#AWUGHH...

[monards]

pretty girl in class textign me. imm too lesbo for this

[isa-ah]

i have formally and officially entered the loop. sigh.

[wizardfvcker]

rose's little smile where she puts her tongue between her teeth is nuclear explosion levels of devastating

[moomoorare]

Awake. Ough. Doctor . Ough

[astronomical-bagel]

I wanna hear you talk about chilchuck the most that sure is a guy ever

YAY I GET TO TALK ABOUT MY GUY THANK YOU BELOVED MUTUAL KYSOOT 

(Warning for lots of spoilers from chapter 30 of the manga (right after the red dragon))

Anyways fun fact! The thing that made chilchuck my favorite character was actually when he was trying to convince senshi to lie to the Laios and Marcille in order to get them to turn back and give up on finding falin. I made a whole post about it too, i LOVE cowards. I was reading in my car waiting my twin to get off work and i was screaming my head off the whole time because it was such a good revelation about his character.

And it’s not that i love scared guys (i do, absolutely, but chilchuck doesnt apply here), and its not that i love disloyal people (i also do, but once again, not the point), its the whole character arc where it goes:

1. Once he reaches a limit for how much danger he is willing to be in he will break any moral code of his to keep himself safe. He will lie, he will abandon his friends, whatever, so long as he makes it out alive. 

2. But THEN, he realizes that his want for safety isn’t just for himself, this time. He realizes that he wants his friends to survive as well. (and that he has gotten way more attached than what was in his job description)

(look how fond he is!!!! Look how fond he is!!!!!! Im banging my head on the wall AWUGHH!!!!)

So 3. He is forced to go against his own nature of secrecy and being reserved and has to tell the team outright that he doesn’t want them to die.there is just something sooo *vague waving of hands* about a guy who absolutely hates talking about his feelings being forced to do so auughhhh. And he did it to convince Laios to not be reckless and get himself killed!!!!

That entire chapter had such a good journey through chilchuck’s emotional state. From him beign 100% ready to trick them in order to turn around (even contemplating breaking marcille’s staff!), then reminiscing on the fun or brave moments that theyd just had, then remembering that he was mad at them for being idiots and doubling down on his decision. When talking to that orc woman (Leed), he was trying to convince himself that his actions were justified, not just her. 

And I also quite like the moment when Leed realizes that Chilchuck isn’t angry at the others for putting him in danger, but for putting themselves in danger. Chilchuck didn’t realize this himself yet! Him saying that he wished the others would give up, even when he was removed from the equation, makes Leed realize that he is unselfishly wanting them to turn back so that they would be safe.

And when she points this out, Chilchuck is absolutely gobsmacked and barely even talks for the rest of the trip because he’s too busy thinking over this revelation. Love a guy who keeps to himself being forced to reconcile with the fact that he has actual friends he cares about now. Look at him!! Hes so shocked he doesn't even know what do to with himself !!! I love him!!!

And also, another part i really liked abt this chapter is when chilchuck is trying to convince Laios to go back and he’s like “LISTEN i know you are absolutely terrified for your sister but I have THREE PEOPLE TO WORRY ABOUT AND IM NOT USED TO THAT IM GOING TO VOMIT” its just so silly and endearing to me because he really isn’t used to caring about so many people at once – he’s a reserved guy who has been living alone for multiple years! – and its just so important to me because he’s been forced to acknowledge that he cares about his team so hes like “if you guys put yourself in mORE danger im going to scream and cry and throw up SO YOU BETTER TURN BACK NOW PLEEEAASEE”

Anyways, chapter 30 was so well done and was an absolutely fascinating insight into his character and I was instantly obsessed. There’s a lot of other reasons why I like Chilchuck, but this chapter is the definitive reason why he’s my favorite. (I also just like seeing a guy when he’s terrified, sue me.)

