#I did this for her p5 verse

[iiguess]

which aesthetic™ colour are you?

FOREST GREEN.

You're in your own world, spinning fictions and building realities and finding the poetry in ordinary things. The people around you can tell there's something special to you, and you're well-loved by a some very good people. But even to your closest friends, you're a bit of a mystery. This always surprises you to hear, because you don't mean to put walls up-- you just get so caught up in things nobody else sees that you forget to let yourself be seen. You're complicated, and sometimes you get tangled in it. Don't worry, though, it's not off-putting; despite your accidental air of mystery, your warmth can be seen like a campfire through distant trees.

[epitomees]

akechi vc: omg it's naoto!!! can I have your autograph OwO

It's quite a surprise to see whom was eagerly begging for something simple like a plain signature.

Akechi-san. Another well-known, budding detective around her own age. Someone more inclined to take the spotlight upon solving tough cases. Although her own opinions concerning the paparazzi's intrusive involvement differed greatly over the younger teenager, his work did make a good impression. However...an autograph? Was he fangirling?

Well, at least it was more tolerable than those Detective Prince cult members...

"...you're Detective Goro Akechi." Blunt and monotone, as always. She kept her hands tucked inside her jacket pockets while facing the taller boy. "...and you came to stop me for a simple request like this?"

[thedetectiveofinaba]

An update to my main verses: the P5 verses will NOT include any events from the 3rd Semester unless plotted otherwise. I don't have enough creativity to have an ideal future for Naoto and I don't want her to go through a false reality. Unless stated otherwise she's just minding her own business and happy that the corruption seems to have faded away from Tokyo for a while & focusing on her job.

[samasmith23]

Futaba Sakura from Persona 5 Royal and Autistic Coding

I recently encountered a really phenomenal article analyzing how Futaba Sakura’s character from Persona 5 Royal effectively functions as autistic representation, even if the game’s developers didn’t intend for her to be so:

Speaking as an individual on the spectrum myself, I very quickly picked up on the autistic coding of Futaba given her strong special interests in computers & anime, as well as her difficulty in socializing with others. Plus, Futaba’s arc of voluntarily requesting a change of heart from the Phantom Thieves to overcome her suicidal depression & self-loathing shut-in status following her mother Wakaba’s alleged suicide had me on the edge of my seat. Witnessing Futaba enter the mindscape of her own palace in the cognitive world and not only realizing the truth that Wakaba actually did love her daughter and that the alleged suicide note uncharacteristically blaming Futaba for her death was just a cruel forgery (fabricated by the corrupt politician Masayoshi Shido’s henchmen who stole Wakaba’s cognitive psience research on the Meta-Verse before murdering her via mental-shutdown), but also seeing Futaba merge with her Shadow-self to awaken her own Persona and actively assist the Phantom Thieves in defeating the distorted false memories of her mother born from her own self-loathing was legitimately powerful! I related so hard to Futaba’s mental struggles and efforts to overcome her anxiety during the boss fight with Cognitive Wakaba here!

And even after defeating Cognitive Wakaba and clearing Futaba's palace, Futaba herself still maintains a lot of her autistic-coded traits despite no-longer isolating herself in her room 24/7 and being more socially interactive with her fellow Phantom Thieves (although she still does struggle with being out in public). It expertly avoids the ableist trap that's sadly commonplace in other media wherein a character is "cured" of their neurodivergence. Here however, Futaba not only willingly requested the Phantom Thieves to change the distortions in her heart, but all they did was help Futaba to find the stregnth and courage to overcome her feelings of self-loathing, depression and suicidality on her own. She's still the same socially awkward & tech-savy girl that she was prior to the "change of heart," but she's now chosen to embrace the best aspects of herself (which are a part of her neurodivergence) rather than imprisoning herself in a tomb of self-loathing (which was symbolized by her Meta-Verse palace being an Ancient Egyptian pyramid isolated in the desert that Futaba's Shadow was the Pharaoh of).

Also, Futaba may not be the only autistic-coded character in P5 Royal considering that my personal favorite cast member, Makoto Niijima, also struggles heavily with socially interacting with her peers despite her status as a highly committed Student Council President devoted to her studies (initially studying solely because it’s what society and the adults in her life expected from her, before deciding to utilize her passion for academic knowledge to help the oppressed out of her own personal sense of justice).

