#Cooper Levi's best friend

[pleasepress1forfrontdesk]

The Chains Are Heavy

(Levi's long awaited backstory, finally)

Special thanks to everyone who has been following and rp with me. You really have helped make this character more than he was meant to be.

(@fukuzawa-armeddaddyagency @tired-sayaka-ada @never-gets-sick @oscarsgallery @city-of-c0rpses @v-extreme-diminuendo @kijimha )

How did I get here again? It could all have been a simple life for me, but it wasn't. Ever since I became 10, I was rob. Robbed of my family, friends, goals, dreams, my childhood, and most importantly my innocence.

Not just my innocent mentally, but literally too. I lost my innocence of being a civil. They all hate me now. Rightfully so. After all I have been nothing but a danger to everyone around me. All I did was make things worse. This war could have ended quicker if it way for me....

How did I get here again....

Foul Ball

It all started on March 22, a day after my birthday and two days after my best buddy's birthday, Cooper. We have been friends since daycare and being in the nursery at church. Cooper was a year younger than me, he was a wild kid, always taking things to the risk or the extreme. Super fast as well, faster than all of the kids on the playground, running was one of his passions. Cooper once told me that when he grows up he'll become a track star. As silly as it sound he had my full support, because you could never say no to Cooper. You could never tell him what to do.

I on the other hand was the balance for Cooper's wild behavior. Much more soft spoken and tame for a 10 year old. I may have not been the fastest runner, but I sure did have a good arm at throwing things. I had a goal, to become the world's best baseball player. It was my dream after all, to be on the professional teams and be famous. I wanted to make my mom proud

I must admit some of my behavior is like that, mostly because I was a mommas boy. It was just her and I after all, which I didn't mind. Though sometimes Cooper would joke that his dad, who was also single, should marry my mom so that we can be brothers and live together. I always told him that we wouldn't need legal documents in order to be brothers. As long as we stick together we will always be brothers.

Well that promise didn't last long... Cooper and I wear out in the front yard of my house, playing baseball as usual. I was using my new metal bat that I got for my birthday, it was much stronger than my old wooden bat. We were having a fun time, Cooper was about to throw the ball until he arm suddenly dropped and let go of the ball.

"What's wrong?" I asked as I turned my head to see what Cooper was now looking at. My eyes widen and I start to feel the same sense of fear that Cooper might be feeling. Two black cars parked in my driveway, and five government agents came out of them. My heart skips a beat. It can't be.

I watched as the knocked on the front door of my home, my mom answering it a second later. The government agents start talking to her, and even though I couldn't hear what they were saying, I could tell by the look on mom's face that this way good.

Cooper tugged on my sleeve. "You don't think the president actually signed that bill right?..." Cooper looked worried now, and I so was I. I clenched my fist into my shirt.

"He would only sign it if war ever started....." The realization dawned upon us both. My lips trembled. "I don't want to go to war...." I mumbled those words with tears falling from my eyes.

That was the last day I ever saw my mom again.

That was the day I was robed of everything.

Strike 1

A 10 year old out in the battlefields of war, that isn't something you saw everyday. But here I was, fearing that my life could end at any moment in these trenches. And it would be like this for the next 9 years.

It took some adjusting to, though there was no time to adjust. Hand a gun to a 10 year old and tell him to go to the trenches and figure it out. I wasn't even given training. They didn't care. They wouldn't care about me. I was a child who would get in their way.

I didn't blame them. After all this wasn't the military decision after all, it was the horrible president at the time who made this decision. What the Nimone government did was cruel. They went through every legal citizen document and determined who would be drafted into war. We already had plenty of men above 18 drafted, but it wasn't enough. With the law at the time, anyone who was above 10 years old, could be drafted if they were proved useful enough to be used.

And that's what upset me the most. That I was just some weapon in their eyes. A tool to be once and never again. I wasn't the only one upstairs though. Many parents and families were upstairs by this dumb decision. It wasn't just families either, it was our own men as well who were outraged by this decision.

Upon my first day at the military base I met the leader of my unit squad, Captain Ross. He was a tall and well built man, always having a cigarette in hand and giving cold gazes at everyone. It was scary first meetings him. After all, the captains in the Nimone are train and built to be unstoppable military weapons. Nothing can stop them, and they will not stop until they are dead.

Being compared to this grown man compared to me was quite scary contrast. I was just some tiny kid compared to him. We both looked at each other for the first time and I can tell by the look in his mustard yellow eyes that he was displeased. There was a scoff as Ross stared down at me. "Who the Hell put a 10 year old in my unit squad? This is a kid, he should be home, not here about to die for our country." At least Ross and I were on the same page. Who's mess up idea was this anyways?

Everything from that day forward continued to go down. You expect the 10 year old to be a helper in transporting supplies or be in the med bay, but no I was thrown straight to the front lines. The trenches. The conditions of trenches were horrible, but the treatment around here was worse.

I wasn't given proper clothes that were my size, everything I worn was made for grown men. I had to learn how to sew to keep my shirt together because I wasn't given new clothes. I been wearing the same shirt the militarily gave me for over 10 years now.

The bunks were hard as rocks, I could barely sleep. That's even if I could sleep at all within the anxiety that any moment a bomb could drop on us. Sometimes I didn't even get to sleep in bed. Someone I would pass out in the trenches or on the floor. I had to push myself to still be barely functional.

They needed me after all, all for my ability. It was either fighting in the trenches, or infiltrating the enemy team as a spy. With my ability I could look, sound, and act like someone else as long as I had a single strand of their DNA on a peice of clothing for me to wear, I could transform to be like them. Mirror Mirror, I called it. This was useful to the military, since I had to use it a lot. My ability was the only reason why I was still living while fellow soliders fall dead to the floor before my eyes.

They all started calling me DNA, Levi DNA, since that's what I was to them. I was called that name so many times that to this day I can't remember my own real last name now. That war has made me forget a lot of things.

Strike 2

I try to suppress the memories and nightmares so hard, but at the cost of forgetting anything good before the war. I was robed of the memories of my childhood because of it. Even if I did try to forget, the ones that were the worse always lingered in the back of my mind. All those moments of being in pain and suffering. Everything was starting to become dull around 18.

This was had been going on for so long that I was loosing my reason to keep fighting. As if I ever had a reason to in the first place. I was just doing what I was told. Go spy on these guys, aim for the head, use your ability, back to the battlefield you go. All words that have no importance to me anymore.

I remember one time I was in the medical bay, I had gotten badly injured, but even in that moment I couldn't rest for long. Dr. Ikari, a young man who never got to finish school, had to patch me up. Unfortunately he had to send me right back out to the battlefield a minute after he was done attending me. I could tell by the look in his eyes that we were feeling the same thing. This dullness that we both felt. I barely talked to him, but I could tell that both of our worlds were become gray.

When I was around 19 I thought there was nothing left to look forward to. The war was slowing down but I was already numb. Or so I thought until one day I saw a familiar face. Jumps off the bus was a familiar red head, it was Cooper! For the first moment in a long time I smiled as I saw him. He spotted me and we waved to each other. He still recognized me! I never felt more happy in that moment.

At last we can be like brothers again. Things became less dull, there was some color back into my life. Things were finally looking up. We would sit in the dining hall, eating the worst food, but that didn't matter to me. I got to talk to. My best friend.

Cooper would catch me up on everything that I have missed and I would vent to him about how this war was. His optimism brought up my spirits, which brought me to ease. He barely has changed since I last saw him, my same old buddy. We promised that once this war was over that we would support each other while we fulfilled our dreams. A track star and a baseball player.

Strike 3

That promise didn't stay.

I was robed again.

I could never forget that moment.

We were out in the battlefield, trying to traverse no man's land, our side finally had the upper hand in closing end on the enemy. But we lost many men that day, including Cooper.

He didn't react faster in time. Before I knew it, I was cradling his dying body in my arms, blood dripping from his forehead. Cooper was shot in the head. I couldn't stop crying. I wasn't even fighting anymore. All I did was lay on the battlefield, holding him closer to me. "Please don't leave me. Please don't leave me." I would mumble to myself through tears.

But he left. I believe now that he's resting well with God in heaven.

In that moment I could forgive myself. I couldn't forgive the enemy team. I couldn't forgive our own government for all of this. Things were becoming dull again, but there was this redness starting to boil in the inside of me. This ticking time bomb.

Then it happened.

I had enough.

The day I finally snapped.

I'm out

I regret everything I have done in that span of a week. I was the reason why things got worse. It was little things at first. Ignoring Ross commands, running straight into dangerous territory and slaughtering the enemies, or throwing a grenade at helicopters. Then it got worse, I destroyed many of our own military weapons and transport, with some of our own men still in them. I set some of the base on fire. Gave valuable information to the enemy team. Held hostages of innocent people. Many things.

All these things became documented, published for all the public to see. Soon Levi DNA became a name to hate. I was a danger to everyone around me. That I need to be killed or locked up away forever.

There were two final straws that let to my arrest. The president at the time came over to the base, there for a impossible meeting. He was the reason why I was suffering like this. With all the rage built up in me, I tried to assassinate the president. It took 6 guys to stop me from doing so.

But I wasn't done that day. The worst thing that I have done was use me ability for a murder. I transformed to look like Captain Ross, committing a murder on the previous vice captain at that time, making it look like he was the one who did it. I baseball almost ruined his name and reputation.

He hated me that day since.

There I was, now arrested and locked away in a high prison facility. Ross took the pleasure to torture me in breaking my spirit, in which he did. There was nothing to look forward to anymore. Everything had became gray once again. I felt nothing as I sat in my dark cell, chained to the wall. I didn't deserve good treatment. I didn't deserve kindness or anything good. After all a criminal, a monster, doesn't deserve anything at all.

There was no reason for me to live anymore, and I was ready to accept that.

For a long time in that cell I would be in my own little headspace, daydreaming that I was living a better life with my family and friends. It was my only "joy" left. But even that couldn't be enough.

I was ready to end it all, yet a tiny part of me told me not yet. One more chance. I try to ignore that tiny bit of hope left, but I caved in. I made a promise to myself, that if I could not find a reason to continue on living in a month, then I would end it all.

