#5 seconds of summer pref

[edge-oftheworld]

ashton really did be like ‘I’m reading the bible’ in his story

[ashes-writing]

stranger things ● summer of 86 pt 5 ● e.munson

warnings

idiots in love to the nth degree, lots of internal angst, robin and barb are gay and we're all here for it -you're going to see a lot more from them soon, trust-, affectionate touching / petnames, mentions of alcohol/smoking/w**d, swearing, eventual filth, reader suffers from gifted kid burnout but is.. also a workaholic apparently, mentions of the annoying and oh so judgmental small town mindset, internalized confusion / fear due to sexual pref -being gay in the 80's isn't fun and when I write Barb and Robin in a more romantic way, this will be reflected, marital conflicts ( tommy and carol , other 'couples' mentioned ) and tons of other stuff..

reader/you are a female with female parts. you/reader are the oldest Byers. you/reader have a very specific personality / clothing style and/or nicknames and petnames. this is yet another self indulgent thing and i'm not sorry at all.

word count

1701 exactly. for any context needed part 4 <- is here.

summary

"Hot date, right?" He's only half teasing, trying to fight off a surge of jealousy at the thought. You laugh and shrug. "Job interview count, Eddie?"

"Another one? Jesus H.Christ, woman, do you ever sleep?" he's laughing but he's looking at you in concern.

taglist + shoutouts

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@slyisbehindyou

other links

masterlist ● eddie's masterlist ● about + rules

"Hey guys, give me a second." you stop outside the record store and turn to look back at Barb and Robin. They share a look and burst out laughing. You pout, flip them off and wander into the store. Eddie is rearranging a clearance bin with his headphones in, as you approach him you can hear Metallica playing faintly.

You tap his shoulder and he jumps, whirling around with a glare in doe eyes that seems to soften as soon as he realizes it's you. He chuckles, eyes roaming slowly as he takes in the heels, the stockings, the way your skirt fits just a little too well… all of it. 

"Hot date, right?" He's only half teasing, trying to fight off a surge of jealousy at the thought. You laugh and shrug. "Job interview count, Eddie?"

"Another one? Jesus H.Christ, woman, do you ever sleep?" he's laughing but he's looking at you in concern. You shrug. "It's a legal secretary gig.. for Albright? Here in town?"

Eddie chuckles. "Figured you'd go back to Boston."

"There's nothing there for me. I uh..got homesick." you admit and he'll die before admitting it but he's glad you're not leaving, even if he never acts on the way he feels because he knows it'll never happen.

"According t' my mom this one is gonna pay. Like.. big time. Yeah, Albright got several big cases back to back and she's swamped with paperwork but she has zero time." You give an evil laugh, "means I get to do a lot of organization."

Eddie snorts because he can't help it, the fact that you're giddy about organizing a ton of files which is completely his opposite, should be more than enough further proof that you and him won't ever work.

He pouts a little. "Aw, this mean I won't see you at my gigs?"

"No? Why would I stop coming? Angel really needs the help." You're laughing and stepping closer, Eddie steps closer to you too, a hand just barely grazes your hip and you can feel the way your breath catches over just a simple accidental touch. "Besides," you add, tilting your head slightly to look up at him, " Maybe I enjoy the scenery."

Eddie rubs his chin. A smile that spreads lazily across his lips and draws your gaze down to them. "The scenery, huh?"

"Mhm." you've got a hand against the front of his Hellfire shirt and the scent of him surrounds you, it taunts you and ultimately, before you can stop yourself, you've stepped closer. Much closer.

Robin is laughing and Barb is tapping her wrist. You use your grip on the front of his shirt to pull yourself up closer and you give his hair a little fluff. And you're biting your lip again and he fixated, breath hanging in his throat. You laugh softly as soon as you remember the envelope your little brother Will gave to you to give to him and you find it, pressing it into his hand.

"What's this?"

"All I know is that Will wanted me to give it to you."

"Ooh. It looks fancy."

You laugh softly, hand catching in wild and thick locks, "My little brother doesn't do anything half-assed." and after a few seconds, you pout. "I need to get going. I'll see you tonight?"

Eddie chuckles as he smiles and nods. "You know where I'll be."

As you walk out, Eddie has to lean against a wall and take several deep breaths to pull himself together. And he fans himself, chuckling quietly. "Go get 'em, sweetheart."

Nearby, Gareth Emerson bursts into laughter. "Holy shit.. is this Eddie Munson speechless for once?"

Eddie flips him off as his cheeks darken. "Shut up, Emerson."

"Not gonna happen. I still say you're wrong this time and she wants you. The tension just now, dude" he fans himself and laughs again, "enough to smother anyone else present."

"Look.. I'm not saying I don't want her. I am saying she's 'grown', Emerson. She's got her shit together. In what world is a girl like that ever gonna settle or be happy with a guy like me, huh?"

"Ya never know, Munson."

– 

The heels are killing your feet. You're excited because you just landed the job and while it isn't being a lawyer, it is still adjacent to the field you chose so long ago. 

You're still on the high from it when you happen to catch sight of Eddie's new motorcycle parked outside of the laundromat across the street. Your mom realizes you haven't heard a thing she's asked so she follows your gaze and smiles to herself as soon as she picks up on the way your eyes linger and roam over the tall boy.

"Airhead!"

"___, are you okay?"

You zone back in right around the time your brother Jonathan throws a piece of French fry at your nose. And naturally, he's teasing you, he's quick to tell your mom that things between you and Eddie are "intense", to quote him directly.

"Are not!"

"I dunno, it looks pretty intense to me." your mom is teasing you and you pout. "I like him. He seems sweet, I mean from what I've seen when I see him around town."

