#100 days was yesterday wtf is going ON.

[badlydrawnjohn]

just talking

[fellow-anime-weeb927]

Hii, I'm back. First off, I'm sorry about the request I send yesterday, I think? I didn't see the 'angst' under the 'don't do' 😭 🙇‍♀️but I'm back with a rant (I should pay you rent for staying in your asks this much- I can pay it with kaldo drawings 😭)

I recently checked the sons' ages and well- Doom, Fanim, Epidem and Delisaster were born with only 1 year of difference (also, the whole family was born of 11th of something- Innocent zero was a weird guy. He even shares birthday with Mash lol) and knowing that a pregnancy lasts 9 months there would be 4 months of non-pregnancy state with each of the 4 first sons (I calculated it- I needed to know if it was actually possible to pop out 4 kids in 4 years like that). Yes, they literally were born Doom-January, Fanim-February, Epidem-March and Delisaster-April (Domina was born in May, but Mash wanted to be different and was born in November 😭). There is a problem, Mash and Domina were born the same year, less than 9 months in between their birthdays. To which I can only find the excuses that, again, Mash wanted to be different and decided that he would be born premature lol (or they just speed up his birth, if mother was getting ill or her health was going down). Also, I checked how much each kid weights and I'm pretty sure Innocent zero starved them- BECAUSE WHAT DO YOU MEAN DOOM (who's 2 meters tall) WEIGHT ONLY 88KG??? THAT MF IS HUGE😭 My older brother (who's 25, 5 years younger than Doom, apparently) is like 1,80m and he weights 110kg😭 Domina (who's 1,76,i think) weights 68kg (that's around my weight, I'm 1,65± and 15 y/o). So, knowing that information I want to add that after mother fell into a coma, Innocent zero had more power over the sons so he starved them (bc before it was impossible. If they told mother that they wanted to eat, or even if they didn't, she gave them food and made sure they ate at least 3 times a day. Since she suffered a lot from starvation herself and almost every family member (all of her three brothers and her mom) died due to starvation), and it would also explain why tf Delisaster has such a thin waist.

It's also possible that, instead of her bearing the children in her womb, they just decided to mix their DNAs in an incubator of some sort. Innocent zero would say something that it wasn't necessary for her to bear them and that it wouldn't benefit neither of them, since he doesn't want for a strong ally to be unable to work for over 9 months and he read that it pregnancy can affect her health (again, that means that his ally will be weaker than before (imagine his reaction when she randomly falls into a coma after mash's 'birth'- and doesn't wake up for a long time). And mother would also prefer it by just mixing the DNAs (✨trauma✨, and probably not liking physical touch?). I'm also sure that after some time, Innocent zero would put some spell on mother just to keep her in the coma (let's say her necklaces worked only around itself and since it didn't cause any actual damage they weren't activated) so that he can manipulate the sons more. I also imagine them visiting her, maybe on their own birthdays or her birthday or just randomly showing up to check on her idk.

I also imagine that when Innocent zero is defeated by Mash and mother wakes up and gets context of everything that happened during her 'absence' (she really didn't care if the realm was destroyed since they didn't care about neither her or those similar to her), she would be mad with both Wahlberg and the divine visionaries (even though she didn't like the realm, she had some respect for Wahlberg when they were young bc he had good ambitions and she expected for him to at least try to make them reality) bc "what do you mean after 100 years the law against lackmagic is the fucking same and nothing changed? And then you dump it all onto a 15 y/o boy? Wtf" She would 100% slap Wahlberg in his face (and it's a good one, after all the sons didn't get the physical abilities from their father lol) and say that if they don't change things soon, she won't hesitate to start a revolution. I also don't know how would Mash react to his biological mother appearing out of nowhere. They would probably have a talk, at least and she would say that she won't interfere in his life unless he wants to and that he should contact Domina if he wants to talk with her or needs something from her, since she doesn't have a phone bc she was in a coma.

Also, after Innocent zero is defeated, I'm sure that the castle doesn't fall down, so as she wakes up she goes through it and sees all of her sons (or their remains) dead (Except Doom, since he did live after the battle with Mash) and she doesn't know the cause of it yet, but when she sees the 'arrows' that attacked Domina she would get the puzzle together that Innocent zero have killed at least one of her sons (she couldn't care less about the realm, but won't hesitate to hurt someone tenfold if they hurt her sons in the slightest), he would have had hurried to hunt that mf down, but tending to Doom's injuries is more of a priority at that time.

Anyway, I'm really sorry for that request, it was my bad. I would send a kaldo drawing as an apology, but I can't send photos when asking as anon🙇‍♀️ have a good time

-🎨anon

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(original ask:)

A/n: dear anon you sure are discovering a whole lot oh my goodness- now that you explain the entire thing I’m like o_o I’m literally confused about the logic (but anime/manga logic am I right?-) so I’m not sure what to do about this, would you still want the ask?

