#(If I do PLEASE BE RESPECTFUL or I will BLOCK anyone who attempts Discoursing about the series using my posts THANKYOU)

[sanityshorror]

My basic boundaries & rules, please read - and actually read the entire thing, thanks.

I'm actually a very laid back person, but I'm going to be absolutely blunt and outright here, if you find that to be unacceptable, that's weird.

NO FUCKING RACISM, SEXISM, QUEERPHOBIA OF ANY SORT, OR ANY TYPE OF BIGOTRY IN GENERAL IS ALLOWED. FUCK OUTTA HERE WITH THAT SHIT.

Don't trauma dump/over share, I am extremely uncomfortable when people do this and it puts me in a weird place.

My work is intended for an adult audience and is primarily in the extreme horror genre.VIEWER DISCRETION IS STRONGLY ADVISED.

Don't send me asks about Julius and/or Killian's...man parts*. Seriously, it got old a very long time ago. I don't answer asks like this and asking more isn't going to get me to answer.

Don't DM me unless you're 18+, plain and simple.

RULE REMINDER: Anyone who is under 18, block the tag #hellcrew18+ and DNI with anything tagged as such. This has always been a rule but I feel like I should remind people.

If I block you, that means you make me uncomfortable and/or I want nothing to do with you -- don't make accounts or attempt in any manner, to circumvent that. it's fucking creepy, what the actual fuck is wrong with you?

DNI if you aren't capable of comprehending my bio.

Don't ask me if your OC can know Julius and/or Killian -- the answer is no.

No shipping discourse, I find both sides of it to be annoying. I am a splatterpunk author and horror artist, and I am not a fandom creator either, all my content is my original creations. shipping is not my priority as a creator.

Please keep in mind that I am not my characters, and that I am a real person. It's very dehumanizing when people treat me as if I'm just some vessel to the characters, and as if the characters are the real people. This is something I've experienced many times, it's genuinely hurtful and incredibly dehumanizing.

DO NOT bring drama, try to start drama/"stir the pot" etc to my blog and with me in general. I do not have time for drama and want nothing to do with it. It's stupid. If you don't like me or my creations, that's fine - please block me. If I at any point feel uncomfortable towards anyone, I will block them. There is no reason to try to start drama. It's not entertaining, it's incredibly stressful. I want no part of it. If you're incapable of following this rule, you are the problem. This rule should generally apply universally (yes, even in real life), to me, you and your father etc.

If you are going to DM me, PLEASE tell me your own boundaries so I can know and respect them as well! I dont want to disrespect someone else's boundaries, that's why I need others to tell me theirs - so I can make sure I respect them.

Additionally, you need to understand that my work does not reflect me as a person. I DO NOT CONDONE THE HARMFUL ACTIONS AND I FIND THE HARMFUL SHIT MY CHARACTERS DO TO BE ABSOLUTELY REPREHENSIBLE. These dark topics are supposed to be disturbing and meant to be upsetting, make you uncomfortable, etc.

It's fine to be obsessive over my characters/creations (I don't care whether it's positive or negative) but it's extremely not okay to obsess over me - positive or negative, in any manner. It makes me beyond uncomfortable.

Please actually understand what my characters are like in canon before you get too attached. It's fine to HC them in complete OOC and AU ways. But it's not okay to lash out at me in anger when you get attached to my characters through the art and your headcanons, only to find out you're incredibly bothered by the canon - and don't even go there trying to tell me what to do with my characters. I will do what I want, I created them. You have fun with HCs and AUs. IDC if you love my characters but hate me. Just don't harass me (or anyone, for the matter).

I'll add more if I can think of more. I'm horrible at and feel anxious over setting my boundaries, because I often feel guilty and like I'm going to upset people and/or they will not even be regarded (which, yes, has already happened countless times since I set my boundaries). Please be respectful.

*by man parts I mean don't ask about their dicks, for clarification👍

[fogwatcher]

Hello and Welcome!

About Me

I’m a transmasc, aroaceflux, gay person who uses he/they pronouns! I’m dyslexic, neurodivergent, and mentally ill.

I’m Pro…

Paraphiles (yes, even the big 3)

Recovery

Endo

Ship

LGBT+

MOGAI

M-Spec

I’m Anti…

Harassment

Forced Recovery

Unhealthy Recovery

Abuse

TERF

Transmed

Sysmed

Contact, Complex Contact, Neutral Contact

Doxxing

I’m neutral…

TransID

Radqueer

Loli/Shota/Kodo

Religion

Fandoms

The Owl House

Steven Universe

Minecraft

Stardew Valley

Warrior Cats

Harry Potter

Dream SMP

Sanders Sides

Creepypasta/Marble Hornets

Ginny & Georgia

Stranger Things

Wednesday/Adams Family

Dan and Phil

The Office

Spongebob Squarepants

Death Note

Various Youtuber Fandoms

..and likely more that I can’t think of!

BYF

I post discourse (#watcher discourse), shitposts, shitposts with text (#watcher spill), and original written or art content (#watcher writes/draws). All posts will be tagged as #Fogwatcher.

My account doesn’t have an age restriction (13+ by TOS), but if minors or ageless accounts interact with posts tagged #mdni they will be blocked.

I do not censor tags or words in triggering posts. There will be a tw at the beginning and in the tags. It is not my responsibility if you ignore these.

Boundaries

Please Do Not…

Ask for personal information such as location, specific age, birthday, legal name, etc.

Attempt to harass, dox, or threaten me

Talk about discourse on non-discourse posts

Be disrespectful, even if you disagree with my views

Ask to DM (DMs closed for now)

Please Do…

Reblog, comment, like, send asks, and follow

Talk to me (through other methods than DM)

Use this as a creative safe space

DNI…

I do not have a DNI. Anyone is welcome to interact no matter their stances on my beliefs. Despite this being a comship content blog, I will posts non-comship things. This, in general, is just a place for me to post and share things related to the fandoms I’m in.

That being said, I am very comfortable using my block button. If you cannot be respectful, then leave. I’m open to debates, but not any that are inherently rude, ableist, or offensive.

My Other Accounts…

@drowninthefog

System Account

Discourse, vents, shitposts, positivity

[drowninthefog]

Welcome to The Fog

About Us

We are..

Proship, Proendo, Propara, ProRecovery, and Radinclus

We are neutral on transid as we don’t know enough about it right now to make an educated opinion

Antiharassment, AntiTransMed, AntiTERF, AntiSysMed, and AntiContact

Recovering a dormant system after months of denial

About Our System

We are adaptive with also unknown origins. We prefer terms like “the/your [System, Collective, Council]” for our system as a whole. For alters, we prefer “your [Friends, Parts, Alters]”.

Collective..

First-Person Pronouns: I/Me, We/Us

Second-Person Pronouns: He/Him, It/It’s

Name: Fog

Identity: Transmasculine, AroAceFlux, Queer

Bodily..

Age: 20+

Gender Expression: Neutral

Sex: Female

Race: White

Disabilities: (SlfDX)Dyslexia, (DX)Major Depressive Disorder, (DX)Generalized Anxiety Disorder, (SlfDX)Autism

About Our Account

Our content will usually be vents (#fog vents), shitposts with no added text, shitposts with added text (#fog spill), alter-specific posts (#fog [alter emoji and name] posts), and system discourse (#fog discourse). All posts will be tagged as #fog posts.

