#I WAS HAVING A MOMENT

[yunvind]

if u dont know the me lore i broke my apple pencil and I CANT FUCKING RENDER!!!! IM ENRAGED!!!!! IM FURIOUS!!!!!!!! so heres some old art bc i need to feel good abt myself.ashe bradley witchs heart lets go brother

[hhardegree]

the funniest video i have from tit atlanta. i genuinely can't remember if that's me screaming or not i blacked out

[an-albino-pinetree]

I would like do anything for carnival jax he just so AUGHHH man pull coded like THE WAY YOU DRAW HIM MADE ME GIGGLE ALOT

Hmmmm~ Get back to me on that one. ⛓️

[beebopboom]

i don’t know why it didn’t register till now that when Aziraphale goes to the Resurrectionist pub the guys that works there refers to Gabriel and Beelzebub as masons, as in freemasons, and that there is a lodge next door (probably because i don’t know a lot about them - and i still don’t. Just did like a basic google search but just saying it might be worth it to look into it more)

and it got me thinking about the sign out front that has Jesus on one side and Mr. Dalrymple on the other and how maybe it is for both the pub and the lodge - a kind of duality where both men deem a resurrectionist one celebrated the other condemned for their actions - the parallels between them and maybe a look into how Jesus is going to act next season and his moral standing

perhaps the lodge is symbolizing Heaven and the pub is symbolizing Hell - could be another way to look at it

so it’s interesting they ended up back in the pub together - learning that things aren’t so black and white and they have in common than they think - in the same place doing the same thing Aziraphale and Crowley did years (centuries) before

[lunapwrites]

I've done a couple of readings recently, trying to get some kind of footing on this unsteady ground we're all finding ourselves on currently, and which I haven't shared here - partially because I haven't had time to dissect them like I normally do. But today I felt moved to take it a step further, and rather than asking myself a broad question, I shot higher and asked Brigid what I should do.

For Bean, specifically.

(While I'm typically agnostic at best, I've had a few conversations with friends about deity work recently, and it felt right in this instance. I won't say more about it than that for now.)

Now, for context, I need to set the scene. It's 7am, a week after I found out that we just voted a dictator back into office - something which I had stupidly thought was a near impossibility, given everything. I'm watching my daughter sleep. I'm listening to a music league playlist, and Running Up That Hill (the Placebo cover) is playing. And that's when I shoot the question, and I draw.

Well, alright then.

I cannot tell you how many times I've seen the Ten of Swords since last week. Betrayal - that's been the theme, and I feel like that accurately encapsulates my feelings right now. My country, my people, my own family let me down. Let my daughter down. And I'm in a world of hurt over it - and more than a little angry. Looking further, Ten of Swords represents an end, and that's exactly what this is. It's done. We can't go back. For better or worse, the status quo is dead.

Ten of Pentacles reminds me where my strength is: my partner, and the home we've built. In other decks, this card is represented in less bucolic terms, recalling more of a fortress. Coupled with the suit, it speaks of security. But this deck is less financially-minded, focusing instead on the human element - a reminder that I have a village to lean on. That Bean will have more than just her parents in her life that she will be able to turn to, and trust.

Nine of Wands: resilience. That's going to be the key word over the coming weeks, months, and years. It's going to be hard. Jesus fuck is it going to be hard. But we've got to keep going, and we've got to hold on, and we've got to stand against what's coming. Even if that doesn't look like open rebellion - even if it's just showing my kid in every way I can that she matters. Being in her corner every step of the way, because God knows the world isn't. Especially not now. A little reminder to brace myself.

To that end, the Knight of Cups suggests gentleness. Creativity, and kindness, and beauty - little rays of goodness to light the way. A reminder to show her those things exist too (and to remind myself for that matter.)

Finally, Death - endings again, but in a transformative sense. It's neither a positive or a negative in this context, more a reminder to adapt. Adapt and overcome seems to be the overarching message here: survive, and outlive this, and see that she does too. That's it - that's all I can do. That's all any of us can do, really.

Survive.

[riversideeeblr]

this fucking video i made two months ago

[whathasangramainyudonewrong]

Wrong #886

Threw one of his blades at a wall out of frustration and the freaking thing bounced and got him in the hip

Can’t tell if he’s screaming because of the pain or just because he’s even more pissed off than he was earlier

Possibly even both

[ratinacoat]

if the hate isn't damaging to u then why are u on yr sideblog posting about wanting 2 kys 😭😭 get real bruh

Hate didn't cause that lmao, I have real life issues and rant online where I don't have real life issues

[yes-i-am-happyaspie]

Me: man, I would pay money just to have someone rub back

Also Me: Well yes, dumbass. That's how massages work...

[cypreus-and-willow]

February and March in Review

February

Week 1

Finished all Digimon Survive Week prompts

Posted new chapter for Just wanna hold your hand

Week 2

Finished sketching and inked 90s Boyband Survive

Ready for colour

(these colours are what I have planned) I was thinking graphic markers but I suck at graphic markers so we'll see (its now April and Ive decided: its graphic markers)

Week 3

Posted Shuuji’s chapter in An Exercise in Empathy

March

We were already in the middle of March before I realised it wasn't February anymore.

I was supposed to give myself a week long break but its turned into a month and a half. Anyway, things happened. Ive been busy and will continue to be busy going to the 5th wedding this year because all my friends are getting married and for some reason they want me in the wedding either to set up/decorate the venue or like… as a door lady.

So for a whole month (other than sorting out real life problems) Ive been lying in bed like a vegetable overthinking. Which is dangerous but also fricking hilarious (to me anyway).

TLDR; had an existential crisis and stopped functioning for a month

[prettygirlgerard]

throwback to that first hour on August 24th 2022 when that article dropped and we first learned about Marina Toybina

[automaticllamacycle]

I know I said I wasn’t going to talk about Jeremy allen white on here but I AM A LIAR SO LET ME HAVE ONE POST

YES CHEF ANYTHING YOU WANT CHEF. WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE A DILF WITH TWO KIDS ITS SO SICK AND TWISTED

[noraigo]

aziraphale and crowley as songs:

(all songs are listed below the lyrics, enjoy.)

"i've known a different kind of love,

the kind that makes you whole,

a place where roots have grown."

a different kind of love — ghostly kisses

"if i could go back to a time before now,

before i ever fell down,

go back to a time when i was just a girl,

when i had the entire world

wrapped around me."

a lot's gonna change — weyes blood

"so i'll wait for you, love,

and i'll burn.

will i ever see your sweet return?

oh, will i ever learn?

oh-oh, lover, you should've come over."

lover, you should've come over — jeff buckley

"you loved me for a moment,

you did,

and i die to stay here.

i can still taste

the memory of you on my tongue."

ascension — sarah kinsley

"there's a place inside my mind

where you and i can dance.

endlessly, you hold on to me

and for the first time in a long time,

i'm, i am whole."

the end. — november ultra

[togrowoldinv]

Yessss

[techolas-deck]

some nights, there is a strangely familiar irony to how poetry about grief is a comfort to me.

grief is sadness and anger and pain and stress and numbness and acceptance and

hope

and somehow

amidst all the chaos of it all

there is love.

i am not grieving tonight. but i am loving. loving the few i call friends because they are teaching me to be loved.

teaching me to hope

and maybe

maybe that’s why it’s so comforting

[clingyduoapologist]

I'M SORRY OK NO MORE STAR WARS POSTING