#ANYWAY!! ILL SEE YOU THERE!! 💜💜💜✨

[ladylooch]

I moved into my place and it is just.... 🥹

I have worked so hard to get here, to make this 9 year dream into a reality. I am so proud of myself. I never, ever thought I would actually leave MN, so to be here, with all my stuff!!!!, is such a dream.

There was a slight snag in my celebration when I got horribly ill at lunch after move in 😂 Which means all my movers, and my cleaners, were sent away while I ✨ died ✨on my new bathroom floor. 10/10 for the bathroom floor so far. Surprisingly comfortable for tile.... HA!

Anyways, I'm doing much better today. I dropped my dad at the airport ( it's so weird staying here when he is going back to MN). Now I'm in my own little world, making lists, unpacking, cleaning, savoring the silenceeeeeee. Proving to myself every time I put something in its place that I truly can do anything.

If you're going through something right now that feels impossible, or like your life is over, or like you're never going to be the same again, I see you and am holding space for you here.

Please know it gets better.

Cry, scream, lay on the floor when you can't fathom another minute of existing, then love yourself through it so that you can get up again 💜

Love you bbys.

In mood of celebration, let's bring Gracie into the world this week 🥹

[here4kpopfics]

hey kelly congrats on your milestone!!✨ if you have time, id like to request a jjk drabble with #44 (I'm only here for the dog) and #82 (this is a one time thing)! fluff or smut or both (ill love it regardless)💖💖💖 if youre overwhelmed with other requests, no worries!!

OKAY so I had something already planned after Koo's lives at home and ekrgjtsjfrejkgsrg this worked perfectly. Keeping it short and sweet and fluffy bc there are other requests that are straight up filth. So cute Dog Dad as a cleanser. 💜💜💜 unedited again bc lazy

#44 was also requested by @btscontentenjoyer so here you go as well, beautiful 😘

Masterlist | AskBox | Coffee?

jjk x reader | just some cute fluff | 532 words | pg13 | Bam is best boy.

“Where’s my favorite boy?!” You ask, brushing past Jungkook at the front door and entering his living room. 

“Hello to you, too?” He questions, closing the door and turning to see Bam jumping up off the couch to get all of your attention. “Bam! Chill!” 

The dog turns to look at his dad for a brief moment before you laugh, turning back to you with an excited pant. 

“It’s fine, Bam. You have to let your daddy think he’s the favorite. I get it.” Jungkook walks behind you, grabbing the bags of takeout food from your hands in perfect timing for you to grab Bam’s head. You kiss the top of his head and give him a bunch of scratches before he circles around you once and runs to his dad entering the kitchen. 

You follow the dog, who sits by his dog bowl, watching his dad and waiting. You sneak up behind Jungkook, wrapping your arms around his waist, standing on your tiptoes to rest your chin on his shoulder. 

“Hi, other favorite boy.” You grin at his look of disgust, quickly going in for a kiss on his cheek. 

“Absolute nonsense.” He grumbles, pulling out the takeaway boxes from the bags. 

“Oh, Koo. You know I’m only here for the dog.” You kiss his shoulder, getting off your tiptoes and preparing Bam’s food. “Oh and your couch, your giant tv, and your Netflix acco—” 

You’re quickly spun around, Jungkook’s lips crashing into yours to shut you up. You grin into the kiss, arms sliding around his shoulders. 

“Okay, okay. I’m also here for you.” 

“Damn right.” He kisses you again, hands on your hips, scooting you away from the counter, “switch. I’ll feed Bam.” 

“You think he likes me more, huh?” You tease, doing as he says anyway, cackling when he smacks your ass as you walk away. 

You both finish up your tasks, you unpack the food, putting it on plates and grabbing two pints and some beer, walking it all to the coffee table in front of the couch. Jungkook watches Bam to make sure he eats everything before sitting down on the floor with you, Bam curling up on the corner of the couch. 

You make it through two episodes of your current kdrama obsession with him before you get tired of sitting on the floor and crawl onto the couch, laying down on your side with a pillow. Jungkook gets up to join you but Bam beats him to it, curling up against your chest. You grin, wrapping your arm around Bam, peppering him with kisses. 

“This is a one time thing.” He states, mostly to the dog, moving your pillow and sitting down next to you, letting your head rest on his lap. Bam lifts his head, repeating your action of scooting up to rest his head on his knee while still curled against you.

“Mmm. This is the life. Favorite pup, favorite boy, comfy couch, good food…” your list trails off as you feel your eyes close, breathing slowly matching with the big sleeping dog. You softly smile at the feeling of your boyfriend’s fingers gently massaging your scalp. 

Yup. This is the life.

[sketch-guardian]

I feel like I need to start adding a -___ anon because of how much I send requests now, I would love to send them without anon but it’s honestly so scary to post or comment anything 😞

I don’t know if you’re very comfortable with writing certain types of mental illnesses, like I saw on your boundaries post that you were fine writing mental and physical conditions but I just wanna know if you’re comfortable with a request where child mc has like ptsd or depression and always seems to be sad and gloomy (turns out it’s from bullying back in the home realm.) I really like seeing posts where child mc isn’t very energetic since I didn’t really get that very happy experience and can’t relate (〃▽〃)

Also I wish there was a snow leopard emoji, that’d be so cool. I love snow leopards

SORRY IF THIS IS A LOT OF WORDS, IM STILL REALLY NEW TO SENDING STUFF THAT ISNT TO PEOPLE I KNOW 🫶🏻🫶🏻

Well, there's no obligation to add a -___ anon, only if you feel like it🤷🏻and don't worry, I know how scary it can be to write openly to people you don't know or are close to🙈so it doesn't matter the number of asks you send, if you prefer to stay anonymous, so be it, it's not a problem☺As a (hopefully) future psychologist (I'm still studying at university-), it doesn't make me uncomfortable to talk about such topics, I just hope to write them well and not make too many mistakes😖so your ask is perfectly fine and I thank you for asking anyway just to be safe💜Furthermore, as a child I was very quiet and lazy, I was sometimes compared to a doll even though I was content, so more or less I can relate and I hope you are doing better now✨Also I agree, more animal emojis should be added💕(perhaps you could be snow leopard anon?🤔). Now let's get started with the platonic headcanons, I assumed you wanted all OCs btw🙈:

"RAD CLASSMATES+NEW EXCHANGE STUDENTS WITH A CHILD MC WHO HAS DEPRESSION/PTSD"

