Love Brought Weight
(A Sleep Family tale)
Word count: 9.4k
Warnings: No beta, complicated/toxic family relationships, trauma, hopeful ending
Summary:Â Hypnos just wished he understood why. Only to realize that maybe he understood better than most.
notes: OMG thank everyone for waiting ðµâð«I took a long time on this and i hope it worth the wait! Part of the reason I took so long is that I wanted to be careful with how I did this. I just canât read it anymore. LolÂ
There are no bad guys in this, except Cronus. Fuck that guy.
The title âLove Brought Weightâ came from the song with the same name. It is by Old Sea Brigade. I highly recommend it! This fic exists thanks @jun-yng who introduced me to this song. Otherwise I donât know if this fic would exist.
thanks everyone! Enjoy!
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Hypnos thought his mom had the most beautiful smile.Â
It was one that always seemed to surprise her when it formed, her dark eyebrows lifted up and her golden eyes bright like his for a singular moment.
Then it would die as if she remembered she wasnât supposed to smile, shadows flicked between the flakes of rich gold and dark amber in her irises.Â
It always saddened him when it faded, it was like watching a flower that got to bloom only for a moment before dying. Nothing he could say or do would bring it back.Â
Not for Hypnos.
~
First came Morpheus.Â
A star was born. Divine dreams of glory, of love and all the big and little hopes of every human ever to exist, finally given to form. He was a blinding light for a single moment before little chubby fingers reached out, crying softly as a trembling, weakened Hypnos picked him up.
His unexpected, supernova arrival into Hypnosâ arms had taken Hypnosâ universe and rearranged the stars and planets into something new. Something whole.Â
Hypnos fell in love when those hazy golden eyes peered up at him, his impossibly small hands curled against his chest and a little pout on that round face.Â
Morpheus was so tiny in his arms, and years later he would laugh at the memory of your shocked expression when he introduced his two greatest loves.
Your battleworn hands trembling as you gently brushed a knuckle on the vulnerable curve of Morpheusâ cheek and your voice had been so soft in awe.
Love, he has your eyes.
Hypnos had thought that Morpheus actually had Nyxâs eyes, before the world had made her heart cold. But he couldnât speak past the knot in his throat so he just nodded, blinking back tears.
At this perfect moment, his heart was overflowing.Â
Morpheus stared up at them, a gentle coo rising in his chest.
~
Hypnos felt his heart racing as he unveiled Morpheus to his mom. It was as if Morpheus was now Hypnosâ soul made to form and suddenly the world seemed so much bigger, so more dangerous than before.
His mom didnât smile, although her eyes had widened in genuine surprise. Morpheus was a chatty baby, his only wish was to coo and squeak to announce his arrival. He didnât look at his grandmother, more than happy to stare up at Hypnos instead.
Although Hypnos suspected he was only a bright red and white blur to his little starlight.
âI named him Morpheus, god of dreams.â Hypnos rushed to say, bouncing his son in his arms. He smiled down at his baby, unable to resist kissing Morpheusâ nose.
His mom sighed deeply, peering closer at Morpheus with a slight frown. âHypnos, are you sure you can handle a child? You still struggle with getting your actual work done.â
Hypnos flinched like she slapped him. He had to look away to hide the hurt. âI-i mean. I have to, don't I? Canât put him back where I got him.âÂ
His mom said nothing for a long, painful moment then she nodded. It was only after that she allowed a faint smile to form.Â
âMorpheus.â His mom said, her tone surprisingly warm. âIt is a good name for him.â
Hypnos clinged to those words like it was a raft even though his heart twisted bitterly. He did something right at least.
~
âHe looks at you with so much adoration, you know that?â Your voice was a rumble in the dim chambers.Â
You were smiling, your chin resting on your palm as you watched him bottle feed a very hungry Morpheus. The warmth of the firelight highlighted the tenderness in your expression.
Hypnos blinked in surprise, realizing that he was lost in his thoughts until you had spoken up.Â
You were always so careful now, watching their son like he might pick up a sword and fight you. He wanted to call you ridiculous sometimes but you always made sure to be mindful of the details Hypnos forgot like clean bottles, fresh clothes for them both and piles of cozy blankets in easy reach for Hypnos.Â
He looked down at Morpheus who stared back up with heavy lidded eyes, eating with pure satisfaction. The gold in his irises were dark, warm. He looked happy to be in Hypnosâ arms
âHe really does, doesnât he?â Hypnos whispered.Â
You leaned over and brushed a kiss against his curls, the warmth of your body against his side made him melt into you with a sigh. Your large hand drifted down his back and rested on his hip. You gave him a squeeze. âYou are a good dad, you know that right?â
âRight.â Hypnos said, fighting back the tears as he tried to believe you.
~
As a child, Hypnos reailzed hadnât seen his grandparent in a very long time. It was possible oceans had just been formed by the time- actually no, multiple cell organisms were definitely a thing when Chaos and Nyx stopped speaking.
Once as a very young child, before Charon was even an adult, he tried to ask if they could go see Chaos, Hypnos enjoyed seeing how their forms changed, shifting into a new thing as they made the grandkids play guessing games.Â
His mama had said ânoâ so sharply that it killed any noises around them, the darkness spilling everywhere. Hypnos drew back, his hands clasped together against his chest. His eyes were wide as he watched her take a sharp breath, closing her eyes for a long moment.
When she looked at him, he wasnât sure what that look in her eyes meant.Â
âHypnos, my gentle one. You wonât see them for a very long time, okay?â Mom had knelt down, taking his smaller hand into hers. Her skin was cool to the touch but not unpleasantly so. Her dark mouth was tight as she watched him.
He wanted to ask why. Why couldnât they go? Why did his mama look so exhausted at the thought?Â
âOkay, mama.â He agreed instead. He considered his next words carefully, unsure of himself now. âI love you.â
Mama smiled at that, her eyes widened as if she didnât expect to and brought Hypnos onto her lap for a hug. She smelled like sweet roses, making his eyes droop with sleepiness.
Hypnos yawned loudly, snuggling into her soft embrace. He almost didnât hear her whisper.
âI love you too.â
~
The twins were both a surprise and not at the same time.
Hypnos knew the feeling now, the way his powers grew heavy and lulling even for his form.Â
Even though he could have sworn that Morpheus wasnât this heavy, wherever it was that he came from. It was as if his bones were made of iron and all he wanted was a deep, deeeeeep sleep. Like comatose if possible.
Hypnos tried to make that joke to you once but you had looked so stressed that he never made it again.
However, Morpheus was older.Â
He no longer cooed at everything in his sweet baby speak nor did he need Hypnos to support his head. He used to take his naps so, so easily. Their little supernova was a clever and loud toddler now, determined to find mischief wherever he went.Â
Hypnos loved him even more now. But he needed rest.
