#I gave up on roleplaying partially bc of my did

[divinerapturesys]

If u rp and u also have did, it’s never just as simple as “I’m really in character now” is it

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I wrote an incredibly long character study for Sayo for an RP group. I am deciding to share because some fans have difficultly figuring her out because of Ryukishi’s writing style, which is honestly understandable. I hope y’all enjoy! I have some other writings about Sayo you could also check out. More under read-more.

Sayo was once a happy girl whose suffering transformed her into a woman with a polarized personality and a warped sense of justice. She has suffered emotional abuse at the hands of the Ushiromiya family and their associates. Born an orphan, she grew up neglected and without friends that weren’t imaginary. Daydreaming was a means of entertainment and escapism for Sayo. She created her own mental safe space called the Golden Land in order to cope with her miserable life. This would develop into a spiritual way of thinking and ultimately become the land of the dead in Sayo’s conceptualization of religion. 

It was always Sayo’s desire to blend fantasy with reality. Even as a little girl, she tried to bring her imagination to life by inventing the Golden Witch, a supposed ghost who haunted the halls of the mansion where she worked. Sayo would use this as a means to empower herself. Beatrice was a persona she assumed, and under her name, Sayo would pull pranks and cause mischief for the inhabitants of Rokkenjima both to enhance the veracity of the witch’s legend and to vent her anger towards the staff and her family for mistreating her. 

Sayo’s more vindictive personality traits would increase as she grew older. Although she had begun to impersonate the witch for fun, it became a power fantasy for her, and her acting would become dangerous. Sayo’s fear of abandonment caused her to cling to Battler Ushiromiya, and when he left the island, the hateful side of her began to fester. She anxiously waited for his return and blamed him for tragedies which befell her during their separation because he promised to save her from Rokkenjima. She became vengeful towards Battler and chose him as the target of her murder-suicide game, an ultimate act of retribution for leaving her to suffer.

The knowledge Sayo uncovered during Battler’s absence radically transformed the way she viewed herself. She was never satisfied with herself and had many suspicions about her body but learning the truth about her background was catastrophic. She considers herself deeply undeserving of other’s affection out of disgust towards herself-- largely affected by the circumstances of her birth;  she is an illegitimate child and a product of incest with disfigured sex organs due to an accident she sustained. Personal difficulty with discerning her gender causes her to suffer from an identity crisis so severe that she doesn’t view herself as human. This complex results in Sayo calling herself “furniture”, a being below humans whose sole purpose is servitute. Furniture can never know love, but they can still dream of what it feels like to love and be loved-- a torturous existence where all romantic endeavors end in tragedy. 

Love is a very important concept to Sayo. She has troubles with introversion and as a result forms bonds so deep that they are integral parts of her being.  She values relationships over material things and feels so strongly about connecting to others that she will go to great lengths to solidify relationships. While endearing, it has more dangerous side effects including possessiveness; once Sayo has become close to someone, she does everything in her power to avoid abandonment. This goes to extreme lengths in the story, where Sayo prefers to commit murder and suicide in order to prevent her loved ones from abandoning her.

Sayo is extremely sensitive towards the prospect of people discovering the state of her body and mind. She seeks to fulfill other’s desires before her own and is terrified of traits which displease them. She pushes these left over thoughts and feelings onto a series of personas to categorize them. They are Shannon, Kanon, and the witch, Beatrice. It should be noted that Sayo does not have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder), rather she establishes characters to roleplay and does so convincingly.

‘Shannon’ is the work name Sayo wears while serving the Ushiromiya family as a maid. She has been developed into a persona, an idealized form of femininity. Shannon is a demure, heartfelt girl whose desire is to retire to domestic life with her husband and children. She is meant to fulfill Sayo’s fantasy of becoming a woman and a wife. Her concept of womanhood is limited and very gendered, bordering on stereotypical. 

‘Kanon’ is a male alter-ego (once an imaginary friend) who Sayo adopted due to her struggle with gender identity because of her unclear biological sex. He is her vision of what a boy should be like; crass, cold and impersonal, a protective persona meant to shield Shannon’s vulnerabilities. He is especially resentful of love and magic because of Sayo’s partial realization that her fantasies have a dark side. The traits Sayo gave to Shannon and Kanon are very polarizing, and the two often debate in her daydreams as she considers who she wants to be and what steps she must take to achieve that. Kanon opposes the massacre and wishes for life on Rokkenjima to continue as normal so that he can fulfill his relationship with Jessica, in part, and because he tries to be satisfied with his lot in life. When Sayo realizes that this is impossible due to the discoveries about her background, Kanon advocates for suicide rather than murder. He fails to convince Sayo because he is ultimately more passive and less dominant that the Shannon persona. This also causes Kanon to die during the duel.

‘Beatrice’ is the character Sayo play-acts as to fulfill a power fantasy. Beatrice represents the sadistic, vindictive side of Sayo’s psyche, traits she rarely displays in Shannon or Kanon. While operating under her Beatrice persona, Sayo channels her mischievous side into ‘magic’, pranks which vary from harmless to murderous. Beatrice embodies lost hopes and dreams for Sayo; for example, her voluptuous form, her sexual prowess, and her role as the family head are all impossible for Sayo to have. Beatrice is an unreachable ideal for Sayo. An interesting aspect I have noticed about Beatrice is her behavior, which is neither overly feminine (like Shannon) or masculine (like Kanon). Sayo blended these traits to create a woman who didn’t fit neatly into the two boxes of gender stereotypes. 

It is in this persona that Sayo commits her murder-suicide plot; Beatrice is the judge, juror, and executioner sent to cleanse the sins of Rokkenjima. She will kill the family and taken them with her to the Golden Land. She is almost godly, sent to Rokkenjima to enact divine justice.

