#Billy ages 10 years everytime he thinks about this

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Hank Williams anon. I grew up with country music and I love certain artists tbh (Johnny Cash, Patsy Cline and Dolly Parton)and I am SO here for Billy and Patsy Cline! An uncle of mine loved Hank Williams and that was his favorite HW song, which always cracked me tf up, and I can't imagine any other country song more hilarious than that for them to hook up to, esp those lyrics "Son of a gun we'll have big fun". I am so happy it's made you laugh as well! 😌 YESSS lmao @ Billy's ego death. He would eternally cringe and Stu would never stop reminding him of it. NEVER. I find the idea of Billy suffering like this hilarious so to make it even worse for him I'm headcanoning that is Stu's dad's favorite HW song, he sings/whistles/listens to it a lot and that has definitely happened since they hooked up to it, when Billy's at Stu's, at which point his soul left his body while Stu was killing himself laughing. I can see Stu incorporating those fucking lyrics into everything too, like they'll be talking about framing Mr.Prescott for the massacre at the party and he'll be like "Goodbye, Joe, he gotta go, me oh my oh". and he loves the fact that he is the only one who can get away with doing this to Billy. lmaooo you are so right about that 91 song, Stu absolutely would. and totally with the lyrics too. Headcanons fully accepted! I can picture him either saying lyrics that sound like something he might be saying seriously when they're hooking but they sound too long/or rhyme so it takes Billy a minute, OR just flat out saying lyrics like the ones from that 91 song and Billy's like... sonofabitch (I love the idea that in the au where they live and they are still together in modern days he stillll does this and Billy will be like IT'S BEEN 30+ YRS AND YOU'RE STILL ANNOYING AS FUCK. Stu: It's been 30+ yrs and you're still down bad as fuck /smug). lmao yesss that "Stu's love language is being annoying" tag! my love language is so similar and my s.o would literally never speak to anyone else who tormented them as much as I do, so it is ridiculously easy and funny for me to picture this😌 and lmaoooo I apologize for the length of this!

No apologies necessary this is so funny anon- Also cause you brought up Dolly, another Stu song is dumb blonde.

GOD Billy at the Macher house after dinner, Mr Macher standing up after dinner to clear the table, starts fucking whistling the song

Stu:

Billy:

Also yeah I’m such a big fan of them as this old married couple, fully still behaving like teenagers with each other. Billy keeps threatening to leave and it just gets less and less convincing every time, and Stu is SO SMUG.

40 year old Stu like: Hey remember that time I got you to fuck me to my dads favourite song?

40 year old Billy like: I can’t wait to die so I never have to think about this again.

LMAO good shit anon, keep torturing the s/o with that lol shit agenda 🤙🏻

[themusicmansstuff]

Hive headcanons that i have but make little sense

When they escaped being frozen they were all sick for weeks

Billy numerous has full on conversations with his clones when he’s alone

Everybody has walked in on them at least once

The hive have 2 photographs of the team framed somewhere in the base like lil family photos

One is with jinx and the other is without

Gizmo is like 10 years old

either seemore or mammoth cook, if not then they all get takeout

Kyd brought home a cat once while it was raining and now it roams outside of the base

Everytime it rains its brought inside

Seemore became the new leader after jinx left

Speaking of jinx and the titans and such i think they would lay low for a while but still do some light thievery

Seemore, mammoth and kyd prefer to go to the mall for their stealing while billy and gizmo go to video game stores

Gizmo is some sort of meta human

He is also Russian

I based this one off a fanfiction but billy watches crime documentarys

They all enjoy watching fnaf playthroughs

Mammoths favorite movie is ice age

They all have gotten much closer after jinx left for fear of others leaving

They have movie nights every friday and 7/10 its either an ice age movie or a tmnt movie

They are all also mega monkey fans and i hc that there is a movie being made about it in universe that they all plan to see in the theater

They plan to sneak into the theater

Seemore stole a record player because he thought it looked cool but kyd and billy are the ones who actually use it

The hive had to move bases due to jinx knowing where the old one was so billy sadly had to leave his cars behind

They all tried living in an apartment once as “normal civilians” while they were laying low

During that time, seemore got a job as a fast food employee, kyd got a job as a cashier, mammoth got a job as a construction worker and billy dragged gizmo along to a mechanic job he got

Getting the jobs were very hard cuz of their criminal records that needed to be hidden but the jobs sucked, payed not enough for rent and the apartments in general were gross and cramped

They did manage to get that annoying guy next door evicted after he played music way to loud for the 50th time so they count that as a win

They ended up just scrounging around for abandoned placed after they left the apartments and lived in an abandoned hidden hotel in the city

By hidden i mean that one of the only entrances was in a thin alleyway and the others were barricaded

They went to a fair after they settled in the new place and ran into the titans including jinx and kid flash

They did that thing where they disappeared behind a passing truck and just booked it all the way home

They went back next week

They had horses at the fair and thats when kyd found out he was allergic to horses

Also gizmo brought home a rat and kept it in his room for a month before anybody found it

This is getting too long so ill cut it here but ill post some more hive hcs later

[plaid-shirtsandvibranium-arms]

SEVEN

Dealer's choice, because I almost regretted asking you why you didn't include any names. I shudder at the possibilities.

7. go to a wedding with, go to a party with, go to a museum with

Send me an Ask for fmk alternatives.

Go to a wedding with?

