#(or worse that I want a boyfriend for the sake of having a boyfriend 💀)

[sailforvalinor]

Oh in other news I think I got a passable grade in Date(?), something that is normal to want and possible to achieve

[itsyagurlchip]

ask: @snipersiniora If so can i please request for a rottmnt family platonic one-shot of little sister reader and her family? Reader is as the same age as Mikey.

Where reader admits she's been secretly dating a yokai or mutant boy for months and she not only admit to it but asks if he can meet her family to see if he's good or not.

If you want to know the boyfriend is a keeper (good guy) but how reader's family react and do in the meeting is up to you.

٠ ˚ ※ ๋࣭ ᯓ⚝ ⋆ .˚✰Snitch Tendencies ٠ ˚ ※ ๋࣭ ᯓ⚝ ⋆ .˚✰

✰⋆⁺warnings: goofy shi(!) cussing (idk i didn't look/count) (!) too many references (!) boyfriend is very much like mondo gecko(!)

✰⋆⁺lmao you didn't see that- no one did (💀💀😭🤚🏾) whatever you think you saw, you were hallucinating. yes....um, welp, enjoy! It's a mix of a one shot and head cannons, sorta like Picky Icky but, yk, with a different plot.

imma just leave this here- cuz i feel bad about not being able finish this correctly without it sounding like a brain fart. but the new one is currently in construction!

✰⋆⁺"How did they know? Could've sworn that I was subtle. But there was the snitch, should've known he was trouble" Me and you both SpongeBob. nah, nobody but you. You were always bad at lying afterall

You were slowly crawling into lair- perfectly unsuspecting, the quietest of ninja foot steps, no one would ever-

aaaand, the lights just came on.

dear cookie crumbles.

"and WHAT were YOU doing on the topside AFTER CURFEW YOUNG LADY????" There sat a tall ass foot turtle, which is my brother mind you, is tapping his foot sassily against the ground. He also wore a scowl, damned sharpie, with an eye twitch (which would have been funny, had I not been in this situation).

"EEK! a-i- ummm- welp, uhhh- hi DeeDee!" I cringed after flinching so aggressively, smiling in a forced manner. No wonder it all seemed so perfect, damn it Donnie.

"NUH UH!! you dont get to 'DEeDeE' me! What in PizzaSupreme™ were you doing out so late!???"

"i-"

"You've been missing Mikey's meditation practices for strudle's sake!! Do you wanna know what it's like when he pops into Dr Delicate mode???" Donnie was pacing in rectangles, his two fingers massaging the skin that surrounds his brain.

damn his head is big.

"And you guys are best friends!" I involuntarily flinched mentally and physically. "Imagine how he would feel when he finds out that you've been- WAIT! what have you even been sneaking out for?"

annnnnnnddd there's the question

aw pork dumplings. I sighed deeply before opening my mouth, before closing it. Pursing my lips, i did it again as sound began to stutter out of my mouth.

"Well- ummm" I actually didn't know what to say, which is a bit unnerving, because I always have 'somethin to say' per Splinter. "errrm- e-e-i- d-" I tried- but the dude wouldn't even let me speak!

"You're not sans, and quit opening and closing your mouth, it's making your survival rate lower by the second." Donnie impuded. His eyes narrowed lower at my silence.

Well, what the heck?

"I have a boyfriend....and he's yokai" Donnie quit his pacing, and turned fully towards me like a mobile roblox player in 1st pov. I simply rocked back and forth as i waited for his brain to catch up with what is happening.

Donnie couldn't even believe what his ear holes were registering.

You mean to tell him, his little poor, innocent, younger sister was out MINGLING in this universe's equivalent to the underground!

Was he even good enough? i better not be a bum, or worse, a chad.

What even was he?

Oh chewy macaroons, he hoped that you aren't dating a witch-

non of that magic nonsense! (he's still salty about being incorrect and less-than professional at witch town.)

Do you use the chart that he made for you?

Because if that- eugh -boy is going to, court, you, he has to be the one.

and ooohhh if he breaks your heart...

lets just say that the hidden city's ip addresses will have a simple look through.

"huh..." Donnie blinked. His face went through a plethora of emotions. and then he made a face- oh god-

"WAI-" I tried. But it was no use- Donnie pulled a notebook and pen out and started scribbling some more words only he could decipher.

"How tall is he? What's his species? What would you say his eye shape is? How big is-"

"Hey Donnie?"

"And then he could be a delinquent- Are you even into thugs? You didn't even tell me you were into yokai- better yet anyone!"

"DONNIE!!" I yelled. "How about he comes over and you cant meet him for yourself?" I offered. Despite whoever's efforts, i could still hear their footsteps. I was always considered the most in tune with my 5 senses, right next to Donnie.

('So why do I struggle with my mystics?' i questioned myself, but that's for later.)

"Who's Donnie gonna analyze now?" Leo walked in, grumbling with a grimace. Donnie flinched dramatically. I looked at the clock just to see it was 2:56 in the morning. Which meant i had been out for at least 6 hours. I winced again.

"Why don't you tell him? HUH? Oh DEAR little sister???!?!?" Okay now bro was getting on my damn nerves. I know he couldn't help it, but that doesn't mean he has to chuck me under that big yellow box full of sweaty children. (a bus)

Obviously that woke him up, even more than his insomnia has ever, with a lean against the wall.

