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I’m sure this has been talked about before but the health system in Disco Elysium is so good at portraying Harry’s physical and emotional state. Like yeah, looking at bullet holes in a wall can give you a heart attack. Someone not liking you poem can cause a complete mental break. None of these things on their own will kill you, but your mental and physical state is so fragile that any one of them can be the final straw. The health system and the story convey what a mess Harry is in complimentary ways and it’s fucking awesome
And if something would actually kill or seriously maim you? The health system doesn’t get involved. You just die or get seriously maimed. You antagonize someone until they shoot you? Doesn’t matter how much medicine you have. Get shot in the leg? Yeah that’s gonna stick no matter how high your health is.
And of course the way that both low morale and low health can kill you- and the way that their mechanics are basically the same- shows Harry’s state as well. His mental and physical health are separate, but both can end his career and both are endangered every time he talks to someone or does anything even slightly dangerous.
In most video games, health functions to give you a second chance. Instead of dying outright from a bullet, you just lose health. Disco Elysium is the opposite. You will die outright from things that would kill you, and also if you aren’t keeping an eye on things you can die from the embarrassment of failing to make a jump! The health system is a way of emphasizing your fragility, not your strength. It’s super coo!!
#disco elysium#de#harry du bois#harrier du bois#I died to bad poetry and looking at a wall in my first playthrough….#and to failing to make a jump…#I also antagized someone until they shot me…#I’m bad at video games#my first playthrough I was worried taking money and medicine from containers would make Kim not like me cause it was stealing
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Danganronpa tier listttttt
Idk if people know how I feel about these characters, so here ya go! This is my opinion, please don’t attack me for this (also I only did this for the mainline games and Komaru + the Warriors of Hope)
...Also I wanted to go into detail on some of these so yeah Warning: it does get pretty rambly
S tier
...I don’t really feel like I need to explain any of these. MOVING ON
A tier
Chiaki Nanami Please don’t kill me for not putting her in S. I can explain, I promise Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely adore her and love her relationship with Hajime, but I didn’t really get as attached to her as I did with other characters. I still love her though
Fuyuhiko Kuzuryu He has one of the best character arcs in the series, only JUST being outranked by Shuichi. Seriously, best SDR2 survivor, hands DOWN.
Ultimate Imposter Yep. Fake Togami outranks actual Togami by miles. YEAH I SAID IT! Idk, I found them a lot more interesting and likeable than Togami and it was a real shame they got killed off so early. They were pretty fun.
Ryoma Hoshi ...Do I even need to explain why he ranked so high? Like, come ON! He’s one of the most underrated characters in the franchise!
Hajime Hinata 3rd best protag for me (yes I’m counting Kaede shut up), but I still love his arc.
Kiyotaka Ishimaru He was my fave from the first game for a while, but the Kiyondo stuff kinda brought him down for me. And ngl, at times it feels like people only judge him based on his friendship with Mondo. I still love him though.
Mondo Owada Chapter 2. Need I say more. He’s a pretty cool character outside of that, too.
Komaru Naegi Just copy-paste my reason for Ryoma, it’s practically the same.
Nagisa Shingetsu Best Warrior of Hope. Hands down. I will die on this hill.
Kotoko Utsugi Despite being beaten out by Nagisa, I still adore her. She deserves the best.
B tier
Maki Harukawa Okay don’t get me wrong, I like her as a character, but the main problem I had was that her crush on Kaito kinda came out of left field for me. Like, she was a stoic unfeeling assassin and she suddenly fell head over heels for some astronaut that knocked on her door a few times. It feels pretty rushed (though knowing Tsumugi it probably was) and kinda brings her down a few pegs for me.
Korekiyo Shinguji “Why is he ranked so high!? He’s the freaky incest guy-” SHUT UP. Yes, his character was absolutely obliterated by the incest twist, but outside of that he is actually a pretty compelling character. (also if you look into his writing it’s pretty heavily implied that his sister used and abused him so judging him based on the incest thing alone is kinda odd ngl)
Ibuki Mioda She’s pretty fun. I’m not as head-over-heels for her as other people, but she’s pretty fun.
Celestia Ludenberg See, Ouma stans? THIS is how you do a compelling liar character!
Peko Pekoyama Please don’t kill me. It’s just that outside of Fuyuhiko she kinda felt......Eh? Like don’t get me wrong, I like her, but something always felt missing for me.
Nagito Komaeda My favourite antag didn’t even make A tier whoops- Yeah, Nagito is the best rival for me, but I’m not as head-over-heels for him as the rest of the fandom is.
Leon Kuwata PLAY HIS FREE TIME EVENTS.
Kiibo The “that’s robophobic!” joke kinda got old after the billionth time, but other than that he’s fun.
Aoi Asahina Her development is cool, but I don’t really have much to say on her honestly.
Sonia Nevermind Same reason as Aoi, but her relationship with Gundham is pretty cute.
Jataro Kemuri This kid deserves better and needs protection. ...I don’t have much other than that, though.
Monaca Towa This is gonna be controversial, but Monaca is the best villain of the franchise for me. Sure, she’s far from being one of my favourite characters, but she’s menacing and enough of a threat to be a great antagonist.
C tier
Kyoko Kirigiri Please don’t kill me. Like...She’s okay, but for a while I found her kinda......Dull? Idk what to say here.
Makoto Naegi He’s alright, but he’s the weakest protagonist for me.
Tsumugi Shirogane I think people are gonna agree with me the most on this. She’s a decent villain, but the "plainy plainy plain” stuff got REALLY old. (which is partially why I rewrote her entirely in DFTH oops) She’s better than Junko by a long shot, so at least she has that.
Kirumi Tojo She was okay until the nonsensical prime minister twist. Seriously, I detest that twist.
Angie Yonaga ...I don’t really have much to say on her. Like the Atua stuff got pretty old and I found her kinda annoying, but she has enough to put her above the characters I don’t like.
Mahiru Koizumi She kinda felt like a better Tenko, but...Uh...
Teruteru Hanamura Yeah, I don’t outright dislike Teruteru. Shocking, I know. His backstory and the stuff with his mom is charming enough, but the perverted stuff still kinda icks me out. It’s not as bad as Miu’s, though.
Genocider Syo She’s more interesting than Toko, but still not really that much there other than “serial killer that somehow got accepted into this academy but don’t think about that look how quirky she is!!”
Tenko Chabashira Similar to Angie. But the way she drooled over and chased after Himiko was kinda eeeh for me. Not as bad as Souda though, thank god
D tier
Byakuya Togami God, he’s such an asshole. Sure his development and the stuff he does is interesting, but GOD HE’S SUCH AN ASSHOLE.
Akane Owari She’s the most “why the hell are you still here” out of the survivors for me. Like, I don’t outright hate her, but a lot of the time it kinda feels to me like she’s only there for fanservice. (seriously, in one of her sprites she’s literally flashing you. Do I need to say anything else?)
Himiko Yumeno Yeah, she’s also pretty weak for me. Her development post chapter 3 was okay I guess, but it kinda felt too little too late.
Toko Fukawa Ugh. Sure, I don’t really like Togami, but the way she drools over him is gross. Sure she’s somewhat redeemed by her development in UDG, but other than that she doesn’t really offer much.
Yasuhiro Hagakure Didn’t really felt like he offered much other than “blatant comic relief who’s probably a stoner”.
Masaru Daimon The weakest out of the Warriors of Hope by a long shot. Sure, his backstory’s pretty sad, but his personality kinda grated on me, ngl.