[daisy-has-too-many-wives]

🫵 pretty eyes

you can not argue. there's a poem now so it must be true

awughh *explodes*

[strange-doll-child]

Also, you are a banger artist

Awughh thank you <3

[mishkakagehishka]

i know i said hi to you like. two hours ago but that feels like an entire day ago so. hi again. got any mika thoughts? any thoughts on spooky season? i suppose it's not surprising that you don't celebrate halloween, but at the same time it's fascinating to me... are there any other holidays in Croatia that are similar?? (i feel like you've mentioned one but i'm bad at remembering orz)

Awughh hiii! Hm, we can combine, how ab spooky mika thoughts? But ig that can turn to yand pretty quickly.

Hmhmhm how about a lil ramble for the uquiz? I'm still bad at making up questions, but I like my plan so far. Introductiory questions asking ab the player's general habits and personality, and then seguing through that into setting the scene. Gradual passing from the foyer of the manor to the various rooms and hallways where you have to get around various traps and such. I'm still wondering on that... I'd think Mika's traps and Shu... idk what role I want Shu to take on tbh. He's the "puppetmaster" but he should be more active himself since one of the bad endings is being killed by him. I'll have to think on it as I write that. But about Mika! I think he'd work traps. He still can't see in the dark so his tell is recently-put-out candles and such, and he'd set up traps in advance. I guess, then, Shu can be the one directly trying to harm you. I guess I still have time to see. More on Mika (i'm writing this stream of consciousness without much editing since i'm Exhausted so i apologise if it feels all over the place😭). I think he deserves to be Very Creepy with this concept. Entirely silent, but after he places the traps he still stalks the player because he still needs to lay the finishing blow when they do get trapped. For example, while one trap can break their leg and trap them, he'd still need to kill them. So there could be the added unease of feeling someone's eyes on you constantly or even hearing faint footsteps.

As for celebrating! Yeah, Halloween isn't much of a celebration here. We have carnival traditions (or fašnik, or maškare) where people dress up, eat fried dough foods, burn big dolls of Krnjo (the poor guy we blame all our problems on - and then symbolically execute him for those crimes), and so on. It's not exactly creepy (as Meowyoi argued with me), but there are also traditions like the bellmen (zvončari) whose function was to like. Chase out evil spirits by ringing bells and wearing scary masks. It's fun, but bc people dress up and make merry for it, and because All Hallows' Day is still a holiday here, there wasn't really much reason for Halloween to stick, I guess? Like, of course, some people like it more than others, and you can buy SpookyTM stuff in October, but you'll sooner get "trick-or-treaters" (aka "maškare") in February than in October. So we don't get discounted candy either. :(

[chocokeyboard]

HELLL i accidentally reblogged on falce ask blog again awughh

[ushimimihandjobs]

Hi

AWUGHH

[manishroom]

awughh i went out yesterday and saw genuinely so many people wearing pink shirts, dresses etc it was everything

[trainpalsforthawin]

trevor

IVLOVE HIM I CRIED WHEN I WATCHED THAT ONE EP WHERE HE CRIED ALSO AWUGHH😭😭😭 Hes such a wholesome character plsss. he also deserved better than getting that One joke ascribed to him yknow the one.

[sk3tchysakuraa]

Doodle of my IJ oc. Not much about them, but they’re a shapeshifter. Void is their nickname bc their real form is just a glop hdhd. Void uses they/she, speaks in third person and likes to stay in their main fake form a lot (which is the one seen here heh). They use to work in the cloning department as an assistant, still deciding stuff for Void awughh.

[transandor]

and somewhere else, on a island unreachable to those not chosen, a group of friends wonder where their friend went. Perhaps he decided to run away from his past

AWUGHH :(

[strange-doll-child]

*Caretaker having a panic attack because she can’t find her dog*

*her dog just peacefully sleeping under some clothes she accidentally threw onto them.*

AWUGHH POOR WOMAN HDB

Probably never picked Bones up faster when she found her my god dhhdh

[mishkakagehishka]

Tbh most of blue exorcist is rly bad, the only redeeming part are the demon kings

Awughh tbh i think i've read the beginning few chapters and i thought it was ~okay but it's also been a while </3 sad.