#(me drunk and possibly ovulating) lol

[ourflagmeansdeth]

pregaming the finale because i’m gonna be too critical of it if i don’t

[sykosomatic]

brain juice has been absorbed!!! how about ftm reader is ovulating, and is just BEGGING to be bred by will and hannibal? his poor pussy is just leaking, and his own fingers arent enough to make him feel good :(

his two lovers take turns breeding him all day, makin sure they pump him full of cum. the poor boy is all overstimulated and ruined by their thick cocks<3

obivously they give him so much aftercare, jus drowning their pretty little boyfriend in priase

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yesyesyesyes!!! this is such a fun request, i hope you have half as much fun reading it as i did writing it lol... here we go!!!

ovulating ftm!reader x will graham and hannibal lecter!

cw: ftm reader, ovulation mention, possible dysphoria, ftm reader gets his breasts fondled/reader is pre- top surgery, double penetration, no condom/cum inside/anal and vaginal creampies, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, praise kink, anal and vaginal fingering, squirting, multiple orgasms, threesome and use of words: cock, t-cock, clit, pussy, cunt, hole, slit, folds… etc etc… and aftercare of course!

you'd been miserably horny all morning, waking up with your pussy already drooling. both of your lovers were busy with work, so that left you in hannibal's sprawling house all alone. you'd tried your fingers all morning; one, two, and three… but nothing worked. you could tell that something was going on; you were only this drippy when you were ovulating. if only will and hannibal were home; but you had to wait a few more hours. so fingering it was. you couldn't remember where you'd put your sex toys when you'd moved into hannibal's house with him. will was thinking about moving in too; he was there enough. he just wanted to make sure there was enough room for his dogs, and a suitable place for all of his fishing gear.

desperate for release, you texted hannibal with one hand, knowing that he only had a couple of appointments today… he'd most likely be home before will. you asked him when he'd be home and he told you what you'd expected; a couple hours.

so you were forced to finger your slick, throbbing pussy all by yourself. you were whiny and frustrated, two fingers in your ass and two in your pussy when hannibal arrived home from his last appointment. he chuckled at you, looking at your position with amusement. as you noticed him, you felt a warmth wash over your skin, making you even more needy.

"so, this is why you needed me so bad," hannibal said with a sly grin, watching you as you slowly continued. you were face-down with one arm beneath you reaching up to finger your pussy, the other arm over your back and reaching to finger your ass. hannibal approached you as you whined out your response, starting to undo his belt and zipper. he pulled you closer to him by your hips; you continued fingering yourself as he dry-humped your bare ass with his clothed cock. you could feel it getting harder as he began grinding against you. "good boy, keep touching yourself for me," hannibal praised, sounding proud of his little whore. "you're so needy today, my love," he purred at you. "i'm not sure if i'll be enough to satisfy you… but then again, i'm sure my needy pet won't be able to wait for will, would he?"

you whimpered, fingering yourself harder. it really wasn't enough, it wouldn't be enough until you had two cocks inside you filling you to the brim with cum. "i need your cock," you whined out, your brain turned to mush in your needy, dick-drunk stupor.

hannibal chuckled, starting to pull his cock out of his underwear. when you pulled your fingers away to make room for him, he made sure you left the ones in your ass. in lieu of a butt plug, you assumed. he pressed the head of his cock against your drooling pussy, slowly pushing it in. his cock was thick, stretching wider than the two fingers you'd had in, but slipping in with ease since you'd worked yourself open already. you groaned out deeply, your free hand gripping the sheets beneath you as he sunk himself into you. "oh, god…" you murmured. his cock was always a treat; it was long, with a nice girth. it always filled you up so deeply. will's cock was shorter, but had a little more girth. the perfect combination of their cocks was hannibal in your pussy and will in your ass; that always made you lose your mind. but for now, you'd have to make do with your fingers instead of will.

hannibal held himself inside you for a moment, holding your hips with one hand while the other reached up and fondled one of your breasts, pinching and teasing at your nipple. "how do you feel now, my darling?" hannibal asked you, watching your blissed-out expression.

"so, so good," you managed to whimper, steadily working up to moving your fingers in your ass again. you stopped once hannibal started moving his hips, your knees starting to get weak and your arm getting tired. you held it in place whule hannibal started to rock his hips into you, thrusting in a way that made your breasts bounce. your face went warm; typically this was very embarrassing for you, but your lovers always made you feel perfect and confident.

"let's get you more comfortable, then," hannibal said, replacing your fingers with his and letting you get into a more comfortable position, fucking into you nice and slow while his fingers massaged inside your ass. you moaned in satisfaction, letting more muscles relax as he fucked into you lovingly. "you're doing so well, look at you take my cock so deep," hannibal purred at you, groping your ass with his free hand. he slowly began to increase his speed and force as you got needier. he pulled you closer and sheathed himself deep inside you; so deep, you thought you could feel him in your stomach. he added another finger into your ass and started fingering you roughly.

"oh!… o-oh, fuck, that's good." you whined out, arms folded on the bed in front of you and your face buried against them. the force of him fingering you made your body lurch forward with every thrust. you grunted and groaned out as he finger-fucked your ass; it made your pussy throb and clench around his cock. you could feel yourself inching toward a climax, your pussy was dripping down your inner thighs and they were starting to tremble."so, so good," you repeated, starting to drool on your arm. hannibal could tell you were getting closer; he pulled his cock out of your pussy and slipped it into your ass, sheathing it in and making you almost cry. he felt so good, and he knew perfectly how to fuck you. it was insane.

hannibal fucked your ass and reached around to your clit, swirling his finger around it. your t-cock was swollen and sensitive, and his touch was able to send you over the edge. you whined out as he thrusted one last rough time inside your ass, spilling his cum deep inside you. that last thrust made you cum hard, squirting buckets all over your inner thighs and soaking the sheets beneath you. "yes, yes, oh fuck, yes!" you gasped out as your legs shook with the force of your orgasm.

hannibal let you ride it out before he pulled his cock out of your ass slowly, rubbing your sides and easing you down onto the bed in a comfortable position. he praised and petted on you as you relaxed and came down from your high. "you did so well, dear," he told you as he led you into the bathroom to clean you off.

hannibal got undressed after he set you in the hot water he'd drawn for you, climbing into the large tub with you and settling you onto his lap. it had been barely fifteen minutes since you'd cum and you already felt needy again; truly, your sex drive was wildly high right now. thankfully, this typically amused hannibal, and he had a rather small refractory period as well. this wasn't the first time you'd proposed a day full of fucking, and surely wouldn't be the last. after hannibal massaged your sore muscles and got you cleaned up a bit, you began grinding your pussy down against his cock in the water. it felt so good just brushing between your slit.

