#Fine! I took some time off from work and gym- booked a massage- and actually went to sleep. Stop turning things off!

[bairenalenko]

It's funny how my body can STILL find new and innovative ways to tell me I'm stressed by shutting down a random bodily function I took for granted as a way of telling me to slow down.

[tendouluvr]

not telling them you’re pregnant - f!reader

- fluff, sliiiight angst maybe

- characters: suna, sakusa, semi

- warnings: pregnancy (i don’t go into detail of giving birth or anything), cravings, morning sickness aka throwing up, two mention of the act of sex in semi’s, some cursing

- wc: 1.4k, 888, 946

a/n: it’s f!reader cuz pregnancy but there’s no specific pronouns/gendered terms used

also idk how suna got so long, he was the last one i wrote for bc i couldnt think of anything lmao

[2. iwaizumi, atsumu, kageyama]

SUNA

#! suna has been practicing late into the night the past few weeks

#! there’s a big game coming up and the entire team is feeling the pressure and adrenaline from the crunch time

#! you haven’t been feeling too good lately, a lot heavier and more tired than usual

#! thinking it was just stress from work and the missing presence of your boyfriend, you pushed through it and thought it would go away in the next few days

#! unfortunately, luck wasn’t on your side and you started to get sudden needs to throw up

#! it didn’t take you long to realize why your physical and mental drive have been down lately

#! you’re pregnant

#! or you believe you are

#! you bought a few tests, some of different brands so you can have a variety, and headed home to confirm your suspicion

#! a few minutes later, staring back at you was multiple positive symbols and the bolded ‘PREGNANT’s

#! taking a few deep breaths, you decided to tell suna tonight once he comes home

#! you thought it was better to let him know as soon as possible

#! it wouldn’t hurt anyone plus the faster you rip the bandaid off, the easier it’ll be to deal with it

#! so you waited

#! and waited

#! until 11pm that night, when suna finally came through the front door

#! “tarō! how was practice? can we talk?” you hurriedly greeted him

#! he was taken aback, not expecting you to be right beside him and in his ear as soon as he came in

#! of course you weren’t, you made sure to put some space in between you and him

#! but suna was stressed and tired, so everything is intensified to him at the moment

#! “can you back up?” he mumbled, pushing his way from in front of you to walk to the kitchen

#! “oh, sorry. can we talk?” you sheepishly smiled, hoping he would say yes

#! you’re not blind, you can tell that suna was tired but you really didn’t wanna put this off

#! you were just gonna tell him, he gets surprised, you both talk it out, and then go to bed and continue figuring things out tomorrow morning

#! but before any of that can happen, suna bluntly told you, “no. i’m tired. i’m sure whatever it is isn’t a big deal. can it be tomorrow? i wanna sleep.”

#! you didn’t get to answer before he was already walking away to the bedroom

#! understanding where he was coming from, you mentally agreed to talk to him tomorrow. one day wouldn’t change anything and you’ve seen plenty of people not tell their partners until a few weeks in

#! he was right, it wasn’t a big deal (yet)

#! so you waited until tomorrow

#! and waited

#! and once again, he came home late

#! “hey! can we quickly talk, babe?”

#! “i’m tired. tomorrow, okay?”

#! “oh, okay. night, rin!”

#! “g’night.”

#! night came and there was still no talk

#! this continued on for about 2 weeks, you finally choosing to not care anymore and just let him find out whenever he finds out

#! technically, you could’ve just blurted out a simple, “i’m pregnant.” any point during your nightly five seconds conversations

#! but seeing that he really was tired, springing it onto him would either put him in a full body shock for three days or he just doesn’t fully process your words until three days after

#! a month has passed, your stomach was still barely showing like most women at their one month mark

#! you decided to book an appointment for a checkup, it’ll be while suna’s at practice

#! and that doctor appointment was the exact reason suna found out

#! he was at practice when komori entered the gym

#! he had a doctor’s appointment for his annual checkup, and that’s where he saw you

#! you didn’t see komori, busy reading the directory to find your way to the right office

#! but he saw you on the way out. seeing that you looked a bit busy, he chose not to greet you and just quickly walk to his car lmao why is this funny to me

#! entering the gym, he greeted everyone and apologized for his tardiness even though it was excused

#! walking up to suna, he tapped him on the shoulder and quietly told him, “i saw yn at the hospital earlier. it’s been awhile since we all got together huh, they looked a bit different.”

#! ok so komori, being the smart person he is, deducted that you were pregnant when he saw your finger pointing at the ob/gyn office

#! and he genuinely thought suna knew so his comment was suppose to be a small joke that was meant to tease suna and his sex life

#! suna, however, was confused

#! look different? did you get surgery?

#! “what do you mean?”

#! komori rolled his eyes and gave a sweet smile at suna, “congrats you two! when were you gonna tell the rest of us?”

#! suna: 👨‍🦲 huh

#! “are you guys not pregnant?” he blinked at suna’s frozen reaction

#! suna became unresponsive so komori just walked away mumbling to himself about being sure he read the sign right

#! a loud whistle blew and it shook suna out of his daze, everyone got ready to play a practice game of 3 vs 3 while suna ran over to the coach

#! “hey coach, um i think there’s an emergency at home. can i go? ok thanks.”

#! his coach just stares after him as he sprints off, you think? is there an emergency or not?

#! suna quickly drove home, he may or may not have speed a little, and entered the apartment

#! “yn? baby?” he called out only to be greeted back with silence

#! probably still at the hospital....what were you doing there? he thought to himself while rummaging around the house to find anything that could give him somewhat of an idea

#! he was digging around in the bedroom when you came home, his head so frenzied he didn’t hear the front door open

#! but you heard the ruckus from the bedroom and immediately went into fight or flight

#! panicking, you took out your phone to call suna while quietly opening the front door to make your way back out before the intruder catches you

#! the phone rang and rang until it was picked up. “suna?” you whisper-yelled into the speaker. you had a habit of calling him by his last name when you were freaking out. he noticed and was equally alarmed

#! “what’s wrong?” he whispered back just as panicked

#! “there’s someone in our apartment. can you come home?”

#! “huh? oh, are you home?” he cackles into the phone speaker making you move the phone away from your ear, “it’s me, sweets, c’mere.”

#! you warily walked on your tiptoes over to your bedroom, peeking your head in and what a surprise, it is suna

#! “jackass! why are you home?!”

#! “why didn’t you tell me?” he cut straight to the point

#! “huh?”

#! “you’re pregnant. when were you gonna tell me?” his voice sounding stern, but the quiet smile dancing on his face tells a different story

#! “i tried.”

#! “huh? what do you mean?”

#! “all those times i asked if we could talk. i was trying to tell you.”

#! his heart dropped, eyebrows furrowing, while he stared you down

#! suna became unresponsive once again, standing there trying to think back to the first time you asked him

#! two weeks ago

#! “i’m sorry,” he quietly whispers

#! “hm? i..it’s fine....i was a bit sad, but i’m over it. at least you know now,” you casually shrugged it off like it wasn’t a big deal

#! “no. i shouldn’t have pushed you aside like that. even if you weren’t pregnant, even if you had just wanted to tell me about some stupid video you saw that day, i shouldn’t have told you off. i’m sorry, i love you a lot and you deserve so much better.”

#! “tarō, shut up. i accept your apology and i forgive you, now make it up to me by giving me a back massage while i show you the ultrasound pictures!”

#! he kisses you before lifting you up bridal style making his way to the bed

SAKUSA

#! contrary to popular beliefs, sakusa is not an obsessive germaphobe who finds everything disgusting but you

#! he wouldn’t be playing volleyball if he was that afraid of germs,,,,,

#! yes, he cringes if random little kids grab onto him after games because 1) he’s drenched in sweat and that feeling is not fun

#! 2) he doesn’t even know themmm

#! and 3) he wanna go home

#! but sakusa loves you and if you happened to get pregnant, he would love your kid(s) just the same

#! however, he never told you this. he never really had a reason to voice this out loud

#! so when you actually did get pregnant, you were confused

#! the only interactions between sakusa and kids you’ve seen multiple times were the moments between him and his fans

#! you guys have been to family parties and his nieces, nephews, and cousins looooves him

#! maybe it’s the fact that he’s a tall looming giant and they just want to climb

#! but besides those moments, you don’t recall him ever telling you upfront that he wants children of his own

#! and the constant stress and pressure he always seem to be working around also doesn’t help reassure you in any way

#! being an athlete for a living means always watching your body, health, and looks for the cameras (but omi could care less about the last thing)

#! he also has to make sure whether or not he’s working well with his teammates, practice and improve on anything he’s having problems with, and deal with atsumu’s dramatic ass

#! you’re an overthinker and because of that, all of these reasons were just reasons for you to postpone the pregnancy news to your long term boyfriend

#! it wasn’t too hard anyway, considering practice runs late sometimes and he’s busy majority of the time doing other stuff

#! when you guys do have alone time together, you both are so focused on one another that you actually forget that you’re pregnant and you never told him

#! you’re about to hit the three months mark now — time goes by fast — and sakusa has noticed you and your body changing

#! at first he just thought you were going through a phase of cravings and a bit of bloating, so he didn’t mention it and just let you be

#! he never got to witness you getting morning sickness because he goes on early runs or he was just out doing morning errands so he wouldn’t have to deal with it later that day

#! so when he caught you in the kitchen cutting up a lemon, the last thing he was expecting you to do was bring the lemon directly up to your mouth

#! “uh, what are you doing?” his deep voice caught you off guard, effectively stopping the hand that was holding the lemon

#! you just stare at him, not wide-eyed, not surprised, just stare

#! “eating a lemon.”

#! “i can see that.... why exactly?”

#! “dunno, the baby i guess.” you casually shrugged it off before popping the lemon slice into your mouth

#! “ah-,” he opened his mouth to stop you from eating the lemon, your words not fully processing in his mind, but cut off midway and froze when he finally realized

#! hearing him pause like that made you suddenly remembered that you never told him you were pregnant

#! you slowly turned back to look at him, mouth still slowly chewing the lemon slices

#! a moment of silence later, he unfreezes and just starts stiffly walking towards you

#! he grabbed you by the shoulders, made you look him in the eyes, before whispering, “you’re pregnant?!”

#! “y-yes..”

#! his eyes were wide, black pupils expanding as he stared you down, his lips slowly curving into a small smile

#! “you’re pregnant....,” he whispers, mainly to himself, hugging your head into his chest

#! “mhm, get off me i’m trying to eat,” you gently pushed him off but he wouldn’t budge

#! “omiiii please, if you get off i’ll give you a slice,” you tried bribing him. he couldn’t tell if you were being serious or just teasing

#! “no.”

#! “um ok, two slices?”

#! “no.”

#! “omi!”

#! he giggles before opening his arms to let you go

#! “why didn’t you tell me?”

#! you didn’t reply right away, making him start to overthink

#! did you not want the baby? or did you not want a kid with him? did you not want to be with him anymore? or was it not his?!

#! he childishly shakes his head side to side at the last question. he knew you wouldn’t do that

#! but you were still silent, making him nervously glance at you from the side

#! “sorry, piece of lemon stuck in my teeth. i just forgot to tell you,” the words easily flowing out of your mouth nonchalantly

#! sakusa’s fingers were literally about to start twitching from anxiousness beside you

#! a sigh of relief was heard from him and you turned to look at him

#! “you okay?”

#! he doesn’t answer, just gives you a smile and goes back to hugging you from behind

SEMI

#! you were currently sitting on the couch in your shared apartment waiting for semi to come home

#! he’s been on tour for a few months now, you both kept in touch by facetiming, texting, calling, and any other methods of virtual communication

#! you would tune into the live recording of all of his performances when you had time so you could watch him

#! a few weeks into tour, you suddenly felt different than usual but shook it off as nothing and probably just you missing your boyfriend

#! you believed that until one morning you were woken up by the sudden urge to throw up, dashing to the restroom as fast as your drowsy body can go

#! it was then that you realized you might be pregnant

#! the night before semi left, you both had sex to enjoy your last few hours together before he had to leave for a few months

#! with the new realization, you quickly dressed yourself to make a short trip to the store to pick up some tests

#! after half an hour of looking at yourself in the mirror, trying to wrap your head around this, you finally opened the first box

#! a few minutes later, all 5 tests were lined up on the bathroom counter showing positive

#! you stared at the tests, trying to make sure you weren’t reading it wrong

#! once you began to understand the responsibility of being pregnant a few hours later, you made a mental note to go out and buy some food for yourself the next day

#! you decided to sleep off the rest of that day

#! through all of the facetime calls with semi, you never once told him you were pregnant

#! you knew that if you told him he would freak out and either demand to go back home, or stay but all of his attention would be on you being pregnant alone at home for the rest of the tour

#! so here you are now, sitting with a 4 1/2 months baby bump waiting for your beloved to come home

#! it was around 6pm when the front door opened, sounds of shuffling bags and heavy steps could be heard from the musician

#! he cursed under his breath when he almost tripped over a duffle bag with some of his loungewear, calling out for you as he walks further into the apartment, “baby? i’m home!”

#! he was about to speak up again when he saw you asleep on the couch

#! bouncing his way over, he got onto his knees at the edge of the couch to observe your face. god i miss you, he thought to himself

#! he gently shakes you awake, you jolted in surprise not knowing you fell asleep in the first place

#! “hmm- what?,” soft murmurs falling from your lips as you adjusted your eyes at your surrounding

#! “eita!” he grinned at you, both of you pulling each other into a hug

#! “fuck, i miss you so much.” he whispered into your ears before placing his face into your neck

#! “i miss you more.” you tightened your grip around him making him move up on the couch to get more comfortable

#! you both moved around until he had you cradled in between him, your back against his chest

#! his hands going under your his shirt to caress you there when his movements stopped right on top of your stomach

#! it was silent as his warm hands rubbed your stomach in circles, the gears turning in his head

#! “are you- you feel- why’s your tum so round and hard?” he quizzically asked, still rubbing your stomach

#! “pregnant.” your voice a low whisper, he almost didn’t catch it

#! “what?”

#! “pregnant.” you repeated, a bit louder this time

#! “huh?”

#! “pregnant!” you sighed, moving his hand so you can get off of him

#! he grabs your wrist to stop you from walking away and turns you to look at him

#! “you’re pregnant?!”

#! “i just said that. yes.”

#! you knew you sounded blunt and a bit mean, it wasn’t his fault he doesn’t know at all, but your hormones have been making you crankier and it’s out of your control

#! “sorry. yes, i’m pregnant.”

#! his eyes continuously darts up and down from your eyes to your bump

#! “how long?”

#! “since you left.”

#! “was it the night before?” he was referring to your act of intimacy the night before he left

#! “yea.”

#! “wow. why didn’t you tell me?”

#! “because.”

#! “‘cuz what?”

#! “because i know you. you would either stop touring and come home, or stay but lose focus. i was just trying to not distract you because i know how important your career is to you. and because i thought that you’ll be having a six months break after this tour before your next comeback, i would tell you when you came home. i’m sorry if you’re ma-,”

#! “i’m not mad. oh don’t cry, babe, look at me.”he carefully cups your face, “it’s okay, it’s okay. i get why you kept it from me. and now that i have no schedule for the next six months, i can be there for you until the end of your pregnancy and the beginning of our baby’s life alright?”

#! you weakly nodded against his palms, and he brings you back down to lay your head on his chest as you both softly talk about the past months without each other

[beels-burger-babe]

A Pain You'll Soon Regret - Pt. 2

Poly! MC Summary: MC and the demon lords get in a fight resulting in MC leaving. They planned on going to Purgatory Hall until things cool off, but they never quite make it there. Ft. Poly!MC

TW: Heavy Angst, Violence, I don't know what to tag this, but there is a pretty nasty verbal fight, Gore/Injury Vomit Part 1: HERE, Part 3: HERE, Part 4: HERE

Meanwhile at the House of Lamentation

Your leaving hadn't made the situation at the House any better. Asmodeus threw his hands up in the air and glared at the rest. "Great! Just wonderful! Now they've run off. Happy now?" venom filled his words, but he could feel his heart race in fear that he had just lost the one person who loved him for more than his looks. Satan scoffed, though he glanced at the door through the corner of his eyes. "Don't act like you're better than us. I didn't see you standing up for them." Levi growled and went straight to his room as Satan and Asmodeus began to argue. Beel took a step towards to door you had just marched out of and glance between it and his brothers. "Should we go after them? It's dark and they're drunk."

Lucifer lifted his chin as he crossed his arms over his chest. "Why should we? It's like they said, they don't want to depend on us anymore, fine. Let them see for themself how far they get without our protection," with those words, Lucifer turned on his heel and stormed to his office.

Beel sighed and looked at Belphie, "What do you think? We can go get them together?" Belphie stared at the door for a minute, a guilty look in his eyes, before he shook his head. "Give them space, Beel. They're probably heading for Purgatory Hall. Simeon and the others can take care of them for tonight. Right now we all just need to calm down before facing each other again," he patted his twin's shoulder before heading to their room; regret swirling in his stomach as he thought of how he betrayed you once more.

Mammon stood frozen staring at the door like he still hadn't made up his mind on what he wanted to do. His instincts screamed at him to get you back in his arms and keep you there. You were his human, reckless or not, and he had a duty to protect you both as your assigned protector and as your boyfriend. But for some reason, he couldn't seem to move his feet. His mind replayed the discussion in his head over and over again. He had once told MC that if they couldn't be saved by him, to make sure that they died. That he was the only one allowed to protect them. Tonight, as everyone was fighting, MC needed him to protect them, but instead, he pushed them towards the wolves. He let his greed get the best of him. "Fuck," Mammon cursed to himself as he shook himself out of his thoughts. He glanced over to see Beel restraining Satan from pouncing onto a sneering Asmodeus. He sighed and shook his head. They hadn't fought like this in a long time. You had always been there to put them into their place. Now look at them. Mammon groaned and ran a hand over his face. "Will you guys cut it out? MC is gone, okay? Ain't nothin' we can do about it now," to his surprise, his younger brothers actually stopped and seemed to be listening to him. Mammon huffed and began walking towards the stairs. "It's like Belphie said. We ain't in no place to make things better right now. Fightin' like this is what got us in this position, so quit it. Get some sleep. We'll figure it all in the mornin'." Beel, Satan and Asmodeus blinked at their older brother as he disappeared upstairs. Seeing Mammon mature and take control of the situation like that, was strange, but not unfamiliar. Asmodeus massaged his temples with one hand and fixed his hair with the other. "Ugh, all this fighting is going to be horrid for my skin," he glanced at the door one more time with a defeated look before heading towards his room. Satan clenched and unclenched his hands a couple of times, taking a few deep breaths, before silently nodding at Beel and walking away. All alone, Beel stepped towards the door. He opened it and looked out at the dark vast of the Devildom before him. With a heavy, guilty heart, he closed the door and pressed his forehead against it. He used one hand to lock the door for the evening, while the other pulled out his D.D.D. The others didn't want him going after you, but a message couldn't hurt, right? He opened your contact and wrote out his text, "Hey MC. I'm sorry for how things happened tonight. Things got out of hand, and I'm sorry for not doing anything to stop that. I know you and the others are upset right now, but I was hoping that tomorrow, once we're all calm, you could come back home and we could talk about it?" Beel sat by the door for half an hour waiting for a response, but none ever came. He frowned and glanced up at the locked door handle before shaking his head. "Maybe they left it on silent for a bit," he mumbled to himself before picking up his phone once more. "Text me when you get to Purgatory Hall. You don't need to say anything else. I just want to know you're safe." With that, Beel headed towards the gym. He wasn't tired. He wasn't hungry. He just wanted you home, but he couldn't have that. So in the meantime, he'd stay awake until he at least knew you were safe.

Only the morning came and went, and there was no word from you. The brothers were starting to get concerned. No matter what was said last night, they still loved you. You all needed to talk, yes, and things needed to be worked out, but that didn't change how they felt for you. They would never want to see you hurt. Lucifer had reached out to Simeon, while Asmodeus contacted Solomon and Beel texted Luke. Only Beel received a response. "Never contact me again. If you come anywhere near Purgatory Hall, I will not hesitate to smite you in an instant, you foul fiend?" Satan read out loud as he passed the phone back to a very confused and worried Beel. "What in the world did you do to him?" "Nothing. At least, I don't think," he thought about for a second. "I've stolen his baked goods on occasion, but besides complaining about as I did it, he never seemed to hold a grudge." Lucifer frowned deeply. "This is clearly about MC. Luke has taken to them as though they're his older sibling."

Levi scowled and pressed a few buttons on his game. "Sure they aren't dating him too?" he yelped as Asmodeus smacked him on the back of the head. "Stop it," Asmodeus growled. "I know you're the Avatar of Envy, Levi, but MC was open and honest with us. They told us that they loved us all and that they wanted a relationship with all of us. We all listened to what they offered and agreed. You agreed to this!"

Levi huffed and put down his game. "Because it was better than not having them at all!" he sighed and put an arm over his face. "I know that they love me, and them being with a-all of us doesn't change that, but it's so hard sometimes. I-I-I just-" "Want 'em to yourself?" Mammon provided. Levi blushed and nodded in response. Mammon shrugged and sat down beside him. "We all understand that Levi. This is somethin' new for all of us. When I see MC bein' sweet with you guys I get this urge to just rip 'em off ya and hold 'em tight in my arms where ya guys can never touch 'em again," he sighed and put a hand on Levi's shoulder, "but then I see MC smile at me the same way they smile at Beel or you or Lucifer. I know that when I'm holdin' them, they're thinkin' of me and they're there with me because they treasure our time together. It's hard sometimes, and it hurts to admit, but you guys make MC happy, and I can't take that away from them." He nudged his younger brother gently, "Neither can you." Everyone sat quietly as they thought of Mammon's words. "They always bring me snacks after my workouts," Beel said with a small smile. "They always seem to know when I'm hungry and would just whip out snacks out of nowhere." Satan leaned onto his knees from where he sat on his chair. "They ordered me their favourite books from the human world on Akuzon. They wanted to do a trade. I'd read their favourites and they'd read mine. That way we could learn a bit about each other just by reading something that the other loved and would understand one another a little better." Belphie tiredly rubbed his eyes and leaned against Beel. "They wake me up after all class and before any meals," he chuckled softly at the memory. "No matter how much I snarled or insulted them, they'd just put their hands on their hips and patiently wait for me to wake up so that I wouldn't miss any of my classes or any meals."

Asmodeus giggled and smiled brightly. "That alone proves how much of an angel they are. Your demon side really shows when you're woken up." The others laughed as Belphegor stuck his tongue out at Asmo. "They would always give me their opinion on my outfits. I know it seems impossible, but even I get torn between which outfit I should bless the public with sometimes. MC would always be the voice of reason to help me choose," his eyes softened, "Though they always said at the end that the most beautiful thing about me was my heart, something no one could see but radiated from the outside-in." Lucifer sighed, closing his eyes as he put aside his pride, and spoke. "They check on me in the middle of the night. I swear they have an alarm. They'll come into my office to see if I'm still awake. If I am, so long as the work isn't truly urgent, they'll poke my cheek and play with my hair until I give in and go to bed."

Everyone turned to Levi. The otaku's face was bright red as he avoided everyone's gaze. "Your turn, Levi," Mammon ordered. "Come on. I know that MC's super gentle with ya. Ya have to have somethin' to add." Leviathan pouted before mumbling. "They'll hold my hand when we're in crowds and in public because they know how anxious it makes me. If I start to freak out, they'll just gently squeeze my hand and pull me along until they can find a quiet space where I can calm down a bit," he groans and glares at Mammon. "What's your point?"

"His point," Satan began calmly, "is that MC loves us all equally. They take special care to do the little things to ensure that we all know that we are loved by them." Mammon nodded and pointed and Satan. "Exactly!" Lucifer hummed in thought. "Though this doesn't fix the problem of MC having no regard for their own safety." Everyone winced. There was no denying that. You admitted it yourself. You were reckless, and in a place like the Devildom, that kind of behaviour would get you killed one day. What would happen if you weren't with them one day? Just like you currently weren't. Memories of your storm out swirled in all of their heads, and concern pooled heavily in their stomachs. "Has anyone heard from them yet?" Belphie asked, looking uncharacteristically nervous. But then again, he was always protective of you as he never wanted you to get hurt again, especially since he had been responsible for so much of your pain in the past. Beel opened his mouth to respond when Asmodeus's D.D.D. went off. Everyone eagerly stood, as Asmo pulled out the device and answered it without checking. "MC? Are you alright?" "Put it on speaker!" Levi snapped, crowding as close to his brother as he could. Asmodeus nodded and quickly did as told. The voice that answered wasn't you, as they had all hoped, but rather Solomon. "I'm afraid they're not," the brother's felt their blood freeze at Solomon's words, as time seemed to stand still around them. Solomon's voice was cold and stern, showing his obvious anger at the demons. "I apologize for not contacting you all sooner, but I was spending every last second of my time and energy on trying to keep MC from dying of blood loss. That, and Luke is quite determined to keep the lot of you as far from MC as possible. If it was up to him I wouldn't even be calling you all right now. I, however, figured that you should at least be made aware of their condition." None of them heard a thing after the words "dying from blood loss" reached their ears. Lucifer took the D.D.D. from Asmo's shaking hands. "What happened? The last we saw them they-" "Presumably walked away from a fight with all of you and was trying to come to us. Yes. I'm aware. I read Beelzebub's texts on MC's phone," everyone glanced at Beel. His brows narrowed as he kept his eyes fixed on the D.D.D. "To answer your question, MC didn't make it to Purgatory Hall last night. They were jumped by a group of three demons who seemed to think that human would make a delectable midnight snack. What do you think, Beelzebub? Is that true? Is the taste of human flesh, really so delicious? I think I've heard you comment as much once or twice before you all began your relationship," Solomon spat the words accusingly. Fury danced on his tongue as though he was Wrath himself. Beel winced back and put a hand on his stomach as flipped inside of him. Belphie growled at the mention in his defence. "Stop dancing around the subject and get to the point. What happened? Are they okay?" The demons were surprised to hear a snarl come from the other end. "I already told you, they aren't. Luke had opened a window to air out some of the kitchens after he failed a new recipe he was trying out when he heard their screams. By the time we got there one of them had eaten half of their right leg, while was one biting along their shoulder, and the other was trying to choke them to death. Simeon and I were able to get the heathens off of them and incinerated them on the spot, but MC was already unconscious. While we were fighting the demons, Luke was just barely able to cast enough healing spells to stop the bleeding and stabilize them. Simeon and I have been working ever since on using every spell, charm, and potion that we know to keep them alive and somehow attempt to heal their injuries." At the mention of MC's leg have been mostly eaten, Beel turned and threw up on the ground. No one moved to comfort him, as they were too distracted by their own states of shock. "A-Are-" Mammon began to choke out before clearing his throat. "Are they

alive? Please tell me they're alive." The answer hung just out of their grasp. Waving dangerously above them like a deadly knife held up by a string. No matter what the response would be, all the brothers felt as though they may faint. "They're alive. Simeon had to use all his power to bring their blood count levels up to a healthy level, and their shoulder was dislocated, they most likely have a concussion going off of their head injury, not to mention their right leg was unsalvagable and had to be amputated, but yes. They are, at the very least, alive." Mammon joined Beel. Satan stood still, though he had changed into his demon form and the aura of pure wrath filled every cranny of the room. Asmodeus held a hand over his mouth as tears streamed steadily down his face. Leviathan had stumbled away from the group and was in the beginning stages of a panic attack. Belphie stared at the phone with a bewildered expression, his eyes pricked with tears, as though he couldn't believe the words coming from Solomon's mouth.

Lucifer was doing everything he could not to hurl the phone across the room.

Solomon continued. "Luke is currently watching them and making sure that they remain stable, while Simeon and I rest. As such, you will have no luck if you try to see them right now. I'll text you when I wake up and then you can come to see them," with that, Solomon hung up. Anxiety, grief, and remorse clung to each of the brothers like a new skin. Earlier they were arguing that all of them had your love, and because of that, all of them had nearly lost you. ***Duh duh duh!!! Part three to come. Part three will probably be the final part, but I don't know. Haven't quite figured out how this is going to end yet. Though a heads up, a may fill out another request before pt. 3 is up just to give me a break from the heavy angst. Thank you all so much for supporting me! And thank you to @millenniumofpain for the request!***

[joshslater]

Quarantine & VR

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“Are you sure you’re OK with this?”

We were slowly driving through an eerily empty city center from my student flat next to campus on one side of town to Ethan’s flat on the other, with all my belongings stuffed in the back of the U-Haul. Not that I had so much stuff we needed one. I just moved into the state right before the semester started, but it was the cheapest rental we could get. No one is going anywhere with this lockdown in effect. We barely had time to read the syllabus before everything screeched to a halt. You thought we’d know by now how to handle pandemics, but nooo.

“I wouldn’t have helped you clear out your shit if I wasn’t. Bit late to ask now.” “Yeah, but it seemed like the polite thing to do.”

Ethan turned towards me and spoke with a more serious tone. “I’m really happy to have you stay at my place. I think I would go mad staying alone. Go mad or go home, and I don’t think being locked up with the parents would be better.”

He was about as new in the city as I was, but his aunt had moved out of an old apartment last year and his parents had decided to take over the lease. Apparently it was even cheaper than the student apartments and much larger, but further away from campus. Though where it was in the city didn’t really matter as long as this lockdown was going on.

“Someone else is out at least”, I said indicating out the window. Across the street, a police officer with a navy blue face mask followed our truck with his eyes. Or her eyes I guess. Hard to tell in uniform and mask. I don’t know why, but I found it a rather good look. I hate the flimsy paper masks, but these form-fitted ones kind of make you look more badass.

“Do you think he looks sexy like that?” he asked, as if he had the same thought. “It’s a bit dystopian sci-fi, but that’s not to say it doesn’t look good.” “Take next right. The one after is one way.”

The apartment had two bedrooms, a large living room, decent bathroom and kitchen. Ethan’s aunt had left some furniture, but overall there wasn’t that much stuff. Makes sense as he had barely been here a month. That’s how he had a sparsely furnished extra bedroom for me to use. This was only the second time I had been in the apartment. Ethan forced me to have a look in person before he allowed me to agree to stay with him. Now standing there with all my belongings in the truck outside and my student flat lease canceled, I realized we really didn’t know each other. I studied corporate finance and he medical computer science, whatever that meant. When I asked he tried to explain that almost everything in a hospital now has a computer in it, and a ton of work went into things like volumetric renderings of MRI scans and somewhere there I started to tune him out.

There really weren’t any overlapping circles between us, we studied completely different subjects, he was active in computer games and health, I was trying to get into the writing room of the student theatre company and looking to sign up in the cinema club. But both of us had the bright idea to start working in the student pub, and really hit it off during the start of school year party they threw for their workers. We decided to pick the same work schedule and found out we have the same taste in pop culture, music, books, movies.

And now I’m moving in with him.

He had the larger of the bedrooms with a queen-size bed in the middle, a desk with a few computers and screens set up, gaming computer chair, a reading chair. Basically his room was set up so he could live there except for visits to the kitchen and bathroom. My room didn’t have a desk, but a normal bed, an armchair that looked comfortable, and more wardrobe space than I would ever need. He told me that I could basically consider the living room as mine as well. It had two couches in front of a big flat screen. By the balcony door stood a workout bench and weights. Barbell, plates, dumbbells, and that kind of stuff. Apparently it wasn’t Ethan’s but his uncle’s, but that didn’t really make a difference here and now.

Moving my stuff only took a few runs up the stairs, so we were soon back in the truck, returning it to the rental place. Ethan really didn’t have to come with me, but he said that this would probably be the last adventure for a while, and decided to come along.

“You’re supposed to buy pizza and beer for everyone who helps you move, right? What do you fancy?” “I’d like… You know what? We’re not going to get out much, and you don’t look like someone on a strict diet. Oh, no offense!” “None taken.” “How about we both keep healthy macros and workout regimen while locked up. Instead of paying rent you can help me make sure I at least isn’t in worse shape when all this shit ends.” “Macros?” “Diet.” “Sure I can do that, if you show me what to do.” “It’s a deal then. I’d like one with Gorgonzola and ham.” “Come again?” “The pizza topping. I’m allowed one cheat day per pandemic.”

The pizza place was only a block away from the apartment. Just this one time it was great, as we walked back with one quattro formaggi and one bresaola. But it would be so much harder to eat whatever Ethan had in his plans knowing a real wood fire oven pizza was just four minutes walk away.

Unprompted Ethan started to tell his story over pizza. How his father was a successful businessman in Arkansas, but his hometown always felt too small for him. He talked about how he was making synth music in school. How that made him interested in computers. How, since it was such a small town, he had ended up on the football team without any desire or skill to actually play the game. How he had almost by accident found this education program and had looked forward to both leave Arkansas and to study. I too did a year be year recap of my life so far, up to how my girlfriend dumped me just before the summer. In a way that was lucky, because it made me feel free from obligations and actually do what I wanted.

It was 9:21 when I woke up from a knock on the door. I was a bit disoriented for a second until I remembered where I was. I was sleeping in the guest bed left by Ethan’s aunt. After the pizza we did continue to talk over beer all evening, but I didn’t feel any hangover. Just thirsty. It wasn’t that early in the morning anymore on the other hand. “Yep” I called out. “I’m making breakfast,” Ethan called out from the other side of the door. “Coming”.

It literally only took me seconds to get ready. Stand up. Sweatpants. T-shirt. Done. In the kitchen I saw Ethan had a similar fashion sense, but had gone for shorts instead. “Porridge is fine with you? It would be good if it is. Lots of fibers.” I couldn’t really recall if I liked porridge and told him as much. The porridge itself didn’t taste much, but with toppings I could get used to it. “With our schedule in our own hands I think it would be a good idea to start out with breakfast and work out. That way we can get it out of the way.” Sounded sensible enough.

I changed into shorts as well and made myself ready to do my part of becoming Ethan’s gym buddy. At a quick glance we didn’t look that different, Ethan and I. On one hand I never had that big of an appetite, but on the other I had never really done any sports, and had no gym experience, so I let Ethan guide me. He tested different motions and how many times I could do them with weights he selected and noted down the results in a notebook that would log my progress. It wasn’t at all as tiring as I thought it would be. “Oh, you’ll feel it tomorrow for sure.” We each took a shower, and I went back to my room to catch up on my reading.

A few hours later I was starting to think about lunch. More because I was getting tired of reading than actually being hungry, but I thought I should ask Ethan if he had a plan. The door to his room was open, but as I got closer it became apparent it was an oversight on his part. Splayed on the bed was Ethan, naked save for a pair of boxer shorts and a big VR goggles. His right hand was massaging his obviously erect dick through the fabric of his underwear. He must have followed his normal routine and forgotten I had moved in. I’m not a prude and do the occasional tug myself, like any student, so I was more embarrassed than shocked. As on autopilot, my mind decided to ignore Ethan and continue walking to the kitchen to assess the lunch situation, but another part of my brain decided to keep him in sight.

Walking without watching in an apartment I’ve been in for all of 18 hours predictably made me jam my toe into the door frame. In the corner of my eye I could see Ethan’s body spasm and ripping off his VR goggles as I yell out in pain and surprise. He stared right at me, eyes wide open and mouth ajar in an expression that was hard to read. Surprise for sure, but also something else in between horror and delight. Perhaps it was like the smiles and laughter after you have completely made a fool of yourself. My eyes were drawn to his, and I could feel my face twisted in pain. It was like time stood still, waiting for either of us to make the next move. Out of sheer momentum my mind continued ahead as if nothing had changed and blurted out “What’s your plan for lunch?” over whatever Ethan said at the same time.