Kokichi Ouma PLEASE DON’T KILL ME. Like, everyone hails him as the best written character of the series, but if you look closer into his writing it’s actually pretty bad. Not to mention the stans constantly excusing his actions because “uwu liar boy who’s gay for Shuichi” REALLY brings him down.
E tier
Kazuichi Souda He’s literally all the things people hate about Teruteru, but the fandom barely calls him out for it! Hooray!
Miu Iruma She’s basically just there for NSFW jokes. Need I say more. Also, why is no-one else talking about how problematic the maintenance scene was?
Nekomaru Nidai He’s basically just there for shit jokes. And that really got old for me.
Sayaka Maizono OKAY PLEASE PUT YOUR PITCHFORKS DOWN AND HEAR ME OUT! Look, I’m not gonna deny she was kinda cute, but what she pulled in chapter 1 was honestly really fucking snakey. “But she didn’t know about the class trial stuff!” So what? She was willing to use practically the only person in the academy she was close to as a fall guy so she could get away with murder and didn’t even bat an eye! Even if the trial stuff didn’t happen and she DID get away with killing Leon, did she really think everyone would be okay with it? Hell, did she even CONSIDER how Makoto felt!? Sayaka is a fucking snake! She literally USED Makoto!!! WHY IS NO-ONE CALLING HER OUT!?!?
F tier
Junko Enoshima ...Do I even need to explain this.
Mikan Tsumiki I really didn’t like her, even BEFORE chapter 3. Yeah, I said it. She kinda got on my nerves and the fact that they were playing her up for fanservice despite her backstory was really gross, and chapter 3 just made everything so much worse. Like, her getting her memories back and killing someone could’ve worked, JUST MAKE HER PLAN MAKE SENSE!
Hiyoko Saionji She’s just a fucking bully. Do I really need to elaborate?
Hifumi Yamada ...Again. Do I REALLY NEED TO EXPLAIN THIS!?
#tier list#danganronpa#drv3#sdr2#trigger happy havoc#rantaro amami#gundham tanaka#chihiro fujisaki#gonta gokuhara#kaede akamatsu#kaito momota#shuichi saihara#sakura ogami#mukuro ikusaba#chiaki nanami#fuyuhiko kuzuryu#ultimate imposter#byakuya twogami#ryoma hoshi#hajime hinata#kiyotaka ishimaru#mondo owada#komaru naegi#nagisa shingetsu#kotoko utsugi#maki harukawa#korekiyo shinguji#ibuki mioda#peko pekoyama#nagito komaeda
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I never realized how much I needed antag reader until I read them on your blog (which I love btw you're so good it's insane) I'm really curious of what pre-game antag reader was like, so could I request for pre-game antag reader before remnants of despair and how she interacts with her fellow classmates and Hajime (reserve course Hajime needs a hug). Thanks!!
i love this :)))) thank you so much for asking this nonny
Request for: Hajime Hinata (and the class ig but we all know who the focus is on this series) Warnings: god complex, antag reader tings (bullying) ~~~
Headcanons:
🐇Honestly I feel like it’d be more interesting if this was for V3 but this is still epic 🐇I think she’s still kind of an asshole but not so much as she is in-game 🐇Definitely a cocky person too 🐇Just like really teasing and annoying like Hiyoko but with a God complex 🐇”God, Mikan, we get it, you tripped. What else is new, bitch?” 🐇I feel like in-game she would help Nagito plan his bs just for funsies 🐇Pregame she’d probably do anything she could to keep Nagito around cuz he literally worships her and the others 🐇So he’s her widdle servant who she sometimes makes get her things from vending machines and talk to people she doesn’t want to 🐇Open about her talent cuz she sees it as incredible and better-than-the-others 🐇Unlike in-game where she lied about it and hid it for fun 🐇Actually though? She probably has actual friends in pregame 🐇And probably even somewhat befriended Hajime with Chiaki 🐇Just can’t stand people like Hajime who have NO confidence (even Nagito to an extent), she thinks it’s kinda annoying lmao 🐇^Says the bitch who’ll cry if you point out she said something wrong
Stories:
“Lady (Y/n),” Nagito grinned, extending his hand and offering her a can of soda, “I got way too many on accident, would you like one? Even though my dirty hands have already soiled it.”
Already taking the can from her classmate, (Y/n) quirked a brow at him, “Did you clear out the machine, again?”
“Aha,” he awkwardly chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck, “Lucky me, I suppose.”
“Quite,” the girl kicked her feet up and onto her desk, “Unfortunate for everyone else then.”
“It is,” Nagito nodded glumly, settling back into his seat beside her, “Such refreshing beverages shouldn’t have been wasted on me.”
“God, I swear, you and Hajime both need to have more confidence,” grumbling, (Y/n) rolled her eyes and set the can down on her desk, “I like when you dote on me and all - because I deserve it, obviously.”
“Obviously,” Nagito nodded.
“Obviously, but you need to believe in yourself more, you’re a human being and you deserve love,” she shrugged, “Even Reserve Course students and they’re- “
“Useless to hope?”
“Exactly,” (Y/n) giggled, patting Nagito’s shoulder, “You get it.”
“You touched me… scum like me was- “
“Shush.”
“Right, sorry.”
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“It’s just… a lot of work…” Hajime huffed, running a hand through his hair, “Not to bother you two with my problems, I’m sure being in the Main Course is more difficult.”
“Not really,” Chiaki mumbled, face practically buried in her handheld with (Y/n) resting her head on the gamer’s shoulder, “I kinda wish it was harder. The main classes are optional and the only required class segment is when we’re honing our talents. It’s kinda boring.”
“Speak for yourself,” (Y/n) closed her eyes, kicking a leg up and over the other to a cross and patting down her skirt, “As the Ultimate Copycat, I have countless abilities to hone in such a short time frame,” her lips crept up into a sick smirk, “But, of course, I manage it all. Naturally.”
Hajime sighed, “As much as I’d love to debate you on that, I’m sure it’s true. Even though all you really do is steal other people’s talents…”
“Excuse you?!” in an instant, (Y/n) shot up from the bench and into a stand in front of Hajime, brows furrowed and hand reaching at his uniform tie, tugging it harshly, “I can do whatever I want at the Ultimate level! I’m practically the best person here!”
“Then who’s the best?” Hajime scoffed, grabbing the girl’s hand and attempting to pry her fingers off his tie, to no avail.
She gripped it harder, tugging again, “Me but in senior year when I’ve only gotten better at my mastered talents, and don’t you forget it, Reserve Course dog.”
“C’mon, (Y/n),” Chiaki spoke between the couple’s fighting, “He’s your friend, don’t be mean.”
“She’s mean to everyone…” Hajime finally succeeded at pulling the girl’s fingers off of his tie, shoving at her hands, “Even her so-called friends.”
“Hey, I’m inspiring, aren’t I? You wanna be like me? Or at least as close as you possibly could to someone as wonderful as me, yeah?”
“No, you just make me sad that God allowed such a big ego in such a tiny heart.”
“Ego’s the brain, dipshit.”
Chiaki sighed quietly, shaking her head and refocusing on her game, knowing it’d be another few hours until they even came close to settling the argument.
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“Miss Sonia and Miss (Y/n) - together? I’m dreaming, aren’t I?” Kazuichi felt his body heat up at his own observation.
“He’s staring again, isn’t he?” Sonia placed her chin in the palm of her hand.
(Y/n) nodded, also settling her chin in the palm of her head, “Do you want me to say something to the bastard?”
“No, no,” the blond princess shook her head, “I’m afraid that saying something would only worsen his fixation.”