The Golden Land and magic are religious concepts to Sayo which she has developed extensively over the years. She has a bit of a god-complex over the island as its master and believes, with conviction, that killing herself and her loved ones will transport them to this private heaven. Sayo will act on any means to actualize this dream and has no qualms with manipulating or hurting others to see her plans to fruition. She has decided this is the only way she can ever be happy. This includes grooming a child into a cult following with Beatrice as a sort of religious figure. While it began as an innocent game, Sayo warped Beatrice’s lore to brainwash Maria into believing that death was the only way to end her mother’s abuse instead of acting in Maria’s best interest and trying to intervene. She is incredibly passive and waits for miracles to change fate, miracles which would unfortunately never occur. At the end of the series, she realizes that she could have been more proactive in changing her life and others.

Sayo becomes a changed person after the events of Episode 6. She has finally accepted her mistakes and realized what she could have done to avoid Rokkenjima’s tragedy. In the Episode 8 manga, which I HIGHLY recommend reading (bc its better than the vn lol), she is able to confront a hysterical Ange and convince her that suicide and self destruction is not the answer to anyone’s problems. Sayo fully forgives the family for their actions and is able to move on, finally achieving peace in the afterlife where she exists happily with Battler.

You can find more writings about Sayo in my writings page.

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(BELATED) MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!

NOW THAT’S OUT OF THE WAY, LET’S FINALLY GET STARTED TO:

LESTKARRKINGOFEUROPE’S NEW YEARS FOLLOW FOREVER!!!

I ACTUALLY DREW THIS LAST NIGHT JUST BEFORE MIDNIGHT WHEN IT HIT 2017 SO WHATEVER AND I’M POSTING IT NOW SO IT’LL BE ON TOP AFTER I POST THE NEW CHAPTERS SO EVERYONE CAN SEE IT YEAH YEAH YEAH LET’S GOOOOO WITH THIS LONG LIST I HAVE PREPARED

@krullish​ - || OH MAN MANDY OKAY I KNOW I WROTE A LONG PARAGRAPH ABOUT YOU IN MY PREVIOUS TAG FOR THE MILESTONE BUT MAN I CAN’T HELP IT TAGGING YOU AGAIN I LOVE YOU SO MUCH???? I’M GRATEFUL THAT YOU’RE MY FRIEND AND YOU’VE STUCK WITH ME NEARLY A YEAR (OR HAS IT ALREADY BEEN A YEAR??? WHO KNOWS) BUT MAN WE’VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH TOGETHER, LIKE ACTUALLY MEETING UP FACE TO FACE AT ANIME EXPO 2015 THEN HANGING OUT AT ANIME CALIFORNIA THEN JUST DJSGHSKLJGHDF A LOT OF STUFF HAPPENING AND GOING ON!! I’M HONESTLY SO GRATEFUL AND REALLY THANKFUL YOU’RE HERE AS MY FRIEND AND STILL GOING ON AHAHAHAHA I LOVE YOUR MUSES AND JUST YOU IN GENERAL HOW GREAT OF A PERSON YOU ARE! THERE’S SO MUCH MORE I WANTED TO SAY TO YOU BUT AS I WAS TYPING THINGS SLIP MY MIND BC EVERYTHING IS IN A JUMBLE AND I’M JUST TRYING TO TYPE DOWN AS FAST AS I COULD ALL THE THOUGHTS AND THINGS I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT YOU BUT I CAN NEVER TYPE FAST ENOUGH TO SAY IT I’M SORRY DDDD: BUT OTHER THAN THAT BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEARS MANDY! <33333

@thedarkmattergod​ - || YOU FRIGGIN SINNER-- OKAY NOT SINNER BUT MAN I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ABOUT YOU??? WE HAVE JUST BARELY INTERACTED BUT MAN YOU’RE SUCH A GREAT PERSON IN MY LIFE???? I LOVE HOW YOU JUST APPEAR OUT OF NOWHERE IN THE IM JUST TO TALK AND WE JUST GO OFF ABOUT THE MOST RANDOM THINGS THEN COMPARING KAKINE AND LEST THEN TALKING ABOUT THE ANIME INDEX AND JUST SO MUCH STUFF WHY DO WE DO THIS LOLOLOL AND MOST OF THE TIME WE’RE JUST SHOUTING “FIGHT ME” THEN DOING JACK SHIT TO EACH OTHER LOLOLOL BUT WOW YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON HONESTLY PLEASE NEVER DISAPPEAR AND YOU DESERVE MORE LOVE FOR YOUR BLOG AND MUSE BC HONESTLY YOUR PORTRAYAL OF KAKINE IS GREAT /SLAPS SELF

@lordgeales​ - || I KEEP TAGGING YOU BUT I CAN’T HELP IT BC HONESTLY HOLY SHIT YOU’RE AMAZING-- I KNOW I ALREADY SAID THIS WHEN I LAST TAGGED YOU IN THE MILESTONE POST BUT MAN I’M SO HAPPY THAT WE DRAW TOGETHER JUST FOR AUS BETWEEN LEST AND URD IN THE YOI WORLD AHAHAHAHA I MISS DOING THAT I NEED TO GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF THINGS-- AND NOT ONLY THAT BUT HONEST TO GOD ALPHA YOUR URD IS SO PERFECT LIKE WHAT THE HECK AND WHENEVER HE MENTIONS SOMETHING ABOUT LEST I JUST POP IN OUT OF NOWHERE LIKE “I HAVE BEEN SUMMONED” LOLOLOLOL SORRY THAT I SEEM TO RAMBLE ON TOO MUCH OR BE AWAY FROM MY BLOG FOR A LONG WHILE WHEN YOU DO STUFF THAT INCLUDES MY LEST JDHSFKGJDLJFDSHGLKDFJ I’M JUST A REALLY AWFUL PERSON WHO’S TOO INVESTED INTO GAMING SO I HOPE THAT YOU FORGIVE ME DDDDD: I LOVE YOU DON’T LEAVE-- /CLINGS TO TIGHTLY