Because baby boy looks fucking good in a suit. But also he's the perfect date to get your family off your back. He's a lawyer. He's got his own firm. He's charismatic. He's a vigilante but maybe let's not tell our friends and relatives that yet.

He's also perfect because you can just spend the whole ceremony and party gossiping about what he overhears with his heightened senses to keep you both entertained.

"The groom's heart rate is erratic as hell. What do you think? Excitement?"

"Regret probably."

Some random auntie sitting in front of you will probably be turning around in her seat to shush both of your barely contained laughter because you're apparently ruining the moment.

"Your cousin thinks we make a cute couple?"

"Does she think that or do you, Matt?"

"I've been thinking it for years now, sweetheart. What do you say?"

Go to a party with?

You saw this coming. Don't lie. You can take Billy to any kind of party and he would blend in seamlessly. He can go black tie charity gala or dive bar casual. The fact that he's just so fucking pretty will mean that he is the arm candy. I just like the thought of wearing Billy Russo around my arm like a damn accessory and be shameless about it.

You can also spend the night trying to outdo one another. Shots. Indecent proposals from the other guests. Whoever can get away with the most inappropriate touching without anyone noticing.

"I just got propositioned by a senator. 10 points. Your play, Russo."

"Well then I'm just gonna have to make you scream my name with my fingers in your cunt, huh pretty girl?"

You regard him silently, tapping your chin as you thought before nodding.

"30 points if you actually make me cum."

Go to a museum with?

It's a museum of course I wanna go with Bucky. I think Bucky would prefer quieter dates. Less crowds. Not a lot of noise. Places he doesn't have to get worried about being recognized so much. He's still iffy about being out in the public, but he does it for you because the 40s gentleman in him still believes it's only proper to take you out on real dates.

You would just slowly stroll around the exhibits with your hands interlaced as he points out a few interesting things. He liked museums because it was also a way for him to learn about other stuff he missed out on and stuff he never really got the privilege to learn growing up.

His eyes light up the most though when he spots something he knows and he's all excited as he pulls you toward it while he's listing off facts to you. You were always teaching him things in this new world that he found it so gratifying whenever he could teach you something in return. You're really just happy watching him look so relaxed and carefree. Just happy.

"I'm boring you, aren't I, doll?" he would chuckle, but also he's worried that it was true. It would always be a reassuring touch from you that brought him back from his messy thoughts. This time you tossed in a playful wink and a smile to lighten the somber mood he was almost slipping into.

"Never. Besides, how many times can I say that a fossil is educating me about fossils?"

And that's your cue to run because everytime you teased him about his age he had a tendency to prove to you just how spry he was. Judging by the low growling behind you, you better run fast. Or not.

[tremendoustenderness]

Wouldn't it be nice?

Here's what really happend to Billy in California.

Author's note:

This is a reimagining of the memories of California Eleven saw in Billy's mind (shown in Stranger Things season 3 chapter 6).

Paring

Billy Hargrove/ original male character

Trigger warning for canon-typical homophobia/slurs coming from Billy's father.

. . .

There's a boy.

He's young. Ten, maybe eleven. Still missing a tooth. His hair ocean-wet.

He's running out of the water, towards a woman standing on the otherwise empty beach.

The woman, she's beautiful with her wind-swept hair and kind eyes. She's laughing, cheering for the boy running towards her.

"You did it!", the woman congratulates him.

"Did you see that?", the boy asks, eyes wide with excitement.

"Yeah, I saw that", the woman answers him . She plants a kiss on his forehead.

"That wave was at least seven feet!

"I don't know what it was but it almost gave me a heart attack." Her hand rests on his shoulder.

"10 more minutes?" ,the boys asks.

She hesitates. Eyes flicking quickly to the ocean and then back to the boy in front of her. "Yeah, OK. 10 more minutes. But not any longer than that or Dad will be mad." Her small falters just the slightest bit at the last few words.

"OK", Billy says and with that he runs back to his surfboard eager to return to the waves.

Behind him he hears his mother call. "Billy, watch out for rip currents."

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Billy tries to run but his father is already behind him, grapping him by the sleeve of his baseball jersey.

"Hey! Billy stop. What the hell is wrong with you? What did we talk about, huh? You gotta swat."

His father is now standing before him, knees bent so their eyes are on one level. He still has his sons arm in his slightly too tight grasp. Billy's eyes flick away from his father intense stare and to the bat still in his hands.

"I... I know" , he stammers.

"You afraid you're going to get hurt? Is that it?" His grip tightens.

"No?" He doesn't know what his father wants to hear. Just wants him to stop.

"Then what? What? What is it? Do I have a pussy for a son?", his father screams

"Leave me alone." Bill cries out and tears away from his father's grasp.

"That's right. Run like you always do. "

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It's the first time in a week that he has heard from her.

"I don't understand. Please mom."

"I can't come home, Billy. I am sorry. I just... can't." Her voice is quiet on the other line.

"Why not? Don't do this. come home."

"Everything will be Fine, Billy Just stay with your Dad. Try not to upset him, OK? I will visit you soon. "

"No! How long? How long?

Mom, I miss you."

But the line is already dead.

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They are standing in the kitchen. The work surface is littered with cigarettes and empty bottles.

Billy, now a teenager, is backed up against the table.

"Where were you last night?" , his father demands, spit flying from his mouth. "Where the f*ck were you?"

"I told you. I was with Wendy from school." Billy wills himself to like his father right into his wild eyes.

"Stop lying to me!" He steps closer to Billy, his father a violent red.