“How disappointing… say, you’re close with Tanaka, correct?” at the other girl’s nod, she continued, “Maybe you should introduce us sometime. He could teach me a thing or two of his ‘dark arts’; a spell to curse Kazuichi’s eyes into flames if he so much as looks at us.”
“My, (Y/n), that’s wonderfully dark, how did you come up with that?”
“Book Nagito wanted me to read, speaking of which, if you ever need suggestions you should go to him. He’s an excellent reader with incredible tastes.”
Sonia nodded, “I will certainly keep that in mind, then!”
“They’re so cute when they talk to each other, don’t you think?” Kazuichi held his chest over where his heart beat into his ribs.
“No, you’re fucking gross,” Fuyuhiko waved off, “Don’t talk to me.”
~~
“Hajime, you’re clueless.”
“Huh?!”
“You’re clueless if you think you need an Ultimate to be Chiaki’s friend, she adores you the way you are.”
“It’s not just Chiaki… it’s you too, (Y/n)...”
“What?”
“You’re always talking about how you’re so amazing and that Ultimate talents are necessary to be so great, it’s- I just- I want to be someone you and Chiaki can be proud to be around!”
“Hajime…”
Silence. And then, the floodgates broke open.
“Hajime, you don’t need an Ultimate to be someone I’m proud to be around. You’re intelligent, which is more than I can say for most people. You’re kind and caring when you want to be and it shows in who you are. You’re unabashedly yourself and that’s what makes you worthy of being my friend. Sure, Main Course students are objectively better than Reserve Course but you know why exceptions exist, right? It’s for you and others like you. As far as I’m concerned, you’re incredible.”
“But not to your level…?”
“No, but don’t feel bad, nobody’s at my level.”
#sdr2 x reader#hajime hinata x reader#hajime x reader#nagito komaeda x reader#nagito x reader#sonia nevermind x reader#chiaki nanami x reader#now someone ask me about despair arc. i would literally kiss you#or i wouldn’t. depends on your comfort level with that joke#but please do ask me about despair arc#antag reader
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fresh paint 一 danganronpa oneshot
𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒: byakuya moves in with nagito and kokichi, and realizes it may not be as bad as he originally thought. THIS IS NOT THE FULL ONE SHOT.
𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐑𝐄: fluff
𝐓𝐖: none
From the moment that Byakuya Togami stepped into his new home, the sun peeking in through the windows, he knew he'd never find another moment of peace in his life. He'd never feel real happiness again, and all chances & hopes of becoming a better person quickly diminished. He would never feel content as long as he lived inside these restricting walls.
Okay, maybe he was being dramatic. He had bought the house, after all, and he wouldn't have done so in the first place if he hadn't been 100% sure that he was ready to accept any & all consequences that came with the purchase.
A small boy with purple hair shot past him, cheering & whooping as he danced around the empty house. "This house is mine! I rule over everyone here!" he chanted over and over again, laughing maniacally.
Byakuya sighed. Nope, he didn't think he was being dramatic at all. Kokichi Oma was the most annoying person he had ever met, & now here he was, living with him. Why did he ever agree to do this? Because he wanted so badly to be under the same roof as the boys? Seemed unlikely, but he wasn't going to dwell on it any longer.
Nagito Komaeda walked in after Kokichi, holding a big, brown box in his hands that was labeled Kitchen & Living Room (⅓). He smiled sheepishly at the shorter boy hopping around, walking over to the island and placing the box down on top of it. He inhaled the scent of the new house and turned to Byakuya. "Heh, I still can't believe you agreed to this. We thought you were going to shut us down on the idea almost automatically."
Byakuya shook his head, flabbergasted. Why did Kokichi have so much energy, and why did he feel like it'd conveniently drain right when the time came to unpack? "I'm starting to think I should've. I'm already getting a migraine." Nagito laughed softly, and the two made their way back outside to the moving van to retrieve more boxes while Kokichi hummed loudly to himself as he frolicked aimlessly around the house.
During that period of time, Byakuya allowed his mind to wander. He hadn't expected for himself to agree to such a foolish proposal so easily. Obviously both Nagito & Kokichi hadn't expected the sudden approval either, for their mouths were on the ground when they realized that the Byakuya Togami had actually decided to go along with their usual "brain-shrinking" plans.
It had slipped out of Byakuya's mouth before he could even blink. The idea of living with Kokichi and Nagito, despite having been friends with them for a good amount of time, was foreign to the heir. In fact, even living with someone sounded absurd to Byakuya. He only needed himself and himself only, or so he thought. Yet, his sudden agreement came so quickly that it had to have meant something. Byakuya wasn't normally impulsive; he did everything with practiced precision. So an abrupt answer that he didn't back down on even after how shocked he was...it meant he was progressing as a person, as a friend. Somewhere. Somehow.
Oddly enough, that was comforting.
During their fifth trip to the house (the boxes were surprisingly heavy), Kokichi waddled up to them and pointed down the hall towards the rooms. "We still have to pick out our rooms! Who's claiming the biggest one?"
"Me, obviously," Byakuya replied, tone as cold as ice. "I bought this house." Kokichi mocked him, raising his hand and opening & closing his fingers together every time the heir spoke, like a sock puppet but without the sock.
"You probably just got it handed to you," he replied teasingly. "Fine, then I get the second biggest room!"
"The other rooms are all the same size." Byakuya's comment made Kokichi huff, while Nagito lightened up a little bit, almost as if he was dreading being told he was going to get the smallest room. Byakuya didn't doubt it.
"Could you help with the boxes, Kokichi?" Nagito asked, taking off his parka and tying it around his waist, wiping the back of his hand over his forehead with a long sigh. Byakuya had to hand it to him; he too had discarded his overcoat. The boxes were harder to carry than he originally believed, and his muscles already felt strained. He was so used to people doing things for him that being independent now all of a sudden was exhausting. Kokichi groaned.
"Do I have to? I'm feeling tired," he asked, laying down on the floor and pretending to fall asleep. Byakuya was right. Kokichi had energy until it was actually needed. Nagito sighed, walking back out of the house. Byakuya chose not to press the matter, instead shooting the purple haired boy a glare and following Nagito out. He heard another loud groan, and then the pitter-patter of footsteps. "Guys, it was a lie! I'm not actually tired. I can help just fine."
Kokichi joined the expedition to get the boxes inside. Within one hour, they had made all their trips, and they were close to death by the time they were finished. Even the water they drank didn't cool the sensation of heat licking at their bodies every time they stepped outside. And when Nagito reminded the two other boys that they still had to unpack everything, Byakuya decided to hire people to do it for them.
note: well, i hope you liked this small excuse of a post! i absolutely adore all three antagonists (emphasis on togami), and i thought this AU i thought of randomly was the cutest thing ever. if you don't understand really what's happening, or if you would like to know more, let me go more into detail for you!
i'm writing an antag AU that will be posted to AO3 soon. the three main antagonists (byakuya, nagito, & kokichi) move into a house for literally no reason other than they want to. along the way, they grow closer, have fun, & most importantly, develop as people and as friends. it's all just lots of fluff and chaos, and i wanted to write it because i couldn't stop imagining the power they have as friends. there will also be naegami, saioma, and komahina every so often bc i said so :)
they can also be read as standalone oneshots, which is why i'll be posting snippets of the chapter i'm working on every now and then. it's not out yet, but it will be by the end of the week, and i'll be sure to post about it as soon as i can!
i am open to critique, as long as you are not too harsh. thanks for reading! <3
UPDATE: it's out! read it here :)
#danganronpa#anime#byakuya#byakuya togami#danganronpa headcanons#danganronpa trigger happy havoc#headcanons#danganronpa thh#au#danganronpa antagonists#antagonists#danganronpa antags#kokichi ouma#kokichi#kokichi oma#nagito#nagito komaeda#komahina#naegami#saiouma#oumasai
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48 for Sir Fitz cause that barbarian reveal still got me shook abit.
