#I mean you can probably teach it to perch on a toilet

[victorluvsalice]

Not-Incorrect Valicer Quotes, Valicer In The Dark Edition, Volume II

Smiler: [introducing the three Pillars to another gang] So I'm both the Slide and the Leech, Victor is our Whisper, and Alice there is our Cutter.

Other Gang Member: [looks at Alice with her modified Hobbygoat weapon, snorts derisively] That's your Cutter? The little slip of a thing holding a kiddie's toy?

Alice: [swings the Hobbygoat around a couple of times. . .then SLAMS it into the ground, making the immediate area shake and nearly knocking the guy off his feet]

Smiler: [beaming] Yes. Any further questions?

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Victor: [opens the door to the bathroom, which they've recently managed to connect to the sewer line below]

A Raven: [is perched on the rim of the toilet, tail over the bowl]

Victor:

A Raven: [rawks at him]

Victor: [slowly closes the door]

Victor: [returns to Smiler and Alice in what passes for the living room] I have just discovered the possibly weirdest explanation for all of Elder Gutknecht's books not being covered in bird shit.

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Smiler: [again making introductions to another gang] I'm the Slide and the Leech, Alice is the Cutter, and Victor there is our Whisper.

Another Gang Member: [eyeing Victor with a frown] So he's your Whisper? He looks like he was already frightened half to death by a ghost.

Victor: It's more one tried to marry me once.

Another Gang Member: [startled] That can happen?

Victor: [nodding seriously] She dragged me straight into the ghost field. Incidentally, there are seven ghosts in our vicinity right now.

Another Gang Member: [looking around very anxiously]

Smiler: [grinning] Just don't start reciting wedding vows and you'll be fine!

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Alice: [examining some of Smiler's gadgets and alchemicals] All right, so, I understand how Joy Serum, Giggler Gas, your Tickler brush, and even the Hypnotizer wheel relate to your status as an Advocate. [picking up a box with lots of little light bulbs on it] But what the heck is this thing?

Smiler: Oh, that's the Flasher! I can press a button and set it on the ground, and a few seconds later it blasts an electroplasmic charge through all the lights that briefly blinds anyone looking at it!

Alice: . . .And how does that spread happiness?

Smiler: It makes me very happy to be able to run away from whoever's distracted by it.

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Smiler: [doing introductions to a third gang] Alice is our Cutter, Victor is our Whisper, and I'm the Slide and the Leech!

Third Gang Member: How can you be both a Slide and a Leech at the same time? It ain't possible.

Smiler: Why my good madam, you're absolutely correct in noting that they are completely different skill sets! [picking up their suitcase of Joy Serum and snapping it open] May I offer someone of your very fine intelligence a sample of my delightful Joy Serum? I brew it up myself from glow orb juice and a few other secret ingredients. Guaranteed to make you feel better than you ever have before, with limited wooziness afterward! Only five slugs per syringe!

Third Gang Member: Five slugs?! That's a hell of a deal! [starts pawing around in their pocket] Yeah, sure, I'll take a -- wait.

Alice & Victor: [giggling in the background]

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[Victor, Alice, and Smiler are all sprawled around Smiler's workshop grinning]

Victor: [to Smiler, very cheerfully] You know, you're really lucky that your alchemical accidents make us feel this good.

Alice: [nodding along, also super cheerful] Oh yes. This is marvelous. Though mind you, I am still going to yell at you once this all wears off.

Smiler: [beaming at the ceiling] Good thing I don't care at the moment!

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[viscerax]

robin x male reader where he gets picked on a lot and robin offers to teach him some self defence moves and one thing leads to another where the reader develops a crush for robin? (love ur fics btw)

Stand Up For Yourself

"Hey, Y/n! Where you going, cunt-wad?" You winced and kept your head down, trying to ignore the calls coming from three of the many people who constantly harassed you throughout your day.

It used to not be like this. You used to be treated normally. You never really stood out or caught the attention of any girls, but you didn't mind that. Thats not what you wanted.

It started after you had told your best friend, someone you thought you could trust, about your crush on one of the boys in your class. He told you that he wouldn't tell anyone. He lied.

After that, everyone treated you differently, and thus, the constant bullying and harassment began.

You made a sharp turn, quickly shuffling into the closest bathroom, which thankfully was empty. You perched on top of the toilet seat, struggling to remain balanced and quiet.

You heard the door slam open and hit the wall, and the chuckles of Matty and his goons flooded your ears. You just sat there, praying they would give up and leave.

"Hey, I know you're in there. You're not fooling anyone." Matty was now standing in front of the stall you were in. When you stayed silent and still, Matty scoffed and kicked the bottom of the door. "Come on out, Freak! We just want to talk!"

You flinched at the loud noise of the door rattling. You debated on whether or not it would be better to stay there and wait for them to break down the door, or just go and get it over with now.

Just as you were about to get up and open the stall, the bathroom door slammed open, making you quickly perch back up on the seat.

"What are you dipshits doing?"

Matty and his goons all went silent. They just murmured and began walking towards the exit.

"The next time you fuck with Y/n, I'll beat the shit out of you. Make sure you let everyone else know that, too." For a moment, you were confused as to who had entered and defended you, but it only took a few moments for it to finally click.

Robin Arellano. The toughest kid in school. You had never really talked to him before. You only knew him from watching him get into fights. He intimidated you, but not in the way that you were scared of Matty or Moose or any other kid that picked on you. It was more of the kind of fear you would have around a celebrity. You just wanted him to think you were cool.

"You can come out now, they're gone. They won't bother you anymore."

Now you felt embarrassed. Embarrassed that you were cowering in a bathroom stall while Robin just so easily scared Matty away.

You sighed and opened the stall door, turning to look at Robin. Who was washing his hands in the sink. You glanced down and noticed that the water in the sink was turning red, and he had a slightly pained expression on his face.

"You have got to learn how to defend yourself. Otherwise, they're just going to keep treating you like that. All you gotta do is throw a good punch, knock someone down and off their pedestal, and they won't fuck with you no more." Robin looked up to make eye contact with you through the mirror. He gave you a bit of a smile, and you couldn't help but feel flustered. You looked down at your feet, shuffling nervously and playing with the straps to your backpack.

"I can't fight. I'm thin as a toothpick. Id get knocked on my ass by a leaf." You chuckled, leaning against the wall and glancing back over at Robin.

"Its not really about how bulky you are. I mean, I've beaten Moose down before, and he looks like a mini body builder. Hell, I could probably take down Pinball Vance Hopper if I wanted to." He sighed and shook his head. "As if I'd want to do that. But the point is, its more about strategy, and knowing where to hit. I'll tell you what. My tìo has got this punching bag in our basement. I can teach you how to beat the shit out of those fuckers. Just so long as you promise to actually use it the next time they pick on you, 'kay?"

You were very surprised at first, but quickly nodded. "You'd do that for me?" You were shocked that he was so friendly with you. Any of the boys in the school had treated you like you had a disease. Like if they spent ro much time around you they were going to start turning gay too. But Robin didn't seem to care. It made you happy, relieved even, that maybe this was a potential to have a new friend.

That Friday, you had finally convinced your parents to let you stay the night at Robins. They were weary of letting you go anywhere alone these days. Not that you could blame them.

You followed Robin on his way home, smiling and chatting with him happily. For once in the past few weeks, you finally felt happy. Besides the few weird stares you got leaving school, no one bothered you. Which was rare.

That night, the two of you had brought a few blankets, pillows, and tons of snacks into Robins basement. Robin popped a Pink Floyd cassette into his player. The two of you cleared up the space around the punching bag, just in case.

Robin gave you a few tips. The best way to throw your first punch was take a quick step forward, quick step back, quick step forward, and swing. He drilled it with you a few more times before letting you try it on your own.

You landed one blow on the punching bag with enough force to make it sway back and forth on the chain it was attached to. It wasn't much, but it felt like a big accomplishment to you. The pride welling inside of you blocked out the temporary stinging pain in your knuckles.

The two of you continued doing that ober and over, and then sparred with eachother for a bit until eventually the exhaustion started to hit you like a wave, and the two of you were payed down on the king size mattress that was covered in blankets, pillows, and the open bags of candy and chips. You were sitting on one end of the bed, trying to take up as little space as possible while Robin sat a few inches away from you, eyes glued to the TV as he popped another chip in his mouth.

You couldn't help but glance over at him a few times, admiring every little detail. You knew it would only end bad for you to develop a crush on him though. You felt so guilty for looking at him, and had to force yourself to stare at the TV and focus on anything else but him.

Robin noticed your discomfort, but he decided to not bring it up.

"Robin?" You finally looked over at him again. Robin turned to look at you, giving you that signature smile he always looked at you with.

"Yeah man, whats up?"

You sighed, fidgeting with the bag of chips in your hands. "Wh-why are you being so nice to me. I mean, surely you've heard what they've said about me. I mean, I just figured you deserve to know. I-I'd feel bad if you didn't know and I was just taking advantage of your ignorance and-" this was something you did often. You always pushed other people away before the could hurt you.

Robin just chuckled and set his chips down, turning his whole body to face you. "What? That you're gay? I don't really care about that. You're chill. You're a good friend, so why should it matter if you like guys. And besides, it would be pretty hypocritical of me to judge you for that." He let out a loud laugh, turning to face the TV again.

You just sat there for a moment, dumb-founded. "So are you-?"

"Yep." He seemed so calm and non-chalant about it. It surprised you, amazed you. That must be why he never paid much attention to the dozens of girls drooling over him.

You just smiled and turned to face the TV again.

Over the next few weeks, you happily grew closer and closer to Robin. You were happy to have a friend again. A friend who didn't judge you for who you liked. A friend who treated you like a normal human being.

But you also noticed the other feelings you had for him. The way your stomach flipped inside out anytime you saw him, or the goosebumps you got whenever the two of you touched, or how excited you got to stay the night with him and get more fighting lessons.

You tried to tell yourself that you had no chance, that he was way out of your league, but you couldn't help the way your heart fluttered anytime you looked at him.

It was another Friday night at his house. This time, the two of you were simply hanging out. You were playing cards on his bed while some Queen cassette played in the background.

Everytime it was Robins turn, you would just stare at him, admire the way his eyebrows furrowed as he tried to figure out his move, or how soft his lips looked, or how much you wished you could reach out and run your fingers through his hair.

Robin looked up to notice that you were practically in a trance. He smirked as you suddenly realized that you were staring and looked down at your cards, pretending like you were trying to decide what move to make.

Robin let out a low chuckle, which made your cheeks flush an embarrassingly bright shade of red.

"Something wrong, Y/n?" He teased, setting his cards down and resting his chin in his hand.

"You're really pretty, Robin." You mumbled. Shit. You spoke without thinking. Was Robin going to be disgusted? You knew he was gay, but still. He probably just saw you as a friend and now you just ruined the only friendship you had and-

"You think so? You're not so bad yourself, Y/n." He chuckled again, he seemed to be enjoying how embarrassed you were.

You looked up at him, locking eyes with him, unsure of what to say. Luckily you didn't need to say anything, since Robin seemed to have that covered.

"Do you have a crush on me, Y/n?" That cocky smile on his face mixed with the question was enough to make you feel lightheaded.

You dumbly nodded, words failing when you opened your mouth.

"Good, because I like you too." Robin sat up and leaned over, completely disregarding the cards on the bed. He plopped down next to you, and you froze, unsure of what to do.

"C-can i-" you locked eyes with him, then glanced down at his lips, then back at him again.

Robin nodded, and you tentatively leaned in, pressing your lips against his. Kissing Robin was simultaneously everything you expected and completely different. The feeling of your lips hurriedly and sloppily moving against his made you want to pass out right then and there.

After a few seconds, the two of you pulled away and rested your foreheads against each other. You stared into his eyes, smiling so wide your cheeks were sore.

The both of you weren't sure what to say. But nothing really needed to be said. You both liked each other, and that was all that mattered to you.

A/N: i am so sorry that this one is kinda sucky and rushed!! But still, I hope you enjoy it!!

[chickensarentcheap]

Never Gonna Be Alone- Chapter 58

Title: Scared.

