#AND I WAS RIGHT. BUT NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK IT WOULD HIT AS INTENSELY AS IT DIDđđ IT WAS MYCH MORE THAN EXPEVTED
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i genuinely think you being in satoruâs life is what makes him so achingly and unmistakably human. not that he isnât already, but the world doesnât see him that way. to most, he is this untouchable figure, divine and overwhelming. the strongest sorcerer. but you make him so relatable.
when youâre in the picture, suddenly heâs just a guy. a man in love. a man who talks about his wife the way anyone else would â excitedly and often without restraint. the kind of man who gets grumpy after an argument and lets it bleed into his entire day. the kind of man who sulks when you actually hang up first. who glares at his phone like it betrayed him and stares at your contact unblinkingly like itâll make you call him back.
to everyone around him, itâs a little jarring (and honestly, a little endearing). theyâll catch him shopping at a random street stall, buying something tiny and silly or just a snack, mumbling how it reminded him of you or how he knows youâll like this. like heâs literally just a man soft for the person he loves.
and then thereâs the CT thing, which i think is when it starts to dawn on everyone. satoru â who once moved through life untouched and unreachable â begins letting his infinity drop. not always consciously, not intentionally; itâs just that heâs used to lowering his guard around you. you reach him in ways no one else does and without even realizing it, he keeps that barrier down when youâre near.
whenever youâre around his CT is off. and it always catches people off guard. yuuji is the first to notice. he goes to pat his senseiâs back casually and instead of his hand bouncing off infinity, it actually lands. thereâs contact. yuuji blinks, freezes mid step and stares like âŚdid i just touch him?
then thereâs utahime. she and satoru are in the middle of one of their usual spats â heâs pushing her buttons on purpose (as always) â and in a flash of irritation, she throws her tea at him. normally it would hit a barrier and fall to the ground harmlessly. but this time, it hits him right across the front of his shirt. it splashes. then, everyone goes silent.
but they all know itâs not carelessness or exhaustion. satoru isnât letting his guard down because heâs worn out â itâs just instinct. when youâre around, he doesnât even think about it. his infinity drops like second nature. heâs simply a man so used to being loved by you, so safe in your presence, that the idea of consequences doesnât even cross his mind.
and i truly and genuinely think thatâs what makes him feel so human and so relatable to others, the way he lets love make him vulnerable without even realizing heâs doing it.
#â ai rambles#like âšď¸ loving him so hard he forgets it all and just lets himself be a cute lil guy âšď¸#[ ⥠] â satoru
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Pretty Girl.
Natasha Romanoff x reader
Warnings: dubcon, Natasha is mean, mommy kink, manipulation, use of pet names & degrading names, spit kink, spankings. Knife play, blood.Â
Summary: After a long day of being alone in Natasha's apartment while she was out "handling business" you find yourself in trouble...
You couldn't help yourself, the aching between your legs was growing, the wetness pooling below, and the way Natasha's voice rang in your head saying, "be good while I'm away detka." It was all too much, and you just couldn't handle it anymore. Your hand slowly comes up to tweak your pretty little nipples, as Natasha would quote. Your hand very hesitantly moves to your throbbing cunt. You begin by making slow circles on your clit, then pushing two fingers into yourself. Yes it feels good, but itâs not Natasha. Instantaneous regret washes over you. She always knows when you misbehave. Unbeknownst to you, Natasha has the entire apartment bugged. Your release creeps upon you, and you go faster. You can't help but moan out Natasha's name. A voice you've grown to be addicted to breaks you out of your trance, "and what exactly our we doing my love?" You look around like a deer in headlights. You curse yourself for doing this knowing what would happen for this mishap, to Natasha touching what was hers is enough to make her go crazy on you. " I'm couldn't help it Natty it was to much! It was so bad and I was imaging it was you the whole time... fuck I needed it so bad and you weren't here!!" You go on babbling, and she simply just wears her signature smirk. God you've royally fucked up.
"Strip, now." You can't hurry quick enough before Natasha takes her blade out and comes over and starts ripping your lacy panties paired with her t shirt off of you. Excitement and fear hits you like a bus. Her blade trails your sensitive skin, "come on slut don't act so scared, I know my little girl loves this." She was right. You know she an expert with weapons, which comforts you, but mostly scares you because you know that she'll sometimes "accidentally slip" the blade is trailing right between your breasts, that's when she makes the slightest the cut. You yelp loudly, she laughs. "What is it? Hmm... did it hurt my dumb little slut? Need mommy to make it all better?" She licks the blood off your skin, and you couldn't deny the wetness that was dripping between your thighs. She begins pinching your nipples, roughly. She then soothes it by sucking on them. She then makes her way down to your core. "Dirty little whore, all this for me? Does me hurting you turn you on... my sick little play thing." Right when you think she was going to soothe the aching, she quickly pops up and yanks you from your position on the bed and bends you over her knee. She laughs sadistically, "oh my precious bunny, you should know it's never that easy. Now you're gonna take everything I give you, and count each spanking. You will thank me for each one, and tell me why you deserve it. She administers the first slap, hard. "One, I was a bad girl who didn't listen to mommy." Five more come after, unforgiving. Your ass is already a shade of bright red. "Six... fuck... because you're always right and I'm just a dumb little fuck toy.
You're crying, Natasha is stoic. "Please mommy no more... can't take it.. fuck!" She then proceeds to give you ten more. 16 in total. She pushes you off her lap like a discarded toy. She strips, you're in awe at the sight, as it never gets old. You're face down on the bed, you can hear her rustling around in the walk in closet. You start thinking about why she would be in there, knowing her favorite strap is in the nightstand beside the king size bed. You finally get yourself up after your spanking, she walks out with a dildo no less than 10 inches in size, and very girthy. Panic rushes over you, realizing that that's meant to go inside you.
"Aww my girl looks scared, don't you worry that pretty little head... mommy is gonna make it all better." "No please! I can't take it!" Natasha fakes a disappointed look, "Don't you wanna make me happy?" The words sit deep in your chest, all you want to do is make Natasha happy, even if it's the last thing you do. Natasha tightens the dildo onto her leather stap. She maintains predatory eye contact with you as she stalks over to you on the bed. She pulls you quickly to the end of the bed, forces your legs open & coats the dildo with your slick. She grabs your jaw in a bruising kiss, he tongue taking over your mouth. "Open up slut!" You instinctively stick out your tongue as she spits on it. "Swallow." You obey, and she makes her way down to stand between your legs. She without warning shoves her cock in and instantly bottoming out, pushing through the resistance of your tight walls. "There's my pretty girl, opening up like a good little slut for me, this pussy is so perfect for me, too bad it's going to get ruined." The faux look of pitty crosses her face. Her actions say otherwise. She continues pumping rapidly in and out of you, ignoring soaking in the sweet sound of you yelling out her name. "Mommy please.. too much!!" She doesn't seem phased. "I thought you wanted this huh? The way your were touching yourself when I walked in, like a bitch in heat. The way you're squeezing around me like you're about to cum defies your cries, malysh." The sickest part is that she is right. You're getting dangerously close to your orgasm. After a few more hard strokes you're begging her for relief. " Please mommy can I cum?!" She laughs wickedly, "you can pretty girl, but if you do I won't stop, you'll have as many as I say you will. I don't care about your pitiful little cries, makes me want it more doll." You cum at her words alone, she then continues to give you 6 more. Holding up her word that she would ignore and enjoy your begging and pleading. She went harder and faster with after each one she tortured you with.
After she has her fun with you, she pulls out dangerously quick, you're already mourning the loss of not having her buried inside your pussy. She's glistening in sweat and her breathing is heavy as she throws you to the side like you're a weightless nothing to her. While calming down you patiently wait for her cooing and sympathy for how good you've been for her. Nothing. She finally breaks the silence, "Better get yourself cleaned up, pretty girl."
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Won't Say I'm In Love (SMAU ft. Lando Norris) - part xv
pairing: lando norris x tennis player!reader (fem!y/n); past carlos alcaraz x tennis player!reader (fem!y/n)
summary: As a general rule, y/n does not date athletes. You've been there, done that - would not recommend. Besides, you definitely don't do love. There's no time in the world for complicated feelings when there's a career Grand Slam to be won. But what if your heart just refuses to listen?
genre: social meda/mixed au, friends to lovers
note: this is RPF and is obviously in no way, shape, or form reflective of real persons and/or events
series: part i | part ii | part iii | part iv | part v | part vi | part vii | part viii | part ix | part x | part xi | part xii | part xiii | part xiv
bonus: one, two, three
July 7-8, 2025
[Excerpt: ATP and WTA Stars Take On "Nearest The Pin Golf" Challenge]
Y/N L/N steps up to the small green and then turns to the camera. "I just want to formally apologise to Lily in advance for messing this up."
The first few balls disappear into the water, but at least she's launching them in the right direction. Some of the other tennis players ironically struggle with even hitting the ball, or keep sending it far away from where it needs to land.
"Ugh, please tell me Casper didn't get this in one go," Y/N references one of the few tennis players that is pretty decent in golf. "I feel like it's almost impossible?"
Then she's asking if she can call a helpline. "It can't be a professional golfer, but it can be someone who thinks they are a professional golfer?" She grins slyly, then proceeds to call Carlos Sainz Jr.
"You know who is going to be so mad? Lando, for calling me instead of him," he can be heard saying in the background, before Y/N shows him the challenge. "I'll make it up to him, don't worry."
With another try, and some additional tips from Carlos, she manages to get the ball to bounce onto the lonely island with the pin on it. "I guess that's the best I'll do. Did I win? What did I win? Eternal glory? I'll take it!"
July 9-11, 2025
[Excerpt: Post-Semi Final Press Conference]
"ESPN here. Of course it's never fun to lose, but is there a part of you that feels relieved perhaps, knowing you can now fully focus on your individual tournaments?"
Jack shifts forward. "I mean there was only one other match to go. I'd have been more than happy to make that sacrifice and see if I could win two titles, instead of just the one."
Y/N nods along. "If we hadn't wanted to take this all the way, we wouldn't have committed to the tournament altogether."
"Hi, I'm with SkySports. Jack, you'll be facing Carlos Alcaraz next in your individual semi-final. Considering Y/N's history with Alcaraz, have you asked her for any tips on how to best handle him?"
There's some huffing in the room, and Jack seems to be slightly lost for words. "I - uh, no. I have not asked her for advice."
"And who will you be rooting for, Y/N?" The interviewer continues, making Y/N all but roll her eyes. "I think you know the answer to that, seems pretty obvious to me. But I'm mostly rooting for us to get better questions."