âGo. Call for me if you need me.â You told him, giving him a chaste kiss as you held him close. You knew this time since Hypnos had made sure to inform you of the impending arrival of a child this time.Â
Although to be fair to Hypnos, he didnât know the first time either.
âMorpheus and I shall keep each other entertained for a bit.â You told him as Morpheus ran through the hallway, his little footsteps loud on the stone. He was laughing to himself in pure delight.Â
You and him watched their child run back and forward in quiet envy, wondering where he found that energy.
Hypnos gave you a look but you kissed him again, smiling as you did. He lingered with the kiss, resting against your solidly built form before he broke it.
Closing his eyes with a sigh, he wished that he could bring you but his powers became unwelcome to anyone that wasnât him. Like a snarling bear if he had to put a name to it.Â
So he gave a playful and wet kiss on a squirming Morpheusâ cheek and got one more from you.
Then Hypnos went.
Time didnât exist here, not in the realms of dreams. Fine mist and inky blackness swirled around him, and Hypnos slept and slept.
Dreams of graceful animals running wild in the forest, quicksilver fishes darted in the foamy waves, birds in everlasting flight. He dreamt of fire to create copper, clay becoming bowls, vases, art. Farmer tools being put to work, stones creating kingdoms.Â
When Icelos came to form, her arms were curled around tightly around another being as if already daring the world to just try and take her twin away. Hypnos stared, his mouth parted in genuine surprise.
Icelos was lightness, her downy curls moonlight soft and her twin, Phantasos was darkness, his curls were the exact shade of your hair. He was so small too. No wonder Icelos was curled around him so tightly.
Hypnos drew both of them close to his chest, kissing them both as they fussed against him. Hypnos was crying but he couldnât stop himself. His heart was breaking all over again and he knew that his universe was recreated once more, twice over.
âHello.â He sings to them with a laugh. âWelcome, my little starlights. There is so much waiting for you.â
When he woke up, it was to the weight of the twins in his arms, your body against his and Morpheusâ slow breathing.
~
When Hypnos and Thanatos were little, his mom used to play hide and seek with them. Â
Her long, elegant fingers covered her golden eyes as she began to count down. Thanatos always moved first, grabbing Hypnosâ hand and they would fly down the hallways to hide.
Thanatos was better at hiding for a short time before his own impatience would get to him but Hypnos was better at waiting. Even when Thanatos would peer out to see if their mom was close.
Hypnos never did. He was content to curl under the curtains or tuck himself deeper between the pillows as he waited. He would close his eyes and dream until he was found and lifted into her arms.
One day, they just stopped. Thanatos no longer grabbed his hand and his mom no longer covered her eyes. She looked at Hypnos like he wasnât hers. Not anymore.
Hypnos still hid, curling up small as he could but no one came looking for him.
~
When Hypnos brought his children to the house, Queen Persephoneâs face had lit up with delight. Hypnos was a sucker for anyone who wanted to coo over his babies so he paused to let her admire them.
âOh they look beautiful, Hypnos.â Persephone sighed, her eyes going a little sad as Phanâs hand curled around her finger. Hypnos knew why and he tried not to let the guilt settled in his chest
Twice, she had been robbed of her own motherhood. It was unfair, so deeply unfair. Hypnos knew she would be a good parent, maybe the greatest. Certainly far better than him. Probably better than his mom.
You shifted, letting Morpheus use your shoulder as a perch, his little hands braced on your head. âThey look like crying frogs to me.â He informed the queen loftily.Â
âMorpheus. I told you before-â You scolded sharply as Persephone broke into a surprise laugh and Hypnos tried to act like his oldest didnât just embarrass him.
âHypnos?â His momâs voice was cool as she came closer, her mouth pressed tightly as her eyes went to the newborns, Icelos in his arms and Phantasos in Persephoneâs.Â
Morpheus went quiet, dropping down into your arms as if trying to stay out of Nyxâs sight. Hypnos knew his mom could be scary but Morpheus never warmed up to her, despite Hypnosâ best efforts.
âMom!â Hypnos said cheerfully, his smile softened as he shifted Icelos in his arms so Nyx could see her better. It was clear to anyone that Icelos was going to take after her grandmother even with her white curls.
âI thought you were only going to have the one, Hypnos.â Nyx said, her tone strange as she held her arms out to take Icelos. Hypnos fought the urge to curl his daughter closer and gently placed her in Nyxâs arms.
âYeah, sometimes life has other plans. This is Icelos. Goddess for animals and their dreams.â Hypnos said, his tone filled with pride and he accepted Phan back with a smile. âAnd her twin brother, Phantasos. He is the god of objects and their dreams. Never thought about a tool having a dream but hey, learn something new every day.â
Hypnos knew he was rambling but he wanted to see a smile form on her face, to know that she loved them just as much as Hypnos did. Nyx looked at Icelos for a moment longer, a hard frown on her face and his daughter stared back.
It was the most still he ever saw Icelos then his little girl broke in sobs, twisting as she tried to return to Hypnos. Nyx quickly held her out for someone to take and Hypnos shifted a whimpering Phan around in his arms.Â
It was you who grabbed her, curling Icelos close to your chest as you murmured comforting words.
âShe isnât going to bite.â Hypnos said sharply, and he never had spoken to his mom like that before. It just came out of him like a sharp blade, cutting at the person that scared his daughter.
Nyx locked eyes with him, her eyes narrowed and Hypnos didn't understand the gleam in her eyes.
He couldnât understand she acting so weird around his children because Hypnos knew she knew how to care for an infant, hell he watched her babied the hell of Zagreus plenty.Â
âThree children is a lot for anyone. Did you even think about this for a moment?â Nyx sighed. âIâm glad they are healthy, they really are lovely but You have bitten off more than you can handle. You couldnât even do the easy job you had here.â
Hypnosâ face went slack in surprised hurt.
âLady Nyx.â Persephoneâs tone was sharp, frosty as she stared up at the taller goddess. âI would think it would be more helpful to possibly offer advice. Not criticizing.â
âItâs fine.â Hypnos said tightly, his voice higher than normal. âReally it is all finnnneee. Mom, I think it is time for the kiddosâ nap. It was nice to see you all.â
With that Hypnos grabbed you, his fingers digging into your forearm as he took them all from the house.Â
Afterwards, when the twins were fed and calmed down for their naps, with Morpheus in his bed, sleepily murmuring a nonsense story to himself in his sleep, you eyed him.Â
âHypnos.â You said quietly. It was all that was needed.Â
âIâm fine. I mean, it is not an unusual response to new grandchildren right?â He swallowed.Â
Hypnos tried not to think about how your parents reacted. The way their faces had lit up with soft joy at the mere existence of their grandchildren. The way they promised over and over to watch the kids if they ever needed a quiet night or two.
