#Ella Alina Benson

[demigodreading]

A Rough Start

Summary: First week of classes is coming to an end and for Ella it is anything but successful. With roommates being anything but nice she is starting to wonder if she bit of more than she can handle. Penelope is there however to save the day and finally convinces Emily to let the newbie join their ranks. 

As always this can be read as a reader fic if so desired just remember the character Ella is Olivia Benson and Amanda Rollins daughter.

Warnings: Mentions of past anxiety attacks, big sad feels, homesickness

Characters: Ella Alina Benson (Original Character), Penelope Garica, Emily Prentiss, Olivia Beson

Relationship: Emily Prentiss x Penelope Garcia (Friendship), Olivia Benson x Original Character (Mother/Daughter)

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A week and a half had passed by since the arrival of Penelope’s newbie. It was Emily’s last class of the week. It was a late class starting at 5 pm and running till 7. Emily hoped that he would allow food and she could eat the dinner Penelope had made her. She was starving and hadn’t been able to stop for lunch during work. 

As people started to fill the room Emily pulled out her computer scrolling through the syllabus casually reading over it. Domestic Violence. Something her mother would scoff at her taking but the one she expected to be her favorite class of the semester. She loved to learn about the complexity of situations. It was why she loved all of her Child Advocacy classes. They gave her a whole new perspective on the world. 

When she was done reading the syllabus she began to look around at everyone who was entering the class. She only had two more years before she graduated and she had already begun to look at what her next steps were. Behavioral Analysis Unit was the first thing that had caught her eye when looking at the FBI website. Studying people sounded like one of the more interesting things they had available. She figured the more she studied behavior the more prepared she would be. The first person to catch her eye was a brunette woman who was sitting a couple of rows in front of her. Her hair was pulled up in a high bun an old NYPD hoodie hanging loose around her. She had her left elbow down on the table head placed in her hand. She was lazily drawing in the notebook that she had in front of her. If Emily had to guess she was drawing small suns and moons. 

She kept writing in the same notebook throughout the entire class even though Emily could see her grey laptop hanging out of her burgundy backpack. Emily couldn’t see all the stickers that covered the top of the laptop but the ones she did see made her smile: otters, great danes, true crime references. All of the things she loved. Everyone else in the class was typing away on her computer much like Emily but she was sure that this woman was keeping more detailed notes than her. Even if it was just because Emily was so distracted by this woman. 

Her attention was drawn back to the professor however when a large groan erupted in the entire class. Emily already knew what it was about. The group project was worth 75% of their grade. She had read in the syllabus that they would be working in pairs to make a case study and work to help a local woman’s shelter implement new techniques they had researched. Emily had always been good at researching her only real concern was the partner that she was going to pick. She had to make sure it was a perfect fit. So as they moved into the lecture section of the class Em scanned the crowd. There were many good prospects but it was the brunette woman that caught her attention again. She was not one to raise her hand but she knew all the answers. Emily could tell because every time someone got it wrong the woman would roll her eyes and underline the right answer in her notebook. This was the girl she wanted for her partner.

However when class ended the girl shoved her notebook in her backpack and quickly disappeared. By the time Emily made it into the hall, there was no trace of her. The only thing that Em could see was the bright colorful poms that her roommate wore every day. She went to grab the bubbly blonde but just as she went to call her name Penelope looked at her phone and ran down the hall with the resounding sound of her heels clicking on the floor. 

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Ella had spent the whole class dreading what came after. Domestic Violence was the class she was most excited about but she was nervous about going back to her dorm. Her roommates had been anything but nice making sure she knew that she was not welcome in their space. She had spent all week hiding in the library getting a start on homework that wasn’t even assigned yet. As she flopped down in the hidden spot she had found earlier in the week she called her mom. She didn’t know what she would be doing or if she had the time to talk to her… but even hearing her voice for one second seemed like something that could turn Ella’s day around.

“Hi baby girl, how was your last class of the week? It was domestic violence right?” Olivia asked as she looked through the mountain of paperwork on her desk. 

“It was fine. There is a group project that is worth a large portion of our grade that I am a little worried about,” Ella replied picking at a loose thread on her jeans.

“What about your roommate? She is in that class with you, right? Then you wouldn’t have to get paired with a stranger and you could work from your own dorm.”

“Umm… she really isn’t a big fan of mine,” Ella sighed trying her hardest not to cry, “Neither of them are really.”

“Oh honey, what do you mean?”

Ella began to cry as she told the tale of all the things her roommates had done to intimidate her and make her feel unsafe. Olivia was stunned none of this had ever been mentioned before. From the texts she had been receiving from Penelope, everything seemed to be going great. But if there was one thing she knew about her daughter it was that the blonde didn’t know anything about what was going on. Ella never liked to admit when she was struggling and often waited till she broke to reach out to others. All Olivia wanted to do was to hold her daughter in her arms but since she was an ocean away she settled for a person that could do it in her place. 

Olivia: Pen, Ella’s roommates have been bullying her and she could really use some help. Anyway I can convince you to find her and give her a hug for me. 

Penelope: You don’t have to convince me at all! I can’t believe someone is being mean to my Ella! Do you know where she is?

Olivia: My best guess is the library. That is where she always used to hide when she was at home. I am sorry that I don’t have more information for you.

Penelope: Don’t you worry Mom I will find her!

Olivia: Thank you, Penelope 

Olivia only had to wait a couple of minutes before she could hear Penelope over the phone. Ella let out a groan as she saw the blonde approaching her, “You called Penelope?”

“Correction she texted me,” Penelope said before plopping a bag of chocolates on the table in front of Ella, “Why didn’t you tell me what was going on?”

“Because I didn’t want to seem like something that you had to fix or a burden,” Ella sighed breaking both Olivia and Penelope’s hearts before eating a piece of chocolate.

“Oh E,” Penelope said wiping a tear off her cheek, “You are never a burden. I am here to help you. It is my duty as your friend to make this one of the most amazing adventures you have been on! Now I have a gift from your mom.”

Before Ella could ask any questions Penelope was grabbing her in a hug. It was so forceful that the chair she was in almost toppled her over. They let out such a large squeal that Olivia jumped in her seat.

“Hey you goons. What is going on over there?”

“Pen almost knocked me out of the chair from the hug she gave me,” Ella laughed, “Thank you Mom… and thank you, Penelope.” 

“Love you, baby girl,” Olivia replied, “And love you, Penelope.” “Love you Mom,” The two girls said in unison.

Olivia stifled a laugh and said goodbye to both of the giggling women. When the call was done Penelope insisted that Ella and her grab dinner at her favorite local Chinese place. Over dinner, they talked about all of their classes and the assignments they were most nervous about. When Ella seemed to have calmed down they walked back towards her dorm room Penelope promising that she would make sure everything went smoothly. There was nothing to worry about though because when they entered the main living area both of her roommates were already locked away in their room. Penelope offered to stay for a while and play some video games with Ella. This seemed to lift Ella’s spirits up even more. 

After they had played a couple of games Ella looked over at the blonde, “I have a question Pen.”

“Go for it!” She replied plopping another chocolate in her mouth.

“Do you always carry a bag of chocolate around? Or is this just a special Ella trick?” 

Penelope laughed, “No it is actually an Emily trick. She has a lot of anxiety attacks too and this was the only way that I could stop her from picking at her nails. I have it hidden all over our apartment.”

Ella smiled, “You are a really great friend.”

Penelope shrugged, “Sometimes.”

Ella went to say something back but Penelope shrugged it off and said that she needed to get going. They made plans for the next day and shortly after she had left Ella fell into the first good sleep she had all week.

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“Penelope, why is my emergency chocolate storage low?” Emily asked as she looked for the hidden secret in the blonde’s backpack.

Penelope reached into a cupboard throwing chocolate towards the brunette woman, “Get out of my backpack. I will restock it tomorrow. I had to calm down the newbie.”

Emily rolled her eyes, “What did the newbie need?”

“Her roommates are bullying her and bad Em. I am talking about like when you roomed with that crazy psycho who used to pour pig blood in your bed.”

“Don’t remind me! I am still in therapy for that,” Emily groaned reaching for another chocolate.

“So then we agree. Ella will come here tomorrow for movie night so she can actually feel like a part of the group,” Penelope grinned as she handed Emily a crab rangoon, “Oh and I brought you leftovers from Kim’s.”

Emily gently took the rangoon from Pen eating a small bite before nodding, “Fine she can start coming to movie nights. But I swear to all that is witchy if this is another wacko you will find a new roommate!”

Penelope grinned giving Em a quick kiss on her cheek, “You would miss me too much.”

