minute, so its whatever. Tragically rolls a 1 on that plan. Crit fails his plan so hard that he ends up surviving what the doctors kept insisting should have been fatal blood loss.

Eventually, despite his requests to the nurses and to Wayne that he not have to see Steve, the guy manages to get through, late at night when the others were at home in bed.

Steve looks serious, forehead creasing, and awkward as hell. Uncomfortable. Eddie isn't an idiot, so he spotted Robin years ago. As close as those two are, Eddie knows that Steve must know about her, and must be cool with it. But its different when its not a lack of attraction, but an unwanted one.

Steve asks, tensely, with careful words, why Eddie kissed him, and what he meant when he said he always wanted to try it.

Eddie doesn't lie.

'I didn't want to die without ever kissing someone.'

'And... I was the only one around who wasn't 14.'

Steve exhales and his shoulders relax, and the only thing Eddie can label that as is relief. He doesn't ask any more questions, and he leaves Eddie alone for the most part, even after Eddie leaves the hospital. Whenever they're in the same place though - parties, hangouts, the kids - Eddie can feel him looking. He never catches him. Steve reacts too fast, but Eddie knows he's watching him. He tries, he forces himself to keep his comments fiercely platonic. Perfectly heterosexual. He's successful.

So is Steve. Eddie doesn't catch him staring, so Eddie never sees how Steve looks at him.

[starsofang]

but does growing up just change your body? or also your soul?

the silver wisps of smoke dissipated into the chill of the night air. the butt of the cigarette created a dim glow along gaz’s face that you could see in your peripheral, reflecting faintly in his eyes as he stared forward.

your legs dangled carelessly over the tailgate of the truck, one that the two of you often found yourselves sitting in on occasion to destress after a long, grueling mission. your eyes were set on the sky, taking in the twinkling of stars that seemed to smile down on you in a way to provide you comfort.

in a world full of bloodshed and heartache, they were the only thing that could give you just that — like a security blanket over your battered body full of anguish.

besides gaz, of course.

your eyes shifted away from the moon to shoot a lingering glance at gaz, watching as he deeply inhaled the cigarette smoke and allowed it to filter out of his mouth moments later. his eyes were fixated on the sky, as if he, too, was taking in the quiet that the night allowed you.

the quiet was not unwelcome. in fact, it was your routine with gaz, the both of you too exhausted to talk all that much and instead seeking each other out for company. you liked it that way, as did he. it was like the world around you faded away into a muted silence, and it was just the two of you — no guns. no violence. no pain. no trauma.

“you’re staring,” gaz noted quietly, tearing his eyes away from the sky to look at you. his eyes were soft, with a slight quirk of his lips showcasing his amusement. “something’s on your mind.”

you blinked at the realization that you were staring, looking back at the moon that hung above you. you shrugged your shoulders loosely, playing off the turmoil that infested your mind.

gaz knew you too well by now. often times, you didn’t have to even say anything — he just knew.

“something’s always on my mind,” you replied back, huffing a small laugh through your nostrils.

gaz hummed in response, taking another drag of the cigarette before flicking it to the ground, crushing it beneath his boot. he shifted in his spot on the tailgate, resting both of his hands behind him against the bed of the truck so he could sit more comfortably.

“wanna talk about it?”

you glanced over at him for a brief moment when he asked. his eyes were still focused on you, you noted, and you couldn’t tell if he was trying to read you, or admire you. with gaz, you could never tell anyway.

you scrambled through your mind for what it was you were mulling over. there was plenty there, always living in your head, becoming a permanent resident and never quite planning on leaving. the thoughts plagued your mind like a virus, spreading and spreading until it consumed you. it was something you grew used to in this line of work, a side effect of being a soldier.

you remained silent while you picked apart your mind, and he didn’t push you, allowing you the time to gather yourself. he was always so patient, and it calmed the grueling thoughts and allowed you the chance to fully digest them.

“i’m thinking about when i was a child,” you finally confessed, unsure of how to properly execute your worries. gaz tilted his head in question, but said nothing, only offering a small hum to show he was listening. “i always wanted to be a grown up. every kid wants to be, at some point. but now that i am, i always wonder what it would’ve been like if i just stayed a child and didn’t have to grow up so early.”