Or the fact they spent their time and money on buying new toys or blankets for the babies, happy to just hold them for as long as Hypnos would let them.Â
Achilles and Patroclus loved each grandchild like they were their own flesh and blood.Â
So why couldnât his mom?
âI mean, maybe next time it will be better if she wasnât so surprised. I mean I did send that letter but maybe she didnât have time to read it.â Hypnos gave a watery smile. âIt is all good. She just needs time to adjust and you know she was really trying to be helpful in her own way.â
You looked like you wanted to say something, your lips twisted in that scowl that hypnos always wanted to kiss away but all you did was offer your open arms for him.Â
Hypnos sunk into you gratefully, closing his eyes as he breathed deeply.Â
This was fine. He was fine. Everyone was fine.
His mom wasnât wrong. Three kids would be a lot for anyone butâŠ
it wouldnât hurt to have some faith in him.
Right?
~
It was Zagreus who brought the little gifts from Nyx. Three darling little stuffed lambs, softer than clouds. Hypnos took one in muted surprise.
He had smiled at Hypnos, his mismatched eyes watchful. I think Mother Nyx felt bad. Um. My mom told me what happened.
Hypnos nodded absently, his fingers brushing over the soft head of the stuffed lamb, their eyes closed in peaceful rest. You were speaking to Zagreus but the words were like a buzz in his ears. Â
Hypnos held it close to his chest, wishing that he understood.
~
The children grew.Â
Morpheus was a bold child, effortlessly commanding attention wherever he went. Phan was so sweetly curious about everything, happy to cuddle during story time or to spend hours learning how things work.Â
Icelos took after you. Her little hand on your knee as she leaned over to watch you put together back a spear, her brow furrowed at your quiet instructions.
She looked just like Nyx. It was in the line of her jaw, the fine arch of her eyebrows and the shape of her nose. When Hypnos had stopped by the house without the kiddos, he had greeted his mom.Â
Hypnos knew his smile must have looked strained. Just like her face had. Mother and son unable to find the words. Both wanting something the other couldnât give. Didnât know how.
His first thought was just how she looked like Icelos.
Hypnos wasnât sure when he started to see less of Nyx in his daughter. What was once Nyx had become Icelos.Â
Icelos looked up and beamed at Hypnos, her dark gold irises gleaming and Hypnos smiled back.
~
There were lines of thin paint near the childrenâs rooms, marking their heights. It was something you began once Morpheus had bemoaned not remembering how many inches he grew in a single month.
It might be Hypnosâ favorite part of the house- beside his perfect, soft as a cloud bed.Â
Blue paint for Morpheus and Hypnos always smiled whenever his oldest stood on his toes to make himself bigger.Â
Green for Icelos, who always loudly claimed that she should be taller and canât they just check one more time.Â
Purple for Phan, who always seemed content with his lot, more excited to return to his newest project. Although Hypnod did overhear him asking how you got so tall.
âDada, look!â Phan tapped his line, beaming up at Hypnos. He was freshly washed up for bedtime, his dark curls slowly fluffing up. His hand was dragging his beloved lamb behind him.Â
Hypnos picked Phan up, kissing his soft cheek. Phan smelled like warm skin and sweet berries, the soap they got for the children. Hypnos pressed his nose in those curls, closing his eyes. âLook at that. How did you get so big?â
âI eat my carrots.â He informed Hypnos, sounding so much like Thanatos that Hypnos grinned. Hypnos gave him a tighter hug, playfully squeezing him as he began to carry Phan to bed.Â
From the sounds of it, you were trying to convince Morpheus and Icelos that they could have only one story for bedtime.Â
âI bet you will grow overnight. Maybe even taller than your father.â He whispered to Phan who grinned hopefully.Â
âCan we check when I wake up?â Phan asked, tucking his stuffed animal closer. âI promise to sleep really well tonight. Father told me to eat my vegetables and sleep a lot and I will grow like a weed!â
âWe can.â Hypnos said, his heart swelling with affection. âWe will check everyday if you want.âÂ
~
Hypnosâ visits to the House were becoming rarer. He told himself that he just didnât have time between his increased duties being god of Sleep, the keeper of both the river Leate and Elysium along with raising three perfect little babies.
Looking around the house, with the shade that took over his old job giving him a friendly wave, Hypnod tried not to admit to himself that without you or the children, his old home didnât have anything for him.
He didnât know if that was a good thing since his family was still mostly here, his brother and his mom. Even if she seemed more interested in her roses than him.
âHow are your little ones?â Mom asked, brushing her fingers on the rosesâ dark petals. She wasnât looking at him, her long starlit hair was a veil against her pale skin.Â
âOh. Um. They are great. Morpheus is picking up the lyre so easily now, he has been playing us a little song he made up after dinner each night. He has a real ear for it unlike me.â Hypnos rambled with a wide smile even though his mom seemed only half interested.Â
Hypnos could talk about his children forever, they were his favorite subjects. More than anyone or anything else.Â
âIcelos is so much like her father, she has been helping him with the weapons and stuff - with adult supervision of course-Â Donât tell her but we are going to be getting Icelos her very own bow and a quiver soon.â He couldnât hide the joy in his voice and didnât bother to even try.
The quiet pride in your face when you told him that you thought Icelos was ready for her own set might be one of Hypnosâ favorite memories.
âAnd Phan is just so curious about everything! He took apart one of the bookcases to study it better. He did need some help from Y/N to put it back together but I swear his mind is just-â
âHypnos.â His momâs tone stopped him short. He felt his heart drop to his stomach although she had said nothing else.
âY-Yes?â Hypnos kept his smile on his face although he knew it didnât look genuine, his mouth felt far too tight and pitched.
âIâm glad your children are doing well, but shouldnât you be preparing them for their roles? Morpheus will be dealing with mortals soon, is he ready for that? He doesnât need to spend so much time on the lyre.â Her voice was so calm and reasonable that it took a moment for them to sink in.
âi-i. I guess so.â Hypnos said although there was a heavier weight on his tongue as if he would very much like to say something else.
His mom lifted a cool brow. âIcelos can have her bow but you need to start training her to become a lady. I will make time to train her if needed. And her twin- you shouldnât let him do such ridiculous things-â
âYup!â Hypnos gasped out, floating backward, his hands were moving around, fluttering in the air. âActually I forgot I had something important I needed to do- sooo.â
His mom sighed, her face heavy disappointment. âYou still act like a child yourself. Hypnos, please keep in mind what we discussed.â
He didnât bother to respond that he was lying, already vanishing, his whole mood soured.
When he came home, it was filled with noises of laughter and the kids had gotten into the paint, pressing their little hands against the cool, dark stone. Their hands and smiling faces were covered in a rainbow.