Another interviewer waves their hand. "Hi, I'm with Tennis News. Y/N, you could be just one step closer to your Season Slam if you manage to win this week. How do you switch between this loss and the next potential victory?"
Y/N smiles at that. "Well, I credit my team for it and my family and friends, first of all. But also, if you really want to be a champion - you have to learn how to take the losses. I think in this sport, but also probably in others, that to be a true professional athlete, it means you need to become good at losing. You can't be precious about them, or too superstitious or anything. Because you'll lose so much more than you'll win across your entire career. So if I couldn't deal with losing, I wouldn't be able to fight for the wins. Or at least, that's what I try to tell myself. I'm not always successful at it, but so far I haven't smashed a racket here," she jokes. "Thanks for the lovely question. More of that please."
A/N: pleased to share i have now caught up with the race weekend and have seen the video of lando walking into a wall, and it will 100% make an appearance in this fic at one point đ next chapter features Lando at the Wimbledon final (obvi) and the aftermath or perhaps afterglow?? who knows?? :) :)
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("Always. Continuously. With increasing apprehension, and decreasing hope. I will love you if I never see you again, and I will love you if I see you every Tuesday. I will love you as a corpse loves the beak of the vulture. I will love you no matter what happens to you, and no matter how I discover what happens to you, and no matter what happens to me as I discover this." -- paraphrased from The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket)
#svsss#bingqiu#luo binghe#shen qingqiu#lbh#sqq#i've been working through the series of unfortunate events and somehow that series has paired really nicely with svsss#the themes of cycling violence and what's justified and what isn't and what can possibly be done differently#and how trying to bring love and honour into the midst of it really changes nothing but also changes everything#it's just *chef's kiss*#i don't know how i can quite do my thoughts justice but i've spent the past few weeks quietly going between the two series (and mdzs and tg#as well if we're being honest they all hit similar questions and themes) and just reveling in the pain and ambiguity of it#everything is interconnected and it means you can never know what trauma and pain and necessity has shaped a person#each story goes too far back to ever ever EVER possibly see the full extent of it#at that level even communication itself is nearly impossible.#and because of that it's almost impossible to change anything. beat yourself apart and the outcome is the same#and yet ATTEMPTING to change things ATTEMPTING to do the kind thing the honourable thing is absolutely critical#because while you can change nothing you also have the capacity to change EVERYTHING#aaaaaaah i don't even know what i'm saying#but i read the beatrice letters today and the love letter just. killed me.#(obviously i cherrypicked some lines because it's three pages long but those ones felt right)#''i love you like a corpse loves a vulture's beak'' i just. can't get over that line.#to be completely changed. altered. destroyed. redeemed. purified. desecrated. reduced to nothing yet entirely necessary for another's life.#what a FUCKING line#anyway i was either going to blow up from thinking about it or else i had to exorcise it via art from an entirely different series#i've already done svsss and discworld why not throw a series of unfortunate events into the mix#i'll be honest folks i did not expect svsss to be the mxtx series that would fuck me up the most about the main ship#bingqiu is something else. i don't even know how to begin to approach my feelings on it. impossibility and necessity all at once#bizarre#my art
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i could write a whole autism-filled essay about Ai LAS being extensively BPD-coded but also i fear i'd get rocks thrown at me .
EDIT: ALSO TO BE CLEAR I HAVE BPD I HAVE BPD THIS IS WRITTEN BY A BPD HAVER I FORGOT TO FUCKING ADD THAT LMFAO
#blaire.txt#i do worry people would take it as ''oh you're saying the manipulative toxic character has BPD because she's manipulative and toxic''#which is ABSOLUTELY not true. i do not think she has bpd because she was manipulative and toxic to Yuuna#tbc im not denying she was because i mean what the fuck else do you call lying to someone by saying people were laughing at her and judging#her behind her back when you knew they Were Not Fucking Doing That .#but i hate to say it. i can understand exactly why she behaved the way she did in that scene. i still think that it was Wrong to do#but i know the EXACT string of logic that Ai went through all too well.#and it's NOT just that scene. the entire digital apathy ending is like... very clear about it to me#i could honestly ramble about this for hours i absolutely love this game and Ai so much but. alas.#yuuna also has bpd but i think thats more of a given#with ai it's like. THEY GAVE THE AI PROGRAM BPD . /lh#also another unrelated but still fucking painful (/lh) tangent is the digital apathy ending#and how Ai tackles her experiences of love and nonhumanity. how she's incapable of loving in a ''normal'' ''human'' way#because she isnt and can never be human. at best she's an imitation of a character.#made by a human. but never quite being human. knowing despite Yuuna's clear love for Ai Herself as a Person that its also#directly influenced by her being a facsimile of a character she loves. that she'll never be the same as yuuna because she was never#meant to be like her. feel like her. be human like her. and yet... these emotions. these feelings. that which have been claimed to be human#theyre right in front of her. almost within reach... but she cant love like a human right? she cant have that which she wants.#shes a program. something robotic. idkidk im rambling and maybe im being annoying and fake deep but#im ill forever about her. sorry#because thats just so fucking. augh. it hits so close to home for me for so many reasons. i really adore this motif#of characters whose love is defined by their nonhumanity. it just fucks me up so hard LMFAO#anyways ramble over i just . i have so much to say always LMFAO#... not going to maintag this but it definitely deals with spoilers SO#love angel syndrome spoilers
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i nearly anon'd the thorki non-con fic out of SHAME but in two weeks it's become my third most clicked-on fic of the year, behind only a multichapter fic and a bit of angsty sifki porn lololol
#this is about 560 hits btw which i know is not much for bigger fandoms and it's just that i tend to be in some weird niche but gosh!#i'd written thorki before but it wasn't e-rated so if the non-con tag really did work against it then wow no wonder ppl write this pairing!#you ever been to reddit where someone posts about how their latest fic only got 20k hits in a week and you're like âWTFâ?#and it turns out they're in some hugely popular fandom and that's the least read fic for that pairing on the entire site by a mile.#that's like glimpsing a parallel universe. what a strange place. why would any fic ever have more than 1000 hits omg!#and 1000 would be for if you wrote something Surprisingly Popular. like e-rated thorki non-con apparently is.#meanwhile 'cockroboros' may only have 35 hits but every one of those 35 people agrees that i was right to write that thing!!#and me and the other 86 people who wanted to see missy interact with jamie moriarty are besties now <3#SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I TURN THE NUMBERS BACK ON OH NOOOOOO THIS WAY LIES MADNESS!!!#the sifki one had a bump recently which i must assume came from one of those 'recced it in a discord but never said a word' incidents.#those are increasingly common and i hope i am not alone in finding them ever so slightly creepy#if you're going to look at me you need to at least pat me on the head to cancel out the anxiety of that damn it!#*flashes back to when i hid that one ten'n'donna fic because nobody would tell me where all the readers were coming from*#fic related#anyway i think it's important to mention i wrote thorki non-con fic in case anyone following me thinks i am Unproblematic in some way.
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I was just ambushed within the turbulent halls of my own mind by some headcanons about rye ingellvar's childhood that did 15000000 points of psychic damage to me and my heart personally and also made me almost sure of how I want to play it all at the end (very very differently from how I imagined going in!). some 'oh holy fuck this changes everything' rocking my own world bullshit going on in my neurons right now I'm reeling
#I'm sorry to say that despite what I expected I think the dread wolf might be going down violently on my first run???#not because *I* love solas any less but because of who rye is and some of the twists I know happen down the line#which does make for a neat thing b/c I meant to play the crow I'm going with second as initially incredibly hostile#and then growing to feel for him and redeeming him at the end.#so if rye starts out very reasonable and sympathetic and then is brought to 'haha. no. fuck you forever for that in particular' at the end#...a pleasing cosmic symmetry in it I must admit. perfect and also makes me feel a bit sick#I'll try to put together something coherent eventually but for now#it's sort of a 'my name is ellaryen ingellvar you killed the guy#that my brain went 'close enough welcome back beloved and much missed deceased father figure' over. prepare to despair and die'#I think just the killing part might not have done it but everything that comes after? rye is a chill guy until he finally decides#that enough is fucking *enough*. and that was the most enough of all time for them#it also explains rye's accent (one of his primary caregivers growing up was a dwarf)! so many birds with one stone here#also I am so fucking sad now and I did it entirely to myself. I love fiction I love games (embarassingly genuine)#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#oc: ellaryen ingellvar#thank god that the romanced solas playthrough is the second one tho that does make things less dire haha#adaar would have given it the good old college try to get solas to change his mind right to the end I think#but even his capable hands and politician's mind could not hold back the sheer beware the fury of a patient man storm#that is about to hit solas for the shit he just pulled. I think rye and solas are -- as it turns out -- TOO alike in many ways#...solas buddy I'm so sorry I'll come back for you on the second playthrough and make it right I swear fhsak#it's just that a second dead dwarf dad has joined the chat to haunt the narrative (and this time it's fucking personal frfr)#it's almost scary how quick I've gotten attached to my rook tho. I've waited A DECADE to save this bald elf man from himself#and then rye shows up with steel in his normally kind eyes going 'no. I want that fucker *dead*'. and I just go anything for you babyboy#I'll see what we can do. unspeakable stuff
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Every time Helluva Boss or Hazbin Hotel has a glimpse of genuinely GOOD WRITING, I go insane. Both of these shows feel like edging to me, like they will tease me with these bangers and then leave me to dry EVERY DAMN TIME.
#everywhere it's all 'Blitzo and Stolas' character development' 'Stolitz is back baby' 'I love to see them so healthy'#boring. bland. blah.#I mean yeah it's TECHNICALLY ''character development'' but not really?#and it's not good either#their sudden healthy bs came so far out of left field and it makes literally no sense#their current dynamic is SO obviously only like it is because the plot needs it to be that way#there's no actual subtance and their characters haven't GROWN they just Magically Got Better#I DO really like Blitzo learning to really desire a family and working on actually using his ability to empathize#the lovey scenes with him and Stolas would have hit more if they were more clumsy or awkward#he's just... too perfect? which is just so surface level it feels like a cop-out at LEAST give him some paralles#like if he was copying the family they refused to kill? Cinema. if he was awkwardly copying Mox and Mills? Real Good.#suddenly pulling out this gorgeous Perfect Lover rizz? eh. next.#BUT let's talk about the LOOK that Blitzo gave Stolas when he said Octavia hates gim#the realization that Stolas not only gave up his life but the ONE THING that made him happy- and also the ONE THING Blitzo has wanted so#SO badly because he and Loona never really... got that sort of a father/daughter thing since he adopted her when she was almost an adult#the whole ''I love you. dad'' honestly felt out of character for Loona given how awfully she's been towards Blitzo this entire time#it felt so blatantly like an insert to make Stolas realize JUST how badly he fucked up#and he DID like he WON'T admit it but he's always treated Octavia and her happiness like a backburner#she's been simmering in her own feelings this whole time and he forgets about her again and again and again#if Vivian weren't just kind of awful at fleshing out characters and repeating the same storylines until things Magically Get Better#the fact that we as an audience know next to nothing about Octavia would be borderline genius level writing#showcasing just how effort little Stolas actually puts into his relationship with her that a narrative centered around him all but entirely#neglects his daughter and how she was right that she will get older and he will only know her name#because he just does not actually put in that effort (no matter how much he wants to or thinks he does)#but that opening wound isn't just about Stolas it really feels like it's about BLITZO#and I feel like this would be an INCREDIBLE aspect of his character to genuinely flesh out#as well as giving Octavia more actual interaction and interwoven character dynamics#like Blitzo has SEEN the damage that he is able to do with Verosika and Fizzarolli but he still doesn't /really/ understand his own damage#and I think this would be perfect to flesh him out more as well as perhaps FINALLY add some character nuance to the series to finely put:#yes Stolas is right for chasing his heart. but YES Octavia is right for being upset!!!
