#09x11

[deedala]

Timestamp Gif Roulette ⇆ 09x11: The Hobo Games ↳Violet + 11 for @stocious

[aborddelimpala]

Whump Sam | Season 9 - Requested by anonymous

[monstermoviedean]

firmly believe that crowley's thought process was "i need a winchester but sam will stab me in the brain so i guess i'll take the pathetic one" and then oops he fell in love with him

[soulonoscopys]

research for the “sam’s self-concept and the word freak” essay led me to watching this scene in 12x01 again, and it STILL hits me. like the list of people Sam sees that are dead and he specifically has let down include Kevin, Eileen, Dean (x2), his mother and Jessica. like it obviously dredged up his past guilt, and that includes Mary’s death. his fear is that he’s the reason for the people around him dying - their deaths are on him.

“We’re all dead because of you, Sam”

how much of this has been internalised since childhood? and how much of it was reinforced when Jessica died? and how much of it was confirmed in him when he finds out Azazel killed Mary to get to him? He specifically sees Dean dying of hellhounds in 12x01. He must have thought that he’s the reason his brother is dead, which definitely set its stamp on being “cursed”. 

reminds me of this conversation:

then in the same scene of 12x01, we have this:

like he said himself once, he believes he’s the least of them all. and maybe it IS Dean’s words after Charlie’s death that he has internalised. but he already believed that he should have died. he was ready to die at the end of the trials, for good. 

Sam wants to die without causing more pain to others. so in 12x01 he is guilty for all those deaths because he feels he is at fault. others suffer around him, so how is his life worth prioritising? Dean obviously doesn’t believe this so Dean bringing Sam back in s2, saving his life through possession in s9 - they’re all against what Sam firmly believes, which is: 

[soulmates-for-real]

Dean Winchester Week

Favourite Centric Episode: First Born 09x11

Bonus: Crowley's eyeroll

More bonus:

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[shamyfanficfeed]

date night

by beautifulbeyondexpression (palmofafreezinghand) Right at ten pm, ‘Darling’ by The Beach Boys began playing on Amy’s phone, signaling the end of date night. Sheldon quickly shut the alarm off, rolling his eyes at the song choice. The nostalgia clause in their agreement had nothing to tamper her sentimentality. Amy had been asleep on his shoulder for nearly an hour." Amy and Sheldon briefly breach the Relationship Agreement and have a co-working date night which ends in an impromptu sleepover. Set somewhere between 09x11 - 10x04. Words: 2234, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English * Fandoms: The Big Bang Theory (TV) * Rating: Not Rated * Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply * Categories: F/M * Characters: Sheldon Cooper, Amy Farrah Fowler * Relationships: Sheldon Cooper/Amy Farrah Fowler, Background Leonard Hofstadter/Penny * Additional Tags: Date Night, Fluff, Co-Working http://dlvr.it/T1g9rg

[addictedtostorytelling]

Hi, aj!

How are you? 🤍

I was wondering, it's been a while since I had my last CSI rewatch, so I don't remember very clearly, but did the writers mention what happened to Hank after Grissom left Vegas to meet Sara/be with her/move to Europe? And then Sara came back, and as far as I remember, they've never mentioned Hank again until CSI Vegas.

I hope you have an amazing week! 🤗

hi, anon!

i'm doing well! how are you?

re: your question:

canon gives no word on hank's whereabouts when grissom travels to costa rica to find sara and/or when grissom and sara subsequently move to france.

the last we see/hear of hank prior to the reboot confirmation of his passing is in episode 09x04 "let it bleed," when we see him lying bed with grissom, the both of them depressed and missing sara.

while in episode 09x11 "the grave shift," catherine reveals that grissom has not yet given up the lease on his and sara's vegas condo, she makes no mention of hank.

it remains unclear who is taking care of him while grissom and sara are in central america. it also remains unclear if grissom and sara ever move him overseas with them once they expatriate to europe or if they keep him in states even while they're abroad perhaps in the care of grissom's mother.

we know that at some point between his last appearance on the show in 2008 and the events of the reboot in 2021, he passes away, but it's unclear as to when that happens or under what circumstances.

so, ultimately, in this case, headcanon rules.

if you're interested in mine, i've got a little one-shot fic about it here.

thanks for the question! please feel welcome to send another any time.

[antigonewinchester]

The Mark & Hell, part 1

(Previous posts: Intro post; Dean & Hell, season 4.)

Now, I’m finally getting to how Dean’s time in Hell is threaded through the actual Mark of Cain arc. There’ll be several posts in this section, so I’m splitting them up into small parts for a bit more accessibility. This post covers the plot and mythological / lore connections between the Mark, demons, and Hell.

In 09x11, “First Born,” it’s Crowley, a demon, who tells Dean about the First Blade and encourages him to go looking for it so Dean can kill Abaddon (herself another demon). Crowley leads Dean to Cain, who isn’t just a demon but a Knight of Hell, “… the deadliest demon to walk the face of the earth. Killed thousands. The best at being the worst.” It’s then Cain who gives Dean the Mark.