You laugh softly and nod, agreeing. "He's different than the other jerks."

"She admitted it!" Will and Jane laugh when they say it the whole time.

Once they're gone to the arcade to meet their friends and Jonathan's left to meet Nance, this leaves you alone with your mom.

"Hey mom?"

"Yeah, sweetie?"

"Like.. do you think it's possible to look at a person and just know theyre.. nevermind. This is crazy. Insane."

"No, tell me. I'm your mom. You can talk to me about anything."

"Do you think it's possible that you can look at a person and you know you're going to love them?"

"Yeah. I did.. with Hopper. And I almost let my own fear mess it up, more than once.. don't make my mistake, sweetie."

"I'm scared."

"Yeah, I know that feeling. Just go with it..whatever it is you're feeling, I mean."

You nod. Laugh softly. "Easier said than done."

Your mom laughs and nods. "I know what you mean."

–

There are even more people at the show tonight and Eddie is thrilled. He's also nervous as hell. 

You make your way into the bar and as you're hopping over to hurry and start mixing drinks, you lock eyes. You give him a thumbs up and he gives you that lopsided charmers grin. 

"I see what you mean, Gareth. Dude goes silent when she's around." Jeff chuckles as he says it and Eddie grumbles, flipping his friend the bird. "Fucking do not!"

"You do!"

"Do not!"

As the band begins to warm up, you smile to yourself. "Amazing as always, handsome." you mumble to yourself as you wipe down the bar.

And unbeknownst to you, Wayne happens to be sitting a few seats away. Close enough that he's heard you. He chuckles to himself. 

Both of you are so clueless it's not funny.

–

The show has just ended. Eddie is loading his setup into the back of Jeff's dad's truck when Wayne surprises him by wandering out into the back. 

"Hell of a show tonight, kid."

Eddie laughs. "You saw it?"

Wayne shrugs. "Sometimes I come to watch." and he drags a hand over his head, smirks at his nephew, "I wasn't the only one watching."

"Oh you weren't, huh?"

Wayne catches sight of you walking out with some of the other girls, you're sandwiched between the two girls laughing and talking. Wayne catches sight of the way Eddie is staring and he speaks up. "She was watching too, kid."

"Yeah, she kinda had to. She tends bar,man."

"She clocked out at 10, kid. Angel only needs her from 7 t' 9."

Eddie gapes. Then he laughs. "She probably stayed to talk to the other girls."

Wayne shrugs. "I dunno about that kid."

"Trust me. That's all it is, it has t'be."

You've spotted Eddie in the alley out back of the bar. You tell Tanya and Sheila goodbye and you turn back, slipping up behind him. "Boo." You're laughing as he turns around, a mocked 'scared' look on his face as you shrug. 

"Always trying to scare me, woman." Eddie shakes his head. You laugh softly. Step up into him and toy with the front of his denim vest as you stare up at him. His eyes catch on the purple streak of hair and before he can stop himself, he's reached out for it, passing it through his fingers as he chuckles quietly. "Whens that..uh, the secretary gig start?"

"Tomorrow. I'm kinda torn between nervous and excited."

And he doesn't say it but he's excited too. Because until today, he'd been assuming you were only back for the summer. That when fall came around, you'd be leaving for Boston again. Now that he knows you're not, if he were more optimistic, he'd make a move.

He's tempted to go for it, the only thing that stops him is you're not the kind of girl who is just gonna settle for him, you've got all this stuff ahead of you and he knows this and refuses to get in the way of it.

He's excited also because he can look at you and tell that this job is something you really want.

And he's happy for you. Proud of you because you seem fearless and nothing seems to stop you from going after what you want. If he didn't love that about you it might actually make him a little jealous.

"Don't overdo it, alright? Even Supergirl needs rest, doll."

"I'll keep that in mind, Eddie. I'll see you later. I need to get home. You were amazing up there tonight, as always." you give his hair one last little fluff until the next time you see him and reluctantly, you step away, walking over to your moms car.

Your mom is right.. and it's getting to a point where you can't fight the direction you're being pulled. The problem is…what should your next move be?

[hoodthekiwi]

Pls like if you’re still an active 5sos blog ♡

SO! my dash is super dead and I wanna get back to writing and bloggin and stuff!! // aka can we get some likes on this so I can follow some 5sos blogs!!  f4f also lmao is that still a thing

[heartcal]

Preference 36: Your First Snow

as in, you’ve never experienced snow before, so this is him watching you react to it.

side note: i’m from florida so i’ve never experienced snow, only snow flurries for a couple minutes when i visited a relative up north. therefore, i am clueless about snow and how it works lmao.

!! there will be another piece that may sound similar to this but it’s going to be different! i had multiple ideas related to snow so i’m making more than one! :^) !!

enjoy! (slightly edited, but please let me know if there’s anything wrong!)

genre: fluff!! just a bunch of happiness lol

wc: 552

Ashton: He watches as your eyes sparkle, staring out the window as snowflakes fall peacefully. It’s the first time you’re seeing snow, and since it’s still dark outside, you two stay inside. He promises that once the sun is up and it warms up slightly, he’ll take you out to play and teach you how to stay on your feet. And he keeps his promise. Once the sun is high enough and it isn’t blistering cold outside, he makes sure you’re dressed properly and double-checks your boots to ensure no snow gets inside. He watches you frolic; joyful laughs and squeals filled his ears as he playfully throws small snowballs at you. The snowballs grow as you get used to them until it’s ultimately a full-fledged snowball fight. 