@brassboundvalkyrie​ - || BEST MUM HERE ALWAYS SUPPORTING AND PROTECTING BOTH ME AND LEST AHHAHAHAHA HONESTLY THO I KNOW I ALREADY SAW THIS LAST TIME BUT HORN RLLY IS A GREAT MOTHER FIGURE TBH ;;;;; IF WE WENT AU AND IGNORED CANON, I WOULD DEF CHOOSE HORN TO BE LEST’S MOTHER FIGURE IF NOT BLOOD-TIED JFGHSDKFGHDLFD YOU’RE SUCH A SWEET PERSON AND KIND MUN I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS POPPING IN RANDOMLY INTO MY IM TO SEND NICE MESSAGES AND JUST TO FRIENDLY CHAT EVERY NOW AND THEN I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!! WE FIRST STARTED OFF AS BARELY KNOWING EACH OTHER AND TALKING BUT NOW HERE WE ARE WITH SUCH A WARM RELATIONSHIP???? THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND AND GIVING ME A CHANCE TO DO SO DDDD: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH STAY AWESOME!

@impaler-prince​ - || MAN OKAY YEAH WE HAVEN’T TALKED OR INTERACTED IN A LONG TIME (partially my fault OTL) BUT LIKE OH BOIIIIII I MISS US INTERACTING LIKE YOU’RE SUCH A COOL PERSON AND I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU EVEN GAVE ME A CHANCE TO INTERACT WITH YOU??? LIKE HONESTLY I LOVE ROLEPLAYING WITH YOU, AND YOUR ART (STYLE) IS ONE EXAMPLE OF WHAT I ASPIRE TO BE HONESTLY, WITH HOW CONFIDENT YOUR LINING AND COLOURING SEEMS TO BE??? MINE IS LIKE STILL HESITANT AND CAUTIOUS BUT WELL I’M GETTING THERE SO DON’T WORRY! BUT ALL IN ALL I’M JUST GLAD YOU’RE HERE AND I’M SORRY TO ALWAYS BE THE ONE TAGGING YOU IN RANDOM STUFF HAHAHA BUT SERIOUSLY I JUST REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT YOU TO KNOW I APPRECIATE THE HELL OUT OF YOU AND DON’T WANT YOU TO THINK OTHERWISE, OKAY??? STAY GOLD FRIENDO!

@seventh-progenitor-ferid-bathory​ - || ASH YA SINNER HERE I AM AGAIN TAGGING YOU AGAIN EVEN IF WE HAVEN’T TALKED IN AWHILE BC IM BAD AT KEEPING CONTACT -LAYS DOWN AT YOUR FEET- PLEASE FORGIVE FOR THAT I SWEAR I LOVE YOU OKAY IM JUST TOO INVESTED INTO GAMING IT’S A BAD HABIT PLEASE SUE ME DDDDDD: BUT I STILL ENJOY WHERE EVEN IF WE HAVEN’T TALKED IN A WHILE, EITHER YOU OR ME CAN JUST SEND EACH OTHER A RANDOM MESSAGE ABOUT FERID OR LEST OR ONS IN GENERAL THEN SUDDENLY BAM WE’RE OFF TALKING AND SCREAMING AND SAYING/COMMENTING THE MOST RANDOM OF THINGS THAT I HAVE TO SHARE HERE ON TUMBLR BC IT’S SO AMUSING??? I’M REALLY GLAD YOU’RE HERE AND BEING MY FRIEND :DDDDD 

@fortisgladio​ - || *QUOTES MANDY* “LIME GREEN PEPE” OKAY SORRY I WON’T DO THAT AGAIN BUT YOU REALLY ARE A MEME LOLOLOL SORRY ABOUT NOT TALKING MUCH SINCE I’VE BEEN AWAY FROM TUMBLR FOR SO LONG AND EVEN THEN I RARELY EVER REPLY TO ANYONE’S MESSAGES, WHETHER HERE ON TUMBLR OR FB, I JUST NEVER SEEM TO REPLY BC I’M TOO INVESTED INTO GAMING I’M AN AWFUL PERSON DDDDD: I KNOW I ALREADY SAID SO MUCH ABOUT YOU IN MY MILESTONE POST, BUT HONESTLY I CAN NEVER SEEM TO FULLY EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU??? YOU’RE ONE INSANE WRITER AND ROLEPLAYER, AND MUN HERSELF IS JUST....A BRILLIANT PERSON??? EVERYONE DESERVES TO KNOW YOU AND BASK IN YOUR GLORY BC YOU’RE TRULY ONE HELL OF A GREAT FRIEND AND PERSON???? DON’T LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE AND YOU’RE FOREVER ONE OF THE COOLEST PEOPLE I’LL EVER HAVE AS A FRIEND <33333 

@forgottenprogenitor​ - || OH MY GOD YOU-- SERIOUSLY I’M SO SORRY FOR NOT REPLYING BACK TO YOUR MESSAGES AND WHEN YOU’VE TAGGED ME IN SOMETHING BC USUALLY WHEN YOU DO, I SEE IT ON MOBILE AND I HATE TEXTING/TALKING ON MOBILE OR JUST TYPING IN GENERAL, AND MOST OF THE TIME WHEN IM ON PC I’M JUST PLAYING GAMES SO BASICALLY---WHAT I WANNA SAY IS I’M A LAZY PERSON AND AWFUL WHEN IT COMES TO SHOW APPRECIATION FOR THE AMAZING THINGS AND WORKS FRIENDS DO DDDDD: SO I WANT TO TAKE THIS AS A CHANCE TO EXPRESS TO YOU AND THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE, THINGS YOU’VE INCLUDED ME AND LEST IN, AND JUST BASICALLY BEING HERE IN THE FANDOM AND BEING WHO YOU ARE! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING MY FRIEND AND INTERACTING WITH ME, I APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH <3333