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Marina Squerciati

Marielle Jaffe

Marika Dominczyk

Marisa Quinn

Mary Elizabeth Winstead

Mary Holland

Mary Kate Olsen

Meg Steedle

Meagan Tandy

Megan Ferguson

Meghan Markle

Mekia Cox

Melissa Baker

Melissa Barrera

Melissa Benoist

Melissa Fumero

Melissa Haro

Melissa Ordway

Melissa Santos

Michelle Trachtenberg

Michelle Williams

Mikaela Hoover

Mila Kunis

Mishel Prada

Molly Tarlov

Monica Raymund

Mozhan Marnò

Nafessa Williams

Nana Mensah

Nasim Pedrad

Natalie Dreyfuss

Natalie Morales

Natalie Paul

Nicky Hilton

Nichole Bloom

Nicole LaLiberte

Nikki SooHoo

Nikki Tomlinson

Nina Dobrev

Nitya Vidyasagar

Noel Wells

Nora Zehetner

Noureen DeWulf

Odette Annable

Olga Fonda

Olivia Luccardi

Olivia Munn

Olivia Taylor Dudley

Paige Spara

Peyton List

Phoebe Strole

Piercey Dalton

Rachel Nichols

Rebecca Rittenhouse

Rebel Wilson

Richa Moorjani

Rooney Mara

Sally Pressman

Sarah Hagan

Sarah Hay

Sarah Jones

Sarah Yarkin

Shannon Woodward

Shauna Baker

Sheila Vand

Shelley Hennig

Shelley Regner

Sherry Cola

Smith Cho

Sophia Bush

Sorel Carradine

Stella Maeve

Stephanie Beatriz

Stephanie Hunt

Summer Bishil

Tara Holt

Taylor Schilling

Taylor Swift

Teri Reeves

Tessa Ferrer

Tessa Thompson

Thora Birch

Tiffany Boone

Tina Huang

Tiya Sircar

Tonya Glanz

Torrey DeVitto

Trace Lysette

Trieste Kelly Dunn

Troian Bellisario

Valorie Curry

Vanessa Bayer

Vanessa Hudgens

Vanessa Lee Evigan

Vanessa Ray

Vannessa Vasquez

Virginia Kull

Wanetah Walmsley

Whitney Rose Pynn

Zelda Williams

Zoe Jarman

Zoe Kazan

Zoë Kravitz

Zooey Deschanel

Zena Grey

Zosia Mamet

70s

Aarti Mann

Adina Porter

Aimee Garcia

Aimee Graham

Aisha Tyler

Alanna Ubach

Alex Borstein

Ali Landry

Ali Larter

Alicia Silverstone

Alison Lohman

Alison Sweeney

Amanda Moore

Amanda Peet

Amanda Schull

Amber Benson

Amber Valletta

America Olivo

Amy Acker

Amy Adams

Amy Hargreaves

Amy Smart

Andrea Anders

Andrea Gabriel

Andrea Navedo

Angela Kinsey

Angie Harmon

Anna Faris

Arden Myrin

Artemis Pebdani

Ashley Cusato

Ashley Scott

Bellamy Young

Betsy Brandt

Bianca Lawson

Brandy Clark

Becki Newton

Brely Evans

Brigid Walsh

Brittany Daniel

Brittany Murphy

Brooke Elliott

Busy Philipps

Cara Buono

Charlize Theron

Chloë Sevigny

Christina Applegate

Camille Chen

Carla Gugino

Claire Danes

Cocoa Brown

Constance Zimmer

Dana Davis

Daniella Alonso

Danielle Nicolet

Darby Stanchfield

Demetria McKinney

Dorian Brown Pham

Eaddy Mays

Elisabeth Röhm

Elizabeth Banks

Elizabeth Mitchell

Emily Bergl

Emily Deschanel

Emma Caulfield

Erin Chambers

Eva Longoria

Eva Mendes

Felisha Terrell

Gina Philips

Ginifer King

Ginnifer Goodwin

Gloria Votsis

Heather Graham

Heather Headley

Heather Stephens

Hong Chau

Holly Marie Combs

Idara Victor

Ivana Milicevic

Jackie Sandler

Jada Pinkett Smith

Jama Williamson

Jaime King

January Jones

Jennifer Connelly

Jennifer Garner

Jennifer Love-Hewitt

Jennifer Morrison

Jenny McCarthy

Jessica Chastain

Jill Flint

Jill Wagner

JoAnna Garcia Swisher

Jodi O’Keefe

Joy Bryant

Julie Ann Emery

Julie Bowen

Julie Claire

Justina Machado

Kate Hudson

Kate Levering

Kate Orsini

Katie Holmes

Kelli Williams

Kellie Martin

Keri Russell

Kerry Washington

Kimberly Hebert Gregory

Kristen Wiig

Lana Parrilla

Laverne Cox

Laura Benanti

Laurel Holloman

Lauren Ambrose

Lauren German

Lauren Ridloff

Lesley Fera

Leslie Bibb

Leslie Stefanson

Linda Cardellini

Liv Tyler

Lola Glaudini

Mädchen Amick

Malin Akerman

Maria Menounos

Mariana Klaveno

Marielle Heller

Mary Elizabeth Ellis

Matilda Szydagis

Mavie Hörbiger

Megan Boone

Melissa George

Melissa Joan Hart

Melissa McCarthy

Melissa Ponzio

Merle Dandridge

Michaela Watkins

Mindy Kaling

Missi Pyle

Mizuo Peck

Monica Keena

Morena Baccarin

Nadine Ellis

Nia Long

Nicole Scherzinger

Niecy Nash

Norah Jones

Paula Garcés

Persia White

Poorna Jagannathan

Portia de Rossi

Rebecca Gayheart

Rebecca Wisocky

Reese Witherspoon

Renée Elise Goldsberry

Retta

Riki Lindhome

Rosario Dawson

Rya Kihlstedt

Sarah Michelle Gellar

Sarah Rafferty

Sasha Alexander

Selenis Leyva

Selma Blair

Senta Moses Mikan

Shannen Doherty

Shanola Hampton

Tammy Townsend

Tara Reid

Tiffani Thiessen

Tina Fey

Traci Dinwiddie

Uma Thurman

Vedette Lim

Virginia Williams

Winona Ryder

Yara Martinez

Zoe McLellan

Zoe Saldana

60s

Alexandra Billings

Alexandra Paul

Ally Sheedy

Ally Walker

Amy Brenneman

Amy Landecker

Amy Pietz

Amy Ryan

Amy Yasbeck

Andrea Roth

Ashley Judd

Brenda Strong

Brooke Shields

Brooke Smith

Carrie Preston

Chandra Wilson

Cheryl Hines

Christa Miller

Connie Britton

Courteney Cox

Dedee Pfeiffer

Elisabeth Shue

Elizabeth Marvel

Elizabeth McGovern

Ellen Pompeo

Emily Procter

Felicity Huffman

Francie Swift

Jacqueline Obradors

Jane Lynch

Jasmine Guy

Jeanne Tripplehorn

Jennifer Lopez

Joan Cusack

Jorja Fox

Julia Roberts

Julianna Margulies

Julianne Moore

Julie Delpy

Kate Flannery

Kate Walsh

Kelly Rutherford

Kristin Chenoweth

Kyra Sedgwick

Laura Ceron

Laura Dern

Laura Leighton

Lauren Graham

Laurie Holden

Lea Thompson

Lisa Kudrow

Lori Loughlin

Lucy Liu

Marcia Cross

Marguerite MacIntyre

Maria Bello

Mary Page Keller

Maura Tierney

Melinda Clarke

Melora Hardin

Michael Michele

Mira Sorvino

Molly Ringwald

Nicole Kidman

Nicollette Sheridan

Paget Brewster

Parker Posey

Robin Weigert

Rosie Perez

Sarah Jessica Parker

Sherry Stringfield

Susan Blackwell

Susan Walters

Tamlyn Tomita

Teri Hatcher

Teri Polo

Valarie Pettiford

Vanessa Marquez

Vanessa Williams

50s

Allison Janney

Amy Aquino

Amy Irving

Amy Morton

Andie MacDowell

Angela Bassett

Annette Bening

Annie Potts

BJ Harrison

CCH Pounder

Chloe Webb

Dana Delaney

Debi Morgan

Ellen Crawford

Harriet Sansom Harris

Holly Gagnier

Holly Hunter

Jackée Harry

Kate Burton

Khandi Alexander

Jodi Long

Laura Innes

Lorraine Bracco

Lynn Whitfield

Madeleine Stowe

Mary Elizabeth Mastrantonio

Megan Mullally

Michael Hyatt

Michelle Pfeiffer

Patricia Bethune

Rene Russo

Renée Victor

Valerie Mahaffey

40s

Alana Stewart

Barbara Hershey

Betty Buckley

Beth Grant

Blythe Danner

Caroline Lagerfelt

Diane Keaton

Dianne Wiest

Jennifer Rhodes

Kelly Bishop

Lainie Kazan

Mercedes Ruehl

Patti LuPone

Sally Field

Sigourney Weaver

Susan Sarandon

30s

Carmen Dell’Orefice

Elizabeth Taylor

20s

Betty White

Gene Tierney

Grace Kelly

Rebecca Schull

Unknown Age

Alana Bright

Alina Jenine Taber

Alison Jaye

Allison Shrum

Aly Mang

Alycia Pascual-Peña

Alyssa Cheatham

Amanda Jaros

Angela Lewis

Anna Maiche

Anna Rizzo

Avra Friedman

Caitlin Custer

Carly Hughes

Charity Cervantes

Cherinda Kincherlow

Clare Butler

December Ensminger

Devon Hales

Eden Epstein

Elizabeth Whitson

Ella Lentini

Emily Davenport

Fabianne Therese

Katie Wallace

Jackie Chung

Jennifer Ikeda

Jennifer Jalene

Jessica Heller

Jessica Vargas

Jojo Brown

Jordyn Chang

Lily Donoghue

Linette Beaumont

Lou Lou Safran

Mackenzie Marsh

Marcy Harriell

Margaret Odette

Markita Prescott

Megan Gray

Melissa Saint Amand

Neyla Cantu

Noree Victoria

Presciliana Esparolini

Rachel Rosenbloom

Renny Grames

Susie Abraham

Quincy Tyler Bernstine

Sarah Baker

Shalini Bathina

Shelby Surdam

Shi Ne Nielson

Toya Turner

Zainab Johnson

Zión Moreno

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Here are the top 500 baby name meaning!

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1. Top 500 baby name meaning

Rank Male name Female name 1 Liam Emma 2 Noah Olivia 3 William Ava 4 James Isabella 5 Oliver Sophia 6 Benjamin Charlotte 7 Elijah Mia 8 Lucas Amelia 9 Mason Harper 10 Logan Evelyn 11 Alexander Abigail 12 Ethan Emily 13 Jacob Elizabeth 14 Michael Mila 15 Daniel Ella 16 Henry Avery 17 Jackson Sofia 18 Sebastian Camila 19 Aiden Aria 20 Matthew Scarlett 21 Samuel Victoria 22 David Madison 23 Joseph Luna 24 Carter Grace 25 Owen Chloe 26 Wyatt Penelope 27 John Layla 28 Jack Riley 29 Luke Zoey 30 Jayden Nora 31 Dylan Lily 32 Grayson Eleanor 33 Levi Hannah 34 Isaac Lillian 35 Gabriel Addison 36 Julian Aubrey 37 Mateo Ellie 38 Anthony Stella 39 Jaxon Natalie 40 Lincoln Zoe 41 Joshua Leah 42 Christopher Hazel 43 Andrew Violet 44 Theodore Aurora 45 Caleb Savannah 46 Ryan Audrey 47 Asher Brooklyn 48 Nathan Bella 49 Thomas Claire 50 Leo Skylar 51 Isaiah Lucy 52 Charles Paisley 53 Josiah Everly 54 Hudson Anna 55 Christian Caroline 56 Hunter Nova 57 Connor Genesis 58 Eli Emilia 59 Ezra Kennedy 60 Aaron Samantha 61 Landon Maya 62 Adrian Willow 63 Jonathan Kinsley 64 Nolan Naomi 65 Jeremiah Aaliyah 66 Easton Elena 67 Elias Sarah 68 Colton Ariana 69 Cameron Allison 70 Carson Gabriella 71 Robert Alice 72 Angel Madelyn 73 Maverick Cora 74 Nicholas Ruby 75 Dominic Eva 76 Jaxson Serenity 77 Greyson Autumn 78 Adam Adeline 79 Ian Hailey 80 Austin Gianna 81 Santiago Valentina 82 Jordan Isla 83 Cooper Eliana 84 Brayden Quinn 85 Roman Nevaeh 86 Evan Ivy 87 Ezekiel Sadie 88 Xavier Piper 89 Jose Lydia 90 Jace Alexa 91 Jameson Josephine 92 Leonardo Emery 93 Bryson Julia 94 Axel Delilah 95 Everett Arianna 96 Parker Vivian 97 Kayden Kaylee 98 Miles Sophie 99 Sawyer Brielle 100 Jason Madeline 101 Declan Peyton 102 Weston Rylee 103 Micah Clara 104 Ayden Hadley 105 Wesley Melanie 106 Luca Mackenzie 107 Vincent Reagan 108 Damian Adalynn 109 Zachary Liliana 110 Silas Aubree 111 Gavin Jade 112 Chase Katherine 113 Kai Isabelle 114 Emmett Natalia 115 Harrison Raelynn 116 Nathaniel Maria 117 Kingston Athena 118 Cole Ximena 119 Tyler Arya 120 Bennett Leilani 121 Bentley Taylor 122 Ryker Faith 123 Tristan Rose 124 Brandon Kylie 125 Kevin Alexandra 126 Luis Mary 127 George Margaret 128 Ashton Lyla 129 Rowan Ashley 130 Braxton Amaya 131 Ryder Eliza 132 Gael Brianna 133 Ivan Bailey 134 Diego Andrea 135 Maxwell Khloe 136 Max Jasmine 137 Carlos Melody 138 Kaiden Iris 139 Juan Isabel 140 Maddox Norah 141 Justin Annabelle 142 Waylon Valeria 143 Calvin Emerson 144 Giovanni Adalyn 145 Jonah Ryleigh 146 Abel Eden 147 Jayce Emersyn 148 Jesus Anastasia 149 Amir Kayla 150 King Alyssa 151 Beau Juliana 152 Camden Charlie 153 Alex Esther 154 Jasper Ariel 155 Malachi Cecilia 156 Brody Valerie 157 Jude Alina 158 Blake Molly 159 Emmanuel Reese 160 Eric Aliyah 161 Brooks Lilly 162 Elliot Parker 163 Antonio Finley 164 Abraham Morgan 165 Timothy Sydney 166 Finn Jordyn 167 Rhett Eloise 168 Elliott Trinity 169 Edward Daisy 170 August Kimberly 171 Xander Lauren 172 Alan Genevieve 173 Dean Sara 174 Lorenzo Arabella 175 Bryce Harmony 176 Karter Elise 177 Victor Remi 178 Milo Teagan 179 Miguel Alexis 180 Hayden London 181 Graham Sloane 182 Grant Laila 183 Zion Lucia 184 Tucker Diana 185 Jesse Juliette 186 Zayden Sienna 187 Joel Elliana 188 Richard Londyn 189 Patrick Ayla 190 Emiliano Callie 191 Avery Gracie 192 Nicolas Josie 193 Brantley Amara 194 Dawson Jocelyn 195 Myles Daniela 196 Matteo Everleigh 197 River Mya 198 Steven Rachel 199 Thiago Summer 200 Zane Alana 201 Matias Brooke 202 Judah Alaina 203 Messiah Mckenzie 204 Jeremy Catherine 205 Preston Amy 206 Oscar Presley 207 Kaleb Journee 208 Alejandro Rosalie 209 Marcus Ember 210 Mark Brynlee 211 Peter Rowan 212 Maximus Joanna 213 Barrett Paige 214 Jax Rebecca 215 Andres Ana 216 Holden Sawyer 217 Legend Mariah 218 Charlie Nicole 219 Knox Brooklynn 220 Kaden Payton 221 Paxton Marley 222 Kyrie Fiona 223 Kyle Georgia 224 Griffin Lila 225 Josue Harley 226 Kenneth Adelyn 227 Beckett Alivia 228 Enzo Noelle 229 Adriel Gemma 230 Arthur Vanessa 231 Felix Journey 232 Bryan Makayla 233 Lukas Angelina 234 Paul Adaline 235 Brian Catalina 236 Colt Alayna 237 Caden Julianna 238 Leon Leila 239 Archer Lola 240 Omar Adriana 241 Israel June 242 Aidan Juliet 243 Theo Jayla 244 Javier River 245 Remington Tessa 246 Jaden Lia 247 Bradley Dakota 248 Emilio Delaney 249 Colin Selena 250 Riley Blakely 251 Cayden Ada 252 Phoenix Camille 253 Clayton Zara 254 Simon Malia 255 Ace Hope 256 Nash Samara 257 Derek Vera 258 Rafael Mckenna 259 Zander Briella 260 Brady Izabella 261 Jorge Hayden 262 Jake Raegan 263 Louis Michelle 264 Damien Angela 265 Karson Ruth 266 Walker Freya 267 Maximiliano Kamila 268 Amari Vivienne 269 Sean Aspen 270 Chance Olive 271 Walter Kendall 272 Martin Elaina 273 Finley Thea 274 Andre Kali 275 Tobias Destiny 276 Cash Amiyah 277 Corbin Evangeline 278 Arlo Cali 279 Iker Blake 280 Erick Elsie 281 Emerson Juniper 282 Gunner Alexandria 283 Cody Myla 284 Stephen Ariella 285 Francisco Kate 286 Killian Mariana 287 Dallas Lilah 288 Reid Charlee 289 Manuel Daleyza 290 Lane Nyla 291 Atlas Jane 292 Rylan Maggie 293 Jensen Zuri 294 Ronan Aniyah 295 Beckham Lucille 296 Daxton Leia 297 Anderson Melissa 298 Kameron Adelaide 299 Raymond Amina 300 Orion Giselle 301 Cristian Lena 302 Tanner Camilla 303 Kyler Miriam 304 Jett Millie 305 Cohen Brynn 306 Ricardo Gabrielle 307 Spencer Sage 308 Gideon Annie 309 Ali Logan 310 Fernando Lilliana 311 Jaiden Haven 312 Titus Jessica 313 Travis Kaia 314 Bodhi Magnolia 315 Eduardo Amira 316 Dante Adelynn 317 Ellis Makenzie 318 Prince Stephanie 319 Kane Nina 320 Luka Phoebe 321 Kash Arielle 322 Hendrix Evie 323 Desmond Lyric 324 Donovan Alessandra 325 Mario Gabriela 326 Atticus Paislee 327 Cruz Raelyn 328 Garrett Madilyn 329 Hector Paris 330 Angelo Makenna 331 Jeffrey Kinley 332 Edwin Gracelyn 333 Cesar Talia 334 Zayn Maeve 335 Devin Rylie 336 Conor Kiara 337 Warren Evelynn 338 Odin Brinley 339 Jayceon Jacqueline 340 Romeo Laura 341 Julius Gracelynn 342 Jaylen Lexi 343 Hayes Ariah 344 Kayson Fatima 345 Muhammad Jennifer 346 Jaxton Kehlani 347 Joaquin Alani 348 Caiden Ariyah 349 Dakota Luciana 350 Major Allie 351 Keegan Heidi 352 Sergio Maci 353 Marshall Phoenix 354 Johnny Felicity 355 Kade Joy 356 Edgar Kenzie 357 Leonel Veronica 358 Ismael Margot 359 Marco Addilyn 360 Tyson Lana 361 Wade Cassidy 362 Collin Remington 363 Troy Saylor 364 Nasir Ryan 365 Conner Keira 366 Adonis Harlow 367 Jared Miranda 368 Rory Angel 369 Andy Amanda 370 Jase Daniella 371 Lennox Royalty 372 Shane Gwendolyn 373 Malik Ophelia 374 Ari Heaven 375 Reed Jordan 376 Seth Madeleine 377 Clark Esmeralda 378 Erik Kira 379 Lawson Miracle 380 Trevor Elle 381 Gage Amari 382 Nico Danielle 383 Malakai Daphne 384 Quinn Willa 385 Cade Haley 386 Johnathan Gia 387 Sullivan Kaitlyn 388 Solomon Oakley 389 Cyrus Kailani 390 Fabian Winter 391 Pedro Alicia 392 Frank Serena 393 Shawn Nadia 394 Malcolm Aviana 395 Khalil Demi 396 Nehemiah Jada 397 Dalton Braelynn 398 Mathias Dylan 399 Jay Ainsley 400 Ibrahim Alison 401 Peyton Camryn 402 Winston Avianna 403 Kason Bianca 404 Zayne Skyler 405 Noel Scarlet 406 Princeton Maddison 407 Matthias Nylah 408 Gregory Sarai 409 Sterling Regina 410 Dominick Dahlia 411 Elian Nayeli 412 Grady Raven 413 Russell Helen 414 Finnegan Adrianna 415 Ruben Averie 416 Gianni Skye 417 Porter Kelsey 418 Kendrick Tatum 419 Leland Kensley 420 Pablo Maliyah 421 Allen Erin 422 Hugo Viviana 423 Raiden Jenna 424 Kolton Anaya 425 Remy Carolina 426 Ezequiel Shelby 427 Damon Sabrina 428 Emanuel Mikayla 429 Zaiden Annalise 430 Otto Octavia 431 Bowen Lennon 432 Marcos Blair 433 Abram Carmen 434 Kasen Yaretzi 435 Franklin Kennedi 436 Royce Mabel 437 Jonas Zariah 438 Sage Kyla 439 Philip Christina 440 Esteban Selah 441 Drake Celeste 442 Kashton Eve 443 Roberto Mckinley 444 Harvey Milani 445 Alexis Frances 446 Kian Jimena 447 Jamison Kylee 448 Maximilian Leighton 449 Adan Katie 450 Milan Aitana 451 Phillip Kayleigh 452 Albert Sierra 453 Dax Kathryn 454 Mohamed Rosemary 455 Ronin Jolene 456 Kamden Alondra 457 Hank Elisa 458 Memphis Helena 459 Oakley Charleigh 460 Augustus Hallie 461 Drew Lainey 462 Moises Avah 463 Armani Jazlyn 464 Rhys Kamryn 465 Benson Mira 466 Jayson Cheyenne 467 Kyson Francesca 468 Braylen Antonella 469 Corey Wren 470 Gunnar Chelsea 471 Omari Amber 472 Alonzo Emory 473 Landen Lorelei 474 Armando Nia 475 Derrick Abby 476 Dexter April 477 Enrique Emelia 478 Bruce Carter 479 Nikolai Aylin 480 Francis Cataleya 481 Rocco Bethany 482 Kairo Marlee 483 Royal Carly 484 Zachariah Kaylani 485 Arjun Emely 486 Deacon Liana 487 Skyler Madelynn 488 Eden Cadence 489 Alijah Matilda 490 Rowen Sylvia 491 Pierce Myra 492 Uriel Fernanda 493 Ronald Oaklyn 494 Luciano Elianna 495 Tate Hattie 496 Frederick Dayana 497 Kieran Kendra 498 Lawrence Maisie 499 Moses Malaysia 500 Rodrigo Kara

2. Meaning of name "Liam" and "Emma"

Liam:

Liam's name is the name of a boy of Irish origin meaning "resolute protection".