Michael: He was woken up by you shaking him, excitement in your voice as you tell him it’s snowing. He groggily gets out of bed and watches you scatter around to find your winter gear. He dresses slowly, much to your dismay since you wanted to get out there while the snow was still falling. After hurrying him, along with the promise of a nice hot cup of cocoa afterward, he happily follows you out with a smile. He’s cold, he’s tired, he just wants to sleep until noon under warm blankets, but being able to see you happily prance in the snow for the first time ever was something he’d rather see in real life than in a dream state.

Calum: He decided to take you out to a rental cabin. He thought it would be a good idea to get away for a while and give you an experience you’ll never forget. On your way to the cabin, trudging through the snow to the doorway, you were already extremely happy. Cold, wanting to just go and warm up by the fireplace, but still excited to see the snow. He promises to take you out to play and explore the area around you the next day, and when he does he holds you close to make sure you don’t lose your footing on the icy floor hidden underneath. He also grabs a handful of snow and plops it on your head, which incites a snowball fight back at the cabin. The snowball fight turns into a competition to see who can build the best snow fort to take cover for the new snowball fight.

Luke: He shared the excitement with you when you had noticed the first snowfall. In all honesty, he may have been more excited. He dressed fast, joy filling him as he watched the grass start to disappear under the snow. It wasn’t enough to do anything, but knowing he’s with you to experience your first snow experience, he’s in awe. Once you’re dressed the two of you head to the patio, and already taking note of the moisture on the ground, Luke cautiously guiding you to the chairs facing the back. He watches your face as your smile grows and eyes wander around the trees. His smile mirrors yours, his heart swelling as some snowflakes sneak into the covered area where you two sat. They landed on you, and impossibly his heart swells more as you scoot your chair closer to his and snuggle into his side the best that you can.

[valent-y-ne]

I miss them ❤️

[ashtonmakesmewanna]

You don’t need to mess around with trying too hard. People will fall into your life if they’re meant to.

Ashton Irwin, 2019

[5sauceprefs]

neighbours pt.2 (c.h)

weow okay this gif is trippy hehe THANKS FOR THE LOVE ON NEIGHBOURS HERES PART 2

Part 1 Part 2

Word Count: 1500+

Summary: Y/N wakes up, finding that she had drunkenly fallen asleep on Calum’s couch. Now she has to deal with the next morning embarrassed, sober, and hung-over as fuck. 

PART 2

“Youngblood, say you want me, say you want me,” The subtle hums woke you up, your eyes opening slightly as your sleep was disturbed. You laid there, still, eyes half closed and mind wondering – and hurting – what had happened last night. The smell of bacon made your eyes open; you had you taken home with you last night?

You sat up, almost too abruptly for your sore head and queasy stomach, and frowned immediately at the sunlight pouring into the apartment. You had fallen asleep on a couch, which confused you. Had you stayed at someone else’s house last night? You mustn’t have done anything though because you were on the couch. Unless they were an asshole and hadn’t let you sleep on the bed. Or, unless you had done something on the couch last night. You wanted to smirk at yourself; you wild child. 

“That stupid song,” You mumbled to yourself, rubbing your head as you continued to hear the hums. You were definitely at your apartment then because you could hear your neighbour from next door. Your pounding head made everything sound loud.

“Good morning,” A deep voice made you turn slightly to see a beautiful tanned boy cooking breakfast in the kitchen. He wore a black shirt and black cotton shorts. The apartment was an open plan, just like yours. Actually, it was a lot like yours, just that… “Did you sleep alright?” The boy asked, a cheeky smirk on his face. It wasn’t yours. 

“What…” You looked around, frowning in confusing as you tried to remember what happened last night. It was all a fucked blur from the point you had opened the tequila bottle. Or was it the second one? Then you went home. Then you were locked out. But it wasn’t your place, it was your neighbours. You groaned, hitting yourself on the forehead and instantly regretting it, your head pounding even more than it already had been. 

“Come on, I’m not that bad,” The boy grinned over at you from the kitchen island and you gave a hesitant smile back. You realised you weren’t going to get away with calling him ‘The Boy’ when he addressed you so your smile turned sheepish. 

“Sorry to sound like an asshole,” You started off, turning on the couch to fully face him and rest your head on the back. “But what’s your name?” You asked. The boy grinned, laughing. 

“Calum,” He said, concentrating on cooking breakfast. There were two plates. Fuck yeah. Your growling stomach signalled that you were in need of a good, big, greasy breakfast after last night. 

“Y/N,” You introduced yourself and Calum looked up at you, smirking. 

“I know,” He said, his dark eyes looking over you once before going back to cooking. You grinned as you stood up from the couch, stretching and catching sight of yourself in the mirror. 

“What the fuck!” You cried out. Your hair was a knotted mess, sticking up from whatever static had occurred between it and the cushion you’d slept on. Your mascara was rubbed everywhere and your lips were a bright red, stained from the raspberry flavour that you kept adding to your tequila. Not to mention you still had stamps from all the clubs you had entered plastered up your arm. You looked, and smelt, like shit. 

“I’ve seen worse,” Calum offers with a cheeky grin and you roll your eyes, smiling. 

“Do you mind if I get ready at mine first before I eat?” You asked and Calum smiled, still dicing up tomatoes and mushrooms. 

“Just as long as you come back,” He said with a cheeky smile. You scoffed.

“And turn down this feast? Please,” You grabbed your stuff from the kitchen bench and walked out of Calum’s apartment and into yours. Finally, a familiar place. 

You brushed your teeth, showered, and brushed your hair before chucking on a comfy tee and jeans. You let your hair dry naturally and chucked back on some slides. The whole ordeal had only taken you ten minutes so you decided you had at least five more minutes to dick around before you would have to go back. You jumped back on to your bed, opened your phone, and did what any normal person would do. You Googled Calum. 