48) rampage
A/N: i’m calling this a “semi-canonical one-shot” bc, while i love this concept and want so badly to write taz grad fics, i also just don’t have enough information yet to completely draw from canon, so forgive me if i make some stuff up omg. also yes i had to make rolandus the antag bc he’s the one asshole we got so far!!!!
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Fitzroy wasn’t usually like this.
He was Sir Fitzroy Maplecourt, for god’s sake! He didn’t... he didn’t do stuff like this.
He almost could convince himself that he didn’t, that this was all some horrible mistake. He was just... being framed and (once again) the world was playing some cruel trick on him.
But it was hard to argue with the blood on his hands, smudged on his finger tips and dripping off his knuckles—his own and someone else’s—and barely concealing the ugly red and purple bruising littering his knuckles.
It was hard to argue with Rolandus Fontaine, brusied and bloodied, scrambling back across the courtyard, his face caught between a look of horror and rage as Rhodes and Zhena rushed to his side. They were saying something, shouting something, but, just for a moment, Fitzroy could not hear them.
Instead, just for a moment, in this trance, he was amazed at the damage caused. He usually dealt in swords; that was the knight’s way, of course. Take the man out of Clyde Nite’s Night Knight School, but can’t take the Clyde Nite’s Night Knight School out of the man. Swords were cleaner, if you could think of it that way. A single cut, a slash of blood. Hands and knuckles- they were messy. Room for hurt on both sides, room for bruising and ugly splotching that lasted for too long.
For just a moment, all Fitzroy worried about was the drop of blood that was free-falling from his knuckle, heading straight for his shoe.
The blood splattered, and then, the moment passed.
Rolandus was shouting. “You monster!” His voice was soaring into the sky, reaching upwards to meet the beams of sunlight that came down. He was definitely loud enough to draw attention, if Fitzroy hadn’t done that for them already. “You fucking animal! Do you know what you have done? Who I am? I could have you thrown out of here! You think being put in the Annex was bad? Wait until people hear what you have-”
Bud’s arms were around him, and Fitzroy would’ve complained about the dirt and the leaves if Bud wasn’t almost hurting him with how tight his grip was and- oh, he was restraining him. “Enough.” Was he talking to Rolandus, or Fitzroy? “It is done.”
Argo was between them, both hands outstretched as if to keep Rolandus and his crew away from Fitzroy. Or maybe it was the opposite. Maybe Fitzroy was the one who needed to be kept at bay. “Come on, friends,” he was saying with a grin on his face, caught halfway between charming and scared shitless. “Surely- surely we can work this out, yes? No need to- just a simple misunderstanding, right? Nothing- no need to bring- surely we can fix- now, Fitzroy, please-”
Fitzroy felt like he was watching from behind a glasswall, as if he was a specimen put on display.
What was it he called himself once? A science experiment?
He had a feeling that this was not what Jimson meant.
He was tired. His knuckles hurt. His movements felt sluggish, like if he tried to speak, he’d crumble to the ground, and-
“Enough,” Bud said again, his grip tightening, and Fitzroy realized that, sometime during Rolandus’s shouting, he had tried to lunge for him again, legs flailing as his hands reached out, clawlike, in hopes of gripping his face again.
“Fuck being a villain or- or a henchman! He’s a fucking monster, is what he is! Shouldn’t even fucking be here-”
“Rolandus, Fitzroy, maybe we can come to- to an agreement? Talk things out, figure something-”
“It is done-”
Fitzroy realized that, in all his time worrying about being in the Annex, he hadn’t thought of his placement. In the back of his head, he always assumed that things would right themself, that it was all a mistake and he was meant to be a hero after all.
But—and another drop of blood fell from his knuckles—was this what people meant when they talked about villains and henchmen?
A ragged breath sucked its way down Fitzroy’s throat and a strangled sound, as if it was his first time ever speaking, came out of him.
“Stop!”
He couldn’t tell if it was meant for the crowd, or himself.
For just a moment, he wanted the world to hold still, to let his sluggish consciousness catch up with the ever-speeding world around him, but the moment never came.
#ngl i had a lot of fun writing this omg#taz graduation#sir fitzroy maplecourt#fitzroy maplecourt#taz graduation spoilers#stuff i write#answered#Anonymous
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HEAVENS’ role in UtaPri
First off hello friends and how are we today? Happy 4th to my friends in the States and have a safe one and to everyone else I hope you have a very lovely day So this post is a bit of an odd one because we are going to talk about HEAVENS. Now that in and of itself ISN’T “odd” because if you follow me on Youtube or Twitter you know pretty much that is one my big subjects I yap about when trying to play “Detective” to figuring out their backstories before we get the canon material. What is going to follow is me discussing their “role” or position in the UtaPri universe and how we should look at it going forward especially with their inclusion in Dolce Vita READY? GO!!!
So first off start this piece we have to discuss this HEAVENS started as an Antagonistic trio that was formed by Raging back in Season 2 (Maji Love 2000%). Back then they were the intended roadblock for STARISH to prevent them from winning the UtaPri award and it would be decided in what could only be determined as a “Winner take all” because the loser would have to disband if they lost the competition. Back then it made sense for STARISH to win especially once you see the OVA where QN would eventually confront their Juniors about challenging them. This comes to fruition as when we get to to “Revolutions” its the QN that would (originally) be chosen by Shining to represent his company. STARISH congratulated them but eventually decided they wanted to see if there was any way they could get a shot at being the group to rep Shining in what was called the “Triple S”. This brings us to an interesting point: What would HEAVENS’ role be IF they came back? Well... We know that in S2 they WERE Antags as a trio but the big question that started to form in my mind was “Are HEAVENS even Antagonists?” and this question would mull around for quite some time. To be honest its one I legitimately wrestle with because there is A LOT to say otherwise anymore and now when you hear “Rival/Antagonist” it doesn’t make sense (or at least to me) but that is what we are going to explore here See when you look at S3 you have a setup which really muddy the waters and the roles of what group plays what role in the story STARISH is the main group so people can look at them as the Protags...that’s fine! They have been there since the beginning so no one can look at them at this point and NOT see them like that HOWEVER One thing I thought about is would “Protagonists” try to basically c---block another group or would they be happy for them? Okay you could argue that for this story to make sense they HAD to because it was their “one chance” (the reason this is in quotes is coming up) to get the spot SO...what happens? Shining decided to put their will to the test and makes them do a “Cross-Unit” project (and even to this day I debate if its a “Proper C-U”) and if they did well enough they MIGHT get an opportunity to compete for it. What happens? Well we know what happened Originally Shining was going to be stubborn and refuse them even after their new group song was delivered to him. They got the spot because QN came in and went “HOLD UP!” and basically MADE Shining put them in! NOW...this is an interesting thing to see because what QN does SEEMS like a very “Heroic/Protagonist” thing to do BUT what happens after STARISH gets put in....eh we know at this point QN says that if they won they were going to take Haruka from STARISH which...this made no sense BECAUSE Haruka WORKS for the Agency that QN and STARISH work at! How in the hell does this work from a story perspective? Okay but here’s a better question: Who the hell is the “Protagonist” in this setup? Okay the obvious answer is STARISH because now they have to defend Haruka again AS WELL AS win the Triple S! The good news here is, at this point, from a story perspective you could have worked with QN winning and then STARISH picking up the pieces because...even though this op would be gone it might endear them to more people because now they are clawing