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at this point god actually wants me to kill myself
#dead sister rant ahead:#listen to the song and see the lyrics and it’s pretty clear that this song is from the point of view of a mother grieving her child daughter#so like. child death is already a huge thing to me of course.#but there’s a song on this album (‘Go!’) that my sister LOVED#she had this whole original little dance she’d do to it whenever it came on the radio#and I never bothered with listening to or looking at the album#but now I come across this album again completely coincidentally#not knowing that it has any connection to that song until I listen through the album#at which point I’m like aww :’) she loved this funky song <3#but then just. finding out there’s a song about grieving a dead little girl on that same album as that song she adored#I don’t know. it’s hitting me hard#like what are the odds? writing a song about a mother grieving her dead daughter isn’t a common thing at all!#and then just the fact that I’m discovering this by complete coincidence all these years later?#I miss her so much. I miss her so so incredibly much. god#I’m not actually suicidal btw so don’t like. worry or anything. I’m safe. just not great emotionally atm#thanks to anyone who stick around to read this by the way#*stuck#anyways. love you tilds.
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oh my god okay. The fact that Wayne narrates the lore of the Creel House and Eddie narrates the Vecna campaign is so important to me. It means that Eddie grew up listening to his uncle tell stories. It means that those stories left such an impact on him, that he started telling stories of his own.
It means Eddie inherited the storytelling trait from Wayne.
#nobody speak to me I’m so emotional about this#why is this realization hitting me so hard right now#why does this make me wanna cryyyy#also I’m sorry if this point has been made before#I’m just lying in bed eating goldfish and feeling my feelings#i don’t even know if the duffers made that parallel on purpose but damn it’s deep#eddie munson
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i saw this tweet and found it interesting for two reasons. one is that some people base how good cartoon network would be to toh by how it treated su, and despite the fact that su’s treatment by the network was considered poor at the time, now its thought to be exceptionally good in comparison to modern shows.
two is how exactly su got impacted by a limited budget. a common criticism is how characters like connie, peridot, and lapis are left out of missions. but balancing a lot of characters is not only hard but also costly (extra animation, extra voices—it’s been revealed that the show is limited to a set number of characters per episode otherwise they’re over budget). animation mistakes are not uncommon since retakes cost extra. the entire reason the original show got cut short was due to loss of funding!
#i don’t know if pay rates differ per networks#but a.ivi and s.urrashu have said that they needed to work outside of su in order to make sufficient funds#it only makes me wonder what other ways su suffered from a lower budget#that we as the audience never got to see#in the vein of the too-little characters complaint#another part of that is that low-stakes episodes should’ve been abt the main cast instead of the townies#like last one out of beach city and too short to ride vs restaurant wars and kiki’s pizza delivery service#i definitely see that especially since that isn’t budget related#nor would it seem to be network related (even if cn had an ‘episodic episodes’ quota it could still be abt the gems#(another side note: /would/ cn even have a requirement that the show make episodes that can be watched standalone?#this is a question for the people who were around when su was airing#what episodes often got rerun?#was it the townie eps or the lore eps?#for example i heard that su once did a ‘peridot event’ where they just reran peridot episodes#which had eps that skip around in the show#did they even care about airing the story so that it made sense anyways?#id get it if the low stakes townie episodes were the ones getting rerun))#but i have such a boring view on that which is i think it’s simply because the creators like townie eps#like in interviews r.ebecca s.ugar has said she’s the type to be really invested in background characters#answers in interviews have been crafted in ways to hide what’s really going on though tbf#prime example of this is rebecca and ian saying the wedding being interrupted was meant to follow the common trope#when later in the art book they said that it was bc cn rejected the ep bc it ‘wasn’t interesting enough’#both could simultaneously be true! it’s a psychology thing though where people make up nice-sounding explanations behind what they create#in retrospect because they want it to be thought out in such a nice way they believe in it#the bigger problem is that not matter how many episodes there are of them#it can be hard for ppl to be invested in the townies the same way they are invested in the main cast#i’m sure that a million writers have made surefire advice on how to get an audience to care about characters#but off the top of my head i think it’s because 1. most don’t have strong motivations to get truly invested in#(exception is ronaldo but people find him too annoying to care about him)#okay i had more points and explanations but i hit the tag limit and idk if anyone is actually reading this so bye
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the hand that feeds