[yellowloid]

i think one of the main problems of tumblr (and fandom culture, and the internet in general) is that people tend to forget as human beings we are made of multitudes. nothing is ever just black or white - there are infinite shades of grey in between and that is the very thing that makes us, well, human.

sometimes people have contrasting opinions within themselves and - guess what - even contrasting feelings. sometimes people feel strongly about stuff and that is okay. you can love something/someone so much and at the same time find yourself disappointed by something related to it/them. that happens. it's okay.

i'm not gonna talk about what's going on on twitter because tbh i haven't checked so i have no idea wtf they're on about there, but i want to focus on our little tumblr community - which is so special because of the fact that it is (mostly) conflict-free, and if there's something we share it's a kind of visceral love for the boys that i'm sure everyone here can understand.

this is not an indirect @ anyone in particular, but i've seen some posts going around talking about all the negativity on the dash after last night, and i wanted to share my two cents on that.

we all love them. we all fucking love them so much and we know every time they set foot on stage we're guaranteed to be blown away by how fucking good and special and talented they are. they know how to deliver a spectacular performance (even in emergency situations like yesterday, with alex's laryngitis which is definitely far from gone) and they know how to keep the audience's attention fixed on them. they're a special kind of hypnotising, and every show is unique in and of itself *because* of their incredible presence, regardless of what setlist they might give us.

we all know that, and yesterday's show was no exception. it was amazing, powerful and breathtaking like every show they deliver. mindblowing, as always. as simple as that.

and that's exactly what can turn disappointing real quick. they know how fucking good they are. they know how much potential they have, and that all this tour they've been using up to 10% of said potential. they're incredibly talented and smart, and still decide to stick to their comfort zone every. single. night. with few exceptions, obviously, and mostly never from the album they're supposed to be touring. that's what upsets people here - the fact that they're letting their own HUGE potential go to waste.

glastonbury is a milestone. they had nothing to prove, of course, having headlined it already and more than once in the past. everyone knows what they're capable of. but glastonbury is special, too, and instead if felt like just another random show they could then go and tick off their list. done, next. rinse and repeat.

and of course we also all know it was an emergency. alex has been straining his voice for a long time now - the three consecutive london gigs were the breaking point, and i'm so glad they took a bit of time to let him rest, despite the fact that they probably hated having to cancel the dublin show. but they couldn't ditch glasto, and so they showed up and they did a fucking amazing job. alex sounded so good and i think i can speak for all of us when i say i was so incredibly relieved to see he was okay. i was shaking and biting my nails worried sick about him for DAYS up to the moment they appeared on stage and seeing him get up there and kill it with a fucking crazy performance, putting in all that effort and dedication despite the fact that he's no doubt still recovering (no way his laryngitis is 100% gone, and i hope he gets some more rest because he needs it) made me so proud of him, so fucking happy and proud and i couldn't really love him more. i love him so much, i love them all so much and i know everyone here also does. no one here is blaming it on him for whatever happened yesterday. we're all just fucking glad and grateful he could show up in the first place. he's the most special most talented most beautiful little guy ever and we all love and cherish him so much it hurts. and he did so fucking well, as always. i hope he knows that, and i hope he knows he's allowed to be sick and he's not to blame for anything. i would personally fight anyone who dared say anything bad about him because no one fuck's with tumblr's most beautiful most precious babygirlboy. no one!!!!!

having said that, big changes in the setlist - especially a live debut of hello you or other new songs - were highly unlikely and we all knew that. they probably wouldn't have had the chance to rehearse due to alex's sickness. and that's okay! sure everyone would love to see those songs finally make their grand debut. but that can wait, because alex's health is more important.

and let's face it. i don't think it's that big of a reach to say that even if alex hadn't been sick, the setlist wouldn't have changed that much anyway. there's songs that simply cannot be scrapped, songs to which they're particularly attached and songs to which average fans are also particularly attached. then there's songs that have been on rotation, and songs that have finally already made a comeback during the sheffield shows. taking away all that, the songs that have an actual real possibility of coming back aren't that many - as much as it hurts me to say it, they won't be playing secret door or piledriver waltz or batphone or whatever more niche song anytime soon. and we know that, no one *really* expects them to. because they have to gather to the general crowd, and as repetitive as their current setlist might be, it works. could house more new songs - they skipped big ideas? and songs such as mr schwartz and iaqwitia haven't made a comeback in such a long while... but still. it's bomb. it works, and it works fucking well.

however, there were other changes that could have been made to make glasto special - changes that wouldn't have been a risk to alex's health; small things that could have made a difference, even a tiny one. @mrschwartz said it perfectly in her tags (i hope it's okay to show these sbfksjf i just think you put it into words really well):

it WAS a win. the sole fact of headlining glasto, in and of itself, is a win. a big fucking one at that. and little changes could have been made to make it memorable - to make it stand out when compared to every other gig they played this tour. there definitely were highlights - not only with alex's antics but also lyrically, with the jet skis/iwby/star treatment moment, which was OUTSTANDING - but for the rest nothing really spoke GLASTONBURY. nothing else *really* stood out, and that's a shame.

(not even gonna touch on the miles thing because yeah we all know they probably wanted to do it but couldn't for some reason; it's pretty clear rn that him showing up in london was to make up for him not being able to be there yesterday; we all had our suspicions and they were right. still bummed tho because them playing glasto together is a tradition!)

but considered all that, it is what it is. no one is gonna go around unstanning them because of last night. if anything, when they pull this shit they just make us want to follow them even more, to see what they'll be up to in the next shows. what aces they have up their sleeves - because we know just as well as they know that they have many. they're just too comfortable in their routine to pull them all out, and hopefully sometime in the near future we'll get to see more of what they can really do.

again, it was an amazing show. my heart was beating so fast and i kept grinning like an idiot at the screen, just because they were there. just because they showed up in the first place, with their talent and beauty and power and insane energy. just because i love them so much i can't even begin to explain it.

and i was a bit disappointed, too. because we know how much potential they have. because if they can put up an amazing show like that using only a crumble of that potential, we can only imagine how insanely spectacular of a performance they could deliver if they used even a little bit more of it.

but they refuse to, and that's what can be upsetting. but it doesn't take away the love we have for them. the two things can coexist, and they don't take away from each other. if anything, i woke up this morning with even more love for them than i did yesterday, exactly because they frustrate me with how legendary they are, and how bad i want them to show that to the whole world.

i love them, i'm disappointed, and that's not gonna stop me from loving them even more.