While Makoto is still my favorite P5 Royal character overall, Futaba Sakura is easily in the Top 3! And I choose to headcanon both characters as autistic!

[theminecraftbee]

okay the smallishsona au is awesome and im obsessed with it- i have one question and one silly idea: do psi and nuke abilities exist in this verse? bc you didnt mention them in the technical part. my one silly idea is that lizzie is joel’s cat. shes just a normal cat but he refers to her as “the missus” like, “sorry mate, can’t hang out, the missus needs me today”

on the one hand part of me is like “I don’t want to do lizzie dirty by making her a cat”. on the other hand, that’s really funny and she DID sort of make herself a cat first so MAYBE???

anyway, nuke and psi don’t exist here because it’s been long enough since I played p5 that I. forgot they existed. and I don’t feel like dealing with them. giving light and dark non-instakill skills is the most I’m doing with the new p5 elements I think, we’re sticking to agi/zio/bufu/garu/hama&kouha/mudo&eiha for this au I think!

[rontra]

How does failteacher Yuri interact with the greater plot of persona 5? I remember Toriumi mentioning 'some weird shit in 2010', but do the two of them have to deal with stuff like Kamoshida's change of heart and the principal's death?

the current policy is that unless something directly and immediately relevant comes up the answer is "it doesn't"

for 2 reasons. number one is that i don't feel like binding myself to the month-by-month timeline of p5-the-game in too much detail, because i'm lazy, and making my AU up as i go (lol). and the second reason is that observing the plot from a completely uninitiated unrelated POV is just not very interesting to me....... orz

one important thing about my failteacher AU is that it's a casual n sloppy style(!!) project that i do this way because it's fun (and as soon as i stop having fun i will stop making it). the vibe of creating it is just as important as the vibe of reading it. my worry is that committing too hard to ~The P5 Plot Is Happening Among Us~ would have me too distracted by logistics and timeline puzzles that aren't even relevant to the story i'm trying to tell, and suck the fun out of the project for me...

due to the year difference btween the 2 games, the plot of P3 did happen in 2009-2010 (the "weird shit" comment was in a doodle but yes it did happen and parts of it will be Main Comic Material later when relevant) (and i think its obvious enough from comics like #3 and general characterization that the Hermit 1-10 arc took place) (BUT MODIFIED IN VERY IMPORTANT PLACES. LOL) but obviously toriumi was an uninitiated & unrelated POV to that game so she doesn't really know that much about it outside of the parts that directly impacted her (which to be fair. are pretty serious)

p5 is much scarier because its looming on the horizon in FRONT of us and i hate being confined by a tangentially-related-at-best timeline. directly dealing with stuff like the fallout of palace 1 is a MAYBE? but ONLY because there are tangible Relevant consequences for -us- (more scrutiny placed on shujin teachers -> ms chouno gets on kawakami's ass, etc)

im gonna be real withyou i didnt even remember the principal dies. MDHNBFGB sorry to this man

all in all its just like. 99% of the plot of p5 is stuff these people are not privy to (kawakami's % is removed due to her no longer being joker's confidant thanks to hermit meddling) + committing to that timeline too hard would be abrasive to the comic + im much more versed in p3 minutiae anyway (especially later on in the p5 year). so its kind of like. well. just try not to Expect anything too major xD

if smthg catches my interest and i can work with it to make an interesting development, sure. but in the end its like why would i risk binding myself to specific points of a timeline and incurring Untold Rammys when i could simply not do that to myself. you know 😭

HOWEVER. FOR UNRELATED REASONS THAT ARE IMPORTANT BUT MAY OR MAY NOT PAY DIVIDENDS LATER (<- what did he mean by this?) it is seeming INCREASINGLY LIKELY that we might in fact currently be in the autumn -before- p5, meaning joker enrolls come spring in a few months and the game starts then.

