#FUCCK I WAS SO NERVOUS

[orchidyoonkook]

That moment when you can’t find your cat at your in laws and you and your partner spend about an hour looking for her only to find her IN THE GODDAMN CEILING.

HOW DID SHE GET THERE

WHAT ARE YOU DOING UP THERE???

[hbyrde36]

STWG Drabble 9/30/23

Prompt: Drunk talk

It was 2am, and Steve was sitting on the kitchen floor huddled around the phone, gripping the handset like it was a lifeline. It only rang twice before Robin picked up. She'd begged her parents to install an extra phone line in her room after Starcourt, and they gave in quickly once they realized it was either that, or getting woken up regularly by middle of the night panicked phone calls from the boy their daughter swore she wasn’t dating. Her parents didn’t know what had really happened to the two kids, just that whatever it was had left them with a lot of trauma and a little bit of codependency, but they loved their daughter, so they did what they could to make her happy.

“Steve?” Robin yawned his name into the phone, a hint of concern coloring her voice even though she was only half awake.

“Robbi-” Steve choked out through a sob that was punctuated with a hiccup. “I thhhink I fuccked up.”

“Are you drunk?” She asked, sounding a little more awake.

Steve snapped his fingers, pointing as if she was in the room with him. “Guessed it’n one.” He slurred a little, sniffling as he tried to speak. It was a wonder she understood him at all.

“Jesus, how much did you have? Wait, weren’t you and Eddie supposed to be hanging out tonight?”

“Oh Eddie” Steve sighed dramatically. “Eddie, he wasss here, he..oh god.. Robin I fuuucked up so bad - e’s never going to tttalk to me again.”

“What happened?” She asked.

Steve cleared his throat and took a few deep breaths. Trying hard to sober himself up.

“We were drinking.” He managed the three words with much less slurring than before, he thought Robin should be impressed.

She wasn’t.

“Clearly”

“Don’ be mean, i’m upset!” Steve groaned.

“Sorry, go on.”

“And I knew I shouldn’t have let myself drink so much but I did and god, Robin, he looked so hot!” Steve rambled on. “He had his hair up and a crop top on and I couldn’t help myself…. I all but sat on his lap when we decided to watch a movie.”

“I’m failing to see the issue here. You were flirting with him, so what? You like him, he likes you.”

“We don’t know that!” Steve hissed.

“We do know that! And I've been telling you to ask him out for weeks!.”

Steve hesitated, a little of his old panic rising in his chest. “I…i wasn’t ready.”

Robin’s tone softend. “That’s okay, you’re allowed to not be ready.”

“I think I am now, but…” He trailed off.

“Okay, so what’s the problem?”

“Eddie kissed me.” Steve said simply, as if that explained everything. In fairness to his booze soaked mind, it did.

“I’m gonna need you to elaborate, babe.”

“I freaked out, Robin! I freaked out and he thought I was freaking out because I didn't want him to kiss me, but really I was freaking out because I like him so much, and the kiss! Oh, the kiss was amazing. I had no idea that kissing could feel like that, but then I panicked because - what if I mess it up, Robin? What if I mess up with Eddie like I did with Nancy? I don’t know if I could survive that again.”

Robin was quiet for a long moment before she said anything.

“Shit, Steve. Do you…feel the same way about him as you did about Nance?”

“I think I do, Robs, I think I'm in love with him, but it doesn’t matter because I already ruined it.”

“Is that true?”

Steve’s heart sank as a deep voice sounded behind him.

He heard Robin suck in a breath on the other end of the line. He looked up, already knowing what he would find. Sure enough, Eddie was standing in the doorway to the kitchen, jacket on and keys still in hand. How long had he been standing there? Did he come back, or had he never left?

“Is that..?” Robin started to ask, but Steve cut her off. “Yeah, it is, um. I gotta go, I'll call you tomorrow.” He hung up before she could respond, never taking his eyes off the boy in the doorway.

Steve gulped audibly. “How much of that did you hear?”

Eddie shuffled his feet, looking nervous. It wasn’t something Steve was used to seeing on the other boy, he usually exuded confidence.

“I guess that depends.” Eddie replied.

“On?”

“How much of it did you mean?”

“All of it.” Steve answered quickly, eager to fix the mess he’d made of things.

Eddie pressed his lips together in a thin line, thinking. “Are you sure it’s not just because you’re drunk and sad?” He said, finally.

“If you stay, I'll say it again in the morning.”

Eddie smiled and shook his head. He walked over and sat down on the floor next to Steve, taking his hand and entwining their fingers. “What a line, Stevie.”

Steve ducked his head. “I’m sorry I freaked out.”

Eddie raised their clasped hands to his mouth and pressed his lips to the back of Steve’s fingers.

“I’m sorry too. I left and didn’t give you the chance to explain. I got into my van and even started it, but I couldn't leave. I didn’t want to run anymore. I came back inside so we could talk about it. I hoped you would forgive me for kissing you and we could still be friends.”

“I don’t want to be just friends, Eddie. Can we try the kiss again?”

Eddie squeezed his hand and stood up, pulling Steve along with him.

“Let’s get you to bed, and if you feel the same way in the morning I would be happy to have a do-over.”

Steve pouted but allowed Eddie to lead him out of the kitchen and up the stairs to his bedroom.

“Don’t pout, baby. You’re really drunk, and it would feel too much like I was taking advantage of you. Let’s just go to sleep, I promise I'll still be here in the morning.”

Baby.

“Will you sleep in here with me if I swear to keep my hands to myself?” Steve asked.

Eddie usually slept on the couch or the guest room when he stayed over. Steve had always hated it, but he had never been brave enough to ask Eddie to stay with him until now.

Eddie chuckled. “Yea, Stevie. I’ll stay with you.”

[dwobbitfromtheshire]

Getting Off the Table

Warning: Hellcheer picnic table smut

18+ MINORS DNI

Chrissy Cunningham was a good girl. She went to church every Sunday, and she tried her hardest to believe, but how could she believe in a God that took away her brother? How could she believe in a God that gave her parents who blamed her for his death? It was an animal attack, and she was supposed to be watching him. She tried to save him but by the time she heard him scream, he was already gone. Her parents never quite looked at her the same way ever again. She swore her mother hated her.

Nothing was ever good enough for her mother, so Chrissy stopped trying to please her. When she told her mother that morning that she had dumped Jason, her mother screamed bloody murder and told her that she would never find anyone else to put up with her. Chrissy didn't say anything. She just walked out. Now, she needed to deal with these headaches. Drugs seemed like her best option, and who better to get them from than Eddie Munson? He wasn't at all what she thought he would be. When she looked into his eyes, she couldn't help the thought that crossed her mind. My God, he was pretty.

"You know, you're not what I thought you'd be like," Chrissy had admitted.

"What? Mean and scary? Yeah, well, I thought you'd be mean and scary too," Eddie said as he sat back down.

"Me?" Chrissy asked.

"Terrifying," Eddie agreed. "So, in other good news, flattery totally works with me. Twenty-five percent discount. Fifteen bucks. You're robbing me blind here."

She was going to ask if he had anything stronger, really she was, but her intrusive thoughts took over.

"Are you on the table?" Chrissy asked, a bit nervously.

"Pardon?" Eddie asked, his eyebrows raised.