“that so?” gaz asked softly, a faint smile curling at his lips as he stared at you. “had to grow up too fast, did you?”

you nodded your head in confirmation. you thought back on the past, on the life before military. a child, young and full of life, now apart of a world of so much… trauma. how had it come to this?

“it’s silly, isn’t it? to think that.”

“no,” gaz denied immediately, sitting up. he rested his elbows on his knees, head slightly tilted in your direction so he could provide his full attention. you couldn’t help but stare back, taking in the soft expression he wore — one he wore just for you, in these times where it was the two of you. “it’s not silly at all, love. go on, i want to hear about it, yeah?”

you couldn’t help the fondness that took over you at the way he spoke. always so considerate, so caring. so real. he was the anchor you desperately needed in a vast ocean of nothingness, keeping you grounded and secure, no matter where, no matter when.

you smiled at him, and he smiled back. a beautiful smile he had, really. in the lives you both lived where death and gore was on every corner, his smile was something you prayed you could protect for the remainder of your life.

your eyes made its way back to the array of shining stars. they continued to blink down at you, as if encouraging you to open up and speak your mind — telling you it was safe. that gaz was safe.

“i wonder how different things would be if we didn’t have to grow up so quickly. would we still be here, or would we have been on completely different paths?” you wondered aloud.

gaz was silent for a moment, taking in your words. he followed your gaze to the sky, and the both of you sat and admired, mulling over the endless possibilities of what could’ve been.

“maybe things would’ve been different,” he began, letting out a soft sigh through his nose. “but different isn’t always a good thing, hm?”

it was a strange thought, to imagine a life completely different from this one. one where you didn’t wield guns on the daily, or walk the fine line of death with no guarantees of making it to tomorrow.

you looked back over at gaz once again, taking in the sight of him. he seemed so at peace with what your lives had to offer, and you wondered briefly what he would’ve been like if not a soldier.

“suppose you’re right,” you sighed out with a smile. your words made him turn back to you, and for a brief moment, the two of you basked in each other’s presence.

“besides,” gaz started with a smile of his own, “different would’ve meant we never met. what’s a life without that, anyway?”

his hand reached out to gently grasp yours, giving it a small squeeze before he returned to gazing up at the sky. silence fell over the two of you, but it was far from uncomfortable — in fact, it was all that needed to be said.

“moon’s awfully pretty tonight, innit?” gaz broke the long pause of silence between the two of you. his calloused hand continued holding yours, his thumb lightly brushing along your skin as he smiled up at the glowing moon.

you huffed out a laugh, giving his hand a squeeze of your own.

“i love you too, kyle.”

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if you saw this posted before, i’m embarrassed to say that i’m a grandma who doesn’t know how to work social media apparently </3 anyway, slightly projecting and idk what this is but i’m a gaz lover all the way so it doesn’t really matter

[magicandpizza]

Jesper had said, right at the beginning, that he didn’t know what might happen between them, but he’s not sure he could have ever expected this, whatever this is. Something quiet and lovely blooming between them, something that makes Jesper’s heart beat wildly in his chest, something dancing on the tip of his tongue.

It should probably be embarrassing that the realisation of this thing that he can’t put a name to comes to him in the middle of sex.

Wylan is clinging to him, one hand digging into his shoulder and the other at the nape of his neck, holding him exactly where he wants him as his lips seek Jesper’s, groaning his pleasure into his mouth, and oh Jesper loves it, loves the feeling of being so wanted that Wylan can’t bear to let him go, not even for a second. Loves the way he urges Jesper on, breaking into a helpless giggle when Jesper’s arms eventually give out and he ends up in an ungainly heap on top of him, neither of them caring about the mess between them as they both come down, Jesper cradled in Wylan’s arms while gentle kisses are pressed to his sweaty forehead.

Wylan doesn’t pull away after, either. He lets Jesper clean him up, thanks him and smiles at him with pink cheeks and lips bitten red, and Jesper loves that too, failing to hide his grin when Wylan curls up in his waiting arms like he belongs there. Jesper’s always been partial to a cuddle after sex, but his previous bedfellows haven’t always appreciated it. Not Wylan, though. Wylan has been known to not even let Jesper out of the bed until they’ve cuddled a bit, maybe even traded a few gentle kisses. It’s nice to be wanted even after sex, too.