"I am not lying to you!" Billy tries to keep keep his voice steady.

"You saw him again, didn't you?" Billy's father roughly graps his arms, his fingers digging into his skin. "That fucking worthless piece of shit! Did you?"

Get away from me! Billy screams back at him . He tries to shake off his father's grip but then his father slaps him square across the face. The impact sends Billy stumbling. He falls to the ground, his throbbing cheek colliding with the cheap lineuleum floor. His head is spinning.

"You goddamn f**got!" , his father spits at him. "I told you to keep away from people like that! I told you! As if it's not already enough that you're fucking f**! This is why your mother fucking left us! You ruined this family! It's all your fault!"

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It's the beach again. This time at night. Small ripples break underneath the moonlight on the ocean's endless surface.

Billy, now a teenager, is sitting in the sand with his legs crossed beneath him, his pants and already short sleeves rolled up to accommodate the still lingering heat. His eyes are focused on the ground before him where his right hand is tracing shapes in the still warm sand. Slightly shorter curls fall before his face, barely covering a bruise on his right cheek.

Next to him sits a boy. He's Billy's age. Handsome, with amber eyes and dark brown skin. The moonlight settles on his kind features. His eyes are alert, focused on Billy.

"Do you wanna talk about it?"

He reaches for Billy's bruised cheek with a gentle hand and carefully pushes away a curl. For the first time in years , Billy doesn't flinch away. Instead, he looks up and let's the other boys feather-light fingertips caress his bruised skin for a moment.

"Not really", Billy answers the question.

"OK, you don't have to. ", the other boy says. "You can always stay at my house if things get... too bad at home .", he adds, "You know my mom loves you .She says you are the only one who really appreciates her cooking. Everytime I complain about her food she goes ' Isaiah, why are not more like your friend Billy? He always finishes every plate without complainin' ."

They both have to smile at that. It's true. Mrs. Simmons had always made Billy feel more than welcome in their home. Even invited him to join the family for Sunday services, which he had politely declined.

After a moment of silence Billy speaks up again, his voice unusually soft, at least unusual to hear for everyone but the boy next to him.

"Do you think your mom would still like me if she... knew? About us?" he asks.

Us. A word weighted with a hundred clandestine kisses. Exchanged behind the bleachers after school, in his Camaro parked under neon lights , on this beach right here with unsure hands and hungry eyes, a current of want and need and hesitation.

"I don't know", Isaiah answers truthfully. "But maybe that doesn't matter. We could go, you know. Leave this town. I would miss my family, I think, but... it would be worth it. We could take a road trip in your Camaro. To Arizona maybe. See the Canyon. You could blast your godawful rock music all the way" , he laughs, "Wouldn't it be nice? "

At that he looks at Billy expectantly, a huge smile across his lips.

"It would", Billy says, smiling back at him and placing his hand on Isaiah's.

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ʻ   /   let  me  introduce  you  to  a  prized  member  of  our   mens lacrosse team   ,   nicholas “nick”  black .  this   cis-male  aries   has  been  a  student  at  our  institution for  3 years  and  is  currently  a  twenty one   year  old   junior .   through  the  halls ,   he  has   always  reminded  me  of   maxence danet-fauvel  ,   but  there  is  always  more  than  meets  the  eye ,   like  the  fact  that  his father has covered up the deaths of two of nick’s friends over the years.  coral  cape  has  made  their  future  just  as  bright  as  their  smile ,   i  assure  you .  ʼ      (   muse #7 ,  billie ,  25 ,  gmt+10 ,  she/her   )

your friendly neighbourhood nerd, hi. hit me up on discord ( one salty nerd#9483 ) if you want to plot. below are some facts and details about my misunderstood child nick.

~DOSSIER !

Name: Nicholas Xavier Black Nicknames: Nick Age: 21 D.O.B: 13th April Height: 6″1 Degree: Business/Economics Nationality: French-American Languages: English, French Gender: Cis Male Orientation: soooooo bi

~ HISTORY !

TRIGGERS: death, drugs, alcohol.

ʻ   /   The taste of his power is rotten; leaves left to fester beneath an autumn sky. Emotions like an ensnared animal, vicious, writhing, raw. That is how he grew, a black pit that demanded attention from everyone around him. His ability was to infect those around him, until it consumes everything and leaves only a vacancy for disdain.

His father had been a strong presence in his life, not always a positive one. The two of them butted heads almost every chance they got these days. Arguements about nearly everything, his lack of commitment, not attending mass, fighting, drinking and drugs, his choice of partners, turning up in shirt and jeans rather than a suit. Nothing he did was good enough so he stopped putting in the effort. It didn’t help that his little sister was the apple of his father’s eye. It had been harder growing up with that, constantly in competition, but it hadn’t taken him long to realise that it wasn’t worth it. He didn’t need his fathers approval, she could have him.

He wasn’t a mother’s boy either, but he certainly had a better relationship with her. He felt bad for leaving her in the house all the time with him. It wasn’t that he was violent to anyone in their family, by no means. But there was something corrupting about him, he didn’t want her to become like him. She was too good. She was usually the one that could get him to go against his own interests, a worried look, a pout, heaven forbid tears. Letting her down or breaking her heart wasn’t something he ever wanted to do, that was why he still did well at his studies, he never caused too much of a scene, although that was by his standards, not hers.

ʻ   /   Look at me walking around, all Black, free and ungrateful. How dare I, skip a “Hallelujah” to tell you the church is on fire.