DEMYA

Demya didn't spend an exactly normal childhood, firstly due to the type of environment in which she was born as a demon, part of a bloodthirsty tribe, and secondly due to the events that characterized her turbulent past, that is, having seen her family die in front of the her eyes and then being imprisoned in a human circus as a freak, chained and malnourished, only later when she was freed was she able to begin her journey of recovery. Demya might seem brash and prone to violence, in some respects she is, however she softens towards children and with child MC in particular she would be very protective, especially considering what they had to go through. Demya would not tolerate abuse towards child MC and would ask them to give her all the names of those who bullied them on Earth, not to kill them, not wanting to get child MC into trouble and considering that most likely the bullies are children as well, but simply to scar them for life and thus prevent them from finding other victims, the sight of her bloodied on the ceiling should be enough. Demya would also feel sorry for child MC being miserable most of the time and would try in her own way to make them happier, to make them overcome their trauma, because together they are stronger, Demya would always welcome child MC into her arms in case of need of comfort and they could stay in her nest (of blankets and pillows) for as long as they need to

DOMNRA/MOBIM

Domnra had a fairly normal childhood, according to celestial standards at least, given that as a soldier, he was trained to fight from a young age. The most difficult period of Domnra's life began after his fall from the Celestial Realm and after Mobim's birth, it took him time to metabolize and get used to the new situation. Child MC would remind Domnra of Mobim during its first days of existence: small, weak, helpless and afraid. Having matured over time and having learned to take care of Mobim, Domnra would try to help child MC learn how to defend themselves, both physically and emotionally, from bullies or fears, because they would have the full right to assert their own person. Domnra would become like child MC's shadow, always at their side in case of danger, as a figure to hide behind or as a shoulder to cry on, anyone who mistreats child MC should pass through Domnra first if they have the courage. Mobim would also help make child MC feel less sad, becoming their friend, playmate and comforting them, without the need for words and showing child MC that crying is good for letting off steam

AZUL

Azul was a happy and energetic child, who enjoyed running among flowers along with colorful butterflies, without a care in the world, his mood management problems began in adulthood, after his fall from the Celestial Realm. Azul is a very empathetic demon when it comes to feelings, especially those of people he cares about, so when he would sense child MC's sadness, his colors would change from light blue to dark blue in a sense of recognition and Azul would carry child MC in his arms, to comfort and console them. Azul would be worryingly quiet at the news of child MC being a victim of bullying and it's likely that one day, in the form of a spirit, he will enter the bullies' bedroom and scare them so much that they will never repeat such actions again. Azul would try to help and support child MC to find a way to express themselves, such as drawing or photography and as he is better trained in managing emotions, he would try to help child MC overcome their depression, one step at a time, always by their side, showing pride at every small milestone achieved

ZURI

Since she was a child, Zuri has always followed a rather rigid discipline and had to meet very high expectations from other angels towards her, therefore she didn't spend much time playing or having fun as perhaps it would have been more appropriate for a young angel, too busy excel and show herself as a symbol of purity. Old habits die hard, so even after she became a demon, Zuri remained a perfectionist, however she would never want something like that for child MC, after the way they have already suffered. With Zuri, there would be no expectations of happiness and joy to respect, but rather a probable professional therapeutic path, for child MC's sake, to provide them with the tools to process their trauma and work on their depression. Zuri would probably explain to child MC that the bullies who bothered them have likely been through difficult situations, however that doesn't excuse their actions and child MC would not be required to forgive them, but rather to move on with their life and heal. Anyone who has any comments to make about child MC's behavior should respond personally to Zuri and while not often very loving, Zuri would cradle child MC in her arms during depression or ptsd episodes

ODON

Odon had a bizarre childhood due to their ancient eldritch nature, they don't know what it means to have a family and as a child they did anything to feel a single emotion, even if it meant committing genocide. Over time Odon got "bored", because suffering became repetitive and they realized that showing kindness received much more interesting and varied reactions, that was the reason for the beginning of Odon's change for the better, however difficulties weren't lacking, since everyone was too afraid of them. Odon knows what it means to be marginalized and isolated, they also know sadness although they don't show it, therefore Odon would be very understanding and patient with child MC's issues, accompanying them step by step during their growth. No sane person would be stupid enough to bully child MC given Odon's reputation, so they would stop being teased, while as for the rest, Odon would read stories with child MC on their lap while they drink a hot beverage, to make them feel protected and safe for once, with even the eye-like creatures in tow as silent guardians. Odon would go back to being the monster they were in order to ward off the evil that afflicts child MC, after all, how could pain approach child MC, in Odon's even scarier presence?

REMIEL

Remiel had a lonely childhood and not exactly by choice. As a half angel-half nephilim, many angels, the most conservative ones, have always seen Remiel as a sin, an impure angel not worthy of being called such and having always been very literal-minded, despite the reassurances from her mother Azrael and her father Death, Remiel could never help but see such statements as the truth, because after all they weren't entirely wrong, she wasn't a pure celestial being, she have learned to live with it, however Remiel would see child MC's situation as unfair, being different. Since both child MC and Remiel are often gloomy and somber, they could actually be mistaken for related. As an angel of death, Remiel would frequently face issues such as depression and negative feelings, therefore she would be quite capable of making child MC feel better, having comforted several human souls in the past. One thing that child MC would appreciate before going to sleep would be, for example, having Remiel embrace them with her wings while softly humming them a lullaby that her mother Azrael used to sing to her when she was a child

NATHANIEL

Nathaniel, although he has always been a quiet angel even as a child, who let himself be carried away by the course of events, has always felt as if he was not in control of his actions, as if his destiny was in the hands of someone superior who controlled his every move and emotional response. As an extremely patient angel, caring for and managing a child MC with depression or ptsd would not necessarily be a problem, if anything a challenge, which Nathaniel would not intend to give up or abandon for any reason. Nathaniel would try to teach child MC how to let non-constructive criticism and insults slide over them, using failures as material to grow and improve, killing with kindness when possible those who show resentment towards them for no reason. Nathaniel is chill, but when annoyed he would be quite scary, so people would hardly bother child MC in his presence, also Nathaniel would show child MC the wonders of the world, trying to rekindle the spark of life in them. Nathaniel would always be child MC's guide

URIEL

Uriel's childhood was characterized by continuous attempts on her part to show her worth of becoming a warrior angel and by seeking compliments to feel valid, no matter how many times she fell and felt inadequate, she always got up in order to reach her goals and Uriel would like to help child MC achieve their dream whatever it may be, however she's aware that first they should be motivated enough and that currently it would be too soon. Uriel would see child MC being a victim of bullying as a real violation of justice and as an angel who represents it, she would go straight to the bullies, making them regret and reconsider every choice in their life and she would force them to apologize to child MC personally, with the threat of them going to hell if they act bad again or even worse, even if they ended up in heaven, then they would have to deal with Uriel. Uriel would act as child MC's shield and sword, promising that when they're unable to fight, she will protect them, for as long as they need, that she'll be the rock on which they can lean when they don't feel well

(also here's a small bonus of some OCs reaction to child MC fighting back against a bully):

[experiment-tzt]

