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mamawasatesttube · 10 months

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one other thing that really makes me roll my eyes in dc fics is the insistence that the bats can take down anyone, even their most op teammates. like... you guys know a character doesn't have to be the most physically capable one in the room in order to be interesting or strong in their own right, right? look me in the eye. cass had to save tim from shrike. bane broke bruce's back. mind-controlled kon snapped tim's arm like a twig. trying to make them ~always~ able to counter even the most powerful opponents is so boring im sorry like they can and do lose fights sometimes, and that's interesting actually. they are all incredibly competent martial artists, yes! that doesn't mean they can win every single matchup. that's simply neither the point of nor the strength in their characters.

#like ppl who insist that tim could solo the rest of core four #or that bruce could solo the jl. etc #look me in the eye and tell me that this regular human man (any of them) could beat starfire in a fight.#of course there's elements such as strategy and traps and knowing the environs etc etc #but overall just like. as a general concept. so goddamn annoying #im sure canon does this sometimes too but like. the way the fanon version makes non-bat characters look so stupid...#sorry i just remembered some fic that had a throwaway line like oh of course tim could take kon in an actual fight--#like what do you mean of course. no the fuck he couldn't. tim is some guy. kon is an invulnerable telekinetic alien. i hate you people #he doesn't have to be able to win every single fight in order to be interesting or competent!!! (any of them!!)#next thing you know there's gonna be people insisting bruce could solo superboy prime if he just had enough ~preparation time~#rimi talks

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moe-broey · 2 months

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GOD I would HATE to be stuck at a family dinner with them 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I would NOT fucking survive, the vibes alone would do 1000 points poison damage to me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Also JUST. JUST.

THE VIBES. ARE RANCID. SHARENA DARLING YOU DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS (ALFPNSE TOO BUT DEAR LORD. Sharena LITERALLY was just told to Don't Speak Unless Spoken To RANCID. RANCID FUCKING FAMILY)

#I SAID I WOULDN'T DOCUMEBT THE WHOLE THING. BUT COME ON #gustav hits alfonse with the 'and' 😐🤨 and if i were him i would be internally exploding instantly.#HENRIETTE HITS ALFONSE W THE 'he missed you soooooo much 😊😊😊😊😊😇😇😇' and BY GOD. IF I WERE ALFONSE #i would SHATTER. LIKE GLASS. INSTANTLY. WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#my BITCHASS FUCKING BAD WHO'S BEEN SILENT TREATMENTINF ME FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG #BC I HAD THE AUDACITY TO MAKE A CHOICE?????????? BC I DARED HAVE AUTONOMY????????? FREE WILL???????#ohhhh my god and sharena. SHARENA. DARLING. BELOVED. DEAR. how have you not SNAPPED #girl if i were you this would be my villain origin story.#i mean. if. moe is anything to go by.#gooooddddddddddddd.#HELP THE TYPO IN MY TAGS.... OF 'BAD' INSTEAD OF 'DAD'....... freudian slip. but am i wrong #GOOODDDDD BUT. HAVING. EYES. THAT KNOW. EVERYTHING. THAT HAS HAPPENED SINCE #INSANE!!!!!! INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bc i DO ACTUALLY BELIEVE HENRIETTE NOW??? WHEN SHE SAYS THAT ABOUT GUSTAV?!?????#SHE'S. the ONLY person in the goddamn fucking WORLD. who would know this. who would be able to read this. what the FUCK #but like THAT STILL DOESN'T MAKE HIM ANY BETTER...... gooooddddddd I HATE IT. HATE IT #when the love IS there it's just fucking stupid bc nobody here is normal. about anything. making an endlessly complicated situation #type of shit that has made it so i never believe that anyone genuinely likes me. type of shit that makes me never believe an 'i love you'#UNLESS. if it's from my sisters i trust them w my entire heart. but holy shit it actually took them directly stating it #AS. AN ADULT. AT THIS TIME. for me to actually believe it. and fully actually accept it.#HELP AND ALSO... EVERY TIME GUSTAV CALLS ALFPNSE 'Son.' IT'S.. SO FUNNY TO ME IDK WHY #i just read it in that one voice/cadence. of that katamari post. my gay ass son who i hate. HELP #i need to find that again hold on #but first #fe alfonse #sharena #fe henriette #fe gustav #book 3 replaying #feh

