#* ♡ snow & logan .

[swtsours-a]

“   it   was   just   one   kiss   .   ”

[moonxknightx]

♡˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ :UNTAMED DESIRE: :;

╰┈➤ ❝ [PAIRING] ❞ Logan Howlett x F!Reader

・❥・GENRE: Smut

 ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆FANDOM: X-Men

ੈ✩‧₊˚ WARNINGS: Explicit content, 18+, smut, oral (f!receiving), Adult Themes.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥SUMMARY: After weeks apart, Logan returns from a mission, carrying the weight of battle and longing. In the quiet of a secluded cabin, the intense connection between you and Logan ignites, leading to a night of passion and intimacy that reaffirms your bond and desire for one another.

THE EVENING HAD SETTLED INTO THE QUIET HUSH OF THE CANADIAN WILDERNESS, A SOFT BLANKET OF SNOW COVERING THE WORLD OUTSIDE. The warmth of the cabin wrapped around you like a comforting embrace, the crackle of the fire in the hearth the only sound breaking the stillness.

Logan had always been a man of few words. He was a storm, all rough edges and raw power, a force of nature that you had never quite tamed—though you were never sure you wanted to. Tonight, however, there was a softness in his gaze, a tenderness that he reserved for moments like this, moments when the world was just the two of you.

He had been gone for weeks, out on one of those missions he never talked about, but you could see the weight of it in his eyes, the haunted look that came with the memories of battles fought and blood spilled. When he came back, you hadn’t said anything, simply pulling him close, needing to feel his presence, to remind yourself that he was here, with you.

Now, he was on his knees before you, his hands gentle as they traced the curve of your thighs, his rough palms sending shivers through your body as he pushed your legs apart. The heat between your legs pulsed, a deep ache that only he could satisfy. His gaze met yours, those intense, feral eyes softening as they took in your flushed cheeks and parted lips.

“Missed you,” he rumbled, his voice like gravel and honey, vibrating deep in his chest.

Your fingers tangled in his thick, dark hair, tugging him closer as your hips shifted, seeking the touch you craved. “Then show me,” you whispered, the words trembling on your lips.

Logan didn’t need to be told twice. He nuzzled against the inside of your thigh, the scrape of his beard against your sensitive skin sending a shock of pleasure through you. His breath was warm, teasing as it ghosted over your heated core, his hands sliding up to grip your hips, holding you in place as he took his time, savoring the moment.

When his mouth finally descended on you, it was like being caught in a storm—wild, overwhelming, and utterly consuming. His tongue moved with a practiced ease, a rhythm that was both gentle and demanding, coaxing gasps and moans from your lips as he worshipped you with every stroke. The world outside ceased to exist, the only reality was the pleasure building inside you, the way his tongue flicked and swirled, the way his lips closed around that most sensitive part of you, drawing you closer and closer to the edge.

Your back arched, your fingers tightening in his hair as your body tightened, a coil wound so tight that it was ready to snap. Logan growled against you, the vibration sending you over the edge, your release crashing through you in waves that left you trembling, gasping his name.

He didn’t stop, drawing out your pleasure until you were spent, slumping back against the soft cushions, utterly and completely undone. When he finally pulled away, his lips were glistening with your release, his eyes dark with a hunger that hadn’t yet been sated.

“Logan…” you breathed, still trying to catch your breath.

He wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, a smirk tugging at the corner of his lips as he leaned over you, the weight of his body a comforting pressure as he pressed a kiss to your lips, letting you taste yourself on him. “I’m not done with you yet, darlin’,” he murmured against your lips, his voice a low growl that sent another wave of heat rushing through you.

And with that, you knew the night was far from over.

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Week 6 Reblog Masterlist

}Welcome to Week 6 2024 or Week 214, as always, fics would be listed in the order I read them.

I hope you enjoy it!

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♥ You can check my reading guidelines here.

♥ You can check my masterlist here.

♥ You can check my main reblog masterlist 2024 here.

♥ You can check my February reblog masterlist 2024 here.

♥ You can check Week 5 2024 here.

♥ You can check Week 7 2024 here.

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💜 ʰᵒʳʳᵒʳ

🖤 ᵈᵃʳᵏ

❤️ ˢᵐᵘᵗ

💚 ᶠˡᵘᶠᶠ

💙 ᵃᶰᵍˢᵗ

🧡 ᶜᵒᵐᵉᵈʸ

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This is the list of the fics I read and recommend in Week 6 2024:

Idiots in love (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @moonvis 💚💙

Favourite food (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @buckys-wintersoldier 💚💙

I know where I belong part 8 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @sosa2imagines 💚

Ghosts of the past (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @the-soot-sprit💙

The right size (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @bolontiku 💚

For the longest time (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @dem-obscure-imagines 💚

Will jilted (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @sarahowritesostucky 💚

Ever present shadow (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @the-soot-sprit💙

Never pegged you for a deviant (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @androidsalienswizards❤️

Jilted part 1 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @sarahowritesostucky ❤️

Epilogue (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @the-soot-sprit💙

Are we still for (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @intrepidacious 💚

Blackberry (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @mariaxxxxx❤️

I want to go down (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @howlingscarlet❤️

Jilted part 2 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @sarahowritesostucky ❤️

The spectre of hope (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @the-soot-sprit💙

Mission 100 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @sebastianstanisahotmf💙

Imagine by @moonlit-imagines💙

Yandere Steve alphabet (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @yanderemcu 💚💙❤️

Wonderstruck chapter 11 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @messedupfan💚

Trust (Bucky Barnes X Reader) by @kgficz💙

Let me in (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @happy74827💙

Dashing through the snow (Brock Rumlow X Reader) by @e-dubbc11💚

Back and forth part 4.1 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @anika-ann 💙

Worth to wait (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @stargazingfangirl18❤️

Back in time (Logan Howlett X Reader) by @kgficz💙

Drip (Stucky X Reader) by @biteofcherry❤️

Unbreakable chapter 8 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @crazyunsexycool 💚💙

[bruh-anator3000]

Masterlist

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Welcome to my masterlist, I dont write very often but I have a few now so I might as well make a navigation for it :)

Characters I'm writing for right now is mainly Viktor from Arcane. Or anyone from Arcane.

5/23/23 Update: Dagur will be joining my masterlist bc i am a slave to my hyperfixtations.

6/29/23 Update: Miguel O'Hara has entered the chat

8/9/24 Update: Deadpool and Wolverine have woken something in me

Italicized titles are unfinished/wips. Bold are posted and bold and italicized are fully completed projects.

Asks/prompts are OPEN!!! Don't be shy! Ask away!

I EXPLICITLY FORBID ANYONE TO FEED MY WORKS INTO AI. ACTIONS THAT GO AGAINST THIS WILL BE BLOCKED FROM MY ACCOUNT.

I don't go by much here, my name is up for you to choose. My tag will just be #bruh writes. I hope you enjoy my work. Much love <3

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Viktor:

- The Lab Inspector's Daughter:

Summary: You're a lab inspector. Boring job. But the little girl you took under your wing sure made it interesting. She grew up into a smart kid, easily finding her way into Piltover's finest Academy. She also decided she would double as a matchmaker.

First date:

Jericho's: Jinx wanted to take a quick trip into memory lane. Viktor, however, is not a fan of what it serves. Literally.

- HexCrunch:

Summary: You're so, so hungry...

- Bedtime:

Summary: Poor Viktor never gets enough sleep. It's time you change that.

- Mafia!au

Summary: nothing yet, just a sketch >:)

Drabbles:

- Jealous?Viktor

- Snow-ball fight

- Afraid to love

- Arcane x Tangled

- NSFW drabble(MDNI!!)

- Comfort during a fight

- Viktor x Sculptor!S/O

- Machine Herald trying to find you

- Zombie Apocalypse hc

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Dagur:

To Skrill or Not to Skrill:

Summary: Dagur didn't just... leave you, right? You led him and the Hunters to the exact spot your calculations had said the beast would be. The further you got into the cave, however, the less the others followed. Leaving you completely alone. Well, besides the dragon.

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Miguel O'Hara:

CAT-astrophic:

Summary: A random hot guy won't stop talking to your cat, it's starting to freak you out.