Liam originated as the nickname of Uilliam, the Irish variant of William. William is an English name from German origin brought to Ireland when the British fled England after the conquest of Norman.

The Irish began to use English names, including William, which led to the development of Uilliam and its short form, Liam.

Liam is the top US boy's name for 2018, joining the elite group of names to top the list. Liam started out as a short form of William but has long stood on his own and for several years has become one of the most popular baby names for boys.

Now it is the fastest-growing Irish name in the United States, first entering the Top 10 in 2012 and before climbing to No. 1, holding No. 2 for four consecutive years.

Emma:

Initially, a short form of the German name beginning with the ermen element meaning "whole" or "universal". It was introduced to England by Emma of Normandy, who was the wife of King Ethelred II (and by him the mother of Edward the Confession) and later King Canute.

After the Norman conquest, this name became popular in England. It was revived in the 18th century, perhaps in part because of a poem by Henry Prior Henry and Emma (1709). In the United States, it ranked third in 1880 (after Mary and Anna were omnipresent).

It declined steadily over the next century, beginning another rise in the 1980s and eventually becoming the most popular name for girls in 2008.

At this time it also experienced similar levels of popularity elsewhere, including the United Kingdom (where it began rising a decade earlier), Germany, France, Italy, Spain, Scandinavia, and the Netherlands.

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A Fall Wedding Night

Summary: My final submission for @storiesofsvu‘s fall bingo. This will cover the colored leaves square! This is a super fluffy cute Rolivia wedding piece. All of the dresses/suits for reference will be at the bottom of the fic. I also reference the song From the Ground Up by Dan and Shay and all of those lyrics will be in italics. I hope y’all enjoy!

Characters: Olivia Benson, Amanda Rollins, Noah Benson, Ella Benson, Fin Tutuola, Casey Novak, Melinda Warner, Donald Cragen, Nick Amaro, John Munch, Rafael Barba. Mentions of: Serena Benson, Alex Cabot, Elliot Stabler. (That’s right bebes the whole crew is here for this one).

Relationships: Amanda Rollins x Olivia Benson. Rolivia

Word Count: 2097

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Cragen was doing a final walk-through of the small clearing with Olivia when she paused at the flower archway in the center. Deep burgundy flowers were intertwined through a dark oak wood. She brushed her fingers gently over the petals.

“Ella has the best eye for this stuff. This place is beautiful,” Olivia whispered.

“Fulfill your biggest dreams?” Cragen asked.

Olivia paused for a moment, “You know I never really dreamed about a wedding growing up. The thought of a man waiting at the end of an aisle there to sweep me off my feet seemed so...unrealistic. However when Amanda proposed all I could dream about was how happy I would be to see her walking towards me. The place didn’t matter to me I just knew I wanted that feeling. I wanted her to be my wife.”

“A feeling you won’t get unless you get in your wedding dress,” Ella said making the two turn towards her.

Olivia couldn’t help but smile at her daughter as Ella handed her the dress bag. Her curled hair matched the color of the burgundy dress that she wore. It clung to her muscular arms but hung loosely around her hips dropping to the leaves on the ground. Even with heels and a hemmed dress, a pile had collected behind her. 

“You look beautiful baby,” Olivia smiled, “I can’t believe you are a senior this year.” “And I can’t believe I got Noah dressed and ready before you,” Ella laughed.

“What? How? That kid can’t sit still for two minutes,” Cragen asked cocking his brow.

“I may have bribed him with an extra ice cream scoop when we go to  Aunt Melinda and Aunt Casey’s tonight,” Ella shrugged.

“Ella! You know he can’t have that much ice cream.”

“We give him like an eighth of a scoop! One-fourth of a scoop won’t kill the boy. Now get dressed! I am going to check on Mom and by the time I get back you better be ready to go!”

“She is a little bossy,” Olivia laughed.

“I wonder where she got that from,” Cragen said giving Olivia a knowing look which only made her laugh more. 

Ella picked up her skirt hoping more leaves wouldn’t collect as she made her way inside a small cabin they had rented for the evening. Melinda and Casey were trying to keep three year old Noah out of trouble. They smiled at her and nodded their head towards the upstairs loft bedroom. When Noah noticed Ella come in the room he immediately ran up to her reaching his arms up in the air.

Ella leaned over to kiss his forehead, “I have to make sure Mom is ready. Then I’ll hold you during the whole ceremony.”

Noah nodded, “Aunties said we could watch Spiderman tonight!”

Ella bopped him on the nose and replied with how excited she was. Finally, she headed up the stairs and peeked through the open door.

“You know it’s not too late to run if you want,” Fin said handing Amanda her suit jacket. 

Amanda rolled her eyes pushing her arms through the sleeves, “You know you are talking about our boss right?”

“I’m just giving you an option.”

“I want to do this Fin. That is the love of my life waiting for me,” Amanda smiled as she flattened her jacket one more time, “How do I look?”

“Like the most beautiful woman I have ever seen,” Ella grinned as she stepped into the room, “Well you are tied with Momma in her wedding outfit.”

“Do you think she will like it?” Amanda asked looking back at the mirror one final time making sure none of the gems had fallen off the corset.

“Yes, I am sure,” Ella responded as Fin excused himself from the room to get everyone into their seats.

Ella watched Amanda intently as she slipped on a pair of white high heels. Amanda took one final look in the mirror and then turned towards her soon-to-be daughter, “I think I am ready.”

Ella brushed her hand through her hair one final time as she ran down the mental checklist in her mind. If Olivia and Amanda were honest it had been Ella who had put the whole wedding together. They had been so busy with cases lately that Ella had been the one calling to get the flowers, cake, and venue organized. She had insisted that she wanted everything to be perfect for her two moms to get married. Now as she stood in front of Amanda she seemed nervous beginning to spin the ring that she always wore on her thumb.

Amanda reached out her hand stopping the action, “Hey, what is going on in that beautiful head of yours sweet girl?”

Ella bit down on her bottom lip before speaking, “Are you sure that you didn’t want your Mom or sister here? I know it’s a little late now but maybe I can convince Barba to Facetime them or something… so they can be included if you…”

“I didn’t change my mind,” Amanda cut her off giving Ella a kiss on the cheek, “Everyone here is my real family I don’t need anyone else here.” Ella hugged Amanda one final time, “Alright...it’s showtime Mom. You ready?”

Amanda nodded and laughed as Fin held out his arm for her. After he did a small bow she linked arms with him as Ella rushed down the stairs and out the door. Olivia struggled to stay on her feet as Ella hurled herself into a large hug. After a quick kiss on the forehead, Ella nodded towards Amaro who turned on the music. As guitar sounds filled the air Munch helped Noah down the aisle as his little hands threw rose petals in the air. The sounds of Casey snapping pictures could be heard as he  made his way to stand next to Cragen. The image of Cragen holding Noah’s little hand would stay imprinted in Olivia’s head forever as Ella extended her arm out.

When they began to walk down the aisle Olivia began to listen to the words that flowed from the speakers. She knew the words but the voice singing it sounded oddly familiar. She looked over at Ella, “Is this you singing?”

Ella nodded shyly, “I had to change the song lyrics a little bit to make sure it fit.”

Tears rolled down Olivia’s face as she heard the words to her favorite song: And we'll build this love from the ground up. Now 'til forever it's all of me, all of you. Just take my hand.And I'll be the woman that you hoped that I'd be. 

When Olivia was settled into her spot Noah scrambled to Ella’s side and she lifted him against her hip. Olivia wiped the tears away as she turned back towards the end of the aisle where Amanda was approaching. She looked out among the chairs smiling at the friends sitting before her. Melinda was wiping the tears out of her eyes with a handkerchief Barba had given her. Munch and Amaro sat on the other side and she could almost see the glimmer of a tear that Munch quickly wiped away. Next to them was an empty chair Olivia knew they had left for all of the people who couldn’t celebrate her day with her.

It was for Alex Cabot wherever in the world she was off to now. Megan who never got the chance to see the beauty of her pseudo-daughter in her old wedding dress. Serena who was robbed of the chance to see Olivia making something of herself. And Olivia would deny it if anyone asked but a little piece of her thought about Elliot Stabler. Would he have been proud of her? Jealous? Happy? Questions that would never get answered but as Olivia thought about it she just hoped that somewhere out there Elliot was okay and that he was in love.

Olivia was pulled from these thoughts as a small breeze started causing red, orange, and green leaves to fall through the air framing the small blonde perfectly. She was still holding tightly onto the arm of Fin’s dark red suit but when she saw Olivia waiting for her she immediately began to cry. There was her future wife waiting for her in the most beautiful dress she had ever seen. An off-white floor-length dress covered in intricate lace that hugged every curve of her body perfectly. Then as she made her way over the rose petals Noah had thrown she heard Ella’s voice.

This life will go by.In the blink of an eye. But I wouldn't wanna spend it without you by my side.The cloud are gonna roll. The earth's gonna shake. But I'll be your shelter through the wind and the rain.

And all that Amanda could think was that every single line of the song rang true. There was not a single moment for the rest of her life that she wanted to spend without the amazing Olivia Benson by her side. As she unlinked from Fin’s arm and he stood behind her she grabbed Olivia’s hands in hers.

“You look beautiful,” She whispered kissing the top of Olivia’s hand.

Olivia grinned back, “And you are the most handsome woman I have ever seen in my entire life.”

A blush grew on Amanda’s cheek as Cragen cleared his throat, “I heard that the brides have prepared their own vows tonight. Olivia, would you like to start?”

Olivia looked back at Ella who nodded at Noah’s small hand that contained a piece of paper. Olivia kissed his forehead before unfolding the paper and looking back at Amanda, “I remember the exact day that you introduced yourself to me. So full of life and the same fire and drive that I had when I first walked inside of those precinct doors. I will admit it openly: I was jealous…I had lost that fire. But knowing you…learning from the light that you radiated every time you walked into a room gave me everything I had lost plus more. You taught me how to be a better detective, a better friend, a better partner, a better person, and most importantly a better mother.  I can’t wait to spend every single morning waking up to your cute little snores… eating popcorn curled on the couch watching movies with our children. Mostly I can’t wait to end every night holding you close and calling you my wife.”

Amanda wiped away the tears rolling down her face before pulling a piece of paper out of her pocket. She looked at the paper for a moment, “I spent an insane amount of time trying to figure out what I would say but it came to me when I was watching you dance in the rain the other day. You had Noah dressed in rain boots, a heavy winter coat, and heavy pants. Ella was dressed in her clothes from work a long-sleeved shirt and long pants. You however were only in shorts, an oversize t-shirt, and bare feet. Your clothes were soaked through but you were splashing in every puddle singing along to the music that spilled from a speaker you had set up in our kitchen window. When you caught me standing in the doorway you pulled me out into the rain. And long after the children had gone inside we stayed out in the rain holding each other and dancing slowly. Your head was curled into my neck and you whispered Please never let this moment end. And I want to tell you that I will spend every single day making sure that moment never ends. I love you Olivia and I want to spend the rest of my life dancing with you.”

Olivia smiled and leaned in to kiss Amanda. Cragen cleared his throat and Olivia pulled away giggling, “Sorry I got a little excited.”

“Well let’s exchange rings so that we can get to the rest of the party started,” Cragen laughed.

They exchanged simple black bands and then Cragen finally said the words that Olivia wanted to hear the most: You may kiss the bride. Everyone around them began to clap as Amanda and Olivia exchanged what could only be explained as a kiss of a lifetime. The moment that Casey captured immediately after the kiss ended was a permanent fixture on both of their desks. Their foreheads were pressed together. A large smile etched on their face. The falling leaves perfectly framing the two women as they shared their love with everyone around them. 

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Making Up For Lost Time

Summary: Ella keeps running the conversation between Olivia and Elliot in her brain. The words You Were The Most Important Person In My Life playing a constant repeating tape of guilt for sending Elliot away all those years ago. After a tip from Amanda Olivia rushes to make sure that her eldest daughter knows that she is safe and loved. Also please note this my lovies is the second to last chapter of the Baby Benson Series. I am going to come back and insert some more chapters but this series is a little messy so I am going to clean it up once I move on the next installment of Ella Benson

Characters: Olivia Benson, Amanda Rollins, Ella Alina Benson. Mentions of: Elliot Stabler, Noah Benson, Jessie Rollins, Billie Rollins

Relationship: Olivia Benson x Amanda Rollins, Olivia Benson x Daughter

Word Count: 1569

Warnings: Mentions of Self Harm, Self Deprecation, Episode Spoilers

Request:  I was wondering if you could do a oneshot where you explore what Olivia said about Elliot being the most important person in her life more deeply when her daughter overheard her? Maybe her daughter confronts her? @ynsimagines​ (Sooo it isn’t a one shot but I was already planning on doing this for the Baby Benson series so I decided to put this request here.)

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Ella was in her room looking out the window towards all of the city lights. Rain was gently falling on the glass. A sight she typically loved but today it made her sad. She was heading home to her dorm tomorrow after the incident. It wasn’t that Ella didn’t enjoy being at home. Ella loved being around her little siblings. She had even let Noah and Jessie take turns sleeping in her room with her. But it was time for her to go back to her dorm. Where she had some space to think. Some separation away from Olivia who had been on edge and snappy ever since Elliot came crashing back in their life. It gave her an opportunity to have the scars on her wrist heal instead of hiding them every second of the day. 

A thing that she currently wasn’t hiding at the moment because she was sure everyone else in the house was asleep. She had heard Billie wake up momentarily and then after being soothed back to sleep her mothers had retreated to their room and it had been silent ever since. She traced the lines mindlessly thinking the words that had been haunting her for weeks repeating in her head: You were the single most important person in my life. Deep down in Ella’s heart, she knew that she was to blame for the absence of Olivia’s favorite partner. If only she could take the day she got shot back maybe he would have stayed. Maybe their whole life would have been different. A complicated thought because that gave the option that Amanda wouldn’t be her mother. It was all of the unknowns that kept her up late at night. The what-ifs that plagued every moment of her day. She hoped returning to school would give her some separation to see the bigger picture.