We do not censor tags or words. Any triggering content will be tagged with the appropriate names. Any posts with sexual references, jokes, or serious mention will be tagged with #mdni. Minors or ageless accounts seen interacting will be blocked.

Boundaries

Please Do Not..

Start discourse on posts not tagged as #fog discourse

Ask for personal information like body’s legal name, location, trauma, relationships

Disregard an alter’s personal boundaries when stated, even if it doesn’t align with collective boundaries

Attempt to threaten, dox, harass us

Fake claim us or other systems

Ask for DMs (temporarily closed)

Talk NSFW

Please Do…

Reblog, like, follow, ask, and comment

Tag us in anything you think we might be interested in

Follow our other accounts and socials

Talk to us directly (outside of DMs)

Talk to specific alters directly. You can ask for them and they will respond when they front (they can rarely be “summoned”)

Use this as a safe space

We do not have a DNI, as we find it useless due to anyone who would be on our DNI would not respect it. We follow a simple rule: don’t like, don’t interact. We are very comfortable using the block button.

Our Other Accounts

@fogwatcher

Proship, comship

Includes discourse, fanfic, fanart, positivity, shitposts

[hxdrostorm]

In regards to clone.shipping on this blog

These disclaimers were originally found on my rules and muses about docs, I’ve moved them to here for the sake of organization. This post will be linked on the aforementioned docs.

First and foremost I don’t want to see or engage with any kind of discourse about clonecest/cloneshipping (IDC how you choose to name it), and I won’t associate myself with people who claim to not be okay with it (e.g.: If you claim you don’t support/like it, etc.). I hear you guys, I will fully respect that, and I won’t follow first.

If you can’t be a mature person to handle the fact I’m writing something you don’t like, then you will be blocked. I refuse to deal with people’s temper tantrums. No, it’s not racist/incestuous/abusive/etc., enough already. Just say you don’t like it, and move on with your day. Stop watering down those words meanings, in an attempt to one-up in an online discussions.

Blacklist the tag cloneshipping cw. I won’t reblog any art/edits of it, and any kind of interaction/aesthetic/musings of that nature will be tagged as such so people can filter it out.

@ clone roleplayers: Rest assured, that’s not at all the only thing that I’m looking for out of interacting with. If that’s a deal breaker for you, then block or unfollow me (no hard feelings! Curate your own experience.). Otherwise, if you haven’t already stated it in your rules then tell me. whether or not you’re comfortable with it in the case we plot. So I don’t end up making you uncomfortable by suggesting it, without knowing your stance on it.

For my muses’ lore/BG: I don't interpret the clones to be literal brothers (most clones don’t even see each other as a family in the majority of cases). As such whenever they call each other by brothers, it is being done in a "brothers-in-arms" way. Which is a common thing in the military, meant to express their closeness.

I tend to lean towards the old/Legends take for my clones. I disagree with fanons, and strongly oppose Disney’s sanitized canon that try to paint them as just one literal big family. Despite that, I’m still not opposed to interacting with others that do that. Obviously, I will never force my interpretation upon anyone, so be the judge on whether or not you’ll be able to work with that.

If you follow me, then I’m hoping and counting on the fact that you’ve read my disclaimers.

Please, give this a like to LMK you’ve read this!

[solo-returned]

1. No Godmodding. I play my character, you play yours, NPCs are fair game!

2. NSFW content will be present. I’ll tag triggers, but not NSFW. I don’t do smut unless it’s with someone I trust and know extremely well, but I’ll write most of what leads up to it. (Making out, getting handsy, etc.) If things get to a point where I’m no longer comfortable writing, I’ll probably request a timeskip or fade out.

3. Mun does not equal muse.

4. As I said I tag triggers. The tagging system I use is (trigger tw) with no parentheses. If there is a specific trigger you would like me to tag, shoot me a DM. I don’t have many triggers, aside from graphic motor vehicle accidents.

5. I have a job that stresses me the fuck out. Five days a week. Unpredictable timing. I don’t always have the spoons to be online and/or productive. I might disappear for days/weeks/months on end. That isn’t my intention, of course, but it’s happened before and it’s likely to happen again. Please be patient with me. If it’s been a while since my last reply, shoot me a DM, but please be respectful about it.

6. If you send Anon hate, you’re a coward. Say it to my face or don’t say it at all.

7. Constructive criticism is always welcome! Just don’t be an ass about it. I do research my muses before attempting to play them, and while I don’t know everything about Star Wars, I don’t need anyone trying to subject me to an involuntary game of Um, Actually.

8. I don’t format my posts a whole lot beyond bold, italics, strikethroughs, and/or fun colors, and I probably won’t always use icons. I do try to cut my posts, but I mainly am on mobile, so I may forget from time to time. I don’t like using small text or unnecessary spacing. I don’t know how to use fancy fonts other than the ones in the normal dropdown menu. You can do whatever you want, as long as I’m able to read it without my eyes hurting.

9. Please don’t kill my muse without my permission. Ask first. It’s just rude not to.

10. I ship chemistry. I’m not going to force my muse on anyone who doesn’t want him, and that doesn’t just go for sex and romance. That being said, I play him as being bisexual and he can be a flirt. If your muse isn’t interested, tell me. If your muse is interested, tell me!

11. Likes are fine, but please do not reblog my roleplay threads if you’re not my partner. It clogs up the notes and makes it hard for me to find replies.

12. I don’t do drama. I’m not here to make enemies or get involved in discourse. I’m here to dick around and have fun. If you’re looking for trouble, do me a favor and go somewhere else.

13. Don’t try and start shit with my friends. If you have a problem with them, you have a problem with me. I’ve known most of them for years now and I trust and love them deeply.

14. If you are a TERF, homophobe, biphobe, acephobe, racist, antisemite, any other sort of bigot, or you support Ambe.r H.ea.rd, get the fuck off my blog. You will see no mercy from my block button.

15. I don’t send in passwords. If I can find your rules on mobile, I read them. Sometimes over and over again. Sometimes I revisit them just to make sure I remember them correctly. But if you follow me and you have a password in your rules, I’m not following you back. Sorry. Messes with my anxiety brain.

[immortallibrarians]

1. No Godmodding. I play my character, you play yours, NPCs are fair game!

2. NSFW content will be present. I’ll tag triggers, but not NSFW. I don’t do smut unless it’s with someone I trust and know extremely well, but I’ll write most of what leads up to it. (Making out, getting handsy, etc.) If things get to a point where I’m no longer comfortable writing, I’ll probably request a timeskip or fade out.

3. Mun does not equal muse.

4. As I said I tag triggers. The tagging system I use is (trigger tw) with no parentheses. If there is a specific trigger you would like me to tag, shoot me a DM. I don’t have many triggers, aside from graphic motor vehicle accidents.

5. I have a job that stresses me the fuck out. Five days a week. Unpredictable timing. I don’t always have the spoons to be online and/or productive. I might disappear for days/weeks/months on end. That isn’t my intention, of course, but it’s happened before and it’s likely to happen again. Please be patient with me. If it’s been a while since my last reply, shoot me a DM, but please be respectful about it.