✨Meteor Shower🌠

So there used to be a trend on Insta faaaaaaaaaar before where you ask friends for a silly doodle of stars and youll show it off with the song. I wanted to do it, didnt have time, then forgot about it. BUT one day i wanted to fix my old render and lineart, and so i decided to try something new and got inspired then hop on drawing. In the end i finished other drawings with this new style but not this one(yes the artfight ones and my ref of delta oc), but now is finally done! ✨💜

So what i mean is thank to most of my friends i wouldnt have done it without them, heck i even give thanks to random internet people who inspired me to change my artsyle a bit more lmao (submas fandom go brrr🚂) Anyways i finished this on friday but ill upload this on Saturday just to give its own space🌌(haha get it space...okay ill see myself out)

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers ♡

thank you so much for this sweetheart, i hope you're having a lovely day 😘💗 i've been stuck in bed ill all week so it was very welcome to do this and transport myself (mentally anyway) into nicer realms ✨

the sky. i know this sounds basic, but honesty, just looking up never fails to lift my spirits and soothe my soul. skies i particularly love: dusky pink summer skies, cold starry night skies, drizzly skies, curdled sun and cloud skies. the wide-open, pastel seaside skies where my hometown is. city night skies where the drizzle catches in the glow of the streetlamps. anywhere i can look up 💫

music. the solace of my favourite albums when the world feels a little too sharp. listening to them in the evenings when i'm writing or through my headphones when i'm out walking. finding a beloved album in a second-hand shop. reading the lyric books as i'm listening. live music especially has brought me some of the most powerful moments of happiness i've ever experienced 💖

spending time with friends. i wouldn't consider myself an extrovert by any stretch of the imagination, and can find spending time with big groups of people quite draining - but i am lucky enough to have a few wonderful close friends, and spending time with those people where i get to just be *me* is truly such a gift 💜

waking up to a new comment in my ao3 inbox. i know this might sound silly, but getting to read people's interpretations/reactions to something i've written never fails to lift my heart. knowing that something which means so much to me as i've written it has brought joy or meaning to someone else through reading it is - well, it's truly one of the best feelings in the world for me. i really can't express how grateful i am to everyone who leaves me feedback on my fics, or stress how much it adds to the joy and inspiration of the whole writing process for me. thank you ✨

woodland, or anywhere there are lots of trees and very few cars. i grew up in a really rural bit of countryside, and although i love the city i live in now, i'm rarely happier or more at peace with the world than when i'm walking through a forest 🌿

(bonus sixth thing: being part of this little community here 💗 getting to log on and flail with you all and see the amazing talent of the artists and writers here is a daily source of joy that i'm so very grateful for 😘 being here lifts me up more than you all know ✨)

[alluralater]

hey, my pronouns are: she/they i am a woman, & service top/switch & as for names..honey, you can call me literally anything you want. i am 22 btw and i have been sending you asks for a while, i am the one who sent the ask about cunt warming, and the most recent realistic fleshlight one. Theres others too, but i send you them all the time so its hard to keep track. I get so excited when you respond. it turns me on like nothing else the idea of your wet little pussy aching as you read some of them. anyways. ill go with ... the anon tag ash. because i guess im a slut who kinda wants you to know my name. ;)

-ash

🥾, 🍂, 🕸️, 🫧, 🍓, 🦋, 💜, 🪻, 🪵, 🌺, 🦇, 🫁, A, 🏈, ☎️, 🍪, 🎵, 🪸, 🖤, 💀, 🧁, 💋, 🎲, ✨ 🔪, 🧷, ju, C, ♡, 🧋, 🩵, 😈, ☢️, 🐢, 🙈, 🌷, 🧸, ⛓️, ✨, 🍯, 🐧, 🌻, 🌿, 🦊, 💦, 🎀, 😇, 🦦, 🗣️, 🧜🏼‍♀️, 💘, 🪼, 📚, ⚜️, 🎃, 🍒, 💫, 🪶, 🍃, SD, 🍨, 🍄, 🛐, 💖, 🧚🏽‍♀️, 🦌, 🦝, 🏵️, 🪐, 🖋️, 9️⃣, 🪿, K, ☀️, 🌔, 👑, 🩶, 📖, Jae, 💥, 21, 🔮,

hi! i've been behind on my asks so i'm seeing this like a week late but i'm glad to know you'll be taking a tag <3 truly your asks are so feral and unhinged they turn me on a bit too much

your tag has been added to the list <3

[misfit-among-the-angels]

To that other anon, you are also right. She has so much to offer even if she doesn’t see it now.

To you, I know the world may seem too dark now but there is always the tiny light in your day whether it be you listening your favourite song, waking up, get thru the day, post on tumblr, wear your fav tshirt etc those are all your daily wins!! And hey, I am very proud of you for getting thru another day! 💙

Let me claim an emoji ✨

🥺🥺🥺💜💜💜💜 Thank you!

I just want to say a few things, being this severely mentally ill, it's really hard to find any positive things especially in daily life. And especially with all the struggles i have. I could say that in my daily life only sleep is a positive thing. Waking up and everything else is not and that's only for an ok days, but when i have crisis or breakdowns or whatever it becomes unbearable. I used to listen to music a lot, now not so much, thanks to my worsening mental state. A lot of things that used to help me doesn't work anymore. So that's why i don't really see any tiny lights in my life most of the time. Because my life worsens bit by bit and because I'm getting very tired the same shit again and again. It is really hard to explain that mental and emotional pain that i feel sometimes. It's like very bad period cramps but emotionally. And on top of all it's hard to live and function with people who are too oblivious, too mentally fucked up to help or understand. We all know that my bitch mother is a piece of shit but hell, my dad is sometimes abusive as hell too. And i don't really have supportive people, i have like two in real life friends that i see once in a blue moon. So i really REALLY appreciate asks and messages like this and sometimes it really helps. Sometimes distraction is the best thing.

Anyway, sorry for this little ramble, i just wanted to bring more light onto some stuff

[taechnological]

S A E. I CANT BELIEVE I WAITED FOR TWO MONTHS AND MY ASK APPARENTLY WENT INTO JUNK😭😭😭DO U DO U DO U REMEMBER KTH ANON???? YES SHES BACK!! lol not like on tumblr but like here heheheheheh✨✨✨

GOD HOWRE U?? JDKJH i miss tumblr so much :( althooo i read ur posts and iM SO HAPPY and so proud of you🥺 im glad ure growing more and more! i wish u the best for ur future <3

im fine! im better than ever! i got into the college of my choice! tbh a lot happened ever since i left tumblr lel sksks but yeah in short im doing far better than ever :)

[for sure tae w eyebrow slit, currently its that okokok lalalala song popular in reels LMAO but the bts one would DEFFFF be war of hormone coz woh tae-💕🤩😍 (alsoooo yeah i had died my hair purple in honour of borahae and woh tae heheheh), fav bts: ly answer (the facts that its my fav bts album oVERALL-) subunit: V JHOPE SUGA PLS ILL DIE ISTG]

i come around on tumblr a lot, the blogs i used to interact w and just hit the up w an ask and/or interact w their content, altho most ppl have gone on hiatuses and stuff 🥺

anyways good to have u back!! i hope u can keep tumblr a part of ur life and keep entertaining us w ur posts!! love you <3