"Is this about where they've been going? You do know you've missed at least 5 meditation sessions Mikey-" I held my hand up, stopping him from explaining further.

"Yea- i know, i feel bad about that as well." I started, "I've been going out to meet this boy..and we've been meeting up and dating for the past few weeks. He's a gecko mutant- He super nice and funny, he has this-"

"alright! alright! We dont need all of that gushy shit- plus, i suspected that anyway." Leo cut in. And honestly, Im not surprised.

"Yea.. figured as much" I sighed.

"YOU KNEW???"Donnie harshly whispered. Oh right, we're supposed to be quiet.

"No, i guessed. I mean, what else screams "im in love" better than a dopey smile, and kicks while screaming into a pillow- btw lil sis, you're super loud, keep the simpery down to a 3 mkay?" Leo said, just to end it with a wrist flip and a sassy finger pointing my way.

I rolled my eyes, but my faced betrayed my emotions with a bright blush.

"Whatever- we'll talk about it when everyone else is up." I backtraked. "I'll text him to come over Friday since its Tuesday. And ill tell April to come over too."

"So that's it!?" Donnie exclaimed, "No 'Look at you and ur silly crush' or 'sTinKY LiL sIs iS iN LoVe'?????" His hands were wildly waving around. "The fuck?"

"Im just better than you, besides, you were super duper sappy when you had your first date." I jested.

"Not really- well yes, but its also the fact that its now almost 4 at the ass crack of dawn and i couldn't care less right now."

"Oh- valid/That makes sense" You both said at the same time.

"Lets got to brd before Raph and Mikey wake up." Leo sat up from the wall, turning away. "Both of them being cranky isn't something I'd like to experience at the moment -" He finished, before walking towards his room.

"WELP! night night Dee! i hope you get toilet splashback <3"

"Okay then"

and you both went to your rooms. there. Despite already being awake for the whole night, you could only sleep for 3 hours before you had to get up again...great.

Speaking of, it was that morni

had to redo this bc the first one was absolutely brain fart

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[seirooo0]

Rui lacks in content so much I'm gonna strt crying, anyways take this rui x reader I made out of desperation for rui oneshots

words: 2,806 💀

plot: u sick as fuck and rui takes care of you

gn reader, use of you/your pronouns, also established relationship

What a great day it was for you— was something you wish you could've said but unfortunately, "sick days" exist (you probably forgot about them with how "healthy" you are). Spending the day doing nothing but dreading the headaches and the pain of being sick, maybe you're too dramatic that you'd fit in a theatrical scene but this is what it felt like for you. How long has it been since you last fell ill? It felt like a millennial or it's an exaggeration.

You wouldn't mind having such a day today, but it's so damn boring for you. Nothing to do all day other than resting and eating and resting, or perhaps you're into that if you're such a lazy guy. But anyone with shame in themselves wouldn't use this excuse to skip school, you're not an asshole after all. Clearly, you're worried about what's happening at school right now. Given that you had a test today, but your mother seemed persistent to make you stay in bed. Quite annoying, but it's the motherly nature in her, you can't blame her at all for worrying. Looking dully at the ticking clock, you wondered; how many hours had passed by now? With nothing to do, no sort of entertainment (you chose not to use your phone for health's sake), and you're just literally laying in bed like some sort of corpse in a coffin; motionless as hell.

And either your mom was so nosy that she had to call your boyfriend (weirdly enough, can't she just call dad or you're dadless (I'm sorry)) or one of your friends noticed that you weren't around so they called Rui in to visit you. But right now, all you know is that the purple male is right in front of you, cooking something in the kitchen. You had to drag yourself out of bed just to see who the hell entered, you would've freaked out but then you remembered your mother probably gave him the spare keys that you were looking for for the past 3 months. Standing behind him, you covered yourself in your blanket as if you're freezing to death, and you wondered if it's even enough to warm you up despite the scorching weather outside right now. Rui felt your presence almost immediately by the time you entered, and on his face he wore his signature cat-like grin (something that you always wondered; is he some sort of cat reincarnation or what) "You're awake, or perhaps you weren't sleeping at all? I heard you were sick today, so I came here just to watch over you, dear." He said, and despite his little cat-like grin, you can tell he's worried about you. "And which bastard?" "Don't call Tsukasa a bastard! Do you want me to snitch on you?" He replied with a laugh, honestly, it doesn't make a difference. You kind of wished Tsukasa pretended you existed in school today, but with how much you two hung out together you figured that won't be the case. "What about classes?" "Oh, don't worry about that, worry about yourself first." With his simple retort, you figured he might've skipped classes today just to tend you. You feel a little guilty now, but sometimes you're an ass. You kinda don't care about that, at least he's spoiling you (no shame at all, it seems). Maybe sick days aren't as bad as you thought.