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hella1975 · 1 year

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you ever have a fic get you in such a chokehold you start pacing your room and talking to yourself

#THIS FIC WAS WRITTEN FOR ME SPECIFICALLY #BURN IT ALL DOWN BY DOROTHYCANFLY ON AO3 THIS IS GENUINELY ONE OF MY TOP 5 FICS OF ALL TIME EVER #IT'S GOT THE BEST DABI CHARACTERISATION IVE EVER COME ACROSS IT'S GOT REALLY WELL WRITTEN DABIHAWKS #THAT FITS BOTH OF THEM LIKE THEY'RE MEAN AS HELL ABOUT IT AT FIRST #IT'S GOT STUPIDLY DEVOTED TOUYA-SHOUTO IT'S GOT PROTECTIVE BIG BROTHER TOUYA #IT'S GOT MENTAL ANGST WRITTEN LIKE A DREAM THE WRITING IN GENERAL IS INSANE #IT'S ACTION PACKED BUT DONE WELL SO THAT IT'S NOT TEDIOUS IT'S FUNNY IT'S GOT TWISTS #IT'S KEEPING ME ON MY TOES I NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING OR HOW FAR THE AUTHOR IS WILLING TO GO #IVE LITERALLY READ 300K WORDS IN TWO DAYS AT THIS POINT LIKE I AM ABSOLUTELY FINISHING THIS TONIGHT #WHAT THE FUCK EVEN AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF AFTER THIS #EVERY NEW THING THAT HAPPENS LITERALLY HAS ME GETTING UP TO PACE ABOUT #I CLOCKED OUT OF MY MUM TELLING ME OFF EARLIER BC I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS FIC #DO U KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS BASO JUST SIGNED MY DEATH WARRANT BUT I DIDNT CARE #losing my goddamn mind respectfully <3 if anyone has read this pls yell with me about it #and if anyone knows mha and wants a fic rec PLEASE let it be this one it's my fav mha fic ever and ive read A LOT #it gets quite smutty in the middle but if that's not ur thing the author tws very well and u can kinda just scroll #so that u still get the important character developments without it being just pure smut lol #god this FIC. holding it in my fucking fist and squeezing the everloving life out of it im going INSANE #i cant remember the last time a fic got me this way im literally giggling about it all #HE FOUND A REASON TO LIVE AGAIN THEY TOOK THIS MANGLED BLOODY BOY AND SAID WE LOVE YOU #YOU ARE GOOD YOU CAN STAY YOU CAN REST NOW WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU AND HE CHOSE THEM! HE CHOSE THEM!#OVER HIS REVENGE AND HIS RAGE HE CHOSE THEM! IM GOING TO BE VIOLENTLY SICK #like the author LETS DABI BE A CUNT. the first chunk of the fic he's actively not a good person #and his coping mechanisms are shot to shit and we WATCH HIM GROW FROM THAT i have cried several times over the most mundane shit #goddddddddDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDAKSJFJKAGSFIUAHGJKAKG #mha #fic rec

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dimensionzero · 1 year

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anyway every spider-man in the multiverse is alone except for miles. can anybody hear me