You were holding Phan up so he got higher up on the wall since he still hasn't mastered the art of floating yet like Morpheus or Icelos.
âUm.â Hypnos blinked as everyone paused and turned to look at him. You returned the blink, a small green handprint on your cheek. There were some more hidden by your beard, hints of purples and blues.
Then you gave an easy shrug, grinning. You looked so roguish that Hypnos felt his cheeks flushed. âWe were left unsupervised for too long. For shame, my love.â
Hypnosâ mouth dropped open in shock but only pure laughter spilled out, âFine. But I am not cleaning this mess up.â
Maybe his mom was right but his kids were happy. You were too. Surely, that had to count for something. Even if it was only a few colorful handprints on a wall.
~
Three was a good number.Â
One to be the oldest, a middle child and the youngest. It worked. All the best things came in three or something like that. And if Hypnos was being honest, three children were a lot of work.Â
How did his mom attend to them all? Sure they werenât all born at the same time but still. Sometimes Hypnos wondered if that was what she was trying to tell him, to not be like her.Â
He sighed, barely awake as he waited for his dearest. Constellations sparkled overhead, but he was blind to it.Â
Thank gods for you, Hypnos didnât think he could handle parenthood without you. How was he supposed to remember to keep things in stock, like food and soap and paints or to clean the kidsâ beds or clothes and so many little unimportant things that were actually important?
Hypnos didnât know if it was a beautiful everblue summer, or a harsh dark winter when he felt the first spark. Deep and heavy in his bones. It had been so long since he last felt it.
It was faint but that's how it always starts. It would be a slow thing, almost like a pregnancy but only one that he felt, his body staying the same.
When he had informed you of the newest memberâs impending arrival with guilt and fear twisting in his core and his momâs words lingering in his ears, you had looked surprised.Â
Then you kissed his forehead and asked if Hypnos already had a name in mind.
Slowly the faint achiness grew and grew, weighing him down until Hypnos could barely move his head, let alone play with his children. This one was like a solid weight on him, none of his other children were so heavy.Â
He wondered if there was another set of twins waiting for them. But his instinct told him otherwise. All he could do was wait and see.
He slept plenty - since he was god of sleep after all- but this was near coma- levels, and Hypnos winced with guilt when he realized how much work he left to you.
âIt is fine.â You assured him with a yawn when you finally joined him, nuzzling against his chest, strong arms around his waist as you drifted off. Your voice was a warm vibration that sunk deep into his core. âYou still do the voices for bedtime, that is all IâŠâ
You didnât even finish speaking, asleep in mere seconds. The children had run you into the ground, filled with endless youthful energy that you couldnât hope to match.Â
Hypnos combed his fingers through your hair, smiling to himself when he heard a soft snore, his own heavy eyes drooping with exhaustion.Â
~
Sometimes, when one of the kids fell asleep in his lap, Hypnos would run his hand through their hair. The lullaby would rise up, the same one his mom would hum to him.
It was like the song was part of him, only to come alive in moments like this. This time, it was for his philtatos. Hypnos sighed deeply, the stars growing hazy like moonlight before his eyes.Â
Hypnos began to hum.
~
Inky blackness surrounded him, simmering greens and purples and blues like an oil slick.Â
Hypnos felt something heavy on his chest. He couldnât breathe. He couldn't breathe- tick-tock, wake up gentle sleep- where was he, Father Time loomed over all them, mouth opening wide like a snake- Pyrrhusâ mad laughter- he gasped and hands reached up or down- tight around his neck-
Then he jolted, his eyes snapped open as he fought to breathe.Â
He sat up on his knees and hands, panting harshly as blackness pulled at him, curling like vines around his arms, up to his face. He looked up, the dark colors dipping down from the ceilings.Â
Nightmares.
Normally they were better behaved than this, but they were twisting and dancing like Dionysus had infected them with madness. Melionë had told him that once he had returned, the nightmare creatures had calmed down for her. Became more obedient.
Hypnos gritted his jaw and with all his strength of his lungs, âSettle! Now!â
They froze for a moment, giving Hypnos a chance to break free before they began their mad, swirling dance once more.Â
Hypnos watched with suspicion, wondering what was the cause of this. The heavy weight in his bones had grown, and he desperately wanted to lay down.Â
Then he heard it.
A low soft hum, rising and falling. His momâs voice amidst the screaming nightmares.Â
AndâŠ
There was a baby crying.
Hypnos twisted around, scanning the area. When he saw nothing but nightmares, he snarled and pushed past them. His hands were shaking, his heart racing as he hurried down into the void.Â
Hypnos never truly understood anger like this, not before he had his children but the idea of his baby being scared and alone in the middle of dark made Hypnos feel like he could fight all of Olympus and win.Â
âJust wait, Iâm coming!â Hypnos yelled as he rushed, deeper and deeper, until there was no light left.
The humming was the only thing to guild him and Hypnos clinged to it like a light like in the cold night. He had to find them, he just had to.
And then the darkness broke.Â
The first thing he saw was his mom and her starlit hair that fell like a waterfall, spilling everywhere. Then when she turned, there was a small, crying bundle in her arms.Â
âMy baby.â Hypnos whispered, holding out his arms to accept the new life. Would they take after him or you? Would they have wings like Morpheus, or Icelosâ strength or Phanâs gentleness?
Nyx took a step away, holding the sobbing baby closer to her. Hypnos went still, his breath hitching in his throat. âMom?â
âHypnos. Think about this.â Her voice was strange, like too many people were speaking at once. âAnother child? Why canât you learn from my mistakes? I kept having them and just looked at what I ended up with -you, my biggest mistake.âÂ
Hypnos winced, his tears rolling down his cheeks but he didnât look from the creature. âYou are not my mom.â
The nightmare wearing Nyxâs face scoffed at him, her lip curling in disgust as she hissed. âUngrateful. Spoiled and lazy! Iâm keeping this one. He wonât be like you.âÂ
He didnât even hesitate. Hypnos reappeared in front of the nightmare, nose to nose and yanked his child out her arms. Divine sleep and parental rage darkened his voice to something blacker than the pits of Tartarus.
âHe is my son, not yours. Leave. Now.â
The nightmare just faded, becoming one with the shadows. Hypnos ignored all of it as he took his first look at his fussing newborn.
In every part of his sonâs face, it was you perfectly mirrored, softened by youthful innocent. When his baby finally opened his eyes, there was Hypnos, golden and bright even in the darkness.
Then Phobetor cooed softly, a smile just like yours forming on his face.
Just like that, Hypnos fell in love all over again.
~
A day or so later, they had the children meet their baby brother first. All three surrounded Hypnos, their expression a mix of excitement and skittish glances.
Icelos had gasped quietly, leaning over to get a better look. âHe is so tiny!â She whispered to Hypnos who smiled back at her.