He feels safe with Wylan, is the thing. He quiets the buzz in Jesper’s mind and the itch under his skin and turns it into something calming. The call of the tables is nothing compared to the knowledge that Wylan is waiting for him in their bed.

So he lies there, content with Wylan in his arms, listening as his breathing evens out as he slips into sleep, and mulls over the words that are lodged in the back of his throat.

He’ll tell him, soon.

[flyboytracy]

[tuliptic]

Horizon: I’m In My Big Dream

Henlo working adults here, this is a reading for y’all. There was an anon who asked me if I’d be making a career reading so here it is! Not sure about how this connects with those who are still in school/college, but y’all can still try it out.

And yes, we're back with Ateez now hehet OvO

Close your eyes, meditate on this topic and ask yourself the question: How am I supposed to manoeuvre around this adulthood that builds on the basis of status and career? Breathe in and out, make sure your mind and heart is calm. Then, open your eyes to see which pile talks to you the most/draws you in the most. Once you’ve found your pile, scroll down to the respective parts to see what are the messages for you.

Pile 1    -     Pile 2

Pile 3    -     Pile 4

Disclaimer: This is solely for my entertainment purposes. Take only whatever that you feel like it. If it doesn’t resonate, it’s okay to just drop it. That aside, I do not consent to my work or here to be used by third parties on this platform or other websites.

Decks used: Luna Cat Tarot Deck (Major Arcana), Linestrider Tarot Deck, Flower Petals Oracle Deck, Sweet Dreams Oracle Deck, Starcodes Astro Oracle Deck, self made lyrics deck.

Pile 1:

One card to represent you: The Tower

Weirdly, I don’t see you being that catalyst of change. Which could only mean that there’s some huge changes that are happening in your world. It may be people around you, people close to you, or you yourself. Those changes are very visible and impactful to the point you’d be able to feel it even if it’s just happening to acquaintances. Imagine how heavy it could be if you’re in the centre of the impact. This change may be happening in your workplace or any place that has authority in play, where there’s this high possibility of lacking balance, especially power balance.

1. What am I hoping to achieve? - Eight of Wands rx, Page of Wands

From the cards, I see that you want to achieve a steady and comfortable career life without rushing yourself. You probably have something else by the side, or you tend to have a lot of activities once your working hours are over. To you, work is just… Work. You’re not letting it get in the way of the little happiness in your life. It feels like quite a few people have commented on how you live, saying that you’re not expanding or focusing on your career, which probably made you wonder if you have a career goal or not. Although you may be inclined to start a side hustle that fulfils your interests. Say for example, you enjoy doing art and mayhaps want to accept commissions.You’ve been having those thoughts in your head and heart, wondering if you’re supposed to take that first step out.

2. What’s stopping me from achieving it? - Ten of Swords

There are a lot of past hurts that I’m seeing here, which you may be using as an excuse to limit your thoughts, to limit your options. The past hurt is not healed, and to some, it’s still far from being healed. You thought you have moved on from it but everytime you see hints of it, or bits and pieces of it, you remember those times that you’ve gone through that pain and you break again, in another sense. To some, you may even be having physical pain or discomfort in your bodies. A weak constitution, perhaps, stopping you from taking the opportunities offered to you, or making you question your capability in completing a particular task. You realise a lot of things are more than just the surface, and the underlying conditions that you have just keeps holding you down.

3. What do I have in me to counter those hindrances? - Two of Swords rx

I would say that you have a very personal skill/talent that not many have: you have the ability to see the truth. Quite a few of you are capable of immediately finding out the root cause of a problem. Some of you may choose to work around the problem, but for most of you, I see that you have the tendency to attack the problem and the ones who created the problem. There’s a certain… Anger? Resentment? Towards things that are unfair and unjust. With that, you won’t be able to hold those in you and eventually lashing them out to the people causing the problem. This may have displeased a lot of people in the past, and you’ll continue to think that you’re on the right path. Your uniqueness is lovely, but also, maybe… See the next paragraph.