#every spiderman starts out thinking theyre the only one #every spiderman learns the lesson that theyre only one person and they cant save everyone #every spiderman grits their teeth and keeps going in face of tragedy #every spiderman learns about the multiverse and when they realize there are other people like them #they pass on their own trauma in a cycle --- this happened to me and it had to happen so that this good thing could also happen #which means that this terrible thing has to happen to you too #thats their universal truth: they cant save everyone alone so they need to maximize their influence to save as many as they can #but miles? miles morales is the spiderman who got bit already knowing who spiderman was #miles is the spiderman who had six different spider-mentors help him come into his own #miles is the only spiderman whose introductory monologue ends with 'and im not the only one'#miles is the one who looks at all these people whove decided they Have to suffer alone and says #'ok but what if i helped you'#'what if instead of taking the good with the bad we still got the good but stopped the bad anyway'#'sure i can't save everyone alone but the whole goddamn point of the multiverse is that im not the only one'#and thats why miles is our hero #across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse spoilers #(tiny amendment actually: miles is actually not the only spider who knows hes not alone right from the beginning #atsv also introduces us to pavitr --- a member of the spider society whos even more of a rookie than miles is #and huh whaddya know: the kid who knew from the start that he wasnt alone is the one whose traumatic 'canon event' is stopped #in a joint effort between him and his friends #yeah that probably isn't foreshadowing or anything)

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queen0fm0nsterz · 8 months

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Reading my fave thin man and lady fic. Kicking my feet a lot because tbh. Sometimes a sad man really is just a weird woman's science project in a way that is so homoerotic

#carols.txt #when i tell you i've been re-reading this single one shot religiously every single month for almost three years I mean it #《straight》 ship so good we call it queerbaiting #LMAOOOOOO #call it yaoyuri the way these old people r tragic and doomed by the narrative or whatever #listen as a bi person on the aroace spectrum whatever this fic was trying to convey really strikes a cord #while its not the same as my own this characterization of them is so intriguing. im so hooked on it #^^ one thing i think this person really nailed was thin man's immaturity (stemming from his emotions oftentime being too big to control) ->#and the desire of attention that comes with said immaturity while also having the lady be both cold (normal) and intrigued in a way that ->#that really fits her character. curiosity is one of the many facets that make up her character that don't get explored much and i think its #done so well here for like no reason💀 THIS AUTHOR COOKED TOO HARD YOU GUYS #like ofc she wouldnt send him away. shes studying him under a microscope. even though hes annoying as hell #thin man is plagued by sassy man syndrome in this which is really fucking funny cus it lasts a total of 3 seconds before she finds him out #PLUS THE TALK ABOUT THE TOWER AND THE WORLD... AUGHHH #i need this author to give me their brain NOW #AUGHHHHHAAGGGHEEHH #everyone needs to start doing thinlady the way this person was doing it #this is the biblically accurate old people (in case my theory abt baby lady having been in the pale city is wrong)#live laugh love. its my birthday. spoiling myself a bit. goddamn.

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kyuala · 11 months

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SOOOOOO hard to go through everyday life trying to ignore the never-ending feeling that im just irreparably fucked up and therefore should just give up on everything