As she leaned her head against the window there was a light knock on the door. Without waiting for an answer Olivia entered the room.

“A little birdie told me to come check on you. I was wondering if we could talk,” Olivia said stepping further inside.

“Damnit Amanda,” Ella whispered.

“Ella… did you hear the conversation between Elliot and me at the hospital?”

“Where you told him that he was the most important person in your life,” Ella laughed bitterly, “How could I ever forget?”

“Sweetheart…”

“Don’t even try Mom. I always knew I wasn’t the most important thing in your world.”

All of the breath escaped from Olivia’s chest as the words cut her like a knife. It sounded like something she would have told her mother all those years ago. Words riddled with anger and poison but most importantly sadness. A sadness that came from never feeling good enough to the one person that approval meant the most from. The one feeling that she never wanted her daughter to have. 

Her voice cracked as she tried to hold back tears threatening to spill down her face at any moment, “Ella you need to understand something. Nothing in this world is more important than you.”

“That’s not what you told Elliot,” Ella retorted finally looking at her mother.

The look of tears brimming in Olivia’s eyes made all of Ella’s anger fade away. She had the same look like the day she had drawn a gun on Ella in her PTSD post-Lewis episodes. Ella wanted to take everything she had said back but she couldn’t. Her feelings were hurt and it was time that her mom had acknowledged her. 

“Ever since Elliot has shown up you have been so different. You have been angry, bitter, closed off… you haven’t been my mom. All I want is my mom back,” Ella sighed ignoring the tears that fell down her cheeks.

“Elliot’s return has been… complicated to say the least. His exit from my life...our life was so abrupt it left so many unanswered questions. Answers that I have foolishly been trying to search for since he has come back. I needed that closure. I needed to know why he left… and why he effectively abandoned everything he had here.”

“It’s all my fault… if I had never gotten shot that day maybe he would have stayed. Our life could have been so different. You wouldn’t have lost the best part of your world.”

“Ella, my sweetest girl, you are the best part of my world. None of this is your fault at all. Elliot should have never pulled the trigger that day. He knew better. He could have faced the consequences but instead, he ran. He ran because he knew he did something horribly wrong. He didn’t even apologize… he is the bad guy here. Not you.”

When Ella didn’t respond Olivia crawled across the bed till they were sitting with their knees touching. She gently cupped her daughter’s cheek her thumb wiping away the tears, “I love you. More than anything in the entire world. My world is a better place because you are in it. You are a beautiful young woman and I am so proud of who you are becoming. You are a light in my life and to everyone that you meet. Nothing and I mean nothing is more important than having you in my life.”

“What about Noah, Jessie, Billie, and Amanda?”

Olivia giggled, “All of them hold a special place in my life too. But you- my mini me- will always be my favorite eldest daughter.”

Ella smiled and then extended her arms out to Olivia. Her mother grabbed her in a large bear hug and tackled her to the bed beginning to tickle her sides. Ella burst out into a fit of giggles and held her wrists up to try and defend herself. That is when Olivia finally saw the scars and stopped abruptly. She ran her finger over Ella’s wrist gently causing her daughter to cry.

“I’m so sorry Mom. I shouldn’t have…”

Olivia merely placed a kiss on Ella’s forehead before hugging her close, “Tomorrow will be better.”

Olivia continued to wipe the tears from Ella’s face until she settled down. She laid her head on Olivia’s chest and whispered, “Nine years down the drain.”

“Where is it hidden?”

“Behind the mirror in the bathroom.”

“You know I am going to get rid of it right?” Olivia asked and Ella nodded, “Are there any in your dorm?”

“No,” Ella replied, “Are you mad?”

“Only at myself for not being here to help you when you needed it the most,” Olivia answered, “You are doing your best and that is all I could ask for. I love you.”

“And I love you.”

After the tears had calmed the two Bensons laid next to each other. They watched the twinkle lights that were strung all over the ceiling for a moment before Olivia broke the silence.

“He told me he loved me today,” She whispered.

The words hung in the air as Ella decided how to unpack what had just been said. As the silence extended Oliva became more and more nervous. 

“Do you love him?” Ella asked simply.

Olivia sighed, “I used to but never in the way he wanted me to love him. I loved him like a brother. A best friend. He was the one I imagined walking me down the aisle to a beautiful woman…”

“Wait! You have wanted to marry a woman this whole time?” Ella laughed, “I had to go through you dating Cassidy and Hayden when you could have been dating a beautiful woman this whole time?”

“I married your mother did I not?” Olivia giggled in response.

“Thank god. Cause someone else would have snatched that beautiful blonde up and it would have been devastating.”

Olivia wrapped her arms around her daughter burying her head into her neck after a fit of giggles, “I love you so much.”

Ella hummed snuggling closer against her mom, “I love you too Mom. Will you drive me back to school tomorrow?”

“It would be my pleasure,” Olivia assured her and then gave her a kiss on the forehead, “Now get some rest baby girl.”

When Amanda woke to a cold and empty bed she threw back the covers and went to see where her beautiful wife had disappeared to. As she opened Ella’s door slightly she found her two favorite brunettes fast asleep Olivia’s snores bouncing off the walls in the room. She took a picture before kissing them each gently on the forehead. They stirred for a moment but then quickly fell back asleep. Before shutting off the lights Amanda whispered I love you.

The next morning after eating breakfast together Olivia and Ella drove back to her dorm singing along to all of their favorite songs on the radio. And as they stepped onto the elevator Ella saw a bright green poster that read: Calling all Criminal Justice Majors! Study abroad in London. Housing expenses and food paid for. Apply now!

“You should do it,” Olivia smiled seeing the gleam in her daughter’s eyes.

“Really? It would mean a year away… living in London,” Ella said hesitantly.

“And it would be the best year of your life. This has been your dream Ella. I say go for it.”

So later that night long after her mother had returned home. Ella sat with a tub full of cookie dough and filled out the application.

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Moving Forward

Summary: Reminder as always this can be read as a Reader fic but Ella is Amanda Rollins and Olivia Benson’s daughter. Anyways this is the third chapter of the Emily Prentiss Love Story series. Newbie is finally about to meet Emily... or at least she hopes.

Characters: Emily Prentiss, Penelope Garcia, Ella Alina Benson

Relationships: Emily Prentiss x Penelope Garcia (Friendship)

Warnings: N/A

Word Count: 2244

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“Emmy,” Penelope said making her way into Emily’s bedroom without knocking.

Emily merely rolled her eyes as she turned back to her closet to look for the outfit she wanted for the evening, “Yes Pen. How can I help you today?”

“Newbie is coming over for movie night. What movie do you want to pick for the evening?” Penelope asked flopping down on Emily’s bed.

“Sorry love, I am actually going out tonight.”

The blonde cocked her eyebrow looking at her roommate, “With who?”

“No one you know,” Emily said trying to brush it off, “I will try and be quiet when I come home.”

“Bullshit. I know everyone you know. I know everyone at this university,” The blonde argued.

“Which is creepy Penelope.”

“Which is MY JOB!” Penelope retorted, “Well… I probably know too much about people but what can I say I am a technical genius.”

Emily just shook her head as she started to pull on her v cut red shirt and tight black jeans. She was doing her best to ignore all the questions Penelope was asking until she couldn’t take it anymore, “If I tell you who I am going to see will you leave me alone?”

Penelope contemplated this and then finally nodded. Emily sighed and then told her that she was going to see Marian. Penelope did her best not to let out a large groan and instead merely rolled her eyes at her roommate. She got up from her spot on Emily’s bed and made her way out of the room. The utter silence that the blonde was giving her put a pit in Em’s stomach. Once she was done getting ready Emily sought out her roommate. She found the blonde digging through their DVDs trying to find the best ones for the evening. She glanced up for a moment when Emily entered the room but didn’t say anything.

“Penny, can you please talk to me.”

“You told me to leave you alone,” The blonde retorted putting aside two dvds.

“But I never actually mean it. I always want you to bother me,” Emily responded beginning to pick at her nails, “I can tell you are mad. Can you just tell me why?”

“If you stop picking at your nails.” Emily immediately stopped shoving her hands into her pockets. Once Penelope was satisfied she looked up at her roommate, “I have told you this before and I will keep telling you this until you understand me. Marian is BAD NEWS. She only calls when she wants to use you. She manipulates you for her own benefit and I am so tired of seeing you falling into her trap over and over again. Please Emily…stay here tonight. I really think that you will like the newbie. You are both a lot alike and I promise she is not a weirdo.”

“She promised this time will be different,” Emily pleaded, “Just let me try this one more time. If she stands me up again you can hold it over my head for… two months. And I will take full responsibility for cleaning the bathroom for those entire two months.” Penelope looked up at her best friend and merely sighed, “I would have given you one month of cleaning the bathroom.”

Em let out a tiny giggle, “Now can I get a Penny hug before I go?”

Penelope couldn’t help but smile as she gave Emily a goodbye hug. As she watched her roommate walk out the door she couldn’t help but sigh. Emily deserved more than what Marian was giving her but there was nothing she could do.

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Ella and Penelope were two Disney movies when Emily finally came home. Her presence was only made known by the loud slam of the front door followed closely by the loud slam of her bedroom door. The noise had made both of the women on the couch jump and then a small frown came over Penelope’s face. She promised Ella she would be right back and then made her way to Emily’s room.  She knocked a couple of times but when there was no response she opened the door and entered the room.

Emily had flopped on her bed face buried in her pillow. Penelope could tell she was crying by the shaking of her shoulder but no sound was coming out. The blonde had never seen her roommate crying before and it put a pit in her stomach. She went to reach out for her best friend but then remember that she didn’t know if it would make Emily worse.

“Emmy,” Penelope called out, “I am here. It is Penelope.”

“Go away,” Emily mumbled into her pillow.

Penelope shut the door but remained in the room, “I know that your mom always said that you couldn’t cry and had to be strong all the time but you don’t have to be that way Em.”

Emily’s cheeks burned a bright red as her best friend hit the problem on the nose. She never wanted the blonde to see her this weak. Instead of responding she merely pulled her pillow closer and tried to disappear into the fabric.

“I’m going to sit on the edge of the bed and if you want to talk you can… if you don’t then I will just sit here until you feel better.”

Emily felt the weight of Penelope sitting on the edge of the bed and then all of her remaining walls crumbled. She sensed the warmth of her friend and all she wanted was to be held until the horrible feeling radiating throughout her body disappeared. When she realized that Penelope wasn’t going to be the one to engage the movement she let out a tiny whisper.

“Can I have a hug?”

“Of course Emmy,” Penelope responded, “I’ll come to you.”

Within seconds Emily felt Penelope’s arms envelope her in one of her famous hugs. It calmed down the brunette enough that she finally turned to bury herself in the blonde’s chest. Another couple of moments passed before she broke the silence between them, “Marian stood me up again. I waited for hours but she never showed up. I am so stupid. Why do I always do this to myself?”

“Oh sweetheart,” Penelope replied giving her a kiss on the forehead, “You are not the stupid one. Marian is. She lost out on one of the most amazing women I have ever met.”

“I’m sorry for ruining movie night with my outburst.”

“Ruined? NEVER. We made your favorite brownies. They should still be warm if you want to join. We would love to have you.”

“You mean it?”

“With my whole heart. Just come out when you are ready,” Penelope said giving Emily another quick squeeze before she left.

Emily took a couple of moments to pull herself together and change into a pair of comfortable pajamas. When she was ready she made a beeline to the kitchen for the brownies she had been promised. As she was is pouring a glass of water a bag of her favorite chocolates slides across the counter to her. She looks over expecting Penelope but instead was greeted by the brunette that she had been watching during class.

“Pen told me that these were your favorites. I figured today called for some emergency chocolates,” Ella smiled before filling up her glass with red wine.

Emily returned the smile immediately plopping a chocolate in her mouth, “Thanks… I suppose I shouldn’t keep calling you a newbie.”

She giggled, “My name is Ella.”

“Ella…a beautiful name,” Emily grinned, “I think we are in domestic violence together.”

A look of recognition came over Ella’s face, “Oh we do! How are you feeling about that group project?”

“I would feel better about it if you agreed to be my partner. I went to look for you after class but you disappeared so fast I couldn’t find you.”

Ella quickly sipped another drink from her glass before answering, “I had to call my mom. Hard to get her attention with her job and the time difference. But if you will have me I would love to be your partner.”

Emily grinned handing Ella a chocolate to seal their partnership before they wandered back out to the living room. Penelope was waiting with another movie already queued up. Ella plopped back down in the spot leaving Emily to sit in between the two women. Throughout the entire movie, Emily would slyly throw chocolates at Ella making her giggle. The sound was intoxicating to the brunette. Emily would be lying if she said that she had been watching the movie at all. She spent most of the movie watching the way Ella swirled the wine in her glass. The way that her smile lit up the room. Or the way her nose crinkled when she laughed. Everything about this newbie was infatuating. 

By the time the movie was half over Penelope was happily snoring in her tipsy state. Ella began to collect her things when Emily stopped her, “Let me walk you home.”

“You really don’t have to,” Ella said as she pulled on her backpack.

“Do you even really know how to get home?”

Ella laughed admitting defeat, “Not nearly as well as I would like. Are you sure that you don’t mind?”

“Not at all. It makes me like the knight in shining armor,” Emily smirked.

“You have been watching way to many Disney movies tonight.”

“Bold of you to assume that I don’t watch Disney movies every night,” Emily said extending her arm out towards Ella, “Shall we go my lady?”

Ella smiled reaching for Emily’s arm and pulling her close. They walked down the stairs of the apartment building in comfortable silence. It wasn’t until they made it out to the courtyard that Emily began to ask the other woman questions.

“What are you studying?”

“Criminology and psychology… with a specialization in domestic violence.”

Emily grinned giving Ella a light shove, “So I have chose the best group project partner is what you are saying?”

“Yes… just remember that when my ADHD takes over and I have memory the size of Dory.”

“Noted. I am pretty good a reigning Penelope in so I am sure we will be just fine.”

Ella laughed knowing the moments Emily was referencing, “What brought you to this school anyway?”

“Well this has always been my dream school and I just knew that I couldn’t go here without Pen. But as far as what I do…I am here for child advocacy much to my mother’s displeasure,” Emily laughed, “I doubt anything that I do would make her happy though.”

Ella just nodded before responding, “My moms really didn’t want me to go the criminology route and were even more upset when I chose domestic violence. Our whole life has revolved around the criminal justice system it just felt like the right thing to do.” “What do your moms do?”

“Olivia is the Captain of SVU for Manhattan. Amanda is one of her detectives.”

“How long have they been together?”

“Well let’s see… They started dating when I was fifteen so about eight years now? They adopted Noah together before officially getting married so I just count all of it together. Then Mom had Jesse when I was seventeen… and then Billie when I was twenty.”

“So you really can have it all,” Emily sighed making Ella cock her eyebrow, “Oh you know what I mean. That princess fairytale that you read about in books. The dream family with lots of kids, successful careers, and a loving partner.”