6. If you send Anon hate, you’re a coward. Say it to my face or don’t say it at all.

7. Constructive criticism is always welcome! Just don’t be an ass about it. I do research my muses before attempting to play them, and while I don’t know everything about libraries or pocket dimensions, I don’t need anyone trying to subject me to an involuntary game of Um, Actually.

8. I don’t format my posts a whole lot beyond bold, italics, strikethroughs, and/or fun colors, and I probably won’t always use icons. I do try to cut my posts, but I mainly am on mobile, so I may forget from time to time. I don’t like using small text or unnecessary spacing. I don’t know how to use fancy fonts other than the ones in the normal dropdown menu. You can do whatever you want, as long as I’m able to read it without my eyes hurting.

9. Please don’t kill Leo or Rilien without my permission. Ask first. It’s just rude not to.

10. I ship chemistry. I’m not going to force my muses on anyone who doesn’t want them, and that doesn’t just go for sex and romance. That being said, flirtation will probably happen. If your muse isn’t interested, tell me. If your muse is interested, tell me!

11. Likes are fine, but please do not reblog my roleplay threads if you’re not my partner. It clogs up the notes and makes it hard for me to find replies.

12. I don’t do drama. I’m not here to make enemies or get involved in discourse. I’m here to dick around and have fun. If you’re looking for trouble, do me a favor and go somewhere else.

13. Don’t try and start shit with my friends. If you have a problem with them, you have a problem with me. I’ve known most of them for years now and I trust and love them deeply.

14. If you are a TERF, homophobe, biphobe, acephobe, racist, antisemite, any other sort of bigot, or you support Ambe.r H.ea.rd, get the fuck off my blog. You will see no mercy from my block button.

15. I don’t send in passwords. If I can find your rules on mobile, I read them. Sometimes over and over again. Sometimes I revisit them just to make sure I remember them correctly. But if you follow me and you have a password in your rules, I’m not following you back. Sorry. Messes with my anxiety brain.

[mechanakin]

1. No Godmodding. I play my character, you play yours, NPCs are fair game!

2. NSFW content will be present. I’ll tag triggers, but not NSFW. I don’t do smut unless it’s with someone I trust and know extremely well, but I’ll write most of what leads up to it. (Making out, getting handsy, etc.) If things get to a point where I’m no longer comfortable writing, I’ll probably request a timeskip or fade out.

3. Mun does not equal muse.

4. As I said I tag triggers. The tagging system I use is (trigger tw) with no parentheses. If there is a specific trigger you would like me to tag, shoot me a DM. I don’t have many triggers, aside from graphic motor vehicle accidents.

5. I have a job that stresses me the fuck out. Five days a week. Unpredictable timing. I don’t always have the spoons to be online and/or productive. I might disappear for days/weeks/months on end. That isn’t my intention, of course, but it’s happened before and it’s likely to happen again. Please be patient with me. If it’s been a while since my last reply, shoot me a DM, but please be respectful about it.

6. If you send Anon hate, you’re a coward. Say it to my face or don’t say it at all.

7. Constructive criticism is always welcome! Just don’t be an ass about it. I do research my muses before attempting to play them, and while I don’t know everything about Star Wars, I don’t need anyone trying to subject me to an involuntary game of Um, Actually.

8. I don’t format my posts a whole lot beyond bold, italics, strikethroughs, and/or fun colors, and I probably won’t always use icons. I do try to cut my posts, but I mainly am on mobile, so I may forget from time to time. I don’t like using small text or unnecessary spacing. I don’t know how to use fancy fonts other than the ones in the normal dropdown menu. You can do whatever you want, as long as I’m able to read it without my eyes hurting.

9. Please don’t kill Anakin without my permission. Ask first. It’s just rude not to.

10. I ship chemistry. I’m not going to force my muse on anyone who doesn’t want him, and that doesn’t just go for sex and romance. That being said, I play him as being bisexual and he can be a flirt. If your muse isn’t interested, tell me. If your muse is interested, tell me!

11. Likes are fine, but please do not reblog my roleplay threads if you’re not my partner. It clogs up the notes and makes it hard for me to find replies.

12. I don’t do drama. I’m not here to make enemies or get involved in discourse. I’m here to dick around and have fun. If you’re looking for trouble, do me a favor and go somewhere else.

13. Don’t try and start shit with my friends. If you have a problem with them, you have a problem with me. I’ve known most of them for years now and I trust and love them deeply.

14. If you are a TERF, homophobe, biphobe, acephobe, racist, antisemite, any other sort of bigot, or you support Ambe.r H.ea.rd, get the fuck off my blog. You will see no mercy from my block button.

15. I don’t send in passwords. If I can find your rules on mobile, I read them. Sometimes over and over again. Sometimes I revisit them just to make sure I remember them correctly. But if you follow me and you have a password in your rules, I’m not following you back. Sorry. Messes with my anxiety brain.

[antlersandrage]

Rules

1. No Godmodding. I play my character, you play yours, NPCs are fair game!

2. NSFW content will be present. I’ll tag triggers, but not NSFW. I don’t do smut unless it’s with someone I trust and know extremely well, but I’ll write most of what leads up to it. (Making out, getting handsy, etc.) If things get to a point where I’m no longer comfortable writing, I’ll probably request a timeskip or fade out.

3. Mun does not equal muse. Gaston is an arrogant and obsessive asshole, but that doesn’t mean I condone everything he does.

4. As I said I tag triggers. The tagging system I use is (trigger tw) with no parentheses. If there is a specific trigger you would like me to tag, shoot me a DM. I don’t have many triggers, aside from graphic motor vehicle accidents.

5. I have a job that stresses me the fuck out. Five days a week. Unpredictable timing. I don’t always have the spoons to be online and/or productive. I might disappear for days/weeks/months on end. That isn’t my intention, of course, but it’s happened before and it’s likely to happen again. Please be patient with me. If it’s been a while since my last reply, shoot me a DM, but please be respectful about it.

6. If you send Anon hate, you’re a coward. Say it to my face or don’t say it at all.

7. Constructive criticism is always welcome! Just don’t be an ass about it. I do research my muses before attempting to play them, and while I don’t know everything about Beauty and the Beast, I don’t need anyone trying to subject me to an involuntary game of Um, Actually.

8. I don’t format my posts a whole lot beyond bold, italics, strikethroughs, and/or fun colors, and I probably won’t always use icons. I do try to cut my posts, but I mainly am on mobile, so I may forget from time to time. I don’t like using small text or unnecessary spacing. I don’t know how to use fancy fonts other than the ones in the normal dropdown menu. You can do whatever you want, as long as I’m able to read it without my eyes hurting.

9. Please don’t kill Gaston without my permission. Ask first. It’s just rude not to.

10. I ship chemistry. I’m not going to force my muse on anyone who doesn’t want him, and that doesn’t just go for sex and romance. That being said, I play him as being closeted bisexual and he’s a massive flirt. If your muse isn’t interested, tell me. If your muse is interested, tell me!

11. Likes are fine, but please do not reblog my roleplay threads if you’re not my partner. It clogs up the notes and makes it hard for me to find replies.