"already ready for round two?" he chuckled, leaning in to pull your nipple into his mouth, playing with it between his teeth. you groaned, nodding, your hands exploring his chest and teasing his nipples in return. "so impatient… can't even let will join in for our second go-around?" he teased, slurping on your breasts and starting to leave little love marks.

you reached down and slid hannibal's cock back up into your pussy, slowly but surely. your eager hole took him in easily. you sat firmly down on his lap, his cock balls-deep inside you. "fuck, that's good," you groaned, wiggling your hips to allow your pussy to re-adjust. and as soon as it did, hannibal's hands held your hips tight and started to bounce you on his cock. it made you feel weightless when he did this, made you feel so confident when he stared hungrily at your breasts or even leaned in and licked or sucked on them. hannibal was such a good lover, along with will, whose presence you longed for. you were so needy; soon you'd need them both to even have a chance at getting off.

hannibal rode you on his cock for a good little while and sucked on your nipples until you came on his cock again, throwing your head back and moaning out as you held the sides of the bathtub to stabilize yourself. hannibal held you firmly as you rode out your highs together, filling you up a second time as your pussy clenched around his cock. being filled up again made you groan; you always loved the feeling of your lovers filling you to the brim with their cum. you leaned forward and let him hold you against his chest for a bit before the two of you actually got properly cleaned up and got out of the tub.

"i'll be out in a minute, my dear, i think i hear my phone ringing," hannibal said to you as he kissed your forehead, slipping on some pajama pants as he went into the bedroom to answer his phone.

you heard keys in the front door; you were too excited to put anything on because you knew it was will.

you basically attacked him with a hug, making him chuckle. "quite the outfit choice," he commented playfully, looking you up and down. you brought his lips to yours in a deep, needy kiss. your sexual stamina had already refilled, and you wanted him so badly.

"we just got out of the bath," you told him, starting to pull his coat off of him, breathless, kissing him roughly. he kept chuckling at you.

"you're so needy today," he teased, playfully kissing you back as he held you against him. "let me at least get the door closed, dear," he said, you begrudgingly allowing him to do so.

you wrapped your arms around his shoulders and kissed him, his hands going to grope your ass with his rugged hands. you started tugging his clothes off of him again as he led you into the dining room, lifting you up onto the table and spreading your legs. you were so excited when your lovers knew exactly what you wanted, when they just got straight into it. there was a specific deliciousness to waiting for it, to the nice and slow passion… but god, what you wanted right now was to be plowed hard and fast, over and over and over.

will kept kissing you hard as he dropped his pants and you took his cock eagerly out of his underwear. he groaned at the feeling of your hand on his length, his hands going up to grope at your sides and your chest. you gave him a nice, slow handjob as two of his fingers slipped into your already-wet cunt. he groaned out at how wet you were for him, grinning warmly against your lips. "you're so good for me, always ready to take me, aren't you?" he growled into you ear, nipping at your earlobe playfully.

"yes, will, i need you so bad," you whined at him. "i need you to fill me up," you told him as you heard hannibal's slow footsteps behind you. he walked around the table, giving will a deep kiss as will fingered you. you watched them kiss, whining. the sight of them touching each other always turned you on and made you jealous in equal amounts. hannibal whispered something in will's ear, standing behind him and starting to rub his sides and stroke will's cock. this allowed you to lay back and relax, letting will stick a third finger in and start to play with your t-cock. it was still sensitive, and made your legs start to tremble. "oh, right there!" you said, laying back and putting your feet up on the table to give will better access to you. you laid there in bliss, eyes falling closed as will worked his fingers up into you, curling them up and hitting that special spot he was so good at hitting. before long, you were squirting on his fingers, eyes shooting open to reveal that hannibal was fucking will's ass, and hard. will was some kind of super hero to be getting fucked like that and still able to make you squirt so hard. "oh, fuck.. that's hot," you giggled, blissed out from your orgasm. will grabbed your hips and pulled you flush against his lap, sliding his cock up into your pussy.

"yes, right there, don't stop," you heard will whisper to hannibal. will's hips moved with the force of hannibal's thrusts, making him thrust into you. he held you close against him, keeping himself inside you as he was fucked into. soon you were overstimulated to the point that you came on his cock, the force of your orgasm milking his cum into your pussy, and hannibal's into will's asshole. the three of you stood there panting for a bit, kissing and massaging each other until you retired into the bedroom for another round. at your begging, of course.

"c'mon, just one more time?" you whined at the two of them; they shared a little smirk and helped you get into your favorite position. hannibal beneath you, his cock sliding up into your waiting pussy, and will behind you. will's fingers worked your asshole back open before he slid his cock in. it was so perfect, the combination of their cocks in your holes. you sat there for a second as your holes adjusted to their girth, and when you gave the nod, they started moving. you moaned near constantly as will and hannibal's cocks worked in and out of you. after the day you'd had being filled up, it was almost to intense for you, making you see stars as they groped and kissed on yo, and each other. they took turns in speed and intensity, and will came first, filling your ass to the brim. his cum spilled out of you and dripped down your legs when he pulled his cock out.

"your ass looks so good like that," will said, as hannibal thrusted roughly up into you, hard and fast, the sound of your wet, gushy pussy echoing through the room. "you're so, so good at taking two cocks at once," will told you as he slid his cock back inside you; it squelched as he used his own cum as lube. you felt yourself cum as he slid his cock up to the hilt and slapped your ass just hard enough to leave a mark.

your holes clenched up and made hannibal cum deep into your cunt. both of your lovers held you close as they finished pumping you full of cum, the three of you moaning in pleasure and almost collapsing in a pile as waves of exhaustion washed over you. hannibal and will managed to help you back to the other bathroom, drawing a bath in the bigger tub that the three of you could soak in and relax. hannibal was the first to recover and brought back some water and chocolates for everyone to tide you all over until dinner.

