#Friends Can Break Your Heart Too

[schlafparalyse]

𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚜𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚕 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞‘𝚛𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚞𝚗𝚔. 𝙲𝚞𝚍𝚍𝚕𝚢, 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚘 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗.

𝚃𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚎 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝙸 𝚖𝚎𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞.

𝙷𝚘𝚠 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎𝚍 𝚖𝚎. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚐𝚕𝚊𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚊 𝚏𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚖𝚎.

𝙼𝚢 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚕𝚢 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚘𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚑𝚕𝚢 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚒𝚝 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎. 𝙰𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗.

𝙱𝚞𝚝 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚏𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚊𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚍 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚒𝚝𝚌𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚛𝚎.

𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚕𝚎𝚏𝚝 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚟𝚊𝚐𝚞𝚎 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚢 𝚘𝚏 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝚗𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖.

𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝’𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝙸 𝚜𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚕𝚢 𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚗 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜, 𝚒𝚗 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎.

What I never told you..

[girlwithptsd]

[mulderscully]

wrestled all day with whether or not i should say hbd to my ex best friend and the second i hit send on the little message i started crying lol might not have healed i think

[iambrokengirlanddie]

[iamjusttryingtofeellessalone]

We were supposed to stay friends no matter what. Now we barely look in the other’s direction.

[perfection-is-an-opinion]

~I will feel our goodbye kiss for lifetimes~

-and no one can take that from me

[1998-w]

Pienso en ti todos los días,

si solo me hubieses avisado que ya no éramos amigas,

probablemente dolería pero no toda la vida.

[thatsojasminesworld]

Lonely

My friend and I took pictures i posted it them him and my best friend said I was wrong for it my best friend that nobody wants to be friends with me I’m a narcissist and all this shit because of a picture i posted on Facebook with our friend because after I did he got mad that I posted the picture he took and all her friends are talking shit about me I feel all alone right now I honestly feel like I don’t have any one my best friend isn’t my friend anymore it hurts more then losing any other friend we had been friends since the second day of grade 9 this is the first fight we have ever had and she tell me I’m a horrible friend she doesn’t know why is was my friend for so long and how I have no one she knew my one friend left me for his girlfriend and my best friends aka my grandparents in the entire world died I feel so lost & I had surgery on the 19th and what sucked was my friend wasn’t there and she was always there for me now I don’t have that I felt like I couldn’t call her cause she wouldn’t have cared or answered me anyway I just feel so alone my grandmother was always there for me when I was in and out of the hospital & my ex best friend was to now I have nobody I feel so horrible and lost I wish I could talk to my grandma It’s so fuckin pathetic to cry over ur ex best friend not wanting to have anything to do with you cause ur such a horrible person all cause of a pic cause of it I lost my best friend that I was friends with since grade 9 we’re now 29 we had been through so much together and her throwing it all away cause of a pic that hurts more then other friendships ending

[l0vely-mysteries]

people always say how bad romantic breakups are but fuck, I’m hurting so bad from a friendship breakup rn and maybe it’s because there was never that “it’s over” conversation, just her becoming busy w life and me left with the feeling that I just made good company until better people came along

[ad-claritas]

I am sickand alone on saturday night, the time-temple of happiness, and there's nobody who listens to my breaking heart.

[schlafparalyse]

𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚝.

𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚎𝚍 𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢.

[girlwithptsd]

"L"

For those of you that have followed me for a long while, you very likely remember the friend I've often written about, who on here I've referred to as "L."

This past summer, I told L that I needed space from her and that I was angry with her for how things went down around the time of my two hospitalizations while I was living in Colorado. This happened years ago, but I had never fully processed it and the anger was bubbling up every time I saw her name or thought of her. My intention was to never speak with her again.

I want to preface this with that, for a time, she was the most supportive person I had in my life. She showed me immense kindness and fierce love. I would not be alive today without her.

I reached out to her in November, around Thanksgiving, apologizing for any hurt I had caused and saying I no longer needed space. I also told her I love her and always will.

Yesterday, March 26, 2023, she finally responded to me, via text.

Long story short, she accused me of using her, said that's why I don't have any friends remaining from that time in my life, and asked me to never contact her again.

How I'm feeling has been changing minute to minute, but I know I will make it through this. Years ago, I wouldn't have.

A lot has happened in the years since those hospitalizations.

I do still love her, despite the shitty things she has said to me, which is ironic because she doesn't believe in unconditional love.

I just want all of you to know that if you lose friends because of the shit you've gone through with your mental illnesses, it says more about the other person than it does about you. You're doing what you need to do to stay alive, and that is brave, full stop. Even the most important people in your life are human, flawed in their own ways. You know yourself best. Their judgements of you are not always correct, no matter how much you love them.

Obviously there are coping mechanisms that are healthier than others, but they are COPING mechanisms nonetheless, and they are keeping you alive. That means you are fighting. Keep fighting. Someday you will love you like I love me. I believe it.

Thank you all for following me. I know I haven't posted original content in a long while. To update further, I've done a lot of healing, and I'm in a much better place than I was when I started this blog.

I wish all of you the best, always. I will keep posting from time to time.

[iambrokengirlanddie]

Manche Menschen verändern sich, wenn sie in einer Beziehung sind. Aus Freunden wurden Fremde. Aus Nähe wurde Distanz. Aus Freude wurde Schmerz.

- iambrokengirlanddie

[iamjusttryingtofeellessalone]

The newest thought/feeling I have about my situation is what’s the fucking point of becoming friends again after they break up? IF they break up. If he’s going to dip out every time he gets a girlfriend then I don’t want to let him back in to my life.

It’s not like I haven’t had plenty of guy friends peace out when they get gfs but I was never this close to any of them.

[loveisntnirvana]

I'll always be the one that's a bit left out in every friend group

The one they sometimes forget

The one that is a bit odd

And I fucking hate it

It always makes me feel alone

I wish I felt included, I wish I was wanted

[caimitos]

saw a post about projecting your ethnicity onto a character and started missing vespa ilkay. so so bad