"Come on now, standing up won't do at all." He said, and clearly you could feel some sort of evil teasing intent. And surely enough, without warning he lifted you up as if you're a small little thing (with his height, it's almost impossible you're not at least a few centimeters smaller than him unless) and what's worse, it's bridal style. Anyone who has no idea that you two are in highschool would mistake you two for an old married couple but Rui's uniform is still on, so that's a given. "H-Hey!" "Don't squirm around now, or else I might drop you!" The male laid you down on the sofa, which is fortunately comfortable enough to lay down on. You watched as Rui fixed the blanket for you, neatly covering you up like some sort of delicate, beautiful thing. "Now then… Hmm.. I'm less experienced with these types of things, but I assure you I'll take care of you, okay dear?" You feared he may blow up your kitchen with his limited culinary skills and with how experimental he tends to be, but right now he looks promising. You simply nodded your head, giving him a soft smile that would easily melt his heart but of course, this is Rui. You wished you would've seen him blushing a little more though. "Yeah, but isn't carrying me a little too much? I can walk, mind you." "Fufu~ I just wanted to be as close to you as possible. is that the answer you're looking for?" And like the usual you, his words managed to tug your heartstrings, enough to make you blush. His choice of words and his charm always managed to hit your heart like cupid's arrows whenever he's around. And thinking about him like this makes it feel like you guys aren't dating, that was 4 months ago dear, you already have his heart and he has yours. "Anyway, stay put alright? I'll bring you some tea and some porridge." He said, his figure slowly getting farther and farther away from you and towards the kitchen. You watched him attentively, and it's probably the sickness hitting you like alcohol but you seem to notice every little detail in your surroundings but specifically; on him. The way sunshine hits him that he seems to have come out of a beautiful photograph, his golden eyes shining in the dimly lit kitchen, you thanked the weather with how sunny it is today, otherwise you wouldn't witness such a scene. Everything feels as if it came out of a dream, that it took you a few moments to realize he's walking towards you. And like the observant little shit he is, he always seems to notice your actions the same way you take note of every detail in today's scene. "You always seem to love staring at me, don't you?" He teased, breaking you out of your dreamy reverie of him. His head tilted at an angle as he placed the tray of food on the center table, sitting down next to you. "Can you feed yourself, or would you like for me to feed you?" You can't tell if he's teasing you or if you're really high from your fever, he looked at you awaiting an answer that you can't seem to find in your head. How empty was it at the moment? I doubt you can even think straight. And for anyone who knew you as a complete stranger with no deep knowledge of each other, your prolonged staring could become off-putting. Thank the gods Rui was patient with you, but since you couldn't answer he decided to take things to his own accord. Right now, all you can see is him picking up the bowl of porridge and the spoon, you've already forgotten his question and looked at him in complete confusion. He seemed to notice that little expression on your face. "Well, it doesn't seem like you want to feed yourself. I'll do it for you instead." He said with such a smile, you can't tell if it's a cheeky one or a warm smile, all you knew is that you'd fall head over heels for him all over again like this is the first time you've seen such a man so fine (despite his awful choice of casual clothing and his eccentricity).

Bringing the spoon-full of the porridge, he brought it closer to your mouth (he made sure it's cool enough to swallow down), and with a bit of reluctance you opened your mouth and ate up the food he had offered. He seems to be pleased that you didn't deny it at all. This cycle continued on until the bowl was empty, you wondered how much time had passed because for you, it felt like hours. Handing you the cup of tea he prepared, Rui took the dirty dish and went ahead in the kitchen to wash it. Today seems calming, he wasn't acting out his usual teasing bullcrap which was a little odd. You watched him wash the dishes, weirdly enough you seem to focus on him more than anything today. And you're sure he noticed that from the moment you two had seen each other in the house. Comfortable silence engulfed the both of you as Rui worked on the dishes and you stayed on the couch, sipping the warm tea he had prepared for you. The taste of the porridge was still on your tongue, and if you were to be completely honest it doesn't taste really well. But you couldn't really voice that out, unless you're a cruel bastard or some sort of brutally honest person, regardless you kept those words to yourself. But Rui can tell you didn't like it from the moment your face contort to an expression similar to disgust, and you feel a little bad you wished you could've hid it better the same way he hides every emotion with such a calm demeanor. Upon taking your final drink of tea, you looked back at him and with perfect timing, he's done cleaning the dishes as well. Rui looked back at you while he's wiping his hands, he simply gave you a smile before walking back towards you. You're not quite used to this side of him if you were to be frank. "You act weird today." You said, and you just realized the word choice of yours. How stupid, you thought, you could've said "odd" or anything similar to that. But well, he didn't seem offended by that, rather he just gave you a simper grin as he sat down on the couch (with what's left of an empty space, since you're laying down) "Do I? I don't seem to understand what you mean, elaborate please!" That came out more unserious than what you had expected, but this is Rui after all. And it's not a heavily serious situation, both you and Rui knew that given by the light atmosphere around you two. This time, you actually took enough consideration with your words making sure no sort of misunderstanding happens "You don't seem to be— well… Rui? How do I put it into words..—" And as if he's reading your mind, he immediately replied to you with a knowing smile "You mean the usual teasing and the eccentricity everyone and you know me for?" He looked at you with arms crossed, and you nodded ever so slightly. It feels a little embarrassing to voice that out now. "Well, I figured you're not in the mood for that since you're sick. And don't I throw in some jokes for a light-hearted atmosphere? Did the sickness get to you so bad now, dear?" Oh, and the usual him is back. You smiled at his consideration, though you wanted to say he can just keep his usual teasing around, a moment like this isn't so bad once in a while. Sure, you kind of miss it (even if it's just a single day without it), but it can't be helped now, can it? You let out a chuckle "Maybe? Well, it's a natural thing I suppose." He let out a laugh as a response.