So I acted. With brute force I broke out of that prison. I snuck onto a boat headed towards Japan. I free myself and upon leaving Nimone to Japan, I did find one major thing to keep me living. The sun and rakn. The sun was so warm and bright, great against my skin and the rain was so calming and cooling.

This was my chance to start again.

Back in the game

Upon arriving to Japan, I ended up in Yoko's city. There I was already lost and confused. I didn't know where to go or where to stay. I didn't know Japanese so asking for help was a impossible.

For my first few weeks there I was a hobo, wandering around, taking food out of trash cans. I found a abandon car to sleep in for the nights, but I barely got sleep. Things weren't looking good again. I desperately needed a job.

But who would hire a criminal?

That's until I stumbled upon this building and this man with probably over 20 children. His name was Mr Fukuzawa. And upon meeting him, my life was never the same again. Things changed, for the good this time. And I was welcomed into a new life with such amazing and kind people. My world had color again.

I'm forever thankful for that day.

Thank you.

[masiola]

How Lucifer, Mammon and Leviathan would react to MC coming home drunk, calling them handsome and asking them out (even though they are already dating lol).

GN! MC

Contents warning: intoxication, alcohol, flirting

A/N: I wasn't sure if I should make this brothers x MC or x reader. Reading back on this, it's not my best work 😭

MC goes clubbing with a few demon friends from RAD. They finally find a drink that affects them, and let's just say they go way overboard. The drinks slowly start to take effect, by the time they get back to the HoL they are completely out of it. They barely make it to the stairs in the lobby, loosing their balance and grabbing onto the handrail for dear life. This causes an onset of giggles and laughter that alerts one of the brothers.

Lucifer

Lucifer is not impressed. He's going to lecture MC in the morning because all that matters right now is getting them to bed. He'll probably humour them or say something he normally wouldn't because they won't remember it the next day.

"Who's making so much noise this late at ni-" He comes storming in. His expression softens slightly when he sees MC.

"Hello handsome~"MC winks.

"You should stop talking or you might say something you regret tomorrow." SIGHS. He picks them up into his arms so it's easier to take them to their room.

"Oh really? Then I have a question."

"Yes?" He raises an eyebrow.

"Will you go out with me?"

"You're a mess MC let's get you to bed." He grumbles

"Am not! I can walk by myself and you didn't answer my question!" MC huffs.

"Okay, show me." He let's go of MC and crosses his arms.

"Watch this."

MC walks relatively straight but walks into the wall. Lucifer pinches the bridge of his nose and sighs deeply.

"Come on dear, let's get you to bed."

"Skipping straight to bed? You're bold."

"That's if you can handle it." He smirks.

MC happily takes his hand and leads him to their room. As soon as MC gets on the bed, they pass out. Lucifer chuckles softly.

"Sweet dreams MC." He whispers kissing the top of their head.

Mammon

Mammon would become serious here because he wants to make sure his human is safe.

"Jeez MC, how much did ya drink?" He sighs.

"C'mon on up ya get." He carefully picks them up off the ground.

"Mammon can I ask you a question?"

"Shoot."

"Do you want to go out with me?"

"MC yer drunk..."

"Is that a no to going out with me?" MC sulks and tears threaten to fall down their face.

"Huh? N-no! MC listen. Yer beautiful, kind and amazing in every way. I-l like ya a lot 'kay. So please just cooperate with me for a bit until we get ya to yer room." He stops walking to look them in the eyes, caressing their cheek with his thumb.

"Alright...babygirl." They smile cheekily at the nickname, before erupting with laughter.

"N-now why'd ya call me that?!" He yells, hiding his blush because he secretly enjoyed it. Will he ask you to call him babygirl again? Probably.

Removes MCs makeup if they're wearing any, and helps to change them into something more comfy, maybe one of his t-shirts.

Leviathan

He gets really worried and panics a little.

"MC? What's so funny? OMG are you okay?!" He helps them stand up

MC looks up. "Oh hello, handsome." They smile sweetly causing Levi to blush.

"S-stop that! Let's just get you into bed." He holds MC by the waist, helping them up the stairs.

"Levi...I want to ask you something."

"What?"

"Do you want to go out with me?"

"MC! We're a-already dating!! Don't you remember?" He's flustered at how bold they are right now. MC stops walking to look at him dumbfounded and proceeds to kiss him on the cheek.

"I must be the luckiest human ever!" They cheer.

"That's not true you could do so much better." He mumbles under his breath.

"Nonsense I only want you!" MC pouts.

"Speaking of... we're sleeping in your bed right? So we can be nice and close to each other." They smile innocently.

"MC!" He feels like his heart is going to explode.

[patheticofyoutocallme]

Random Shark Facts

(by Levi mod @pleasepress1forfrontdesk)

Shark is the most chill dude in existence. He has that complete surfer mentality, being laid back and going with the flow.

He speaks like a surfer sometimes as well, saying stuff like "Hell yeah my dude", "Sick moves", "gnarly", etc.

Speaking of which, no matter what gender he's talking to, he will always refer to people as "My dude" or "bro".

He doesn't have to even be friends with them to call them "my dude" because he's that chill.

Shark can basically tolerate and get along with anyone, if so desire.

But he does bite the ones the doesn't like or finds annoying.

Which another thing, Shark is a absolute biter. He will bite and leave a mark.

He's the reason why Peach has a bite mark on his neck because Shark really got pissed and bit him.

He also bit Cooper before due to jealously.

Shark can be jealous for X. He loves his boss but he's conflicted as well about his feelings in return.

He doesn't like it when X puts all his loving attention on Cooper instead of him.

Shark will bite X for attention or to be kinky. But he mostly gets drunk for X's attention.

Shark got his nickname from Cooper actually, for his love of sharks and biting (most of XY adopted the nicknames when Cooper was around)

He has a big shark plushie that he named Butters.

He also has a huge pet fish collection, about ten different fish tanks in his office. They all have names as well.

Great with math but never finished school because he "got bored" and dropped out.

He's originally from California.

He's such a drama queen sometimes when it comes to customer service. He believes he deserves the best stuff.

Got ban from a Cracker Barrel and a Starbucks once. (Refuse to elaborate further. YOU come up with a interpretation)

Constantly high on caffeine 24/7

LOVES watching chessy movies and Legally Blonde.

Shark on missions will randomly flirt with the enemy or target, but it even works in the end.

Can win a drinking competition.

Finally he has sharp canines.

@joanbarrie

[iwanttoleavethisblankbuticant]

little fanfic of Remi cause I’m obsessed.

Remi is @aller-geez’s character and Levi is @thekinkyleopard’s character. (I think. There’s a chance that’s flipped. Idk cause my brain is mush rn). I do not own any character’s mentioned in this fic, they are not my oc’s. This fic is based of this post from @aller-geez here (idk if this link works or not. It should bring you to her POV post but it might just bring you to her profile. I’m to tired to mess with it tbh.)

TW: illness, male x male, sneezes (barely any. There’s like three. My brain is really not cooperating), swearing? I honestly don’t remember but there probably is, and there is slight amounts of mess but not anything excessive.

anyway I hope this turned out alright. I’m not the best at writing but I’m trying lol.

fic after the cut:

The whole gang had decided to go on a trip to… well there wasn’t really a destination. They were all just going. It was truly mostly Levi’s idea. And with Levi so hyped for it, Remi just couldn’t say no to his kitten. So, somewhat begrudgingly, Remi went along with his mate’s and his mate’s friend’s idea of a group road-trip, despite the fact that Remi could feel sickness building in his sinuses. 

That speeds us up to now, where Remi sat on his hotel bed next to his beloved mate who was fast asleep as he had driven the group down here through the night. Remi look at Levi as he slept peacefully and juggled with the idea of waking him and asking him to go to the store and pick up some things to help his steadily declining condition. But as he saw his kitten getting his first traces of desperately needed sleep, he couldn’t bring himself to wake Levi. So with a sigh that sounded so scratchy that it was no longer recognizable as a sigh, Remi rose and slipped out of his hotel room and walked down the hall to your room. He went to you for many reasons: he could somewhat tolerate your existence (to an extent), you had a room to yourself so that would minimize the amount of people who got to see him vulnerable, your room was far away from Al’s so he didn’t risk that perverted bastard getting off to his misery, and you suffered from allergies so you were likely to have desperately needed tissues. 

The more he walks to your room, the more he wishes he had woken Levi. But he’s pretty much sealed his fate at this point. He knows he looks like shit, eye bags dark swollen and tinged red near the eye and bruise purple near his cheek, his skin paler then normal, sweat on his brow causing his baby hairs to cling to his clammy forehead. But worst of all, in his opinion, was the terrible unceasing itch in his sinuses. It caused him to hitch and hitch but it refused to manifest into an actual sneeze yet also refused to stop plaguing him. Plus it caused his nose to run like a faucet, and with no tissues in sight he kept having to wipe his runny appendage on the collar or sleeve of his shirt. 

Soon he finds himself at your door, he didn’t quite know how long he’d been standing there since he zoned out thinking about how utterly ridiculous this is going to be. Just walking up to someone he only knows through his boyfriend hotel door and begging for tissues after practically ignoring this individual’s existence up until now. But with an aggravated sigh Remi knocks on your door. 

Remi is surprised when the door swings open almost immediately but he quickly looks off to the side and forces his expression to be neutral. 

"Aye. You got any tissues?" Remi asks, trying to ignore the tickle in the back of his nose

"Levi’s asleep" Remi adds, feeling the need to explain further when met with silence. Though the statement doesn’t do much to explain with no context. But it makes sense in Remi’s fever clouded brain

"Ooookayy?" You mumble, opening your door more for Remi to come in. 

Remi shakes his head no as you motion for him to come in.

"Nah, just hiiiheh’… just give me some tissues and I’ll be on my way. I’m not here for chit chat" Remi says, stoping just before say ‘I’m not here for chit chat with a stranger’. He didn’t figure calling someone he technically knew of as a stranger would help him get tissues any faster. And he definitely needed tissues and soon because that little tickle in the back of his sinuses had decided that now, in front of someone he wasn’t the most fond of, he really needed to sneeze. And he could feel the amount of mucus in his sinuses and he didn’t want to be caught with no tissues when this tickle turned into a sneeze.