"I heard there are other ways of relieving stress that don't involve drugs," Chrissy said as she rubbed circles into his hand. "So, is the offer of you relieving my stress personally on the table?"

"I-i mean, yeah, if you want, but you should know that I've never done. . .anything," Eddie blushed.

"You haven't even been kissed?" Chrissy asked, and he shook his head. "That's a shame. A pretty boy like you should be kissed."

"Me? Pretty?"

"Very."

Eddie blushed and hid behind his hair. Chrissy stood up, shook her hair out of its ponytail, and moved Eddie's stuff out of the way as she crawled across the picnic table. She placed her legs on either side of Eddie and cupped his face. She leaned toward him and kissed him. Eddie sighed against her lips and kissed her back almost immediately. She almost laughed at how eager he was. She felt his hands shake as he slipped them under the edge of her sweater. She broke the kiss and leaned her forehead against his.

"I'm nervous too," Chrissy said..

"You are?" Eddie asked.

"I've kissed before, but I've never had sex," Chrissy said.

"You and Carver never. . .?" Eddie asked.

"Nope, we were basically arranged to be married. Both he and my mother wanted me to remain pure for when we eventually did marry," Chrissy rolled her eyes. "Meanwhile, he was fucking a couple of my cheerleaders."

"That's. . .barbaric," Eddie said. "And are you sure you want to give it up to me?"

"Eddie?"

"Yeah?"

"Take off my panties."

"Right."

He hands slid under the skirt and tugged her underwear down. Chrissy grabbed his hand and guided towards her dripping cunt.

"See? I'm already so wet for you, Eddie," Chrissy said sweetly.

"Fucck!"

She pulled him up, her legs squeezing his waist, and began to undo his belt. Chrissy fumbled with it before getting it undone. She pushed his pants down, leaving him in his boxers, and pulled out his cock. She pushed him back down onto the bench and moved to straddle his waist.

"Wait. . . I don't have anything," Eddie said.

"It's okay, I'm on birth control," Chrissy said.

"Oh."

She spat into her hand and began stroking his already hardening length. Eddie groaned, and his eyes rolled back into his head. She guided it to her entrance and slowly sank down onto his dick. She wasn't sure he would fit at first, but she managed it. Chrissy began to move, rocking her hips slowly. Their moans echoed into the trees. It was soon getting very hot, their skin sticky with sweat. Eddie had to remove his shirt. Chrissy followed with her sweater and her top. She thought about leaving her bra on, but no, she wanted him to see them, to suck on them. She unhooked her bra and slid it off. Eddie cupped them, a thumb sweeping over her nipple and pinching it. Chrissy let out a stuttering moan. Eddie attached his lips to her neck as he caressed her breast while her fingers grazed the tattoos on his chest. Chrissy grinded down harder and faster, her hands moving to grip his back as she burrowed her face against his neck. Meanwhile, Eddie placed her hands on her hips and helped her move. He finally unloaded inside of her, and once he did that, she finally collapsed against him. He was still inside of her, but neither one of them wanted to move from the embrace.

"That was -

"So fucking awesome!" Eddie exclaimed and Chrissy giggled.

She leaned back and kissed him. She pushed herself off of his dick and sat back on top of the table. Eddie pulled out his bandana and got to work cleaning her up then himself. Eddie leaned over and kissed her.

"Fuck you're so beautiful," Eddie said breathlessly.

"Come here, there's something I wanted to do," Chrissy said, blushing as she leaned forward and placed gentle bites on his tattoos. "Sorry, was that weird?"

"Sometimes you just have to bite the things that you like," Eddie said.

He leaned down and placed equally gentle bites right in the top of her breast. He wrapped his tongue briefly around her nipple before pulling away. He pulled on his shirt and handed Chrissy her underwear. She slipped them on along with the rest of her clothing as Eddie pulled on his jacket and vest.

"I was wondering if we could do that again some time," Chrissy said, shyly biting her lip.

"Yeah, I love you! I mean, fuck, I would love too. Okay. That was weird, sorry," Eddie laughed, and Chrissy giggled. "Um, would you like to have dinner with me tonight? You could come over if you wanted to. I actually like to cook, you know."

"I would love to. Walk me to class?" Chrissy asked, and he nodded.

Chrissy grabbed his hand and put her scrunchie on his wrist before entertwining their fingers. Eddie gazed at her affectionately, his eyes twinkling. He had to look ahead a few minutes later when he ran into a tree, which caused Chrissy to laugh. Eddie wrapped an arm around her waist, tickling her mercilessly, and then pulled her to his side. As soon as they walked into school, everyone stared at them, which Chrissy thought was simply delightful. Jason stormed up to them.

"You dumped me for the freak!" Jason yelled.

"No, I dumped you because your personality was as big as your dick which according to half of the cheerleaders, is very hard to find," Chrissy replied, and Eddie nearly choked on his spit. "Eddie's, however, can be seen from space."

Jason was too angry to say anything else and walked away.

"Is it really big?" Eddie asked her.

"You almost didn't fit, honey," Chrissy said.

He hid his face in her neck, cheeks red. Chrissy chuckled.

"I really like you," Eddie said, his voice muffled against her neck.

"I really like you too," Chrissy said.

[darylsgarden]

I posted 121 times in 2022

That's 121 more posts than 2021!

28 posts created (23%)

93 posts reblogged (77%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@green-eyedladywrites

@littlegodzilla

@jaaryl

@phoenixblack89

I tagged 29 of my posts in 2022

#daryl dixon - 23 posts

#norman reedus - 20 posts

#the walking dead - 20 posts

#twd daryl - 16 posts

#daryldixon - 14 posts

#daryl dixon smut - 12 posts

#daryl dixon x reader - 12 posts

#norman reedus smut - 8 posts

#daryl dixon fanfiction - 7 posts

#mac red canyon - 6 posts

Longest Tag: 37 characters

#idon't think i'm built for med school

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

You could try and get Daryl to quit cigarettes but that man wouldn't budge..

Once. Just once Judith tells him to quit them, he would immediately throw them into the lake.

131 notes - Posted December 23, 2022

#4

Business Class

Pairing :- Norman Reedus × Female Reader

Warnings :- SMUT, Thigh Riding

AN:- Wrote this in 10 minutes, ik its shitty but just wanted to write something :/

This was the first time you were flying with Norman, it was the first time you were flying business too. He was taking you to Florida to meet his family, you were really very nervous. He wished he could calm you nerves a little.

"Wow these seats are so big, we have enough space to sleep in here"

Norman smiled at your amusement "yeah and enough space to fuck in here too"

"Normannnn" you nudged his elbow in feigning anger.

He picked a movie for you to see. Of course it had to be a dirty movie. You became comfortable in your seat and watched it with him, swatting away his hand when it came to your boobs.

You couldn't help but admit that you were turned on too, you wished Norman would do everything that the male protagonist was doing to the female. You wished he took you right there and right now.

As the movie progressed he was turned on evenmore. He looked at you with an intense gaze and patted his thigh. You bit your lip and started pulling down your shorts. You prayed no airhostess would stop by. You crawled over to his thigh and were about to put your leg over his when he stopped you. "What about these?" he asked you tugging at your panties. "Norman please. We are not in our bedroom!" you pleaded. You knew it was futile, he started pulling down your panties until your womanhood was exposed. He pulled you down on his thigh and you moaned as your throbing clit made contact with his rough denims.