Warnings: angst, profanity

Tagging: @c-a-v-a-l-r-y, @innerpaperexpertcloud, @tragiclyhip, @miss-smutty, @ocfairygodmother, @ocappreciation​

Link on Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/28860450/chapters/80937475

She finds him in the kitchen. Standing in front of the coffee bar in a pair of Under Armour sweats that sit impossibly low on his hips and his hair and the back of his shirt visibly dampened by sweat. She’d been stirred awake by the profound need to vomit; morning sickness hitting her hard and quick and finding her throwing off the comforter and rushing for the washroom. For forty minutes she’d stayed there; on her knees in front of the toilet with her cheek resting on the cold porcelain of the lid. It had taken longer than normal for the nausea to pass; accompanied by profuse sweating and the horrific dizziness. And she’d just begun to return to normal and had been in the process of splashing cold water on her face and brushing her teeth when she’d heard the front door click open. When he hadn’t come upstairs, she’d gone in search of him, shoving her feet into a pair of slippers and one of his hoodies.

“What are you doing up so early?” Tyler inquires, when she wraps her arms around him from behind. “ Not like you to be up before the kids.”

“Woke up to an empty bed. Thought I’d come down and check on you.” Her hands slid around to his stomach and slip up to his chest; lingering briefly on broad, hard muscle before retreating to his hips once more. She rests her forehead against his back; enjoying his familiar scent -mixed with the slight tinge of perspiration- that clings to the slightly dampened cotton of his t-shirt. “You worked out? Already?”

“And went for a run.”

“Must have been pretty damn early when you got up.”

“Still dark out. Tried to fall back asleep and when that wasn’t happening, decided to get up and start the day. I didn’t want to wake you up; all the tossing and turning I was doing.”

“Are you feeling alright?” Her hands move to his shoulders, gently kneading the muscles as she presses a kiss to the middle of his back. “ You’ve been getting up crazy early every day for a week now. Don’t you think maybe you’re going a little too hard? With the heavy lifting and the running and…”

“My body feels fine. Couple extra aches and pains and some stiffness, but nothing major. Nothing I can’t handle. I’ve felt worse, that’s for sure.”

“I just don’t want you pushing it, okay? Don’t go past what your body will let you do. I know sometimes you get really into it and you’re in a zone and it’s really hard to stop, but…”

“Didn’t we talk about this?” He turns to face her; leaning back against the countertop as the coffee brews and the kettle boils. “A week and a bit ago? About me not pushing the limits? I said I’d listen to my body. And I am.”

“I just worry. I know what you can be like; when you really start going hardcore with things. I mean, I get that you feel like you need to be bigger…”

“I WANT to be bigger. I don’t feel I need to be. We talked about this.”

“I know, and I’m just reminding you that your skills and your ability to keep us safe? They are not tied to how big you are. I just want you to realize that, okay? Before you totally start busting your ass because you think one has everything to do with the other. It doesn’t. At all. And I don’t want you forcing yourself to get bigger and hurting yourself and…”

“Esme…” He smooths her hair away from her cheeks; looping wayward strands behind her ears and then cradling her face in her palms. “...I’m fine. I’m just trying to maintain. That’s it. You know how hard that’s been; trying to keep weight and muscle on. Ever since...well, you know.”

“I do know. It’s been a challenge; getting back to where you were and staying that way. And I am totally onboard with that; you maintaining how you are right now. Because it’s the healthiest you’ve been. In years. I just don’t want you feeling that you need to be different. Bigger. I don’t want you thinking I want you to be that way.”

“I don’t think that. I’ve never thought that. I know you don’t give a shit; big, small, muscles, no muscles. I know none of that matters to you.”

“It’s not that it doesn’t matter. It does, in a way. Because I want you to be the healthiest you can be. But I love you ALL ways. Your size means nothing to me.”

A grin plays on his lips. “We’re talking over all size and not below the waist, yeah? Because I seem to recall you saying...many times...how much you enjoy the fact I have a huge…”

“You just HAD to go there. You just had to turn around and make this weird. You damn well know what I was talking about.”

“I make it weird when I start to get uncomfortable. You should know that by now. It’s only been twelve years and…” he consults his watch. “...one month…”

“And thirteen days,” she finishes. “What? I keep track too, you know. You’re not the only sappy one in this house. And why DO you get uncomfortable? Shouldn’t YOU know by now that you don’t have a reason to get like that? That I’m the last person you should be that way with.”

“I do know all that.” Pushing his hands through her hair, he allows the dark, silky stresses to slip between his fingers; palms skimming over her shoulders and down her upper arms before sliding around to the small of her back. “ Just sometimes I can’t help it. Guess it’s just years of being that way with other people. Sometimes the past comes back. No matter how far I feel I’ve gotten away from it. What’s the saying? Old habits die hard?”

“I was thinking more ‘you can’t teach an old dog new tricks,” she teases, then gives a yelp when he brings his palms down on her ass cheeks in a ringing slap. “You know, that shorter hair? How blond it looks? Totally hides all your gray. My old man doesn’t look so old anymore.”

“Fuck you, Esme.”

“I wish you would actually. The one morning I wake up really wanting it? You’re nowhere around. Sadly, I had to take matters into my own hands.”

“You didn’t.”

“I so did. I’m sorry, husband. I didn’t have a choice. You have no idea just how badly I wanted it. And when I woke up and you weren’t there…”

“You’re kidding me right now. You’re not being serious.”

“One hundred percent serious.” She gives a dramatic pout. “Sorry.”

“Why didn’t you wait until I got home?”

“I didn’t know how long you were going to be! Some things can’t wait. A pregnant woman’s hormones? They can’t wait. Sorry.”

“You’re bullshitting me right now.”

“There’s two things I for sure never lie about. Sex and orgasms. And seeing as you couldn’t give me the sex…”

“I could have given it to you when I got home. But you couldn’t wait, so…”

“I think you’re underestimating just how bad my hormones are right now. I know it’s been a while, but do you remember how bad things got? During my first trimester with Brookie and Takota?”

“Just with them? You were brutal with all of them. And with them and Millie, I couldn’t really do much about it because Dhaka kicked the ever loving shit out of me. Twice.”

“You held your own. You found ways. But let’s put it this way; combine all my pregnancies together and that’s pretty much how out of control my hormones are.”

A slow, sly grin spreads across his face. “Really? ‘Cause when you’re not pregnant, you’re pretty out there with how much you need and want. I’m older now. I don’t know if I can keep up with pregnant lady hormones.”

“Why do you think I have a whole drawer of sex toys? Take some of the strain and pressure off you.”

His eyes narrow. “Are you fucking serious right now?”

She remains stone faced for several seconds, then bursts into giggles when he scowls and attempts to step away. “I’m kidding! I’m totally kidding, babe. Totally. No!” She wraps both arms around his torso when he tries to side step her. “You’re not going anywhere! I was joking! I didn’t mean to insult you. Or your penis.”

“You hurt it’s feelings.”

“Want me to apologize to it?”

“Do you want to apologize to it?”

“Would it offend your penis even further if I said ‘not right because I’d probably puke all over it’?”

“He acknowledges that as a perfectly acceptable reason. But he also says once you’re feeling better…”

“Once it passes, I promise I’ll be very nice to him. But right now? Right now I need the penis owner to hug me.”

“I don’t know…” he chides, and wraps both arms around her much smaller, slighter frame. “...I guess I could do that.”

“You DO love me.” She perches herself on the top of his feet and curls her arms around his neck. “Although the way I’m feeling? It doesn’t feel like love.”

A palm moves to the back of her head, cradling it to his chest. “I take it you really didn’t wake up horny?”

“No. I didn’t. I woke up to puke. A lot.”

“I’m sorry, Me. That you’re feeling like shit. And for being the reason you ARE feeling that way.”

“You should be sorry. You and your penis and your talented sperm. And your stupid handsome face and your stupid blue eyes and your stupid voice. All the stupid things I can’t say no to.”

“Can’t? Or don’t want to?”

“Both,” she admits, and then giggles against him when his hand slips from the small of her back and travels down to gently squeeze an ass cheek. “I’ve never been able to say ‘no’ to you. It’s a blessing AND a curse, I swear.”

“Well, for what it’s worth…” he drops a kiss on the top of her head, then crooks a finger under her chin and tilts her face up towards him. “...I’m sorry you’re feeling like shit. And that it’s my fault you are.”

“Technically, it’s both our faults. I can’t hold you solely responsible. And I guess it’s a small price to pay; for bringing beautiful little humans into the world. If you ask me, we’re doing society a favour by sharing our genes. We make really cute kids.”

“I can’t argue with that. But is it really a surprise? We’re not exactly hideous.”

“Speak for yourself. You’re the looker in the family.”

He frowns. “I don’t know what the hell you’re seeing when you’re looking in the mirror, because when I look at you? Hideous does not come to me. You are definitely the hot one.”

“I think you underestimate just how good looking you actually are.”

“I think you overestimate how ugly you are. Wait….that did NOT sound right.”

“No, it didn’t,” Esme laughs. “But I know what you were trying to say. I think.”

“Let’s just agree that we make awesome looking kids and that it’s scientifically impossible for us to have ugly ones.”

“I can definitely agree to that.”

“And I am sorry.” Once more cradling her face in his hands, he presses a soft, brief to her lips, followed by one to her forehead. “That you’re feeling like crap. Any better now?”

“A little. I don’t feel like I should be taking up permanent residence in front of the toilet. And I meant what I said; about not caring about what you look like. And how your size has no correlation with the skills you have and the things you can do. You do know that, right?”

“I’m trying. To force myself to realize that.”

“Just be careful,” Esme pleads, as she runs her fingernails along his forearms as his hands linger against her cheeks. “Don’t over do. I don’t want you hurting yourself. I’m not nagging. I’m just worried.”

“Nothing to be worried about,” he assures her, and kisses her a final time. Much deeper and longer; fingers locking together at the base of her neck as she stands on her tiptoes and leans her body into his. “I’m fine,” he promises, and pecks the end of her nose. “If I feel like I’m pushing things, I’ll stop. I’ll even give you permission to give me a kick in the ass if you think I’m going too hard. Sound good?”

“Sounds good,” she agrees, and presses a kiss to the underside of his chin before retreating to the island and sliding onto one of the barstools.

“I’ll make you some of that tea. Maybe that’ll help. Think you can handle eating something?”

“Maybe. What are you going to make me in my delicate condition?” Reaching for the Ipad that sits on the countertop, she slides it towards her; pressing the home button to bring the screen to life and immediately checking her email.

“I’m not a rookie. I know what you can and can’t handle.”

“We’re not talking about sex, Tyler. We’re talking about feeding a horrifically nauseous pregnant woman.”

Grinning, he places a steaming mug of tea down in front of her and then drops a kiss on the top of her head. “And you say my mind is always in the gutter.”

“We don’t have seven kids and one on the way for no reason. Save to say your mind isn’t the only dirty thing you possess. Anything interesting happen while you were on your run? Anything exciting?”

“If you’re asking if I saw Mark, no, I didn’t. And it’s probably a good thing because I definitely would have killed him.”

“Not that he doesn’t deserve it, but I’m glad you didn’t see him either. Last thing I need is you in jail for the rest of your natural born life. I don’t quite feel comfortable bringing my children into that kind of environment.”

“You could always come visit me alone,” he chides, and drops a mixture of crackers onto a plate. “You know, for conjugal visits.”

“How romantic. Getting railed with a guard right outside the door. What’s more of a violation of privacy? What ruins the mood more? That or knowing one of your seven children could come running in any second?”

“For the record…” he opens the fridge and pulls out a block of marble cheese and a bag of grapes. “...my mood is never ruined.”

“That’s because when you’re in the sex zone, everything else ceases to exist. You practically forget you even have kids.”

“My dick forgets I have kids. He’s running the show. I don’t get a say in it. My brain shuts down. I just go along for the ride. And boy, can give you an awesome ride.”

Rolling her eyes, she pushes the ipad away and reaches for her mug; clasping it in both hands and blowing a stream of steady air onto it hopes of cooling it down. She watches him as she sips cautiously at her drink; noticing the way the muscles in his arms twist and bugle with even the simplest of movements. The veins more pronounced and the sleeves of his tee -once fitting with room to spare- now tight around his biceps and through the chest and shoulders. Within the past two weeks alone he’s stepped up the frequency and intensity of his workouts; no rest days and the weights much heavier and two hours in the gym now partnered with an hour run along the river. And while she admires not only the view and his consistency and commitment, it also worries her; the fallacy that his skills and his ability to protect his family are directly tied into his size. Mark’s appearance has only fed into things; turning Tyler’s need to be bigger and stronger into near obsession.