Rui's hand gently landed on your forehead, checking your temperature. He treats you so delicately that you wished it was an everyday experience. You took a mental note of getting sick again some other time for him to dote on you all over again. "Hm, your temperature is still high… I'll go get a wet cloth for you." That was the last thing he said before standing up and leaving you behind. Sounds sad doesn't it? Don't be so gloomy now, he just went to the bathroom to get a basin and a cloth to soak it in water. Generic first fever kit, the same way your mother always does, don't you know that? But knowing you, you're a clingy bastard towards him. It's not a surprise you'd like to be near him almost all the time. And it just became worse with your fever putting you in such a silly little goofy mood that you don't want him to leave at all. Oh, and while you're doing your little monodrama, he just came back and it hasn't even been an hour. Yeah, this is all the work of your fever, sure. And you're not quite sure what kind of expression you were making, but Rui looked at you in amusement (kinda worrying, don't you think?) "Is my brief disappearance such a huge problem that you'd be making an expression beyond describing?" Frankly, you wished he wasn't such a teasing type of guy, but here's the situation you ended up in. You looked at him with a cranky expression and he simply laughed as a response. Watching him place down the small basin on the table, you wondered if this was even necessary at all if you were the type to just sleep off an entire fever and wake up all healthy again. His hands squeezed out any excess water on the cloth before placing it on your forehead, the coolness was enough to make you relax as you let out a soft sigh. He looked at you with a small smile on his face before placing his hand on your head, "Get better soon, otherwise I might start missing you at school." he said, grinning playfully. You laugh at his little statement, kicking him playfully (since he sat by your legs). "Hey, hey!" "I'll be back in no time, I'm a healthy person after all unlike you." You joked, earning a little laugh from the man himself. Rui looked at you with a little coy smile before placing a hand on your head "Well, even so who knows if it'll be worse," He started as he planted a fleeting little kiss on your cheeks, enough to make you flush from surprise. "That's why I want to make sure you're alright so long as you're in my care, dear." His sudden endearment was a sure surprise for you. It doesn't mean he doesn't show any affection though, don't get me wrong, but to see him with such an expression full of genuine love and worry for you is such a dreamy scene. You wished you could see this almost everyday if possible. Sure, you miss his little antics, his teasing, but having something like this for compensation isn't so bad after all. You smiled at his little declaration, letting out a giggle, "I'll be alright, after all my dear Rui Kamishiro is taking care of me." You said, cringing a little at your choice of words. He seems to take that excellently, letting out a soft laugh before his hand (that was previously on your head) breaks contact. Oh how you wished it lasted a little longer.

"Then I'll let you rest, you can call me if you need anything.." He said, standing up and beginning to walk away and as if you were possessed by some unknown force, your hand reached for his, stopping him in his tracks. He looked at you, a little confused and curious. Gathering enough of your thoughts to construct a coherent sentence, you spoke out with what's left of your shame. Is it too much to ask if you simply wanted to be with him? "Stay with me for a little longer.." You managed to speak out after a moment of awkward silence. Rui looked at you, not reacting whatsoever. That simple action made you a little worried that subconsciously, you let go of his hand. But it didn't seem like that was his plan, as he immediately grabbed it again the moment you break contact with it. "No need to act so shy about it, why are you acting as if we're not dating?" He laughed out, before sitting on the floor, next to your face. It may be a way to tease you, perhaps, or he simply wants to be near you as possible. Either way, you smiled at his little gesture of endearment. "Thank you." "Anything for you, dear." Those were the last words you heard from him, drowsiness hitting you like a truck as you slowly fell into dreamland.

And as for how Rui is going to explain this to your mother if she ever found out he skipped school just to tend you, you can find out about that in another time.

I can't take it anymore doggey

[beeindaclouds]

Hi :) I hope you are having a good day/night so far! I was wondering if you could do fluff hcs for a gn reader who got a bad grade on smth (like I dunno a 45/68 or smth I'm not projecting-) and it made them feel rly stupid and just :'(( for whoever you want! (Would be awesome if karl, punz, and sap were in there lmao)

Hallo, thanks for requesting!

This hits too close to home lmao 💀 I'll do the ones you wanted most just for time sake

But anyway, hope you enjoy <3

Sapnap, Karl and Punz reacting to you being sad because of a bad grade

Requests are closed

Reader: GN - They/Them

You felt dumb for feeling like this

At the end of the day a grade is just that...a grade

But it made you feel even more dumb because everyone got something good other than you

Feeling defeated, and with your mind full of insults, you looked for towards your boyfriend for comfort

❝ Sapnap ❞

The texan was worried about you as soon as he saw the sad face you had

He opened his arms up and let you fall into his warm embrace while you let out all your emotions onto him

Between soft sobs and hiccups you told him what happened and how you felt

And Sapnap was quick to reassure you that everything would be ok

With an encouraging smile, and a few kisses here and there, he got your mood up and ready to get back that grade

❝ Karl Jacobs ❞

Karl noticed your mood when he had asked by text how your test went

You usually never leave him on read, unless he did something wrong, so he quickly drove to your house

It only took the sight of him to break down and tell him everything, you couldn't ignore your boyfriend even if your life depended on it

After hearing about what happened he quickly offered to help. He was a smart one in school, so he would obviously use his knowledge for his partner

You two started having little study dates every now and then, and you even saw your improvement which you were both very proud of

❝ Punz ❞

Punz held your hand tightly while driving back home after picking you up from school

You let out your frustrations to him as he took it all in and let you vent

As you arrived home and finished your venting, Punz decided that you should both have a little relaxing day of your own