Phan grimaced as he got a better look, unsure what to make of the baby. âIs he supposed to look like that?â
Morpheus scoffed, resting his arm on Phanâs head. âYou and Icelos were much uglier.âÂ
Before you could tell Morpheus to mind his words, Phan elbowed him in the ribs as Icelos kicked him. He grunted in pain but before he could snap back, you pulled them away by their tunics.
âHey! No rough playing near your dad or the baby.â You warned sharply, glaring down at them and waited until they nodded to let them go. They murmured an apology, and Icelos settled much more calmly next to Hypnos with a happy sigh.
âI love him already.â Icelos informed Hypnos and he chucked, âMe too.â
*What is his name?â Morpheus whispered when he sat down next to Hypnos, smiling down at his baby brother.Â
âPhobetor.â Hypnos said with a beaming grin. âGod of Nightmares.â
When they brought out little Phobetor to meet his grandparents, there had been a moment of muted shock in the living room.Â
Then Patroclus held out his hands.
âHe looks just like you, lad.â Achilles whispered, his voice thick as Hypnos gave Phobetor to Patroclus who took a shaky breath as he smiled down at his grandson. The infant fussed for a moment before settling back down.Â
âYeah.â You agreed quietly, disbelief still in your tone. You placed a hand between Hypnosâ shoulders, as they all stared down at the newborn. Faintly, he listened to the children playing, unaware of their grandparents visiting.
Hypnos will get them in a little bit, right now, he just wanted them to have this quiet moment.
âHe is beautiful, Hypnos.â Patroclus said, not looking away from his newest grandchild. They had loved all of the children but Hypnos understood this was different, not in a bad way. Not more or less.Â
Just different.
Phobetor felt like a new beginning.
~
Hypnos didn't know what to expect when he brought his newborn to the house. He was hoping against his own doubt that his mom would be welcoming, that she will hold her grandson with a smile.
He turned back to you, little Phobetor in your arms. He smiled despite all of his nerves. The way his mom had acted the last time he had brought the children to the house never left his mind.
It was why he had left the others in the care of Patroclus and Achilles. No doubt his children will be spoiled once more with the new toys and treats they always brought for them.Â
âShe might say something.â Hypnos warned quietly, tucking the blanket around Phobetor like it was armor.Â
Phobetor gave a little contented yawn in response, blinking up at them with heavy eyes. It must be nice to be a baby, Hypnos mused with a smile, a full belly, soft blankets and endless hugs.
He wasn't a noisy baby like Morpheus was -No one ever was- but when not having to deal with his powers scaring him, Phobetor might be his most easy going, sweetest baby yet.Â
Not that Hypnos was planning on more. Four was plenty. A good, even number.Â
You gave him a glance, your voice soft. âIf she does, we will just leave, love.â
âYup. But we donât need to, Iâm sure.â Hypnos agreed, trying to remain cheerful. He wonât let anything or anyone take away from how special this moment was, not even his own mom.
Hypnos tried not to think about how easy the bust of resentment came to him now.
When they brought forward Phobetor, he cooed sweetly up at Nyxâs frowning face. Unlike Morpheus who tried to hide, or the twins who fussed. His little Phobetor was just so happy.
âHe looks likeâŠâ His mom paused, her words careful. âNot like you.â
âNope. I finally got one that looks my dearest. Only took four tries.â Hypnos jokes, his back straightened as he watched for⊠he didnât know. Phobetorâs tears? More criticism from the woman that birthed him?
Their eyes met, son and mother, with a gap that was growing right before them. Had been growing for years now. It might as well be a chasm with an endless abyss now. If Hypnos knew what to say, how to build a bridge to reach her, he would have.
Even with all the hurt and quiet resentment in his heart. He would have. He just needed one little sign from her that she wanted that.Â
âI see.â His mom said.
She did not smile at Phobetor, did not take him into her arms.Â
She did nothing.
It was worse, he would have rather she said something.
Later, much later. When Hypnos was rocking Phobetor to sleep, the lullaby rose in his chest, a gentle hum that filled the firelit chambers like the Letheâ mist.Â
When he saw something wet land on Phobetorâs round cheek, he thought his son was crying. Only Phobetor wasnât, his dark lashes were closed, his mouth parted in an easy rest.Â
It was him, he realized.
Hypnos quickly wiped the tears off on Phobetorâ cheek, shame boiling in his chest as the tears kept flowing downward. He shifted so no more would fall on his baby, whispering an apology to him.
Phobetor was innocent, he didnât need to know that his dad was a silly little fool, not yet.
âHypnos?â You drew nearer, your hand cupping his chin upward and he gave you a wobbly grin. Your expression was torn, concerned marred by a quiet rage. âHypnos. My love, donât waste your tears on her- I swear she need-â
âDonât.â Hypnos sighed, closing his eyes as fresh tears came. âPlease. I donât think I can listen to it right now.â
You went quiet, wiping away the tears with gentle touches. It caused new ones to form, marking his cheeks. You took Phobetor, lingering to let Hypnos kiss his forehead in a goodnight kiss before taking him to his soft crib.
When you returned, you pulled him into your lap, holding him so tightly that Hypnos feared he might pop. He melted into it, sniffing like a child himself.
Maybe his mother was right. Hypnos never really grew up, did he?
âI just donât understand.â Hypnos whispered against your neck, his fingers curled into your tunic. âWhat is it about my children that makes them so unlovable to her? I saw how she treated other children. Hell she gave Zagreus plenty of hugs.â
You kissed his head, petting his hair to soothe him. âI donât think it's from a lack of love, Hypnos. I- i think she just wanted something else for you.â
âBut I am happy like this. Why canât she see that? What is wrong with m-me?â Hypnos gasped out in a sob, then another came, all the pain spilling forward like a conquering wave, drowning him in it. He was clinging to you now, like you were a life raft and he was drowning.
You were shushing him, rocking him and murmuring words that were lost to him. Some of it sounded like apologies, others were comforting.
Hypnos weeped until he couldnât anymore, cried until he had passed out in the safety of your arms.
~
Phobetorâs first word was âmilkâ, his cubby arms waving at the bottle. His face flushed with a determined pout. When he was just a little bit older, it was his turn to pick out his color. He was blabbing in that nonsense toddler language that Hypnos just adored.
Bowls of paints laid forward him, shades of yellow, pink, orange, red along with black and white.
His little hand slammed into the bowl of red paint, beaming up at Hypnos with a toothless laugh. Hypnos knelt before him, kissing his chubby cheeks as he pressed a hand on the cave wall, marking Phobetorâs existence along with his siblings.
Later, You whispered to Hypnos. Love, you do know that he picked red because it reminded him of his favorite person, right?