[spicymayo1983]

Hiya. This is an existential crisis themed smut fest that I came up with because my insomnia hit me hard again. Lol.

You are an X wing pilot whose twin sister has recently given birth to her first child.

Instead of feeling happy for her you just feel empty inside.

You've always wanted a family of your own but your childbearing years are coming to an end. You are single, sad and frustrated.

As you compile a mental list of male friends and colleagues who could potentially help you conceive a child and possibly co-parent together one name springs to mind.

Poe Dameron.

Warnings, breeding kink stuff, unprotected sex, female receiving oral sex, just plenty of gratuitous, raw sex. Lmao.

Seed Part 1

You can't sleep. You find yourself wide awake at 3 AM having an existential crisis.

Your married identical twin sister (any name) has recently given birth to her first child.

You feel guilty and ashamed because instead of feeling joyful for her instead you feel empty and numb.

You don't feel happy or sad. You feel absolutely nothing except for a slight twinge of envy.

You are an X wing pilot for the rebellion and have been since your late teens. You have survived being shot down, being captured and torture at the hands of the first order.

During your adventures you always tried to find time for romance. Being a bleeding heart romantic you always dreamed of returning to your home planet, Yavin 4, with your husband to put down roots and start a family.

But fate had other plans. After a number of disastrous relationships you find yourself approaching 40 and single.

Even in the future your fertility is on the decline and not much can be done to help. You desperately ache to experience being pregnant and the joy of motherhood. You chart your ovulation religiously hoping that someday you might find someone who could help you out.

Every month this happens. You feel the familiar twinge in your uterus and then the depression hits you like a tsunami.

After spending about an hour rolling around in bed you decide to stop fighting it and sit up.

You stare blankly at the wall of your bedroom. And then all of a sudden the tears start.

Your sobbing must have been fairly loud because you are soon interrupted by a soft knock at your door.

You get up and open it, it's your old friend and fellow pilot Poe Dameron.

"Poe, what are you doing here?" You ask as you rub your bloodshot eyes.

"I was walking by when I heard you crying". Poe replies, smiling softly. "I was just leaving...."

"Someone's quarters". You tease, smiling a little. "I've known you most of your life, I know how you like to have a good time."

The two of you grew up together on Yavin 4 but lost contact when he ran off to join the spice runners. Poe has always seen you as a sister, your relationship strictly platonic.

Your paths crossed when you both became pilots at roughly the same age. Your friendship resumed without skipping a beat. In your early 20's the two of you experimented with and kicked around the idea of being more than friends but the two of you decided not to pursue a romantic relationship.

Your relationship is as close as you can be without being married.

You've been intimate with him on several occasions.

The smoothness of his skin, his absolutely perfect body and cock are still fresh in your memory even though it's been years.

"You've been crying again". Poe says with a deep sigh, his smile fading. "Tell me what's wrong".

"It's nothing, really, you wouldn't want to hear it". You reply, sitting down at a small table in your kitchen.

"You're ovulating, aren't you?" Poe replies quickly as gets behind you, leans down and wraps his strong arms around you in an extremely intimate bear hug.

"You always get like this when you're fertile".

"Time's running out and I haven't met anyone". You reply, fighting back tears. "I never imagined I'd be here, at this stage in my life, nearly 40 with no children".

"This might sound crass, or perverted, or both". Poe tells you as he leans down to nuzzle your neck a little.

"But I think I could help you, I could put a baby inside of you if you wanted".

"You've been drinking". You snap back with a nervous laugh. "I'm depressed and your drunk, yeah, this is getting weird".

Poe immediately pulls away, respecting your wishes.

"I said it was getting weird, but I didn't tell you to stop". You reply with a slight smile.

"So do you want me to help you with your situation?" He asks, gently massaging your shoulders.

"Shouldn't there be a little romance?" You tell him with an awkward laugh. "I don't want this to be mechanical, I want it to be a little special".

Poe leans in and kisses you passionately, taking you by surprise a little. With lust burning in his dark eyes he whispers in your ear,

"Of course not, I planned on warming you up a little".

You both decide to start off with a nice shower together.

He begins by lathering up your breasts, and then his hands trail down further.

You can see that Poe is already physically aroused, his strong hands are all over your body, exploring every inch of your soft curves and gently caressing you.

You begin to soap up his thick cock, you can feel him getting harder and harder, you sigh a little as you crave Poe inside of your throbbing pussy.

"I'm going crazy right now". Poe pants, unable to hide his desire. "Let's wrap this up and head to the bedroom".

Both of you quickly towel off and head for your bed, your entire body is warm and tingling from desire.

The two of you hold each other and enjoy a steamy makeout session, Poe slides two fingers inside of you, you are wet, swollen and sensitive, you shudder in delight.

"Mmmmm I want to taste you". Poe whispers into your ear.

His head quickly slides between your legs, you moan and thrash around in delight as he sucks on your swollen clit.

You cum for him, several times, before you wrap your legs around his waist and Poe slides his thick cock inside of you.

This isn't the first time you've hooked up with him. You were once friends with benefits years earlier. But you both decided to end things.

This felt different, though. Like Poe was trying to impregnate you. Which makes you wonder his own secret desires and motivation. Why would a notorious playboy like him be off of his birth control? Were your yearnings and desires his as well?

Poe cums deep inside of you with his head resting on your shoulder. His soft, curly hair in a dissaray. Afterwards you stay relaxed on your back, careful not to move around and lose even a drop of his precious seed.

"I wonder if it worked?" Poe asks with a slight smile, gently placing a hand on your lower belly, where your uterus is.

"Why were you so willing to help me out? If you don't mind me asking". You inquire, placing your hand over his.

"You're one of my best friends". Poe tells you softly.

"You're brave, beautiful, tough, one of the best pilots in the resistance besides me. Why wouldn't I want you to carry my child?"