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sweet sweet re:kinder community... I would like to ask y'all how you came upon the game and your experiences with it because i wanna know. im genuinely so curious to hear about other people's experiences and little opinions about this game because of how wild the game is (/pos) I'd love to hear it. do ramble to me about it
#re:kinder#not art#so in my case i once saw someone talk about it in a video and some scenes with the very vague context really struck with me#i was like wow...that is so sad... i wonder what goes on#but the thing is i watch videos talking about games like that ALLL THE TIME while im multi-tasking so i FORGOT FOR A YEAR?!?!?#until one day i was sick in pain on my bed could not move. and then it came to me. yes. âRE:KINDER. I SHOULD PLAY IT.â LIKE OUT OF NOWHERE#i will never understand how i dying of pain remembered a game i saw once BY NAME AT LEAST A YEAR LATER when jve heard of so many games#and you wanna know why it stuck with me. i saw in the video an image of the âas if id be reborn as a princessâ line#i did not know the context but it was devastating#AND WHEN I PLAYED THE GAME when that scene game i was shocked to silenceđđ BECAUSE I BASICALLY WENT COMPLETELY BLIND??#I DID NOT KNOW THE LITTLE KID WOULD BE THE ANTAGONIST???? AND THAT HE WOULD HAVE SUCH A SAD STORY??#like. i saw the sad coming i knew it was bound to happen yet i could have never been prepared for how hard it would hit me#I HAD TONS OF FUN but at first when i finished it i was so confused and so lost i was like welll.....what a game... TOO STUNNED FOR WORDS#then i thoughr of it for 20 minutes and bawled my eyes out and realized it was art#so when i got to my second playthrough i CRIED LIKE CRAZYYYđđ I WAS BLOWN AWAY IT REALLY HITS YOU#personally it admittedly hit close to home and while it made me bawl my eyes out it was also very comforting i felt very understood#AND IT WAS CRAZY FUN TOO i was not bored once the first time i played through it i was sleepy but i was so excited to keep playingđđ#its funnt becayse i was initially apprehensive about playing cuz im sensitive to stories where sad things happen to kids#but i played it regardless because i was like âbut what if its one of those scary media that hit close to home and i enjoyâ#AND I WAS RIGHT. BUT NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK IT WOULD HIT AS INTENSELY AS IT DIDđđ IT WAS MYCH MORE THAN EXPEVTED#many ways in which it impacted me but if i started listing them i would not shut up . so for now it is enough#IN SUMMARY WOW.. WHAY A GOOD GAME!! PLAY RE:KINDER!!!#i rambled more than i intended to i do apologize
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yeah, so i just finished cataclysm
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Two Can Play That Game



Word Count: 8.7k
Tags: Sylus x fem!reader, brat taming, dom/sub undertones, spanking (with a belt), brat tamer, jealousy, orgasm denial, punishment, fingering, teasing, nicknames like kitten, sweetie, good girl, reader is very spoiled and bratty :3
Summary: Sylus never says no to you. He usually buys you whatever you want, whenever you want. But today he says it just to get a rise out of you. Fine...two can play that game. However, you will soon find out that even he has his limits when jealous...
"I must ask," he says conversationally, his breath warm against your ear, "Was it thrilling to take pictures for other men while in another mans bed? In clothes he bought you?" His fingers tangle gently in your hair, not pulling, just establishing control. You don't answer him. You know better not to answer such a question. Your breath catches in your throat as he continues, his voice dropping to a whisper. "For every...lets say $100, that's one hit with the belt."
AN: This was supposed to be a little drabble but I got carried away oops. I was inspired by the new phone call where Sylus gets so clearly jealous over that worker in the cafe...I mean what more can I say. Jealous Sylus is hot :33
"Please please pleaseeee," you whine, tugging at the hem of Sylus's coat and looking up at him with the biggest, sparkliest eyes you could muster. You even puff out your cheeks a little for added effect, knowing full well what kind of reaction that usually earned you.
"I need at least $1000 if I want to get every limited edition item before they sell out...they're going so fast," you say, tightening your arms around his waist like a koala refusing to be pried off a tree.
This little act wasnât new. Youâd done this routine more times than you could countâsweetly pouting, batting your lashes, and pressing your cheek against his chest as you begged him for your latest indulgent whim. And Sylus, your ever-indulgent partner, had always been so easy to sway. Heâd never even hesitated. Whether it was sleek black cards slid into your palm or transfers pinged to your phone with a little kiss on your temple, he had always, always given in.
"How could I ever say no to my sweet girl?" he would murmur, like it was the most obvious truth in the world. Sometimes he'd even pick you up and give your face gentle kisses, like spoiling you was the highlight of his entire day.
But today...today was different.
He gave you a soft smileâstill affectionate, still gentleâbut then, to your absolute horror, he shook his head.
"Mmm...I think not today, kitten. Next time," he said, voice calm and maddeningly firm.
Your arms froze around him. Your expression dropped in real-time, eyes wide, mouth parting in disbelief. Did he justâdid he actuallyâsay no? He had quite literally never said no before. Not once. Not even when you asked for that ultra-rare imported skincare fridge that cost more than a mortgage. This had to be some kind of joke. Right?
You pulled back just enough to look up at him fully, lips wobbling, ready to protest again. You were already cycling through your arsenal of cute tricksâmaybe a dramatic sigh? Teary eyes?âbecause surely this wasnât how this ended. Not with a "no."
"But Sy..." you gently whined, faceplanting into his chest with an exaggerated pout. The nickname was your secret weapon, sweet and playful, something you knew always made his heart melt just a little. "Itâs limited edition stuff! You know how fast those go. And Iâve been good tooâŚ" you added with a soft, teasing tone, slowly trailing your finger along the curve of his neck, the gesture feather-light and flirtatious.
You were confident this would do the trick. It always did. Your go-to routine of sweet pleading paired with just the right amount of clingy affection had never failed before. Heâd usually cave within seconds, either sighing contently before handing over his card or laughing under his breath about you being spoiled while simultaneously transferring money to your account. But this timeâŚ
This time, all you got in return was that infuriating smirk of his.
"You look adorable with that expression, sweetie" he said casually, chuckling as he ruffled your hair in a way that felt more teasing than affectionate. "Perhaps Iâll let you keep it for today. For my amusement."
You froze in disbelief, blinking rapidly. That wasnât a yes. That wasnât even a maybe. That wasâwas he seriously refusing you right now? Your glare sharpened instantly as your lips jutted out into a full-blown pout. You thumped his chestânot hard, but pointedlyâand let out a long, frustrated huff.
Oh. So he wanted to play games today? Fine. Game on.
You stepped back dramatically, throwing your arms up with an exaggerated sigh. âWhatever. Have it your way,â you huffed, spinning on your heel and stomping toward the car like an offended princess denied her crown. You made sure he saw the little toss of your hair, the extra sway in your hipsâbecause if he wanted to be difficult, you were going to be impossible.
The date wrapped up without much dramaâwell, if you didnât count the dramatic pout glued to your face all evening, or the way you stubbornly gave Sylus the cold shoulder from the moment he refused you. You sat across from him at the candlelit table, arms crossed tight beneath the linen napkin on your lap, chewing your steak with slow, deliberate bites like the food had personally offended you. You barely looked in his direction, except to shoot the occasional glare or let out a sigh so loud the table next to you probably heard. A whine here, a sharp huff thereâjust enough to make it painfully clear you werenât going to let this go.
And Sylus? That cocky menace? He didnât budge. He just sipped his wine with maddening calm, eyes twinkling like this was all an elaborate joke for his amusement. At one point, he leaned his elbow on the table, resting his chin in his palm, and smiled. "You know," he said, voice smooth and low, "kittens always make the same little noises when theyâre upset."
You nearly dropped your fork.
Ooooh. This jerk. You wanted to launch a breadstick at his head. You wanted to crawl across the table and wipe that smug grin off his stupidly perfect face. But how? That was the problem. Sylus didnât rattle. He didnât flinch, didnât fumble, didnât even raise his voice at you. No matter what bratty storm you stirred up, he was always maddeningly patient, always one step ahead.
You sulked all the way to the car, all the way through the quiet drive home, arms folded like a fortress across your chest. Your mind raced the entire ride, cycling through schemes and petty revenges like flashcards. Maybe youâd text one of your admirers, just to provoke a reaction. Maybe youâd steal and attempt to max out his black card on purpose. Somethingâanythingâto make him crack.
When the car finally pulled up to the mansion, you didnât even wait for him to open your door. You climbed out with exaggerated grace, tossed your hair, and strutted up the stairs like an offended queen returning to her palace. But then, just as you stepped inside, fate handed you the perfect opening.
His phone rang.
He glanced at the screen, sighed, and gave you an apologetic smile. "Business. Iâll have to leave for a bit" He pressed a soft kiss to your lipsâinfuriatingly gentleâand disappeared out the door, already speaking in that cool, professional tone of his.
And just like that, you were alone. Whatever, not like you weren't used to his sudden disappearances by now.
Alone in his sprawling, high-ceilinged foyer, surrounded by leather furniture, dim lighting, and that faint scent of cologne that always lingered in the air. Unsupervised. Unchecked.
Your lips slowly curled into a smile.
Oh, Sylus. If he thought your tantrum was overâŚ
You made your way upstairs to the bedroom, each step slow and deliberate, the cool floor a quiet contrast to the heat bubbling under your skin. The air was still, heavy with that faint scent of cologne and luxury that always clung to Sylusâs space, and it only fueled the spark of rebellion in your chest. If he thought he could brush you off with a smile and a kiss on the lips, he had another thing coming.