[batwynn]

Please help my autistic ass figure this situation out please I am so tired of this kind of thing happening. 😭

I called the cancel our scheduled mow times after our first and only apt with a lawn care company because the 100° days were over and we probably won’t get heat stroke using the push mower now and they said ok all good but we’ll call to check in for the fall clean up and I was like: cool. (Probably won’t need that since we like to keep a lot of it ‘wild’ for critters but ok.) I also said I was ready to pay for the previous mow they did but he said it wasn’t in the system yet and they’ll send it to me. So, yesterday they showed up and… mowed the lawn? I was not up for talking to people face to face so I tried calling the office and no one picked up because it looks like it’s maybe just those two guys. 🥲

The question is: What is more likely, they misunderstood me even though it seemed super clear and I need to call and confirm it’s canceled? They’re pulling one of those scam things where they keep showing up to do the thing so they can demand payment? They thought I meant after this week’s mow? Or they thought they were being nice and doing the one last mow before leaving us alone with our grass but now I have to pay them $160??

[unohanabbygirl]

Does Aemond ever get into discussions with coworkers about certain historical events cause yk he works at a museum and when the discussion of the dance of the dragons come up — does he get really defensive? I can imagine the discussion starting with a “Honestly none of it would have happened if Lucerys just turned around instead of being all brave and shit. War averted at least for a little while.”(An actual argument I have heard btw LMAO) Basically a coworker being a lowkey team green defender.

What would Aemond do/say? Or what would he do in a similar situation? Because I imagine the Dance of the Dragons is a huge historical event, def one good for argumentative topics..

(Ik Aemond would not let that slide but I need to know just how hard he would get on their asses. Plus I love seeing you talk about how your characters are, the dynamics are something I adore!)

Aemond is a big time loner, spending most of his time in the archives and going to Lottie’s for his lunch break, so the only time he ever finds himself chatting with co-workers is when Mona drags him along to the break room and it usually never ends well 😭

Not only is he a history buff, but he’s actually part of history. Knows these events like he just experienced them yesterday and will argue with anyone who tries to spew bullshit. When co-workers start discussing topics like the dance only for Aemond to come walking in they immediately switch to something else because he takes it way too seriously in their eyes.

Someone could make an offhanded comment like. “I’m with Vaemond 100% seeing a bastard take my ancestral seat from right under me would piss me off too.”

Que to Aemond who’s rolling his eye and constantly butting in to tell the guy he’s just as much of an idiot as Vaemond because CORLYS and LAENOR passed Driftmark to Lucerys making it his birth right.

This then leads to him telling everyone they shouldn’t be in this field if they don’t even know the simplest of facts.

He goes back to sipping his coffee while everyone else is like wtf

Some random work room npc : “I just don’t understand why the kid wouldn’t go back after seeing that big ass war dragon. He must’ve been a few screws loose.”

Random work room npc #2 : More than likely, seven knows his mother wasn’t the smartest for trying to pass him off as legitimate.”

Aemond “Lucerys persisted because as a prince of the realm he was given an order by his queen to deliver a messenge. It was his duty, as well as everyone else’s duty to not lay a finger on him since messengers are off limits. But you wouldn’t understand duty since you spend all day in here instead of finishing your paper work.”

Now Aemond is known by all the staff as ‘that guy who doesn’t play about Lucerys Velaryon’

[trash-pandaxx]

Sunday April 21st

CW: 151.4 lbs ( fuck )

Breakfast: (263)

2 cups coffee (5) + 2 tbs hazelnut creamer (60)

2 egg omelette (143) + cheese (55)

Lunch: (286)

3 oz tri tip (171) + A1 (15)

Salad(5) + walnuts& cranberries (45) + Greek dressing (50)

Dinner: (0)

Zero sugar dr. Pepper cherry (0)

Snacks: (246)

Toffee chocolate chip cookie (221)

1 piece of chocolate (25)

Exercise: (-374)

10 min warm up (100) + 20 min FTP test cycling (232) + cool down ride (42)

Water: 6 cups

Total Intake: 795

Total Burned: 374

Net Total: 421

Having a bad day or weekend or whatever. I just feel so big. I’m bloated. My stomach is sticking out, my legs are huge, my face is so round. I feel like I’m gaining weight (I am).

I still haven’t gotten my period and I’m still having pms symptoms. So maybe that’s why I’m so bloated and feel this way. (Or maybe it’s because I ate so much yesterday.) My period is now 5 days late. No way I’m pregnant (my husband had a vasectomy) so wtf.

I skipped dinner to make myself feel better. It didn’t work but maybe my weight will go down tomorrow.

[lucysarah-c]

*deep breath*

Hello.