You cock an eyebrow as his breath hitches mid sentence but you can piece together why he’s in such a rush to get tissues as his breath hitches and his nose leaks. So you trudge into you hotel room, grab the whole box of tissues, and press them to Remi’s chest.

"Here, take care." You say, then you shut your door, sensing he wants to go back to his hotel room as quickly as possible so he can curl up next to his mate. 

As the tissues are pressed into his grasp and you promptly leave, Remi realizes that maybe your not that bad. You either A: picked up on the fact he did not want to be here, or B: you didn’t want him here to begin with. But something told Remi that it wasn’t the last option. 

So with a faint, unseen smile, Remi turns to walk back to his own temporary quarters. But immediately that itchy tickle in the back of his sinuses reared it’s head. 

His nose flairs as he fumbles to grab a tissue. Then he manages to his his fingers around it just as his brows furrow together. Then with one more breathy inhale, Remi buries his abused nose into the tissue and pitches forward with three large sneezes that make his head spin.

"Hii’ Hetchuu’iew! Hitttchiiew! Hetsheew! Snerrf!" 

From inside your hotel room your could hear Remi’s wet, desperate, and sickly sneezes. The walls were thin so you said a quick "bless you" that Remi was able to hear through the walls. 

Remi blushes slightly out of embarrassment, adding to his feverish flush. Then he makes a mental note to tell Levi of his encounter with you. With that, and a box of tissues, Remi retreats to his mate, cuddling up to him as soon as he can slip under the covers beside him.

[iwannawritelots]

Satan Sully Morningstar

Satan is just a li’l guy (for most of his appearances). He is 3’5” (106.68cm)

Lucifer had Satan prematurely (“very preterm”), so he was very small and had a few complications after birth. There are lifelong complications as well.

Satan often gets bullied at school and has only a couple friends (which rotate because he has trouble socializing). He gets irritable easily, especially in social situations. At home he is relatively cooperative, even when he asks a plethora of questions. He loves to read and learn.

Satan is especially attached to Mammon, Levi, Simeon, Asmo, and Barbatos since they often take care of him when Lucifer cannot. Even when Lucifer is home, he often is exhausted and will pass out on the couch or has to attend to other responsibilities in the house. This is usually when Satan turns to one of Lucifer’s siblings for attention and help.

In the mornings on weekdays, Levi will bring him to Simeon and Barbatos’ place to be watched over. On the days he has school, Simeon will escort him there and Lucifer will pick him up. Simeon and Barbatos do their best to follow Lucifer’s rules (not exposing him to certain media, not giving him too many gifts, not brushing off his curiousity, etc). Barbatos also ends up teaching him to speak in different languages a little bit since he will switch between different languages without realizing every once in a while.

That’s all for Satan! Like with the others I’ve probably left out plenty/more will come up in-fic!

[ptolemveamoved]

@fallenstcr sent [x] for my muse's favorite photo of theirs . . .

𝐑𝐎𝐗𝐈𝐄 & 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄 : summer days in wyoming get unbearably hot which resulted in both of them heading inside for a drink together . . . which further resulted in roxie being a huge distraction and refusing to let monte head back to work . she's a simple woman so a sweaty , beautiful man who removed his shirt to dry it off is an easy win but i'm picturing this as a video she took and she probably said something to make him laugh while he was taking a sip . i hate them .

𝐋𝐄𝐕𝐈 & 𝐏𝐀𝐋𝐌𝐄𝐑 : levi's a bit too shy to take real photos of palmer right now but he's saved nearly every selfie she's ever sent . his camera roll even has its own folder for her . this one's a favorite because his dog ( cooper ) is in the background too . . . his two best friends in one selfie ! it helps that she looks stunning — but in levi's world , that's nothing new or unusual .

𝐂𝐘𝐍𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐀 & 𝐃𝐄𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐍 : rest assured that cynthia's camera roll is full of declan every summer but this was one of the first she captured this summer . it was their first early morning on the beach together , cyn pestering declan for a photo to put on her stories . they eventually took one together but naturally , she likes looking at him . . . so this one is her current favorite . it'll probably change once a week knowing her .

𝐄𝐙𝐑𝐀 & 𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐄 : a very sneaky photo taken of ezra after some quality time together . . . likely on a hotel balcony while on tour in the name of being " discreet " . outside of their paparazzi photos , these intimate photos are all she has for now , secretly treasuring the memory behind each one — likely because of the flashbacks attached , too .

[creacherkeeper]

8, 13, 23, 69 and 83 <333

8. Who's your biggest inspiration?

this is literally such a tough question. this has changed multiple times over my life but i think my answer right now would be jane mcgonigal. im just so interested in gamification and how to make games that can help and heal and improve peoples lives and shes out there Doing That and is doing it from such a well educated science background AND from lived experience and thats just so cool to me (check out superbetter!!)

13. Name a list of shows that have changed your life.

avatar, psych, gilmore girls, agents of shield (highly derogatory), the good place, fantasy high (highly affectionate)

23. What would you name your children?

ough. well im planning on adopting so i wouldnt be naming them unless theyre trans and want me to pick. fem names i really like anya, natalia, elizabeth, tzipporah, mari, harper, and nora; masc names dima, mishka, nikolai, yakov, ari, elijah, levi, malachai, cooper, sawyer, and dawson; and androgynous names i like sasha, illya, ori, shiloh, tovi, dakota, forest, and harley. can you tell im a russian jew who lives in the deep south.

69. If you received enough money to never need to work again, what would you spend your time doing?

trying out different hobbies that were inaccessible before like metalworking or furniture building. taking classes on things im interested in. write more books. have a big enough property to have a few big dogs that has close access to nature and spending a lot of time there. visiting national parks. hosting friends. adopting and raising children and hopefully homeschooling all of them. i think i would still be working toward the larger projects im currently working towards because i genuinely enjoy working on those things it just wouldnt be as big of a deal if i needed to take longer or couldnt get funding. i might even just work at a little bookstore or something for fun, i genuinely enjoy customer service and cleaning. or maybe i would still end up teaching. i want to get better at identifying plants and birds too i think i would become a birder i can just see myself going down that path

83. How would you spend a billion dollars?

i would split it into as many portions as would still make a difference to give to the charities that would best utilize that money probably focused in minority justice, nature preservation, and animal conservation (with the last two going to as many indigenous organizations as i could), keep enough left over to live comfortably on, and then use the rest to support independent artists and tip like 500% on commissions and indie games

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DBH new ending part 2

Update: The english version just came out and we got the name for Chance's little brother. Ron will be renamed to Seth (Se for short). S already is used for selena so i had to use the next best option here. I will leave his name for the current parts but from part 3 onwards he will get his real name instead of this. and yes, Nicole's kids has his name translated as well but i keep him Named bully. Fits him better

so obviously nicoles kids has been born already as has Selena's. N's kid is still the normal bully kid as in the normal ending. And since we dont know the English name of sel's kid we will call him Ron.

We are starting off with nicole and julie playing with the babies including ron bc sel got pretty busy with some issues in the bar and nicole offered to watch ron with the other young kids. Ron isnt much of a fan of Na for some reason. And he doesn't hang around bully either. Thankfully chance knows his little brother best and helps out where ever he can. Ct is still being a fucking brick to our sweet boy, but what else is new. Na starts showing some symptoms of her needing her treatment but bc bully is being his usual self he cant stand it that the grown ups pay attention to her at this moment.

Chance went up with julie while aida and ct try to comfort him. We all know they would do that. (I wont even need to explain why if you are a long time reader) anyway, j asked c to do certain tasks. By that time na already has been grwon to a toddler, and gets very whiney when ut comes to this procedure. Chance tries to calm her down with a song that sel sings to ron and it works for a good minute until the machine does its thing. But after that she stopped crying eventually and they went back down. Ron tries to reach c and he is all content when he was finally picked up.

After c went home with his brother per pick up The adults talk about some boring stuff about their jobs. Bc that nonsene needs to be in there in the majority of the chapters as far as i know from this book lol. C & r arrive home right b4 they had dinner. Mitchell informs him that his mom might not be able to attend but to his surprise his dad will. By then their relationship has gotten way better than a few years ago. E even calls him his son once in a while. While the guys eat, c told him about the incident with bully and na aswell. After hearing what happened E was in thinking of something but b4 he could tell him what his opinion was a interrupted by a tiny light turquoise tiger. Her name is Lolly and is the same bot as tigger was. Just as a girl and more confident. She asked her 'big brother' why he hasnt brought her along. C told her about his day as well and e just stopped trying to get his attention.

Next moring levi and chance were going to school. They are still very good friends but they usually hang around their own group of friends. The day goes on without a hitch and the 2 boys wait for their rides. Fisher was on a trip with his own parents, after they and n proswayed him to go. He didn't want to go at first, bc that would mean to leave bratty and bully behind. But in the end he went with them.

The 2 Boys wait ouside for their rides. And they finally see Mt driving around the corner. After the kids said their goodbyes, c went inside the car. But b4 they could drive home someone called out to them. It was Aida (Ai for short) with lv's little brother. Ai and Mt talked for a bit b4 her attention went back to c. C wasnt sure what she wanted from him so he asked her what she wanted to tell him. She cut to the chase and asked what this song was that he sang to na last time. Na seemed to calm down the ebst with it where as other song barely did the trick. They tried looking it up on the internet but to no avail. C just told her that his mom (Selena) made up a Melodie and some lyrics bc r wasnt cooperating very well when he needed to sleep. He heared it so many times that he doesn't need to think about it too long. If his parents have their usual bickerings or are getting some much needed rest from the parenting, he would step up as a big brother and sing it to him. That's why r has become so clingy forwards his older sibling and basically became his comfort person as well.

Ai asked if he could write it down or make a recording of the song. Na has been at her worst since the last few treatments and k was somehow making it worse. C promised that he will do that when he has done his homework. And just as he promised, after he had dealt with his housework he was thinking to just scan the texts and send them to the Stanton's. But went against the idea in case they didnt know the rest of the melody. He went to sel, who was prepearing some afternoon snacks in the kitchen, c asked her if he could record her singing to the song so that he could send it to Na's family. But sel had a better idea. She asked why they wont just do it together. As a duo they make it the ebst after all in her opinion. Said and done, they recored their song on his phone and send to them as well.