“What?” and an awkward pause again. “I said would you like to try?” “I… What is it?”

Ethan put down the VR kit on the bed, quickly got up and stepped into his pair of shorts. His erection was still very much apparent. He pressed escape on one of the keyboards and the screen switched from one incomprehensible menu to another.

“It’s a virtual reality system. I’m using an open source environment system to render inputs from an interactive story engine controlled by a GAN AI system. I’ve been experimenting with regenerative NLP feedback loop plugins for it.” “I followed you all the way up to and including virtual reality system.” “It’s like a VR movie that is generated specifically for you. Here.”

He picked up the bulky goggles and held it out to me. It wasn’t just goggles, but a pair of headphones were built in, and there were a few additional sensors glued on. Hesitantly, and with a throbbing toe, I stepped forward and took the headset. It wasn’t as heavy as it looked. I put it on my head and as it settled into place a digital version of Ethan’s room wobbled into place as well. It was remarkably similar. The colors and patterns were all slightly wrong, but the layout of the room and placement of furniture was almost spot on. I assume he had measured everything at one point and put in the data somehow.

“Go lie on the bed.” Ethan told me. I very tentatively stepped towards the bed, and feeling my way there. It was somehow surprised to find a bed where the digital bed was, and although the visuals of the sheets didn’t quite line up with what I felt, if you just moved quick enough the illusion of actually being in the digital room felt very real.

“This is so weird.” “I’ll start a blank session for you.” “A what?”

Almost immediately a guy entered the room through the door frame. This must be some VR video recording or something because he looked completely real. About the same age as Ethan and I but more fit and, I’ll admit, better looking. He looked flush and sweaty, with his french crop unkempt as if he had just ruffled it. He wore a navy blue sweatshirt and sweatpant shorts. I couldn’t see further down from my position. “Fuck, that was so dope! I love getting pump like that, you know what I’m saying” He was stretching his arms in different ways. Then he zoned in on me, like he was actually looking me over. “Fuck, I love how you look, babe. Mind if I join?” I shake my head slowly. He breaks out in a big smile. I notice he has a bit of a sweatpants boner. Carefully he climbs into bed, next to me. There’s no vibrations of course, or heat or smell, but everything I see looks utterly convincing.

“Hey, are you OK?” “What the…”

I’m looking into Ethan’s face as he stands over me. Bewildered I pat my head.

“I removed it once the program stopped. Didn’t shake you from your sleep one bit. I guess it wasn’t that interesting for you.” “It was very convincing. I fell asleep?” “Perhaps moving stressed you more than you knew? Or it could just be, you know, how shit the world is right now.” “Fuck… I only wanted to ask about lunch.” “A bit late for that. It’s like four and something. Let’s wait an hour or two more and have dinner. Ok with you?” “Sounds dope.”

It was like neither of us wanted to talk about what had happened. I certainly had questions. Had I just fallen asleep like that? Perhaps he was right and I had been anxious about the move and how things would work out. And what was up with that program? It wasn’t gay, exactly, and it didn’t mean Ethan was gay, and if he was there wasn’t anything wrong with that. All of it was just so confusing. Perhaps Ethan was right to just pretend it didn’t happen. Poor guy. I walked in on him watching porn, and then I fell asleep when he tried to show his system. Watching the news on how ever more countries were shutting down was probably time better spent.

He had not joked about being sore in the morning. I woke earlier than in weeks feeling stiff as hell. I didn’t want to wake Ethan, but I couldn’t just lie there in agony, so I got up and did some bodyweight repetitions. Squats, push-ups, dips, and stuff like that just to get some blood flowing. It honestly felt great. Me doing morning gymnastics! Who would have guessed that a week ago? When I left my room I found out Ethan was already up, but didn’t want to wake me up.

“Dude, we need to sort that shit out. I’m ok with you making noise when you’re up. You live here.” “You live here too. What if whoever gets up first makes breakfast and wakes the other up.” “Yeah, dope. I’m down with that.”

We quickly worked out the kinks in our schedule. I would typically wake up first, do a quick workout routine in my room. Then set the breakfast and wake up Ethan. Then we would do workout together. We had different weights and number of reps, but we had very quickly settled on the same exercises, though Ethan was still adjusting my form ever so often. Ethan would then shower first while I did stretches. We then kept to ourselves until lunch. Ethan cooked for both of us. Depending on what we felt like and needed we would either go back to study or do something like shopping or that kind of stuff in the afternoon.

It was hard to keep track of time, but I think it was on a Sunday four weeks later when Ethan said during breakfast that he wanted to show me something he had worked on. He moved the workout bench and the barbell stuff to just outside his room and told me to lie down. The bar had no plates on it, and that’s how I’ve used it until two days ago when I started to add extra weight to it. Ethan emerged out of his room with the VR set in hand, and a trail of cables running in into one of his computers. “Here, give this a go.”

I was a bit surprised, given the last time, but I was also curious what he had to show. Once snugly fitted on my head I was transported into a real gym. It wasn’t a very large one, but a few people did their thing around me. He almost scared me, the guy with the french crop, when he called out “Hey, bro!” just to my left. He had the same navy blue sweatpant shorts as the last time, but his upper body was bare, glistening muscles. He took a step back and his eyes were scanning me up and down. “Dude, you look so fucking good! You’ve really been hitting the weights.” I smiled and immediately realized that I was smiling at an avatar that wasn’t actually there and couldn’t see me, but it’s amazing how good some positive reinforcement feels, even if it is from a program. Perhaps that was the surprise from Ethan.

“Here, show me what you got!”

He walked around me, through the couch I knew was there in the real room, and stood behind me. I leaned back fully on the bench and looked up. He stood over me, just behind my head, so all I saw was a navy blue bulge, some abs and pecs, and his face looking down on me. “Go on, I’ve got you.” I could somehow feel him standing over me. Was Ethan spotting me in the real world? Not that it matters with an empty bar. I grabbed it. It felt heavy. “Good. Give me 15.” He started counting as I lifted. “Slower on the way down. Keep control all the way. Ten more” As I was getting to fifteen he upped it a bit. “Come one! Five more!” As I sat the bar back I felt utterly exhausted. “Fucking awesome, dude!”

“You really went all out.” “What?”

I was lying on the workout bench but I wasn’t wearing any VR shit. I sat up and hit my head in the barbell.

“Fuck! Dude, what the hell!” “The idea was for it to be motivational, but you really took it to heart.” “It was fucking dope, bro. I’m so pumped. Guy was kind of cute too.” “You think?” “Fuck, yeah. I wish I had those pecs.” “You better start some supplements then, if you can’t even last a virtual session.” “What you mean, dude?” “It’s already lunch.” “Fuck dammit!”

I rubbed my head where I had hit it and looked around the room. It looked mostly like before, but the sun had clearly moved ahead. Fuck, I really felt pumped to get some reps in hard and really make a difference. Perhaps lunch, and then do my daily sets.

“You ok with shopping without me after lunch?” “Sure. You need anything?” “I… You said supplements.”

Fortunately for me I have a roommate that studies medicine, kind of. Well, he hasn’t actually gone to any of the classes yet, but he has the books, so he picked out some things for me to boost me. Some of it looked like medicine, in small plastic jars with scientific-sounding names that could just as well have been a frat house. Alpha-omega-manganese-BS-whatever. Some of it decidedly did not look like medicine. Enormous containers with lids that looked too fucking small, with names like amazing-gainz-ultra. He set up a regimen for me to follow, basically some stuff with every meal. I started right away that evening with something like a vanilla and chalk milkshake after dinner. I don’t know why, but something made me feel really good drinking it.

I slept fucking fantastic, and despite having done way more lifting the day before than ever I barely felt any soreness or anything. I probably woke up Ethan with my harder than normal pre-breakfast cardio. Lots of burpees and jumping jacks, so I almost felt guilty making breakfast while steaming sweaty, but whatever. Ethan had to remind me what supplements to take. I really should have written that shit down.

I had a strong deja vu while doing weights. It wasn’t until Ethan spotted barbell for me I realized that this was almost exactly what I had seen doing the VR shit. I looked up and saw Ethan standing over me similar to the guy, but Ethan was wearing grey sweatpant shorts and a red tank. I kind of wished he was topless as well, like the other guy.

“You ok down there?” “Fucking dope, bro”

I realized I must have zoned out a bit. What’s worse I could feel I rocked a hard erection out of nowhere. Rather than making a deal out of it, and run to the shower, I decided to pretend like everything is normal. Guys get boners all the times. He’s a guy, so he knows that. I even did a few extra exercises to really drive home that point. While Ethan took his shower I dared to lower my shorts and slowly stroke my dick. I haven’t cummed once since moving in with Ethan, which I realized was longer than I’ve gone in years. The days were blurring together. I hadn’t watched porn either since moving in. I’ve been too preoccupied with the move and everything else going on.

“All yours” Ethan said and closed the door to his room. I just froze. I was sitting on the workout bench, shorts by my ankles and dick in hand. He saw that. There is no way he didn’t see that. I could feel my face getting hot by embarrassment, yet I continued to sit there and stroke my dick. What the fuck is wrong with me. My mind flashed to Ethan, to the guy in the VR, to his bulge just above my eyes, to his abs to the barbell, to the free weights.

No. I got up and took a long shower, trying really hard to not think about anything. Just observing the tiles, the shampoo bottles, the soap. But there were the creeping thoughts that perhaps Ethan will find me a weird creep and kick me out. How would he do it? He’s been far too nice to be direct. Would he bring up this incident or would he just wait a week or something and over one lunch say something vague like we are not as good of a match as he hoped? Fuck. I needed to do something.

I couldn’t concentrate at all on the block on taxation I was supposed to read. Apart from the residual thoughts of unease I was beginning to see what a mistake it was to not cum in the shower. I was very close to surfing porn sites, but decided against it and ended up aimlessly browsing social media. I can’t really explain how, a hundred clicks that trended in that direction perhaps, but I got into the circles of fitness instagram people. Big arms, broad chests, and slinky stringers. Somehow I was hard again. Stealthily I walked back to the bathroom, locked the door, and started to jerk off in the shower. I’d been saving for a week and been hot all day, but somehow it took quite a while to shoot the load. My mind was a soup of barbells, Ethan, sweatpant shorts, vague old porn clips, and more recent instagram models. When I finally came it was like I’ve never orgasmed before in my life. Rope after rope shot out of me, the first few even hit the wall, and my hips involuntary thrust forward for each of them. I felt cleansed in a way, like a weight had been lifted from me. I couldn’t really understand why, though. Nothing had really changed.

I didn’t want to go back to my room and study. I rinsed the shower, got a pad and a pen, and went to the kitchen to get on top of the supplements. I decided to write down all the ingredients from the labels. I had just accepted Ethan’s plan uncritically. It’s probably fine, but I wanted to understand it. That’s where Ethan found me.

“Hey, dude. Already hungry?” “Yeah… No… I don’t know, bro.” “You don’t know?” “It’s like… Fuck. You saw, bro.” “Saw what? You jerking off?” He laughed and sat down. “You saw me doing it first.”

He was right, of course. I didn’t know how that could have slipped my mind.

“Was it porn?” I didn’t know why I asked that. I was curious, but it also felt a bit too personal of a question. “Yeah. Wanna see?”

Before I even had time to respond he continued “Let’s fill up your macros first and then I can show you. If past experiences are any indications you’ll take your time.” “Already jacked off today.” Why did I tell him that? “Even better”

Ethan had this ever changing dish where he would chop and fry vegetables like bell pepper, chili, garlic, ginger, onion, peas, and whatever else was around, pour in coconut milk and whatever spices you craved that day green curry or red curry for Thai, madras curry for Indian, Soy and miso for Japanese, anise and szechuan for Chinese, saffron and parmesan for Italian, and so on. Then serve it with pasta or grains or rice. I helped him prepare it, as I always do unless he started making it without telling me. This time however the air was different, filled with tension and awkward anticipation. He made it with chicken, lemon grass, and brown rice this time. We hardly spoke a word while cooking, and then continued to eat in silence. We both knew what was on my mind, and there wasn’t any question on the subject that wouldn’t be awkward. I was weirdly looking forward to trying out whatever it was he wanted me to try. I couldn’t explain why it felt so compelling to me. Just thinking about it made me hard. “You clean up here and I’ll go and set it up for you,” he said as soon as his plate was empty. “Yeah,” was all I could manage, and he left. I finished my plate as well, put the few things we’ve used in the dishwasher and went to his room.

His bed was made and on it was the VR headset and what I first though was a protein drink shaker. “Dude, is that a… fleshlight?” I asked him both with incredulity and genuine curiosity. Curiosity because a cable ran from it to one of the boxes on the floor that connected to his computers, and incredulity because I couldn’t believe he thought I would use one of his sex toys.

“Yes. No. Not exactly. It’s modified to connect into the haptic subsystem.” “Haptic?” “Force feedback” “It’s a vibrator, bro.” “Eh.. No. Well, not only. You’ll see.” “Why do you think I’d touch that, bro?” Though somewhere inside I knew I would. “It’s a brand new inset. You’ll be fine.”

I walked up to the bed and suddenly wasn’t sure what to do. I would need to at least lower my shorts and boxers to get the until-recently-fleshlight on my dick, but Ethan was still in the room. Not only in the room but almost studying me like a lab project.

“I’ll lie down?” “Got to strip first,” he said motioning towards my tenting shorts. He saw me hesitated and continued “Dude, I just saw you jerk off in the living room this morning”. I blushed and pulled down my shorts and boxers, and stepped out of them. “Shirt too,” he said. I removed that as well and stood naked in front of him. “Wow, you are making progress. Ok, on the bed and hook yourself up. Red dot up.” I climbed into the bed, as he told me, and grabbed the cyber-fleshlight and pushed it down on my hard dick with the red dot up towards my head. There was some sort of lubrication in it and it slid on with very little effort. It must have been heated as well, because the lubrication didn’t make it feel cold. I was given a nod from Ethan and put on the helmet over my eyes and ears.

The alternative version of Ethan’s bedroom was already there, waiting for me. I looked around and as far as I could tell everything looked like in the real world, except no Ethan of course. After half a minute, perhaps more, I was almost about to ask if he had started it when the French crop guy jumped in through the doorway, as if he was in a hurry. He was naked except for a pair of white, tight speedos that both highlighted his big package and created a reference point for his deep tan and made it look even deeper. There was a sheen over all his body, like he had been working out hard or oiled himself up, and he was breathing heavy. “Sorry, I’m late. I didn’t expect you so soon,” he panted. I didn’t know what to say. “You want me to help you with that?” he asked and nodded towards my dick. I looked down and saw a massive erection, easily twice my real size. “As an apology…” he continued.

“Yeah, sure bro.”

He made the cutest little jump of joy in response, and caught my smile. He composed himself and locked eyes with me. Then he started some sort of dance where all the movement was in his hips and abs. Then he added more of the upper body, still keeping eye contact. I thought I would hose him down with cum from my monster penis right there, so sexy was it. He smirked and moved closer. Still swaying he leaned forward and licked the head of my dick, which shot pleasure up my spine. He then started to circle the head with his tongue, before taking it into his mouth. The first few times were shallow, but then he stopped teasing and begun to really do down deep on the dick. In addition I could feel him alternate between stroking my hips, the insides of my thighs, and tugging my balls. Just as I was about to nut he stopped working on my dick and started to slowly run his tongue up my faint abs, circling my nipple. I was squirming in horny delight.

He was straddling me now, face to face. I couldn’t resist it any longer and reached to pull him towards me and kiss him on the mouth. There was a loud crack of plastic against plastic as our VR helmets collided. “Dude?” I was looking at the French crop guy who was moving his hands in front of his eyes. “Ethan?” I asked, suddenly realizing what was going on. The French crop guy looked bashful, did a little wave, and answered in not-Ethan’s voice “Yeah.”

“Did you just blow me?” “I wasn’t… No, it’s still the device.” I hesitated, considering briefly what this would mean. “Would you like to?”

[hoffkk]

Spilling Secrets

A Brightwell Fanfic

Story By: @hoffkk

Prompt Request: Gimme a question to start with, and I’ll give you a Brightwell fic that ends with a kiss.

Question: What is THAT supposed to be? from @getyourselfaunicorn

Summary:  When JT and Tally come over to check out Malcolm and Dani's new place, stories are shared and secrets are revealed. Some intentionally, some not so much. Let's just say Malcolm has a big mouth.... but can a very pregnant, very hormonal Dani forgive and forget?

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JT and Tally came over to take a small tour of Dani and Malcolm's new apartment. Since they were dating and having a baby together, it was logical that they should move in together. It was a pretty nice place overall with three bedrooms, two baths, and a spacious open kitchen/living area. However, coming back to the living room, JT spotted an unusual set up in the corner and blurted, "And what is that supposed to be?" Initially, he noticed the yoga mats and the stability ball and assumed it was a little fitness area, but now that he was closer, JT took in some other details. He observed a small shelf filled with child birthing and rearing texts, posters of birthing techniques and the formation of a fetus, and, on a table underneath them, a plastic doll with diapers and a blanket.

"That is our birthing zone. It has everything we need to prep for the big day." Malcolm said proudly. "You like it?"

"It's... something." JT answered vaguely, staring at the poster of the birthing process. It gave him flashbacks to the birth of his own child a year and a half ago, both amazing and disgusting. Feeling squeamish, he added, "I'm gonna need a beer." then headed off quickly to the kitchen.

Following behind, Malcolm joined JT in the kitchen. By the time they made it back to the living room, the women were out of the nursery and relaxing on the sofa. Sitting in the chairs perpendicular to the couch, the men passed over drinks to their significant others. JT and Tally enjoy a cold beer, while Malcolm and Dani stuck with some refreshing bottles of water.

"I love what you guys have done with the place." Tally chirped. "The birthing zone is a nice touch. I'm guessing you guys got inspired by the Lamaze class I recommended?"

Malcolm smirked as he flicked a glance to Dani and said, "Something like that."

Dani rolled her eyes and took a sip of her water to avoid answering.

JT, being the astute detective that he was, picked up on their nonverbal cues and smiled, "You got kicked out, didn't you?"

"Yep." Malcolm spilled.

"Malcolm!" Dani scolded, throwing a pillow at him. "You promised not to tell anyone."

"Technically, he figured it out." Malcolm tossed back."I just confirmed it."

"I'm sorry," Tally interrupted. "how exactly do you get kicked out of Lamaze?"

"Yeah," JT agreed. "This is a story I gotta here."

"We had a difference of opinion." Malcolm said lightly.

"Yeah, Instructor Shelly thought she was god's gift to child birthing, we thought she was a quack." Dani sassed.

"I actually thought she was insightful with her breathing techniques." Malcolm tried to defend.

"Seriously?" Dani challenged. "Go to your happy place? Pain is only a state on mind? That lady is whacked."

"So, you disagreed with Shelly, then what?" JT noted amusingly, waiting for her to continue.

"Yeah, she always seemed so sweet and understanding to me. I can't see her kicking you out of class over that." Tally commented thoughtfully.

"It wasn't just that." Malcolm asserted. "Dani also cussed her out in front of the entire class."

"The woman had a c-section. A C-SECTION!" Dani stated exasperatedly. "She is up in front of everyone, telling us that child birth is painless with the right tools when she's never even given birth naturally. What does she know?"

"I take it you told her that." JT chuckled.

"Along with where she could put her happy place." Malcolm remarked. "Then, we were promptly escorted out of the building by gym security.

"Wow." Tally stated with a laugh of her own. "That's quite the story."

"Yeah, it wasn't exactly my finest moment, but Shelly had it coming." Dani admitted, rubbing her stomach soothingly. She was a few days into her third trimester and was quite large already. The more she grew, the harder it was to get comfortable and keep control of her emotions, though it didn't stop her from trying. It's just too bad trying didn't always mean succeeding.

The couples talked for a while longer until the drinks were gone and the laughter subsided. Itching to get back to their bouncing baby boy and wanting to let Dani rest, JT and Tally called it an early night and headed home. Once they were gone, Malcolm cleaned up the bottles, disposing of them in the recycling bin under the kitchen sink, then returned to his girlfriend who was now stretched out across the sofa with hands cradling her protruding stomach. With a small smile, Malcolm walked over, picked up her legs, and sat down, placing her feet atop his lap where he began massaging them.

Dani's eyes were closed as she moaned, "That feels so good."

Malcolm didn't feel the need to respond. Instead, he kept working, kneading his thumbs into the balls of her foot. He didn't notice, but Dani started to watch him with an appreciative smile. After a couple minutes, he switched feet. That was when she spoke up and said, "I don't deserve you."

"What are you talking about?" He queried, meeting her eyes with a furrowed brow.

"You've been so great this entire pregnancy, literally waiting on me hand and foot, and I'll I've done is yell, complain, and make a grown woman cry." Dani explained then quickly added, "By the way, thanks for not telling JT about that part."

Pausing his massage, Malcolm sighed, "First of all, you don't have to thank me. Second of all, you are entitled to your emotions. You know why? Because you are creating a human being inside of you."

"I know, but I'd understand if you were angry or annoyed with me." She told him.

"Dani," He retorted. "you are carrying our child, and, as long as she is inside you, I could never be angry about anything you say or do."

"Fine, so I--wait... " Dani paused, moving her feet off of her boyfriend and onto the floor, so she could shift back to a sitting position, which was more difficult than anticipated with her belly, but she managed then finally finished, "did you just say she?"

Malcolm sputtered, "N-No... I said it. As long as it is inside you."

"No, you said she." Dani said certainly. "Did you call the doctor behind my back? Are we having a girl?"

Seeing the twinkle in her eye, Malcolm wasn't sure if it was from excitement or anger. Either way, the jig was up. He couldn't and wouldn't lie any longer, so he answered, "Yes. We are." but before she could say anything, Malcolm ranted on, "Listen, I know we agreed to wait and be surprised, but this entire pregnancy was a surprise. It through me for a complete loop and gave me anxiety like crazy. I don't know if you've noticed, but I don't do well in situations where I have no control. "

"No, stop it..." She trailed off sarcastically.

"Anyway," Malcolm pushed on, ignoring her teasing and the smile it evoked on his face. "knowing the gender was just a way of getting some control back and calming my nerves... just like with the books and posters. The more I know, the more I can prepare and the more confident I'll feel about all of this."

"It's a lot to take in. I get it." Dani said seriously, taking his hands in hers and giving them a loving squeeze.

"Good," He returned gratefully then went on. "because I really am sorry about lying to you and spoiling the surprise. "

"It's okay." She told him. "The truth is, when the doctor first asked if we wanted to know the gender, I only said no because I was scared."

"Really?" Malcolm asked, not expecting to hear that.

"Yeah," Dani nodded. "You said knowing the gender of the baby made you feel under control. Well, it just made me feel overwhelmed. It meant that this thing inside me was more than just a concept to wrap my head around, that it was an actual little person."

"Knowing the gender would make it real." He reiterated, understanding crossing his face.

"And I wasn't ready to admit that." She confessed. "Not then."

"And now?" He queried.

"And now," She repeated before adding, "My stomach is way too big to ignore, so..."

"Funny." He humored. "But in all serious, are you still feeling scared?"

"Not so much." She nodded then continued delightfully, "I'm too happy to be scared. We're having a daughter."

"We're having a daughter." Malcolm beamed back at her then raised a hand to cup her cheek and pull her in for a tender kiss. Pulling back after a moment, he moved his hand down to Dani's stomach. Splaying it across her belly button, Malcolm felt her warmth penetrate the oversized cotton t-shirt followed by a light kick then another and another. For the rest of the evening, they lied cuddled on the sofa, feeling the baby kick, and talking names for a baby girl. They quickly agreed for the middle name to be Jessica. The first name, however, was taking longer to decide. That was okay though. They had a few weeks left to decide. For now, it was enough to know that they had a daughter and that they weren't alone in their fear.

Having someone to lean on, to understand you, and to cuddle with was a powerful thing, and Dani was glad that Malcolm was that someone for her. She was also grateful to be that someone for him in return. And together, they would be that someone for their little girl.

[uswntpoet]

Love on the brain (Part 15)

Hey guys, I'm sorry that this took so long. Enjoy the chapter! :)

The chapter is also up on Ao3: 

https://archiveofourown.org/works/17576201/chapters/44210656

Their time in New York ends faster than they thought, mostly because the days are packed with preparations and people to meet before leaving for January Camp. They try to cherish every moment with just the two of them, however it seems as if there is never enough time. Now that they are on their way to the hotel in which the team meets up in LA, they know things are getting pretty serious. They share a knowing look when the driver pulls up the driveway. It’s time to focus on just one goal, which is winning the World Cup. Kelley takes Alex’s hand in her own, squeezing it tightly.

“Let’s do this.” Alex says, looking in her eyes deeply to which Kelley responds with a determined nod before getting out of the car. When they enter the lobby, they are greeted by some of the staff members and coaching staff, who happily congratulate them on their engagement and catch up with them for a bit. Just as they are handed their room keys and the schedule for the next week, a loud whistling is heard throughout the lobby.

“Well, well, if that isn’t WoSo’s hottest power couple.” Megan hollers with a huge grin as she walks towards them with her arms stretched out.

“I prefer soccer’s hottest power couple.” Kelley grins, walking into Megan’s arms, who hugs her tightly.

“Congrats man, what a move O’Hara. Good job.” Megan whispers in her ear happily and proudly while patting her back.

“Thanks, Pinoe. It means a lot.” Kelley smiles brightly, pulling back and holding onto her shoulders, looking at her just as proudly.

“Giiiirl, show me the ring though!” Megan whoops, walking towards Alex, pulling her in a tight hug as well.

“I missed you, Pinoe.” Alex laughs, rocking from side to side while hugging her. Little by little, the whole team arrives at the hotel and everyone is super happy for Alex and Kelley. Some cheer, some yell, some cry and some make lame jokes, but to be honest, that’s still a typical start to January Camp. After all the emotions, Alex and Kelley are happy when the first day of camp comes to an end after a welcome speech by Jill and collective dinner. The next morning starts pretty busy. After breakfast, the first training and gym sessions start, followed by some press obligations and lunch. After lunch, they have a meeting, another training session and recovery before heading to dinner. When they finish dinner, Jill wants to exchange some words with Kelley and check up on how she has been doing after her injury, so Alex already makes her way to their room. She goes to the bathroom, removes her make-up and brushes her teeth before she lays down on the bed and grabs her book. A few minutes later the door opens and Kelley walks in, making her way to the bed and crawling on top of Alex. She lays her head on her stomach exhaustedly, the rest of her body somewhat lays between Alex’s legs while her own legs dangle off the bed. Alex reaches for Kelley’s head, putting her hand through her hair, stroking it and slowly disregarding her book, laying it on her nightstand. Kelley runs her hands up and down Alex’s sides, pushing her top up in the process and exposing her tanned skin. She softly starts trailing kisses from Alex’s hipbone up to her ribcage.

“How are you?” Alex asks softly, still stroking her hair lovingly. Kelley stops, letting out a stream of hot air against the skin just underneath Alex’s ribcage. She then nuzzles her head against Alex’s stomach, groans and lays her head down with her ear pressed to Alex’s stomach. She sneaks her arms between the mattress and Alex’s back, hugging her tightly around the waist, which causes Alex’s back to arch slightly so Kelley’s arms fit underneath her.

“Aww, somebody is tired.” Alex says softly, smiling down at Kelley, watching her closely, who just lays there with her eyes closed.

“I barely saw you today.” Kelley pouts, nuzzling her nose against Alex and pressing another kiss to her skin.

“You are so cute when you’re sleepy.” she says, moving one of her hands to Kelley’s neck and slowly running it down her spine as far as she can reach, lightly massaging her back muscles under her shirt. Kelley let’s out a moan of relief as she feels the soreness in her back being eased.

“God, please never stop.” Kelley mumbles, now pressing her forehead against Alex’s stomach.

“I’ll have to stop eventually, or you’ll fall asleep with half of your body on the floor.”

“That’s fine, as long as you keep doing that.”

“Come here.”

Kelley slowly let’s go of Alex’s waist to crawl up her body until they are face to face. Kelley’s eyes lock with Alex’s while she is hovering over her.

“Hey.”

“Hey.”

Kelley’s eyes start wandering, studying Alex’s face closely.

“You look pretty.” Kelley finally says after a few seconds, her mouth curved into a cute smile. Alex reaches up and puts a strand of hair behind Kelley’s ear.

“As do you.”

Kelley’s soft smile, turns into a bright beaming smile, which causes Alex to smile even brighter as well. She grabs the collar of Kelley’s shirt and pulls her down for a kiss. Kelley carefully lowers the lower part of her body on top of Alex again while holding herself up with her hands on either side of Alex’s head. She turns her head slightly, deepening the kiss and Alex’s hands move to her face, holding on to it. Their tongues clash lovingly and Kelley starts sucking on Alex’s bottom lip, biting it lightly, which causes Alex to let out a little moan. Kelley smirks slightly and then breaks the kiss, moving to a spot on Alex’s neck, which is extremely sensitive. Alex starts giggling and twitching immediately.

“Not that spot, that tickles.” she giggles loudly. Kelley gives her a lopsided grin and starts kissing and teasing the spot again just to hear Alex laugh like that.

“Kel, stop! That’s unfair, you know that spot is sensitive!” Alex full on laughs, squirming, trying to push Kelley away by her chest.

“Kel-ley!” she giggles, trying to breath. Alex grabs Kelley’s head and pushes her onto her back with all her strength. Alex straddles Kelley’s hips and pins her arms to the mattress. Kelley grins, looking at Alex’s ribcage rising and falling quickly as she’s trying to catch her breathe.

“You little cheat, that was naughty.” Alex pants.

“That’s how you like it.” Kelley smirks, thrusting her hips into Alex, which makes Alex’s jaw drop.

“Ooookay tiger, stop it before I rip your shirt off.”

“In that case, why would I?”

“Because we have rules.” Alex says, looking at Kelley warningly, leaning down to peck her lips before lying down next to her.

“I hate camp rules.” Kelley whines, rolling over and putting her head in Alex’s cleavage. She cups Alex’s boobs, “I know you guys hate camp rules too, we’re going to break them eventually.”

Alex looks down at Kelley and gives her an are you serious look.

“Are you really talking to my boobs right now?”

“That’s for them and me to know!” Kelley defends, kissing her cleavage.

“I mostly can’t believe it, but I’m so in love with you.” Alex mumbles under her breath, shaking her head.

“Huh? What did you say?” Kelley asks, lifting her head.

“I said I’m donating you to the zoo.”

“Hey! That’s rude.” Kelley exclaims with a frown. Alex leans down to kiss her head and the frown is replaced by a smile again. Kelley looks at Alex intently, leaning up to peck her chin.

“How was your day?”

Alex smiles at her, “Really good, I missed you though.”

Kelley reaches for Alex’s hand and intertwines them while Alex goes back to stroking Kelley’s head with her other hand.

“How is your ankle holding up?” Alex asks and Kelley starts playing with her hand, watching their interlocked hands for a while, not answering the question.

“Kel.” Alex lets out with a worried voice.

“This whole thing is taking a toll on me. Honestly? I feel exhausted.” Kelley mumbles defeatedly.

When it’s Alex’s turn not to answer, Kelley looks up at her quickly. When she sees that Alex looks at her concerned Kelley tries to back paddle.

“Exhausted in a sense of tired.”

“Are you sure?”

“Have I ever been wrong about something like this?”

Kelley looks at Alex confidently, who gives her a deadpan look in return.

“Actually, yeah, quite a lot.”

“Okaaay, I may have been wrong once or twice, but-” Kelley rambles.

“More like countless times.” Alex interrupts.

“Buuut I’m feeling a lot better since being with you.” Kelley cheeses with a huge grin. When Alex looks into Kelley’s eyes, she sees a mix of pleading to just let it go and Kelley really meaning that she is making her feel better, which is why Alex decides to roll her eyes and let it go. She smiles at Kelley, who visibly relaxes at the change of mood.    

“You better tell the physicians about that then.”

“So they prescribe me to lie in bed with you?”

“Whatever helps.” Alex grins.

“I mean, you mentioned the rules.” Kelley wiggles her eyebrows. She starts kissing along Alex’s collarbone and now both of Alex’s hands tangle in Kelley’s hair. Kelley slowly makes her way to Alex’s pulse point, lightly and almost teasingly sucking the skin. Alex’s breathing speeds up immediately, her nails lightly scratching Kelley’s scalp. She looks up at the ceiling scrunching up her face, desperately trying to convince herself that she should make Kelley stop, but it feels too good. She closes her eyes and while Kelley kisses her neck, one of Alex’s hands moves to her back, digging her nails in to silently tell her to keep going. Kelley smirks against her skin and leaves open mouthed kisses on her jaw, which makes Alex throw her head back to give her better access. Kelley’s hand moves down to disappear in Alex’s shorts, applying pressure to her center through her panties. Alex’s jaw falls open slightly and a soft breathless moan escapes her, “Kel.”

Kelley’s hand moves to the hem of Alex’s underwear, disappearing under one more layer of clothing while she kisses Alex’s throat. Alex pulls Kelley up for a sloppy kiss and when Kelley’s fingers finally touch Alex’s center, Kelley’s lips are on her neck again. Alex’s jaw goes slack, when suddenly her eyes dart open and she freezes at a muffled voice that doesn’t belong to Kelley.

“Kel, stop.” Alex panics and Kelley pulls away immediately, sitting up fully. She looks at a flustered Alex worriedly.

“I’m sorry. Did I do something wrong?” she asks caringly and respectfully. Alex can spot a bit of panic in her eyes when she looks up at her and her heart skips a beat. She is meaning to answer, but before Alex can say anything the voice is talking again, this time louder.

“I swear Kellex, don’t you dare have sex while I’m next door! I’m not sure if that was a moan I heard, but if so you better stop right fucking now.” Crystal’s voice announces from the door and Kelley looks at Alex wide eyed before putting her finger to her lips, gesturing for Alex to stay quiet.

“What are you doing?” Alex whisper yells when Kelley stands up and walks to the door. She hears Kelley opening the door, which she can’t see from the bed.

“Sorry Crys, Alex is already asleep and the air conditioner made too much noise, so I kind of tried to jump to hit the off button. This damn thing hangs too high to reach, but I didn’t want to wake Alex up again.” Kelley whispers, pretending to be out of breath from jumping.

“Oh my god, girl I feel you. I had the same problem last night. These things seem to be mounted extra high whenever it’s most inconvenient.” Crystal whispers back.

“So annoying.” Kelley scoffs.

“And here I am thinking you two are getting it on. Sorry for that.” Crystal laughs.

“That’s alright. I’d be thinking the same.” Kelley chuckles.

“Okay, I hope I didn’t wake up Alex.”

“Nah, I think if she slept through my groaning a knock on the door won’t wake her.”

“Let’s hope so. Good night, Kel.”

“Night Crys.” Kelley says and she closes the door. When she walks around the corner Alex looks at her in shock, her jaw agape for other reasons than just a minute ago.

“What?”

“Are you a Russian spy or something like that?”

Kelley lays down next to Alex again, propping her head up on her elbow.

“If I tell you, I might have to kill you.” Kelley smirks.

“That was insane! She totally bought it. How did you come up with that story this quickly?” Alex gasps.

“I overheard her complaining about not being able to reach the air conditioner at lunch.” Kelley shrugs.

“You’re too smart.” Alex whispers dumbfounded, shaking her head.

“You’re too loud.” Kelley chuckles, earning a hit in the chest by Alex.

“Shut up.” Alex says, hiding her face by pressing it to Kelley’s chest. Kelley smiles down at her, kissing the crown of her head.