@divincndo​ - || OH MY GOD YOU-- YOUUUUU--- YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BIG OF A HEART ATTACK YOU GAVE ME WHEN I WENT TO CHAT WITH YOU ON IM OR TO CHECK YOUR BLOG IN GENERAL TO SEE THAT YOU DEACTIVATED???? I PANICKED LIKE OH GOD WHERE DID YOU GO DID YOU POST ABOUT A NEW BLOG TO FOLLOW OR DID I MISS IT?? BC THEN I FELT SO BAD AND I WAS UNSURE OF WHO WAS A MUTUAL WITH ME OR FOLLOWED ME AND KNEW ABOUT YOU AND I WAS LIKE “OH GOD WHERE DID THEY GO” AND WENT TO MAKE A POST ABOUT IT ASKING FOR YOU BUT NO ONE EVER REPLIED--UNTIL YOU MESSAGED ME YOURSELF ON YOUR NEW BLOG THEN SOMEONE COMMENTED ON MY POST YOUR NEW BLOG URL FDJGHDSKLFJG LIKE OKAY I’M GLAD I FOUND YOU AGAIN BUT OH MY GOD LITERAL HEART ATTACK ;; YOU SCARED ME I THOUGHT I LOST YOU FOREVER AND NO ONE WOULD EVER TELL ME WHERE YOU WENT AND I’D FEEL SO BAD BC THEN I FELT LIKE A LOST A GOOD FRIEND DDDD: PLEASE NEVER SCARE ME LIKE THAT AGAIN I LOVE YOUR MUSE AND BLOG, AND JUST MUN IN GENERAL <33333 I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT OKAY?

@stardustrhapsody​/@fearedexistence​ - || GOD I CAN’T KEEP TRACK OF ALL YOUR BLOGS ANYMORE OR WHICH BLOG YOU’LL SEE THIS ON BUT IF YOU DO SEE THIS THEN HERE GOES-- DEEP BREATH I APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I CAN NEVER EXPRESS TO YOU HOW MUCH YOU BEING MY FRIEND REALLY MEANS TO ME I’M SO GLAD WE’VE MET AND ALTHOUGH WE NEVER SEEM TO TALK TO EACH OTHER ANYMORE, WHETHER YOU’RE BUSY WITH IRL STUFF, YOUR BLOG, OR JUST IN GENERAL DON’T KNOW WHETHER OR NOT YOU SHOULD MESSAGE ME, JUST KNOW THAT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU AND HOPE TO FOREVER KEEP YOU AS A CLOSE FRIEND! YOU ARE THE SWEETEST GUY I’VE EVER MET AND YOU’RE A WONDERFUL PERSON, AND I MISS OUR RABBIT HANGOUTS AND ETC. WHERE WE WATCH STUFF TOGETHER, BUT YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON AND I’M ALWAYS FREE TO TALK TO--AND I’LL START BOTHERING YOU MORE IN 2017 TO HANGOUT LOLOLOL SO LOOK FORWARD TO THAT! AND YEAH I ALSO KNOW THAT YOU’VE BEEN HOOKED ONTO GAMING SO THAT’S THAT BUT DW I’M LIKE THAT TOO SO ???? RIP LOLOLOL BUT SERIOUSLY KAI, YOU’RE AN AWESOME D00D AND FRIEND TO HAVE, DON’T LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE ALRIGHT? LOVE YOU SO MUCH KAI, HERE’S A BIG HUG FROM A SALTY WAVE <33333

Okay, I’m going to make an effort to write a little something for everyone else I’m going to tag, instead of being the lazy ass I am when I did my milestone post, and say what’s on my mind--bc honestly everyone I mention I have something to say to and talk about, but my laziness gets in the way and it irks me DDD: I really want to show and express to you guys just HOW MUCH I love and appreciate EVERY DAMN SINGLE ONE OF YOU! SO HERE’S SOME LOVE FROM A SALTY WAVE FROM ME!

@ferid-trash-bathory​ - || ALRIGHT WHAT DO I SAY TO YOU?? WELL HONESTLY THE MAIN THING I WANT TO TELL YOU IS THAT 1) YOUR FERID IS G R E A  T 2) MUN IS A FUNNY AND BRILLIANT PERSON 3) THANK YOU FOR BEING THE MEME YOU ARE, YOU’RE REALLY APPRECIATED AND I LOVE THE SILLY INTERACTIONS WE HAVE BETWEEN LEST AND FERID EVERY NOW AND THEN <3

@tatsu-rose-bathory​ - || YOU LITTLE CHIBI--WELL NOT REALLY SINCE YOU’RE ALSO A MOTHER BUT YOU GET WHAT I MEAN-- YOU REALLY LIKE TO PICK A BONE WITH LEST AND ALWAYS GET HURT IN RETURN, I’M REALLY SORRY ABOUT THAT DDD: LEST IS AN HONEST PRICK AHHHH BUT MUN IS A VERY SWEET PERSON THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO BOTHER MY LEST SO I’M NOT BORED LOLOLOL 

@rigr-stafford​ - || I STILL HAVE YET TO GET BACK TO THE THREAD YOU TAGGED ME IN I’M SORRY ABOUT THAT I JUST PROCRASTINATE ALOT SOBS-- BUT NOT ONLY THAT BUT YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON AND I CAN’T THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR HELPING ME SETTLE THE HEADER FOR BLOG ;;; THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING IT WORK AND HELPING MY BLOG LOOK MORE DECENT YOU’RE THE BEST <3

