ok fellas this post is really different from my other stuff so i'm putting it under the cut for people who don't care and also because i'm slightly embarrassed
ok so. is it unusual for a girl to want to have a deep voice and a flat chest and a more square face and also feel slightly jealous of men and want to sound like them and look like them
and also is it unusual to want to be all that, but also simultaneously not be very bothered very much by how you look right now or by being referred to with she/her except for sometimes when you think about it too much. because i usually don't think about it except for sometimes where i suddenly just get really sad about being a girl or i'll always have this faint feeling that i am just unhappy about it
and also is it unusual to try to ignore it and go about your life being unbothered by it even though deep down it does kinda bother you but you can't really. like. say anything to anyone because your family won't react well and neither will your friends because they'll think it's weird and uncomfortable. i feel afraid to ever feel this way because i know the people in my life won't react well to it
so like. genuine question please lmk wtf is goin on because i'm unsure if it's normal and i've felt like this for a long time and it's confusing me and i don't even know what i'm going to do with the information once i know i'm just sort of lost LMAO
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Miss girl!!! I was looking at the old old red carpet pictures of Olivia in the turquoise dress with Austin and it made me think of little dove and how if they hadn’t spoken since the end of filming/occasional red carpet - how does she feel watching his career now? and his girlfriends? and how he looks like a superstar now but he used to just look like a pretty, sweet boy?
curious to what we're talking about? click here for the little dove verse.
MISS GIRL. god no one ever calls me that anymore. it's always MISS MA'AM. you've won me over and forced me to give you my heart for that. and thus get an answer
okay! so. the infamous well if they never got back together sort of timeline/idea. see, when eurus and i first came up with this au she was always more of the girl who did it where they never came back together/spoken that sort of thing. but in the time since then i have thought about it. and it's truly sort of the basis of this au i once got asked about where they come back together 10 years in the future.
and here's the thing, she'd be proud of him. for all of the mess that would be attached to their relationship in her mind, she'd still care for him and be so proud he's doing so well. because there was pillow talk about where to go in their careers before the character bleed really took hold. and she'd know he wanted to do more work and the producer element. she'd know all this and she'd be the first person who read the article and went that's my boy. wouldn't post about it, probably. but she'd be so unbelievably proud. though, she'd be jealous of the girlfriends. like she'd try not to be, but she fell so hard and deep for him- even if she thinks when they break up it's just the bleed from playing priscilla. that seeing him be in love with someone else? that stings a lot. lily was a lot. and then kaia is a lot and just. she tries to not dwell on it too much.
as for him looking like a superstar? um. let's just say she perhaps enjoys the videos from like the ysl campaign a bit too much and generally swoons a lil seeing him on occasion. it also makes her step her game, oddly enough? like call it being competitive, call it wanting to make herself more equal to him? it's weird. she really just wants to get that same sort of glow up. like used to be sweet little girl ( who has those rumors chasing her ) and now look at her being a superstar queen.
so basically proud as punch but also jealous and a bit you could be the king but watch the queen conquer vibes for her own life.
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Lost yarn chicken in the middle of my cast off row (in my defense the pattern says do this till you think you have about this much yarn left instead of it actually giving you a number considering it is a pattern from the label of the yarn made with that yarn so how am I supposed to know much is enough left because my maths based on the gauge vs final length given said 3 repeats but I looked it up on Ravelry to see what other people said about the pattern and it said 5 repeats and I should have trusted my own maths because I did 3 and a half then looked at the remaining yarn and thought that's enough for 1 knit row instead of 4 and a cast off and it was just short). Anyway I finished casting off in a different yarn then added a crochet round in that yarn to a) hide the cast off stitches anyway and b) make it look like it was a deliberate decision to have one end with an extra bit in a different colour and it turned out pretty well. The moral of the story is trust your own mathematics based on gauge not what other people on the internet managed to get
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i've been making little games for my guild, and figured i'd share a few.
guild wars 2 cruciverbalists rejoice! this doesn't require spoilers or deep lore knowledge, but i've added some bonus hints under the cut if you need a hand! if that's not cutting it, feel free to dm me djskjklfd
ACROSS
2. One minion of Primordus is a world boss in Mount Maelstrom called the Mega_________.
3. Taimi's golem's name is an adjective meaning "shabby" or "ragged".
7. They have hooves! (Not horses. We don't talk about horses.)
9. Their name isn't related to any sort of sleep imagery. You could call them... very quiet.
11. The Alchemy could be described as everlasting, or enduring, or endless. It definitely starts with E.
13. Synonymous with safety. You'll hear this line whenever you walk by the Trading Post in Arborstone.
14. He is a necromancer, a marshal, and he would like a word with you.
17. He was killed by his sister, Jora, for being an em-bear-assment to the family. (Ha.) And, yeah, Jormag was involved. Jormag is always involved.
18. It directs Risen across Tyria from the sunken nation of Orr. Starts with Z.
19. You can buy a tag to use in open world that appends this title to your character's name in map chat!
20. It's a kind of dust. There's a fen in Maguuma where a bunch of it exploded. Chef Seimur Oxbone can be found selling it in snacks across major cities.
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1. OK, this one's probably tricky if you don't run Guild Missions.
...His name starts with P and rhymes with "Woobadoo".
3. This is one of the four major Spirits you can choose during character creation. Fluffy and feline.
4. This is a Raid Wing 1 boss. You're looking for a word synonymous with, and fairly similar to, "multitudinous".
5. Mel... something. Probably not Mellagan?
6. It's used to reskin your weapons and armour in the Wardrobe tab. You occasionally get a few as a login reward.
8. It's the legion named after a metal. (Not including Metal Legion.)
10. They named the northern cliffs of Orr after him and the way he died.
12. You've gotta be grateful when people compliment your look!
15. It's those blue and black cubes full of old homework. You've gotta crack them. Gotta... crack the cryptic code. Very cryptic.
16. This weapon is generally most popular with Rangers. (So don't guess rifle. Rangers don't get rifles. Yet.)
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