Some vague memories had come back to you whilst you were getting ready, like all the vinyls and awards, and the fact that he had woken you up singing that catchy song that was always on the radio. The only problem was, was that you didn’t know Calum’s last name. So you just Googled ‘Calum Band’ and there he was, beautiful and tan as ever, with three other boys that Google told you was 5 Seconds of Summer.

As you scrolled your eyes widened. There were photos, articles, blogs, everything about these boys! You couldn’t believe you lived next door to Calum. No wonder he was always in and out of the apartment; he was touring and shit. This was crazy. This guy, in some big band, was cooking you breakfast next door. 

You remembered he was expecting you so you hurried back into Calum’s apartment, grinning sheepishly. He was just putting food on the plate and he looked up at you with a grin. 

“Welcome back,” he said as he walked the plates back over to the couch. He placed them on the coffee table as you took a seat next to him. 

“Thanks for letting me sleep here last night,” you smiled as Calum shrugged effortlessly. You started eating your breakfast, trying not to moan from the taste of greasy food in your mouth. “So…you’re in 5 Seconds of Summer?” You asked, trying not to sound like a creepy stalker. 

“Yeah, we leave for tour again next week,” Calum said, nodding as he chewed his food. “What about you?” He asked and you shrugged.

“University,” you replied, surprised about how chill he was about touring. “Are you excited to tour? Is it like, Australia?” You asked, waving your fork around as if the area it covered was Australia. Calum looked at you, his dark eyes scanning your face as his puffy lips turned upwards into a smirk. He raised an eyebrow. 

“We already started the tour in Australia,” He said, his smirk getting bigger. “I meant like, we leave for tour for the rest of the world next week,” he scanned your face as your eyes widened. What the fuck. Okay, so he wasn’t a big deal. He was a fucking big deal. How did he even have the time right now to just sit here and talk to you? “Do you believe me?” He asked and you instantly thought back to when you Googled him. 

“Yeah, of course I do,” You shrugged, nonchalantly. As if it was no big deal that you were sitting next to someone so famous and so good looking who had just cooked you breakfast even though you slept on his couch. It definitely wasn’t making you a little nervous and intimidated. 

“So, other than break into people’s apartments and go to University, what else do you like doing?” Calum asked with a cheeky grin. You liked how his eyes squinted up and his mouth was so big the grin made his whole face light up. It made you grin back, despite your cheeks going red from the comment about breaking into people’s apartments. 

“Nothing major, I read, eat, skin people alive after breaking into their apartments and wear them as a jacket,” You waved your hand in the air nonchalantly as Calum spat out his food in surprise, laughing. “I’m sure you can relate?” You asked innocently, trying to bite back a grin and a laugh as Calum fell back into the couch laughing, his eyes doing the squint thing. 

You continued to eat your food as Calum sat back up from the couch. He liked you. Not like, he was in love with you, but he definitely liked you. Whether it was as a friend or something more, only time and getting to know you better could tell. But for the most part, he liked the way you were around him, that you treated him no differently than anyone else, and that he didn’t feel any pressure to not be silly in front of you. 

You finished your breakfast, sitting back with your hands on your stomach, groaning. “I’m so full, thank you for this beautiful breakfast,” You looked over at Calum with a content smile, wanting to curl back up in bed and sleep the day away. 

“Do you plan on skinning anyone tonight?” Calum asked you, making you widen you eyes and laugh. 

“Depends, why’s that?” You asked, sitting up as Calum looked at you with his dark eyes. He smiled, but it was a little nervous. 

“We’re playing tonight, want to come?” He asked and you widened your eyes. This cute boy, who was in a band, wanted you to come to his show tonight and watch him play? So that you could see him doing the thing he loves, probably looking sexy as fuck? Consider yourself signed up. You tried not to look that eager though. 

“Of course, that would be great!” You grinned as Calum’s nervous smile eased into the cheeky grin he had been showing you all morning. 

“Cool, I’ll give you my number to text you the address,” He said. You raised an eyebrow. “I’ll have to go with the boys, but I can get you a car over. You’ll be backstage with us, drinking and stuff. There’ll be heaps of people there too that you can hang with,” he said quickly and you shook your head with a smile on your face. That’s not what you had been sceptical about. He could have easily told you the address right now, written it down even, but he had made up this excuse to get your number. Butterflies erupted in your stomach as you bit down on your lip, unlocking your phone. Then your stomach dropped. “Did you Google me?” Calum was looking over your shoulder and you immediately threw your phone into the couch as Calum burst out laughing. He fell back into the couch, laughing loudly as you shook your head and smacked him with a pillow.

“I needed to make sure!” You cried, laughing too as your grabbed your phone. “Put your number in,” you smiled and Calum laughed, grabbing your phone and doing what you had asked. 

You couldn’t help but smile. You had only really known this boy for not even a day, but you couldn’t help how excited you were feeling to see him later on tonight. Then hopefully the next day, the day after that, and the day after that. 