"Oh Poe". You reply, fighting back tears at the beauty and honesty of his words. "What you just said means everything to me, it really does."

[btsqualityy]

BTS Kink Series: Impregnation

Author's Note: Technically, this could double as a baby series drabble if you want to let your mind take you there lol, but it could also be read as a stand alone. Hope you guys enjoy!

Kim Seokjin

“Please, please,” you begged, fisting your hands in the sheets beneath you. 

“Right there?” Jin wondered as the tip of his cock continually brushed against your g-spot.

“Yes baby, right fucking there,” you whined. Jin palmed your ass, lifting one of his hands to bring it back down roughly on your cheek. You moaned loudly, clenching around him from the pleasure that the pain brought you.

“Such a dirty girl,” Jin commented as he spread your cheeks apart to watch himself plunging in and out of you. “I feel you clenching around me baby.”

“I can’t help it,” you whimpered. “You feel so good.”

“Fuck, I’m gonna come if you keep it up,” Jin grunted, hips smacking against the curve of your ass rapidly.

“Come inside me Jin,” you mumbled, making him groan loudly.

“You want my cum Y/N-ah?” He questioned and you nodded rapidly. 

“Want you to give me a baby,” you replied and Jin let out a guttural moan before flooding you with his cum. 

Min Yoongi

“Stop fucking moving,” Yoongi snapped. You whined, feeling your orgasm looming inside of you from his harsh thrusts. 

“I, I can’t,” you whimpered, tightening your grip on his forearms. Yoongi exhaled harshly and grabbed your wrists, pinning them on the bed beside your head.

“You said you wanted me to fuck a baby into you, so that’s what I’m doing,” he grumbled.

“I was drunk when I said that Yoongs,” you pouted as you squirmed underneath him to try and get the feeling of your orgasm to subside.

“Drunk minds speak true words,” he quoted, causing you to roll your eyes and not from the pleasure of his cock drilling into you. “If you have an impregnation kink, I don’t mind fulfilling that for you.”

“Really?” You asked and he nodded. You wrapped your legs tighter around his waist, pulling him down so that his body was laying completely on top of yours. 

“I’ve always planned on knocking you up eventually,” he confessed and the words turned you on a little more than you’d really care to admit. “This little kink of yours has just moved it up a little bit. Now, are you gonna be still and let me come inside of your pretty little pussy? Gonna let me get you pregnant baby girl?”

“Yes Yoongs,” you acquiesced, making Yoongi smirk.

“Good girl.”

Kim Namjoon

“Oh my fucking God,” Namjoon mumbled as he slid into you slowly. You mewled underneath him, the stretch of his cock feeling even better without the usual barrier of a condom. 

“Joonie,” you whimpered and he leaned over so that his chest was flush to your back, leaving small open mouthed kisses on your shoulder blades. 

“Feels so much better right?” He questioned and you nodded.

“So much fucking better,” you agreed, moaning as he started to push into you at a steady pace. The room was filled with your breathy moans and Namjoon’s harsh grunts as he fucked you.

“J-jagi,” he murmured through grit teeth and you glanced over your shoulder to look at him. “If, if you don’t want me to come inside of you, I should put a condom on.”

“No,” you shook your head immediately and Namjoon sighed heavily, trying to keep his composure. 

“Jagi, I’m not gonna be able to control myself for much longer,” he warned. “If I keep going, I am going to come inside of your pussy. This wet, tight little pussy,” he purred, snapping his hips against yours quicker. “I don’t want to risk getting you pregnant.”

“What if, what if I want to?” You whispered. Namjoon looked down at you with a raised eyebrow and you bit your lip.

“What if you want to, what?” He wondered, wanting definite confirmation.

“What if I want to risk it?” You confessed and Namjoon smiled. 

“Well, then I guess we’re risking it,” he grinned and you did the same before he started to pound into you, more determined to make you come and to give you exactly what you asked for. 

Jung Hoseok

You knew that this wasn’t a good idea. Hobi was fresh home from tour and of course, you two were all over each other as soon as he walked in the front door. However, you both were out of condoms and you hadn’t been keeping on your birth control since he’d been gone so you agreed to letting him fuck you, as long as he pulled out in time.

“God, I missed the way you feel around me baby girl,” Hobi whispered huskily, setting his hands on the small of your back. You wound your hips in a circular motion, loving the stir of his cock against your inner walls. 

“Mm, missed you more baby,” you purred, setting your hands on his cheeks and pulling him into a seething kiss. He started to move his hips as well, thrusting up into you at a quick pace. You moaned aganist his lips as you could feel your orgasm winding itself throughout your body.

“Fuck, you’re gonna make me come,” you whimpered.

“Me too baby girl,” he muttered, sweat dripping down his forehead.

“Don’t forget to pull out baby,” you reminded him and he exhaled harshly.

“Fuck, I don’t want to. It’s been so long and you feel so fucking good,” he murmured, all the while still sliding into you. “Don’t you want to feel it baby?”

“Hobi,” you whined, knowing that this would happen. 

“I didn’t touch myself while I was gone, you know that?” He said, looking you in the eyes. “Wanted to save all my cum for you.” Something about knowing that he only wanted you to have his cum only turned you on that much more. “I could probably get you pregnant with how much cum I have for you baby girl,” he smirked as he plunged deep into you and you groaned loudly. Fuck it, you thought. 

“Please,” you nodded. “Come inside of me Hobi,” you pleaded and he nodded before giving you a few more pumps before you came on his cock and you felt his cum spurt inside of you in small bursts.

Park Jimin

You could barely register the sound of the front door to your house closing before Jimin had you pushed against the wall, his lips attached to your neck. You groaned, pawing at his jacket until you were able to get it off of his shoulders.

“Fuck, you have no idea how much I’ve missed being inside of you,” he grumbled, making quick work of unbuttoning your jeans. You helped him out by quickly pushing them down your legs and kicking them away from you, along with your underwear.

“I can’t tell since you’re not inside of me yet,” you teased, making him growl and kiss you harshly. He unbuckled his pants and pulled his cock out, giving it a few pumps as he positioned himself at your entrance. 

“Wait, do you have a condom?” He questioned you and you shook your head.