@mithosofcruxis​ - || C OUGHS LOUDL Y  AT  YO U -- YOU’RE AN AWESOME PERSON AND I KNOW I’VE SAID THIS SO MUCH BUT LIKE I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY TO SHOW/EXPRESS THAT FACT??? YOU HONESTLY ARE AND I LOVE HOW REFINED YOUR CHARACTER IS, AND HOW SWEET THE MUN IS DDDD: THANK YOU FOR PUTTING UP WITH MY SLOW SELF <3

@bloodthirstylacus​ - || HEY I KNOW WE NEVER REALLY TALK, AND THE ONLY TIME WE TALK/INTERACT IS WHEN YOU SEND MY LEST RANDOM ASKS BUT HEY I JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I APPRECIATE YOU DOING THAT AND YOU’RE A COOL PERSON! THANK YOU FOR BEING IN THE ONS FANDOM AND ROLEPLAYING LACUS <3

@mad-eggs-onthewall​ - || HHHHH I KNOW I ALREADY MENTIONED YOU IN MY OTHER POST BUT MAN MAN MAN I LOVE READING YOUR POSTS AS HUMPTY AND DUMPTY EVERY NOW AND THEN AND HOW YOU WRITE--AND YOUR INTERACTIONS WITH GREY ;;;; yesistalkyoupleasesuemeLOL YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON AND ROLEPLAYER, AND MUN IN GENERAL AN AWESOME PERSON! 

@panadabro​/@simply-emily24​ - || GUYS YOU ALREADY KNOW WHAT I’M GOING TO SAY BUT WHO CARES I’M GONNA SAY IT AGAIN BC I HAVE TO LET YOU GUYS KNOW AGAIN HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE YOUR HARD WORK AND EFFORTS THAT YOU GUYS PUT IN TO TRANSLATE THE NEW RAWS FOR ONS IT REALLY REALLY SAVES MY LIFE THANK YOU FOR DEALING WITH ME WHENEVER I SUDDENLY POP INTO YOUR IM RANDOMLY ASKING FOR HELPING WITH TRANSLATION DDDD: <3

@cxndytuft​ - || HEY I KNOW IT’S BEEN A WHILE BUT LET ME JUST--- *SMOOTHLY SLIDES IN FRONT OF YOU* ....HELLO THERE LOLOLOL HOW’S IT BEEN? YOU’RE A SWEET PERSON AND EVEN TALKING TO ME WHEN YOU MOVED BLOGS LIKE I WAS THINKING “THIS LEGENDARY ALOIS CONSIDERS ME, SOMEONE FROM ANOTHER FANDOM, WORTHY ENOUGH TO BE ACKNOWLEDGED??? HAS GOD SPOKEN TO ME THIS DAY???” LOLOLOL SORRY THAT WAS OVERDRAMATIC BUT THAT’S HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU OKAY JUST KNOW THAT <3333

@totally-hiiragi-mahiru - || HERE YOU ARE AGAIN STILL SPAMMING MY NEWSFEED EVERY NOW AND THEN OR RATHER SPAMMING MY NOTIFICATIONS BY MASS LIKING MY POSTS LOLOL THANK YOU FOR THE SPAM, I APPRECIATE THE NOTION OF IT??? STAY COOL YOU TROUBLEMAKER <3 

@repulsc - || WHERE DID YOU COME FROM WHERE DID YOU GO-- NO SERIOUSLY WHERE DID YOU GO YOU MESSING WITH LEST AND TAUNTING HIM WAS GREAT I MISS IT DDDD: ALSO SEEING YOU AND LORDGEALES INTERACT TOO IS FUNNY AND AMUSING TO WATCH AS WELL! PLEASE COME BACK WHERE DID YOU GOOOO I KNOW YOUR YU BLOG B U T ST  I L L -HUGS YOU TIGHTLY-

@makotonarumi/@dusksovereign/@taodhair - || DAMN TSUNAMI! BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH TAGGING ALL THREE BLOGS! SORRY LOLOLOL I HONESTLY DON’T KNOW WHICH BLOG YOU CHECK THE MOST FREQUENTLY SO I’M TAGGING ALL THREE JUST TO GET YOUR ATTENTION AND TELL YOU THAT I MISS THE HELL OUT OF YOU AND LOOK FORWARD TO YOUR RETURN AND FURTHER INTERACTIONS BETWEEN LEST AND CROWLEY AND NARUMI <333 STILL HAVE YET TO FACE KURETO BUT WE’LL SEE LOLOLOL 

@asurayuucentral - || LOOK AT YOUUUU ALWAYS COMING IN TO BOTHER MY LEST LOLOLOL I LOVE IT WHENEVER YOU DO? MUN IS A VERY OUTGOING AND CHEERFUL PERSON, PLEASE CONTINUE TO BE IN THE FANDOM AND DO WHAT YOU DO ALRIGHT? <3

@lyserg42 - || MAN I TOTALLY FORGOT HOW WE EVEN FIRST MET BUT I JUST REMEMBER YOUR URL AND JUST YOU IN GENERAL AS WHO YOU ARE AND I APPRECIATE YOU BEING MY FRIEND??? EVEN IF WE RARELY TALK AND IT’S JUST TO COMMENT ON RANDOM THINGS THAT LEST DOES, I’M STILL REALLY GLAD YOU TAKE AMUSEMENT IN WATCHING LEST AND WHATEVER SHIT HE PULLS LOLOL 

@these-evil-hands - || HELLO HI YES HELLO YOU MAY NOT KNOW ME BUT CAN I TELL YOU I LOVE YOUR BLOG AND MUSE FOR LELOUCH??? THANK YOU FOR GIVING MY LEST A CHANCE AND I KNOW YOU MAY BE BUSY OR AT ROUGH TIMES LOSE MUSE EVERY NOW AND THEN, BUT YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON SO STAY GOLD!