~
Thanatos came to visit.Â
In his hand was a single doll, a soft lamb with its eyes closed in gentle peace. Hypnos stared at it, his arms crossed his chest tightly. Thanatos looked between the doll and Hypnos, his scowl fading.
âMother Nyx sent you?â Hypnos asked his twin, finally holding out his hand to accept the offer. The stuffed lamb was so, so soft and Hypnos brushed his fingers along its head.Â
Phobetor will like it. Hypnos was sure of that.Â
âYes.â Thanatos peered at him. He hesitated. âYou never called her that before.â
âShe had told everyone to call her that for years. And I have called her that before.â Hypnos beckoned his brother in. Inside his home, there were stray toys, drawings and books.Â
It will get picked up later during clean up time but Hypnos enjoyed the chaos, it made the place feel lived in.Â
He could hear Morpheus working on his lyre again, the notes sweet in the air. As they passed one of the rooms, the voices of Icelos and Phan were going back and forward, no doubt plotting something to cause mischief.Â
He liked this too, the noise of his happy kiddos.
Thanatos paused, his eyes lingering on the wall of the kidsâ height lining, some muted marked by passing time while the new lines were still bold. âWonât be long before they will be out working with me and Charon. Do you think they will sleep as much?â
It took Hypnos a moment to realize that his twin was trying to make a joke to lighten the mood. He grinned, âI doubt it. Than, they wear out even y/n and his parents. He passed out on the floor the other day. You will need all the energy you can get to handle them.â
When Hypnos found Phobetor with you, both on the floor as he was knocking two blocks together as he chatted to himself, his little fat legs kicked out in delight.
âPhobetor, baby. Little baby starlight.â Hypnos sang as he joined his son on the ground, beaming when Phobetor whipped his head toward him, almost falling backward.Â
You braced Phobetor with a single large hand on his back, nodded toward Thanatos in greeting. Hypnos grabbed one arm of the lamb and waved it at Phobetor. âHello, Iâm a gift! From Mother Nyx. Just for youuuuu.â
Phobetor stared with wide eyes, bringing one block to his mouth to gum on it. Hypnos used his magic to float it closer, making it dance a little as he did so. He waited a moment then Phobetor reached for it, dropping the blocks.
It only took a moment for Phobetor to start gumming on its head, making noises of enjoyment.Â
Hyonos clapped his hands, turning to Thanatos who wore a dignified scowl of utter disgust and that only made Hypnosâ smile grow even more. âHe loves it!â
âWonderful.â Thanatos replied dryly and Hypnos laughed, belly deep.
Later, once each one of the older children got to greet their beloved uncle and talk his ears off, the brothers stood outside of the home. From the narrowed glance Thanatos gave him, Hypnos knew he was going to bring up their earlier conversation.
âYou havenât been home for a while.â Thanatos said. Hypnos lifted an eyebrow and gestured toward his actual home, the messy one filled with his children and his husband.Â
âDonât play around, Thanatos. I do not have the metal energy for it.â Hypnos snapped. âI know you want to talk about Mother Nyx. So just hurry it up.â
Thanatos leaned back like Hypnos slapped him.Â
Guilt came quickly and Hypnos sighed, closing his eyes. âIâm sorry.â
Thanatos sighed, his fingers tapping on his scythe. âNo. No, I could have started this conversation on a better foot so to speak.â
Silence grew them. Faintly, Hypnos could hear the kids cleaning up their toys, chatting to themselves. Your low voice was a rumble, comforting even in the distance.
âYouâre good with them.â Thanatos nodded toward the home with a slight grin. âThey look happy.â
Hynos ducked his head, grinning. âI got lucky. They make it very easy. And of course, y/n is here. I don't know how I would do it without him.â
âOur Mother would have helped.â Thanatos said, watching Hypnos carefully. Hypnos forced his smile to remain, even though he knew it must have tightened. Thanatos continued. âShe raised all of us just fine.â
âOh yeah. Just fine. Mother Nyx and I have different ideas, unfortunately, of what it means to raise children.â Hypnos said stiffly. âSorry for not wanting to saddle my children with crippling self-esteem issues.â
âWe turned out fine, Hypnos. More than fine, look how successful we are.â Thanatos scoffed. âYou are the only one who acts like this. Well, and Eris but she doesnât count.â
âThat.â Hypnos snapped his fingers. âThat right there. I donât want that. I love our Mother but she wasnât always right in everything, especially in how she treated some of us. I know she had a lot going on, that she couldnât be perfect but dang it, she could at least listen to us! To me!â
âIf you both just talked it out, Iâm sure that you and she can reach an understanding.â Thanatos replied, dismissive with his head shake.Â
âWhat makes you think I havenât tried?â Hypnosâ voice cracked and Thanatosâ eyes widened.Â
Hypnos was not going to cry in front of his brother. So he made himself take a steadying breath and glanced back at his twin with a sigh.
âI have tried for years, before the kids and even before y/n.â Hypnos rubbed his forehead, âI really did, Than.âÂ
âWhat do you mean?â
âShe stopped speaking to me first. When you began speaking to me again, she never did, not really. When the kids met her, I think Morpheus was the only one she held longer than two minutes.â
Thanatos opened then closed his mouth, his brow furrowed.Â
âShe didnât acknowledge Phobetor until now. I am so happy she took the time to make him a doll but I canât let-â Hypnos paused, fighting for the right words. âI canât let her decide when they are worthy of her attention and care, they are always worth it. I know she does love them but I canât have her treat them like that.â
Hypnos swallowed. âShe can treat me like that, but I will always draw the line at my children.âÂ
For a long, long moment Thanatos said nothing. Hypnos wanted to keep talking but he allowed the silence to fill the gap, the heavy weight of it saying more than he ever could.
âYou know you are always welcome back, right?â Thanatos said finally. He was looking at Hypnos differently now, almost like he was a stranger. Hypnosâ heart dropped.
âYes.â Hypnos said, giving Thanatos a smile that didnât reach his eyes. âAnd you are always welcome here, you know that?â
~
When Hypnos was doing one last check on the children before going to bed himself, he saw Phobetorâs lamb had fallen to the ground. Quietly, he picked up, brushing off any invisible dirt before tucking it against his youngest.
Phobetor sighed heavily, pulling it against his chest as he kept sleeping. Hypnos smiled, watching him.
Hypnos knew it meant something. That Mother Nyx had taken the time to make a lamb for Phobetor. Maybe it was her way of apologizing, or maybe she had simply felt like it was her grandmotherly duty.Â
He wished he knew for certain but if wishes were horsesâŠ
âEverything good?â You whispered, coming to stand next to Hypnos. You wrapped your arm around him and Hypnos smiled, leaning into your side. âYes.â
It was better than good.Â
~
Now it went like this.Â
Somewhere high in Elysium, where the river Lethe flowed onwards in solemn peace, waiting in the mist. Soft blankets of tall grass swayed in a gentle breeze and brushed against the rocky cliffs.Â
There was a home, deep in the rocks where poppies spilled over the land and cliffside, and countless stars gleamed on the ceiling with warm candlelight to light the paths inside.