“Do you?” You asked and he slowly shook his head as well. You couldn’t help the whine that slipped out of your mouth as you laid your head back against the wall behind you. 

“Fuck it,” Jimin muttered and before you could question him, he had slid himself inside of you, literally taking your breath away. 

“Jiminie,” you whimpered, clinging to him as he plunged into you deeply. “We can’t be stupid.”

“I don’t care,” he groaned. “If you want me to stop, I will but I don’t want to.”

“Baby,” you started to say but then Jimin swirled his hips, hitting your g-spot perfectly as he did so. He looked up at you, smiling when he saw the blissful look on your face.

“Want me to stop?” He asked and you frantically shook your head.

“Please don’t.”

“Want me to fuck you until I come inside you baby?”

“Fuck yes Jimin,” you answered as you connected your lips with his. He moaned in response as he picked up the speed of his thrusts. 

Kim Taehyung

“Taehyungie,” you cooed, making him look up from his phone at you. You waved your hand back and forth a few times, the birth control pills shaking inside of the bottle that you were holding.

“Y/N-ah,” Tae purred huskily, already feeling excited at seeing the bottle in your hand. It was common knowledge that Taehyung wanted kids, and a lot of them, but you’d never thought that he had an actual kink about wanting to get you pregnant. Every since he had told you about it though, you wanted to make it come true for him.

“So, I was thinking,” you said as you walked over to the bed. You climbed on it and swung your legs over his, straddling his lap. “These birth control pills have been messing with my hormones a little too much so I want to stop taking them.”

“Mm, alright,” he nodded as he set his phone down, his hands coming to rest of your waist afterwards.

“But the thing is, I don’t want us to use condoms again and I definitely don’t want you to stop coming inside of me,” you confessed, taking your finger and running it over his bottom lip. His breathing visibly hitched, making you smirk.

“Then I will,” he replied. His hands trailed down to your ass, squeezing it. “You know I want a baby with you anyways.”

“Yeah?” You wondered, leaning down and pressing the softest kiss possible to his plush lips.  “Want to fill me up with your cum? So much of it that there’s no way that I won’t have your baby?” Taehyung groaned loudly and grabbed your face in between his hands, kissing you roughly. You squealed as he then grabbed your waist and flipped you over so that he was on top of you.

Jeon Jungkook

“Please baby,” Jungkook begged as he suckled on your neck and you shut your eyes to keep them from rolling into the back of your head from the pleasure.

“Kook, it’s not a good idea,” you groaned, wanting nothing more for him to fuck you but you had to at least try and be the sensible one. He clearly wasn’t going to be.

“Baby,” he cooed as he pulled his face from your neck and set his hands on either side of your head, trapping you in front of him. “Don’t you like the thought of it though? The thought of me sliding inside of you with no barrier, letting you feel all of me?” He grinded his hips against yours as he spoke and you leaned back against the wall, your breath coming out in quick shudders.

“It’s not safe though Jungkook,” you whined. “My period just ended and you know that means that I’m ovulating.”

“I know,” he nodded and you looked at him quizzically. “A baby wouldn’t be the worst thing though, would it?” 

“Kookie,” you pouted. He took his hands and began to push up your shirt until he was pulling it over your head. He threw it over his shoulder and his gaze settled on your chest. He took the tips of his fingers and grazed them over your nipples, making you gasp and your pussy clench. He was playing dirty; he knew your nipples were really sensitive.

“N-no,” you shook your head rapidly. “It wouldn’t be that bad,” you answered, making him smirk widely. “Please just fuck me already.” He nodded, smashing his lips against yours and you melted into his touch. 

[matsislander-blog]

Just the two of us

“Could you do an imagine where you and Freddie Andersen try for a baby💙💙” -request from @baseball-and-hockey04

I tried to make this short but?? it was impossible lol, I hope you guys like it!

Words: 2158

Warnings: Smut, unedited, pregnancy problems 

You and Freddie had been married for 3 years. Those first 3 years were filled with nothing but love, happiness and togetherness. From the day of the wedding you’d both been bombarded with the burning question, “so when are you guys gonna have your first baby?” The team wouldn’t leave you two alone about it. Mitch constantly saying he wanted you to have a baby so he could be the god father, auston and willy jumping in already assuming they’d be the god father. As funny it was to watch them argue over it, none of them actually knew the struggle you and Freddie had been going through. No matter what you guys did, how often you had sex, tracking your period and ovulation, you just couldn’t get pregnant. Whenever you’d get asked questions about a possible baby, you’d have to hide your sadness and say that you two didn’t feel ready yet. Freddie knew how upset this was making you, he felt like it was his fault that you couldn’t get pregnant. If it was up to him, you would’ve had 3 kids by now.

After every pregnancy test you’d try, they’d always come back negative. You tried not to show Freddie how upset you were, but he could definitely tell. You viewed making love as work, and it took the enjoyment and pleasure out of it. You were tired. Some days you didn’t even want to get out of bed because of how depressed you felt. You wanted to give Freddie a baby so badly, but you just couldn’t. You didn’t know what was wrong with you. You felt sad being around Freddie because you thought he would be mad that you couldn’t get pregnant, you never wanted to talk about it. You’d quietly cry yourself to sleep every night.

You woke up one morning too Freddie not beside you in bed. You sit up, rub the sleep from you eyes and look around. Where is he? You get out of bed and slowly walk down the hallway to the kitchen. There he was, grey sweatpants hanging lowly on his waist, and shirtless. He was huddled over the stove, making pancakes for the both of you. “Morning” you say as you let out a long yawn. “morning sleepyhead” he laughed back. “How’d you sleep?” he asked. “Pretty good” you responded. You jumped up and sat on the counter beside the stove, watching him cook. “I have a surprise for you today.” He says, looking over at you and smiling. “What? What is it?” you questioned. “A surprise silly, im not telling you.” he laughed. You both sat down and ate your pancakes, the want to ask what the surprise was burning inside you, but you somehow held it in. As freddie gets up to put the dishes in the sink he says, “go pack a suitcase, we’re going somewhere warm, so make sure you have everything you need.” “oh, we also need to be at the air port in 5 hours so… you better get packing” he looks over winking. “5 HOURS? Freddie oh my god.” you yell as you start to run to your shared room, rummaging your drawers and closet. After you’re all packed, you drive together to the airport and being looking for your gate. As he leads you there, you read the sign, reading that you’re going to the Maldives. “Freddie are you serious? this is too much.” “This is for us to get away from everyone, no more questions about our lives. Just you and me.” He looks at you, holding his hand out for you to grab it. He brings your hand up to his lips, giving it a light kiss. “I know how stressed out you’ve been.. I wanted to help, it hurts that there’s nothing I can do to make you feel better. We can just focus on the two of us, and share a nice get away for a few days. How does that sound” He asks. “perfect” you smile up at him.