#dimension 20#my art#acoc#trw#many thoughts about them that im unable to articulate#just thinking a lot about how they were probably around the same age during the events of trw#and i think a lot about karna as far as i know not knowing any other warlocks of the hungry one besides herself#the scene in the inn when she looks in the mirror at the rot growing hits me so hard#something about being so young and all alone with the dread you feel about your own body#who can you tell who would get it#who can you tell that it wouldn’t feel like giving them something to use against you#idk i just think about these two a lot#wonder what it would’ve been like if they could have met each other#(do i have a fic where they meet that ive been procrastinating on uploading to ao3 for months. Maybe)#(i don’t write like Ever and i haven’t had the confidence to share it yet. anyway)#this whole post is just me talking to a wall lmao don’t mind me everyone#a crown of candy#the ravening war
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bottle of empty “angel’s envy” bourbon found on a grave last week. rest in peace
#i don’t know why it hit me hard#obviously alcohol for the dead is a practice that spans many cultures but#this is americana. to me#putting angels on the back of kentucky bourbon and leaving it for your loved ones#to remind yourself and them that there are angels everywhere#even in the most unlikely of places#they are everywhere because god is everywhere#christianity#catholicism#i don’t know if this is relevant but it was at a catholic cemetery#maybe it is#catholicism & alcohol are lovers
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i’m so dead still thinking about that moment in the punisher where frank was trying to comfort (?) amy when she had just shot someone and she was like, “wtf omg i just killed someone,” and frank was like, “oh no, you sweet summer flower, you just shot him,” *turns and shoots* “i killed him, see?”
#did you think my return to tumblr would be fueled by short bursts of brainrot#don’t worry Joel & Ellie could never fall from the top spot#i binged s2 of the punished in like 3 days#I didn’t realize I had only seen s1#I had seen little things about how there was another found father daughter relationship#but omfg I didn’t expect it to hit this hard#the punisher#this part was just so top-tier Frank castle comfort#Just mowed down 5 people#TO GET TO HIS KID??????#then she’s all distressed about having potentially killed one of them in self defense#so he makes sure she knows she still hasn’t killed anyone#now that’s a father to me#frank castle#amy bendix
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Actually curious as to what people’s general opinion of Ozbert is in this year of 2023. Does shipping them equate to getting hashtag cancelled? Are they still The OTP of the series?? Or are they strictly Platonic Besties For Life. I do not know
It’s weird tho bc obviously if you’ve read the manga you KNOW their situation is very Complicated™️. When they were both the same age it was fine but then Oz got yeeted into the Abyss and time jumped 10 years forward while he was in there for like 3 days and suddenly Gil’s like. 9 years older than him. But then Uncle Oscar still classifies Oz as being 25 even tho he’s physically 15. And then we find out that Oz’s body isn’t even HIS it belongs to Jack so that’s messed up. AND we find out Gil’s actually not just 24 he’s OVER 100 years old bc Baskerville shit. And THEN we find out Oz is actually the true B Rabbit so that makes it so he’s probably even older than Gil is. When we get to the end of the series they’re both canonically confirmed to be hundred(s) of years old so I’m sitting here like. Well,
ALSO looking at these manga panels and official artworks and stuff from the anime I’m like
Well, there’s definitely SOMETHING going on there, that’s for sure,
#And don’t even get me STARTED on the omakes. Holy shit#Shima speaks#Anyway either way they are a wonderful duo.#Gil’s always been SO ride or die for Oz and I respect that#I just see them together and I’m like 🥰 There they are. My boys#Pandora Hearts spoilers#Pandora Hearts#Ozbert#Oz Vessalius#Gilbert Nightray#They’re not straight. I know THAT for a fact. LOL#And see there’s the appealing thing. The absolute ANGST involved#Gil who grew up harboring feelings for Oz but knowing it was wrong and that he could never ever act upon them#And by the time he’s an adult he still has some sort of feelings for Oz. It’s very complex#And then out pops Oz from the Abyss!! And he doesn’t look ANY different from the last time Gil saw him#Meanwhile Oz who was still figuring things out but who was almost sure he liked Gil That Way#And then it hits HARD when he’s in the Abyss not even knowing if Gil is alive#And when he finds out Gil’s all grown up.#I mean YEAH I’d develop a massive crush too are you KIDDING#It’d be frustrating tho bc Oz is still technically a teenager.#But then he figures out oh hey I’m actually? A being that’s existed for a LONG long time. And one that isn’t even human#So I can totally see him whole heartedly chasing after Gil once he realizes that#Anyway. Rant over sorry LOL#Either way. Again. They’re so so close in canon there is SOMETHING going on between them#(Not to mention the fact the anime really loved that and tried hinting at it super obviously)
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no youre completely right - im a gay (trans)man and i legit wanna see so much more about the women bc There Is So Little. I wanna make a lesbian oc who gets bent in half by taash. im very normal.