A few days later, the Ferguson family got invitrs to a party that was held by some business partner of e. They talked a bit with the guests there and eventually run into n and her dad. Not much going on there other than n thanking s and c for their help with the lullaby. E wasnt aware of it up until now so he was surprised they didnt tell him about it. S gave him a snarcky remark, as she does ^^, and we cut to bratty and ct where they help taking care of the house. Bratty continues being a pouting crapbag, and ct just ignores the obvious red flags.

some time passes by and Na and bully have grown into 5 year olds by then. The kids get ready for their day in kindergarten. Bully isnt much different from the original. He still is bratty's little clone, & na has finally her medicine that she would take a few times a day. N makes sure that everything has been done until they hear a car coming. Na gets all excited and gets to the door first. Mt was waiting with c and lv to pick them up, for their way to school is also passing by their kindergarten building. Over time na has gotten close with the 2 boys while she and bratty had rather a rocky relationship. She never liked ultraman and if they played w/ each other she rather wanted to play a girl role rather than a superhero. And the show was to loud for her as well. So to say that they weren't the bestest of friends wouldnt be a lie.

With c on the other hand, she could play as a princess all day long. R was still not interacting a lot w her even tho c & s tried their best to make it fun for everyone involved. But unfortunately r & na never got along. At least they acknowledge eachothers presence unlike with bully. They try to ignor him to a normal extend. He really is a freaking menace to them & other kids.

back outside the stanton youngins ride in the car. While bully does his own thing na tells her 2 cousins (chance might not be blood related but they still call him that) about her weekend. Out of no where lolly and tigger came out of their hiding places . lolly was in c' backbag and tigger in Na's handbag. Noone knew that they snuck in with them either. Gg and ll (tigger and lolly respectively) started talking and laughing together in the car so loud that even mt noticed the Racket. But bc they were already so close to their first destination he just kept quiet.

Back at the Ferguson's house. E is still working in his office bc he (partially) watches over R while s has a nap after watching him for hours on end. He helped her but his work alsways keeps him busy. At first s was skeptical about him handeling a toddler and company at the same time, but she was to tired to put up a fight. There have been a few times where he was at his wits end but e would find a solution after a long time thinking about it. There were monets he wished that c was stilled homeschooled so that he cohld help with his brother. He and his wife know how well the 2 boys get along. at the beginning s wanted r to go to a very good kindergarten nearby or even go with the Stanton kids. But e wasnt for it, she doesnt know but the reason he didnt want him to be with the other 2 younger kiddos was bc of bully.

He had noting against Na, he liked her well enough. But something always mad him feel uneasy when he sees him around his or their families. Back when c told with the incident when his son visited them, he wanted to ask a few questions but bc of his 'Daughter' he forgot it over time. Yes, he treates ll as his own kid, loke n does with gg (somewhat). He dottes on her and even makes sure to give her gifts on her bday (her activation day)

some backstory for those who want to know about ll ^^

they went to the lab with c where they manufacture and prepare the robots afyer a few months had passed. Like n did with gg. E wasnt originally going to come along. But with some persuasion of s and c he caved in. S's belly was still growing from her baby inside her. Grant showed them their models and some of the new plans in case they wanted to transfer their bots conscious into the newes versions. The fam checkes out a good bunch of the smaller bots but they didnt really seem to like them as much as tigger. E still liked him even after gg told him about his mistake. He was on N with this, that he wasn't to blame, although he wished that he could have known about his mistake, bc he felt really embarrassed thinking back on their interactions w/ each other. but he realized if he would have changed his actions back then he might have not met s and they wouldnt be as happy as they are now. The 3 fergusons gey to an other room and there they saw other animals this time. Aside of little tigers, there were bears, kittens, puppies and even some differenr kind of birds.

grant tells them that they had requests comming in for other animal bots. Some liked birds more than felines while others would rather have something forest related. But c still wantes to have a tiger so they dont feel out of place when they meet gg for the 1st time. They finally fond a good model after some recommendations from the workers. The bot they showed last was a light turquoise Tiger bot with small white paws and a white belly. What they liked about her tho was not the color of the fur and such but her eyes. They were almost sky blue with a sea blue gradient. they turned her on and her personality was determined on the ppl in the room and the bots installed ai. And her personality was what they were hoping for. A polite girl with some fun elements for the kids. She was smart but also very cuddly forwards the 3. She even knew how far she could go with the snuggles and talking depending kn who she was with. E wasnt really a hugger so she sat on his shoulder most of the time. But with s she could go in her handbag and snooze. They bought her after they finalized their contract and their ID installment. When they got home they showed her the baby room with the crib inside. Ll was exited to hear that she gets a bby brother after some more waiting. C was allowed to choose her name, bc he was the one who wanted to have this bo. But also bc s knew he wanted to be a part of the decision as well. C thought of some names days prior and called her lolly. E was not exactly a fan of it and the 2 compromised tha her full name would be Lolita Bethany Anna Ferguson. S was so over it and was trying evrythin to make them change their decision. But e always wantes a girl, while he loved his upcoming bby boy, and obviously c as well, if they had a girl she would have been one of those 2 names. But they promissed to call her Lolly as a nickname. lolita was just a name so that it works with the name lolly.

c introduced ll to hjs friends in school once, and while lv wasnt in the same class as him, he still came to visit a few times of he gets bored. There he saw ll for the 1st time and was impressed that she was so well behaved. He had visitee the lab a few times but sometimes he would meet some wild action animals running on thw floor w/o any care. C asked if he could visit his family to let them meer his new siste, to which lv was not hesistand to agree to his request. A few days later S and c came to the Stanton's, for their usual playdate with r and na. N wasn't around bc she was in the hosp for she got her baby a few weeks ago. S was worried that she would stay for so long. But j calms her friend down, telling her that ct wanted to be on the safe side for his second kid, but they promissed to video call later that day to see the tiger girl. Ll got to eet thw humans first and had soem fun playing with c and little Michael. Yes, he is back and finally over his creepy crush on n. He brought his current gf with him. We dont need ro name her, LM changes his gf every few months or so. He became a playboy of sorts and he doenst get flag for it as much as we hope he would.

I have to keep it somewhat book canon, otherwise it will just be a silly fanfic 😋😅 He and ct arent as close as b4 since he studied abroad but he still keeps up with their lives in a way. When S and c left their home it was getting very late. They lost track of time and had to getbhome fast. As they arrived home, e was already waiting for them on the sofa asking what they had for breakfast to them be so irresponsible. Ll took it into her own paws to defend her mom and big brother. E was astounded by her arguments, wondering how a weeks old roboter can be so smart. After dinner they s got a call on her ipad, as she saw the id name she called the boys (and girl) over. N and ct were in the hosp, n laying in her bed and ct sitting on the night stand. The fergs congratulated on their new born and when n asked for their newest member ll wasnt shy to jump scare them. Ct wasnt happy for the sudden appearance but n was just laughing after she got over her little scare. Tigger then crawled up the bed and the 2 clicked immediately. The 2 bots talked more than the humans did and they had to close the call for them to stop. After they said they goodbyes and gratulated again on their new baby.

Part 3 next

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Interview with Brian Andrews and Jeff Wilson

The “Tier One” series plots written by Brian Andrews and Jeff Wilson will remind readers of the late Vince Flynn. They are better than the books written after various authors took over the writing when Vince Flynn died.  Thriller fans get an explosive thrill ride that starts with page one of book one and doesn’t let up for the duration.  But readers will get much more, including relevant geo-political issues that make it appear these authors have a crystal ball. Below is an interview with Brian Andrews and Jeff Wilson about their first seven books. They use their vast experience to write engrossing thrillers with enemies from Iran to Russia to China. Andrews worked as a nuclear engineer on naval submarines, while Wilson was a trauma surgeon embedded with the East Coast Navy SEALS. Book eight, Ember, will appear in a separate Q & A.

Elise Cooper:  What would you say is the style of this series?

Brian Andrews & Jeff Wilson: There are three book arcs where each book has its own bad guy, but the main bad guy gets their due in the third book. Because the antagonist narrative is extended over the course of the trilogy, readers get to know them. In reality this series everything has shades of grey concerning policy, morality, Special Operations, and how the characters emotionally handle their actions. 

EC: How would you describe each of the following characters over the course of all the books in the series?

BA & JW: EMBER, the organization, is autonomous with analysts, field operatives, surveillance, and collecting intelligence.  They are deep cover with speed, stealth, and efficiency. 

John DEMPSEY: A former SEAL, believes in serving his country, and is adaptable. He is a mission before self-type of guy who puts his country first.  He can be quite emotional, which defines his humanity. He is always questioning if he is doing the right thing for the right reason instead of just following orders. He is the Operations Director.

Kelso JARVIS: He heads the Ember team. He is the most complicated character. He has always been a chameleon to get the job done. He is a little bit Machiavellian where the ends justify the means. He is driven by a recognition of his own mortality because of his disease and being married to Petra. Sometimes overconfident, observant, clever, and a man of action. At times he expected members of the team to betray their peers and teammates. He is willing to make judgements about what his team can or cannot handle. He makes decisions for the team. He withholds because it is in the best interest of their operational effectiveness, the end goal. He has evolved the most of all the characters, because he is more introspective and empathetic.

PETRA FELSK: She is Jarvis’s right-hand person, a former intelligence expert.  Someone he can confide in and trust completely. She can read Jarvis’ mind and complements him. She admires his qualities. She is not afraid to challenge him and call him out.

Elizabeth GRIMES: Sniper operator. In the beginning she had trust issues and feels isolated.  Lizzie is perceptive, loyal, questioning, connects the dots, needs to be in control, and sarcastic. She is our devil’s advocate character, someone not afraid to argue the other side, an outside the box thinker. She now sees Dempsey as brother-like and he sees her as sister-like. But she sometimes becomes the big sister to him. 

Dan MUNN: He is the SEAL medic who now works for Ember but is also an operator.  Dan was a teammate of Dempsey when a SEAL.  He is his good friend and knows how to push his buttons.  

Levi HAREL:  The Mossad chief.  He is perceptive, wise, and a true ally of the US. He looks beyond politics, a pragmatist and a tactician. He is a mentor to Jarvis.

Richard WANG:  He is the team’s cyber guy in the field. Insecure, egotistical, and a genius. He wants the team’s respect, defaulting to humor and self-deprecation.