and fighting their way back to the top and EVERYONE can root for them (and that might be the case now...never discussed that before to be honest). HOLD UP! At the Triple S HEAVENS returns after disappearing from their defeat at the UtaPri awards presenting a new roadblock but now they not only were the roadblock for STARISH but also QN...THIS WAS INTERESTING! When Season 3 ends on the cliffhanger no one knew how the contest would end so knowing who would be the winner (and also knowing Haruka’s fate) would have to wait over a year till S4 Alright before we talk about Season 4 (and a drastic change for HEAVENS) we need to discuss something between Seasons 2 and 3 In Season 2 when Eiichi made the declaration that “After HEAVENS won Haruka would become the composer” you could (justly) be mad at HEAVENS for this because of the idea that, should HEAVENS win, STARISH is disbanded and Haruka is going to Raging’s Agency...fine! I wondered why then when S3 happend (and maybe this happened and I didn’t see it) why there wasn’t as much anger when Reiji basically made the same declaration? Again maybe it did happen and I didn’t see it but it was weird because with the role that QN SEEMED to be playing only for it to switch at the end was jarring as all hell and made me wonder what we were supposed to think. Like QN didn’t really do anything “wrong” save make that declaration and this was the same boat HEAVENS was in at the end of S2...confusing to say the least! NOW WE GET TO SEASON 4 So this season in some weird way was going to feature all three units: STARIS, QN and HEAVENS in what would be HEAVENS’ first full season so we could see what they got! This season muddied the waters a little bit (at least to me) because if HEAVENS’ role is to be “Antags” then shouldn’t ALL of the characters tried to be “Holier than thou/My s**t don’t stink” kind of characters? Logically that is what you would do but then...it didn’t really manifest itself that way but it DID become a very odd story First off there’s this Raging was the one that introduced the project Since S2 Shining has been the character that we associated with the introduction of the project (UtaPri Awards/Triple S Entry) so this switch made things interesting. We wouldn’t KNOW what role that he was going to play OR how Shining was going to be used and that left A LOT of uncertainty and it was interesting too because, thinking back to the end of S3 Shining and Raging were standing back to back on top of Shining Tower! THEN THERE IS THIS! The best I can tell (and someone can tell me otherwise) the entire project would be done at Raging’s place. Now this was interesting ESPECIALLY in the “bookend” episodes which belonged to Tokiya and Otoya! Its interesting because keep this in mind, for the most part, HEAVENS members tried it seemed to get along with their partner (the two big exceptions I admit were Yams and Shion...at first) and in Tokiya’s case when he saw what “Daddy Dearest” was doing with Otoya...ehhh he wasn’t down for that (and frankly neither was I). The Otoya episode was an interesting bookend for two reasons: 1. They saved the leaders for last 2. It showed that “Daddy Dearest” not only had intent on picking off those two anchors BUT we now know he is one of the biggest abusive a--holes on the planet and practically destroyed Eiichi mentally when he was younger and there is a lot of baggage that man has to unpack before anyone can really get close to him! Okay there was one more reason It mirrored Cecil/Shion which is arguably THE MOST IMPORTANT EPISODE in the the project! Oh and there is this Did Shion’s breakdown remind you of anything? Think back to when Haruka had hers back in the third episode of Series 1...Shion’s episode with his breakdown happened in the THIRD episode of the Project! What I thought was interesting was, as we went through the project, it seemed clear that the writers wanted to change the role that they had been given. Remember we established back in S2 that they “appeared” to be the Antags but something Raging said struck me when he pretty much told HEAVENS they were disposable to him and that struck me! Here’s why: Shining has had a set role since about S1: He was the roadblock that STARISH would face in some way to be able to get what they wanted! S1: Told STARISH they weren’t going to have Nanami as their composer and they weren’t down with that S2: Threatened to take their spot from them if Cecil didn’t make it back from Angapolis in time (which he does) S3: Refuses to give them the spot in the audition UNTIL QN comes in and forces him to! What we had NEVER seen until Season 4 was what HEAVENS went through with Raging and starting with Episode 3 (Mighty Aura) what we found out was that Raging was very cunning and manipulative jackass! Notice I said RAGING and not HEAVENS? I wonder if they ever knew about any of his “dealings” with idols from other Agencies? When Raging basically tells them he could throw them away it makes sense why Rage was so willing to put them up for disbandment (then as a trio) in Season 2 but Shining was ALSO willing to put up STARISH! Was that confidence or did he really not want them together? Remember in S1 (and I almost forgot this) he tried to prevent Nanami from giving the (then 6 boys) a group song with Ringo in tow...I have argued that part of Ringo’s role during Season 1 and 2 has been as Shining’s lackey and I don’t know that that could be argued against. Maybe it could but if we look at how things are in that office you almost always see Ringo with Shining but rarely Ryuya...I wonder why What’s interesting about the way that things played out in Episode 9 was that I think they wanted to show you that HEAVENS was pretty much mindfucked by Rage a lot and its why they were the way they were. The part that kind of messed everything up was the EiiOto confrontation later because then people forget the “Why Eii acted the way he did” and more the “Broken Otoya”. This brings me back to HEAVENS though When HEAVENS STARTED in UtaPri they were villains BUT its the WHY that we discovered that now makes me ask the question: When we get to the movie and Dolce Vita...what is HEAVENS’ role? Well this question becomes an interesting one because as we know in the “joint concert” we saw the HEAVENS members on the Triple S stage with STARISH and QN (and I called them “whipped puppies”...debating if I still stand by that) and they were there WITHOUT RAGING BUT The question becomes in my mind this Do the STARISH CHARACTERS see HEAVENS as Rivals or is this game strictly a dangerous chess match between Shining and Raging because, say what you want, but the reality is that moving forward do you think HEAVENS wants to do Raging’s bidding after the hell he put them through? NO! The thing is though that Shining wouldn’t pull the trigger to take them in after KNOWING the BS they were going through (cos you know STARISH had to tell him right? They didn’t just go to bust in on Raging’s place without his blessing right? So here come the question that we, the UtaPri family, have to answer between now and whenever the movie comes out: What is HEAVENS’ role? Honestly...the way I see it is that they aren’t going to be third wheels much longer. I think Broc is going to make that attempt to make sure that you care about them and they will do a better job than Season 4 or even 6th stage because I don’t care how much lipstick you put on those pigs...they’re still pigs! I can’t ever call HEAVENS really “Rivals” (and yes reading that on Mamo’s blog made me CRINGE HARD) but what I can call them are two things now Part of the UtaPri family and most importantly MY FAMILY and I am very protective of them as we all know...maybe overprotective but after this past season its easy to see why! I’ll talk to you again real soon cos I got a special fic coming up as I get ready to make my return to the UtaPriverse! See you soon friends!
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September to Remember
Is anyone else losing time with no idea where it’s going?
That’s how September went for me. Made some changes to better be prepared for keeping my social media presence alive while trying to do that little writing thing I love so much. Still don’t know how to solve the problems my editor brought to my attention, but I'm working on it. In the meantime, I have been gearing up for NaNoWriMo and preparing ahead of losing more time then. (Dare I mention holiday stuff? Like the Christmas shopping started, or the semi prepping 2 months worth of game boards and daily arts? Should totally follow my Patreon link for more on that!)
So basically? Finally might be getting ahead of the dreaded 8-ball. At least #CharactersHell was a success! Got to count the little victories too.