“It’s okay, I feel like screaming when I look at you too.” Kelley teases.

“Stop it.” Alex blushes. Kelley leans down again, kissing Alex’s cheek repeatedly.

“You’re cute when you blush.”

Alex grabs Kelley’s chin and holds her still. She looks up at her, due to Kelley still leaning slightly over her while laying propped up on her elbow.

“You’re cute when you worry about my consent.” Alex smiles softly, referring to Kelley asking if she did something wrong. Alex leans up to press a kiss to her lips.

“I just want you to feel save.” Kelley says matter of factly.

“I do. Always.” Alex smiles, pulling her down for a few more kisses.    

“As much as I hate it, it seems as if you were right though…about that camp rule.”

“I can’t believe I hear Kelley O’Hara say I’m right about camp rule.” Alex fake gasps.

“I don’t mean in general, I mean in this particular hotel. Maybe the next one will have soundproof walls.” Kelley remarks.

“That’s more like you.”

“I’ll talk to the coaching staff about it.”

“As long as you behave for now, you can do whatever you want. No funny business!” Alex warns.

“I’ll do my best.” Kelley says, holding up her hands in innocence.

“Good.” Alex smiles, pecking her lips.

“I wouldn’t mind some of that back massaging though.”

“Of course you wouldn’t. Come here.” Alex chuckles. Kelley lays down on top of Alex again, her head resting against her neck as Alex reaches for Kelley’s back. After a few minutes, Alex’s train of thought goes back to Kelley’s health once more even though she wanted to let it go.

“But Kel?” she asks quietly, stroking underneath her shirt comfortingly.

“Mhhm?” Kelley purrs, her eyes closed.

“You need to tell them if you are in pain or have problems.” Alex says, not quite able to drop the topic without a plea yet.

“Yeah.” Kelley mumbles against her neck, lightly pressing a kiss to it.

“Okay.” Alex says softly.

Just minutes after Alex started again, Kelley falls asleep on top of her and Alex reaches for the bedside lamp to turn off the lights.

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The next day the coaching staff introduces a mini tournament. They split the team up into groups of 7 and the teams are divided into defenders and attackers. As a little incentive the coaching staff promises that the winning team is going to get a surprise. Originally, the tournament was intended as a fun idea to lighten up the training session, however as it progresses it is getting more and more intense with every game and every group wants to win the prize. As chance would have it, Kelley’s and Alex’s teams make it to the final. Therefore, Alex, Alyssa, Tobin, Mal, Rose, Christen and Megan are up against Kelley, Becky, JJ, Crystal, Tierna, Abby and Ashlyn. The game is almost over and Alex’s team needs at least a tie to win the tournament, however Kelley’s team is up 1:0, because of a brilliant cross by Kelley that lead to a ridiculous header by JJ. The last minute is running and Alex’s team finds itself with their last chance of a counter attack. Christen plays a perfect pass over the last line of defense and which falls directly into Alex’s run. Alex sprints towards the ball, outpacing all the defenders, realizing that no one is going to be able to catch up with her now. She runs towards goal, knowing that if she shoots at the right point, a goal will be unpreventable. She focuses on the top right corner, because from the angle Ashlyn won’t be able to make a save. She takes her last step and starts to swing her leg towards the ball, when suddenly she sees a shadow and someone slide tackles the ball away from her feet, causing her to fall towards the ground. In this moment, Alex knows once she is going to hit the ground, the fall is going to hurt badly. However, the person holds out their hands, catching her at her hips and cushioning her fall with their body so that Alex doesn’t even touch the ground. They slide across the field until the endline and everything happens so fast that Alex only recognizes that she lays on top of Kelley when they stop sliding.

Alex looks at her dumbfounded, her jaw agape, “You didn’t!”  

“Oh, I did.” Kelley winks and pushes Alex off of her, standing up and brushing off the dirt that is covering her entire back. Jill blows the whistle and Kelley’s team celebrates their win like a real tournament win. Alex looks at JJ and Ashlyn lifting Kelley up while still sitting on the ground next to the slide marks that almost look like someone plowed up the field. Her team walks towards her with looks of compassion and all pat Alex on the back encouragingly.

“How the fuck did she catch up to me? I outran them all.” Alex asks baffled.

“Dude, her pace was insane, no chance.” Tobin shrugs and Alex groans loudly, banging her fist on the ground. Pinoe high fives Kelley, pulling her to her chest.

“If there would be couches in your hotel room, you would be sleeping on one.” Pinoe laughs loudly.

“Shut up.” Kelley chuckles.

“Oh, wait maybe it’s the lobby for you then.” Pinoe goes on, causing Tobin to laugh loudly.

“At least those couches are comfortable man.” Tobin joins in.

“You must have some experiences with that Tobin.” Kelley smirks, causing Tobin to shut up.

“Uhh, savage.” Ashlyn laughs, while Tobin pushes Kelley’s shoulder lightly. Kelley walks towards Alex, who is taking off her shin guards on the ground. She bends down and hugs Alex from behind, pulling her up in one swift motion by hooking her arms under Alex’s. She then leans to whisper in her ear.

“Come on pretty girl, stop sulking. I’ll let you score next time.” she says, pressing a kiss to her ear and slapping her butt, before quickly ducking from the shin guard that is aimed at her. The first one is a miss, but the second one hits Kelley right in the back while she’s running towards the locker room. Kelley lets out a mix of a laugh and a pained groan. She then picks up Alex’s shin guards and stuffs them inside her waistband.  

“Watch it O’Hara!” Alex yells after her and Kelley blows her a kiss from the other side of the field, before disappearing in the tunnel.

“I sometimes hate her.” Alex rolls her eyes walking towards Allie, who waited up for her.

“That doesn’t stop you from sleeping with her.” Allie says, handing Alex a water bottle.

“We all have our habits.”

Allie snorts and they both make their way to the locker room as well. Kelley is standing at her locker, pulling her shirt over her head, when Alex approaches her, hugging her from the side. Kelley smiles at Alex immediately, looking at her expectantly.

“Do that again and you are sleeping in the lobby indeed.” she whispers, pulling back and smiling brightly, as if she just told her the most awesome news. She then leans in to kiss Kelley’s ear just like Kelley did kiss hers. When she pulls back, she winks at a puzzled Kelley, slaps her butt and walks towards her locker happily. Kelley looks after her speechlessly and before she can do anything she is interrupted by Dawn.

“Alright guys, hurry up! Recovery at the pool in 10.” she yells from outside the locker room, causing everyone to speed up.

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“Oh my god, that’s so cold!” Mal exclaims.

“What is this?! Did you put the iceberg the titanic crashed into in here? I’d rather die than going in there right now.” Kelley groans, making the group laugh.

“Do we really have to Dawn?” Sam whines.

“Absolutely. I’m back in 15 minutes and I want everyone in there by then.”

“Oh, come on.” Kelley turns around, looking at Dawn in disbelieve, who walks away with a smile.

“Okay guys, who is going in first? Because I am not.” Crystal says, after touching the water. Everybody looks at each other cluelessly, not wanting to be the first. Lindsey and Sonnett start joking around pretending to jump in to see if Rose and Sam will jump for real, but everyone is smart enough to refrain from doing it. While all the attention is drawn to the younger players antics, Alex stands in front of Kelley and playfully pushes her in the chest, smirking at her, causing Kelley to almost fall into the water. Kelley quickly grabs Alex’s waist and brings her in close. She stands at the edge of the pool with her back to it, holding onto Alex tightly so that if she pushes her, Alex will fall into the pool too.

“Try that again.” Kelley smirks cockily. Alex gets in her face, wearing a sexy smile, mustering her up and down, causing Kelley to look at her confused. Alex puts one of her hands in-between them, resting it on Kelley’s chest, letting it glide down her body excruciatingly slow. Her hand is wet and cold from feeling the temperature of the water, causing some drops of water to make their path down Kelley’s body, predicting the destination of Alex’s hand as they pool at the seam of her bikini bottoms. Alex’s other hand is playing with the hair at the nape of her neck and Kelley is looking down between them nervously.

“Alex, what are you doing?” Kelley asks quietly through gritted teeth, turning her head to check if anybody is watching. Alex leans forward to whisper in Kelley’s ear, but instead breathes hot air against her ear, making Kelley blush furiously. Alex smirks, knowing what effect she has on Kelley. Alex pulls away, biting her lip seductively and looking into Kelley’s eyes deeply. Kelley gulps heavily when Alex looks at her with her typical fuck me look. She asks herself what has gotten into Alex, doing all of this in front of their teammates and risking to be seen. However, that thought is forgotten when Alex moves her lips to Kelley’s ear again, making her take in a deep breath. Just when Kelley expects her to say something, Alex let’s out a low sexy moan that makes Kelley freeze and sends shivers down her spine. Alex pulls away, getting out of Kelley’s grip easily and looking at her as if nothing happened.

“Fuck my life.” Kelley whispers, looking at Alex pained, feeling extremely turned on. She then pushes herself off the edge and jumps into the pool with a backflip.

“HOOOLY SHIT!” she yells when she comes up again and everybody looks at her wide eyed, except for Alex, who is trying to hide her laughter. Kelley then pushes herself out of the pool and charges towards Alex, who takes off squealing.

“Duck for cover!!” Allie yells, pushing her way through the group, trying to hide. Everybody starts laughing and they all run away, not wanting to get dragged into the pool as well. After a few steps, Kelley catches Alex and grabs her waist, picking her up easily.

“Kelley, stop!! I’m serious, stop!” Alex screeches.

Kelley turns around and carries Alex to the pool, who laughs loudly and tries to escape from Kelley’s grip yet again. However, Kelley jumps straight into the water, making Alex scream loudly. When they hit the water, it splashes on most of their teammates, which causes a huge battle. Now, everybody starts to push each other into the water as well. Alex comes up gasping for air.

“OH MY GOD!!” she exclaims, pushing her hair out of her face and reaching for Kelley, clinging onto her shoulders to push her upper body out of the ice-cold water. She hooks her legs around Kelley’s ribcage and steadies herself by holding onto the back of Kelley’s head so that only her legs touch a little bit of the water. Kelley hooks one arm under her butt and one around her spine to stabilize her. She then cranes her neck to look up at Alex with a huge grin.

“You dirty motherfucker.” Alex says, looking down at Kelley. Kelley’s jaw drops and she looks at Alex in disbelief, laughing loudly.

“I can’t believe you just said that.”

“What are you going to do about it?” Alex smirks provocatively.

“Actually, nothing.” Kelley responds with a lopsided grin.

“No clever comeback and you’re letting me use you as a life belt while you are in that water? Babe, did you hit your head?” Alex smiles at her, pushing Kelley’s hair back.

“No, but I got no reason to complain.”

“Actually, you got plenty.”

“Nope.” Kelley says, popping the p.

“Why is that?”

“Cause my face is between your boobs.” Kelley cheeses.

“Why do I even like you perv?” Alex rolls her eyes.

“You love me-” Kelley grins.

“-And I love those.” she jokes, mustering Alex’s cleavage.

“Gosh, keep it in your pants, O’Hara!” Megan calls.

“Shut up, Pinoe.” Alex defends, flipping her off. Kelley gives Alex a look to which Alex replies with a nod. Kelley then dives under water and comes up again with Alex sitting on her shoulders.

“Come at us, Pinoe!” Kelley challenges, holding up her fists, throwing some air punches.

“I got you, Pinoe.” Allie says, diving under water as well to pick Megan up.

“Are you sure this is gonna work babe?” Alex asks, looking down at Kelley unsurely.

“Of course, why wouldn’t it?”

“Because you’re like 2 inches smaller than me.”

“But I’m also reeeeally strong.” Kelley grins, wiggling her eyebrows. Alex rolls her eyes and slaps her forehead, while shaking her head.

“I think I changed my mind. Will somebody please help me fight against this showoff?” she asks Megan and Allie, pointing down at Kelley.

“Too late Al, you made your decisions years ago.” Allie says empathically, which causes Megan to laugh loudly.

“I’m right here.” Kelley exclaims irritated.

“Hush, I’m talking to Allie.”

“I think you forgot that I could throw you in that water in one motion.”

“Don’t you dare, it’s cold!” Alex whines.

“Sounds like a personal problem.”

“You’re bickering like an old married couple and you aren’t even married, where is this going to end?” Megan shakes her head.

“Stop interrupting them Pinoe, I’m enjoying this way too much.” Allie says excitedly.

“Okay that’s enough.” Kelley says as she holds onto Alex’s thighs tightly and charges towards them. Megan and Alex immediately start trying to push each other into the water. First it seems as if Megan and Allie indeed have an advantage due to Kelley not only being shorter than Alex, but also being even shorter than Allie. However, that advantage doesn’t work out like they thought it would. Even Alex is kind of surprised at how well Kelley is managing to simultaneously hold their balance and wrestle Allie. When Allie looks at Kelley, she is wearing a huge smirk and Allie furrows her eyebrows.

“What are you smirking at Worms?” Allie complains, visibly struggling when Kelley takes another step closer to give Alex the opportunity to push Megan. Kelley looks up at the determined look on Alex’s face and looks right at Allie.

“This.” she says, just before she and Alex both shove them at the same time. Megan and Allie fall backwards, which causes the water to splash and them to scream. When they come up from the water, they are met with loud laughter by their teammates and winning poses by Alex and Kelley.

“They’re never going to let us live that down.” Allie says to Megan.

“Come on guys, what were you thinking?” Julie chuckles.

“Seriously, have you forgotten who was sitting on my shoulders? As if Alex Morgan was going to let you win at any kind of game. Allie, you should have known better. You know Alex is crazy competitive.” Kelley snorts.

“So are you!” Alex protest.

“Personally, I wouldn’t mess with Kelley.” Becky laughs.

“Okay I have to say, that was kind of stupid Pinoe.” Allie admits.

“I think she could easily take out a grown man.” Becky jokes, while Megan scoffs and the team laughs.

“Yeah no shit and I still help Pinoe even though I witnessed that.” Allie chuckles, slapping her hand to her forehead.

“What do you mean you witnessed that?!” Megan exclaims, as all eyes fly to Kelley. Kelley looks at Allie wide eyed, who slapped her hand over her mouth immediately and looks at her wide eyed as well. Kelley’s head quickly cranes so she can look up at Alex, who still sits on her shoulders.

“Let’s see how you get out of this one, killer.” Alex chuckles and leans down to press a kiss to Kelley’s cheek.

“Alex, get in the water!” Dawn yells as she makes her way to the edge of the pool.

“But it’s too cold.” Alex pouts. Dawn laughs and gives Kelley a look.

“Wait, what was that look? Kelley, I swear-“ but she is interrupted by Kelley letting herself fall backwards, immerging them both in the water.

“Traitor.” Alex pouts at Kelley as she comes up again.

[ain-t-bovvered]

Serendipity 13

RE-POST  EDITED: @waywardbaby

A/N 1: so I’m slowly getting back in the writing thing, I first need to finish to re-post this act so I don’t get overwhelmed by the others too. Bear with me while I finish this I NEED to get this done, then I’ll get back at the others.

Pairing : Dean X Reader

Characters : Dean , Sam , Castiel and Jack

Warnings : slow burn guys…slow burn . Also some fluff, humor,feels and angst.

a/n : this was my first ever spn writing. It started as a one shot and I couldn’t put it down to rest and kept writing and writing. Don’t know what else to write honestly….this is my first born and I love it, I hope you do too.

summary: You were minding your own business at work, in your little town.Your world was small and uneventful, work,studying,gym,netflix, a devastating heartbreak, the need to travel, the craving of freedom, adventure…just something different. You just knew you needed more .

Suddenly an American green eyed stranger walks in and, like someone heard your prayer ,your life won’t be the same.

Masterlist : Serendipity

catch up! : Part 1   Part 2   Part 3    Part 4    Part 5   Part 6   Part7  Part8   Part 9 Part10  Part11  Part12

You didn’t sleep. Not that you thought you could, so nothing surprising there. That has been unbelievably pathetic and sad.

How in the hell were you supposed to go and meet them this morning? You groaned knocking your head on the bus’s window, too tired to drive. Almost missing your stop, you pushed people out of your way and managed to get off just in time.

It was a sunny day again but you couldn’t enjoy it. Your mood was foul, because of lack of sleep, too many people around and a massive awkward time awaiting. So if the sun was out and singing you couldn’t care less. From across the street, you saw them waiting. Sam massaging his temples and Dean faking reading the bulletin board.

“Ok, you can do it. There are monsters in this world, you fought a ghost and met a witch. You can definitely face one Dean Winchester”.

Balancing your journal and your trustful gigantic thermos full of hot coffee and milk, you took a deep breath and crossed the street.

“Hi guys!” you chirped behind them. They both spun around startled. Nope, one Dean Winchester was much more intimidating.

“Y/N, morning,” Sam said weakly.

“Oh wow! Sam, you look ….awful. I brought you coffee. You’ll thank me later”

Dean stayed silent but nodded at you, hands in his pockets.

You nodded back and said nothing.

Yeah!

What possessed you to think you could face one Dean Winchester looking like that.

Sam stared at both of you frowning. “Alright I’m too hangover for this” he sighed. “Shall we?” he motioned you to go ahead.

Once inside, Sam looked like a child in a candy store. You laughed tiredly and turned to Dean to make a joke but it died in your throat. He had stayed behind peering outside a window with a bored look on his face. Sam called after you, shifting your attention to him, and you didn’t see Dean’s gaze fixing on you.

“We should ask for this book, this one, that one and that one too…also ask if they have some of these documents and these records”. Sam gave you a long list of names for the assistant, who after reading it frowned. You laughed it off nervously, scurrying to the table where Sam was slumped on the chair, head leaning over his arm. How bad must he be feeling right now?  

You took out three mugs out of the bag you had brought from home and started to fill them. The aroma filling your nose and slowly, very slowly, Sam’s head lifted as the fumes called to him. Plopping down on your seat, you let the smell lull you, giving you life again. With your eyes closed, you enjoyed the first sip, leaning your head back letting out a long groan of relief as the coffee already worked its magic. Coming back from your little moment of ecstasy, your eyes met Dean’s. He was looking at you longingly, and as he crossed your eyes he instantly looked elsewhere. Sam was again caught between this exchange and eye-rolled grabbed his mug taking a sip.

“This is great,” he said smiling contently, deciding that it was too early for all that.

“Y/N, here’s your books, and I found some of those records you asked. Anyway what kind of exam are you preparing?” The library clerk stopped by your table unloading the pile of dusty books. You paused, your brain panicking. “Uh... I’m writing a paper on how some old Italian families are connected to esoterism”

“Oh ok,...weird...but okay. Well, enjoy” he nodded at them.  “Just remember to write the time you finish. Here are the gloves”

“Thanks”

You were nose deep in books and papers for hours, while Sam looked more and more like a human again, avidly asking you to translate phrases, helping you with some of the Latin and filling other blanks in your journal.

Dean…

Dean was gone. He had announced after the first half-hour that he was going to stretch his legs and breathe some real, fresh air before, ‘we could pass him the nerdiness’ he had said. Every now and then, your eyes would search for him.

“Don’t worry. He’s always like this”

“I’m afraid it’s because of me“

He snorted.  

“I really don’t think so”

Sam watched you nibbling your lips and sighed,’ these two idiots’ he though. “Here, the sooner we finish the sooner we’ll join him”.

“And that should cover most of everything. I’ll let Castiel fill you in on the angel parts”

“But he’s not here. How can I ask him if he’s coming to pick you up tomorrow?”

“You can pray to him and if he’s free he’ll come”

“…texting is so 2018”

Sam chuckled while scrolling through papers and documents. You saw him freeze and he quickly got up and walked to the window. Narrowing his eyes he brought a yellowed page closer to his face.

“What is it?” you asked on your tippy-toes, trying to see. He smiled and turned the document to you, “I don’t see it”, you frowned scanning the document.

Lifting a gloved finger he pointed to the corner of the page.

“Look closely”. Squinting behind your glasses, you looked where he was pointing. In the top, right corner was a faded sigil.

“That’s not a hunter’s sign,” you said confused.

“No, but it’s a Men of Letters’ one. This proves there is a branch here too. There are a few names listed here. We can trace their legacies and hopefully, we’ll find their locations. This way …”

“-this way I’ll have someone to contact” you whispered.

This was exciting. Your heartbeat faster and you looked at Sam, eyes glistening feeling like you had actually found something to look forward to.

In the next hour you discovered there were still some families left, but if they were active or not was your job to find out on your own.

You and Sam were still discussing the best approach while exiting the library that you almost passed by Dean who was waiting for you, leaning with a bored look against the wall.

“Dude, where have you been?”

“Took a stroll in the castle and since I was there I searched for ghost activity, just in case.” His eyes shifted on you and said: “Guess what?” He wiggled the EMF device, grinning satisfied, “ No more ghosts”.

“Nice” you smiled back, and then your tummy protested and Dean’s one followed.  You both looked down.

“Nice to see you two getting along again” Sam chuckled.

“So guys, when are you going to call Cass?”

You had suggested having lunch where you worked since you had tonight’s shift so starting early in order to gain some extra cash seemed like a good idea.

“First thing in the morning should be fine. We can use these few hours as a vacation. I don’t remember the last time we did this, Dean?”

“There was that time we went to that lake, that lasted what? Maybe less than a week? I don’t know”

Sam scoffed “Oh yeah! Hadn't you just come back from the dead?”

“Yeah. Which time was it?”

“Ah, no! Right!  I think I had just cured you from being a demon”

“And some monsters had busted your arm”

“I swear you guys make the weirdest conversations” you interrupted, shaking your head.  “Here we are. It is warm enough to sit out. Is that ok?”

Just as you started to sit down two arms grabbed you from behind and a high pitched shrill drilled into your ear as Sam tensed and Dean stood up alarmed.

“Y/N!”

Your friend squealed again in your ear “You're still alive? How did that night go? You didn’t text me back”

“Hey” you said, disentangling yourself from her tight embrace. “Sorry, I forgot.  I’ve been busy “

Her smile widened dangerously, “Oh, I bet you were”. She lowered her voice a bit.  “Sooo, was he that good to you?”

You blushed and looked briefly at Dean who luckily didn’t understand a thing but wore a curious expression and your blushing got redder. Her eyes followed yours and she gasped.

“Is that …?” she looked at you again, “Oh my god he was! Right? Oh my god! What the hell? He’s hot! And...”, her eyes shifted to Sam, “Who is the exquisite giant?”

“This is Dean and Sam Winchester”

You said in English so as to include them. “Guys, this is Y F /N, my friend.”

She pushed you aside, scrambling to shake their hands taking particular interest in Sam who, by now, just wanted his hand back as she leaned into Dean.

“So... Dean…I hope you gave my girl a good time”. She elbowed him and winked. He looked at her confused and then slowly smiled smugly as his eyes settled on your panicked face. “She needed it so bad, like, I think she hasn’t seen a d-”

“Y/ F/N!”, you yelled in panic, dragging her away from Dean. “What the hell?! Nothing happened!!”

“Oh. Well maybe I coul-“

“Shut up...” you snatched the menus from her hands, “...and come back in a few minutes for our orders”

You turned to the boys embarrassed, Sam chuckling and Dean casually looking anywhere but you.

“..um, sorry about that…”  mumbling with your face hidden by the menu.

“That was amazing, I’m gonna miss this when we go back to our normal fast food diet” you watched as Sam patted his tummy satisfied.

“Hey!! I cook for you!” Dean said as he was still stuffing his face.

“No, please!! I can’t eat anymore” Sam whined as he saw your friend coming back with more plates.

“Don’t be rude Sammy” Dean said with his mouth full.

“Sam, please.  I’m gonna treat you for helping me and as a goodbye gift”

“Is that pie?” Dean’s eyes sparkled pushing to the side what was left of his meal as Y/F/N put the plate in front of him. “Oh, hell yeah!”

“This is our region traditional pie. You all like chocolate, I hope?” The pie had a crunchy chocolate and almond bottom and the filling was chocolate biscuit soaked in coffee and light mascarpone cream. All of this covered with a thin sheet of dark chocolate flakes.

“You better order some more if you want to eat too because he’s gonna eat it all by himself,” Sam warned eyeing his brother who was cutting a thin slice, pushing it to Sam and diving into what was left, not even caring that his mouth was covered in chocolate.

“This is awesome” he said mouth full. “Sorry. You wanted a slice too?” and by the look on his face you could tell he didn’t really mean it.

“I’m good”, you chuckled, tapping your fingernail on the small cup of coffee.

“Y/N we should get the check “

“Nonsense! My treat. You spent the morning babysitting me”, you hushed Sam, looking at your watch.

“Well, this is it! I’m gonna stay here and start my shift earlier. I’ll leave you to enjoy the rest of your ‘vacation’”, you said tying the maroon apron around your waist.

“We could come for a drink later,” Dean said, “if you want, that is.” You couldn’t help the wide smile that spread on your face. You really were not ready to say goodbye.

“Yeah…I’d love that, we’d love that”

“Yes please do! I need something nice to look at!” your friend shouted from behind the counter as you walked them to the door.

You watched their backs as they walked away. Dean glanced back and you smiled brightly waving. He smiled back too and all seemed to be back to normal…Well, at least close to how normal these last few days had been.

Y /F/N hugged you from behind, her chin laying on the top of your head.

“Damn Y/N” she said dreamily and clearly watching their asses by the way you felt her head tilting to the side. “Where did you find them?”

You both signed.

She grabbed your shoulder and spun you around to face her.

“…what the hell is wrong with you? What did not happened with Mr Freckles?”

“…I don’t know! I froze and he only tried to take my hand.” You smiled, bitterly, shrugging. “I’m hopeless. I guess I’m still hung up on...well you know...“

“Yeah, yeah I know and the fact that you can’t even say his name is a clear sign”. Now her face was serious. “How can you still be? It’s been months!”

“After almost 7 years, I’m sorry if there’s no switch off button”, your voice broke.

“Yeah, but you are so hung up on someone that never existed anyway. He just played the part and you were too blind to see it-”.

You avoided her gaze. You knew she was right. You had said those things to yourself too.

“-and you are also doing nothing about it!” She grabbed your face.

“I know it’s hard but, you need to start living again”, her eyes softened, “he sure as hell has. You are so stuck in this hole you dug yourself and I don’t want you to suffocate in it, losing whatever chance on happiness comes your way because you are stuck down there.” Tears pricked at your eyes and you felt a lump in your throat. She hugged you tightly and whispered in your ear “I care for you too much to let you do that to yourself; you deserve the world that he wouldn’t give you. So snap the fuck out of it ”

“Okay!”, you smiled weakly.

“Promise me”, she said grabbing your shoulders and shaking you hard.

You laughed, cried, and sniffled… whatever.

“I promise!”

“Good! Now, tell me, is Sam single?”

You pushed her away laughing and went inside.

“Hey bitch! I’m serious!”.

It was the middle of a busy shift and you both were juggling around the tables, not a moment to catch your breaths when out of the corner of your eyes you saw the Winchesters coming in. They certainly stood out of the classic crowd, tall and burly, wrapped in plaid and leather. They radiated that foreign aura everywhere they went. Sam and his impressive height and long hair, Dean with his bowlegs and striking green eyes.

Yep!

The Winchesters were a rare sight and probably the most exciting thing that had happened to your sleepy town during that time of year. As you waved back at them you couldn’t help but catch some curious and envious stares from some of the customers and the brothers chuckled as you almost crashed into a chair on your way to meet them at the counter. Embarrassed, you indicated the bar stools, the only seats available.

“Hey guys! Sorry busy night, it’s going to quiet down soon”

“No problem” Sam smiled at you.

“What can I get you?”

“Beer’s fine for now”. Your heart leaped in your throat at the sight of Dean, looking as gorgeous as ever. You on the other hand probably looked like a mess, sweaty and flushed, apron covered in stains, part of your shirt wet with beer that had spilled over you and pretty sure your braid hang sad and disheveled on your shoulder.

“Coming right up”

Later you were able to spend some moments chatting with them when you heard the door opening again. Before you could turn to greet the new customers, Y/ F /N stopped you.

“Eer, don’t worry about that Y/N. I got it.”

“Oh, it’s no problem. You already have too many orders to serve”

“No I-”

You didn’t let her finish and walked away grabbing the menus.

“Oh, shit!” Dean heard Y/F/N say.

“What is it?” he asked.

“The ones that came in….Y/N‘s ex is one of them”

“Oh…”, they both mouthed.

“No, no this is bad. It’s her first time seeing him after..” she scratched her head “…after a year. Fuck!” she began panicking “I shouldn’t have let her go”

“Hey guys, you already know what you want or should I leave th-“

“Y/N”

You froze.

Shit.

“...Hey” you managed to say. You felt your entire ex-group of friends’ eyes on you.

“…w-what do you all want to order?”

You took their drink orders mechanically and turned around but he grabbed your wrist preventing you from getting away. At that moment, you crossed eyes with Dean sitting at the bar.

Dean watched how she stiffened. Even from behind, he could tell she was uncomfortable and her body screamed that she wanted to run. She still took their orders, but when she turned to walk away, the bloke grabbed her wrist blocking her as she turned around and locked eyes with him.

She was livid, her bottom lip trembled and her eyes were hollow. He wanted nothing but to go there, twist his hand and set her free, but before he could do anything, he saw her closing her eyes, taking a big breath and turning around.

“Why doesn’t he let her go? “ Dean growled feeling uneasy at the whole thing happening before them.

“I don’t know, they look like they are talking”

“Does she look to you like she wants to talk to him?” Sam asked worriedly.

“..No! I don’t know what to do. I can’t go there and pull her away in front of everyone.  Her boss is here. She’ll hate me”

Dean watched as she squirmed under his grip again, more fervently and then she flinched in pain.

“HEY WE’RE DRY OVER HERE!!” he shouted. He saw her pulling free and running to them.

He barely had time to look at her expression. She looked like a hunted animal, but before he could say or do anything, she hurried past him and disappeared in the back room. He got ready to follow her but Y/F/N stopped him.

“Give her time. She doesn’t want to be seen like that, trust me”

Dean sat back slowly, him and Sam sharing a worried look.

“Get a grip, get a grip, get a grip”, you were pacing in the middle of the storage room, your chest felt tight and tears threatened to spill. Sighing, you leaned against the cold wall and threw your head back hoping the gravity would stop the tears that were threatening to spill. When the buzzing in your head stopped, you smacked your cheeks with both hands and took a long shaky breath.

“Ok girl, you got this!” You walked out and met the others.

“Hey, you ok? I’m sorry! I should have gone instead of you”

“please. This is my job. Besides, it would have happened eventually, right? We live in the same city”. She gave you a quick hug and resumed her work not before throwing another worried look in your direction. You walked behind the counter, stopping in front of the boys. You quickly glanced at them and smiling weakly, you grabbed the first bottle within reach, poured a generous amount of whatever that was and gulped it all down.

You grimaced and shivered, “That was disgusting….ok,” you slapped both hands on the counter, “So, where were we?”

“Err…Y/N you want…to talk about it?” Sam began.

You laughed.  “Nope”.

Sam scoffed peering at Dean, who responded with a mouthed ‘what?’.

“So, how was the rest of your day?” you continued rubbing your wrist without thinking.  Dean’s eyes did not miss it.

After talking with them you started to relax. They told you about the Men of Letters and the bunker that they call home and you finally got to ask about Jack after you had insisted.

“He sounds….nice,” you said not entirely convinced. He was still the son of Satan.

“Apparently the Antichrist likes nougat,” Dean said sipping from his bottle.

“Y/N …”

Your face fell…apparently, the boy can’t take a hint. Sam and Dean turned to the source of the voice.

You acknowledged him, “The bill?”

“Ah…yes, thanks”.

You moved to the cash register. Dean watched how you rubbed your hand on your jeans before grabbing the piece of paper with shaky hands.

“ 40 in total, cash or card?”

Dean did not understand what were you saying but your voice was steady and flat as you gave him his card back.

“Thank you and goodnight,” you said glad that this was over.

“Wait Y/N!”

“NO!!” you snapped, few heads turned your way, “no” you repeated, lower between your teeth.

“I don’t understand, I did nothing for you to be this angry”

You stared at him. You knew he was genuinely confused like he had always been. Never did anything, nothing was ever his fault; the others can’t understand, all the bad in the world was on his shoulders.

“Exactly. You did absolutely nothing”

You peered at Dean who sat closer to where you were, eyes darting between you two, evaluating the situation. “Listen, this is unnecessary…just go please”.

“God!! You haven't changed a bit”, he scoffed unpleasantly. That blow landed perfectly and suddenly it was hard to breathe and your face was hot.

“Is there a problem here, pal?” both your head and his snapped up to Dean who had turned around in his seat.

”Dean it’s ok –”

“No it’s not. I don’t understand what he is saying, but I can tell it’s making you uncomfortable, so…,” he snarled back looking at him, tilting his head, smiling coldly. “What’s up, big guy?”

He looked at Dean and then at you sneering.  

“Oh I see!” he leaned closer over the countertop.

“Is this how you get off? You must be thrilled. Tell me. Do you speak in English when you get f-“

“Hey!” Dean grabbed his upper arm stopping him from leaning further into you. Sam startled, stood up too putting a hand on Dean’s shoulder.

“You paid, time to go buddy!”

He tried to unsuccessfully wriggle out of  Dean’s grip.

“Tell your lap dog to keep his hands off me”.

You put a hand on his arm. “It’s ok Dean. He’s going, right?”

Dean’s grip softened.

“Yeah, yeah, I’m going”

He snatched his arm back, massaging it and walked away. He stopped at the door.  “I’m sorry”, he said looking at you.

“No…No you are not. You've never been sorry in your whole life”, you smiled sadly and his face fell.

“Y/N…” you heard Dean’s voice close, but your eyes were glued to the now closed door. He put a hand on your shoulder and you jumped, startled.

“Y-yes?”

“You okay?” he asked, peering at your face.

“Yeah”

That sounded weak. You cleared your voice.  

“Yeah, I’m fine”

He kept staring at you, lifted his hand to cup your face, his thumb wiping the wetness under your eye. “Then why are you crying?”

“What? I- I’m not” you backed away and touched your cheeks. You were indeed crying. Your face was wet and the tears wouldn’t stop. You maniacally wiped them with your sleeve. “I’m…I’m sorry I don’t know why…I’m sorry”. You ran past him and out the door, Dean calling after you.

He easily found you later, sitting nearby on the edge of the marble fountain facing the old church.

“Can I?”, he asked and you shrugged. He sat beside you, his warmth radiating and you suddenly felt very cold.

“So…uhm…the ex”

“Yep”

“Yeah, break ups, uh?” he bumped his shoulder into yours. “Tough sons of bitches, am I right?” he chuckled nervously.

“I wouldn’t know. This is my first”

“Oh!” his brows shot up.

“Yeah. Maybe, that’s why it’s so hard now. Maybe the next won’t hurt this much”

He signed loudly “...not sure about that kid, they all suck in their own way”

“Awesome!” you saw his hands fidget and you smiled bumping into him too.

“It’s okay. I’m okay...In fact, I think that was the closure I needed “

“What?”, his grin returning, “No car windows smashing, trash his house, poop mails?”

“Nah, I don’t need that and he doesn’t deserve it, really” He really didn’t. You rubbed your wrist again, lost in thoughts.

“Does it hurt?” He said reaching towards you but stopping. Instead, put his hand on his knee.

You peeked at his face as he was awkwardly watching some of the few people walking by and then your eyes fell to his hand. You stroked the crystal that was now constantly around your neck and holding your breath you reached and intertwined your fingers with his.