4. How do I counter those hindrances? - Ten of Cups

Maybe be kinder to yourself, to build a family where you can select who the family members are. There is quite a lot of pain and anger in you, and most of all, you guys don’t really have a place to rest. This is the time for you to rest with your family, your loved ones. There is help around you, and what you need to do is to find them out and use them well. You’ll realise that the emotional connection you created with the people around you is your greatest asset. They’ll not only be able to help you through the lows and the hindrances, I’m also seeing that some of them will be clearing the path so that you can walk through them without difficulty. It took quite some time for the cards to fall out so there may be some stagnation, something else that's stopping you from this. Take your time to dissect what you're going through.

5. What should I focus on for now? - The Hermit

I’d say that you should tune into yourself. Take some time off and rest, meditate even. The fatigue is running on you. Make time for self-maintenance before your body and mind decides the time for you. There’s a lot of self-healing and introspection that you need to do. You can discuss this with your friends and family, or the people around you. However, you need to remember that the final call is in your hands, you need to make your own decision on what you want, how you want to achieve. It’s difficult when you’re standing in between the crossroads. Nobody said that you should pick only one path to walk, so just have faith and run towards where you want. Expand your choices, try as many things as you want.

6. What other suggestions for my possible career path? - Five of Swords

What I’m seeing here is conflict resolving, so probably a very specific job in HR or customer services? Customer service cuz that’s where most of the conflict rises, and you probably know how to look at things from both parties, or even from a third party point of view, and provide the necessary help and solutions to the problem at hand. HR cuz of the conflict between the employees and employer. For some reason, I do not think of you as the spokesperson of the company, but for the employees, where you phrase your words and make the top management agree with the point you’re trying to make. These career paths probably never crossed your mind but you can have a look at them and see if they can help you in your career growth, as stepping out of your comfort zone from time to time is also important, as it helps you to see the different sceneries, reminding you that you can go further.

Overall energy: The Empress; King of Cups rx

You guys (gender neutral) probably have a more emotional side to you, which is pretty fitting to be in fields that focus more on interpersonal relationships and interactions. Some of you are probably doing something similar at the moment, but not all recognise this skill of yours. There are a lot of themes of exploration here, so it’s best that you take your time and try, explore and expand your choices and views, welcome the limitless magic into your life and see how your life changes in wondrous and unexpected ways. You’re not alone. Your friends and families, your guides, and sometimes even strangers will be supportive of you. Take care.

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Pile 2:

One card to represent you: Judgement

Most of you feel like the angel blowing the trumpet, being the bearer of the message; being the one who’s siding with the judge who passes on the final judgement. However, there are also some of you who are the ones being judged; being under the eyes of many and not knowing how you should react. This pile gives me the feeling that you do know what you want/need to do, but it doesn’t stop that fear and anxiety you have when you are under the eyes and judgement of others. However, you guys have a community or a friend group behind you, supporting and fighting for you as you walk on the path you choose.

1. What am I hoping to achieve? - The Sun

Recognition is one of your main drives in terms of career. You don’t really mind people fronting a project or being the main speaker, but you mind a lot when your efforts are not acknowledged and you were not given the proper credit. In your point of view (and honestly speaking, most people’s POV), a group project is made up of many people with different tasks, and it irks you a whole lot when someone tries to take credit for everything, including your efforts. You want yourself to be seen, to be noticed, to be recognised for your skills and work. In a sense, you want to build your own brand, you want to be known for what you’re good at, and if possible, you’d probably want to join some team that is efficient and aligns with your career objective in achieving the best. Incompetency stresses you out a whole lot. It’s difficult but it’s not impossible, and eventually you’ll be able to find the abundance that your career can offer you.

2. What’s stopping me from achieving it? - Five of Swords

You’ve probably been disappointed for quite a long time repeatedly, making it difficult for you to have that faith again to do things with that fervour you used to have. Right now, there’s a high chance that the feeling of defeat you’ve been feeling is dragging you down, where you’re just doing enough to pass by the days. This can be due to the lack of boundaries that you have not set properly, or you couldn’t really stop anyone from overstepping your boundaries. You probably have been known to avoid conflict for the sake of harmony, which kinda lets people take advantage of this.