He let you do whatever you like and bring him wherever you wanted as a small treat from the stressful day

As the day ended he made sure to remind you that one bad grade didn't mean you were stupid or dumb or worse then everyone. You had other good qualities beyond a stupid grade and he loved that about you

[punong-araw]

LONELY NIGHTS - LDH

˒ 🌱 ៸៸ kung mang aakit akit ka nanaman, pwede bang sa akin, akin lang? ( If you are going charm someone again, can you only do it to me? )

❲ Lee Donghyuck x Gn!Reader ❳

words : 1.2k | genre : angst | warnings : toxic relationship, cheating | a/n : no this is not new, this is a repost of an old oneshot but i did modify it a little, fixed a little bit of the grammar but it's still shit—also if you recognized this, no you don't 💀.

synopsis ‹𝟹 wherein you find yourself calling him, considering him as your solace even after everything you've been through.

main navi | nct masterlist

11:11 pm, the cabin of the train is almost completely empty carrying only 4 passengers including you. Work got you off late making you sluggish as you ride the train home. You rest your head against the railing beside you and your mind starts to recall the scenes from earlier in the day like it always does. 

One memory stood out. Since it’s the one that ruined your whole day before it even began.

You stood underneath the roof of the waiting shed for the bus stop. You were checking to see if you hadn’t forgotten anything at home when you felt your phone ring in your bag. You read the caller ID, it was your boyfriend – well, now ex-boyfriend.

"Hey, I want to break up," he says over the phone.

Your breath hitched, gripping your device in your hand by your ear. You stood there rooted on the ground, a gust of morning wind made your whole body shiver and frozen.

"Seriously?" You didn't feel like crying, in fact, you wanted to lash out then and there. Scream and curse at him but the anxiety and embarrassment that comes after the loud noise will make everything worse for you. And who even breaks up with people through the phone? and at 5 am?

"I'm sorry it's not you it's—"

"Fucking spare me with that bullshit Minyoung, just say you didn't like me and hang up." You said, cutting him off and ending the call not without giving him a chance to speak. You didn’t even have to think twice to find out if he was cheating on your not, for fuck sake you could hear a girl in the background. You were stupid to think he was ever a good idea.

That exchange definitely ruined your mood for the rest of the day.

And now you are back here, on the train home. Replaying the scenes that happened so early in the morning.

You were too prideful to admit it, blinded by thinking you could make him fall for you. But that wasn’t the case. You even caught him once with a girl but he was able to convince you. 

Stupid and naive were you. 

They are all the same. You were starting to think men that know how to treat their partner right are rare.

Well maybe…there was one.

You dated this one the longest. He was the kindest and most caring person. He stayed through your darkest nights and brightest days. He helped and cheered you on and even celebrated with you on your achievements. He gave you the support that no one else has. 

He was your first and would’ve probably been your last.

He became the first shoulder you cried on, he was there when you had a bad dream, he was there when you were scared of the thunders and didn't laugh at you once for it. He let you become vulnerable and got you to lower your walls. He made sure you weren't scared to open up anymore and always promised that he was there for you.

But alas, he broke that promise.

Now every time you hear someone say fuck relationships, you agree with them. You used to love the feeling of being in love. You thought that being in a relationship would solve all your problems. That was a lie, it’ll be the beginning of all your problems.

But something about him still made you wanna come back. You wanted to run into his arms, cry into his chest as you feel his rough calloused hands run through your hair, hushing you and whispering sweet nothings, calming your heart that has been hammering in your chest making you sob in pain.

In times like this when you are weak and tired, you find yourself on the phone with him, just to hear his voice again.

"Y/n..."

"I miss you Hyuck."

There, the tears that didn't fall from the break up fell on your cheeks as you talk to him again. A lump gets caught in your throat as you let out another sentence.

"I miss you so much." He gets you so weak it's embarrassing.

"Y/n, how many times do we have to—" That voice.

He’s tired. Tired of hearing your trembling voice over the line, weeping in pain and pity. 

"I'm sorry..I— I don't know,, I didn't even realize...I just—" you stumbled on your words as you try to not let the tears take over. "— no one is like you...no one can ever be like you,,,"

You hear a sigh on the other line.

He's tired of this. It's been a year since you broke up and he still finds you calling his phone. But Donghyuck cannot get himself to block your number.

"You are making it so hard to get over you— to get over us."

"Then come back to me, we can try again, please Hyuck?"

You can sense him shake his head, trying not to give in to your pleads. Desperation laced your words as your sobs begin to increase in volume, and streams of tears start to fall from your eyes. You didn't care if the other 5 people start to give you looks, all you wanted was Donghyuck to be in your arms again.

"You know how it ended with us, it never worked out." You swallowed your cries, wiping away the hot liquid from your face. It seemed that the sentence brought you back to reality as you recalled the last attempt of being with his presence again. Screams and cries echoed throughout the apartment with you throwing accessories and pillows at him.

You and Donghyuck were toxic. Together you are just waving a giant red flag. The endless fights, misunderstandings, your relationship status is constantly on and off and all your friends grew concerned until one day they were too tired to keep up. Because of your persistence in keeping the relationship longer with Donghyuck, your friends started leaving one by one to the point where Donghyuck was the only one you had. 

But you still couldn’t trust him enough to completely hold your heart. You realized that on the first fight you had.

"Yeah."

You tried hooking up with no strings attached but you were so addicted to him even that was killing you both inside. It was best that you just completely cut ties.