Ian BALDWIN:  He is the head of Ember’s signals division: electronic, communications, and intelligence. He handles the different ways data is intercepted, collected, and interpreted. He is an enigma.  He is like the AI of the team. Ian is the eccentric uncle no one knows how to talk to.  

BAD GUYS:  They match Dempsey in skill, tactical, and survival.  They are formidable foes. 

EC:  In the first book, TIER ONE, Navy SEAL Jack Kemper had to give up everything including his family to take on the persona of John Dempsey, working for a covert organization that operates without any bureaucratic red tape and operates in the shadows. Did the Tier One book set up the premise for the rest of the books in the series?

BA & JW: Back in 2015 when we started to write this series, we realized that America’s enemies were being constantly defeated by the Navy SEALS because they are so good at what they do. We thought about the ‘what if’ the enemies tried to neuter the Special Operations arm of the US military service, wiping out the entire Tier One Navy SEALs. We fictionalized it by making Tier One smaller than in real life and had all the squads on the same mission to get the high-value terrorist targets, which we did in the first book. For us, the premise was quite intriguing as the enemy upped their game in covert actions.

EC: It seems you always have a relevant piece to your plot.  Were you influenced by what happened in Afghanistan when a military helicopter was shot down, killing 31 U.S. special operation troops, most of them from the elite Navy SEALs unit that killed al-Qaida leader Osama bin Laden?

BA & JW: This is a perfect example of what we tried to show in this first book.  The Taliban knew how the SEALs moved. In the first book, Tier One, we tried to show how the enemy is gaining in sophistication and should not be underestimated. 

EC: In book two, WAR SHADOWS, there is a very relevant quote, “Making decisions requires courage.  Without courage leadership cannot exist. Without leadership the bad guys win every time.” Please explain.

BA & JW: This is a theme throughout all our series.  Leadership matters. Look at the leadership in this country and there are serious problems.  I was taught people need to lead by example, having integrity and accountability. They should own mistakes and tell how they will fix it. Instead, they gaslight. We are trying to imagine a world of military leaders and politicians that we want to see in real life, making decisions based on principles. They should not be self-serving and go along with the political winds. Dempsey and Jarvis stand up for what they think is morally right. 

EC: In book three, CRUSADER ONE, there is a terrorist attack where Israel is caught off guard and people question the readiness, security, and how to protect.  Even though this was written way before October 7th, it exemplifies it. Please explain.

BA & JW: We employed Iran, Iron Dome, and multiple groups attacking at the same time. Hamas and Hezbollah were amassing weapons and digging tunnels, so we put it in the story.

EC:  Elinor Jordan is introduced.  Can you describe her?

BA & JW: She is like a female Dempsey and are kindred spirits.  They have feelings for each other, sometimes trusting each other and sometimes they don’t. She has a schizophrenic existence, sensitive, caring, courageous, conflicted, and wants to make the world a better place. We wrote her as a Persian Jew working for Mossad.  Yet, in the research we found that this community of Persian Jews are not considered by the Iranians as mortal enemies. 

EC: The focus of book four, AMERICAN OPERATOR, has Dempsey rescuing an American hostage being held by the Jihadists terrorists. Please explain.

BA & JW: Dempsey rescues US State Department aid Amanda Allen and is willing to do anything to get her out because he has so much guilt over leaving Elinor behind. We wanted to represent the hostage mindset with Amanda: fearful, tough, capable, courageous, observer, and wondering if she should fight.  She tried to figure out how she was going to survive but not betray her countrymen. She was tortured and was in a no-win situation trying to maintain her dignity, wits, and hope. 

EC: In book five, RED SPECTER, did you focus on the Russian covert organization, Zeta?

BA & JW: It is the Russian version of Ember. Arkady is the Russian Jarvis who is brilliant, cunning, devious, a spymaster, strategic, powerful, and likes to play the long game. Both Arkday and Jarvis are willing to sacrifice their people for what they perceive of the greater good.  Jarvis sacrificed Grimes emotionally and had Dempsey go on what was perceived as a suicide mission. This book is a reckoning of the escalation. 

EC:  Book six, COLLATERAL, has the rubber meeting the road.  Do you agree?

BA & JW: We intended to end the Russian arc with this book but did not because there is a lot more story to tell. We had the US President designate Ember to go after every Zeta operative and eliminate them. We wanted to write it as the new Cold War including Russia infiltrating the Ukraine.

EC:  Is book seven, DEMPSEY, a vengeance book?

BA & JW: The mission is more complicated than that.  The book has a Russian contracting an American to kill his own leader. Enemies make strange bed fellows, and the enemy of my enemy is my friend until dead.  We wanted Dempsey to deep dive into understanding his Russian enemy by living among them. This will change his entire approach to how he sees the world. Truth is relative and strength is what is important. The Russian President, Petrov, is a war criminal, murderer, psychopath, malicious, and paranoid, the ultimate dictator based on Putin.

EC:  Why the two Russian words for truth istina versus pravda? 

BA & JW: One means relative truth and one absolute truth.  Americans believed there is one truth, and it is verifiable. In Russia the absolute truth is like mathematics and is provable.  Now in America truth is what someone believes, which is relative truth. The question we want readers to ponder, is foreign assassination acceptable if that leader does really bad things, like Hitler? The question we pose is assassination of a foreign leader sometimes necessary for our own well-being, security, safety, and the existential threat? We are not suggesting that assassination is OK but just posing the questions.

EC: Readers that want adrenaline-fueled thrillers with a lot of action, deception and vengeance should read these books, preferably in order.

For book eight, EMBER, the one coming out this month, see the new Q & A.

THANK YOU!!

[creativequillchronicles]

The Off-Limits Rule Book by Sarah Adams

“It’s odd how you can know someone for such a short period of time and yet feel like you’ve always been there with them.” ― Sarah Adams, The Off Limits Rule

Hi, I would like to share about my latest read. The name of the book is the off-limits rule by Sara Adams. It's a romantic short book, that can also be counted in the chick-lit genre. I just finished the book today and sat down to pen down my thoughts about it. So, the book is about a 30-year-old woman, who after a drunk one-night stand with a seemingly charming and attractive man, gets pregnant. When she breaks to him the news, he is not supportive in the least and refutes all her hopes of being a proper couple for the sake of the child. Following this, she comes back to her hometown and starts living with her brother and that is when she meets his brother's best friend Cooper. It is love at first sight for both of them, but they are afraid to confess their respective feelings because of her brother, who specifically asks Cooper to stay away from Lucy, as he is super protective of Lucy and her son Levi. Finally, in the end, the brother comes to terms with Lucy and Cooper dating each other. They decide to have a small and intimate wedding with only their parents and best friends. They start living together and cherishing and loving each other every single day for the rest of their lives.

What I learned from this book was that it is never too late to change for the better, to grow and face your fears. Fear is present and prevalent in every person's life. Nobody is born free from fear of everything all the time. Besides, being fearful is not the way to move forward. Fear will simply impede your path further in your life. You should always try to step out of your comfort zone because there is no growth when you are in your comfort zone. Speaking what is in your mind or thinking out loud is often observed to help people interact and connect with new people. It might not be possible always and sometimes it can be difficult and daring to do so. But, what I have learned from this book is that the female protagonist always spoke her mind without any worries about her impressions on others. Finally, the last lesson from this book would be to always be optimistic in your life, no matter how sad or depressed your life appears to you, you should never stop hoping for the best for the future because you never know what life is going to throw your way next. You might be getting the biggest surprise of your life the next moment you never know. So, you should always try to make the best of every moment that you have got and try to stay optimistic, hopeful, and happy as this will help you through your rainy days. I would love to hear your opinions and views on the book. I invite one and all to listen to their takes on this or any other of your reads. Let's create a happy and book-lover world around us. Here's to one more read of the year and many more to come.

[despondentcharisma]

She got married last week.

Yesterday I saw a stunning picture - my very first girlfriend, from high school.. that I was so in love with… got married. And I really am so happy for her.

When we were together 13 years ago.. I was a secret for the three years that we were on and off … our relationship wasn’t like most teenagers or young adults in love. She never really told me what she was feeling, we didn’t always see a lot of each other in fear of her family finding out. But I was just so in love.

We were good friends at the end of our high school days that would eventually turn more. I would go over to her house and I got along with the family… I got along with her mother. Until one afternoon the mother walked in on us kissing; and as a 16yr old girl… this woman made me feel like I was the absolute worst person in the world who had apparently manipulated her daughter into the “fad” of being gay. She told me that God didn’t intend families to be “my way” and banned my girlfriend from seeing me or talking to me. This girlfriend and I tried to make it work for three years behind closed doors… well I did. I made the effort because I was so in love and she seemingly would have somewhat of an affair with my at the time best friend. I went through hell mentally battling the “gay thing” and of course my own mother didn’t take it all well for the first couple of years. Everyone broke my heart. She told me that she could never tell her parents she was Gay and that I’m overall wasting my breath because her family was more important. We talked about marriage, and kids! Even had names picked out like Cooper and Levi because I had a premonition that I would have twin boys - she is an identical twin… but so was my grandmother, and no one in my family has had twins since her - my intuition says that I will have twin boys and then about a 6yr gap and have a little girl. Now, I am soooo family oriented!! My sisters are now my bestest of friends… but I love my family that much that I didn’t want to pretend to be someone I’m not. I didn’t want to be apart of the statistic of people being kicked out of their homes, rejected as a family member, whispered about…I was strong enough to be heard even if it hurt my heart to see my mother struggle and grapple with the notion that I wasn’t going to marry the boy from the start of my senior year. I was going to die on the hill that I stood defending myself and even saying “well mum I won’t box myself then… if I happen to be in love with a woman and then a man comes along and sweeps me off my feet, so be it”.. knowing full well that that would probably never happen. I moved out of home with the afore mentioned best friend before I was really ready.. so that maybe, just maybe my girlfriend might be brave enough and that we would have our own safe space to just, be.