OMGGG KTH ANON HEYYYYYYY LONG TIME NO SEE !!!!! aaaaa so good to see you're doing great, congrats on getting into the college of your choice THAT'S AMAZING NEWS ♡ and thank u sm for your lovely words mwah ♡

love that u answered for every poll i posted hahaha 😆💖 (also omg purple hair??? 👀💜)

[alyjojo]

January 🎆 2023 Monthly - Cancer

Whole of your energy: 4 Swords

I’m getting a heartbreak that’s come with a dark night of the soul type of energy, very spiritual in nature, there’s probably a spiritual awakening of sorts on the horizon for you. But right now, you’re feeling very low, and are taking a time out away from everyone and everything. It’s possible you’re sick and aren’t telling anyone, keeping it a secret from your friends & family. Or just the state you’re in right now. It happens 🙏 Don’t let it go too far , it’s just a season, not an inevitability 💜

What’s going on in January:

The Tower rev:

You avoided a disaster in your life by healing and rising above it, moving away from it, not letting it get to you or affect you. At least not in the moment, this could be the after effects of any number of things, especially grief and those kinds of very heavy emotions. Private grieving. A bit of blaming yourself, when it probably isn’t your fault at all. At least it doesn’t look like it is. This could be about very painful topics for some, on the lighter side I see a fkboy/girl, I’m gonna read it as a fkboy/girl, but if it is a darker topic…I know it’s possible, I’m not trying to be insensitive. If it’s someone else’s health, they may have avoided a disaster, but it’s got you questioning very deep topics like what are you going to do when/if you don’t have this person? Or you may have left a situation/person and now have regrets.

8 Cups:

This is the act of leaving, whether you left or someone else left, it was for peace of mind and knowing there’s more out there for you. Probably you, seeing how you avoided a Tower. That Tower would’ve hit you head on if you hadn’t. That’s the positive, things happened the best way they could have for things to work out for you how they have. You feel a way about this, but you did the right thing.

5 Pentacles:

Very deep emotions, sadness, a codependent need created in you/someone else due to abandonment issues…debt, financial losses. Nothing fun in this card, and it’s all due to a fkboy/girl breaking your heart. Or that’s switched. It could also be spontaneous actions and impulsive decision making without considering consequences, doesn’t necessarily have to be a person. A financial rut was dug and it stays, while you regret having ever decided whatever you decided. Could also be due to someone else that’s unreliable, impulsive and kinda reckless with actions. But you’re stuck with it.

2 Swords:

You don’t know what to do, you have a lot of options but none are clearly right for you, and they probably don’t help you get out of this hole or feeling, without a lot of effort anyway - Strength. You’ll need Strength to overcome this situation, and this also shows you not talking about what’s on your mind with other people.

7 Swords:

You could be avoiding work? I don’t think that’s going to work, not if it’s a financial problem. Besides that, any number of issues involving your work and 4 Swords…illness, canceled hours, losing your job, or simply avoiding everyone and not saying a word…just doing your job and going home, in this constant state of sadness. If you work with said fkperson, that could be why work is difficult for you now, you avoid talking to anyone about anything. It could also not be related at all, and your job is messing with your head as much as everything else, you just need a break from it all. Your color cards show a friend coming in, someone you can lean on and appreciate. Thank goodness. You can’t just stay in this energy, don’t hold back from your friends, they can only help as much as you allow them to.

Signs you may be dealing with:

Libra, Scorpio, Aries, Virgo & Sagittarius

Oracles: ✨

25 Sexual Energy 💋

In the purest sense, sexual energy is not an energy to be expanded from you. It is a state to reside in. The first and second chakras are the root of our sexual feelings. When you use this very potent energy to manipulate people and situations, you are doing yourself a huge disservice. When you expand your life force energy up from your first two chakras and incorporate the energy from your heart and crown, you can experience the most complete and Divine experience of sexual energy possible. This doesn’t even have to include another person. When you can merge your connection to Spirit with your connection to the earth, without any filters or blocks between the two, you will experience a complete and true connection.

We act as a conduit between heaven and earth. And when we can put ourselves into this energy at any given time, we are not tempted to use our sexual energy in a way that feeds our need for validation. Nor are we easily manipulated by another’s outputting of sexual energy. This card is asking you to look at where sexual energy is directed in your life.

We enter into January as: (the most spiritual color card of them all, to mirror your Hermit & High Priestess - which is Cancer’s card)

She Shaman 🧝🏾‍♀️

“I will guide you to your muse.”

She Shaman whispers to you “Do not be like the old birch and wait for anyone else to tell you of your muse. Connect with it!” This is your destiny calling. The path you have chosen is an artistic one. The universe is waiting for you to begin your dance and express your love in a tangible art form. The time is now, the moment has arrived, it is a time for decisions to be made. Dance! Rejoice! Do not seek council outside of yourself to confirm what you know to be true inside. Do not wait for permission to act. You must trust your instinct and act from the voice within. Let go of any need for approval, your answers are within. You will not be alone, Spirit is with you.

What is to be learned in January:

Rhonda Rhino of Amethyst 🦏:

“The road to divinity is paved in forgiveness.”

The true essence of Rhonda is that her dreams came true because she never harbored resentment, this card is about forgiveness. Because she didn’t take her mother’s suffering personally, she didn’t have to work it out. There is a lightness to staying reasonably detached from another’s anger & pain. We only need to forgive ourselves if we have judged others. Rhonda focuses on what her dream is, not what others have done to her, she is the essence of goodness and forgiveness, nothing changed that about her.

Purple may be a lucky color 💜

[joshkiszkasgothgf]

Comfort- Danny Wagner (Fluff)

This is for my lovely @dannythedog! I hope this brings you some comfort and a big smile!

Warnings: this contains talk regarding mental health (depression and anxiety to be precise) and may contain wording that could trigger some people. Please read with caution and stop reading if you find yourself affected negatively in anyway!

I love you guys, and struggle with mental health, myself. So, please listen to yourself and know that I’m here should you need someone to talk to! 💜

✨Masterlist✨

If anyone knew what it was like to drown on dry land, it was you (and probably any other poor sod “gifted” the curse of mental illness). It didn’t seem to matter how hard you fought, the watery feeling of tears managed to choke you from within turning your calm breaths into ragged gasps. You could feel your heartbeat in your ears, it too drowning out the sound of your perfect boyfriend entering your too dark apartment and calling your name.