"I'm sorry for calling." Sniffles replaced the sounds of sobs, letting out a deep sigh as you've come back to your senses.

"It's ok."

"Goodnight Hyuck."

"Baby, are you coming back to bed?" You here in the back. 'Baby...' part of you felt guilty for calling now. What would his girlfriend think after his ex called trying to get back at him? You really don't want to be the reason he loses her trust but that little part of your toxic self wanted to keep this up and do harm to their relationship.

'boundaries' your conscience whispered to. 'remember you are trying to get rid of that part of yourself'

"I have to go y/n."

"Ok" you replied after he hung up. You leaned your head back, hitting the glass pane of the train window. Hearing the tracks whistles as the train dragged along the metal.

"The train is now arriving at its final destination, thank you and enjoy your night."

The train doors squeaked open as the passengers began to get off. You sat for a while registering what had just happened until the last passenger got off and you finally stood up to get off as well.

PUNONG-ARAW © 2022

[nightswithkookmin]

Ask Response. Sorta

"don't you think it's so sad that jikookers are saying jikook now have to hide and cheat and lie and pretend and go all the trouble to get into different cars, take a helicopter, wear a mask, act like james bond to hide the fact that they're together?"

"Like, do they really think any of that is better than just accepting they're not living together anymore? "

Did you take the truth serum I left on the counter by any chance????

Goddamn girl.

I don't know what's happening or why you are saying this but I feel caught between two sides of the argument you've presented. Two extreme opposite sides I don't agree or disagree with.

But first, allow me to address something that bugs me about your comment. Because I can detect a hint of several things that don't sit well within my soul, condescension being on top of the list. It's in your tone somewhere.

It's there. I can can feel it. Can't let it slide.

I don't know why you and certain jokers in general find the concept of hiding a relationship ridiculous. Is it so so ridiculous? Especially when you yourself say you are a closeted queer woman/man and think that Jikook are closested gay men...

I love you and I love your thoughts but sometimes I just wanna shake you up like

People swear up and down Jikook are closeted gay men doing the gawk gawk 9000 but are they out?? Are they out???

Did they tell you they are out???

And if they are not out then what do you think their doing or what do you think being closeted for them looks like??

What, you've not gone to lengths to hide that you are gay before??? You've not had a boyfriend or even agreed to go on dates with men occasionally to convince your strict Christian Aunty you are not gay before??

You've not lied about having vaginal warts and infections to prevent your 'boyfriend' from sleeping with you before?

You've not booked two separate hotel rooms and snuck into your sister's bestfriend's room at night to get slurped up before?

You've not saved your girlfriend's number Max a jerk to throw ppl off yo scent before??

Please we all lie. If Jikook are lying- all men do is lie. Nothing new there.

Just check tinder.

I think if these jokers hadn't inflated their egos and acted like they were a better superior species than Tuktukkers and other shippers because of their 'my ship don't have to hide' complex and hadn't totally demonized and ridiculed the concept of closets as pertains to queer relationships then they wouldn't be making an ass of themselves with this 360 turn around now that they are being forced to confront that Jikook might really be hiding their relationship.

I don't know why people clutch their pearls and make a big deal of this whole 'jikook are hiding' stuff. Like they are gay. They are supposed to be hiding💀💀💀

For heavens sakes, it's right there in your video edits: Jimin HIDING in JK's hotel room vol 786. The saga continues- good title by the way, if any one wants to use it. *wink. Lol.

Y'all don't see the irony in this??

When you live in a glass house, just don't throw stones sis. We are all in the same boat. We are shippers💀💀💀

Jokers want to distinguish themselves from Tuktukkers so bad they don't realize they are past the point of logic well into befoolery and making an ass of themselves everyday.

Worse they've become the most homophobic shippers I've ever come across in any fandom and I've been in quite a few. Cough cough.

They disguise bigotry as wokeness, homophobia as respect for others- I respect you so much now can you tuck your gayness in the closet where no one can see cos it makes sense and I care for your safety. No really stay in the closet and don't say you are gay or else I whistle to my friends and we will bully you off the internet. Hashtag Jikook supporter hashtag Jikook lives🤭

Jikook aren't out ergo they are hiding. it's not that deep. Maybe one day that will dawn on people and when they stand infront of the mirror, they will realize the trauma they put actual real gay people through by invalidating our lived experiences because it is incompatible with their sense of logic and outrightly downplaying the struggles we deal with being who we are just so nonshippers can applaud them and call them decent shippers when in reality there is no ethical shipping under shipping.

If you don't think the boys are actually gay but uWu when they grope each other and enact homoerotic fanservices then you are aiding them in queerbaiting and appropriating queer culture and even worse fetishizing queer people yourself in the name of entertainment.

Let's not take a saw to the branch we are perched on because we are all going down when the ship sinks💀

Jikook are not hiding that they have a relationship- nor should they- as they can and do play part of their relationship out openly by virtue of the fact they are coworkers and are expected to relate and even sometimes be homoerotic and intimate with eachother. We've gone over this several times sis.

They are definitely hiding aspects of their relationship including but not limited to their sexuality if they are indeed LGBTQ and dating.

I can understand those who theorize to this effect. I really can, even with the Tuktukkers. I don't agree with them but a lot of the time I see where they are coming from. Theories such as these are not rooted in heterosexual relationship politics. They are rooted in homosexual behavioral and relationship politics. There is a lot of hiding in gay ships more so than in straight ships due to the closet factor.