The Cat's Cradle (Miguel x BlackCat!OC):

Summary: WIP

Introduction to Anisa Hardy

Untitled Wolverine x Deadpool x Miguel x Reader mini series?:

Summary: Black Cat!Reader invites their roomies on a heist (reluctantly) and Spider-Man isn't a fan. Yet.

Drabbles:

- love not lust (slightly NSFW!)

- Miguel and Mayday angst

- Widower!Miguel

- Black Cat and code names

- Aftercare (slightly NSFW)

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Deadpool and Wolverine (under the same category for now):

Untitled Wolverine x Deadpool x Miguel x Reader mini series?:

Summary: Black Cat!Reader invites their roomies on a heist (reluctantly) and Spider-Man isn't a fan. Yet.

In pain? Get stoned! Logan x Wade x Reader:

Summary: Wade's chronic pain is giving him the works, so the best solution you have is getting high.

Drabbles:

- Logan and Miguel thoughts...

[mlmxreader]

╓┈♔◦☓◦☙◦♔◦☙◦☓◦♔┈╖

     WHO I WRITE FOR 

╙┈♔◦☓◦☙◦♔◦☙◦☓◦♔┈╜

-ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈

List of all the characters I write for and am willing to take requests for 

┏━━━━ ★ ━━━━┓

MORTAL KOMBAT 

┗━━━━ ★ ━━━━┛

➵ Kuai Liang

➵ Johnny Cage

➵ Spawn

➵ Kung Lao

➵ Erron Black

➵ Bi-Han

➵ Hanzo Hasashi

➵ Reptile/Syzoth

➵ Jax Briggs

➵ Kenshi Takahashi

➵ Smoke

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

╔═══.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.═══╗

BAND OF BROTHERS

╚═══.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.═══╝

➣ William “Wild Bill” Guarnere

➣ Richard “Dick” Winters

➣ Burton Paul “Pat” Christenson

➣ Eugene G. “Doc” Roe

➣ Lewis Nixon

➣ Ronald Speirs

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

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CALL OF DUTY

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MODERN WARFARE:

➛ Kyle “Gaz” Garrick

➛ Alex Keller

┆ ° ♡ • ➵ ✩ ◛ °

GHOSTS:

➛ David “Hesh” Walker

┆ ° ♡ • ➵ ✩ ◛ °

WW2 & VANGUARD:

➛ Robert Zussman

➛ Ronald “Red” Daniels

➛ Arthur Crowley

➛ Marcus Howard

➛ Richard Webb

➛ Arthur Kingsley

➛ Lucas Riggs

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

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RED DEAD REDEMPTION

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➽ Arthur Morgan

➽ Charles Smith

➽ Josiah Trelawny

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

╔⏤⏤⏤⏤╝❀╚⏤⏤⏤⏤╗

THE BOYS

╚⏤⏤⏤⏤╗❀╔⏤⏤⏤⏤╝

➱ Billy Butcher

➱ Black Noir

➱ Marvin Milk/Mother’s Milk 

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

╔═════๑♡๑═════╗

SCREAM

╚═════๑♡๑═════╝

⇢ Dwight “Dewey” Riley

⇢ Mickey Altieri

⇢ Mark Kincaid

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

╔══════✮❁•°♛°•❁✮ ═════╗

TOM HARDY

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↪ Farrier (Dunkirk)

↪ Alfie Solomons (Peaky Blinders)

↪ Bane (The Dark Knight Rises)

↪ Eddie Brock/Venom (Marvel)

↪ James Delaney (Taboo)

↪ Pavel Sidorov/Leo Demidov (Child 44)

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

︻⋆︻⋆︻⋆︻⋆︻

LOTR/THE HOBBIT

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⟿ Aragorn

⟿ Legolas

⟿ Frodo

⟿ Eomer

⟿ Boromir

⟿ Faramir

⟿ Thorin

⟿ Fili

⟿ Kili

⟿ Bard

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

╱╲❀╱╲╱╲❀╱╲╱╲❀╱╲

TV SHOWS & FILMS (misc)

╲╱❀╲╱╲╱❀╲╱╲╱❀╲╱

⇉ James Bond (Pierce Brosnan only)

⇉ Dr. Laszlo Kreizler (The Alienist)

⇉ John Moore (The Alienist)

⇉ Sierra Six (The Gray Man)

⇉ Dr. King Schultz (Django Unchained)

⇉ Holland March (The Nice Guys)

⇉ Tom Hanniger (My Bloody Valentine)

⇉ Pyramid Head (Silent Hill)

⇉ Lt. Horstmayer (Joyeux Noel)

⇉Elliot Stabler (Law and Order: Special Victims Unit)

⇉Dr. George Huang (Law and Order: Special Victims Unit)

⇉Chester Lake (Law and Order: Special Victims Unit)

⇉Brandon Beckett (Sniper franchise)

⇉John Wick (John Wick)

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

┏━━━━ ★ ━━━━┓

GAME OF THRONES

┗━━━━ ★ ━━━━┛

-> Bronn

-> Tywin Lannister

-> Jaime Lannister

-> Jorah Mormont

-> Jon Snow

-> Ramsay Bolton

-> Sandor Clegane (The Hound)

-> Robb Stark

-> Eddard Stark

-> Renly Baratheon

-> Oberyn Martell

-> Petyr Baelish

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

┏━━━◥◣◆◢◤━━━━┓

MARVEL

┗━━━◢◤◆◥◣━━━━┛

➬ Wolverine/Logan Howlett

➬ Magneto/Erik Lehnsherr

➬ Venom/Eddie Brock

➬ Carnage (symbiote only!)

➬ Charles Xavier

➬ T'Challa

➬ Gambit/Remy LeBeau

➬ Falcon/Captain America/Sam Wilson

➬ Blade

➬ Hank McCoy/Beast

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

➬ Forge

➬ Kurt Wagner/Nightcrawler

-ˏˋ. DC ˊˎ-

↦ John Constantine

↦ Bruce Wayne/Batman (Nolan only)

↦ Bane

↦ Slade Wilson

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

┏━✦❘༻༺❘✦━━┓

SUPERNATURAL

┗━✦❘༻༺❘✦━━┛

➩ Dean Winchester

➩ Chuck Shurley

➩ Castiel

➩ Balthazar

➩ Benny Lafitte

➩ Gadreel

➩ Crowley

➩ Bobby Singer

➩ Rufus Turner

➩ Mick Davies

⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂⠁⠁⠂⠄⠄⠂ ⠂⠄⠄⠂☆

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FALLOUT

╚═══*｡❅*⋆⍋✧ ✦ ✧⍋⋆*❅｡*═══╝

➲ Maximus

➲ Cooper Howard/The Ghoul

➲ Nick Valentine

➲ John Hancock

➲ Preston Garvey

➲ MacCready

➲ Sturges

➲ Paladin Danse

➲ Porter Gage

➲ Mason (The Pack Alpha/leader)

➲ Old Longfellow

[fangirlstorycreator]

The Legend Of The Lost Princess ♡Chapter 22

When you arrived at the camp, you try to hide your pain and eyes from anyone, especially Tal. Your quiet and you try to keep to yourself when Blackwall and Jareth enter the camp and show off the boar they brought. "We've got boar! Who's hungry?!" "We all are Jareth! Come on, I'll help you prepare it" Logan shouts as he helps Jareth prepare the dinner. In your haste to try and keep out of Taligaro's way, you accident bump into him when your not paying attention. "Hey there you are, did everything-....Y/N? What's wrong?" "Nothing? What are you talking about?" "Y/N your as white as snow and I can see bruising on your hands and arms. What happened? Are you badly hurt?" "Tal please just leave it, I'm fine" "But Y/N-" "I said I'm fine! Please, please just...I need some space..." You quickly walk away from him to the farthest part of the camp area, sitting at the base of a tree and desperately trying to stop any tears coming out. Taligaro looks worriedly over to you, what could he do to help? He knows something happened, but what?" Respecting your wishes, he walks over to where everyone else was, and that's when he over hears Jareth describing the situation. "So this boar we were hunting had suddenly vanished off the tracks, and when we tried surching for it, we looked up into the tree and there it was!" Cael asks confusedly "So what? The boar managed to climb a tree?" "No! There was this giant snake! It was eating the boar, and when it saw us, it started to attack!" Taligaro's ears pricked up at this, there was danger? "So anyway, this massive thing was attacking us and we were trying to keep it at a distance until Y/N came and distracted it, allowing Blackwall to cut its head off! But the most disgusting thing was-" As Jareth continues to tell this story, Taligaro is still looking over at you, he's really worried, and it seems that Blackwall had noticed this. He whispered into Taligaros ear "I need to speak with you, in private" Taligaro nodded and walked over to the edge of the forest, out of range for anyone to hear, but still where they could see the camp.

