#I canceled last month already though ahhhhhh

[transboysokka]

Trying to get rid of this shitty ass hunger migraine so I can teach a class soon so I’m just trying to eat Easy Bread for something and it’s so impossible to even gag it down, how did things get so bad so quick…

I’m confused because I DID eat something every day this week but it must have been getting so gradually less and my body just expects things to be in it now…

But damn I still gotta walk the dog and I really want to cancel this class. It’s taking way too long to even EAT this bread bc every bite makes me super nauseous and I just feel terrible…..

If I can get to a more functional point I’ll mix up a protein drink which I need but damn I have just no energy right now

[jadedxrealityw]

-Opening Up- Draco Malfoy x Female Reader.

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   Request:  Hi could you do a draco x reader where she's his girlfriend who is afraid of commitment and takes time to open up to him? But gradually they work through it together and all that. Most fics are of draco being afraid to be vulnerable so I think this would be a pretty good change. No pressure if you don't want to do it. Thanks love :)

      Kody- I’m t e r r i f i e d of commitment so this should be easy. Gonna add some extra extra for plot, but you already know. I will also be recreating the same fight i had with my actual S/O except for Draco doesn’t suck.

     Warning: Uh commitment issues, possible cursing, child neglect, Draco being a sad boy.

     House: Slytherin hiss hiss.

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   “Wait your dad refused to feed you?” your friend said in a hushed tone. You look around nodding slowly and wipe your remaining tears. Yeah your dad didn’t exactly like the fact that you were a witch. Called you a sinner and whatnot a refused to acknowledge your existence. 

   “It’s whatever” you shrug, used to the neglect by now.  “Shouldn’t you like- Tell Draco? He is your boyfriend” they suggest. You shake your head quickly, fear bubbling in you. “No. Last time i told my significant other about my dad they used to to control me. You know that” you rush out. 

   Your friend sighs, leaning there head back. “So please don’t tell him” a pleading look was present in your eyes. “Draco isn’t like the last person. Sooner or later you have to open up to him.” you knew they were right, but it was just too hard for you to handle at the moment. 

   “please just let me handle it- what are you looking at?” “Isn’t that your boyfriend coming over?” your friend asked. Turning your head to the right you see the platinum blond boy indeed walking over to you, causing your heart to thump against your chest. 

   Your friend sends you a wink before turning on the heels of there feet and walking away. The sly Slytherin places his hand on the wall above your head, signature smirk plastered on his face. “Hey darling-” his face falls as he notices your puffy eyes “Have you been crying?”

   shaking your head, you muster up a smile “Oh yeah sorry. I hit my foot on the edge of the door. Really hurt i guess” you blurt out. ‘wow, i’m getting better at excuses’ his grey eyes study your expression, seemingly trying to find anything that would raise suspicion. “Is your foot alright?

   giving him a nod, you smile reassuringly. “Yeah it’s fine. Thank you for worrying though. You big softie” you push his shoulder lightly. He rolls his eyes, grabbing the hand that pushed you to interlock your fingers. A pink hue dusted your cheeks as he raises up to kiss your hand softly “Good”

   “i have to head to charms, i’ll see you later Dray” you speak softly. He pouts for a moment before letting your hand go. “Okay, i’ll see you at lunch darling” he nods and presses a quick kiss to your lips before he watches you walk away from him, his smile falling. ‘Why are you lying to me Y/n?’

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   you take a seat next to Draco, placing your bag on the floor next to your feet. “Hey Y/n” Pansy says giving you a small smile which you return kindly. You watch as the food appears on the table. You grab a serving spoon and began to place food on your plate. “How was charms?” Draco asked suddenly.

   you pick up your fork and shrug “Pretty normal. Except for Neville Longbottom making his chair levitate” you chuckle and Draco does as well as he begins to eat. As you were about to take a bite you feel someone tap lightly on your shoulder. 

   you turn around to meet the gaze of professor Mcgonagall. You smile politely and she does as well “Ms. L/n, can i speak with you for a just a moment?” she asked and you nodded slowly, feeling the eyes of your Slytherin friends boring holes into the back of your head.