It's absurd and delusional to think two gay people who aren't out of the closet aren't hiding their relationship. It's absurd to think two gay celebrities who aren't out of the closet aren't hiding their relationship. Especially two gay idols in Kpop.

If someone were to tell you Kai and Jennie were hiding their relationship or Brad and Angie were hiding their relationships would that sound ridiculous to you??? If they told you, these celebrities in public pretend they don't know eachother, take separate cars to get to the same destination, wait five minutes after one has left the apartment before heading out themselves etc would you find that ridiculous???

I struggle to understand these cynicisms upo have I do.

They Lie and cheat- now ma'am, I know you are not throwing them shades cos if you are then me and you gonna have a problem😫

I really don't know what you mean by this but for someone who carries religious trauma and gets told this every time I come out to person's close to me I find that triggering af. My eye's twitching and errthang.

Not only am I told I'm going to hell for being gay, now I have to go to hell for lying and keeping the fact I'm gay a secret.

Either way, it's hell jail for me.

It's mental torture every single day.

If you've never been closeted and haven't beaten yourself up mentally for hiding and lying about who you are on a daily basis to the people you love out of fear for your life then good for you. Really, good for you. You're privileged. I can't relate.

Truth is, there is a dark side to all of this and it's not all bed of Roses being a closeted queer person.

If Jikook are really gay then yes they are 'cheating and lying' and not being honest about who they really because of their environment and if that makes you uncomfortable to hear and acknowledge them sue them and cry them a river. Or put your energy to good use and fix the system so some of us don't feel compelled to lie and hide who we really are.

There are idols being made to lie consistently about who they are in relationships and what they're sexuality status is. And the few who've come out have done so because they don't want to hide no more and were tired of hiding.

We've seen companies lie on their talents and coerce the idols to say and do certain things to hide stuff. It happens all the time.

"Most of my friends in Korea told me it was social suicide," MRSHLL shares with Billboard during an interview at a coffee shop in Gangnam. "I knew it wasn't going to be easy and I understood the risks going into it, but I just wanted to be authentic and be open from the get-go."While Bang was never secretive about his sexuality, he says he didn’t broadcast it either. "People just presumed that I was gay. It was kind of understood, I guess, for the things I would say, and it never really came up so I remained silent. And for the most part, I didn't say anything, because I didn’t really think it was in their vocabulary to really understand what it means [to be gay]. I know [Korea] is a lot more progressive than what it used to be, but there are still a lot of misconceptions about the LGBT community here."

Jikook are not above this struggle as privileged as they are. They can make a dent and push the boundaries but that doesn't erase the struggle.

The fandom made a big deal over Jungkook not covering his tattoos at UN and praised him for being honest and unapologetic about who he is all the while forgetting when he returns to Korea his tattoos are gonna be blurred out and covered with make up or digitally removed in certain contents and when that happens it's not because he is scared to be himself...

We praise Jungkook and Jimin for being bold and shameless and unapologetic sometimes when they interact with eachother without fear or regard for the cameras and we want that for them but we forget they are actually closeted gay men- if our theories about them is true- and that being closeted equally requires them to go out of their way to remain hidden whether as a general company policy that forbids artists to keep their relationships out of public consciousness or by their own volition by choosing not to broadcast, confirm or deny and letting presumptions about them run loose.

"I can't even imagine how I would have done it without my label," he says. "My sexuality was never an issue with them and it never came up. I was never forced or told to 'tone down,' or asked not to say something, and that means everything.”

The fact that he says he feels grateful to his label because he wasn't asked to and forced to "TONE DOWN" or "CENSOR HIS SPEECH" should tell you that other labels do in fact ask their artists to TONE DOWN, Censor their speech, take a car, not take a car etc and yet I recall you saying my claims of BigHit toning Jikook down was absurd and the most ridiculous thing you ever heard.

If Jikook are LGBTQ and not out then hiding would be part of their narrative unfortunately and it's ok to acknowledge that even if you fear that makes you come off as tuktukrish. They may be nut cases but a lot of them are just a bunch of closeted queer teens projecting onto their biases and I actually feel sorry for them as I often find myself doing same with Jikook.

Not acknowledging these struggles queer idols face and queer people face in general on a daily invalidates the lived experience of these people.

That also don't mean that hiding is all that there is to their relationship narrative because that takes away their agency and disregards the fact they are privileged than most given their wealth and their line of work, their cultural setting and their job requirements.

I feel there's never a right balance in the way their dynamic is perceived in the fandom.

Some jokers think they are being woke with these faux logics and syllogisms when they sneer at certain gay theories in the fandom in attempts to distinguish themselves from Tuktukkers but really all you do is come across as antigay and ignorant.

There. I said my peace.

Go ahead and drag me I ruv woo too🤣

PART B

JIKOOK NOT LIVING TOGETHER

Lemme ask you? Why do you believe they don't live together anymore??🤔

Is it because they don't share rides no more??

Lemme rephrase that. is it because we don't see them sharing rides anymore??? And at the airport when they went in separate cars and in different directions???

Honestly speaking, I haven't read too too much into them sharing rides more so than I do with the things they say that hints at their living situation: Jimin saying he loves to wake up next to Jungkook, describing how Jk snores to the members while they all listen keenly as if they've never shared a room with Kook too, saying he was with Kook at 4am caressing a phone in his hands and all those other moments.