"Taligaro, I wanted to talk to you about what happened with the snake" "Please tell me Blackwall, did something happen to Y/N? She's not herself and she looks like she's been hurt" ".....She was.....Look, when she came and helped us, she distracted it from biting Jareth by slicing up it's back" "But? There's a but isn't there?" "But is knocked her back against a tree. Me and Jareth tried to get over there and help her, but it whipped both of us onto our backs. I was only down for a second I swear, but when I got back up...it had trapped her in its coils" "It what?! It was going to kill her?!" "As soon as I got up, I sliced its head off and stoped it from doing anything else I swear. You know I don't want anyone in this company to go through something like that, look I'm, I'm sorry" "Don't you dare apologise for saving her, because that's what you did. No wonder she looks frightened over there, she must still be in pain. Did....did it hurt her bad? When it had her in its coils?" "Taligaro-" "Please...I need to know..."

Blackwall exhales and looks him in the eye. "She....she turned blue....it was squeezing her so tight-...... but she's alive Taligaro, I'm so sorry I couldn't stop it hurting her but I could stop it killing her" Taligaro wipes a single tear away from his cheek, hearing what happend to you terrified him to the core. "You saved her, and for that you have my eternal thanks" "Don't mention it, looking at her over there, I'd say give her an hour maybe, then go and help her. Something like this needs some time to process" "Thank you Blackwall, again" Him and Blackwall head back to the camp as Jareth continues to tell his story, and it seems that he is trying to impress Luna. "So Luna? Its quite impressive huh? Taking on a Viperconda?" He says as he tries to flex his arm and show off his muscles against the fire as Blackwall sits down beside Cael and Logan. "Uhh? Yeh kind of? But you didn't kill it did you?" "Uhh, well, no, not exactly but-I still faced it!" Luna looks over at Blackwall, Cael and Logan are talking to eachother so Luna speaks to Blackwall. "You killed it didn't you?" "Yeh...I did" "What was your name again?" "Blackwall" "I remember you Blackwall" "You do?" "When I was turned back into a human, I remember drifting in and out of consciousness...you were the one holding me weren't you?" "....Yeh....yeh I was" "Thank you for that...I appreciate it" "Your uhh, your welcome"

For the first time, Blackwall appeared to genuinely smile, and it was for Luna, and she happily smiled back, blushing a little as he looks at her. "Hey! Hey Luna! I bet you think this is impressive huh?" Jareth shouts as he runs over to a tree and attempts to run up and do a back flip. Unfortunately, he falls right on his ass and starts moaning in pain. Luna and Blackwall share a chuckle together before looking at eachother once again. Was there a spark? Only time will tell. After about an hour, the boar was prepared and cooking on the fire, Cael and Logan were attempting to help Jareth with a back flip, Luna and Blackwall were getting to know eachother more, and you were sat in exactly the same place where you were when you came back to camp. You still couldn't shake off what happened to you, you had faced a basalisk, so why was this affecting you so much? You decide to slip away from the camp and have a little walk, you end up finding what looks like a cliff area about 2 minutes away from the camp, the sun was setting and it would be dark soon, but you would make sure you returned before then.

You sit on a boulder beside on of the trees, looking at the view infront of you, you were hoping it would distract you, but unfortunately it didn't. "Y/N?" Came a calm voice behind you "Tal? What are you doing hear?" "I wanted to see if you were ok" "I'm fine" Your facing away from him as he walks up closer behind you, and he huffs at your words. "Please don't lie to me" "What?" "Don't lie to me Y/N, Blackwall told me what happened" "Well, then you already know then don't you? You don't have to ask me about it" You say wiping tears away, his frustration gets the better of him and he walks up and stands infront of you. "Y/N, I just want to help you" "I don't need help Taligaro, I said I'm fine" "Oh really? So? Being squeezed by a giant snake and nearly dying is something you can just shrug off? Correct me if I'm wrong but noone can be fine after something like that" "Well weather I am or not shouldn't bother you" "And yet it does Y/N" "Why are you so worried about it?" "I'm worried about you!" "Well don't be!" "I can't! Please stop lying to me so I can help you!" "What do you want me to say Tal?!" You say as you raise your voice and stand up to face him properly, tears streaming down your face. "What?! Do you want to hear how it felt?! How painful it was when it was crushing me with its coils?! Well fine! It hurt more than anything I have ever felt! It felt like my bones were going to crack from underneath my skin! I couldn't breath in or out, and it was squeezing any air I had out of my lungs so tight that I thought they were going to burst! I was petrified! I thought I was going to die! There! Now you know the truth Tal!" Taligaro's heart is breaking in his chest as he sees the pain and hurt pour out of you like a fountain, he couldn't help the tears running down his cheeks. He could barely get the words out of his mouth as it practically came out as a whisper. "Y/N....my god I'm so sorry...why? Why didn't you say anything?" "Because I didn't want to worry you with my problems ok?!" "So? What? You can put all your effort into helping everyone around you, but you won't accept help for yourself? Why would you think that's fair?" "Because I'm not worth it ok!....im not..."

You begin to break down, you cant hold the pain in anymore as the crying takes over you. "I-I dont deserve that-I always had to look after myself, I-Noone helped me-i had noone....I don't deserve it- I've never deserved it-thats my role, I care for everyone else so noone can see the real me...just some pathetic little girl who just-just wants....but I can't, I cant have that feeling of safety...I don't deserve to feel safe...oh god I cant-I can't..." You fall to your knees infront of him as what feels like years and years if pain just pour out of you in waves of tears and crying, this utterly breaks Taligaro.

Your holding yourself as it all comes out, but Taligaro is knelt beside you and he holds you in his arms, tightly against his body and chest as you scream out everything you have held back for so long. He spoke quietly and softly to you, but you could still hear every word. "You DO deserve to feel safe Y/N. You DO deserve to feel cared for, and I promise you this, I will do everything in my power to help you feel that way. Everyday I will be there to help you through this, everyday I will tell you how important you are and how much you mean to me, because you do. Having you in my life has made me a better man, and every moment I have spent with you, I wouldn't trade for all the gold and treasures in the world. Nothing could stop my admiration and devotion to you Y/N, nothing. I will remind you of that every day, and do anything I can to make you happy, make you smile, because you have the most...most beautiful smile" He places his hand against your cheek and raises your face to look at him. "No matter what your head tells you, you are cared about, you are wanted, and I will never let anyone else do anything to hurt you, or let any creature harm you again, I swear to you. Nothing is going to stop me protecting you" He wipes away your tears as you bury your face in his chest, he still holds you and gently strokes your hair and back. "You just let it all out Y/N, I'm staying right hear, and I won't let you feel this pain alone"

