"if you ever feel miss the people in your life who have abused you, manipulated you, or have hurt you in any other way but you know inside that they were a good person and you could bring that goodness out for everyone to see? Give up. They're an awful person, they don't deserve your time or anything from you. You are a being deserving of love."- Caelen A. Davis 9/18/2019
can you even imagine what loop felt when siffrin said they were going to kill themself just to get through everything faster. In all of their loops, they never found that as an alternative. As something to even consider. The countless hours to days to months to years that they spent in their loops, the agonizingly long and painful road to even beat the king at all, and they never took the chance. How must if feel to look at this other version of yourself who’s made it so much farther than you ever had, so much faster than you ever could have, and watch them tell you that its still not fast enough. that its too tedious to slowly freeze in time or slip on a banana peel. that they have better things to do and the act of dying is taking away their precious time. and then have no power to stop him no matter how much they tried. because to siffrin, what’s the difference? hes dying either way. its just that this is faster. and more self destructive. and more mortifying for his allies to watch happen. just a quick slice to the throat and then their on their merry way. but to loop, its just another step towards giving up. another step towards wishing for what they did, to turn into what they did. do you think about this. do youthingk about t his-
[Old intuition, on your dock, we're fishin'. Come on now, give us a grade. A for effort, and a B for delivery, C for devotion. When the world starts encroaching on your plans. Where is the savoir, where is the savoir? He's not here right now. Where is the savior, where is the savoir-faire? Embassy row, the fumes, they lay low. On lanes that are wide where the limousines glide. On the wrought-iron gates and the bone China plates. And don't forget your manners where the anthems play.]