Small colorful handprints of young children marked the wall, a dizzying rainbow of youths. There were two adult handprints, one slender in white paint and one large with black paint, just inches above.
It wasnât loud as it once was, more quiet with occasional music drifting out or sleepy murmurings or rarely, very rarely a gentle lullaby to smooth even the most restless souls.
Near the center of the home, lines marked the wall, going higher and higher as they grew.
Deep blues for Morpheus.Â
His sweet curls had gotten so floppy, constantly falling into his eyes and he finally decided that he wanted it short. Hypnos had died a little on the inside at the sight of those pale curls on the floor.Â
But he was growing into his own person now, right before Hypnosâ eyes.
Morpheusâ fingers were marked by ink and calluses as he wrote new music for his lyre. He may take after Hypnos but that furrow of his brow was all you.Â
Quietly, Hypnos wondered sometimes where his shining star went and where this growing boy came from.
Forest greens for Icelos.
Icelos was going to be a warrior. It was in the proud way she carried herself. Her golden eyes were ever sharp and watchful, her aim always true. So serious, so determined until her beautiful smile came forward like moonbeams.
Sometimes Hypnos feared that Mother Nyxâs face would haunt him but whenever Hypnos looked at her, she was Icelos, their only daughter and she was just like you.
His daughter was going to outshine them all one day.
Soft purples for Phanasos.
His mind was always on the move, his lavender eyes narrowed in focus. It reminded him of you, the quiet instenity, the pure focus. A northern star in the dark.
Hypnos would watch him sometimes, admiring the way Phan carefully repaired even the most broken thing, gluing each piece back together. He was already so much more clever than Hypnos would ever be.
Sometimes Hypnos would bring him a broken thing, just so he could listen to Phanasos talk, explain how to be whole once more.Â
Bold Reds for Phobetor.
Phobetor looked so much like you that it sometimes made Hypnosâ heart ache in the best possible way. Like Icelos, the warrior bearing was there but softened by a cheerful smile.Â
He was still happy to chase after Hypnos, his own little shadow and whenever Hypnos looked back, there was Phobetorâs golden eyes, bright in the darkness.
His youngest came from the void, where nightmare dwelled but he was his own star in the dark and Hypnos knew he would be a light for others as well.
~
When Hypnos found you, you were near the edge of the caveâs entrance, the familyâs guardian even now. He appeared next to you, surprising you with a kiss on the cheek.
You only lifted an unimpressed eyebrow but Hypnos flashed you a cheerful grin, batting his eyes at you as he made more kissy noises.
You scoffed, grabbing his hand and pulled him close. Another kiss, one chaste but lingering, a promise for later.
The noise of the children made you and him both smile as the kiss broke.
âReady to go back inside?â Hypnos asked with a nod. No doubt, the kids were up to something and Hypnos was nosy enough to go find out.
You nodded, about to say something when you went stiff, your eyes snapping toward the front of the cave. You made a gesture for him to stay as you went to investigate.Â
Hypnos waited for a minute then decided that he might as well join you. Gods know you were probably just scaring off some poor fool who didnât realize where they were.
Then you stepped back in, causing Hypnos to pause. Your jaw was tight and grim, full of concern.Â
âItâs your mother.â You informed him quietly.Â
Hypnos felt his body go numb in surprise, and he blinked. âOh.â
You studied him for a long moment, placing a hand on his arm and giving a gentle squeeze. âDo you wish for me to send her away?â
He was shaking his head before he even realized it. âNo. But maybe stay close by? I donât think she wouldnât be here without a good reason.â
Did something happen? Again? If it was Cronus or some other nonsense like that, he was going to personally put the world down for a very, very long nap and his kids as far away as he can.Â
He wasnât going to do that âfunâ little game again. With a deep inhale, he left the cave.
It had been a long time since he last saw Mother Nyx but she still looked as he remembered her.Â
Imposing and beautiful as the night itself. Her hands were clasped together, pale as the moon. Her eyes turned to him when Hypnos drew closer. She looked relieved as if she thought Hypnos wouldnât come out.
His hands were shaking and he wished that he had something to fidget with, to take his mind off of his nerves. He grabbed a long curl out of pure desperation, tugging at it slightly.
âHypnos. You look well.â She said quietly. Her eyes sweep over him, looking for anything out of place. Hypnos wasnât sure if it was to be critical or parental because he still couldnât read her.Â
âY-you too.â Hypnos said in a rush. âI gotta ask, Mother Nyx, why are you here? Is everything okay at the house?â
Nyx seemed surprised by his questions, her dark lips parting slightly. Then Hypnos saw her twisting a silver ring around her finger.
Somehow the most ironclad woman Hypnos had ever known, who never shy away from anything; his very own mother was nervous.Â
âI havenât seen you in a while.â She finally said, her tone painfully formal. âI wished to check in with you.âÂ
âOh.â Hypnos said breathlessly. His eyes went everywhere but her face. âIâm good. The kids are good. Weâre good.â
An uncomfortable, weighty silence followed between mother and son. It one willed with unspoken words, one that never could be said. Or maybe. Now they could be.
Hypnos had accepted that he would never be what his mother wanted. That he would never get exactly what he needed from her. Maybe she had decided the same, to accept the situation for what it was.
Nyx nodded and made a move as if she was going to leave, when Hypnos lifted a hand up.Â
They accepted it but that didnât mean there wasnât room for something else.Â
âThe house is a mess.â Hypnos admitted, and he was rambling before he could stop himself. âBut we were going to have lunch here in a minute if you would like to join us. Just some cheese, pomegranate seeds and stuff. Iâm sure the kiddos would be happy to see you.â
His mother said nothing for a long moment. Her eyes were dark with something that might have looked like hope. She almost looked like a child herself.
The memory came forward, of the day they no longer saw Chaos. Hypnos knew that she and Chaos were working on their relationship -still were thanks to the mess that Chonus made- but the golden hope in her eyes looked so much like his own that it was like looking into a mirror.
Not today, but one of these days maybe they could talk about it. Maybe Hypnos will finally understand.
âI would like that.â Mother Nyx said with a nod, her tone still formal. Her own shield but there was an almost smile.
Then she spoke up again. âI donât think I had anything completely cleaned up until the last of my children were out of the house.â
Hypnos saw it was. An olive branch. The hurt child inside of him wanted to smack it away but every other part of him still wanted it even if it wasn't exactly what he pictured.