As all this is happening, Cael is about to start slicing up the boar and hand it out to everyone. "Has anyone seen Taligaro and Y/N?" Cael asks. "Maybe their off getting a little lucky?" "Shut up Jareth" "What?! It could be true Blackwall. God your no fun" Logan takes the plate that Cael gives him and says "I'm sure they'll be along soon, maybe they both must need some time to process what happend today, especially Y/N. The poor thing has gone through so much" They all nod in agreement, and Cael hands out the last plate to Luna. "Taligaro told me that Y/N killed a basalisk, that's so cool! What's the most dangerous thing you guys have ever slayed?" They all look to eachother, but Jareth is happily the first to speak up. "Well Luna.....I killed an enormous ghoul" "A ghoul? Aren't they the same size as a man?" "Not this one, he was at least twice the size! I killed him easily, quite impressive huh?" "Uhhh, yeh sure" They guys smirk as Jareth looks a little embarrassed. So Cael says "I once took down a Wyvern, it was about the size of a horse and carriage, but still the biggest thing I've taken out" Logan smiles and says "I think the biggest thing I killed was a centaur" "A centaur?" "Yeh, it was trying to hurt innocent people in a village, so I took care of it. That's the biggest one I've slain" Blackwell finishes his drink and says "I took out a werewolf" Everyone around the fire gasps in horror, including Luna, who now looks really interested in what he has to say next. "A werewolf?! That must have been terrifying! Please tell me-uh I mean, please tell us" Blackwall slightly smiles and sits up a little more to tell her. "It was in my home village, It was just over 5 years ago when I heard lots of commotion from all these people fleeing. I had my weapon and went to see what was happening, that's when I see this werewolf tearing through someones house to get inside. There was a family screaming in there, I had to do something. Luckily my blade at the time was silver, so I ran up behind it and plunged the blade through it's back and straight through its heart. I was lucky not to get scratched when it tried to attack me, luckily it fell to the floor and died very quickly after I stabbed it. So yeh, that's what happened basically" Luna is in awe of Blackwall, and everyone else loved hearing that story. "Your a real badass Blackwall" "Thanks Logan, anyway lets eat up before the food gets cold"

Back at the cliff edge, you had finaly calmed down from your panicked and crying state, Taligaro was still holding you and comforting you though it. "There we go, does it feel better to get that all off your chest Y/N?" "Yeh, it does. But to tell you the truth, I feel exhausted" "I'm not surprised, you've used up a lot of energy releasing all that pain. Your eyes and face are red, and you look like you could fall alseep" "I feel like I could too" Just then, your stomach growls with hunger. "Let's get you back to the camp Y/N, you need to eat and get some sleep" "Tal wait! I...I dont want them to see me like this" He smiles warmly at you as he strokes your cheek with his thumb. "Don't worry, you can wear my cloak from my back, you can wrap this around yourself and I'll take you straight to your tent. I'll explain that you need your sleep and they shouldn't disturb you, once I've done that I'll grab us some food, we'll share it in your tent and I can let you get some sleep. I'll be in the tent right beside you when you sleep, is that a plan?" "Yes...yes please"

"Ok, but just before we go, can I check your arms? I just want to make sure your not too badly hurt" You nod at him, and he very gently moves your sleeves up to see your arms, they are bruised, but thankfully there isnt any more damage. Taligaro just cant help himself, he leans in and places a gently kiss in your biggest bruise. "Alright, lets get you back shall we? Come on" He stands up and gives you his hand, you wrap yourself up and take his hand as he helps you to up. You keep his hand in yours as you walk back, but he is more than happy with that. You both walk into the camp and head straight over to your tent. Taligaro makes sure your ok, then he walks over to the others. "Hey guys, listen, Y/N has had a really rough night and she just wants to get some rest. So I'm going to grab me and her some food and then she's going to get some sleep..I just wanted to let you all know" Cael says "Thats fine, we'll see her in the morning" So Taligaro grabs some food and brings it to your tent, as Luna looks around her seating area. "What's up Luna?" Oh don't worry about me Blackwall, I'm just looking for a place to lie down to sleep" "You can't sleep on the floor, take my tent" "Oh no I couldn't do that" Jareth then says "You could stay in my tent Luna! Theirs plenty of space for two!" Blackwall doesn't like that idea "How about you take my tent for tonight Luna, and I will bunk with you Jareth" "Wait what!?" "You said it was big enough for two didn't you? Good then that's settled" "Are you kidding me?" "Trust me, I'm not exited about it either, so just shut up and get over it" Back in your tent, you and Taligaro had just finished your food, and you look utterly drained. "I'll let you get some sleep Y/N, you need it. I'll see you tomorow morning" "Tal wait" You say holding his wrist before he tries to leave. "I just....I just want you to know that...I'm really thankful for everything you've done for me tonight. I don't know what I'd do without you" "You know you would have done the same for me, and I meant every single word" You didn't know what to say to prove to him what you said, so instead of using words you physically thank him, you lean across and kiss his cheek. "Thank you Tal, I really mean it" "Your...your welcome Y/N...sleep well" He smiles at you before he exits your tent, you don't see it, but as he walks to his own tent, he smiles wide as his finger tips brush against the area where you kissed him, it was something he couldn't get enough of, and it played over and over in his mind as he climbed into his bed roll and drifted off to sleep.

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Happily Ever After Chapter 9: Ships at a Distance

[AO3] - Chapter 1 - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4 - Chapter 5 - Chapter 6 - Chapter 7 -  Chapter 8 - Chapter 9 - Next Series: Objections

"Ships at a distance have every man's wish on board." - Zora Neale Hurston, Their Eyes Were Watching God (1937)

Remus' playlist for the party is on Spotify.

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Logan closed his book and looked out at the snow-covered yard. After a few minutes, he stood and replaced the just-finished novel on the shelf and ran his fingers over the spines of the other books next to it, not really certain of what he was looking to read next. He took a step back and gazed across the bookcases in front of him. The books on the bottom shelf a few feet over drew his attention. He realized that one was out of order.

He walked over and crouched down, pulling out his copy of Remus' old programming book. His brow furrowed slightly, wondering why it was out of place. He paused for a moment, staring at the words on the cover before thumbing through the pages, remembering that he hadn't yet finished the dense technical text. Logan had been fascinated by the material. The book was filled with patterns for rendering games with detailed new "universes" that followed cohesive but unique physical laws. Logan had been completely out of his depth with portions of the material, but he'd enjoyed it - for more than just the obvious reasons. He was about to return the book to its proper spot when he noticed writing on the title page. Frowning, he flipped open the cover of the book all the way and read what had been written.

Lo, You are my Universe.                ♡ Remus  

Logan half-sat and half-fell to the floor with a small thud. He stared at the words on the page, tears starting to form in his eyes, breath catching in his throat. Shaking, he closed the book and held it between his palms, bringing it up and resting his forehead against the spine. "Oh, my god, Remus ... "

He thought about the day of the bonfire last Fall when, after spending a roller coaster of a day together, Remus had asked to kiss him. He remembered the look on Remus' face after he'd backed away. After he'd shaken his head no. When he'd wanted to say yes. Logan dropped the book and it landed in his lap.

Logan had very nearly said yes.

Logan fell into his memories. He recalled his happiest moments over the past two years. Every single one was when he had been with his sons ... or with Remus. Many were when they were all together. Logan smiled as he thought about how, outside of Janus and Roman, Remus was the only adult he'd ever met who didn't try to shut down Patton's excitability within the first hour of meeting him. He could see that Remus had earned Remy's trust and respect, a hard-won gift. With a sharp pang in his chest, he thought about that dark time when Remus was the only person on the planet who could make Virgil crack a smile.

Logan also thought about all the nights the two of them had spent watching old Star Trek and Doctor Who episodes, laughing at the lousy effects and mimicking everyone's catch phrases. He thought about Remus' outrageous innuendos and his biting humor. He thought about the way Remus flipped his hair, and his strong hands, and the way his eyes had sparkled in the light of the bonfire. He thought about how Remus had been the rock he could cling to during the storms of Virgil's treatment ... and, frankly, his own.

And he thought about the sheer terror he'd felt when he feared that Remus had been seriously injured by the fire mishap, and the bone-deep relief when he saw that Remus would be fine.

"Oh my god," he whispered. Logan squeezed his eyes shut. "But, how can I lo- I'm not - ," Logan covered his face with his hands. His shoulders sank with a shuddering sigh.

"But I can't be."

Logan swallowed against the lump in his throat and pulled out his phone. He texted Janus, "𝙲𝚊𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛?"

...

Janus had stood at Logan's front door for several minutes with no response to the multiple times he had rung the bell. He knew Logan was expecting him. He could see Logan's car in the driveway, so there was no question of whether he was home. Finally, Janus tried the doorknob. It was unlocked. "Logan?," he called out. Janus cautiously poked his head through the doorway, breathing deeply against his worry about his friend's unusual behavior.