[graffitirwin]

•{calum hood}•{meet you there 8/29}•

[bryhclly]

Dates with calum

- fancy but casual outfit / jeans with a button up top

- holding hands and him squeezing them

- sitting across from him at dinner

- him constantly complimenting you

- making him laugh hard and his nose scrunches up as he smiles so big

- sneaky kisses here and there

- “you look beautiful baby girl”

- “your ass looks so good in those pants”

- Calum being the one to take photos of you

- posting those photos “date night with my baby”

- dates would even include the puppy going out for walks or drive in movies

- snuggles in the car with you both and the puppy

- a night of mischevious activities 😏😏

- date night idea jar

- every time he’s home he makes sure he takes you out to show you how much he appreciates you

- always going to your favourite restaurant after movie dates

- snuggling in the back of the theatre

- or make out sessions when the movie is boring

[writeme5sos]

Ships? Blurbs? HELL YEAH

Hello!!! I have been gone a ridiculous amount of time, but NO FEAR I’m back :) Send me pictures of you or let me know what you look like and what you’re like and I’ll give you a good old fashioned ship! Also, I’ll give you a cute little blurb on whatever you request, or you can leave it up to me! Doing ALL that get sent in! :) ~Hannah xx

p.s. do people do ships anymore idk guys update me on what’s cool in the fandom now, I’m a grandma thanks

[itsthemxze]

This band man 😂 (Michael's insta 5/3/18)

[chaosmgc]

Never Gonna Give You Up [Calum Hood Imagine]

Rating: PG

Includes: Fluff? Yeet not really, just a confession of love

Requested: Calum hood imagine where you’re hard to get but he won’t and hasn’t given up chasing you for years. So when he finally gets a girlfriend you realize you do love him and raise hell, only to find out that the boys told him to do it so you would confess then lots of fluff

A/N: this is SO long and this was requested weeks ago oops nobody probably wants this anymore. ps, i’m open to feedback! and REQUESTS

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“Then just say yes!” Calum breathed out exasperatedly

“Calum,” I stated firmly. “I won’t go out with you, I just can’t.” At this point he was becoming quite the annoyance, but to be completely honest, I felt bad for the poor guy.

Including this, and the many, many suggestive conversations, calum has asked me out a total of 7 times within the past 2 years. He claims over and over again that it’ll be “the night to remember,” but I can’t bring myself to agree with him.

I’ve only ever saw Calum as my best friend, along with the all of other guys as well of course. Sure he was attractive, and obviously such a sensible person, but putting both of us into a position of being more than friends is something I never would have even thought about. I can’t do that to our friendship. Not only would it be weird if we ever broke up, but it’ll change our entire friend group. It wouldn’t be Calum and y/n anymore, but it’d be Calum and y/n, as one, as a couple- I just can’t do that.

“Why not? give me a reason.” Calum stubbornly remarked as he awaited for a response.

“Because-I’m just not into you Calum, why can’t you understand that?” I tried to spare his feelings…6 times, but the guy had to take a hint at some point.

“Do you honestly believe that someone else could treat you better than I, your best friend could? Can’t you see how much you mean to me?” With his arms flailing in the air as he spoke, you can see the true aggravation towards my stubbornness, but no way am I going to let him guilt me into going out with him, it’ll be completely one sided.

“I care about you too, so much Calum” I tried to touch his shoulder in comfort, but as I laid my hand upon his body you could see that the stern look on his face certainty did not faint.

“But i’m fine with us just being friends. If we were to go out I don’t think i’d be 100 percent happy being put in that situation. I also think that you wouldn’t want that, would you?” I looked deep into his eyes and waited to see if he had anything else to say, and alas, nothing.

His jaw tensed and it seemed to be his eyes started to darken, or was that just me?

“Fine,” he nearly barked out; completely shocking me with his sudden outburst. “I get it.” he mumbled one last time before storming to the opposite side of the room, making sure that he left me with his infamous grand exit, the slamming of the door.

-

It’s been two months since i’ve had that talk with Calum, and for the first time in two years, our conversations have not been filled with him inserting sly hints of him becoming my boyfriend. They have actually been surprisingly casual.

Calum and I, along with the rest of the guys were hanging around in the lounge-nothing in particular, just sitting and enjoying each other’s presence while being on our phones and keeping up with small talk.

The small sounds of wisps of air stacking together had become so familiar to my ears, I had to looked up and over to Calum once I heard the card shuffling come to a halt.

“Can you pass me my phone?” He turned his head towards me and then pointed his finger in the direction of his phone sitting merely less than two feet away from him.

I gave him a cold stare, nonetheless reaching over to grab his phone off off the coffee table directly in front of me.

Just as I made contact with the device a notification emerged, illuminating the entire screen. Although, it wasn’t the notification that caught my eye, it was his lockscreen.

who is she

My eyes instantly darted towards the picture of Calum wrapping his arm around the neck of a girl I had never seen before. She sported brown shaggy hair along with one of the shortest pair of shorts I had ever seen. They both were smiling, seemingly to have just gotten out of water, and were having one heck of a time. When was this? I don’t remember being invited to a pool party or a beach day.

“Who’s that?” I quipped up. Calum obviously was in a state of shock by my sudden question. You could tell by the noticeable bulge of his eyes while looking over to Michael almost in worry. What’s up with this girl?

Seconds later Calum adverted his attention back towards me, all while looking increasingly more nervous.

“She’s just a…friend.”

“I’ve never seen her before.” I touched the home button on his phone to show the photo to myself once again, just seeing her with calum like that made me uneasy. Wasn’t I supposed to be his best friend? Even so, I should have at least gotten an invite to the hangout.

Calum looked as if he was at a loss of words, lowly mumbling something before quickly closing his mouth again. He seemed to be in a state of shock, clearly not knowing what to do with the situation he got himself in.

Unexpectedly, Luke jumped in to save the tan boy from another explanation. “Just an old friend we caught up with,” He looked around at the other boys and they all nodded their heads simultaneously with agreement. “We knew her before we met you. It would’ve been weird with you there. You wouldn’t have understood any of our jokes.”

My mouth formed an ‘o’ in understanding as I handed Calum his phone back which he gratefully took into his possession.

“So when will I meet her?”

“Tomorrow actually!” Ashton interjected. For the second time today, Calum’s eyes widened almost to the point of them popping outside of his head.

“Y-Yeah, I mean you will have to start seeing a lot more of her.” Calum finished off with his head nodding, probably at the fact that he was actually able to speak for himself for once.