The second you entered the room, your eyes were locked on your shared closet. You didnât hesitate. Determination hardened your gaze as you swung the doors open and began to dig. Silks, lace, structured jackets, soft cotton teesânone of it was what you needed. Your fingers moved quickly, flicking through hangers, rummaging through drawers, pausing only to toss aside a piece or two that got in your way.
Then, your fingertips brushed over something thin and impossibly soft. You froze. Pulled it out. And there it was.
Tucked neatly toward the back, untouched and still wrapped in soft tissue from the boutique: a white slip dress. Almost sheer, impossibly delicate. Not see-through enough to be scandalous, but sheer enough to spark the imagination. You held it up, letting it sway gently in your hands as a grin tugged at the corners of your lips. Oh yesâthis would do nicely.
It was the kind of dress that was made to be seen by someone who wouldnât be allowed to touch. Innocent in color, wicked in fit.
You stripped out of your clothes with little ceremony, letting your discarded outfit fall to the floor. Then you stepped into the slip dress, carefully pulling it over your shoulders and smoothing it down over your figure. The fabric was featherlight, almost like a second skin, clinging in all the right places and catching on the subtle curves of your body. The hem kissed the top of your thighs, the neckline dipping just low enough to draw the eye.
You adjusted the straps, letting one slip slightly off your shoulder before nudging it back into place. The mirror reflected back something soft, sultry, and calculated. You tilted your head, gave your reflection a slow once-over, and lifted the hem slightly to re-adjust where it clung a little too high at the hip.
It was a look that said, "Oops, did I wear this by mistake?" when every stitch was picked out with intent.
You even applied a light layer of gloss to your lips and tousled your hair a little, just enough to give it that messy, just-out-of-bed sheen. Not too perfectâno, that would ruin the effect. You wanted to look like a dream and a challenge all at once.
You stepped back, admiring the effect with a smirk that tugged at your lips.
Yeah. This would more than do.
You pulled out your phone and made your way to Sylus's bed, crawling onto the plush comforter with a wicked little smirk playing on your lips. The soft fabric of the dress slid over your skin as you moved, clinging tighter with every shift of your hips. It was like the dress had been made for thisâbarely-there, teasing just enough to be dangerous. You positioned yourself carefully, angling your body this way and that, letting the hem ride up a little higher each time, letting the neckline dip lower than it should. You knew your angles, and you werenât afraid to use them.
Your hair spilled around your shoulders as you arched your back just enough to accentuate your figure, your lips parted slightly in a deliberately breathless expression. You cycled through posesâknees bent, laying on your side, half-turns that showed just enough. Each snap of the camera was a calculated strike, crafted to toe that perfect line between seductive and untouchable. Every glance at the lens carried a silent message: look, but donât you dare touch.
You finally landed on the winning shot.
You were laying flat on your stomach, feet kicked up in the air behind you in an almost playful pose, your body stretched across the bed like a perfectly unwrapped gift. The camera angle was just rightâyour butt peeked into the edge of the frame, subtle but impossible to miss. The front of your chest was also faintly visible, pressed softly against the sheets, hinted at through the thin slip of fabric that caught the light in all the right places. The image was an illusion of innocence, cloaked in silk and suggestion. It whispered secrets without saying a word.
You giggled to yourself, the kind of giggle that came from knowing youâd just lit a match. Scrolling through filters, you picked one that added a warm, golden glow to your skin, bringing out the soft shadows and romantic lighting of the bedroom. Your cheeks looked naturally flushed, your eyes dreamy and a little wild.
Then came the real fun. You opened your social media app and navigated to your public Moments feed, fingers tapping away with ease. A single, sweetly cheeky caption. Nothing too obvious. Just the right amount of flirt. And then the hashtagsâoh, you chose them carefully. Trending ones, flirty ones, ones that practically begged people to stop and stare. Ones that would ensure this photo didnât just go unnoticed. It would explode.
Post.
You hit the button and watched as the image loaded, crisp and glowing on the screen. Your heart fluttered with anticipation, not nervesâbut a thrill. You placed your phone down on the bed beside you, letting your body melt into the mattress, stretching out lazily like a cat in sunlight. You felt deliciously smug.
Now it was just a matter of time.
How long until Sylus saw it? How long before someone else did? How long before his phone started buzzing with the growing flood of likes and comments from strangers who had no business seeing you like thisâbut were absolutely going to anyway?
You tucked your chin into the pillow, smiling to yourself.
It did not take long at all for the post to get some traction.
Within the hour or so, your phone was buzzing nonstop, lighting up with a steady stream of likes, comments, shares, and those little heart notifications that came in quicker than you could keep track of. People were noticing. People were reacting. And you were lounging there on Sylusâs bed, basking in the slow-burning chaos youâd started.
The comments came in waves. Some were sweet, complimenting your beauty, your glow, the elegance of the dressâwords like "ethereal" and "goddess" paired with heart-eye emojis and rose-colored filters. Others were...not so polite. Thirsty replies from strangers you didnât know, saying things that made you cringe, made your brow furrow. A few were outright creepy. You deleted those on sight, blocking users without hesitation, but the damage was already done. The post was out there, and it was spreading fast.
You rolled onto your back with a sigh, your phone raised above your head as you continued scrolling. It was almost funnyâhow predictable it all was. You knew the moment you posted it what kind of reaction youâd get. You knew the hashtags would push it to the explore pages. You knew someone would tag a friend, then another, then another. But even so, seeing it all unfold made your chest buzz with adrenaline.
You giggled to yourself as you tapped through DMsâsome from followers you recognized, others from complete strangers trying their luck. You deleted the worst of them, but not before archiving a few particularly flattering ones. Not because you were interested, of course, but because you knew Sylus might see them.
And that was the real game, wasnât it?
The ultimate goal.
Then, right in the middle of clearing out a flood of unsolicited messages, a new notification popped upâdistinct. Crisp. Your thumb hovered for half a second.
Sylus: I saw it. You can delete it now.
Seven words. Simple. No emojis. Nothing but cool, clean finality.
And yet, it hit like a sucker punch to the stomach. You stared at the message, pulse picking up. The smirk returned to your lips, slow and sly. He saw it. He saw it. You could practically feel the shift in the air, the subtle tension winding through the silence of the room like a live wire.
You reread the message. Once. Twice.
And then you did not delete the post.
Instead, you stretched your arms over your head, arching your back into the mattress like a content little cat, your smile widening as you tapped back into the moments app. Notifications were still flooding in. More likes. More reposts. More attention.
If Sylus thought that single message was enough to reel you back in, he clearly underestimated your mood tonight.
Now the real fun could begin.
"Mmmm. Not today. Maybe another time," you texted back, pausing just long enough for a flicker of doubt to creep in before you hit send.
Yeah, get a taste of your own medicine asshole.
The moment your message whooshed off into cyberspace, your heart skipped. Your face grew warm, the flush spreading all the way to your ears. A nervous little flutter worked its way through your chest as you set your phone down on the comforter, then immediately snatched it back up.
Had you gone too far?
You had teased Sylus plenty beforeâplayfully, brattily, dramaticallyâbut this was different. You had never really pushed him. Not like this. He had always let you be a little dramatic, indulging every pout, every sigh, every fake tear with maddening patience. But this? This was... direct defiance. And it made your stomach flip in a way that was equal parts thrilling and terrifying.
The screen lit up.
Three dots. He was typing.
Your pulse surged. You sat up straighter, fingers gripping the edge of your phone just a bit too tightly. Your eyes were locked on those three little dots like they were a countdown. Here it comes. The reaction. The reprimand. Maybe a taunt, maybe something sharper.
And thenâ
Nothing.
The dots vanished.
You stared at the screen in disbelief. Waitâwhat? Thatâs it? No reply? Not even a period? Just a seen at timestamp to cling to?
Your brows furrowed, confusion giving way to an irritated twist of your lips. No smug comeback? No passive-aggressive sarcasm? No "oh really, kitten?" Just...silence?
Bastard.
You let out a frustrated sound that was somewhere between a growl and a sigh, flopping back dramatically onto the pillows. Your hair spread out over the fabric like a halo as you stared at the ceiling, phone clutched against your chest like it might suddenly buzz with an explanation. But nothing came. Just silence, and your own thoughts chasing themselves in circles.
Was he actually mad this time? That didnât sound like him. But what if he was? Or worseâwhat if he was ignoring you on purpose? Letting you stew? Was this part of his plan? Was this some next-level psychological warfare meant to make you squirm?
Well, it was working.
You sat up again with a sharp exhale, glaring at your screen as if you could will a response into existence. The nerve of him. Leaving you hanging like that? No reaction? No witty jab? He was definitely doing this on purpose. And maybeâjust maybeâit was kind of hot.
Your teeth sank into your bottom lip, frustration tangling with something dangerously close to anticipation.
You donât realize you had fallen asleep until the quiet creak of the bedroom door jolts you from your haze. Your body stiffens instinctively, your heart skipping a beat as your eyes flutter open to the soft golden hue of the bedroom lights. The sheets are still warm beneath you, and for a split second, everything feels still. Peaceful.
Until you see him.
Sylus steps into the room, his movements as smooth and controlled as ever. His face is unreadableâno trace of amusement, no hint of irritation. Just that usual calm, detached composure he always carried. It sends a ripple of nervous energy racing through your chest.
He looks...too calm.
You sit up quickly, heart beginning to race as you reach up to smooth your tousled hair. The silk dress clings to your body, creased slightly from where youâd fallen asleep in it, and your brain scrambles to remember how revealing your last pose had been. You grab your phone, pretending to check it, then think better of it and reach for the sheet instead, pulling it up and over yourself in a feeble attempt to look casual.
âWelcome backâŚâ you murmur, voice soft and slightly hoarse. You force a smileâone that doesnât quite reach your eyes. It feels crooked and strained, too tight at the corners.
Sylus doesnât answer at first. He walks over to the bed with that same quiet, deliberate ease and leans down toward you. One hand sinks into the mattress beside your hip as he lowers himself, and his lips press gently against yours.
Not rough. Not rushed. Just a slow, deliberate kiss.
You blink at him, lips parted slightly as he pulls back. Caught off guard. Completely disarmed.
"Were you sleeping?" he asks, adjusting his tie with one hand, his tone neutral. Almost bored.
It throws you off. He wasnât going to mention the post?
âHuh?â you blink again, trying to play along. âUh...yeah. I think today was pretty long for me.â You stretch your arms up in an exaggerated yawn, glancing away like youâre just now waking up. Inside, your thoughts are spinning.