@masterofzawarudo - || OKAY YOU-- DIO YOURSELF-- ARE AN ASS AND IF YOU SO DARE LAY A HAND ON MY SON, THEN I’LL SHOW YOU WHAT A REAL GOD OF THE UNIVERSE IS-- EVEN MORE SO THAN THAT-- Now Mun on the other hand is a really cool person and deserves love and hugs :DDDD Your presence is appreciated <3 Please look forward to the fellow High Progenitors facing off with Dio :DDD

@no-signs-no-lights - || Hello hello! I know you’re not in the OnS fandom anymore, but I still really appreciate and love your blog! And the previous contributions you’ve made to the fandom :DDDDD I look forward to a new year still stalking I MEAN following your blog for YoI content and more!

@rutilisanguinis - || I KNOW YOU’RE RARELY ACTIVE NOW BUT JUST KNOW THAT US ROLEPLAYERS STILL REMEMBERS YOU AND YOUR CROWLEY AND ARE STILL HERE TO INTERACT WITH AND JUST TALK WITH IN GENERAL <3 YOUR PORTRAYAL OF CROWLEY IS GREAT AND WHEN I FIRST JOINED TUMBLR I WAS RLLY TIMID TO APPROACH ANYONE BUT YOU’RE A REALLY NICE PERSON SO THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME TALK WITH YOU! YOU’RE AN AWESOME PERSON! <3

@iojosamakrul - || I HAVENT SEEN OR HEARD FROM YOU AWHILE BUT I HOPE YOU’RE STILL ABLE TO SEE THIS BC I KNOW WE ONLY INTERACTED LIKE ONCE, BUT IT WAS REALLY CUTESY BETWEEN KRUL AND LEST AND YOUR MUSE FOR KRUL IS CUTE TOO I LOVE IT??? PLEASE KEEP ROLEPLAYING IN THIS FANDOM WE APPRECIATE YOUR MUSE <3

@brokenhexrt - || IM AN AWFUL PERSON I STILL HAVE YET TO GET TO OUR THREAD AND MAN IT’S BEEN SUCH A WHILE IM SORRY THAT I SUCK SO MUCH AT ANSWERING TO THREADS I STILL HAVE ONES TO REPLY TO FROM MONTHS AGO??? BUT D00D YOUR ART--- SJHGSLKJHFDK YOUR ART STYLE IS AN EXAMPLE OF WHAT I ASPIRE TO BE AND WORK TO BE ;;; EVEN YOUR DOODLES WITHOUT LINING LOOKS SO FLAWLESS I’M JEALOUS AS HECK HOW DO YOU EVEN DO IT??? YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON AHHHH! 

@narcasse - || WAIT DID YOU REPLY TO OUR THREAD YET OR IS IT YOUR TURN???? IM SORRY IM JUST REALLY WORRIED BC I REALLY LOVE THE ROLEPLAY GOING ON BETWEEN US, AND LIKE I TAGGED YOU AND THE OTHER ARSLAN MUSES IN, YOU ARE HONESTLY A GREAT MUSE AND BLOG FOR NARSUS AND AM SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU GUYS PUT SO MUCH EFFORT INTO A SMALL FANDOM FGJSHGLJKERGDFG I WISH TO JOIN YOU GUYS SOON!! <333

@kaikhosrow - || OH BOI LIKE WITH NARSUS I’M SO PLEASED TO SEE YOU GUYS PORTRAYING THE MUSES OF THE ARSLAN SENKI CHARAS SO FLAWLESSLY AND PUTTING IN SO MUCH EFFORT FOR IT??? AND NOT ONLY THAT BUT MUN YOURSELF IS SO SWEET AND KIND FDHGSKLDJGHSLDFK WHAT IS THIS BOTH MUN AND MUSE ARE CINNAMON ROLLS? HONESTLY THOUGH YOU GUYS ARE REALLY APPRECIATED!!! <3333 

@gievememusic - || I KNOW WE ALREADY TALKED EARLIER BUT PLEASE STOP BEING SO FLUSTERED!!! MY WORDS ARE HONEST AND YOUR BLOG FOR GIEVE REALLY MAKES ME LAUGH AND YOU PORTRAY HIM WONDERFULLY!!! I STILL CAN’T GET OVER YOUR URL AND I KNOW I SAID THAT SO MANY TIMES BUT I JUST DON’T KNOW WHY IT GETS ME SO MUCH AHAHAHAHA BUT YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON!

@priinve - || YOU ONLY KNOW ME FROM CHATTING IN IM BUT /DEEP BREATHS/ CAN I JUST SAY YOUR PORTRAYAL OF HILMES IS JUST ???? SO PERFECT AND ON POINT?? AGAIN I’M REALLY THANKFUL THAT REALLY TALENTED WRITERS AND MUNS LIKE YOU GUYS CONTRIBUTE SO MUCH TO A SMALL FANDOM FGJSHKDJGSHLD THE SHOW DEFINITELY DESERVES MORE CREDIT!!! THANK YOU FOR BRINGING LIFE TO A SMALL FANDOM YOU’RE AN AWESOME PERSON!!!

@progenitress - || I KNOW YOU DON’T POST ANYMORE AND ARE PROBABLY INACTIVE BUT /DEEP BREATH/ WHEN I FIRST JOINED TUMBLR AND SAW YOUR BLOG FOR KRUL, IT WAS HONESTLY THE MOST BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN AND FLAWLESS BLOG I’VE EVER SEEN??? AND I WAS JUST REALLY AWED AND REALLY WANTED TO INTERACT WITH YOU BUT I WAS STILL GETTING USED TO THINGS DDD: BUT NOW YOU’RE GONE /SOBS/ I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOUR MUSE AND BLOG FOR KRUL THOUGH AND HOW AWESOME YOU WERE WITH PLAYING HER!!