3. What do I have in me to counter those hindrances? - Ten of Pentacles; The Empress

Ten of Pentacles to me usually refers to family, but what I’m picking up from here is work colleagues and weirdly, a King of Pentacles energy as well. There’s something here that I can’t really put into words, as it’s like a combination of masculine and feminine energies here. It’s like these energies form you into an all-rounder, allowing you to connect to people easier. You can have a hard/tough exterior, yet still soft and gentle in the heart, able to understand the inner clashes of other people easier. Maybe this is why you tend to get involved in conflicts, as you’re very susceptible to the energies of others.

4. How do I counter those hindrances? - Temperance

I’m getting a feeling that you’ve probably heard this from a lot of people, where they tell you to take a step back and regain your balance, to not put too much energy on others and to focus on yourself instead. This is exactly what you should be doing to regain your sense of self back. Meditation is something you can try, but most of all, you need to give yourself ample time to return to your optimum state. You’ll probably think that hanging out with your friends or doing things that you like is something that can help you regain balance, but it’s more than that. You need to be at peace with yourself, to listen to what your heart wants to tell you, to analyse what your head is telling you. Dreams may have some meaning and messages, so do pay attention to them. If you’ve decided to try out meditation, you can try communicating with your higher self. You may get some inspiration and guidance from it.

5. What should I focus on for now? - Nine of Pentacles rx

Discipline is one of the main keywords, which gives me the vibe that you should be very aware of where you use your finances and energy, to not let anyone out there drain your energy. You may have an ideal self that you wanna be, but some of you are pretty content with where you are right now. Either way, you need to remember that you are still you, no matter what you’ve done, what you’re changing into. You’ll need to recognise your own strength and your skills, to not take them for granted. It’s time where you take some time-off to do some self assessment to see where you are standing in the path of life, to see where you want to go and which step to take.

6. What other suggestions for my possible career path? - Four of Swords rx

For some reason I’m seeing counselling which kinda makes me laugh as you’re probably in need of therapy currently. I guess it’s that thing where you understand the importance of therapy when you go through them, and you in turn would want to help those who need that help. But yeah, counselling or therapist, or anything that helps with relieving stress and helping others to sleep. ASMR? Yeah those. Jobs that can help yourself and others to let go of the tension in their shoulders, to be able to breathe again. They come in different forms, but that’s the ultimate goal.

Overall energy: The Star, Page of Swords

Overall speaking, I think this pile is called to remember who you wanted to be. There’s a lot of tension here, but know that hope has always been with you. The Star has been lighting your way as much as it can, letting you receive the messages that the Universe wants you to know, and in turn, asking you to be that messenger to spread the good news to those who are in need. I believe that there’s a calling in you, telling you that you’re not fulfilling your purpose yet. You need to remember that you’re the co-creator of your life and destiny, and you’re supposed to write the story of your life, you’re supposed to determine what’s your purpose here.

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Pile 3:

One card to represent you: Justice rx

There’s a lot of things going on in this pile, where there’s a side of them that wants to hold control or be in charge of some projects, yet there’s another side of them that knows they have no power over them as they can’t even do justice to themselves. This pile probably tends to self-sabotage themselves more than other people, and may have faced unjust situations lately. Also, there may be a certain past that has been catching up with you. Remembering a situation that happened a decade ago? Someone who’s no longer in your life kept popping up in your head recently? Yeah that.

1. What am I hoping to achieve? - Ace of Pentacles rx

Financial stability or a favourable financial situation is the first thing that came to my mind. You’re probably in a not-so-okay state in terms of finances, which is why this card popped up in reverse. To you, being in a decent financial situation is like a new beginning, where you can do the things you’ve wanted to do without worrying about the potential financial difficulty or backlash. This would probably be one of your main goals, and is something that is considered a huge personal achievement, almost like a dream. It’s best to not daydream about it too much but to take action.

2. What’s stopping me from achieving it? - Nine of Wands rx, The High Priestess rx

You’ve been stretched out, constantly pushing yourself to achieve whatever temporary goals you’ve set. There’s also some self limiting thoughts, and some of you may be neurodivergents, which makes you not quite capable of being not-stretched-out.  You have not been kind or gentle to yourself, and have been ignoring the gentle voices in you that’s asking you to rest. You probably have lost connection with your intuition and/or your inner voice, focusing too much on the external world. It’s time for you to work with your dreams and your spirit’s energy to reach your highest good. Stay still, breathe, listen. There’s always some messages out there, in the wind, in the flipping of pages, and in you. Be gentle and kind to yourself, you deserve them more than anybody.