Today, I saw her Mother’s post… and whilst it was beautiful and supportive of my first loves new wife and commitment to marriage… the 16yr old inside me still craves for an apology - that of which I will never receive. I’ve often wondered if she’s thought about me. If she’s wanted to say sorry and that perhaps, maybe, just maybe… she’s a little proud of the achievements I’ve made with my life too. I’m an Australian Country Music rising star after all. I can’t have been too bad of a choice for her daughter. I work hard… I’ve been working hard since the day I moved out. I have three certifications in teaching, I’ve had successful management roles in well known retail companies. I come from a really great family. So I do, I wonder if now with her new found love for love… for celebrating love as she puts it in her post; if in her eyes I could’ve been good enough 13yrs later. Hmmmm. I’ll never know.

This year… I plan to do the work to release my sadness. I was the lesson in that part of someone’s life.. a stepping stone. And whilst I am proud and happy for my first love… my heart is broken for the loss. It sounds silly… I know. I am a person who feels all my past emotions as if it were happening this very second. And it’s nothing more than a memory of all those lessons of my own I had to learn.

It’s just feels bittersweet.

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Alright I'm making a universe list to organize everything, because this stuff gets complicated.

Note: These are just MY characters, but if you want your characters to be ADD to the list, DM about it please or reblog as well.

(All events in role plays happen in universe 1)

Universe 1 (everything is good + MAIN UNIVERSE)

Levi- was drafted into war at 10, for the Nimone war, had a snapping moment and comment many war crimes. Got arrested and became depressed before escaping and coming to Yokohama. He now walks freely and is living a better life.

Cooper: Levi's best friend, a mischievous boy who was chaotic and never took no for a answer. He was drafted at 18 before dying in Levi's arms after getting shot through the head. Now Cooper rests peacefully in heaven.

Ross- Joined the Nimone military at 18, became Captain and help lead troops in the war. Thought he lost his sister and hated Levi after Levi's snapping moment for almost ruining his entire reputation. Ross came to Yokohama in search for Levi. Now he has became a better man, found his sister, got a boyfriend and a few kids. He doesn't hate Levi anymore.

Ikari- Lonely 16 year old highschool student got drafted into being a medic for the war. Had no friends or family until he was assigned to Ross group after the war. Now he's adopted by Issac, found his long lost cousin, his friends are his family now, and life isn't so dull for him away more.

Dorothy: Help runs a orphanage, she used to take care of Ikari when he wasn't adopted. She stays in Nimone and sells great candy apples for events. Most of her time she stays helping the orphanage or the church. Now she's a sweet old lady.

Universe 2 (things could be better)

DNA- Same things happened to Levi except he never had his snapped moment. Therefore he never committed any of those war crimes and never got arrested. He became a cold captain after Ross died. DNA doesn't remind his actual name as Levi and he's emotionally numb. Now he's in universe 1 after a portal for quick transportation was made by a group of scientists ended them up here.

Cooper- Same type of Cooper from universe 1. Died the same as well.

Ross- He was the same like the universe 1 Ross. But unfortunately this Ross went to take a flight mission and ended up dying in a explosion after his fighter jet was shot down. The doctors couldn't save him.

Ikari- Same Ikari as universe 1, except less depressed and more mean. This Ikari is more athletically fit as well and lost a eye. For now he's left in universe 2 doing boring medic work.

Dorothy- same old sweet old nun.

Universe 3 (oh crap half of the world has been taken over)

Levi- Unknown right now

Cooper- Most likely dead

Ross- Scarlett killed Ross

Ikari: Same Ikari, committed sewer slide.

Dorothy: She's just Dorothy. Same old sweet nun.

Universe 4 (unknown)

Cooper- He didn't die in the war, but he was captured and brainwashed into being a submissive servant. Now he lives with Shibusawa after waking up in a field of flowers with no memory.

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OM HC - Their Favorite Photos

Everyone's always got their D.D.D's handy, not only for texting but also for picture taking! Here are what I think the brothers/datables favorite pictures that they have on their D.D.D's would be. (I also believe that a lot of the candid photos were taken by either Asmo or Satan, the resident photographers.)

Their Favorite Photos:

Lucifer - A picture of you posed seductively on his bed in sexy red lingerie. You wanted to surprise him with a special treat since he had been working so hard, and once he got over his initial shock, he snapped a pic. For his eyes only, of course. - A candid photo taken of you and him in his study while you were talking, and both of you are smiling. He's smiling gently, your smile is radiant and happy. He was originally annoyed at Asmo for taking the photo, but saved it anyway. - One of the photos that was taken of all of you during the Wedding Event. Everyone looks so nice all dressed up, and you are the brightest light in the center of the picture. He cherishes it, because it's a family photo.

Mammon - A candid photo of you at the dinner table. You're listening to something Asmo was saying, and you just had the sweetest look on your face. Mammon had to secretly snap a picture, just so he could always see that face. - A selfie of the two of you together. You're flashing some Grimm, and he's holding Goldie, and both of you have super happy smiles. - A photo of you, him and Lucifer together. He secretly loves this picture, because it includes himself with his (shh) favorite brother and human.

Levi - Photos of you cosplaying as Ruri-chan and as Henry. He can't decide which one is his favorite. - Beel once snapped a picture of the two of you gaming. You had a determined look on your face, and he had a joyous smile at the moment he won. Luckily you weren't upset about him winning, and he keeps the photo because your determination inspires him, and he's really happy in the picture, not just from winning but from spending time with you. - A photo of you posed next to Henry (the fish, who cooperated for the photo surprisingly) - his two best friends. The picture makes him so happy.

Satan - A candid photo that Asmo took of you resting against him, reading. You both look completely relaxed and happy. - A photo of you holding a cat at one of the cat cafes you went to together. Both you and the cat look adorable and you have the gentlest, sweetest look on your face as you cuddle the cat. - A photo of you, him and Lucifer together. He and Lucifer are sort of scowling at each other, while you happily smile and flash a peace sign. It's weird that a favorite photo of his would have Lucifer in it, but he realizes that you were the one who helped bridge the gap between him and his brother and that's incredibly important to him. He'll never admit it to anyone though.

Asmo - You all dressed up after an impromptu fashion session. His very favorite photo is one of you modeling an outfit that he designed himself. - The many selfies he takes with you. There's literally so many, and he loves them all. - A photo of himself, you and Solomon together. He cherishes this picture, because it's of himself and the two humans he has pacts with, two people he really really cares about.

Beel - A picture of you, your mouth full of food but with a radiant smile on your face as you happily eat. You were embarrassed by the picture, but he absolutely loved it. - A candid picture taken by Satan at one of his games where you ran out on the field after they won the championship and he scooped you up in his arms with an enormous smile on his face. - A picture of you, him and Belphie together. You all had fallen asleep in the attic, Beel on one side of you and Belphie on the other. He loves this picture because it truly screams your group name, "The Attic Club Sandwich."

Belphie - A photo of you sleeping, a small blissful smile on your face. You just look so comfy and peaceful. - A silly selfie you took of the two of you during a nap session. He looks annoyed, but you're laughing, and he loves that. - The "Attic Club Sandwich" photo. It means more to him than anything else, because you and Beel mean more to him than anything else.

Diavolo - A photo he snapped of you while you were outside together in the gardens. He asked you to look back, and you turned slightly with a smile on your face while he snapped a quick picture. He adores the gentle look on your face. - A candid photo (taken by Barbatos) of the two of you chatting over tea. He doesn't look royal in this photo, just like an average person having tea with the person he loves. - A formal picture of everyone (brothers, himself and Barbatos, angels and Solomon) together, smiling. It reminds him of how successful his program is going, and of all his future dreams and plans.

Barbatos - A photo of you, covered in flour and proudly displaying a batch of cupcakes you baked with him. - A selfie of the two of you together. You surprised him when you asked to take a selfie with him, and even though he looks a tad stiff, he still loves the picture because it's of you and him together. - The photo he took of you and Lord Diavolo together. The young Lord looks so happy in earnest conversation with you, and you look equally happy.

Simeon - He asked you to pose very nicely for a photo beside a tree, and even though it came out a little blurry (Solomon secretly took a better photo to send to him later) he adores it, due to how gentle and sweet you look as you smiled for the picture. - A backstage selfie you took of the two of you together, and underneath it you wrote "our director." He loves this picture, because even though he knows he's a tough director, he's proud of how the productions he's directed have turned out. - A photo of you, him, Solomon and Luke together outside of Purgatory Hall. All the exchange students together.

Solomon - A slightly risqué photo of you displaying your pact marks and Sorcerer's Society crest. He loves this picture of you, not only because you look sexy, it also displays your power and he's so proud of all the hard work you've done. - A candid photo (taken by Asmo) of the two of you walking down the street, both of you smiling, holding hands and looking completely in love with each other. - The same photo that Asmo has of the three of you together. The two beings he has been closest to in his long, long life.

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[lancermylove]

Teen MC 18: Trauma (HC)

Fandom: Obey Me

Pairing: Demon Bros x gn!Reader, platonic

Warning: Mentions of kidnapping, abusive parent, and past trauma/scars.

Requested by: Anon

Prompt: Hi! Can I please request the brother's reacting to an teen MC turning into a child and having a backstory, trauma, and personality like Kayo from erased? Thanks luv!

A/N: Hi! I know Kayo, but I’m not completely familiar with Erased, so sorry if I made mistakes. 

Series: [1][2][3][4][5][6][7][8][9][10][11][12][13][14][15][16][17]

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Lucifer was quick to notice that your personality seemed different from your teen version. He would have brushed it aside as character development had it not been for your lifeless eyes. 

He tried to talk to you and ask questions, but that only seemed to scare you more. So, he did what any adult does to get a child to cooperate - bribe with gifts and sugar. 

Lucifer was not expecting to see you in tears. The Avatar of Pride doesn’t get moved by much, but hearing you say, “no one gave me gifts before”, touched him. 

After finding out everything that happened to you, he was livid. How could a parent treat their child in that manner? If they couldn’t take care of a child, they shouldn’t have had one in the first place, and that kidnapper, if Lucifer could meet him face to face, he would make that man suffer to the point where he wished for death. 

The Avatar of Pride was going to find a way to return you to your teen version, but until then, he was going to spoil you senseless. He may not have been able to help you the first time around, but Lucifer was going to do his best to make your child-self happy. 

Once you do turn back, he becomes even more protective of you but doesn’t stop spoil you. He is not going to let anyone hurt you like that ever again. 

After seeing your tiny version, Mammon was too busy panicking to notice the fear in your eyes. 

