#EVERYTHING HURTS BUT OMG THAT CLIP WAS TOO AMAZING

[miyakuli]

⋆₊*ੈ💫JUST LOOK MY WAY💫࿔*:･

[thekidsarentalright]

HELLO I SURVIVED!! my voice is extremely fucked up from screaming and my legs hurt but i’m alive!! i feel like there’s so much stuff i need to ramble abt so i’m just gonna write a fuckin essay here lmao i’m so sorry 😭

ok so the stage looked SO cool in person. the backdrops were gorgeous <3 and everything was like a physical prop, not projections… including the giant replica of bubbles the dog <3 pete kept pretending to put his hand in its mouth and patrick was singing to it! and the pyro was insane, i could feel the heat from it and i was Not super close to the stage. they Also had a clock on the side of the stage that would go backwards every so often… like going back in time to play older songs 😭

UM?!?! THAT SETLIST?!?!?! ginasfs was NOT a possibility in my head at all, so that was absolutely insane, my god!!! everyone was like “???” after pete said they’d never played it live. and then it started and my brain literally blacked out. like my only thought was “there’s no way this is happening, what the FUCK”. that song is so important to me and honestly was one of the first ones i remember loving when i got into fob, so that was a whole moment!! if there’s a different song every time that’s so scary, i SO hope u get the song u want if that’s the case! <333

“don’t forget who left the light on 20 years ago” had me tearing up and then all the tttyg stuff… fob wants us all dead fr! and THEN HEAVEN IOWA?! AND HEADFIRST SLIDE?!?!?! i was HOLLERING the whole time, my throat still hurts 💀 and FAKE OUT OMG WHERE DO I EVEN START 😭 the pink lights worked and it looked so pretty!!! it took some ppl a minute to get theirs set up, so the stadium kinda gradually lit up more and more and by the middle of the song it was fully lit! i swear i saw the exact moment where patrick realized what was going on and he smiled so big <3 i teared up so hard (was trying not to cry bc i had glitter on my face lol… i kinda cried anyway) and then pete gave us a shoutout! i’m def keeping my seashell on like… my wall or smth <3

also the covers!! that first song patrick did at the piano is lake shore drive, it’s actually what he was playing in that tiktok of him in the studio back in like… february! (it’s the piano thing right after the clip of him playing trumpet) my mom recognized it when i was watching that video originally and asked why he was playing it, so i already knew the song… was Not expecting it live tho 🤯 and then don’t stop believing?!?! we were all v confused but excited lmao… and then crazy train a bit later 😅

and pete did baby annihilation!! honestly when i said he could do it and i’d cheer, i did NOT expect him to actually do it lmaoo… but he did and it was fantastic!! hold me like a grudge was also incredibly fun, it goes so hard live <3 shoutout to the ppl who were doing the clapping during the bridge w me lol

every time patrick started talking he’d go “hi” in this soft voice and i was just like “HIIIII 🥺” AND HE WORE DOC MARTENS!!! AAAA 💓 he was so sunshiny and just skipping around like usual <3

OH ALSO!! idk what the other venues on this tour are like, but wrigley has this thing above the stage where they have a couple different flags, and all except one of them were changed out to be the smiley face logo!! it reminded me of when they planted their flag in the lftos music video and i got emotional looking at it 😭 like. they did it!! and it’s so obvious they’re excited to be doing all this!! ur gonna have an absolute blast at your show for Sure!

(the openers were fucking amazing too, i totally didn’t process that tai was playing until literally right before they came onstage. and then they covered snakes on a plane and were like “iykyk” and i very nearly died lmao)

(alsooooo congrats on finishing ur first year of college!! happy stardust summer! mwah 💕)

- 🧋 anon

SOOO sorry to be answering this a couple days later tumblr never showed me i got it!!!!! ANYWAYS

ohhhhh my god it sounds like it was such a fantastic like. incredibly special concert, i'm so happy for u!!! the setlist and the set itself literally blew my mind as i was watching a livestream of the show like????? my god they really pulled out ALLL the stops while also keeping the classics on there, really a setlist to please Everyone i think?? also w the set like. all the animatronic stuff and different backgrounds and everything. patrick was Not kidding when he said this show was visually different than anything they'd ever done before i am. SOOOO impressed. actually both by that and the stardust project, i remember something similar happened for mania tour and it was really pretty (kept my cutouts and still have them!!!) so im VERY glad it's happening this time for fake out <333 they deserve to see all of our love in every way possible <333

SO interesting that that's what he was playing on that tiktok omg he was practicing for so longggggg.... insane that ur show got a special lil piano mashup and then last night he did what a time to be alive.... so curious to see if its wattba forever now or if that's gonna be different each night Too!!!

and YEAHHH baby annihilation being on the setlist is making me soooo ;__; every time i think abt it im sooooo proud of pete for like. being confident enough to do That in front of thousands of people. also made me so happy to see patrick skipping around stage in his slay lil outfit like all four of them were SOOO happy u could tell i just. god i love them, they DID it they had their lil flag planted and played such a good show. last nights show was no doubt so good and special too from every video i've seen i just. i Know this tour is gonna be the tour of a lifetime, im SOOO excited for my show and also so glad urs was such a wonderful time and experience like u got so many special lil things!!! ginasfs and snakes on a plane etc!!!!!!!!! loved hearing all of this <33333

[geronimomo-spd]

OK SO ZAGREUS, HOLY SHIT

ok so, zagreus!

HOLY FUCKING SHIT??? LIKE JESUS FUCKING CHRIST??? IT WAS JUST!!!

ok as an overeview, i honestly cannot tell you if this is a good episode or not objectivly, all i know is that i absolotly loved it!! like from the middle i knew that this is such a guilty pleasure!!

this one is LONG GUYS I HAD SO MUCH FUN WITH THIS, i tried making this as coherent as possible lol

first of all, the beginning, HE HIT HER JESUS I LOVE WHEN THE SHOW FINALLY UNDERSTANDS HOW SCARY AND EVIL THE DOCTOR'S MIND CAN BE!!!! I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT THERE IS A REAON NIGHTMARE IN SILVER IS SUCH A GUILTY PLEASER TOO BECAUSE EVIL DOCTOR IS AMAZING AND THE DOCTOR FIGHTING HIMSELF IS ABSOLOTLY AWESOME

like!! i do not like when the doctor is evil but i do love when he is fighting himself i LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT

JUST, THIS WHOLE THING FELT LIKE EVERYTHING, THIS EPISODE WAS BASICALLY MY WET DREAM OF DOCTOR WHO EPISODES COMBINED INTO ONE AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO WITH IT, THERE WERE MUPLTIPLE TIMES WHERE I HAD TO FUCKING STOP AND REPEAT A CLIP LIKE 7 TIMES OVER AND OVER AGAIN BECAUSE OMG PERFECT PERFECT PERFET

LIKE, THE WHOLE SEGMENT WHERE THE 8TH DOCTOR WAS BASICALLY MIND CONTROLED IN A WAY AND THE OTHER "DOCTORS" HAD TO GO AND TRY AND SAVE HIM?? THE WAY THEY GRABBED HIM??? 7 GOING "YOU HAVE NO MASTER BUT YOURSELF????" THEM REMINDING THE DOCTOR FOR JUST A MOMENT WHO HE IS???? FUCK!!

NO BUT AFTER RASSILON KILLS THEM AND THE DOCTOR IS LITTIRALY ON HIS KNEES, AND RASSLON GOES "WHO ARE YOU?" AND THE DOCTOR CRIES AND GOES "THE-THE DOCTOR!…" AND RASSILON LAUGHS AND GOES, ONCE AGAIN, "WHO ARE YOU??" AND THE DOC GOES, WHILE CRYING, "ZAGREUS"???? FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK OMG

NO BUT EAILER ON!! NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT YOU CAN REALLY SEE HOW HE GOT BITTEN DOWN PEICE BY PEICE!! THE WAY HE STARTS DISTROYING THE DOCTOR BUY MAKING HIM SEE CHARLEY CAN'T TRUSTS HIM ANYMORE, THEN THEY FUCKING MAKE HIM WATCH AS THEY DISTROY THE TARDIS!!!!!, THERE ISN'T A SILLY THING LIKE A MIND CONTROL POSION, SOME SCI FI EXPLANATION THIS OR OTHER, (and yes i know it is under the anti time stuff but that we already know!), THIS IS WHAT MAKES THE DOCTOR TO LOSE HIMSELF??? THIS IS JUST PURE DOCTOR!!! PURE DOCTOR STUFF I CAN'T FIND ANOTHER WAY TO EXPLAIN IT!!, LIKE EAILER I WENT WOW THE DOCTOR REALLY LOST IT, I HEADCANON THAT SEEING THE TARDIS DIE WAS THE THING THAT MADE HIM GO OVER THE EDGE, BUT THEY WILL PROBABLY EXPLAIN IT IN A DIFFRENT WAY- BUT THEN RASSILON LITTIRALY GOES "IT WAS SEEING THE TARDIS DIE THAT FINALLY BROUGHT HIM TO ME!!" AND I WAS LIKE FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKK

I CAN'T EVEN, THIS REACTION IS TAKING SO LONG COUSE I KEEP ON GOING TO RELISTEN TO IT OVER AND OVER!!!! arggg like litiraly someone was like hey Momo!!! want a doctor who episode just spasifically for you?????? it even includes a whump fainting scene right at the end!!! and i said OH??? FOR ME??? OMG THANK YOU???? i know i am repeating myself but i have never encountered a better hurt and comfort episode for the doctor like this?? that is just pure doctor??

ok back to awesome moments because jesus NO BUT WHEN THE DOCTOR DIES BY THE HANDS OF CHARLEY? (WE'LL GET BACK TO THAT JESUS CHRIST) AND THE DOCTOR GOES TO THAT BLACK SPACE WHERE ALL OF HIS OTHER INCARNATIONS ARE (POWER OF THE DOCTOR VIBES??? POWER OF THE DOCTOR THEMES? JESUS????) AND THEY ALL CLAP FOR HIM!! AND KEEP HIM COMPANY AND I WAS SO FUCKING EXCITED TO SEE THEM OFFICALY INTERACT WITH EACH OTHER AND THEY DO AND HE CAN FINALLY THINK CLEARLY SO THEY HAVE ACTUAL BANTER AND I JUST ADORE IT BECAUSE PAUL NOW FINALLY IS A PART OF THEM AND WOW, NO BUT WHEN THEY ALL HOLD HANDS!! AND THEY ALL SCREAM RIGHT AFER THE OTHER!! AND THE 8TH DOCTOR SCREAMS IN THE ONLY WAY HE CAN!! HE IS PART OF THE TEAM OMGGGG

OK BUT WHEN THE TARDIS HAD TO EXPLAIN TO THE DOC HE LOVES CHARLEY???? KILL ME DOCTOR: Friendship is, it's, it's, it's caring for somebody more than you do yourself. BRIGADIER: Fool. That's not friendship. That's love. Blind, heedless love. Shall I tell you about friendship? Friendship is standing shoulder to shoulder in the face of life and death. Friendship is there when love's candle has burned and guttered. Friendship stays loyal when the enemy is at the gates. Friendship is never sacrificed, never surrendered. I was your friend, Doctor. Your Tardis. Your friend ship. How many adventures did we share? How many billions of miles did we travel together? How long was it before you betrayed me? LIKE YES HE HAD TO BE EXPLAINED TO THE FACT THAT HE LOVES HER BUT THE WHOLE SPEECH ABOUT FRIENDSHIP???? AS AN AROMANTIC PERSON THIS IS JUST KILLING ME AND VALIDATS ME?? LIKE JESUS, THE UNDERTSANDING OF FRIENDSHIP IM SDFFSDF

NEVER MENTION THE FACT THAT I REALLY AM BUYING AND LOVEING CHARLEY AND THE DOC?? Like I think I would love them as friends more and stuff like with every ship that I like, but I think this is the first doctor companion ship that Im actually buying?? Like, something about the nerative not leaving it up to interpatation, the nerative finally telling the doctor that no, he is in love, the fact that the doctor thinks he feels just friendship because he littiraly never felt like this towards his companions before! (in the canon at least, not fanon) so the nerative actuslly treats it as a first love but still forbidden because of their posions and its really nice!!, I will say that like, I see what they all see in this love story, that's for sure, apprerently this develops thurder so we'll see When she killed him!!! Her painnnnn fuck me her pain, and then the doctor fucking asking to die, kill me now kill me now Fuck Rassilon fuck him so much im so happy he threw him into the other univerce, he littiraly broke the doctor, mind body and soul like jesus Christ, though I guess that means that the next arc might have him again in there, which is hmmmmm

My whump loving soul is saying we will meet Zagreus again, I honestly really want to he was so much fun, I want him and the doc to become friends somehow, in the way only the doctor can

I menationed nightmare in silver because of the connections of good vs evil doc and shit and I just wanted to say that Paul playing Zagreus is defenetly my absolute fave version of this!! Paul is so good for this, with his already pretty shouty doctor, to this extreme is so cool!!