Ella nodded and Emily just smiled, “Maybe there is hope for me yet.”

“Of course, there is,” Ella agreed, “There is always a little bit of hope to give.”

“I like the way you think,” Emily laughed, “You would think after all this time with Ms. Sunshine some of it would have rubbed off on me but I still have yet to see it.”

Ella went to say something but before she knew it they were on in front of her dorm door. Emily released her arm and then slipped her a small note, “Here is my number so you can text me for the group project… or just whenever. Pen was telling me about your roommates. If you ever want to come over just come over. I know it can be hard to be away from your family especially when no one seems to be on your side but we are your family now.”

“Thanks, Emily,” Ella smiled, “I think that was your piece of sunshine coming out.”

Emily merely rolled her eyes and headed down the stairs back to her apartment. As soon as she got inside her phone pinged.

Hey, it’s Ella I’m just checking that you didn’t get captured by some serial killer on the way back to your apartment… Yes, I spend way too much consuming true crime. 

Emily let out a large laugh as she responded: Not this time. But you never know. Penelope claims that we have at least three potential killers walking around campus.

This banter went back and forth for a while before Emily and Ella fell into more casual topics. Exchanging pictures of when they were children, pictures of Ella’s siblings, topics they could do for their group project. They both fell asleep with their phone still in their hands refusing to let the conversation end willingly. 

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Forgiving Rollins

Characters: Amanda Rollins, Ella Alina Benson, Noah Benson, Olivia Benson

Relationships Olivia Benson x Amanda Rollins, Olivia Benson x Original Character

Summary:  This is based off of Season 16 Episode 10: Forgiving Rollins. But with a twist! Of course. There is some minor mention of stuff that is in the episode but I tried to keep most of the serious stuff out of it. This was actually a request. @svufan9812 I didn't write this while tipsy but I am posting it while tipsy.. so enjoy!

Warnings: Episode Spoilers. Some mentions of sexual assault. Alcohol. 

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Olivia could tell something had been wrong with Amanda all night but was unable to pull any coherent answer out of her. Anytime she tried Amanda merely shrugged and moved to a different topic. In all reality, all Amanda wanted to do was wrap her hand tightly in the burnette’s and try to disappear from this place and all the memories that were beginning to surface. However, their relationship was just recently public to everyone outside the precinct and they both agreed that PDA was not something that wanted to shove in everyone’s face immediately. Instead, Amanda did her best to keep her mind focused on the one thing that could take away all of her problems. Alcohol.

“I’m out of here,” Fin said, immediately heading for the door after Amaro’s offer.

“I have got to get home to Ella and Noah guys,” Olivia said, placing a gentle hand on Amanda’s arm. When Amanda made no move to follow she pulled her hand away doing her best not to sigh, “Goodnight.”

Amanda watched as her girlfriend walked away from her. She so badly wanted to follow and head back with Olivia to their shared apartment. She knew that Ella would rush to her, taking her in a long hug. Noah would be sleeping but Olivia would pull her in his room so they both could say goodnight to him. Ella would want to hear all about the party but Olivia would insist that she was already up too late and they would talk in the morning. Then she and Olivia would change into pajamas Amanda borrowing a pair of Olivia’s just so she could be further wrapped in the smell she loved so much. Olivia would open her arms beckoning Amanda into them and holding her close. She would press a kiss into Amanda’s forehead and that is when Amanda’s facade would crumble. She would cry into Olivia’s arms telling her all of the horrible things that had happened to her. She couldn’t do that. Not yet. So instead she sat down at the bar downing shot after shot till the memories became blurred.

When Amanda awoke the next morning in the crib she immediately regretted her decision looking at her watch and knowing she was already an hour late walking downstairs. Her plan to sleep here and be on time had been an epic fail. Not to mention, she had missed five text messages from Olivia and Ella checking on her. She ignored all of them which she believed would be a good plan until she ended up heading to the hospital to get the victim statement with Olivia by her side.

“Amanda, is everything okay?” Olivia asked shyly, afraid of the answer.

“Yeah, Liv. I’m fine,” Amanda shrugged, “Just a long night.”

“Okay,” Olivia said, reaching her hand out taking Amanda’s, “I missed you last night.”

Amanda smiled for a second running her finger gently over Olivia’s palm, “I missed you too Liv.”

“And when you are ready to actually talk about what is wrong. I’ll be here,” Olivia said, taking Amanda’s hand pressing a kiss to the back of it.

“Thank you.”

Amanda clung to the feeling of Olivia’s kiss on her hand as she tried to settle her panic attack in the hall of the hospital. She never imagined that her secret would unravel so quickly.

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Olivia looked at Amanda’s terrified face as she answered all of the questions that Dodds asked her. She knew one thing for sure… she was looking at the face of a victim. She had seen hundreds of them pass through the doors of the precinct. She just never imagined that one of those faces would be her girlfriend. A woman she was beginning to love more and more every day. A woman she imagined spending the rest of her life with. It was even harder to watch as Amanda’s attacker sat in the interrogation room across from Dodds acting as if Amanda had been the one to blame. She wanted to burst through that door pushing that man onto the floor and tell him all the awful things she wanted to call him but instead, she was distracted by Amanda rushing out the door. She looked at Fin and he merely nodded, following Amanda to wherever she planned on running to.

Fin followed Amanda all the way to the bar she sat at, swirling her drink gently in her hand, “I had to check half the bars in Long Island City.”

“I don’t want to talk about this.”

“I’m not leaving.” Amanda sighed at her partner half thankful and half angry that he had followed her. As she disclosed the story of what had transpired between her and Patton she could feel a small weight lifting off of her chest. However, when Fin pushed her to share her story all of her walls went back up.

“What about this girl?” Fin asked, leaning forward.

“Well, she’ll get over it. I mean she might have been sleeping with him anyway. You know? She will go back to Atlanta and she’ll pretend like it never happened.”

“Just like you did.”

“Well, pretend long enough and after a while, it’s like nothing did happen.”

“Is that an example that you want to set for Ella? That if she were to get assaulted that she should just suppress her feelings down until there is nothing left?” Fin asked her.

Amanda slammed down her drink, “Leave Ella out of this. This has nothing to do with her.”

“It has everything to do with her, Rollins! Ella is like a daughter to you and if this happened to her, you would tell her to shout her story from the rooftops to get justice. If you want this thing between you and Olivia to work… you need to set a good example for her child.”

Amanda placed her head in her hands thinking about what Fin had said. She needed to tell her story. At least to Olivia.

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Olivia and Amanda stood outside Barba’s office building soaking in the sun that had finally peaked through in the cold morning. Olivia reached out for Amanda’s hand, taking it in hers. She pulled her close wrapping Amanda in a large hug. Amanda wrapped her arms around Olivia burying her head into Olivia’s chest.

A large silence hung in the air until Olivia finally spoke, “I’m so proud of you Amanda. That was not an easy thing to hold onto for this long.”

“I’m so sorry Olivia. I should have told you,” Amanda cried, “I thought that you would think I was damaged goods. That I was no good for you. That I was a liar. That I.. That I..” Olivia stepped back placing her hands on either side of Amanda’s face. She used her fingers to gently wipe away the tears that rolled down her cheeks, “Amanda, I do not think any less of you. You are not broken. You are a survivor. You are an amazing, beautiful human. And I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life loving you.”

Olivia couldn’t stop the words rushing from her mouth as she looked at the blonde woman. The “I love yous” had always been standard in their relationship but Olivia had never once hinted at the fact that she wanted to be with Amanda for the rest of her life. Future was something that Olivia never planned but she was willing to risk it all for the blonde that stood in front of her.

For a moment she was terrified she had made a mistake until Amanda smiled back at her, “I love you, too, Olivia. Forever sounds like a perfect place as long as it is with you.” Olivia smiled at this as Rollins leaned in and gave her a kiss. Olivia gave Amanda a quick kiss on her forehead before they began their walk home. They walked the entire way holding hands.

When they got back to Olivia’s apartment, Lucy and Ella were on the couch playing video games. Noah was in his swing napping with Frannie wrapped around the bottom legs. She had taken a liking to Noah but only when he was sleeping. That is when Frannie would protectively lay down and watch over him. Ella jumped from her spot on the couch immediately rushing over to Olivia and Amanda. She grabbed both of them in a large hug, noticing the tears that Amanda was still trying to keep at bay.

“You and Noah both behave for Lucy while we were gone?” Olivia asked then looked at Frannie, “And you too Miss. Frannie.”

“They were all great,” Lucy smiled, “Your meeting go well?”

Olivia nodded, not wanting to share too many details. Lucy promised Ella they would finish their game the next time she was over. Ella gave her one final hug before Lucy left for the evening. When she was out the door Ella was tasked with letting Frannie out and then getting Noah ready for dinner. Ella clipped on Frannie’s leash before rushing out the door. Olivia quickly checked that Noah was still sleeping before starting dinner.

Amanda watched Olivia rush around the kitchen silently getting all the supplies they needed for dinner, “You look beautiful Liv.”

Olivia paused for a moment and laughed, “I highly doubt that.”

Olivia’s hair was done up in a messy bun pulled back with a clip. She had a wooden spoon in her hand gently mixing the sauce in the pot. Amanda couldn’t think of a more beautiful woman in the whole world.

“How did I get so lucky to be in love with the most beautiful woman in all of New York?” Amanda asked, causing Olivia to blush.

“Rollins,” Olivia paused, “Get over here and kiss me.”

Amanda grinned, taking Olivia in her arms giving her a hard kiss. Amanda never once dreamed that after all that had happened to her she would end up here. In the arms of the woman she loved and who most importantly loved her back.

There was a sudden crash at the door as Ella rushed back in with Frannie. She was out of breath and tears were running down her face. All of the hair on Frannie’s back was standing up as she plastered herself against Ella’s legs. The commotion caused Noah to jolt awake and begin to cry. Olivia frantically turned off the stove unsure of what child to rush to first. She settled for Noah as Amanda wrapped Ella into her arms.

“Ella what is going on?” Amanda asked as Ella tried to catch her breath.

Ella calmed her breath just enough to tell her story, “A man drove onto the sidewalk behind Frannie and I. He jumped out of the car and threatened us.” Olivia held Noah in her arms trying to calm him down as she began to feel her blood boil. Fear rose in Amanda’s heart as she realized what was about to unfold.

Ella looked up at Amanda, her eyes bloodshot, “He said that if you testify against Patton he will do exactly what happened to you to me. What is he talking about ‘Manda?”

With this question, Amanda looked over at Olivia. Olivia ran her hand through her hair reaching for her phone, “I’ll call Barba.” “What is going on?”

“Ella, you should take a seat,” Amanda said, pulling Ella over to the couch, “I’ll explain it to you.” Amanda explained the whole story to Ella not sparing any detail. Frannie sat between the two women, Ella gently petting her any time she got nervous. As Amanda began to cry again, Ella reached out her hand and Amanda took it gratefully. Her touch was almost as calming as Olivia’s. Something about the Benson girls just made her feel at home.

When she finished up her story Ella began to ask questions, “Is that why you moved from Georgia to here?”

“Yes, I thought it would be a nice place to restart.”

Ella pondered asking the questions she really wanted to know: Does this mean you are going to be leaving again? However, she dreaded the answer so instead, she took Amanda in her arms hugging her close.

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Amanda turned her key in Olivia’s lock, Frannie immediately getting loose from her hand and running towards Olivia. Olivia giggled as Frannie jumped on the couch curling up in her lap immediately exposing her belly to be pet. Amanda swore that Frannie loved Olivia more than her most days. After hanging up Frannie’s leash and taking over her shoes Amanda walked over to Olivia. Olivia looked up allowing Amanda to place a quick kiss on her lips.

“Where is my Ella Bella?” Amanda asked, glancing around the apartment.

Olivia nodded towards Ella’s door, “Been cooped up in there since I told her that you were going to take some time off and go on vacation. I think you should talk to her.”

Amanda placed another kiss on Olivia’s head before heading towards Ella’s door. In accordance with the three-year-old rule, Ella’s door was opened enough that Amanda’s arm could reach through the opening. Ella was laying on her bed with headphones in her ears throwing a ball at the ceiling. Amanda opened the door gently and walked over to Ella’s bed. She reached out grabbing the ball from thin air causing Ella to jump.

When Ella noticed Amanda standing there she quickly tried to wipe away the tears from her face. She took off her headphones sitting up in bed pressing herself into the corner of her bed as far from Amanda as she could.

“What’s going on buttercup?” Amanda asked, rolling the ball in her hand, “You only really bring this out when things are getting worse.” Ella reached for the ball but Amanda closed her fingers around it, “I don’t want to talk about it.”

“That’s fine but you aren’t getting your ball back,” Amanda shrugged getting up from the bed.

“Wait Amanda,” Amanda turned back around and looked as Ella hugged a pillow close to her chest, “Please don’t go.” Amanda sat back down on the edge of the bed. She pulled her legs up on the bed but kept her distance from Ella knowing that when Ella was ready, she would come to her. The silence between the two of them dragged on for a couple of moments while Amanda waited for Ella to speak.

“Mom told me that you were leaving for a while,” Ella said, twirling her fingers together.

“Yes, the trial… everything...it was just a lot. I think that it would be good for me to get away for a little bit.”

Ella nodded, tears starting to fall down her face again, “Are you going to do what you did last time? Find someplace better and never come back?”

“Oh, Ella. Honey. I’m only going to be gone a couple of days. I will be back.”

“Promise?” Ella asked, looking up from her pillow.

“I promise Ella. I am not going anywhere. I wouldn’t imagine ever leaving you, Noah, and your mom,” Amanda told her, “You think you can keep a secret?”

Ella nodded and then Amanda beckoned her closer. Rollins pulled out a tiny black box from her pocket. She opened the top showing Ella the engagement ring that she had bought for Olivia. Ella let out a squeal of excitement grabbing Amanda into a hug.

“Think it is too soon?” Amanda asked nervously.

“Not at all,” Olivia said from the doorway causing both of the girls on the bed to jump.

Ella looked anxiously between Olivia and Amanda to see what would happen next. Amanda didn’t even attempt to hide the ring from her. This was not the way that she had ever imagined to propose to Olivia but she had learned quickly that things in her life never seemed to go the way she had planned.

“I didn’t mean to ruin the surprise. I wanted to see what you guys wanted for dinner,” Olivia said, running her fingers through her hair nervously.

Amanda merely smiled at Olivia and got down on one knee right in the middle of Ella’s room, “Olivia Benson, will you do me the honor of calling you, my wife?”

“Ooo,” Ella gasped, “That is way better than the traditional way to ask!”

Olivia looked at Ella rolling her eyes, “You two are going to kill me one day. I can’t believe I’m gonna spend the rest of my life with you goons.”

“Is that a yes?” Ella asked.

Olivia giggled, pulling Amanda up to give her a kiss, “Always a yes. Always.”

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This lives in my mind rent free as Noah begging Olivia to Facetime Ella when she picks him up from school so that he can tell her all about his day and the new dances he is learning. 👏🏽❤️

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Cheers to New Beginnings: An Emily Prentiss Love Story

Summary:  Can be read as a reader fic if so desired but is the continuance of the Baby Benson series where Ella Alina Benson is the biological child of Olivia Benson and the eldest child of Rolivia. She has decided to study a year abroad in London where her guide is Penelope Garcia. This first chapter is Ella's first day in London .