"Ride me"

You wrapped your arms around his head and buried your head in his shoulder and started rubbing your cunt against his thigh. There was a wet spot on his jeans in no time.

"So fucking wet"

"Only for you"

"Ride harder and faster"

He gripped your hips painfully and made you ride his thigh so hard that you could feel your clit tug painfully against his jeans. He released his hands from your hips and bought them under your hoodie. He pulled your bra down harshly and started kneading your mounds.

"Fucck Norman I'm close" you whimpered

He took your hard erect nipples between his thumb and index finger and pinched them hard.

"Aaah Norman, yess fuckkk" you reached your climax as you couldn't tolerate the extreme stimulation at your two sensitive areas.

You stayed buried in his shoulder, trying to catch your breath. Norman planted small kisses on your shoulder and ear lobe and tucked your hair strands behind your ear.

"Think you can give me one more"

You nodded meekly, ready to give him whatever he wanted from you.

The End

146 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

#3

Imagine Daryl and reader getting it on while hunting in the jungle. Daryl manages to hit a squirrel really far off and his confidence is through the roof and gives you one lust filled gaze, eyeing you up and down. Before you know you are pressed against a tree and Daryl hungrily mauling your tits and placing kisses on your body, not caring whether the bark of the tree is hurting your back or maybe just bends you over a log and has his way with you 🥵

155 notes - Posted November 27, 2022

#2

Norman Reedus characters reacting to reader getting a nipple piercing

⚠️ NSFW CONTENT ⚠️

Murphy Mcmanus

He would be the one to urge you to get them

He won't wait to play with them before they are even properly healed. He would repeatedly flick them and pull at the piercings and twist your nipples making them red and sore and making you whimper in pain and pleasure.

If you get cross with him for doing so, he would be soft with them and take care of them, basically workship them.

He would urge you to get a belly piercing as well 😈

See the full post

161 notes - Posted June 5, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Imagine Daryl angry fucking you and when you tell him that your cunt is sore, he simply replies with "well you got other holes, don't you sweetheart" 🥵

228 notes - Posted December 3, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

[castielsprostate]

"So yes, Garth loved to cook- and bake. It was his main love language, even, one which he practiced with such care and consideration he'd often tune recipes to those he was cooking for." SO REAL TO ME.

"he pressed the number saved under '🩸📚🤪🔪🫎', impatiently waiting as the ringing filled his kitchen" SAM!???!? SCREAMMMM

the unintellegible conversation with sam and dean is sooo funny omfgg kjdsnfjkdbjfw

this is soooo funny and so earnestly sweet

mmmmmm blood <3

"Edward eyed the man in front of him, how his jumper had a spot of white dust clinging to it, how his hair was slightly disheveled and unruly and how the rims around his fingernails were puffy and pink. He looked homely, utterly exhausted, but oh so sweet- like a drop of fresh honeydew, intoxicatingly addictive." I LOVE HOW YOU DESCRIBE THINGS!!!!!!!!! THATS HIM!!!!

"He'd gotten some fresh flowers from his garden after his nap, lavenders- Edward's favourite" EDWARD'S FAVOURITE! and he's so nervous!!!! he has a crush!!!!!!!!!! "You couldn't see it immediately, but you'd know- the scent of iron penetrating your very being as the thick, dark liquid oozed out little by little." HGNNGHh!!!!!!!

"drawing his own blood like a sacrament." YEAGH!H!! "Thank you," Edward said, the quirk of his mouth ticking up, "you don't comprehend what you just gave me,"" this is soooo!!!!!!!!!!

"His home, his blood- his own heart freshly carved out of his brittle chest by his own hands and serve it on a platter." I'M SCREAMING!!

SJONNIE THIS WAS SO GOOD WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCCK!!!!! I LOVE YOUR WRITING THIS WAS SUCH A JOY TO READ!!! <3333333333333

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[mellointheory]

i have so much fuccking nervous energy rn it's almost 4 am i should fucking SLEEP

[zuffer-weird-girl]

Ok but like 🥺 The eight precepts, Kurono, and Mimic try to set up a surprise date for Kai and his S/O. Like the whole pretending to be waiters for them and stuff? :0

"Good afternoon, may I please take ya order?"

Chisaki didn't know anymore who to slap; himself out of embarrassment or Mimic in his human form getting in such a ridiculous... outfit... he only wanted to bury himself on the ground when he heard your nervous giggles.

When you mentioned about having an indoor date due to the storm outside he actually, and surprisingly, agreed... but this was not what he meant... at all.

"My my Kai, even inside the house you can be quite fancy right?"

"I didn't planned or ordered this." He growled threateningly before he felt your gentle handd on his gloved one.

"Then lets enjoy ourselfs! Is not always that you are caught off of guard on something!"

"That's exactly why I don't like neither accept being catched off of guard." He pointed at the table and Mimic getting out of the run. "He looks ridiculous and this whole thing is pathetic as embarrassing as it is-!" He stopped when he noticed that in the middle of his vent you had seated on the chair, happily waiting for him to seat down as well.

"... I despise you in so many levels..." he growled and rather abruptly sitted down.

"You know~" you singed while smilling "I can see that angry pout of yours even with your mask oooon" you shivered at the hot glare of his.

"How dare you?" He growled threateningly and darkly at you, making you lift your hands up in surrender

"Sorry sorry!"

You stiffled a laughter of yours at seing Chrono aproaching.

"Good night you two."

You laughed a quiet good night while Chisaki's eye twitched.

"What's the meaning of this Chronostasis?"

"Sorry I am only the waiter today, so-" he was interrupted by a loud 'crash' from where he had come of and a few curses and shouts.

"Pardon me a moment." Hari ranned back and left you two only listening what was happening.

"GOD FUCCKING DAMMIT DEIDORO THAT WAS FOR THE BOSS AND HIS PARTNER!" Nemoto's voice echoed through the room.

"So what if-?! That was -hic- fucking strong for th -hic- anyway-!"

"PuNK NoW We WiLL HaVE OuR FucKinG HeaDs ShoP OfF! DO YoU FuCkiNG KnOW HoW LuCKY YoU ARe FoR PresTinG On OvErHaUL's DaTE?!"

"You all can calm the fuck down?! Both of them are outside this room!" Hari yelled to get more order in there but it only got worse...

Chisaki groaned while burring his face on his hand while you looked at the door in amazement while you giggled.

"They are giving their best though?" You try to defend them but only got a ugly glare from your boyfriend.

"Say... is it much disgusting those 'take outs'? "

"Judging by how I know you? You won't like them, especially when you don't see how they are made or what they used it."

"Life is full of risks. Come." He grabbed on your wrist and dragged you out of there "Is better than this, anything is better than this."

You laughed at noticing his desperation and the hint of pink on his ears.

Aww he was embarrassed!

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144: What makes you angry

145: How many languages do you speak fluently?

146: Do you prefer boys, girls, and/or non-binaries?

147: Are you androgynous?

148: Favorite physical thing about yourself:

149: Favorite thing about your personality:

150: Name three people you would like to talk to right now in person.

151: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose?

152: Do you like BuzzFeed?

153: How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/partner? [If you have one.]

154: Do you like to kiss others’ foreheads or hands for platonic reasons?

155: Do you like to play with others’ hair?