   she smiles and walks away from the table. Without looking at Draco, you stand up and follow her. She stops a few feet away from the table and pulls out a piece of paper. “Now, from what you told me about your situation with your father. Dumbledore is willing to have you stay at school until the end of your 7th year”

   you raise a brow and cross your arms a bit uncomfortably. “what about my dad, won’t he like, come looking for me?” you say and the professor nods slowly “You want nothing to do with him, correct and have no other family?” she asked, repeating what you had told her in a previous conversation.

   you nod and she smiles lightly “We’ll simply send someone to obliviate his memories of you. No one should have to go through what you do.” she says and you give a bright smile. “thank you professor” you thank her and she nods before walking away. 

   you unfold the paper and it stated that your new legal guardian would be snape since he was head of your house and over breaks you would stay at Hogwarts or at his residence. It seemed fine to you, anything seemed better than your actual father.

   folding the paper back up, you slip it into your robe pocket and head back over to the Slytherin table. Taking a seat next to Draco again, you notice his stare on you “Yes?” you say and he gestures to your robe “What did Mcgonagall give you?” he asked and you shrug.

   “I forgot my Transfiguration notes in her class so yeah” you say quickly. Draco eyes you up and down like before before smiling lightly “well look at you being forgetful” he teases. You roll your eyes, nudging your shoulder with his “yeah yeah whatever” you say and he leans over to press a kiss to your temple.

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   you chewed your nail nervously as you stared at the students getting on the train. You were so screwed now. It was the last day before break and Draco knew how strict your dad was and wanted you home each break. Now you stayed at Hogwarts so you see the problem, right?

   you haven’t thought of a good excuse yet so while you were waiting you were thinking as well. “Y/n? Where are your things?” you hear someone ask from behind you. ‘shit’ you face the confused pale boy with a nervous smile “I’m staying at Hogwarts for break. My dad is busy”

   “but your dad has never let you stay for break in the seven years i’ve known you?” Draco questions. You sigh and shrug your shoulders “i don’t know” he narrows his eyes and grabs your hand, leading away from the crowd of people. When he stops, he looks down at you with an intimidating stare.

   “do you not trust me?” you look up at him and shake your head “I do trust you Dr-” “-no you don’t. Y/n you hide stuff from me. All the time” you could hear the slight anger in his voice beginning to rise and so does he. He takes a step back and takes a deep breath. 

   “Draco. It’s just hard to talk about some things” you explain and he scoffs. “You tell your friend everything about yourself and leave me in the dark. Y/n i’m your boyfriend. I’ve shown you the worst parts of me. My father being a death-eater and my insecurities. Why can’t you do the same!” 

   you sigh and use your hands to rub your face in frustration. “I’m glad you can open up to me like Draco. I really am, but i’m not like that. I’ve done the whole trusting thing and you know where it got me? Being emotionally manipulated for months!” you watch as Draco’s face falls and he looks at you with a frown.

   then that frown turns into a scowl “Who?” “What who Draco?” you question and he waves his hand “who did that to you? Does he go here cause i swear to merlin i’ll kick his ass” he fumes with anger and you roll your eyes “Draco, calm down. It’s not that serious”

   “Of course it is Y/n! They made you uncomfortable to tell me anything! I want to be there for you when your at your worst and they screwed it up!” He shouted and you watched as his anger fueled him in every word. “Draco i-” “You want to know the first thing i thought when i met you?” 

   you blink a couple times before nodding your head “I’m going to marry this girl. I had never even talked to you and i knew i wanted to be with you for the rest of my life. Y/n i love you. I really do, so please talk to me” he pleads. You could see tears forming in the corners of his grey eyes.

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   you finally had seen that Draco wasn’t the guy that was going to use anything against you. All he wanted to do was love you and be with you for the rest of his life. So you told him about your dad and you staying at Hogwarts. Draco ended up cancelling the break with his parents and stayed with you.

   you two had grown closer at you felt at peace with him. The wall of uncomfortableness had been broken down by the sly Slytherin and he couldn’t be happier that you finally opened up to him. You also told him you loved him to and that you were sorry that it took so long to say.

   he didn’t care. He said “I would wait years if i had to” while holding your face with both of his hands. You smiled brightly and grabbed his green tie. You pulled him into kiss you tenderly and of course he responded quickly. He kissed you deeply as he cradled your face in his hands.