The awesome thing is that it’s now October, so I have many things to look forward to. Kilt Fest again, Halloween cookies... Things that you guys might love seeing, beyond my writing updates. Which of course, this is... September rounds up below.
#WIPTruthOrDare
1- T- My WIP starts in fall, covers Halloween quite well, for a bar.
2- T- No… Maybe it's simply the way in which I've hurt MC that I don't like...
3- T- Tweety! No one else works that hard or makes it look that easy.
4-T- Tweety is a plantser… Couple ideas to start the ball rolling, but no clue what will happen after that.
5-T- Tweety has reputation to uphold, so she's always early… Providing others don't run late...
6- D- Sly slips in for this, toting a mixed bag of books, including the last book he needed, Historical Society handbook/guide. “This usually fixes everything.”
7- D- Well, the last time SOMEONE didn't do what was expected, a good guy ended up with a black eye and handcuffed to a bed frame...
8- T- Tweety has those friends that pick on you for fun. But the Antags are the worst.
9- T- Deej has a “pet” Lynx or two.
D- Antag would like to know if humans count as pets?
10- T- the accents! The Scotney needs a proper balance, or else it's too harsh!
11- T- For no spoilers, we go to Woods, who's waiting to see if the band gets signed.
12- D- Already did it, got to read the book…
T- From that same, yes… Plus exhausted legs all the time.
13- T- Some are, some aren't. It's a diverse community, so all sorts of beliefs.
14- T- Tweety writes, reads, sleeps… mostly soaks and falls asleep journaling.
15- D- Costumes! Write a specific or nonspecific creature into WIP and share! Vs Halloween costumes
16- T- so close they call the bunch of them Trouble girls. At least 3-5 of them.
17- T- Soak, pick out an outfit, write and sleep, only to change her mind in the morning.
18- T- Truth be told, someone had to be… Or at least a clear “villain” in that scene.
19- T- Both. One cannot truly live without both. One you just see more of...
20- T- Tweety is a soda only sort of woman. She can mix a mean punch though.
21- T- Yes. Sophia avoids the ex that's with her employee. Love triangles suck, and people suffer.
22- T- Tweet wakes up, dresses, works, sleeps and repeats with small breaks of craziness.
23- T- Yes as it's a semi current Earth.
24- T- Sophia takes a drink since Tweet is too “nice” while Brandon and Tim just take a shot at her.
25- T- Tweety. She's the kind one taking care of others. No one likes the things that happen...
26- T- Tweety and Sly. Tweet’s prepared for crazy and come ons, while Sly is a wealth of knowledge.
27- T- Honestly? This Diner/Beach Travel thing. So real and intimate...
28- T- The same one who regularly fries the Jukebox trying to “fix” it. - Deej
29- T- I think Remmy, or Sly have a great grasp and can do justice as narrator.
30- T- Tweety does even to her own detriment… #spoilers
#wipwordsearch
1- Bebe shot through the room, if one could #run and skip, she seemed to be doing it.
2- Even nearly #falling onto a guy and barely keeping her red rubies caged looked classy.
3- Angus and Scotty had the good sense to first agree with Woods, and then do their darnedest to get Brandon to #leave while he was still in one piece.
4- Frost #groaned, something in her face gave him the funny feeling in his gut again.
5- When Tweet, Runta, and Ally came out from their fix up, it started with one #whistle, which turned into more and soon had the girls blushing at the reaction.
6- The #gravelly tone wasn’t lost on either of them, "Tonight's lesson- don’t start anything you can't control."
7- He seemed to lose himself in that thought; mindlessly working the bottle around, as if #twisting it would #twist him free of whatever plagued his mind.
8- He didn't stop until she looked much more alive, and likely to melt and #drip right out of the car.
9- Not that Bebe on her side of the bar would be outdone. She would make her own group #gasp at her antics and outbursts, Nira at her hip, egging her on.
10- She could still see and remember all the ugly things she believed of herself, but now she couldn’t touch it, couldn't revel in it like a pig in #mud.
11- Woods smiled again, already figuring out how to #rock out as a version of Wolverine.
12- "If it's a pole you want luv, I'm ready and willing to be of assistance anytime." He chuckled, her eyes #rolled in exasperation, yet her face said she loved it; even her lips twitched warring not to smile.
13- Woods' gaze #drifted to the stage, and a smile stirred his face for the first time in what felt like a long time. "Do you mind…?"
14- A #chill went down Tweet's spine, she could have done without music now, and certainly never wanted to hear that song ever again.
15- NO DUSK
16- NO GUTTERAL
17- "Ok, ok I'm sorry I snore, but you kick. If either of us should #cry over bad sleeping habits, it could be me."
18- She first needed to wash away the sweat and #grime that came from his violent sleep.
19- "It's just that he's a big ladies man, #spent most of the day getting all kinds of attention from the ladies, probably thought he could get you to do it too. Roger's not a bad kiddo, just not smart about his manners."
20- It had been so long ago, but now he clearly remembered #Grandma Jeanie.
21- They even coaxed a guy into trying out as a chef. He'd been #sweet talked into whipping up some lunch, even if it was sandwiches, and somehow he was grateful for the opportunity.
22- She hated the battle, but knew in her #heart, it was right to worry about the complications of leaving and untangling things.
23- Her father sounded similar when he was drunk, and her mother usually #bore the bruises to prove it.
24- "I spoke the truth doll face; it does look like your #closet exploded." She stuck her tongue out at him, and he made the pinching motion at her.
25- Most of the surrounding clubs were #seedy and their names tried to sound respectable, but you could see it from the street how they operated.
26- Smiling to himself, his randomness started to sound like Bill #Withers to his own ears. Use Me came to mind and he went with it, making sure to pay more attention on Tweety.
27- The band started playing on the stage; the cymbal #crash and reverberation out of the guitar were perfect attention getters.
28- the one time she would enjoy having a silent sort of boyfriend was also the time he decided to talk..."I swear to god, if you open your mouth, it better be to #sing or to simply use your lips. Anything else and I will walk out right now."
29- She moved to strapping on the mask, a pretty purple piece, with lines of glitter around the eyes and the mask edges. It had slight points at the top edges of the mask, and on them were a line of gems; in amethyst, ruby, and #sapphire blue.
30- He had too many hopes and dreams for one night. If she was as good as he hoped she was, a #month wouldn't even be enough to scratch the surface.
#CharactersTell
1/9- *Looks around before stepping up* “I believe I am to volunteer for this round of questions, as education is my strong suit. While you may have heard me called a Thesaurus, I prefer Sly, your night time bartender.” (in the Red Letters series)
2/9- Sly- “Currently, I am a college student, but I have an education from books. Well read is an understatement for me...”
3/9- Sly- "I'm a transplant. An Aussie originally, these classes abroad are amazing, but the hours are rough on me. So what if they joke I'm a vampire? At least I have all sorts of foreign educations…"
4/9- Sly- "Up until recently, I preferred to be a lone wolf if you will. Maybe I had a friend outside of school that shared my hours and moods, but usually only one at a time."
5/9- Sly- "The subjects that were not my best, they had a tendency to bore me or be harder. In my favorite classes, I did get much further ahead. Certain classes were practically finished in months."
6/9- Sly- "I do prefer my solitude yes. Only now am I learning to embrace the education from interesting people."
7/9- Sly- *The verbose bartender pauses* "I do not like talking about that with anyone."
#CharactersTell
8/9- A strange woman walks on stage, dressed in mismatching items with a pink wig on. "Oh honey, if you don't know who I am, you're in the wrong bar. You may have the privilege of calling me Lady Sophia."