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desire (kinds of love)

Tony Stark x Reader

Part Two of the Kinds of Love Series

Summary: prequel to ‘affection’. you moved into the avengers facility shortly after the events of civil war. tony is, for the most part, tony, but you can’t stop seeing that haunted expression in his eyes. your friendship grows as the two of you spend more time together, until one night he finally admits to you what happened in siberia, and everything between you changes.

Characters/Pairings: tony stark x reader

Warnings: fluff, then angst. smut. explicit language. a hint of dom!tony tbh.

Word Count: 4,539

Prequel - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 -  Part 7 - Part 8 - Part 9 -

MARVEL MASTERLIST

“Tony?”

“Yes, dear?”

“Is there a reason you’re in my lap?”

It had been a bit more than a month since you’d packed up the cramped little dorm room at N.Y.U. you’d been calling home for the last three years and had moved into a considerably more spacious bedroom at the Avengers facility outside of the city. You were still trying to accustom yourself to having a room all your own, let alone one of its size, not to mention the private en suite and walk-in wardrobe. You still found it strange to walk into the latter and see your battle suit hanging up in plain sight, ready and waiting just in case. But in all the time you’d spent in the facility, you hadn’t had to wear it. And you hadn’t actually seen very much at all of Tony Stark.

Sometimes, you attended the same sessions of Rhodey’s physical therapy – but you usually took a back seat in conversation then, as Tony tweaked the harness he’d designed to better work with Rhodes – and occasionally you’d cross each other in the hall late at night on your way to the fridge. Otherwise, though, it often felt like you weren’t even living in the same building.

The only real hint you got that he was always around was given to you when you cooked. You made dinner almost every night, cooking enough to feed everyone else as well. Rhodey and Happy would often join you for dinner, and even Vision would occasionally keep you company (even though you were yet to see him actually eat anything), but Tony never did. Still, every night you filled the Tupperware you’d labelled with his name and set it in the fridge, and it was always empty and in the sink by lunch time the next day. Even if all you’d made was pasta and sauce from a jar or scrambled eggs.

You weren’t actively trying to take care of Tony; you knew it would only insult him if you tried. But he was letting you have free run of a high-tech, million-dollar facility that came complete with an entertainment center, indoor pool and a state-of-the-art gym, and you didn’t even have to pay rent. The least you could do was leave him leftover sausages and mashed potatoes.

So, after weeks of little communication with a man who seemed like a shell of his former self, it was surprising to say the least when he’d come strolling in while you were watching a movie and flopped onto the couch beside you with a sigh, his head falling to rest in your lap. His eyes had gone straight to the screen in front of you, and he hadn’t looked up at you yet.

“So, what are we watching?”

You smirked at the collective; you hadn’t planned on having company, but you weren’t going to complain now that you did. You liked Tony a lot; he was witty, clever and easy to talk to even if you hadn’t spent much time with him in the past, aside from missions. You’d mentioned one night to Vision that you were worried that you were imposing and that was why he wasn’t around, but he’d assured you that Tony was happy you were there. He’d even suggested that your shared stance on the Accords and your standing alongside him against your friends had endeared you to him considerably.

“You should know, it’s your movie collection,” you pointed out, letting your question drop. You weren’t going to get a straight answer as to why you were being used as a cushion, and you didn’t really have an issue with it. He was warm and comfortable, and his easy demeanor relaxed you. The others were friendly enough, but Happy and Rhodey both tended to treat you like a kid, even if they didn’t mean to. “How’s the lab work going?”

“It’s boring.” He shrugged, his shoulders bumping gently against your thigh. “How’s the study?”

“I’m all studied out, to be honest.”

“Excellent.”

“How is that excellent, exactly?”

He smiled, eyes still on the television. “Means you’re not going anywhere anytime soon.”

You snickered, shaking your head. “And how do you know I don’t just want to be alone right now?”

He finally tore his gaze away from the screen, meeting your eyes with his chocolate-brown ones, his lips curved in one of his patented, self-satisfied smirks. “Because about two minutes ago you started playing with my hair.”

Your eyes flickered to your hand in surprise; your fingers were curled in his dark locks and you had absolutely no idea why you’d started doing it. You withdrew your hand quickly.

“Don’t be embarrassed, Y/N,” he teased, poking you in the belly with his finger. “You’re not alone. The Iron Man fan site lists my hair as my fourth most attractive feature.”

“Only you would spend time on your own fan site,” you snarked. “What are the other three?”

“Smile. Ass. Goatee.” He counted them out on his fingers proudly, and you scoffed. He raised an eyebrow at you. “You’re telling me you’ve never wanted to see what everyone thinks of the mighty Barricade?”

“I’m a girl who had, upon occasion, walked down the street in downtown New York. I hear that a lot.” You replied drily. “And don’t get all excited, Tone. I wasn’t even thinking about your hair.”

“Then what were you thinking about? The other three?”

Snickering, you poked his temple lightly. “Nah. Maybe I just wish I had a cat.”

He chuckled. “Sweetheart, you put your hand back in my hair and I’ll buy you a hundred of them.”

You scoffed at that, but you relented as you looked down at him. After weeks of seeing Tony tired and withdrawn, it was nice to see him looking so relaxed and to have a part in that. You slid your fingers back through his hair, ruffling it as your fingertips grazed gently against his scalp. It was surprisingly soft against your skin – no doubt thanks to whatever overly expensive products he used – and you took up a soothing rhythm as you returned your attention to the movie.

Your free hand dithered for a moment, unsure of where to rest, and he rolled his eyes and grabbed it, pulling it down to rest on his chest. You could feel the faint line of the scar left behind by the arc reactor under his t-shirt. He sighed contentedly, settling back into your lap more comfortably. You shook your head in amusement. “You are so weird, Tone.”

“Shhh,” he hushed you teasingly. “I’m watching a movie.”

“Your eyes are closed.”

“Which makes it so much harder to understand what’s happening when I can’t hear it.” He broke out in a grin as you laughed. You fell into comfortable silence for a while, fingers still massaging idly away at his scalp.

“Tony?”

“Mmm?”

“Thank you for letting me stay here.”

He shrugged again. “Not a problem. Room was set up for you when this place was built.”

“I know, FRIDAY told me,” you replied. You’d been uncomfortable with the idea of moving into one of the other member’s rooms, but the AI had assured you that yours was designed specifically for you, and that the others’ rooms were all closed off by Tony once he’d gotten back from Siberia. “I meant… just… thanks.”

His lip curled in the hint of another smile. “It’s fine. I’ve been enjoying the foray into student food.”

You smacked his chest lightly, and he laughed.

“…Tony?”

“Yes, Y/N?”

You hesitated, biting your lip. “What happened in Siberia?”

Tony stiffened against you, and exhaled. He sat up, rubbing the back of his neck. “I should get back to work.”

“Tone, I—”

“I’ll see you later, Y/N.”

He walked out without looking at you, leaving a hollow feeling in your chest.

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You smirked to yourself as you glanced up from your work, not turning around from the desk. “Can I help you with something, Tony?”

“How’d you know I was here?”

Your smile widened as you returned your eyes to your textbook. “I can see your reflection in the computer screen.”

“Very sneaky, kid. Romanoff would be proud.”

‘Later’ had turned out to be while you were preparing dinner two days after your conversation on the couch. Tony had come wandering in and offered a wine pairing for the curry you were cooking. To your surprise, he’d joined you and Rhodey that night, and almost every night since, even when Rhodey and Happy had other plans. On those nights, the two of you would find some terrible movie or painful reality show to make fun of, and would sit there long after your plates were empty. He even helped you with clean-up, and you had to admit, there was something endearing about seeing billionaire Tony Stark with soapy hands or packing a dishwasher.

He tilted his head to the side. “You know, I always thought ‘studying’ was a euphemism. No one actually studies this much.”

“Not all of us are in the genius class,” you replied. You spun your chair around, eyebrow raised in amusement. “What did you think I was doing?”

“Is it wrong to say it was something blush-worthy?” he grinned teasingly, wetting his lips with his tongue.

“Why, Tony Stark, I do declare!” you said, affecting a Southern accent and fanning yourself with your hand. You were used to seeing Tony flirt, even occasionally with you, and you knew not to take him seriously. He chuckled, sauntering across the carpet to your side. You turned back to the desk and he leaned over your shoulder, one hand braced on the armrest, the other resting on the back of the chair.

“What are you doing?”

“You know what I’m doing,” you aid, returning dutifully to your book. “Although I’m kind of scared to ask what you’ve been imagining it is.”

“You should try living a little dangerously, then, Y/N.” he replied softly, and you felt his warm breath fan against your neck.

“We’re Avengers, Tone. We already do.” You watched the reflection of his jaw tense for a moment, and you sighed. “Or we did, at least.”

Tony pulled the book out of your hands and tossed it on the floor behind him.

“Hey!”

He caught the chair by the armrests as you turned, caging you in and leaning over you. You were a little taken aback by how close his face was to yours, so you gave up and leaned back in the chair again. “You need a break.”

You sighed, “Tony, if you’re hungry, just say so. But I was just—”

“I am capable of feeding myself, you know.” He told you, smirk on his lips and shining in his eyes. “And you’re not cooking tonight.”

“I’m not?”

“Like I said, you need a break.”

“That’s what the girls at the dorms used to say when they were trying to convince me to come out and either get blind drunk or laid,” you said drily.

Mischief sparkled in the look he gave you. “Did it work?”

“For the first part? Sure, I’m not an animal.” You replied nonchalantly, and he laughed. Your tone turned a little coy as you continued. Always best to keep Stark on his toes. “Getting laid? I didn’t really need their help.”

He snorted at that, and you stuck your tongue out at him petulantly.

“So, what am I doing tonight, then, Astro Boy?”

“’Astro Boy’?”

You shrugged, folding your arms across your chest. “Metal, rocket boots, hero-type. Seemed like a fair comparison.”

“Huh. Fair enough.”

“You gonna answer my question?”

“Nope. Now, get your ass up, Y/N. Dinner will be here in ten minutes.”

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“So, it turns out you’re actually a sorority girl, after all,” you mocked, holding up your half-gone drink in a toast. Tony tapped his glass against yours, and you both tossed them back easily. His idea of a break had turned out to be another night on the couch, this time with a sinful amount of food and a pitcher of apple martinis waiting for you. You were already halfway through it, a happy buzz settling in your brain. Instead of the usual bad T.V. he had music playing when you’d walked into the entertainment center; the low sounds of classic rock providing the soundtrack for your evening.

“Oh, please tell me you were in a sorority,” he shot back, leaning forward to refill both your glasses. You were sitting side by side on the couch, shoulders barely brushing. His legs were loosely crossed, his knee resting on yours. Your fingers brushed against his as you accepted your glass from him again. “The idea of you wearing a cute little sorority sweater over your mission outfit is just too good.”

“God, no.” you scoffed, stealing the last bite of his potato gratin with your fork. His mouth dropped open in mock-offence, and you grinned at him as you popped it into your mouth. “You really didn’t have to order so much, Tony.”

He shrugged. “Wasn’t sure what you felt like. Besides, the chef at Le Cirque is a friend of mine.”

“Le Cirque? Now I feel way underdressed,” you joked, gesturing at your jean shorts and your oversized sweater. “Seriously, Tony, that place is so expensive. I would have been happy with P.F. Chang’s.”

“You take another bite of that lobster risotto and tell me that.”

“I can’t.” you admitted, pursing your lips to hide your smile. “I finished it already.”

“Dessert, then?” he offered enticingly, finishing his drink. You followed suit. “There’s crème brulee in the fridge.”

“Mr. Stark, you spoil me,” you replied, grabbing his knee to stop him from rising. “Uh-uh. You stay. I’ll get it.”

Standing quickly before he could object, you swayed slightly when the alcohol rushed to your head. You felt Tony’s hands on your waist, steadying you, and amusement colored his voice when he spoke. “Easy there, sweetheart. I got you.”

Your hands covered his for a moment as you regained your balance, and you felt them ghost briefly down your thighs as he released you, letting you step away. Goosebumps erupted along your bare skin in their wake.

“Want me to make another pitcher?” he called out as you dug spoons out of the drawer, pouring the last of the cocktail into your glasses.

“Nah,” you replied, handing him his dessert and sitting back down. You slung your legs across his lap, back resting against the armrest, and smiled back at him when he looked at you with a mix of amusement and surprise. You held up a bottle of scotch you’d snagged from the bar. “Got you covered.”

***

You hummed happily, throwing back another mouthful of scotch. It was incredibly smooth, barely burning as it hit your tongue. Between the two of you, you were halfway through the bottle, dessert long finished. You tilted your head to the side. “I like this song.”

“Yeah?” Your legs were still thrown over his lap, and his hand slid up your calf at a glacial pace, his eyes following it as if he was committing your skin to memory. You weren’t entirely sure when he’d started doing it, but it felt nice, the warmth and surprising softness of his palm soothing you.

“Yeah,” you said, giving him a lazy smile. His hand reached your knee, and it slowly made its way back down again. “You like it too, right? You play it a lot. I hear it from my room.”

“You’re one of the few people who haven’t complained about that,” he said wryly, eyes still on his hand.

“I like being able to hear your music,” you admitted with a shrug. “Let’s me know you’re around.”

Tony smiled at you, accepting the bottle when you tilted it towards him. His eyes didn’t leave yours as he took a sip, and you felt a shiver settle in the small of your back.

“I like having you around, too.” He passed it back, his fingertips grazing over your knee to the bottom of your thigh and back down again. “Makes this place a little more lively.”

“Do you miss the others?” you asked before you could think it through, and you bit your lip. He exhaled shakily, bowing his head. You leaned forwards, hands on your knees. His fingertips brushed against yours the next time he reached the top of your calf. “Tony, it’s okay to miss them. I do.”

“It’s not that easy…”

You frowned, hesitating. His hand froze on your leg, and your scooted closer to his side, your knees bending. “Tony? What happened in Siberia?” He groaned, his other hand running through his hair. When he didn’t speak, you tried again, your voice almost a whisper. “Tony, please?”

“He killed them.” He said, his voice thick. He was staring at some invisible point on the wall, and the hollow look you kept catching when you’d pas him in the hall late at night was in his eyes again. “Buc—” he shook his head. “The Winter Soldier killed my parents.”

“Oh my God…” you murmured, stricken. “Did… did Steve…”

“Rogers knew.” His voice hardened to almost a growl. “Rogers knew the whole goddamn time.”

“Tony—”

“He fucking knew it, Y/N.” Tony turned to you, and there was a kind of heartbroken desperation in his eyes. Tears burned in them, and you felt them begin to well up in your own. “My dad loved him, thought he was a hero. And all this time Rogers fucking knew what he did. He slept in my house and worked on my team and he let me call him a friend and this whole time he knew what happened… he knew what that piece of shit did to them.”

“Tony, I’m so sorry,” you could feel the tears building in your throat. Your hand closed around his, and he squeezed it back so tightly it hurt. “I’m so, so, sorry…”

“I don’t know who I can trust anymore, Y/N.” he whispered, and those words broke your heart.

You cupped his cheek with your free hand, turning him to face you again. The hand not clasped around yours squeezed your calf, as if he was trying to anchor you to him. His gaze met yours, and you brushed your thumb against his cheek, wiping away an escaped tear. “You can trust me, Tony. I promise. You can trust me.”

His gaze bore into yours for what felt like forever, burning into you to the point where you almost felt like you had to turn away. But you didn’t, staring back at him with fierce earnest in your eyes, your hand gripping his own. The hand on your leg moved again, and you could feel it shaking slightly as it rose up your leg and to your hip; your sweater rose with it, and your breath caught slightly as his fingertips brushed against the bare skin of your waist.

“Y/N…” he murmured, and there was something anxious in his voice, different from before. Something that made you bite your lip and slide the hand on his cheek around to rest on his neck, your thumb brushing against his ear.

“You can trust me, Tony.”

The hand on your waist pulled you towards him, and he closed what little distance between you was left, his lips meeting yours in a fierce kiss. You gasped against his mouth, surprised, but found yourself gripping at the hair at the nape of his neck and answering in kind. His hand tightened on your waist; the other one releasing your hand to glide up your arm and tangle in your hair, his grip on it flirting with the edge of painful. Your hands moved to his chest, twisting in the fabric of his t-shirt, tugging him closer.

His lips were soft despite the aggression in his kiss, his teeth grazing against your bottom lip. You felt his tongue swipe against it, and you parted your lips, meeting it with your own with a whimper. His forehead rested against yours when he broke away to catch his breath, his hand still in your hair, and you slid your arms from his chest to wrap around his neck, suddenly desperate for his touch.

You hadn’t imagined your night to go this way – you hadn’t even fully admitted your attraction to Tony to yourself, but now you felt like you could drown in it.

You encouraged him to kiss you again, and you felt his hand brush against the side of your throat and down your side, whispering past the curve of your breast and down your ribs to rest on your hip, mirroring his other one. Your surprised squeal was muffled by his mouth as he lifted you and stood unexpectedly easily, gripping the bare flesh of your thighs and guiding your legs around his waist.

You felt your back meet the wall of the hallway as he carried you god knows where, and you gasped again once you felt his lips press roughly just below the angle of your jaw. Your fingers tensed on his shoulders, and you braced yourself against them to press yourself against his crotch. He groaned at the sensation, his teeth scraping against your throat, and then his lips found yours again, somehow more eager than before.

Your hand ran through his hair, disheveling it, and you giggled against his lips as he kicked open the door to his room, crossed the floor and dropped you on the bed. You felt your belly tighten as he stood over you, his eyes dark, his expression almost possessive. There was no smart-ass smirk or self-satisfied quip, just an aura of desperate need that rolled over you like a wave and made your thighs clench. You pushed yourself up the bed until you reached the pillows, legs parting slightly in invitation.

Tony pulled off his shirt and tossed it aside, and unfastened his jeans, and you wet your lips as he crawled up the bed towards you. He paused long enough to push your sweater up slightly and press a kiss to your hip in a surprisingly affectionate moment before his lips were on yours again and he was running a hand over your thigh.

You broke away long enough to remove your sweater, desperate to feel his skin against your own, and you were immediately rewarded when his hand moved from your thigh to grip your waist, pinning you to the mattress. His lips moved over your neck in a teasing combination of teeth and tongue to your collarbone and then to your breast, sucking at the skin at the edge of your bra. He answered your moan with one of his own, and you struggled to unclip it. His mouth found your nipple as soon as the lace was pushed away, teeth grazing against the hardening point. Everything was rough and almost careless, and you reveled in the feeling of Tony’s hold on you.

He repeated the actions on your other breast until you were breathless, and he kissed your sternum before sitting back and tugging your shorts and underwear down your legs. You kicked them off, squeaking as Tony’s hands pushed your thighs roughly apart. His body covered yours again as you felt his hand ghost over your folds, and you pushed awkwardly at the waistband of his jeans, urging them down his thighs. He pushed them off, fingers teasing over your clit for a moment before you felt him push his cock into you, all the way to the hilt.

You gasped at the sensation, clinging to his shoulders, and he gave you both a moment to adjust, his forehead resting on your shoulder, and his breathing heavy. You wrapped your legs around him and urged him closer, and his lips found yours again as his hips took up an almost punishing pace. The room filled with the sounds of your hips meeting, your breathy moans and his muttered curses; your name fell from his lips and you moved your hips to meet his, encouraging him to say it again.

“Oh, fuck… Tony…” you moaned as your head fell back, and his lips found your neck again. He felt so good, that coil in your belly ever-tightening as he filled you. One of his hands gripped at your breast, and your nails scored against his shoulders, making him hiss. “Fuck…”

“That’s right, sweetheart,” he murmured, his voice low and husky. He angled his hips until you keened, brushing against that sweet spot inside you with every thrust. You leaned up to kiss his neck, scoring his throat with open-mouthed kisses. You felt him shiver against you as you ran your tongue over the shell of his ear, and you caught his earlobe between your teeth, drunk on the sound of his moan. “I got you…”

His fingers ghosted over your belly down to rub circles over your clit, and you felt yourself tighten around him. Your hand clamped over his, holding it in place and he increased the pressure obediently; your eyes rolled back, your thighs shaking. “Oh, God, Tony, I’m gonna—”

“Come for me, sweetheart,” he whispered against your ear, his teeth teasing the shell of it. “Fucking come for me.”

The coil broke in you and you came with an almost pornographic moan of his name, drawing his lips back to yours for a kiss. He followed you soon after as you clenched around him, groaning against your lips as he spilled himself inside you. You slowly unwrapped your legs from his waist and he fell against you, his face pressed into the crook of your neck, his hands on your hips.  He touched a gentle kiss to the side of your throat before rolling off you, and you clenched your thighs at the empty feeling between them.

You looked over at him as you felt his hand take yours, and he intertwined your fingers, bringing them up to press his lips to the back of your hand. “Come here.”

He tugged you over to him, and you curled into his side, letting his arm settle around you to rest his hand on your hip. You slid a leg over his, your hand alighting on his chest. He covered it with his own.

“…Guess you really are just like the girls I go to school with,” you said, and smiled as he rewarded you with a quiet laugh. You ran your fingers over the scar left behind by the arc reactor carefully.

“You’ll stay, won’t you?” his voice was a whisper, an echo of his confession earlier. I don’t know who I can trust anymore.

“I’ll stay as long as you want me, Tone,” you replied, tugging the blankets up over the both of you. “I’m not going anywhere.”

He gave a soft sigh of contentment, tangling his fingers with yours on his chest. You closed your eyes and listened to his heart, feeling his lips press softly against your hair.

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Alliance

Type: Angst/Fluff

Character: Oh Sehun x Reader (MAFIA! AU)

Words Counted: 3k3+

MASTERLIST

Being raised by a family, who practically kills people for living, doesn’t sound ‘normal’ at first. Your father was in one of the biggest mafia in town, and you were raised all by himself. Teaching you how to fight, to be fearless, and also, he taught you how gun works when you were just 7.

Your mother passed away when she gave birth to you. Your father told you about this when you were 8. It made you angry, emotional, you cried and started shooting elsewhere. But he got a hold of you, and threw your gun away. You looked into his teary eyes as he spoke.

“Never, let the past ruined you. Never hold a gun when you are emotional.” He told you.

And that’s what you kept in mind through all these years. And even though you were tough and rough, your father never forget to

Your father assigned you into your first job when you were 17. He was impressed by your work, and you kept on doing a good job for him everytime he gave you a mission.

Then one night, your dad took you out for dinner, where he introduced you to one of his friend and his son. It turns out your father’s friend had booked a table for you and his son.

“This is my son, Sehun.” The man introduced you to his son. However, you sat on a separate table with your father and his friend. You sat with Sehun and you both got to know each other instantly.

Your father began to see Sehun’s father more often. So you began to see Sehun even more often as well.

“(Y/N)…” Your father noticed you enter his office.

“You called for me?”

“I didn’t know you were working out.” He said, rising from his armchair. His eyes traveled from your head to toe with a smile. You were sweating, probably stink as well. You sigh nodded your head.

“It’s okay, I can get back right after this.” You told him.

“You’re tough.” He said.

“I know.” You winked and he let out a low chuckle.

“So, you were calling?” You asked, getting back to the point.

“Oh yeah, Sehun and his father is coming over.” Your father told you as he took a seat behind his desk, pulling out a cigar from one of his drawers.

Just hearing his name, your felt your heart flutters.

“Okay.” You said.

“I know you’re getting more closer with Sehun, and that’s what I and his father was hoping.” He said lighting the cigar. He took a long drag of it before blowing a plum of smoke in the air.

“It’s because we’re going to assign you a job, that you both have to do together.” He said.

Feeling your blood pumping, adrenaline rushing through your veins you nodded your head.

“Understood.”

“You are dismissed, you can get back to your routine, just be finished before 6. They’ll be over by 7.” He added.

You nodded your head before you could left his office. You closed the door behind you before leaning your back against it.

It’s nervous because you usually work by yourself. You have your own strategies and your own visual. Working with some one you’ve just met for 2 months and just working with someone else, in general was going to be a new thing for you. You huffed out a breath before you could jog yourself up back to the gym.

You finished at 5. You hopped into your shower and you were dressed just before 7 rolled around. You were wearing a long sleeved, navy blue dressed that covers just above your knee and a necklace that your father gave to you. It was your mother’s and he wanted you to have it.

Tying your hair into a bun and just a small amount of make up on.

“(Y/N)!” You heard your father’s voice. You quickly got up from your bed and walked out from your room. Looking down from the grand staircase, you saw your father, Sehun, along with his father.

“Our guests are here.” Your father smiled.

Sehun caught your eyes and he smiled at you before you return his smile. You walked down the staircase to greet Sheun and his father before you all walked towards the dining hall.

Right after dinner, your father told you to leave him and Sehun’s father alone for a while. You nodded your head before you decided to take Sehun to your bedroom.

“Not what I imagine.” He said, closing the door behind him.

“What’s that suppose to mean?” You asked, sitting yourself comfortable on your bed.

“I was imagining it more of a mess and just not this dark.” He said looking around the room before he could it on your bed. His eyes traveled to the bookshelf that was filled with your books and he walked closer to it.

“You read them all?” He asked, turning to you before examining the bookshelf again.

“Well, not all of them.” You said, slightly scoffing.

“But still, it’s a lot of them.” He said as he sat back down on your bed. He then got himself a little more comfortable, so he laid his elbow onto your bed.

“Do you know what your dad and my dad are talking about?” Sehun asked as he played with his fingers. You nodded your head.

“My dad told me earlier that, they’re giving us this job we have to do.” You said in a low voice.

Sehun bit his bottom lip, probably feeling nervous. You can tell that it’s also going to be his first time working with another person.

He’s told you about his missions before. He never really needed anyone. Maybe a couple of backup, but he can handle things alone just fine.

“It’s going to be your first time working with someone isn’t it?” You asked. He looked to you before he smiled looking down to your bed.

“It’s not that I don’t want to work with you it’s just—“

“Nerve-wrecking, I get it.” You cut him off and he nodded his head.

“Yeah, I’m 24, I’ve been doing jobs since I was 17. I work alone, I never really had another person unless I know it’s going to be aa huge one.” He said.

“Well, maybe it is going to be huge.” You shrugged.

“Well there’s a difference.” He argued, looking up at you as he sat back up.

“What’s the difference?” You asked confused.

“If the person who I worked with, died, I don’t really have a problem with that, I don’t really know him anyway.” He started.

“But if something were to happen to you?” He then shook his head like it’s the worse thing that he’s imagined.

“You’re the first real friend I ever had, and if something happened, I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself.” He said.

You were stunned. Surprised by the words that came out from his lips.

Now that he’s mentioned it.

You were getting a bit worried as well. He was someone you know, someone you actually cared about, someone who you let into your life.

You don’t want anything bad happen to him. And god, now you were getting all nervous.

As he was about to say something, there was a knock not he door and you both jumped from the bed.

The face of your maid peeked in and you relaxed.

“Natalia… you cared us.” You sighed.

“Ah, sorry (Y/N), I came to tell that your father has asked for you and Sehun to come downstairs to the study.” She said.

Sehun turn to you before you could look back at Natalia.

“We’ll be right down.”

You stood by the pool table side by side with Sehun as your father and his talked to the both of you about the mission.

“It’s going to be a bit complicated since, this is the first time you both will be working together and there’s going to be a lot of people getting hurt.” Sehun’s father said before he took a sip of his whiskey.

Probably. You never drink alcohol.

 “I’m sure, they’ll do fine. I trust them.” Your father smiled looking at you before looking at Sehun who was standing next to you.

“Of course I do too, but this is going to be hard, and we hope you guys come back in one piece.”

Those words made you swallowed down your saliva hard. Looked up at Sehun who was looking straight at his father.

Even though the room was a bit dark, the only light was coming from the lamp in the corner of the room, Sehun was glowing.His focus expression brings out the mysterious aura in him. He was focused, listening to his fathers—and your as well— instruction about the mission.

 “Do. Survive. Don’t die. Come back alive.” Your father said. You both nodded, feeling your legs tired of standing.

“Dough said he’ll be in the location at 6, in that old bar near outskirts of town. Don’t be late.” Your father strictly said, pointing his finger to the both of you and you nodded in understanding.

“Good, you both are dismissed, and we both wish you the best of luck for tomorrow.” Sheen’s father said.

“Thank you sir.” Sehun thanked before you both left the study.

Sehun closed the door behind him and he let out a light laughed as he watched you taking your heels off.

“It was killing me.” You said crouching on the floor massaging your ankle one by one. You stood back up, only to find Sehun looping his arm you to regain your balance.

“Come on.” He surprises you by picking you up from the floor, bridal style—you may add— causing you to wrap your arms around his neck.

“We have a mission tomorrow, you need to rest up before you actually get killed.” Sehun joked before you slapped him softly as he carried you towards your room.

The day has come.

The sky was getting dark as you and Sehun drove to the spot where you’ll meet ‘Dough’ for the deal.

Sehun was driving the car, trying to get himself relaxed as well.

“Hey.” Sehun snapped you from your daze of nothing on the road.

“Don’t think about it.” He said placing his hand on your knee. You took his hands in your, intertwining your fingers with his before letting out a sigh.

“I’m just worried, and scared.” You told him truthfully.

“We’re going to be fine, I’ll be just like how my father describes.” He said trying to lighten your mood.

“You mean, take the money, don’t argue, don’t die and escape?” You asked him.

He nodded his head. “Yes.” He said, squeezing your hand.

You chuckled as you shook your head.

“Let’s just hope for the best then.” You finally said.

You reached the place and you could feel your heart’s beating faster than normal. You got out of the car and got a good look of the mansion before you could feel Sehun’s hand on your shoulder. You looked to him and he gave you an assuring smile before you both entered the place with some of the back up you had.

“Be ready, guard outside.” You told some of the people who was right behind you. Some of them went inside the bar with you. Some of them stay guard outside the door.

The place wasn’t fully packed, but enough to hide in plain sight.

The bartender saw you walked into the room, and immediately greets you at by the door.

“Lady, gentlemen.” He said in a husky voice.

“I assume you’re here for a meeting?” He asked.

You nodded your head. “I’ll make sure we won’t make a fuss Vince.” You told him.

“But if you have to, you could.” He smiled.

“Right this way.” He then guided you up the stairs. He opened the small door, which lead to another room.

The room was just much bigger than the last one. There was another bar table on the side of the room and a jukebox sitting in the corner of the room.

A man who was wearing a white suit was sitting on a leather couch, surrounded with guys who were wearing white shirts.

The man with suit stood up before shaking his head.

“I didn’t ask for a bunch of kids.” His voice sent chills through your body, making you shift uncomfortably.

He was muscular. Large. Yet, doesn’t look that scary. You know you could take him down, but maybe not alone.

The man who spoke must be Dough. He gave you a dirty look before a smirk could turn on his lips.

“You must be (Y/Father/N)’s daughter.” He said a bit impressed. He examined you from head to toe but your kept your stern look without saying a word.

“You both have something I want.”

“And you have something we want.” You told him.

He was surprised by your action at first but kept the smirk on his face before snapping his fingers. Two men moved forward with suitcase on their hands. They placed the case on top of the pool table as you and Sehun took a step forward.

He opened the case, revealing stacks of cash. You were about to examine it, but the person snapped the case shut, making you glare at him. Wanting to take out your gun and just shoot his head.

“Not so fast princess.” Dough chuckled.

He extended his hand, asking for the thing he wants. Sehun shoved his hand into his pocket and took out a diamond rock.

“Careless.” Dough hissed.

“I do whatever.” Sehun fired back, flipping the rock towards dough.

The man opened the case back before pushing it directly at you. You took a stack and examine it carefully.

You heard Dough speak, but didn’t pay attention to him at all. Sehun’s eyes didn’t leave Dough’s movement as—

“These are fake.” You said, turning to Sehun who was staring down at you. he shot a look at Dough and you looked at the man who was standing behind Dough. He had his gun out and was pointing it at Sehun.

“Gun!” You yelled pushing Sehun aside before dodging the shot.

Seconds later, the room was filled with the sounds of gunshots. Sehun was already on his feet shooting the bad guys, while you were still on the floor examining the situation. You saw Dough leaving the room from the back door, and you weren’t letting him getting away that easily. You pulled your guns out before jumping up and start shooting Dough’s men. You them sprint through the backdoor with Sehun following you behind. You looked around but then got hit by one of the man’s elbow. You grunt. Sehun got attacked by another guy from the side, you felt your anger boiling inside of you as you try to catch Dough.

A man in white shirt stopped you y pulling you back and slammed your body against the table.

It hurst but you’ve dealt with worse.

You rolled your self to get back on your feet before you started throwing punches at the man. Before you could throw another punch, a man held on to your hand and you quickly pulled it away. You held up your gun and shoot the guy before shooting the previous one.

You rushed to the back door and caught him almost escaping. You held out your gun and hot him, but missed, hitting his hand.

He screamed as you rushed to him, planning to get the stone back and leave. But as you gotten yourself closer, Dough turned and you noticed that he was holding a gun. You held onto his hand, pointing it up to the sky before pushing him to the floor. His gun was thrown to the ground and you started to take a beating. Dough pulled a little knife from his pocket and swung it on your thigh. You let out a cuss. You pulled back, away from him and he crawled to get his gun. You were about to prevent him from getting it but it was too late.

He pulled the trigger and it hit you.

Sehun shot the man before he could stand up, raking his hair back. Out of all the backup you guys brought, only a few remains. He looekd around the room and he hasn’t seen you. He started to feel a bit panicky.

“Have you seen (Y/N)?” He asked on of his men and he shook his head.

“I think I saw her leaving the bar sir.” One man said and Sehun rushed out. He looked left and right in the dark but he didn’t found you. He then turned to the alleyway and he found you lying on the ground.

“(Y/N)!” Sehun sprinted towards you, kneeling beside you. He slowly turn you around and you were already covered in blood, bruises and cuts. You were still breathing, but you didn’t open your eyes.

(Y/N), can you move?” He asked. And you weakly shook your head.

Fighting through the pain, you held up your hand to give him the diamond back.

“I got it back.” You breathed. He held onto your hand before you everything went black.

You woke up back in your room, with tubes around you. You were changed into a pair of sports bra and sweatpants. You realized that your arm and stomach were bandaged. You can even feel your thigh was bandaged as well. Slowly moving your neck, you were surprised to see Sehun asleep on the side of the bed in his arms.

“Sehun?” You called in a raspy voice.

He shot up and you could see the dark circle under his puffy eyes.

“Hey, you’re finally awake.” He said.

“How long was I out?” You asked, clearing your throat.

“3 days.” Sehun answered you.

You lay your head back to the pillow. You were surprised to hear his answer. The last thing you remembered was that Dough shot you on the shoulder and the side of your stomach then he escaped. But the rest was just a blank.

“I thought you wouldn’t make it.” Sehun said in a low voice. “I’ve been staying here, waiting for you to wake up.” He said, slowly slipping his hand to hold yours.

“You have?”

“Yeah, I was practically begging, because I felt responsible for what happened to you, I’m sorry…” He apologized. “If I didn’t leave like that you wouldn’t be in this situation and—“

“Sehun, stop, it’s not your fault.” You told him.

“But it just felt like it.” He insisted. “I swear, I’m going to find Dough, and kill him on my own!” He said and you chuckled.

“But I’m just so happy you’re awake now, it’s like the whole weight had just been lifted.” He then let out a sigh before he could burry his head back onto your bed. He then stood up from the chair and lets go of your hand.

“Well, let me go tell your dad that you’re awake now, he said that he’d be in his office and—“

“Stay please.” You asked him, holding onto his hand, winching at the pain.