He smiled at his mother and gestured for her to follow.
Hypnos didnât know if this would work but the heavy weight of his own beating heart, of a painful, unique kind of love convinced him to at least try.Â
Maybe she could say the same one day.
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Parad and Poppy were the main characters in the second part of the trilogy, which was the most flexible in terms of content. Kai and Matsuda's bugster team looks back on their activities in V-Cinema, which were in a sense the same as usual, or even more outrageous than usual!
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Matsuda: I did. Director Suzumura asked me to "say something, do something" every time I changed clothes, so I improvised everything, and one of the things I did was wotagei (laughs). At first the order was to do something idol-like, but we wanted to do something different, so we talked with the director and decided to do it as "Poppy, who mistakenly believes that this is what idol culture is all about". But it was a bit too intense, and some of the staff who weren't involved in the "Trilogy" seemed to think that someone else was doing it.
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Kai: You're right, they don't use dubbing even for wotagei (laughs). It's not an action movie. I mean, didn't "Matsuda Ruka" appear in the middle of the movie? When I was watching it, I was like "Huh? Where's Poppy?"
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Matsuda: You were in it. I couldn't help but show my true colors there.... (laughs).
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Interviewer: On the other hand, this trilogy will also reveal a new past that has never been told before.
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Kai: Who is Black Parad? This is also the first time that Sakurako-san, Poppy's host, shows her face.
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Matsuda: She was a very beautiful woman. I wondered again why she married someone like Dan Masamune.
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Kai: She was so beautiful that I was surprised too. I wondered how such a person could give birth to Kuroto.
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Matsuda: No, if you marry Cronus, Kuroto will be born (laughs). Well, there must've been a reason. I'm sure the father had his good points.
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Kai: To put it simply, Masamune and Sakurako's marriage was the beginning of all of "Ex-Aid."
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Matsuda: The biggest mystery of what made her fall in love with him remains a mystery even in the trilogy (laughs).
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Interviewer: In the TV series, there were some new facts that were revealed later, but as a performer, did you feel confused?
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Kai: Yes, I did. To be honest, I didn't know Parad would end up on the side of the humans until later, so I thought "What? What should I do?". In the first interview, I said that I wanted to end up as a villain, and I was planning to play a villain until the end.
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Matsuda: I was also shocked when I found out in the show that I was Kuroto's mother! If I had known that from the beginning, I probably would have treated him differently, so I thought, "Why didn't you tell me?"
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Kai: But I'm sure it's for the best. By being unaware of it, I'm somehow forced to create the role. If I had known that I was going to be on the human side, the distance between me and Graphite would have been weird for sure. It was good for Parad that he was suddenly given such a script and that his emotions couldn't keep up. He felt like he was in a real predicament.
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Matsuda: That seems to be the case with Toei's films (laughs). For "Shinkenger," Tori Matsuzaka himself wasn't told that he was actually a shadow warrior until the very last minute. As a performer, I wish I would have been told from the beginning, but I think that's both the difficulty and the fun of it.
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Kai: That's right. At first, I was the only one who knew that Parad was the Bugster who infected Emu, and Iijima-kun himself wasn't told about it. There were a lot of hints that Parad was definitely nearby when Emu's eyes turned red.
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Matsuda: Yeah, yeah. That's why the second half of "Ex-Aid" is so interesting, isn't it? If you watch it after you understand everything, you can enjoy it even more.
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Interviewer: How was it working with director Suzumura, who is working on the entire trilogy?
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Kai: The director himself is very soft and big-hearted, so the people around him didn't feel pressured, and we were able to do it in a good atmosphere.
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Matsuda: Yeah. He often invited me out to dinner, too. Because the director was so open with me, we were able to close the distance between us, and I felt like I could say, "This is what I want to do," without feeling self-conscious. In my mind, he has the image of someone who drinks only shochu (laughs).
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Kai: Naturally, the director has a plan for the direction of the film, but when we came up with a different idea during the play, he would always say, "Well, let's do that". I think it's great that the director is willing to adopt our ideas, because it encourages us to think harder. I think that was really good. I was also able to develop my ability to think out of the box.
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Interviewer: In addition, he was surrounded by actors of the same generation who had been running together for a long time. It's like the devil's advocate.
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Matsuda: We all get along really well. When there are a lot of people in a group, it tends to naturally divide into different groups, but that didn't happen at all with "Ex-Aid".
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Kai: Yeah. Personally, I think it's best to work in a place where everyone can laugh together and have fun. In that sense, I'm glad that all the members were able to have a good balance between on and off work.
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Interviewer: How is the relationship of trust between the two of you?
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Matsuda: It's perfect. If I go right, he goes left (laughs).
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Kai: Is that so? But I think we may want to do different things. Even if you ask me to look in the same direction, I can't do it honestly (laughs). I mean, you've been called a "shitty talking machine gun" too.
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Matsuda: It's not "shitty", it's "sub." (laughs) What is it? There were times when I would talk a lot, and then he would say something sharp from the side.
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Kai: But I didn't say anything funny, did I? I was just telling the truth.
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Matsuda: He dares to say things that all adults pretend not to know and avert their eyes on.
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Kai: I really dislike that kind of thing. I wonder why Japanese people are so quick to use "tsukedo". There is no such word in English, right?
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Interviewer: Now that we have a good sense of the relationship between the two of you, do you have a message for the readers who will be watching the film?
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Matsuda: I guess I'd like to say that if you believe the poster visual of Parad and Poppy in the evening sun, you're in for a world of hurt.
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Kai: That one has a bit of a mysterious Titanic feel to it.
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Matsuda: The only thing that fits is that the two of them are in it (laughs). However, both "Brave and Snipe" and "Genm vs. Lazer" are rather heavy, so I hope people will think of "ParaDX with Poppy" as a chopstick rest and watch it without getting defensive.
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Kai: Yes, in a trilogy, you have to grab the first one and drop the third one, but in the second one you can do anything. It was nice to have that kind of freedom, wasn't it?
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Matsuda: It's also the film that contains the most of the director's fetishism (laughs).
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Interviewer: By the way, what was the most "exciting" moment for you while playing Parad and Poppy?
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Matsuda: Hmmm. There are so many that I can't pick just one. In this case, I was able to sing the theme song not as Poppy, but as Matsuda Ruka, and I think that made me "jump".
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Kai: I think it was the first time I saw napalm. That huge explosion made me feel like a child. Also, this is an aside, but I was left unattended at the scene when the filming had wrapped up.
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Matsuda: You were left behind (laughs).
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Kai: I got a bouquet of flowers and was taking selfies for the occasion, and when I went outside to go home, the location bus had already left... I hope this will be bolded and passed down as a "heart-breaking" treatment to the actors after a year and a half of acting (laughs).From Toei Hero MAX 57
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