I've seen other people saying like this is another end of season where they had Paul not be the doctor for most of it!" And as a person who had this issue with Minuet in Hell, I can say that for me it wasn't an issue!! Mostly because paul got to be here and be evil and I had losts of fun, but I do get the issue of not having the doctor be the doctor for a whole finale, I do wish this will change soon I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO THE OTHER DOCTORS NOT BEING THE DOCTOR, WHAT A FUCKING FUN CONCEPT OMG I HAD SO MUCH FUN WITH IT!!!! In the beginning I was like but what's the point????? But then they all met outside the place in the desert and it was so much fun, I downlodad the behind the scenes and I can't wait to see how fun they had making this one

ALSO WHILE SPEAKING OF OTHER DOCTORS, THE FACT THAT COLIN FINALLY GOT TO WEAR BLACK CLOTHS AS THE DOCTR FOR ONCE!! YEAY!!!

Ok what else let me check, my notes from this episode is littiraly all over, some on my phone, some on my pc, and some in dms to my friends, I was littiraly losing every sense of order while listening to this ALSO OH YEAH OG INTRO, THEN IT MOVED ON TO 5TH DOC OUTRO, THEN IT MOVED ON TO 6TH DOC INTRO, THEN 7TH DOC INTRO LIKE HELL YEAH

tardis betraying the doc being an ouch and a weird apprich that I didn't like

The fucking schrodinger's doctor part!!!!! its just so good for some reason lol

8 talks in his sleep every time lol like that's adorable, he ran around and stomped around in the last story, 8 is such a stimmy doctor!!!

Gotta say!!! That the other doctors playing different characters and not know they are the doctor just to realize they are the doctor right when the doctor loses himself ie forgets who he is???? That is so good and cool, it is a fucking shame they just killed them, I think It was in order to let Charley have her moment but I did think they deserved more then this

ALSO JUST IN GENERAL TRHE 8TH DOCTOR IS THE ONE DOCTOR THAT CRIES THE MOST!!! ITS LIKE, I LOVE HIM O MUCH YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND IM DFGDFGDGDFDF PAUL IS JUST SO COOL AND COOL AND PLAYS HIS EMOTIONS SO WELL I CAN'T

Fave quotes: CHARLEY: Because he's read a lot? Oh, he's been everywhere, done everything. You can't take him to parties, it's name-drop hell. Rasputin, you say? I knew the Rasputin, the Tsarina too. Played her at tiddlywinks, don't you know. It's so hideously embarrassing. People think he's escaped from somewhere. Thing is, he usually has. Phobos Penitentiary, Devil's Island, Colditz Castle. TEPESH: Oflag 4-C, as it's properly known. CHARLEY: See? See? That's how many centuries after your time, on a planet how many lightyears away from your own? I don't know how, exactly, but when the Tardis recreated you, some of the Doctor's mind got jumbled up in yours. It must have done. WINKLE: So what you're saying is, I am the Doctor. TOWNSEND: I am the Doctor? TEPESH: I am the Doctor? I LOVE EVERY SCENE WHERE CHARLEY HAS TO DISCRIBE THE DOCTOR!! ITS ALWAS SO MUCH GOLD!!! I ADORE HER AND I ADORE THE 3 DOCTRS REALIZING THEY ARE ALSO SEMI THE DOCTOR!!

CHARLEY FUCKING KILELD HIM, SHE PUT A SWROD BETWEEN HIS HEARTS, FUCK!!! JESUS!!! POOR CHARLEY!! (...now post Scherzo this is nothing lol can't wait to gather my thoughts about that one)

ALSO ONE MORE THING ABOUT DOCTOR WHUMP OF THIS EPISODE BUT THE FACT THAT THEY MADE THE DOC HIMSELF TO MAKE THE BLADE FROM HIS OWN DEAD TARDIS?? RASSILON I AM UNDER YOUR BED TO EAT YOUR TOES, I AM THE ONLY THING HERE THAT WILL HOUNT YOU AT NIGHT

OVEROLL!! A very fun ride! Stopping to recognize all of the voices was fun, the story itself was alright, but the character moments the angst and the slow destruction of the doctor's phsyci were brilliant, Charley as usual very entertaining and the way the interacted with the other "doctors" had me on the floor, heck for me the best part is the last one, just having these 3 very entertanng characters interact like this even before the saving was the saving grace of this, remkble stuff!

also of course as a first interdiction to Leela I gotta say she was very cool and do want her and romana to kiss so yeah

Ok, I had a bunch of fun, I think I finally found my fave way to include other doctors in a multy doctor story, Paul had fun and so did I, I think it was pretty good! Can't wait to see what horrors I have before me sorry it took me a while to gerther all of my thoughts and so sorry it ended up being this long jesus

also more about Zagreus, Leela is so much fun as a character!! and her interactions with Romana were absolote gold

also again while i relisten to it yestuday, THE PART WHERE THE DOCTORS COME UP TO RASSILON AND 7 IS LIKE "HE IS NOT ZAGRUS HE IS THE DOCTOR" AND RASSILON GOES IS HE?? WHO ARE YOU? AND THE DOC GOES "Zagreus is my secret name! Zagreus is the one to blame! Zagreus is the Time Lord's shame!" ALL SHOUTY AND OUT OF IT AND SO CLEARLY PLAYING AT RASILON STRINGS, LIKE THAT WAS ENOUGH, BUT UPON RELITENING, THE WAY THAT ZAGREUS CALLS HIMSELF THE TIME LORD SHAME???? LIKE A WEIRD FORSHADOWING OF THE FUTURE IN HOW HE IS LIKE NOT COMPLETELY UNDER RASSILON'S STRINGS PREHAPS?? IDK OMG

JUST IN GENERAL, AFTER RELISTENNG SOME, I CANNOT TELL YOU HOW MUCH WAS ZAGREUS UNDER RASSILON'S THUMB OR NOT, it sort of seems like the doctor dieing and then coming back as Zagreus was sort of intended to make Zagrues understand he can actually do more then who that created him commands him??? what does you all think

ALSO OK LAST THING, THE WAY DOC/ZAGREUS DRAGGS RASSILON AND THE DOC GOES "would i?" AND THEN ZAGRUES TAKES OVER AND SAYS "I WOULD!!" THEN DROPPS HIM RIGHT IN THERE LLIKE BITCH THAT'S SO GOOD

anyway wowowowowowo jesusususus

i completely get why people hate this one, but i just had too much fun with it

[non-bee-knees]

SOOOOOO

I finished Rise! (And the movie)

Holy heavens what a show omg I can't believe I didn't find it sooner, I feel bad for past me who doesn't have it yet because WOW

I have never gotten attached to a character as fast as I have with Donnie; by the end of the first episode I had decided that if anything happened to him, I'd throw hands. 

All four of them (and April) are so fantastically written it's amazing I can't even muster the words to explain it.

Coming away from it, I have but One Question:

ARE RAPH AND DONNIE OKAY?!?"!?! Seriously, like????? We see both of them, at two seperate points in the show EACH (with some more Raph in the Movie) struggle with self worth. 

In Raph, his worth and doubts are because he feels he can't protect his family well enough, and it's crushing him, to the point where it manifests as Panic and Anger (which as someone who stuggles with keeping cool when angry, it's scary, how easily it could be to snap and hurt someone). I think that Raph's issues with worth are part of the reason Leo is now the leader; to try take some of the weight off Raph's shoulders (TOO BAD IT DIDN'T FUCKING WORK - que the entire movie)

In Donnie, his worth and doubt boil down to thinking he's replaceable. Personally, I think this comes mostly down to his Autism, and more so his brother's (and Dad) not entirely getting it. Sure we see that they understand to a point; they know he's weird with touch, and they never seem annoyed at his stimming, and it's only really Leo who get's annoyed at his Info-Dumping (aside from that one really funny clip from the fish episode - you know the one). Other than that though, I don't think they quiet get it, which is fair enough (I might make another post going more into this because it means a lot to me). ANYWAYS they're constantly joking in ways that always leans on Donnie being the odd one out, and whether they know it or not, it's hurting him. And it's built to worrying about whether he's useful or not. And yes, we get that fantastic April scene in 'Donnie V.s Witch Town' but one pep talk isn't gonna fix everything ( as someone who also struggles with worrying if I'm worth it, same. I'm constantly doubting myself, even despite the self-confidence I've built up recently)

This is long and I've semi forgot where I was going with it

BUT if we get a season 3 (praying, dear god, that we do) I want a Raph and Donnie episode. I don't think we got one that was just the two of them, we saw a lot more Donnie and Mikey adventures than the others (love their duo, so I'm not complaining). I want an episode, after the fact of everything that's happened, Movie and all, where we see Raph struggling more than ever to let go a bit more, especially after being used like that in the Movie - man's is probably terrified of himself. And I want to see Donnie struggling with grasping everything that happened (coming back to me here, woo, when big thing's happen, it's usually in the moment, or not til a long time later that they kinda settle into place; when my grandad died, I wasn't upset at the time, even though I understood why everyone else was. It wasn't until a year or so later that I sort of grieved). I sort of want to see Donnie do the same. It's sorta reenforced time and time again that Donnie is writen as low empathy, so let's see it. Let's see him unsure what to do when everything clicks into place and he doesn't know what to do, because 'Donnie doesn't feel things, why is he feeling things?!' 

I want to see the two oldest lean on each other as Leo and Mikey become more and more themselves, Leo with growing leadership skills, Mikey with his magic, and Donnie and Raph are able to sit back for a minute (but to them it feels like they're being put aside) and they learn to deal with it together. It wouldn't have to be a long episode, but I think it would be nice none the less.

Jesus this was long. SOzzles 😅

[nojey]

reminiscing (fans 2)

dreamwastaken x streamer!reader

genre: angst pronouns: they / them word count: 2.1k warning(s): failed relationship, cursing

fans (part 1)

synopsis: after taking 6 months off from social media, you finally explain to your fans why you took so long and why you needed it.

go live. *click*

you watched as your chat strolled in and viewer count go up. your computer screen illuminating your face in the dark room as your webcam caught the nervous look. you were shaking your leg up and down, a habit you caught whenever you tried to calm yourself down. 

“hi everyone, it’s been a while since my last stream, huh?” you dryly chuckled. “it’s been about.. 6 months since i last streamed and at this point i think i’ve taken enough time to correctly word how i’m going to tell everyone why i decided to take a break from streaming.” you said looking down at the ground and fiddling with your fingers.

“uh, donation notifications will be off for this stream and chat will be on emotes only because i really just want to focus on getting this out. but if you plan on donating, thank you so much, really, it means the world to me.” you said finally looking at your webcam and smiling a bit. you read a chat and answer, “yes, i’m doing okay. i just have a big announcement i want to say after i tell you guys why i took a break.”

you took a deep breath in and started. “ over a year ago, almost 2, i met this guy through a friend and we started talking. it was very little at the beginning but as little as it was, his texts always made me smile.” you scratched the back of your neck. “and as time went on, we started talking more and more and he just became part of my daily routine. when i woke up i’d see a good morning text from him, we’d spend most of our day being on the phone with each other, i was even on facetime with him most of my streams but i had an airpod under my headset so you couldn’t really see it, i almost always fell asleep on facetime with him. i really fell for this guy.” you fondly smiled, looking at your desk, where your phone used to be propped up and you would see clays face just looking at you.