@kinglest - || HEY THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE--JUST KIDDING LOLOLOL AND oh my goodness alpha if I have to be honest with you, I honestly really really think your portrayal of Lest, at least the way you write him and how he acts, is far more canon and flawless than how I do it??? I’m really jealous LOLOLOL but seriously the way you portray him honestly seems so perfect?? DDD: I FEEL SO BOTTOM-TIER COMPARED TO YOU FJHGSLKJGFDE I JUST WANTED TO GET THAT OUT OF THE WAY OKAY SO I’M GONNA RUN NOW FJGSHKDLFJ I’M NOT YOUR SENPAI LOLOLOL I AM BUT A SALTY WAVE 

@xemissarium - || DEEP BREATHS-- I REALLY STILL AM LOOKING FORWARD TO INTERACTING WITH YOU DESPITE ME KNOWING YOU’RE PROBABLY BUSY WITH OTHER THREADS OR JUST WITH IRL STUFF IN GENERAL DDDD: BUT YOUR BLOG IS AMAZING AND YOUR MUSE FOR MIKA IS GREAT AHAHAHA I ACTUALLY DON’T THINK I’VE SEEN A MIKA BLOG AS OF LATELY WHICH IS SURPRISING??? I’VE ONLY SEEN BLOGS OF VAMPIRES SO MAYBE I’M MISSING OUT ON SOMETHING BUT HEY YOU’RE HERE SO LET ME JUST STAY CLINGING TO YOU :DDDDD pleaselovemeokay /SLAPS SELF 

@sassygreytea - || OKAY YOU MAY NOT KNOW ME AND HAVE NO IDEA WHY I AM TAGGING YOU-- AND I ALREADY TAGGED YOU IN MY MILESTONE POST BUT SERIOUSLY I HAVE SOMETHING I WANT TO SAY TO YOU AT LEAST DDDD: YOUR PORTRAY OF EARL GREY IS BEAUTIFUL AND FLAWLESS, AND YOUR INTERACTIONS WITH ANYONE IN GENERAL IS REALLY GREAT I LOVE OCCASIONALLY SEEING YOUR POSTS COME ACROSS MY DASH AND READING THEM BECAUSE THEY’RE SO IN-CHARACTER AND YOUR WRITING STYLE IS ADMIRABLE???? STAY GOLD AS YOU ARE! I LOOK FORWARD TO CONTINUE FOLLOWING YOUR BLOG AND SEEING YOUR WRITING! :DDD 

@sassyshinoahiiragi - || I DUNNO IF YOU’RE THE SAME PERSON AS SASSYKRULTEPES BUT I WILL SAY SEPARATE COMMENTS TO BOTH BC I HAVE PERSONAL THINGS TO SAY-- YOU’VE BEEN HERE SINCE WHEN I FIRST JOINED TUMBLR AND WOW THAT’S A LOT OF DEDICATION RIGHT THERE! AND I HAVENT SEEN MANY ROLEPLAY BLOGS FOR THE HUMAN SIDE OF ONS SO I’M REALLY SUPER THANKFUL YOU’RE HERE AND THAT YOU ROLEPLAY SHINOA OKAY??? PLEASE NEVER DISAPPEAR AND KNOW THAT YOUR BLOG IS LOVED <3

@sassykrultepes - || I DUNNO IF ITS ME OR YOU, BUT I HAVEN’T SEEN YOUR BLOG IN A WHILE PASSING MY DASH SO I DUNNO DID YOU GO INACTIVE??? I’M REALLY SAD TO KNOW THAT BUT I WANT TO LET YOU KNOW YOUR KRUL MUSE WAS ONE OF THE BEST THAT CAUGHT MY EYE WHEN I WAS STILL GETTING USED TO TUMBLR, AND WOW WOW WOW I CAN’T BELIEVE SOMEONE WOULD BE ABLE TO PULL OFF THE SAME MUSE AS A FEW OTHER PEOPLE, BUT PUT SUCH A DISTINCT DIFFERENCE IN THE PORTRAYAL YET STILL AUDIBLY MAKE IT SEEM LIKE KRUL’S CHARACTER??? YOU’RE REALLY AMAZING AND I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT!

@krul-tan - || OH MAN ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE WE TALKED, AND THE LAST TIME I EVER SAW YOU WAS AT ANIME CALIFORNIA (YOU’RE SO CUTE BTW AND I LOVED SEEING YOUR KRUL TEPES COSPLAY IN PERSON!!!) I MISS YOUR BLOG AND SEE THAT YOU’VE GONE SOMEWHAT INACTIVE ON IT, BUT THAT’S FINE I STILL FOLLOW YOUR MAIN BLOG BUT MAN DO I MISS SEEING YOUR KRUL DOODLES AND INTERACTIONS WITH SEVENTH-PROGENITOR-FERID-BATHORY BC HONESTLY YOU’RE A REALLY COOL AND GREAT PERSON!! I LOVE YOUR ART SO MUCH TOO AHHHH!

@offreespirit - || LULU NO-- OKAY JKJK THAT WON’T BE THE ONLY THING I SAY THIS TIME OKAY LOLOLOL BUT OH BOI MAN I KNOW YOU’RE IN A DIFFERENT FANDOM AND I UTTERLY LOST THE URL AGAIN BUT I STILL HOPE YOU SEE THIS DDDD: I MISS SEEING YOU ROLEPLAY IN THE ONS FANDOM AND TALKING TO YOU, BUT THAT’S MAINLY MY FAULT BC WHENEVER I GO TO REPLY I WANDER OFF WATCHING VIDEOS AND FORGET I’M SORRY ;;;; BUT PLEASE KNOW THAT YOU WERE ONE OF THE VERY FIRST BLOGS I SAW WHEN I FIRST JOINED TUMBLR AND REALLY CAUGHT MY EYE! AND I’M GLAD WE’RE FRIENDS STILL NOW :DDDDD <3