He looked down to you but could help but to sit back down and caress your hand with his thumb.

“Okay, I’ll go later then.”

“No.” You quickly said. “Just, stay here, keep me company and take care of me.” You were practically begging. He looked into your eyes, and he sees the desperation and fear in you.

Sehun never thought a girl he had just met 2 months ago could make him feel so weak. The thought of the feelings he’s having was scary, but he wasn’t going to deny that he’s falling for you.

He nodded his head as he smiled towards you.

“Then I’ll stay as long as you want me to.”

[stopforamoment]

Rinda’s Eyes

“Rinda’s Eyes”

Book: The Royal Romance (After Book Three)

Pairing: Bastien Lykel x OFC Rinda Parks

Word Count: 754

Rating: M for Language

Triggers: Brief References to Reduced Mental Health Services in U.S. Schools

Author’s Note: I haven’t been focusing on Bastien and Rinda’s physical descriptions because I wanted the focus to be on their personalities. We know what Bastien looks like, so this piece and “Rinda’s Hair” will go into more detail to explain how she looks. Rinda’s about 5’3” and almost a foot shorter than Bastien. She’s 42 and had a child, so she’s got a small stomach paunch and considers herself overweight because she isn’t what she weighed in her youth. She’s normally okay with it, but she still gets embarrassed when people try to bring her out of her shell or make her wear “not-snuggy” or “not-teacher” clothes that actually reveal her figure. “20 years and 20 pounds ago” is one of her favorite self-deprecating phrases when people want her to do something that wasn’t out of her comfort zone when she was younger. Really though, she’s got kicking curves and a great rack, even if it does need some help from a good underwire bra!

*Obligatory disclaimer that Pixelberry Studios owns the TRR characters and my pocketbook with those darn diamond scenes. OFC with all her quirks is all mine. My apologies if Tumblr or I do something stupid when I try to post this.

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Bastien loved Rinda’s eyes. Of course, he only noticed because of his training. He noticed physical descriptors, so it was only natural to note how her hazel eyes complemented the blonde hair that she would twirl around her fingers or even wrap around the tip of her nose when she was bored. He knew how to read people, and the eyes were usually a strong tell. Especially when they were a beautiful hazel that changed colors when Rinda struggled to contain her emotions. Yes, that’s what Bastien meant. He loved hazel eyes because they were a strong tell that helped make his job easier. Just like Rinda’s.

Bastien noticed her eyes the first time she was in front of him, wincing when he reprimanded her and Laura at the front of the gym. He sensed the intensity in her body language as they trained, but it was her eyes. When Bastien told her to let go and hit him with everything she had, Rinda looked up at him with wide hazel eyes. “Mrs. Parks, if you really needed to defend yourself and your students, what would you do?” Bastien was taken aback as he watched her body language change. Her body hardened and the brown flecks that normally ringed her pupil now dominated her irises, turning her eyes into a golden quartz. She stared up at him, gauging his height as he towered above her. Just like a lion sizing up its prey. Bastien recognized that look because he had seen it before, and he knew she would do whatever it took to defend herself—and her students. She even used a lower body pressure point and a few moves that he hadn’t covered, and for the very briefest of moments he was caught off guard and he fell to his knees as she quickly backed up, anticipating his next strike. She didn’t disappoint.

He also noticed her eyes in the music room. She turned around and looked at him with her beautiful aquamarine eyes. She told him she was fine, that her friend Laura was there if Rinda needed anything. But he was looking into her eyes, noticing the mixture of sadness and despair when she mentioned Kakos and her impossible situation. Without even thinking, he invited her to get a drink and he watched her eyes slowly turn a luminous green that held the promise of spring and . . . something else he couldn’t quite place.

Then there were the times Rinda got excited about something. Bastien always tried to watch her eyes, to see the hazel flecks disappear into the iris, the green hues intensifying with her emotion.

Today was different. Rinda was on a rampage because the school district she worked in was going to cut a full time, fully licensed social worker position because of budget cuts. She was on the phone with the district superintendent. “I don’t care what time it is in Wisconsin. No, this is bullshit and you know it. Seriously, this is the clusterfuck Sarah is dealing with? This is her experience with this teacher exchange program? Reducing mental health access when we’re supposed to be dealing with safety issues? . . . You’ll take it under advisement, yet you won’t even consider community advisory groups or a town hall meeting for the public? . . . You’ll allow me to write a statement that can be read in at the next school board meeting?”

Rinda massaged her forehead. “Look, I know this is bigger than the district and we need to take it to the mayor and aldermen and women. It’s a mess at the state and federal levels. But you can’t even pretend to support me? . . . Fine. I’ll do it myself if I have to. This isn’t over. I’m contacting Cassie’s parents about the reduction in mental health services and we’ll start contacting the city and leaders. We’ll talk to the district politicians and state representatives, if that’s what it takes. The police officer’s widow and the parents of the young girl he saved, fighting to get that position restored. I’ll be back in December and you’ll have a war on your hands.” She slammed her phone down on the desk, her body shaking with rage.

Bastien looked into her eyes. He knew Rinda was fierce when she needed to be, but he had never seen her truly enraged. Bastien whistled under his breath. Her golden eyes were beautiful, but he hoped she never looked at him that way.

[diaryofsecrecy]

It has been the most exhausting year of my entire life and I will be surprised if I ever top it...

Brent was having a hard time adjusting to the altitude when we 1st came out here, (July 8th 2020) But as time went on he got better as expected. Then suddenly he got worse and worse, Eventually he lost the job that he got because he was calling out so often throwing up and experiencing extreme nausea.  Because of covid, the doctors were booked for weeks (new patient) so it was just kind of a waiting game until we finally decided to just go to the ER.  They did a full blood panel and decided that he needs to see a GI doctor because everything else is normal. So, That was booked 2 weeks out and he was sent home with nausea medication for one week...

Of course we were going to try to buy or rent so I was freaking out about money and working as much as I possibly could... But then I too had to go to the emergency Room because I had extreme abdominal pain resulting in an emergency appendectomy😖

The day after my surgery, I am home, when my dad comes in with my older sister.

To my knowledge, my older sister was diagnosed paranoid schizofrantic. She has been Homeless for the last 11 years,  And on drugs.  She recently was beaten so badly that she was left with several brain injuries on top of it all, And while she was healing at the hospital somehow they didn't notice her walk out.  We were just about to get her placed somewhere safe...And they lost her.

Anyhow dad walks in with my sister who I guess called him from a coffee shop when they told her that she couldn't sleep there anymore (after a month of being missing again) Dad had to go back to work so then it was me & her for the next 2 days, As you can imagine, not the rest I needed post surgery... then, I had to go back into the hospital because something wasn't right. I was there for 3 more days, 2 days alone because ben was so sick that it was worse with him being there than me sitting by myself in pain and nausea of my own.

Fast forward a few more months, tragic accidents led to 2 separate deaths of my parents dogs. Both events I happen to be present, so get blamed & am no longer welcome at mom & dads.

(Still healing from sugury, brent still very sick)

We get an apartment, and I start working as a nanny for my aunt twice a week while working at Massage Envy the other 5 days.

At this point, I am tired. I am horney, and lonely, and Absolutely. Fucking. Miserable.

I am begging ben to keep up with drs. but he has lost hope of getting better, and I have no way of helping him when I am already worn too thin.

After 9, Long, long months, he eventually, with my consistent pushing, nagging, most likely not always kind remarks, he finds out his hormones are completely off, which I knew would be the case, his dick hadnt worked for the last 3 years properly..

Anyway. He blames his addiction medication rather than continuing dr. Appointments... he gets on testosterone with an outside company(pay out of pocket kind of subscription company...rather than checking insurance, or figuring out what causes low testosterone and fixing that first). I was working and had no influence in any of those choices that effect us both as they have for at least 2 years. He hasnt touched me for so, so, long.

Month 3 of his medication that seems to be working (only reason I know is there was a ton of porn in my google history, he had declined all advances, except the rare, 3 times he allowed a blowjob then left immediately after for the gym or literally anything else rather than make it romantic at all.)

Month 4, he forgets to make a payment at all, so now we owe $250 rather than the normal $100. His meds get sent, then FedEx loses the package all together so, he is sick and I am house sitting in a dream home, alone for 2 weeks straight that originally was going to be our getaway to focus on Us.

At this point, brent and I havnt slept in the same bed for 2 months. At first cause he says I'm mean and he wants to not be near me, but now its cause hes "more comfortable out in the living room..."

A month ago when we last had a conversation about our relationship he said he wants space and a break from me all together. I'm too much.

I am the problem..?

When trying to understand what he means, he shuts down the connvo, saying he cant talk about it anymore. It's been 30 days since we have made any verbal progress. Our fighting has stopped though, and I'll tell you why...

Rewind 1 week before house sitting;

1 week after brent and I had an awful fight where he told me we should take a break, I stay at my parents & My mom offers for me to join them at a graduation party of a kid I used to babysit.

We were sitting in the back of the dining room, out of the way, when I saw someone i slightly recognized in the hallway. Not sure from where, but he was the kind of guy that you couldnt stop looking at. He was clearly into fitness, his shirt couldnt hide the muscular features he had been perfecting either, despite him dressing nothing out of the ordinary. He had beautiful ink crawling up his leg, an artform that would only mean something to someone who is more spiritually awake. But more noticable about anything was that smile.

God that smile. His face was scruffy, as if he had been away, but regardless, the smile he had influenced his entire ora. His eyes smiled, his walk... smiled. He had some kind of thing about him that was a physical draw I had never known for myself before. Dont get me wrong, i have been woo'd by many men so far in my life, from all stages in life, but This one was just, different. He was making his way around the room, & I could hear his voice over my mom who's talking beside me. I had literally been blocked out by my ever wondering thoughts of this random stranger whom felt familiar.

Then, he was there, at our table?

He was so easy to talk to, not even sure how we started now, but all I know is I was not nervous despite my very physical attraction to him.

He spoke of traveling, and adventures hes been on. This guy had a whole other life in the military at one point and now was traveling, working for a company that sends him around the US.

This guy had Hope's and dreams and somehow we got to talking about that kind of thing at a graduation party?

When I left that day, I thought about him. Not just him specifically, but men like him. Had I chosen Brent wrongfully? Does brent even like who I am anymore, what does he want going forward in his own life? How do I even fit into that? He understands my need for adventure but his actions say that he doesnt want to come along. My mind was loopy after that because for the first real time I questioned, what if there was someone who wanted to see the world,  Who liked my sad music, and my emotions being in everything I do? What if there was a women more interested in the simple home life, having a couple dogs and living a small, comfortable life? Are we doing one another a disservice by occupying oneanother's lives? How could I ever bring that up with Brent at all without making him feel so inadiquite after a year of terrible sickness and defeat?

Well, when I went to that big, gorgeous dream home the following week to house sit for 2 weeks... begging him to come see me, I grew weak from overthinking. I cried, I cried so much the first 3 days.

I cried from a place of such sadness, anger, bitterness, defeat, they were so strong. My mind was cloudy, drunk, stoned, tired.... I found myself writing a suicide letter.

My plan was to disappear, I knew I'd find a firearm in the home & allow someone to find my remains eventually in the hills where I'd walk far enough.

I prepared by cleaning the litterbox, laying out several bowls of water for the dog and cat, and watered all the plants heavily. I transfered brent all the money in my bank accounts, and as I waited for the sheets to come out of the dryer I balled my eyes out, reading the last conversations I had had with my family members. I thought to myself how the kids would take it, what different life choices they would make having been close with someone before their passing. At this point, I needed something, but I needed it from someone who doesnt know me in my life right now, but the me that was worth saving. The me I still recognized.

I called an old friend from 2nd grade. Hadnt talked to her in years and years, didnt known her life, her schedual, her name(which had been changed). But she talked me down. She saved my fucking life. It took a person who knew my soul years ago, to remind me I am not alone.

I dont blame my parents, or who I thought would be my future husband. I had talked with my aunt earlier that day and she couldnt see it either. I had become this fake shell of a person and it took considering an actual murder of myself to make me see that if I continued this path, I would die eventually and nobody in my life would ever see me preparing for it.

That night, I invited a complete stranger over and we fucked like rabbits. 4 times. He got to do things he'd never done before, and I begged him to. Sounds cold, sounds unapologetically disgusting that I'd do something like that, but quite frankly, I FUCKING needed it. I needed someone to see me, even if he didnt see my current life nor care about me as a person... he saw, touched, kissed, sucked and ate me up. For the first time in at least 2 years, i felt satisfaction when I walked him to the door and watched his car drive away.

It was like a sigh of relief, an inch I could not reach for the longest time, gone. Finally.

The following days, brent began putting in more effort. It has been 3 weeks and I'd say he has been kinder to me than he had in a while (probably the lack of testosterone) but also, I havnt seen much of him in general. From his point of view, it is all fine. Hes getting the space he needed, I'm being nicer since I quit massage Envy, and things are looking up....

But that is because he doesnt See Me.

My suisidal thoughts subsided after my long conversation with Scout. & that night I called my cousin as well, and learned he too had been in my shoes before. He said something that stuck with me.

If everyone has an expiration date on their life already, and we don't know when it is, you're to the point that you're life is so invaluable that youd kill yourself than flee your life and make one you want. Dont care about the people youd hurt, because suicide is just as careless as abandoning them all indefinitely.

He was so right, it put things into perspective, gave me a freedom I felt I was waiting to gain permission for.

Five days later, I noticed He had written me 5 before, on the day I had truly planned to end my current life..

He had written me at 12am, what would someone like him, a gorgeous, beefed out, big thinker, high energy, go getter be doing messaging me, a tired women who was 300lbs a year ago, (still working on getting to a normal size) and completely at a crossroads with existance.

I entertained the connvo a tad, and honestly forgot about it for a few days as I figured no way he could be serious.

He triple messaged me, and asked for my personal contact info to have real conversation?

Hesitantly, and wildly excited to even just flirt for a moment with someone who is literally everything I fantasize when I'm alone everynight....

Our conversation immediately took off. In directions I hadnt expected at all what so ever. He told me he had to admit he felt drawn to me, like he had known me in another life. That he doesnt expect me to get it, but I did. We talked about things that only my sister and I can relate to on a spirituality standard and it changed me in that instant. Suddenly i realize, I wasn't broken, I was just misunderstood. & that there are people in this world that See Me even when I am not trying. Not many, and it takes a specific Kind of person, but they do exist and when you meet them, you cant ignore it. It is as if they stain you with remembrance.

As the sexually hungry humans we are, not only did we find that morality, values, future goals coexist, but also our importance of intimacy. Not just lust and sex, well, yes that too, uff did those conversations get so, fucking, hot, but the interactions of intimacy and how they make a person whole.

I opened up to him about Brent, and where I am at in life, asking he please oversee my unfaithfulness, but that I am loyal at heart. He says with such pain in his voice how he too in a parallel position simultaneously, however, he married her 7 years ago.

Ugh.

So now I get to choose. Do I chose mortality, say no, brent and the other women deserve to understand the severity of sex, love and passion, and if they chose not to then we will leave before we act on our mutual attraction....? Or, do we say hell with it and give in to serendipity moments that our hearts crave so badly, take on the consequences and move forward. Sigh. If only there was a guideline for complicated.

Last night, as the 5 nights before, we talked for hours on the phone. His voice makes me smile every, damn, time. Perhaps because it's new and exciting, or maybe I just love to hear him go on his tangents of loving yourself despite the bad in life. I Want him. I want him when I wake, &when I go to sleep. I do not want a life without him& it saddens me to know our timing is incorrect. He asked her for a divorce a year ago, but has sat comfortably as I have despite the horror because weve both been too busy, too tired, too... afraid that life will always be lonely. Last night, he said to me, Elise, I love you. I avoided it several times but when he said it two more times, I couldnt keep it any longer to myself, Jackson, I really do Love you as well. It's scary, and faster than I'd ever say it to anyone. But I know it to be true because I Feel it. I want his love so badly. I want him to live life along side of me because with a person like him, I'd be a better me.

I am absolutely terrified. My life, my home, my family, dogs, my 5 year relationship, the unborn children brent and I have named, and the houses we'd have... all gone?

Running away with a man who says hes going to leave his wife is absolutely stupid. I'd be an idiot to think I am enough to get him through that fear of change, yet he gives me strength to want to try, so maybe I do, Him?

Ugh my brain being pulled in many ways. My heart having been in pieces so many times now doesnt know who to go to or why. I know for certain I love Brent, is this a self gratifying moment To push me back to him? Is this the devil bringing two lost people together to ruin four people at once?or is this Fate. Fate that has seen both of us individually loosing ourselves in a life we didnt want and has brought us together to lean on one another, temporarily not?

Suppose time will tell.

Last two days he has been working a ton, and told me that tomorrow he has something he needs to talk to me about.

I assume it isnt good. I assume it is the first put off of many, because, I know I want to do the same. Part of me says I should block him right now, because lust, and attraction, both mentally and physically like that couldnt make a women addicted and that's a no good addiction when he has a women in his house with his last name. 😔

[goldenchildkatsuki]

dancing Gods

Writers note: Once again I was inspired by @awesome-yet-weird-weirdo who gave me some good prompts to work with. She comes up with some of the funnest prompts to write out I swear. I’m very thankful. I enjoyed writing this because I took my time for once. It’s not like I don’t want to take my time to write the best content I can, but I just get excited and often write fics in one night hehe. I hope you enjoy.

Summary: Uraraka and Bakugou finally have time to hang out together after an exhausting week of training and studying. Att the end of the week they decide to unwind in Uraraka’s room. When Uraraka asks if she can sleep over at Bakugou’s room that night, he declines. Instead of giving her a straight up answer he gives dull and vague answers. What’s up with him?

Word count: 3355

‘So why can’t I stay over tonight?’ Uraraka asked for what seemed to be the millionth time. ‘Because I said so.’ Bakugou answered also for the millionth time. Uraraka put her face in her hands and blowed air upwards towards her bangs which made them fly up. Bakugou was laying on her back reading a book whilst she was watching a series he couldn’t seem to get in to no matter how many times Uraraka told him to wait because “now it’s gonna get really good!”. It never did. Uraraka wiggled from side to side making Bakugou rock with her. ‘I really hate it when you say that.’ ‘I’m aware, giving the amount of times you’ve told me.’ Bakugou answered unbothered by the rocking. He simply held the book closer to his face and adjusted his glasses. When the rocking didn’t seem to help the attitude Bakugou was giving her she stopped. She tried concentrating on the series she loved so much, it was getting close tot he season finale and there was a lot going down. But she couldn’t help but look back at Bakugou laying on her lower back. His eyes slowly gliding over the words and lazily blinking every once in a while. With every glance Uraraka became more and more frustrated. It’s not like it’s the first time Uraraka has stayed the night in his room. The only times he declined a sleepover was when he was training ‘til late and he didn’t want her to wait up for him or when he’s planning to get ahead with his studying. Those declination’s atleast had a reasonable explanation. For some reason the only thing she was getting out of him were sassy remarks and smug replies. Which he did jokingly sometimes, just to get a particular reaction out of her. But now his words had a hint of sterness in them. ‘Your brow is doing that thing again.’ He mentioned out of the blue. He looked up from his book and met her eyes. ‘It’s kinda scary.’ He laughed. Uraraka huffed and turned back the tv. There isn’t a thing that boy didn’t notice, that’s whats’s scary! He could read her like a book but often chose not to act on his hunches. Which was very admirable she admitted. Her direct and caring nature sometimes didn’t seem to match up with her boyfriends personality and have led to anger and tension between them before. Carefully Uraraka felt her brow and massaged it, trying to make it relax a little. ‘Don’t you get all chummy with me now after giving me that attitude mister.’ Bakugou closed his book, set it aside with his glasses and turned on his stomach, ‘What do you mean?’ he sounded too serious, which threw her off. ‘Bakugou, stop that.’ Bakugou laid facedown and let his arms flail over her back. ‘Stop what?’ his words came out very muffled. Uraraka sighed and let her head hang. ‘I don’t know if you’ve been joking this whole time but stop acting so moody about me staying over.’ Uraraka really tried not to raise her voice but she already felt her voice getting louder than she intended it to be. Bakugou perked up looked at the back of her head. ‘I wasn’t joking and I’m not moody, I was serious ya know?’ That was not really what Uraraka expected to hear. She didn’t have an answer prepared for that and chose to just stay silent and stare at the ground. Bakugou crawled beside her and tilted his head. ‘Sorry roundface, next weekend, I promise.’ Uraraka continued to stay silent. Partially because she still didn’t know what to say and also because, well because of pure pettiness. She wasn’t getting was she looked forward to and expected to happen. Bakugou rolled his eyes and raised Uraraka’s chin. ‘I said I promise.’ He pretended sound annoyed. But he couldn’t help but break character and smile at her. And she couldn’t help but smile either. His smile was so damn contageous. It was also rare but luckily not to her. She sees him smile when he makes himself a snack, when he’s trying not to laugh at one of her corny jokes, when he gets to switch over from reading school books to comics. It made her happy he could finally let the corners of his mouth curl upwards and let the tough guy act he keeps on portraying in class go for atleast a few hours when they were together. ‘There we go.’ he said and he planted a kiss on her forehead. ‘So are we going to watch this show or what?’ he started blushing and looked up towards the ceiling, probably hoping that the blood in his cheeks would stop flowing to the surface. She giggled at him, somehow he’s still trying to keep up his tough guy act but he’s failing miserably. She took the remote and raised the volume of the tv. ‘We? Well, well, well! You sure know how to make things right don’tcha!’ Uraraka said. ‘It seems to be your lucky day Bakugou Katsuki because we’re only halfway through the marathon!’ Bakugou jerked. ‘Are you fucking serious Uraraka? Cut me some fucking slack will ya?!’ Uraraka started giggling more and more. ‘You’re the one who wanted to watch it together!’ Bakugou groaned and increased volume the longer the groan took. ‘Fine! The things I do for you sometimes, it’s not even fucking funny.’ Bakugou snatched his glasses from behind them and put them back on. They started watching the show quietly. Uraraka was quickly deeply immersed in the story again, trying to figure out if she missed something important and what might happen next. Bakugou couldn’t help but audibly cringe at the acting which they both agreed on was very debatable. But atleast he was watching with her. And Uraraka could notice he was actually into it during some scenes.

‘You know there’s only 10 minutes and one other episode left right?’

‘You said it was a whole damn marathon!’ Bakugou yelled. Uraraka bursted out with laughter, she rolled over on her back and held her stomach. ‘Don’t a-act like yo-you weren’t into i-i-it for some moments!’ she hiccuped. ‘Geh? Me? Enjoy that trash show? Never. Some scenes were just bearable to watch, I was never into anything.’ He tried to cover up so badly but halfway through his excuses he knew there was no point in trying. Uraraka was going to keep laughing at him. ‘I hate you.’ ‘You don’t.’ ‘I know.’ Uraraka’s laughter faded when the endcard started rolling. Bakugou was blushing again. That amused her more than him trying to make excuses. She took time to inspect his face for a while before having to concentrate back on the tv. Rosy cheeks, sharp features, awkward smile, hair that was getting too long and started to touch his eyelashes. He was so admirable she almost forgot that there wasn’t something quite right. She might have put her petty anger aside for a moment but it was suspicious, the way he acted before. He might’ve been serious but he still didn’t tell her why. She swore they talked about sleeping over last weekend and everything was all fine then. ‘It’s starting again.’ he said. But he was also looking at her, also inspecting every future. The sudden movements of his face made her set aside her thoughts and she was put in the middle of staring contest. It was a game they didn’t fully realized they played every now and then. In those little moments, during a study break, when getting ready to leave the gym or during the commericals like now, they just appreciated eachother. Until one person gives in makes the appreciation physical, by kissing them. She could see him starting to give in, slowly closing his eyes and leaning forward. This moment still gave Uraraka butterflies. Her heart fluttered and her gut felt heavy. As if she was as nervous as the first time they kissed. She closed her eyes but then heard the intro song of the show. Hesitantly she opened one eye to atleast catch something of the new episode. She felt Bakugou’s lips on hers, but her thoughts was still with the series. Bakugou carefully started moving his lips and tried to gently slip his tongue in her mouth. Uraraka leaned back without thinking, trying to get a better angle to watch the screen with one eye. Bakugou pulled back with closed eyes. ‘Don’t tell me you’re watching that show when I’m trying to fucking make out with you.’ ‘If I would say no would you believe me?’ Uraraka asked quickly. ‘No way in hell.’ Bakugou opened his eyes. ‘Let’s move then, I’m also breaking my neck over here.’ So together they nestled on Uraraka’s bed, legs over eachother and playing with eachother’s hands. Bakugou played with the ring on Uraraka’s finger and she’s trying to trace the lines on the palm of hand. Uraraka noticed the sky changing color. It’s beautiful orange and pink color started to disappear and started to turn into a beautiful blue velvet blanket covering the city. With the sky darkening the room darkened as well. Both of them were too lazy turn on some lights. They’ve slowly been slumping over and crawling closer to eachother as it got later. At the end of the episode Uraraka felt herself dozing off. She could feel Bakugou’s breathing starting to slow down. She turned her head away from the tv and nuzzled her head under Bakugou’s chin. She was about to close her eyes when she heard faint ticking on her window. She turned her head and saw tiny raindrops appear on her window. The ticking got faster until it merged into the calming sound of a rain shower. Uraraka felt Bakugou shift above her. She lived for mellow moments like this. They seemed so eternal. It made her keep calm, it motivated her. “Keep doing what you do to keep on experiencing these moments.” She often told herself.  Uraraka watched streams slide down her window for a while. Right before her eyelids closed she saw a flash. A quick white flash. She held her breath, in this world you never know what something so simple could mean. She had learnt that from past experiences and was always alert when something so sudden happened. Then she heard the sky rumble. ‘A storm.’ She sighed to herself. Uraraka remembered the weatherman predicting a storm at the end of the week, but it had been amazing weather this whole week so she just considered it a false perdiction. She felt Bakugou move again, he grabbed her shoulders and slowly started pushing Uraraka off of him. ‘I gotta go.’ He said in a sleepy voice. Uraraka was wide awake now and sat up. ‘You gotta go?’ ‘Yeah, I gotta go.’ He raised his glasses into his mess of a hairdo and wiped the sleep of his face. Uraraka couldn’t look at him, she tried so hard to ignore her gutfeeling of something being wrong but now Bakugou was acting up again. He crawled of the bed, picked up his book from the ground and put his glasses back on the bridge of his nose. Then he just stood there and she sat on the bed. Minutes went by in silence. Another flash lit up the room. Bakugou jolted and started wobbling his leg and tapping his foot. ‘Come on roundface, just get over here and give me a kiss so I can leave.’ Uraraka turned her head to the window and relaxed her head on her hand that was resting on her propped up knee. ‘If you wanna leave so badly you can just leave ya know?’ Uraraka glanced of to the side trying to gauge Bakugou’s reaction. The boy looked restless, like he could tire himself out by just standing in one place. He plucked at his nails, head turning from the window to the door and back, still tapping his foot. ‘Uraraka, stop acting like this. This is stupid.’ He said gravely. ‘Stupid?’ Uraraka exploded, not being able to hold back her anger she had tried to keep down the whole evening. She stood up and dug her nails in her palms. ‘You’re the one that’s acting like a complete idiot. Would it really hurt you to be reasonable for once and tell me what’s going on with you, because you’re clearly not acting like yourself!’ ‘You’re the one that makes everything bigger than it is! I should really stop spoiling you because you’re acting like a know-it-all brat right now!’ She felt her chest getting tighter and her heart beating so fast it skipped beats. ‘That’s rich. That’s very rich coming from you!’ ‘Give it a fucking rest!’ He sounded incredibly distressed. Not sure if she heard it right but she swore she could hear his voice waver. The sky started rumbling, portraying the vibe in the room. Bakugou visbily jolted and slightly raised his arms to his head. ‘Fuck this.’ He rushed to the door. Uraraka rushed right after him, slightly confused. ‘Wai-.’ Bakugou turned around, his eyes looked glassy from..

Tears?

His face and neck had red patches forming on them. ‘Seriously Uraraka, give it a rest.’ The hurt and despair in his voice scared Uraraka. It made her expression soften. The boy was trembling so bad. She could barely recognize the person standing in front of her. How did she manage to bring that side out of him? She must of really pushed his buttons. Another white flash of lightning. That seemed to push Bakugou over the edge. He couldn’t hold back anymore and tears were streaming down his face. ‘You’re scared of thunder.’ Uraraka whispered. ‘Oh my God, you’re scared of thunder.’ Bakugou was frozen into place, tears continued to stream down his face. Uraraka pushed his glasses into his hair and started to wipe away the tears around his eyes and cheeks. His face felt like it was on fire. ‘I’m sorry.’ She smiled endearingly. Bakugou’s muscles wouldn’t relax. She cupped his face and stroked his cheeks with her thumbs. ‘I’m super sorry.’ Bakugou’s muscles started to relax gradually. Twitching arms wrapped themselves up around Uraraka’s waist. He pulled her in close and burried his face in her hair and shoulder. He was still at a loss for words. Uraraka freed her arms that were squished inbetween their bodies and held him back. With one hand she lazily scratched the back of his neck and his hair. ‘I look like such a loser.’ he raised his head. Uraraka pulled back from his tight embrace so she could take a look at him. ‘You’re so silly. You don’t look like a loser.’ Bakugou avoided her gaze. ‘Come back to bed okay?’ She completely pulled back and led him back to her bed holding his wrist. Together they sat down. She slapped her hand on his thigh. ‘So what’s the deal?’ Clearly still embarrassed he avoided her gaze. ‘I just hate it. I fucking hate it. Makes me feel shitty.’ Uraraka swung her head in his direction and hair dangled infront of her face. ‘Gotcha.’ Bakugou put her hair behind her ear, still avoiding her gaze. ‘Just didn’t want you seeing me freaking out like that. It’s so damn pathetic.’ Uraraka managed to get a hold of his hand before he could retract it. ‘You’re still the toughest guy i know. Scared of thunder or not.’ Bakugou huffed. ‘Still, I would’ve prefered it if you had told me this earlier.’ Bakugou rolled his eyes. ‘I know, I know. I’ll genuinely try next time.’ He finally turned to look at her. His eyes were red and he still had a pinky color on his cheeks. ‘I promise.’ Uraraka threw her arms around his neck. ‘Loads of promises today!’ Together they fell on the bed. Uraraka thought for a moment whilst Bakugou was fighting against her tight grip. ‘Do you wanna stay here?’ ‘And pee my pants in your bed? No tha-‘ he cut of his sentence when another rumble of the skies filled the room. Uraraka kicked the blankets from under them and tucked both of them in. ‘I take that as a yes.’ Bakugou simply groaned and turned away from the window. ‘You know I don’t mean what I said there right?’ ‘You better!’ Uraraka punched him in the shoulder. ‘Heat of the moment kind of thing.’ Bakugou was actually really embarassed. She’s convinced this is something he wouldn’t be able to let go easily. He’s an overthinker at heart and this will definitely start to eat at him. She took a mental note to keep an eye on him for the next couple of days. ‘What I said was also in the heat of the moment, I’m sorry for what I said.’ Bakugou punched her back. ‘You shouldn’t apologize, me being a prick made you say the things you said.’ Uraraka smirked. ‘I can’t argue that.’ Bakugou poked her in her side. ‘Rude!’ He continued poking her and tickling her sides. Uraraka tried to block Bakugou’s pokes but she knew it was hopeless from the start. ‘You’re going to be sleeping on the floor at this rate!’ she laughed. Bakugou immediately threw his hands infront on him. ‘That’s what I thought!’

Even though Bakugou seemed to have calm down considerably since their fight, she could tell he was still weary of the noises and the flashes outside. His breathing was up in his chest and he often stayed stunned for a second. Even after confessing he still tried to hide how his body reacted to the storm, quickly rambling on after being scared. She let him have that. ‘You know sleeping is out of the question right?’ Uraraka nodded. ‘I have figured.’ Uraraka was pressed against Bakugou chest and traced the outlines of his muscles with her finger. ‘You know what I don’t get?’ ‘Math?’ Uraraka frowned. ‘Yes, and also why you’re afraid of thunder? They kinda sound like explosions don’t they?’ Bakugou adjusted. ‘It’s completely different, the sound of explosions don’t make me feel like the sky is going to collapse.’ Uraraka agreed but still thought explosions were much scarier. But she knew not to discuss that matter. ‘What do you think makes the sky rumble so much?’ Uraraka continued. ‘Do you want a real answer or something I thought ‘til I was like six?’ ‘The latter please.’ She could tell Bakugou was hesitating. ‘I thought the Gods up in the sky were having a danceparty. The loud rumbling was the stomping of their feet on the dancefloor up in the clouds.’ Uraraka couldn’t help but aw. ‘Shut up, shut up, shut up!’ Urakaka covered her mouth with her hands. ‘I’m sorry but I can’t help it!’ Bakugou threw his head back and rolled his eyes tot he back of his head. ‘Oh don’t be like that!’ She left a tiny kiss on his Adam’s apple and worked her way up. Leaving tiny kisses on his chin, his jawline, his sideburns, going up to his ear that had turned red. Uraraka enjoyed teasing him, when he was pretending to not have a sense of humor or pretending not the be as clingy as he actually was. ‘I still have some questions for you!’ she giggled. ‘Hurry up and ask them then.’ Bakugou yelled. ‘So what about Kaminari?’ Bakugou glowered at her. ‘What about him?’ ‘So why doesn’t his quirk scare you? You aren’t fond of lightning either right?’ Bakugou bursted out of laughing. His whole body was shaking which sent a vibration through her own body. She awkwardly started laughing with him, not sure why what she asked was so comical to him. ‘That dunce face doesn’t faze me one bit.’ He managed to squeeze out inbetween laughs. This boy was something else. He was so incredibly complex but such a well crafted person. She felt warm inside. Hearing him laugh, him feeling somewhat comfortable here with her in her bed. This was a moment she was defintitely going to come back to.

[tripstations]

Review: Waldorf Astoria Bangkok | One Mile at a Time

On this trip I had a day and a half in Bangkok. I arrived at around 10AM, and my flight the next night was at around midnight. Bangkok is one of the best cities in the world when it comes to reasonably priced luxury hotels, so I was looking forward to checking out one of the city’s new luxury options, which opened in August 2018.

I reviewed the Park Hyatt Bangkok the last time I was in town, and this time decided to check out the Waldorf Astoria Bangkok.

Booking the Waldorf Astoria Bangkok

I booked my one night stay using an Amex Fine Hotels & Resorts rate, which cost about $320, and included complimentary breakfast, a room upgrade subject to availability, guaranteed 4PM check-out, and a $100 property credit. I thought that was a pretty good deal when you consider all that was included.

Getting to the Waldorf Astoria Bangkok & check-in

The drive from the airport to the hotel took about 45 minutes. The hotel is located in the same area of town as so many other hotels, including the St. Regis and Park Hyatt. It’s located in the Ratchaprasong area, in a 60-story mixed use building.

Like so many hotels in mixed use buildings, the lobby wasn’t on the ground floor. Rather there was a ground floor waiting area, along with bellmen and a concierge.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok entrance

The hotel’s lobby is located on “UL,” which stands for “upper level.” This is located between floors 15 and 16, though oddly they don’t actually skip any floors to account for that. So I guess you could say the lobby is on floor 15.5 (which kind of drives me nuts).

The hotel has about 170 rooms, and is located on floors six through 16 of this building. It might seem undesirable to be on such low floors, but at least when you’re facing the direction of the park you have mostly unobstructed views.