#this aint exactly s******* but it aint exactly not s******* either #anyways it gets even harder when i have to live under the same roof as my brother who is so much better than me in every single conceivable #and imaginable way possible like #and i knowwww a LOT of it comes down to us having relatively similar yet wildly different lives despite being 1.5y apart and having the sam #family our entire lives like he has gone through NOTHING and i mean not a single societal issue ive had to face and endure my entire life #he's a man im a woman. he's white im black. he's straight im gay. he's skinny ive always been 'overweight'. he's always been the good #christian kid ive always had issues w faith and religion. he's never been mentally ill i was clinically depressed for nearly 8yrs of my lif #we both lost the same parent and im the only one who got pathological grief and a personality disorder out of it. he's had a great job for #the last 7yrs that now pays him 20k+ every month ive only had 3 odd jobs my entire life and 2 of those my MOTHER had to give me so i would #have SOMETHING and ive never made over 1.6k monthly n my last job was minimum wage only #he's had like 4 relationships and is nearly engaged im so traumatized + emotionally unavailable ive only ever been on 1 date my entire life #he has a good relationship w every family member we have i have Issues w like half the family. he's always been an active member of our #church i can barely listen to like 4 traditional hymns before i start losing my mind and spiraling. i think the only two ways we're pretty #much equal like socially is that we're both able bodied cis and christians but still the cis and christian thing is debatable for previousl #stated reasons so like. do yall see how much better he is doing than me in every little last area in life and how he's always gotten the #long straw when it comes to Not having to deal w certain obstacles in life. n i know its like yea idk what it actually is like to be him an #he could not be doing all that well first of all shut up. second of all if it was 1 or 2 things i'd get it but it's literally EVERYTHING #and i know bc of said things n our v different lives it's unfair to me to compare the two of us but then it begs the question: WHY #WHY did i have to go through these things. WHY do i have to deal w this. WHY did i get the short straw literally every goddamn time #WHY did i have to get THIS life like WHYYYYY why ME GOD. why have I had to put up w all this bullshit for 24 fucking years!!!!!!!!! im TIRE #and this is not me hating or resenting him i know it's not his fault and he is so good to me #but still. why was i left with these things? to live like this?#so yes i guess i do envy him a little bit. who wouldn't #mari.txt #personal #tw negative #dl #btw i do NOT mean some identities are better than others. i mean he is better and is doing better than me in life partially bc he's never #had to deal w certain social issues and obstacles that come w oppressed identities.

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toxiccaves · 11 months

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Sworgrader Ch 2 is out, and it looks like these will be free.

He has a handsome expression, but so far thats all i can really be optimistic about

#brave universe sworgrader #apparently carly is in her 20s but goddamn they are not letting up on the upskirts and ass accentuated panels #unsurprising with human designer (and maybe artist i think?) being maximum freak #thank gosh i dont need to give this thing money just show me the geisters #anyway overall it feels like not much happened at all this ch too like. 30 pages to show he transforms and theres a girl on a spaceship #maybe once thats outta the way more can happen. and they changed chapter names so i think they ran into production issues #not sure if this means the following chapters will be back on track now or we can expect one chapter every like 3 months lol

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witchspeka · 1 year

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Thinking about powers... and what they mean to people...

To Mob its a hindrance, an unnecessary addition, something separate from him that's evil and bad and should be contained

To Teru its the complete opposite, it's an integral part of him, of his identity, its something to flaunt and be proud of

To Ritsu its a new thing so he for sure doesnt consider it something natural, I think to him its like with Mob, a separate thing from himself, but not in a bad way? He doesn't view his powers through a negative lens, he just views them as a skill, as something to be learnt, something that's useful and practical, an idea that exists separate from his self

To Ritsu its a tool, a weapon, a defense mechanism. Its a goddamn pipe dream turned reality

#mp100 #cine te a intrebat #mob psycho 100 #ritsu kageyama #only ritsu gets tagged cause i dont talk about the other 2 enough for that whxnwjz #this was started by me thinking I Wonder How Ritsu Views His Powers can u tell #anyway this is also to say that ritsu will eventually learn to view powers as something more casual and use them for every small lil thing #for at least a month or smth. hed be so obnoxious about it. god i just remembered that lil extra i rbed LITERALLY THAT LMAO #man that also reminds me of a drama cd where he says he doesnt wanna use his powers for 'something boring'#WHATS THAT EVEN SUPPOSED TO MEAN... truly the most 13 year old ever...#hes got such a childish way of viewing it once you get over the Coping Mechanism aspect of wanting powers...#how can u look at this kid and make him an edgy caricature. like fr hes such a lil nerd he writes his progress in a goddamn journal cmon now #i should sleep but i miss mob i should rewatch ...............