“then we started streaming together. ‘omg he’s a streamer too’ yeah, and a lot of you probably know who i’m talking about at this point but i still won’t disclose who it is. i uh, got a lot of messages from you guys telling me that i looked super happy that stream and i was. i was always happy when i talked to him. but along with those messages i also got a lot of hate, telling me to stay away from him. it didn’t really bother me because i always get hate when i stream with my guy friends; i was used to it.” you said, taking a sip from your water then wiping the side of your eye as it teared up. 

“and today... i’ll be going on the dream smp! with the man himself, dream. dream, say hi now.” you introduced, you waited a few seconds but was only met with silence. you grabbed your phone and sent him a voice message, “clay! you’re on deafen! introduce yourself!” you screamed into your phone. dream then took himself off deafen and said. “hi (y/s/n)’s chat! i’m dream, i’ll be showing (y/n) around the smp today and we’re gonna get started on their house.” you smiled fondly when you heard him speak. “yeah! what dream said!” 

so you both logged into the dream smp, said hi to sapnap, and dream gave you a tour. you then started building your house in a forest, quite far from everyone else, “i don’t want anyone bothering you or ruining your house when you’re not on.” he explained. you told dream you wanted to build a cottage so if anyone does end up stumbling upon it, it looks welcoming to them. so dream started building your house for you even though you insisted you do it together. “dream! let me help, this is supposed to be my house.” you dragged. “well we can both decorate inside and make it our house.” you started blushing. “i guess..” you mumbled. you then started adventuring out to look for flowers and some things to decorate the house with.

you started placing flowers down into flower pots when you noticed something. “dream there’s only one bedroom.” you mentioned. he slowly turned around to look at you and quickly turned back and placed two beds next to each other. “this is our room, dumbass.”

later that night you checked your twitter dms and saw many people telling you to stop talking to dream and that you weren’t good enough to even know him. you sighed and powered down your phone.

“i think a few weeks after that he asked me if i could fly out to him and we’d meet in person. i was so excited i immediately started packing and i met him. it was amazing! i got to meet the guy i’ve been in love with for the past few months. i think it may have been a year already. but yeah, i finally got to meet him and being in his arms was the best feeling in the world, i felt so safe being with him.”

“it was the day after that, when he asked me on a date and i, of course, said yes. like who would say no to the person they fell in love with... so we went on a date and at the end of it we were just sitting on top of the hood of the car, eating dinner, watching the sunset and talking about a future we wanted together. and it may seem like we were moving fast but i knew 7 months into talking to him that he felt the same way about me. no matter if either of us disclosed it. i could tell and i knew he knew the same about me. then i went home and everything was perfect, i wasn’t his girlfriend yet though because we wanted to wait a bit.”

“that’s when everything went downhill, i think” you looked up to try to stop the tears from going down your face, but they fell anyways so you just let it be.

“we started streaming more and more and i started getting more hate than i usually got, this time getting death threats, people threatening to leak my address if i didn’t stop being friends with him. it was crazy but i was willing to endure it all for him. who cares what people on the internet are going to say to me? i really didn’t because i was happy enough with him that, that happiness overcame whatever type of hate i was getting.” tears kept falling from your eyes but you didn’t bother to wipe it, knowing it would just keep happening.

“dude you’re so annoying! you definitely cheated!” you screamed as you died. through your headset you could hear clay wheezing. “there was no way i was cheating!” he said through his laughs. “ask my chat, they saw the whole thing.” you breathed out, not wanting to believe him till a dono was sent to you, “yeah, (y/n) you just suck at this game,” you gasped, your jaw hanging then you started pouting. it was clipped and one of your viewers sent it to dream. he suddenly started laughing harder and you asked him why he was laughing, with a pout still on your face. “even your chat knows i didn’t cheat!” you started laughing too, till you read a message in the chat saying, “ew, their laugh is ugly. i don’t know why dream likes them.” you stopped laughing but kept a fake smile on your face.

“then he called me and he told me that he didn’t think we should be dating anymore, or even be friends. and i think it was because he saw the hate i was getting and he didn’t like that. he told me a different reason as to why he didn’t think we should date anymore but i didn’t believe it, but i let him go. because i was not going to force him to be with me if he really did mean it. “ you said, sniffling after so you didn’t sound too congested as you spoke.

after you hung up, you curled into a ball and cried. you cried, and cried, and cried. the feeling in your chest hurting more than you could ever imagine. you just lost the guy you wanted to marry, the guy you had spent over a year going to because of your problems, the guys you saw having kids with, the guy that made everything worth it. he was the only person on your mind as the pain in your chest grew. you tweeted and powered your phone off straight after. you didn’t want anyone messaging you asking what was wrong, knowing your friends they would do that. 

“so the reason i took a break from streaming was because of that. because i resented the people that sent me hate so much i couldn’t bring myself to stream. i didn’t resent them because they sent me hate. i resent them because the hate they sent me caused the guy i really wanted to be with to make me believe he didn’t love me like i love him.” now, you were sobbing, letting your cry’s out because you had been holding them in for too long. 

it had been a few months and you were on snapchat, seeing that you had a memory a year ago today, you checked it. “i think i literally met my soulmate.” with a picture of you and clay in a discord call. your breath got caught in your throat and your breathing became labored. your eyes started stinging as the tears started falling. it’s happening again, all the pain from the day you stopped talking to him came back and once again, you were crying into your hands and you couldn’t stop.

“i had always known that becoming a streamer i would get hate, but i never thought that i would get enough hate to prevent a relationship i really wanted to work. now all i do is reminisce of a guy i wish could be mine”

“streaming has brought me so many opportunities and i am so grateful for everything you guys have done for me, and for me to be able to do something i love and make money from it is insane to me. you guys have given me everything i ever wanted in life up until that point and i am so grateful and appreciative of that. you guys gave me friendships that i will never lose and never forget. so many of you have told me that i’ve saved you and changed your lives but trust me when i say you guys have saved me and changed my life too. i hope i repaid you back by making you smile, being your comfort streamer, and being a support system for each of you. but i think this is my end of the road. i fucking love streaming, i love you guys. but every time i click that “go live” button or even try to, all i think about is him and that’s too painful for me right now. maybe in the future i’ll find my way back here but i can’t promise that.”

“thank you guys, so, so, so, so, much for every single opportunity given to me, for everything. i love you all. my dms are still open. and this was (y/s/n), signing off for possibly the last time. goodbye everyone.”

end stream. *click*

a tear rolling down his face and falling onto his keyboard as he watched you finally say goodbye to your stream. it all just felt like you were saying your last goodbye to him again. 

for the last 6 months all clay could do was think about you and how he wished he just messaged you and told you he was sorry and didn’t mean what he said. that he misses you and he would quit streaming if that meant he could be with you. that all he wanted was to feel you in his arms again and just live out the future you two planned together. 

but if you just said goodbye to your chat for your last stream because you couldn’t stand the thought of him whenever you tried to stream. how could you ever forgive him?

the thought of never speaking to you hit him once more and again, he cried, sobbed, screamed, threw things, and even then, he knew.. you would never be coming back to him, with every fiber in his being, wishing you would.

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[princessofprocrastination]

I Messed Up Didn’t I? (Dream)

MASTERLIST

pairing : dreamwastaken x singer!reader (angst) 

summary : after the breakup, he sees that you’re growing as a singer, while he’s suffering alone, but you don’t think that about him, seeing he’s growing on youtube. 

a/n : you’re replacing gwen in the voice! 

hey! this isn’t going to be the only part! stay tuned for more!

it ended after an argument. he was constantly on his computer, and would forget every important day. from your birthday, to your anniversaries, he forgot them all. 

he even would disregard it, saying it wasn’t important anyway, that everyday could be a special day. that hurt you a lot. you two have been together for a long time and you didn’t want to lose it. you couldn’t afford to lose him, not like this. 

sometimes it felt like he didn’t love you anymore, that he didn’t feel the same anymore. it hurt to see him on his phone, or on discord call with his friends. 

you thought his friends were amazing and supportive, but his friends took away your limited time together, and hurt like a bitch. 

at first, you were okay with his constant video games, knowing that’s his job now, and that he’s been supportive of you, and you should be supportive of him too. 

at first, it had been tough, you brought in the money, paid for the bills, bought groceries since you were making money through music. you weren’t stingy, you are totally fine with spending money for him, but it felt wrong at the same time. 

your mum always told you never settle for a guy, that he would do things for you if he wanted to. and that stuck to you, but you love dream, with everything in you. you couldn’t afford to leave him, to break this long time relationship. 

you two had been there for each other since the roots. and to see it crumble like this hurt a lot. 

he didn’t notice. he didn’t care enough to ask you how your day went anymore. he was too busy on his computer. 

you made the effort. you asked him the usual questions, to which he’s reply with a ‘’m fine’ or simply not answer. you brought him food whenever you notice he’s been skipping meals to sit on his desk. 

you got him a new monitor, gaming chair, a new desk. everything he could’ve ever wanted. if it made him happy, you’d buy it, even if it took time away from you together. 

he didn’t notice how you’re slipping away, barely talking to him, barely even sleeping on the same bed anymore. he didn’t notice the constant emails on your phone. or maybe he did, and he didn’t care. 

he didn’t notice that you two were basically living separate lives in the same house. he didn’t notice that you were thinking about leaving. 

it never occurred to dream that you’d snap one day, that you’d leave him. it never occurred to him that you’d buy your own house one day and leave him, alone in his house. 

it started small, you invited him to go to a dinner you had with your producers. he said he would left out, so you let him be, understanding it completely. 

then you’d ask multiple times for him to just get out of that chair and eat dinner with you, even if it’s just once. you told him you missed him, yet he still pushed you away. 

you didn’t understand where the relationship went wrong. you tried your best to work it out, talk it through, but it seemed like he didn’t even want it anymore, judging by the way he’s acting. 

he says it’s just a part of the relationship, getting comfortable. but you didn’t think getting comfortable meant that you both didn’t talk to each other all day. you didn’t want this type of comfortable. 

“just this once, let’s go get dinner. we can go eat at your favourite place.” you begged him. 

“no, i want to finish editing, can’t you go yourself, maybe bring me takeout?” he replies to you. 

“i could but i just want to spend time with you.” you begged again, almost whining. 

“just go, we spend so much time together anyway.” dream tells you, almost out of anger. 

“we haven-” you tried to say before getting cut off. 

“OMG JUST LEAVE, I’M STRESSED OUT RIGHT NOW, LEAVE” he screams at you. 

“i just-” you tried again, almost crying at that point. 

“LEAVE.” he scolded again. 

you left the room quietly, not wanting a screaming fest to start again. 

you sat on your shared bed. thinking about what went wrong. how did your relationship become this bad. 

you packed a bag. you didn’t care about your clothes, you could always buy new ones. you didn’t bother packing much, just the necessities. 

you walked out the door, grabbing your car keys on your way out. 

as you started you car, you sat there for a while. this was it huh? 

you told yourself that you made the right decision getting a house before this argument came.

you didn’t mean to hide it away from him, in fact, you wanted to bring it up during dinner, but since the dinner invitation didn’t work, you didn’t bother. 

the longer you drove, the more sad you became. tears trickled down your cheeks as you drove silently to a hotel before needing to sit a long drive from florida to california. 

you sat on the hotel bed, thinking about dream. you hated ending it this way. you didn’t even think this would end. you were planning to get married, for god’s sake. 

you cried even more thinking about it. 

you felt alone. but you knew you still had friends who supported you. but it felt like there was a void left unfilled after you left that house.

maybe it’s for the best. 