I dont think there are words in the English vocabulary to explain how much I love holy ground so I wont even try.

But but, I just wanted you to know that I started this series yesterday and I finished it today. I LITERALLY HAVE EXAMS GOING AND I CANNOT BRING MYSELF TO GIVE A FUCK BECAUSE WOWOWIWEOSJSGHD YOU WRITE SO GOOD I AM CRYING LAUGHING I LOVE YOU SMSM PLS DONT EVER STOP WRITING PLS WRITE MORE AND MORE BECAUSE YOU ARE AMAXING EXTRAORDINARY SUPER COOL AND HOLY SHIT SO POETIC SO BEAUTIFUL THIS IS THE BEST LONGFIC I'VE EVER READ THANK YOU SM FOR WRITING THIS.

okay, I'm sorry, I'm normal now.

But literally I love you so much. Not only can you write so well but you can also draw?? Wtf?? Can you step on me please? So maybe I could have some shred of your talent?

Literally love your sense of humor. Can't remember the last time I laughed so hard. The banters between levi/mike and levi/reader was hilarious. I also cried a hell lot because i relate a lot to how you wrote reader and I think so reading the story kind of healed me because Levi is the type of person I need in my life.

I'm sorry I rant a lot.

Byt thank you.

And I love you.

<3

Ok… I… I simply have no words to thank you enough for this, for your sweet words, your enthusiasm, your support, everything! I wanted to take my time to reply to you properly, but since I read your message in my inbox, it made my day, my night, my week, haha. I was almost in tears-

100% no fake picture of me reading your message:

Don't ever apologize for ranting! This was amazing! Thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart <3

Hahaha, honestly, nobody has asked me to step on them before; it was hilarious. I bet you're extremely talented on your own, and there must be a bunch of people who admire you <3 You truly don't need me to be talented <3 But thank you! I always say that writing and drawing are both a blessing and a curse. When I'm writing, I think I should be drawing, and when I'm drawing, I think I should be writing. Haha, the stress never stops.

Ahaha, I'm so glad you find my sense of humor funny. Sometimes I have a blast while writing certain chapters, particularly the "guys" hangouts (Erwin, Hange, Mike, and Levi). I think, "Does anything that I write ever make someone laugh?" Sometimes, I reread old chapters, laugh, and then say, "I'm hilarious." So thank you! Thank you for making me feel I'm not laughing alone, lol.

BTW, a little spoiler for you! In the next chapter, the boys' hangout is back. Mike, Hange, Levi, and Erwin will have a blast, so I hope you have a good fun time reading about them again <3

About the reader, I'm happy and also sad you relate to her. Happy that I was able to write an MC that made you feel seen and understood, but also sad because I wish no girl in this world should feel the way she feels. So I'm sending you the TIGHTEST hug in the world, smooches with a lot of love, and, obviously, my best successful wishes for your ongoing exams! I'm not wishing you luck because I'm so sure you've got this; you're already succeeding <3

Don't thank me; thank you for reading, coming here, leaving this beautiful message, and supporting me and my art <3

I love you too from the moon and back!

Stay safe!

[linalibertine]

Yesterday was a breakthrough…

I am feeling awful since a few months already and it‘s building up an getting worse. My working place is bothering me and our apartment is super small and loaded with things and no opportunity to have real „alone time“.

So I just casually googled „jobs for people who feel a lot“.

I stumbled over the term „hypersensitive person“ and started reading about it.

I am 26 years old, was in therapy as a child and teenager multiple times, and you want to tell me I just accidentally found out wtf is happening to me ALL THIS TIME?!

I was flabbergasted. Suddenly I had an explanation for all the problems in my entire life that would leave me in riddles.

The misophonia, which didn‘t make a 100% sense because it would wary from day to day. Some days I wouldn‘t even hear the bothering sounds and on other days they were agonising and noises were bothering me that weren‘t part of it ever before?

Back when I worked as a hair stylist (it was awful there, true horror workplace) and I suddenly couldn‘t walk anymore because my left foot was in so much pain. I spent months going to every. single. doctor. and there was nothing! It was all psychosomatic probably and the hypersensitivity would explain that too!! That I felt so unwell at that workplace my body started making the foot pain up to keep me from going there ever again.

The panic attacks I‘m getting. Everything.

The more I keep thinking about it, things from my past keep popping up in my head that start making sense just now!! It feels good but it is so much to process right now.

And I learned something else yesterday. How miserable my skills are when it comes to regulating and working with my own emotions. I was never taught how to. How to center yourself, how to perceive your own body, recognising early alarm bells, self-management for allowing yourself to take breathing space.

I stand just at the beginning and I have a long journey ahead of me. But it feels kind of amazing.

[there-is-just-me-myself-and-i]

My concert report: Blind Channel – Sick & Dangerous European Tour 2022 – Nürnberg (04.09.2022)

So as I am writing this it is 02:42 in the morning, and I should probably be asleep because I will do this whole thing again in munich tonight. But I can’t sleep, I promised @another-sun this report (btw thank you so much you actually helped me so much aswell with my concert), and I think I have to do this for myself aswell to actually process this whole concert. Really wtf was that…

So I have to mention the days leading to the concert, I was more and more nervous about something happening that would have prevented me from going. Like what if the person that goes with me can’t anymore, what if I get sick, what if they get sick, …. So when the day finally came yesterday I kind of couldn’t believe it, I still can’t to be honest…

On the drive to the concert which took like one and a half hours we listened to Blind Channel songs, and I ranted about my nervousness, and we talked about Blind Channel. The person coming with me wasn’t a big BC fan, but I kind of got her into the music. The funny thing was that when I told her about Joel’s love for Germany he sent that insta post where he mentioned he wanted to move here. Perfect timing Joel...