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lesbiansanemi · 5 months

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We’ve officially hit the point where I can’t fucking sleep because of this shit and on top of everything the AC went out I literally want to cry I’m so stressed I physically feel like shit like I need to throw up I’m so tired but between my stomach hurting, the stress, and the heat I can’t

#today he told me it ‘wasn’t fair’ that I expected him and his bf to move #just because I refused to get rid of my ‘disgusting cats’ and they would be ‘happier’ in a shelter #his reasonings for why they would be happier in a shelter were all things that they did not do/did not happen until he started this shit #‘they’re always hiding and you never spend time with them’#they hide from YOU #early morning and late at night when you’re in your room they’re fine #im out here rn just sitting with them giving them attention #also yeah I used to give them attention for AT LEAST several hours of the day #but after I essentially got chased out of all the common areas no obviously that wasn’t happening #man FUCK YOU #also sorry I don’t want to spend literal THOUSANDS more than I would other wise to fucking move #esp when YOU moving means no changes in your finances #you make over 50k a year I make barely 20k AND already have more bills to pay than you #why the FUCK should I be getting stuck with the far worse financial decision #and then to try and frame it like you’re getting treated ‘unfairly’ just because I won’t get rid of my cats for you??????#I genuinely hope the stupid fucking car your mom gave you explodes tomorrow idc idc idccccc #ESPECIALLY WHEN HE BOTH THREATENED AND SAID HE DIDNT CARE TO MOVE OUT #and when I said ‘great. do that’ he starts throwing this fucking fit #I hate him so much it is so goddamn UNREAL #I am dealing with a giant man baby who has never been told no in his life before now #and it’s really fucking showing #this is what happens when parents give their kids everything they want #and you have normie cis white man privilege and have also gotten every job/into every program you’ve ever wanted with minimal effort #so when someone finally says ‘no you don’t get whatever you want at my expense’#he has the most immature meltdowns fucking imaginable #kaz rambles

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duchessvultjag · 8 months

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look i'm one of cardan's biggest fans, and yes i am immensely fond of characters who are straight up terrible ppl, ... that being said i don't trust ppl who read cardan's first appearance in tcp, immediately fell in love with him, and started shipping him with jude right then and there

#you mean tell me you saw an entitled drunk 19 year old abusing his social status to get away with maiming someone over a very small slight #AT A PUBLIC party and you started giggling and twirling your hair bc he's conventionally attractive and you like bad boys ?#get off the damn floor you're making a fool of yourself #i question my decision to stan every time i reread that scene and remember how awful he was in book 1 #yes he's my silly goofy baby boy yes he's done several things wrong and yes he needs to learn some goddamn decency

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lecliss · 9 months

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Wait while I'm here lemme say something that's been on my mind for like 2 weeks at least. So, Yahiko was alive when Obito first came to Ame and talked to Nagato. The canonical ages of Obito and Nagato in shippuden are 31 and 35 respectively. So the ame orphans are all 4 years older than Obito. Considering Yahiko died at 15, the oldest Obito could be when meeting Nagato is..... 11. When did Obito have his death scare and meet Madara before leaving for Ame??? When he was 13. Sooooo... unless I somehow got something wrong, and please correct me if I did, Kishimoto is once again a hack fraud.

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mars-ipan · 9 months

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HOOO my brother just touched a nerve