-

DREAM’S POV

i heard the door close. i heard it all. i heard her packing her stuff. but i don’t know why i didn’t stop her. i was too busy streaming. 

it didn’t hit me until a couple days later. and when the days came, it was too late. 

i knew i messed up. 

when i told george and sapnap, they were furious. they said they warned me before. they asked why i’m not looking for her. 

i told them it’s cause i knew you were no where near me. 

i knew i messed up. 

terribly. 

-

YOUR POV

months went by so quick.

the hold in your chest unhealed. but you knew you needed to get over it. 

you saw twitter, instagram, youtube. you saw that he had been blowing up. 

over 13 million subscribers. you were impressed. you were immensely proud of him. you wish you were there to celebrate it with him. but you weren’t. 

fortunately for you, months after you moved to california, you were offered to be a judge on the voice. 

you didn’t waste a second telling your team to say yes. you grew up watching the voice. and plus, you got to meet the john legend, kelly clarkson and blake sheldon. who would miss that opportunity. 

you spent a while trying to settle down in your new house. it was huge. huge for one person. but you needed it, the time alone. 

you liked it peaceful and quiet, it helped you heal slowly. it helped you to move on. 

you came out with a full album since then, which ended up being a hit. you were super grateful for the love you’ve been getting. 

now, you sat in one of the judges chairs for blind auditions. 

your hairstylist was making sure your hair was fully sprayed and looked good. you made small conversation with her, thanking her for making you look good for the camera. 

there was a camera for each judge. you looked into the one right in front of you and said. “holy shit i can’t believe i’m here.” 

john, who sat next to you laughed at your antics. you glanced at him and gave him a grin. 

“we’re ready.” the producer said to the judges, signaling that they were starting. 

audition after audition, you met amazing artists. 

“you’re amazing and i used my block on john for you. if you didn’t know, he’s a little scary when he’s competitive. i would love for you to be on my team.” you said to an amazing singer you turned your chair for. 

she sung an r&b song, to which got a four chair turn, but you were desperate. you needed her. 

“um, oh my god, this is hard.” she said to us, before choosing her mentor. 

kelly and blake chimed in, making her turn her head to look at them. 

“no. please, don’t listen or look at them, just me.” you said to her, practically begging. 

john laughed at this and said. “holy shit, you’re that desperate?” 

“yes, john, i love her.” you laughed along with the other two judges. 

“well-” the artist started. you crossed your fingers, hoping that she would pick you. you had a good chance as john was blocked. but kelly was good competition too, not counting out blake. 

“i pick.” she paused. 

“oh my god, spit it out already.” i screamed and laughed a little. 

“i pick y/n” she announced. 

“HOLY SHIT YES.” you stood from your chair and jumped a little, excited. 

“you losers.” you told the other three judges. 

“yeah, yeah, whatever,” kelly played along. 

-

blind auditions went along really smoothly. 

you’ve seen your face plastered all over the voice’s instagram and twitter. they even posted a clip of you being excited after getting picked as a mentor for the r&b artist. 

you were having a blast. your family from back home would facetime you and congratulate you or laugh at the stupid things you did on tv. 

what you didn’t know was that dream had seen them all. after all, he hadn’t paid attention to you before, why start now? your little jumps on your judge seat as you waited for the next audition. your little shouts to amazing singers auditioning. 

he was proud, to say the least. 

in this couple of months, he’d seen you grow into a young and successful woman. he was sad that he couldn’t be there to congratulate you through all your achievements. 

but that’s what he gets for abandoning his one and only love. 

at first, he didn’t even look into what you were doing. not until a few weeks after you left, george and sapnap had said something along the lines of your name and you being a judge on the voice. 

them two had been purposely teasing him. they knew that he treated you like absolute shit before you left and they made it a thing to make sure clay knew that. 

you weren’t in contact with dream for obvious reasons but you facetimed george and sapnap constantly, even before and after your shows. 

they had been through it all with you. since you were only a couple years older than nick, you two clicked well together, always talking about tiktok trends and the new lingo. but you don’t count off george for being one of your bestfriends. 

you actually had shown the camera once or twice when you facetimed george and sapnap. well, now the world knew that you three knew each other. they just didn’t know how you three met. 

twitter blew up with lots of hashatgs about you three, talking about ‘when worlds’ collide’.

you thought that was funny. they even asked you to link up and be friends with dream, who you knew was dream, but you’ve always ignored those types of comments. 

you saw the ship comments between you and george. you two would laugh it off and constantly say that you two are just friends. he’s your exes bestfriend, that would be awkward. 

dream saw it all, the facetime calls are all over the internet. your supporters were shocked to see that you knew each other. they didn’t know that dream and you knew each other though. 

he saw that you’ve been ignoring the comments to link up with him. his heart broke at that. but he deserved it. he ignored you for the longest time. now it’s your turn.

his heart broke at the shipping comments between you and george after knowing how often the facetime. 

dream knew he deserved it. he deserved all the pain coming to him. 

he felt grateful of his new, large following on the internet, but it felt like nothing compared to having you in his arms. why had he taken you for granted?

he was determined to see you again, to ask you to come back. he needed you. 

PART TWO!

[forbidding-souda]

Could we get some relationship headcanons for Aoi, Junko, Kirigiri, Mukuro and Sakura?

Aoi Asahina, Junko Enoshima, Kyoko Kirigiri, Mukuro Ikusaba, and Sakura Oogami relationship HC

OMG JUNKO YESS I LOVE THIS she’s bae

-Mod Souda

Aoi Asahina

She is very positive! She likes pulling jokes to make you smile.

Also cuddly. Very cuddly!

She sleeps with very soft blankets, so wrapping yourself in them just makes everything all the much better when you hold her!

Every competition she goes to, you are there, cheering her on at the sidelines.

And whenever she wins, which is all the time, you treat her with candies and cakes to fill up her sweet tooth.

She surprises you with gifts from her international competitions, too.

Nothing more than keychains. You can almost start a collection with all the ones you got.

A lot of facetimes, sleeping and talking all day when she is aware. She seems to always have something to talk about.

Whenever you are sad, she threatens to beat up whatever it is that caused you to feel that way, even when it is simple melancholia. 

Wears your jackets all the time. Even steal them to take with her.

Junko Enoshima

Brings her camera almost everywhere to take photos of you.

Whether it is to catch you off guard or to have you pose against a tree, she loves capturing your beauty like hers is.

Will convince you to have her do your makeup like her subculture does. Will. 

Tries to dress you up all the way, which takes months of convincing. 

But eventually, you’ll let her do your makeup with the gyaru style and put blonde pigtails on you. She’ll explain the history of why she chose that subculture, too, the passion in her eyes amazing to you.

Dinner dates all the time. Sometimes she’ll bring Mukuro, too, to get you too to hang out together.

Some things about your relationship unease you, though.

Like how you’ll wake up to her crouched in the corner, her knees to her chest in the darkness of your room.

It’s just... your smile, your happiness and kindness always makes her feel better. It gives her a sense of achievement, makes her feel like she belongs onto this Earth. She loves you more than anything and it scares her.

It makes her cry whenever she looks into the mirror. How could you love a monster like her?

She let up her plan to destroy the world for you. If she hurts you, she would never be able to forgive herself.

Well... maybe that’s the point.

Kyoko Kirigiri

She’s very hard to get to the center of.

You try not to excite her too much or overwhelm her in fear that she’ll block you out.

But she’s not like that, not all the time.

She wants you to sleep on her at night and help her dress during the day. It’s the intimacy that helps her get close to you more than the emotional words that she can’t seem to find.

When she goes away for trips, she doesn’t usually want to talk to you. It means she’s busy. And being busy means it has something to do with murder, or a missing person.

You being on her mind will just cloud her judgement but... she always seems to worry.

She’ll call you at random times, since she’s not much of a texter, to check up on you and see if you are safe.

Hey, if you ever get murdered, it’s comforting to know that your death will be avenged.

It’s also comforting to know that she cares about you, in all of your romantic glory of gifting her flowers whenever she gets off the job.

And her favorite food. Being a detective must weigh on her, so you are sure to give her space and check up on her.

Mukuro Ikusaba

Waiting for her at airports has almost become a hobby. When she gets off duties, you smother her in kisses, bringing her sweets to chew on.

She doesn’t sleep too easily. So instead, she chooses to read you to sleep all the books she has read when trying to sleep alone all her life.

She has a thing for stuffed animals, too. Whenever the two of you go into a store together she just stares blankly at the stuffed animals until you buy her one.

Literally, like in the line for the cash register, she’ll just have this puppy dog eyes while holding the animal in question.

She’s fun to hang out with, overall. 

There’s no need for you to even walk to hand her stuff. You can just throw it at her and she’ll always catch it.

Want to give her the remote? Just chuck it at her and she’ll be fine, even when you aim for the back of her head.

She always has you on post notifications on every social media account you have. She doesn’t even like using the internet, but just to see you, she has accounts on different platforms.

Seems to be the first person to like your posts. Literally, within seconds, no matter where she is. Even on the battlefield she will pause to pull out her phone to like your post. “Oh, how cute.”

She’s quite the daydreamer. When you two eat at the dining room table, she will sometimes doze off in her own little world.

It’s cute to see her dazzled eyes. 

She snaps out of it, quick, her reflexes coming back when she realizes you are staring at her.

Kisses you all the time, liking to catch you off guard. She likes the look when you are surprised by her intimacy.

Sakura Oogami

Can only sleep if you are sleeping on top of her.

She likes feeling your skin against hers, it soothes her more than anything. To her, you are the most beautiful person on the planet.

And she wants to spend every given second with you.

But she won’t let you watch her train, though. She thinks you’ll find her scary if you do.

You respect her wishes. And whenever she gets out, you are there with water and protein shakes, for whichever catches her interest at the time.

She paints your nails a lot. And she lets you paint hers. She loves nail polish and everything about it, and she’s happy you are open enough to have her paint your nails! It makes her proud.

If you don’t know how to braid, she’ll teach you. So when the two of you are cuddling, watching a movie, you can put small braids in her hair.

Her favorite presents are butterfly clips!! You give her a whole collection for her birthday.

And she wears them all the time. 

Even puts a few in your hair while you sleep. When you brush your teeth, looking in the mirror, seeing those little things in your hair makes your cheeks heat up. How cute. They do look a little flattering, don’t they?

Her kisses are always gentle, and so are her hands when she touches your body.

She would never want to harm you. She would never intend to try. And she never has, but sometimes she gets scared. 

Scared for nothing, though. It’s not like any accidents will stop you from loving her.

[washymylifeaway]

SakuAtsu Fanfic recs

Edit: minor changes (grammar and stuff) cause I rushed this :’)

EDIT: PT 2 IS OUT

OKAY so I meant to make like a long list of MULTIPLE VARIOUS ASSORTED ships but as I was making it I realized I had WAY too many SakuAtsu fics. Like TOO MANY AHHHH. Anyway, I decided that for the sake of everyone, I should just make a separate post LOL oops I’m sorry but I’m so far into SakuAtsu hell it’s not even funny :))))))))) I tried to keep things short so I could not BORE you while reading this post LOL, but also THERE WILL BE A PT 2 because I cut myself short in order to get this out for.....

THE BEST BOY SAKUSA KIYOOMI’S BIRTHDAY I LOVE HIM AND EVERYONE ELSE SHOULD TOO :DDDDDDDDD

As per usual, pls check WARNINGS, TAGS, and SUMMARIES for each fic before reading and make sure you’re taking care of yourselves (since mental health is key!) Stay healthy loves <3

Some of my FAVORITE writers CHECK TAGS AND WARNINGS PLS-

astroeulogy // I LOVE their works and they write BEAUTIFULLY AHHHHH!!! My fav? Possibly Dance of the Parallax by astroeulogy (T) 6.7k, but all of them are SO good! (My love for mythology really be showing here hehe.)