156: What embarrasses you?

157: Something that makes you nervous/anxious:

158: Biggest lie you have ever told:

159: How many people are you following?

160: How many posts do you have on your blog(s)?

161: How many drafts do you have on your blog(s)?

162: How many likes do you have on your blog(s)?

163: Last time you cried and why:

164: Do you have long or short hair?

165: Longest your hair has ever been:

166: Why do you like, dislike, or have neutral feelings about religon?

167: Do you really care how the universe and world was created?

168: Do you like to wear makeup?

169: Can you stand on your hands or head for more than thirty seconds?

170: Did you answer the questions you were asked truthfully?

1. im ok with my height 2. Australian Shepard 3. not really.is a sweatshirt and leggings a style? 4. wii  5. probably like the 5 people i talk to every day, hamilton, music 6. i thought of like 6 different things.. 7. idk you pick something and ill answer it  8. fuck idk 9. YES BUT IF YOU TICKLE ME BE PREPARE TO BE KICKED  10. just pollen 11. straight  12. all three. 13. both 14. mermaid hehe i love swimming  15. no 16. 5′ 7″ 17. eliza idk i like my name  18. no 19. nope 20. ocean 21.  kinda more like my dad and stepmom are so like i kinda am too. idrk. 22. people umm idk 23. i dont know 24. i dont have one. they all kinda just look like stars to me.. 25. ^^ 26. wtf is that 27. heights. spiders. snake. most bugs in general. sleeping bags. 28. absoultely  29. no 30. H.A.M.I.L.T.O.N 31. i get startled pretty easily but like actually scared, a little less easly 32.fuck alot. ummm i think 14 not including all the fish ive had 33.well its anon so... 34. idk. 35. new york,  paris, austria, irleand,  36. in the same town i have lived in my whole life 37. meduim brown  38. both.. 39. naw 40. both 41. my mutals  42. my best friendsssss 43. i want another percing on my ear 44. ig 45. no 46. no thank you :) 47. i hate the sound of things being hit on metal 48. lin manuel mirandas voice <3 49. nope 50.NOPE 51. LIN. MANUEL. MIRANDA.  52. HAMILTON 53. im feeling good 54. the color that it is..... 55. idfk 56. listening for music 57. not that i know of  58. it means elizard hamilton 59. music. friends. art. thats probably not what it meant but idk  60. yes  61. being and asshole 62. hamilton and fanfics, mostly  63. idk what this means 64. DOGS. CATS. PANDAS. MOST ANIMALS. 65.i have wayyyy more than three tho..... 66.  idk. 67. i dont have one. 68. i dont know what that is... 69. aquaruis...? 70. no ones old and ones dumb 71. probably my pjs or my london tshirt and jeans/leggings 72. if anyone reminds me i will lol. i doubt anyone will read all of these tho. 73.yes but i dont wear them cause i cant walk in heals 74. idk.... 75. fuck no 76. yea 77. YES I LOVE SWIMMING 78. swimmingggg 79. wasps 80. every broadway show ever to be profretionally recorded. 81. i have two in each ear but i rarely wear the bottom one 82. paiting 83.any one of my best friends. 84. memes. depressed people. fandoms 85.166 86. fuck no. 87. nope. like %80 of the time they dont match 88. sometimes 89. amithest. 90. idk 91. daisiessss 92. idfk 93. 0-2 94.read minds 95. ..idk 96. WINTER 97. idk 98. this ass hole i used to be friends with. he was a racist dick and very toxic 99. i d k  100. idk 101. converse 102. Washington 103. No 104. idk  105. yes 106. some  107. nooooo 108. most things lol 109. kinda 110. idk 111. idrk 112. yea but just like tiny spiders 113. yessssssss 114. sunny unless its raining 115. i dont know. 116. i  dont fuccking know 117. blue...? 118. i wishhhh 119 personality 120. vegitables 121. watch hamilton 122. sky 123. sweet, i dont like sour things 124. dim 125. no 126. idk 127. my friends <3 128. what does this mean... 129. idfk 130. my brother  131. basically everything about me  132. sometimes but not really. 133. computer 134. FUCK YEA 135. no 136.what? 137. no 138. 6.7 139. ri ri, ri, genie, honey, riles, bitch, eliza, weirdo, trash, riley elizabeth gene (not my name) 140. no  141. once. but i was super awkward and didnt talk the enitre time amd never saw her again. i probably need theriapy  142. good 143. giving 144. racists, terfs, people who are assholes 145. 1 146. boys 147. what is that 148. my eyes :P 149. idk 150. lexi. peggy. alex. 151. early brodway era 152. yes. sometimes its a problem 153. LOL IM SINGLE  154. yess 155. yos. espisally when my friends hate it so i do it to mess with them 156. my family. talking about my life with my family. sharing things i like with my family, talking about who i like. 157. preforming 158. how i met my best friend. its a long story but ill say if anyone wants me to 159. 142 160. 3563 161. 7 162. 4641 163. i dont know 164. long 165. probably now is the longest its been. or like kindergarden lol 166. ? 167. no 168. a little 169. hell naw 170. yea.

HOLY FUCK THAT TOOK SO FUCKING LONG

thank you anon

[chasseurdeloup-retired]

Fowl Language || Nate and Kaden

TIMING: Current LOCATION: Nate’s Apartment PARTIES: @deadicated-nate and @chasseurdeloup SUMMARY: Nate’s birb gotta go :/

After a long few days of trying to get some fresh air, Nate was thrilled to be spending his day off cleaning up around the house and trying to teach Alea some new words. She was an incredibly fast learner, always impressing Nate with how quickly she added new words to her vocabulary. On one of his trips out of the house, Nate had gotten her a whole new gang of toys to reward her and she seemed in good spirits. For the first time in weeks, Nate felt at peace. He opened the blinds, let some sunlight in and brought his feathered friend out into the living room so they could enjoy the golden June sunset. His peace was cut abruptly short at the sound of a loud rap on his door, a sound so out of place that it caused him to jump a good foot and a half in the air. “Someone’s at the door! Someone’s at the door! Uninvited!” Nate cooed at Alea, attempting to calm her before heading over to see who was interrupting him. It wasn’t like Nate got too many visitors. He pulled open the door slowly, peeking around the edge to see who was standing on the other side, his mouth dropping. “Kaden? Problem, officer?”

There was a lot of shit going wrong in Kaden’s life. So much shit. But he could make one thing right. Even if the person in question didn’t want his fucking help, they were going to get it. They’d thank him later. Alright, no, they probably wouldn’t but he could sleep a slight bit better at night. Not that the aravo in Nate’s apartment was really keeping him awake but it was the fucking principle of the matter. He’d gone to the “pet shop” on Amity and sure enough, all monsters, no fuccking legitimate permits to speak of. Kaden was having trouble getting the place completely shut down, but he did at least get the paperwork of the “pets” sold to customers to follow up on. Nate was one of them. Easy enough to get his address and head over there. “I have a warrant for your unlicensed bird,” he said, biting back his smile from being too wide. He was off to a cordial start, really. “Or you can just let me in and we can cut the crap.”