You had taken up a spot on your couch yesterday morning and hadn’t moved unless absolutely necessary since. Dressed in your favorite pair of comfy pants and one of Danny’s hoodies, you didn’t feel leaving the nest you created since your mental health shat on you was as important as wallowing in the feeling of hopelessness.

Your thoughts seemed to agree. When was the last time you’d been able to focus on anything other than the feeling of despair overflowing like a Halloween fog machine in your chest? It surely hadn’t been anytime today… or yesterday… maybe the day before that?

“Baby!” Danny’s worried voice snaps you back to reality.

It’s then you realize he’s crouched on the floor in front of you, worry turning his warm eyes watery. He’s softly rubbing circles into your shoulder with one hand, the other is resting softly on your knee also circling in an attempt to soothe.

When he recognizes he has your attention he lowers his voice, “Sorry I scared you,” he whispers, “I hadn’t heard from you in a couple days and I was starting to get worried. Are you okay?”

You feel your lower lip tremble, an anxiety attack raring up within you as the dam breaks.

“I’m so sorry,” you sob, head falling forward, “everything just feels like too much. It seems like I can’t do anything right. And I made you worry about me, like what kind of partner does that?!”

Suddenly, he’s holding you, tight, as if hugging you too loosely may cause you to disappear. Your sobs become harder, words trailing into indecipherable nonsense as Danny shushes you softly. He’s pulled the hood of your hoodie down so he can drop soft kisses to the crown of your head.

You can feel his noses nuzzling into your hair as he presses his lips to your temple and whispers, “You are the greatest partner I could ask for, sweetheart. I know that sometimes the monsters in your mind tell you terrible things, but I want you to know they’re liars,” Danny clears his throat, holding back tears as he says, “I love you so much, and I need you to know that the monsters in your head are liars, because they have no idea how I see you,

“They have no idea that I keep extra scrunchies for you everywhere because I know you hate how regular hair ties get caught in your hair. They don’t know that I keep everything you ever give me, even if it’s just a joke gift, I have a special drawer in my dresser with all of your gifts; and next to that drawer is a drawer filled with clothes you left at my place, that way I know you always have something of yours to wear the next morning after you stay over. They don’t know I wake up thinking of you and when I go to bed I fall asleep replaying every moment I made you smile, cause, damn, baby, no light is brighter than your smile. And even the sun can’t hold a candle to your love.”

He has tears streaming down his face now as he cups your cheeks in both of his hands, thumbs smoothing over your drying tears as he continues,

“Did you know that I went out and bought your shampoo and conditioner, because when I’m on tour I miss you so much the only way I can fall asleep is if I smell like you? Or how about the fact that I’ve started saying ‘okie dokie’ because you use it so much, and it’s so fucking cute, that I’ve subconsciously adopted it?”

You attempt to hold in a giggle until Danny jumps into a story detailing how Sam had roasted him for being whipped. He doesn’t stop until your tears are from laugher and the drowning feeling is replaced by a welcome lightness.

Air fills your lungs in gasps as you wave at Danny, begging him to stop his dramatic reenactment of fighting Sam after the younger had called him a simp. It takes a moment for your giggles to die down, but, as soon as they do, Danny is crouched in front of you again.

He takes your face in his hands again, pressing a soft but deliberate kiss to your nose, then your cheeks, then your forehead and your eyes, then your jawline, and finally your lips. Danny puts every bit of love he has for you into this kiss, taking your breath away in a much more pleasant way than the last few days had.

He lets you pull away first, resting his forehead against yours.

Silence stretches on between the two of you as a minute passes… then 2… then 5… finally you take a deep breath in, opening your eyes to look into his.

“Hey, you,” he whispers. There’s a soft smile pulling at the corners of his mouth. “How are you feeling?”

You shrug. “I’m not perfect,” you whisper, “but I’m better now that you’re here.”

Danny takes one of your hands in his pressing a kiss to your knuckles. He then kisses each finger individually before kissing your palm and pressing it against his cheek.

You cup it softly, stroking his cheek with your thumb. You’re far from okay, but with Danny by your side you feel much better.

“Do you wanna watch a movie?” You ask after another comfortable beat of silence.

“Only if you’ll let me feed you and cuddle you while we watch it,” he responds, gesturing with his head to a takeout bag on the coffee table.

You nod, picking at your lip as a smile graces your lips. It’s small, but it’s genuine, and Danny can’t help but swoon as you bat your lashes up at him, blush coating your cheeks.

He knew you weren’t 100%, but he didn’t mind that, just as long as you were alive and well and with him, that’s all that matters. He pulls off his jacket and shirt, tossing them on the back of the couch, then makes his way over to your dvd cabinet while pulling his hair up into a bun.

“Holy shit,” he exclaims, “you have all of The Mummy and Scorpion King movies?!”

You laugh, “Yeah. We can watch them if you want. It’s been a long time since I saw them last.”

Danny nods enthusiastically, pulling the case off your shelf and turning on your PlayStation.

“Also, why the hell do you have so many DVDs? Don’t you have streaming services?”

You scoff.

“Are you, the man who literally listens to primarily vinyl and cassettes, judging me for owning DVDs?”

There’s a beat of silence in the room before your gentle giant turns to you with huge smile on his face. “Touché, my love, touché.”

He crawls onto the couch beside you controller in hand and reaches into the takeout bag you opened as he set up your movie to pull out an egg roll.

The rest of the night is spent pressed against his side munching on Chinese food and laughing at Danny’s commentary as Brendan Fraser and Rachel Weiss commence on their epic journey.

You weren’t your usual self, yet, but your negative mental health had subsided enough to let you feel almost normal again, and you had the beautiful man sitting beside you to thank. You press a kiss to his cheek, snuggling in closer as he picks up a piece of general chicken with his chopsticks and plops it into your mouth, airplane sound effects and all.

✨Masterlist✨

[robertsbarbie]

i reordered folklore/ evermore to show the cohesion of the full timeline and so i’m gonna list it below and my reasonings so y’all can psychoanalyze me all you want. also i’m sorry if this doesn’t make sense i’m literally mentally ill what do you expect.

1. illicit affairs

- the start of this whole lovely mess <3 it’s basically nearing the end of the love affair and how beautiful and shiny it was in the summer only to fall with the cold. many of the lyrics parallel the euphoria of summer love and we see some of the first signs of j*mes being lowkey manipulative with “you don’t matter to me in a real way” and august realizes the way she got lost in it.

2. hoax

- uh oh sisters betty just found out about the hashtag affair. lots of the imagery parallels the injustices done by someone you put your unconditional love in and no matter what she does she can’t draw herself out of it. she mapped out their whole life (as seen later in cardigan) dont talk to me about the bridge.. i’m aware but also it works okay. trust me.