DeathBelle // this writer is on SO many of my posts cause I ADORE the way they write and characterize!!! My fav? Burden of Blame by DeathBelle (E) 91.2k but you already knew that LOL. I love the other ones too, but mafia? UGH.

hatsuna // ahjfsdjfhkasj need I say more? There isn’t a lot BUT the ones there are so so good! My fav? Pas De Deux by hatsuna (T) 19k surprise :D I love this one for their interactions but also Omi’s childhood! It’s really good (and you don’t even need to understand ballet) <33333

bastigod // again another writer you will be seeing in other posts because their writing gives me LIFE AHHH. My fav? my love, take your time by bastigod (T) 9k again you already knew this, but I LOVE THIS ONE ahagdhls. I have reread this one so many times oops hehe :)

volchitsae // I LOVE THIS WRITER, like some of my favorite SakuAtsu fics are from this writer, like favorites of ALL TIME. Please go read their stuff because I love it so much. My fav? take me to the limit, hold me down there by volchitsae (E) 3.8k this was the fic that got me into their writing, and oops I’ve fallen and I can’t get up haha leave me....

awkwardedgeworth // THE FICS THIS WRITER MAKES AJKASDLK. I love them and everything they make omg!!! My fav? This was SO hard but Notte Stellata by awkwardedgeworth (T) 20.8k cause I’m basic LOL but your flame will not survive in this cold tundra was a close second :’)

TBH, there are more that I don’t have time to get to (I started this a while back but then pretended like it didn’t exist for a while LOL) but these were the ones here hehe :) I could honestly make an ENTIRE fic rec list from these writers alone and it would be WAY too long, so for the sake of everyone,,, MOVING ON

Fics (in no order, but also I’m missing a bunch I LOVE but like I said TIME CONSTRAINTS AHHAHAH RIP)-

the inherent romance of classical conditioning (or, the fine art of emotional recognition) by pseudoanalytics (E) 13.7k // this fic made me laugh so much, starting from the fact that there needed to be clarification (which was, after finishing, understood LOL) that this was indeed NOT a fic with a foot fetish.

Routines (and How to Break Them) by cajynn (T) 1.6k // this fic makes them SO CUTE ugh the fluff ajsjkfhajh. I love how Atsumu just slips into everything Omi does (like a snake) ITS SO ADORABLE AHHH.

sense of purpose (or, what comes next) by pseudoanalytics (T) 3.6k // this fic was so HEARTWARMING!!! It made me kinda sad though cause I’m just that kinda person (and I don’t like to think about the past LOLOLOLOL), but the ending was !!! SO !!! CUTE !!! and I love the ending notes (me too Osamu, me too)!

crushed by citruslemonade (strawberrycitrus) (E) 4.2k // I feel like it’s a crime if I don’t mention this fic LOL and it’s very quick and funny! We all want to be the watermelons in this fic and no I don’t take criticism. No thoughts just Miya Atsumu’s thighs :’)))

Clipped To You by littleboat (T) 8.1k // (cp) okay first of all THERE’S ART, second I love Omi in hair clips <3333 It’s really funny with lots of ~pining~ Atsumu and there’s cameo’s of other players,,, it’s just a great time :D

bet on it by selenophim (T) 13.3k // this is a ~classic~ literally I keep seeing this fic because I like to stalk the relationship tags (LOL) and since it’s so good, I keep seeing it (also LOL). This may be SakuAtsu, but this is Osamu supremacy, again I don’t take criticism LOL.

Just as much by Sapphirine (NR) 16.1k // this is peak gay panic as demonstrated by one Miya Atsumu hehe. This fic is so FLUFF but also PINE! I’ll just be sitting here with my 851 million microorganisms to keep me company cause I’M SINGLE LOL.

every action has an equal and opposite reaction by akanemnida (T) 10.4k // nothing to see here, just Sakusa saying things that make Atsumu’s heart stop ;) I love ~caring~ Sakusa so if you do too, read! But also hello? Perfume drop please,,,,

see this through by basilleia (T) 17.7k // I am shamelessly a HARDCORE Atsumu wears glasses fan, once again, I take absolutely no criticism! Again some ~caring~ Sakusa heheh but also love the twin dynamic in this one!

dogshit (first comes the fall) by kitcassiachan (E) 15.8k // PLEASE CHECK WARNINGS! ngl this was one of the first fics I read for this ship and GOD did it get me hooked onto bottom Sakusa agenda (it really hit different). Of course, I’m not promoting the way this relationship happened (don’t have hate s*x), BUT I have nothing to say other than I had no regrets. RIP (not actually but you’ll get what I mean LOL) Bokuto and Ushiwaka for that matter.

let's get physical by rosegoldwriting (T) 4.3k // I really like medical stuff (you’ll see later LOL) BUT even if you don’t still read it cause IT’S FUNNY OKAY. We gotta love boys day and STD’s~~ (also don’t be stupid like him and get hurt to see hot doctors :))))

all i do is crave by newamsterdam (E) 12.7k // were we waiting for me to bring a 5 + 1 to the table? If so, here it is! We do love the olympics and oblivious Astumu~~

lay it on me (no, really) by ayushi_writes (T) 4.2k // please the way I was hesitant to read it at first but then the ‘being very fond and caring in a homie way haha’ made me read it LOL. The fluff (and Astumu being caring because that is another one of my favorite things to read hehe) in this is almost worth the awkwardness that made me want to go put my head into a hole like an ostrich LOLOLOLOL.

ink blossoms by entrechat (T) 8.1k // I think this fic IS SO CUTE OMG. I love the way Omi sits in the shop to draw was ADORABLE and making them do that to get tattoos? Smart af (and v respectful we stan). Also, I love flower meanings :D

crimson colored lotus by sieges (M) 16.5k // (cp) this was a demon slayer AU LOL. TBH I haven’t watched DS, but you honestly don’t really need to in order to read this LOL. It’s explained really well and the writing is AMAZING! It’s not a linear fic, but you can read it in order if you so choose.

where i want to be by tookumade (G) 8.8k // THIS ONE ahhhhhh so cute I love it. Omi trying SO hard in this relationship and Atsumu being so understanding. I love it here :’)))))

three roses and a smile by strawberrycitrus (T) 19.7k // I LOVE THIS ONE not only cause I love professor AUs (I do, I LOVE THOSE) but also it’s just some great writing :D I really love their interactions and the misunderstanding killed me ahhhhh.

If you were wondering, I already have 50+ fics (yes I counted but no I’m not done looking so there will probably have to be some cuts D:) lined up for pt2 AND I took out series in another post, so yeah this is why it’s a cursed draft hahahaa..... I hope you enjoyed cause SakuAtsu is my life and blood.

[baroquebucky]

can i request a timothee one where he’s always mentioning you in like interviews he does without even realizing until fans point it out on like twitter

a/n: i think this is so cute !!!! let me know what u guys think <3 pls excuse typos hehe feel free to request !!

You scrolled through your twitter feed bored out of your mind, timothée had gone out this morning to meet with some producers and you had the day off. So in the midst of your boredom you decided to search your name on Twitter. You smiled, liking tweets that were particularly sweet or replying to people who made something, remind yourself to show timothée their fanart of him. That’s when you saw the tweet.

have u guys seen this omg

linked was a YouTube video: timothée being in love w y/n for 9 minutes straight.

A small smile etched itself on your face, quickly you tapped on the video, how much did this boy talk about you that caused his fans to make a whole video of it, let alone a 9 minute long one?

The sound of his voice filled the room, you could feel your heart swell in your chest, smiling as he replied to the interviewers question.

“oh yeah well y/n really inspires me everyday she just works so hard for what she wants and it just- it makes me really want to perfect everything and yeah so in a movie like this one-” he began, a smile on his face as he talked about you, remembering all the times you had stayed up for your job or because of school. You blushed at the way he talked about you, focusing on the next clip after that one.

“so is it true that you’re with y/n?” someone asked him and he gave a bashful smile, “yeah ahah yeah it is she’s so amazing, yeah she’s just really great haha” he smiled, breathy and nervous laughter interrupting his own words. His fans were ‘aww’ing at the way he got flustered just at the mention of you. You smiled even harder than before. Soon enough the next clip rolled around, one of him in an interview, without hesitation he brought you up in his answer, talking about your work ethic and how you work for everything you get, even telling them a small anecdote of the time he wanted to get you something but you didn’t let him for months. You blushed at the way he spoke about you.

And for nine minutes you had the brighter smile on your face, cheeks hurting from how hard you were smiling. Timothée mentioned you way more than you think he realized, talking about how beautiful you were to how intelligent you are, bringing you up any chance possible. Your heart felt like it was gonna explode from love, you wanted to cuddle timmy right this instant. And your prayers were answered.

“mon amour im home!” the curly haired boy called out, setting the keys down on the table, taking his shoes off as he headed to the room where you were. Quickly you jumped off the bed, running to meet your boyfriend in the hall. Without a second thought you tackled him with a hug, nestling your head into his chest.

“woah! are you okay?” He chuckled, looking down at you and wrapping his arms around you. You only nodded, a smile still on your face. “I love you so much angel” you told him, voice muffled by his chest. “I love you too, let’s go cuddle in bed yeah? I’m exhausted” he giggled and you nodded, hugging his arm as you two walked to the room.

He changed rather quickly, putting on a t shirt and some sweats and plopping into bed with you, nuzzling into your side. “why were you so soft? not that I’m complaining of love to be greeted like that everyday” he smiled and you rolled your eyes,

“you bring me up a lot in interviews and stuff y’know” you grinned, running your fingers through his hair as he placed his head on your lap. He only hummed as a response, too relaxed by your movements to say anything. “I saw this video about it and its nine minutes long! and there’s a part 2!” You smiled bashfully, he only laughed softly, turning around to face you, his eyes fluttering open and looking up at you. “Well what do you expect?” He laughed, you only looked at him with confusion.

“I have the best girl in the world and you think I’m just not gonna mention you any chance i get?” He replied, pushing himself up and moving to sit next to you, pulling you into his chest. “I’m never gonan shut up about you, count on that amoureuse” you felt yourself blush, the smile on your face growing wider. He kissed the top of your head before moving to get his phone.

“so what are the plans for the rest of the day?” You asked him, moving out of his grip to look at him. He smiled shyly at you, “stay in and cuddle?” you giggled and moved back into his arms, making yourself comfortable. “sounds great” you replied, the two of you excited to end up tangled in each other’s limbs while dozing off.

[formerprincewille]

I was tagged by @pamouche and @borborai in this and I finally gotten around to doing it. Thanks so much!

Fav wtfock s3 things: honestly I could go on for hours about my love for this season it’s One of my favorite things to exist in the entire world. I have re-watched it so many times and it always leaves me feeling so happy. Some specifics: Robbe IJzermans, sweet sunshine, love and light of my life, I would throw myself in front of traffic for that boy I love him so much. He captured my heart in a way few ever have. This boy. He’s just such a caring and compassionate person. He’s got his little shit attitude, and he’s definitely a tiny brat, but he is also so full of love to give. I love that he’s not flashy. He’s not somebody that a lot of people are going to notice in a crowd. He’s overlooked by everyone, including his friends. But when you get to know him you see how remarkable he is, because few people are that genuinely good. And the way he grew from hurt and lonely and angry and afraid to happy and confident and not only accepting but proud of who he is makes me cry happy tears. He’s just the best. But the other best is the yin to his yang, his beautiful, wonderful, cool, bold, funny, sweet, and completely dorky art hoe of a soul mate, Sander Driesen. When I think of what my ideal Even would be, he is it. His heart is just right there for everyone to see and he doesn’t hide it. In fact he’s extra about showing it. He’s also vulnerable and needy and feels so very young to be going through such large struggles. He makes me laugh and cry and I would dive in front of the Skam France car for him as well. Love that kid so much. Sobbe. Do I really need to say it? Holy shit they are everything. Soulmates, best friends, loves of each other’s lives. Their chemistry is so good that it doesn’t even exist in this stratosphere. It’s otherworldly. The love that they feel for each other is tangible. They’re one of those couples that when I look at them I think “now those two are going to make it”. You can just feel it. They also somehow manage to hit on so many beloved fanfic tropes but remain realistic because it’s actually canon. Like when couples in fanfic will call each other pet names but it’s rare you actually see it in canon. But sobbe is like hold my beer and goes all out with it. The way they express their love to each other is exactly what the other one needs. Sander is loud end boisterous and goes all out to make it clear to Robbe and everyone else on earth how he feels about this boy. He gives him things to make him feel special and he’s full of affection for him. Robbe is also extremely affectionate, he tells Sander what he needs to hear to feel safe and loved and they love spending time together. Their love is a balm for one another that soothes them both. And it’s clear that neither of them need the other more nor ever did. They both needed one another and met at a time in our lives that they were both in pretty low places and were exactly what the other needed. And they always will be. Sorry, getting emotional again. They’re the otp to end all otps. 🥺 The Soundtrack. I love every single song on the soundtrack. All of them, and I listened to the soundtrack so much on my Spotify that my entire top songs of 2020 were made up of wtfock s3 songs. They not only have excellent musical choices, but they are all placed within scenes so well that they perfectly complement what is happening in the narrative at any given point. Casa Milan and Zoenne and Robbe aka Flatshare Fam. I want to live there. It is so warm, it is so inviting, and it is filled with such love. The support that Robbe got from Milan, Zoë, and Senne was unmatched. I don’t know where he would’ve been without it. Could you imagine if he had had to live with his dad? How differently his story could’ve ended up? Especially with Milan, having someone not much older than he is who has gone through a lot of the same things he has. He was such a big brother figure and mentor and I’m so glad Robbe had that.