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   Kody- ahhhhhh. Yeah i still have commitment issues and wished this had ended the way it did for me, but eh whateves.

[kacchanislife]

If requests are still open could you maybe write something for Hizashi/Present Mic? A new hero(with a quirk of your choice), whose helping to teach at UA. They’re partially deaf and they will sometimes sign back and forth with him. Maybe something fluffy where the reader is across the hall and asks him out on a date? And he starts getting flustered and his class is so confused bcus they don’t see his crush signing at him? Thank you! If not, i understand. Have a good day!

AHHHHHH, I HAD LIKE HALF OF THIS WRITTEN AND THEN I ACCIDENTALLY DIDNT SAVE AND EXITED THE APP. AHHHH

BUT I LOVE YOU ANON FOR REQUESTING PRESENT MIC!!!! I HOPE YOU ENJOY

(I totally meant to post this when I first got it, buuuttt I had a bunch of essays to do, I hope you like it!)

A Friendly Hand

Warnings: not really? Idk ASL or JSL very much tho

Pairing(s): Hizashi Yamada/Present Mic x Reader/Pulse

You had always looked up to Present Mic, the voice hero who defied what it meant to be a voice hero. He was partially deaf, just like you, and earned a career as a teacher, Pro-Hero, radio show host, and he’s a singer. You look up to him because he can do it all and doesn’t let his disability slow him down or stop him. You admire that about him, you admire him in general.

As a hero from America, there’s a lot of stigma about people with disabilities- even quirk related ones. You struggled from day one to get recognized as a hero, you already had hearing problems as a child and when you’re quirk was developing it only got worse. You can’t have sonic propulsion as a quirk and not expect a side effect that didn’t affect your hearing. Sonic booms from space shuttles could render a human permanately deaf and your quirk rivaled those sounds, so it was no wonder your hearing got progressively worse as you got older. Which just made it harder to be a hero, if you can’t communicate with your team, how are you suppose to work effectively?

But you didn’t care, you were going to be a hero no matter what. You took extra precaution to wear noise cancelling headphones, you worked with another hero who could link your team together so no verbal communication was required, you had a speech pathologist who helped with your speaking, and a pair of hearing aides for when you weren’t working. It’s a lot of work, but you were determined to be like Present Mic and follow your dreams.

Which is why you were so happy when all the struggle you’ve been through to be an amazing hero has finally paid off. Even with all the setbacks and the struggles to establish yourself a hero, you’ve done it. You’ve been invited to become a teacher at U.A. High School in Japan. THE hero school of hero schools! Many great heroes have graduated from U.A. and you’re incredibly honored to even be considered as a teacher there. Of course, you readily accepted and started to make preparations for moving. This included learning JSL, or Japanese Sign Language, so that you could communicate while you learned Japanese. Which, you knew, was going to be difficult. You can speak English, but pronunciation and volume control is still hard for you, which means pronouncing words in a language you don’t know will be even harder.

You can do it, though, you’ve pulled off greater feats in your life so far. Plus, you were going to meet your personal hero! You couldn’t just give up on learning a new language because it was hard, you were going to be an exceptional hero- just like Present Mic! 

Settling into your new life at Japan didn’t take that much time surprisingly, you were mostly using the time you had before you would start helping to teach to get accustomed to the language and customs. You didn’t want to offend anyone and you needed to learn the language to communicate with others. Though, you figure if you really need the help you can hire a translator while you’re still learning, but first you wanted to try on your own. Which proved to be really difficult and by the time the start date of your new job at U.A. rolled around you felt wholly unprepared to communicate with others. 

You could’ve cried you were so frustrated with how unsuccessful learning JSL had been, you stare at the books in front of you, willing them to make more sense or to magically transfer all the knowledge to you. A part of you wishes that was your quirk instead of the one you have. No, you thought, I can’t think negatively about this. It just means you need to work harder, you can do this. 