“You know…” she carefully broaches the topic once again. “....you’re built exactly like you were when we first met. And that was a good look. A VERY good look.”

“I put on that five pounds, And more. Nine in total. Doesn’t sound like much, but…” he slides the plate of food in front of her. A mixture of various crackers and cheeses and a handful of grapes; the lone breakfast she could tolerate and stomach during the beginnings of all her pregnancies. Until medication became the only thing that helped with keeping any water and liquid down. “...it’ll take a lot to maintain it.”

“Just have to keep eating like you have been,” she says, and selects a piece of cheese from the plate, nibbling at it as he moves to the coffee bar and begins preparing a mug. “You’re up to what? Five meals a day? High calorie, high protein?”

“Probably go up to seven soon. Maybe add in a few smoothies throughout the day.”

“That’s a lot, don’t you think? That’s what you were during back in Colorado; after we got back together. And you went into that whole lumberjack stage.”

“For the record, you called it that. Not me. And you didn’t complain about it at the time. You said you liked that look; me being thicker.”

“I did. I DID like it. It was a change. But things are different now.. YOU’RE different. You’ve been through a lot since then. Your BODY’S been through a lot. Not to mention you’re older. That was a long time ago. Millie wasn’t even in school full time yet.”

“So because I’m older it means I have to just let myself go? Get fat and out of shape? A dad bod? You should know that’s not me; I’m not the type to just around on my ass and not do anything. I’ve always kept in shape. Even when I was a fucking mess and living in that shack.”

“I know it’s important to you; keeping in shape and being healthy. And I’d never stop you from doing it and I’m not suggesting you shouldn’t stay with it. . I just…” she drums her fingernails against the countertop. “...it sounds like you’re going into a bulk.”

“Maybe a little bit of one,” he says with a shrug, and slides into the stool across from her; coffee mug raised to his lips as he regards her. “Why? Is that a problem?”

“No. It’s not a problem. It’s just…” Sighing, she takes a bite out of one of the crackers. “...I am trying so hard here. To navigate this as carefully as possible. Because I don’t want you thinking I’m nagging or attacking or…”

“Just say what you want to say. What are you worried about? I’m not going to lose my shit. We can have a conversation without that happening, can’t we??

“Usually. Eight times out of ten.”

“Just say what you want to say, Me. I won’t get pissed. Just say it.”

“I’m worried about you. I’m worried that Mark showing up is somehow putting it into your head that you need to be different. That you need to be bigger and stronger and…”

“I do need to be stronger.”

“You’re already strong. More muscles does not equal strength. You know that better than anyone. You’re the gym lover, right? You know more about this stuff than I do. Muscle mass does not equal physical power. Look how strong you were in Dhaka. The first time around. You were built EXACTLY like you are now. Look at the things you were able to do. Especially in that apartment. You were there all by yourself and you had to take down all those guys on your own.”

“I was armed.”

“Until you weren’t. Then you had to rely on your physicality, right? You didn’t have a choice. You had to trust in your skills and the strength you had. And it worked out really well, don’t you think? You got rid of all of them and got Ovi out of there.”

“That was all skill, Esme. Not strength.”

“It was a mix of BOTH. You were strong, Tyler. You were insanely strong. I saw what you were capable of. And you were built exactly the same way you are now. So if you didn’t need to be bigger and bulkier then…”

“I was also younger than. Almost thirteen years younger.”

“And at the risk of pissing you off, you were also an alcoholic and addicted to Oxy-Contin. Wouldn’t those have hampered you? Made you even a little bit weaker? You’re clean and sober now. That’s all out of your system. So if you’re just as big now as you were then and you don’t have addiction issues now….”

“I’m almost fifty fucking years old. You really think I’d stand a chance in that apartment now?”

“Yeah. I do. I do think you’d stand a chance. Probably even a better chance now. Because your mind isn’t all fucked up on booze and pain meds.”

“No it’s just fucked up in other ways.”

“That has nothing to do with this. You had PTSD then, you just didn’t realize it. Or maybe you did and you were just ignoring it and self medicating yourself. Numbing everything. Tyler, you already had the problems you do now. They were already there, babe. It just took a lot of extra fucking trauma to bring them out. Do you really think you didn’t have PTSD already?”

“I’ve never thought about it.”

“You’ve always had it. You’ve had it since you were a kid. Just no one ever gave a shit to get you help for it. And then Austin got sick and…”

“We’re not talking about that. We’re not talking about him.”

“I’m just saying other things happened. And they kept piling up and piling up and it took that fucking prick Nathan to really bring everything out. Those things were always there. It just took something to bring them to the surface.”

“Yeah, it only took getting shot in the back and getting fucking tortured. Hell of a price to pay, don’t you think? To make everything come out? Some fucking psycho slicing my face open and sticking his fingers in the bullet hole in my back. Threatening to rape my wife and my little girl and kill my entire family.”

She frowns. “What are you talking about? You’ve never mentioned that before. Threatening to…”

“I remember, Esme. I remember what happened in that storage locker. Everything he did, everything he said. Everything he told me he’d do to you and the kids.”

“When did this happen? When did you start remembering all that?”

“Couple months ago.”

“A couple months?! And you’re just telling me now? Why didn’t you say something? Why would you keep that from me?”

“I didn’t want you to know. The details. I figured it was just better to keep it to myself. What good does it do? You knowing that stuff? Why should we both be fucked up because of him?”

“What? You think I wasn’t already fucked up? You think seeing you that way didn’t screw me up? I was the one that was there. In the hospital. I was the one that was there when you got out of surgery and I was the one that got you the help you needed and busted my ass to get you sent back home where you’d be more comfortable and you’d heal quicker. That was all me. You don’t think that didn’t fuck me up?”

“I’m sorry it did. I’m sorry…”

“No,” she holds her hand up in a plea for silence. “ I don’t want you to be sorry because you have nothing to be sorry for. You didn’t do anything wrong. You didn’t deserve what happened to you. It wasn’t your fault Nathan was a total fucking sociopath. But I WAS there, Tyler. I was going through it with you. Who HAS been going through it with you. And you should have told me. That you were remembering. You owed me that.”

“I don’t owe you shit, Esme.”

“Really? So everything I did and everything I went through and all the times I fought for you meant absolutely nothing? Is that what you’re saying? That that meant fuck all to you?”

“I never said that. That’s NOT what I’m saying.”

“It’s been twelve years and in some ways you’ve changed, and in some ways you’re still the same. One day you’re a totally different person and the next you’re right back to who you were. When we first met. You go right back to being that guy that put all those walls up to keep everyone out. It’s like two steps forward and a whole bunch of steps back. Why? Why do you do this? Why do you go back to being HIM?”

“Because that’s who I am. That’s who I’ve always been. You’ve just been so caught up trying to make me something I wasn’t to make yourself feel better. Had to change me right? So you could live with yourself for making the decisions you did when it came to me.”

“That’s bullshit and you know it. I didn’t change you. You wanted to change. I didn’t force you. I didn’t demand that you change for me. I didn’t hold a gun to your head and make you become a family man. I didn’t…”

“You were pregnant with my kid. What did you want me to do? Let you walk away? Take my kid with you? Did you really think I’d let you do that?”’

“Holy fuck,” she scoffs, and pushes the mug away with enough force for tea to splash over the rim. “So this is what it took, huh? Almost thirteen years for you to finally tell the fucking truth. I asked you. After Dhaka. I asked you if it was what you wanted. If I was what you wanted. And you were so fucking convincing. I bought it. When you said it was. I actually fell for it. And in the end it WAS all just a bunch of bullshit.”

“No. It wasn’t. It wasn’t bullshit. I wanted you to stay. I wanted a life with you.”

“Because I was pregnant. Because you felt it was the right thing to do. Because you were trapped.”

“I wasn’t trapped. And it wasn’t because you were pregnant. I wanted you to stay BEFORE that.”

“Why didn’t you tell me that before? Why did you wait? Until I told you about Millie. Until I said I’d leave and never bother you again? Why didn’t you before that if I was what you wanted?”

“Because I almost fucking died and I was trying to heal and I was fucked up. I wasn't exactly in the right frame of mind. And maybe I was scared. Because I was feeling all the things for you. Because I’d just met you and suddenly I’m feeling shit that I’ve never felt for anyone in my entire fucking life. I went from wanting to kill myself to having something...someone...to live for. I’m sorry if I was a little fucking overwhelmed.”

“You? You were overwhelmed? I put my ass on the line on that bridge and stuck my fingers in your fucking neck! I stayed there! I stuck around and did everything I could to keep you alive! You were overwhelmed?”

“Well maybe you shouldn’t have. Maybe you should have just got your ass on the helicopter and left. Like everyone else did.”

“Yeah…” she slides off the stool, and angrily shoves it against the island. “...maybe I should have. Considering you just spent the last twelve years building a life based on a FUCKING LIE!”

“That’s not what I did. That’s not true. That’s not…” he captures her by the wrist when she attempts to stomp away, fingers digging into the sensitive flesh. “...where are you going?”

“I need to be away from you. I can’t be here. In this room. With you.”

“Don’t do this. Don’t walk away. If you walk away...”

“Let go of me,” she orders, and struggles in vain to yank her hand out of his grasp. “Let go. Now.”

“I’m not letting you walk away. Not until you listen to me. Not until you…”

“I’m done listening to you. You’ve said enough, don’t you think? What do you want to do? Hurt me some more? I don’t think that’s even possible. Because what you just did….what you just said...what you just admitted to…”

“I never lied to you. Ever. Not about us. Not about you.”

“You just did! You just told me that the only reason you even had me stick around was because I was pregnant. Because you felt obligated to keep me around. Because you felt some sense of duty.”

“I never said that. That is NOT what I said.”

“I asked you!” She manages to yank her hand free, and instead of fleeing the room decides to confront him. Standing between his splayed thighs and jamming her finger into his chest as tears coarse down her face. “I asked you so many times in the past twelve years! I asked you to tell me the truth; I asked you to tell me if you only wanted me to stay because I was having Millie. How many times have I asked you that? Tell me.”

“A lot.”

“Every time you said ‘no’. You said that you asked me because you loved me and you wanted a life with me. You wanted us to be together and have a family.”

“And that’s exactly why! That’s exactly why I asked you to stay.”

“It was a fucking lie, Tyler! You said I wanted to hear. What you knew would keep me there. You never meant a fucking word of it. It was all a lie.”

“No. It wasn’t. None of that was a lie. It’s the truth. I never lied to you, Esme. Not about that. NEVER about that.”

“You just told me! You just said ‘you were pregnant with my kid, what did you want me to do?’. Those words just came out of your mouth!”

“But I didn’t mean them. I just lashed out. All I heard was you say that I haven’t changed and I was still the same and I lost it. I snapped. And unfortunately that’s what came out. But it wasn’t the truth. Everything I said to you back then….about wanting to be with you and wanting a life with you and wanting a family...THAT was the truth.”

“Twelve years. Twelve years and seven kids. And it was all built on a fucking lie.”

“No. It wasn’t. None of it was a lie. You? Us? None of that is a lie. Stop…” He once more grabs her in an attempt to keep her from leaving; fingers curling around her bicep. “...I’m not letting you walk away. Just stop.”

“Leave me alone,” she pleads. “Please. Just leave me alone. Just let me go. You need to let me go, Tyler.”

“I can’t. I can’t do that.”

“You have to. You have to let me go..”

“Esme….”

“Please,” she begs, and tries to peel his fingers away from her arm. “Please just let me go.”

He finally relents; releasing his hold on her and holding his hands up in a show of surrender. Struggling to hold back a flood of tears of his own as he watches her flee the room; heart breaking just a little bit more with every step that takes her further away from him.

******

Tyler gives her a chance to cool down. Nursing his coffee while counting down the minutes on the digital clock on the stove; time passing agonizingly slow as he fights the urge to rush upstairs and pull her into his arms and kiss her until they’re both breathless. Then drop to his knees and grovel for forgiveness. He calls Desi and asks him to come and take the kids for a couple of hours; giving very little details but letting the uncharastically frantic tone of his voice do all the talking for him. And when he finally lets himself into the master, he finds her standing at the side of their unmade bed; an open suitcase and a pile of messy clothes sitting in the midst of the rumbled and tangled sheets.