Nate shrunk back, closing the door slightly in front of him. He had the right permits. The shop gave them to him! God, was this dude just a huge dick for no reason?? Nate hadn’t done anything to make him hate him or his poor bird! Not to mention how much good Alea had done him, keeping him company and erasing the sinking loneliness of the home he’d once built for him and his love. “Why?” His eyes were imploring. What did it matter if Alea was an exotic pet? Even if she was illegal, what was it to this guy? What Regan could see in the guy, Nate would never know. Nate pulled himself up, trying to look intimidating and failing. “You can’t.”

Kaden sighed. It was going to be the difficult way, wasn't it? He pulled out the papers and showed the warrant. “I can. That’s how warrants work. Please don’t make this worse.” He had every confidence this was only going to get worse. “I really don’t want to force my way in if I can avoid it. The pet shop you got him from? Illegal business. Sorry, but I need the bird.” The real question was if he was going to be forced to kill it right away or if he could actually cage the thing first. Guess he’d see. He put his hand against the door to make sure it didn’t shut in his face. No pressure on it. Yet. “You been having any issues with your voice?”

Nate’s brows furrowed. Maybe if the guy knew how important Alea was to him, that she wasn’t just some bird, some pet that could be replaced. She was more than family, she was his only true friend. Nate had told her so many things that haunted him, fears he hadn’t told Morgan or even Nell when he was drugged. But he didn’t go against the law. Head falling down, Nate opened the door, allowing the man to enter. But he couldn’t give up without a fight. “Just- leave her,” he croaked. Cocking his head, he furrowed his brows again. “My voice?” Sure, sometimes it was hard to choke out the words he wanted, but it’s not like he had strep or anything. He was just nervous. A lot. And allergies. “No...why?”

Kaden stepped inside and searched for the bird. With the squawks and rustles of feathers, it wasn’t hard to find. He kept his eyes fixed ahead, not wanting to deal with whatever stupid attachment the guy had to the monster in question. It was never fun dealing with beasts that looked like pets, tricked humans into thinking they were friendly. Didn’t change what he had to do. Who knew how many voices this had. “Nothing? Never felt a little hoarse around your bird?” His eyes narrowed at the animal. “Go away! Uninvited!” it squealed out. Not sure why he figured it wouldn't put up a fight. “Just asking because they have uh...” Powers. They had powers. “Well they typically cause most people to have, uh, allergies. You know. All that.”

Nate hovered behind Kaden as he made his way deeper into the house, his eyes fixed on the back of the man’s head. He wondered if it made him feel good to take people’s pets away, members of their family. Just because of some darned paperwork. He tried to give Alea a consoling look, but her feathers were rustled and she was dancing side to side on her perch, clearly not a fan of their visitor either. “No.” He said firmly, crossing his arms. “W-what difference? Hm?” He coughed into his elbow. Summer blooms messing with his lungs. “What difference does that make?” He moved to try to stand between the animal control officer and his new best friend, his face imploring. “She didn’t do anything wrong.” “Nothing wrong! Nothing wrong!” Alea echoed.

Kaden’s eyes narrowed as he looked at the guy, coughing and sputtering a little. It wasn’t a certainty that the bird was stealing his voice, maybe it was just allergies, but that wasn’t a chance he was going to take. He reached out to the creature, but before he could do much of anything, Nate was standing in front of him. He couldn’t help but huff and roll his eyes. The voice that came out of the bird sounded almost human. Right. Nothing wrong. “That doesn’t mean you can keep her. I’m sorry. You got pulled into a scam. I’m just trying to uphold the law.” He tried to keep his tone sincere. And he did mean it. Losing a pet, even if it was a monster, it sucked. And a replacement wasn’t the same. Not when it came to animals. “Please step aside,” he pleaded. Without waiting, the bird cawe, “Nothing wrong!” and leapt from her perch and flew beak first at Kaden, wings sprawled and talons out.

Nate didn’t want to interfere with the law, but he’d already lost so much in this life, couldn’t he have just one thing that was good? One thing that was his? He was about to throw his arms out in protection when Alea rocketed into the air, her claws looking for purchase in Kaden’s skin. “Alea! No! Bad girl!” The bird shrieked and inhuman noise, feathers flying about the room. “Bad! Bad! Bad man!” She shrieked, attacking the officer with a fury Nate had never seen before. He flung himself across the room, trying without success to grab onto her leg. “What’s- Alea! What’s gotten into you!!”

The talons dug into his arm as Kaden tried to shield his face from the attack. He tried to throw his arm away and shake the creature off, blood flying as he yanked it back. Aw, shit, another fucking scar. Or five. Something like that. He took the cage in his other and and whipped it around to try and hit the bird as it squealed in his face. “Nothing wrong, huh?” Kaden yelled as he ducked to avoid another attack, this time with the beak aimed directly at his eyes. When he came there, he had no plans to pull out his knife on the fucking bird in front of Nate but that ship had fucking sailed and reached back for his weapon as blood dripped down to his palm, coating the handle. “This.” He swung out at the bird, blade trying to strike at flesh and not just feathers. “Is why.” The feathers whacked him in the face. “These fucking birds.” Talons by his back, he ducked rolled. “Are illegal!”

Nate flitted around the room, his hands on his head. What the heck was he supposed to do?? Alea had never acted like this before, but she clearly hated this guy. And who wouldn’t?! Before he knew it, Kaden had a flipping knife in his hand and was slashing wildly at his pet. “STOP! Stop what are you doing!!” Nate dropped to the floor as Alea dove over him, narrowly avoiding Kaden’s blade, screaming all the while. “Monster! Monster!!” Tears began to form in the man’s eyes as he watched the scene unfold. Today was supposed to be a relaxing one! Not filled with some asshole trying to kill his pet!

The edge of the knife only struck a small bit of the bird’s flesh but a squeal rang out through the apartment. “It’s attacking me!” Kaden yelled out. And the violence only encouraged the aravo to  strike out at him again. The beak grabbed at his ear and pulled. Kaden screamed out in pain and rammed his knife into the bird and it let go. Putain de merde, that hurt. “Either control your fucking mon-- BIRD or I have to put it down!” He had no hope that Nate would calm this bird down, but in the off chance he could, he’d like to avoid another puncture to his ear. “Stop what are you doing!” The bird’s voice was a mirror of Nate’s for that one moment. Shit. That wasn’t good. Kaden ducked again as the talons swooped towards his back. “Stop your bird or I’ll have to! If you can even talk anymore!”

Nate’s heart was racing, grief and panic washing over him in waves. What the heck was he supposed to do?? He wasn’t cut out for this! He had no idea how to calm Alea down, she’d never acted like this before! “B-because- y-y-y-ou attacked her!!!” Wildly, Nate threw himself around the room after the bird, attempting to grab her without getting himself slashed by her talons. Every swipe she took, however, seemed meticulously calculated so that she only ever nicked Kaden. In a desperate attempt to save his bird’s life, he ran to the couch, grabbing the blanket so that it might be a shield of sorts. He’d seen people on Animal Planet do this kind of thing when they captured thrashing, dangerous animals. “Stop what are you doing!” Nate froze, blanket in hand, at the sound of his own voice. It was eerily similar to his own in a way he hadn’t heard before. “Y-you can’t k-k-kill her!!” He begged, his feet firmly planted in place.