12. I don’t do drama. I’m not here to make enemies or get involved in discourse. I’m here to dick around and have fun. If you’re looking for trouble, do me a favor and go somewhere else.

13. Don’t try and start shit with my friends. If you have a problem with them, you have a problem with me. I’ve known most of them for years now and I trust and love them deeply.

14. If you are a TERF, homophobe, biphobe, acephobe, racist, antisemite, any other sort of bigot, or you support Ambe.r H.ea.rd, get the fuck off my blog. You will see no mercy from my block button.

[walkthroughtrees]

Rules

1. No Godmodding. I play my character, you play yours, NPCs are fair game!

2. NSFW content will be present. I’ll tag triggers, but not NSFW. I don’t do smut unless it’s with someone I trust and know extremely well, but I’ll write most of what leads up to it. (Making out, getting handsy, etc.) If things get to a point where I’m no longer comfortable writing, I’ll probably request a timeskip or fade out.

3. Mun does not equal muse. Ash is usually a good bean, but that doesn’t mean I condone everything he does.

4. As I said I tag triggers. The tagging system I use is (trigger tw) with no parentheses. If there is a specific trigger you would like me to tag, shoot me a DM. I don’t have many triggers, aside from graphic motor vehicle accidents.

5. I have a job that stresses me the fuck out. Five days a week. Unpredictable timing. I don’t always have the spoons to be online and/or productive. I might disappear for days/weeks/months on end. That isn’t my intention, of course, but it’s happened before and it’s likely to happen again. Please be patient with me. If it’s been a while since my last reply, shoot me a DM, but please be respectful about it.

6. If you send Anon hate, you’re a coward. Say it to my face or don’t say it at all.

7. Constructive criticism is always welcome! Just don’t be an ass about it. I do research my muses before attempting to play them, and while I don’t know everything about botany, I don’t need anyone trying to subject me to an involuntary game of Um, Actually.

8. I don’t format my posts a whole lot beyond bold, italics, strikethroughs, and/or fun colors, and I probably won’t always use icons. I do try to cut my posts, but I mainly am on mobile, so I may forget from time to time. I don’t like using small text or unnecessary spacing. I don’t know how to use fancy fonts other than the ones in the normal dropdown menu. You can do whatever you want, as long as I’m able to read it without my eyes hurting.

9. Please don’t kill Ash without my permission. Ask first. It’s just rude not to.

10. I ship chemistry. I’m not going to force my muse on anyone who doesn’t want him, and that doesn’t just go for sex and romance. That being said, I play him as being bisexual and he can be a flirt at times. If your muse isn’t interested, tell me. If your muse is interested, tell me!

11. Likes are fine, but please do not reblog my roleplay threads if you’re not my partner. It clogs up the notes and makes it hard for me to find replies.

12. I don’t do drama. I’m not here to make enemies or get involved in discourse. I’m here to dick around and have fun. If you’re looking for trouble, do me a favor and go somewhere else.

13. Don’t try and start shit with my friends. If you have a problem with them, you have a problem with me. I’ve known most of them for years now and I trust and love them deeply.

14. If you are a TERF, homophobe, biphobe, acephobe, racist, antisemite, any other sort of bigot, or you support Ambe.r H.ea.rd, get the fuck off my blog. You will see no mercy from my block button.

[puckishley]

Rules

1. No Godmodding. I play my character, you play yours, NPCs are fair game!

2. NSFW content will be present. I’ll tag triggers, but not NSFW. I don’t do smut unless it’s with someone I trust and know extremely well, but I’ll write most of what leads up to it. (Making out, getting handsy, etc.) If things get to a point where I’m no longer comfortable writing, I’ll probably request a timeskip or fade out.

3. Mun does not equal muse. Puck has a very colorful past, and while it can be fun to write about, that doesn’t mean I condone everything that he did or does.

4. As I said I tag triggers. The tagging system I use is (trigger tw) with no parentheses. If there is a specific trigger you would like me to tag, shoot me a DM. I don’t have many triggers, aside from graphic motor vehicle accidents.

5. I have a job that stresses me the fuck out. Five days a week. Unpredictable timing. I don’t always have the spoons to be online and/or productive. I might disappear for days/weeks/months on end. That isn’t my intention, of course, but it’s happened before and it’s likely to happen again. Please be patient with me. If it’s been a while since my last reply, shoot me a DM, but please be respectful about it.

6. If you send Anon hate, you’re a coward. Say it to my face or don’t say it at all.

7. Constructive criticism is always welcome! Just don’t be an ass about it. I do research my muses before attempting to play them, and while I don’t know everything about Shakespeare, I don’t need anyone trying to subject me to an involuntary game of Um, Actually.

8. I don’t format my posts a whole lot beyond bold, italics, strikethroughs, and/or fun colors, and I probably won’t always use icons. I do try to cut my posts, but I mainly am on mobile, so I may forget from time to time. I don’t like using small text or unnecessary spacing. I don’t know how to use fancy fonts other than the ones in the normal dropdown menu. You can do whatever you want, as long as I’m able to read it without my eyes hurting.

9. Please don’t kill Puck without my permission. Ask first. It’s just rude not to.

10. I ship chemistry. I’m not going to force my muse on anyone who doesn’t want him, and that doesn’t just go for sex and romance. That being said, I play him as being pansexual and he can be a flirt when the mood strikes him. If your muse isn’t interested, tell me. If your muse is interested, tell me!

11. Likes are fine, but please do not reblog my roleplay threads if you’re not my partner. It clogs up the notes and makes it hard for me to find replies.

12. I don’t do drama. I’m not here to make enemies or get involved in discourse. I’m here to dick around and have fun. If you’re looking for trouble, do me a favor and go somewhere else.

13. Don’t try and start shit with my friends. If you have a problem with them, you have a problem with me. I’ve known most of them for years now and I trust and love them deeply.

14. If you are a TERF, homophobe, biphobe, acephobe, racist, antisemite, any other sort of bigot, or you support Ambe.r H.ea.rd, get the fuck off my blog. You will see no mercy from my block button. I support Johnn.y D.epp in most things, and I use him as Puck’s FC because he fits the character well. I’m not gonna stop because of your bullshit, so don’t even start.

[psychotic-tbh]

All are welcome here, except the people on this list.

Please do not interact if:

You know me personally or feel like you might. This account is very personal, and I don’t want it to affect any of my relationships. (Exceptions can be made, but please ask.)

You deny the existence and/or validity of mental illness and the struggles that relate to them, or are anti any illness or disability/romanticize any disability without having it, or against accommodations. This includes those against folks with PDs, and those who are obsessively anti-endo.

You are looking for a diagnosis based on anything I post. (I am no professional on diagnoses, simply someone with lived experiences. The only exception I see fit is if you’re looking to relate to the experiences of others.)

You have discourse labels on your Dni (I want this to be a safe place for people of all non-extremist beliefs,) OR you plan on bringing discourse of any kind to this blog. This also applies to my DMs.

You’re a minor and you flirt with adults, or adults who flirt with minors. Which reminds me…

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You post or openly interact with triggering content of any type (this includes abuse-centered ships, pro-ed, unreality, and other types of content that likely trigger mental illness—exception: ventcore accounts and accounts like them).