At the end of season 9, the Mark brings Dean back to life as a demonic Knight of Hell himself. Dean unleashes some general havoc – getting drunk at bars, singing bad karaoke, hurting or killing people he doesn’t like – before Sam and Cas are able to cure him of his “demonization,” turning him back into a human with a human soul in 10x03, “Soul Survivor.”

Carver as showrunner was clear that demon!Dean was intended to be Dean, even if his soul was twisted by the Mark, as he talks about in this TVLine interview:

TVLINE | Dean as a demon, how is that different from Dean just being possessed by a demon temporarily? What is he like? Dean is not possessed by anything. It’s his own soul that’s been twisted into a demon soul, so this demon is not anyone other than Dean. So every thought, every action, that’s Dean, as opposed to some other demon possessing him. So while he’s a demon, that causes some complication of thought in him in that, “This is really me doing it.” It also motivates a certain bravado. “Yeah, this is me doing and owning it!” There’s a real period for Dean of deciding how dark he’s going to be and what kind of demon he’s going to be, because he can’t blame it on anyone else but himself. And then afterwards is when it will have the most effect on him because it was him. It was his actions that led him to becoming a demon. He pushed it with the Mark. He pushed Sammy away at the end of last season. He said, “I can do this by myself.” So there’s a certain consequence to all this that is almost more interesting to us than the actual demon part.

Framing-wise, this description paints Demon!Dean quite metaphorically, as Dean’s demonic change revealing a hidden side (his resentments towards Sam, for instance, or his lashing out when people insult him). I’ll also note that Carver’s emphasizes Dean’s responsibility in this situation. And Dean definitely took on the Mark without asking the consequences and then spiraled down the rest of the season, which led to him becoming a demon even if he didn’t know that would be his ultimate end. However, I do read Dean pushing Sam away as a bit more protective than perhaps Carver does, with Dean misdirecting before he went to fight Abaddon / Metatron as about him not wanting Sam to be hurt or even killed in those fights. Considering that Metatron did end up killing Dean, even with Dean having the Mark/First Blade powers, I don’t think it’s a stretch to say Dean’s intuition that his fights with Abaddon and Metatron would get very ugly was pretty spot on. But maybe Sam and Dean could have taken Metatron together, with neither of them being killed, if Dean hadn’t prevented Sam from joining him. There’s definitely a “I have to / I need to this alone” with Dean’s attitude, which the show always frames as something bad or misguided. I also see that aspect as riffing on the idea of Sam and Dean keeping each other human (Dean sending Sam away so he can fully embrace that killer side of himself, which is especially clear in the Abaddon fight).

The one minor aspect Carver’s framing leaves out is Crowley’s role in Dean becoming a demon: the last scene of 09x23, “Do You Believe in Miracles,” heavily implies that it wasn’t until Crowley put the First Blade into Dean’s hand that the Mark reacted and revived him in as a demon, which would make Crowley instrumental in Dean’s demonic resurrection. Dean’s actions did lead him to that situation, but Crowley then resurrected Dean as a demon without Dean’s knowledge or consent, too.

During the rest of season 10, Dean’s struggles with the Mark are then connected to his having been a demon, with this aspect actually briefly touched upon in the same interview (emphasis mine):

TVLINE | You’ve had instances where the boys were possessed, but now Dean’s fully a demon. What made you decided now was the time to pull the trigger and go down that avenue? Dean being a demon here ties into a deeper mythology in the show, that being the Mark of Cain and Cain. That’s really one of the places we started to get the idea. The show has made a point of saying how rooted these brothers are in, frankly, the mythology of the world, and to find another anchor that was literally around at the beginning of time made us feel like… It wasn’t so much the spectacular effect or whatever of Dean being a demon. It’s more just rooting him in something more final, something that will not necessarily totally go away even when/if he’s converted back from demonism.

Several explicit references to Dean’s time as a demon, as well as his time in Hell, occur over the season. In 10x09, “The Things We Left Behind,” Dean flashes back to his time as demon!Dean, as well as his receiving the Mark and killing Magnus with the first blade, right before he kills the loan sharks. 10x17, “Inside Man,” begins with with Dean having a nightmare about his past violence and yelling for Sam in his sleep. One of Dean’s screams is the same audio cue from the end of 3x16, “No Rest for the Wicked,” when Dean woke up in Hell and cried out for Sam.

There’s also a repeated image of Dean looking at himself in mirrors in season 9 and 10, a visual symbol of Dean’s questioning his sense of self as connected to his corruption by the Mark. This visual image first occurs in 04x01, “Lazarus Rising,” with Dean carefully looking at his eyes in a bathroom mirror while flashing back to his time in Hell. While Dean’s eyes are mostly human in those flashbacks, there is one cut where Dean’s eyes are briefly demon black, implying that Dean was on his way to becoming a demon when he’d been in Hell. (A similar example, non-demon but still monster-related, is in 06x05, “Live Free or Twi-Hard,” where Dean looks at himself and his new vampire teeth in a bathroom mirror.) In 09x23, after Dean has attacked Gadreel and Sam and Cas have locked him for everyone’s safety, Dean coughs up blood and looks at his face in a small mirror in a cabinet he finds in the room. He’s clearly worried about the Mark and how it’s affecting him. In 10x10, after his Mark-influenced massacre at the end of 10x09, Dean looks at his reflection in a cracked mirror. The visual metaphor is obvious: being overtaken by the Mark and killing all those people has cracked Dean’s sense of a heroic self. In 10x17, Dean again goes to a bathroom and sees his eyes flash demonic black in the mirror, with Dean being surprised and upset to see so.

