He likes to blame his powers, the glasses for his inability to let loose and relax and not be so uptight and just have friends in general, but the secret is that Scott thinks that maybe he was always like this. Always on this edge of too weird. Scott doesn’t really remember his life before the accident, before the brain damage, but even back then he had a near encyclopedic knowledge of planes and a tendency to take things way too literally. Even before red took over his vision, he was called off putting and too serious. An alien in a world that spoke a second language of social cues he didn’t understand. The paranoia around the destruction his powers could cause just made what Jean calls his little quirks and others call his weirdness worse.
Scott knows there’s something wrong with him, that the brain damage changed him in ways he doesn’t realize but he knows Corsair and Alex know and don’t want to tell him. But there are things he fears are just him. Because he is weird. Because there is something wrong with him, his self not just his head, that makes people say that he’s off or a loner or just plain weird.
So Scott doesn’t take up the offer of fixing his brain when he is resurrected. He keeps the off-putting weirdness and red lenses that hide the fact that he doesn’t like making eye contact. Would he even be himself if he didn’t?
Finding out what Threshold Day is just resuscitated a part of me that died when people started dropping fandoms the second the show stops airing or within a month after a movie comes out or the second they finish reading the book. I’m not even that ‘old’, and watching fandoms die so young has ruined the experience for me in ways I can’t really put into words.
Threshold Day is what all fandoms used to be. We used to, you know, linger. We’d enjoy the endless possibilities of joy and creation from the source material for years, if not decades. Now a days people drop it the second it’s not happening right here and now, which is wild because nothing is forever current. Everything ends, but that doesn’t mean your affection for it has to. It doesn’t mean you can’t still enjoy it, find new meaning in it, or even come back to it later.
I don’t know, maybe the Star Trek fandom is just built different. They sure meant it when they said live long and prosper.
I don’t have the slightest clue what’s been going on in Riverdale but ending the show with a quadrouple is such a hilarious way to dodge endgame ship wars. Truly phenomenal work.
[Jigsaw on Oprah]: I think the hardest part was starting out, really. It's really difficult to find the support you need to just get out there and start doing what you love in this economy, you know?
[Oprah]: Absolutely, Jigsaw, absolutely.
[Jigsaw]: As a matter of fact, audience in the studio, i have a gift for you all, if you reach under your seats...
*Hundreds of painful shrieks as each audience member reaches into the tub of razor blades and used needles beneath their chairs*
I’ve been seeing a lot of House MD stuff on here lately and it’s so funny to me how truly wild (affectionately) it all is compared to how… simple the general reactions were when it was airing.
2006 after a full first season: “Dr House so mean.” “He and Cuddy should date.” “It’s always Lupus.”
2023, 11 years after the finale: “Here’s my Dr Baby Girl and his bf moving in together AMV set to WAP.” “Here’s my 900 page essay on who is a bottom or top in the House/Wilson household.” “My fix it fic isn’t actually a fix it fic because it’s cannon that everyone survives their life threatening situation.” “It’s always Lupus.”
Anyway. I’m setting this as my expectations for fandoms from now on.