Once you’ve landed in the Maldives and are at your hotel, Freddie tells you to dress nice because he has something planned. “Another surprise Anderson? You’re killing me.” He laughs, “just get ready (y/n).” You being to do your makeup, light and natural, and get dressed in a short red dress, with nude heels. You put your hair into a low bun and take out the front pieces and curl them. When you come out of the bathroom, Freddie’s sitting on the bed waiting for you. He’s wearing black dress pants, and a white gold shirt. “So beautiful” he says quietly walking over to you. You blush, he still gives you butterflies even after being together for years. “you look handsome” you say to him. He smiles, then grabs your hand. “Lets get going.” When you leave the hotel, you begin to walk to the road, and Freddie tugs your hand to follow him towards a pathway. “Where are we going?” you ask. “You ask a lot of questions.” Freddie says. You begin to walk down a sandy path. It’s filled with a lot of trees, and lights leading up to an open way. You look at him, caulking an eyebrow. “Where we you taking me?” “(y/n) you’re really ruining the lead up to this, just stop asking questions babe.” He laughs. “ok, ok” you huff out.When you get to the end of the pathway, there’s a huge open gazebo, sand all around. There’s light covering it everywhere, and in the gazebo is a table with 2 chairs. Rose petals all over the gazebo floor, and table. “oh my god… how?” you ask. “(y/n)” he say giving you a remindful glance. “right, sorry” you laugh. “this is incredible” you say. “Come on, let’s sit down love.” he puts his hand on your lower back, guiding you to the table. You both sit down and a waiter comes over and brings your champagne. Freddie must have had this night planned far in advance, as the waiter already knows your orders, and is bring out your meal. Once he leaves, you look at Freddie. “Thank you for this.” you say. He grabs your hand over the table, “I would do anything for you, (y/n). I hope you know that, I would do absolutely anything you needed or you asked without a question.” You feel so overwhelmed by everything you begin to cry. He stands up and comes over to you, pulling you out of your chair and into his arms. He starts to sway the two of you, and you’re dancing without any music, but it feels so comforting. “I love you, so much” you finally say. “ I love you” he says, looking down and kissing you. The kiss gets a bit more heated. “we should go back to the hotel, it’s getting dark.” he says, looking at you. “Ok, let’s go” you say, hurrying him out of there. Freddie has his hands all over you while walking back to the hotel and you can’t wait to have him all alone inside. Once you’re in the elevator, Freddie leans against the back wall, and you lean against him, with your back pressed against him. He leans down and pressed a soft kiss to your shoulder. You hum in content. He takes that as a sign to keep going, as he begins to softly kiss your collars bones, and makes it up to your neck. Then behind your ear. You let out a quiet moan. Once the door opens, you’re both practically running to your hotel room, while making out and giggling the whole way there. You’re not sure if you’re feeling tipsy off the champagne, or if you’re just drunk off of how happy you are. The second you both get into the hotel room, you’re both tearing off each others clothes and laying in the bed. He begins to kiss down your body, not missing any piece of skin. Between every few kisses he’s mumbling sweet words. “I love you” “so beautiful” “my angel”. You feel like you’re on a high. He kisses down to your waist, and takes off your panties. He kisses the inside of your thighs, and kisses you right where you want him. He starts off slow, licking your clit and sucking gently. You’re a moaning mess. All of your senses are in over drive and everything feels amazing. He begins to suck harder. “freddie” you moan. He brings his hand up to your opening, and inserts 2 fingers, twisting them around and thrusting, hard. You’re so close and he can feel it. Be picks up his pace, and licking and sucking on you clit, thrusting his fingers, hitting your g-spot you can’t even handle it. You feel like you’re going to pass out. “Fuck freddie, just like that” you moan. Be brings up his other hand to start pinching your nipple, and you’re gone. Euphoria overcomes your body, and you’re shaking with how hard you came. Fredde kisses up your body. Once he reaches your face, he kisses you chin, both your cheeks and then your forehead. He leans his forehead against yours. “I love you” he says quietly. “I love you” you respond, pulling him mouth to yours. He brings his hand down and leads the head of his cock to rest at your opening. He’s already moaning, feeling how wet you are. He slowly pushes in. You both let out a moan of relief, finally feeling each other. He starts out slow, wrapping your legs around his waist. He puts one of his hands under your head, and the other wraps around your waist. He’s holding you so close, it feels so intimate. I finally feels enjoyable. You can both let go of the stress and enjoy each other. “You feel so good” Freddie moans, “im not going to last long.” he mumbles into your neck. you run your hand through his hair, and then slowly down his back, feeling everywhere you can on him. His body feels amazing against yours. He begins to pick up the pace, he brings him hand down to start rubbing your clit. You didn’t know how close you were until you felt that contact. “Cum for me baby” he says into your ears. And with that, you let out a load moan and finish. Right after Freddie moans, “fuck” and he’s cuming inside of you. HE stays there for a second, just enjoying how close you both are. He’s just holding you, and you don’t think it’s ever felt this loving and intimate. He finally pulls out, and lifts you up, bringing you to the shower. He washes your hair for you, and washes your body. He’s really taking care of you tonight, and it feels amazing. You both get out of the shower, and into bed. He spoons against you and holds you all night.