He closes the door behind him, then cautiously approaches. Resisting the urge to stand behind her and place his hands on her shoulders and instead retreated to the dresser; leaning back against it with his arms crossed over his chest and fear quickly spreading through his entire body. “What are you doing?”

Esme doesn’t look up from the task at hand. “Packing.”

“I thought you were going to leave that stuff until the night before we leave. We’ve still got four more days.”

“You’ve still got four more days. I’m leaving. Today.”

His top teeth dig painfully into his bottom lip; biting back a ‘like fuck you are’ and instead offering, “Where are you going?”

“Home. There’s seats on a flight that leaves in four hours. I’ll call Andy on the way to JFK; see if he can pick me up at the airport.”

“Andy left Australia about three hours ago. He’s flying in for the wedding, remember? Your son’s wedding.”

“Then I’ll take a cab. Or I’ll call Estelle. I’ll figure it out. Don’t worry about it.”

His palms rub at his forearms, attempting to fend off the chill of dread that travels through him. “It’s kind of hard not to. You’re my wife. You’re pregnant with my kid.”

“Just let me worry about that, okay? It’s kinda my body. Not yours.”

“What the fuck is that supposed mean?”

“It means it’s my body. I’m the one carrying this baby. Not you. I’ll take care of it.”

“Take care of it as in make sure it’s okay or take care of it as in…”

She angrily tosses a pair of jeans into the suitcase. “I would NEVER do that to you. You think that little of me? That I would do something like that?”

“No. Of course not. I just…”

“Where’s the kids?”

“Desi came and got them. Took them out for breakfast.”

“How’d you convince him to do that?”

“I told him that some shit was going down and I needed to take care of it. That I needed to bust my ass and make things right.”

“I’m surprised you were so honest. What happened? Use up all your bullshit over the past twelve years? Had nothing left to give? Must have been tiring; keeping the lie up all this time.”

“Esme, stop. I never lied to you. Not about you. Not about us. Not about our life. I’ve never lied about any of that.”

“Our whole marriage has been a lie! Every year, every month, every week, every day. Even every fucking hour.”

“You can’t tell me you actually believe that.”

“I don’t know what to believe anymore. It’s kind of hard to trust anything you hear after you’ve found out your entire life...or a huge part of it...has been nothing but bullshit..”

“None of it was bullshit. I didn’t mean what I said. Downstairs. I didn’t mean….”

She finally turns to face him; hands clutching a t-shirt. “Was any of it true? Any of the last twelve years?”

“It was all true. Every day. All of it. It was all true, Me.”

Giving a derisive snort, she tosses the garment into the suitcase. “Don’t call me that. Things were good when you started calling me that. Things were great, actually. And I loved it; that you had this little nickname for me. Don’t ruin it, okay? At least give me one thing to hold onto.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be sorry. You got seven beautiful children out of your lie, Tyler. At least something good came out of it.”

“Okay, you know what…” He finally approaches the bed, snatching the sweater out of her hands and dropping it into the suitcase; picking the latter up and angrily tossing it into the corner of the room. He’s desperate. Frantic. Needing to make that last ditch attempt to keep everything together. He won’t survive if things fall apart; at least not mentally. Losing her means he loses his entire world; the person who taught him what love TRULY is. It’s patience and it’s acceptance and it’s sacrifice and it’s sometimes painful as hell. And it tears him up inside; the thought of his world without his entire world in it. “...you’re going to listen to me. Whether you want to or not. Because I need you to hear what I’m saying. Esme…” he lays his hands on her shoulders, squeezing as hard as her body will allow him to. “Look at me. Please look at me.”

She shakes her head; chin remaining dropped to her chest.

“Please,” he begs, as his hands move to her cheeks; palms cradling her face and fingers pressing into the delicate skin as he tilts her head up towards him. “Just look at me. Don’t do this. Please don’t do this. Don’t shut me out.”

“I don’t know what you want me to say.”

He’s never heard her voice like that before; tiny and broken and lost. The hurt that he’s dealt her has struck extremely deep; the devastation and the heartbreak profound and reaching right into her very soul. Not even in the worst of times had he seen her like this; when she’d kicked him out and they’d spent six months walking on pins and needles around each other while desperately wanting to fix things and not knowing where - or how- to begin. She’s cried many times in front of him; tears of joy and anger and frustration and fear and horrendous grief. And he’s always been able to comfort her and ease some of the pain; his arms able to give her the solace and the escape that she both craved and needed. But it’s far beyond that; no lingering embrace or stroking of hair or whisperings of love will do the trick this time. It’s him that’s caused this; the shimmer of tears in her eyes and the trembling of her body and the look of pure devastation and loss that registers on her face.

“I don’t know either,” he admits. “And I don’t even know what to say. I just know I need you to listen to me. To whatever I DO say. Can you do that? I need you to do that. Please, Esme. Just listen, okay?”

She offers a feeble nod.

“I love you. I have always loved you.”

“No. Don’t you say that. Don’t make it worse. Don’t screw things up even more by keeping up the lie. If there was ever a time for you to be honest with me…”

“I AM being honest with you. I have never...EVER...lied about this. About you. About us. About our life.”

“I asked you, Tyler. More than once. Even after you brought up getting married. I asked you if it was because you actually did want me, or if you felt obligated to be with me. Because of Millie. I ASKED you.”

“And I told you the truth. I didn’t want to get married because of the baby. If there’d never been a baby...had you not gotten pregnant...I STILL would have wanted to be with you. I wanted to get married because I loved you. In a way I’d never loved anyone. That I didn’t even think was possible.”

“So you’re saying Millie had nothing to do with it? The fact I was having your daughter?"

“I mean, yeah, she did. In a way. I wanted us to be a family. I wanted it to be you and me and our kid. Because I knew we could make something of it. Don’t you think it was some kind of sign? If Dhaka couldn’t kill us, maybe things were meant to work out.”

“So if I hadn’t been pregnant…”

“I would have still wanted to marry you. I didn’t ask you to come to Australia because of Millie. I asked you because I didn’t want to lose you. I’d just found you. I wasn’t going to just let you walk away like nothing ever happened.”

“I gave up everything for you,” she snarls. “My entire life as I knew it. I gave it all up. And for what? For you to lie to me for twelve years? To base our entire life together on bullshit?”

“That’s not what I did. I didn’t lie to you. Our life hasn’t been bullshit. What I said downstairs? I didn’t mean it. THAT was bullshit.”

“Then why did you say it? If you didn’t mean it…”

“Because I lashed out. Like I’ve always done. Because all I heard was how I’m still the same person. I’m still the guy I was when we first met. The enormous alcoholic, drug addicted fuck up.”

“That’s not what I meant. I don’t think you’re that person at all. You haven’t been him in a long time. I didn’t mean…”

“You think what I said hurt you? How do you think that made me feel? I have busted my ass to give you a life. A GOOD life. I changed everything about myself. For you. And yeah, I needed to change; I needed to get my shit together and clean myself up. For once and for all. No more slip ups, no more going back to bad habits, no more running. And that’s what I’ve been doing for the past five years! I have done whatever I could to be the man you needed. That you DESERVE.”

“You are that man. I didn’t mean to say you’re not. That’s not what I meant; that you’re the same guy you were.”

“But that’s what I heard. You weren’t the only to give things up, Esme. You’re not the only one who had to adjust to a whole new life. I know the way I was living was pretty shit, but that’s all I knew. The job, the booze, the pills, hating myself, wallowing in my own fucking self pity. Do you think it was easy for me to just stop being that way? To just give up everything I knew for something else? Something totally different?”

“No. I know it wasn’t easy. I was there. With you. We went through all of it together. We helped each other adjust. I mean, we started living together and we barely knew one another. We were having a baby yet we were still learning about each other and trying to make a life together.”

“And that was pretty fucking scary wasn’t it. Jumping into all that and not even really knowing one another.”

She nods in agreement.

“ Everything said it shouldn’t work. That it WOULDN’T work. We were both pretty messed up. Some ways it was the same, some it was different. All the cards were stacked against us. All of them. And we somehow made it...US...work.”

“We had to put the effort in,” she reasons.

“And it was hard, wasn’t it. Nothing was easy about it. We pissed each other off, we disagreed on a lot of things, we had to get used to living with another person. It was damn hard. Wasn’t it?”

“Yeah.” She finally reaches out to touch him; running her fingertips along the neckline of his t-shirt; intently focused on a single loose thread in an effort to keep her emotions in check. And he immediately feels the change in the room; the pronounced shift from having to beg and plead to save his life to having to do damage control. The tension in her body releasing; shoulders relaxed and the tears in her eyes not as prominent and the way she finds it easier to look at him.

“Do you really think if I was lying that I would have put that much work into things? That I would have given everything up for you? For US? Do you honestly think I wouldn’t have run? Like I’d run from everything else before?”

“I never thought of it that way,” she admits.

“You came into my life and turned my whole world upside down. Second I saw you on my porch, I knew that was it. That things were going to change and that there wasn’t a goddamn thing I could do to stop it from happening. And you know what? I didn’t want to. Stop it. And that alone? That should have been enough to send me running.”

“Why didn’t it? Why didn’t you run?”

“I didn’t want to.”

“It would have been so easy. All you would have had to do was tell Nik you’d take the job and then not even show up. Although, I guess that would have made no sense; you would have lost out on a pretty big pay day.”

“Honestly, the money wasn’t even the first thing on my mind. It was there, but it wasn’t the most important thing. Which is weird, considering that’s all that job ever really meant to me. The pay out.”

“So why did you show up? If the money wasn’t the most important thing…”

“I wanted to see you again. I guess I wasn’t that annoyed about it after all; Nik bringing someone there.”

She manages a small smile.

“You were different. You didn’t give a shit about where I lived or what it looked like. You didn’t seem to care about the booze all over the place and the pain meds right out in the open. You didn’t seem to notice I was huge fucking mess.”

“You weren’t a mess. You were hurt. You were holding onto a lot of things. A lot of pain. I could see it; in your eyes. I’ve always said that; you say more with your eyes than you do with your mouth. I knew it when you looked at me; when we were talking after Nik went outside. I knew that people didn’t really know you. That they didn’t really ‘see’ you. That they never took the chance or the time to.”

“You did. You took the chance.”

“I guess I realized you were different too. From everyone that I’d met while on the job. You weren’t like the rest of them. You weren’t loud and obnoxious and bragging about your kills the second I met you. I couldn’t handle it; guys proud of all the lives they’ve taken and not shy about sharing the gruesome details. They GLOATED about that stuff. And the worst part? They thought I’d be impressed by it. That I’d somehow find it attractive and throw myself at their feet.”

“Guess it’s a good thing I didn’t bring out my kill sheet right after I met you,” he chides.

“You’ve never been like that. You’ve never taken pride in what you’ve had to do. You’ve never killed because you wanted to. You killed because you had to. I guess I got that impression right away; you were quiet and soft spoken and like I said, your eyes. They gave a lot away. About who you really were.”

“And that didn’t scare you?”

“There was nothing to be scared of. You may have had your demons, but you were pretty good at keeping them contained. I knew they weren’t something I had to be worried about. You weren’t going to hurt me. You didn’t have it in you.”

“And you could tell all that just by my eyes?”

She shrugs. “You have very expressive eyes. Why did you show up, Tyler? In Fitzroy Crossing. If it wasn’t really the money…”

“Like I said, I wanted to see you again. Girls like you just show up on my doorstep. Figured that was a sign; someone like you just walking into my place like you owned it. And when you didn’t pay attention to the disaster it or I was…”

“You weren’t a disaster. If you were, I never would have gone along with Nik’s plan. I would have ran long before you did, believe me. Had it been anyone else? Any other merc? I wouldn’t have taken that job. You were different, Tyler. In a lot of ways. And especially didn’t hurt that you looked like you did.”

“You would have been really disappointed if Gaspar had still been in the game. Nik called him first.”

“I for sure would have ran. That...HIM...that would have been a ‘no’ from me. I guess I’m lucky. That you even came home that day.”

“I actually briefly considered killing myself. About half an hour before. Something told me not to.”

“I’m glad. That it did. Because if it hadn't…” she looks away, tears once again brimming in her eyes. “...we wouldn’t have any of this. This life, Our kids. Us. We wouldn’t even have existed. And I don’t know about you, but I’m glad we do.”