Kaden was thrilled to see that Nate was frozen in place as the bird’s talons dug into his back, ripping through Kaden’s shirt and down into his flesh. He screamed in pain as he tried to duck and roll away, but the damage was already done. Kaden whipped around and yanked at one of the wings, hoping to get more than a fist full of feathers but such was his luck at the moment. Another duck from the claws and this time, when he reached out, he got a sizable piece of the wing, the limb this time. He pulled it down out of the air and dragged it towards him, knife raised and ready to thrust down into the heart. But before he could do that, Kaden caught a glimpse of the guy’s face. Fucking hell. Bleeding goddamn hearts were getting to him. He couldn't do it in front of Nate, not looking like that. His grip pinched the wing, hard, keeping the writhing bird in place and he grabbed the blanket with his free hand to wrap the bird in. “Look, I don’t know how much you know. But this bird is stealing your voice. And it may have stolen others.” The beast was scrambling and squawking under the blanket as Kaden tried to wrap it tightly closed. “The only way to give them back is by killing it. Do you understand?” He tried to keep calm and look Nate in the eye, but he knew there was no way this was sinking in. Not now.

Nate didn’t move when Kaden snatched the blanket out of his hand. His heart sunk as he watched the man tackle his bird, his closest friend and confidante for the past few months, preparing not only to take her away, but apparently to end her life all together. Even if she was illegal, Alea didn’t deserve that. Even if she was- stealing his voice? What was this, a Disney cartoon? Nate wasn’t some animated princess and Kaden certainly wasn’t his prince charming. Since when did prince charming murder your pet in front of you?? Maybe he was taking the metaphor too far… “N-no,” he croaked, his voice still struggled against his body to be heard. But that was because he was distraught, not because his Alea was stealing his words! That would be insane! “That- it’s- not p-possible!”

The bag flew a few feet in the air as the bird inside tried to fight its way out. Kaden would have to make a decision fast. There was no way he could keep the bird trapped in there for too long. Those claws and that beak would poke its way through soon enough. “Do you even hear yourself?” he said, rolling his eyes. ”Your voice is cracking every time you ta--” Kaden didn’t get a chance to finish when a voice that sounded just like Nate’s came from the bag. “His voice is fine.” Fucking aravos. Kaden exchanged a glance with the other man, raising a brow and hoping maybe, just maybe, his point was proven. “You teach her all that? Or did she just learn that all on her own? She’s not even repeating anything you said.” Come. On. “I don’t have to do it here, just let me take her. She’ll leave you once she has your voice and you'll never see her again and you won’t be able to get it back.

Nate sank down onto his couch, his arms falling down in front of him. Crazier things had happened to the man than a bird who could steal voices. But he knew Alea, she was sweet and smart and the best pet he could have asked for...right? But the more she thrashed around in the makeshift bag, spitting out phrases in his own voice, only filled with a venom he could never muster. Hadn’t he lost enough? Somehow, he knew Kaden was right, but for the life of him he didn’t want to give the man the satisfaction. Nate felt his heart breaking with every squawk, but he nodded slowly, consenting for Kaden to do whatever he needed to do. It wasn’t like Nate was in the position to fight him, he knew that was a battle he couldn’t win. “Just...quick, please? F-for her?”

If Kaden had a free hand to rub his face with, he would. This was exhausting. Why was a perfectly routine hunting call so fucking exhausting? He knew. Looking at Nate, he knew. Fuck, when did his heart start bleeding over bullshit like this? “I’ll take her outside, alright? If you want.” It felt like the least he could do. This wasn’t like being there when putting down a dog. This wasn’t the pet and the deep bond that this guy clearly wanted from an animal. Kaden hated how much he could relate. “Look, I know it’s not the same. It’s not. But if you want, I’ll waive the adoption fee at the shelter for you. Any animal. There’s plenty. Who don’t take voices.” And by waived he meant he’d just pay it for him. It still felt cheap and hollow. Animals couldn’t be replaced. Monsters should never be kept as pets and it was an unfortunate situation, but the sentiment remained.

Nate looked up at the man who was about to murder his pet through tear brimmed eyes. He didn’t like this man before, and today was doing no favors for their relationship, but he could see that Kaden at least was trying to make this easier. A little. It was a far cry from just not killing his pet, but Nate didn’t see how he’d be able to change the animal control officer’s mind. Especially after Alea proved rather...terrifyingly vicious. Tears began to spill over onto his cheeks and Nate dropped his head into his hands. “J-just go. P-please.” All he wanted was this nightmare of a day to be over so he could wallow in the loss of his pet alone.

Kaden gave a small nod and awkwardly tried to drag the blanket with the bird as well as the cage he brought with him. It would be great if it were quieter or more graceful but it was the best he could do. Once he was outside, he took the knife and dug it into the bird’s heart. Or where he hoped it was. The struggle ended and Kaden watched as the chet fell and air released from the lungs. The sounds of a handful of voices floated up to the air and then dispersed in all directions. One small breath of voice floated to the door he’d just left. Even if the man inside didn’t appreciate anything he’d just done, Kaden knew something ended well at least. Not much, but it would have to be enough.

[commonly-mediocre]

Venting

I’ve been so bored lately. Feeling numb yet, so full of emotions I don’t understand, all I want to do is cry. I usually call it my nervous energy; you have energy but are tired, you can’t do anything productive but it makes you want to scream, and cry and hurt yourself and bang your head against the walls, but instead you just exist uncomfortably. You can’t scream because you’re not insane, you can’t cry because there’s nothing sad or tragic enough in your life worth crying over, you can’t punch the walls because you’re not dramatic, you cant make yourself bleed because you don’t want anyone to see. That’s when I want to starve myself the most, fucck I don’t know what is, but something fuccking hurts inside me so goddamn much and I just want it to go away so bad. I can’t explain to people and even if I did they’d say I need to stop whining, even if they didn't they wouldn't’ understand. I want people to see how bad I’m hurting god I’d rather be dizzy and weak and collapsing than whatever it is that I’m doing now. Weed and alcohol helps but they make me say things I’d rather keep to myself, they make me act in ways that keep me up at night embarrassed, I just don’t have enough control of myself. If I’m being honest I don’t even want to get better. I am so selfish I know, so pathetic, and I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. After all, others have it worse. But that’s who I am, I’m not a good person I’ve accepted it so yeah I’m selfish and attention seeking and yes I want people to see how I feel on the inside, and I want them to care and worry and take care of me, and maybe if I starve myself and stay strong they’ll be able to see it on the outside. 