After having the most amazing few days, sadly it’s time to return home. You feel good going home though. You’re so happy right now you could burst. That was exactly what you needed to help you feel better. Personal time with you and Freddie. Everything felt perfect. The day after you return home, it’s early in the morning. You roll over and once again, don’t feel Freddie there. You sit up, but this time feel extremely dizzy and sick. You run to the bathroom, emptying your stomach. You figure it’s just from jet lag, so you try to push the thoughts you’re having away. You walk into the kitchen to get some water, when you see a written note from Freddie. “went for a workout, be home at 9 xo”. You looked at the clock, it’ only 8:20. You have awhile before he comes home, so you begin to clean up the house and put empty both of you suitcases. But again, the knot in your stomach comes back. You go back to the bathroom, emptying your stomach again. As you’re sitting on the tile floor, you look over at the cabinet under the sink. You hesitate. I’m not pregnant. You keep saying to yourself, You’ve been through this so many times, you don’t want to disappoint yourself again. “Fuck it” you say. You reach for a pregnancy test and rip it open. After you’ve put the cap back on, and set a timer, you sit back on the floor. Hugging your legs to your chest. “you’re not pregnant, it’s ok” “don’t worry, you’ll get pregnant soon” you keep saying to yourself. Once the timer rings, signaling it’s done, you slowly stand up. You turn off the timing and turn towards to test. You’re stomachs in knots again, you feel like you’re gonna be sick from the stress. “it’s ok” you keep saying to yourself. You pick up the test and slowly flip it over. You gasp in shock, tears pouring down your face.

“pregnant”

[pmddnutter]

Running a business with PMDD

I suffer from a condition called Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder or PMDD for short, its sometimes referred to as severe PMS although it is certainly way worse than PMS.  It has only recently (May 2019) been recognised by the World Health Organisation (WHO) as a unique condition meaning that PMDD will be considered a separate condition to severe PMS, should see more funding and research and allow doctors across the world to standardise their terms.  Hopefully leading to more diagnoses and better treatment and understanding.

The WHO defines PMDD as:

“a pattern of mood symptoms (depressed mood, irritability), somatic symptoms (lethargy, joint pain, overeating), or cognitive symptoms (concentration difficulties, forgetfulness) that begin several days before the onset of menses, start to improve within a few days after the onset of menses, and then become minimal or absent within approximately 1 week following the onset of menses.”[i]

PMDD is debilitating, it has caused women to commit suicide.  There are no specific treatments for it; for some women hormonal contraception works well, for other antidepressants, and for a handful of women only a full hysterectomy has helped.  Whatever the treatments, PMDD is different for different women – it affects us all differently.

PMDD and Me

For me PMDD is that girl in high school that was a bit two faced, smiles to your face when she needs you but when your back is turned pulled that ‘urgh’ face and rolls her eyes to her ‘real’ mates – you know the one I mean.

She is never the same though, some months she can be quite mild and meek, maybe a bit of insomnia and overeating, sometimes a bit grumpy or irritable – kinda friendly but you know that there is a storm brewing.  Other months she is in full on Bitch Mode!  She makes me believe my husband is having an affair, she makes me eat ALL DAY, she tells me I’m no good, she makes me want to get in my car and drive as far away as possible.

And when you have this whilst running your own one-man band business it’s really bloody hard!  As a small business owner hand making you own products you already question yourself pretty much daily; is my stuff any good, why do people buy it, why aren’t people buying it, shall I just jack it in and go back to ‘real’ work full time?  So, add PMDD into the mix and I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster and I bloody hate rollercoasters!

With PMDD I get these amazing times of euphoria, exciting manic times where my creativity and enthusiasm are in overdrive and OMG these times are awesome.  I come up with some of my best work during this time, my marketing strategies all just seem to work, I love being around people and go out and network loads.

But then I have to crash, and I kinda know I will but I never know how hard.  Sometimes I’ll just have a teary day, one where nothing goes right, I miss stamp literally everything and nothing I post on social media is interesting, so no one comments.  But sometimes this just lasts 1 day and I don’t even realise until my period starts that this day happened.  But other times I crash bad…  I just hate everyone and everything, my customer service goes out of the window as everyone is against me.  Why bother posting on social media as I can’t make it sound nice or enthusiastic.  I spend pretty much all day holding back the tears and my horrible attitude, I just want to stay in bed but I can’t sleep, I eat EVERYTHING in sight and I literally have to force myself to do even the most menial of tasks.

One of the very worst things about these really deep lows is that I don’t recognise myself, I am usually (for the other 2/3 weeks of the month) a really happy and enthusiastic person which is why I sometimes don’t even realise the manic days have happened until the low starts.  The lows that scare me are the ones where I don’t want to be around people, especially when you have a house to run with 2 small children and a husband and a part time job.  The ones where I just can’t seem to snap out of it, I know I’m in deep, I can’t stop myself saying some nasty things and snapping at those closest to me.  The lows where any orders I get don’t matter, they’ll probably just hate it when it arrives anyway so what’s the point making it at all.  Any messages I get I just can’t be arsed to reply as the questions are just so inane and pointless, or they’re just moaning at me for no reason – no your order that you placed 10 mins ago won’t be with you tomorrow as I have to HAND MAKE IT!  I have to stop myself replying with a message saying ‘won’t you just f*ck off already, you’ll get it when I decide you’re worthy enough to make my crappy handmade sh*t that you probably won’t like anyway and you won’t bother to leave me any feedback even if you do’ (that’s a whole other blog for another time!)

So why am I writing this blog now?