i’m just tired man!!!! it feels so obvious how disproportionate it is when you’ve got. a cast of characters that we know almost equally little about. and a few of them explode in popularity and it’s like spongebob sticking his hand out the curtain. literally all a character needs to do numbers is to be a light-skinned man
#like you bring up taash!! we know equally little abt taash and emmrich. why is one FUCKING EVERYWHERE and i’m like. scrounging for scraps#sometimes i feel like there has to be a secret other main dragon age tag that has the real stuff in it#but maybe it’s just the tumblr userbase idfk#i feel like i’ve seen a little bit more of neve since the trailer but still not anything on the level as everyone’s fave boys#and before you hit me with ‘lucanis was in a couple short stories’ harding was in the literal entire last game. and she and neve had comics#there’s obviously something to be said about character types too. a lot of people love dark and broody#vs harding keeps getting described as Girl Next Door and that’s much less popular. fine i’m not going to argue abt individual tastes#but like. neve isn’t popping off??? on the columbo fansite????#everyone’s talking about emmrich’s experiments and research but no one talks about bellara’s??#like personally. ok. lesbian opinion so take that for what it’s worth. but i don’t understand all the lucanis thirst#davrin i could understand. davrin can get it. he gets way fewer thirstposts than the other men (hmmm interesting im sure it’s nothing 🙃)#i’m just like. tired. i don’t want to say people can’t enjoy what they’re excited about#but it adds up!#i feel guilty complaining when i am also not doing a lot of Female Character Poasting but like#there’s only so much i can do as someone who can’t draw and has been too busy to keep on top of all the breaking news
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He’s a guy. And I like when he’s a little silly with his ego
Simon Riley is just a guy (one of my favorite guys)
#art#beeshoneydeathandsong#ghost cod#ghost#simon ghost riley#simon riley#cod#cod art#soap mactavish#i got lazy with the coloring#Coloring takes so much energy#‘Hit me bitch’#Simon Riley is just a man guys#Trying really hard to make him kinda look like Samuel roukin#And also just a dude#But I don’t know how#Best attempt#Side view does NOT match what I drew#Trying my best
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#this question is very hard for me to answer so obviously I have to torment everyone else with it#cause like. like I can really see the potential in either answer. both are feasible#I will say. most realistically. to me. edwin first charles harder#because I think…..I think the reasoning behind the other way around usually tends to be about how edwin absolutely was slower to bond and#open up in general whereas charles hit the ground fucking running#but i don’t think that particularly applies to their romantic relationship#if you mean ‘fell for’ in a general sense rather than a romantic one then yes 100%#but that’s not what im talking about here#I have a few different reasons but generally I think edwin fell first because like… the way he attached himself to charles and accepted him#as his person and etc is so unlike him to do with literally anyone- especially at the point where they first met/the first years they knew#each other. charles just seems to have hit him as something very very special and irreplaceable quite quickly for him to open up the way he#did and change and flourish into a fully realized person because of how safe and worthy charles made him feel#he took to charles with an unusual amount of ease and trust and I think that says something about how charles struck his heart Early#whereas with charles… yes on one hand he did stay on the mortal plane largely because of edwin and absolutely would’ve been impacted by the#tender act of mercy that was edwin reading to him as he died so he wouldn’t be scared. that’s absolutely what got him to trust edwin and to#want to be with him and protect him and so on#but charles would still do that and be like that under intense platonic circumstances I think#but most importantly I just think charles fell harder. when he fell is less important to me here- more important is that by GOD that boy is#down so fucking bad and outright SAYS IT in so many ways that he doesn’t realize– the sheer amount he restates how he’s content so long as#he’s with edwin. how he doesn’t want to be anywhere where edwin can’t follow. would and Did go to hell and back for him. believes him#to be the kindest and most incredible person he’s ever met. prioritizes him above anything and everything. etc etc etc#that’s not to say edwin doesn’t feel a similar amount of devotion– but charles just. really loves him with his whole person. loves him as a#fact of his existence and a piece of his very soul#idk man. it just feels like he is so incredibly smitten and he doesn’t even know it.