I've gotten dragged by my edges for saying this in the past but I'll say it again, a lot points to or pointed to them cohabiting. Especially since Jimin didn't have his own habitable space in his name when everyone else had. They do live together.

BUT NOT ALL THE TIME.

OBVIOUSLY.

There literally are times they aren't even physically in the same geographical location. Should I weep then and yell Jikook don't live together no more? Isn't that bizarre??

I've not always been under the impression they lived together all the time, all year round- more so like yes they do share a living space from time to time and Jimin does sleep over at Kook's from time to time and more than occasionally too.

Do I think that has changed? HELL NO.

Contrary to what you've said in the past, I'm not one to overly romanticize them you know? I love them and I love their bond and bromance or whatever gay shit they have going on and sometimes it does cloud my better judgment- which is besides the point😭😭😭💀

My friend, she's a hopeless Romantic right and she made a big deal out of Jikook sharing cars and what not because it meant they lived together🙄

So I asked her... but they've always lived together. What makes this any special💀

From day one they've lived together. They hang out in hotels, dorms, cars, practice rooms- they are boyfriends. If one of them gets a place of their own of course the other will invite himself in. Is that a big deal?

She's like yeah but that is a huge step in a relationship if two people progress in their relationship in that way.

I guess.... that was my response.

That still is my response when I see people fighting over the internet about this car sharing thingy. Jungkook is not the only member Jimin stays with- now he has his own place so he must be living by himself. But historically, JK is not the only one he's stayed with.

I mean, I've joked one or two times about Jimin locking Kook out of his own house or even choosing to stay with friends for a while during arguments. Don't that presuppose I believe their living arrangement is situational?

If you watch Run episodes or the behind scenes you would know there are instances where they each arrive on set separately which seem to imply they arrive to set from different locations. Why come to set at different times if y'all are coming from the same place and share the same car??

Then sometimes the things the members would say would raise questions, like Taehyung saying he asked Jimin to come over on JK's birthday or Jin asking to wait for Jimin at the dorms after schedule on his birthday when Jimin was riding with Kook.

Of course Jimin told him he couldn't make it which implied to me he and Jin go home together sometimes too- either cos he lives around Jin's house or sleeps on Jin's couch. (Humor intended somewhere😅)

This of course is corroborated by moments he's shared videos of himself with Jin riding home together after work- having a sing song along the way etc.

And if you backtrack you'd notice its something that had been going on since his birthday in October. Because during the concert we saw them sharing a ride but in subsequent Run they were coming to set at different times and somewhere in December is when he'd told Jin he wouldn't be able to make it back to the dorm- someone did the walk of shame the next day I just know it🤭

Hoes everywhere 🤭

Good for him😊

But is that cause for alarm?? I don't know. Speculate away but I'm just observing things within the timeline- I'll share my findings when I've gathered enough information😊

Personally, I wouldn't make much of it as it's always been like that even before October. There are moments you see them consistently sharing rides and some moments they are not. Why? I don't know. Could be family visiting one of them, a fight, where need of personal space, literally a myriad of things. They are adults not kids anymore.

They share rides sometimes because it's convenient- whether because it takes them to the same vicinity or schedule. If it's not convenient for them to share a ride- either because they have different schedules or aren't going to the same vicinity- then what's the big deal?

When you say Jikook are not living together, I hope it's not to insinuate they are broken up or anything like that??

Other than that, I think the logic is simple, if you think they live together because they share a car then certainly now that they are not sharing are car then they don't live together. It's as simple as that.

Do you see the flaw in that argument??

I think for some of us, saying they live together is because of more than the mere riding a car together and more so about the things they say about eachother together with that carpooling situation. For instance, thanks to Jimin we know Namjoon has his own home and don't live with the others. If he shared a car with Suga it wouldn't mean he lived with Suga.

It's the same with Jikook.

Like I said, Jungkook is the one with the place. What if his family comes to visit and having Jimin there is inconvenient?? What if his friends come to visit? Or he just needs his space?? What happens to Jimin if they live together? Does he hide in the broom closet then??

We just learned he gifted his house in Seoul to his brother- what happens to Jimin then?

Did they break up and he got rid of the home and Jimin got himself a new apartment??

Is that what's on your mind?

I don't like that theory cos it's wack.

Really when it comes to these two, understand they are real, it's their relationship and no opinion can invalidate that. We can sit here and theorize all day about them but if they are doing the gay they are doing the gay no matter what we say.

Whether you think they live together or don't live together won't change the fact they are carrying out a relationship. When in a few days, weeks, months, bangtan releases content of them sharing a ride again, or if they accidentally let slip something about their living conditions then what???Are you going to eat your words?

I won't be surprised if Jungkook goes over with his mattress to wherever Jimin stays at night and perches with him sometimes too😂💀

From the way Jin asked if he should wait for him at the dorm, it seems Jin wasn't expecting Jimin to stay with Jungkook that dawn after schedule. Isn't it odd to have that expectation of someone who has a home and lives with his man in it????

One thing I know for sure, Jimin stayed with Jungkook that dawn and on the day of Jungkook's birthday when Tae had asked him to come over.

Make of it what you will.

To me, they do stay together most of the time but not always and it's really not a big deal.

As for BigHit hiding Jikook because they are not riding a car together... tag me in the post I'd love to read it🤣

Let me run for cover😂

GOLDY