He hums in acknowledgment, his crimson eyes drifting lazily across your figure before returning to the device in his pocket. He pulls it out and unlocks it, gaze cool as his thumb scrolls slowly along the screen.
Still no mention. Not even a look.
Your stomach does a slow, uneasy flip.
You watch him from the corner of your eye, trying to read him, trying to sense somethingâanythingâbut heâs a blank slate. Calm. Casual. Like he didnât just leave you hanging for hours after you posted one of the most daring photos of your life. Like he hadnât sent that short, pointed message. Like none of it had happened.
Your pulse ticks louder in your ears.
Was this his move now? Leaving you in suspense?
He stands there for a moment longer, thumb tapping occasionally, face unreadable as he scrolls. The silence stretches just a little too long, the air too thick with the tension youâre pretending not to feel.
Why wasnât he saying anything?
Was this his way of letting you stew? Of reminding you he didnât have to respond to your games? Or worse...was he unbothered?
Did he really not care?
You swallow hard, trying to keep your cool. But the pressure builds in your chest.
You hear the familiar ding of your phone and glance toward it cautiously. That toneâyou knew it. Your heart skips as you reach over and grab the device, already feeling the anticipation coil in your chest. You unlock the screen, and sure enough, your eyes widen.
Bright and bold, the notification glows at you like some kind of digital miracle.
$1,000 deposited to your account from Sylus.
Holy shit. Your plan worked?
You press your lips together, tryingâfailingâto hide the smug little smile threatening to spill across your face. You glance at him out of the corner of your eye.
âWhy so shocked?â Sylus says, tone light, but thereâs something unreadable in his gaze. He watches you closely, head slightly tilted. âYou still want to go shopping, donât you?â
He doesnât sound mad. He doesnât look upset. But thereâs something strange in the airâsomething you canât quite name. Calm, but not idle. Soft, but edged.
âYeah, of course, SyâŚthank you!â you say, quickly standing up and throwing your arms around him in a hug. He smells like cologne and leather and something darker, something distinctly him.
He hugs you back just as easily, strong arms wrapping around your waist. But then he leans in, lips brushing the shell of your ear.
âDelete it, sweetie.â
Itâs not a threat. Not a growl. Not even cold. But the words settle on your skin like steel. Gentle and final.
Your breath catches.
âOh! Y-yeahâŚsorry,â you say quickly, stepping back, fingers already fumbling to grab your phone again. The momentâs playfulness sours ever so slightly as the weight of those words lingers.
He gently smiles at you like nothing happened.
But you know better.
You delete the post without another word.
After deleting the post quickly, you giddily log into your account on the store to start adding the items you so desperately wanted. Your heart is still fluttering from the thrill, and a wide smile plays on your lips as you eagerly pull up your wishlist. A tiny, delighted squeal slips out when you see everything still sitting thereâlimited edition shoes, accessories, that one impossible-to-find designer dress youâd bookmarked and obsessed over for weeks.
Your fingers move with dizzy excitement, tapping away as you add each item to your cart like itâs a race against time. The numbers keep rising, the total bill ticking higher, but you donât care. Youâre floating in the afterglow of your victory. A thousand dollars, just like thatâgifted, deposited, yours.
Maybe you should push his buttons this way more often, you think with a smug little grin, biting your lower lip. Clearly, a little rebellion went a long way. You imagine how many more little indulgences he might cave to if you kept playing this game right. You can't help but bask in the moment, riding the rush of control you think you have.
That isâŚuntil a sound cuts through the quiet air, sharp and deliberate.
Click.
Your ears perk, body instinctively tensing.
The unmistakable sound of a belt coming undone.
You freeze, thumb hovering mid-tap over your phone screen. Your head slowly turns, curiosity getting the better of you despite the knot now forming in your stomach.
Sylus stands by the dresser, hands working with unhurried ease as he slips the leather strap free from the buckle. The soft clink of metal follows. His sleeves are rolled back just slightly, revealing the veins along his forearms as he finishes the motion with a practiced calm. Thereâs no rush. No warning.
He catches your stare and tilts his head ever so slightly, his expression unreadable.
Then, a slow, deliberate smile spreads across his lips.
"Donât look back here," he says, his voice deceptively gentleâlaced with something darker, heavier, undeniable. "Keep shopping."
Your breath catches in your throat.
Your eyes widen, pulse skipping a beat. Thereâs no edge to his tone, no visible anger, and yet the command feels like a velvet-gloved grip around your neck. Not harsh. Just final.
You donât dare speak. You nod quickly and turn your gaze back to your phone, trying to focus, trying to act like nothingâs changed.
But everything has.
Your fingers are shaking slightly now as you tap your screen. The glowing images of handbags and shoes blur together. Your heartbeat thumps in your ears, and your thoughts scatter like marbles across a slick floor.
The room feels smaller now, quieter except for the occasional rustle of fabric as he moves behind you. You don't look backâyou wouldn't dareâbut every sense is straining to track his movements. Your phone suddenly feels slippery in your grip, and the shopping cart you were so excitedly filling moments ago now seems trivial, even foolish.
You force yourself to scroll through another page of items, pretending to be absorbed in your task. The $1,000 balance that had felt like such a victory now hangs like a weight in your conscience. What had seemed like a clever manipulation has transformed into something else entirely.
The floorboards creak softly behind you. He's moving slowly, deliberately. Your thumb hovers over a pair of shoes you'd been coveting, but you can't bring yourself to tap "add to cart." The game has changed, and you're no longer certain of the rules.
"Finding everything you want?" His voice comes from closer than you expected, making you flinch slightly. The question sounds innocent enough, but the undertone makes your skin prickle with awareness.
"Y-yes," you manage, hating the slight tremor in your voice. You clear your throat and try to project confidence. "Just finishing up."
You feel him approach, his presence like a gathering storm at your back. The air feels charged, electric. He stops just behind you, close enough that you can feel the warmth radiating from him, but not touching. Not yet.
His hand comes into view as he reaches around you, gently taking the phone from your grasp. You release it without resistance, your fingers suddenly useless. He studies the screen for a moment, scrolling through your selections with casual interest.
"Quite the haul," he observes mildly, as if commenting on the weather. "You must be very pleased with yourself, sweetie."
There's a pause, heavy with expectation. You're not sure if you're meant to answer, if you should apologize, defend yourself, or remain silent. The uncertainty is maddening.
He hands your phone back to you, the screen still glowing with your abandoned shopping cart. Then his fingers brush against your shoulder, tracing a path up to the nape of your neck. The touch is feather-light, but it sends a shiver cascading down your spine.
"I must ask," he says conversationally, his breath warm against your ear, "Was it thrilling to take pictures for other men while in another mans bed? In clothes he bought you?"
His fingers tangle gently in your hair, not pulling, just establishing control. You don't answer him. You know better not to answer such a question. Your breath catches in your throat as he continues, his voice dropping to a whisper.
"For every...lets say $100, that's one hit with this belt."
His words hang in the air, precise and measured. Your breath catches, mind racing to calculate the total in your cart. You swear your heart just fell into your stomach. A belt??? The simple arithmetic becomes suddenly, terribly important.
"S-sylus, I'm really-"
"That's the exchange rate," he continues, calm as if discussing the weather. "Seems only fair, doesn't it? You wanted to play games...so let's play."
You feel his presence shift as he moves slightly, the leather of the belt sliding against itself with a soft, threatening whisper. Your mouth has gone dry, and the excitement of your shopping spree feels like it happened to someone else, in another lifetime.
"How much is in your cart right now?" he asks, though his tone suggests he already knows the answer. "Why don't you check for me, sweetie? Speak up."
Your fingers tremble as you reach for the phone, the screen now seeming to mock you with its bright display of luxury items. The total stares back at you, a number that had brought such satisfaction minutes ago now transformed into a countdown to something else entirely.
You had added way too much to your cart. Plus with the added shipping...it came up to a little past 2,000 dollars. You must've gotten carried away.
He waits patiently behind you, giving you time to absorb the full weight of your actions. The belt dangles from his hand, not threatening, simply presentâa promise waiting to be kept.
"Well?" His voice is soft but expectant, leaving no room for evasion.
You shivered, tears welling up in your eyes as the intensity of the sensation overwhelmed you. "Its $2000. I...I accidentally added too much...let me just-" you started to explain, but your words were cut short as you felt the leather of the belt against the back of your leg, its roughness sending shivers through your body.
"Oh, but my sweet kitten, there's no need to take anything away," Sylus purred, his voice laced with amusement. "I'll happily pay for it all. What my kitten wants, she gets, right? You wanted this stuff so badly you were willing to flaunt yourself to get my attention. How adorable."
With a slow, deliberate motion, he lifted the back of your dress, exposing the smooth skin of your butt, the cool air contrasting with the heat of the room. Your body trembled, a mix of pleasure and apprehension, as you felt the leather glide across your sensitive skin, the roughness a stark contrast to the soft caresses you had experienced thus far.
"Now...you're gonna start counting after the first hit" he whispered, his breath hot against your ear. "Squirm or move away and I'll make you add more stuff."
Your brain began to swim. More stuff...more spankings. You already have twenty. Shit. He's actually serious??
"Sylus...please, I'm really sorry," you whined, the words tumbling out as a tear slipped down your cheek. Yet, beneath the anxiety, a forbidden excitement simmered, igniting something deep within you. "Please, just let me give the money back..."
He shushes you, grabbing your chin and forcing you to look back at your phone. You feel him grabbing the hem of your underwear and pulling them down. You flinch in anticipation and you hear a chuckle behind you.
"Don't laugh at me-!"
You turned your head, words of protest leaving your lips, but they were abruptly stolen away by the sharp, searing kiss of the belt against your skin. A cry tore from your throat, raw and instinctive, as tears sprang forth, soaking into the pillow beneath you. He wasn't playing around; that strike was anything but gentle.
"Still trying to act like a brat hm? I don't want to hear anything but counting, kitten. Starting over."
The sound of leather slicing through the air made your skin prickle, a sharp whistle that seemed to echo through the room before it ever made contact.
The second lash hit with a quick, stinging snap across your thighs. Your breath caught in your throat as the shock bloomed into heat. It wasnât just the pain itself that made you trembleâit was the anticipation, the weight of each second dragging between every strike. Your hands curled into the sheets as you forced your voice out.
"O-one," you stammered, your tone breathless and shaking.
Another followed. Lower. Sharper. The belt bit into the tender part of your ass and pulled a yelp from your lips.
"T-two," you gasped, teeth clenched.
The third landed with more force, sending a pulse of heat through your core that made you arch slightly, only to flinch from the tension in your spine.
"Three," you whispered, more air than sound.