3. betty

- okay so we’re well into the school year enough so that it’s actually a big noticeable deal when betty moves classes. the summer has finally caught up with them. IMMEDIATELY tries to blame betty and his own incompetence of being seventeen because come on who knows anything when they’re young? also party? hmm... sounds relevant to later in the story. admits august means nothing, it’s only always betty and so..... they get back together indicated by the last lyrics “kissing in my car again stopped at a streetlight you know i missed you” ... don’t get me started okay lmao

4. august

- baby i’m so sorry alkakaks basically everything in this song is showing august being burned. like she’s looking back at all she gave to james and hey she didn’t ask for more! so why is she feeling hurt at the fact he’s back with betty at school. like specifically the lyric “will you call when you’re back at school? i remember thinking i had you” indicating it wasn’t “just a summer thing” and she was still on james’ hook. and really august is just sad because she realizes that james wasn’t hers to lose (he was dating betty she was the one who had the right to be hurt) but she lost a part of herself all the same. also this has a messy timeline in my mind cause i think of it based right after betty and james get back together and also while they’re in college...

5. mirrorball

- this is a self reflective song for betty really. she realizes she’s giving so much of herself to others and the need to be this mirrorball and while she thinks she loves james she’s still falling to the point she’s gonna hit the ground and shatter. also not that i’m one to talk it kinda sets up the spiral of ✨mental illness✨ showing all the “crazy carnies” going home but her still being trapped in this act. (i also personally imagine this as their transition through college cause there needs to be year jumps regrettably 💜)

6. champagne problems

- i need to make one thing clear before we start, i’m a big advocate for the subject of champagne problems and think the lack of brain cells truly analyzing his character is annoying but in this timeline he’s james and i can’t stand him but any other time i love him and have thoughts tm about this specific story.

anyway. okay so we know this takes place after college. the allusions to the small town skeptics (how could james and betty make it? they’re so young? ect.) and as seen in mirrorball she’s just giving so much of herself that she realizes... this isn’t right. this isn’t what i want. james’ car... madhouses are often associated with fun houses a popular attraction at carnivals..... “our group of friends” they won’t share the same friends they’ll pick sides and everything that connects them will be cut. the dropped your hand while dancing line is honestly so interesting in this context because both exile and betty discuss the complexities of those you dance with. it’s important to note at this time in the timeline betty feels awful and responsible for this and when you pair it next to a lot of the wording in “betty” it’s like she still blames herself (also this will come later but ‘sometimes you just don’t know the answer’ parallels so nicely in the progression to “i don’t know anything” -> “i knew you”)

7. exile

- okay james is *bitter* bitter now 💜 i like to imagine this is a high school reunion or some shit a couple months after champagne problems. and betty has moved on with another guy and they’re, guess what? dancing. and she’s happy while james who has proposed is still stuck and he’s been defending her but now he feels wronged and hurt as if all the years they built meant nothing, she was just able to move on and it takes him back to when he and betty got back together but they still broke up in the end. THEN pan over to betty and it’s like he has no right to be upset because she’s had time to think it over and realized the tightrope she had been walking on was two thin and she couldn’t keep the balance anymore and it hurt but she had to let him go, it doesn’t help his eyes haven’t changed a bit. the she remembers how the dance when he saw her dance with someone else was the catalyst of their doomed relationship. and he made her feel like a burden (i hate this analysis but honestly in the sense of the timeline i’ll allow the parallel of “what a shame she’s fucked in the head”) there are subtle grasps of desperation on james’ part that he tried he just could never get through.

8. ‘tis the damn season

- guess who’s back bitches. that’s right AUGUST, it’s been years and they never really moved on from one another. she ran from that life determined to be better but now here she is back in the same place with the same guy, thinking “we used each other before why not again” i also like this narrative that august LEFT. and we see many parallels to previous encounters: “parked my car right between the methodist and the school that used to be ours”//“remember when i pulled up and said get in the car... meet me behind the mall” | “time flies messy as the mud on your truck tires”// “august slipped away into a moment in time cause you were never mine”// “your midas touch on the chevy door” | “sleep in half the day just for old times sake”//“i slept next to her but i dreamt of you all summer long” | just so many greta parallels. and it’s just gonna be another holiday fling, she knows it’s only breaking her heart he doesn’t care..

9. gold rush

- august stayed. or i guess he followed her? i’m a little hazy but nevertheless it’s that cautious anxiety about him when she know she shouldn’t. both LA and “august” could be the costal towns. it also showcases this built up life she has for them but knows he’s everyone else’s before he’s hers. her mind even goes as far as to turn his life into folklore, this story to live on and not just be something she reminisces about. now, and this is important, this all is playing out in her head while she’s debating to “jump in” to james so to speak it’ll make sense with this next song

10. willow

- i need you all to know at this point i’m going insane. so to speak august jumped in fully, watching as her life bends to his wind/ whim and how she made the comeback this is her moment but theres still the slipping of wine imagery, the sneaking into bed, his words lulling her sense of self, she ends up giving up control and herself to him allowing him to wreck her plans and there’s nothing on earth to convince me they don’t get married at the ending sequence.

11. tolerate it

- years later into marriage and august is 👏 unhappy 👏 because haha james has grown bored but she’s doubting if this is really over. she does everything in her power to keep his love, over looking his cheating and reasoning that he’s no longer younger he knows what he’s doing, honestly the correlation with her having lived in LA and the tendency when you’re young to get stuck in your age and yeah. and she doesn’t want to be something he forgets and slips away but she feels the pressure she’s taking up too much space in his life, like an inconvenience. and then she realizes she holds all the power. could bring all of this down cause she knows she can survive but she wants to know if there’s a chance. cause she knows she deserves better.

12. happiness

- theyre divorced, and now august is able to objectively look at their life together AGAIN THE FUCKING DANCING IMAGERY LIKE TALK DONT FUCKONH UNDERSTAND THE MUSIC STOPPED WHILE SHE WAS DANCING SHE NEVER DROPPED HIS HAND AND GOD ANYWAY she knows past the scars there was love it just wasn’t enough. and again i’m sad for her because she knows she’ll just be replaced like betty was... i’m so sad alkaksjsjdjf. and she really, she really doesn’t blame him she knows there was love on both parts but in the end they just hurt each other, seeing it for what it is. the pillow she could feel him sneaking in on.... i hate it here.

13. my tears richochet

- everything is said and done. and while they loved each other they didn’t love each other enough. and she did it she left them in ruin but now as it’s happening she’s seeing the fall out of it all and of course no one likes a madwoman so he stands with a perfect smile as her world falls apart. but she’s not sad so much as angry and lost, wedding imagery of what their life was,,,,,, dont talk to me about it okay. the discussion of she can go anywhere but home to her *insert ‘beloved’ meme* and she knows she KNOWS he’ll miss her, if only in a haunting. and when all is said and done their weapons only sunk below the fears, he became what he never wanted while she found herself in away.