Smiling, he loops strands of hair behind her ear. “So am I.”

She turns her tear filled eyes back towards him. “I’m sorry, Tyler. I never meant to hurt you. When I said what I did, about you going back to who you were, I didn’t mean it the way it came out. I didn’t mean to say you WERE him. I just mean that you always go back to certain things. Like hiding stuff from me. Because you think you should protect me from it.”

“I should have told you. About Nathan. Remembering the things that happened. I don’t know why I do; revert back to keeping things from you. I guess I am trying to protect you. I guess I figured one of us was already fucked up because of what happened, why should the other one be?”

“But it’s not protecting me. When you hide stuff. It does this. It causes problems. Way more problems than what would exist if you just told me. After everything I’ve been through in the past twelve years, there’s pretty much nothing I CAN’T handle. And I was there too. Five years ago. The aftermath of it. I was the one there with you. And believe me, I’m just as fucked up as you are. Seeing you like that? Seeing you in Dhaka seven years BEFORE that? You have no idea what it’s done to me. The things that are STILL in my head. I can’t get them out of there. And I need them gone. I need them out.”

Laying a hand on the back of her head, he pulls her into his embrace. An arm wrapped tightly around her waist and her fingers tangled in her hair as she buries her face in his chest. “I’m sorry, Me. I am so fucking sorry. That you had to see what you did. That you had to do those things.”

“It’s not your fault,” she sobs. “It’s never been your fault. You didn’t do anything wrong. You couldn’t have stopped what happened. I chose to stay. I couldn’t leave you there, Tyler. I couldn’t. I wasn’t leaving you on that bridge.

He attempts to gently shush her; palm moving to the middle of her back to rub in slow, soothing circles. “It’s okay. Everything’s alright now. YOU’RE alright.”

She turns her face up towards him, tears spilling down her cheeks as her entire body violently trembles. Voice terrified and frantic. “I’m not alright. At all. I am so far alright. And I need to be. I need to be alright.”

“You will be,” he assures her, and uses gentle fingertips to clear away the droplets glistening on her skin. “I’ll make sure of it. You’ll be okay. Right now, I need you to calm down. I need you to calm down and just breathe.”

“I can’t…”

“Yes you can. And you need to. For that baby. You need to settle down and breathe and…”

“I need help. I need help, Tyler. I need to get rid of this. This Dhaka stuff. In my head. I want it gone. You need to help me. Please help me.”

“I will. You know I will. As soon as we get home, I’ll call Doctor Klein and I’ll get you to see him, okay?”

She nods.

“It’s going to be okay. YOU’RE going to be okay.”

“I can’t breathe. I can’t…”

“You need to calm down. You’re thisclose to a panic attack and you need to settle down. Just breathe.”

“I CAN’T! I can’t breathe. It hurts...my chest…”

Muttering a string of profanities, he forces her to sit on the edge of the bed and then clasps her face in his hands. “Listen to me, you’re having a panic attack. I need to try and breathe, baby. Just breathe. I’m going to get you some meds, okay? You’ll be alright.”

“It really hurts...I can’t...take a breath.”

“I’ll take care of you.” He presses a kiss to her sweat slicked brow. “I’ll be right back. Just close your eyes and try to breathe. Can you do that?”

She nods.

Hurrying into the ensuite bath, he tosses open the medicine cabinet and begins violently rummaging through the contents. Various items tumbling off shelves and landing with a clatter in the sink; his own hands trembling and his chest feeling tight and uncomfortable. The blame and the guilt already screaming in his ears; silently berating himself for being the cause of not only her pain and her anger, but kick starting her ‘fight or flight’ response. Had he never said the things he had...had he never lashed out and even insinuated that he’d kept her around solely because she’d been pregnant with Millie...if he’d only…

He clutches the edge of the sink with enough force to crack his knuckles and turn his fingers white. And he drops his chin to his chest and briefly closes his eyes; forcing himself to push all of his own fears and worries and guilt and regret out of his mind. Needing to hold it together for her; be the shoulder to cry and the steadfast support and ‘the rock’ that she needs him to be. And when the sobbing and the gasping for air in the next room becomes even louder and incessant, he locates the bottle of anti-anxiety meds and asthma inhaler -prescribed to her for such events- and rushes back into the bedroom.

“It’s alright now,” he attempts to comfort her, and drops to a knee in front of her and shakes the inhaler before popping the cap off. “Here….take this...take it…”

Her hand covers his as he holds the device to her lips and she inhales shakily when he administers the dose.

“You need to take some meds, okay?” His hands tremble as he fights to open the bottle. “Just a couple. They’ll help. They work quick.”

“Something’s wrong.”

“Yeah, you're having an anxiety attack. You’ll be okay. Just…”

“No!” she interjects, and when she grabs his arm it’s with enough force that her nails cut into his flesh. “Something’s wrong. With the baby.”

The invisible vice tightens around his lungs. “What?”

“Something’s wrong, Tyler.” Her face contorts with pain, her other hand clutching at her stomach. “Something’s really wrong. With the baby.”

“Okay we’ll get you to the hospital and we’ll get you checked out. We’ll get you looked and the baby looked at…”

He doesn’t get the chance to finish the sentence; both of her palms now covering her stomach as she cries out in agony.

[idonthaveanaccent]

It’s been a while

Hello everyone, it’s been months since I last posted anything on here. I don’t know if I still want to post anything on tumblr, but I figured I should use the platform I gained a little at least. 

I’ve changed a lot and I like to think my writing has improved since creating this blog at 14/15. I’ve included the first chapter of a story I’m writing. I’ve included a link to it, it is available on wattpad.

The Immortal and the Cursed

Who knows if I’ll ever post anything again...college was shit so I’m no longer in school for this semester so I have a lot more free time and plan on working on writing more and hopefully one day publishing my stories.

I hope you all have a good day.

Seattle, 2018

"AND SO, THE WAR of 1812 was significant to America as it helped to..."

I watched as the class remained silent, their lifeless eyes staring at me with hollowed expressions. A sigh escaped me as I ran a hand across my forehead. As per usual, my class was basically dead. This was what my on-level history class looked like. My eyes scanned the crowd before landing on Derrick, a kid who was busy whispering to his friend about something. I was going to relish this moment. "Derrick?"

The kid jumped in his seat before looking at me like a deer caught in headlights. "Yes, Mr. Herwy?"

"Can you answer my question?" I asked, quirking an eyebrow.

Derrick muttered something under his breath as he looked around. "Uh— What was it again, sir?"

A few people snickered, but I quickly cut them off with my hand. "How did the War Of 1812 impact America?"

The boy frowned as he began to think. I watched the gears turn inside his head before he looked up. "It made lots of people die?"

I nodded. "That's one impact. But what I want to know is long term impacts. There's one big one that I think we should really focus on. Think of today's world and think of the people we fought during the war. What changed between then and now?"

Now everyone was thinking. I knew I had mentioned it. I did, didn't I? Honestly, couldn't tell anymore if I had said something or if I had forgotten to mention it entirely. Derrick frowned, rubbing his chin. Suddenly, a voice from the back piped up. "Canada."

Everyone turned their attention to Cera, a young and timid girl. Her voice immediately paled as she saw all the attention. "What was that, Cera?" I asked.

Her face flushed as she looked down at her hands. "Our relation—relationship with Canada changed."

"Thank you, Cera! That is a perfect example!" I shot up from the desk I had been perched on. The entire class jumped at my sudden burst. I didn't care, though. My passion for history overtook everything. "Before the War of 1812, Canada and the US were simply just neighbors. They didn't like one another, especially since Canada was still under the control of England. After the war, the US and Canada made a treaty that is still lasting to today. It is the longest standing peaceful border in the history of the world. We have never fought against Canada since."

I saw a few students scribble down what I said before I changed the slide. "Another very important part of the War of 1812 was—"

••••

THE SMELL OF RANCID lunch meat made me gag. Thankfully I didn't have to sit in the cafeteria. However, I needed to talk to a teacher that was on duty here. Due to budget cuts, Maryanne had to watch the high schoolers in order to keep things safe.

My eyes scanned a table populated by giggling teenagers. I grimaced. My stomach rolled in physical pain at the sight of the 'meat' and 'food'. It had gotten really bad in my entire existence.

I immediately remembered hunting and killing my food way back in the day. My chest tightened. Maybe I didn't miss those days as much. It was always a fight for survival, one more intense than todays. In today's world I could drive down the street and pull into one of the fast food places for a quick bite to eat. I could stop by any gas station and buy a water or a bag of chips. While it was less healthy than the past, it made things more convenient.

My mind wandered to my old friends. They would've loved this.

Immediately my mood soured. I couldn't indulge in such thoughts. My attention went back to the task at hand. Finding Maryanne to ask her about a lesson plan.

I was tasked with teaching her class during fifth period because she had to help set up the assembly the school was having during sixth. I don't know how she managed a wild group of history students while also being the student council teacher. I was barely able to hold these rug rats at bay in my classes, and yet she taught two different types of kids.

Dividing these students into types made it easier for me to identify the most likely reaction they would have to something. There were the charismatic popular kids, the popular for some reason kids, the average kid who was smart, the average kid with average grades, the failing kid who was smart, the failing kid who was not smart, and late but not least, the delinquents. Of course, there were sub groups as well, but I didn't have time to list all of them in my head.

I had just found Maryanne.

The petite woman looked like the super sweet Hispanic neighbor that those kids in movies always have who shower them with delicious food. Maryanne was that woman. She couldn't bake or cook in general, but otherwise she was really sweet. I towered over her, but most times people couldn't tell the difference between me and a student.

My chest tightened. I would forever look like a teenager. It made going to bars really difficult. It also made it real awkward when a parent came in and asked where Mr. Herwy was. I once had a parent ask me if my dad was out at the moment, and another time one of my student's sister hit on me. Awkward.

"Maryanne! Mrs. Garcia!" I called, waving at her.

The woman looked to me and then smiled. "Lawrence! How can I help you?"

"I need your lesson plans. Where did you put them?" I asked, stopping in front of her.

"I believe they are in the second drawer on my desk. If not, then just know they are learning about the Salem Witch Trials."

I felt my throat dry up. "You're that behind?" I croaked.

Maryanne nodded. "As an AP teacher we go more in depth. That means we spend more time on events."

I tried not to take offense to that. I didn't want to go through and learn how to teach AP kids. Plus, it was way harder to grade them and such. Ick. "Well, it's a good thing colonial America is kind of my thing."

"That's why I wanted you to teach them. I think they'll like you, Lawrence." Maryanne winked at me, a grin spreading on her face. "Oh, by the way, there is a new student too, so just keep a good face on and all that jazz."

I nodded, giving the needy woman a soft smile. "Will do. I will see you later. You owe me!" I called after her as I walked away.

Maryanne laughed as I walked off. My mind then ran off to the task at hand. I had to teach the Salem Witch Trials.

I rubbed my neck, my face darkening. History was my thing, but there were certain events I did not like to talk about. Whenever it was time to talk about be witch trials, I typically briefly talked about them. However, if I were to just gloss over it, Maryanne wouldn't be happy. Something twisted within my gut. I immediately tumbled into the nearest teacher's bathroom. My legs gave out in front of the toilet. It was just in time to as all the contents of my delectable lunch spilled into the bowl. A groan escaped me as I leaned back, pressing my back against the wall.

Dammit.

After making sure I was not going to throw up again, I stood up and made sure to clean any evidence of my episode up. I knew it had to do with thoughts of the trials, but that couldn't be helped. After years of it still haunting me and talking to a few people about it without giving away too many details, it was determined I had PTSD. It wasn't hard to imagine that I did, especially since that was the most horrific time of my life.

My neck ached once more, and I rubbed it as I walked out of the bathroom. The next ask for me was getting a mint because I could taste the vomit in my mouth. My mind immediately went to Miss Robinson, the lady at the front desk. She had a huge bowl of mints and I would need some of them.

By the time I reached the desk and had grabbed a handful of them, lunch was almost over. "Lawrence, did you eat some tuna or something?"

I looked down at the young woman and gave her a dazzling smile. "Yep. I have to teach Maryanne's kids too so I gotta make a good impression."

My stomach rolled hazardously as she laughed. "Good luck. I heard fifth hour is full of the self-centered kids that everyone loves."