See a lot more of her?

“Oh, okay.” My eyebrows furrowed in slight confusion as I tried to take a grasp on these new plans to meet a girl that they’re all so close with, although she was never mentioned. “I’m excited to meet her.”

-

The boys and I were all settled into the living room of Calum’s apartment watching some lame, bad production movie. All of us except, well, Calum. He went out to go pick up their lady friend for her to join us during our movie marathon. I still think it’s ironic how she suddenly made an appearance in their lives. Come to think about it, if she was good enough of a friend to catch up with, I surely had to have heard about her before now, but I haven’t.

“So,” I broke the comfortable silence of our group and adjusted myself in my seat to look at all of the boys. “Who is this girl again?”

“She’s been a good friend of ours for years, even been to a few of our shows. We keep contact, I’m surprised you’ve never seen her before”

Seen her?! I’m one to remember faces quite easily and I have definitely never seen her before a day in my life.

I gave Michael a face of confusion as he continued on

“Especially Calum man, I wouldn’t be surprised if she’d soon become his-”

Michael’s words were cut off by the doorknob jiggling, and soon enough Calum stepped into the doorway with his hands intertwined with hers

“Hey guys!” Calum chirped up, “i’m back”

“I’m sure they can see that babe.” The girl laughed.

Her voice was captivating, slightly deeper than the common girl, but surely intriguing.

Wait a second, babe?

“Y/n, this is Destiny,”

By the mention of her own name, the girl by Calum’s side broke out into a toothy grin.

“Hi!” She chirped, keeping the smile plastered on her face. She seems so… superficial.

Ignoring the odd feeling in my stomach, I put out my arm to meet her outstretched hand, giving her a small closed smile.

“Y/n! I’ve heard so much about you from Calum!” She giggled once again and I can’t help but to be put off by the sound escaping her lips.

“Can’t say the same about you” I trailed off as I let out an awkward laugh to pass off the tension.

“Y/n.” Ashton commanded sternly as he sent a glare in my direction, telling me to be nice. I responded with my eyes widening as I turned my attention back to Calum and the girl who just appeared in my life.

“Actually,“ Calum trailed as he walked towards the kitchen, only to grab a water bottle from the fridge. “Guys-Destiny and I go out now.” His eyes swept across the room, in approval, but when he got nothing in return he then spoke again. “She’s my girlfriend.”

He spoke the words so nonchalantly, with great ease. “girlfriend.”

Hearing the words out of his mouth made me wish that I went deaf in that exact moment. Just hearing the words out of his mouth made me feel sick. I tried to breathe but I was only greeted by dry air. The dry, dry air. Besides my breath, the only thing I could hold onto was the nearby table and even then, I knew that I wouldn’t be fully stable. How could he? Just a few months ago I had Calum begging me to simply go on a date with him, and now that’s not the case to the slightest bit. I know that I told him to move on, time and time again, but I never actually imagined it happening. I guess I always just assumed that he’d be mine forever, of course, I was wrong.

“What?!”

Lord knows that the word leaving my mouth was not intentional, oh how it wasn’t. I wanted to be happy for him, I really did, but can you blame me? Calum, my Calum has officially moved on.

but he was never mine to begin with

I no longer needed to take up his time, that was all meant for her now. He moved on to someone who can love him, but haven’t I always?

Had I known how much it’d make my heart hurt by seeing Calum with someone else I wouldn’t have turned him down so many times. Heck, I didn’t even know how much he meant to me, until it wasn’t about me. It had always dawned upon me that I couldn’t always have Calum trailing after me for years, only to be rejected time after time, but to have him so easily move on from me to someone else made my heart wrench, I’ve been replaced.

“I know that you’re just meeting her for the first time Y/n, but I have known her for so long, she just makes me so happy” Destiny had a smile spread across her face as she leaned into Calum to attached her lips to his. Seeing Calum smile so greatly with his hands intertwined with her’s made me fully realize that I’ve actually lost my chance.

“Okay, love bugs. Remember that we’re all here to watch movies, so get your butts to the couch.” Michael patted Calum on the shoulder before heading back to the living room to resume the movie that we had already started.

Near the end of the film all of us started to slowly lose interest in what would soon happen to the little girl on the screen.

Michael was playing with the ends of his flattened hair, Ashton was scheduled to fall sleep any second now, and Luke’s attention was now on his phone that he held a little too close to his face.

Maybe it was the fact that I had seen this movie a million times before, otherwise my attention would have been completely on the screen in front of me. At this point, all I could do was stare at new couple to my right, so perfect and happy. It didn’t take me having a mirror to know that my eyes were full of yearning. Destiny giggled as Calum planted a chaste kiss upon her lips-her lips that quickly spread to an even wider smile. She snuggled even closer to his side as he draped is arm around her in comfort.

Shifting in my seat awkwardly I let out a long sigh, trying to focus back on the movie that was soon to end. As I licked lips in anticipation I heard another squeal leave the mouth of the girl that I wasn’t quite fond of.

“Calum stop!” And there it was, that damned giggle again.

My head snapped towards them in anger, frustrated at their obvious display of affection.

“Hey! Some of us are actually trying to watch the movie, so I suggest you to stop.”

My statement seemed incredibly invalid seeing as nobody was actually watching the movie, besides me. Even then, the constant smooching and squealing from ol’ girl over there made it extremely hard for me to do.

I didn’t mean to sound so bitter but I have most definitely had enough of their frisky rendez-vous.

My words seemed to have little to no effect on the couple none the less, seeing that I found them full on making out not even seconds after my objection.

I tried to ignore them the best I could but when I heard a breathy moan leave her lips, that was my final straw.