3. What do I have in me to counter those hindrances? - Nine of Pentacles

You have the skills and abilities in you, and I’m also seeing some connection and network you’ve built up throughout the years. This card talks about self development, providing for yourself, and that’s one of your main strengths. You have them in you to achieve the independence that you’ve wanted. Sometimes, you also need to invest in yourself, so that you can level up yourself and to also enjoy the fruits of success. Self-control is also something this card talks about, so it’s time for you to put a knot on impulsive spendings. Show appreciation to the little things, the little success, and happiness shall follow.

4. How do I counter those hindrances? :- Seven of Cups, The Fool rx

One thing I’m picking up from this is that it’s time to wake up. Stop living in your fantasy and start taking charge of your life. Unlike The Fool, who goes on a new journey with the heart and mind of a child, you’re going through this second journey of exploration and growth with the heart and mind of an adult, and with it comes more responsibilities. Dreaming about success is fine, but actions speak better than thoughts and empty words. Spend some time to listen to your heart, break free from the illusions that your brain is painting, and to embark on this new journey. You’ll meet similar sceneries and similar people, but you have to remember that they are no longer the same.

5. What should I focus on for now? - Nine of Swords

First and immediate thing I’m picking up is that you need to rest, that you’re in a burnout right now. You may disagree with this, but you probably have been experiencing an extended period of burnout, to the point you see it as something daily and natural. No, it’s not natural. You can’t expect yourself to achieve something because others did as you’re built differently, and you need to adjust to your needs accordingly. You’re suggested to reconnect with your inner child. Find something that you used to enjoy doing, and maybe find a friend to do them together. You need to understand and accept that you’re built differently with different needs, and then figure out how to work around it.

6. What other suggestions for my possible career path? - The Chariot rx, The Hierophant

Hmmmmmmm. What I’m picking up here is that you’re not suitable to work on something that has a tight deadline, or sudden projects. Some may require a fast paced project with clear directions given, but most who are picking this pile are not comfortable in a fast paced environment, hence The Chariot in reverse. You would prefer to work out your schedule based on the requirements given and go through them meticulously. First thought was freelancer but at the same time, you’re someone who needs stability and a fixed job. Being in a project team would be good for you, but not as the project leader. At least, not yet. By being in a project team, you’ll continue to gain experience little by little from various roles, and you’ll be comfortable with your tasks as time passes because you’ll get used to it. But in short, just do what you want and run ahead. Trust and believe in yourself that you’ll be able to work things out.

Overall energy: Death, The World rx

There’s a heavy message on change and rebirth, and your cycle is far from complete. It’s like… There’s a lot more to go, and a lot more challenges that are waiting in front of you. To some, this may feel like a very difficult period to go through, but you’ll realise that you’re receiving powerful messages from your guides right now, and you know that you’re on the right path. It’s like you’re covered in scars from all the battles you’ve fought. But look at it in a different light, think of those scars as battle medals, cuz you’ve fought through and came out winning. Everything you’ve done, you’ve fought for, has made you who you are right now. And this will continue, where you’ll continue to change and learn and grow. Abundance will land on those who work for it, so stay strong and keep going!

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Pile 4:

One Two cards to represent you: The World, Justice rx

You’re probably arriving at your goal, achieving what you’ve wanted to achieve. However, you’ve been working yourself to the brim and may have outdid yourself in the process. You’ll need to regain your balance and do justice to yourself. Take some time to rest as you’re completing this cycle, lean in to what is easy and comfortable and use that comfort to renew, grow, and expand. Gently expand your world through compatible people, collaborative skills, and through doing what you love. The World is a lovely card to get in any reading, but you also need to be aware that this marks an end of whatever you’re doing. Take this chance to ease yourself as you prepare for a new journey ahead.