The Dean and mirror imagery culminates in 10x23, “Brother’s Keeper”. From the transcript, emphasis mine:

Scene opens on the exterior of the motel at night. ‘MOTEL’ is lighted in red letters on the outside. Cut to Dean’s hands as he washes them in the bathroom sink. He looks in the mirror and sees his reflection. When he looks again he sees Castiel, face all bloody. Dean looks away, troubled or maybe scared. He continues to wash his hands. He looks up again and sees Rudy in the mirror reflection. He washes his hands more vigorously and looks away, visibly upset. He punches the mirror, slams the phone off the wall throws the TV to the floor and proceeds to thoroughly trash the motel room. When he is done he is breathing heavy and looks anguished.

This time, Dean doesn’t need to see demon eyes, because he’s already become monstrous enough as a human: he horribly beat up Cas at the end of 10x22, “The Prisoner,” and then he caused Rudy’s death in 10x23 by not negotiating with the vampire and instead egging him on, so the vamp killed Ruby and Dean then easily swooped in to kill the vamp himself. Dean still has enough humanity to feel ashamed of what he’s done, as shown through his guilty washing of his hands and then his smashing up of the motel room, Dean trying and failing to deal with his anger, frustration, and shame.

Finally, the whole of 10x22 is very evocative of Dean’s time in Hell. The Styne family worked with the Nazis, just as Alastair did. Cyrus’s situation parallels what Dean faced in Hell: Cyrus’s father coerces him into torturing and killing the kid who bullied him by threatening Cyrus with torture and death if he didn’t, just as Dean was faced with Alastair’s torture in Hell and then his offer to make it stop if Dean became a torturer himself. When Dean is later trapped by the Stynes and tells them he can’t die, they get excited, seeing him as a “perfect lab rat” who they can keep experimenting on without him dying, calling to mind Dean being continuously tortured in Hell without being able to die. When Dean escapes from the Stynes’s house after murdering everyone there, escaping from a metaphorical Hell, he returns home almost totally lost to the Mark, killing all the Styes trashing the Bunker, even Cyrus. And Cas isn’t able to save Dean from 'Hell’ this time, as Cas’s pleading with Dean to stop does not work and Dean pretty brutally attacks Cas before leaving.

[self-loathing-angel-of-thursday2]

Beautiful Spouse’s Rewatch Thoughts SPN 09x11 First Born

“Going back in time” “the knife huh?” “Is this the Mark of Cain shit? I was wondering when we were going to get there” “why is dean not holding the blade?” “what’s a buddy comedy?” It’s two dudes doing funny shit

“Isn’t that this show?” “huh” “way to make it obvious” laughter “why?”

“HI Katy” “hunter’s Hogwarts huh?” “Are you having fun Katy?” Katy is one of our cats and she’s playing

“I must speak to the guinea pig” “I’ll interrogate the cat” “a whole warehouse of kraken huh?” “uh huh” “no hearing protection. Closed doors.” “helluva way to ruin a map” “just the whole million square miles or whatever the fuck it is” “Alexa, how many square miles are in Missouri?” “69000. Nice” “couple orders of magnitude less I guess” “bees” “what’s so bad about beekeeping?” “that’s a good line” “she’s fkn dead now” “might want to start running” “He didn’t do a good job of running back” “what a fkn douche” “let’s get our stab on” “why is Crowley still here if he wants to leave so bad?” “I know they’re trying to make it so he’s afraid of something” “if he started convulsing, wouldn’t the needle go all the way through his neck?” “sam’s an idiot” “how would he not know they’re already there?” “what happened to all the corn?” “I see a couple there. There’s plenty of room on the table I guess” “oh he’s got an angel blade” “there’s only the one demon blade right?” “I don’t feel like Cas actually would’ve” “well shit” “it would be all silted over by now; how could you find the blade?” “you don’t need no fkn blade. What the hell. Looks like quite the party” “what the fuck was all that about?” “what the fuck is going on?” Cas wants to call Dean; Sam says no “We need more episodes like this” The guy who wrote the Winchesters wrote this one. He writes good ones

[floral-cas]

Sam and Cas + lavender by request ⤷ lavender symbolizes healing and magic

[aborddelimpala]

SPN 9 Rewatch | 09.11 First Born

[monstermoviedean]

LINE OF THE CENTURY

[gibbsabbyncis]

NCIS 06x11 - 08x10 - 09x11 - 10x10 - 11x11 - 12x10 - 13x11 Leroy Jethro Gibbs & Abby Sciuto - Merry Christmas Everyone

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