^this paragraph directly contradicts everything above it but its fine. i have my reasons. just don't hold me to it TOO closely. i don't want to commit to a timeline just to be boxed in by unforeseen consequences later. but if you were curious there is a quiet notion in the background that says the plot of p5 proper hasn't started yet.

it's a "soft fuzzy timeline" but that's Secretly where we're at in it . kawakami bitching about her awful new student come April <3

So Perhaps Time Will Tell. if they're still doing this shit come May maybe i get to blow kamoshida up or whatever

[chibitantei]

A VERY DESCRIPTIVE PROFILE OF YOUR MUSE. Repost with the information of your muse, including headcanons, etc. if you fail to achieve some of the facts, add some other of your own!

NAME: Shirogane Naoto ( 白鐘 直斗 ).

NICKNAME: Detective Prince, Nao-chan (Teddie) immensely dislikes it but doesn't say anything, Kazuki (Naoto multiverse only).

TITLE(S): 2000 IQ Killjoy Detective (Arena).

AGE: For her canon verse, it depends where in the Persona timeline I put her, so she could be 13-22, but I mostly write her during or post P4, so 16-18, somewhere between grumpy teenager and not-quite-adult. I usually specify her age in other verses, such as the P5 AU where she's 18.

SPECIES: Human. She's a werewolf and a kitsune in some AUs, though.

SEX: Female.

NATIONALITY: Japanese.

INTERESTS: Solving crime, being a detective, building and modifying her weird gadgets, reading books that are related to mysteries and crime, origami, playing the piano, billiards, magic tricks, doing puzzles, putting together model kits.

PROFESSION: (Moderately famous high school) Private detective. One of the best ways to annoy her is to call her a cop.

BODY TYPE: She is short and skinny and underweight. You could lift her and throw her into the trash can with ease. Despite looking like a twig, she's a little more fit than you'd expect, but it's not much.

EYES: Depending on which official art you look at, it's blue, blue-gray or gray.

HAIR: Natural crayon blue. It's a little spike-y and messy in the back, and there are little tufts that stick out on the sides. It's also layered in the back. It's... not a look.

SKIN: Fair, maybe a little pale. She doesn't get enough sun.

POSTURE: Stands up straight, tends to place a hand on her hip or cross her arms. Brings a hand up to chin when she's in deep thought, sometimes paces around, taps her finger or spins a pen around. When impatient, she might tap her foot. Any time someone manages to fluster her, she tugs at her hat, pulling it down low to hide her embarrassment.

One may argue she's too stiff all the time, but Naoto pays too much attention to her posturing. She doesn't want her appearance to reflect badly on her family.

HEIGHT: 5'0" during P4, 5'3" afterwards so she's less of a tiny thing.

VOICE: Romi Park (Japanese) and way too many English voice actresses. Anyway, Anna Graves (P4 and first Arena game), Mary Elizabeth McGlynn (Anime), Valerie Arem (everything else).

Romi's Naoto, even with her deepest voice, isn't exactly the most masculine sounding, but she gets away with it due to her voicing a lot of male characters like Edward Elric and the white haired guy from Bleach.

Graves is the most iconic ENG voice, but she doesn't do a good job of selling Naoto's disguise. The laugh is good, though. McGlynn is the best one when it comes to selling the disguise but she also voices Kashiwagi, so do you really... want her to match with Kashiwagi. Do you. Arem... I did not pay attention much to but she's doing fine. I think.

Overall, I like Romi's Naoto the most and I keep her portrayal in mind, but I really do not care which voice you read my writing with.

SIGNATURE OUTFIT: More like signature accessory... her blue newsboy cap. In fact, it's rare to see her without it (hence why I need to get alt FCs to pretend they are Naoto without her hat). She is also defined by her inability to not have the color blue anywhere on her person, such as her stupid coat with the popped collar. Or her blue collared shirt and yellow necktie. Generally, if a detective would wear it, she'd wear it. No skirts or dresses, unless it's a disguise for a case.

SIGNIFICANT OTHER: Depends on verse.

COMPANIONS: The Investigation Team are her closest friends, although she is absolutely terrible at expressing it. Would get along with SEES and the Phantom Thieves, although she doesn't fully agree with the latter's methods.

ANTAGONISTS: Most Persona antagonists, especially those pesky gods trying to end the world.

STRENGTHS: Determined, courageous, observant, intelligent (most of the time), trustworthy, independent, caring.