You support any type of violence.

You fetishise yanderes. (Respectful and non abusive yan blogs are fine)

You enforce gender roles.

You’re anti-recovery (anti-psychiatry is fine, anti-recovery is not something I want to see).

If I’m on your DNI? Don’t interact! If you have “men dni” or anything similar on your blog from now on you will be blocked if you interact.

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Forced transition or detransition blogs, blogs that promote that, etc. (This includes forced masc/fem.)

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NS//FW Blogs

[witchcraftingboop]

Re: Jbird & RainS. (Briar) Discourse

Previously, I have spoken with the person who made very serious allegations against JBird, calling him a racist, that were then used by others to spread slander against him. They have since apologized and admitted that JBird isn't a racist, and I genuinely think there was a stark miscommunication that went on to prompt such a claim. I don't want to name them or involve them here, since I do believe they've already reflected enough on the situation at hand, and is still deeply considering the multi-faceted hornet's nest of problems they've stumbled upon.

However, in light of the blatant dismissal and refusal to submit actual proof against the two, I feel as if I should share the information I offered this person before.

If you are basing your arguments against Jbird and Briar off of the previous, separate Discord group discussions of Trio & co. - screenshots of which have been, and continue to be spread years later, by Prim - then I especially implore you to be open to what I have to say. As a third party to this continually and rapidly spiralling debacle, I feel like there's not much I can say or do to assist my friends in being heard, but I feel as if I ought to try. Prim's following is large and actively prepared to follow her "do not interact even to ask questions" policy, so I worry it may be too late already. But I am not without hope or faith.

Tumblr is, unfortunately, a place where hate spreads rapidly, and while I do love the broad community it fosters, I am also aware that, even with the best of folks, it is hard to see the side of someone you've already decided is guilty and not worth approaching for an explanation.

First and foremost, I believe in innocence until proven guilty.

Now then! Onto my offered commentary/input! (Sorry to prattle on so much.)

To start, thedesertgod, also known as Trio, did go through and look for her personal information, which is messed up. But that person has already apologized, if I'm remembering correctly, and left Tumblr. And the other main user who helped spread information about Prim being a race faker also admitted wrong and left. The others in the chat, particularly Mystic and Ronan appear to just be making jokes and stating factual informative summaries, respectively. E-muete also said "ok no" after the Dolezal comment, which is a common "no that's too far a comparison/joke/statement" substitute among their forums and chats and often means they don't actually agree with what they themselves said. Ruby also politely reminds Trio that it's impossible to tell someone's race off of their appearance alone. So what I see here is definitely problematic, but entirely on Trio's part. I'm not saying it's not screwed up to find pictures of someone's parents and debate their race, but the persons who did those things have already left the Tumblrsphere.

Unfortunately, the people you've pointed out don't have a good history with Prim even before the whole "Trio nitpicking her race" thing. Prim used to follow more than a few of them and use their posts to fuel her platform, oftentimes creating uninformed mish-mosh articles with a voice of authority that simply wasn't warranted. As I'm sure you're aware, it's hard enough dealing with people stealing your content word for word, but to attempt to steal your knowledge? Your initiations and rites of passage? And use them to sell yourself as a master of a breadth of practices? The tradcrafters of that particular circle decided to band together and block her from interacting with them directly for that very reason. And because of that, Prim started telling her followers that they are all racist and elitist and ableist and gatekeepers. These terms over the years have become almost like triggers in that once they're said, everyone seems to put on a blindfold and fall into a frenzied rage. And to be fair, Prim is far too quick, in my opinion, to bring up racism as the reason others disagree with her. Most times, I've noticed at least, that if she calls someone racist or says they're unsupportive of POC, she nearly immediately brings up BLM activism in her posts or reblogs. I'm not saying I necessarily support calling all of her activistic inclinations performative, but where the tradcradt group she calls racist is more than willing to talk of and show proof of their contribution, Prim never has and avoids it if asked. I can see both sides, really. But the fact remains that calling someone performative in their actions, does not a racist make. Neither, in my opinion, does interacting with people who are assumed (without real and concrete proof) to be racist.

I can appreciate where you're coming from; honestly, I can. People have grown accustomed to hearing the prefix trad- and preparing for the worst. Racism is a systematic and prevailing problem in the society all around us, so it makes sense to be on the lookout for it. You want to protect yourself and your community. I can understand your sentiments perfectly. But I cannot support "guilty by association" viewpoints. As a WOC who grew up in some rough areas, I have seen boys killed under that very same reasoning. Jbird is a good friend of mine, and I have never questioned his morals or ethics. I have seen no sign of my being looked down upon for the color of my skin, nor anyone else who runs in that very same circle.

What I see is what I see in a lot of faces on this hellsite: hurt. Before Trio and after Trio left, the tradcraft community has been slandered and ostracized. They have shut themselves off to outsiders for the very thing you've done to Jbird just yesterday. They hold their secrets closer than most other communities now because persecution is seemingly forever at their door. On Prim's end too, there has been struggle and pain and needless arguing and hurt. If those you approach seem prickly, it is often because the world has roughened their edges, not because they personally are against you.

I asked for a couple examples from the group and one person (I'll keep them anonymous because I didn't confirm they'd like their name here) said: she has talked about saint magic (trio), hadean pamphlet (trio), hubris (Ruby), fairies, trad craft shit (Mahigan among others), etc etc

From what I personally have seen, her most recent was the Witch Fire podcast. A few tradcraft blogs had a debate/discussion about Witch Fire and its traditional eurocentric foundations in witchcraft not that long ago, and then Prim decided to put out a podcast that was so uninformed, I'm still worried about how younger or newer witches might be hurt by it.

Unfortunately the tradcraft community is vulnerable to that kind of thing [being called names or falsely accused] and an easy target. That's why being called those kind of harsh words - like gatekeeping, elitist, racist, and ableist - are met with so much anger from them. I take it very seriously because I've seen the kind of whiplash it has, especially on such a closed off group.

[A Reply.] Yeah no, Prim "apologizes" by talking about how she's been previously given a hard time with interjections of "but please don't go around spreading hate" and never directly apologizes to the tradcrafter in such posts. Unfortunately, her "apology" did more harm than good. I was hoping she'd just ignore it but . . . This tends to happen too 🤦‍♀️

I think that if both sides were able to approach it as openmindedly as you have, there would be a lot less drama and in-fighting on this app 😩 I really did enjoy talking with you though!

That just about covers everything I'd like to say on the matter.

I do not condone spreading hate, just as I don't condone misinformation or blind allegiance to what one person says. So if you can respectfully and openmindedly address your questions/comments/concerns, I don't see why you can't interact with Briar, Jbird, or myself. I understand it's easy to get caught up in the first perspective you're given, but it is my hope that Witchblr as a whole can be more open to hearing both sides of the story. Blindly blocking and cancelling certain bloggers is something I don't support nor encourage. I understand Prim must be tired of addressing all of the drama that churns around her, so I won't speak as to what her reasoning could be for suggesting such a solution. I'm simply stating what I hope for the community as a whole.

| | Note: The statements above were written early (I think, my sense of time is off) yesterday, and as of yet, I have still seen no concrete evidence that Briar or Jbird have ever made racist comments. On Briar's part, I have seen her observation that activism on a performative platform such as Tumblr can come off as performative, but she never once said she doesn't know or see why Prim would support and promote BLM activism. Something I think was misconstrued and lumped all together to sound as if she thought Prim were faking her contributions altogether. | |

[savnofilter]

TW: MENTIONS OF DISCOURSE, GR//MING, P/D/PHILIA, ASS//LT, C//NSENT, D//RK CONTENT.