Church had always been a big part of their family, they’d always been catholics the Blacks, every sunday was a family trip to mass. Neatly kept hair, fresh pressed clothes, polite hand shakes and smiles reserved for those that he was supposed to respect. It was exhausting. He went and did as he was told, sitting there quietly daydreaming, musing to himself. His attendance waxed and waned, but everytime his mother fussed and worried about him, he felt guilty and would go for her. There were many aspects of being catholic that bothered him, but he was more concerned with being himself, it was why he didn’t feel ashamed when he discovered he was into guys as much as girls. His father had given him a warning to not let it ruin his future, Nick had laughed, and clearly ignored him. His father was so hellbent on imagery and what the public thought of their family, but Nick couldn’t care less.

He’d found himself in the cathedral at university twice in his three years there. The first was when he was just in there for the peace and quiet. He may have been a little high, and laying down on the pews with the stained glass windows bathing him in a kaleidoscope of colours was mesmerising. The second was when he’d gotten so stuck in his own head, panicing and re-living past events, a panic attack wrapping its way around his heart, the only place that made sense to him was the church. Strange, but it worked.

ʻ   /   Prayers whispered on trembled lips; a wish, a hope that he wasn’t beyond redemption. Pressed to his forehead were the rosary beads of a long dead family member that he’d never met. 

Seventeen. How does one learn to cope with losing a friend? Losing someone is never a thing that someone should have to go through. It is only made worse by the fact that no one knew what happened exactly. There was a party, being the rich and spoilt kids that they were, there was of course alcohol and someone had drugs even though there wasn’t supposed to be, that was a problem with spoilt kids, they didn’t like rules. Bryce had been drinking a lot and there was supposedly drugs in his system but Nick was sure he hadn’t taken any, everyone knew him and everyone had talked to him or interacted with him to some degree, so there was an easy to follow timeline. Up until Bryce died. Supposedly falling down the stairs, a nasty wound on his head. But it never sat right with most of the peoeple that really knew him. Friendships dissolved, suspicions tore people apart but the world moved on. What Nick didn’t know was that his father had helped keep the story from reaching the media, had kept certain aspects of the case quiet. He’d never been overly religious, but after this his faith began to falter, he hadn’t properly attended church in a few years, but now he almost felt ashamed to.

Nineteen. He and his lover at the time, Tobias, were perched at the top of a building, not that high. But high enough. Legs swaying in the breeze as they looked over a city that he would one day rule. They’d been up there to talk, somewhere private, yet calming. Nick was calling things off. After sitting there so long in silence, the boredom and finality in his voice was abbrasive even to himself. Tobias hadn’t taken it too badly, obviously there was emotion and as he went to stand up off the ledge and leave, he’d slipped and was dangling from the roof of the building. Nicks fingers gripped so hard at his jacket and wrist, wishing that he had more upper body strength, or the will to lift up other. But after what felt like forever, there was an emptiness in his hands, followed quickly by the disfugred body below. The first thing he did was call his father, call it intuition, or perhaps because he knew deep down that his father wasn’t above dealing with such things. It had taken him so long after that to trust himself to let anyone in, he’d tried rationaising with himself that it was an accident, but it had taken so long for him to truly believe it, there were still times when he didn’t think it was. He’d let go. He never went back to church after that. Occassionally walking by it and considering it, his rosary beads still hung in his room, not quite ready to get rid of them compeltely, but he felt damaged, damned even.

Was he due for another death? After all, things came in threes and he was twenty one now.

ʻ   /   Trust given without being earned loses meaning; a rotten power he inherited from his father. He tastes it in the smiles of his lovers and the glances of his classmates, in the teachers who congratulate his achievements, and the friends who invite him to party after party. He is wanted and praised, yet not loved.

It was his last name, his family. It opened so many doors, a situation he was willing to take advantage of when the time called for it, but it also meant that a lot of people that tried to ingratiate themselves in his life, were fake. There only to get in good with the family and make their own opportunities. It was bareable at a young age, even invisible. But as he grew it became more obvious and more exhausting to deal with. To the point where he tries to hold off on people finding out he is a Black.

It wasn’t that he didn’t want to be part of his family. But sometimes the name came with too much baggage. Some his own, some his siblings or parents. But the reverse of his wanting to stop people trying to use him for what his family could give them was to fiercly protect what was his. His friends, his loved ones, those that he truly cared about... there was nothing he wouldn’t do for them. He’d crossed a boundary once before for a friend and it didn’t bother him as much as it should have. But that’s who he was in his core, protective of his own, once again much like his father. It was infuriating how much of his father he saw in himself when he looked in the mirror.

ʻ   /   Calloused fingers tracing his bloodstained lips – only to have it wipe away. Shrill screeches of the final whistle, they’d won again. Smug grins were worn that could rival the devils. Yes, they had a reputation for being a rougher team, but it just meant they did whatever it took to win. The blood clinging to net of his crosse, lightly spattering his lips only confirmed this.

Lacrosse had been an exceptional distraction when he’d first started playing for the university during his first year. But it became a rather delightful way to channel his anger and frustration while using his smarts to play tactics. His father told him he should have gone into something stronger, but that was part of the allure of lacrosse, the rebellion. Nick was able to have something that was truly his that his father couldn’t ruin. At least not yet. It was almost a ritual of his to step off the field and smoke a joint before hitting the showers. Something to help mellow him out a little before his shoes hit the flagstones of the university.