@lvstforblood - || AW MAN WHERE DID YOU GO???? YOUR BLOG WAS SO PERFECT AND YOUR MUSE WAS FERID WAS AMAZING?? YOU WERE REALLY SERIOUS AT TIME AND IN-CHARACTER WITH FERID, AND I WAS JUST AT AWE HOW SOMEONE CAN PULL OFF A MUSE JUST LIKE THAT??? I REALLY MISS SEEING YOUR WRITING AS FERID DDDDD: 

@13andthecross - || I KNOW YOU SAID YOU WERE ON A HIATUS OR RATHER JUST DEALIN WITH STUFF IRL AND IT’S HARD GETTING BACK INTO WRITING, BUT I ASSURE YOU THE FANDOM IS STILL OPEN TO YOU AND HERE TO WELCOME YOU BACK AND INTERACT WITH YOU AGAIN! SO DON’T BE AFRAID TO GET BACK ON YOUR MUSE AND ROLEPLAY WITH PEOPLE! YOU’RE A WELL-KNOWN CROWLEY IN THE FANDOM AND A GREAT MUN!!! WE LOVE YOU! <3

@fallen-asura - || HHHH I DON’T EVEN KNOW IF YOU’LL SEE THIS AT ALL BECAUSE YOU’VE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG....BUT YOU WERE ONE OF THE VERY FIRST ASURAS I MET ON TUMBLR AND GAVE ME A CHANCE TO INTERACT WITH YOU! AND YOU USED TO BE SO ACTIVE AND ROLEPLAYED WITH SO MUCH PEOPLE DDDDD: THE FANDOM SEEMS SO EMPTY AND LONELY WITHOUT HAVIN YOU AROUND JUMPING EVERYWHERE AND INTERACTING WITH EVERYONE! I REALLY MISS YOU AHHHHHH I HOPE YOU’RE ALRIGHT!!!! BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEARS IF YOU HAPPEN TO SEE THIS! <3

@fifthprogenitorkyluc - || HEY I KNOW YOU’RE NEW HERE BUT I’M ALWAYS OPEN TO INTERACT WITH AND I’M REALLY HAPPY THAT YOU’VE TAKEN THE MUSE UP FOR A NEWLY INTRODUCED CHARACTER!!! I REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING YOU ROLEPLAY IN THIS FANDOM AND INTERACTING WITH YOU!! WELCOME WELCOME!!

@f-unny-bones - || I KNOW IT WAS JUST RECENT THAT WE STARTED TALKING TO EACH OTHER BUT WOW DO I REALLYLOVE YOUR MUSE FOR UNDERTAKER AND STILL HAVE YET TO ACTUALLY SEND SOMETHING FOR US TO INTERACT WITH???? IM JUST--REALLY SHY OKAY AND I STILL HAVE TO SORT OUT THE CURRENT THREADS I HAVE WITH OTHERS AND INTERACTIONS I HAVE PLANNED JGHSDKGJDFLGSD THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO INTERACT WITH YOU YOU’RE REALLY GREAT!!!

@grotesque-puppet - || I LOVE YOUR ROLEPLAY BETWEEN US RIGHT NOW!! YOU’RE INCREDIBLY DETAILED WITH YOUR WORDS AND WRITING AND JUST WOW HOW DO YOU DO IT??? YOU SEEM SO SOPHISTICATED AND REFINED WITH YOUR WRITING THAT OKAY I’LL ADMIT I’M INTIMIDATED BY AND WISH I CAN BE LIKE THAT??? THE PATIENCE TO GO THROUGH TO WEAVE TOGETHER SUCH DETAILED SENTENCES THAT CREATES A TAPESTRY OF IMAGERY IS BRILLIANT!!! I LOOK FORWARD TO CONTINUE ROLEPLAYING AND INTERACTING WITH YOU <3

HHHHH I’M REALLY SCARED TO END THE LIST HERE....BECAUSE I DEFINITELY KNOW I FORGOT A LOT OF PEOPLE AND I FEEL SO BAD ABOUT THAT??? THERE ARE A LOT OF PEOPLE THAT REALLY STOOD OUT TO ME AND MEANS A LOT TO ME BUT BECAUSE I HAVE SO MUCH WORDS GOING ON IN MY HEAD YOUR URLS COMPLETELY SLIPPED MY MIND??? I AM SO SO SORRY ABOUT THAT AHHHHH !

IF I FORGOT YOU, PLEASE I ASK OF YOU TO IM ME BECAUSE THERE REALLY IS SOMETHING I HAVE TO SAY TO EVERYONE, ANYONE, WHO SEES THIS POST AND WASN’T TAGGED IN! FOR SURE I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT YOU AND I /HAVE/ TO SAY IT TO YOU BC I HAVE TO SHOW AND EXPRESS JUST HOW MUCH I LOVE AND APPRECIATE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU!!!

OTHER THAN THAT, I’VE BEEN WORKING ON THIS FOR (I shit you not) FIVE HOURS BECAUSE I’VE BEEN TRYING TO LIST PEOPLE AND REMEMBER URLS FDJSHGLKJGHLDFKJ THEN GETTING DISTRACTED AND TALKING WITH OTHER PEOPLE AND JUST IT’S BEEN A HUGE MESS, AND NOT ONLY THAT CELEBRATION FOR THE NEW YEARS IS STILL GOING ON PLEASE SAVE ME FJDGHSKDJHGLSFDKJ 

THAT SAID, I KNOW I STILL HAVE A LOT TO SAY, BUT IT’S 5 AM AS I FINISH THIS AND WILL POST TOMORRW AFTER THE NEW CHAPTER, BUT JUST KNOW THAT I REALLY LOVE AND APPRECIATE EVERYONE HERE THAT’S BEEN FOLLOWING MY BLOG!! ALL OF YOU ARE WONDERFUL PEOPLE!!!

AGAIN, A BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEARS FROM BOTH MUN AND LEST!! <3 <3 <3