As you’d expect, the hotel has two sets of elevators — one between the ground floor and the lobby, and the other between all the guest floors.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok elevators

The lobby had quite a bit of seating, and was elegant and beautiful. It didn’t feel particularly Thai, though it did feel luxurious.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok lobby

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok lobby

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok lobby

At the end of the lobby were three reception desks where you could sit down to be checked in. I was offered a welcome drink and a cold towel, and within a few minutes my check-in was processed.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok welcome drink & cold towel

The friendly associate recapped all the Fine Hotels & Resorts amenities. Rather annoyingly, she informed me that the $100 property credit couldn’t be applied towards in-room dining, spa products, or minibar items. It’s not unusual that it can’t be applied towards spa products or minibar items, but not even in-room dining?! Odd.

She also informed me that I had been upgraded to a room with a view. I genuinely wasn’t sure if I had included my Hilton Honors number in the reservation, given that I’m a Diamond member, so I asked (usually they acknowledge your status and/or give you a further upgrade).

She said “yes,” and then pointed to where that was listed on the registration sheet, and it showed the word “Diamond” next to my name. There was no other recognition of the status or upgrade to a suite. I guess I should have brought laminated terms & conditions, right DCS?

I was escorted down to my room, located on the 14th floor.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok elevators

What beautiful public areas, including the elevators and hallways.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok elevators

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok hallway

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok king deluxe park view room

I was assigned room 1410, a king deluxe park view room.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok room entrance

The room was cozy and well appointed. There was an extremely comfortable king size bed, then next to that was a loveseat, and opposite that was a circular dining table that could double as a desk.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok king deluxe park view room

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok king deluxe park view room

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok king deluxe park view room

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok couch

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok desk

The room did have lovely, unobstructed views of the park.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok view

Waiting on the desk was a welcome amenity, consisting of a note and some strawberry and custard tarts.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok welcome amenity

Back near the entrance was the minibar, which was a beautiful setup.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok in-room minibar

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok in-room minibar

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok in-room minibar

The hotel had cartons of water, which you almost never see. Along the same lines, they had either paper or metal straws in their F&B outlets, best I could tell.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok bottled water

The bathroom spanned the whole length of the room. It featured double sinks, a soaking tub, a walk-in shower, a toilet in a separate room, and a closet.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok bathroom

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok bathroom

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok bathtub

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok shower

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok toilet

Toiletries were from Salvatore Ferragamo.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok toiletries

Overall I thought the room was great — it was nicely appointed, comfortable, and in good condition. The wifi throughout the hotel was also fast and free.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok gym, pool & spa

The gym, pool, and spa were all located on the 16th floor.

The outdoor pool (open daily from 6AM until 10PM) were beautiful and quite large, with great views over the city. I’m not sure I totally get the structure they decided to put in the middle of the pool. Was this solely to look good (because it’s quite large, and somewhat obstructs views), or what?

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok pool

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok pool

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok pool

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok pool view

The gym was open 24/7, and had a good selection of equipment.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok gym

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok gym

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok gym

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok gym

Then there was the spa, open daily from 10AM until 10PM. I ended up getting an hour-long massage here (which cost ~100USD), and was excellent.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok spa

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok spa

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast

Breakfast was served at the Brasserie, located just off the lobby, between 6:30AM and 11AM. The restaurant itself was beautiful — in addition to a bar by the entrance, the remainder of the restaurant wrapped around the exterior of the hotel.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok Brasserie

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast buffet

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast restaurant

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast restaurant

While the restaurant had a buffet breakfast, you could order some things off a menu, like fresh juice or smoothies, tea, and specialty coffee. Here’s that menu:

Bangkok has some of the most over-the-top and extravagant breakfast buffets in the world. In many ways I sort of hate them, because I get seriously indecisive and overeat.

So dare I say it, but I actually found this buffet to be rather modest by Bangkok standards? That’s ultimately not a bad thing, but there was no six foot chocolate fountain, no 12 flavors of ice cream, etc. Below are some pictures of the buffet.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast buffet

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast buffet

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast buffet

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast buffet

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast buffet

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast buffet

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast buffet

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast buffet

My only disappointment with the buffet was the lack of fresh fruit. There were berries next to the yogurt, but there was no other fresh fruit that I saw, which I found puzzling. I must have been missing something? (Update: apparently I missed a section of the buffet, which had fresh fruit.)

Anyway, to drink I ordered a delicious cappuccino and a tropical smoothie.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast drinks

Then I had some french toast, because why the hell not?

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast french toast

I also ordered an omelet.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok breakfast omelet

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok Peacock Alley

I was on a pretty bad time schedule while in Bangkok (unsurprisingly), so while I didn’t sleep the whole night, I did take three naps during my ~30 hours at the hotel. So while I walked around a lot outside, I also had a meal in Peacock Alley, so that I could bring my laptop and work.

Peacock Alley is just off the lobby, and is intended to be more of a lobby lounge with all day drinks, afternoon tea, etc.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok Peacock Alley

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok Peacock Alley

The Waldorf Astoria does deserve credit for their Diet Coke presentation. It’s just so undignified when the soda that doesn’t fit in the glass is left in the can!

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok Peacock Alley drink

I ended up having a Thai chicken wrap.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok Peacock Alley snack

From the dessert menu I also ordered the coconut and Thai tea ice cream. I figured an order of two scoops wasn’t unreasonable, though they did serve them in separate bowls, which made me feel pretty bad about myself.

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok Peacock Alley ice cream

Waldorf Astoria Bangkok bottom line

I had a great stay at the Waldorf Astoria Bangkok — the rooms, public areas, service, and location were all very good.

The thing about Bangkok is that there are so many great luxury options, and I think they’re all in a fairly similar league.

Personally I think the Park Hyatt and Waldorf Astoria are almost identical quality-wise. Heck, the designs even reminded me of one another. As a matter of fact, in a few months I’m not sure I’ll be able to tell them apart in my memory.

So personally I’d gladly return to either hotel, depending on where I could get a better value, or where I needed elite nights in order to requalify for status.

So the Waldorf Astoria Bangkok is awesome, but so are a lot of hotels in Bangkok.

If you’ve stayed at the Waldorf Astoria Bangkok, what was your experience like? What’s your favorite luxury Bangkok hotel nowadays, given how many new hotels there are?

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5 Reasons I’m Glad I Got the Fuck Over Myself and Went To Therapy

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5 Reasons I’m Glad I Got the Fuck Over Myself and Went To Therapy

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I am in good mental health.

Even in my darkest moments, this is what I told myself. The facts seemed to support me. I’d never been diagnosed with a mental illness. I never needed pills to cure anything more than sinusitis. I had a great childhood. I was in control—stable and calm; cool and collected.

Except when I wasn’t. Every now and then, stress would kick my brain into overdrive and I didn’t know how to take back the wheel. I’d feel attacked by bouts of insecurity, helplessness, and anxiety. I’d call my parents in exasperation and then lash out when their words weren’t what I wanted to hear. My remedies were to smoke weed, sleep, and hope that I felt better the next day. I usually did.

I was initially inspired to book a session with a therapist after making a dentist’s appointment. I thought it was basically the same idea. When I told my mom my plan, she asked, “When the psychiatrist asks why you’re there, what are you going to say?”

“That I just wanted to get a check-up on my mental health?” I replied.

“I think you’ll probably have to be more specific than that, sweetie,” she said. And so I shelved the idea.

Several months later, I attempted a personal experiment where I let my friends control my daily routine for a month (another story for another day). I thought I was strong enough to handle losing control of my life. I wasn’t. I quit 22 days in.

That month was like a catfish shuffling through the muck. I felt like a failure, an embarrassment, and a disappointment. Negative self-talk amplified. The clouds blackened. They were always there, but a fortuitous breeze usually whisked them away. But now I didn’t know how to summon the wind.

I finally got the fuck over my “good mental health” and made an appointment with a therapist. I’m so glad I did. Here are 5 reasons why.

1. I learned how to label my emotions.

When someone asks how you are, what do you say? If you’re like me, the answer is usually “good.” Sometimes it’s “fine.” On occasion, it’s “not so great.” And there you go, the three buckets of emotions as I understood them: good, fine, and none of the above.

In one of my first sessions, my therapist showed me a chart with cartoonish faces, each labeled with an emotion. It might sound silly, but that sheet of circular blobs was a revelation. When I was feeling “not so great,” that didn’t necessarily mean “sad.” Sometimes it meant “frustrated,” or “anxious,” or “scared.” And when I was feeling “good,” it didn’t necessarily mean “happy”—sometimes it meant “joyful,” or “loved,” or “excited.” Each provoked different thought patterns and behavior.

Understanding your emotions is a bit like making a stew. Sometimes it smells delicious, and you can see the potatoes, onions, and beef chunks gurgling in harmony. But sometimes something stinks. Before, it was hard to tell if the smell was mustard seed or rotten eggs. But now, I could better identify what brewed in my cauldron.

2. I practiced how to separate emotions from thoughts, facts, and behaviors.

Therapy has many forms. I chose cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT), which is grounded in pragmatic analysis of present-day problems. It’s like learning how to rewire your brain.

Before I started, those wires were all jumbled together. If I felt like shit, it was because I was shit, and so I acted like a shithead. I didn’t understand how to separate each part of that equation: it was just shit. A good sleep was the only thing that broke the cycle.

One of the core tools in CBT is a worksheet called the thought log. In it, you take an automatic negative thought, like “I’m a failure,” and unpack it. How does that thought make you feel? (Sad, frustrated, disappointed, upset.) What is the supporting evidence for that thought? (I quit a personal experiment.) What evidence does not support that thought? (I graduated from college; I have a steady job; I won the spelling bee in 4th grade.) Given that, is there a different thought that feels more accurate? (I succeed in most things but bit off more than I could chew with an absurdly difficult experiment.) What feelings are associated with that? (More hopeful, still a little frustrated, a bit confused, but no longer sad). And repeat as necessary.

CBT was the only time I liked doing homework. I practiced the thought log several times a week. Wires started falling into place. I learned just how much negative thoughts influenced how I felt, and how liberating it felt to choose what to think.

3. I learned how to recognize cognitive distortions affecting my behavior.

I think when many think of mental health, they picture white-walled corridors, straitjackets, and cups with little pills in them. I think it’s more like a funhouse with funky mirrors. You’re looking at yourself thinking, “that can’t be me.” And yet, it is you, but your forehead is five times bigger than your torso. “Oh, right, the mirror has a funny shape,” you’ll think, and then you laugh at your gargantuan nose and move on.

Cognitive distortions are like those funky mirrors, but they’re far more sinister. In the clinical sense, cognitive distortions are exaggerated thought patterns which distort reality and feed depression and anxiety.

Take a common one—all or nothing thinking. I did this all the damn time. Ever find yourself saying something like “He never pays attention to me”? Or “I always ruin things”? Boom: cognitive distortion. The situation is rarely that black and white. Chances are, it’s not “always” or “never” because life is rarely that extreme. Usually it’s somewhere in that vast grey area.

Cognitive distortions work because they’re simple and predictable. It’s as seamless as trying on a pair of sunglasses. And once that darkness takes over, logic and reason shut down.

For me, learning to spot them was half the battle. If negative thoughts looped through my head like a broken record, usually it was fueled by a pernicious cognitive distortion. When I unpacked that thought and looked for a cognitive distortion, the spell was often broken.

4. I invested in myself.

Know this now: therapy is not easy. I didn’t find it particularly therapeutic either, at least not like a massage or spa treatment. It can also be expensive—one session ran me $140 an hour. Yes, there are plenty of cheaper (and even free) options. But there’s no question it’s a commitment: with money, time, and emotional wherewithal.

Other than the examples I’ve given, I don’t want to delve into the specifics of each session. What’s shared in therapy should stay private. I will say that in the spectrum of struggles, mine were probably mild. But I still felt like I got in my own way a lot—with friendships and relationships; as a son and a co-worker; as a dreamer and a doer.

In our first session, I set goals for myself. They had to be tangible, like “Develop strategies to keep negative thoughts from ruminating for more than an hour.” I would’ve given my pinkie toe to overcome that one. When to comes to “return on investment,” I can think of few better payoffs than clear thinking.

Sessions in therapy were like signposts on a journey into my brain. Everyone’s journey is different—some longer, more arduous, and fraught with obstacles—and there’s no shame in walking with a guide for as long as you need. After a lot of practice in and out of therapy, I felt like I was sturdy enough to continue on my own. Note that doesn’t make me “cured”—because that’s not how mental health works—just that I felt knowledgeable enough to keep administering the antidote.

Therapy produced such clear dividends. I deconstructed my clock to see what made it tick. I developed a mental health toolbox that I’ll carry with me for life. And now, I actually feel like I’m driving my life as opposed to letting the road drive me.

5. I let go of pride and quelled my fears.

I feel like many think going to therapy is admitting weakness. That it must mean there’s something broken inside. I hate that. It’s like saying lifting weights is for weaklings. The ones that are strongest get their ass to the gym.

But have I always thought that way? Not even close. Why do you think it took me so long to make my first appointment? Therapy was for Zach Braff’s character in Garden State. That dude was messed up. I’m fine.

Yes, there were moments when I was not fine. But that’s just life, right? I didn’t need help to get through life’s ups and downs. I was too proud to work on my mental health.

What a massive irony. We don’t hesitate to sign up for a painting class, but when it comes to understanding the brain, an incredibly complex and precious instrument that humanity has worked for millennia to demystify, we’re all like: “Nah, I got this.”

It’s a ridiculous notion that needs to stop. I know now that hidden beneath my pride was fear. I felt scared that I wouldn’t like what I found when I started looking. I was terrified of friends finding out. If it hadn’t been for the encouragement and acceptance from loved ones, I doubt I would have gathered the strength to go.

I feel loved for having their support. I know many aren’t as lucky. That sucks. I’m frustrated that talking about mental health is still stigmatized. I’m upset that some stereotype therapy as a weakness. And I’m sad that those stigmas and stereotypes turn away those that need therapy most.

And so, here’s my attempt to rewire that thought.

Instead of being ashamed to go to therapy, I’m proud to admit that I don’t have all the answers. I’m proud to ask for help. I’m proud to look my demons in the eye and make them blink. I’m proud to seek mental stability. I’m proud to believe that I can be better.

And if you feel the same? Well then I’m proud of you too.

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That’s Because They Have No Idea It Exists!

From: Ian Hart, B.S., C.S.C.S.

I’ll never forget the day my back pain started… I was only 15 years old and was playing basketball when I took a nasty fall and injured my spine. Actually, I broke a small bone on one of my vertebrae.

From that point on, back pain was a constant part of my life.

To someone who’s never suffered with chronic and debilitating back pain, it’s hard to explain just how awful the feeling is. To wake up, every single day of your life and never have the opportunity to really feel good… well, it’s really something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.

And yet, thousands and thousands of people endure pain like this day in and day out. For them, there’s no escaping it no matter what they try.

I was one of those people, for many years.

In an effort to find relief for my pain, I tried just about every available therapy and treatment there is.

I drew the line at surgery. But other than that, I tried anything and everything to get some lasting relief from my pain.

The best I could get was relief that was temporary. If the treatments stopped, the pain returned. Temporary relief simply wasn’t enough.

And then I met a person that would forever change the course of my life. It is because of this person that my back pain ended… almost like he was magic.

Now this is where the story is going to take a most unbelievable turn…

In fact, if you’re reading this and you’re not suffering from back pain, you probably won’t believe me. And that’s fine, because what I have is really not for you.

But if you’re a person who wakes up each and every day of your life to more back pain, then you’re probably going to keep reading. Because you know that even the longest journey in search of relief will be totally worth it when your back pain is gone forever.

And that’s why, at the risk of having you think I’m crazy, I’m going to tell you the story of how I ended my back pain.

After years and years of searching, it was over in about 17 minutes. And in just a moment, I’m going to introduce you to the man who showed me the secret way to do it.

But first, there’s something very important you need to understand so that everything I’m about to tell you makes sense.

What Most People Will Never Know

About The Real Cause Of Back Pain

Most medical and healthcare professionals don’t even know what I’m about to share with you. If they did, they’d spend their time addressing the cause of back pain instead of just the symptoms.

As weird as it sounds, you don’t end back pain by concentrating on the pain. For real and lasting relief, you need to understand the reason the pain is there.

Without that knowledge, you’re going to spend the rest of your life in search of what, at best, will be temporary relief for your pain.

I know, because that’s exactly what I experienced for years and years.

That’s the reason that things like acupuncture, chiropractic and massage don’t offer lasting relief for your back pain. Those things help to address the symptoms, but not the true cause.

It’s a bit like a car…

You might think that a car has nothing to do with back pain, but stick with me here. I’ll explain the connection in just a moment.

When a car is “out of alignment,” that means the car isn’t really balanced. And if nothing is done to resolve the imbalance, a lot of bad things can go wrong.

The most obvious symptom is that your tires are going to wear unevenly. Eventually, one of them might become so worn that it blows out. What started as a simple imbalance can turn into a very dangerous situation.

This is exactly what is happening in your body to cause back pain. Over time, the muscles in your body become imbalanced.

Except with the human body, you aren’t able to look inside and spot the early warning signs like you can on a car.

Over the years, the muscle imbalance can get so bad that…

End Up Pulling You Apart!

Most people with back pain have no idea that the real cause is the game of “tug-of-war” raging inside their bodies.

Because of the way most of us live and move through our day, we create what you might call “imbalances” in our muscles. In other words, we start to use certain muscles more than others.

Eventually, your “strong” muscles start tugging on your “weak” muscles and pulling unevenly on your joints, ligaments and tissues.

This “tug-of-war” creates small little injuries throughout the affected area. If nothing is done to resolve the imbalance, those small injuries become big injuries most of us are familiar with, like a herniated disk or sciatica.

And that’s when the real pain begins.

One day, you bend down to pick up something you dropped on the floor and WHAM!, you throw your back out.

Most people would say, “I threw my back out because I bent down in a weird way.”

But you don’t “throw your back out” because you bend down to pick something up off the floor. You throw your back out because the imbalance in your body gets so bad that the simple act of bending over creates a huge amount of pain.

Go to a doctor and tell them about your back pain, and you’ll probably just get a prescription for medication. Or even worse, they’ll start talking about surgery.

By now, hopefully it’s clear that the only answer mainstream medicine has for back pain is to deal with the symptoms. They don’t even mention (probably because they don’t know) anything about the real cause!

So congratulations. At this point, you probably know more about the real cause of back pain than your doctor. And you discovered it without spending years and years in medical school.

But just because you know the cause doesn’t mean that the solution is obvious. It certainly wasn’t obvious to me.

In fact, despite my years of effort, I simply couldn’t find lasting back pain relief anywhere.

That’s until I met a very highly skilled trainer from the Eastern European country of Serbia. His name is Bojan Mladenovic. That’s pronounced Boh-yan… Muh-la-den-o-vich.

Let Me Introduce You To The Man Who Eliminated

My Back Pain In About 17 Minutes

Most people have no idea where Serbia is, let alone the fact it has produced a very long list of world class athletes.

Bojan (Boh-yan), the man who ended my back pain, studied with the very same professors responsible for creating those elite athletes.

Bojan finished at the top of his class at the University of Belgrade (basically the “Harvard” for his area of study) and graduated with a Master’s Degree in Exercise Science.

He was asked to join the University faculty upon graduation as well as the coaching staff of the Serbian National Soccer Team.

The most important part of Bojan’s story, however, is what he discovered during his time at the University. During those years, he worked on perfecting a unique sequence of movements focused on providing true back pain relief.

His discoveries were so remarkable they won a “golden seal of approval” when Bojan presented them to the faculty at his University.

The discoveries Bojan shared with me ended my back pain.

I first met Bojan when I hired him as a personal trainer at a gym I managed in New York City. From the beginning, it was obvious there was something very different about him.

Within 3 months of starting work, Bojan was ranked #2 in sales out of every trainer in the entire company… nationwide! What’s even more amazing is that, at the time, Bojan could barely even speak English.

But clearly, he was doing something that was keeping his clients happy. What he was doing was helping them get results.

One day, Bojan saw me hobbling around the gym and asked me what was wrong. I told him the same story I just told you about my back pain. After a few questions, he finally said in his best broken English, “I have beautiful program to fix back pain and prevent it from happening again…”

That’s when he pulled me to the side and showed me his entire system for back pain relief.

I went home and did the program on my own. In one session, my back pain was gone.

A single session using the Back Pain Relief4Life formula did for me what years and years of treatments and thousands of dollars could not do.

After Years of Suffering,

It might sound like what I’m describing here is some sort of magic. After all, it doesn’t really make sense that a young University student from halfway around the world would be able to solve a problem as widespread as back pain.

Believe me, it’s not magic. It’s really just science.

But it’s a level of science most healthcare professionals just don’t know about.

Doctors and other healthcare practitioners might be well educated in anatomy and physiology, but they don’t understand how things actually work when the body starts to move in the real world.

They have plenty of book knowledge and theory, but no understanding of how that theory is applied to the way the human body moves.

With Bojan’s unique training and study under professors holding PhDs in bio-mechanics and sports physiology, he has a very unique understanding of the back and how it is affected by movement.

And that’s really the magic behind the program he’s created.

Since those first days when I met Bojan, I’ve changed careers and moved my focus to back pain relief.

We both actually quit our jobs as trainers and opened up our own facility, featuring The Back Pain Relief4Life formula back pain program. Within months we were 100% booked. We were packed solid with clients, training 12-14 hours a day in a small community.

Today, we focus on using the Back Pain Relief4Life formula to help our clients eliminate back pain, sciatica, hip pain and neck pain.

While I could go on and on about the effectiveness of the Back Pain Relief4Life program, I’d rather just let our clients speak for themselves…

“After My First Session Of Back Pain Relief4Life, I Felt An Opening In My Back That I Haven’t Felt In A Long Time. I Felt Stronger To My Core…”

“I was feeling very weak in my core area and I was having some radiating pain in my lower back, and I was going to the doctors and they were telling me things like you need to have disc replacement; you need to have all these surgeries; you need to be on this pain medications; and they wanted to basically put me through a lot of surgical procedures and I didn’t want to do any of that – but the pain was so bad that I needed some relief. I went to two Neurosurgeons and I went to a Back Pain Specialist and the surgeons wanted to operate on me in different places and the back pain specialist wanted to do various procedures including implanting something permanent in my spine. I’ve had four procedures that involved needles in my spine, epidurals in my spine and that only gave me like a little bit of temporary relief for couple of days, but it did not cure or really help anything. It just put a band-aid on a pain for couple of days and that was it.

“It’s Been Great. I Have Had No Muscle Pain At All, I Haven’t Had to See My Chiropractor Once. I Exercise, I’m Able To Be Active Work, I Have No Neck Pain, Shoulder Pain…”

“I had a constant back pain since my child was born; he’s fourteen now. My sciatica was an issue. My hip, shoulder and my neck as well. I saw a chiropractor for about four years twice a month and I still had issues with flaring up – when it did flare up I was down and up for about three months at a time. My life was just working and coming home trying to manage the pain. My family was pretty much without me during that time. I wasn’t able to exercise, gain a lot of weight and was pretty much scared to do anything besides work, to make it worse. I was skeptical about using Back Pain Relief4Life program just because I didn’t want to injure myself anymore. I felt like doing nothing or only seeing the chiropractor was the way to get any relief.

“I’m Doing Things In Just Few Weeks That I Haven’t Been Able To Do For Years.”

“I was unable to do a lot of things. I couldn’t sit on the floor easily, it hurt my back. I could not kneel at all; just bending down picking something up from the floor. Now I’ve been working for just four weeks with the exercises and I can tell, I’m just more fluid I think. I’m more at ease in doing things and my back doesn’t hurt nearly so much. I’m doing things in just few weeks that I haven’t been able to do for years. I think I’ve been in different exercise programs for many years but this one has seem to work so much better and more quickly. This has just been four weeks and I can tell a tremendous difference. I can bend over and pick things up from the floor which before it was just difficult to do that simple thing. I have five grandchildren and I can actually bend down and pick them up. It’s just such a joy to me.”

“After Back Pain Relief4Life, I Am More Flexible, My Back Doesn’t Hurt, I’ve Had Three Sessions Here I Feel That Much Better”

“It hurt my back L4-L5 twenty five years ago and I sort of struggled through different trainers, different processes. I’ve done anything from trainers to witchdoctors. After Back Pain Relief4Life, I am more flexible, my back doesn’t hurt, I’ve had three sessions here I feel that much better and I am excited to keep going so that I can actually get to the point where I can touch my toes. I am doing things that I thought I would never be able to do before. My back doesn’t hurt.”

“…I Could Even Touch My Toes Now. I Haven’t Been Able To Touch My Toes in 20 Years…”

“About 25 years ago, I was diagnosed with something called spinal stenosis which is actually arthritis

in the back and I’ve done all kinds of steroidal injections; I’ve done all kinds of different exercises; I’ve been on all kinds anti-inflammatories over and number of years and in quite frankly they were just all stop gap measures and in one that gave me temporary relief but nothing in a long-term basis.

I’ve been following the program for about 3 and a half months now and quite frankly I can get out of the bed in the morning better than I have in 30 years. I’m able to bent over and pick up the papers in the morning, which I wasn’t able to do. I walk more upright, I’m not as stoved over like I have been in the past and quite frankly I credit it all the exercises in this program. I’m religious about it now – I do it at least once, if not twice a day and it’s helped me considerably.

I recommend it as a measure with anybody that has tried anything else and it hasn’t worked. Try this before surgery- and believe me there were enough surgeons that wanted me to go under the knife and do the things that I didn’t want to, just because it’s a spinal cord injury and I’ve heard all kinds of horrible things about that with the results you know it’s a 50-50 shot and I’ve really been putting that off for years and years and I’m glad I did because now I feel a lot better, and I feel alot better now I’ve been doing the exercises.

Well, I guess in the beginning, I was skeptical about just exercise because I’ve done so many exercises, so many different kinds of exercises that had been placed on me, that I’ve taken. You know, it may give you a little bit of relief, I’ve done all kinds of stretches, whatever it might be but these work better than anything else I’ve tried in the past. My back is a lot freer, I’m actually even to an extent running now, I haven’t run in 15 to 20 years! The pounding on running isn’t good for your back obviously any neurosurgeon will tell you that. And now I could even run couple of miles now and it doesn’t bother me afterwards. So I’m up in my training more. I’d like to lose a lot more weight obviously and I’ve lost a little bit since I’ve been working out, but I need to lose a lot more and I think that may able to help my back even more. My knees feel good now, no sciatic pain down my leg which I had in the past, I could sit much more comfortably than I have in my past. But the biggest thing is I’m not just walking – and you know I’m 65 years old, but – I’m not walking like an 85 yrs old man or 90 yrs old man and unfortunately when I had the attacks of my back over and number of years, I would walk all stoved over and look much more than my age quite frankly.

My life after Relief4Life has been a lot different. Obviously I can do things that I haven’t in the past. You know I can play golf 3 or 4 times in a week, I can only play once or twice in the past and then my back would hurt me even after 3, 4 or 5 times, a relationship with exercise are concerned under Relief4Life, I felt much better – no pain and I wasn’t all stoved over like I’ve mentioned before, looking like some decrepit, hundred year-old man or something like that and believe me in the morning that is exactly what I look like. I’d get out of bed and would take me 10 or 15 minutes before I could straighten up. Now I jump out of bed. I could jump outside and pick up the paper. I could do a lot more things than I have in the past – golf, running, more exercise than I haven’t been able to go in the past in relationship to lifting weights and the things that could keep me strong as I age.

Well I’ve had the back pain probably for almost 20-25 years. I played rugby until I was 40 and

that’s when it really started in earnest and so that’s 25 years ago and so I’ve had it for 25 years but in the last 3 months I’ve basically have no back pain whatsoever. So it’s a lot different for me in life and it’s great!

About how many sessions until I really started feeling better would probably about 4 or 5. I knew it take at least that much and that 4 or 5 sessions was really in the first week so you know 5, 6 days where I really started to feel different in relationship to where my posture is concerned and bending over and I could even touch my toes now. I haven’t been able to touch my toes in 20 years and that has little something to do with my hamstrings also and some of the things I’ve been working out. But it was basically my back, my back restricted a lot that I did and now I don’t have that restrictions anymore.

As far as recommending Relief4Life? Definitely! I mean there’s so many things that I’ve tried. I talked about steroid injections and I’ve probably went through with that about 6 or 8 of those in a number of different places that I lived with different doctors and some were excellent doctors and some these same doctors told me it was time for me to get operated on and it’s something I really don’t want to go under. You hear all kinds of things in relationship to spinal operations. It’s not something that I wanted to undertaken and Relief4Life quite frankly has been able to put that off for me. So I feel very grateful that I tried this new set of exercises, stretching exercises and it’s helped me out dramatically.”

“…Yeah, I Was Skeptical Until I Tried It. I Came In Hobbling And Left Walking.”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, I had prior back surgery about eight years ago, and I had a lot of tightness and immobility in my lower back and I had a weak core section and a lot of pain. I had an episode where a muscle spasm had basically put me into an immobile position where I could not move. I was completely immobile so I was completely shut down.

“…I Am A Lot More Flexible, I Haven’t Lost Any Work Days. It’s Been Great There’s No More Back Pain”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, I had back pain off and on for ten years. Sometimes it was so painful I could not get out of bed. It mostly radiated from my lower spine and I thought it was nerve pain. It would be extremely painful moved down my legs.

“I Gave It A Try And After The Very First Session I Started Feeling The Results. It Was Amazing.”

“I’ve been taking care of my dad who’s bedridden in wheelchair and I was getting constant pain in my back and lower back from having to lift him up and transfer him back and forth between the bed, the wheelchair and his chair and additionally I’ve worked out off and on over the years and I’ve always experience pain in my back and just felt that it was just part of the… part of working out. I am able to transfer my father back and forth without any pain. Before I have no flexibility; I have lots of flexibility. So with Back Pain Relief4Life I gave it a try and after the very first session I started feeling the results. It was amazing.”

“My Pain Immediately Was Relieved. My Muscles Were Relaxed, It Wasn’t Tense.”

“My back pain was pretty severe, I couldn’t even do the sedentary things… just walking was hurting me. I certainly could not do surgery; I’m a surgeon. Sitting and standing put me an intense pain. My pain immediately was relieved. My muscles were relaxed, it weren’t as tensed. By the next day, I could almost carry on with normal function. I heard about the immediate results but I did not expect to get them so quickly.”

“Since Doing The Program, My Life Changed Completely. I Have A Real Active Life… I Do Pretty Strenuous Workout, Three Days A Week…”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, my back pain was pretty severe. I couldn’t rest good at night, I couldn’t do no types of heavy lifting or anything… just excruciating. It was amazing, the things that I could do after.

“I’m Walking Again…”

“Since I’ve come to this program, I don’t take any drugs, I’m off all medications, I don’t have to go to therapy anymore. I’m more active, I could actually do things, I’m walking again. Before I couldn’t walk; it was painful to walk! Within six weeks, it’s been incredible. In six weeks time with this program, I’ve done more than in nine months, going to different specialists.

The program is great for any age, I think, no matter what physical level. I didn’t do physical fitness- I couldn’t even walk. I could do nothing really for a long time. And I think no matter what stage of life you’re at, I think the program is great, just to get you out of it, you know, get rid of the pain.“

“One year later after using Back Pain Relief4Life, I have been able to do anything that I’d wanted to do with my kids. Actually this year we are going out to Montana to a Dude Ranch, which I’d never been able to do that and it’s been so exciting because I train with my children and to be able to lift or do the same weight as 20 years old on some of the exercises, even my kids stop and say it’s just amazing because they remember me just laying on the floor doing nothing. I couldn’t do anything with them and as I said it’s a year later, it’s one of the things you could get almost instantaneous relief, but you really have to keep moving and moving.

“The Muscles Are Holding Where They Ought To Be And My Activities Are Back To Normal – Full Golf, Full Tennis, Full Everything!”

“Before the program, I couldn’t sit without just barely putting one part of my body on the edge of the chair and had to artificially hold my body in a rigid position, and picking things up off the floor, or moving around, or doing any of my normal activities was out of the question. And I had already been through years of microsurgery and therapy and everything else and none of that worked; that’s how I was before.

“…I Have Had Numerous Cortisone Injections And Nothing Has Helped Until I Started This Program.”

“I have been to numerous doctors, I have been to massage therapist’s, I have been to orthopedic sugeons, I have been to back specialists and I have had numerous cortisone injections and nothing has helped until I started this program. Before I started the program Relief 4life, my pain was constant. I had a very sharp pain in my right hip, I had been on pain killers and over the counter medication several times a day. After I started, even after the first session doing Relief 4life, I got immediate results, my pain is now almost totally gone, its 98 percent better. I have occassional twinges but I can go days and not even think about my hip. I was very skeptical that the Relief 4life program could do anything to help me with the pain because I was in so much pain and I just thought nothing is going to be able to help get rid of this. I would say to anybody thinking about this, just do it and just try it. I was very skeptical at first but the proof is in the doing and I would recommend this program to anyone. I highly recommend this program to anyone with any kind of back or hip pain that I’ve experienced and I already have recommended it to a lot of people and it has totally changed my pain level.”

“…I Had A Prescription Of Steroids Waiting To Be Picked Up At The Pharmacy and I did Back Pain Relief4Life Twice And Never Picked The Prescription Up.“

“After The First Two Treatments, I Felt Enormous Relief… It Was Unbelievable!”

“My life before Relief4Life was: shoulder and neck pain every night. I had problems with my SI joint, it would come out of joint periodically, I’d have a lot of pain and made it difficult for me to do my job.

“Anytime somebody tells me that they’re having back pains, I tell them about Back Pain Relief4Life because I believe in it that much.”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, I had constant pain going down my legs. I had sciatica, and it was taking over my life. It was terrible. I could not do anything; I was having trouble from getting out of bed. I had to literally take my arms, and push myself up to get myself out of bed sometimes. And when I would walk there was just sharp shooting pains like somebody was stabbing me in the back and I heard about the program, Back Pain Relief4Life, I tried it out. And at the end of doing the workout, in the last exercise, the last rep, all of a sudden like my leg – the pain stops. I couldn’t believe it, it was crazy! My toes started tingling. I was like that’s funny. What’s going on? I started moving my leg. I haven’t been able to move my leg freely like that in over 8 years that I was having these issues. I ran to the bedroom and told my fiance – babe, my leg I can lift it, no pain. I was blown away! I just couldn’t believe that after some of the things that I have tried, I wasn’t getting any results and the first time I did the program I got results right away. It took 8 years and I felt like this. Now, I was in good shape working out. I tried to strengthen my core, strengthen my lower back. Nothing was working and I felt doing the program, my back was sore like at first after doing it and I thought I was in good shape. I was like man I’m missing all these little muscles! And I felt such a mind-body connection while I was doing it. I really focused and followed it. And when you give results like that from the very first time, it makes it a lot easier to keep doing it. So I continued doing it for 3 times a week like I was instructed to do, and kept getting good results. I also had left ACL surgery, so [with] my knee I was having with issues with rehab. My knee is really stiff, after it feels great. It’s loose, I can move it around and it doesn’t hurt me like I was when I was stiff. My hips are loosened up, my hips are always tight when I used to do squats, very stiff, very tight. Doing the Program, it feels great afterwards. My whole body feels loose. I get a really good workout from it and I just feel great after I do it. I was struggling everyday with the pain. It was non-stop every single day, now I can go on. I am able to live a normal life, I can do more things, I can help coach my son’s baseball team, I can go out there and throw batting practice with him and not be in a tremendous amount of pain.