"I'm in here, Janus," Logan's voice was flat but he didn't sound injured. Janus blew out a slow breath when he turned the corner into the dining area, where Logan sat, staring at his lap. Logan's hair was a wild crown, and, from where he stood, Janus could see some smudges on his glasses. A half-filled mug sat in front of him and his pajamas were wrinkled. It was 11:30 in the morning and Logan Sanders was ... unkempt. Janus swallowed back a comment and quietly set the usual bag from Downpour on the table, pulling up a chair to sit across from his best friend.

"Where is everyone?," Janus asked at last.

Logan looked up, mouth open slightly, looking a little surprised at the sudden question. He blinked as though trying to remember. "Remy's out with Emile ... researching apartments near the school." Logan's eyes focused and his voice grew just a bit stronger as he continued. "They plan to meet us at the party tonight. Remy was going to drop off Virgil and Patton at your house on the way to Emile's."

"So what are you doing here?," Janus left eyebrow slightly raised. Logan looked down at his hands in his lap. "Hiding out?" Logan pressed his lips together and didn't speak. Asked and answered, Janus thought.

Logan looked across the table and peered into Janus' eyes for a moment. He looked back down at his lap, jaw muscles working as he ground his teeth. Finally, "How did you know?," he asked quietly.

Janus frowned a bit at the ambiguous question. He had some idea of what Logan likely meant, but he wanted to be sure. "How did I know what, Lo?," he said gently.

Logan looked up at his closest friend. They had been friends nearly their entire adult lives but there were still a few things they didn't talk about. He sucked in a deep breath and asked quickly before he could reconsider, "How did you know you were gay?"

Janus was momentarily stunned by the question. That was not what Janus had expected him to say. He steepled his fingers together in front of him as looked at Logan carefully. He tilted his head a bit, finally saying, "Are you asking about me?," he paused for a moment, softening his tone even further. "Or are you asking about you?"

Logan squinted and twisted his mouth while he sat with Janus' question. Janus waited.

Wordlessly, Logan pulled out the book he'd been gripping under the table and placed it in front of them. Janus' confused furrow erased once he read the author's name. "So that's who the copy was really for," he muttered under his breath. Janus started silently counting months. "Lo ...," Janus sought out Logan's eyes. "How long have you felt this way?"

Logan delicately tapped Remus' name on the cover of the book, tracing the letters. He looked up and met Janus' eyes.

"I - I've really fucked up, Jan."

Janus placed a hand over Logan's. "I'm listening."

...

Logan sat nearly motionlessly and told Janus the entire story, including everything from the day of the bonfire. He told him how he had rejected Remus and how he'd just let him leave without talking about it, without even offering to drive him back across the lake. Logan told Janus how he'd avoided being alone with Remus ever since - and how he suspected that Remus was probably doing the same.

He told him how he'd found an inscription from Remus in the book and that he was ashamed to realize he wasn't even certain when he must have written it.

He even told Janus about his nightmare about Remus and Kelly from last year. "My very, very first thought, though, when I woke, " he paused, and it was clear to Janus that this was difficult for Logan to admit to himself, let alone say aloud. Logan swallowed, knowing the only way out of this was through it. "When I first woke ... I did not feel as though Remus had supplanted me in some idyllic picture of a happy marriage." Logan paused, swallowing, squeezing his eyes shut. "I felt replaced by Kelly in that vision."

Logan stopped talking but Janus could see by the tightness in his jaw and his stick-straight posture that there was something else he needed to say. Logan gripped his own hands on the tabletop, staring at his knuckles. "I ... feel something for Remus that I have never felt for anyone else." Janus raised his eyebrows a bit at the emphasis Logan put on the word "anyone," but he didn't interrupt. "How can something like this even be possible?

Logan finishes his tale, looks up and sees Janus ... smiling?

"Are you ... laughing at me?"

"No, Lo, I'm not laughing at you." Janus leaned back in his chair, palms pressed together. "So you've finally noticed that Remus is a very attractive man." Logan looked up at the tone in Janus' voice. "Yes, of course I've noticed, as well." Janus looked meaningfully at Logan. "I did choose to marry his nearly identical twin." Logan blushed a bit as he realized he'd never really considered that Remus and Roman shared the same features and physique. They were both so different to him. "I digress. So you're feeling an attraction to Remus. It's perfectly normal." Janus struggled to keep a sarcastic tone out of his voice. "In fact," he said, waving a hand to gesture toward Logan's bookshelves, "I'm quite confident you have a copy of a book by that title that you might find helpful ... " Logan seemed to shrink in his seat a bit and Janus softened his voice. "Lo, you can be attracted to both men and women. It's almost as though it's all ... a spectrum?," Janus spread his hands in an opening up gesture, just the hint of a rainbow shape.

Logan remained silent in his seat. Janus finally opened the bag from Downpour, sliding a cup across the table to Logan. Janus sipped at his own coffee for a few minutes, eyes trained on him.

There was still one more issue to address.

Janus put down his cup and folded his hands in front of him. "I once told you that you get one free lesson in How Not to Be a Dick 101." Logan looked up, eyes locked on Janus' face. That got his attention, Janus thought. "Consider this one to be from the 200 series." Janus pierced Logan with his eyes and took a deep breath. "Your inability to be honest with yourself about how you're feeling is hurting a very dear man." Logan pulled off his glasses and squeezed his eyes closed, pressing his fingers against his brow, slouching in his seat. "Ultimately, it doesn't actually matter how you choose to describe who you are. What matters is how you choose to treat the people you care about." Janus looked carefully at Logan. "Do you care for Remus?"

"More than I ever thought could be possible." Janus was again a little surprised by his response. Logan pressed his lips together, replacing his glasses and looking down at his palms, tracing the scars on his left hand, remembering the heat of Remus' hand gripped in his own. "Jan, I think ... " Logan swallowed against the lump in his throat, chest tightening. "Jan ... I love him." He looked up at Janus with tears in his eyes. Logan slowly shook his head from side to side. "What am I going to do?"

Janus smiled. "You're going to go get your Prince, that's what you're going to do."

Logan let out a choked laugh. "A bit fairy tale, don't you think?"

Smiling, Janus shook his head and put his hands over Logan's. "It's exactly like a fairy tale. Up you get and into a shower." Janus said as he stood and pulled Logan to his feet. "It's time to get you ready for the ball."

...

Logan was standing on the upper deck of the ship, helping direct guests, when he saw Remy and Emile walking up the gangway. Music from the dance floor below wafted through the air. He smiled as they approached him. Logan thought Emile looked nervous. Emile kept reaching into his pocket, fiddling with what Logan guessed was a fidget cube, and looking around the ship's deck as though he was looking for someone.

"Hello, Mr. Sanders," Emile said, his voice a little more strained than typical. "It's good to see you, sir. How are you doing this evening?"

"I'm doing very well, thank you, Emile. How are you?" Logan's smile grew as they fell into their familiar rhythm. Remy and Emile had been dating for over three years. Despite that, Emile had never really dropped his slightly formal speech pattern when speaking with Logan, and it was most noticeable when he seemed anxious. When Logan had mentioned his observation to Remy once last year, Remy had laughed and hugged his dad, saying that's what made Emile fit in so well with the family.

"Relieved that my fellowship came through," Emile admitted.

Logan smiled at the young man, resisting the temptation to point out that he appeared to have grown taller just since the summer so as not to embarrass him further. "It is so nice to see you again. It has been quite a while." Logan noticed Emile's eyes scanning the upper deck of the ship again. "Janus and Roman are below deck on the dance floor, if that is who you are looking for," Logan added.

Remy squeezed Emile's hand. "Babe, I need to help out for a while. Can I meet you on the dance floor in about fifteen minutes?" Emile's eyes widened a bit and he looked thoughtful, but nodded and kissed Remy's cheek.

"Of course," Emile murmured. "I'll see you then." Logan narrowed his eyes slightly. Did Emile look relieved? As soon as Remy was out of sight, Emile grabbed Logan's arm and whispered, "May I speak with you, Mr. Sanders, before I need to get back to Rem?"

Logan's shoulders tightened for a brief moment until he registered the grin that had broken out over Emile's face. Looking around them and appearing satisfied that they were actually alone, Emile held a finger to his lips and reached into the pocket he'd been fidgeting with earlier. Logan couldn't help the tiny surprised squeak that escaped when he saw the small square box in Emile's hand.