“Okay! Seeing as you guys won’t find a room, how about I go find one myself?” I shot up out of my seat and collected my jacket as I stormed off towards Calum’s room.

“Oh and for your information, not everyone, wants to see you have dry sex on the couch.” I exclaimed as I continued my march towards calum’s room letting the door slam behind me.

I sighed deeply while dragging my hands down my face. I have no idea how I will be able to do this. To just sit around and pretend that i’m happy for his relationship when it’s actually the complete opposite. Who knew that it would only take him getting a girlfriend for me to realize my true feelings for Calum. I wanted to leave. I wanted to yell. I wanted to be the farthest way possible away from her. But I knew that I couldn’t avoid it, what was I supposed to do? End my friendship with Calum? That would be selfish, but at this point it sounded completely tempting.

I figured that I could just leave and push these problems away to later face them but I then realized that Ashton picked me up and I had no other way of getting home.

Why did I have to be so stupid? Why did I fail to realize my true feelings for my best friend and the boy that I love just to be told that it was just too late.

Nothing could fix the way that I feel right now. I was defeated, stuck. It always seemed to be that my stupid feelings got in the middle of everything that I did.

Slumping my body on top of the sheets of Calum’s bed I turned on my side, curling into myself just as a tear silently escaped from my eye. If anything, these tears were born out of frustration. Frustration at myself.

“Y/n?” There was a knock on the door, quickly being followed by someone entering the room.

“Just leave me alone.”

“Y/n what’s got you upset?” Could you believe that he was asking this question? This truly just proves that he had no insight of the outside world while he was making out with his new girlfriend.

Deciding to ignore his question I only turned towards him, he was sitting sitting on the corner of his bed closest to me.

“Where’s your girlfriend?” The words left my mouth with so much hatred and I had no regrets.

“The boys left to go take her home.” He sighed out, raking his hands through his disheveled hair, falling limp on his head.

“Is that what this is all about?” His eyes softened with his words and I hate how easily I fall into submission with a quick glance in their direction. He traced the line of my fallen tear and ended at my hairline, playing with the stray hairs there. I wanted to close my eyes in contentment, feeling at ease by his simple touch, but instead I fought the urge and continued to keep my stern look fixated on him.

“You know I will always love you.” He hummed

Just not the way that i love you. Not anymore.

I hated myself for being such a wimp, I needed to confront him, not fall victim to his calming words. At my own thoughts I Jerked away from his touch and stood up on my feet, traveling to the complete opposite side of the room.

“No Calum. This isn’t me just being afraid that I will be replaced because I already have.” His posture soon straightened and you can tell that my words easily intrigued his mind.

“I’m not the one you will spend your time on, I’m not your ultimate goal, and I’m not someone you wish to be in a relationship with. Not anymore.” I was on a rant, pacing around the room, completely releasing everything that I was feeling and thinking.

“Y/n-” He spoke, pushing himself off of the bed, to meet me in my frantic state but I quickly cut him off.

“No, I just can’t believe how incredibly stupid I was to not realize how amazing you are and how i’m madly in love with you. I see you with her and I finally realize that I’ve lost my chance, my chance to make you happy. You smile at her with such joy, so much joy that that it shows the crinkles by your eyes when you smile and I wish it was me being the one to make you so happy, but i’m not. You’ve tried for years and it’s so selfish of me to think that you would wait for me forever when this entire time you could have loved someone else. But now i’m in love with you and you’ve already move on. And I’m just too late for everything. You moved on so quickly and I hate it, hate that you no longer want me.“

Finally allowing myself to take a breath I actually realize how much I let out of my mouth.

The room was silent as Calum took a slow approach towards my body.

“Y/n,” Except this time I let him continue. He outstretched his hands and took mine into his own and then looked back up with me with such longing eyes.

“Y/n” He repeated, except this time there was a small smile tugging at his lips. “I know.” He chuckled but that only left more room for my confusion.

“I know.” He stated once again and this time he was full on smiling at me, while I continued on in my state of confusion. Was he mocking me?

“I love you so, so, much Y/n. I love you, Including how aggravated you get, and how your nose scrunches up when you are confused. I love you so much and I can’t actually believe that you would think that I would have given up on you so easily.” He smiled at me with great endearment, it was relieving. To hear him say that he still loved me, and now he knows that I loved him back.

“But what about your girlfriend?” My head cocked to the side at his confession. But my words didn’t put him into another storm of thought, but a fit of laughter. What was so funny?

He continued on laughing and although I knew of nothing that he was laughing at, I couldn’t help but to laugh along myself.

Once he composed himself, he was able to speak out once again, “there is no girlfriend.”

My eyes squinted and my eyebrows furrowed in once again, confusion. “What do you mean there’s no girlfriend?”

“You turned me down so many times, the last one just really hit me hard. I was actually in so much pain by your rejection even though I told myself that you would one day say yes. In the very back of my mind I actually considered to stop trying. When I told the guys about it, they made up the idea of getting a pretend girlfriend just so you could realize how much you actually love me. I’d never thought it work, but you’ll be surprised by the outcomes of the boys’ crazy plans.”

At Calum’s confession, everything started to now come into place. That’s why i’ve never seen this girl before, they probably just bribed someone they knew to be part of their plan. And the questionable stares at each other-it all made sense.

“So Destiny-”

“Is just some girl we met once at the studio.”

“And the picture?”

“Was all staged.”

“You know I could’ve done without the whole make out session.” I huffed out in annoyance but a small smile still played on my lips.

“Well I had to pull it off Babe, how else would you have believed it.” He laughed and it felt so good knowing that I was the one making him do so. “ Y/n, now do you see how much you mean to me? You mean so much to me that I would go 2 years of rejection and a crazy plan just to get you in my arms.”