(i will say 12/13 are interchangeable)

14. cardigan

- back to betty, now it’s betty’s turn to look back on her life. it’s starts with this romantical sense of what was and the ties you have to your favorite cardigan. “chase two girls lose the ONE” yes i think this directly relates to the “the 1” dont fucking look at me. also the position of “when you are young they assume you know nothing.” it was almost spiteful saying people just assumed betty was blind to james being a cheating dick but she had history with him and a love that came around once in 20 lifetimes much less one she didn’t wanna give that up. she only wanted the simple things. james wanted to dress it all up, even the ugly parts no matter who it could hurt in the long run. “i knew you stepping on the last train”// “you took the night train for a reason” james tried to change the ending by coming back but it didn’t work and it led to a hurricane of damage. even so he still lingers and she knew it would, she knew it haunt her and he’d come back because he always comes back. and while i firmly believe she actually never saw james again i can see him showing up on her doorstep after his divorce. it’s just it’s over all a sad nostalgic song of knowing someone and what that unfortunately entails no matter how bad you wnat it to be something else.

15. coney island

- listen i know there’s a m*n on this track but it’s kind of like a look back from both august and betty, wondering what in their lives went wrong? was it that they didn’t make james their priority, or themselves a priority? and it plays this loop of what if’s and how different their lives would be given one non interlocking part (read: james) the mall.... “were you waiting at our old spot.... did i leave you hanging every single day?” what if august hadn’t met up with james in secret, would leaving him hanging change anything? “standing in the hallway with a big cake happy birthday did i paint your bluest skies the darkest gray” what if august never happened (or betty never found out) and james was INVITED to the party would it still end in absolute ruin and darkness for betty only somehow more so? “when i walked up to the podium i think that i forgot to say your name” what if august went back to la and forgot about her summer fling, accomplished big things. things slip so fast when you’re young and you can’t help but wonder if one thing had been different would everything be different. this would be the album closer it makes cohesive sense but also alskakjskdjd

Bonus Tracks:

1. the 1

- betty has grown and healed and still catches glimpses of those shadows but overall she’s happy with her life. there’s only the lingering of what could have been, she knows the life is bittersweet and sometimes we still want it but we can only see it in memories with rose colored glasses. very very very much the musings of thinking about your first love.

2. right where you left me

- august, okay as like with betty these are nostalgias later in life so yeah. as we witnessed with most of august’s story time kept slipping through her fingers but now she’s stuck, like she constructed a loop of the events. because james was supposed to be the one, not the one she breaks up. if she could just freeze time everything could stay perfect but it blends with the horrid, and reality. she doesn’t want to be there but she can’t help it she’s still holding out hope it was all just some mistake.

(also like here’s the thing i know i could find a better ending for august if i really tried but i don’t have access to woodvale yet so this is what we’re stuck with)

** lots of these songs are stories/ timelines themselves so sometimes they don’t line up exactly as seen in august, hoax, ect

and yeah this probably doesn’t make sense and you all probably don’t care but i’ve genuinely thought about this numerous times and these aren’t even HALF my thoughts

[wattscn]

hello!! 💞 just stopping by to see how you are <3 I'll ask my same question: bake anything interesting? And I'll tell you that I made some Oreo truffles that are,,,, very sweet but sometimes that's what you need 😤

it feels like it's been forever since I last stopped by here tho...how is everything?? Any new games or is apex still your main?? I can't say anything,,, genshin still has an absolute grip on me 😔

anyways I hope you're staying cool and getting enough rest ✨💞

hii angel!! thank you for stopping by 🥺 oreo truffles sound heavenly rn 🥰 the last thing i made was a lemon cake w blueberry frosting! i.. made the frosting sickeningly sweet asfjsjd but i am now in love w lemon cake so. 😭✨️

everything has been okay! hanging in there 😌💕 apex is still 100% my main game atm!! tho i have been playing a bit more back 4 blood,, sometimes overwatch,, but i always seem to come back to it 😭

i hope you've been having fun w genshin!! i have been meaning to play more of it <33 ill be honest the way u get characters still confuses me tho ajdksjd

its nice to hear from you!! how have you been? do you have any plans this summer? 💜✨️

[borathae]

SIBIII CH34🥺🥺

I MEAN WE KNEW YG WAS COMING BACK... BUT DAMN SOMEBODY ELSE HAS RETURNED! N IM LOVING THIS ONE AS WELL!!😭😚

I THINK IT MAY BE RISKY N EVEN DUMB TO SOME BUT TO ME THE WAY OC STRAIGHT UP TELLS JK THAT FK IT IM NOT SCARED OF U JUST RELAX IS SUCH A GREAT THING... IT MAKES ME SO PROUD.🥺🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

MAYBE IM READING INTO THINGS BUT SIB, LISTEN-

YG licking her wound off also symbolises his return... he is here to protect her, but he is also gentle about her, uk in animal kingdom licking is a gesture of care but simaltaneously showing whats theirs... its like marking territory?😂 But anyways THIS MOMENT WAS TOO INTIMATE TO ME... THE WAY THEY HUGGED AND

I missed you😭😭😭😭😭😭

IF ONE THING HAS REMAINED CONSTANT THRU YEARS OF YGS LIFE IS HIS RESILIENCE... if he decides one thing.. he does it... he decided he ll be more communicative(is this a word?🤔) and he did that! YG IS ALWAYS IN A MENTAL WORKOUT N TBH I DONT THINK ANYBODY ELSE CUD DO IT THAT GUD🤗

Yup he IS still grumpy!😭😂

Yoongi Boongie😂😂😭😭😭😭 OC🤗🤗

When YG growled at first i was like TOO MUCH ... NONONO BACK OFF ITS OK EVERYTHING IS OKKK

BUT THEN😳

YES YG WE LOVE U🤗😚

THE KISS😳✨😭😭

HIM SAYING SHE IS BEAUTIFUL😳✨😭

Tell me what you think SOMETIMES IT HITS ME HOW U R GRADUALLY CHANGING MY TYPE OF MEN I LIKE... NOW I LIKE GRUMPY BUT SOFTIE VAMPIRE BOYS... N GUESS WHAT SIBI!!!!?!?!?!?!?! THEY DONT EXIST🙂

UGH ITS OK OC IS LEARNING TOO.... ITS HARD FOR HER TOO... I dont want to bring myself in btw but sib uk im so tired of the entire dating-crush culture, i deliberately pushed away the only one person i felt anything for after 2-3 yrs... someone who pulled me out of my anxiety and self harm phase... just cuz its hard for me to see them giving their 100% to me while i always fail to keep up as im too busy trying to deal wid my fucked up head, i cant keep hurting them while they keep trying to stop making me hurt so much all the time... so i meant WE CANT EVEN IMAGINE WHAT IT TAKES TO HAVE 3 PPL WHO MEAN SO MUCH TO YOU... AND KEEP GIVING UR BEST TO ALL... AND ON TOP OF IT THEM BEING VAMPS N ALL THE BACKSTORY... ITS NOT EASY.