Today, well, today was just going to suck as you struggled to communicate with others. You hope that at least one of them knows English enough for you to verbally communicate if that is what it takes. As you arrived at U.A. you were astonished by the size of it all, it was beautiful and definitely lived up to the name of being the number one hero school. You feel yourself getting giddy again and ignoring the complications of communication for now. 

The badge that had been mailed to you was fished from your purse and you held it up to the gate where it scanned you in. You exhale softly as you prepare yourself to meet your new coworkers and mentors. You take the plunge and never look back. 

And you’re glad you didn't let your struggle to communicate hinder you from accepting one of the most rewarding jobs right after being a Pro Hero. Looking back six months ago you would not have guessed you could integrate seamlessly with Japanese Pro Heroes, but that doesn’t matter now. You were now the assistant English teacher at U.A. and held an elective Japanese Sign Language course. You’re so proud of all the progress you’ve made and if you were being honest, you owed half that success to your personal hero. 

Present Mic, or Hizashi as you call him now, instantly understood the struggle you had with communicating with them all and stepped in to help you. As someone who knew JSL, ASL, English, and Japanese he was more than capable of helping you out. Principal Nezu decided that it was best you accompany Hizashi as his assistant teacher- which worked perfectly for you because you’re native tongue is English. If there was ever a man you respected, admired, and loved more than Hizashi it had withered away when he offered his help. From then the two of you had become the best of friends and constantly going out with each other as well as sharing inside jokes. 

Which is what leads you to today. You’ve been thinking about it a lot and you have come to the decision that you want to ask Hizashi on a date, as more than friends, and you’re going to make that happen today. You had to plan it perfectly, you didn’t want your intentions misread and you certainly didn’t want to risk NOT asking him and chickening out for the rest of your life. As you got ready that morning before school would start a plan formed in your mind and took action. 

First step: stop by the store and get a little statue to Ebisu, the Japanese Shinto god that was said to be deaf

Second step: ask Shouta for a pair of Hizashi’s headphones (you know that man has a few somewhere)

Third step: wait for your free period and set up the headphones and statue on his desk in the teacher’s lounge with a picture of the two of you

Fourth step: AVOID Hizashi until your next period with him

Fifth and Final step: ask him out in ASL when he inevitably looks at you questioningly after step three and four

As the day progressed your plan was in perfect motion and by the time your last class of the day with Hizashi rolled around. You know from Nemuri and Shouta that Hizashi has been trying to find you since fourth period, but you skillfully avoided him. Nothing could ruin your plan and if you were honest if something were to ruin it, you would be greatly discouraged to follow through with it all. 

So! You avoided Hizashi until it was finally sixth period. You were in the classroom first with all the students and setting yourself up in the back of the class to watch over the students as they took a quiz. It took a moment for Hizashi to get settled and pull the quizzes out before he noticed you in the back. As he looked at you with questioning (and slightly hurt) eyes you signed to him slowly, ‘Someone once told me that asking for help is better than struggling to overcome an adversity on their own. Thank you for all your help Hizashi.’

You paused before you started to sign again, mustering all the courage that you could, ‘You’ve been my hero for as long as I can remember and getting to work with you these past six months have shown me that I more than admire you. I really like you and I was wondering if you’d like to go on a date this weekend to the pier?’

An instant blush formed on Hizashi’s cheeks and you could see some tears swell in his eyes. The students had been expecting their quizzes to be handed out only for their teacher to stop functioning it seemed. The students didn’t know sign language and they sure as hell weren’t paying attention to you in the back when their quiz was so close to them in the front. You smile at Hizashi as you cross the classroom to him and gently take the quizzes from his hands to pass out. 

The kids still aren’t sure what just happened, but Hizashi has a seemingly permanent blush on his cheeks and is unable to get any words out. Several times when you glance at him you see his hands moving to try and sign back to you, only for them to fall as his blush continues to deepen. Once all the quizzes were passed out and you were back to your post in the back of the class Hizashi seemed to reanimate. Students paused taking their test to glance up as he moved very quickly to the back of the class where you stood in your nerves. He hasn’t given an answer yet, after all. 

