#Honestly this feels unreal to discuss too heh

[chaoticcutiewhirl]

Honestly, we don't know what may have caused us to be us, to be like a book, I guess. Sylvia would be better at explaining it, but life feels like one of those greek stories of smaller stories that connect, we felt aware of each other for a long time, been questioning it for 2 or 3 years and it inly recently broke open. Rowan believes we are very much trauma related, but it's hard to recall for the whole group on memory from when we were young, but the body definitely doesn't feel like it's our own. Crippling fear and paranoia has been a constant feeling we have had, Transphobia and Homophobia keeps us fron transitioning until we can leave the house we live in, and generally we are very sick a lot of the time with the medical care system often being of less help. Avarstia and Rowan are kinda both guardians, more logically driven and always observation on the mind, just one has the words while the other has action. Me and Sylvia are like emotional avalible, like friends we never really had, being left alone without anyone but ourselves most of the time leaving for us to be more creative and heh. Katelyn is the newest, and I guess could be seeking normalcy to hide within even if she hates fronting. Just guesses as we feel the need to justify given even though we all feel distinct, we feel like this is a trick on ourselves even if it is just me and Sylvia like this. The loneliness and fear have lessened, but it feels unreal ever still given now we are likely we.

-🌵 Lucinda (She/Her Bunny :3)

I just desperately want more recognition of traumagenic experiences that lie outside of the usual "childhood abuse" assumption that everyone forces on that label. what about trauma from bullying? what about trauma from undiagnosed illnesses? what about trauma from queer experiences like transphobia? what about trauma from medical experiences like surgeries, hospitalizations, psych wards, and other areas where the medical field failed you? what about trauma from eating disorders? what about trauma from racism?

there are so many experiences that can fall under traumagenic, but are yet swept under a rug in favor of a strict, stereotypical narrative that's easier to comprehend. I think we as a community need to make an active effort to expand our understanding of traumagenic, especially where it may overlap with experiences traditionally considered endogenic, and understand that trauma can come in so many different forms. so often people are shunned for trying to create roles and labels that describe their specific traumagenic experiences, and I don't understand why. there can be no progress towards acceptance for all systems if we don't accept that traumagenic is an umbrella label too.