9/9- Lady Sophia- "What education do you think you deserve? I have many teaching styles…" (So, not your Ivy League grad here…)
10/9- Lady S- "This is a toss up. I personally loved music classes, as I AM a singer. But I did attend nearly every gym class… Between the health classes and all that physical movement? Best thing to study and then put into practice, usually behind bleachers."
11/9- Lady S- "Of course. History already happened, so who cares? Only reason I kinda went to math and economics class was because of a guy. Really if there wasn't something to stare at, I picked and chose."
12/9- Lady S- "Define popular? Like rah rah shove a pom pom up my (bleep) popular? (bleep) no darling, but I did develop my own following and acclaim, for my talents…"
13/9- Lady S- "Bothering is such a simple word. I had my share of "stalkers" and "can't get enoughers" but there were people who considered me a "bother". Inappropriate is really in the eye of the beholder, you know?"
14/9- Lady S- "As much as that does not matter now, I actually had great grades in economics and decent ones in business related electives. No wonder where my business owner skills came from."
#CharactersHell
1- Just your average bar for crazy people. Little history, little future building, lots of music and dreams...
2- It's a woman's fiction genre because it's more than just a romance or slice-of-life story.
3- The challenges are the characters mostly! Some go off the rails and it's hard to get them back… Others think I am writing SFF, or something more X rated. Mostly it's just "how to host/run a bar while antisocial."
4- This WIP is something I've been working on for a long time, and I can never get it out of my head. This story wants out and it's pursuing me to no end, challenges and all.
5- I wouldn't say my world is very harsh, but there are some bad elements that make it less than pretty...
6- There are multiple levels of evil, some you can see, others are working in secret together.
7- Besides the fact that it's a bar, therefore full of alcohol? Well, there is a sort of brothel thing going on in the background that Tweety doesn't care for...
8- This one's a toss-up. Remmy is in a broken relationship from the start. Tweety is in a relationship, and yet not….
9- Remmy is aware, though that doesn't make it hurt any less. Tweety wasn't to start, but does realize, and it makes it harder to work.
10- Remmy is at a 9, while Tweety is at about 4. One is more likely to leave than the other, and Tweet has far more than a budding relationship to worry about.
11- For Remmy's hellmaker, she's aware she just doesn't care. For Tweety, Woods doesn't realize her inner workings. Woods can be kind of clueless...
12- Remmy does, in Long Island Iced Teas made by Tweety. Tweety can over flirt when her feelings are hurt or she's trying to pretend...
13- Oh definitely. The third parties are endless, including the bar owner Sophia, bandmates like Brandon, and just general other patrons in the bar. Can't forget Tim too...
14- In a relationship likely to cheat? Has to be Raven. The rest of the group have sort of fluctuating relationships where you can't tell if they're together or not so you really can't call it cheating.
15- Tweety is to blame for some of what she's gotten herself into, but not all of its her fault, some of its circumstance from the job she's in...
16- Oh all the time. Tweety isn't known as a Trouble girl for no reason, and you don't hear them calling Double or Triple Trouble without her friends.
17- They are in both kinds of hell. It's a lot of psychological stuff, until it becomes physical. Breaking things both mentally, and the furniture too.
18- It's likely a lot of characters won't come out the same. But they will survive, just changed, and scarred...
19- Oh yeah the lusty people are the original bar workers, with the exception of Frost.
20- As it says in the book, nobody would be hanging out in a bar if they didn't have personal stuff too. At least our bar workers, patrons are different story.
21- Generally it's not very gory, except for the scenes that are meant to be. Try to keep them to at least one really graphic thing a book...
22- I hate editing, it's harder for me to fix things when I'm still not seeing the problem.
23- Now I do, some software, an actual editor (mine's @scribecat check out her awesomeness!)… makes this process a little easier.
24- A lot of the time it's binge-watching something and getting away from writing.
25- if it's a long weekend, and I know I don't have to work the real job, sometimes there's alcohol...
26- My problem characters are always the smart ones. Like Sly, who's nicknamed the human thesaurus; or Nira, who's like a crazy genius… Sometimes they are smarter than I am.
27- I hold on to a lot of stuff, so worst memories are critiques- school writing stuff long before I knew I was to be a writer.. stuff I should be over but still haunts me. Or the times I tore out notebook pages with "failed" first chapters. Never get those back..
28- #FF
29- Tim hits almost all of them, like Pride, Lust, Greed, Envy and Wrath. They pair up, like pride and greed, but especially lust, Envy, wrath working all together...
30- Tim? Oh he's depraved enough to revel in it, and I doubt he'll be redeemable… Can't make the leopard change his spots.
#september#writer#round up#twitter#my posts#games#tag games#patreon#nanowrimo#prep#wiptruthordare#characterstell#charactershell#red letters#teasers#wipwordsearch
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how abt hajime saves antag reader from dying and that’s how she slowly starts to treat him decently and they somehow become kinda friends
Request for: Hajime Hinata Warnings: skin graft things (gore), self harm (hair pulling and scratching with intent to bleed), implications of verbal abuse, mental breakdown, fat game spoilers ~~~
“To think someone as stupid as you could build such mass weapons of destruction,” (Y/n) looked around the room, eyes catching on all the Monokumas Kazuichi had yet to dismantle and disarm. He had started with the small ones and wasn’t even half-finished yet.
“Hey,” Kazuichi whined, still working on taking apart a regular-sized Monokuma, “I’m not proud of them, y’know? That’s why I’m scrambling them.”
“No, I know,” she wandered over to the largest Monokuma, she was surprised it even fit inside the building it was so big, brushing her fingers over the cool metal, “This one’s falling apart.”
“Yeah, the bigger they are, the harder it is to keep maintenance, so I probably just gave up after a while,” the mechanic shrugged.
“Hm,” she hummed to herself, crossing her arms as she turned to face Kazuichi’s back completely, “I’m assuming that’s also why you rarely did such monsters.”
“Knowing me, yeah,” he gestured over his shoulder, still not looking at the girl, “Hubris is all that kept me making the big ones.”
“Typical.”
“What does that mean?!”
“Watch out!” a new voice entered the room, a hand grabbing (Y/n)’s arm and yanking her backward just in time for the arm of the monstrous Monokuma to clatter to the ground right where she had been standing.
Dread had sunk into the hearts of (Y/n) and Kazuichi - she would’ve been crushed to death if it wasn’t for… (Y/n) looked at the hand on her arm, following it to a face. If it wasn’t for Hajime.
Kazuichi immediately rushed towards the woman, grabbing her shoulders and shaking her as tears fell from his eyes and his lips quivered, “I’m so sorry, Miss (Y/n)! I should’ve been paying attention! I knew it was dangerous for you to be too close, I should’ve said something!”
“Let go of me, moron,” she smacked his hands off her shoulders, huffing before turning to Hajime and nodding curtly at him, “Thanks.”
Before anyone in the room could speak again, she charged out and into the hall.
Hajime sighed, “You save her life and she doesn’t even apologize for being an asshole.”
Kazuichi waved off the girl’s behavior and returned to his desk, “You should get away from that Monokuma.”
A creak from the giant robot was all the warning Hajime needed to get out as well.
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Teruteru had called everyone to dinner almost half an hour ago and even Hiyoko had come out to enjoy a meal with the others, but there was one person missing - (Y/n).
Of course, Hajime thought as he went down the hall towards her room, she’s being difficult. She’s always like this. So difficult, so rude. Teruteru worked in that hot kitchen for hours on end so that everyone could eat together and obviously (Y/n) wouldn’t show up.