Characters: Penelope Garcia, Emily Prentiss, Olivia Benson, Amanda Rollins, Ella Alina Benson

Relationships: Friendship Penelope Garcia x Emily Prentiss, Olivia Benson x Amanda Rollins, Olivia Benson x Daughter Reader/ Original Character

Warnings: Homesickness hint

AO3

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Within moments Ella was snoring the excitement of the day finally catching up to her. However, Olivia didn’t hang up the phone opting to wait till Amanda got to catch a glimpse of their eldest daughter. When her wife returned they took one final look at the phone and whispered We miss you baby girl.

“Are you sure you don’t want to come to the airport with me to meet the new study abroad student?” Penelope asked as she finished up her bright yellow and pink eye makeup.

Emily laughed from her spot perched on the side of the tub, “No way. The last two students that you were a ‘guide’ to ended up being complete wackos!”

“Hey! That is not true…” Pen paused, “Well Brian did steal your underwear… and Riley drank straight from the mustard bottle.”

“See! Wackos. Why do you keep being a guide anyways?”

“We need the extra money,” Pen sighed, “Plus I have a good feeling about this one. She is in the Criminal Justice program like you.”

“Then I am sure we shall cross paths eventually,” Emily shrugged, “And until you figure out what quirks this one contains she is NOT allowed to our apartment.” Penelope huffed causing her bangs to flutter, “Fine, but if she ends up being amazing you owe me a drink.”

Emily held out her pinkie sealing their deal before going to the kitchen to find a snack. Immediately her eye caught on her favorite bag of chocolates. As she began to reach for the unopened bag Penelope smacked her hand.

“Ow! What was that for?” 

“Those aren’t yours! They are the newbie’s,” Penelope said placing the bag of chocolates into a large red bag.

“Those are my favorites!”

“And they are hers as well,” Pen shrugged, “Maybe if you are nice to her she will share.”

Emily just rolled her eyes mumbling that she would buy her own chocolates. Penelope merely handed Emily a container of cookies she had made the night before. Emily hummed and gave Pen a hug telling her to be safe. Once she pulled away from the hug she jumped onto the counter and began to eat the chocolate chip cookies. Penelope did one final check making sure she had everything she needed and then blew a kiss to Emily. Emily caught the kiss and placed it gently on her cheek. 

“I love you bestie,” Penelope grinned before opening the door.

She paused waiting for Emily to answer. The response came between a mouthful of cookie crumbs. She smiled contentedly closing the door and locking it behind her. Penelope and Emily had been best friends since they met in Kindergarten being inseparable ever since. When Emily wanted to go to a fancy school in London Penelope applied the next day. Emily may have come from money but she had been exiled from her family since she was sixteen when she had been caught kissing one of her friends from her all-girl boarding school. She had lived with Penelope and her parents until they had passed away when the girls were both 18. Emily had been the one to keep the bubbly blonde from completely going off the deep end and they had been living in London ever since they graduated. Emily’s grades and Penelope’s work as a teaching assistant covered their housing. They both worked some odd jobs to cover whatever else they needed. Penelope did it mostly through coding jobs and some hacking when they were desperate. Emily worked mornings in a daycare picking up some afternoon shifts when she didn’t have classes. They did well most of the time, having enough leftover money to put in a large jar they labeled Disney Adventures because all Penelope had wanted to do since she was a child was travel to Disney World and Emily was determined to make that dream come true one day. They were still a couple thousand short, but Penelope knew they would make it work when the time was right.

She thought about all of the things they would do as she rode the tube to pick up her newbie from the airport. She kept her sign with the name Ella Benson covered in colors in glitter in one hand and the large red goodie bag in the other. Penelope had a good feeling about this newbie: Ella was going to change everything.

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Ella stepped off the plane checking for the hundredth time that she had grabbed everything she needed. She began toward baggage claim, as Adele pulsed through her headphone she kept in her left ear. Ella’s nerves began to build as she worried about how she was going to know who her guide even was. She had never met this Penelope Garcia before. They had only exchanged hundreds of emails the last couple of weeks. Her fears were calmed however as she made her way down the escalator and saw a blonde woman with a bright pink dress and a yellow cardigan holding up a sign with her name on it. Ella grinned putting her headphone back in the case.

Before she could even take a handful of steps the blonde woman was calling out to her, “Are you Ella?”

Ella grinned, “And you must be Penelope?”

“Yes! Oh my gosh! I am so excited you are here,” Penelope exclaimed taking Ella into a bear hug that almost toppled both of them over.

Ella smiled as she wrapped her arms around Penelope. Something about her hug calmed the rest of the fears that she had about this journey. When Penelope finally let the brunette woman go she handed her the large red bag.

“I made you this bag of goodies! I figured we could open it when we get to your dorm. Most of your things are already waiting for you. Do you have anything at baggage claim?”

“Only one bag. It is red with a Tigger tag on it,” Ella replied.

“Oo a Disney reference! I knew I would like you. I will go look for your bag. I am sure that you want to call your mom and dad,” Penelope smiled.

“My moms. They wanted me to call them as soon as I landed,” Ella mumbled nervously waiting for Penelope’s reaction.

Penelope merely smiled and told Ella to take her time and she would find her when she had the bag. As soon as she stepped away Ella decided to Facetime Olivia hoping to catch her having downtime in the office. Instead, she was greeted by her mom somewhere outside in her police vest frantically calling Amanda over.

“Mom...are you in the middle of a bust right now? I can call back,” Ella asked hoping she didn’t actually have to hang up.

“We are at the very end of it. So don’t worry about it,” Olivia smiled.

“Plus we always have time for you baby girl,” Amanda said placing her chin on Olivia’s shoulder so Ella could see them both, “How was your flight?”

“Long. I felt like it was never going to end,” Ella sighed.

“But the Dramamine helped with the motion sickness right?”Olivia asked.

“Yes, I felt amazing the whole entire time! I was even able to eat. We had some really good stuffed chicken and a really good brownie.”

“That’s great, did you find your guide okay?” Amanda questioned before giving Olivia a quick kiss on the cheek.

“Present!” Penelope cheered stepping in the frame, “Oh my gosh! Ella! Your moms are gorgeous! And a Captain and a Detective! Talk about a power couple.” Olivia and Amanda burst into laughter making everyone smile. Amanda was the first one to respond, “You are beautiful as well. I love your eye makeup it matches the outfit perfectly.”

“Thank you! I always try to be a little on the colorful side,” Penelope smiled causing Ella to look down at her own black-on-black outfit. Maybe she could use a little pop of color.

“I hope you realize you have a very important job. That is our little girl right there and I need her coming back to us in one piece,” Olivia said doing her best to hide most of her Momma bear side.

“Momma, do we have to do this now?” Ella groaned a blush creeping on her cheeks.

“You don’t have to worry about a thing Mrs. Benson. Penelope Garcia at your service! I promise Ella will be well taken care of and have the most amazing adventure of her life!”

“Captain Benson,” Someone called out in the background making Olivia stifle a groan.

“We gotta go little one. But we both love you very much. And thank you, Penelope. We appreciate you immensely.”

“Goodbye Mrs. Benson and… Mrs. Benson,” Penelope grinned.

“Bye Momma. Bye Mom. I love you both. I will call you once I get settled in,” Ella said blowing them a kiss before putting her phone back in her pocket.

Once she was set Penelope grabbed her hand and pointed towards the exit door, “To the tube we go!”

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When they got to Ella’s dorm room her two roommates were in a deep conversation over some movie on the TV and didn’t pay the two newcomers any attention. When Penny failed to get their attention twice she shrugged and pulled Ella to her room shutting the door. Boxes were piled all over the floor with everything Ella thought she would need for her year-long stay. It overwhelmed her at first but Penelope promised to help and that they could get everything organized that night.

Soon after she made this promise Penelope’s favorite Disney playlist was flowing through a speaker she had brought in her purse. Ella and Penelope sang and danced between removing items from their protective bubble wrap. When one of Ella’s roommates knocked on the door telling them that they were too loud Penelope merely turned up the music. Ella couldn’t help but smile as she saw her whole room coming together. Twinkle lights were hung from the ceiling. Pictures plastered all over the walls. Comfy blankets were strewn over her bed. It wasn’t home but it was the next best thing. When the last item found its place Penelope and Ella sat on her bed looking at their handiwork.

“Who is that blonde cutie?” Penelope asked pointing at a picture of Jesse in a Tinkerbell costume standing next to Ella who was dressed as Peter Pan.

“That is my little sister Jesse,” Ella then pointed at another picture of her youngest sister cuddled up in a large Winnie the Pooh blanket, “And that is Billie. Mom had both of them.”

“And who had this little handsome guy?” Pen asked looking at a picture of Noah in one of his dance performance outfits.

Ella giggled, “Neither of my moms actually. Momma adopted him when I was about 15 before she and Mom were dating. Noah doesn’t know that though.

“He looks like he could be your twin!” Penelope giggled, “It is the curly hair that gets me.”

Ella laughed in response looking at her reflection in the mirror that hung on the back of her door, “Momma said that I used to hate my curls growing up. I used to ask her to straighten my hair all the time.”

“Which one is Momma and which one is Mom?”

Ella pointed towards a wedding photo where Olivia and Rollins were lifting Ella bridal style all their heads thrown back in laughter, “The brunette is Olivia aka Momma the one who gave birth to me. The blonde is Amanda aka Mom. They met when I was 13.”

Penelope nodded looking at all the photos of Ella smiling with the favorite people of her life. Her room only contained three pictures. One was Emily and her at Kindergarten graduation their faces covered in blue from the cotton candy they had been eating. Another one was from her 16th birthday where she was tucked between her parents. The last one was the day of high school graduation where she and Emily were throwing their caps in the air. All she had ever wanted was a big family. That dream seemed so distant now.

“You know, we should take a picture!” Ella suggested pulling out her phone, “I can get it printed out for the both of us so we can remember our first day meeting each other.”

Penelope nodded her head excitedly and scooted close to Ella. They took a series of pictures making funnier faces as time went on. When Ella was finally satisfied Penelope shoved the red bag towards Ella to open. Tears threatened to spill from her face as she pulled out all of her favorite things. Penelope had even remembered her favorite obscure author and had tracked down a book Ella had been dying to get to complete her collection. Once she had everything spread across her bed she took Penelope into a large hug. 

“Thank you so much. I can’t believe you remember everything I liked.”

“Of course silly! Just be glad that you got that bag of chocolates. My bestie Emily tried to steal those on my way out of our apartment today. Those are her favorite.”

“Well, when I see her I will be sure to share.”

Penelope giggled promising that Ella would meet her soon and then decided to make her escape for the night. It was getting late and Ella had been caught yawning on more than one occasion. Ella walked her to the door and then quickly snuck into the bathroom to shower. The hot water helped wash away the airplane smell and woke her up just enough for her to Facetime Olivia one final time. 

Amanda was away talking to a victim but Olivia was tucked into her office going over paperwork when the notification came through. When she answered Ella showed her all the decorations they had put up and listened intently to Olivia as she described all the exciting work things that had happened. When Ella began to yawn again Olivia encouraged her to sleep.

“Will you stay on the phone with me till I fall asleep?” Ella whispered.

“Of course baby,” Olivia promised as Ella tucked herself under the covers.

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Ella Relapses

Warnings: Self Harm, Blood, Episode Spoilers, Depression, Negative Self Talk

Please note that if you ever feel the need to self harm, or are depressed, or just need a friend. I am always here. You are not alone and I believe in you. It is going to be okay. 

Characters: Olivia Benson, Elliot Stabler, Amanda Rollins, Kathy Stabler, Noah Benson, Billie Rollins, Ella Alina Benson, 

Relationships: Olivia Benson x Amanda Rollins, Rolivia, Olivia Benson x Daughter! Original Character: 

Summary:  It had been so long since Ella had made her life's biggest mistake. So long that she could barely see the scars across her wrist. So long that she sometimes even forgot that Elliot was gone. Everyone almost forgot that Elliot was gone his whereabouts so unknown for so long that he almost seemed to be a figure of their imagination. But when he returns for Olivia's award ceremony and everything begins to fall apart... Ella remembers just how much has changed. How much pain she has caused in the process. It all becomes a little too much.

This was another request. I love all of them. Please always request things. I live for them.

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Ella’s heels clicked against the pavement as she rushed to her car. She had promised Amanda that she wouldn’t be late to her mom’s award ceremony but work had run long. By the time that she had changed into her dress for the evening she was already going to be at least five minutes late if she was lucky. With every step she regretted choosing the long tight fitting red gown. As she looked around to cross the street she spotted a familiar person coming towards her. She paused to look, not believing what was in front of her.

“Kathy?” Ella called out causing the blonde woman to turn towards the noise.

Kathy opened her mouth to say something as she opened the car door and then everything in Ella’s world went black. The blast threw her backwards, her head hitting the pavement with a loud crack. When she awoke she was sitting up in a gurney with lights flashing all around her. 

“Ella! Ella!” Olivia yelled as she ran into the chaos looking for her daughter.

As the crowd dissipated, Ella was able to see her mother. Before she could call out to her, however, another voice grabbed Olivia’s attention.

“Liv!”

“Elliot,” Olivia whispered as she turned on her heel.

The two old partners rushed towards each other stopping inches apart. From her vantage point Ella was sure the two would lock arms into a hug. However, Olivia merely folded her arms around her tightly as she looked into the eyes of her old partner. As she was about to speak a gurney rolled by her, holding Kathy. Olivia’s face twisted into worry as she remembered why she had originally been called to the scene.

“Mom! Over here!” Ella called out as the EMTs began to load her into the ambulance.

Elliot finally locked eyes with Ella for the first time that evening. After all this time the only thing that had changed was that she was beginning to look more and more like Olivia. His trance was broken as Olivia looked at him one final time. 

“I guess I’ll see you at the hospital.” Before Elliot could reply Olivia was running towards Ella. In one swift motion she was in the bed of the ambulance with Ella holding her hand. He watched their car pull away before he climbed into the back of the one that held his wife.

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Ella awoke in the hospital bed, her head pounding and Olivia holding her hand. Olivia smiled and kissed her palm, “There is my beautiful daughter. How are you doing sleepy head?”

“I feel like I got hit by a bus,” Ella groaned, “Did I get hit by a bus? I saw Kathy and then everything went black. Is Kathy okay?”

“A bomb went off in the car that Kathy was trying to get into. It threw you back against the building and you hit your head. The doctor’s say you just have a minor concussion and maybe a broken rib. All things considered he said you were pretty lucky. We should be able to take you home by the end of the night.”

“But mom. Kathy Stabler was there. What was she doing there?”

“Her and Elliot were coming to be at the award ceremony.”

The mention of the event made Ella’s eyes brim with tears, “I am so sorry. I ruined your whole night. It was supposed to be so special.”

Olivia kissed Ella’s head gently, “My love, it is perfectly okay. You know that I didn’t want to go to that awards ceremony anyways. I do appreciate that you got me out of it but can we do something a little less drastic next time?”