[illusioncanthurtme]

zadr for the ship thing

Yaaayy!! Thank youuuu ok here we go

Who said “I love you” first

Dib probably, Zim doesnt exactly understand what ily means so he expresses his feelings in actions instead (that are horribly hard to read as affection)

Who would have the other’s picture as their phone background

BITCH dib ALREADY has zim as his phone bg before they even date you kidding me??? like some cryptid picture of zim out of his disguise

Who leaves notes written in fog on the bathroom mirror

Zim. saying smth like “youre dead meat”

Who buys the other cheesy gifts

Zim. Something from his planet thats lowkey a ploy to kill dib

Who initiated the first kiss

Dib

Who kisses the other awake in the morning

Dib

Who starts tickle fights

Dib. Zim is fucking mortified

Who asks who if they can join the other in the shower

Zim lol

Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunch

Diiiiibb

Who was nervous and shy on the first date

Dib but Zim doesnt understand why

Who kills/takes out the spiders

Dib, or, zim sees it and within a microsecond fuccking blasts it w like ten lasers

Who loudly proclaims their love when they’re drunk

Honestly??? Both

[emilysarmstrong]

I just want to be able to fucking cook I'm so tired pls don't look at my frying pan I'm fuccking begging you let me do things my way for once or I will have a nervous breakdown

[moodymurda]

shanemundi forever and ever

tw: mention of death

i knew i was going to want to come here for this but i kept putting it off.  thinking about this and everything else it makes me think about hurts so bad. i honestly don’t know where to fucking start. idk. I’m going to try.

so shanemundi. my fucking niggas. my fucking family. my babies. all that shit. shanemundi is what the fans of the shane show are called. (i write this shit like someone reads it, no one reads this shit. download the shane show app tho. they’re also on the podcasts shit if you have an iPhone.) i became aware of who shane was and then the show obviously like mid 2015 thru being subscribed to golf media and listening to golf radio on dash. (for some reason tho i didn’t realize that there was a whole ass community of fans and shit on twitter until 2016. i truly do not know how i had no clue fr. i deadass live on fucking twitter). but anyways, the shane show quickly became one of the most important things in my life. it became something that got me through the day. i’d listen to the live show and then re listen throughout the day whenever i felt like i needed to. even then tho, i don’t think i realized just how much that show was going to mean to me. I’m just thinking back to the headspace i was in in 2015, i would not be able to comprehend what the fuck happened. i wouldn’t believe this shit.

so anyways like i said, i realized there was a whole ass community of fans on twitter in 2016. i followed a couple people, i really wish i could remember who i followed first and all that. i know it happened around the time where everyone was taking over the shane show snap. i know my takeover was march 7th, 2016. It’s crazy that I was sitting last night and realizing i dead remember that day. like i rememberrrrr that shit, i remember what i did that day and how nervous i was when dc dm’d me the password for the snap bc i was 100% sure my snap takeover was bout to be weak as FUCK. anyways. I remember ru had quoted my tweet and said something along the lines of “i enjoyed your takeover” or something. i remember some of the replies people sent to my snaps and shit. and a couple people dm’d me bout some shit i was talking about on snap, saying they could relate and shit. anyway. I’m all over the fucking place. but recalling this shit is, fuck i don’t know. it’s just like we were innocently just encouraging each other while basically being fucking strangers. we just knew for sure that the shane show and OF were two things we had in common. fuck the fact that that shit is damn near the foundation for all this shit is fuccking crazy.

anyways. we have a twitter group chat for the show now. i am so assy at timelines bruh i can not remember how shit happened i just know what the fuck happened. other shit happened between there but imma make this shit short and sweet so I’m skipping to the twitter gc. i think it got started early 2017. i know it was after cfg 2016 had already happened. it was so that anyone could be in the chat and it wasn’t about like who’s s100 and who isn’t and shit (I’m not going into explanations about what the shane 100 is rn. i don’t have the time i got too many thoughts flowing rn and i gotta get these bitches out. I’m already bad with words and this shit probably don’t make sense already). anyways by this time i had already bonded with some people but honestly the bonds i had grew stronger after this chat was made and i gained some new ones. the chat is a fucking mess to say the least. i say that in the most loving way possible. so many disagreements have gone down in that bitch. full out arguments. so much shade (yassss honey i LIVE!!!!). but one thing you can’t question is how much we all love each other. i really grew to love everyone like family. like i was talking to my mom today about me graduating next yr & my grad party. deadass my main concern was who would be able to make it and how much i just want my friends to be there. I’m thinking about it and i’ve dead talked to these niggas damn near everyday. that shit is fucking crazy. i traveled alone for the first time and i did it with them. fuck. thats crazy thats fucking crazy.

but yea anyways. i guess i gotta get to what i’ve been avoiding now. so a lil while ago someone had added ru back to our chat. now that I’m thinking about it i don’t remember when he left or for what reason. everyone was like “where have you been” etc etc but he never responded. thinking back on it I’m wondering why i didn’t think anything of him not responding to us…. anyway. last night lost came in the chat and was like he hadn’t realized ru was “gone”. when he said gone my first thought was “fuck do you mean we just added him back to the chat”. and i checked to see that he was in fact in the chat. and then i looked at his twitter account and realized his last tweet was december 15th i think. then i started to reconsider exactly what lost meant by “gone”. like “fuck does he mean gone like gone gone” i don’t know bruh. i didn’t want to believe that he meant gone like.. ya know. and i don’t know. i didn’t reply to the chat when i saw it because i just.. i don’t know i don’t know i do not know. i can’t remember who asked what he meant. he sent an article though and the article had a video of a news report attached to it. which i put off watching because i felt like if i didn’t hear it then it wasn’t real. i watched my friends be like “wtf” “is this real” etc in the chat but i was just like nah this can not be for real right now.

i haven’t had to deal with the death of someone that i knew a whole lot yet. the first death of someone in my family that i actually knew and was close to was november 2016. that shit was rough as fuck for me because it was the first ya know. for some reason i thought that the next time i had to deal with it, maybe i wouldn’t take it as hard. boy was i fucking wrong. the thing about death that i guess I’m not understanding is that it’s final and that it kinda just creeps up on you. whatever all of our (meaning shanemundi) last encounters/conversations with ru were, we didn’t know that would be the last one. shit he didn’t know either. makes me wonder like what if, what if niggas knew ahead of time ya know? maybe we (as people. like society) would appreciate shit more. idk. anyway. one part thats super hard for me is that we found out damn near a month later. i guess thats the trouble with internet friends. the only way we know whats going on with each other is when we decide to get on our phones and post some shit. and truly i be checking for my internet friends on social media more than my local friends because they’re less accessible to me and I’m a mom friend at heart. i need to know how everyone is doing. (hi friends if you are reading this. i stalk all of you. like i be seeing all y’all’s tweets and snaps and shit. i love y’all okay. anyway)

ru was probably one of the most dedicated fans to the show. he had a whole ass meme account where he made meme’s related to episodes of the show. that was highkey something i looked forward to, seeing what meme’s he’d make. he was a fucking witness for the world record show. (s/o shane & vanger. they fucking killed that shit. also s/o all my other friends who were witnesses). he went to vanger’s games to support him like.. so much shit. fuck. I’m sure he made sure everyone around him knew about the show. he shit on my music opinions a lot to fuck with me. and he’d always tell me nas was better than jay (nas was his fav, jay is mine.. so you know how that goes) that shit used to be so funny. fuck man.

i feel like at this age a lot of us feel kind of invincible. i truly don’t realize that any day could be my last.. whats going to stop me ya know? i’m 20, i’ve barely gotten to live yet. I do what I’m supposed to, what could possibly go wrong? i didn’t realize that was my mindset until shane kind of said it on the show today. life truly is so precious and we don’t ever sit back and realize that. on top of that, we impact others lives so much with out even knowing it. the HARDEST part about this for me is not my own sadness but knowing that my friends are hurting. Seeing everyone reminiscing in the chat and on the timeline just makes me think did ru KNOW. did he know how much he meant to everyone? and do we realize how much we all mean to one another? There have been times where i’ve felt down & I didn’t bring it up to anyone because I’m not always up to talk about how i feel. But somehow one of them said something in the chat that inspired me, or simply made me laugh & realize whatever was wrong wasn’t THAT big of a deal.

i don’t entirely know what i’m trying to say here because i’m feeling so many things at once. what i do know is that we should all cherish our lives and make the most of it. we should also cherish and love one another because friends/family is all we’ve got. to this day it still amazes me that the shane show brought all of us together. i gained close ass friends from having a fucking radio show in common. HOW THE FUCK.