We were there at 5 in the afternoon, two hours before the doors opened, because of my crazy concert brain. The person who went with me didn’t want to sit there for so long so I went alone to join the already waiting fans. Because I didn’t want to stand there alone I tried to talk to the people before me, which happened to be two finish girls/woman and one girl/woman from the US. We didn’t really hit of but that was okay. While i was sitting there I also noticed how tall all the people there were, and panicked a bit, I also kind of felt out of place for some reason… When it was time for the doors to open for us not VIP people, there were some people that were there after us but kind of got in line in front of us which also was a bit frustrating…

But after I went into the venue my whole night changed. I somehow saw this space right in front/next to the stage on Joonas side of the stage. But it was also kind of weird because it was also an open way to walk behind the stage. (And I saw several band members from different bands in that hall during the night, also had some BC crewmembers walked past me, and I think some of the bandmembers of the two acts before Blind Channel also used that way to go to the merch stands, but I can’t say that for sure anymore) I also had a clear view of the backstage door on the other side of the stage (and I saw several band members from different bands standing there or walking past the door aswell. For example I saw Niko when Joonas did that story of him, I saw Tommi and Joonas walk past that door several times, and I am pretty sure I also saw a shirtless Joel walking past the door but again can’t be 100% sure about that) I asked the girl standing next to me if I she thought I was even allowed there and she said yes. There had been a similar set up at the show in Dresden apparently and there were also people standing there. We also talked a bit about moshpits, and stagediving, and I got some great advice about where to stand at my Electric Callboy concert in Leipzig next year.

Then Oceans came on stage. I actually haven’t really had the time/motivation to look into their stuff beforehand. And I kind of took their performance as my time to get used to standing where I stood. I have never been front row at a concert… But they were great, and I will definitely check out some more of their stuff.

Then after a break Lost Society came on, who I checked out before and liked, but also didn’t have the time to look into deeper. And that performance was just unbelievable… I sometimes caught myself standing there with eyes closed and kind of headbanging, or just wipping my head around to the beat, idk… And I swear Samy smiled at me several times, I think I even have that on video. So Lost Society you have definitely gained a fan now…

And last but not least Blind Channel. I don’t even know what I should say, or where to start. I waited for so long for this concert, and I was so worried about it, but this was so worth it. It was the best concert of my life. Seeing them up close was so surreal. They were all exactly like I saw them on videos before. Joel was smiling so much and I think kind of emotional at the end (I can’t remember for sure anymore). Aleksi did all that crazy stuff he usually does (and hearing him talk live just hits different). Then Joonas energetic self (I heard him scream stuff to the audience so often without microphone, his whole part of thank you for the pain, and again hearing him talk to the audience just hit differently). Olli was so intense (the stares, the moves,...) but also seemed really happy. I didn’t get much from Tommi sadly since there was always someone in the way but I screamed extra loud whenever he got on stage, and he is just sooooo tall. And him and Aleksi were just great together. And last but not least Niko…He was just sooo Niko…I really love them all…

Since I stood so close I kind of filmed a bit to much I guess. But there were also many songs were I didn’t, and I didn’t do every song fully (just one or two actually). But I just had to use the opportunity to get some memorys from them, and I really wanted to capture them all individually (well as individual as you can). I didn’t really get a good angle to capture them all at once I think.

I have to say again that this was the best concert of my life. I sung/screamed my soul out, I tried this headbanging thing, I jumped (I also filmed while jumping twice, really strange videos...), and I just enjoyed every second of it. I still can’t realize this whole thing has happened, and tonight I will definitely just enjoy seeing them without filming much. Probably wont get this view again anyways…

Some random facts in the end…

…There was this box thing right in front of me, which I leaned against often. And Samy from Lost Society stood on there, Aleksi stood on there more than once, Joel also did stand there, and Joonas as well. I really just could have touched them if I wanted to, they were so close… But I don’t like touching people that I don’t know personally, and I wouldn’t want someone to do that with me, so of course I didn’t. (I also have video proof of that, maybe I will just throw some pictures together in the next days)

…The security guy was great. He came to stand by that entrance thing to walk behind the stage when Lost Society came on. And he was just so nice and funny. Said things like „at least people are having fun“ when the crowed started singing along to everybody while waiting for BC. He was also really happy that it was so peaceful. But whenever someone stood on this box thing he had his hands on there as well, I guess to do something if people got to out of line. I am just really happy that I made his day easy tbh...

… Again I can’t get over Joonas and Aleksi talking live. I mean I heared them talk before but it just was so different live.

… I was really afraid of the moshpits before going into the venue and securing my safe spot. There were several girls saying they were going to push people in, and ramble about their injuries they got in them. I think I would have immediately panicked in there.

… I was also worried I will never be able to hear again after the concert, after some girl mentioned she had to put ear plugs in her ears for concerts like that because she almost became deaf from one concert. But my ears survived, and it wasn’t bad at all.