#like I said though I can see both options and give reasons for both options so this question EATS at me I GENUINELY don’t have a super#strong feeling either is absolutely correct. it’s so difficult to answer they’re both so smitten and have such a history and GRAHHHH#payneland#dead boy detectives#rambling#polls
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i am broken
#house of the dragon#hotd season 2#hotd spoilers#lucerys velaryon#rhaenyra targaryen#corlys velaryon#jacaerys velaryon#rhaena targaryen#i cried#i don’t know what they put in it but damn lucerys’s death hit me so hard
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Irulan and Paul in Dune Messiah if you squint and speak fail married.
cr: manhttn on ig
#I need to know that denis sees the vision#the line about none of them living happily ever after just hits too damn hard like woah paulirulan is that you?#don’t talk to me about the books btw#idc that they’re unrequited as soon as denis casted Florence that went out the window to me lmao#timmyflo chemistry is LETHAL to me sorry#paul atreides#irulan corrino#paul x irulan#dune messiah#dune part two#dune
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HIT ME HARD AND SOFT
#guys guys I’m obsessed with this album it’s not okay#also I love my kiss mark brush a normal amount!!!! :33#y’all better get the references on the sticky notes or I’m gonna cry#lunch makes me think of them and I don’t know why (I do. The second verse jadhsbabsb)#project sekai#akito shinonome#kohane azusawa#akikoha#shinonome akito#vivid bad squad#azusawa kohane#akihane#lyn-ne’s art#vbs akito#vbs kohane#pjsk fanart#colorful stage#hit me hard and soft#art
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tubbo saying, in a deadpan voice, “he’s not geordie!” to phil whilst he’s muttering threats to an enderman is genuinely the most i have laughed in a while
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Unfortunately just a doodle today. Lots of stuff to do and am very tired lol.
#art#x’s art#traditional art#hermitaday#tfc#tinfoilchef#tinfoilchef fanart#tfc fanart#This just showcases how much I don’t know how to draw animals#I wanted to draw bishop but like I said not much time#I started watching hermitcraft in July of 22 so unfortunately I never really got much time with tfc when he was around#His passing did hit me a little more than expected though#With the recent passing of techno and my grandfather being sick a lot I was getting worried as to what might happen to my grandfather#He passed a little over a year ago now but I like to think that my grandfather and tfc met somehow#Maybe He’s seen jellie and bishop#Idk lol#the afterlife is a very confusing topic for me. I know it’s probably real or whatever there’s plenty of evidence to say that it is#But it’s hard to think about#I’m getting off track
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the thing is. yeah joe will miss some promotional stuff and maybe even a tour depending on how long he needs (whatever things are already planned out like that that they can’t necessarily back out of). but the glimmer of hope that i have is i KNOW the other guys have his back and they’ll wait for him as long as he needs because fob is a family, and as pete always loves to say, joe is the glue that holds it all together ❤️🩹
#joe i love u forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever an#literally to the ends of the earth and to the moon and back and until the end of time and#i’m such a joe girl like i love the other guys to death but i don’t think it would hit this hard if it was any of the others.#it’d still hurt like a bitch but that’s my guy u know?#me emailing my profs: so something not that chill just happened give me an extension#ugh i’m crying literally HOW am i supposed to finish this assignment now#shut up kelci
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