He knocked on her door, waiting for a few seconds. No answer.
He knocked again. No answer.
One last time. No answer.
Frustrated at the lack of response, Hajime took the doorknob in his hand, calling out, “I’m coming in!” before doing just that.
He expected to find her asleep in her bed or maybe the bathroom door would be shut and he’d have to shyly leave lest he gets called a weirdo for barging in. Instead, he found her sitting in front of her mirror, staring at her own reflection with unblinking eyes.
She was tracing her nails over the stitches left behind by Mikan in the wake of her skin graft. Her other hand was resting at her thigh, patting the bandages covering the donor site of her skin. Suddenly, her nails bit into the stitches on her cheek, scratching at the scarring and tearing at the threads. She cringed in pain but didn’t stop.
“Stop!” Hajime lunged forward, grabbing (Y/n)’s hand before she could completely rip through the stitched patches on her face, his brows furrowed, “What the hell are you thinking?!”
If he stopped to think about it, yelling at someone in an unstable spot like this probably wasn’t the best decision, but he wasn’t thinking.
(Y/n)’s eyes were wide, why did he care?
He already saved her life, wasn’t that enough? He had to save her face too? Why was he even in her room?
“Why does it matter?” she wheezed, stuck between laughing and crying, shaking her head all the same, “I was great! I was incredible! Now- now- now- now- now- “ she felt tears roll from her eyes and burn at the bleeding stitches, “I’m fucking horrific! I thought I was above all of you but lately, it’s just been fuck up after fuck up after fuck up- “
Taken advantage of by Junko Enoshima - the girl who never loved her.
Scarred and mangled face - done by her own hand.
Almost crushed to death - Hajime had to save her.
“Hiyoko laughs at me and you look down on me and Mikan judges my face every time I go in for a checkup and Kazuichi pitties me and Fuyuhiko thinks we’re the same and Ibuki’s scared of me and Akane hates me and Sonia thinks I’m evil and Junko never loved me and Junko never loved me and you look down on me and you look down on me and you look down on me and you look down on me and you look down on me,” she began rocking herself back and forth in her chair, fat sobs tearing through her chest and throat, hiccups ripping over her, “I’m a failure… I’m a failure… I’m a failure…”
“You’re just human,” Hajime knelt down to be eye-level with the woman, taking both her hands in his and making her keep eye contact with him, “You’re allowed to make mistakes and fuck up. You were tricked and manipulated by Junko, we all were. We get to make up for that now by restoring the world. Nobody hates you or judges your face.”
“You’re lying, I know it,” she stomped her feet like a petulant child, more tears stinging at her skin, “I should’ve been perfect. Mother always said I had to be perfect, father always wanted the daughter and that’s what I am! I have to be… I have to be…”
“Your parents are idiots if they think anyone could ever be perfect,” Hajime untangled one of his hands from their interlocked appendages to place it over his heart, “Even Izuru kind of sucks, he’s uncaring and doesn’t show appreciation for anything. Nobody’s perfect, (Y/n). You need to realize that whatever your parents told you was just overcritical bullshit and there’s nothing wrong with you,” his eyes flickered to her bleeding stitches, “I’ll get Mikan, sit tight.”
Her head fell in shame as Hajime left. Her fingers tapped on the bandages covering her donor site, feeling a faint sting at the contact. Of course, Izuru Kamukura would save her again. Or try to, at least.
God, did he have to be better than her at everything?
No, he wasn’t better. He wasn’t better. She was great.
Her hands shot up and twisted knots in her hair, yanking as hard as she could to shut her own thoughts up.
The door opened, Mikan hurrying through with a little white box in her hand. She shakily took (Y/n)’s hands away from her head, and held her chin to inspect the injured area.
“It’s not too b-bad, thankfully,” the nurse murmured, opening the box and unwinding some thread, “It sh-shouldn’t take me too long.”
(Y/n) closed her eyes, letting Mikan work and doing her best to act as if the pulling and pinching didn’t bother her. She wasn’t in pain. She was fine.
There no memories of causing despair with Mikan and Junko running through her head. There was never competition between her and Mikan for Junko’s love. There was no time that she felt inferior to Mikan.
She was fine.
She was fine.
Once Mikan left, Hajime escorted her out, the two muttering amongst themselves for a few minutes before Hajime nodded and returned to (Y/n)’s side. He lifted her from the chair and carried her to bed, largely disturbed by how little she protested, “I could get you some food, if you want? Teruteru made a lot.”
Shaking her head, (Y/n) felt more tears rise to her eyes, “I want to cry.”
“Should I go?”
“No… yes… I don’t know…” she sniffled, hiccupping once again as she cried, “Izuru… what do I do…?”
“I wouldn’t know,” he sat by her on the bed, “I’m just Hajime Hinata, and besides, nobody can tell you how to deal with your emotions besides you. Or maybe a therapist.”
“Stay, please…”
“Then I will.”
~~
“Hiyoko laughed when I tripped on the beach this morning…”
“She’s always like that,” Hajime paused pouring the pancake batter into the pan to rethink his statement, “Well, she’s getting better. Slowly.”
“I keep screwing up,” she huffed, cracking an egg to pour the whites and yolk into a bowl. What she didn’t notice until after she’d already thrown out the broken shell and turned back to grab another egg, was that she’d accidentally gotten a speck of shell in the bowl. Pursing her lips, heat rushed to her cheeks.
Again.
It was just mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake after mistake-
“Ah, I do that all the time,” Hajime peeked over the girl’s shoulder, grabbing a fork to press the bit of shell into the bowl and drag it up the side and out of the eggs, “See?” he removed the shell from the fork and threw it into the trash, “All better.”
(Y/n) stood there for a few more seconds, antsy as she watched him go about his business like she didn’t just ruin breakfast. Her throat swelled with dread and her hands grew sweaty, “I messed up. Aren’t you gonna do something about it?”
“Like?”
“I- “ she held her tongue, shaking her head, “I thought- “
“It’s fine, there’s nothing wrong with a mistake,” Hajime shook his head, “You’re human, you’re going to mess up. Now whisk the eggs before Teruteru finds us and gives us ‘advice’.”
“Right,” she nodded, turning back to the eggs.
Hajime pursed his lips as quiet settled over them. He learned a lot about her within the previous hours of the night. She wasn’t a monster, she’d just grown up with the wrong people.
She’d done awful things and she’d make up for them in due time, the most she could anyway.
It was after she had passed out from crying and he went out to use the bathroom that Mikan would nervously, shakily utter the words that made everything click.
“I s-suspect she has a God complex stemming from overcritical parents…”
She was sick and needed help.
They all did.
She probably took the manipulation from Junko hard. Probably as hard as Mikan if the muttered, heartbroken repetitions of “she never loved me” meant anything. He wasn’t sure he wanted to know what those two girls went through at Junko’s hand.
Well, if it’d help, he would listen.
He wanted to help her. He wanted them all to heal and live better lives as they restored the world with the Future Foundation.
That would always include (Y/n). She was as deserving of healing as the rest of them. She was deserving of love. She wasn’t a heartless monster.
She was… becoming his friend.
#sdr2 x reader#hajime hinata x reader#hajime x reader#uhm i have bonus backstory if anyone cares#reader and mikan were both junko’s “girlfriends” that she just used for despair and she made them compete for any and all affection#reader felt inferior to mikan in looks so after junko died she took her face cuz she thought that would make her the most beautiful of all#uhmm anyways haha :)))#anon chatter :)#antag reader
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