#marzi speaks #he asked if i wanted to fish with him and our grandpa #i declined bc i only really like flyfishing #HE goes ‘oh alright. i don’t mean to be misogynistic [bad sign] but it’s kind of a more masculine thing anyways’#i am immediately reminded of one of the first times i became infuriated at gender roles #my great uncle was taking a lot of cousins on a fishing trip #i asked to come with (i knew how to fish at this point- my aunts had taught me)#he said no- fishing is a man’s sport #my mother tore him a new one when she found out #so THAT memory is fresh in my mind #combined with the fact that i am now trans and have had my masculinity called into question #so i get Irritated. and go off on him about assigning arbitrary gendered attitudes to things that don’t require them #and how inappropriate it is for him to assign or revoke from me certain gender labels over the act of throwing string on a stick in water #and he pulls out my LEAST FAVORITE defense: well it’s not a big deal #‘it’s not a big deal’ is the FASTEST way to piss me off. because it’s CLEARLY a big deal to me if i’m bothering to get in your face about it #it’s so damn dismissive i hate it.#so i yell a bit more (‘you’re embarrassing me’ ‘be embarrassed i do not care’) and eventually get myself to a point where i go #‘Look. i’m setting a boundary here. don’t assign values of masculine or feminine or whatever to anything i do bc that isn’t your place’#and he goes. ‘okay. i’ll try for you. for YOU specifically. and i’m not gonna be perfect’#which is frustrating as HELL. every promise this motherfucker makes comes with 50 disclaimers like he’s signing a goddamn contract #so i tell him ‘quit with all the extra shit i’m not expecting perfection you’re a goddamn human being. just tell me you’ll try.’#so he starts again and i have to cut him off after ‘i will try’ so he doesn’t put his damn foot in his damn mouth again #UGGGHHHH. GODDD #i’ll probs apologize to him about blowing up later and try to explain how he touched a nerve #but right now i am going to be frustrated #also i feel like he’s gonna start saying too much because he can never let dust settle and frustrate me all over again so is it worth it?#i dunno #but AGH. GOD

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queerofthedagger · 2 years

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sometimes I'm like, oh I'm not that predictable about what kinds of characters I get obsessed with, and then I see a bastard with ten tons of trauma and daddy issues and it's over for me so quick I don't even have time to put the clown shoes on

#arthur. ronan. dream. laurent. regulus. (...) every single fandom every goddamn fucking time #in other news #i finished stranger things s3 last night and..... well #I'd like to punch billy hargrove and then force feed him some tea with whiskey and send him to therapy. I also want to make him worse #like. i mean i love them all but he. he's. absolute fucking bastard i love him #it's fine this is fine I'm only having a few emotions too many just. ignore me #mona rambles

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rowrowronnie · 2 years

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anyone else feel this

#me rn with sr avila #i mean its good but also avila scares tf outta me #i would NOT! want to be within a 5 mile radius of that man !#ALSO COMPLAINT WHY IS THERE SO MANY SEX SCENES ITS LIKE EVERY EPISODE SO FAR HAS HAD A SEX SCENE IN IT LIKE WE GET IT TONY DALTON IS HOT!!#DOESNT MEAN YALL HAVE TO PUT IN A SEX SCENE EVERY GODDAMN EPISODE!! but also maybe thats apart of his character maybe he can omly feel #something whenever hes having sex and cheating on his wife . idk z #basically avila himself gives me the ick but also i want to climb inside his brain and figure out why he is the way he is #my thoughts #bcs sickness is making me so crazy its making me watch the actor’s other projects #im still rewatching brba rn too……..#also another complaint why does he do these things in public doesnt he have neighbours isnt anyone gonna wonder why he’s burning #a motorcycle in his front yard #maybe its the culture difference.. maybe things work differently there..