… And how the hell did Aleksi, Olli, Joel, Joonas and the Blind Channel account on instagram (so Joel again probobly) actually check out my storys on there. I actually tried to get them individually, because I just wanted to show my appreaciation I guess.

…And last but not least, I did not faint from the heat. I didn’t at all. Really happy about that. But it was the place where I stood I guess.

...Ohhh and Joonas and Niko had a little Timebomb moment at the end of the song. But they just stood together really, with Niko having his arm over Joonas shoulder.

[lovemesomesurveys]

What was the year/make/model of the last car you drove? I don't drive.

Have you ever been in weather below 0 Fahrenheit (-17 Celcius)? Gah, noooo thankfully I have not.

What was the last thing you used your phone for, besides calling/texting? Ha, it's rare that I'm using my phone for actual phone things lol. Anyway, I'm pretty sure it was TikTok.

Do you have more male or female coworkers? I don't have a job.

Did you enjoy high school? I liked some parts of it. Like, I actually enjoyed the pep rallies and assemblies. Honestly, while a lot of it truly was tough and I'll still stand by that, I think as I've gotten older and looked back some of the stuff maybe wasn't so bad after all.

What's an unusual food combination you like? I haven't had it in so long, but I actually think adding mayo to ramen is good.

What's the longest stretch of time you've spent completely alone? Just like half a day.

Have you ever lived in a studio apartment? No.

Did your parents allow you to drink soda when you were a kid? Yeah.

Do you always check the prices of things when you buy groceries? Of course. I don't have money coming out my ass. However, I do sometimes randomly throw stuff in, but it's a snack or drink and I know it doesn't cost much.

Do you like gyoza? I've never had it.

Have you ever been in a situation where you needed a lawyer? No.

Do you use Instagram? If so, what's your current profile pic? Very, very, very rarely. I don't even spend much time on it scrolling through my feed or watching people's insta stories. I just posted something for the first time in a few years for my birthday.

Did you ever go through an emo or goth phase? I had my emo phase when I was 16, but let's be real it was never just a phase.

What are your thoughts on kids being given iPads to keep them entertained? I don't see an issue with it. However, I personally wouldn't use a screen as a babysitter and I'd set limits to screen time. Otherwise, I definitely see the educational benefits. It's just wild how kids literally come out the womb nowadays knowing how to use a tablet or phone like wtf.

Do you get regular check-ups with your doctor? With one of my specialists, but not my primary doctor.

What was the last thing you felt apprehensive about? I'm apprehensive about everything.

How many nights per week do you cook dinner at home vs. going out to eat? I personally don't cook, so in that regard zero. As for how many nights I eat at home vs in my case how many nights I get takeout, it's something like takeout 4-5 times a week.

What's a trend you've seen recently that you thought was really dumb? I will never understand the whole Crocs trend or the little charm things you put on them. I just can't.

Do you know anyone who has been evicted? Not to my knowledge.

When did you last wash your sheets and pillowcases? A couple weeks ago.

Have you kissed more than 10 people in the past 10 years? I've only kissed 3 people total.

Have you ever been caught outdoors away from shelter during a thunderstorm? Gah, yes. I was at an outdoor festival and it just randomly started POURING. It was crazy.

Did you leave the house before 10 AM yesterday? I didn't go anywhere yesterday.

What's your favorite macaron flavor? The Fruity Pebbles one.

How often do you have friends over to your house? --

Have you ever had a boss who acted unprofessionally?

How many times have you stayed at a hotel in the past year, and where? I last stayed at a motel in March of 2022.

What kind of technological advancements do you expect there to be 100 years from now? >> I can't fathom this

Have you ever done a flip on a trampoline? No, I can't go on a trampoline.

What about a flip off of a diving board? I can't do that either.

What was the last hot beverage you had? Coffee.

[findingmypeace]

I don’t think I’ll be able to write a whole post. I may or may not have my phone for long. This has been one of the hardest treatment stays ever. I’ve been at CFD since Monday. But I’m currently in the ER. CFD sent me here for fluids. I’m still dealing with all of the physical symptoms I was before I came and it’s been explained to me that it’s all related to dehydration. They had me on couch rest and even had someone escorting me everywhere because I’m cfall risk. I’ve been trying so hard to keep up with the amount of fluids they want me to drink but it hasn’t been enough.

When I say this has been my hardest treatment stay ever there’s only been a 2-3 meals snacks since I was admitted where I haven’t had a full blown panic attack. I’ve been so scared of all food and water. I guess after lunch today it wasn’t a panic attack. It was more that I was so angry with myself for struggling SO much. Shouldn’t this be easier? I’ve been to treatment so many times. I know what I need to do. Why can’t I do it? Wtf is so scary about actual water!!! I feel like that’s ridiculous.

Yesterday I met with the medical doctor and she laid out what I need to do to stay out of the hospital. Drink 3 cups of water + 1 cup of Gatorade, eat at least 50% of my meal plan, and no purging.

TW: I thought of putting this under a cut but instead I’ll try to be vague and give a warning that there will be talk of behaviors. Please skip to the end of this post if that’s triggering for you.

So the goals were laid out for me. I tried so hard to meet them. By afternoon snack I had done 50% of breakfast, AM snack, and lunch. I needed only 10oz more to meet my fluid goal and I had fought purging urges so, so hard. Of course I still have to be supplemented every time I don’t complete a meal at 100%. But I really was doing so much better than previous days.