The fourth came before you could fully prepare, and your voice cracked when you counted, "F-four."
The sting lingered, throbbing beneath the sheer fabric of your dress, heat spreading in slow, dizzy waves. The cool air did nothing to soothe the ache on your bare ass, if anything it made each lash feel more intimate, more deliberate. You bit your lip, body squirming on instinct as the fifth snapped down with a little more force, and your hips twisted to one side.
"Fiveâ!"
But before you could adjust or reposition, Sylus shifted.
His knee came down over the back of your thigh, pinning your leg to the bed with unwavering pressure.
You froze, your entire body tensing beneath him.
"Start adding more things if you're gonna keep moving," he said, his voice a smooth, unbothered murmur. Not cruel. Not angry. But absolute.
The tone left no room for protest. Not from you.
"N-no, I won't move anymore, I promise..."
You swallowed hard, breath shuddering as you nodded without turning to look at him.
"S-six," you whispered, barely able to get the word out before the next hit made your legs twitch under the restraint of his knee.
The seventh landed with precision, and your voice cracked again. "Seven."
By the eighth, your body was trembling. Sweat dotted your lower back and your lips parted with a soft, desperate sound before you remembered to count. "Eight..."
The ninth and tenth came one after the other, timed and even, and you were almost too breathless to speak. Your chest heaved beneath you, and you had to close your eyes just to stay focused.
"Nine. Ten."
You were shaking all over now, a cocktail of pain, adrenaline, and something else you didnât want to name twisting deep in your stomach. Your thoughts were a blur, your hands clenched around the sheets, your throat dry from trying to keep your voice steady.
But you were still counting.
Still obeying.
By the twelfth hit, you couldnât take it anymore. The pain had gone from a sharp sting to a deep, burning ache that pulsed with every heartbeat. You buried your face into the pillow, sobbing openly now, the kind of messy, desperate crying that came from somewhere deeper than just your skin. Every part of you was tremblingâyour arms, your legs, your breath hitching violently as you tried to force your voice to keep counting.
Each strike felt heavier than the last, like Sylus knew just how close you were to breaking. And maybe he did. Maybe that was the point.
But you didnât stop.
You couldnât.
"Fourteen..." you choked, your voice hoarse, muffled by the pillow soaked with your tears.
You curled your fingers into the sheets, gripping them like they were the only thing anchoring you to reality. Your thighs burned, your back ached, and your skin felt hot everywhere heâd touched.
"Fifteen..." you whimpered, your whole body jolting at the next hit.
You tried to shift, to escape, just slightlyâbut the weight of his knee still pinned you down, reminding you that you werenât going anywhere.
You gasped, eyes squeezed shut, the tears blurring everything.
"Seventeen..."
The numbers were slipping from your lips in broken sobs now, each one harder to say than the last. You didnât know if he noticed how your breath was catching or how your voice kept crackingâbut even if he did, he said nothing.
The silence was maddening.
And then finally, after what felt like an eternityâlonger than you thought you could bearâthe last strike landed.
"Twenty," you whispered, so faint you werenât even sure it counted. Your voice was shredded, raw from crying, from counting, from enduring.
But it was done.
You clung to the pillow like a lifeline, tears still trailing down your cheeks as your lungs struggled to draw in a steady breath. Everything buzzedâyour skin, your mind, the space between your thoughts.
And somewhere in the center of all that pain and exhaustion, a quiet pride stirred.
You had taken it all.
Every single one.
You held your breath, every muscle tense, waitingâuntil finally, the sound came.
Thud.
The belt hit the floor.
You let out a broken, shaky sob as relief rushed through you. It was over. The sharp sting, the counting, the pressureâdone. The moment that sound registered, your body sagged into the mattress, the tension melting into a full-bodied, uncontrollable release. Tears spilled freely again, this time not from pain, but from the emotional flood that followed. You clutched the pillow beneath you even harder, burying your face into it as your shoulders trembled.
Sylus was gentle now, a complete contrast to the measured harshness he had displayed just moments before. He didnât rush. His movements were calm, controlled, like he was shifting into a different role entirely. Slowly, carefully, he reached out to you, his fingers brushing your arm first as if to check if you could handle touch again. When you didnât flinch, he slipped his arms around you and helped guide you onto your side.
Every shift of your sore backside made you wince, but there was no sharpness in his handling. Only softness. You whimpered softly at the movement, your skin raw and burning beneath the thin fabric of your slip. Still, when he pulled you against his chest, you didnât resist. You melted into him like he was the only steady thing left in the room.
He began to rub slow, soothing circles into your thighs and butt, his fingers featherlight as they traced the reddened skin. He was so carefulâalmost reverent. The heat of his palms chased the sting from each mark heâd left, easing the tension in your muscles. Your sobs came slower now, quieter, as his touch steadied you.
He held you close, his breath warm and steady against your ear as he leaned in, his voice low and soft.
"Shh, shhâŚI know it hurts," he murmured, the tenderness in his tone wrapping around you like a blanket. His lips pressed soft kisses across your damp cheeks, your temple, your jaw. "You did such a good job, sweetie. Iâm so proud of you."
You blinked through the blur of tears, your lashes sticky and your throat sore from crying. But his wordsâhis praiseâpoured warmth into your chest. You felt it curl deep inside you, soothing something raw and aching. It didnât erase the pain, but it dulled the edge of it, made it feel worth enduring.
You turned your face into his chest, inhaling his familiar scent. Leather. Clean linen. A trace of cologne. It grounded you. You clung to him, needing his presence, his calm. And when his hand continued to stroke your hair and rub gentle circles on your back, your breathing began to slow.
And slowlyâfinallyâyou allowed yourself to relax.
The worst had passed. The storm of sensation had come and gone, and you had weathered it.
The mattress shifted softly as Sylus adjusted beside you, his hands still warm against your skin. His touch was gentle, almost reverent, as he moved closer, his breath tickling the shell of your ear. You held your breath for a moment, your pulse quickening at the way his fingers brushed the soft fabric of your slip, teasing the edge of it without hurry.
Then, ever so slowly, he began to trace the outline of your body, his fingers dipping lower, circling the curve of your hips before edging closer to the juncture of your thighs. His touch was featherlight, almost teasing, as he explored the outer edges of your most intimate flesh. You whimpered softly, the sound muffled against his chest, as his fingers danced just beyond the line of your core, deliberately staying on the outside of your pussy.
As his fingers continued their slow, deliberate exploration, he leaned in close, his voice low and soothing as he whispered against your ear.
âYou want to feel good now?â His words were a soft, inviting question, a gentle coax that sent a shiver down your spine. âYou must've enjoyed that a little too much. You're soaked, kitten.â
Your eyelids fluttered, and you tilted your head slightly, subconsciously seeking more of his touch. His fingers slowed their motion, almost as though he were savoring the moment, before finally pressing just a little closer, brushing the swollen flesh of your clit with the lightest of pressures. You sucked in a breath, your hips instinctively shifting slightly beneath him, a soft moan escaping your lips.
Still, he held back, his fingers circling just around the edges of your core, coaxing a low, needy sound from you before slowly dipping lower, teasing the entrance to your pussy with a gentle pressure. âOh,â you whispered, your voice tinged with both longing and relief,
âPlease.â
He gave a gentle squeeze to your hip before slowly deepening his touch, his fingers finally brushing against the slick, sensitive folds of your cunt. You twitched slightly against him, your hands instinctively clutching at the sheets as the waves of pleasure began to build within you. But he moved with care, his touch both tender and deliberate, as though he were discovering every inch of you for the first time.
As his fingers worked their way deeper into your wet walls, your moans grew louder, more uninhibited, the sound of your pleasure filling the room. He hummed softly in response, his voice a low vibration against your ear as he praised you with quiet endearments, coaxing you further into the pleasure he was building within you.
You lay there, your body bathed in a wave of sensations as Sylusâs fingers moved inside you, each thrust echoing with a precision that left you gasping for air. At first, it was gentle, a slow, teasing rhythm that coaxed a moan from your lips. Then, as the pressure increased, his fingers curved just right, hitting the sweet spot inside you that made your entire body shiver with pleasure. Your hips bucked involuntarily, your nails digging into the sheets as you fought to hold onto control.
âYouâre about to cum already?â he whispered, his voice low and triumphant. You could feel his smirk against your skin as he pressed harder, his thumb rubbing circles over your clit with skillful precision. âYou want it, donât you?â
âYes,â you gasped, your voice trembling. âPlease, Iâm about toââ
He pulled back just enough to make you whimper in frustration, his fingers hovering just at the edge of withdrawal before thrusting back in with renewed force. âTell me how sorry you are,â he demanded, his voice a mixture of dominance and affection that made your heart race. âBeg me, sweetie.â
At first you froze, feeling heat rise to your cheeks out of embarrassment, but when he fully began to pull his fingers away all reason flew out of your mind.
You were so close.
The words tumbled out of you before you could stop them, a desperate, breathless plea that echoed the raw emotion in your chest. âIâm sorry! Please, Iâm sorry!â
He chuckled, the sound a low, gravelly vibration that sent shivers down your spine. âGood girl,â he murmured, his fingers finding that spot again, the pressure building to a point where you could barely think straight.
âYes,â you whispered, your eyes squeezing shut as the aching burn in your core was tipping to its breaking point. âPleaseâjust let meââ
But before you could finish the sentence, he pulled his fingers out entirely, leaving you trembling and unsatisfied, gasping for air as though youâd been deprived of oxygen. The abrupt withdrawal was almost as intense as the climax youâd been on the brink of, a cruel twist that left you feeling both frustrated and conflicted.
You turned to face him, your voice shaking with a mix of shock and disbelief. âW-what? I was right there! I did what you asked!â
He met your gaze steadily, his expression soft but unyielding. His eyes didnât carry maliceâthere was no fire, no wrathâjust a firm, patient certainty that made your skin prickle and your breath catch in your throat. The kind of quiet control that left no room for bargaining.
âI never said I'd let you even if you begged,â he said, the words rolling from his tongue in a tone so calm it only made the weight of them settle heavier in your chest. It was gentle, yes, but it carried the undeniable finality of someone whoâd already made up their mind. "Did you honestly think Iâd let you finish after a stunt like that?â
The way he said it, like he was almost surprised by your audacity, twisted your stomach. Not furious. Just disappointed. And that somehow hurt worse.
His tone didnât rise. It never did. But that only made it worseâthe fact that he could cut through your resistance with something as simple as stillness. The gravity in his voice hit harder than any belt, any reprimand. It made your throat tighten, your thoughts spin.
You were in shock.
Your body was still trembling, the aftershocks of denied ecstasy crashing through your nerves like static. You felt strung out, your limbs heavy, your skin flushed and oversensitive. Your muscles still twitched with that last wave of almost-release that had been ripped from you too soon.