The Program, I would recommend to every and anybody, and I do. Anytime somebody tells me that they’re having back pains, I tell them about Back Pain Relief4Life because I believe in it that much. It did such great things for me that I would recommend it to anybody. What would I want to say to someone who is skeptical about the Program… I understand that anybody that suffers from back issues, sciatica, whatever the pains are, you’ve probably been through so many different things and been through the ringer. Everybody will tell you something – did this, did that, did not get much results maybe temporary. So give it a shot. Try it out. It worked for me from the very first time and I kept doing it and I still continue to get good results.”

“The Next Morning I Woke Up And I Felt 100% Better, My Pain Was Completely Gone. I Couldn’t Even Tell That My Back Was Killing The Night Before…”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, Last night I had really bad pain in my lower back. It felt like something is pinching it and even just standing there it was really uncomfortable. I kept feeling like I had to lean and I was having trouble getting up and down from things and towards the end of the night I really did not feel good. I thought that I would not make it to workout in the morning and I would have a horrible sleep and I was planning on icing my back. I was told to do the Back Pain Relief4Life [program], I was frustrated, I didn’t really want to do it was late at night I just wanted to rest and go to sleep. I forced myself to do it. Afterwards, I almost felt relieved in my back… you could feel a little something there but it was very relaxed, it almost relaxed my muscle, and it felt good as I was doing it. The next morning I woke up and I felt a hundred percent better, my pain was completely gone. I couldn’t even tell that my back was killing the night before and the last time that it did happened to my back I was feeling that and it just got worse and worse for almost a week or two.

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“You’re Nothing If You Don’t Try And I Would Recommend You Try It.”

“Well, when I was 15 years old, I use to raise bulldogs and I’ve had a running female cut my legs out from under me and I fell on my tail and crack the base of my last vertebrae. Um.. went to a chiropractor, got some temporary relief. About a year later, I had a basketball injury – fell on my tailbone again. Since then, my life has been 600IU of Ibuprofen a day and constant chiropractic visits.

“Now that I have Back Pain Relief4Life, I have total comfort!”

“Well, My life before Back Pain Relief4Life was pretty miserable. I had sciatica for about 4 months. I’ve been to doctors, I’ve had cortisone shots, I’ve tried everything and nothing worked – [I] even did physical therapy for 6 weeks. But finally, with my work here with Back Pain Relief4Life, I no longer have sciatica. I had pain that ran from my buttocks all the way through my ankle and it ran down one leg most of the time and eventually it became both legs. So I could barely get out of bed; I had to crawl to the bathroom at times – I was in such pain… particularly after sleeping at night, I couldn’t move during the day.

I was skeptical about Back Pain Relief4Life because I had tried so many other things – physical therapy and shots and back specialists, X-rays, MRIs, nothing was giving me relief. Now that I have Back Pain Relief4Life, I have total comfort. I just took a weekend trip to Florida and in the car for 7hrs both ways, got out of the car and I have no pain. However, I do my exercises 3 days a week.

I would highly recommend that you give it a try because it does work and I am a man 77 yrs old who felt that nothing could help me out, but Back Pain Relief4Life has done that and now I can play tennis again and do the thing I want to do. I just really have to tell you that no matter what people tell you – how many different ways you can get your back fixed, I’ve tried them all – nothing has worked until I tried Back Pain Relief4Life. And it has worked and don’t give up. Just stay with it if you start the program.”

“It Feels Like Someone Got In There and Oiled My Joints… I Have Absolutely No Pain Now…”

“It feels like someone got in there and oiled all my joints and they’re moving easily and I have absolutely no pain now. It’s unbelievable. It’s amazing!

The doctor reported that the bone density in my spine is thicker – bigger – and I no longer have osteoporosis in my spine, now it’s osteopenia, which is better bone density… You really have to try this program.”

Hi, my name is Natalia Muntean and I am a big fan of the Back Pain Relief4Life program.

I am a professional model and fitness competitor therefore daily grueling training and travels around the world are big part of my career, which puts a lot of stress on my back.

This program is very easy to follow and, most importantly, you can do it anywhere.

I follow it for a couple of months now and it strengthened my back muscles significantly, helping me to breeze through prolonged photo shoots, flights to Australia or Europe and keep my posture in excellent form.

Whether you have a back problem or just want to maintain a strong and healthy back, Back Pain Relief4Life is your choice!

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“I Would 100% Recommend It To Anybody…”

“Say, after the second session in the program, I experienced dramatic results, the pain was almost nonexistent anymore…

Given what I was paying on chiropractors, I probably, if I had to put a number, I would probably spend about 500 dollars on it. Even in the time when I was in most pain, I probably would’ve just written a check for what ever I could.

And looking back on all the expenses that I paid out for chiropractors, trips to CVS, getting myself over-the-counter medications, things that I thought would help but didn’t, I would definitely say that this replaced all that and then some.

I would definitely pay, whatever I needed to pay to go through the program and have the experience that I’m having… you’ll see results immediately, I would 100% recommended it to anybody else who is suffering from back pain.”

“It Has Made A World Of Difference. I haven’t experience Hardly Any Back Pain Since…“

“Since coming in and doing the Back Pain Relief program, it has made the world a difference. I haven’t experienced hardly any back pain since I came in. In over the past year, my back has been a lot stronger and I have been more conscious about how I am lifting things and how I do things since then. So, it’s definitely made a difference there and I haven’t experienced hardly any back pain since then.

So one year after starting the program, [it has] definitely it made a big difference in my life as far as my back goes – at work, at home around the house just doing things. I’m not as conscious about my back, it’s a lot stronger… especially playing basketball doing different things. I don’t have the strain, the pain in my back, and my lower back that I had a year ago.

Yeah absolutely if you have a chance to do it I would say definitely jump in and do it and make a big difference in your life. If you are worried about having lower back pain, this will definitely take that completely away. You don’t have that in the back of your mindworrying about your lower back when you are doing certain activities. It definitely makes your back stronger and it takes that worry away from you.“

“I Can Tell You That I’m 95% to 100% Pain Free!”

“Relief4Life, for me, was amazing, because I never thought that I would be able to get rid of the pain in my back, or my neck.

My pain was intolerable to the point that I had tried physical therapy, I went through pain management, I went through a series of epidurals in my back, I had trigger shot points, cortisone shots, everything (up to and including surgery) and until Relief4Life, I had not felt this good. I was skeptical doing Relief4Life because I really had tried everything else and I really didn’t think that in a short period of time I would be able to be flexible and feel no pain and now I can. I’m pain free, and it’s been great!

The days that I had pain, I would be in bed all day long, and taking vicodin, and painkillers because I couldn’t even get out of bed- the pain was so bad. And for my everyday activities, I couldn’t do anything, which led to depression and everything else.

In 5 sessions, I’m able to touch my toes! I wasn’t able to touch my toes in years! So my flexibility has improved and in 5 short weeks I can tell you that I’m 95% to 100% pain free!

I would absolutely recommend Relief4Life to anyone that wants to feel better about their health. Not just be fit, but also feel better about your overall health and your flexibility…and your quality of life. It’s so much more enjoyable now.”

“Relief4Life Has Added 20-30 Yards To My Drive, And Made Me More Comfortable Hitting The [Golf] Ball”

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“For A Living, I Do Physical Therapy… Back Pain Relief4Life Is A Program That Restores Your Life And Decreases Your Pain Very Simply.”

“Within a Few Weeks, It Was Gone!”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, I constantly suffered from back and hip pain. I had that pain probably for about 10 years – the last 10 years that I taught I had it. Before then, I would get it occasionally, but for the last 10 years, it was a constant pain… a pain that would wake me up at night like if I rolled over a certain way, it would actually wake me from a deep sleep.

The pain I had in my back was just sharp pain that just didn’t go away. Basically, I would be standing up at the board and at times I would just have to sit down in the middle of class just to try to alleviate some of the pain. So it was just kind of like a constant throbbing pain in the middle of my back.

When I first got into the program, Back Pain Relief4Life, I just laughed because they said that I would not have that pain after a few weeks and I just laughed because it was something I’d had for so long, and I just didn’t think that anything that I could have done would’ve helped it. But within a few weeks, it was gone! I could feel the relief almost immediately and they’re just fun to do. So it’s not like you’re really doing something that’s hard and laborious… it’s fun and it’s relieving your pain.

I would absolutely recommend Back pain Relief4Life to anybody that has any kind of pain in their back.”

“I Was a Skeptic — It Worked For Me…”

“About a year ago, I was in the yard doing some yard work and I threw my back out. I noticed it the next day – I was on the floor, couldn’t get up, in acute pain. I went to the orthopedist, got acute medications, went through physical therapy for about a month, and was to the point where I was generally able to kind of walk and get around, but I had noticeable pain in my lower back.

I’m a PhD Pharmacist. I’ve been in academics, Research & Development most of my career. I’m just skeptical of really, kind of anything that sounds good. I’m aware – very much so – of the placebo effect and mind over matter and the ability basically to fool yourself into believing that something’s going to work for a short period of time. So I was extremely skeptical about anything just because of my background.

It’s interesting. My back now is not a problem at all. I’ve always had some issues in playing basketball in my younger years with some arm [and] shoulder things and that was kind of negated because my back pain was the primary focus and I just kind of almost ignored my shoulder. But now, my shoulder is the thing we’re working on and that’s improving also.

I would recommend [Relief4Life]. I am, I guess, a skeptic by nature, but I would. I think it helped me quite a bit. I am aware of the rigor that goes in trying to evaluate things and I was pleasantly surprised with the results that I got so I would recommend it.

I would say go out and give it a try. I think my skepticism led me to believe that there really wasn’t anything that I could do to improve this [pain] and I would have to live with this issue forever and I just wasn’t really comfortable trying anything because I’m used to seeing a lot of hype with medications therapies, the type of things that are out there in the media and being marketed. My skepticism, I kind of over-think – I wanted to try something and was really surprised. So I would encourage people, if they are skeptics (I know there are) to at least go out there and give it a try. That’s, I think, the best advice I can give them. I was a skeptic – It worked for me. So go out there and try it.”

“I Saw Almost Immediate Results…”

“I did about a month and a half of physical therapy, 2-3 days a week. I was on some medication – some muscle relaxers, and anti-inflammatory drugs, but there just was always that lingering pain that would never go away. Before Back Pain Relief4Life I went to a spinal surgeon and was diagnosed with spinal stenosis and arthritis in my back. I went through physical therapy but I still had some pain in my back. I started on the Back Pain Relief4Life Program and I saw almost immediate results. Some of the exercises I would do would feel so good, it would immediately relieve any hip pain that I had. So it’s really helped me. I’ve had really no pain. In fact I had a flare up one day but the next morning I did the program and that afternoon I was feeling fine.”

“I Came In And One Session And My Back Pain Was Gone… And I Still Have No Pain.“

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, I could barely move. I stayed in bed a lot… I’d go from the bed… to the chair to the car… drive around and then back to the chair, back to the bed. I just didn’t have that much mobility. In my lower back, on my left side, I had a really sharp pain and a tightness. I had severe back pain for 2 days – unusual back pain – and I came in and one session and my back pain was gone. I’ve had back pain for… ever, but that particular day, it was a different kind of pain. After the session, I had no pain. And I still have no pain. If you’re skeptical about getting relief for your back pain, then I would definitely recommend this program. Just try it. That’s what I did. And now, I don’t have the pain.”

“I Have No Pain! No Pain.”

“After just one session with Back Pain Relief4Life, I felt better than I did with 2 months of physical therapy that I went through for my back. This is my 3rd session and I have no pain! No Pain. It’s so nice to be able to put my pants on in the morning and not have to catch my leg and help … myself get dressed.

I would recommend Back Pain Relief4Life to anybody that has any type of lower back pain or anything like that. Yes, most definitely.”

“I Don’t Have To Take Ibuprofen At All And It’s Just Amazing – Very Freeing Actually.”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life I had pain everyday. I had to take 800mg Ibuprofen once or twice a day just to get through the day and it was pretty severe.”

What was it like after Back Pain Relief4Life?

“I have to say it’s amazing! I have pain every now and then but not the – if I stretch a little bit, I don’t feel it anymore, I don’t have to take Ibuprofen at all and it’s just amazing – very freeing actually. I was skeptical about the program Relief4Life because I honestly I’ve been to a doctor, a physical therapist, and that just didn’t helped and so I thought “Well, this is kind of last resort because nothing else was working” so I was amazed with the results.”

You said before that you were kind of in shock that it worked, is it?

“Absolutely in shock that it worked. I really didn’t think exercise, and stretching, and strengthening was going to be answer to solving my back problem. If someone is skeptical about it, I would tell them that you just have to give it a shot. I really thought I had nothing to lose cause I made it start exercising anyway, but I really thought “Ah well, yeah…I’ll give it a shot and see” and after 3 weeks time I started to really notice the effect and at the end of the four weeks from my period 3x a week, it was significantly improved. I was feeling so much better.”

Would you recommend Back Pain Relief4Life to anybody who’s suffering from back pain?

“I would, I would recommend it wholeheartedly to anybody who’s having issues because when your back hurts, it kind of ruins everything for you and you feel old and crippled and who wants to feel like that?”

“I’m a Believer, So I Recommend It…”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, I couldn’t lie down on my back for about 5 years comfortably… especially when I was pregnant – that was really really miserable. So it’s been about 5 years and now after Back Pain Relief4Life I’ve even tried going intentionally lying on my back and it’s much more comfortable. Back Pain Relief4Life has made a really big difference. It’s just been 10 days and 4 sessions and so I’m really impressed. I was, you know, kind of skeptical at first. How could something make that big of a difference? But I actually noticed that even after the very first session, sleeping that night, and going home and just walking around, I felt much looser and I didn’t have to get up and night and walk around at night and try to adjust. So I really could tell the difference, even after that first session; and more and more since then.

The worst position for me was actually lying flat on my back and I never could understand that because I felt like that should be the most comfortable, cause I felt like it would be taking pressure off my back. And it was actually the opposite – I was in a lot of pain. And so now, after I think session 2, when I came back, I didn’t even think about it and I was laying on my back. In the first session, I was really uncomfortable because I wasn’t used to doing that and I avoid doing that all the time, and today, after the 4th session, it’s gotten a lot better.

Before Back Pain Relief4Life, I had almost daily back pain, ranging from mild to moderate and if I would sit for a long time, in a car or at work, it would hurt more and sometimes sleeping at night. If I would wake up and I slept in the same position, I’d have a hard time walking – it would be painful to walk for the first part of the day. Twisting movements tended to be a problem. I just felt like I didn’t have a lot of back strength and a lot of core muscle and I felt like there was a lot of muscle ‘spasming’, trying to compensate for problems with my back. And I really didn’t know what to do about it other than trying to do a few exercises on my own.

I think mostly because I did physical therapy with a chiropractor immediately after… and first of all, I felt like what I was doing with him was something that I could do at home easily. It looked like Pilates moves. That’s when I got Pilates tapes to do at home and I did that… It helped some, but it wasn’t like “Oh wow! This makes a big difference” kind of thing. Whereas this, honestly, after a couple of times, and talking through it, I feel like it’s more scientific than the stretches and moves that I was trying to do on my own… and I like to think of things more in from a scientific perspective – like what you’re body’s doing.

I would definitely recommend Back Pain Relief4Life. It’s made a big difference and I’ve recommended it to several people already. I’m a believer, so I recommended it.”

What is the Secret That Makes The

“Back Pain Relief4Life Program So Effective?

At this point, I’m probably supposed to overwhelm you with a long list of all of the parts of the program and explain in detail how each one works to relieve back pain.

The thing is, the Back Pain Relief4Life program is so simple, I can pretty much explain the entire thing in a few sentences.

The secret is really in a special combination of 8 movements (you’ve probably never seen some of them before). These simple movements are put together in such a way so they address the muscle imbalances we talked about earlier — you know, the real cause of back pain.

It’s just not complicated.

And all you need to do the program is a place to lie down, a pillow or a towel to put under your head and a chair. That’s it.

So that means you can do this just about anywhere. At home, in the office or even in a hotel room if you travel.

And the best part is a complete session only takes about 20 minutes.

Most people spend more time than that just driving to and from their chiropractor, massage therapist or doctor’s office in search of pain relief.

With the Back Pain Relief4Life program, you don’t need a “PhD” in anatomy to get results. You don’t have to read a huge book, or do a self-assessment or take any kind of muscular imbalance test before you can get started.

All you need is the desire to end your pain and the ability to follow simple directions.

I realize all of this probably sounds too good to be true. So in the interest of full disclosure, I do have to let you know that:

There Are Side Effects You Must Know About

The Back Pain Relief4Life program is by far the simplest and most effective natural method for achieving real back pain relief currently available.

But you can’t have a powerful program like this without creating some side effects in other areas of your body.

By putting the Back Pain Relief4Life program to work to relieve your back pain, you might also experience…

If you’re like most of the clients we work with, you’ll probably have no problem with these “side effects.”

In fact, you might be so overjoyed that pain is no longer controlling your life, you won’t even notice them.

How Long Does It Take To Relieve Pain

With The Back Pain Relief4Life Program?

The truth is I have no idea how long it will take to relieve your pain.

For me, it was a remarkable 17 minutes or so before my pain was gone. I realize, from the outside, that sounds pretty much like a modern day miracle. But that was for me. And those results are definitely not typical.

Of course the Back Pain Relief4Life program isn’t typical either…

I can tell you that some of the clients we’ve worked with see immediate results. Others see results after a few sessions.

But depending on the severity of your pain and the severity of the damage in your body, it could take a few weeks.

If you’ve been suffering with back pain for years, even a few weeks feels pretty short. Especially when you imagine finally living a life that is FREE of the pain that’s been with you for so long.

The Back Pain Relief4Life program can help you relieve your pain, just like it’s helped a long list of others…

“When I teach soccer, I can actually run around with the kids now and it let’s me be in my life again.”

“My name is Kevin Lewis, I’ve been living in Beaufort, South Carolina now for about 11 years and have had back a back injury for about 15, and things have been working miracles here.

Before Back Pain Relief4Life, it was pretty much a daily, painful, dull legs. Other days it would be multiple spots. It would jump around different spots down my back, it would go down to my leg and it just wasn’t very fun – you never knew what you were going to get each day.

Uh, the Back Pain Relief4Life I was just of course interested… I didn’t know if it was a bunch of weights and jumping around, I didn’t really want to get into that, but the whole approach was something I’d never tried and nothing I’d ever heard of. I hadn’t really investigated different ways to fix my back. I was just going along with what I tried in high school and in the military. So the whole approach was really eye opening and has really good results.

I went to the Chiropractors, um I pretty much went to one every month for the last 3 or 4 yrs and it would feel really good for that day, and then, you know, the next day or that night I’d wake up ad the pain would be right back where it was or somewhere in that back area…So the relief was only temporary. Other doctors pretty much they just said all I could do now was get surgery… put titanium bolts in… fuse things together… and I really wanted to keep that as my last option and hopefully it’s no longer even going to need be an option. So the Back Pain Relief4Life seems to have really taken surgery, taken the Chiropractor out of the picture and it’s really, again, been real eye opening.

After Back Pain Relief4Life for these 30 days it’s been just awesome. I’m just feeling like it’s a whole new me again and I don’t have to be held down by my back being in pain all the time. I can actually go and maybe even run – I’m not a huge runner – but you know, kayak and bicycle rides. When I teach soccer, I can actually run around with the kids now and it let’s me be in my life again. So it’s been just really eye opening, humbling you name it, it’s been great.

I would definitely recommend Back Pain Relief4Life to anyone with back issues. Whether they’re real severe… whatever their story is, just from what I’ve seen and experienced, I would definitely it to anybody with those issues.”

“…Within 2 Weeks After Coming To Relief4Life, I Experienced Zero Back Pain and I Feel Strong”

“Before Relief4Life, I had experienced 3 major back injuries and I lived with back pain, medical injections, different things, chiropractic and lived with upper and lower back pain for years. Heavy carpentry and labor type intensive of work and within 2 weeks after coming to Relief4Life, I experienced zero back pain and I feel strong, I’ve lost a considerable amount of weight and I just feel better about life in general, I have more energy and I am ready to meet the day and I thank the people here at Relief4Life for that.

I guess I was most skeptical or maybe leery of the pain process of training, I’ve tried different training regimens and it just created a lot of discomfort during the day and afterwards – the morning after effects – but the people here really care about your welfare and your well-being and so all my fears have been relieved.

If you enjoy your pain, then don’t come. If you wanted to be relieved, I would give Relief4Life as

a viable option. Yes! I would absolutely recommend this to anybody. Well it’s like anything you got to try to believe it.”

“… It Is Definitely Helping A LOT! “

Jonolyn: “Did you like Back Pain Relief4Life?”

Susan: “Still doing it Jonolyn Bagnal Ferreri but it is definitely helping A LOT! I’ve come a long way and wish I had gone to him instead of wasting 7 weeks doing PT!!”

“I Felt Immediate Relief…”

“Hi I’m Christy Levitt. My life before Back Pain Relief4Life was filled with episodes where I would do something strenuous and injure my lower back. I have 2 little children and in chasing them and keeping up with them, I forget that I have to lift things the proper way and I bend over and throw out my lower back. And it takes me out of commission for a couple of days and I can’t to my regular routines.

After a session with Back Pain Relief4Life, I felt immediate relief of the tension that I had in my back… the cramping… the walking with my rear end sticking out… instantly, I felt relief from all of that. The stretching, learning how to move my legs, really just made a great difference. When I stood up from doing the exercises, I felt lighter on my feet… more relaxed – it was an amazing program. After the second session, I felt like I was even better at doing the movements and it was something that I could continue to do. This worked way better for me than the time when I saw a chiropractor and just felt like I didn’t really get anything out of that.

Other times in my life I’d try to go and have massages when my back felt sore and a massage feels great but it didn’t really get to the root of the back issues. And doing the Back Pain Relief4Life Program really helped me target on the areas in my lower back that really needed to be stretched and increase the range of mobility and things. So I’m very happy with this program and I want to continue to do it and I think it’s going to be really successful in getting rid of the back pain I’ve had.

I would absolutely recommend Back Pain Relief4Life for everyone. For anyone that has back pain issues, it’s great. And I think anyone can do it.”

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“After 2 Sessions… It Just Doesn’t Hurt At All”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life I had pretty much constant lower back pain. There was a lot of discomfort; it hurt to bend over and what not; but after 2 sessions in the Back Pain Relief4Life program, my back completely feels 100% better. After the 1st session it was 60% better and after the 2nd session, it just doesn’t hurt at all. I’m absolutely amazed. After 2 sessions with Back Pain Relief4Life, I feel like 100% better. I was kind of grumpy because it hurt to move around, and now I just have complete mobility and it doesn’t hurt to bend over, and I don’t have to always shift. It hurt really bad when I was driving, so it really kind of completely freed me from the pain that I’d been feeling before. So that’s completely amazing.

I was amazed at the way that it worked. I was a little skeptical – yeah, that it would be able to just fix it and it just seems to have absolutely fixed it. I was absolutely amazed… yeah. I’m a believer now.

Absolutely. I’d recommend Back Pain Relief4Life. Definitely. Because I’m so surprised that after 2 sessions I made a complete, complete recovery. I absolutely would recommend it to anyone who would listen.”

“I’m Actually A True Believer And Didn’t I Think I Would Be”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life I had back pain and I had in the Marine Corps, injured my back. I used to have spondylolisthesis so I had a clean breakaway across my back. That was back in 2006 and surgery. Had surgery in 2007, four titanium balls in the back and an L5/S1 fusion and since I’ve been trying to get back to the same level of fitness I had been in the past. I had been in a pretty rigorous workout regime, but I was getting to the point where I could only workout about 2 days, then I had to take about a week to 10 days off before I could try again and it just was not working for me. So, I thought I was going to have to suck it up and just keep dealing with it.

“My Back Pain Has Gotten A Lot Better…”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, my back pain was really all over. I had pain in the lower portions of my back, sometimes it actually felt like someone was actually grabbing and squeezing that lower portion, but I also had problems up towards the top where my shoulder blades are. So it was pretty chronic throughout from a long time of not using it as well as I should have.

Pretty much right before I started the program, my back pain had gotten to the point where after just about an hour of sitting down, it was very uncomfortable. A lot of the work that I do is sitting down in a chair or traveling on planes so unfortunate for me, the work that I needed to get done got to be very difficult because I was concentrating on the work, but at the same time I was having these sharp pains every once in a while and it made it too difficult to work some days.

I’d never heard of the [Relief4Life] program so it’s stepping out onto new territory for me. I had not done training since back in my high school days. So getting back into a regimented training program, but at the same time I didn’t know how it would work with my schedule being a working person who’s not always around, but the portability of the program was something that was really important to me and helped sell me on trying it.

Since I’ve been doing the program, my back pain has gotten a lot better. I do at times, when I have a long period of time sitting down. It’s not 100% gone away, but where it used to take only a short period of time sitting down before the pain started, now, I really have to be pretty much sedentary for almost the whole day before it starts acting up. I know I’ve still got a ways to go, but I’ve only been in the program for just a little bit of time. But I’m already seeing a lot of progress – small things like being able to touch my toes, which I haven’t been able to do in a long time, increasing that flexibility has really helped me to see the benefits of the Back Pain [Relief4Life] program.

I strongly recommend the Back Pain [Relief4Life] program for people to use, especially people like myself. Just being in my mid-30s I shouldn’t be having back pain, or I don’t feel I should be having the back pain I was. However, my lifestyle – my working lifestyle, really contributed a lot. So this was a good place, or a good way to balance my work life while also trying to strengthen my core, so then my back won’t hurt as much and it makes my life a lot easier.”

“I Am Able To Do the Activities That I Had to Give Up…”

“My back pain is virtually gone allowing me to do my everyday activities including tennis, walking, fishing, and just about everything I used to do before I had back problems.

I was out fishing on Broad River and found that I was able to stand for three to four hours fishing off the back of the boat without having any severe back pain.

I am able to do the activities that I had to give up. I was unable to stand without back pain for more than about 20 minutes. Now I can stand for hours without it bothering me. My sleep is dramatically improved. My level of fitness has improved. My energy has improved. I just generally feel better than I have in years and years. Absolutely. I would recommend this program to anyone of any age, of any fitness level.”

“The Improvement In… My Back Has Been 90%…”

“I was fearful that I might injure myself. And, you know be incapacitated to a point where I can’t even do my desk job. And I was nervous about that after so many years of relative inactivity. I’ve been doing this, not even a month yet, three times a week. And I would say the improvement in my flexibility and my back has been 90

percent. Instead of getting up every morning out of bed being stiff and sore and inflexible for a half hour or so. I barely notice it when I get up. Give it a try; it certainly beats some for the alternatives, for the people taking surgery or other alternatives.”

“It Just Feels Better Than It’s Been Since I Was 20 Years Old…”

“I’ve had a weakness in my lower back for about 40 years really, and during that time I tried chiropractic, massage and physical therapy.

Nothing really made the problem manageable. It’s always been something in the back of my mind that I have to be careful not to injure my back. After every session, I could feel my back getting better. And now, it just feels better than it’s been since I was 20 years old which to me is really amazing, so I’m really, really grateful. I’ve been using this program for the last 8 weeks and my back feels better than it has since I was 20. I would highly recommend that no matter what age you are if you have a problem with your lower back, try this program.”

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Today Is the Day You Can Stop Spending

Thousands Of Dollars and Countless Hours

On Temporary Back Pain Relief!

Please understand, the Back Pain Relief4Life program is not focused on temporary relief. This program is focused on correcting the true cause of your back pain so you don’t have to spend the rest of your life treating it!

By following the simple online video that walks you through the unique sequence of 8 body movements, you will finally be on the path to ending your back pain.

And of course, things start to get very expensive when you get into medications, advanced treatments and surgery.

The bottom line is you could spend a lot of money doing all these things and more and still only end up with temporary relief for your pain. That’s exactly what I did… for years.

Or, you can try the Back Pain Relief4Life program and focus on solving the real cause of your back pain…

Obviously the program, even at many times that price would be a bargain… especially when you consider that some people deal with chronic back pain for 10, 15, and 20 years and more! Putting a price tag on the value of relief from that kind of pain is hard to do.

So why is Back Pain Relief4Life so inexpensive if it can truly do what we say it can?

I’ve been exactly where you are right now. I’ve been in the position where I heard about some new treatment that promised to give me relief from my pain.

It’s easy to get your hopes up and start shelling out a lot of money to give that new treatment a try. But then reality sets in and you realize you still have pain… even after the new treatment.

It’s a frustrating thing made even worse by the fact your pain is still there!!

Well, I don’t want you to go through that again. And I don’t want to be on your list of super expensive things you’ve tried that just didn’t work for you.

So our goal is to get it in the hands of as many pain sufferers as possible.

That means the price has to be low.

And to remove any risk you have whatsoever from giving this a try…

Your satisfaction is completely guaranteed. (Just try asking your doctor sometime if your satisfaction is guaranteed and see what they say. You’ll probably be surprised at their answer.)

In fact, we are determined to never have an unhappy client or customer. That’s why the Back Pain Relief4Life program comes with an Iron-Clad 60 Day money back guarantee.

You are completely happy or you get a refund. Period.

The Biggest Reason You Shouldn’t

Order Back Pain Relief4Life Right Now

At this point, you might be hopeful there’s actually a solution to help relieve your pain… fast.

I know that’s how I would’ve felt had I discovered a letter like this years ago.

So even though I’m 100% confident that the Back Pain Relief4Life program can help you, I don’t want you to order it just yet.

I haven’t shown you the entire program.

The complete Back Pain Relief4Life Program includes:

The Back Pain Relief4Life CORE TRAINING VIDEO and Travel Pamphlet

You’ll also get the complete sequence, with easy to follow diagrams, in a “travel pamphlet” format so you can print them and take them wherever you go.

Remember, you don’t have to become a back expert or do any studying of any kind to benefit from this program. All you need to do is watch the video and follow along.

9 Video “Coaching Sessions” For Back Pain Relief

Plus… You Also Get One-On-One Help

From the Creators of the Back Pain

If you have chronic or debilitating back pain, then the value of a simple solution that can provide real relief is really beyond measure.

Even so, I want to add one more thing to the package to increase your chances of eliminating your back pain even more.

Order your copy of the Back Pain Relief4Life Program TODAY and you’ll also receive unlimited email access to me and Bojan and if we can’t help you that way, we will pick up the phone and give you a call and you will speak with either Bojan or myself.

You get that absolutely…

This represents an enormous savings on our normal training fees. But we’re happy to do it as part of our mission to end the suffering of so many people living in pain.

Meet The Only Person With The Power

To Relieve Your Back Pain

At this point, you have a decision to make. Do you take what you’ve discovered today and write it off as “too good to be true?” Or, do you take the first step on a journey towards serious back pain relief?

Despite what you’re led to believe by the medical establishment…

And despite what you’re led to believe by health professionals…

The solution to your pain does not have to be hard or complicated.

The Back Pain Relief4Life program is the simplest and most effective solution for natural back pain relief ever created.

But in the end, the decision is yours.

You are the only person with the power to relieve your back pain.

The Back Pain Relief4Life program can help you do it, but not without you taking the first step.

Understand that the entire program is 100% online. That means you can get started just a few minutes from now, once your order is processed.

I want to thank you for your time and wish you the best in your pursuit of a pain free life.

P.S. If you’re still not sure that the Back Pain Relief4Life program is for you, then take a moment and hear from even more of our satisfied clients. Listen to and read their stories and then ask yourself, “How would my life change if I found a way to end my pain?”

“I Feel Stronger And I Feel Better, No Pain”

“I had back pain for 20 years. I tried lots of different things and nothing seemed to work. My back feels great and I don’t feel it at all. I feel stronger and I feel better, no pain. I would definitely recommend this training to everyone: young people, middle-aged people, old people. It works and works for everybody. It’s easy, it’s fun and obviously a lot results.”

“I Don’t Have Back Pains After Working Out In the Yard All Day…”

“Specifically…after a while of riding in a car I had back and neck problems. And lifting weights and doing yard work my back would always hurt tremendously after doing all that. But since this program, I think it’s straightened my posture and lifting properly has helped me quite a bit. I don’t have back pains after working out in the yard all day or doing other exercises and that kind of thing.”

“I Was Able to Reach My Toes Forthe First Time In My Life…”

“I was able to reach my toes for the first time in my life and the soreness in my back went away completely. And I would definitely recommend that type of training to anyone who’s experiencing soreness or discomfort or like any inflexibility in their back.”

“I Don’t Have Any Back Pain!”

“My life before Back Pain Relief4Life… my lower back was really bad. It would go out about 3 times a year, super bad, where I was unable to walk or do anything for about 2 weeks. I would get sciatica down both my legs. I had a chiropractor since 2004, and he helped with the times that my back did go out, but I was consistently seeing him through all those years, it never went away. And it was very hard for me to sleep on my back, and even on my stomach. I would always have to sleep on either side. Even when I would move in bed, it would be really excruciating to get to the other side. So that was how my pain was with my back.

I tried acupuncture, physical therapy, a neurologist worked with me a little bit – with the electric stem or something like that, and of course meds and stuff: Vicodin, Celebrex I think…

What I was skeptical about with Back Pain Relief4Life was that my pain would not go away… I was expecting just to come back, either within 2 days or a day.

My life now, is… I don’t have any back pain! It feels a lot stronger. That’s important, my core feels very strong. And at night I can sleep on my back. I actually wake up in the middle of the night expecting pain and I have no pain at all. That’s huge for me because I was waking up 10 times a night just with pain and now it’s not there and I can sleep in any position.

I would highly recommend Back Pain Relief4Life to anybody, just to get rid of that pain in your lower back completely. It’s the greatest feeling – it really is. So I do.

I’d say if someone was really skeptical and not wanting to buy it, I would say just try it because I’m sure if it doesn’t work out they can get a refund. Why not try it? It’s cheap, it’s easy, you’re on your back the entire time, so why not?”

“I Only Did One Treatment And The Pain Went Away”

“Ever since high school I’ve had back pain. I mean, that was kind of like a staple in my high school, college, and even after college I’ve always had back pain. I’ve pretty much had it for my whole, entire life… that was pretty much the extent of it. And I also messed up my back when I was dead lifting in the gym, so that further exacerbated the problem. So it just went from having a bad back to having an even worse back. I can’t get out of bed. Getting up [I’d] have to be extremely careful because… if you move the wrong way, you can actually throw something out. So when you’re getting up – I’m 31 years old and when I was getting off the couch I looked like a 70 year old man with no hips whatsoever. So it was pretty debilitating and just in terms of life in general, you’re not able to live the type of life that you want because your body is not functioning the way it should be.

“This Program Can Work For Absolutely Anyone…”

I had severe scoliosis in my back… possible surgery… I had 8 tenth of a centimeter movement in L6 or 5 whichever one it was in my lower back which is basically an incapacitating scoliosis and movement of the vertebra… the program corrected a very severe and significant problem and in the process minimized the risk of further injury. If you have a serious back or hip problem, I am very confident in recommending this program as a way to get better regardless of whether you’re planning on having surgery or not; it’s that good. This program can work for absolutely anyone.