Fav clip: Scuse me I’m not picking just one so Dinsdag 16:31, Zaterdag 09:41, Woensdag 21:21, Mandaag 11:03, Zaterdag 08:44 and Woensdag 16:36

Fav scene: Their Vrijdag 21:21 reunion, morning after, ohn/mbm, singing to a shoe, the hotel scenes, and the grocery store. I’m not really sure of the distinction between a scene and a clip 😂

Fav shot: Oh god don’t make me choose. Their hands in Dinsdag 16:31 is a big one. The dual mirror shots of Robbe after Milan tells him about gay pride before the attack to him bruised and battered after. When Robbe is kneeling down beside Sander in Mandaag 11:03. The shot of Milan, Robbe, and Sander playing the pandemic game all cozy by the Christmas tree. Any shots of Robbe and Sander making heart eyes and/or kissing. Any close ups of Robbe’s face and eyes bc Herbots, man. Good god he’s amazing.

Fav kiss that Robbe initiates: Woensdag 21:21, Dinsdag 07:27 and Woensdag 17:21

Fav kiss that Sander initiates: Zaterdag 09:41, Dinsdag 16:31, and Vrijdag 21:21

Fav Sander dialogue: Can I say everything? Okay okay, I’ll give some examples. “Wow, that’s expensive!” “You and me, a hundred percent forever, in every universe.” “I’m holding onto you and I’m never letting go of you.” “🎵Ground control to major Tom. Circuit dead there’s something wrong.🎵” “Are you going to leave me behind?” (🥺) “Zero stars on booking.com.” “The moonlight was shining down on you and I knew immediately ‘he is the one’.” “Get ready to be mindblown!” “All the way or no way.” “Take it or leave it, eh?” “You could try bribing the teacher.” “Robin.” Also literally everything he said during wtfockdown because there’s not a moment where he isn’t iconic. But a really special moment, “Just because other people are close minded doesn’t mean that you should make your world smaller.”

Fav Robbe dialogue: “You touched me and I’ve never felt something like that.” “That kiss was really *head explosion noises*.” “Not in this universe.” “Sander, there is something between us. I love you.” “Jawel.” (I just love the way he says it, it’s so fuckin cute). “Fuck Chernobyl.” “Always.” And of course, his verse in eenvoud.

Fav hug: Mandaag 11:03 when Robbe holds a crying Sander. Also, does the spooning and cuddling in the hotel scenes and Dinsdag 07:27 count? Because I love that. Also Woensdag 17:21. Or really anytime Robbe is being a clingy koala. And we can’t forget his hug with Milan after he tells him about the attack. He really needed that comfort.

Fav 21:21: Nope. Nah in all seriousness they just hit different. Woensdag is my favorite in terms of clip alone because from beginning to end it is just so beautiful and perfect. The music, the tunnel, the pool, the kiss, just absolutely gorgeous. But at that time everything was still really new between them and the aftermath of that was rough. Vrijdag is my favorite clip in terms of what it means for Robbe and Sander. The clip itself is shorter, but it has much larger impact in terms of sobbe’s relationship. It’s not just their first time physically, but their emotional declaration to one another as well. It comes with a commitment. Also them falling off the bed laughing is the greatest thing ever. They are so HAPPY. So basically my answer is both, just in different ways.

Fav Sobbe instagram pic: Why are all these questions so mean? Okay- their first one together obviously because along with Robbe’s caption it’s just a showing of their love being official. But also the grocery cart pics for their 6 month anniversary. The grocery store pic in Ardennes getaway. Robbe’s bday pics of them embracing they’re SO HAPPY omg. And of course, we cannot forget the pic posted for Sander’s birthday. It is absolutely perfect. I love it so much.

Fav song/scene pair: I have a few- both examples of wildfire obviously, past lives in Zaterdag 09:41, and rebel rebel at the grocery store. But I have two more that are not at all happy clips but are two of my fave clips regardless: life on mars/zaterdag 21:43 (that scene is impeccable along with its followup which I consider them a pair but LoM only plays in the first one) and I found/zondag 15:12 (my god I love that scene it’s brilliant).

Fav message between Sander and Robbe: Woensdag 12:45 when Sander sends Robbe the sketch of them and talks about that kiss earlier being Chernobyl. Also everything during wtfockdown but especially “I love you so much Robin.” “I love you too. So damn much.” But honestly they had so much adorable banter during those clips we were truly fed.

Fav banter on Instagram: lmaooo they’re always so thirsty on main you could pick a million examples. I will say I loved their back and forth about emojis on their anniversary.

I will tag @onzeziggy @everyone-has-their-story @bowieexaminprogress @sanderxrobbee @ayellowcurtain and whoever else wants to do it. This was fun!

[yibowang]

I'm so so so in love with the way Yibo portraits a man in love, his eyes are so full of love when he see the person his character loves that melts me all the time! I've only watched cql and lof for now so I can't speak so much for his others characters (although I watched a clip of GYH that I think can represent what I'm saying too), but god I'll never get over of Lan Wangji looking at Wei Wuxian and Xie Yun at Zhou Fei, you can see the huge love they have. Is just too much to my heart 😖💕

(I'm probably the last one that watched Legend of Fei, but just in case someone still don't: maybe this will be spoiler) there's a lot of moments in lof when Xie Yun looks at Zhou Fei like that, but the ones that are stuck in my mind are when they met again in Penglai, when he look at her with the red dress at ep 50, that absolutely hurtful moment when he have to choose between the antidotes and he lays on bed and gets closer to her and god that whole scene was truly so hurtful, deep and beautiful to me at least, and also the kiss scene when they are under the tree after that angst scene. Of course there is a lot more aspects than just the love eyes and I won't talk about cql because probably we all know about how lwj looks at wwx regarding this topic, but yeah I think Yibo is very good at this. I really like so much how he portrayed both characters in general and to know that he will still improve as an actor -because this hardworking man just keep improving in everything- makes me want to watch more of his released and future works. Being his fan was absolutely a right decision 😌

adjklahfdkl i can go insane about this topic honestly he does it so well!! omg i cried sm at that scene but i also love the scene when he wakes up and he sees zhou fei again after they were apart for a while bc she was out looking for herbs for him and the way he looks at her 😭😭he really conveys sm love + affection through his eyes like his gaze is so so gentle and loving like the other person is the most precious thing to him. i’m crying how does he do it??? don’t even get me started w gyh bc there is that one scene that makes everyone go crazy and it’s the one where he pulls qiu ying onto his lap and his gaze!!!!!!! i rest. yibo is such a talented actor ahhhh we’ll definitely get more and more amazing works from him 

[sweetchup]

Ok so not an update but...

I got food poisoning yesterday from a fish I ate (yuck) so I had to stay home for the day but I finally got around to watching the Chimera Ant Arc. I’ve been putting it off since it was so long and I heard it was sad.

I’m stopped right before Meruem and Netero’s fight but, holy crap, Chimera Ant arc? More like ✨Sweetchup’s Simp Arc✨.

Don’t worry I’ll explain 😳:

So first episode of Arc, fricking Kite man. I’m not a fan of long haired or white haired anime boys but once he started talking and being all caring. I was like G O N E, brain empty only this man. (I’m so sad he’s dead)

Then, we meet the Ants. Some of them I don’t like (especially the ones the killed pokkle and ponzu) but some of them like Colt and even Zazan (she be pretty) I was like “Omg stop making me want to like the villains”

Of course included in the ants we have the Royal guards.

Pitou (I’m mad they killed kite) but I can’t help but simp. The fact she says Nyan with almost every sentence they speak and that outfit, just Simp material right there for me.

Pouf, I’m iffy on. His personality is amazing for the plot but he angers me sometimes. However, I can’t help but be like you a beautiful man sir, keep up your work🦋. I’m also a sucker for violins

Youpi, we didn’t get to see him a lot compared to the other guards (at least as far as I’ve gotten) but I was simping over him as well. I’m a little scared after he started transforming though 😨.

Okay back on track to the plot however, when Gon and Killua ran away after Kite was attacked, we meet their soon to be teammates/friends of this arc.

At first, I wasn’t a big fan of Knuckle and Shoot when I saw them. I simped for Palm right away

I think it was the way they were designed it just made me say “eh”.

Though, of course, like everything else in this arc when we got to seeing their personalities. Man I got knocked over (someone call me an ambulence).

Knuckle and the dogs 🥺. As well as how he tries to act tough but is a big softy. This boy snatched me by my hair.

I caught my breath after that and was like Okay, Shoot can’t be any better than anyone I’ve simped for so far.

But he proved me wrong. So wrong!!! When they said he was was faint of heart and he couldn’t hurt attack Killua or Gon. I was just—

✨💕perfection💕✨

As we kept going on with the Arc however, I was like oh No... oh no no no.

Like I’m a major Shalnark Simp. I’m simping for these boys too hard. This isn’t going good for me, I can’t abandon my bestest boi like this.

Then.... as if this Arc couldn’t get any better, episode 96 and 97 came around and we got the Phantom Troupe Vs Chimera Ants.

These episodes are my lord and savior that saved me from abandoning my best boi (I’ve seen his clips and parts of the episodes before but the full episodes still was awesome.)

We also got to see Kalluto. Cute kid. 100% would adopt if given the chance.

Finally, the only other thing I can think of with my brain being dead from simping too hard, is how cute Komugi and Meruem are together.

Now before you attack me saying Komugi is like 14 or something like that. I found out she isn’t (Another Tumblr did the math and explains it better) . When talking to Meruem who used her Gongi technique, she mentioned she made it 10 years ago.

So, since like the youngest she could enter in a national tournament was like 8 or 10? If she was a child prodigy. Then doing the math, she should at least be 18 to 20. So she’s a young adult, so it’s fine.

Point proven~~

10/10 would recommend watching the whole Simp arc all at once if you want to melt your brain.

Thanks for listening to my TedTalk.

[thedancefloorsilly]

Hi! Congrats on 300 that's amazing!🎉 can I participate in the f/o's event please? I choose Chrollo and Kurapika (seperate). I don't have any absolutely necessary hcs for the relationships that I need to mention, except for that both are loving of course.

I'm really sorry if this is too long or too much! I tend to be open to a horribly obnoxious extent. I just overshare a lot. I had to reread this multiple times and shorten it as much as I could make myself.

Basic about me: I'm an aries sun w/ a gemini moon and leo rising, personality type is INFP. Hobbies I like are writing (normal fictional stories and fanfic), reading, drawing, painting, digital editing, walking around in nature (not quite hiking), Minecraft, and adventuring to places near me.

I get attached to random things and get really excited whenever I see them. Some examples are flowers, moths, shiny/pretty rocks or crystals, and anything similar to bottle caps/can tabs, safety pins, and other little shiny thingies.