Afternoon snack is what tripped me up. The actual snack was fine and I did the 50%. I needed to. I enjoyed good conversation and I wasn’t already in the middle of a panic attack by the end of snack. I still got supplemented of course. That was the problem. I appreciate that CFD does supplements different than the last place I was at as it’s based more on making up for the nutrients you did not consume rather than, less than 50% meal completion is two Ensure Plus’s and 50% or more is one Ensure Plus. While I appreciate that CFD does it differently the logistics of the set up aren’t that great. I sit at the table by myself, with everyone in the kitchen, and only an open doorway for them to monitor me. They’re all walking around cleaning up the kitchen after a meal snack. The temptation to purge is at 1000%. It’s an epic battle to not purge when I’m sitting there. I know that even just a little would help lessen the anxiety of the food and fluids. The temptation got the better of me after afternoon snack and I purged. I knew that I shouldn’t. The intense fear of the food and fluids combined with maybe getting some relief from the anxiety just became too much. But it wasn’t actually instant relief. There really wasn’t a way of hiding what I had done so within a half hour I was in a room with my dietitian, the nurse, and the executive director and I was told I would be going to the hospital. At first I freaked out. I thought that meant I would be in the hospital for at least a few day. I, once again, started panicking. A little while later I found out that they meant I would just be going to the ER to get some fluids and coming back. I am so grateful they are allowing me to come back. But they did call an ambulance to pick me up. Thankfully, it wasn’t that they thought I needed ambulance but all available staff were required to be at CFD so there was no one else to take me. As I’ve been writing this the IV bag is now done. I am terrified of that much fluid and at the same time it’s actually easier to deal with it that way (through IV fluids). I hope with the IV bag finished I can go back to CFD. And yet I am terrified for what is to come when I go back. Once again facing fluids and food and panic attacks and talking about everything I stuffed down. So many times I want to bolt. I want to throw my plate or cup as far as I can and then runaway. It’s a constant. But I’m trying so hard and everyone in that room when they told me I was going to the hospital also said that they can see how hard I’m working. It’s just so, so hard, and terrifying. I don’t think I’ve cried this much in my entire life.

Anyway, I miss everyone on here. I haven’t had a chance to catch up on everyone but I would love to hear how everyone is doing.💕

[draftmare]

Some of you may have noticed the sudden lack of pony on the blog lately, and it’s because unfortunately we have been working through some soundness issues that cropped up while I was off for my surgery. Vet has been out twice now. First time around we did a full lameness eval and imaging on her left stifle. Imaging showed not a huge difference between the left and right, but vet recommended we go ahead with injecting the stifle to see if we could get the lameness under control. At that point the lameness eval was showing a bit of a “chicken and egg” relationship between her being sore in her loin and lame in her stifle.

After 10-ish days she was looking just as lame as she had looked at the eval, so I reached out to the vet again. 10 days was when I was told I would start to know if the injection was going to be the “magic cure” we were hoping for. Vet recommended we x-ray the hock and go from there, so we set that up. On Saturday (three-weeks post injection) I noticed a significant improvement in soundness on the lunge line, but still not 100%. Monday the vet came out. Hock x-rays showed fairly normal hocks for a 14 year old. There were some minor changes, but no smoking gun, and nothing worth injecting. We also ruled out soft tissue injury based on other clinical presentations/signs. Vet noted that she felt Sydney was significantly more sore in her loin area than she has been at the initial lameness eval and suggested chiropractic adjustment and acupuncture treatment. She then gave me her blessing to ride the following day to see if things had progressed at all.

The ride on Tuesday (yesterday) Sydney felt great walk/trot (she had looked and felt great this entire time at the walk and trot), but canter still felt like garbage, so obviously still not sound. Not that I was expecting one chiro adjustment to fix all of our problems. Vet wants me to get a massage therapist involved and to also have my saddle triple checked by my saddle fitter. We think my swap to the Bates dressage saddle (it has now been side lined and I am back in the County for any test riding/light riding) may be our smoking gun, maybe, or maybe we are both just grasping at straws because the imaging for the entire leg is coming back squeaky clean. Our only other option, really, is to start blocking that leg and Sydney HATES needles near that leg. Like, has to be stoned out of her mind before a needle can get near that leg, and horses have to be fully awake during blocking procedures (she partially degloved that leg several years ago, and then re-injured it in THE EXACT SAME SPOT because WTF HOW two more times that required stitches and is now a pill about needles near her hind legs).

[basiccortez]

I haven’t sent an Ask in a while but.

I have a question for you G,

I have decided to join the coast guard and I’m very excited and nervous.

What tips do you have for boot camp and leaving?

-🦋

so my experience with bootcamp was different cause i was pre-covid and pre-military being nice to new recruits so here’s my advice

1. look up what the physical fitness test is and find some workouts to help with it. idk what the coastguard is like but i can tell you that in the army, if you didn’t pass your PT test, you were on the next bus out of there and processed out. PT is very, very important, so working out now will only help you succeed later

2. start looking up the basic tasks and creeds. you will more than likely have to memorize them

3. you can usually take the bare minimum: a decent pair of civs, plain underwear and sports bras, black or white socks. i was also allowed to take a note book, package of envelopes, address book and stamps.