Getting his hands dirty wasn’t something he was afraid of, there were plenty at the university that focused on nothing more than books, looking down their noses at sports. Hard work and getting down in the mud were things he guessed he’d picked up from his father, but he knew that his fathers penchant for getting his hands dirty had grown into something more twisted and sinister since he’d left university. It would not be the path that he walked.

~ TL;DR !

From a catholic family.

Has daddy issues.

Sees too much of his father in him (and hates it).

Knows someone who knows someone. Has used drugs. Only shares his stash with a select few.

Likes to be the centre of attention, usually not in a good way.

Antagonistic.

Will start an argument/fight because he is bored.

Is remarkably intelligent.

He finds everyone attractive, super bi, used to feel bad about it, doesn’t care anymore.

May or may not be responsible for someones death.

Lowkey thinks his soul is damned.

~ CONNECTIONS !

( plots are open to anyone and everyone regardless of gender ^_^ )

~~ THE RIDE OR DIE ;; someone who has become increasingly close with nick, they share almost everything with one another, inseperable is a word to describe them, but not so clingy. { OPEN! }

~~ THICK AS THIEVES ;; friends, cause who doesn’t need friends. he’s never really had many close friends. { OPEN! }

~~ THE TEMPTATION ;; someone that acts as a corrupting/distracting influence. { OPEN! }

~~ THE FORBIDDEN TASTE ;; a relationship kept on the down low due to whatever reason, someone he is attracted to. { OPEN! }

~~ THE GIRL NEXT DOOR ;; living next door or down the hall from one another, they could hang out, maybe not? do they get along or merely tolerate one another? { OPEN! }

~~ THE LOVER ;; someone he has been seeing, this is not only about the physical, but the attraction of personalities. neither has taken the initiative to ask themselves if this could be something more. { OPEN! }

~~ THE SAINT ;; a friend or just someone who looks out for nick and often acts as a conscience or moral compass to him, or rather they try to. { OPEN! }

~~ THE EX ;; whether it was a one night stand, a small fling or something more serious, things were broken off for whatever reasons (plots). this could have been a mutual agreement or ended on bad terms. { OPEN! }

~~ THE THORN IN THE SIDE ;; not quite enemies or rivals, but someone that bothers him, or gets under his skin easily. { OPEN! }

~~ THE RIVAL ;; someone that he has a rivalry with, both equally matched, and the tension can be caused by anything, mutual friends, lovers, goals etc { OPEN! }

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5000 Question Survey Pt. 22

2001. Can you believe that we have only gotten through two fifths of this survey so far? i believe it 2002. What is your opinion of Dave Coulier? i have no idea who that is 2003. If you were to a write a Choose Your Own Adventure book, what would it be about? horror 2004. What was your best find from a flea market, garage sale, ebay or thrift store? huh? 2005. What do you not have enough money for right now? a new car