When you glance back up, Hizashi is right in front of you and seconds later his lips are on yours. The blush that springs up on your face is fierce but you kiss him back briefly before he pulls back. Hizashi’s hands fly up and he’s signing back to you, ‘You have no idea how much I like you too. I’d love to go on a date with you this weekend.’

All the students are silent as you beam at Hizashi and kiss him softly again, even if it was on the inappropriate side for being in class, before they all cheer. Everyone’s been wanting the two of you to get together and it seems it’s finally happening. Both you and Hizashi blush like idiots before he shoos them to pay attention to their quizzes. 

The rest of the class is spent signing back and forth to each other like usual. The only difference is the never ending blushes on your cheeks. 

[mrkis]

responses to (his, 0.28) j.j.k

all of my responses to your asks are under ‘keep reading’ although i’m not sure if the keep reading option is still working so i apologise if it’s not :)) thank you so much for sending these in and thank you for still reading ‘his’ even though i don’t update much anymore.

for those who haven’t seen the last update of ‘his’, please go read before you open this as it might contain spoilers :))

anon said: WELL THAT HURT

sorry D:

taetaebaebear said: JKDS;AGKFDJGKLFDAHGKDJALGJDSA;LKGKLDAJGKLDSJGLDAJ'KLGJDA +  Oay, i'm composed. but... how? why did she never feel it before? why did she feel things between her and JK from the beginning? what does he mean that Sehun is one of the lucky ones? WHY DIDN'T THEY DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT BEFOREHAND?! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

at the beginning of the story, the reader had a crush on sehun and actually liked him very much and of course, it was vice versa. during the house party in the kitchen, that was when sehun was going to confess his feelings and the reader would’ve confessed hers if it wasn’t for jungkook, jimin and taehyung crashing the party. the reader had always been linked to sehun, you just never recognised it because of jungkook constantly there and getting in the way :)) and for sehun being one of the lucky ones, it means he’s allowed a second chance at getting a second mate.

strawberry-serendipityyy said: biiiitch

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anon said: OH MY YOU CANT LEAVE IT THERE IN FREAKING OUT

i’m sorry i love cliffhangers D:

anonymous said: AHHHHHH NOOOOOO

D: D: D:

Anonymous said: Poor Sehun :(((( but I’m still rooting for her and jk :((

i feel bad for sehun too ):

anon said: WHAT? NOOOO I WANT Y/N TO BE WITH JUNGKOOK, I CANT BELIEVE THEY WERE NEVER DESTINED TOGETHER...Man this just made me mad...poor Sehun i cant even imagine knowing the fact that your mate is falling in love with your enemy right in front of you...Jungkook was so selfish...what the hell is going on with all this mess?

i warned you guys, things are not going to be easy (:

anon said: Alright Jungkook is canceled for stealing Sehun's mate, Hana is canceled for leaving Jungkook, Yugyeom is Canceled for stealing Jungkook's mate and last but certainly not least the hunters are canceled because they just are and always will be for the rest of the fic.

ajdkla and the rest need to be protected at all cost

llplangereall said: This is not how I wanted to start my morning 😭💔

i’m sorry D: 

anon said: 😰😰😰😰😰 that last chapter of His oh my

so happy i’ve finally published it! it’s been killing me lmao

anon said: Ahhhhhh 😭 will they be okay?! I’m so scared for jk and y/n!! Wait but how come jk had a bond with Y/N?!?

jungkook had basically attached himself to the reader when he first found her. if you don’t remember, i wrote a scene in one of the chapters where seokjin said that they had already lived in town for 2 months before they had officially met the reader. during those two months, jungkook was watching the reader, finding out everything about her to use that as an advantage. 

anon said: *Taemin voice* I TRUSTED YOU

D: i’m sorry

anon said: Omg kill me

D: D: D:

anon said: W H A T T H E F U C K JUNGKOOK?? I'M SIWJSJWJAJW SHES SEHUNS MATE I'M nOt oKay