- this isnt under a read more because i want people to read this, but please read past this/tread carefully if you cannot handle such topics. this is not meant to be interacted with.

I'm not sure how to really go about this. I've been overthinking if I should address this and bring up some stuff while I've been gone, so sorry the absence. I deleted the tumblr app a few days ago and I downloaded it again today so i could post this. I really don't like making posts like this because it cuts the vibe that I've been trying to portray that everything is okay and it makes me feel really disconnected to you guys. I am sorry for the abrupt absence and cutting off any source of communication between us. I knew if I left any form of direct line of talk to me that I would receive hate and I just mentally decided that I cant sit through being harassed right now.

Have you guys ever paid attention to the same people who always have a statement to say or is always in discourse? It's very telling how everyone can post about me, but I shouldnt dare post about them. I'm tired of not being able to post about what I want without people vague posting about me, bringing me up every time they start another discourse with another writer or directly talking about me. My days on here are starting to feel the same. Its good then it goes bad. Good goes bad and bad goes good. It's not even tiring, annoying, or angering -- its repetitive. When I'm not saying anything people create fake stories about me, and when i speak about it im the one starting discourse. Don't get me wrong, I'm nowhere near perfect and I have made my own mistakes. But why the fuck am I always being told to be the mature one, why am I the one who should've done better, why do you people expect so much from me. It's the fact people are always quick to say, "no one cares about you, youre fishing for attention" when they're the ones who vague and interact with me while ive been minding my business for months now. Hm. The fact people have me proudly blocked but still harass me anyways shows a lot about themselves than it does for me. How its such an issue that im a minor until it comes to demonizing, tearing down my character, gaslighting, lying and bullying. I'm a literal example of how their friend group manipulates their followers and exiles people from fandoms for not kissing their ass. except now its in your face.

Consider this my last post about this discourse. I'm not going to waste my time on people who fail to digest other peoples thoughts and opinions time and time again because theyre weak narcissists. If I so choose to decide to shit post my opinions or argue with someone, none of you should be aggravated or moved by it because youre not even supposed to be on my page. If its not something serious i will not be wasting energy that i can be using to build on myself as a growing person than on miserable old ladies that have to use fanfiction to have excitement in their pity, depressing and lackluster lives. If people so do choose to create stories or vague about me, I do not care. So I ask respectfully to people who do lurk on my page to not attempt to message, post or vague about me please. This includes sending anons to yourself to make shit happen.

Past that, something got me thinking. My (older) friend had showed me screenshots of adult writers (no one i have spoken to) that were very excited to write underaged reader with adult characters. There are other instances where writers (that you have probably read from) on here openly made reader underage while aging characters up as adults/with adults. There are many more but there's really no point in listing them nor do I really care. But least to say, the same people who are gung-ho over these pedophilic themes/stories are the same people who support predatory people.

I've been thinking about whether or not i should continue writing for the students anymore. Granted, I still think they're attractive because one snap of the fingers cant stop that. I had been teetering on this thought for awhile because of how borderline pedophilic the people are here towards my age group. I enjoy writing but not to the point of willingly being in a straight line of sight where people who are well over 16 are harassing me and lurking on my page, especially to other minors solely because they are my friends. Backtracking to the statement before, I honestly dont know if I will either stop writing or just for the students as a whole. It shows that clearly some people are using their attraction to teens with the excuse that the characters are fake. The rapid normalization on dark problematic "kinks" is disgusting and vile, and the fact that its discourse now to shame said interests is appalling. Concluding that combined with my experiences here, i feel unsafe.

***(TRIGGER WARNING)*** I dont talk about my personal life on here that much cause I dont see the need too nor do i think its anyone's business. Paired with the fact that the people i have trusted personal information with have used it against me, I will be preventing myself from opening that door. Besides that for now, I have sparsely shared I've been assaulted before. This is my first time really opening up about this and i kind of find it necessary now. Coming from someone who has been a victim of assault and CP by people my age and well over, writing nsfw has been the only way where I could feel comfortable with sex in general. I won't get into details because mentioning this is triggering already and can make people uncomfortable. It feels like anywhere I go, I'm constantly putting myself in a position to be abused. The same people who told me I didn't have to worry about my age and be judged for it, exposed the minimum comfort of keeping myself private online to demonize, judge and hurt me. People call me "extra" for being distraught about my face and age being posted because they think im trying to be sneaky which isn't the case. Its the principle that they KNEW I wasnt ready to share said things, and coming from someone who is inherently a private and closed person, she knew damn well what she was doing when posting screenshots of me on Tumblr. There is no excuse for it. The same writers who write dub/non-con can BARELY understand basic consent and its fucking terrifying. This site was the only other place I could cope without being criticized. To see people who some i was close to proudly lie on my name, (adults) say that i sent them pornographic content without their consent is so very hurtful. To watch people supposedly be victims and then use their own trauma to invalidate my own was so fucking humiliating, disgusting and nerve wracking. Although I knew I made the terrible decision to interact with stories, I have never initiated any NSFW discussion with anyone in DMs unless they did it with me first and a few times -- and trust me raise your hand I'll show you the proof. I was sure that everyone I talked to regularly knew that I was a minor, and to my general consensus, people were under the impression I was 15/16 (which I was and am).***

Whether it be victim blaming from the grooming discourse, I've been met with racism, harassment towards my friends, people wanting me to harm myself and be assaulted. I fear what will happen when i will turn 18, if the harassment will escalate and what not. A big part of me is that I'm still here anyways because it pisses people off and I don't care when I receive hate. I can take it but I don't want it. A good conscious of me knows that I should be doing what's best for me but at the end I'm still attached to my ego-self with the added fact that I sincerely enjoy interacting with my followers and posting stories.

I just don't know how the options look. I'll probably be updating my blog rules as of right now. I've been writing more sfw lately because of this and it'd be nice if you guys supported those until I properly decide. I still have plenty of requests of a bunch of characters (mostly Bakugo and Dabi) and original stuff (all sfw & nsfw) that I really wanna share with you guys. But I just ask that what I do modify that you will respect it like you would to any other writer on here.

Stay safe, keep your mask on, and thank you.

[hxdrostorm]

𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐝

Indie. Selective. Private (mutuals only), +18. Multimuse. Multifandom.

@ non RP blogs that stumble upon my posts: Hello there, I see you guys! I see that my posts are showing up in the characters’ main tags, as a result of the way I’ve made my tags in combination with how Tumblr’s search system now functions! Unfortunately, there isn’t anything I can do about it. While I don’t mind you guys seeing/liking the things I put out, or even following me for that matter. All I ask is for you to not reblog my posts, in fact, I’d much rather if you guys just straight up blocked me. Also for the love of everything, keep your rude messages to yourself, anything of that nature will be deleted on sight! I’m not here to waste my time on some mindless discourse, I’m not interested in hearing how much you disagree with my takes or how it diverges from the canon or the popular fanons.