I muttered a few obscenities, which only furthered her hysterical state. "Goodbye, Miss Robinson."

"It's Emma, Lawrence!" The young woman said as I walked off, a bright red flushing over her cheeks.

While I was flattered that she was into me, I knew that nothing would come from it. I couldn't afford to hand my heart out to anyone. That would only lead to yet another crack. I don't know how many more I could endure before my heart shattered.

I barely made it to Maryanne's room before the bell that ended B lunch and started fifth hour began. I quickly went to her desk and found the lesson plans. My eyes skimmed the paper before I heard people begin to come into the room. I glanced up and saw students walking in. When they noticed me, they immediately began to whisper amongst themselves. I sighed before continuing to read this paper full of retched memories for me.

By the time the bell that signaled class was starting rang, I had managed to quell any nausea threatening to break way. I looked up at all the students talking. I picked up the roster sheet and then looked down. I adjusted my glasses before clearing my throat. "Okay then."

Everyone looked at me. I saw a girl looking at me with a confused glint in her eyes. She was probably the new kid. "So, I'm Mr., Herwy, one of the other history teachers here. Mary— Mrs. Garcia is busy setting up the assembly for next hour, so I'll be filling in. Let's do roll first, okay? Uh— Marcus Alcantara?"

I watched a boy in the back nod to me as I raised his hand. "Here."

And so, I continued down the list, butchering a few names. It's not my fault I can't read every single name these kids have. I speak five languages and yet none of those names were ones I could speak. It's honestly stupid. People these days were so strange. "Did I get everyone?" I asked after marking down everyone who was absent.

The one girl raised her hand. "And what's your name?"

"Lavern Yeller."

I stiffened at the name but smiled nonetheless. "Are you the new student Mrs. Garcia told me about?"

Lavern nodded, her face flushed red. I chuckled before writing her name down. "Perfect. Who wants to take this to the office?"

After handing it to someone, I began to lesson. "Today we will be talking about the Salem Witch Trials. Who here knows what they were and why they happened?"

Some kid whose name was Kyle raised his hand. I pointed at him as I took a seat on a table near the Smartboard. "So, the Salem Witch Trials was an event in which people were executed for being witches, and they happened because of hysteria or some form of it."

"Yes. There're other theories that perhaps disease and boredom also played a part, as well as a want for power. Other than that, that is basically what happened. A group of 22 people were executed because they were thought of as witches or warlocks. Warlocks being male. Now, Salem was a Puritan colony. Can someone explain a Puritan to me?" I adjusted my glasses again, my stomach churning.

A young girl whose name was Hannah raised her hand. Kyle did as well, but I called on her instead. She gave Kyle a pointed look score looking at me, batting her eyelashes. "The Puritans were a group who came from England because they believed that the church was corrupt, and so they wanted to come to America to make their own, better version."

"Very good, Hannah." Her face flushed red and she winked at me. I kept my face as neutral as possible. She was a teenager, she had to know flirting with me was illegal. "Puritans followed the Bible to a T because they saw it as the exact word of God. They also believed in predestination, so no matter what they did, they were either going to heaven or damned to hell for all eternity. Now, one thing they did think would automatically damn you was becoming a 'Devil's Agent'."

I watched as thy began to write down what I was saying. "They believed that when a person made a deal with Satan, they became a witch or warlock. There were tell-tale signs of them being one too. If they were unable to speak the Lord's Prayer or if they were able to hold a rifle, with their arm extended and their finger in the barrel, they could be a witch or warlock. They also checked for any physical flaws, such as a skin tag. They called them 'witch's tit', and so the person might be sent to the gallows.

"Now, of course, finding proof of actual witchcraft is impossible. However, people would often fake being possessed by demons in the witch's presence or fake symptoms of curses to better sell the witch. The people who started the witch trials are two young girls named Betty Parris, who was only nine, and then her cousin Abigail Williams who was eleven. They talk to a slave named Tituba for advice on their future husbands. After telling their fortune using a West Indian ritual, the girls began to act erratically. They identified Tituba and two other women as witches."

I watched as they continued to write. I took this chance to begin writing down every person executed. My stomach rolled, and a sick feeling began spreading across my spine. As I wrote my name, memories of the rope tightening around my neck flooded through me. I bit my lip, trying to focus on anything but that. If I blacked out now—

"Mr. Herwy, why is your name up there? I mean, your name is Lawrence, right?"

"It's a strange coincidence, isn't it? But no, me and his Lawrence are not the same. He was barely nineteen when he was executed. Hung. Poor kid. Anyways, let me get into some of these people and why they were accused—"

A strange feeling suddenly filled my body. I immediately felt dizzy. The next thing I knew, the ground was rapidly approaching me. I could hear people calling my name as I fell forward. The feeling simply spread, and it took me a moment to realize what it was.

As soon as I realized exactly why I had collapsed, my head hit something hard. A desk, I think.

My eyes rolled into the back of my head. As everything turned black, I came to the realization of where this horrific event had just taken place.

Salem.

[creativelyderangedme]

The Best Advice EVER

In Chameleon, instead of trying to just get Marinette to not get Akumatized in the bathroom, Tiki gives her some advice that changes the rest of the show.

Warning: Minor swearing ahead. Because reasons.

Just an idea based on some personal experience recently

.oOo.

Marinette growled, finding her way into a stall and taking a seat on the closed toilet lid, her hands shaking after the confrontation with the school’s resident liar. Her body trembled in anger. In fear. In total dismay over being threatened. 

Who did that? 

“I thought Chloe was bad, but Lila really takes the whole cake.” She took a shaky breath, her voice rising, “She’s like a supervillain who doesn’t even need a costume!”

The little red Kwami of creation watched her holder with worry and shared anger for how she’d been treated, but aside from comforting the girl, there was not much more she could do - even if she desperately wanted to. It pained her so much to see such a creative soul hurt like this, and one of her bugs no less! “You mustn't let her get to you Marinette,” She implored, hoping the girl would take a breath.

But she didn’t. 

Instead, her eyes grew shinier with tears threatening to spill and voice harsh but fragile as it broke, “If I don’t manage to expose her lies, she’ll ruin my life Tiki! She’ll turn my friends against me - including Adrien!” The tears finally broke through the dam and she growled loudly as a sob wracked her body and her fist came up to slam against the stall’s wall.

And that’s when Tiki knew she had to do something. 

Not only was her holder in danger of being possessed by an Akuma, but her whole outlook on the situation was so destructive, Tiki could practically feel the future repercussions from a mile away.

She flew in front of her chosen’s face, taking a deep breath before speaking up loudly over Marinette’s sobs, “Now listen here! That is ENOUGH.”

The girl looked up at her through tears that refused to slow, opening her mouth to argue, but the Kwami wasn’t done.

“You need to calm the fuck down.”

And just like that, Marinette’s sobs quieted as she was left speechless at the language thrown at her. Everything sputtering to a complete stop in her shock.

“Listen, Marinette, I know this seems like the end of the world, and right now someone telling you ‘it’s going to be okay’ is the last thing you want to hear. So I’m not going to say that. You’re not wrong to be upset about that girl threatening you, but the way you’re acting is going to get you hurt!”

Marinette blinked, mouth parting slightly, but unable to form any words.

“I’m not going to tell you to just believe everything is okay, because sometimes it isn’t, but you are Ladybug. You’ve literally accomplished the impossible before! The liar aside, stuff happens, Marinette! Circumstances are what they are. Friendships fail, people are hurt, trust is lost - and I know you’re angry and hurt and sad - but you’re in the thick of it, and the only thing you can control in this equation is YOU, and your reaction. You have to acknowledge what’s happened, accept the parts you can’t control and address the parts you can!”

There was a soft sniffle from the noirette as she seemed to mull over her little speech, “What - what are you saying Tiki?”

Tiki floated down to the cupped hands Marinette offered as a perch as she looked up meaningfully at her holder, “I’m saying that there is always going to be someone or something out there that will threaten you - and I don’t just mean bad guys. But even if you weren’t a superhero, it’s not your job to fix everything. Holding yourself to that standard isn’t just unfair - it’s downright destructive.”

“B-but she’s going to hurt my friends! She’s lying to them and promising them things that are untrue!”

“And who does that hurt when the truth comes out?”

“Them!” she exclaimed the obvious answer like it would change Tiki’s mind and make her agree. But it didn’t. In fact, it only proved her point, making it clear to the Kwami of creation how much her holder was holding over her own head.

“But it’s not your job to protect them all the time. They have to learn on their own, just like you. On the other hand, who gets hurt if you keep trying to prove Lila is a liar as a one-man-crusader and she does manage to convince everyone to turn on you?”

“M-me.”

“Exactly.”

“So you’re telling me I should just ignore it? I should just let her keep lying to the people I care about?”

“That’s not what I’m saying at all.” Tiki shook her head, a small smile finally appearing on her tiny lips, “I’m saying that you only need to address the things you can control. Do you have control over what your friends believe?”

Marinette looked like she was going to say something, but instead, she closed her mouth and shook her head no.

“Right. But you do have control over how you react to this situation, and getting Akumatized over some liar isn’t going to help anything, now is it?”

Marinette let out a little giggle as a smile spread over her face, “No, it’s not.” She mumbled reaching up to wipe the tear tracks from her face.

Tiki sighed in relief. She’d managed to jump in and calm the girl down before an Akuma could show itself. 

In fact, unbeknownst to her, she’d managed to get Marinette calmed down before Hawkmoth had even gotten a chance to release the butterfly at all. Something that deeply aggravated him as he lost the feeling of any strong enough emotions in the area, and therefore preventing Lila from becoming Chameleon at all.

The Kwami floated up to look her holder in the eye once more, a much more confident look on her face, “Now then, what are you going to do next?”

Marinette smiled softly lifting a hand to gently brush her Kwami’s head, “I can’t change what everyone believes. But I can take steps to protect myself. And I can speak up about the things that bother me - like the seat change.”

Tiki hummed, her smile growing as she zipped up to place a kiss on Marinette’s cheek, “I’m so proud of you.”

Marinette left the bathroom with every intention of finding her teacher and speaking up about what had happened that morning when a familiar voice rang out behind her, “Oh, hey there Marinette.”

She turned with a squeak to find Adrien strolling up with a smile - one that quickly faded as he looked her over, worry quickly replacing his mirth, “Hey, are you okay? Were you - were you crying?”

Marinette’s hands, came up quickly to try and wipe away any remaining evidence of her breakdown, with the words ‘I’m fine’ on her lips before a soft nudge from her purse caught her attention.

Right.

The only thing she had control over was her reaction to the situation. And it wasn’t healthy to bottle something like this up. She was a superhero, but she was also human.

“A-actually, no. I’m not.” She managed a coherent sentence to her crush, she offered him a little smile even as his brows creased further in worry.

“What happened?”

She proceeded to tell him how Lila had been lying all day and threatened her in the bathroom, not leaving out a single detail - even the part about Lila keeping her away from Adrien, taking calming breaths the entire time. She told him about how much it bothered her to see her friends lied to, but how she couldn’t change what they believed. But it was important to say something because she’d been hurt none-the-less because of the lie. When she was done, she sighed as she looked up towards their classroom, a thoughtful look on her face, “I was going to go see to Mrs. Bustier and talk to her about the seating arrangement. I want to tell her about what happened in the bathroom, but I don’t know if she’ll believe me. I don’t exactly have proof.”

She looked back to him then to find him frowning in thought. His emerald eyes found her and there was so much guilt there, but also resolution, “Maybe you don't have proof, but how about back-up?”

Because she’d told him about the threat and her true feelings on the matter of being pushed out by her friends, Adrien found that ignoring the problem and taking the highroad was not going to change anything. Lies hurt people. Even small ones meant to get attention. 

And Marinette was his friend. He’d never let her get hurt if he could prevent it.

They then went and spoke to Mrs. Bustier together, telling her why Marinette had been so upset earlier over the seats, and the incident in the bathroom. And because their teacher wasn’t a pushover and knew the students wouldn’t lie about a claim as serious as this, she investigated the incident.

Seriously tho. Like, so many things could have been prevented if Marinette didn’t have the hero complex she does. She didn’t have to handle everything on her own. And If she’d spoken to someone sooner, like half of season 3 probably would have gone a totally different way.