It had been there. Right there. You had been on the edgeâdangling. And he had pulled you back with terrifying precision.
No release.
No relief.
Just silence. And now, this still, crushing reminder of who held the reins.
Tears gathered in your lashes, fat and hot. You blinked rapidly, your lips trembling as you lifted your gaze to him. Your voice cracked as you spoke, brittle and hoarse from all the cries that had come before.
âP-pleaseâŚâ you whispered, reaching for him with fingers that barely had the strength to curl. âI said I was sorry. Sylus, please...â
Your voice broke halfway through his name, and the desperation behind it made your chest ache.
"Shh. Donât whine," he murmured, his voice low and even, the kind of calm that wrapped around you like a heavy blanketâfirm, enveloping, unshakable.
You hiccupped softly, your body still twitching with the lingering aftershocks, shivering from unsatisfaction, exhaustion, and the quiet vulnerability that always came after something so intense. Your limbs felt heavy and loose, barely responding as you shifted weakly against the sheets. Tears clung to your lashes, your cheeks damp and flushed. You let out a small, broken protest, the sound almost childish in its fragility.
But Sylus didnât pause. He moved with deliberate care, like heâd done this a hundred times, like every movement was etched into him. Without saying another word, he crossed the room, retrieved a warm cloth, and returned to your side. You barely registered the soft sound of water dripping onto the towel or the way the mattress dipped as he sat beside you again.
The first touch made you flinch despite yourself. The cloth dragged over your sensitive, slightly bruised skin with a heat that was both soothing and startling. You whimpered, your hips twitching away on instinct, but he didnât scold you. He simply placed a hand gently on your back, the silent reminder enough to still you.
"Starting today, until all your packages arrive," he continued, his tone calm yet authoritative, "I'm still going to kiss you, touch you, make you feel good. But you can't cum." His fingers paused for a moment, the weight of his words settling between you. "If you do cum before you have my permission, this whole process starts over, including the belt. No masturbating either. I'll know. Understood?"
The simple act of him speaking while wiping between your legs sent a shiver down your spine, your breath catching as you nodded, the gravity of his words sinking in. You felt the tension in your body, the way your muscles clenched involuntarily at the mere thought of being so close to climax only to have it taken away.
"Yes, Sy..." you whispered, voice cracking as it escaped your lips. You wanted to be mad. You wanted to scream, to shove at his chest, to demand why he was always one step aheadâbut you couldnât. The exhaustion in your limbs, the ache deep in your chest, and the rawness still lingering on your skin left you too hollow, too wrung out to fight. All that fire had dissolved into a pitiful, quiet ache, leaking from your eyes in soft, steady tears.
All you could do was cry. You had brought this on yourself.
Sylus didnât say anything. He didnât gloat or taunt. He just kept tending to you with that same deliberate, practiced care. His movements were slow, methodical, gentle in ways that made your chest ache even more. When he was done, he discarded the damp cloth and reached for you again, easing the rumpled slip dress over your head. The fabric peeled away from your flushed skin, clinging slightly before sliding off, leaving you cold, exposed, and vulnerable.
You whimpered, the sound soft and unsure, but he was already moving with purpose. He retrieved one of his shirtsâoversized, warm, smelling of himâand a fresh pair of underwear. With all the patience in the world, he dressed you like you were something fragile, helping you into the shirt and smoothing it down, adjusting the sleeves and gently guiding your legs into the underwear. The motions were intimate, familiar, but not rushed. As though this was part of the ritual. As though heâd already known this was how the night would end.
Then he slipped away into the bathroom for a moment, and you lay there quietly, the bedsheets cool beneath you, your limbs too heavy to move. The room felt softer now, dim and hushed, like the storm had passed. Your eyes fluttered closed, though sleep didnât come. Just more tears.
When Sylus returned, the mattress dipped beside you. He settled in close, his warmth immediately surrounding you, and without a word, he reached over and began wiping the fresh tears from your face. His thumb brushed slowly under each eye, lingering at your cheekbones, soft and unrelenting. You blinked up at him, your vision still blurry, your body aching in more ways than one.
He didnât need to say anything. His touch said it for him: I still love you. Iâm still here.
Then he picked up your phone from the nightstand, unlocking it like it was second nature. You peeked at him from the crook of your arm, face still pressed into his chest, and listened to the familiar taps as he scrolled.
Probably checking the damage, you thought bitterly.
Then came the chuckle. Soft. Low. Amused.
"Oh, sucks for you. One of these is on preorder," he said, tone light, like he wasnât the reason you were too emotionally wrecked to argue. "Wonât get here for a few weeks. What a shame."
You groaned into his chest, letting your body sag against him like you were boneless. You didnât need to look up to see the smug grin on his faceâyou could feel it in the rumble of his chest, the way his fingers casually stroked your back like you were some satisfied little cat.
He had won. Again.
There was no fighting it. No regaining the upper hand. Not now. Not when heâd read you like a book and written the ending before you even knew the chapter had started.
And now, one of the pieces you were most excited for was going to take weeks to arrive.
It was going to be a very, very long few weeks.
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i once accidentally dated someone for a few months. its very difficult to explain how this happened, but the gist is that i thought we were hanging out, and she thought we were on dates, and it was just a very painfully highschool thing.
she was a little bit confused that i hadnt tried to pull any moves, at all, even a little. like, didnt even try holding hands because, and i cannot emphasize this enough, i did not know we were dating.
so, halloween rolled around, and she thought, you know, why wait for destiny, when you can grab it? so she hit me with a clue by four.
babylon, she said. babylon. my mom's gonna be out of town on halloween, and im gonna have the house to myself, and it's going to be kind of lonely. would you like to come to my house and watch scary movies with me?
you know, kind of a netflix and chill thing. except, and i cannot emphasize this enough, i did not know we were dating. also autism. so i took it at face value and said: oh! yeah! thatd be fun! and she thought she got her point across, but she didnt and it was a mess.
skip forward to halloween: my family has a block party every year, right? and at that point i was too old to really trick or treat, but we still wore costumes for our role in the block party, which in my case, was handing out cotton candy. so i took the first shift, and my costume was this homemade abomination minion thing. i had full yellow body paint, and goggles, and a bald cap, and overalls. the kids who saw it were like, uh, hm. overly realistic minion. and adults were like, oh, some kind of hills have eyes hillbilly with jaundice. very scary.
(it was not my best costume.)
my little brother swapped me out for second shift, and i was getting ready to change out to head to her house when i was like: no, she'll get a real kick out of this. this is one of the worst things i have ever worn. so i kept it on and just brought a change of clothes thinking i could shower real quick and change at her place after she saw my nightmare getup.
so i left after that, got there, knocked on her door, and she said come on in. so i went in, and there was this very long hall with an abrupt right turn into her living room where the tv was, and i went down the hall, and i made the turn, and my field of view went from beige drywal to her, on the couch, naked. naked in the paint me like one of your french girls pose. super naked.
i panicked. this was my first time seeing a real person like, full on sex naked,which is a totally different beast from other kinds of naked. you see one kind of naked and you think yeah, im ready for all the kinds of naked, but you arent. i wasnt at least. i really wasn't.
so my brain crashed to BIOS. she also crashed to BIOS, but for different reasons. of all the ways this could have turned me, having me show up in yellow body paint and overalls was pretty pretty low down the list.
so we sat there a while, and you know, she wasn't getting any less naked, which really wasn't helping me get my brain sorted out. it really wasnt much of a surprise when she got her bearings first and started asking questions.
"babylon," she said. "babylon. what are you wearing?"
and i was like, kind of rebooted, but i was nowhere near full functionality, so symbolic language wasnt loaded in yet. i had nothing running but my trusty autism.exe, so i said
"overalls"
and she looked at me like i was the dumbest person in the entire world, and i looked at her like she was the first naked person i had seen in real life who got naked specifically for me, and my upper level cognitive process went: "listen man, we are not going to get our shit together as long as 80% of your brain power is devoted to not blinking. you gotta get out of here."
and if id communicated that, maybe things would have been less of a mess, but instead i just kind of turned around and walked back to my car. i figured i could drive a few loops around the block, get my brain in order, and figure out what the hell we were gonna do.
the only thing i had said to her since arriving was, again, overalls.
first loop around, i was like: oh god fucking damnit. oh shit. oh shit. shes gonna get like, an eating disorder from this. oh no.
second loop around i was like: oh NOOOOO oh WHAT THE FUCK oh SWEET JESUS PLEASE. i dont wanna go back man. i just wanna bury this and forget about it. please. please. let this bitter cup pass from my lips.
and after my third loop, i went and i knocked on her door again.
she answered it this time, and i counted my lucky stars that she'd changed into some pajamas. she was all teary eyed which was the saddest thing ever, and we sat down in her kitchen and talked. it was pretty bad - i figured out we'd been dating, and she figured out that trying to jump from home plate to 3rd base is considered ballsy in baseball, least of all dating. no real winners there. and i can remember after all that, we sat there a bit a bit longer, just steadying ourselves, and i was like "well, im actually really glad we figured that out. guess i'll see you at school tomorow' and she said "WAIT. wait."
"lets watch shrek 2."
so we did and it was horrible. we did not look at each other. we did not say a word. we just sat in stony silence, while shrek 2 played in the background, and when it was done we shook hands. i think we might have been able to salvage that as a friendship if it hadnt been for shrek. as it was she turned white as a sheet and ran away every time she even got a glimpse of me at school, and that summer she moved to a new state to live with her dad. all her friends said she moved just so she wouldn't have to go to school with me anymore, and i dont actually think they were lying.
every time i hear relationship counselors talk about how important communication is, and i'm tempted to roll my eyes, i look back and go, alright. alright. theres probably some poor bastard, somewhere in the world, who doesnt even know that hes married.
and god help him when he figures it out.
other bad dating story here.
#funny stories#dating#dating fiascos#minions#the minion incident#anecdotes#fuck shrek#and fuck shrek 2#like its the best in the shrek series but that movie is basically my trigger now
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I have been thinking lately about a universe where Bruce Wayne killed the Joker.
I want to be clear here, since there are so many longstanding debates on this topic: I do not think Bruce Wayne should kill the Joker. I have just been wondering what would happen if the circumstances aligned in such a way that he did.
And to be clear on a related, yet slightly different topic: when I say I have been wondering about what if Bruce Wayne killed the Joker, I do not mean as the Batman. I mean Bruce "Brucie" Wayne.
Maybe it's kind of an accident? Like, he definitely did intend to hit the Joker, but he's Brucie right now, so he's trying not to look like he knows what he's doing while still doing enough damage to keep the Joker from killing someone, and meanwhile the Joker makes just the wrong move and -
And here we are. Brucie just killed the Joker.