*has mcr flashbacks*

anon said: omG im shook by this new chapter...WHAT WAS THAT

something very angsty

gukspoc said: SHE WAS WHOMST NOW

SEHUN THAT’S WHOMST

anon said: OMG HI! Anyway! Before I say anything, I was at work when I got the notification you dropped chapter 28 and I was in tears. I love you and the story so much! And I didn’t know if I wanted to beat Jungkook for doing that or cradle him and protect. It doesn’t all add up, from the beginning she was meant for Sehun? did Jungkook lie about feeling her emotions as well even before he marked her and mated with y/n? Was Anyone else in the pack skeptical about Jungkook’s “second mate”? ♥️♥️

hey (: yup, from the very very very start, the reader had belonged to sehun. jungkook didn’t particularly lie about her emotions, as said in another ask, he attached himself to her so he was capable of feeling such things. all werewolves knew that jungkook wasn’t one of the lucky ones to have a second mate, meaning that they also knew that the reader never belonged to jungkook, so they all just went along with it because they knew how much trouble it would cause.  

anon said: Why would sehun be her mate I’m sad this is so sad

every werewolf is destined with a mate, the reader happened to be his. (: but now sehun turned out to be one of the lucky ones so he has a second mate somewhere.

anon said: Chapter 28!!!!! OHMY!!! Wow okay....how can I be mad at baby boy Jungkook??? He just want to be loved 🤧🤧🤧 but Sehun though damn...you ruined me 😩😩😩

i’m quite happy that you’re feeling for jungkook during this (: he did wanna be loved and he did everything in his power to get that love, meaning that he’d take someone else’s...  but still, honestly, it was a very shitty move. 

anon said: Chapter 28 killed me! I love it so much 😭 i reread the entire story again, and I caught onto some things. Chanyeol saying wolves can mark another’s mate if that person isn’t marked, sehun saying y/n ISN’T his mate but he would really like her to me when he tried to mark her and Jungkook feeling her emotion. If he claimed to be taking y/n away from her “true mate” and he was one of the unlucky wolves to not get a second chance, than how did he felt her emotions and stuff before mating with her😭

i’m happy you’re liking it! chanyeol saying that “wolves can mark another’s mate if that person isn’t marked” was kind of foreshadowing because the reader the was originally the mate of sehun but sehun hadn’t marked her yet and then jungkook did. sehun saying that the reader isn’t his mate was basically playing along and lying, as stated with another ask (: hope that helped your confusion, if you have any more question, send them in :)

[kmusicmuses101]

Trust (1)

I waited two days to finally give up.

I gave him two days to maybe fess up or tell me it’s all in my head.

But what was the point?

What point is there in an us anyways

What am I really fighting for?

So as he texted me to say he would be busy tonight and not come over (again nothing new but this time I knew for a fact he is not busy with work)

I knew that this was the final straw that broke the camel’s back

I went to my room and started packing everything that had a trace of him.

We were so good together at the beginning like any other couple happy as though they could take on the world he trusted me with his heart and vice versa.

But a few months ago he started coming over less not picking up my calls cancelling on dates last minute telling me he would be at the studio but really he is out with the boys.

My first mistake was giving him my trust how could I have given him such a precious thing he made me think he was different then the last

Pfft the last guy actually proposed to me and had me by the strings of my heart but later I found out he also had two other girls but no thats ok cause-

“I’m the one he actually proposed to and wanted a future with, So I shouldn’t mind the other two since I’m the one with the ring”

But he is right that ring did give a better future it helped start my company that I run with my cousin.

That is how I met Christian, my company deals with design ideas of studios to even album covers I was the one in charge of setting up and organization of the studio while my cousin was the one in charge of album jackets and other things.

From there we met all different sorts of people and actually became good friends with some of our regular customers.

We met by pure coincidence, we had mutual friends so one day we were at the same birthday party and we just hit it off.

Urgh just remembering it made me realize why the hell did I fall for him.