Rest in peace Ru. Thank you so much for being a friend to all of us, I’m glad to have known you. If any of my friends are reading this, I’ve said it a million times already at this point but I love all of you so much. I hope that you all keep growing and learning and prospering. You can literally have whatever the fuck you want in this world. You guys are deadass the coolest group of people I’ve ever met and I’m so inspired by all of you in different ways. I'm not just saying that, I'm deadass. Shanemundi for fucking ever. I can’t wait until i get to see and hug all of you again.

[alexander-banelightwood]

Shadowhunters 2x7 recap

*Let’s get it on* Plays in the background: This week’s recap of shadowhunters

1) Alec is feelin’ himself and I am feelin’ Alec feelin’ himself, and feelin’ Magnus. Basically lots of feelin’ is going on which is giving me FEELINGS. Yeah. So this week we got to see repressed Alec finally let go a bit and live in the moment, truly enjoying himself for the first time in like ever. I love this. I love seeing Alec just let loose and allow himself to have nice things...aka Magnus. I also enjoyed the fact that Alec went to Izzy for sex advice. The IzzyxAlec sibling bond is so important to me; and I’m glad he was able to get over his shy, or reservedness, enough to ask for help and advice. 

Now my thing with them is that I wonder if they actually did the deed. Based on next week’s promo, Magnus may have stopped them?? Who knows. What I do know is that we got several kissing scenes (r.i.p me) and we got to see Alec basically lip attack Magnus, backing the warlock up, and unbuttoning Magnus’ shirt. We are blessed. The Malec fandom has been living like saints, I tell ya. The balcony scene also killed me just a bit b/c here they are relaxing and kissing like an old married couple. FUCKKKKK OFFF. Too fucking cute for words.

2) Magnus still has doubts. In my opinion I don’t think Magnus really realizes how real this relationship with Alec is. I think he’s waiting for the other shoe to drop in a way just b/c he’s so used to people using him; esp since his last relationship was with an abuser. I’m glad to see Magnus have some reservations to him, that’s a sign of healthy progress when getting out of an abusive relationship. I hope Alec notices these things and continues to ease Magnus’ worries and doubts; b/c I know Alec is cautious for his own reasons but Magnus has just as many reasons to be cautious as well. The fact that he was so surprised that his boyfriend would want to get him a gift just b/c, really breaks my heart. Magnus deserves nice things. Also, I hope they didn’t have sex b/c Magnus never really agreed to sex. He hesitated, b/c he’s still unsure and has doubts, and then Alec silenced him with a kiss. We shall see how it went. 

3) FUCCK, I almost forgot the fact that Malec went portaling around the fucking world on a shopping trip. WHAT THEE FREAK??? Leave me alone to sob at the perfectness of all of this. Can you imagine Alec trying things for the first time? And Magnus trying things for like the thousandth time but it feels like the first time b/c he’s doing it with Alec? Ugh, I can’t even. 

4) Simon is a precious bunny. Like look at my little sexy nerd off having fun and being nervous, and trying to impress girls. I’m glad he and Maia are getting close. I’m still rooting for SimonxMaia. I think she really gets him and will help Simon cope with being a downworlder against his will. He and Maia both have that in common. I also got a taste of Jimon. Dom and Alberto are so great together that the scene they shared, even though it was basic, was so great at the same time. Like, I can just picture Jimon getting along and also arguing about star wars while Alec and Magnus are trying to get it on in the bedroom. I need more Jimon please!!!!!

5) Jace and Izzy are spiraling. I love a good spiraling story line and in this case we get two. Jace is feeling hurt, angry, and left out right now so he’s pouring his emotions into different women to help him forget. He also is still in love with Clary and probably feels like there’s something wrong with him for his feelings, so he’s hoping the women can be an effective distraction. Jace, honey, women aren’t going to fix your problems. But Jace isn’t alone in dealing with things badly. A few episodes ago we saw Alec harming himself to cope with the pain.*Sighs* 

My poor Izzy is really on the drug path now. She’s becoming sloppy and more noticeable with her addiction. I wonder who will notice first. Probably Magnus or Alec, and if not them than maybe a vamp like Raphael? Who knows. I hope they play out her character’s story line well. I want the writers to show that anybody can get addicted. Addiction doesn’t just target certain groups. Wealthy, smart, powerful, and healthy people can easily get addicted as anyone else. I’m kind of upset that Alec gave up so quickly on noticing something was wrong with Izzy. Like I know he’s excited about his new relationship but he noticed something was wrong with her and still allowed her to distract him. 

6.) I’m still salty about Clary. Like how is she just going to taser Luke like it’s no big deal; just b/c she wanted to do things her way. I hope Luke doesn’t let her off the hook. Clary get’s left off the hook for everything, it seems. Only person to put her in her place, (and have a reason to b/c let’s be honest when Alec was putting her in her place it was out of spite b/c he was jealous so he doesn’t count) was Izzy and Izzy only did it b/c she wants some more drugs and she needed Clary off her back. But I will say the end scene with Clary, Jace, and the Angel was really sweet. Hopefully the show won’t draw out the fake incest for too long. 

All in all the episode was good. I look forward to seeing where they’re going to keep taking these characters. I also wonder if Magnus truly believed Izzy’s excuse or not. We shall see. Also, shadowhunter team...STOP FUCKING SPOILING THE WHOLE EPISODE. OH MY GAWWD LEAVE SOME THINGS UP TO THE IMAGINATION. 

[morarchi]

i was thinking i hope, despite not wanting a white heavy coat that i hope future dog had light nails bc theyre so much easier to trim

luckily for me malcolms nervous ass has only like 1-3 dark brown nails so its mostly easy to see

but i remembered o fuck, i missed a call from the breeder yesterday & called back 2or 3 hours later and he didnt pick up. i hate phone calls so fuccking much i certainly hadnt thought ahead to a voicemail. now its the weekend so idk if hed call on that idk idk. could shoot an email but how to human adult conversation ?

so its i assume either the monorchid pup on discount on his fb

or! if pups r supposed to be ready mid-late spring, the time makes sense. my puppy could be born & extant! i want pupy

i decided like at least 2 1/2 years ago on getting a second dog pls lemme see em

[doctormambo]

@trelaws replied to your post “after some issues, it’s finally here! part five of the grinning man...”

RIGHT i finally got the time to sit down and read this and holy shit holy fucck, i wish I could fucking write like u so I could say properly how much i love this- EVERYTHING about this- the voices for the canon characters are crazily bang on (especially osric!!!) and honestly i almost cried at parts dude. this is....so fucking good ugh its like fucking poetic without getting flowery and all the little historical parts are so spot on to the world..and..dude....that kiss

oh my god, thank you so much :3 that honestly means a lot, like i’m always nervous about my writing style x: aaaah! thank you, i’m so glad that i’ve captured them to some degree (osric obviously had to get real scottish up in there). sorry i nearly made you cry, but also not sorry c; aaah, honestly, thank you so muuuuuch! but that kiss made me emotional writing it, so i definitely get u there.