**THIS IS A +18 YEARS OLD BLOG** (due to a wide variety of subjects  that aren’t suitable for minors. IDC how close you’re to your birthday, this blog is for 18 and up ppl). MINORS AND AGELESS BLOGS WILL BE SOFTBLOCKED, REFOLLOWING ME WILL LEAD INTO BLOCKING. I WILL ONLY WRITE WITH AND FOLLOW +20 y/o MUNS.

**This is mandatory**: You must have a rules page/doc/whatever. If you don’t have one set up, then I won’t even bother with your blog.

Here’s my threads tracker! (please consider supporting the dev’s work on patreon!)

Rules highlights: (READ MORE BC OF THE LENGTH)

@ Star wars blogs: My blog contains cloneshipping content (writing only. Blacklist cloneshipping cw). If that’s a deal breaker to you then, just block me. Read my disclaimers here!

If I ever end up making you feel uncomfortable, for WHATEVER reason, LET ME KNOW. Without a doubt it was all a matter of genuine mistake.

I reserve the right to unfollow and block anyone, I don’t owe an explanation for doing so. Do not evade it, nor send people after me in an attempt to score an answer for you. If you find out you’ve been blocked by me, move on like any other person would.

The same goes out to anyone following me, who wishes to break mutuals with! Block and unfollow to your heart’s content, IDC what you do in order to feel well. I’d much prefer being softblocked, so I don’t end up sending prompts or interacting with your posts/blog, without realising we no longer were mutuals.

There’s no pressure when it comes to interacting with my muses. As in, if you’re only looking to interact with one out of all the other options? I’m cool with that. The choice is yours, I’ll obviously try to offer as many as I can see fit for us. But I’ll never force anything upon anyone. And on that note: All I ask in return is to respect my grading system for muses (primary, secondary & tertiary/friends only stuff)! As mentioned in the directory, while I don’t mind HC asks aimed at those tertiary muses. Interactions and plots are reserved only for my long-time partners or friends!

Reblog karma is in effect, if I reblog a prompt from you I will send in something back. And I expect the same from you, if you do nothing but reblog memes directly from me without sending anything back, you will be blocked. I have a tolerance when it comes to mutuals, I’ll contact you to stop with it. However, I have zero tolerance for non-mutuals.  

Just don’t be a dick man, let’s all be civil around here.

I am NOT fictionkin nor self-insert friendly, I’ve had way too many bad run ins with those folks, and want nothing to do with them! Mun =/= Muse, if you can’t understand that concept then leave.I’m NOT my muses, and I’m not here to judge anyone or fulfill anyone’s fantasies like that.

Non-mutuals: please refrain from sending prompts that have been  specifically tagged/marked as ‘mutuals’. They have been marked in such  way, for a reason. I get you may want to draw my attention to your blog,  however, that’s not the way to go about it (If you do this, I’ll likely  take it as an attempt to brute force your way into my boundaries. DMing  me is a whole lot better.). I take a while to follow people back, you can find more info in regards to  what I look into people’s blogs & take into consideration before  following back in my rules doc.    

I’m strongly against the idea of “if we’re mutuals, then we’re immediately friends!” (as it promotes an unhealthy sense of overfamiliarity, and it has put me in awkward situations in the past).So please, don’t go around calling me a friend, unless we’ve known each other and have been in constant contact for quite some time. It’s nothing against anyone, that’s just how I roll.

On following: If I don’t get followed back after an week or so, I’ll take that as the person’s way of saying they aren’t interested and I’ll unfollow!

[thebirbiest]

Swinging back into Qrow Branwen! Before we get started, let’s touch base on a few points of important detail.

x. Qrow is, and will always be, canon-divergent. I’m fine roleplaying certain aspects of canon, but please understand that anything beyond V7 (unless stated or discussed otherwise) will not be portrayed on this blog. The mun really has not been vibing with the canon material, and that has made it really difficult to swing back into roleplaying. Hoping to avoid that going forward!

x. Anyone hoping (or trying) to spread hate as anonymous senders on this blog will find themselves blocked, and the inbox closed. Please keep this in mind! Spread love, not hate. Thank you.

x. This is a Pro-Ozpin blog. Ozpin hasn’t always made the best choices, but neither has Qrow, and I am willing to roleplay discourse when it’s discussed first. Please understand, however, that the Qrow present on this blog does not hate Ozpin in any fashion. Do not throw my character into a position where suddenly, it’s “hating Ozpin hours.” You will find yourself soft blocked. Having mixed feelings and upsets, in regards to your own character about Ozpin, are an exception for obvious reasons.

x. Qrow is birb dad. Period. Any attempt to try and ship him with any of his “adoptive” children, will lead to an immediate block.

x. This blog will contain salt. #sorrynotsorry, but you can block the tag appropriately: [[salt]] or salt

x. This blog is open to shipping! While I run exclusively with @ozcarpin‘s Ozpin, and wish to remind you that this is the blog-canon in all regards, I am a mun of many ships. Just please hmu before you’d like to go down that road, so we can appropriately discuss and tag!

x. If you are here seeking out a Qrow Branwen who hates both Ozpin and James, you’ve come to the wrong place. I’m totally fine with the dude having some minor upsets, and maybe even getting into an argument or two. I am fine with tension, and I am fine with conflict. I am just not fine with the way that it was portrayed and/or handled within canon. You all do you! Enjoy what you love and take pride in that! If you respect my opinions, then I’ll respect yours! Just please don’t swing in here looking for a fight. Qrow & mun will not give it to you (should it be about dissing Oz and/or James).

x. Last, but not least, there will be zero tolerance for drama and/or negative behavior. This includes from myself. Going forward, this will be a drama-free blog, that is safe and open to everyone. The mun is more than capable of using a block button when applicable, and will not hesitate to do so when confronted with negativity. 

Thank you very much for your time and I hope we can have ourselves a wonderful roleplay experience. Please understand, mun really tries their best to be a positive and good person, so you are all welcome, at any time, to slide into my DM’s or inbox should you have any concerns or questions! Just wanted to kinda air this out before diving back into the blog.

♡ Birb ♡

[whattaloser]

Why I’m a Leftist

I know I’m probably just some dude who reblogs cool stuff to most of my followers but I’ve got a nice long story/rant about my political beliefs here that I’ve been wanting to write for awhile

I am a leftist first and foremost because I value human life. Everyone matters. No person is inherently more important than another person. Everyone has inherent rights that should not be infringed. People who infringe on other’s rights are morally wrong to do so. In essence my leftism is based on doing what is right. Obviously everyone has their own opinion on what is right but what is vitally important is knowing why your moral code is right. This is why so many people become liberals or conservatives or otherwise rather than leftists. They simply do not know enough about how the world works. There are a lot of reasons they don’t know, not the least of which is intentional covering up history and preventing education. I don’t believe people who aren’t leftists are stupid, but I do believe leftists know more. It’s kinda fucked up but it’s the only way you can explain inconsistencies in other’s values.