HE IS FINALLY SPEAKING HIS HEART OUT... N I LOVE IT. I LOVE IT.✨✨💓

THE ENDING OF THIS CH😭😭😭😭😭

SIB I HV MAJOR ISSUES WID LETTING GO THINGS I LIKE... I CANT GIVE OUT A TSHIRT I GOT WHEN I WAS 13 THAT DOESNT EVEN FIT ME CUZ I FEEL IT HAS MEMORIES... I CANT LET GO OF A RANDOM PENCIL CUZ IT HAS MEMORIES😂... YA IM A BIT OF A FREAK AND IHV NEVER BEEN SO ATTACHED TO A STORY BEFORE... N SA IS ENDING. ITS A LIL TOO MUCH FOR ME RN SO IM JUST IGNORING IT... ILL LET ALL OF IT HIT ME AT ONCE WHEN THE LAST CH COMES OUT... TILL THEN ... IM LOVING EVERYTHING U R BRINGING TO US... IHV SAID THIS BEFORE ILL SAY IT AGAIN... I ADORE YOU.💜💜💜

-The Yelling Anon

TO ME THE WAY OC STRAIGHT UP TELLS JK THAT FK IT IM NOT SCARED OF U JUST RELAX IS SUCH A GREAT THING... IT MAKES ME SO PROUD.🥺🙌🏻

Okay but it is!! 😔😔

No but like I totally get you about the licking part. I wouldn't say that this was Yoongi marking her as his' and more an honest symbol of "I am back and you're finally safe again. I promise as long as I am here you are safe. You won't find no harm through me" and honestly this is ripping me apart :(

Tell me what you think SOMETIMES IT HITS ME HOW U R GRADUALLY CHANGING MY TYPE OF MEN I LIKE... NOW I LIKE GRUMPY BUT SOFTIE VAMPIRE BOYS... N GUESS WHAT SIBI!!!!?!?!?!?!?! THEY DONT EXIST🙂

HAHAHAH THIS IS ME @ MYSELF IN THE MIRROR like bitch please chill we all know that irl men aren't like that HAHAHAHAH although yoongi does give off major "written by a woman" vibes sO 😩

just cuz its hard for me to see them giving their 100% to me while i always fail to keep up as im too busy trying to deal wid my fucked up head, i cant keep hurting them while they keep trying to stop making me hurt so much all the time

Sometimes you have to remember that a burden is something that was forced upon your shoulders. And if you do, then remember that this person chose to shoulder your struggles, which means you can't be a burden to them.

And also pulling away from a person hurts them a lot too. Especially when they are left with "holy fuck I actually loved them a 100% and even that wasn't enough to keep someone in my life. what's seriously wrong with me and my personality?" that shit fucks someone up.

Which is also really interesting because you also said that you can't let things go. Dropping people comes easy but letting go of an inanimate object is difficult, very interesting 🤔👀

This wasn't me throwing shade btw just us doing our little phsych analysis HAHAHAH I FEEL YOU THOUGH I SERIOUSLY DON'T WANT SANGUIS ALPHA TO END :( IT HURTS ME :( 😭💜

[hyunjinspark]

hellloooo~~ first of all sorry this took so long ive been really busy lately with moving again soon ;-; but the most recent chapter???? 😳😳 this is boutta be LONG so get comfy bby 🥰

first! im gonna be honest i was really impatient when the chapter first started and yn and hyunjin couldnt find each other cause i just wanted to see them interact but! i actually found that i liked that A LOT actually because it made me feel what they were probably feeling and added more depth to it (if that even makes sense??? idk to me it does i hope you get what i mean?? 🤨)

and then the balcony scene????? hello????? my HEART?????? that scene was literally everything i keep on rereading it over and over and over no joke 🥲 its so touching and you can really tell how much they enjoy and find comfort in being in each others presence 🥺 and then when yn asked about hyunjins fave artist and wanted to talk about what he was interested in and get to know him i MELTED 🥲🥲🥲 and his reaction too 🥺 i know he was confused/startled at first but i can imagine it definitely meant a lot to hear that instead of the expected “youre hot” typa statement like he said

theyre relationship developing in general is so !!!!!! im in love with them being in love 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

okay but then yeji????? MAAM????? 👁👄👁👀👄👀 when yn responded to hyunjin that it feels like yeji told HER about them i absolutely LOST IT cause fr WHAT???? the way she was talking about them tho makes me a bit less nervous about how shell react when she actually is told whats been going on but yiKe i dont wanna jinx it so ill just 🤭🤭🤭

moving on tho, the scene where hyunjin walks in when han and the boys are talking breaks my heart cause its the dreaded moment where he only hears a very select few parts of the convo that dont give enough context at ALL and i just KNEW hed be dwelling on it later 🥺😔 quick question tho, when he came back and felix was like: “oh my b it was in my pocket the whole time” was he being honest? or did he purposely ask him to go look for his phone so he could talk to the other boys alone or something?? i assumed it wasnt intentional but idk 🤷🏻‍♀️

finally, the ending really was a cherry on top cause i know how amazing it feels to FINALLY be home/in bed after your social meter has been completely run dry and the fact that they went home together and didnt even do anything at first and were completely content with only cuddling and being in the comfort of each others arms made me so 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 theyre so precious (later on tho oop! 😳🥵🥵🥵🥵)

anyways, i think theres A LOT more i had to say but im pretty sure that was the gist of it (also i dont wanna be giving you a whole chapter of feedback to read as well lol) once again tho thank you so much for putting so much time and effort into this wonderful story! i truly love getting to read every update and im still amazed at how you can express so much in your writing!! ✨immaculate✨

im gonna go now and continue streaming like hell but i hope the rest of your day is good or was good 💜💜 bye bye~

- 💜

hi hi hi, was super late to answer this but finally got around to it.

firstly, yes ! i was impatient writing it too but that's what the feeling i wanted to convey was, how they're both feeling at not being able to find each other at the party, so it makes me happy you felt that way.

secondly, im so so glad you loved the balcony scene!!! i feel like fluff is tricky to write cause it can sometimes too get much or too cheesy or worse, cringey, but im so glad you enjoyed it to the point of multiple reads. 💓 i also really wanted to emphasize on the realness of their conversation, and it not just revolving around sex like it usually does.

thirdly, yes yeji was super casual about everything and we'll see what she knows and more about it in the coming chapters.

fourth, yes i know it can be such a cliche to overhear selectively and have it run the plot, but that happens irl too sometimes and misunderstandings take place. to answer your question, yes felix did do that on purpose so hyunjin could leave.

finally, im so glad you enjoyed the smut and the scene at home!! i wanted to show the contrast between the energies of the party and them at home, and it makes me so soft.

thank you so much for this wonderful review. 😭😭😭😭💓💓💓 now i expect chapter long reviews for all my written parts