2006. Do you believe that Teras for Fears were right when they said, “Everybody wants to rule the world?” eh 2007. What is the design on your beach towel? i don’t have a beach towel 2008. What stirs something deep and animalistic inside you? mean fucking people 2009. Have you ever cross dressed (even as a joke)? no 2010. Do you own anything with a rainbow on it? yes lol my boyfriends mom buys pj pants for everyone on christmas and this year she got me rainbow pants with minions on them....... i’ve NEVER even seen despicable me 2011. What would be the worst object for a child to take on a long car ride with you? a loud handheld game 2012. What’s the Best Beatles song in your opinion? help 2013. Why do you suppose that diary sites are more popular with females than males? idk 2014. What do these color combinations remind you of: orange and pink: ice cream pink and green: fruit green and gold: nature purple and gold: idk gold and red: royalty red and white: america blue and grey: the beach 2015. What is one selfish thing you tend to do? let people buy me stuff 2016. When do you think technology will catch up with the Jetson’s? idk 2017. What made you laugh today? my lab partners 2018. Do you ever stick your entries in any of the diary circles? no. 2019. Can you freestyle rap? i could try but it wouldn’t be that good 2020. Are you: stylish? somewhat shiek? huh? smart? i think so 2021. Do you find you self only buying brand name products? i do not care about name brands 2022. Would you ever want to buy an article of clothing or an accessory because you saw a celebrity wear it? i don’t pay attention to celebrities enough 2023. What song do you feel the sexiest dancing to? buttons by pussycat dolls 2024. Who do you know who looks silly when they dance? my dad 2025. Sweaty sex or clean sex? a lil bit of both honestly 2026. Which is more important to you: being kind or being right? i mean both honestly. 2027. Can you do any special dances like swing, tap, or ballroom? i used to do tap 2028. Are you scared of monsters? nada 2029. Who would you like to remind people of? idc 2030. Do you walk to school or do you bring your lunch? neither???? 2031. Rate your skills from one to ten (10 = you are the best at it): socializing: 5 making friends: 5 working with computers: 5 arts: 7 crafts: 7 dancing: 2 skating: 6 talking other people into things: 8 writing: 9 living life to the fullest each day: 5 cooking: 3 gardening: 2 cleaning up after yourself: 9 playing poker: 1 surviving in the woods: 3 managing your time: 8 attracting the opposite sex (or same sex if you prefer)? 4 2032. Have you ever been to an indian reservation? nope 2033. What is going to happen tomorrow that you can celebrate, even if it’s a little thing? idk 2034. Do you save things for special occasions or is everyday a special occasion? i save things. 2035. What is one thing you are terrible at: saving money 2036. What’s your favorite: rap song: love the way you lie country song: we danced industrial song: idk. cover song: cant help falling in love with you punk song: idk odd song: cotton eye joe 2037. What do you get your teacher or your boss for the holidays? not a thing lol 2038. Do you like to read books by Virgina Wolfe? never read any. 2039. What is your favorite tv show from when you were a kid? spongebob 2040. What is now proved was once only imagined. - William Blake. What do you imagine? the future. 2041. What has been passed down through at least two generations to you? nothing 2042. Do we live in a particularly bad age for romance? i don’t think so 2043. Have you ever cheated on someone? nope Do you believe that once someone is a cheater they can never be trusted? yes 2044. Have you ever gone: christmas caroling? nope pumpkin picking? yeah on a hay wagon ride? yes on a romantic valentine’s day date? yeah to a new year’s eve party? a couple times to a memorial day parade? yeah to the Macy’s thanksgiving day parade? maybe in the past to search for gold coins on st patrick’s day? no. 2045. Have you ever done any modeling? nope 2046. Would you consider yourself to be psychologically damaged? not that i can think of 2047. How aware are you of the reasons behind your actions and words? very aware 2048. What is the sickest you ever drank or drugged yourself? i haven’t had any really bad experiences tbh. it’s always a shitty time when i’ve thrown up from alcohol but i’ve never blacked out. 2049. Would you prefer it if clothing was optional? no lol. 2050. What is one interesting fact about you: i collect shot glasses 2051. Are more people depressed because they are alone, or are more people alone because they are depressed? they’re more depressed bc they’re alone probably but there are way more complicated reasons as to why people are depressed 2052. Have you ever gotten a mug, t-shirt, key chain, etc. that was personalized with your picture? no lol 2053. What was the last thing that you experienced for the first time? i don’t know 2054. If you were going to die tomorrow and you were leaving a postcard for someone to read after you were gone what would it say? i dunno. 2055. If you were about to be executed what would your last request be? tell my family that i love them 2056. What kinds of people do you find intimidating? too many people lol 2057. How much conviction do you have in your feelings and beliefs? quite a bit. 2058. In your house where is the: crazy glue? in the junk drawer flashlight? above the snack cabinet 2059. Out of everyone you know who has the most personality? there’s plenty of people lol 2060. If you could go back in time to experience a musical movement or era, which one would you choose to live through? none 2061. Do you suffocate people with your love? sometimes 2062. Do you feel your life is charmed? no. 2063. What character do you identify the most with from Winnie the Pooh? piglet 2064. When do you do your best thinking? in the shower or on the toilet 2065. What motivates you? food 2066. Look back at all the people you’ve dated. Has there been a pattern? not that i can think of 2067. Things change but what will always remain the same for you? i don’t know 2068. Is divorce something you would ever consider or do you feel that marriage is permanantly binding? i would preferably not get divorced. 2069. What’s the strangest movie you ever saw? the abc’s of death 2070. If you could go into virtual reality and set up your life there to be perfect and it would seem real but not be real would you trade your life now for the virtual life? it’d be cool but no 2071. Does it seem like life is more difficult for you than for anyone else? nope 2072. What are you grateful for? everything i have. 2073. What was a choice that you didn’t want to make but you had to? idk. 2074. Have you ever had dental surgery? no. 2075. At what point exactly are you grown up? when you  have bills and you feel like you’re drowning 2076. If there was a weight loss procedure that would destroy your ability to taste food so you wouldn’t be tempted by junk food, would you have it done? absolutely not 2077. What is one thing that happened that you never expected? finding someone i love who actually loves me back 2078. If you called one of your friends and they said “It’s nothing personal but I don’t want to talk to anyone right now,” would you take it personally? nah, i’ve had moments like that too so i can understand 2079. What is your favorite girl’s name? i don’t really have one 2080. Do you ever feel guilty for being more fortunate than others? not really. 2081. If you had to wear a shirt with one word on it for a year, what word would you choose? kok 2082. What is evian spelled backwards? naive 2083. You drop 10 pounds of feathers and a ten pound bowling ball off the top of the same building. Which will hit the ground first? they both weigh the same, sooo both 2084. Even though you may never get what you want, are you happy because you’re trying? yes 2085. If you started a petition what would it be about? idk. 2086. When was the last time you asked someone to do something and they said no? everytime i ask jack to do something he says no but does it anyways 2087. Do bad things happen to you on friday the 13th? not that i know of. 2088. What’s your favorite: Madonna song? - John Lennon song? - Michael Jackson song? billy jean Doors song? - Rolling Stones song? - David Bowie song?- Elvis song? cant help falling in love with you 2089. If you had started a relationship with someone and they said that it would be best if no one knew about it just to see how it goes, would you be offended? it depends ig but id feel like they just wanted to hide me 2090. Do you know any self defense? not really How about CPR? i know the concept of it but ive never really practiced or anything 2091. If you had to look into a mirror and see your naked soul stripped of all delusions and pretenses (Never ending Story style)could you handle it? maybe 2092. Are you a genius? no. 2093. How did you find out that Santa Clause wasn’t real? i got a letter from ‘him’ and the handwriting was the same as my dads 2094. Which is your favorite tarot card? i dont do that shit 2095. Does the internet separate people or connect them? both. 2096. Have you ever written a letter to a soldier? my brother and my sister and some of my friends when they were all in the military 2097. Does pain and fear make you feel alive? to a a certain degree 2098. Are you: good looking? yeah thin? no. happy? yes successful? not yet confident? for the most part 2099. Are you decisive or wishy washy? in between. 2100. Do you feel pop stars should be morally responsible to set a good example for their fans? it’s nice but they shouldn’t be obliged to.