Ella laughed at this and agreed that she would not be repeating this scenario. Just as they finished their hug Amanda walked into the room. She was still dressed in her long forest green strapless dress. A large smile came across Olivia’s face and her heart beat rapidly as she watched the blonde rush to their daughter’s bedside.

“Looking good Mom,” Ella grinned, “You got a hot date?”

“I was supposed to be showing off my award winning wife to the world but my eldest seemed to have other plans,” Amanda said pushing Ella’s bangs aside.

“You thought it was just the little kids who could ruin date night. You were drastically mistaken,” Ella giggled causing both women to roll their eyes.

“Well it seems this one is good enough to be going home if she is going to be making jokes like this. I will go see if I can get the doctor to come check on her,” Olivia said and then turned towards Amanda, “By the way… you look absolutely magnificent tonight my love.” Amanda grinned and winked at Olivia causing Ella to groan, “Can y’all make fuck me eyes in a different room?”

Laughing Olivia gave Amanda a quick kiss on the cheek before walking out of the room. 

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Amanda was pushing Ella’s wheelchair down the hallway when she suddenly stopped, “I forgot your patient bag in the room. I’ll be right back!”

As Amanda turned down the hallway Ella called out to her, “You aren’t going to take me with you?”

“You will be fine! If anything happens you are literally in a hospital. Maybe you can find your mother while I am away.”

Ella merely rolled her eyes and began to roll herself further down the hallway. She came to a stop though as she heard her mother talking to Elliot. She peered around the corner and watched as they sat with their knees almost touching. Her mother’s face was twisted in sadness and she could imagine tears brimming in Olivia’s eyes. 

“Eliot...You were the single most important person in my life…” Olivia muttered causing Ella’s heart to stop.

“Olivia,” Elliot responded, reaching out for Olivia’s hand but she pulled it away.

“And you just disappeared.”

Single most important…what does that mean? Ella knew what it meant deep down. Elliot had been the go to person for Olivia for everything. Before Ella and Megan had come along, Elliot was her only family. He was the one who was always there for her no matter what. Christ, it was the whole reason Ella’s name was the girl version of his. Elliot was the center of Olivia’s world for everything. She had been the one who had ruined that. If she had just been paying attention. Walking with one headphone out like Olivia always told her to. Was aware of her surroundings. She would have never had gotten shot. Elliot would have never left. Things would have been the way they always were meant to be. But instead, Olivia had spent years crying over the picture of Elliot in their living room. Hiding it away as soon as Ella entered the room so that she would never have to admit that she was upset at her daughter.

My fault. All my fault. Everything is always my fault. I ruin everything. Everything. The worlds swirled around in Ella’s head as she pushed herself back down the hallway away from what was going on. She  had receded around the corner when Olivia finally caught up to her. Wiping a stray tear from her face as she locked eyes with her daughter.

“What are you doing out here by yourself Ella? Where is your Mom?” 

“Right here! I forgot her stuff,” Amanda said holding the bag high above her head, “Are we all set to go my love?”

Olivia let out a small sigh only noticeable to Ella as she brushed down her jacket, “Yes, let’s get our daughter home.”

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It was a short lived reunion at home as both Amanda and Olivia were called back to work. The little kids were already tucked in bed and Ella was adamant that she did not need Lucy to stay. Amanda had read Ella all the doctor’s instructions and then kissed her forehead before leaving. Olivia, however, was in the living room trying her best to yell on the phone so no one would wake up. Ella heard the door slam shut before she even attempted to ask if her mother would be coming to say goodbye.

The hours trickled by as Ella stared at her ceiling, the thoughts continuing to run through her head. She always messed up everything. She was a monster. She was the reason that her mother’s whole world had been turned upside down and she had lost everything, Only she was to blame. Reason tried to force its way into her brain as she moved into the bathroom reaching underneath the mirror and pulling out her most kept secret. However, there was no reasoning with the demons that now had control of Ella’s mind. Especially when they got hold of the cool metal. She had been self harm free for almost nine years now. So many years that she had honestly lost track. 

The one thing she didn’t forget however was the relief that came when the first cut was made. A large sigh escaped her lips as she remembered what it felt like to finally succumb to the darkness instead of fighting against it. It was so much easier this way. Fighting took all of her energy. Left her exhausted and empty. This was almost as easy as breathing. She had only made her second cut when there was a voice calling out to her.

“Sissy?” Noah called out, rubbing her eyes.

Ella dropped the razor in the sink throwing her hand behind her back as she looked at the curly haired boy in front of her, “Noah! You scared me little guy. What are you doing up this later?”

“I heard you crying and I got scared because I thought you were hurt. Are you bleeding? I thought I saw blood.”

Ella stifled a groan as she felt the blood he had seen slowly drip down her wrist and into the sink. He was such a smart boy and he had a heart of gold like their mother to match. She wanted to answer honestly but didn’t want to ruin the perfect picture Noah held in his mind about her. So instead she lied. 

“I just stubbed my hand when I was coming into the bathroom and I think I caught it on something. I am going to be okay,” Ella replied trying to fake a smile, “Why don’t you head back to bed?”

“Will you come lay with me?” Noah asked then looked down at his feet, “You are always gone so much. I miss you.” “Of course buddy. Just let me finish up here and then I will come lay with you.”

Noah smiled and rushed back to bed. Ella turned back to the sink quickly rummaging through cleaning supplies to wash the sink of the red droplets that were threatening to stain the bowl. Once her wrist was covered in a bandage and she had long sleeves on she returned the razor back to its hiding spot and walked into Noah’s room. She curled herself around her little brother who buried his head into her chest. She gave him a kiss on his forehead and breathed a sigh of relief when he finally began to snore. When she was sure he was out for awhile she let the tears fall down her face once more.

“I’m so sorry,” She whispered into Noah’s hair before she fell asleep.

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Amanda watched Ella curiously as she returned home from her last college class that evening. She was home for two weeks to help them out with the younger kids while the case unfolded. After placing her backpack in her room she removed her hoodie and placed it on the coat rack. She was wearing long sleeves again… which was odd for her. Even in early winter Ella would be seen with short sleeves, maybe even the occasional tank top. She swore that her classrooms were a thousand degrees and she always got too hot. 

Something was wrong. Amanda knew it in the pit of her stomach. Her fears were confirmed as she knocked and then opened Ella’s bedroom door. Ella was rushing to pull down her sleeve but it was too late. Amanda could see the bright red scars etched across her wrist. They couldn’t have been more than a week old. 

Ella immediately shrunk back to the corner of her bed pulling her knees to her chest. Amanda quietly made her way to the edge of the bed and sat down. She didn’t look at Ella, merely placed her hand down in the middle of the bed to let her know the comfort was there. The minutes seemed to drip by as they sat in silence. Finally Ella placed her hand on top of Amanda's, showing that she was ready to talk.

Amanda turned towards Ella, her heart breaking as she watched tears roll down her eldest daughter’s face. She made no move to get closer following the protocol of their comfort system. A flat hand meant Ella wasn’t ready for more contact. When she linked fingers she wanted to be hugged and comforted. For now Amanda could only try to figure out what was going on.

“Are you mad at me?” Ella whispered.

“Not mad. I’m concerned.”

“I only did it once.”

“Why?” Amanda asked and could feel Ella’s fingers twitch as she decided if consent to talk should be taken back.

Instead she took a deep breath and continued, “It was hard seeing Elliot. It brought all the memories back. And then Kathy died…all I could think about is…is that if I never got shot that day maybe he wouldn’t have left and none of this would have happened.”

Her fingers curled around Amanda’s who immediately crawled across the bed putting Ella in her lap. She rocked her back and forth gently before answering, “Oh my sweet love. None of this is your fault. 

“Mom said that Elliot was the single most important person in her life…but what about me?” Ella sobbed, clutching Amanda close.

“Oh my sweet baby girl, your mother loves you more than anything in the entire world. She didn’t mean it like that,” Amanda said kissing her forehead, “Did you know the first thing your mom does every time she walks into the office is give a kiss to the picture of the day she gave birth to you?”

Ella let out a small laugh, “You are kidding right?”

“Oh no. I am not. She kisses you, then Noah, Jesse and finally Billie. Then she sits in her chair and smiles at me saying ‘Those are our babies’,” Amanda smiled at the scene unfolding in her mind, “And don’t tell your mom but I am going to share a secret with you.” Ella held out her pinkie and Amanda curled hers around it. She placed another kiss on her forehead and then began, “When you went to college your mom tried to act all tough. She shed a few tears when we got you all settled into your dorm but the real waterworks happened when we got home. She cried for hours over old baby pictures. She would show me a picture trying to tell the story between her sobs. It was a rough night.”

Ella laughed, hugging Amanda closer, “I came home the very next day cause I missed her. She pushed me to keep trying and we eventually set up a schedule for me to come home every other weekend. You mean to tell me this woman had also been crying all night as well.”

“Yes, we both were. We are very proud of you Ella. Nothing could ever change that.”

“I love you Mom.”

“I love you too, my sweet baby girl.”

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Olivia had come home late that evening more irritated than she had hoped. Where did Elliot have the right to say that? I love you. The words still rang in her ears. After all of this time this was when he chose to confess his feelings. She slammed her keys down on the table and tossed her shoes to the side. It was then that she heard Billie began to scream.

“Shit,” She muttered and moved to Billie’s room.

When she got there Amanda was already holding Billie in her arms, rocking her gently. Fear rose in her heart that Amanda would be upset but instead she just smiled, “Welcome home my love. Want to come help put Billie back to bed?”

Olivia nodded and walked over to her wife. Billie smiled up at her as Olivia gave her a kiss. Once Billie was tucked back in and two goodnight stories were read she was snoring peacefully. Amanda grabbed her wife’s hand and pulled her back to the bedroom. Olivia smiled as she saw her pajamas were folded on the edge of the bed waiting for her. A glass of water was already on her bedside table with her book that she always read before bed. 

Amanda had already crawled underneath the covers again, “I didn’t know when you would be home. I figured you would want all of your things ready.”

Olivia tried to form words but merely nodded and went to the bathroom to shower and change. Once she was settled into bed and reading her book Amanda curled against her side. Olivia’s body tensed at the contact with such force that the blonde immediately moved away. She instead turned her back towards Olivia and pulled the covers to her chin.

Olivia tried to talk to her but it was Amanda who was able to get the words out first, “Do you regret marrying me?”

Stunned by the words, Olivia placed down her book and turned towards her wife, “No. Never. If given the chance I would have married you in every lifetime. Why would you ever think that I would regret marrying you my love?”

“Ever since Elliot has been back you have been… off. I know that he was the most important thing in your world. I just… I wanted to make sure that you didn’t regret this,” Amanda said tears brimming in her eyes.

Olivia reached down for the blonde grabbing her closely in her arms, “Oh my love. I would never change a single thing that happened. This life is better than anything I could have ever imagined. You make me the happiest woman alive. I love you and our children more than anything in the entire world. You all are the most important. Not him.”

Amanda nodded, kissing her wife gently before Olivia asked the question burning in her mind, “You don’t regret this right?”

“No, I would marry you in a thousand lifetimes, Olivia Benson. You are the only person made for me,’ Amanda replied, “But there is someone who might need a little extra reassurance.”

Olivia looked perplexed  but Amanda refused to give her any more details. She merely kissed her wife and told her that it was not her story to tell. As Amanda got tucked back into bed Olivia’s mind began to turn. Amanda had repeated the exact same words that she had said to Elliot that night at the hospital. There was no way she could have heard her say them though because she had been getting Ella’s bag…

“Ella,” Olivia whispered and then jumped from bed.

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Law and Order Special Victim Unit Masterlist

Welcome to my SVU Masterlist! I have one series and a lot of little one shots. The men of SVU are mention throughout but as always... this blog is gay and I’m all about WLW fanfiction. 

! - Smut/NSFW

#-Fluff

Ella Alina Benson: Baby Benson Series

Bellson Christmas Series

A Heartfelt Goodbye

Christmas Traditions Coming To Life

Olivia Benson

Pill Party #

Elevator Baby

Senior Prom

Secrets Out !

It Was Always You #

Hotel Dreams #

My Wife and I #

Amanda Rollins

Pill Party #

Casey Novak

Senior Prom

It Was Always You #

Hotel Dreams #

Alex Cabot

Melinda Warren

Elevator Baby

Graveyard Nights

Ayanna Bell

What About Your Wife? #

Kat Tamin

Pill Party #

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The Boo Crew

SVU FALL BINGO! This covers the Trick or Treat square for @storiesofsvu​‘s bino. Full of Rolivia fluff and another chapter for my Ella Alina Benson Series.

Characters: Olivia Benson, Amanda Rollins, Ellan Alina Benson (Original Character), Noah Benson, Jesse Rollins, Billie Rollins

Relationships: Olivia Benson x Amanda Rollins, Olivia Benson x Daughter! Original Character

Warnings: Fluff!

Summary: Ella is getting older now and is trying to enjoy as much of the “college experience” as she can... but there is one thing that she can’t seem to get out of her mind. Trick or Treating with her family

Word Count: 1886 

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Noah had been begging Olivia all morning to get into his Spiderman costume. No matter how many times Olivia protested telling him trick or treating was still hours away, Noah insisted that he had to put it on right away. Liv knew that by the time they did go out for the evening it would be covered with any arrangement of the arts and crafts they had for the day and the spaghetti she had planned for dinner. But finally, she just couldn’t take it anymore. When the words alright flew out of her mouth Noah was already halfway into his bedroom to get changed. Olivia braced herself against the kitchen counter letting out a large sigh as the baby monitor in Bille’s room started to go off. 

She reached down, gently putting her youngest daughter into her arms. She kissed the top of her forehead welcoming her from her afternoon nap. Just as Billie had settled down Jesse ran into the room. Olivia smiled at her young blonde daughter as she crossed her arms across her chest. She already was beginning to look exactly like Amanda. It always came out the most when she was about to be sassy.  As Jesse cocked her head to the side, Olivia prepared for Mini Amanda to begin talking.

“Momma,” Jesse began.

“Yes, my love.”

“Why does Noah get to put his spiderman suit on? I want to put my princess dress on!” Jesse asked and then curled her lip into a pout.

“You know Jesse that is a great point. Why don’t you go put your dress on and then we can start making all of those cool pumpkin decorations you wanted? Sound like a plan?” Olivia replied conceding that it was easier to let both of them run wild.

Jesse entangled her tiny limbs around Olivia’s legs, “I love you Momma!”

Olivia returned the sentiment as Jesse rushed out of the room as quickly as she entered. As her bedroom door shut, Bille let out a small babble. Olivia looked down at the grinning child, “Hey, I told your mom I would try to keep them out of their costumes. I tried...for exactly two hours. I think I deserve some props.”

Billie merely gave Olivia a small smirk, “You know she could have helped me but she is out with your sister getting a last-minute costume for this big party she is going to. So it is just me and you against the hooligans for the moment.”

Billie smiled at Olivia and reached her hand up towards Liv’s cheek. Olivia took the tiny hand and placed a gentle kiss on it. Once she had changed Billie and got her settled in a ghost Halloween onesie, they walked out into the living room. Noah was kneeled down on one knee in front of Jesse with everything but his mask on for his costume. In Jesse’s right hand she had what she deemed her magical fairy wand. She gently tapped each one of Noah’s shoulders with the wand declaring him the knight to her kingdom. As Olivia watched she couldn’t help but let out a small giggle.