WEAKNESSES: Stubborn, sarcastic, perfectionist, reckless, blunt, too independent, cynical, secretive, often neglects her health.

FRUITS: Apples because they are very convenient to eat, but she's not really picky.

DRINKS: Coffee (not decaf and black coffee is preferred), water, sometimes drinks tea, juice or soda. When she's older, she drinks alcoholic beverages, but it's definitely not frequent.

DRUGS: ABSOLUTELY NOT.

DRIVER’S LICENSE: Has a scooter license, plans to get a motorcycle one when she's old enough so she can ride her silly little bikes.

Tagged by: It's legally okay to steal from myself. Tagging: steal

[texeoghea]

in the interest of differentiating more for myself and the ppl who keep following me for my insane out of context doodles

SURVIVAL AU (tagged #survival au): mine. basic premise is akechi is resurrected by an outside force after the events of persona 5 royal, to fill a similar role to what he does in the game. he is warned of this by a separate force that is also a pawn in the game, and with that knowledge, aims to take control of his life and destroy the concept of fate, freeing himself and possibly future wild cards from being forced into the cosmic battle between Philemon and Chaos. takes place in Ireland, and has multiple parts. the first part takes place concurrently to Persona 5 Strikers, the second part involving Sumire happens 2 years after P5R. later parts skip in decade intervals. ik ik his death was warranted he was doomed by the narrative etc i just think goro akechi as a character would also out of spite refuse to die the way he did if given the chance to take it back, because he would want to die on his own terms and not under the influence or control of another, whether that be a person or a god. especially if its a god even. and kurusu got to kill a god akechi deserves to do that too its only fair. i do have plans to script and eventually turn this idea into a comic, because i've made a LOT of ocs and lore for it and i think about it often. the rough draft of the first 3 chapters were on ao3, but i deleted that because i ended up scrapping those parts entirely

Aisling originates in this AU, and arguably has a large role, but she was mostly made for a Persona thing that's more original, which i'm making with my friends. Celeste is also an OC from a different verse that i reformatted for the friend oc persona bash. if youre interested in her you'll Probably find more of her in her other, original tag, #astriferous harmonia celestica, from my pokemon AU, Destinations.

MONKEY'S PAW AU (tagged #monkeys paw au): created by me and @oatchi. basically akechi realizes that he's in a time loop (mimicking the nature of P5 as a video game/save resets) and gains the ability to remember previous loops from Yaldabaoth. he then proceeds to reset time A Lot to try and 1. escape the time loop 2. get revenge on shido 3. ruin akira kurusu's life. ive made like 4 posts for this and theyre all incredibly disjointed due to the nature of time loops but i figure if im gonna post some i might as well give people Something. its me and callies little sandbox tho i cant even promise how much more will get posted we are here to have fun

[cadcnce-archived]

@psychcdelica sent: I still think about the journey and development WySae has been through, one that kinda just started as neighbours who pranked eachother (but Wylan totally won just with the furniture on the wall bit), to kinda friends or at least friendly with eachother, enough to accept a lot from the other - (lowkey think about the Mr Sandman answer...) Then we have a kinda timeskip which works perfectly in the Ai:TSF verse, (dont get me started on how happy I was when you started playing this game!!) And just, ugh, the awkwardness of reuniting, to another kind of tension of 'will they, won't they?' To dating, to a well loved proposal to having a daughter and their own little family! I just, love them so much and I'm so thankful I got to share that with you Bear!

And to think- this entire rollercoaster between them started over five years ago at this point. Quite the journey. Wylan and Sae are one of the ships that's seen so much investment, memes, and unexpected turns over that period of time. And how it's molded to fit the change of times! Funny now to think there was that period of time where they were set as platonic when Cat/Kanami was around.

Alas. Even if there's some stuff I fondly look back to from the P5 era (Wylan confronting the PT crew when they assault her palace for example) (the possibility of them fighting alongside each other in another palace) (basically everything with the case) it really was for the better that we moved things into AITSF given how much it has held both of us haha.

In hindsight I'm glad I waited as long as I did to play that game, otherwise I feel like things would have... I dunno, lined up differently? And it wouldn't have led to Sae getting involved? Keep in mind we ALSO almost had that post-P5 thing with Mitsuru instead! Which... while okay, doesn't come close to the plot we built in AI. We're both much happier now with how this was has played at.