ALSO, someone has GOT to teach this kid how to handle her anxiety. She spends so much time catastrophizing and freaking out over the what-ifs and the possible failures that she never gives herself a chance to enjoy the moment as it is right now. She’s going to burn herself out before she even gets a chance to do anything else, and the GIRL IS 15! Dear lord, child, live a little. You have your whole life ahead of you. 

[omgjasminesimone]

Running Part 1

Colt x MC (Ellie)

Next Part: Part 2

Author’s Note: Finally, I have an idea for a Colt x MC miniseries! I’ve wanted to write one forever, but had no inspiration until now! This won’t be long, I’m thinking 3 or 4 parts.

Summary: Ellie is forced to ask herself some hard questions after discovering that she’s pregnant with Colt’s baby.

Rating: PG-13

Word Count: 2200

Ellie paces the bathroom restlessly, chewing on her nails as she waits for her phone to alert her that the five minutes needed for the at home pregnancy test are up. It had taken two missed periods, a month of nausea, and extreme breast sensitivity (She’d discovered that last symptom only last night when Colt had squeezed her breasts roughly as she rode him) to make her confront the possibility that she might be pregnant. God knows it’s not like she and Colt have been careful enough to prevent an unplanned pregnancy in the 3 months since she graduated from Langston and returned to LA.

Ellie had come straight to the rebuilt Kaneko Auto Shop in Gramercy Park from LAX. Her father was very unhappy about it, but despite his many objections when Ellie and Colt got back together her senior year (after Colt deemed that he had laid low long enough and finally showed up unexpectedly at her dorm after almost 3 and half years of radio silence), Detective Wheeler couldn’t stop them. Ellie had a job offer in Boston she had passed up in order to return to LA, to return to Colt. According to her father, she was making a grave mistake.

But Ellie didn’t feel like she was making a mistake, despite the fact that Colt was still involved in crime. With the Brotherhood gone, Colt decided to rebuild the Mercy Park Crew. Ximena had come back, but the rest of the crew consisted of new members. When Ellie couldn’t find a job in LA, she had gotten involved with the shop. Her economics degree was coming in handy as she handled the financials (she also helped cook the books to hide the Mercy Park Crew’s profits under the legitimate auto shop front). Ellie knows she should feel bad about descending back into crime after miraculously getting away with everything she did that last year of high school, but she doesn’t. Especially not with the way Colt looks at her as they work together, like he’s so damn proud he might burst.

Colt smirks widely as Ellie finishes her accounting spreadsheet, that sexy little criminal typing numbers quickly, intensely focused on her task.

“What?” She asks when she notices how he’s looking at her.

“You’re so fucking sexy when you help me steal shit.” Colt responds earnestly.

Ellie laughs, closing her laptop. She scoots over from the desk chair beside him (it doesn’t really fit, the desk clearly made for just one person, but they make it work), perching herself in his lap instead. He wraps his arms around her, the blueprints to the factory he’s targeting are on the desk behind her completely forgotten as his eyes fall to those plump lips of her’s he loves. “It’s me and you baby, running this whole town.” Ellie promises before kissing him roughly, biting his bottom lip harder than she probably should.

But he responds with a pleased groan, using his arm to knock everything from his side of the desk, placing her on top of it and stepping between her legs.    

The phone countdown completes with a shrill beep, stunning Ellie out of her reverie. She grabs the pregnancy test off the counter, face falling as she reads the results. Two lines. She’s pregnant.

Ellie takes a seat on the toilet, staring in disbelief at the test still clutched in her hand. This wasn’t supposed to happen. She’s only 22. She just graduated from college. Her and Colt have only been back together for 9 months. Colt. Shit. How is she supposed to tell Colt?

..

Ellie takes some time to compose herself before finally leaving the bathroom, silently creeping back into their bedroom. She slips into bed without waking Colt, quite a feat since Colt is a very light sleeper, always alert, waiting for something bad to happen. She stares at his slumbering form. He’s not exactly peaceful, brow furrowed as if he’s worried about something, but he’s softer when he sleeps. She can almost imagine this version of him as a father, cuddling their little bundle of joy, teaching their daughter or son to ride a bike, helping their child with homework at the kitchen table.

But then Ellie looks around the room. The bars Colt has installed on the windows to prevent anyone from breaking in, the loaded gun he keeps on the nightstand for protection, the drawer where she knows he keeps wads of cash obtained through dishonest means.

This is no environment for a baby, for a child. Ellie worries her bottom lip, flipping onto her back to stare at the ceiling fan slowly twirling above them. She can’t imagine Colt giving up this lifestyle. Not when he sees it as his legacy, his destiny, his only way to feel close to his father. He might give it up for her, and their baby, if she asks. If she begs. But would he secretly resent her?

Ellie doesn’t get any sleep that night, her mind goes at a hundred miles per hour, thinking too much as always. Light trails through the thin curtains as dawn breaks. Ellie flinches in surprise when Colt’s arm wraps around her, not having heard him wake up and stretch as she was lost in her thoughts.

“What’s got you so jumpy?” Colt asks, yawning as he fully wakes up.

Ellie ignores his question, rolling over to face him and staring into his brown eyes. His eyes narrow as she looks at him like that, quickly becoming uncomfortable with her intense stare. “Seriously, what’s wrong with you?” He prompts.

“Can I ask you a question?” Ellie responds after several moments, weaving her fingers into his thick dark hair.

“If I say no, are you actually not going to ask?” Colt questions.

Ellie smiles softly at his smart aleck response, thumb rubbing soft circles at the top of his neck. “It’s kind of a heavy question.” She admits softly.

“Just tell me all ready. Then we can take care of this.” Colt replies impatiently, his hand balling into the front of his t-shirt that she’s wearing, pulling her flush against him and his morning wood.

“At the casino….that night….” Ellie trails off as Colt’s face hardens, his desire forgotten as he flashes back to his botched plan to take out the Brotherhood and his father’s untimely demise. They don’t talk about this often. Ellie swallows, forcing herself to continue. “If Logan hadn’t been there, would you have opened that vault door Colt?” Ellie questions, watching as Colt internally panics.

After a few moments, she grips his chin, pulling him into a bruising kiss. Colt deepens the kiss, tongue delving into the wet cavern of her mouth. He starts to tug at her borrowed shirt, but she pulls away, brown eyes fluttering open to stare into his own. “It’s okay if the answer is no. I just want to know. It’s something I’ve been thinking about.” Ellie confesses.

Colt licks his suddenly dry lips, thinking. “Are you asking if I’d open that door, knowing that my dad would die?” Colt asks.

Ellie winces, feeling guilty even though Colt has assured her time and time again that he doesn’t blame her for what happened to his father. “No, not knowing the future. Just in that moment, would you have opened the door?” She presses.

“That’s a stupid question. I don’t like fucked up hypothetical questions.” Colt replies defensively.

“….I don’t think you would have. Maybe now you would, but not then. You didn’t try to check on me after, you went straight to try to close the door.” Ellie remembers.

Colt glares. “Logan had you, I didn’t need to check on you. That was my last chance to get the plan back on track-“ He tries to explain, but she interrupts.

“It’s fine Colt. I’m not mad. I just think it’s something I needed to know for sure.”

“Why are you even asking me this? What, do you think Logan loves you more? Are you going to find that asshole and leave me?” Colt asks, anger breaking through the calm tone he’s trying to maintain.

“Hey.” Ellie soothes, pulling him into a soft kiss to try to calm him. “This isn’t about Logan. I chose you. I’ll always choose you.” Ellie assures.

Colt calms slightly, tangling his hands into her dark hair. “I do love you Ellie, you know that right? I loved you then too, even if I didn’t know it yet. I was young and dumb back then, and honestly I probably wouldn’t have opened the door. But I’m glad I didn’t have to make that decision, because it would have been the worst mistake of my life. I love you baby, so much.”

Ellie smiles softly as Colt pulls her into another deep kiss by the back of her neck. “I love you too Colt, always. You know, I think the fact that you wouldn’t have opened that door is part of why I chose you over Logan. I know you love me, but I’m not your everything. That’s too much pressure for me, being the center of someone’s universe. You could live without me.” Ellie reveals when she pulls away.

Colt frowns at that, looking at her closely. What’s going on with her? “I might be capable of living without you, but I wouldn’t want to. You know that, right?” Colt implores.

Ellie nods. “I know.”

“Seriously Ellie, what’s going on? Did you get a job offer across the country?”

“No.” Ellie answers.    

“Did your dad finally convince you to move back in with him?” He guesses.

“No, Colt. It’s nothing.” She sits up, pulling her hair out of her messy bun and starting to braid it.

Colt sits up with her, grabbing her arm and turning her to look at him. “Are you pregnant?” Her eyes widen a fraction of an inch before she gets her expression back under control, but he catches it. “You’re pregnant.” He repeats, not a question this time.

“I took a couple of pregnancy tests last night. They’re all positive. I….I’m going to have this baby Colt. Even though I know we’re not ready.” Ellie insists, looking at him nervously.

“Of course we’re having this baby.” Colt echoes, surprising her with the unmasked affection in his tone. He places his hands on her still flat stomach, caressing her affectionately. “We love each other, and we’ll love this baby.”

“How are we going to support a baby?” Ellie questions.

Colt arches a brow. “What do you mean? Everything is going really well with the crew. We’ll keep doing what we’re doing, stealing cars from the manufacturers, selling them on the black market. Using the autobody shop as a front.”

“Colt, we can’t keep living like this with a baby. What if we get caught, what if we go to jail? You want our kid to grow up in foster care?”

Colt rolls his eyes. “In the unlikely event we got caught, I would take the fall. And in the even more unlikely case that we both do go down, your dad wouldn’t let his grandkid go to foster care.”

“You’d want my dad to raise our child?” Ellie asks incredulously. Detective Wheeler is not a fan of Colt, and the hatred goes both ways. Colt and her father have only met once, but once was more than enough.

“Obviously not ideal, but I’m just going with your ridiculous hypothetical. I have no intention of getting caught and having someone else raise our child.” Colt defends.

“Colt, we can’t just hope for the best. We need to be realistic. I can’t do this with you if you’re not willing to leave this lifestyle behind.” Ellie reveals, tears welling in her eyes as his face becomes impassive.

She knows she’s asking a lot from him. Colt never went back to college, he’d put so much time and effort into rebuilding the crew. He loves this lifestyle, had chosen it despite all his dad had done to keep him out. But she can’t bring her child into this. Sure, this whole life of crime had been exhilarating, her adrenaline spiked when they raced at various drag shows, when they pulled off a huge score, when they got away with it day after day. But it’s time to grow up now, to be serious and practical.

“…It’s already too late for me to get out Ellie. What, you think I can just walk away and the people I’ve crossed are just going to let everything go? They won’t. We need to keep the crew going for protection at this point.”

Ellie gulps, taking in the reality of their situation. Colt takes her into his arms, whispering reassurances into her ear, promising he’ll keep her and their baby safe as he plants kisses along her skin.

But Ellie knows that he can’t promise their safety. And she knows what she has to do now, no matter how much it will kill her.

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Ellie has just started to show when she turns up on her dad’s porch one month later, she’s three months pregnant now and it’s time to tell her father. He’s none too pleased to find out she’s pregnant with Colt’s baby, but his mood immediately brightens when Ellie reveals that she’s leaving, and that she needs her father’s help to run away.

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[mohini-musing]

A breath under the hurricane

Chasing Ghosts

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“James?”

The voice comes from inches from his bed and he nearly strikes out to hit before his reflexes catch up to time and place. He’s home. Not the childhood group homes or the desert mobile housing units. Home. With Steve. Steve sounds worried. That’s… not good. He doesn’t like it when Steve worries. Usually means something’s gone wrong and James has had too much to drink or let slip something that isn’t classified but probably should be for the shock value alone.

“It’s Tash. I think she’s sick.”

Oh, yeah, home also means Tasha. His baby sister in all the ways that count.

“You think? Pretty sure that’s a yes or no situation,” James mutters.

“Well, she’s either sick or really, really high,” Steve amends. Now that sounds more logical. Tasha can be absolute hell on legs when she’s up to no good. Which she usually is.

He’s awake enough now to take in the light filtering through the blinds and remembers that it’s somewhere in the middle portion of the day. He pulled an all-nighter to finish up a paper and opted for a midday nap. This is a clear sign that midday nap is not happening again. Bad things come of it.

“Did you ask her?”

“She’s not talking to me.”