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Onision Rant: Trisha Response Part 1

I made it 8 mins in to his new vid responding to Tisha Paytas vid about him before rage quitting for now (the manipulation/victim blaming was getting to me); but here are the points I want to discuss so far. 1.) He brings up ages of his ex’s as: 24 (skye), 17 (he makes a point to say legally lulz it wasn't , shiloh), 26 (AJ), 24 (Minx), 17 (lainey), and 18 (billie). First off while yes skye was his age so not creepy he says her age as 24, this is false they dated in their teens and married at like what 18? He’s trying to fluff the numbers in his favor. It’s also important to note that the only 2 that were really in that above 20 bracket also dumped him a month or less into the relationship, because they were smarter and could see the abusive nature he really has (also not die hard fans). He also makes a point to say (when Trish brings up dating fans) that his ex wife was a fan, what was she a fan of his in high school when they met and started dating? He didn’t do anything then, he hadn’t made it on youtube yet (which he did with a lot of help from her). To say she was a fan is a big stretch. 2.) While talking about the fan thing he also says “ if you ask them (lainey) about how happy they are being married to me they’ll have the same answer as I have, we are so much better then our exs to each other. There’s much raw honesty, theres so much passion, theres so much happiness, Like 99% of the time things are awesome.” True ifnyou ask lainey during lovebombing times I’m sure they would say they were happy, but their twitter and livestreams tell a different story when greg is on his down with them kick. Lainey has told us that Greg has manipulated them, that he is emotionally and verbally abusive as well. He also says better than their exs, again abusers like him target people in abusive situations so they can be the savior and use that “ at least I’m not your ex, HE was the one really bad to you” (like he did billie too). As for more honesty, is that the honesty you had to manipulate your wife (wont do things friends wouldn’t do) to cuddle with laineys gf, or how about telling lainey how the ~polyamorous~ relationship is going be, not letting them express their feelings or have any say in the matter. More passion? Like when you almost left your pregnant partner for their 18 year old gf, or later told them you just wanted to be single (second break up during pregnancy) and the lovebombing afterwords. So much happiness, like how lainey said “fuck 2017 already, it’s already shit” or how everytime they brought their gf back ( due to your manipulation) they felt like dying. 3.) When Trish is talking about her experience with being given a ultimatum in a relationship like what he did with billie, “ just say no, if someone says ‘hey you have to do this to ge back with me’ you don’t have to do it, just move on. It’s very simple Trisha and it’s weird anyone would act like this is a victimizing situation when 1.) that person is nowhere near around, they are across the country when they are given this decision. And 2.) The individual has every right to say no, it’s all about how bad you want to be with the people that you clearly do want to be back with because you agreed to it” (I’m going to break 3 up into quotes cause it’s long) In this one he is trying to explain away his abuse. He says it’s impossible since she’s soooo far away, but emotional abuse has no distance boundaries. You can groom amd emotionally abuse from the computer or a text. The video “ The 6 Master Manipulation Narcissist Use” that I posted yesterday kind goes over that im the veiled threats bit. Also the she had a right to say no, correct and she did and then you kept going until you got a bit of what you wanted, her being humiliated. Persuasion is not consent. Even though you are trying to explain this away, greg, you are doing horribly and exactly what Trish was talking about. You shouldn’t have to do things like the things you wanted because you want to get back with someone, this is grade A emotional abuse. There isna reason all your ~lovers~ that were over 23 only dated you a month tops, it’s because they did say no to this kinda stuff, they did say no to your abuse. They had a more developed frontal lobe ( decision making part of the brain) that told them these are red flags, and why you go after (and have longer relationships) with teens, expecially again fans that already hold you high. “ Some people think that’s totally unfair to wear an honesty message on your body that identifies what you are. ME being an honest person, I’m not affraid of people knowing whether or not I tell the truth, of I tell the truth great, if I don’t then people should know. The people that get most upset about this are dishonest who don’t want people to know they are dishonest. After all secrets are the best friend of liars” He’s trying to cleverly be mean to billie even now and this whole thing is shit. First off it is horrible to try to get someone to get “ I’m a liar” tattooed on them. This is not different then the scare given on the hands of people that stole bread in the 1700s or a scarlet letter. Your sins do not defy you. You are not the same person you were 5 years ago ( well except greg he’s stuck in his own lil world). People change and grow from their mistakes. A tattoo is forever, one “mistake” doesn’t make up who you are forever. I’m going to skip a lil ahead here to “the people that get most upset” part, I’ll get back to your honesty. No I’m a pretty honest person and I’d be upset if someone was trying to force a scarlet letter on me. Billie also did admit to lying and said she wasn’t completely innocent in the whole situation, unlike you that lovedbombed and passed blame to ~evil men stealing women~, she took the more grown up response and took ownership of her faults (that weren’t horrible anyway). Plus lying about smoking weed is not that big or bad of a lie (no matter legality, she’s a white cute teen girl with no record, she wouldn’t get shit but maybe a fine, and that’s pushing it). I have more respect for her, a person that admits their faults and shows remorse, then a person like you that is never to blame and “ is brutality honest”, so let’s talk about that honesty. It’s normal to lie, everyone does, from little to big, from good lies (that make people feel better) to bad ones that destroy lives. A study from a few years back even shows that most married couples lie to each other in every 1 outta 10 interactions, 3 in 10 if not married. You saying that you never lie alone is a lie. And agian for the punishment you wanted for billie it was not a worthy lie. It’s also common for people in emotionally abusive situations to lie in order to not feel the wrath, expecially little lies, because thr truth would be blown way out.of portion (lol sound familiar). To go back to to “ME being an honest person, I’m not affraid of people knowing whether or not I tell the truth….” no Greg you do “worry” well not exactly but you do want to force that “honest” lable on yourself. You’re not honest though, you lied at least twice in this vid alone. You also say you should let people know things that identity you by ways of marking your body, so I have some tattoo ideas for you. If you really want me to start writting you praises just get “ I’m a manipulator, emotionally and verbally abusive and a cheater” on your back.