Bruce's reaction here is one thing; he has his one rule for a reason, he's just broken it, he's determined to turn himself in -
His family's reaction is a whole different story. How does Cass feel about this?
How does Jason? Bruce has killed the Joker, just like he wanted, but it wasn't for him, not really, and -
And meanwhile, this happens in front of, say, a gala full of people, so now all of Gotham gets to react to it too.
Average Gothamite, seeing the words BRUCE WAYNE, JOKER, and KILLED in the same headline: OH, NO.
Average Gothamite, once they've processed the order those words are actually in: . . . I did not have that on this year's bingo card.
The city's most famous mass murderer has just been publicly killed by the city's biggest employer/philanthropist/source of tabloid harmless nonsense! Three days before Brucie was making tabloid headlines by tripping into a fountain and somehow losing his shirt in the process! Two weeks before, the newspaper was running a retrospective on the Wayne murders and what donation Brucie was making to help the families of victims this year! The article mentioned how one of his adopted sons had also tragically become a murder victim!
Now this has happened, and Bruce is having a breakdown over breaking his one rule, and the rest of Gotham just assumes that this is because poor Brucie thinks this somehow makes him like the man who killed his parents. They send a huge outpouring of support his way. This in no way helps Bruce's actual breakdown.
Ninety percent of Gotham is sure Brucie didn't actually mean to kill the Joker, and pretty much a hundred percent of them support him whether he meant to do it or not. No one wants to have anything to do with prosecuting this mess. Bruce is trying to make it as clear as possible that he will fully cooperate with the justice system and meanwhile an entire gala full of people is suddenly acting like they could in no way have possibly witnessed events that took place ten feet in front of their faces. Did Bruce kill the Joker? Is the officer sure? That doesn't seem like him. Maybe the Joker just tripped on his own. Marble floors, you know. Very slippery.
#batman#not silmarillion#bruce wayne#bruce wayne kills the joker#as brucie#this is angst for the batclan and crack for the rest of gotham
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๨ৠbaby daddy!satoru who wants needs you back.
in fact, you should've known he was playing a game the instant that text blinked onto your screen: pick your daughter up from his place, not school. a casual oops, totally forgot it was your day! that sent a shiver of unease down your spine.
what choice did you really have? the entire drive to that too-familiar house, your nerves were a tangled mess. pulling into the driveway, parking crookedly in your haste, the only thing screaming in your head was this used to be ours.
this small, unassuming house, a world away from the sterile grandeur of his old penthouse. the first grand gesture of your marriage had been this new place.
"the bigger the house," satoru had murmured against your bare skin that first night, "the further i'd have to be from you." so, your mornings had begun with tangled limbs and hurried kisses, and your evenings had ended in the same breathless way.
it had been the kind of dizzying happiness you foolishly thought would last forever. but then the cracks had started to show â the endless work trips, the hollow promises of things changing. he had gotten better, ironically, after the papers were signed.
satoru stood in the doorway, that infuriatingly charming, utterly knowing smirk plastered across his face. your gaze darted around the living room, a quick, almost desperate search. "where's she?" you asked, trying to keep the tremor out of your voice.
his reply was a casual flick of his wrist. "oh, she's at a friend's."
a harsh scoff escaped you. arms crossed tight against your chest, you scoffed, "what? why? i drove all the way out here!"
"you were coming anyway," he purred, those soft puppy-dog eyes locking onto yours. "i can bring her back later. thought we could, you know⌠catch up."
"catch up?" you repeated, incredulous. "are you serious right now? we're not catching up, satoru. we're divorced."
but those eyes. they always had been your undoing. and somehow, against your better judgment, you found yourself agreeing to this ridiculous "catch-up." you'd pictured awkward small talk over lukewarm tea, maybe a stale cookie.
not this. not being bent in a cruel mating-press, his body a brutal, insistent press against yours, fucking you with a desperate hunger that stole your breath and any semblance of rational thought.
"god, it's been so fucking lo- long since i felt this," he grunted, his hips slamming into you with a possessive force that made you cry out. "this tight little cunt clenching - shit - around me like that."
"ah, 'toru," you gasped, your fingers digging into the hard muscles of his back, clinging on for dear life.
"been even longer si- since i heard you say my name like that." his sweaty bangs were plastered to his forehead, a flush creeping up his neck. his pace was relentless, each thrust deeper, harder, a raw, primal need driving him. he hadn't touched anyone since you, didn't want to.
tears streamed down your face, a messy mix of pain and something dangerously close to pleasure. and that bastard, your soon-to-be-not-ex-husband-anymore, thought you looked beautiful. his thick cock stretched you, filled you completely, your legs instinctively wrapping around his waist.
"did you miss this, huh?" he muttered, his voice thick with lust. "because i fucking did. bet- bet no one else makes you feel like this."
a choked whine escaped you as his teeth sank into your shoulder, a stinging sensation hitting. you can't think of a response, literally. you can't even think of your own name - you can't remember.
all that mattered was the way he was making you feel, the dizzying spiral of sensation. and in the name of "catching up," he makes you come, at least half a dozen shattering orgasms ripping through you before he finally relented, burying his face in the space between your tits.
he looked up at you, panting, a triumphant smile playing on his lips. "so⌠about moving back in?"
fuck those puppy-dog eyes.
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#anyway i continue to Lavellan post because i did some stuff and I'm tired now anyway. thinking about the beginning of the game and#how he's mostly leaning into the herald bullshit because he thinks it'll help him belong here and make people like him and how#devastatingly it's going to hit him after in your heart shall burn (I'm basically leaning into it as much as#possible without establishing him as faithful since it's more difficult to make Leliana pope that way but in my head#he took every 'yeah I'm herald I'm heralding so much andraste right now' option besides one with cass and one with Leliana)#like. he doesn't even really believe it but most people either like hearing it or if they react negatively it's in a way that still#acknowledges him as in charge so he'll roll with that. but then. everything in YHTB happens and it's just like. Oh. Oh Shit. like#it was this mix of bullshitting for fun and saying what people wanted to hear and kind of believing that maybe he was chosen by#Something at least. and like. it's not like he didn't do anything on his own or at least without any special abilities but then#The classic seeing all that be swept aside. realizing how this is going to be remembered because it's already happening. maybe#he should have known that the second he was asked if there was room for more among his gods.#but then. what do you expect. his first memory is being discarded (that's not entirely what it was but that's how his child brain#precessed it) and practically going feral because of it and then. having So Much catching up to do when it came to. basically every#aspect of being a person#and like. he was accepted along with Rella but that still gets to you. especially since. sure he didn't fully understand what it means to#be pitied but he could still recognize that from others. could still want to prove he was Better Than That. could still want to shatter tha#sheet of glass between himself and seemingly everyone else (even Rella to be honest. if only because she almost left him behind too). how#would he not lean into being seen as something special. whether he fully believed the narrative others were spinning or not#i dunno i see a lot of people talking about their Lavellan pushing back against the narrative from the start but i kind of like the#idea of going along with it. thinking it won't get that far and surely he can correct it if it does. he's in charge after all. right? only#to get hit harder than an avalanche by the realization that he's not in control after all. he can direct as many forces as he wants#but he can't change how he'll be remembered. how he's already being remembered. and he contributed to it too? i dunno his specific#combination of pride and insecurity and need to just Belong. to just belong as himself. is. compelling#If anyone is reading this Ive seen posts about all Lavellans having the same personality but no one's elaborated? am i just doing that?#i actually want to know. you know. assuming anyone is reading this.#i dunno just thinking about his continuous need to prove himself for so many reasons (partially because of Rella too since#yeah Rella is a mage but not the first or anything. she's just there because people knew she had nowhere else to go). okay I'll shut up now#but yeah what is this Standard Lavellan Personality i keep hearing about?#original posts#but like. something something he's being discarded again but he understands it this time and he can't fight it and just
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You gonna do anything or make any statement about the rampant transmisogyny on this hellsite, especially in cases like predstrogen recently? Or yall gonna stay silent and keep letting/making us get pushed off of it.
I have a number of asks about this, so this is to address all of them, I won't do each individually.
We generally do not comment on individual cases, but because there seems to be mass misinformation around this, I will make an exception and comment on predstrogen.
First, Tumblr has a number of LGBT+ including trans people on staff, and they see things from the inside fully, and they're not protesting this case.
Why do we wrongly have a transphobe reputation? We did have an external contract moderator last year that was making transphobic moderation (and also selling moderation, criminally). As soon as we were aware that person was fired, and we later terminated the entire relationship with that contracting firm and have brought almost everything in-house (at great cost). I have previously commented on this publicly, several times.
I am not aware of any Automattician (people who work at Automattic and Tumblr) who has made any transphobic moderation actions. If it's reported it is investigated immediately, if anything were found that person would be terminated for cause immediately.
Predstrogen's account was suspended for:
Repeated mis-tagging of adult content against Tumblr's community guidelines. This has nothing to do with clothed transition photos, she had 20+ other blogs and multiple accounts with names so explicit I can't post them here without a mature tag.
Multiple cases of harassment of other Tumblr users, not just me.
Multiple threats of violence, not just the one I share below.
These represent a breach of our Terms of Service, and we've exercised our right to refuse service.
Threats of violence are never okay. Threats of violence are not protected speech. We will work with police and FBI where appropriate, though to be clear prestrogen's case hasn't warranted that so far. I'm referring to what we may potentially do for other threats. I just got a death threat yesterday from someone mad about predstrogen, and that account was immediately terminated.
So regardless of whether you still think Tumblr staff is somehow a bunch of transphobes, know that threats of violence or death are still not acceptable and will result in immediate and serious action. Know that when you rile people up, they can do dumb things with possibly permanent consequences.
(2 hours later update: I have changed instances of the pronoun "they" or "their" to "the account" because I am unaware of pronoun preference in this instance and don't want to misgender anyone. Thank you for the people who reported this as an issue. Update 2: "She" is apparently better, the post now says that. Sorry for the mistake.)
Here's one (of many!) examples of the harassment violations, this one targets me but there are others targeting other users on the site.
The second part seems to indicate she wanted to be suspended, I'm unaware of why, perhaps to create this sort of uproar. I agree the hammers feel silly, but the start, "i hope photomatt dies forever a painful death" is a violation of Tumblr's community guidelines and terms of service.
The car part did hit close to home as I have almost died twice in car accidents.
Update 2: Added this text to the adult content part: This has nothing to do with clothed transition photos, she had 20+ other blogs and multiple accounts with names so explicit I can't post them here without a mature tag.
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