While I tend to pride myself on how mature I can be and just how intelligent I am- normally in unique critical thinking, language skills, and imagination/creation, I'm also just a little kid at heart. I have wildly exaggerate reactions to things I like no matter how small or big they are, and due to rejection sensitive dysphoria I can be a little childish in turmoil no matter how many big words I use.

I actually like that I express joy so much and can romanticize any scenario + fall in love with insignificant objects. It took me a while to realize I even liked to do this because I didn't realize I had been masking my entire life. Due to other things being masked and whatever I have issues connecting the image of myself now to the image of myself when I was little to an alarming amount, yet still have a connection to her on the inside because I know she would be similar to now if she could.

I have ADHD and maladaptive daydreaming issues, possibly autism but I'm still doing research.

I really like praise and I need someone telling me good things about me, and I have envy problems. I wouldn't call it jealousy because I never act on anything, nor do I wish bad for the people who are doing good. My main issue, I guess, Is the "never enough" kind of thing. That's the only way I can describe it. When I'm upset, the only way to describe how I feel about myself is that I'm never enough, and no matter how much I try people won't like me as much as healthy me likes me...does that make sense? It's like I blame other people but I aim the hate and hurt feelings towards myself?

The words I'd use to describe myself are creative, intelligent, sensitive, affectionate, exaggerative, wondrous, and open

I kin Gon. Other characters are: Reki (sk8 the infinity), Anne (anne with an e), Coraline, Syd (I am not ok with this), lance (voltron), and Kaido (saiki k)

Very random details that don't matter: •I have wavey-curly hair but it can change wildly. It can be really curly, fluffy and insane, or completely flat without much at all. I've never used curling product or whatever to get it curly I just have to tightly braid it for a day and it's completely there. •I wear basic clothes but extra af accessories everywhere and somewhat crazy eyeliner. I like little trinkets as accessories like safety pins, paper clip necklaces, or hair ties on my wrist. Also some normal ones like rings, chokers, and bracelets. •I am definitely a spiritual bitch and I'm all for the moon and crystals and herbs (very basic I know), of course actual witchcraft work, but a little basic romanticizing doesn't harm nothin'

Let me know if i didn't do something right! I'm happy to be one of your 300 followers <3

Hi!! Thank you so much and ofc!! Ah don't apologize the more info the easier it is (I liked reading all of this, and plus I got so many ideas bc of it :D) !!! I also have that habit LOL. you did everything right so dw (and omg thats so nice the at the end mah heart :,)). Have a great day and enjoy <333

Event: Closed

Kurapika

- It’s not a surprise on why Kurapika loves you so much, as there are many things about you guys that make such a great fit. Having you as his lover just makes Kurapika appreciate one more thing about his life.  

- Lets start off with the fact that you romanticize the scenarios and objects in your life. To Kurapika, he views this as you having an appreciation for the little things in life. For someone to express joy through the seemingly “insignificant things” is such a beautiful thing to him, and to Kurapika, he also thinks of it as a reminder to enjoy life’s little gift’s.

- This also reflects off his own way of thinking. For someone who has lost almost everything, Kurapika reminds himself to be grateful for all the things life has to offer. When life gets tough, he remembers some of the big and small things that he is appreciative for: seeing the sunrise each morning, his friends, how he’s able to wake up to see another day, and one of the most important things of all, you. 

- There is not a day where Kurapika does not remind you how important you are to him, how much you’ve changed part of his outlook on life, how you’ve gave his little dark and grey world some color. For that, he’s just so exceedingly grateful, and his heart is full of this everlasting love for you. Having said that, those days where you feel as if you’re never enough always make him upset to hear. 

- Though Kurapika might be a littleee uncertain with his advice, he tries to solace you the best that he can. With his calm voice, he’ll try and reassure you that you are enough, even if you might no see that in your eyes. One thing Kurapika wishes for you is to one day view yourself the way that he always does.

- Kurapika and you also share your love for nature, which was one thing you later learned about him. Growing up in a beautiful forest in the Lukso Province as a kid, he was surrounded by nature almost all through his life. He has such an appreciation for the beauty that the naturel world has. Kurapika and you sometimes set up dates where nature is most present, such as in a forest, or maybe in a field of flowers at night when the two of you can stargaze in each others arms.

- These have to be one of his favorite kinds of dates with you. The serene atmosphere that the environment brings Kurapika puts him at such ease, and having you by his side the whole time just perfects everything. While these moments can be filled with exchanged laughter from your conversations, or a calm silence from taking in the presence of your surroundings and each other, you guys always have such a wonderful time out of it. The ending to these dates can be topped with a heartfelt kiss from the two of you, as a reminder that your love and appreciation for each other is so deep-hearted and sincere.

Chrollo

- As the leader of an infamous group of thieves who can steal as much as they desire, Chrollo knew that he couldn’t just ‘steal’ someone’s love. You intrigued him from the start, and being that you guys seemed to be very different in personality, Chrollo was willing to know more about you. 

- In his eyes, you were like this divine gem that somehow ended up in his grasp, except without the use of “stealing” it. Now that you and him are dating, there’s not a day where Chrollo doesn’t try and show how much he loves you. Let’s start with how every time he call’s you, it’s with the use of an endearing name. He usually goes back and forth between calling you “my love”,  “my dear” and “sweetheart”.

- Every time you feel envious, or have those feelings of inadequacy, Chrollo pulls you close to him, and tries to comfort you with the sweetest of words. Now usually if he would ever say something this heartfelt to someone, it would be for personal gain in return. But, whenever he pulls you into his arms and whispers his own advice, it’s because it’s genuine. All the praise you hear coming from your mouth is something that Chrollo truly means, and wants you to understand. 

- He also really enjoys your personality in which you romanticize everything. Chrolo finds it very cute to him, and loves seeing how you get excited with the smaller things. As someone who could steal almost anything for you (large jewel, rare items, etc.) Chrollo finds it funny that you just like to pay attention to the little things. With that being said, anything that he finds that reminds Chrollo of you, whether it be out on  his missions or a daily stroll), he’ll always bring back. He loves seeing the visible excitement on your face, the way your eyes bright up and that lovable grin to follow. He just can never get enough of it. 

- Knowing that you also love these, Chrollo will always gift you with a bunch of rare flowers that he saw. He will usually give you about three or four of the most prettiest flowers you’ve seen, and he’ll tie it with a small ribbon just for you. While you’re expressing your love to how beautiful these flowers are, of course, he’ll sneak in some lovey compliment (“yes they look nice, but they don’t look as amazing as you”. Normally these are very cheesy, but Chrolllo says it in a way that just works).

- Reading dates are very common with you and him. Chrollo is an avid reader, and going on a date based on his interest next to someone he so deeply loves would just be perfect. You guys could just cuddle on the couch or bed, maybe light some nice candles around, and just... read next to each other!! It might not sound like much, but it’s very enjoyable when you’re around each other.

- All in all, the love Chrollo has for you cannot so simply be described in just words. Even though there might come danger from his own role, he will promise to protect you. Chrollo is just so happy to have met you, to be with you, to call you each other’s, and to develop this mutually genuine love that you and him have. 

a/n: this was very very fun to write nd I rlly hope u like it :D ty for participating again !!

[ellewords]

of course it’s okay with me!

yamaguchi is more like character tsukishima, but more charming and less intentionally mean. yams is really snarky and a bit of a smart ass, but he doesn’t try to hurt people’s feelings in the way that character tsuki does. (sometimes actor tsuki goes to yams if he’s having a hard time figuring out the balance of saying a particularly mean line, and yams is always willing to walk him through it and provide options for how he thinks it would be best to convey the character while keeping actor tsukishima’s personality in mind)

sugawara is very similar to his character. like, it’s kind of scary how similar. sometimes in interviews, he and the cast make jokes about how they think the writers of the show secretly followed suga around for a few weeks to get the mannerisms and attitude perfect for the character. also jokes that he’s really happy that the fans like his character because he doesn’t know if his ego could handle being hated as a character and essentially as a person. he always phrases it as a joke, but you can kind of tell that he’s really sensitive to the topic.

something about kiyoko makes me think she’d be the biggest prankster. she is really similar to her character, but she’s also super cheeky and playful, and no one would suspect it from her because she’s mostly chill and professional/serious. but sometimes when a prank happens that neither tendo nor kuroo claim, you can see her smirking just a little bit, and it feels like a bit in the office when the camera will focus in on her and she’ll just have that look™️. it takes cast and crew a bit to realize that’s she can be just as rowdy as some of the others whereas it takes the fans a single clip of a prank on the second year karasuno boys and a half second of kiyoko appearing in the background with the tiniest smirk.

ukai is very much like his character. he’s competitive and a bit of a hard ass, but he’s also really caring and tends to be able to read people really well. he’s constantly making sure the cast and crew are taking care of themselves in his reluctantly caring about people type of way, and everyone loves to tease him about it. when they do, he gets defensive and tries to act like he doesn’t, but normally he accidentally slips up almost immediately. the cast and crew love him a lot, and look up to him even though he always makes it very clear that he doesn’t understand quite why they do.

mad dog is super timid in comparison to his character. the cast met him for the first time right as they were starting to film, so their first impression of him was that he was super intimidating and angry. the second they stopped rolling, however, he went up to every member of the cast to introduce himself and they were surprised that he was super mellow. people still can’t tell if he’s stand-offish after the first meeting, but pretty quickly they realize that he’s just a little shy so he has a hard time conveying himself right away. cast and crew adore him after the first few filming sessions, though.

kita is almost exactly like his character. he has a routine, he’s consistent, works his ass off, people can rely on him in just about every situation. the only thing really different is that he’s super clumsy. he’s always trying to get things done as efficiently as possible, so sometimes he gets into his own head about it and focuses too hard on what he’s doing, so he doesn’t notice the tiny step in his way or the chair leg he’s walking past. he always tries to play it cool because that’s just how he is, but he does get pretty embarrassed by it, so no one on the cast makes jokes about it because they don’t want him to feel bad. he really appreciates it.

hope you’re having a good day, elle!

aaaah wait all of these are so good anon !! i’m so !!! honestly, your mind.... woah. big brain energy,, thoughts under the cut <33

okay so thoughts bec i love what you sent in :

omg sweet and snarky actor yams ?? yes pls i feel like the fans would honestly be amazed whenever he actor tsukki do press interviews together bec it feels like they just saw the characters switch bodies ?? even four season in, no one is used to seeing yams tease tsukki for a change. also big awe with them helping each other with lines 🥺

awe suga 🥺 i feel like a lot of people would tell him his job is easy because he’s essentially just acting like himself all the time and he would get a bit upset by that because it implies that he doesn’t work as hard as everyone when he absolutely does :((

my girl kiyoko !! i feel like when the cast finally realizes the pranks that neither tendou nor kuroo claim is theirs are actually from her, everything would just go off the rails from there. because if kiyoko pranks people now,, they definitely would too?? there’s definitely a video wherein everything is just utter chaos and she just looks into the camera at the center of it all.

ukai awe :<< he’d definitely be the cast’s go-to if they ever need any sort of advice, even if they’re not from karasuno specifically and esp. if they’re the younger ones still new to acting. he gives advice on anything from love to navigating the entertainment industry. and at first he tells them that “it’s not exactly any of my business” but he finds them later and gives solid, genuine advice.