I tried to push him away I even told him how my last relationship went but he was so sure he would be different that he IS different (my ass you would be different)

I tried to think maybe this time it was all in my head cause “Its Christian he would never do this”

But the more I tried to convince my self the more that voice in my head who I like to call Ms. Insecurities kept on nagging me.

“He said he won’t come over tonight cause he is busy at the studio but on Dabin’s insta story he is partying at the club”

“How boring are you that he just didn’t invite you out to hang with his friends?”

“What could he be hiding from you that he doesn’t even invite you out as much anymore?”

But two days ago is what really finally convinced you that just maybe Ms. Insecurities was actually Ms Instinct that was telling you maybe everything your doubting could be true.

Two days ago

You had a cross-fit class today and your phone arm strap broke just before you were leaving your place.

So since your classes are close to Christians house you might as well steal his

You already knew his pass code you walked in and went straight to his bedroom just as you opened the door the door flew open and out walked this gorgeous girl and she looked like she was about to leave.

“Oh hello! Are you cleaning lady? Christian told me you were coming by”

“Ahhhh?”

Her phone started ringing

“Sorry give me a sec….oh hey babe!! Yeah she just came in just as I was about to leave….mmhmm ok will do”

“Hey I gotta go you know how Christian is hahaha”

“Uh”

“OH I wanted to ask do you mind washing my clothes with Christians’ clothes I am sick of carrying my stuff back and forth from here”

“Sure”

“Thank you!!… ah shit I’m late gotta go! Don’t forget to lock up!!!”

Twenty minutes later I still stood there still in absolute shock I didn’t even hear the door she slam when she walked out my heart beating so loud I can’t even hear myself breath.

I walked into the bedroom and almost threw up

His cloths were on the floor with hers like its a normal thing they have been doing for god knows how long

The next thing I knew went around his room took stuff I owned and got out of there and ran all the way home and just as I walked into my place closed my door that was when I finally broke.

End of Flashback

I took his stuff to my car and drove to his place.

As I walked inside thanking god that he was not here.

I placed his stuff on the ground besides his shoes so he wouldn’t miss it.

As I started to walk away my hand subconsciously went toward the necklace he gave me as congratulatory gift of giving us a chance.

Flashback

“Ok close your eyes Y/N”

“Christian if you put a bug on me again I will take Lori away and you will never see her again”

“Ok first of all you monster!!!….and second of all I promise it nothing bad trust me”

“Fine”

I closed my eyes and felt him lift my hair and put something around my neck

I opened my eyes and looked down and saw a gorgeous necklace “What is this? its so pretty”

“You like it?” He asked while holding my had and interlacing our fingers

“I love it but what is it for?”

“Just a thank you for giving us a try” he smiled and leaned onto my forehead with his eyes closed

“Hahaha aww you are the sweetest I leaned forward and give him a kiss.

End

I took it off and left it on the kitchen counter.

As I walked away I got my phone out and started deleting hin and blocking him from everything so he had no chance of contacting me.

I called up my cousin who knew what was going on since she has always been my soundboard.

She was fully supportive in this plan and with everything else

I double checked my emails for anything new from work that I needed to know before I left on my two weeks of "vacation” (meaning crashing at my cousins place and have some me time)

I looked inside his apartment one last time

And as I slowly closed the door my heart starts to become numb

I walked towards my car and just as I was about to drive off my phone rings.

I knew it was him

I picked up the phone

“Hey babe I finished early coming over right now”

“No thats ok you dont have too”

“Its fine I want too I miss you so much babe we have so many things to catch up on”

“Yeah like the fact you have been cheating on me for god knows how long?”

“Christian…”

“Hey?…what going on? you sound off is everything ok?:

I closed my eyes tight trying not to cry

"I am done with this Christian”

“Done with what?”

“With us”

“What do you mean? Where is this coming from? Babe I want to know what is making you say this!”

“Lose my number and never contact me again good bye Christian”

“What the fuck?…no I am coming over right now and we will talk about this!!”

I hung up the phone turned it off and drove to my cousins after five minutes of driving I pulled over to side of road cause everything started to get blury and just sobbed in my car and letting everything out.

This was it this was the end .