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Ella huffed as they left the third costume store with only two pieces of her costume for the evening in hand. Amanda stifled a laugh as they clambered back into Ella’s Subaru. Ella scrolled through her phone looking for another place they could go to find what she needed after turning her Halloween playlist in the background.

“You know if you had just gone to the store with the rest of us we probably could have found everything that you were looking for,” Amanda told her as Ella finally place her phone in the cupholder.

“I had an exam that day and hockey practice,” Ella reminded her, “Plus Noah would have tried to convince me to be another superhero again with him this year.”

“Oh come on hun you looked great at Storm last year.”

Ella smiled at the memory of holding Noah’s hand walking down the streets of New York knocking on every door with him. Jesse had been attached to Ella’s hip with her large purple jack o lantern candy bucket too young to be walking around on her own. It was one of the many pictures she had hanging up in her dorm room. Olivia and Amanda brought up the rear of the party pushing Jesse’s stroller that was full of all the surplus candy they were collecting. For as long as Ella could remember it was a  tradition for the whole family to go trick or treating together. Except for this year. This year was the year Ella was going to the most popular Halloween party at her university. She was determined to make friends and not be stuck sorting out candy with her younger siblings. 

However the more she thought about it the more guilt started to rise up. She was going to be missing Billie’s first Halloween. All for a party that she wasn’t even sure she wanted to be a part of. As if reading her thoughts Amanda placed her hand gently on top of the one Ella had clutched around the gear shift.

“You know it is okay to want to go out and do your own thing for Halloween? You are almost done with the college experience. Live it up while you can.”

Ella sighed, “I know, Halloween is just my favorite time of year. It is one of the only times that we are all together.”

“Well if you change your mind you are more than welcome to come. You know we would love to have you,” Amanda smiled, “But I will remind you though that your mom is going to throw a fit if you go out in that outfit tonight.”

Ella laughed, “It’s a warmer October than usual! I am almost twenty-one. She will be fine. I’ll make sure I cover up if I go out with y’all”

“If you say so,” Amanda giggled, “I love you Ella.” “I love you too Mom.”

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Over an hour later Ella and Amanda were making their way through the front door with a large bag in hand. As they entered the living room Ella couldn’t help but laugh. The large foldable table Olivia had set up was covered in various colors of glitter and paint. Billie was in her rocker silently watching the show but Noah and Jesse were making their presence in the home known.  They giggled excitedly showing their painted hands to the two newcomers. Their costumes were covered in spots of paint and patches of glitter. Olivia looked up from her craft with a sheepish grin, her Shego costume already on.

“Welcome home my loves,” Olivia said standing from the table, “Would you like a pumpkin to decorate? The kids each left you one.”

“But you have to be in a costume to participate!” Noah pointed out.

“Oh and who made that rule?” Amanda asked, eyeing Olivia skeptically.

“We did!” Jesse smiled, causing Amanda to laugh.

“I tried babe. I really did,” Olivia sighed.

“Oh I know you did. They actually are covered less than I had thought,” Amanda replied, kissing her wife, “I’ll go get change and join the festivities.”

As Amanda disappeared down to her bedroom Noah turned to look at Ella. She smiled as his curls bounced around his face. When he finally calmed down he asked the question she was dreading the most, “Are you coming trick or treating with us?”

“Please sissy!” Jesse chimed in.

The two of them together were a dynamic duo that always seemed to get their way. Before Ella could answer Olivia tried to reason with the two, “Loves, don’t forget that Ella is a lot older. She might not want to go out with us. She could have her own plans with her friends.”

Noah’s lips curled into a pout as he looked at his older sister, “Please Ella. You are gone aaalll the time. We just want to be with you.”

Ella did her best to contain her tears as she looked at the curly-haired boy in front of her, “Of course I can come but only to help you get candy. Then I have to go hang out with some of my friends but I’m sure Mom and Momma will help you both sort it.”

With a loud cheer, both of her siblings launched themselves into Ella’s arms. Olivia merely smiled from her spot at the table trying to contain her excitement. She wanted Ella to get the full college experience but nothing beat all five of them together.

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“I remember this neighborhood from last year,” Amanda told Olivia as she adjusted the shirt on her Kim Possible costume.

Olivia laughed pointing at a large rose bush that was two houses in front of them, “I sure hope you do because you spent five minutes puking in that rose bush. One kid… I think a pirate almost puked on his mother when they walked by us. She was so mad.”

“Hey! In my defense, I was seven months pregnant,” Amanda said shoving Olivia with her shoulder, “But I am talking about the picture we took before that whole incident.”

Olivia knew the picture well. It was still the lock screen of her phone. All of her kids dressed up holding hands. It was her favorite. Well besides the wedding picture that she kept as her home screen photo. She linked hands with Amanda as she looked at a similar scene unfolding in front of her.

“I think we need an updated picture.”

“Think they will notice?” Amanda asked reaching for her phone.

“Nope, just do it before Jesse decides that she has to give us fifteen different photos and Noah hides behind Ella.”

Amanda and Olivia paused momentarily so she could focus the camera. Walking in front of them Ella had Billie tucked against her hip. Billie’s Tigger costume was a stark contrast to the dark angel costume her older sister wore. Large black wings sprung from Ella’s back. Her arms were covered by a light long-sleeved shirt and she wore a long black skirt that dragged slightly on the ground behind her. Attached to her other side was Noah whose Spiderman fingers were entangled in hers. He had decided to forgo the mask claiming that it was too hot so his curls sprung in every direction. Next to him, Jessie was holding his hand letting his Marvel pillowcase hang in the air between them. Her purple dress sparkled under the dimming light and her crown was cocked to the side. In her other hand, she held her Rapunzel pillowcase full of candy and her magical fairy wand. Amanda took a series of pictures and then turned to kiss her wife. 

“Look at our babies.”

Olivia smiled taking the blonde’s hand as they kept walking, “It’s so nice having them all together.” “We did good Liv. We did good.”

Olivia nodded and then looked at Ella again, “That’s not really what she is wearing out tonight is she?”

Amanda let out a large laugh, “Oh god no. She is basically wearing her undergarments to that party.”

Olivia let out a large sigh before shaking her head, “They grow up to fast.”

“I know my love. I know.”

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Beach Napping: Ella Alina Benson Series

Day 2 of Olivia Benson Week: Sleepy

Characters: Olivia Benson,  Ella Benson, Nana Megan

Relationship:  Olivia Benson x Original Character

Warnings: none

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Summary: Four-year-old Ella Benson and her Mom Olivia Benson prep to go have a beach day with Nana Megan. It is only a matter of time before Ella finally crashes from all the excitement.

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“Momma!” Ella said rushing from her room, “Can we go swimming now?”

Olivia reached down to grab her daughter clad in her new watermelon swimsuit. She placed the excited four-year-old on her hip gently tickling her stomach. A large laugh erupted into the living room. A  smile crossed Olivia’s face as she hugged Ella wrapped her arms around Olivia’s neck.

“You got room for the lunches I made in the bag?” Megan said, holding up a large bag of sandwiches.

“Ella go grab the bag of sandwiches from Nana and put them in our beach bag,” Olivia said letting her daughter down, “I’ll go get your shoes, and then we can go.”

Ella rushed over to Megan grabbing the bag. Megan stifled a laugh as Ella held the sandwiches close to her chest as she went over to the beach bag. Ella let out a large sigh as she set down the sandwiches. Once she was done Megan reached down, slinging the blue striped bag over her shoulder. Olivia helped Ella slip on her sandals and then tossed her in the air before giving her a kiss on the forehead.

When they made it to the beach Olivia set up a large umbrella that would shade their chairs from the sun. Megan and Olivia each had a beach chair with Ella’s tiny red one tucked between them. Megan sat in her chair pulling out her knitting into her lap. She watched as Olivia ran around the beach with Ella. They splashed around in the water, laughter erupting from both of them. Olivia even convinced Ella to come out to the water past her ankles. By the time Ella had begun to tread water gracefully Megan was beckoning the Bensons back to eat lunch.

Ella quickly ate three peanut butter sandwiches before rushing off to build a sandcastle. Olivia laid back in her chair pulling a book onto her lap as she watched Ella dig through the sand.

“You know the crash is going to hit in about 15 minutes right?” Olivia giggled as Ella yawned yet again.

Megan merely nodded her head and picked up her book, “The meltdown is about to hit in 3...2...1…”

Just as Megan finished counting Ella rushed back over to their chairs. Tears were slowly streaming down her face. Olivia tried to keep a concerned look on her face, “What’s wrong sweet baby girl?”

“I... I so tired,” Ella cried and flopped down on the blanket, “I gonna take a nap. I take a nap right here.”

“Okay, Ella Bean. Go ahead and take a nap,” Olivia responded as Ella curled into a tight ball.

After a couple of minutes when Megan was sure Ella was asleep she looked over at Olivia, “Do you want to grab her and we can start heading home?”

Olivia pondered the thought for a moment, “Let’s enjoy the sunshine for a little bit longer but I will move her.”

Olivia rose from her chair picking up Ella into her arms. Ella shifted for a moment putting her fingers gently on Olivia’s earlobe. She always rubbed Olivia’s ear gently when she wanted to sleep. With a gentle sigh, Olivia sat back down in her chair Ella pressed against her chest. She reached to the side, grabbing her book from the ground. Olivia opened the book to the page she left off on propping the book in one hand. With the other, she gently rubbed small circles on Ella’s back in between flipping pages.

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Welcome Baby Benson

Summary: New Detective Olivia Benson finally welcomes her daughter into the world. This is an original character fic but you can read it as a reader fic if you so desire.

Characters: Donald Cragen, Olivia Benson, Ella Alina Benson. Mentions of: Elliot Stabler, Munch

Relationships: N/A

Warnings: Mentions of child birth but nothing to explicit.

AO3

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Baby Benson was born on November 16th, 1998 bright and early at 6 am. Cragen had been at the hospital the whole night pacing the waiting room floor ever since he had arrived with Olivia at two am. They had been working a crime scene much to his many protests but Olivia had insisted. They were short staffed and she wanted to get as many hours in as possible before maternity leave. As they finished up their initial assessment Olivia had let out a large scream. Cragen had rushed her to the hospital immediately. She held his hand the whole way squeezing it occasionally when the pain became to extreme. 

Cragen felt like a whole day had passed when the doctors finally came back into the waiting room saying that she was asking for him. He had rushed to Olivia’s room. She was laying back against the pillows her dark brown hair sticking to the sweat on the sides of her face. Tucked tightly in her arms arms was her small baby. She smiled at Cragen as she entered the room.

“Captain,” She said softly, “They told me you were here all night.”

“Of course, I had to make sure you were okay Liv,” He smiled walking closer towards her bed.

He had taken a risk taking a two almost three month pregnant detective onto his squad but she was quickly becoming one of his best detectives. He had no regrets taking her on. In there short time together she had become a daughter to him. 

“Do you want to hold her?” Olivia asked looking back down at her baby before looking at Cragen again.

“Of course,” Cragen smiled.

Olivia extended the small baby out to Cragen. He took her gently in his arms rocking her back and forth. Olivia looked at the scene and couldn’t help but feel her heart begin to warm. She had never had a father but she imagined this is what the scene would have looked like if she did. 

“Her name is Ella Alina Benson,” She told him.

“Hello, Ella. I’m Captain Cragen but you can call be PawPaw,” Cragen said his smile growing bigger.

“And here I thought you would have been more of the Gramps type of guy,” Olivia laughed as Ella was placed back in her arms.

“When Marge and I were trying to have kids I decided I wanted to get called Pa. Just like I called me dad. Figured PawPaw was a good grandpa adaptation. As long as you don’t mind.”

“I think that’s great Cap,” Olivia said and then sighed, “I’m going to need all the help that I can get.”

“And I will give you all the help that I can. Why don’t you get some sleep?” Cragen replied pulling the bassinet close to Olivia’s bed.

“You’ll stay for awhile right? Just to make sure that everything with Ella is okay,” Olivia asked worried holding Ella close to her.

“Yes, I told Elliot that I would take the first shift. He has second and then you have to deal with Munch on the third shift.”

Olivia merely laughed and gently placed Ella in the bassinet. She made sure the blanket was still tucked tightly around her before she leaned in and gave Ella a quick kiss on her forehead. She whispered a quick I love you before she leaned back against the pillow. Cragen sat in the chair that was positioned on the other side of the bassinet. Olivia kept one hand gently over Ella as her eyes began to flutter close. Soon she was snoring as exhaustion set in. Cragen tried to stay awake but soon fell asleep as well. 

The long wait was finally over. Ella Alina Benson was now the center of Olivia’s world. 

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Roadtrip Day 5

Day 1 OBW: Dancing

Characters: Olivia Benson, Amanda Rollins, Ella Benson

Relationship: Olivia Benson x Amanda Rollins hinted, Olivia Benson x Original Character

Warnings: none

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Summary: Ella, Olivia, and Amanda are enjoying their vacation away for as long as they can. Some mornings Ella needs a little break to dance it all out.

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Amanda was sitting on the couch in the living room book in hand when music erupted from the kitchen. She glanced through the open doorway and noticed Ella holding a spatula in her hand singing along to the music. She was moving her hips from side to side to the tune of Country Girl Shake It For Me. Amanda let out a laugh as Ella caught her eye beckoning her to join. Finally, she placed her book down on the couch and started dancing towards Ella. 

Upstairs Olivia let out a large groan as the music finally reached her ears. She had just been able to get some sleep after constant nightmares that she had been trying to hide from Ella all night. When she heard laughter coming from the kitchen she pulled back the covers placing her feet on the floor. She pulled her shirt down over her shorts, wiping away her eyes as she padded down the stairs. 

As she reached the bottom of the stairs she looked into the kitchen where Amanda and Ella were still dancing along to the music. She let out a snort of laughter causing the two dancing people to look at her. When another country song spilled from the speakers Amanda reached out for Olivia. Olivia grabbed her hand letting herself get pulled close to Amanda’s chest. They danced for a while, Olivia tucking her head into Amanda’s shoulder. Suddenly the lack of sleep really didn’t matter so much to Olivia. All she really cared about was the fact this beautiful woman was pressed so close to her. 

The moment was broken however when a small cough came from the kitchen, “Hey there, any way I can step in and get a dance with my mom?

Amanda blushed and then stepped aside so Olivia could take Ella in her arms. Olivia pulled Ella close to her, placing a kiss on the top of her forehead. Amanda quietly excused herself back into the living room leaving the Benson women to themselves.

“Did you sleep okay my sweet baby girl?” Olivia asked, pressing her forehead against Ella’s.

“Pretty well,” Ella said, “I know you hate when I ask about how you slept but can I ask you a different question?”

“Hmmm.. sure,” Olivia giggled, “What can I do for you, my sweets?”

“Do you like Aunt Manda?” This question made Olivia stop in her tracks. She thought long and hard before she responded, “Yes. I think I do.”

Ella smiled at this hugging Olivia close, “Good because I think she likes you too and she makes you happy. I like seeing you happy. You going to tell her.?”

“Maybe,” Olivia grinned, “You think she will say it back?”

“Only one way to find out!” Ella smirked and then pulled Olivia into the living room.

@dailysvu​ // @caitlink26​​