Allover it's been one of my favorite verses to explore, and I have you to thank for it. Whether it's Wylan confronting himself and the person he is and could be, or exploring a reformation arc with mild redemption streaks. To ... shit, exploring him as a father. Not many ships have gotten to that point with him and I do adore it as much as the man goes out of his way to avoid romance and the L word. Silly lad, this is why he takes so many L's in a relationship. :^)

We're not even done yet. There's so much more to write with these two and I'm probably going to be doing this or something close to it another five years from now. If you're in for the long game, then so am I!

[obeysword]

I've used the deception that Yu feels like he's been prostituted for most of his life when discussing his trauma and problems. For a long time he’s felt like he has been selling himself: body, mind, and even spirit to these people who were meant to raise and care for him but only used and objectified him in order to make themselves look better. His parents are the worst offenders to his abuse, but they are certainly not the only ones.

While Yu never had to sleep with anyone, I don't think he cares. Sleeping with someone for anything wouldn't have changed the situation and what he was made to feel all his life. He wasn't a child, he was a resource. If Yu hadn't taught himself how to cook, he would have starved to death. At age 7 he debated if he should die of hypothermia and watched the snowflakes fall on him as he laid in the snow. He got up and went home, and got incredibly sick. These are not the normal thoughts of a child. His mother didn't take care of him, as his getting sick with a high fever was an inconvenience to her. 

He sees how much society has preyed on him from a young age and taken everything he has to where he's nothing if he's not a commodity in some way shape or form to another person. Nothing was ever his and he was never good enough because his value would always run out. He refuses to be subjected to that treatment by others, but escaping parents and other adults was a different matter with their power and throwing it around to a child. Yu's parents abandoned him and shipped him off to his uncle, they didn't want him and they did not want him back. He packed everything he owned to spend a year in the countryside. If he was coming back, he wouldn’t have had to take everything that belonged to him for just a year. Dojima was a stranger Yu met as a toddler, didn’t know he had a child, and didn’t even know his job. I hc third year Yu’s parents stay overseas. Yu was never meant to return home. Dojima could have been a source of a good parental figure, one that Yu desperately needed. But he made a lot if mistakes and in the end, those mistakes piled up and Yu severed his bond with him. 

The point I'm trying to make here is that Yu is someone who feels like he's been raped constantly throughout his life. I can't imagine a better word to use that carries the weight of how much pain and trauma he has to live with and still hasn't healed from by p5 verse. He's also touch repulsed due to his trauma and it could have grown into a serious phobia if he hadn't met Yosuke and started his journey when he did. He likely will never recover from everything he's been through. He accepts what happens to him. But he's been used so much what's one more person again going to change anything. He’s normalized much because of this. His stunted emotional growth makes it challenging for him to pick up on social cues because he struggles to empathize with the people around him.

Yu hates humanity to an almost absurd degree. He will never think it deserves the chance it has been given and that it should be erased. He would be the worst villain in the series with his unparalleled power, intellect, and inability to see reason and understanding. Preaching goodness and strength means little to his grey mindset. A few good apples don't make the whole batch any less rotten. 

[iiguess]

mun vs muse!

TAGGED BY: @tres-fidelis TAGGING: @tomahawk-swing, @em-dualism, @gamenu, @stxr-bxster, @beauthief and you!

[webbedphantom]

Random P5 Verse Headcanons

No rhyme or reason to it, I just thought of two of these which reminded me of another, so I figured I'd make a post about 'em.

So first up, I think almost every single one of the Palace Rulers would call Aaron an "insect," which slowly start to get on his nerves because "Spiders are arachnids! How do you not know that??"

And when I say almost, I mean everyone but Sae and Futaba. Sae because she just seems like she would know that for some reason, and Futaba because she isn't trying to antagonize any of the team so her Shadow doesn't really call them anything.

At first, he just starts off jokingly correcting them, but the more often it happens, the more it starts to annoy him. Like "Does nobody know basic Animal Taxonomy??"

Eventually he gets used to it for the most part, but he still finds it a little bit annoying.

The second Headcanon is one that I posted a few times on Twitter, but I don't think I ever did so here, and that is that Aaron could not take Kaneshiro's shadow seriously.