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noxtivagus · 2 years

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NO THOUGHTS ONLY SHADOWBRINGERS HFALKDSJFASLKD

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ]#sorry my head is like . ffxiv. yes. empty. just ffxiv.#i love love love love themes w like. apocalypses? the world ending wtvr yk. HDLFKAJDLFKS.. SHADOWBRINGERS. IS. SO.#okay i cld ramble on n on about each of the expansions n they're all equally special to me but i want to ramble about shb rn #i started ffxiv during shadowbringers so the expansion is. yeah. YEAH 🥹#emet-selch.. he's srs my favorite antag ever. maybe hermes too if he counts idk but they're not necessarily cruel 'villains'#they're so human they're so goddamn human n it touches me so much i love them they own my heart #listening to ffxiv ost just gets me like this thank you soken thank you to the ffxiv team i love you guys so much thank you thank you #eulmore ost w. pain in pleasure & indulgence & masquerade. THE DEVELOPMENT FROM THE START OF THE GAME TO ENDGAME #IS SO GOOD. I LOVE IT. n then grr i love songs w yk the waltz yk or rlly just stuff like this so much it's just so pleasing to my ears #it sounds like heaven. n then. the scenarios it brings in my mind! i love fantasy worlds so much they mean so much to me #huh. realizing once more i rlly like a lot of charas that end up destroying the world one way or another. or wanted to or smth #sephiroth. lucilius. n yh emet-selch & hermes as i mentioned.#i cld ramble on so much abt emet-selch oh dear help me i'm still not over the 'angel of truth' thing n then. azemet T_T #azemet srs is like my otp. or uh. idk a lot of ff pairing r my otps #AZEMET. THE ANGST. hdfjasdlkf emet w azem n hyth hehe his friends r so. chaotic canonically. emet probably doesn't look the part w #idk bcs he looks so grumpy n old lol but he's rlly so kind at heart 🥺 i'm sorry i'm head over heels he's so ugly /lh i love him #ffxiv ost just has this. oh my god. it's so good. it fits so much w just every aspect in the whole game n i'm not exaggerating at all #when i say i know them all so well by heart. i could ramble for hours n days on each song in the whole game n what they mean to me #i love. ffxiv so much. the recurring themes n the way they tie stuff up together is just smth i've always loved nn #ffxiv's story was smth i looked for my whole life before finding out abt the game? idk the game rlly just means so much to me #one day. one day i'll create something of my own. smth like what ffxiv means to me but.. smth entirely my own.#goddamn i'm genuinely still very anxious n nervous abt the future. n like this year yh but. i'm even more excited.#i want to do a lot i. i want to reach out to tomorrow. i want to reach my dreams!!!! i'll reach. even further. forge ahead #help it's 1 am wnvr it's later into the night i usually end up rambling like this huh.#don't mine me i rlly just like writing n i talk to myself often 😭 i'm a bit tired for other stuff tonight but.#thinking of. stories or wtvr just refreshing my mind. i love ffxiv so much :<< all these stories mean so much to me..#yk what i'll just do more tmrrw i just want to take this time rn for myself #hdjfaklsdf i love music. n video games. n stories n idk just all of it just HDLFKAJSDLF.. i'm so in love w them all i just appreciate it sm

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szczek · 2 years

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i have never felt this much angry i’m tearing up and want to murder my dad

#how dare he say that to me #all i’ve been doing these past two weeks was declittering the house #i have cleaned out the entire bathroom and the goddamn kitchen so that theres space and everything has its own place #and there’s no expired things #and now there is an actual space to put groceries inside #and today i wanted to do the komoda in our dining room which btw doubles as his home office but also is on the middle of the goddamn house s #so you Have to go through it to go anywhere right #and he just asked if i’m finishing the cleanup now so i sad No cause i work 6 more hours - so after work #and he has the halls to get mad at me that i half as stuff and that the vacuum will be out here for the next two days cause i won’t do it #and that i left a crystal vase on the dining table for two weeks now and haven’t touched it like I DONT HAVE THE TIME TO DO EVEYTHING ALL AT #once okay!!! i will do it don’t talk to me like that #and going back to the dining room being his office it means every flat space is covered with his documents and i mean every #it’s the messiest shot ever cause he doesn’t think to keep it clean #and i’m the one that makes the mess #and now he tells me not to throw things cause i put down the remote loudly like i will do as i freaking please cause i’m furious and he has #ruined my good mood #all he has done after me cleaning is be mad that he can’t find things like i haven’t moved anything nowhere he just doesn’t even bother to #search if he doesn’t see smth immediately he gets mad and says we always hide stuff from him to annoy him #absolutely no gratitude from either of my parents i hate it here more often than not

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