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Author Notes:

I don’t even know where this come from ahhhhhh……

Should I continue?

Give me some feed back guys let me know what you think!!!

[kaoarika]

I see a couple of items that get my attention, hoping if they are possible to buy though the proxy service I used to buy the dwd game last year.

Apparently, they can handle them (the shop is tsuruga-ya, for further notes- I know they have a “market” spot on Rakuten and Yahoo but the items I want... they do not handle through those spots :’D).

(Also, I’m speaking about FromJapan... I cannot handle other proxy services at the moment?)

But after the CDJapan thing (kinda resolved to this point, but AHHHHHH) that happened last week, with me not having anything to do until August arrives (while also finding out if that thing I was working in it’s still viable -but my guts are telling me that’s not going to happen :’)))-), already did a big payment, and I have a few things that I did that haven’t been fully paid, either.... You can imagine how tight I’m right now about my own decisions.

The fact is, I’m also overthinking things. 

I’m a mess when taking shopping decisions... and it’s quite been a while since I have used my other frequent shopping sites. Maybe things would have been more simple if I was still fresh on how things were managed (my problem with CDJapan was mostly related to ‘wait, a pre-billing agreement? I need to cancel the thing with the older -my dad’s- PP account to use my own?) when I last bought smth physical online from international sites... but lol, my local currency was screwed over by the USD last year... it kinda got as it was earlier last year in the past month... Hence why I have been all “MAN, I really want to buy this and this, now that I CAN”.

In conclusion, I am a ball of stress since yesterday.

I know how the whole payment is going to cost me, as it’s expensive because proxy services, right? But, even considering that the last thing I bought with a proxy was the DWD game (and same service, to top it all)... I’m still pretty on the unknown of what to do next. Five or six items from the same shop, that gather my interests... the equal is 600 yen... and yet, I don’t know if they DO have a limit of how much items can be ordered from the same shop... this time i’m being VERY cheap -because using the insurance buyer plan doesn’t allow me to use Registered SAL... so speaking on terms of “insurance” I’m going for the cheaper plan... which means the order is not going to be covered as such, LMAO. However, there’s still the whole “what if” situations on my head.

I haven’t had problems with Registered SAL on the past... because most of the problems have been related to MexPost, my country’s post service. Tracking always assure me that the package is on track and I KINDA reclaim about it on the post office... however, the guys there do not register things on time and aduana is a pain in the butt, 80% of the time (even I had a HARD TIME with a package that was coming from the US!!!)

I never really vent about this on Tumblr, but I did on Twitter at the time... but last year I lost a package... which contained certain bromide. I do not who to blame here: maybe it was my fault giving not well-worded shipping directions? maybe it was the sender’s fault? maybe it was MexPost? Same kind of worriness went to the Tenifesta pamphlet, as it was sent on Air Mail... and that one DID arrive at last on late March.

The things I’m overthinking is mostly in what ifs scenarios. Setting aside my thing with PP and the fact that it may be more simple than I’m assuming (because I’m really that clueless), I’m thinking “is this shop REALLY trustful?’, ‘can I trust the proxy that the things may arrive to their warehouse?’, ‘can I trust in the shipping method’? ‘Am I REALLY trusful that MexPost isn’t going to screw big this time?’... especially with the money I am spending on it.

“Then, why are you buying in the first place... or why are you waiting too long to make decisions?”

I think what encapsulates my problem mostly retails on the proxy service and my trust issues with MexPost. Especially the latter.

It’s pretty much blind faith and trust. Even with tracking.

I really want to be more assertive and say “this is it! I’m going to buy this!” but I’m also very wary of my own expenses. 

And this also unfolds another isues that have me thinking a lot in the past couple of months. *lies down*

I dunno what to do. It’s also one of those “buy this now or regret it forever, because the next chance may or may not happen at all”, so I really don’t want to wait so much longer.

This is one of those things that I also tend to discuss with my family at times to arrive to a common consensus, with the only thing they conclude with me is that ‘is my money’ :’D. So... probably I will have a clear answer tomorrow... and I will probably be buying those things, too.