It is now December 2019 and I’ve been trying to write this since PMDD awareness month back in April 2019!  At the beginning of the month I had a plan to do some awesome posts about it, create some keyrings, maybe even raise some money.  Then it hits… why would anyone want to buy any of my keyrings, I’d be doing the cause a grave injustice in creating such shit products.  Believe me, the irony of this is not lost!  The irony of the negative thoughts is never lost once I come out the other side, and it’s this irony that delays me getting the help I need.  A few days passes and you convince yourself that it wasn’t so bad, it was just you feeling a bit blue for a day.  You get on with life, looking after the kids, bury yourself in work; the high is well and truly convincing you that you are absolutely fine and that next month won’t be so bad.  But then you notice the date, it’s a few days before you are due to ovulate and here we go again…

I went to my GP in May 2019 as the symptoms were not getting any better and asked to have the hormonal coil fitted again as it had helped me so much before I had my second baby.  It was fitted in June this year and I waited the 3 months to see if it would help, it unfortunately didn’t and in October I had one of my worst lows to date.  It was horrendous and I booked a GP appointment at 2am after being awake for nearly 48hrs, having eaten god knows how much food, drunk far too much wine and cried at every little thing I watched.  I saw my GP a couple of weeks later, obviously I was feeling much better but I am determined to get this thing sorted and she was amazing and we went through the options and I decided on trying oestrogen for the 2 weeks prior to my cycle.  I had to giggle to myself when reading the instructions; firstly because I have to rub 1 squirt of this gel into my thigh at the same time every day, and secondly because this is effectively HRT given to older ladies at the time of the change LOL!

Unfortunately, it doesn’t look like this is working for me, I’m 4 days before I am normally due on and the symptoms are back.  Definitely not as severe as the October crash but the feelings of annoyance, self-doubt and pointlessness of it all are here, my next step is perhaps anti-depressants, so I’ll book an appointment with the GP and see what the next steps are.

My battle with PMDD and keeping sane for my business continues, even as I write this I am questioning all my plans for 2020. I have/had some great ideas but that little well of anxiety is brewing up again and I’m thinking it’ll just be better/easier to scrap it all. I won’t though, I’ll step away from social media, take some time out for me (although with this comes the Mum Guilt fun) and give myself a good talking to that this will pass and next week I’ll be buzzing and posting non-stop and bugging everyone again! Until next month…

Thanks for reading,

Emma xx

For more information and guidance for PMDD please check out the MIND website here or IAPMD here, or feel free to drop me a message.

You can also download an app to track your symptoms here.

[i] https://iapmd.org/position-statements-1/2019/6/11/world-health-organization-adds-premenstrual-dysphoric-disorder-pmdd-into-the-icd-11

[pacifymebby]

Hey there age gap crush anon back! I haven’t gone on the date yet but I’ve preemptively been looking into birth control options as I’ve got anxiety and like to be very prepared (lol I know I know I’ve only just had my first kiss 💀) and I was wondering what you would recommend? I would prefer the implant over anything else like I’d really like that I think but I don’t think that will be an option as I think in my country I will have to pay for it or there will be some kind of mess up with insurance and my father will find out and I don’t want to deal with him judging me or not letting me get it. I really don’t want to take the pill as I have issues that it may mess with and I’m not very good at keeping a schedule. And I’ve heard horror stories about iud’s so I don’t want to get one of those. I feel like my only option is condoms which I’m fine with but I’d prefer to be extra safe if you know what I mean?

Hey, so I'm just gonna straight up say that my own birth control is condoms and the Catholic calender method. Basically we don't use condoms when it's like, just after my period and I know I'm not about to ovulate. And then condoms the rest of the time.

I would say if you're worried about the pill fucking you up be wary of the implant because as far as I know the implant is the same hormones as the pill, the only difference is you can't puke it up or easily stop taking it. I wouldn't go on the implant before taking a contraception pill because with the pill you can stop taking it if it fucks you up but with the implant you have to wait an ammount of time/get it removed and it's just more complicated.

I was talking to a friend the other day about the iud as well and I wouldn't go near it personally, there are some major stories of this going wrong/women not being believed that it has gone wrong. I know one of my aunts had it and had to get it removed because it caused her to have a period which lasted over 40 days. I just, I don't trust it and there's no way men would be made to take a contraception with those risks.

Personally I would use condoms, if they are used correctly they are effective enough. And also its always good to keep in mind your cycle and know it anyway,

So this is from an NHS page about getting pregnant and if it's possible to just after your period.

The bit to pay attention to is the bit about your peak fertility. If you are scared of getting pregnant genuinely just don't have sex around that time of the month, or use condoms.

In the time me and my friends have had active sex lives (must be nearly 8 years, I have known condoms to go wrong three times, once when a condom broke (happened to my friend) and twice in instances where the condom has come off (to my friend it happened mid way through and they didn't notice, because they were drunk) (to me this happened after sex bc (tmi sorry) me and B are v much to remain in position cuddling after we've cum, with him still inside and what happened was as he went soft the condom came off and was left perfectly in place inside me, I was able to remove it carefully, have a wash and not end up pregnant)

Every time these incidents have happened we've been able to get the morning after pill, although my friend who the condom broke on didn't get it and took the risk (thought she was stupid at the time but hey, she didn't get pregnant) and I didn't when it came off because I was confident that no sperm had actually gone inside me at all.

I think in school all the responsibility of contraception is placed on teenage girls and also, there's a lot of subtle bias that makes women turn to birth control because men don't like to wear condoms, like we're told it's better for us to be on birth control than to rely on condoms but actually condoms (from my real life experience and not from stats) are more effective.

The pill is 91% effective IF TAKEN 100% CORRECTLY, this means at the same time every day, no being sick (it makes people sick) no missing a day, no taking it an hour late blah blah blah... It's difficult to take it 100% correctly, in mine and my friend experience.

Condoms are 98% effective when used correctly and using a condom correctly just means checking its in date and putting it on properly. I'm sure ur man's capable of putting it on properly.

So this is what I mean when I say I don't trust the pill or hormonal contraception in general, it's not effective enough to warrant the health risks and the emotional and physical effects it can have on you.

I was on a pill which gave me a yeast infection for 3 months straight. I've had friends on the pill who have just lost their libido, who have had their blood pressure effected, who have found its made them anxious/depressed. Taking the pill is probably what triggered my pmdd which made me suicidal.

I do know women who take birth control and are fine but the majority of people I know are putting up with shitty negative side effects.

Sorry for the rant, but yeah my advice is be sober ish for your first time, use condoms and talk to him about it too, if it becomes a long term thing you should discuss it with your partner.

It's something me and B have discussed right up to our views on abortion and the morning after pill. So we've reached our contraception routine conclusion together and are both comfortable.

I think that's the healthiest way to do it. But for now, condoms are your best option. Just make sure they are indate and that the wrapper is intact/not pierced or damaged before you open it. Xx