My path to leftism was full of cringe. When i was 7 years old Al Gore was running against George Bush for president. I did not know enough to have a real opinion on it but I am happy to say that I wanted Al Gore to win. This thought was based on very little if any logical reason. I basically flipped a coin in my head I think. Or maybe there was some outside influence that I wasn’t aware of, like my older sister who I looked up to might have said she liked Al gore. Either way, from then on I was in favor of democrats and did not like George Bush. When 9/11 happened I remembered thinking how dumb it was that people lined up around the block to get gas. Even as a child I knew that some buildings going down wasn’t going to end the great nation of the United States. In general I thought the United States was a great country. I knew from movies and tv as well as elementary school history that the United States was the most powerful country in the world. 

I recall in Sixth grade my teacher mentioned she liked George Bush because he was against gay marriage. Somehow at the time my opinion was the opposite despite being raised Catholic. I believed in god until I graduated high school and suddenly my desire to be religious slipped away and so did my belief. I do not consider this a great loss. 

Sometime in middle school or early high school I had solidified my opinion that the war in Iraq and Afghanistan was pointless and George Bush was a bad president. I was heavily influenced by movies and somewhat by video games that had imparted plenty of anti-war messages. Talks with my dad about nuclear missiles, watching History channel shows about world war 2, and playing Metal Gear Solid which had explicit nuclear disarmament messages, all informed me on the horrors of war. This was not enough to make me totally anti-military. In high school I wanted to join the military because I thought it was an easy way to get life experience and eventually pay for college. I was attracted to the Marines because of how cool movies like The Rock and video games like Call of Duty made it seem to be a Marine. I thought they were the best of the best. I was simultaneously against war, against veteran worship, and very pro-military. I was indoctrinated by years of government propaganda but also disillusioned by all forms of media including the book All Quiet on the Western Front which was about a soldier becoming disillusioned by witnessing horrors of war and the negative impact it had on everyone in his country. I spoke with a recruiter during my senior year and expressed my desire to be a Marine but I told him I wanted to wait a year after high school so I could get physically fit enough. The recruiter did not care that I was underweight and out of shape. He didn’t even care that I was very enthusiastic about joining, he was still putting on his best salesman demeanor which made me incredibly uneasy. The experience is supposed to pressure people into signing up on the spot, I think they even had forms for me to sign (i can’t really remember though) but I was not ready and was aware enough how I was being manipulated although not entirely cognizant. After that I no longer wanted to be in the military.

I also have to point out that I grew up in an unstable household. My parents were both loving but they were flawed and made mistakes and had problems. My dad was a typical Gen x man’s man. A little bit too emotionally repressed, but actually really good with kids when it came to play time and still is. He worked a lot because my mother couldn’t. My mother has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder as long as I can remember. Her medical bills related to her problems combined with other financially bad decisions by my parents caused my home life to be fraught. I lived in varying degrees of poverty until my parents separated and me and my siblings moved with my mother to her parents’ house away from my father. Prior to moving though, we endured great financial difficulty. We were unable to afford school lunches but could not apply for free or reduced lunches because technically my father made a lot of money, however it was all garnished for medical bills. My father always tells about how he bought a car that had hidden frame damage and when he attempted to sue the dealership for selling a bad car he lost and was garnished for that as well. Despite making over 25 dollars an hour in 1999, my father could not afford school lunches for three kids and couldn’t afford to pay the gas bill. Without going into too much more detail, life sucked and continued to suck until I graduated, at least financially. I still found plenty of joy and it wasn’t always that bad. We still found ways to have good things like video games and we could always rewatch old movies but there’s a lot of psychic weight that comes with being that poor as a child and I’m sure it affects me and my ability to empathize with others who in bad conditions. 

So i watched a lot of movies and documentaries, read a lot of books growing up, discovered internet forums at the age of 11, played video games, moved to a town that had a very large Hispanic population, and I even grew up poor. All of this life experience turned me into a very average liberal upon graduating high school. I was a very optimistic 18 year old. I thought science could save the world. If I was 18 today I would be an average redditor stereotype probably. The point here though is I still wasn’t a leftist. Only vaguely progressive and full of optimism. This is when I got sucked into the anti-feminist pipeline.

I can’t remember what exactly what I had going on in my life but I remember it was around the time of Gamergate. Everyone on the internet, celebrities, and pop culture were saying “if you believe in equality between genders you’re a feminist” an did not like that. And there was a ton of people online to tell me I was right in not liking that. They all said feminism was not necessary anymore because legally you couldn’t discriminate against women and I agreed. Gamergate made it worse for reasons too complicated to get into in this already long post but suffice it say I was “pro Gamergate.” This put me at odds with my closes friends who thought feminism was great and had no qualms with it, and were already embracing the idea of being a “social justice warrior.” Despite reading all kinds of anti-feminist think pieces and reveling in the discourse, I was still very progressive and liberal minded person. Still thought the military was bad, that black people were discriminated against etc. But so many aspects of anti-feminism were appealing to me as a white guy who tried their hardest to do what they’re told is right, had low self esteem, undiagnosed adhd and depression, and a fundamental misunderstanding of what feminism was. Two things got me out of anti-feminism though. The first and most important thing was having friends who were patient with me about it. I didn’t reveal how into anti-feminism I was because I was ashamed but they could sense it and pushed back when they could. The second thing that got me out of it was actually finding feminists online and reading what they had to say, staying away from poorly written clickbait articles that fueled misogynist tirades against feminism. After reading and learning from feminists it finally clicked. Our society is patriarchal and that affects how people interact with each other regardless of what is legal. Many of the complaints of anti-feminism talk about how men have it in society, so how can society be patriarchal. It’s because of patriarchy that men are put in bad positions. Some of the more self aware anti-feminists had retorts against these ideas but they were emotionally charged. There’s still some anti-feminists I have respect for because of how well prepared and logical they were when it came to disputing feminism. But when it came down to the fundamental tenants of feminsim all they could respond with was anger or outright denial of reality. (If you’re like I was and don’t understand how anyone can thing modern feminism is good please feel free to ask me more, I just can’t get into specifics in this long ass post) Anyways, once you understand patriarchy and how it affects an individuals actions then you can start seeing how other institutions and cultural norms can affect an individual. This is basically fundamentals of leftism. I’d say about 90% of my path to leftism was just naturally absorbing cultural and historical information through consumption of media. The most conservative people I know are people who haven’t read very many books or seen very many movies. I’m not saying watching Austin Powers at the age of 10 will make everyone a leftist but constantly recontextualizing the world by learning something new, even if you learned it from some dumb comedy movie, can give you better grounding in a shared reality.  Don’t know how to end this but I want to say when I was a teenager I thought “communism is good in theory but it doesn’t work in practice” and I had almost no historical basis for it other than the vague notion that USSR = bad despite having consumed a massive amount of media. None of it taught me what communism actually was, I didn’t know who Karl Marx was, and I had no clue why communism in the USSR failed. You can know a lot without knowing the truth so if you’re struggling with a loved one who is mind poisoned by conservative keep in mind that they know a lot but they’re missing something important to give clarity. 

This has been my Ted Talk