“I Am Able to Eliminate 90% of the Soreness…”

“It Is Honestly The Best Lower Back Pain Program I’ve Ever Gone Through…”

“Hey! What’s going on? Travis Stoetzel here – travisstoetzel.com and just doing a really quick testimonial video here for my buddy, Ian Hart, who is a fellow strength and conditioning coach like myself and I’d just wanted to really talk about his program and tell everybody out there that might be watching this video right now about how it has helped me and help take away my back pain so I can continue to train pain free, and live pain free most importantly and I just wanted to give a lot of credit to Ian and his program. You know, when I first found out about it, I found out about it at a meeting we were at Vegas with a bunch of other fitness professionals and I was hearing other guys talk about it and girls talk about it and they were all pretty respected coaches, strength coaches, fitness coaches, and they were all making this claims like “yo! I did Ian’s program and just after you know I did it the first time, my back actually loosen up, and I felt good and I got rid of the pain” and so I was like “Hey Ian, man I got to try this thing!” so I got on his Back Pain Relief4Life program and I’ll tell you what – when I first went through it, I just kind of watched the videos then just kind of feel what the program was about and first I was pretty skeptical I was like OK. Me being a strength coach and knowing different things about you know how to improve or you know improve injuries and or recover from injuries and things like that. At first, I really didn’t know if it was going to work and so I kind of put it off for a while, I didn’t do it… For me my lower back just gets really tight, I have some lower back pain every now and then because I train pretty seriously, I’m doing a lot of different strongman training. I train with kettlebells, sandbags, Olympic lifting, a lot of power lifting and so I’m moving heavy weight around a lot, beating my body up pretty good and you know my back just gets tight a lot and I wake up in the mornings with some pretty bad lower back pain every now and then. And then the final straw was I was deadlifting one day and something just popped in my lower back. I didn’t know what it was. I went to the Chiropractor he kind of check it out. I had some pretty bad information going on in my lower back. I didn’t want to keep going back to the Chiropractor, that was just the type of person I am I’m trying to cure it on my own and honestly you know I was like “this is the perfect time where I can whip out Ian’s program and give it a shot and really go through it and see if it works. So I popped it in, I went through the whole program and I’ll tell you what, it is honestly the best lower back pain program I’ve ever gone through. My lower back, the tightness was gone, the next day the pain was pretty much gone, and anytime I kind of feel my back get tighten again, I’ll whip out Ian’s program and I’ll go right through it. And what was cool about it is there’s just eight movements that you have to do and I mean anybody can pretty much do this, any level – advanced, beginner – if you got lower back pain I would definitely recommend for this program for anybody if you’re suffering… lower back issues or anything like that definitely helped me. So I’d just wanted to say Ian, Thanks for creating such an awesome program. I’ve definitely recommended this to my clients that have lower back issues, my athletes that have lower back issues, I’ve definitely recommended it to them and I know that they’ve been seeing the results off of it as well.

“I Have Absolutely No Pain Whatsoever In My Back…”

“I’ve had back pain probably… off and on for about 2 years, and it was getting worse as I progressively got older. Prior to taking the Back Pain Relief4Life program, I’d been working out for several years, doing weight training. And what I found is that I was developing a pain in my lower back in my right hand side that just didn’t seem to go away and it didn’t make a lot of sense to me. Then I came to EarthFIT and learned about the program Back Pain Relief4Life. What I found out was that my muscles were actually imbalanced – that I have been overworking my chest muscles and not enough of my abs and lower body.

With Back Pain Relief4Life, I’ve been able to get back that balance and now I have absolutely no pain whatsoever in my back and my training sessions are a lot more vigorous and I’m seeing a lot better results as a result of the lack of pain that I’m having. I also have a father that’s wheelchair bound and I find that because of that technique and that stretching that I do with the Back Pain Relief4Life program, I’m much [better] able to handle getting him and transferring him from the bed to the wheelchair, and into his daily routine. So I highly recommend the Back Pain Relief4Life program. It’s very straightforward, and the results are immediate.

I highly recommend this program. In fact, I have to friends of my daughter who are as young as 30 that have had constant back pain and they’ve started the program and are seeing the results already. It’s very straightforward, and the results are immediate.”

“The Tightness Between My Shoulders Is Gone…”

“My life before Back Pain Relief4Life basically was always… you just got used to living with pain and I figured it was never going to go away due to occupational issues. I’m always hunched over, leaned towards one side and always have stiffness, particularly stiffness between my shoulders and a stiff neck and also lower back pain. But… it wasn’t excruciating pain, but it definitely lowered the quality of life. The other thing (my wife would remind me all the time) is I was hunched over quite a bit. She said I walked like an old man. And I noticed that if I would be walking by a window, like a store window, and I looked in, I could see that I was hunched over like an old man. And that’s pretty irritating, even though I know I am getting older, I don’t wanna look that old… I looked about 20 years older I would say. I would try massages, chiropractic visits, and they would all give you some relief, but for the most part, it was only temporary… If I didn’t go all the time, after another week or two, the tightness between my shoulders would come back, and I’d start drooping over again. So it was temporary relief, but nothing permanent.

After Back Pain Relief4Life, the immediate benefit is my wife didn’t bug me about being hunched over like an old man because my posture really improved tremendously. I just felt like I was walking more upright, my shoulders were back, and also the tightness between my shoulders is gone and my neck pain is gone also. I just feel a lot younger. I don’t feel like I’m 80 years old, I feel like I’m 40 years old – but I am 60 years old.

I started slow and it was probably, I would say within 4 or 5 sessions that I really started feeling much better. I was getting my flexibility. Before, I had such little flexibility. I would recommend Back Pain Relief4Life to anybody that’s having chronic issues because you don’t have to live with it. I would have just accepted it that I was gonna have to be that way for the rest of my life. Now I’ve found that there is relief and you don’t have to accept having chronic pain for the rest of your life.”

“Hey my name is Josh Carter and I am a personal trainer and what that means on any given day is that I can be lifting hundreds or even thousands of pounds. Inevitably, that leads to back pain… at least it does for me. And so, I was thrilled to try out the Back Pain Relief4Life program. Because even the first time I did it, my back felt remarkably better! And then over the course of the next few weeks, my lower back pain had all but dissipated. So if you have lower back pain, you really really owe it to yourself to try the Back Pain Relief4Life Program. I mean, why put off feeling better? You should try it right now!”

“It Really Changed My Whole Attitude and Life.”

“I would highly recommend this to anyone who has any type of problem with their back at their age, and my age, I am 74. And if you’re having any type of pain young or old I would highly highly recommend usingBack Pain Relief4Life.

My life before Back Pain Relief4Life was very very painful and miserable. I really wanted to give up exercising altogether but I am so happy that I didn’t and went to the Back Pain Relief4Life program. My pains before was crucial and they were lower in my kidneys and very very painful. I could not even squat with that some type of pain, and I sit down to reduce the bathroom it was just really really painful before.

I was very skeptical before Back Pain Relief4Life, but then I realized that if I would give it a try, I would almost do anything just to give it a try and I am so happy that I did. It really changed my whole attitude and life.

Since I’ve used the program Back Pain Relief4Life, I have no more pain at all, only a little soreness occasionally but that is very very rare. And it just gave me the whole outlook on life and everything. I’m just thrilled that I don’t have pain anymore when I use that program.“

“After Back Pain Relief4Life, My Back Pain Has Virtually Disappeared. It’s made my life much better”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, I had back pain for ten years. It was sporadic, it would come on at least once a month. The back pain was variable. Sometimes It would be where I could not get out of the bed. Other times it would just be sporadic pain.

After taking the course, I don’t have any pain and it took about three weeks max for the pain to go away. Now I don’t suffer from any back pain. I would say do it because I was skeptical for ten 10 years and when I finally did it the pain went away.

I highly recommend Back Pain Relief4Life to anybody who has back pain. After Back Pain Relief4Life, my back pain has virtually disappeared. It’s made my life much better and I sleep much better.“

“I’ve Had Great Results With Back Pain Relief4Life”

“Before Back Pain Relief4Life, I was experiencing a lot of difficulty in my lower back and I always had a lot of pain through my back and to my leg and I have been using the program for few months, now and I’ve had great results with Back Pain Relief4Life. I’ve had lower back pain on and off for years, I have been to doctors and then on to physical therapists for different back pain ailments, and I have also gone to chiropractors for this lower back pain over the past few years. And when I started using the Back Pain Relief4Life and sticking with that program, it seems to help me alleviate many of the lower back pain problems that I have.

I was skeptical about using Back Pain Relief4Life because I have heard many different programs that have promised lower back relief pain.

I would recommend Back Pain Relief4Life. It has helped me, it’s a great program and if you do it weekly and you stick with the program, it will help relieve your lower back pain. “

“I Could Hardly Walk… About An Hour Later I Was Walking And Moving And Jumping… So It Was Very Effective”

“I’m Able To Drive The Ball Further Than I Did 20 Years Ago…”

“I used to play a lot golf and had to give it up about 12- 13 years ago. I went to a physical therapist for 6-12 weeks, that didn’t seem to help much. My sleep was disrupted by I had to give up most strenuous physical activity, including golf. My yard work was limited to what little I could do. On several occasions, I had to miss work because of back pain. At times the pain was so bad that I was unable to easily get out of the chair or get out of bed and it made very difficult to do routine, daily things. I gave up the game of golf, it simply it was too painful to continue to try to play. For those of you who play golf, you know that golf involves a lot of twisting, a lot of tort in the torso and golf swing of course it is not with the arms but with the larger muscles in the torso and legs and I could no longer make that turn necessary to make good golf swing. It was simply too painful and so I gave up. The program started out focusing on abdominal muscles and leg and gluteal muscles that are what helps support the back and take the pressure of the invertebrae where there was no discs.

“…Everybody In World Should Do It, I Mean It Was Just Fantastic!”

“Before this program, I could hardly walk in a straight line and I was just losing my balance and only after five times I feel like I am walking better than I did for the last 20 years. For five sessions, I could walk better and I was amazed! I never dreamed that I could walk this well.

“…Then I Realized That The Nagging Pain Was Gone. It’s Pretty Great!”

“My life before Back Pain Relief4Life was I had this hip problem and it was a long standing thing and it had been annoying, nothing acute, but it was just something that was just always nagging and so I came and I did the exercises and literally within I would say 5-6 sessions, I already felt better and I noticed that I was standing more evenly and I exercised quite a bit so it just makes my life more comfortable and the fact that they were easy and it was like funny kind of exercises that you would not expect you’d get such a dramatic result from.

Here is a text from the editor of the video at the top of the page. After editing our story and watching the testimonials, he revealed that he had back pain and I sent him the program. A month later I recieved this text.

A message from Rob Yeager

“…The Pain Is Gone And So… I Wasn’t, I’ve Always Heard the Bad Stories About Surgery And I Was Fortunate Enough To Knowing About This Program…”

“Before Back Pain Relief 4Life on a scale from 1 to 10, my pain was a constant 7 or 8 depending on the activities that I was doing throughout the day. I’ve been through some serious (in the last year) physical therapy, chiropractor, and then I was actually referred to a civilian back surgeon in town. Which he put me through three rounds of steroid injections before he came to the conclusion and has actually documented and recommended me for a lower lumbar back fusion surgery and that was all prior to coming back in to do the Back Pain Relief 4Life program and the pain is gone. In just a short couple months period of 2 or 3 times a week, 30 minute sessions, the pain is gone and so… I wasn’t, I’ve always heard the bad stories about surgery and I was fortunate enough to knowing about this program prior to that otherwise, I very well could have been under surgery right now and for something that virtually has already taken care of itself. I’ve been dealing with this back pain for probably 4 or 5 years. With a tour on the drill field, here at Paris Island and also 3 deployments to Afghanistan and Iraq, the additional weight. I always dealt with the pain and I just was very skeptical that any type of, you know workout would eliminate it and um but I also was not willing to do the surgery and so I’m very thankful that I did the program- the Back Pain Relief 4Life program. With my own experience with the Back Pain Relief 4Life, I would even go as far as to want to pay for the program ahead for the individual, thats how confident I am in the program. You know skepticism is something that you know its hard to break that barrier until you take that first step and I have the utmost confidence in the program and would go into any length to include you know purchasing the program, should it be a close friend or family member. Without a doubt, I would give 100% of recommendation for the Back Pain Relief 4Life program. Its phenomenal on what, how its virtually disappeared through this program.”

“I Took The DVD Home, The Exercises Are Really Easy To Do, Don’t Take Long And It’s Really Helped My Back”

“Before Relief 4Life my back pain was actually my leg going to sleep and I couldn’t walk for very long without having to sit down or stand. I’ve got a cracked split vertebra down here in the lumbar area so the pain was really in my leg more than my back. After doing the Relief 4Life program, I can stay on my feet as long as I want to, walk as far as I want to (?) so I don’t have any trouble anymore with my leg going to sleep. I was skeptical about Relief 4Life before I started that it would hurt my back to do it. For those who are skeptical to do Relief 4Life, I took the DVD home, the exercises are really easy to do, don’t take long and it’s really helped my back. Thats all I can say, cause now I can do everything I want to.”

“I’ve only been using the program for just over one week now but I’ve been amazed at much better my back feels. Over the past few years, I’ve suffered from a nagging lower back muscular imbalance which has caused an irritating amount discomfort. And I still can’t believe that after using these 8 exercises for just one week my back feels like a million bucks. Even my chiro was surprised by these exercises and the results they’ve produced. All I can say is that they’ve worked for me – big time!”

“It’s Just Making Me Feel Better And Happier. My Back Pain… All Gone.”

” Went to the chiropractor, physical therapy and they would help but not much. So what they did coming here was really a relief. My pains are virtually eliminated. So I’m kinda happy about that. I get to stretch my muscles and stuff like that. It’s just making me feel better and happier. My back pain after Relief 4Life is nothing, nothing, all gone. The improvement is really quick, through just two or three weeks of treatment here and everything is getting back in order.”

“…It Just Worked Automatically And, I Got Relief Immediately.”

“Before Relief4Life my back pain was pretty severe. I injured myself playing tennis and I was not able to move the way I wanted to play to my best ability. After [Back Pain] Relief4Life, my back pain is gone – I did it one time and I got considerably better after the first time. And after the second time it was completely gone.

“I Can Walk Free Of Pain.”

“Before Relief4Life I had severe pains running up and down my right on my right leg and nothing seemed to help. My pain before was continuous, shooting pains down my right side and my back and it prevented me from walking normally and doing many things that I am used to doing.

From Relief4Life I end up…my pain is less than I was before and I feel like I could get it under control. I can walk free of pain.

I really wasn’t skeptical because I tried many things from chiropractors to other programs and nothing seemed to help so I was willing to try anything. I certainly would recommend this program for anyone who has back pain.”

“…I’ve Done It, So I Know How I Feel, How I Felt, And It’s Pretty Astounding What Happened.”

“Now I hurt my back in 1998 and I have been dealing basically with back pain and stenosis and numbness and that sort of thing ever since. So, then I came to you and we’ve had what 8 sessions I guess now. And just like yesterday, I rode my bike down to the golf tournament in Hilton Head and it was about about 8 miles each way, walked around the golf course. I could not done that you know before, I did it then.

Well, I was skeptical because you know people try shots, they try a lot of different gizmos, or cures and I didn’t want to go there. I just believed in what I read, and once I met Ian, then I was really pretty well convinced that this is what I wanted to do and I’m clearly glad I did it.

I would definitely recommend Relief4Life, believe it or not I’ve done it, so I know how I feel, how I felt and it’s pretty astounding what happened. If somebody is skeptical about what you are doing, or what we are doing here, I would just merely explain to them don’t take my word for it. Go there, see what they can do, watch what they do, they give you a video that you can do at home so you’re never really going to be away from it. So if they’re skeptical I say “Hey, I know a lot of people who are when they have had problem. Just try it.”

“I Just Felt Stronger, More Agile And Overall In A Better Mood And Spirit…”

“My Hope Is Very Very High At This Point With The Results… I’m Happier”

“Before Relief4Life, my back pain was at times unbearable. I did not participate in a lot of activities – not because I didn’t want to, but – because I knew that it was either going to hurt afterwards or that I would not feel comfortable doing it – feeling insecure. And it led for very boring life for me and cause some would say you’re not very much fun and that bothered me.

For about the past 12 years, I have done epidurals with cortisone, I’ve had shots to the side of my hip, I’ve had multiple MRI’s, I’ve had physical therapy that never really felt like it was doing enough. I’ve tried yoga, I’ve joined other gyms thinking that just weight loss could help. It got to the point where before I came here, I had met with a doctor and it was a possibility that if it did not continue after the shots that I received 6 months ago, if the pain continued, we would have to consider fusion of the bottom three discs; that they were saying were pretty much gone (deteriorated). So that’s where I was before I came in here. You know, one last shot before not wanting to do surgery, because I knew that would make me more immobile than I was already.

Since doing Relief4Life for about the last 8 sessions, I’ve seen a tremendous difference – big and little. There are small things like just getting out of the car that I noticed the difference on how I stand up. There’s a difference of when I get up in the morning and I get out of bed, I feel more refreshed and I’ve slept well. Whereas before I would toss and turn, I have to support myself with lots of pillows. Now I basically I just sleep on my back and I’m comfortable. I’ve noticed that I walk differently, I stand taller, I feel better and I think a lot that has to do with seeing such results in a short amount of time that it keeps me motivated to want to do more and to see better results. There are times when I do have a little pain here and there but I know what to do as far as stretching or adjusting, how I’m standing at that moment and it’s becoming more natural as opposed to having to really think about it. Whereas before I have no idea what to do at all.

My hope is very very high at this point with the results that I’ve seen so far, I’m happier. My mood has changed, I think when I first came in here I was crying and now I’m smiling. I know that I’ve got a chance of turning this around. And I’m motivated by the other people that I see as well. I watch them when I’m doing my cardio and I’m thinking that’s going to be me and I’m on to healthier and more fit and better feeling.”

“30 Years Of Back Pain Gone In 4 Sessions With Relief4Life”

“Before Relief4Life, I had back pain for almost 30 years, it took me about 10 minutes to wake up in the morning and it took my back an additional 15 minutes to wake up, I felt like an old woman, it took me a lot of time to get warmed up in the morning, it took time away from my schedule, it made me late from work a lot of times, but essentially the pain was there as soon as I got up in the morning.

When I was a teenager, my back just did started hurting, I attributed it to a larger breast and I even thought about having a reduction surgery at one point and I came in here and I tried the Relief4Life program and it absolutely changed my entire way of thinking, it helped me in ways that I had could not imagine. It never occurred to me that just a few exercises or a combination of exercises could actually relieve the kind of pain that I had. I tried chiropractic care for a long time, there’s results they were good at the time but then later on they just got worse and worse, I actually had a consultation with the doctor about surgery and just really maybe laying on the floor doing some yoga but that was about it, and nothing really helped.

I would say why would you want to live with pain when you can come in here doing this program and be essentially pain-free. I would recommend Relief4Life to anyone with back pain.”

“It’s A Whole Different Approach To Back Pain And It Has To Do With Getting Stronger Not Just Your Back But Your Whole Body.”

“Before Relief4Life, my life considered around whether my back was hurting that day or not. Whenever I got up out the bed I always did kind of assessment about what was going on and affected in what I was wearing that day, what shoes I wear that day maybe even what activities always involved in that day. I had gone to a chiropractors, acupuncture, yoga, pilates, I kind of tried it all and I actually had an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon when a friend of mine told me about this program so I thought rather than going to the knife, let me give this a try.

After 10 sessions – and that’s not 10 weeks but it’s 10 sessions – because I travel a lot and what happens is that I can take the video with me and after going through several weeks of them showing me individual counselling, how to use, do the exercises making sure that I’d knew exactly how to do them and taking the DVD with me, I was able to travel and they come back and pick up where I left off, without affecting my progress. One of the things is like I feel like I’m taller, I don’t know if that makes any sense or not, but I don’t feel like I’m as “gimped up” as I was. I feel like my body feels more elongated because I feel a lot of stress and pinching in my back and my spine have subsided and I feel stronger in my whole body, my core. I feel my core is elongated, my posture is better, I have kind of like a new hope that I can actually have my figure back at some point and I don’t think about my back quite as often. It doesn’t obviously if that what I wear.

I’m always skeptical, I’m kind of skeptic about things but I came and talked to some people that had been here, and I really like the results that I saw and their testimonials and there are people in the community that I know and I respect and have tried other things also. So yeah I wasn’t quite as skeptical because like I said I knew some people who had gone through this and been very successful.

[Okay. Would you recommend this program to anybody who’s suffering?]

Oh absolutely I already have. I’ve already recommended it to lots of people.

[Great! If there’s somebody out there who’s suffering from back pain and they were still skeptical about trying this, what would you say to that person?]

I would tell them if you’ve already tried all of the other things, then what have you got to lose? It’s a whole different approach to back pain and it has to do with getting stronger not just your back but your whole body and it’s about lifestyle, it’s about a change in a lifestyle and a shift in the paradigm.”

“Relief4Life Offers Exercises That If Done Sequentially, Will Give You The Relief That You Want And It’s Not A Come On, It’s The Truth… I’ve Been Doing It For 3 Weeks And My Back Feels Great.”

“My life before Relief4Life was pain; I was in a lot of pain. I’m a horseback rider that I ride almost everyday and the constant pressure of the pounding at the saddle gave me back pain all the time. So for 20 years I’ve been riding horses, I’ve had this constant pain. I’ve gone to Chiropractors, some of helped a little bit but it wasn’t until I came to Relief4Life and to EarthFIT that I really got really good relief. I’ve only been here 3 weeks and I can say in 3 weeks I feel really good.

I was skeptical about the Relief4Life program because I’ve tried so many things and I’ve been to different exercise clubs, but this program as fast as it was has relieved my pain. Relief4Life offers exercises that if done sequentially, will give you the relief that you want and it’s not a come on, it’s the truth.

With the stretching in the Relief4Life [program], it has helped my back, it has strengthen my core which I know that I’ve needed, and it gives me daily relief. Just getting out of the car, out of the bed, sitting at my computer, standing – I stand a lot because I’m an artist and I stand a lot. All these things gave me back issues, but I have relief now because of the Relief4Life program.

I’ve been doing it for 3 weeks and my back feels great. I would recommend Relief4Life for everyone, someone recommended it to me I was a little skeptical at first because I didn’t think that you could really have relief for life, but having done the program, I do believe in it – I really do believe in it – and I’ve already recommended it to a couple of friends, but I would recommend it to anybody… any age.”

“Hi Ian. I dont know if its you really replying to me each time but i asume that its you. So last tuesday i wrote to you that i can not see any difference with the program. Then yesterday you wrote to me if i have understoond the video. Well i have to tell you that i have understoond your video completed.

Today i am writting to you because i want you to know this… I dont know how to thank you. If i have the chance to meet you face to face i would shake your hand and tell you how appriciation i feel for your help. WELL FROM THIS VERY MORNING I HAVE NOT PAIN AT ALL. MY BACK PAIN HAS GONE. I WAS SUPPOSED TO WORK THIS MORNING EXTRA. I REALLY ENJOY MY WORK WITHOUT ANY PAIN. I am serious Ian. I feel no pain at all. I had this pain around 2 or 2 1/2 months. I will still continue doing the excersices even those that i have difficulty doing them. After your explanation yesterday and seeing one more time your video now i really understand how to do even the ones i thought i cant. And i will continue drinking this natural lemon juice as you suggested.

Ian my cousing suffering from back pain many years. Right now im going to suggest to him to try your program and lets see what happens. All day i really feel talking about it to every person i know and meet. Honestly i feel writting this day down: 21-09-2013 my back pain has complete gone. No pain anymore. Thank you so much Ian. I really hope the best for you in life and to the people you love. i hope to hear from you, personaly!!!” (Avel’s Email)

“It Truly Is Changing My Life…”

“Before I started doing Back Pain Relief4Life, I could not bend over and pick anything up off the floor; I could not even stoop down and pick anything up off the floor without severe pain. I’ve been to all kinds of doctors and physical therapy and nothing had worked – I’d almost given up. I’ve always been very active and I came here and I trusted these guys and I started doing the Back Pain Relief4Life video and in just… I felt relief honestly in 4 weeks or 2 weeks but now it’s been 6 or 7 weeks and it’s been a transformation. I felt like completely a different person.

I am not the type of person who can fib about something. I am a very trusting person and so I could not stand here and say this if I wasn’t being 100% honest with you. It truly is changing my life. We travelled yesterday, last couple days to Jacksonville and there is a program that you can download on iPad or iPhone that you can do this program while you travel and it’s the first time I’ve done that since I started doing it in a hotel room and after I finished, I felt as always a hundred percent better and I even wanted to email EarthFIT office and tell them that I did my homework and how much better I felt and I felt better about myself.

I would recommend it 100% – just trust and try it. When I first tried it with one of the trainers here I was afraid and I told him I was afraid and because of the stretching I always been told that I shouldn’t be bending that way that it would hurt my back so I had to trust somebody that knew more than I did. And I trusted him and I’m continuing to trust them and what I got from that was relief by trusting them and continuing to do what they’re asking me to do.”

I Have Had This Problem For Years And I Think That The Relief4life Program Is Really Excellent For Anyone

“Before Relief4Life, I had almost daily back pain from some discs that have degenerated in my lower back and I started coming to Relief4Life and doing a series of exercises here 2-3 days a week for approximately 3 months, and then I began to do them at home and it has given me excellent relief. I would go for long periods of time with absolutely no pain with Relief4Life program in the exercises that I had.

“…Now That I’ve Done The Program I Am Amazed How Much Better I Feel… I’ve Got A Tremendous Amount More Energy.”

“Well before Back Pain Relief4Life, I was having trouble walking across the room; trouble going upstairs without pain; difficulty with my work – because I deliver babies, I’m leaning over the bed or I’m leaning over doing surgery – and I’ve had a couple surgeries on my back already and I just thought I was not going to be able to grow old and be able to be functional once I retired. I thought I’d work until I was 65 and that would be it. So now that I’ve done the program I am amazed how much better I feel and I’ve not been able doing that long – about 5 or 6 weeks – and I’ve got a tremendous amount more energy. I have days when my back bothers me but it’s not bother me the same way. It gets stronger everyday and it was a type of program I was really afraid that it was… that there wasn’t a type of program that would make it better without me hurting my back and I’ve found that this does not. It’s making stronger without surgery or drugs. Other options I’ve done are physical therapy, I’ve done an epidural injections, I had a laminectomy, I had a spinal fusion, and just with what I do day to day I think I’ve had continued to injure and hurt the muscles of my back. And being here, I’ve learned more about how to move and I’m still learning how to move so that I don’t keep hurting my back and causing the pain. I was skeptical, I looked at the website about 3 weeks and I kept thinking about it and I read the testimonials and because I was afraid that I would start the program and then I’d be hurting to the point where I wouldn’t be able to work and that is the main thing I do and I love what I do and I want to keep doing it. But then once I came I realized that everybody here knows what they are doing and has trained me to be able to do what I need to do to make my back stronger instead of hurting it. So I feel very comfortable. I think the people here are very professional. Yes I would recommend this program to anybody that has problem with their back whether they’ve had surgery or not, whether they have tried other things or not. This is the way to do it without enduring a lot of surgery and other drugs. I’ve had referred a patient here who’s doing the program and I’ve got another person that’s coming because they are watching me and seeing the difference just in a short period of time. If there’s somebody out there that is skeptical about doing the program, I’d say you owe it to yourself to at least come and do the assessment, meet the folks, let them see where you are now and show you what they can do to make your back better or talk to other people that have done the testimonials that have done this because there’s plenty of people out there that have seen tremendous results.”

“My Life After Relief4Life Now After 2 Sessions, Is Very Awesome!… It Improved My Life And My Back Tremendously”

“My life before Relief4Life was very painful, my lower back was always killing me. I’ve had it for about 10 years plus. If I sat down for a long time I couldn’t get up, it was just very painful and no one, I mean I went to different doctors they couldn’t figure out what it was, they would give me steroids; I’ve done a chiropractor; and I’ve had an MRI and everybody says my spine is fine but I still had the pain… and I’ve done an injection and that didn’t really help me so I didn’t do it. So my doctor that I visited she recommended this. She said [it’s] really good back relief so I went okay I’ll try it. I looked it up online, I like what it said but I was still skeptical you know, people messing with your back, you sort of you know… so I asked one of my classmates who went through the program, Susan, and she highly recommended it for me. So I’m here and I feel better! My life after Relief4Life now after 2 sessions, is very awesome! I can get up out of the bed without straining, and without being in bent over for 10 minutes. It’s like I really enjoy it. I feel like I’m learning a lot and know how to actually sit and lay down and do exercises properly than just you know popping down and doing them so I’m very grateful, I’m glad I actually started this. Yes I would definitely recommend Relief4Life to anyone that have back problems especially since what I went to 10 years plus, it improved my life and my back tremendously.”

“I Came In For One Session, Worked And Did All The Exercises And Now I Feel No Pain.”

“Before Relief4Life, I had a lot of back pain. I had a cyst in my back and I had to go see my back doctor who drained the cyst and did an injection to block the pain, but it didn’t blocked it all the way, it still lingered and so I was trying to figure out how I was going to live with the pain and I came to Relief4Life. After Relief4Life, I came in for one session, worked and did all the exercises, worked through the program and now I feel no pain. If you’re skeptical about Relief4Life, I would say you have nothing to lose and everything to gain by doing it, it’s much better than going to doctors and having injections and so forth. So it ought to be something to at least try and see if it doesn’t help because it helped me. I would recommend Relief4Life to anyone because it makes you feel limber, and relaxed and loose.”

“My Golf Has Improved Considerably… My Swing Is Much Easier, I Can Get More Accuracy And More Distance…”

“Before Relief4Life, I had trouble standing to cook for any length of time, I could not walk more than a short distance without my back hurting and it just seemed like any type of bending, it made my back hurt worse. I’ve really only been doing it for a month and now I’ve walked 2 miles without any back pain, I can bend over and do household tasks without back pain and my golf has actually improved considerably. After Relief4Life my golf swing is much easier, I can get more accuracy and more distance and I don’t tire as much on the golf course. I was afraid that it was just going to make my back hurt worse and it certainly hasn’t; it’s made it feel much better. I’d definitely recommend anyone to try this program because it certainly helped me. I would say to anyone that is skeptical, give it a try. You certainly don’t have anything to lose, and it’s made a big difference with mine and then it seems like it’s made a big difference for a lot of people, so I would recommend it.”

“My Life Now After Relief4Life Is Amazing. Now When I Get Up In The Morning When My Feet Hit The Floor, My Back Doesn’t Hurt Anymore…”

“Before Relief4Life, I was in constant low back pain. Several years ago, actually 7 years ago in fact, I had gone to a doctor and had been to a chiropractor who sent me to an orthopedic surgeon, who said I need a shot in my lower back. I got a shot and that time it worked fairly well. However, 6 years later the back pain reocurred. And once again I went to an orthopedic surgeon, and once again he told me that I need these shots in the L5 and L6. While after 3 shots in each one of those vertebrae, the pain was still there. At that point, I decided since Relief4Life was right down the street from my house, I’m going to stop and see what kind of program they have as it was recommended to me by a doctor friend who is one of the attendees at Relief4Life. Well, I was always skeptical about Relief4Life, not so much Relief4Life in particular but actually the exercise program, it didn’t seem to me that there was any type of the exercise program that relieved this kind of pain. My life now after Relief4Life is amazing. Now when I get up in the morning when my feet hit the floor, my back doesn’t hurt anymore and there’s a lot of things that I was reluctant to do before my exercises here at Relief4Life. But now I am conscious that there are certain motions that have to be taken in order to protect my back, but the back right now feels 100% better than it did 4 weeks ago. I would recommend Relief4Life to anyone who has back pain right now and they can’t get it solved through the medical profession. The exercises are not debilitating, they are hard but the results are fantastic.”

“… It Was A Gradual Process And I Was Able To Work My Body Up To Completing The Entire Program. I Recommended It To Probably 3 People Already…”

“Before Relief4Life, my back pain was not… well my life was not fun. It got to the point where I became very sedentary and it was just hard to move around, do basic things getting through the day and especially getting out of the bed in the morning. It was very rough. I did physical therapy and very minimal results, that was not very successful for me. I had 2 back surgeries because I had nerve pain on the lower right side of my back and that helped to an the extent, but I still had problems. After doing the Relief4Life program, it’s much easier for me to get out of my bed in the morning. I don’t have all the stiffness that I have before and I’m more mobile – I just get a lot better and I don’t have as many, or hardly any aches and pains. I heard it was kind of tough and I was afraid that I’d just get from into it but I was not. Instead, it was a gradual process and I was able to work my body up to completing the entire program. I recommended it to probably 3 people already who have back trouble and I’ve told them to… call you, get in here and chat with you about because it’s helped me so much.”

“I Can Stretch Further Than I’ve Ever Been Able To. Relief4Life Has Worked Wonders”

“Before Relief4Life, I had pretty much constant pain on my hip and by back everyday and it limited a lot of the movements that I could do. I’ve been in pain for probably the last 20 years.

I was skeptical about Relief4Life because I was not sure that I could do the program. I did not know if it would help me or if it would hurt me and I was just a little nervous about Relief4Life.

Absolutely yes I would recommend Relief4Life for anyone who is having back issues. If you have any concerns, you should come in and talk to them and they will just relieve any concerns you have about the Relief4Life program.

Today’s my last day with the program Relief4Life and it’s been wonderful. I feel great. I just finished working out and it’s been a relief on my back. I can stretch further than I’ve ever been able to. Relief4Life has worked wonders.”

“Absolutely 100% Wholeheartedly I Would Recommend This Program”

“My life before Relief4Life is very limited. I had limited mobility, the movements that I could do were limited to being very careful of how I sat up in bed, almost not being able to roll over at all in bed, and at one point, I couldn’t roll over in bed. I ended up having to sleep on one side only, and then when I did get up very carefully, get up, but I know that I was terrified and that was making my life even worse. I couldn’t move anymore. I love to ride a bike; I couldn’t ride a bike anymore for fear that just a jolting movement on my spine was going to cause a problem. Riding in a car for any length of time was difficult, because I couldn’t sit in one position very long. Basic everyday things that you go through… you know, in life.

I was skeptical about doing the program that I would make my back worse. Very very…not optimistic, let’s put there pessimistic as far as the results would be… and it turned out I was completely wrong. Absolutely, completely wrong. It had exact opposite effect. I actually after week and a half can move and without fear.

My life now actually is… after starting the program, it has been a week and a half, almost 2 weeks has made an incredible difference. I’m not afraid to get out of the bed anymore. I can get out of bed, I don’t have any pain getting out of bed, I get up in the morning and I don’t feel tight, I don’t feel like my back is gonna go out on me and I just recently decided I can start riding my bike again.

Absolutely 100% wholeheartedly I would recommend this program to someone who is a similar situation.”

“You’re Always Thinking Okay… This Will Fail Too But It Didn’t And It Worked!

“I would definitely recommend Relief4Life to anyone that wants to strengthen their back, relieve back pain, and just live a healthier life.

Before Relief4Life I spent many days confined to my bed because I had a lot of lower back pain that affected my sciatic nerve, my foot drop was a lot worse, it caused me to find an occupation where I had to work from home because I suffered so much severe lower back pain.

After Relief4Life I basically am much more active. I haven’t had any lower back pain since I started this program 2 months ago. I just feel much better and I feel more active. I don’t have to see the chiropractor, I don’t have to take pain meds, I just do the program and I feel great!

I was skeptical about doing the Relief4Life back program only because it was like my last resort, I had pain injection that didn’t work like I said I had seen chiropractors that didn’t seem to help so you’re always thinking okay… this will fail too but it didn’t and it worked! I’d say with my 8 year old nephew says “Try it! You might like it!” and just what do you have to lose.”

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