"I wanted to tell you first, Mr. Sanders, that I'm going to ask Remy to marry me tonight."

...

The deck below had been decorated like a grand ballroom. The focal point of the room was the dance floor, already crowded with dancers, and the raised DJ platform, where Virgil held a headset to his ear with one hand and flipped through the upcoming track list with another. This would be the first time Logan would actually be able to see Virgil mix sound. In all the shows he'd been to before, the sound booth was tucked away in the back of the theatre, hidden from view. And most of that sound work had been merely following queues.

Looking around the rest of the room, Logan saw that all around the edges were nearly a dozen small banquet tables, draped in the light yellow tablecloths Logan and Janus had struggled to fit into the back of Roman's car. The tables were draped with red tulle bunting, with a centerpiece on each. What appeared to be thousands of tealights twinkled everywhere Logan's eyes landed.

Remus' voice sounded near Logan's ear. "Pretty amazing, isn't it?," Logan whipped his head around in surprise. He hadn't noticed Remus' approach. Remus looked around the room, gesturing at the finery. "Roman had one of his set designer friends bring in a little crew to help set this all up."

Logan's voice failed as he opened his mouth to agree. He nodded instead, adjusting his glasses and looking closely at Remus. Gone was the usual battered leather jacket and tight jeans. Instead, Remus wore a black tuxedo similar to the one Logan was wearing, except with a black waistcoat trimmed in the same green as his hair and a matching bow tie. The tie, however, was undone, draped over Remus' neck, framing the open collar of his shirt, where Remus had left the top three buttons undone. Logan swallowed dryly.

Starships started to play. One benefit of a playlist from 2012 was that even Logan knew the song - and he knew it had more than its fair share of explicit lyrics. Logan peered at Remus, who feigned an innocent look. Logan caught Virgil's eye and gestured, waving a hand across his throat in a "cut it" signal at the same time Roman jumped up and down calling out "Turn it up!", dancing with a group of his theatre friends. Remus and Virgil both shrugged, then Virgil pulled over the keyboard for his sound kit and tugged on his monitoring headset. Logan watched, listening to the song. "I'm a blow off my money and don't give two ~~~~, oh-oh," Virgil looked up at Logan and gave him thumbs up before returning his attention to the music, ready for the next line.

Logan smiled, returning the thumbs-up. He looked around and realized Remus was no longer standing near him. He gazed across the dance floor but couldn't spot him in the press of bodies. Logan stood at the edge of the dance floor and listened to the music for a bit before he turned around and finally noticed Remus off in a corner. Remus was surrounded by Patton and most of the younger guests, animatedly waving his arms around while pointing to some feature of the ship, apparently miming an explosion. His antics had captured the attention of the little group and they appeared to be thoroughly distracted from the potentially explicit lyrics. Remus noticed that Logan was watching them, winked, then returned his attention to Patton and the others.

When the next song started - and it had become clear that Virgil would be able to reliably slip reverse through any swear words, Remus made his way back to where Logan was standing. They looked out over the dance floor.

Remus gently elbowed Logan's side, sounding mockingly shocked: "Janus is dancing to this one? He seems entirely too .. suave to dance to LMFAO. I haven't seen him dance to actual club music since ...," Remus trailed off, whether to calculate the years or something else.

"He is surprisingly free-spirited when placed in the proper environment." Logan said, watching Janus and Roman dance together. "And he would do anything to make Roman smile."

Remus smiled sadly, swaying a bit to the music. Finally, he leaned closer to Logan, and opened his mouth to speak. Logan, still watching Janus and Roman, spoke first. "You know, they very nearly didn't get married back then."

"No, I ... I actually didn't know that." Logan glanced at Remus in surprise, then quickly looked away to prevent himself from staring. "Cold feet?," Remus asked.

Logan nodded, "He was absolutely terrified. Afraid of one day just losing his love, afraid of falling out of love with him, afraid of infidelity ... truly and utterly afraid of everything that could go wrong."

"They're so happy now that it's hard to imagine." Remus is a little shaken at the thought of how close his brother and Janus came to not making it. If even they struggled ... He pushed the thought away. "I'm glad my brother was able to convince Janus to go for it."

Logan turned to face Remus completely, shaking his head. "You misunderstand. Janus was not at all reluctant to get married. Roman was."

The moment the words left his mouth, Some Nights started to play and the dance floor erupted in singing. At the center, they could see Roman had leapt up onto a chair, leading and singing along. After the introduction, he jumped down and Logan could see that his friends from the cabaret spread throughout the crowd, clapping and stomping and encouraging other guests to join in. Logan thought it looked nearly choreographed - and knowing Roman, it very well may have been. He wouldn't put it past him to find a way to sneak a look at the playlist before the party. Logan and Remus watched the spectacle and even sang along to the parts they knew.

Janus and Roman danced and sang together, drawing close to one another for the slower moments in the song. Janus spotted Remy in the crowd slowly swaying with Emile, as the lyrics rang out, "  ... and when I look into my nephew's eyes, man you won't believe the most amazing things that can come from some most terrible lies ... "

Roman watched Janus closely, seeing a few tears spill. He brushed his fingers against Janus' cheek, smiling and gently drying the tears away. "Oh, Sweetheart ... " He looked into Janus' eyes and saw something that made his smile grow. "You really are ready, aren't you?" Janus grinned and spun Roman around in response.

Pulling him close again, and as the music and singing grew louder, Roman murmured in Janus' ear, "You're going to be a great dad."

...

The music played on.

As the last bars of Titanium ended, a very familiar synth rhythm and pounding piano notes began. Logan looked at Remus, laughing. "This song is from 1983."

"Yeah," Remus shrugged as he watched his brother excitedly recognize the opening bars. "But it's Ro Bro's favorite." He nodded at the dance floor which had erupted in small groups dancing and singing. "It seems like a popular choice." Suddenly, Logan and Remus were surrounded by Remy, Emile, and Patton and pulled into the crowd.

"We're not going to let you just stand there all night!," Patton shouted, laughing. "Come and dance!" The group danced together for several songs, playfully grouping together, shifting, and turning to dance with other friends in the crowd. From time to time, Logan and Remus found themselves face to face, broken off from the rest of the group.

As the music continued, Remus looked up and caught Virgil's eye, who sent him a little two-fingered salute. Remus saluted back and listened as the music shifted to a low, deep rhythm. Rhianna's voice emerged from the speakers, wrapping the dancers in sound.

... I know you've been hurt by some else, I can tell by the way you carry yourself 

Their eyes met and Logan could feel a flush running up his neck and face. The music was thrumming a deep bass through their bodies.

 ... If you let me, here's what I'll do, I'll take care of you. I've loved and I've lost ...

As the lyrics swirled over them, Logan watched as Remus' expression fell, eyes turning glossy. Remus looked just as he did the night of the bonfire. Loved and lost ... am I too late?, Logan thought as a lump grew in his throat.

At that moment, the crowd shifted and another group slipped between Logan and Remus. Someone Logan recognized from QLaw - Pedro? he wondered automatically - took the opportunity to start dancing with Remus. Logan edged away from the crowd, watching them dance. Remus turned to try and catch Logan's eye, who pressed a smile onto his face and waved at Remus in a "go on, have fun," motion. Remus, expression inscrutable, swallowed back a response and faced his new dance partner again.

 ... I've asked about you and they've told me things ...

As the song played, Logan tried not to stare at the pair. Instead, he methodically shifted his gaze from watching Remy and Emile, and Janus and Roman dancing, Virgil at the sound board, and Patton, who had resumed exploring the room with a little collection of kids around his age. Only then would he allow himself a quick look back to Remus and Pedro. Once, Logan looked over and saw that Remus had been watching him, as well. Logan quickly looked away and moved further from the dance floor.

... If you let me, here's what I'll do, I'll take care of you. I've loved and I've lost

Remus leaned in closer to Pedro, "I need to go check on my friend." He flashed a quick, small smile. "Thanks for the dance." Pedro watched him edge through the crowd for a moment, shrugged and turned to dance with someone else.