kyoutani 🥺 awe i can see actor him being so soft spoken and it gives everyone whiplash the second they stop rolling. also probably invited the team over to dinner after he introduced himself so they can get to know each other better :<<

clumsy kita just owns my whole heart, i love that <33

i hope you’re having a good day as well !! <33

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[moonbeamsung]

under the cut you will find my comprehensive brain dump about hot sauce <3

okay in addition to all the shitposts i made about the album as i listened for the first time, i have so much i wanna say about each track so here we go, even if no one reads this i don’t mind because i’m just posting it for myself! this is 15% semi-professional-sounding album review talk and the other 85% is me freaking out lol

hot sauce: someone said this is zimzalabim’s brother and i can’t stop thinking about it, but unlike that song it honestly didn’t take multiple listens for me to like the song itself. the only thing that was the slightest bit off-putting about it was the higher pitch of the chanting (which i still don’t know if i’m imagining or not) but i don’t mind it as much as i used to. the beat is so interesting and funky and the latin-ish(?) sound of some parts suits them unexpectedly well :,) all the members’ voices are so distinct and i think they all got a chance to shine, like even without looking at the line distribution it just seems pretty even to me when i listen. okay now onto the mv i think it’s super cool and when i saw it for the first time it felt like there was a lot going on and it was a little overwhelming but i think that’s just because it was 5 in the morning and my senses were overwhelmed lol (like the lyrics say o_o (i think??)) also JISUNG’S DANCE BREAK I AM ON THE FLOOR. he sounded so good sjdfbds. renjun’s adlibs (in the final chorus especially) are really something else and his lil duet part with jisung in prechorus 2 is amazing showstopping never been done before etc etc. haechan’s high note and jeno’s and mark’s (side note i can’t believe we really have 7dream again :,)) and jaemin’s raps and chenle’s voice throughout the entire thing are just,,, perfection omg. overall i love this song so much and think it was a great title track for them!!

diggity: IT GOES SO HARD IT’S CRAZY. first of all here are some timestamps that make me lose my mind: 0:30 i swear the adlib sounds like mark but the video shows that it’s renjun and he sounds😳whew. and 2:48.....jisung.........i can’t do this............for maximum pain watch a clip of him talking from 2016/2017 and then listen to this part but warning you may cry. HE SOUNDS SO SKDFBL WHEN DID HIS VOICE GET SO DEEP🥲like i knew it was but this is just. another level lmao but anyways, the bridge in this song as a whole sounds amazing!!! i’m very much in love with really small moments like the little “na na na”s in mark’s rap and the way they sound, sorta minor in tone. also love how the beats build up to the chorus each time and i just wanna bop my head to it! it seems like i hear new little harmonies and adlibs every time i listen and it’s such a nice mix of vocals and strong raps :)

dive into you: the VIBES of this song??? i liked it from the teaser but as i listen more and more it gets even better it seems. like imagine a summer roadtrip to the coast because that’s what this sounds like.  mark and jisung really started things off with one of the catchiest raps i’ve ever heard and everything about it is so perfect😩jaemin and jeno singing >>>> and chenle chose violence with his high note and hearing all the harmonies from every single one of them makes me so happy :> they’re so beautiful like aaaaa. also i just love the minor-sounding notes (that’s a favorite thing of mine can you tell) in the chorus with the “you-ooh” parts. VOCALIST JENO AT 2:36 IS THE PRETTIEST THING I’VE EVER HEARD DO YOU HEAR HIS HARMONY. can’t forget vocalist jisung either, any time he sings i’m just🥰which has happened a lot this cb which is GREAT :DD and then on top of all that, the track video is adorable and they look so happy!! driver haechan doesn’t hurt either lmao AND THE PERFORMANCES OF IT ARE SO CUTE TOO LIKE HHHH

my youth: something about this song sounds so nostalgic and it’s going on my driving playlist because it just gives me such a carefree feeling, like being on the highway or driving through a city at sunset. it’s really chill and it’s one of the softer songs on this album so it balances out the harder-hitting tracks :) jaemin’s rap is so nice, reminds me of how much i love his voice :( i heard a clip of them singing this song live and it doesn’t sound the slightest bit different, it really shows all their singing talents🥺

rocket: omg definitely another favorite of mine on the album, it’s so upbeat and reminds me of dream run!!! also it’s moonshine produced so you know it’s going to be a total bop. for some reason it feels like something that would play on a rollercoaster if they had music, the scales and the synth make it sound really fun and it’s extremely enjoyable to listen to, makes me wanna dance around :) jaemin’s rap with the little star wars line is cute hehe. and chenle’s “level up” part, he sounds SO GOOD! from the bridge towards the end, that’s my favorite part, it’s such an energetic beat and, like, bouncy? i guess? that’s not the best word but i really really really love this track☺️☺️☺️

countdown (3,2,1) : besides the fact that mark decided to k word me with that “explOsive” line at the opening i love this one too! it sounds futuristic almost. i never knew how much i needed to hear jisung say “control freak” before this and his singing voice at 1:15 and 3:11 and 3:24 is just wOw—plus his RAP I’M NOT GONNA RECOVER FOR A WHILE😔🤭......also love the transitions from jaemin into mark and then jeno for that part in the bridge and the buildup it has to the final chorus. i think haechan’s and renjun’s voices sound so good on this track like at that softer part? aND HOLY HECK IS HYUCK THE ONE DOING THOSE ADLIBS TOWARDS THE END BECAUSE IF SO DAMN. yes boys you are very dangerous

anl: why couldn’t they have just called it all night long because everyone’s reading it wrong🤠this one is really chill and i think the way it sounds kinda matches the vibe of their boring ver. photos, if that makes sense. it’s also going on my driving playlist!! i don’t know what to call the little twinkling sounds at the start but i love those, and mark’s voice is so soothing in this song🥺something about the way renjun sings “sky high” is gorgeous and jisung’s parts with the harmonies are truly a blessing to the ears :] the chorus sounds so inherently dream and i feel like track itself has something mature about it? (not in that way geez) but like it just shows how far they’ve come music-wise/vocally

irreplaceable: except for mark’s one english line in the bridge (you know the one don’t make me type it) (but it doesn’t make me cringe quite as much anymore) i also adore this song☺️if this track had a video, i’d picture it looking something like the cafe 7dream content. it sounds really acoustic and warm and like they could just be casually singing it together in a cozy cafe or studio! also, i realized that it reminds me of another dream song when i hear it and i figured out that it’s bye my first hehe. HAECHAN’S HIGH NOTE IS WITHOUT A DOUBT THE BEST PART, MARRY ME SIR.

be there for you: literally the renhyuckle ballad we’ve always wanted!!! i don’t even have that much to say because it’s just so beautiful, all three of their voices blend so well together and it’s such a comforting track. nct’s slower and softer songs like this are very distinct and have a gentle kind of power. listening to it feels like a hug and the harmonies and high notes and the extent of their vocal ranges are just so, so amazing.

rainbow: for all the times i’ve cried to it, i still love it :,) those first lyrics from chenle make me want to bawl my eyes out simply because his tone there is so nostalgic and pretty and sad-sounding, and reading the lyrics makes me even more emotional (or maybe i’m just overly sensitive oops). the softer raps and angelic vocals and every little harmony and adlib are EVERYTHING, this is another song that just suits the unit so well. regardless of their positions this track proves that every single member is beyond capable of being a vocalist. i don’t know why it seems like such a sad and nostalgic song to me, but it’s also really hopeful at the same time. it’s like this dreamscape of emotions (no pun intended), and the video is so otherworldly and enchanted it seems almost magical. the colors and the playground set? their expressions and interactions with one another? i swear, their friendship and bond is unlike any i’ve ever seen. this track also makes me think of how proud i am of them, and i wanna give them all the biggest hug in the world🥺

if you decided to read this whole thing i would like to say i’m sorry for the ramble but also thank you for being interested in what i had to say :)

[schiste-argileux]

That Pharma hates what he’s become

I think that Pharma had a decent amount of compassion and a proper (not relatively high) level of righteousness prior to the war. He is definitely talented and skilled, considering he is a doctor (medical school is a test of wits, patience, and learning to manage with stress and high stakes esp. if its surgical tasks).  Being in Delphi was a punch in the face, I think. If I were to be in Pharma’s position, a talented health professional who contributed and provided assistance and care to many lives, very used to living a comfortable life with many conveniences, suddenly thrown into the wilderness with little supplies yet expected to bring huge yields, I would be hella pissed. Yes, Pharma’s definitely able to make do with what he’s given (as we see in the comics lmao), but that kind of pressure is not fair and does him an injustice (he sucked up for like 5 years omg, and there’s ppl irl who cry at every little inconvenience smh).

Building up your career for centuries to be thrown out into some dirty ol’ clinic? Yeah, for the greater good! No recognition? Feeling bad? lmao, everyone’s in this together and suffering! What makes you special? 

Everyone, every. individual. is capable of evil, especially under pressure. many, many times, people cannot overlook or have a will to NOT act on it. Everything that’s born in this world does things for their own benefit, it’s a natural instinct. It’s not wrong to be selfish (its great if you aren’t! but hey, not everyone can)! It is wrong however, to be selfish and hurt someone else’s wellbeing to sate your needs! Pharma does that horrifically. He steps over those bounds. Probably out of anger, spite, because his expectations and values are failing. 

And then he slips down the slope of anger and frustration, thinking about Ratchet how he probably has it easier (no, he doesn’t but the grass is always greener on the other side), how everything SO unfair for him (listen, pharma, you ain’t special. but you are an individual, so its valid you feel these feelings). 

Then there’s this bitter conflict in himself, Oh, i’m a bad person for being like this! I’m supposed to be a professional, never losing my cool, doing my job! No, I am a professional, so we should be getting the proper resources to run a clinic! This literally fails all the health guidelines! This is a mess! How can I fix it? Why is it my job to fix it?

It was like what 5 years? jesus christ, that sounds like suffering. Sure Transformers can live for hundreds of thousands of years, but that sounds like hell. 5 years can be full of traumatizing events (haha fort maxy).

Conflicted, wanting to blame himself and point fingers, yet no one to point because he’s prideful and doesn’t want to be shallow, wanting to take things into his own hands. Also Pharma is a sad man can’t communicate his frustration (maybe can’t trust anyone, how sad), which also makes it worst. Communication is important friends!!!

And then blinded by these things, he fails and doesn’t want to see the bigger picture. And then Pharma does the ploy. I don’t think Pharma had that big a problem with Tarn (he did have problems but not like, the main source of anger), but the big fish was Autobot High Command (fuck u prowl, you saw possible evil and cunning in Pharma, who wasn’t acting on in and probably didn’t know he had evil in him, and you let it explode. You know no one else would be able to deal with Delphi because they don’t have the cunning, or they’re too stubbornly righteous). 

Get rid of Tarn? Someone’s just going to replace him, and possibly make the situation worse because WOW how did the DJD get wiped out?? Then Delphi gets stormed and he can’t get off this hellhole. Medic creates a BIO WEAPON. WOW! Prowl might be so amazed, he throws Pharma into another shitty situation to squeeze diamonds out of his ass. Pharma let the disease go off in the hospital because his goal is to selfishly shut down Delphi so he can get the fuck out while giving Prowl a good fuck you because he’s already a murderer for euthanizing struggling patients, so fuck this world. (In Which Pharma Becomes A School Shooter) I’m not talking about Chainsaw!Pharma after he gets saved by Tryest, because he’s so far gone,,, what even is he now. Bye.  I think pushing past the memes and jokes, Pharma represents A LOT of people IRL. Someone sick of the hypocrisy of the ones up the chain of command, hates themselves not being smart enough to get out easily, trying to point fingers but realizing they won’t change so what’s the point, and then just doing whatever he wants regardless of his morals because he snapped. I do not justify his actions, and I think his choice of making a disease (wow that’s big brained man) is a pretty bad choice out of all his choices (who are you to take other people’s lives? smh it is war but that doesn’t excuse ur sins). But Pharma is an excellent lesson to LEARN from his MISTAKES.  like the proverb says, A dumb man never learns from his mistakes, an average man learns from his own, and a smart man learns from other’s mistakes and his own. pharma exists so we can not be a clown like him and learn to communicate, express our frustrations, not blow up and control our feelings, understand ourselves and try to have a positive perspective even in the lowest times, and make good decisions!! anyways thanks for coming to my ted talking about pharma’s shittiness, you are welcome to agree or disagree! This was a short clip of my perspective on pharma as a character ^_^ i do not condone his actions. He’s not a good person and he should not be a role model...  basically he reminds me of Crime and Punishment character Raskolnikov! A conflicted dumbass who thinks he is so talented but deserves better and makes really poor decisions. excellent piece of english literature i read, very very good!