I smiled at him as he brought me into a hug and then placed a delegate kiss onto my lips.

“You should know that I’m never gonna give you up.”

-

A/N: FRICK IM FINALLY DONE. That was unnecessarily long but hey, it’s done . it’s almost 3AM and i need to sleep now. please request more for me to write bc i need a hobby. also be sure to give me feedback bc i don’t know what i’m doing

[hoodthekiwi]

Basic Summary of 5sos Cocktail Chats

Luke:"We're genius" *goes on a 5 minute tangent about who knows what* "wait what are we talking about?" *takes a shot*

Ashton:*really deep meaning of why song is important to him* *pretends to give fake dinosaur head some of his cocktail* *giggles & gives actual information*

Michael: "And like, we like, and then like, and together we like..." *gestures* *gradually starts yelling* *hums riff*

Calum:"Hi, I'm Calum. I play the bass in the band 5 Seconds of Summer and i'm very hammered right now" *giggles* *gets cut off*

[heartcal]

Preference 35: Holiday Traditions

first post of my holiday posts!! i meant to post this over the weekend but i couldn’t find any motivation to write shocking and also had other things to take care of in real life.

i plan to post every weekend up to the 31st, and there may be two posts during the weekends. but i’m still easing into writing recreationally so these may be a bit lackluster but i hope to improve as time passes!

unedited because i am dumb. enjoy :^) 

genre: fluff i guess 

wc: 937

Ashton: It only took about forty minutes to set the tree up—getting the stump into the stand and then tightening the screws, then getting the water and pouring it into the stand only to accidentally overfill it and have to lift the tree and empty the stand and clean up the mess—it was a chaotic afternoon. But finally, the tree is up, the tree skirt is clean and wrinkle free, laying around the stand. The decorations are laid out on the couch and in front of the couch. Ashton sat on the arm of the couch, untangling the lights while you worked to untangle the ornament hooks, old-time Christmas music playing softly in the background with the golden glow of the sunset shining from the other side of the room. Hearing a curse from his mouth, you softly chuckle and turn to look at him. He mumbles something along the lines of, “let’s just buy new lights,” which causes another laugh from you. Putting the hooks aside you go to help him and within minutes the lights were untangled enough to start hanging them. By the end of the night, all the decorations put up with the lights on (and other lights off in and surrounding the living room), the two of you sat on the couch cuddled up as the lights twinkled, oddly but serenely in sync with the music. “As much as I love traditions,” he whispers, pulling your attention away from the star on top of the tree. “We’re getting an artificial tree with lights built in for next year.”

Michael: It was something that was passed down, something you were taught as a kid while in the kitchen with your elderly relatives every year, two weeks before Christmas. The laminated, but very aged, paper sat on the counter with ingredients surrounding it. It obviously wasn’t your first time baking this recipe, but it was the first time Michael would be cooking with you AND trying it. He has said that he’s always wanted to try it, hearing the cute stories from your family and you as well, and vowed to help you bake the treats. The dialogue from the Christmas movie you left on can be heard from the kitchen as you two double check all the ingredients. Once confirming the checklist, the work began and you can’t deny that while the memories from your childhood were amazing, this moment will forever be in your heart. While the delicious treats were in the oven, you couldn’t help but feel overwhelming joy. “This is fun,” he says as he wipes down the counter that was covered in flour. “Thank you for sharing this recipe with me.” He holds you close as the timer counts down, sharing his favorite holiday memories from his childhood.

Calum: Scraps of wrapping paper surrounded the two of you as you both struggled to wrap the remaining gifts for friends and family. The shopping had finished earlier in the month, starting early since most of your shopping was done online. Neither of you wanted to waste time since you didn’t know how long shipping would be and wanted the gifts to arrive on time. Both of you weren’t the best at wrapping but they got the job done, and the ribbons were a bit crooked but still presentable. The sound of cutting the paper and the occasional rip or tear has become unbearable and your hands had a few minor papercuts, along with the pain from the scissor handles causing pain in your joints—but it’s all in the fun. Calum had suggested just getting gift bags for those who live close but in the end changed his mind when the idea of a race between the both of you came to him. The race was subsequently called off when he got the first few papercuts though, but he’s pulling through because he enjoys spending time with you. Over the annoying paper, scissor, and tape sounds, your little frustrated sounds when the paper isn’t even or you didn’t cut off enough or cut too much was amusing, and he can’t deny it made his heart swell and yearn to hear them every year from here on out.

Luke: Your playlist had an arsenal of Christmas music, old and new. From Bing Crosby, Frank Sinatra, Nat King Cole, and Andy Williams to Wham!, Mariah Carey, John Legend, and Michael Bublé – it was stacked. Meanwhile Luke had his own list of Christmas movies, old and new, and you two were excited to plan out what to watch on the days leading up to Christmas. The music would be played when decorating, baking (both pre-Christmas and Christmas day), wrapping gifts, and opening gifts on Christmas day. However during the feast you want the music to continue playing, but Luke won’t give in since you’ll be on a Zoom call with family for dinner, and with music playing it’ll be hard for him to listen and focus on the conversation with velvety voices in the background. He already knows what movies you’ll watch on each day, rating them by how “Christmas-y” they are and by emotion. He remembers how you made fun of him for tearing up at one last year, so he searched for one he knows will make you bawl. It’s karma for you but also a bonus for him since he’ll be able to hold you close, and he’s excited for the nights where it’s cold outside and you two have to snuggle for warmth (and he may have lowered the thermostat on some days, but he doesn’t know anything about that.).

[valent-y-ne]

Oh boy

[michaelaesthetics]

i miss single michael