Remus scanned the room, looking for Logan, as the music shifted again. His eyes passed over Virgil, who gestured with his chin toward the staircase to the upper deck, where he caught a glimpse of Logan's retreat. Virgil mouthed, "GO!," at Remus, who quickly followed after Logan.

...

"Well, hello there. Come here often?," Remus had finally caught sight of Logan on the starboard side of the ship, leaning on the railing, looking at the water below. He waggled his eyebrows exaggeratedly, poking fun at the overused line. He made a show of sliding along the deck, easing closer to him, giving Logan plenty of time to step away, or turn around, or leave again ..., an awful voice in Remus' head intoned. Logan turned to watch Remus approach. A small smile spread on his face and he didn't move from his spot.

Logan chuckled a bit and then took in a deep breath. "I just needed some air."

Remus nodded as though he accepted Logan's response. He then turned around and leaned his back against the railing, his gaze moving along the length of the ship. A bright smile suddenly spread on his face as he nudged Logan with his elbow. "Don't look now," Remus said in a low voice, "And of course by that I mean, quick, turn around and look right now ..." Logan knit his brows together and turned to follow Remus' gaze toward the other end of the ship. Logan turned in just enough time to see Emile on one knee, handing something small to Remy, who quickly pulled him in for a tight hug. "I think you're about to be a father-in-law, Lo."

Face split in a huge grin, Logan chuckled, whispering back to Remus, "Just wait ..." At that moment Remy pulled away from the hug and reached into his pocket to pull out a similarly-sized box. Remus turned to Logan, eyes dancing. "How did you -," he started to ask.

"Remy told me last month that he was planning on asking Emile to marry him tonight," Logan spoke softly, not trusting how far their voices would carry. "And, about an hour ago, Emile told me that he'd planned to do the same."

"Keeper of keys and secrets, at Hogwarts, I see."

Logan shrugged happily and the two fell back into silence, hearing the music from below. Logan pulled off his glasses to polish the lenses and then replaced them, while Remus tried to concentrate on the slow shifting of the deck, listening to the water gently lapping at the side of the ship.

Suddenly Logan spoke, turning to face him. "I found the inscription you wrote in your book." Remus held his breath and he bit at the inside of his cheek. Logan swallowed hard and took a deep breath. "I am so very sorry, Remus. I - " He licked his lips and looked down at his feet. Remus felt his stomach sink as his mind finished Logan's sentence for him. I am sorry but you must know that I just do not feel that way about you ...

Gathering his courage, Logan reached out and cupped Remus' cheek, consciously mirroring that wonderful, awful night. He held Remus' eyes in his own, afraid if he didn't, he would never actually say this. "I treated you horribly that night all because I was afraid to admit - " Remus' eyes had widened when Logan's fingers touched his face and now were bright and tear-filled. "I was too hung up to be able to admit that ... I ... have developed feelings for you, as well." Logan lowered his hand and closed his eyes, bowing his head, ashamed of everything he'd put this man through. "I am so, so sorry. I ... I ... it appears that I have acknowledged my feelings too late and have squandered this opportunity with you." Logan swallowed hard and squared his shoulders. "I also recognize this apology is likely in no way commensurate with the pain I have caused you. I know I do not have the right to ask, but I hope that you can forgive me someday."

Logan turned to walk away as the music faded between songs.

Remus stood in stunned silence for a few moments until he heard quiet guitar music wafting up from the dance floor below decks. He quickly stepped forward, reaching for Logan's hand, and smiled. "May I have this dance?"

Logan looked at him in surprise but nodded. Remus pulled Logan into his arms, swaying slowly to the beat of the song. Part-way through the first verse, Remus started to sing, his voice a little rough with tears.

  And just like them old stars I see that you've come so far To be right where you are How old is your soul?

A tiny sob escaped Logan's lips and he tucked his head in the crook of Remus' neck to hide his face. Remus kept one arm around Logan's waist, and brought his other hand to the back of Logan's head, gently carding fingers through his hair, swaying to the music.

  Well, I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up

  And when you're needing your space To do some navigating I'll be here patiently waiting To see what you find

Logan raised his head to face Remus. "I don't yet have all of this figured out. Are you certain ... " His voice trailed, unsure what he was asking of him.

Still dancing, Remus looked into Logan's eyes. "Lo, my whole life everyone's said that all I needed was to meet the right person and ... grow up. Soften my sharp edges." He smiled, fingers brushing Logan's hair from his face. Logan shuddered briefly, overwhelmed, but then leaned in to his hand, closing his eyes. Remus' smile grew. "But I call bullshit." Logan's eyes snapped open at his words. "I'm standing here with the right person here in my arms and all I want to do is fight harder. Love hasn't made me soft. It's made me tougher." Remus paused. "Love has given me someone to fight for."

At the bridge of the song, Remus suddenly spun Logan in a twirl and continued singing along.

 And in the end, you're still my friend, at least we did intend For us to work, we didn't break, we didn't burn We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not And who I am

 I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up

Logan was now grinning, both at the suddenness of the twirl, which he now reversed so he could twirl Remus, and with hope for what lay ahead for the two of them together.

 Well, I won't give up on us God knows I'm tough enough We got a lot to learn God knows we're worth it (And we're worth it)

As the music slowed again, they each drew the other nearer to close the distance between them.

 I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up

They stilled as the song ended, but didn't move away from each other's arms. Logan's eyes met his. "Remus, I - " his voice broke. Remus nodded slowly in encouragement, gently placing one hand on the side of Logan's neck, tracing his jaw with a thumb. Logan swallowed and tried again. "Remus ... I believe I love you."

A watery smile slowly spread across Remus' features. "Oh, Lo," he whispered as if he feared to speak any louder lest he break some spell. He brushed his fingers against Logan's cheek. Holding his breath for a few seconds, at last he asked, "Lo, my love, may I kiss you?" Logan grinned and nodded, thrilled to have a second chance to answer the way he really wanted. He brought both hands to Remus' face and joined him in a long, soft kiss.

After a few minutes, footsteps approached and Patton's voice suddenly sounded from behind Remus, "Hey, Remus ... Have you seen Dad around?"

Remus turned toward Patton, revealing a blushing Logan, one hand still cupping Remus' cheek. "Pat -," Logan began. Patton's stared for a moment and then his face bloomed in a wide smile.

"Well it's about time!" He turned with a little wave, dashing back to the lower deck and shouted in the direction of the staircase. "Oh, Vir-gil ... " he called out is a sing-song taunt. "You owe me ten bucks!"

Logan couldn't decide if he should die or cry or laugh. Remus smiled, again running a hand through Logan's hair. He grinned a little wider as he realized that he couldn't keep his hands away from those dark locks.

Logan opened his mouth, brows knit in confusion. "Wait just one moment," Logan bit hit lip in thought. He took a breath, pointing toward where Patton had stood. "Did Patton just say 'it's about time!' ?" Remus nodded, suppressing a chuckle, green eyes dancing. Logan took another breath, shaking his head slightly. "Did everyone know but me?"

Remus can't control his laughter. He nodded, fingers still entwined in Logan's hair, murmuring, "Pretty much, Lo."

He took a moment to process this. "I should ... I should probably get back down there," Logan said at last.

"Oh, Lo-Lo," Remus practically growled, pulling Logan closer, hands gently dragging down from his neck to his back. "Please don't go ... not yet." Remus smiled down at Logan with love laced with promise ... and heat.

Logan flushed and smiled as he met Remus' eyes. He then knew with complete certainty that he was right where he needed to be. His eyes matched the heat in Remus' as he whispered, "Where were we, then, Love?"

Closing his eyes, Logan leaned forward to kiss his Prince.

Epilogue:       

After giving Logan and Remus a bit of privacy for a few songs, Patton finally managed to convince the new couple to come back down to the dance floor and join the rest of the party. They danced together all night.

But wait - the music is still playing ...

Logan and Remus swayed together on the dance floor as the opening notes to the last song of the night warbled through the air. Logan closed his eyes for a moment, a look of peace falling over his features as he breathed in deeply. He looked up at Remus, murmuring, "This is my favorite song," then rested his head again on Remus' shoulder.