1. What am I hoping to achieve? - Wheel of Fortune rx

I feel that you’re looking to gain control over your career and your life. You probably have lived a life that… Doesn’t give you any chances to make decisions on your own, and you probably hated it a lot. Now that you have the time and chance, you’d wanna take things into your own hands and feel how it is like to make your own choices and to live the way you want to live. You don’t mind falling, failing, or even climbing up from that pit. To you, it’s a chance for you to grow and to see how far you can go without having people to pave a beautiful path for you. There are so many people out there that you wanna connect with, and it’s great to activate that part of you. Just remember to remain true to your intentions, and you can’t go wrong.

2. What’s stopping me from achieving it? - Knight of Cups

I hate to say this but I’d say your home/house/family have been pulling you back. Your family probably has been doing what they think is best for you without considering your wishes. It’s like… Forcefully spoon feeding you things that you don’t like, or maybe even things that you’re allergic to, which in turn, ruin your health or may have tampered with how you view things. Part of you may think that suffering is beautiful, and may have romanticised pain cuz that’s what you’ve felt growing up. It's as though saying that the pain you're experiencing right now is something well-deserved. Now that you’re your own person, you’ll need to find a way to pull yourself out of those uhhh… excess sentimentality. 

3. What do I have in me to counter those hindrances? - Ace of Cups rx

Yes, we’re talking about that excess sentimentality here too. You have to keep everything in check, to not let that cup of yours overflow. For those who have no idea how the Ace of Cups look like, go ahead and google an image of it. Generally, it is a card talking about an overflow of love, affection and happiness. However, this card in reverse talks about the opposite, how these emotions have turned from positive to negative, and how it has taken control over your life. You have it in you to recognise this pattern, to know that this is not helping you, and you’re ready to wake up from this. The process of awakening. That’s what you’ve gone through, or going through. 

4. How do I counter those hindrances? - King of Pentacles

King of Pentacles is practically the last card of the minor arcana, and to me, it embodies a wisdom that is very different from The Hermit or other cards that talk about wisdom. The King here talks about earthly wisdom, something that is learnt from age, failure, success and growth. You’ve learnt through so many things in life, and it built you to who you are right now. It feels like career and materialistic items give you the reassurance and stability you need, and you use your skills to attain those. You may feel scared as you try stepping out of your comfort zone (aka stop letting others to shelter you and start to voice out for yourself), but pay attention to your heart and mind, do not allow fear to distract you.

5. What should I focus on for now? - Eight of Pentacles

Focus on honing your skills. Find one or two that you like most, or you think that would help you in the long run, and focus on them. Work hard and improve, get better day by day. Do not wait until you’re good, only then you market your skills. Market them now and grow better along the way. There’s no better time to start other than now, because you know that once you start, you have no way out and you can only grit through it. Listen to your life, listen to your heart. They know what you want to do and you’ll be surprised at how much you’re capable of doing.

6. What other suggestions for my possible career path? - Three of Cups

First thought that came into my mind is PR. You’re more suited to be involved in fields that require interpersonal relationship skills, such as PR, corporate communication, emcee, being on a writer’s column, even doing interviews, etc. You tend to have a way with words (puns, maybe?), and you may be known for how your words light up someone’s day. You want to be the Sun, without knowing that you already shine. There’s a lot of themes about sunshine here, where you can be the light at the end of the tunnel. Cultivate this skill and you will be able to see a huge difference in how you view and handle your current relationships. From there, you’ll be able to bring it to the corporate world and put it to use.

Overall energy: Judgement, Two of Pentacles rx

There’s a heavy judgemental energy you have towards yourself, and there’s also a lack of balance. It’s as though you’re trying to find your own purpose and what you’re meant to achieve, career wise and personal life wise. There’s a lot of pent up frustration (and a little bit of anger) here, but you need to be kind to yourself. It’s alright to not be able to do things on your own, as you’re meant to achieve great things along with people. Remember, you are stronger when you’re not alone. Collaborating on projects doesn’t make you less important, as we all play our own role in everything. There’s this personal experience that I want to share as I type this out. I used to be in charge of doing the introduction and conclusion of group projects, and this made me wonder if I’m just terrible at providing pivotal points and arguments. My teammates told me that I play a huge part in it as they find doing the introduction is the most difficult part for them, and it’s important to have a good start to build up the inquisitive side of the reader. So yeah! You may see it as something small, but small things build up big success. Good luck, and get on your way to see the new you in the future.

[jessidogg]

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