How did things end up this way? The two of you were talking, and suddenly you shrunk! Lucifer was going to hang him from the ceiling...wait, why do you look so scared of him?

“Stop lookin’ at me like I’m goin’ to hurt ya or somethin’. Don’t tell me you forgot me. H-Hey, (y/n), I’m not gonna hurt ya...c’mere and lemme hug you.” 

When Mammon brought his arms closer to you and saw you flinch, he was shocked. He didn’t know why, but something was not right. 

It took him a few hours to gain your trust, but he eventually got you to talk about your past. Abusive parent, kidnapping, loneliness, near-death experience...who would have guessed? No wonder you didn’t like to talk about your past. 

Mammon hugged you close and cried with you. “I’m sorry for not bein’ there for you, but I’ll stay by your side from now on. I ain’t gonna let anyone hurt you.” 

As long as you stayed a child, he showered you with hugs and gifts daily. Even after you turn back to your teen self, Mammon doesn’t stop giving you hugs and gifts. He feels closer to you after learning about your past, and if Mammon ever sees you sad, he stays glued to your side until you cheer up. 

Eh? EHHH? Why did you turn into a chibi? 

Levi went into full panic mode but froze when he saw you blankly staring at him. He took a moment to examine your face and was shocked. Why was there no light in your eyes, and why did you seem numb?

He attempted to talk to you in vain. How was he supposed to get you to talk? The Avatar of Envy tried various things to gain your trust - dressed up like Ruri-chan and danced, handed you some of his collectible items, and even shared his limited edition Ruri-chan cookie with you. 

“Why are you being nice to me?”

Your blunt question came as a shock to him, but Levi answered honestly, “I c-care about you. You are my only friend and the only person who understands me.” 

That was enough to get you to open up to him, and Levi was furious to the point where he nearly summoned Lotan. Despicable and lowly humans. How could they do those things to you? Aren’t they supposed to have a heart? Then why do they sound more demonic than demons? How he wished he could have ordered Lotan to destroy everyone who hurt you. 

“I...am angry. You didn’t deserve any of that pain, but you still had to suffer. No more. You are safe now...and we won’t - I won’t let anyone hurt you. If they try, I will summon Lotan on them. S-So, don’t be scared...Levi, your big brother, is here for you.” 

Whenever you needed him, he kept his promise to be by your side. Once you return to your original age, Levi still acts like your big brother and protects you. With him by your side, you don’t have to worry about much - except maybe dealing with a flood when he summons Lotan out of anger.

Initially, Satan started to think about what could have caused you to suddenly turn into a child, but after seeing your distant expression, he became curious about your past. You never once talked about your childhood; in fact, whenever someone brought up the topic, he noticed you would immediately change the subject. 

The Avatar of Wrath could tell right away that you were nothing like your teen self, and from your eyes and expressions, you had been through some trauma. He knew questioning you wouldn’t work, so the first thing he did was try to gain your trust. 

Satan slowly made you comfortable, then started to bring out his cat toys, headbands, cookies, and - why were you staring at him in shock? Was this the first time someone was nice to you? He began to question you, and though you started crying, you told him everything. 

Had you not been in his room in tears, Satan would have lost his cool. How could anyone treat a child, let alone their child, this way? Cowards. Are the creature of the Human Realm that cruel? Weren’t they supposed to think of children as a gift from God and a bundle of joy, so why would the adults stoop that low and hurt them? How fake. 

Setting his anger aside, Satan held his arms out for you. “I can’t change your past, but I promise to make you happy. Even when you return to your teen self, I will keep that promise. Will you let me be your guardian and trust me?” 

Satan watched you run into his arm and held you in a warm embrace. You had endured more than enough pain for a lifetime, and now, all you deserve is happiness.

Asmo couldn’t stop “aww” -ing at how cute and pocket-sized you looked. He wanted to dress you up and have a fashion show with you, take you out for sweets, and spoil you like royalty. 

But why were you looking at him that way? Every time he tried to step closer to you, you would back away. If you were scared of him, why were your expressions blank? 

“Sweetie, what’s wrong? Oh, do you not remember me? I won’t hurt you, don’t worry!” 

“Stay away for me. People only know how to hurt me.”

Those words were a red flag to Asmo, but it only made him want to know more about you. He could have tried his charm magic, but he didn’t want to risk making you feel uncomfortable; instead, using his sweet words, Asmo got information about your past out of you. 

He doesn’t get angry often, but the people from your past made him furious. Everything made sense to him - you not wanting to get close to any of them when you came to Devildom, you saying trusting people is hard for you, and you flinching every time the brothers got too close to you. 

You didn’t have the childhood you deserved, and Asmo was going to make sure to spoil you. He showered you with countless gifts, affections, words of praise and never forgot to remind you that he cares about you. Even after you turn back to your age, Asmo continues to spoil you. 

Beel thought you looked adorable, but he didn’t want to risk scaring you. 

He didn’t notice anything different about you and just took your blank stare as you did not remember him. 

The Avatar of Gluttony did not question you, nor did he try to talk to you; instead, he went straight to the kitchen and returned with a mountain of snacks. Beel signaled you to come and join him with a warm smile. 

"I can eat...whatever I want?” 

He nodded, thinking you would be happy to hear that, but Beel never expected to see you crying. “D-Don’t cry. I’m sorry if I said or did something to scare you...sorry. W-Would you like a hug?” 

His innocence was enough to draw you towards him and straight into his arms. Though he didn’t ask, you ended up telling Beel about your past, and he was upset. Why would family hurt family? Why wouldn’t they give you food? He couldn’t understand the concept of abusive family members who would actively want to see their own suffering. 

“(Y/n), you are part of my family. I don’t know why your family hurt you, but in my family, we look out for each other. No one is going to hurt you here, and you can eat whatever you want. If someone tries to hurt you or take your food, tell me, and I will make them pay.” 

Belphie chuckled when he saw how tiny you were, and he immediately thought about taking a nap with you. Kids like naps, right? But the more he stared, the more he realized that the air about you was completely opposite of your teen self. It was almost like someone drained the energy and life out of you. 

Initially, he didn’t want to be nosy, but his curiosity about your past was growing by the minute. At the same time, Belphie had a feeling that he wasn’t going to like whatever you were going to tell him.

It took him a few hours to get you to talk to him, and though he was tired, he felt one step closer to learning about your past. Slowly but surely, he found out about everything you went through, and Belphie’s anger skyrocketed. All the hatred he once felt towards humans returned ten-fold. Not all humans deserved hatred, but some were beyond vile. 

He had to force himself to stop thinking about that and focus on you. Why didn’t you tell him all of this before? He was sure you trusted him, so why did you hide your past from him?

As you curled up next to him and slept peacefully, Belphie made a silent promise to protect you. Even when you return to your teen self, even when you leave Devildom, if you choose to do so, and even when you get old, Belphie will continue to stay by your side and ensure your happiness. Though, be prepared because when he sees you as an old person, Belphie won't shy away from playfully chuckling at how wrinkly you look. 

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hiiii Iorkai! i was thinking....could you do something like a MC that is obsessed with demonology and how the brothers would react? also if its not bothering so much, could you do MC wearing a leviathan's cross? he would be so happy! no pressure tho, do in your time!

Love your work!

Xoxo

- anon21

A/N: Hi anonie, thank you for your kind words! And sorry for the delay with this headcanon, I honestly didn't know where to go and had a lot of ideas. It turned out to be small, however. Hope you like it anyway!

You were a person who liked things that people didn't understand and didn't try to understand. Demonology was one of those things, fascinating, with so many secrets to discover, although you only see it as a means of knowledge that people turned away out of fear, everyone else didn't even want to think about demons and looked at you in a strange way. .

That changed when you arrived in Devildom. You could ask whatever you wanted and you would have an answer that no other book could offer you, after all you would ask a demon directly.

...

Lucifer

- He is proud that, in addition to you cooperating with the exchange program and not disobeying any of the rules imposed by him, you also study hard and always want to know more about demons and their culture. This knowledge will give you another view of the demons, one that the exchange program needs, so of course he helps you learn more.

- Probably sets aside time just to answer each of your questions and help you with your homework, he values your attitude!

       "See Mammon? You could learn a little from the MC and be more studious!"

- It is during these study sessions that you also become good friends. Lucifer even lets you use his office when his boisterous brothers are, well, making noise. You guys talk and work on whatever you're doing and he couldn't ask for a better friend.

...

Mammon

- Annoying! super boring! If he's going to spend most of his time with you, then at least do something interesting instead of just asking questions and following him around. He wants more emotion, more movement.

- Still he answers your questions with as much patience as he has, although he may not know any answers to questions that are too difficult.

      "No MC, I have no idea the difference between pact and alliance. Ask Satan."

- He spends so much time putting up with you that he ended up picking up your habits and always studying with you, sometimes just making small drawings on the pages instead of doing something real. But hey, what counts is the intention. He finds all his curiosity cute, but he'll deny it if you ask him.

...

Leviathan

- He doesn't know if meeting you is a curse or a blessing, he'll think about it while playing. But Levi loves the fact that you have the Cross of Leviathan tattooed on your arm, it's a symbol of him and everything he stands for. He loves it, even if he won't tell you directly once he first meets you.

- During the exchange program, however, you spend time together. You liked Levi before you even met him and you let him know that, letting him see the tattoo every time you're together. And you also take this moment to ask him some questions about demonology, Devildom and himself. You always want to know more, even about the things he's always rambling on. Like Ruri-chan, the TSL series or Henry, his goldfish.

      "Yes, Mc, I can help you with the anatomy of demons... Just give me a minute to kill this boss in this game."

-His curious personality reminds him so much of a character dear to him, so he can't be mad at you asking so many questions. And as his best friend, Levi also makes sure no one makes fun of you for it. It's a pretty cute trait, especially given the way his eyes light up every time you get a satisfying answer.

...

Satan

- He's having the time of his life. Finally someone who also values ​​knowledge is living under the same roof as him, Satan will have many debates with you on many subjects, focusing more on demons and the books you have read about them in order to help you find out more about them. He was also very curious to know this when he was born, what was he anyway? An angel? A demon? Half angel and half demon? A fallen angel perhaps?