Remus smiled and hummed, "I know. Virgil told me." He could feel Logan chuckle in response against his neck. They danced together, listening to the first verses of the song. Remus thought about the winding path that had led them to that moment, Logan in his arms, a deep contentment washing over them both. A thought suddenly bubbles to the surface of his mind.

"There's something I'm still wondering about," Remus murmured into Logan's hair.

"Hmmm...," Logan hummed in response. "What is that?"

"How did you get a copy of my book? It's been out of print for five years."

"Oh, right." Logan blushed and tucked his head back into the crook of Remus' neck.

Soft laughter rumbled in Remus' chest. "That's not an answer, Lo."

He sighed, looking up at Remus with ... Was that embarrassment? "I asked Roman to help me obtain a copy of your book," Logan admitted at last. "He happened to have an extra."

Remus looked over to where Roman and Janus were slowly dancing together and smiled. " 'Extra' plus 'Roman' in the same sentence, that checks out," Remus laughed, shaking his head. "It's funny he didn't mention that to me."

"That ... is likely because I told him it was a surprise for Remy and asked him not to bring it up."

Remus hummed, accepting his answer for the moment. "But wait - how did you know ... Did you Google me? I don't remember telling you about that book. It's kind of niche and ..."

"And you would never bring it up yourself because your hyper-sexualized flamboyancy and braggadocios are sometimes just an act? And beneath it you're actually quite humble?" Logan interjected, grinning up at him. Remus was shocked into momentary silence, staring down into his eyes.

Logan leaned in and gently kissed the surprised expression from Remus' face, replacing it with a soft smile. "You're not the only one who can see inside the man he loves more clearly than his love sees himself."

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Two Words, Three Tears

Woah- Two snowflakes made in one night? And before the strike of twelve? Wow! Let me know when you understand the little pun of sorts that's in the title.

Roman ♡ Patton ♡ Logan ♡ Deceit ♡ Remus ♡ Virgil

Word Count: 365

Warnings: Cheating/Infidelity; Break up; [Let me know if there's anything to be added!]

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Thinking back to when they started dating, Logan had been happiest with his significant other. They never once showed themselves to be apprehensive about his identity as a gay trans male, and was always accepting of him. 

   Although thinking back to a few weeks ago, when they started being more fleeting and withdrawn than ever, he was growing ever more worried. 

   "Listen," He'd start on a rainy day, listening to the ice cold drops hit the ground despite it being mid December, when it was meant to snow. "I feel like you're not telling me something, and it seems to be troubling you."

   "It's nothing you'd understand." They folded their arms, crunching in on their standing form. "I don't want to trouble you anyway."

   "I promise it won't trouble me. If it's bad, I won't snap or shed a single tear, and I'll help you work through it." Logan didn't know much about romantic relationships, that was true, but he was good at being supportive. 

   "Just nevermind it, it doesn't matter." 

   "Alright, just tell me if something's wrong, okay?"

   "Fine." 

   Now, almost a month later, he got interrupted from writing by a fierce knock at the door. Going to open it, he found his significant other. He could barely get out a greeting though.

   "We need to talk, it's important."

   This concerned him as he stepped aside to let the other in. "What's wrong?"

   They didn't make a move to step into the apartment. "I've been cheating on you, and I am so much happier with the other person."

   He knew something had been going on this whole time, and he saw the nervous look in the other's eyes, but he hadn't expected this. "Alright. I'm happy you were honest. How long though?" 

   "About nine weeks." A small, skittish answer. They'd been dating for almost seven months, so that was nearly a third of their time together. 

   "In that case I wish you joy and prosperity with your relationship," Logan smiled, neither of them seeing the tears the other was holding back. 

   "Bye Lo." A single sentence, two words, two syllables. How did that manage to bring him to tears as he closed the door?

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idk what show to rec, but i am mgmt trash so pls listen to them, esp. to my jam flash delirium!!!! also ofc, i hope this year future academy award winner and ethereal angel, logan wade lerman, finally asks me 2 marry him (◕‿◕✿)

i’ve never actually listened to mgmt in depth like this before but i’m eternally grateful to you that i have now jsyk!!

vodka: german vodka / polish vodka / russian vodka / czech vodkabob’s burgers character: bob / linda / tina / gene / louise / crazy af mr fishoederold school crime show i love: quincy m.e. / murder she wrote / magnum p.i. / simon & simongr8 john travolta movie: saturday night fever / grease / look who’s talking / pulp fictionbook i love: lolita / tender is the night / pride & prejudice / the bell jar / transparent thingscancelled/concluded show: pushing daisies / desperate housewives / wicked city / the astronaut’s wives club / charmedmatt daddario quirk: calling a phone a ‘machine’ / knocking sunglasses off of an innocent cactus / being a real life snow white / cherishing cows future academy award winner and ethereal angel logan wade lerman more than any of uband i saw live & loved: we are scientists / the nbhd / mothxr / mumford & sons / pawsthe godfather character: michael / sonny / kay / vito / fredo / apolloniagr8 al pacino movie: the panic in needle park / the godfather / serpico / scarfaceour lord & saviour barry miller in: saturday night fever / fame / peggy sue got marriednicolas cage starring as: blonde cage / crazy cage / luscious hair cage / sexii hawaii shirt cage / stache cage

a compliment: ok so, to begin with, you’re a really sweet & understanding person & i feel like one is lucky to have you consider them a friend & have their back!! you don’t let any problematic doofus on here walk all over you AND you like the poop & the cat emojis & people who appreciate the cat emojis are always the best kind of people, that is a truth universally known, ok

song rec: i. some time alone, alone — melody’s echo chamber; ii. trap for young players — streets of laredo; iii. talking to my own mirage — caroll

good wishes for the new year spell: may your year be blessed joy & happiness, may less stupidity find its way to pester you & may this be a daily sight in the flesh for you! ♡

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[winterswrandomness]

Apparently Breakups Can Be Very Messy

Greeting, fair citizens! I am finally back with this little series, and it's Deceit's turn to get hurt! Just send an ask if anything about the timeline confuses you.

Roman ♡ Patton ♡ Logan ♡ Deceit ♡ Remus ♡ Virgil

Word Count: 418

Warnings: Yelling; a bit of crying at the end; Break up, like the rest of this series; [Let me know if anything else should be added!]

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"Hello dear," Dee cooed when they answered the phone to hear the lovely voice of their date mate. 

   They listened to the response on the other end, saying to meet him at the fountain where the two first met, in Willows Beetle park.

   "Alright, see you soon," Dee said. "I love you," They added, listening as they heard their date mate hang up, perhaps too soon to hear Dee's sincere statement. 

   Taking a moment to collect their thoughts, wondering what their date mate wanted at six in the evening, they got up to slip on their coat and boots for the brief walk to the park. No reason to spend time painting the scales they usually adorned.

   On their way there, a rather quick seven minute commute, snow started falling from the sky. They tugged up their hood, blinking at the snowflakes drifting onto their lashes. "Talk about crazy weather," Dee mused in a hushed tone, finding annoyance in the fact that it was snowing in the middle of November. 

   Now just a few meters away and still walking, and getting colder, they spotted their date mate, sitting at the fountain with his gaze fixed on the ground. He looked up upon seeing the faint shadow in front of him. 

   "Hello, Dee," He greeted, the corners of his mouth tugging up into a small smile as he stood. 

   Dee felt themselves warm just a bit, even in the midst of the icy cold. "Good evening, my darling," They charmingly returned.

   Upon seeing the seemingly pained expression on the other's face, however, Dee harbored confusion in their own expression. 

   "I am sorry." It came as a surprise, the other fisting one hand and punching his opposite hand.

   "Why?" Concern laced their tone, looking in golden brown eyes that said the exact same thing that was spoken, except not as truthfully.

   "We need to break up." Blunt, to the point; a statement.

   "What-" They were about to ask what they did wrong, but got interrupted. 

   "I said we need to break up," He firmly said. "Just leave me alone and never talk to me again!"

   Dee watched as their boyfriend walked away, eventually fading from view. They let themselves sit on the edge of the fountain, taking deep breaths. They knew break ups would be messy, but they didn't like this feeling.

   It would take awhile for them to move, not starting toward home until the cold numbed their skin and made the tear tracks feel frozen against their face. 

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