Like don't get me wrong, at first he totally bought into the whole "Yakuza tough guy" thing he was going for, all the way up until it came time to fight him... Because then he turned into a fly man... and started talking "gangsta."

Yeah, no he could not stop laughing for the first like 5 minutes of that fight, to the point that his sides hurt, which ticked Kaneshiro off to no end, but he didn't care. The guy ruined his whole image the second he started trying to act cool, which Aaron would proceed to mock him relentlessly for, making several quips about "You do know what spiders do to flies, right??"

This actually worked to the team's advantage, because Kaneshiro was so focused on trying to shut him up, that the rest of the gang were allowed to get several free hits in. Aaron did take a major beating, but it's not like he couldn't handle it. In fact, the "mock the enemy relentlessly" strategy was one they'd use for pretty much every boss to follow, aside from Sae, Akechi, and Shido. (Sae because he didn't want to make fun of her with her sister right there, not to mention they were kinda trying to save her, so it wouldn't have felt right. Akechi because he was way too ticked off to make jokes, and Shido because it wasn't really necessary, as he kinda was going to target Aaron regardless, plus the rest of the team rightfully didn't think it was the best idea to further antagonize the strongest foe they've faced by far)

Finally, a bit more lighthearted one. Even though this doesn't really happen in-game, I like to imagine Aaron and his Aunt talked regularly throughout his probation, just call her up to chat and get her up to speed with what's going on (minus any Phantom Thieves shenanigans of course). They're really close, so I have a hard time believing she wouldn't call to check in on him unless there was a reason she couldn't. And as petty as Shido can be, I doubt he'd be willing to waste time keeping her from calling him just to isolate him further or something

So yeah, they talk often, at least until after Christmas when his powers reawaken, since he gets a lot busier after that. But whenever they do talk, he brings up his friends quite often, only getting more frequent the closer he gets with them. He absolutely adores his teammates, so of course he'd gush about them to his "mom" whenever he got the chance. (Though he'd make sure to leave out any personal/embarrassing details that may have happened, like during their confidants for example, since those aren't his to tell)

[reflective-muses]

1-9 odd numbers for that latest meme

1. Who has been your favorite muse to play?

Oh goodness, that's a hard one. I think I'd have to say Nagisa from Free! was a lot of fun to play and write for. He's different from myself, but in a good way, and him being so extroverted and carefree helped to push me to be that way as well--at least within the rp community. I met some really great friends through rping him.

3. Are there any particular aus or plots that you’d really like to write?

For muses in a fantasy or historical setting I love modern AUs! I love to explore how muses would interact in our modern world. I love college!AUs as a more specific modern verse, but it doesn't work for all muses. Royal!AUs can be fun too. I love exploring AUs.

5. What is the most difficult thing about writing your current muse?

So I'll break this into parts since I'm a multi-muse blog.

For Kaveh, who is usually my strongest and loudest muse as of recently, I think it's because he's incredibly intelligent. I've rp'ed very smart muses before and also majored in STEM, but nowhere near the field Kaveh studied and works in. I'm terrible at math, geometry, engineering--you know, a lot of things architects need to know. I do, however, relate to him as a person and that overall I think makes him easier for me to write than some other muses.

For Tighnari, I think sometimes it's his very almost... dry way of speaking? I've played muses with a similar sort of personality and I love Nari a lot. I also majored in Biology so I have some understanding of what his research and studies kind of entail.

Lyney is one I added because I saw his character and thought 'Oh, he looks fun and interesting!' I think the hardest part right now is that the knowledge on him is kind of limited? I've read through all his (and Lynette's) lore and did his story quest, but there's still so much left to know and I need to knooooooooow~ I'm really excited to see how his role in Genshin plays out.

Futaba is a muse I connected with when I first played P5. I think the hardest part about playing her is some of her immense social anxiety and eccentricities at times. I also have anxiety, but not to the extent she had, at least initially.

7. Who was the very first muse you ever wrote?

I've been in the roleplay scene for a long time. If we're going waaaay back, I started within the Inuyasha fandom back in the AIM, Yahoo and MSN days rofl I rp'ed primarily as Kagome back then.