4. HYDRATE NOW. HYDRATE TOMORROW. HYDRATE YESTERDAY. you will be dehydrated your first like three days. it just happens.

5. bootcamp is 97% mental, 3% physical. it’s a mind game. and your drill instructors will mindfuck you the whole time. keep your head down. don’t give them any reason to pick you out of the crowd.

i will tell you that bootcamp and PME schools are my favorite times of being in the military. i would 100% go back to bootcamp (the old bootcamp 🙄… idk wtf they are doing now but making soft soldiers)

[bubblecitycitizen]

Hello there. I I just need to tell my story. I'll make it short. I just need someone to know about it and maybe say something about it without judging, without advices.

She's reading my chats. Yesterday I was texting a friend of mine about a boy that I'm really into. Lots of personal deep shit on this chat. She and I had a argument earlier that day. Short and intense it was. I got out and went to my father's place, they divorced you see. Today she asks me when I'm coming back and literally disses me about the boy. I let her use my messenger on the laptop sometimes bc she doesn't have one. This isn't the first time she's reading my stuff and then diss me about it. She states you see that this is what I deserve for being bad to her. Okay... I had to wash those dishes and vacuum earlier. Yes I was late 3 days. Okay maybe like a few months ago I said something too pushy, maybe too arrogant. Yes, I admit that I haven't always behaved right and few years ago I was pretending to be wiser and more mature than I'm, so that i can take my own decisions. Yes, I wasn't 100% right.

But isn't this something every teenager goes through? I'm 20 bro, you can't punish me for what I've been like while growing up. She doesn't behave like a mother to me but like a bitch that takes her revenge on another bitch. I've been sincere enough to openly discuss and admit my flaws more than once, but she just likes to excuse herself with them. Like now's her chance to strike back and sit there you little shit and just watch. She's playing it like "Look what you made me do" as if I'm some bitch. Like I deserve it. No mother type thing here... Just wtf? No.

The mixture of hate and grief is unbearable especially when you need to get up early to go to work. So I just had to tell someone before going to bed. Thanks for your time!

[therivergirl]

So, in Croatia we recently switched from Croatian Kuna, the Croatian official currency, to Euro.

And I can't describe how much of a mindfuck is it to see the new prices. I mean sure, we had a transition period in 2022 when, even trough we still used Kunas, the prices were written out in both Kuna and Euro. But, really, a lot of people didn't have time or energy to pay much attention.

And the weird thing is that €1 equals about Kn7,3. So the prices are REALLY different.

Usually, if I went to buy something bigger, like my entire hair routine or I was going to a sushi place and knew I was going to splurge a bit I had bills with numbers like 100 or 200 on them.

Now I have, like, €20 or maybe a twenty and a ten in my wallet and that's it.

Even weirder is that, before, if I'd get change, AKA coins, I'd be like "oh, ok, that's not that much." Like, if someone hands you a handful of Kn1 coins you can maybe buy a bag of chips, or a really cheap coffee or a croissant.

If someone hands me a handfull od €1 coins, that's a small fortune!

Like, a few days ago, I payed for my lunch with a twenty and the cashier returned me all in change. And I was like "Wtf, that is so little!" and then, the very next moment I thought "What are you talking about, idiot! You could buy a week worth of lunches for that money! And still have some money left!"

Anyways, the closest thing I can think of is if you're watching measures in a system you're not used to. Like, if you used imperial and now you see meters or if you're used to the metric system (like me) so you're like "wait, how much is 5ft again?"

That, but worse.

Like, I got my paycheck yesterday and I was ready to go fight the HR because WTF IS THAT NUMBER. then I realized...those are euros....that is your normal paycheck...you're rich, dumbass!

[momo-de-avis]

Question: if they only told/asked about having a tour the day or night before, would you still do it? Because that would be too short of a notice so ofc it would be understandable if you had other plans, but if you ended up agreeing to it (coz you feel bad for the tourists for example) it would not discourage them to do it again in the future. But if you say "sorry, can't" it might avoid those situations. Asking about it now allows you to prepare for it better (if you can do it) and allows them to find someone else in time (if you can't/don't want to)

Both situations happened these past couple of weeks, actually. We have all come to the conclusion that absolutely nothing discourages them from doing this lmao essentially, we tell them on monday that yes, we are available on days X, Y and Z, maybe the whole seven days, and they take that to mean that A) nothing will change throughout the week and you will absolutely 100% available, and B) seven days available for work means no days off. Last week I had an argument with them because they booked me 3 full days without asking me and I told them, hey listen, next time ASK because I really need some rest (and look at what happened... I fell sick after 4 days, 3 of them full 10h a day) and they always go buT YoU SaId YoU WeRe AvAiLabLe

Earlier this week they actually asked me if I could do a tour yesterday cause my coworker fell sick and there was no one available, and now I was sick, so they had to either cancel a private tour or get someone from the office to do the private one (we're not sure what exactly happened, but both situations are plausible).

Now, if they'd asked me if I was available thursday for a tour I likely would have said yes, but it's just annoying that they didn't even ask me. I was talking to my coworker and we decided she should tell them about it simply because so far I have 13 people and that's 13 people who were going to be left out with no tour after paying a hefty ammount and we felt bad for them. They finally added me to the event, tho not a single word to me yet.

Like. my reasoning was the same as yours. IT sets a precedent. It just sucks that there's 13 people who were gonna get screwed over for this. But it seems they just never learn 😂it's weird cause during high season it wasn't like this, it's getting worse during low season like wtf