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Onision rant: Pot and mental health

First off it is known that Billie suffers from mental illness, she's talked about it before and what she suffers from is something that pot can help. I too have mental illness (as well as have suffered from PTSD for a while) for over 15 years now, I've been on countless depression/anxiety meds over the last 10+ years, I'm pretty open about all that. Before a few years ago I only smoked pot a handful of times. I am not one of those people that think pot fixes everything for everyone, our bodies are different and different things work for different people (as well as strains/types of maryjane) so this is my perspective on how my body has reacted to meds and pot. Before I smoked regularly I took pretty high doses of Prozac, Zoloft, Buspar, and a few others mixed in there too. On each of these I was still depressed, still suicidal (at times) and still used alcohol to self medicate. As much as Greg wants to say you can just get over a chemical in balance, you can't. My parents put me in therapy from the age of 12 on, I was (and still am) pretty active amoung other things to help with my depression, but it still was there. My mother and grandmother also suffer from depression (manic) so they knew I had a good chance myself of being depressed and tried everything in the books before my mom even considered putting me on pharmaceuticals. As I've stated before I also am a SI of around oh 17 years now. I started around 12 by hitting my legs with yard sticks before moving on to numerous other types of SI (cutting, salt & ice, skin picking etc). Although I tried to stop many many times off and on pharmaceutical meds (and drinking) it never lasted very long, SI is an addiction just like any other, up until I started smoking my longest clean time was a bit over a year. Around 4 years ago I started looking into the health benefits of pot and decided to try it and after a year I quit all my meds (you have to ween off). Since then I haven't SI, I still get low periods but not to the severity I ever did while on pharma meds, haven't been suicidal and though I drink from time to time I don't drink like I did before. I won't say I don't still get urges to SI, or drink even, when I haven't had any smoke but the fact that I haven't is a big step up for me. Greg also brought up how it changes people, he's right but not the way he's projecting. It does change me, it makes me not worry about everything, it makes me motivated ( yes motivated, different strains do different things) to get out of bed and do things when before I smoke and in a low period I only want to stay in bed, it makes my anxiety lesson so I can go to the store on my own and actually talk to people, and it makes me less "moody", it helps my creativity (I am a "artist" of sorts for a living) as well as other professional benefits for me. Infact about everytime I write about Greg here I've smoked before because without it I 'freak out', partly anxiety and that no one will like what I have to say and partly cause he brings up bad memories of bad people in my life. I like that he brought up porn addiction in the newest video, wasn't that a big issue with him and sh, him watching so much henti (I'm guessing teen henti). As for pot being addicting, to some sure I'm sure they can get addicted to pot, but I'm willing to bet that those people also have an addiction personality type (and we all have our own addictions). I know my addictions and I've never felt that need for pot like I do SI, drinking and tobacco. If I wanted to I could stop smoking tomorrow and never look back, but I won't cause I like my semi sane mind over my insane one. With this what bugged me about his newest vid was the putting pot over loved ones and wasting money. If it was between my child eatting and pot food would win, if anything pot has helped me be a better mother because again I'm more sane then without it (something my smoking friends also feel), and no I don't smoke infront of my child, I hardly ever get "stoned" either (like maybe when I'm child free and I'm in a low point). As for price, it's cheaper for me to smoke then it is for me to take meds. Plus often when I was on meds I still drank a lot and spent around $40-100 a week on alcohol. Pretty soon someone I'm close to is also starting a farm so even now that I have some kinda insurance and could get some meds that don't work for cheap, cheap isn't free and it doesn't matter if it doesn't work. I have a theory that the main reason greg is against mind altering substances is because it would bring out his evil. One of my Greg like ex's was emotionally abusive when sober, but never physical, when he did get physical ( and until the end it wasn't even that bad of physically) unless he was drinking. I think Greg is a sociopath, I think he was made this way not born this way. I think he saw this in his mother (whom I believe made him the way he is) and he doesn't want that side to come out. The way he projects this on to other people shows his ignorance that thing affect people differently, while also showing his controlling manor. Unless the persons drug is actively hurting you, be it physical or emotionally, it's not your business. I'm pretty sure Billie smoking pot (imma guess mainly not around them as well) isn't hurting nither of them; it's just a control thing and I bet it bothers Greg more than lain, since he speaks for them. Greg is an ignorant prick, instead of worrying about what your girlfriend does (that probably helps her mental illness) he should worry about his porn (first henti) addiction since he's still panning young girls for sexually provocative photos after being called out for these photos, even though it will eventually hurt his family; can't make youtube vids nor be a father in jail.