9. Do you write fanfiction, or have you in the past?

I have dabbled in fanfiction. I don't write a lot of it mostly because I tend to blank on plots? I read a lot of fanfiction though! If I ever end up writing anything I'll let you all know rofl

[of-the-true-autumn]

bunch of nonsense about raiding in xiv under the cut

i think the shittiest thing about wanting to actually start doing savage again is that after the shit fest i went through in edens verse, my self worth as a raider and even a casual player is like -5000. and like it's not even that i was a bad raider to begin with. just people were shit and even people in my own static made me feel like i was sub par. and someone whom i am no longer close to, as the last thing she ever said to me was about how i had no right to be in savage and i didn't belong there and should just quit. and as stupid as it is i never got over that, because she always had made me feel like she believed in me and that i could clear the tier. and then suddenly i felt like she was just lying to make me feel better, and maybe she was.

but now it's like, i can raid with rin. and i'll be able to enjoy raiding again cause her and i have wanted to raid together for a long time, and have been trying to since 5.4 but life always got in the way so we couldn't. but she's cleared p5s and p6s now because she wants to clear TOP. and i'd like to do TOP too but. i still have a complicated relationship with raiding. i've had lots of issues with people in this game being mean to me for making simple mistakes or just for trying to learn things on different roles than what i normally play. and i'd be lying if said that didn't taint my view of raiding. couple that with my old static and everything in edens verse ive sorta come to feel like maybe it is true, that i don't belong in savage, let alone ultimate. and rin has been raiding since stormblood and i don't want her to feel like i'm holding her back by making her sit through p5s and p6s again while i learn it because i wouldn't even be able to start till at least the beginning of march because i've been dealing with life stress as well as my own health issues. logically i know she would never feel like i'm holding her back, because she enjoys high end stuff more when we get to do it together because we enjoy just doing whatever together. but also it doesn't feel fair to her for me to start so late when she'll likely be on p8s by then and make her sit through it all again while i learn it when she could go on and be bis and start TOP. and the more i think on it the more i feel like im too docile and afraid to stand up to rude people due to hating confrontation and cause of past static stuff, that i just don't really have a place in savage anymore, let alone an ultimate.

also the plugin debates aren't helping jack shit because i've always been made to feel inferior for playing on console. and people act like shit can't be cleared without zoom hacks or whatever which isn't true. but i can't deal with the constant feeling of 'you can't clear high end shit cause you play on a controler and on console'. like i play on console cause 1. i enjoy it more and 2. i am poor as fuck with a lot of medical debt and other shit i cannot afford to buy a gaming pc or build my own.

which at the end of the day it all just sucks because when people weren't assholes, i loved raiding. i had a lot of fun with it and i had fun helping some of my friends who i did get along with from my old static discover a love of raiding too. like it's complicated. i love raiding, but i don't know if there's a place for me in it anymore, no matter how much i want to do it and how much i want to raid with rin like we always talked about doing.

[arcanexsouls]

( To the anon that sent me that ask for Aigis: thank you!

I'm just a bit curious about the context for it. I can tell it's a P5-style awakening. Was there anything set in mind or can I figure out a context? Mostly, did you want to see her from post-P3 or would an original verse where she was in P5 proper work? )

[tacitusauxilium]

&. 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐝, 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  you  know  that  dynamic  of  the  emotionally  closed  off  one  &  the  kind  one  they  have  a  soft  spot  for?  yeah,  that’s  the  vibe.  )

said from the lone wolf. // @tvstarkuma​ asked:  ❛ coming here to see you is the only place i could go. ❜ P5 verse in Tokyo

To say that Fuuka was speechless...was an understatement. There was Teddie, right there, in front of her! She could have sworn that this mission was going to be for the Shadow Operatives and them alone. And yet, when she asked why he was here, his words sort of took her breath away. 

“Coming here to see you is the only place I could go.”

“Teddie...” She murmured softly as Fuuka bit her bottom lip. Fuuka sort of was worried that something had happened back in Inaba--or... ...she had to ask. “...did you feel the shadow’s nest here, too?” Fuuka asked slowly, her hands on her chest. Of course, if she presented him with that, then he might have a reason to stay here longer.

...and would that be a bad idea?