- He offers to help you with whatever you need during the first few weeks in Devildom, taking you to his library or his room to study and debate, make you reflect on things and even teach you some spells, for the fun of it. You and he become good friends that way too, and you talk about your problems and help each other out a lot too. You're the one who manages to make him realize that his hatred aimed at Lucifer is something that will wear him down over the years, as if he only lived to torment his father older brother.

    “A pact is when a demon gives himself to a human, takes this person as a master and serves them. You can summon him and force him to do whatever you want if you have a pact with a demon. But an alliance is different, it's like an equivalent exchange. You and your demon give and take back, it's a cycle MC."

-All in all, he's really happy with your coming to the House of Lamention. You are without a doubt the best person he has ever met and he is more than happy to help you on this journey to knowledge, he will be here for you whenever you need him.

...

Asmodeus

– His beauty does amazing things, attracting such smart people to him. Of course he won't mind if you want to hang around him to ask questions about demons in general or just talk about silly things, he's all about that honestly. But know that he knows a lot about the anatomy of demons, in case you want to know about some very interesting points, if you know what I mean.

- If you feel comfortable he could talk about you to Solomon, after all the two of you like demons so much that he just know that you two would be good friends and would talk about topics that interested you the most. Pacts, the seven deadly sins, their most notable features like horns and wings. It's all so interesting. By the way Asmo would let you touch his wings, but be careful because his back is fragile.

  “Awww MC, darling, your dedication to this study is admirable. But come and sit here for a while, let's talk about something else now, shall we?”

- He's definitely going to tell you a few little lies, though. It's just for fun and watching you write some silly little lies in your book is so funny he just can't help himself. He'll tell you the truth later, don't worry.

...

Beelzebub

- Beel might not be your first choice because he keeps that expression closed most of the time, but you can tell he's just not good at expressing what he feels. So you approach him, observe his patterns, and ask him questions about his hunger, what it feels like, why it's so persistent, what it's like to be the Avatar of gluttony.

- He's patient, but please don't ask questions when he's trying to eat. He might choke trying to answer you and he doesn't want that, although he's a Beel demon might not be your most favorable choice. Yes, he is a good observer and able to read people with a single glance, but there are many things he doesn't understand and maybe doesn't know how to explain in the best way. He can tell you about Devildom's plants, though.

  “No MC, this plant is one that didn't need much water! How do I know this? Hm, look here and you will understand what I mean.”

- He's the younger brother, so he sees a little bit of himself in you. He was really a curious angel as a kid and that's why he didn't mind answering your question, after all as a friend and an exchange student it was more than obvious that you were going to have doubts about things.

...

Belphegor

- Well... It's likely that you already know everything you want to know, it's months until you release Belphegor from the attic. But let's suppose you really don't know everything, Belphie is happy to be able to spend time with you to make you forget about the thing he did. And he lets you know that, despite his redemption he's still lazy and his explanations are slow, sleepy, but he does his best to give you a good answer.

- He understands your fascination with demons, he's the same when it comes to humans. So you share information about both races with each other, laughing at the absurdities that demons and humans think about each other.

       "We demons don't sleep upside down, Mc... I understand your blood is red, but what do you mean there's no blue blood?"

- It's fun to see you guys interacting, it's almost like you're in a game to test your knowledge. Mammon probably tried to make you guys compete just to see who would win the match, but you would end up in a tie. You know a lot about each other.

[glassesandswords]

Snk 126: Romantic or Platonic?

I have been reading the asks sent to @ihaveaterribleheadache about the Levihan scene in chapter 126 and its context and I wanted to share my thoughts but not flood Gypsy’s comment box lmao so here it goes: 

I think people have a fixation with how ‘romantic’ the scene was or whether Hange’s words were a ‘confession’ or not. Which is understandable, since this is one of the most iconic scenes for Levihan shippers as Hange literally confesses their desire to live together with Levi. A common argument is ‘Hange was tired so the words spilled out’ or ‘it can be taken platonically, I would also want to be roommates with my best friend’. As a person who enjoys LH’s relationship as it is, without any labels, I have a few things to say about that. 

1. In context of the story

During the course of chapter 126, Hange is taking care of an injured Levi while hiding in the woods after killing their pursuers. It is interesting to note that Hange, a person who cooperated with the Jaegerists’ demands in hopes of reaching some sort of peaceful compromise (even if they could easily take down grown men armed with guns- for example, the MP in the uprising arc) absolutely snapped out of it after seeing Levi near-dead in the river bank. 

Seeing Levi hurt gave them the determination to protect him in any way possible, even if it meant risking their own life by jumping into a flooding river with him or killing their own men. The moment when the Jaegerists displayed the intent of killing Levi, Hange was done with all their patience. They instantly switched into fight mode. 

Understandably, Hange is tired, physically and mentally after the whole ordeal. And it probably just occurred to them that they were very, very close to losing Levi, the only person they had left, the one person they thought could handle any situation. It came as an utter shock, to see their best friend in that state after a month since he was deployed into the forest. They try their best to patch him up with whatever limited resources they have. The shock has now mellowed down into a deep ache, an incredible sadness at how things turned out to be. And this is when they start their monologue. 

Usually, we never see Hange talk about their feelings in front of others unless they are particularly disturbed, and their words show the true depths of their emotions. There are three times we have seen this happen- a) When Hange discovered the wall titans in season two and admits to Moblit and their entire squad along with Pastor Nick that they are terrified. b) (in the manga) When Hange requested everyone to lay low during the beginning of the uprising arc because they felt guilty about Pastor Nick’s death. c) During the serumbowl on the rooftop to help Mikasa accept the inevitable. 

These three scenes had incredible weight on them, Scene a- while confronted with ground-breaking knowledge that could change everything, Scene b- The guilt of a person’s life that was entrusted to them being snuffed out from right under their nose, Scene c- The shock of losing Moblit, losing an eye, letting Reiner go, and seeing Erwin die in front of them- which might have not happened if they had Reiner to pass on to him along with Bert. 

Hange expresses their true feelings only when something major happens. Otherwise, they keep themself strong, optimistic and fixated on the present and future, rather than the past. But the events that occurred before 126 was bigger than all of them, at least from Hange’s perspective. So, when they said they’d rather run away and live with Levi, it was coming straight from the bottom of their heart- a suppressed desire spilling through. Those words are not something that can be brushed off as a passing statement, especially since Hange calls back to it in 127 to Jean as well. Hange really does want to live a peaceful life with Levi, and Levi alone. 

2. In context of Japan’s culture 

There are literally so many metas about this, but in short, Japanese confessions are roundabout. This actually applies to many eastern cultures, where we rather give hints than make an outright bold statement of love. Bold statements are usually only made after you’ve established and labeled your relationship properly. Till then, there are statements like “Well, looks like they don’t love you back.” (cough Levi in chapter 132 cough). 

Not to mention that the practice of running away from the eyes of the society and living somewhere alone together with your beloved is the EPITOME of romance in many eastern cultures, including mine. So, it’s really, really not a stretch to assume that statement from Hange was intended to be romantic. 

3. In the visual context of the setting and mood

This is purely from a writer’s perspective and my frank observation of the scene from a media student’s point of view. If I wanted to hint something between my characters but not make it too explicit, I’d write them into a setting that would be powerful and soft at the same time. Sort of like a bubble, with just the two of them being vulnerable towards each other as the world crumbles apart around them. While this can be applied to any two characters, I’d separate it by enhancing the visuals, the mood, the weight, and the drama of the scene. 

When one character’s fierce protectiveness over the other overrides their usual tolerant nature, I’d hope to showcase that for them, the importance of their partner’s life is greater than anything else. One character jumping into a river while clutching the half-dead body of the other is just peak angst drama that rivals fanfictions. Hurt/comfort is one of the biggest fanfic tropes out there, and considering only the visuals of that scene in chapter 126, it is actually cozy and quite intimate, two people sharing alone time in silence in the heart of the woods, crackling campfire casting a glow on their faces and just one tent pitched up. In such a situation, if I wanted to add a subtle touch of romance into it, I’d make them sit in close proximity to each other, have one of them confess their feelings while thinking that their partner is asleep/unconscious, and let them be freer with physical contact. 

And for the dummies who still don’t get it, I’d add a blush for safety’s sake. 

I’m not saying my interpretation is strictly the same thing that Isayama has intended to portray. All I’m saying is that if he intended to show a smidgen of romance colouring the moment, he did a great job of it. Like, look at the setting and the mood of these panels and then look at me in the eye and tell me that they aren’t extremely intimate, especially for SNK’s standards. 

4. In context of their feelings and sexualities

 Levi and Hange’s sexualities are not explicitly revealed, but considering their interests and their ways of expression in the manga, I personally find the two of them to be somewhere in the demi/ace spectrum. While there are tons of headcanons, we haven’t seen them actively seek out romantic or sexual relationships or display such feelings towards others. ‘Oh, but Hange had a crush on Shadis/Pieck-’ not really. Hange admired Shadis and his leadership abilities earlier, for being a person who led an extraordinary team with his bravery and ambition, and was disappointed in him later. As for Pieck, Hange barely knew her. They were pretty much just interested in her titan form, being the naturally curious scientist they are. (No offense to Pikuhan shippers, Pikuhan is still one of my favorite crackships along with Zekehan and Zevi lmao, I really enjoy them together but it is what it is) 

Personally, as a person romantically attracted to all genders and sexually attracted to none, I don’t see why platonic relationships should, by default, be placed below romantic relationships. In fact, I think platonic relationships are actually stronger, for they are not bound by physical attraction or particular labels. They are families we choose based on their personalities and how much we- how to put this- vibe with them, really. And I think that’s pure af. Strong platonic relationships are equal to or even greater than romantic relationships in my opinion. 

Sure, Levi and Hange’s relationship is still open to interpretation, but what they do have- as the last remaining members of the SC, after being comrades and having each other’s backs for around ten years in the face of countless struggles and deaths and sorrows- is nothing short of agape, the purest form of love towards each other. This sort of love transcends the discussion of romantic or platonic, it’s just utter, selfless love, expecting nothing in return. And they have displayed it time and time again, with Hange saving Levi twice, and Levi letting go the only person he had left, by respecting Hange’s wishes in 132 instead of being selfish and holding on. 

And I think, at the face of this pure, mature, and selfless love, all the shipping squabbles just fade into oblivion.