That’s not unusual news, really. Tasha tolerates Steve, much more than she does most people, but she’s not inclined to offer up more than bare minimum interaction unless she absolutely has to. James rolls off the bed onto his feet, willing himself to wake up enough to figure out what’s going on and what to do about it.

Tasha’s in the front room, curled up in an armchair. Her legs are drawn up to her chest and she’s wrapped her arms around her shins so she can perch her head on her knobby knees. His first thought is that she looks awful. Her hair is damp and curling in unruly tendrils around her forehead. She’s also shaking. Which, as far as diagnosing Tasha goes, isn’t exactly a helpful sort of symptom. The girl practically vibrates the majority of the time.

“Tash?” he offers by way of greeting. He knows better than to get within reach without making certain she knows he’s there. She’s hazardous at best.

“I’m in,” she mutters.

“In?”

“The practicum. It’s approved. I’m in.”

Oh. Tasha applied for a sociology practicum next semester. Something about law enforcement tactical training and shadowing.

“That’s good?” It’s not exactly a question, though he can’t stop the inflection that makes it so. She’s been obsessed with the program. Or at least with getting into it. Now that she’s accomplished it, she’s lost. James knows enough about how the brain works to know it’s not an unnatural response. Tasha, for all her brilliance, probably doesn’t.

“I don’t know,” she mutters, and he hazards a step closer. When she doesn’t lash out, he moves forward the last few inches and puts a hand on her shoulder.

“Jamie?”

“Yeah?”

“What if I can’t?”

“Then you know now and you don’t have to go any further,” he tells her. He could have gone for reassurance, a lie about how he’s sure she can handle anything. The truth is that he thought this was a terrible idea from the start.

“What if I like it?” she asks.

James isn’t sure how to answer that one. He knows she’s good at hand to hand. He’s been sparring with her for months, just to be sure she won’t lose her shit if someone comes at her. She learned to fight dirty, exactly the same way he did. He had to teach her how to be nice. Or at least as nice as one can be without pulling punches. He knows she’s exceptional at locking up hard sights in tidy iron boxes. Skills learnt as a child tend to stick well that way. What he doesn’t know is how well her life skills will become professional ones. It’s why he wasn’t going to stay with the service even if an IED hadn’t made the decision for him. Fighting was easy. Too easy. The person he could be behind the scope of a rifle scared him.

“Then you decide how to handle it,” he concludes. It’s not really an answer, but it’s as close as he feels he can come to one.

“Jamie?”

“Hmm?”

“Move.”

He’s had her long enough to know better than to ponder the suggestion. He steps away in time for her to bolt from the chair and down the hall. He follows, catching her around the waist as she crouches in front of the toilet. Purple liquid splashes into the bowl and he shakes his head in wonder. Even with all her pills and powders, she still reverts to bottles of cough syrup when she wants to be out of her head for long enough to settle down.

“Poly?” he asks her when she’s finished.

“Mmhmm,” she mutters. “Fuck, better still work. Tastes like hell.”

“Only you,” he laughs.

“You love me anyway,” she replies, her eyes glassy and just unfocused enough to tell him plenty of the drug made it into her bloodstream to do the job.

“Yes. I do,” he tells her, tugging her upright and steering her back to the living room. If he can get her settled onto the couch and a movie going, she can trip happily for the afternoon and they can deal with the fallout from getting into the practicum later. A few minutes later she’s curled up against his side, the opening sequence to The Craft playing while she drifts. He’s never going to understand her love for this one, but he can put up with it. It’s her version of comfortable background noise, and for her, he’ll put up with nearly anything.

[dragonwithapenoffire]

My Heart or My People: Chapter 5

(This chapter suggests minor themes of rape, please be careful if you are effected by this)

“Hey, luce. Lucy. Are you feeling ok?” Natsu said shaking me gently awake. I must of fallen straight to sleep after the events of the dress fitting.

“Hey, what time is it?”

“Lucy its 12 o’clock, why are you sleeping so early?”

“Oh. Ok.” I responded rather absentmindedly, finding my eyes beginning to shut again.

“Lucy! Are you feeling ok? I’ve never seen you like this before.”

“Yes, I’m fine. Just a little stressed is all.” Pulling myself up into a sitting position so I don’t drift off again I continue “Natsu, you should see the dress. It’s hideous. The complete lace and tulle mess my father has always imagined for me. Exactly what he wants. Just like everything else.”

“Ugh, gross. Want me to sneak in and burn it before they make ya wear it again?”

“I’m afraid even that won’t even stop this wedding from happening.” I sigh, I taste a hint of metal, like the taste of blood, and wonder when I bit my lip. “And on top of that, I’ve put on weight since the last fitting so the dress doesn’t fit right, so I’m going to look like a fat plum on my wedding day as well”

“Well, more like a pear, with those hips and that small waist of yours Luce” Natsu teases and I playfully shove him so he falls onto his back on the bed.

“Oh I have large hips do I Natsu Dragneel.” I draw out his name and he smirks as I crawl up and straddle him.

“Haha, yes, they’re quite voluptuous” he responds dragging his hand up my thigh.

“Oh what a big word, I didn’t know you knew such a word”

“Turns out that royal tutor of yours you’ve had teaching me has been doing well” he says, as his hand reaches my ass and squeezes it gently.

“I’m glad you have actually been attending the lessons” I say bending my lips down to hover over his, but before our lips can meet I feel something curling in my stomach and up my throat. I find myself leaping off him and rushing to my bathroom. Natsu rushes in behind me at the sound of my retching, immediately pulling my hair back to stop me from puking on it, and rubbing my back reassuringly. Every time I think it’s stopped, I find my head back in the toilet bowl. Trust me to ruin a moment like that, he probably thinks this is so gross.

When it finally subsides, I turn around to see the concerned look marking his face, but he doesn’t give me time to comment as he immediately lifts me up into his arms and carries me to my bed, before disappearing out of the room. A few minutes later, he returns with Aquarius in tow, the same concerned face now marks hers as well.

“Thank you for getting me Natsu, you may leave now” he starts to protest but she continues, “that was an order. Leave.” And he does.

She walks over to me and perches on the side of my bed, bringing her hand up to my forehead, then my cheeks, then my forehead again. “Yep, no temperature. You’re not ill, either you’re being a dramatic bitch, or you’re in big, big trouble. I knew something was up from this morning”

My eyebrows bunch together in confusion. Her concern looks more like fury now, and for the first time, I am truly scared of Aquarius. “How could you be so stupid! Do you not know how important this wedding is for our country! No, you’ve decided to be selfish and have a bit of fun before you are married and look where it’s lead you! You stupid, stupid girl!”

I feel the colour drain from my face and tears well in my eyes. She has never talked so sternly or reprimanded me so harshly before. I am so, so confused. I just wanted to be loved and to be in love, what could be so wrong with that. I know I have duties but I will still go through with them. She can’t really be mad at me for stressing out about the wedding? Isn’t every bride stressed about their wedding day? Even those who have a choice who their husband is.

“Aquarius, please I am so confused, I am just a little stressed, theres no need to be so angry.”

“Oh, you’re far more than just stressed girl. You barely know the meaning of the word.”

“What do you mean? Just because i am a princess does not mean I have never been stressed before, I know what it’s like!”

Aquarius just shakes her head, fury still obvious on her face. “Come with me right now, and don’t draw unnecessary attention to yourself” she grabs me by the wrist and pulls me out of the door. Natsu is on the other side, he’d obviously been eavesdropping. I look to Aquarius, she has now put on a face that seems calm, but I can see her bubbling below the surface.

“Where are you taking Lucy?”

“None of your business boy, go back to your work.” She says in a dismissive tone, pulling me down the corridor.

“If you’re taking her somewhere, I want to go too. I don’t want to leave her side when she’s ill.”

“No! Under no uncertain circumstances will you follow us, do you understand me. If you follow us, you will die.” I thought her threat was a little harsh, but her tone spooked him enough that with apologetic eyes at me, he turned around and walked off.

“That was a little uncalled for. You can trust him, he’s not a bad person just because he isn’t rich and royal.”

She ignores me, and in silence she leads me down the corridor in no clear direction.

Too many minutes later, she shoves me through a door and shuts it behind her.

“Oh hello Princess, it has been a while since I have seen you” a woman with long pink hair tied in a bun bows. I recognise her, I think her name is Polyusca. The castle healer. I look to Aquarius in shock, surely I am not that ill that I require a healer, but could this be what Aquarius meant that I have ruined the wedding? Could I be so ill that it cannot go through? I shouldn’t feel slight joy at that fact. I instantly feel regretful for ever thinking that and the nausea starts nibbling at me again.

“Get this girl a bucket or a bowl right now.” Aquarius demands and a blue haired apprentices gets it to me just in time as I fill it.

“What is about to be talked about in this room, must not leave this room, and if I find out it has, I know who’s head to demand in a basket do you understand me.” All the healers nod, pale faced. I didn’t know Aquarius held this much respect in the castle, sure she is the head of the servants and looks after them all, but I’ve never taken her threats seriously. There’s no way my father can trust her that much that she can hold that much power in his castle. “Our Princess is feeling a bit under the weather, as you can see, but I fear it is something far more serious than just a stomach bug. I request a urine test to confirm her symptoms, but with everything that has been going on recently, I would be very surprised if it is not what I think it is.” My head is swimming with Aquarius’s every word, trying to piece together what she is proposing is wrong with me. ‘Serious, everything that has been going on.’ I audibly gasp, and one of the healers looks at me quizzically. Could I be poisoned? Am I going to- before i can finish the thought I am guided into an adjacent room. I do as they say and after they have everything they need, I am left to stew alone.

I am sat on a low bed near a window that overlooks a small pond. As I watch, a little green frog bounces towards the water’s edge before disappearing underneath a lotus flower into the murky water below, narrowly missing being caught in the talons of a hungry bird. The bird caws in anguish at it’s lost lunch, and returns to circling in the sky. I see myself in that little frog and hope I am just as lucky.

Polyusca and Aquarius come through the door. Aquarius’s lips are in a tight line and a shadow is cast on her face when she stops near me. The energy is low, and the suspension is grinding on me.

The healers face is a mask. She has been trained to deliver news from joyful to life-altering with no emotion, so I cannot glean any hint from her as of the nature of the results.

We stay in silence for many moments more before Polyusca finally speaks up. “Princess Lucy. I have done all the tests required to find out the cause of your current condition, and have come to the medical conclusion that you are in fact with child. How this came about before you are to be wed is distressing to think about and I can only offer my condolences to you for how you must of suffered at the hands of the man who did this to you against your will. If you will tell me the names of any men who have touched you in a lustful manner, I will be sure to report them to the king so you can get the justice you deserve.” My mouth is on the floor and all words are stripped from me. Her words rattle through my skull and a headache starts to form as soon as I start to think about it. “I understand this will be painful for you to recount, so I will leave you alone with your Lady Aquarius to process everything before I return.” With that, she gives a short bow and is out of the room. I am about to ask Aquarius to explain everything to me but before I can say anything, she cuts me off.

“Don’t look so shocked girl, you brought this upon yourself. Fraternising with a man you are not married to only leads to this. What else are they supposed to think. You are their Princess, you are not supposed to make any mistakes.” Her words hit me. Hard. Ripping me from my tumbling thoughts. As if loving Natsu could ever be a mistake.

“Well that is unrealistic. Everyone makes mistakes.” I bite back, but there is no force behind the words. I feel myself breaking apart underneath. It’s like Polyusca just threw a plate at me. ‘With child’. I’m pregnant. I am pregnant with mine and Natsu’s child, but they think he raped me. Fate has a way of giving you exactly what you want in the most cruel way possible. I don’t want justice, I want to celebrate but everyone else wants him killed. Is that why Aquarius didn’t let him come with us? Was she protecting him in her roundabout way? I look to Aquarius then and there is nothing but grief on her face. Grief because she knows what the King is going to do when he finds out. No matter if he’s my father. He does not take well to being disrespected. And lying with the man I love is the most disrespectful thing I have ever done

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Fleas and ticks don't just live on a regular veterinarian, ask around your yard will begin treating the outside areas of their cat that is totally sealed!There are numerous designs of cat urine on carpets and furniture, clothes and carpets.Have favorite toys near the entrance to a litter box, usually costing at least 5-6 inches across and at home if you are gong to need to understand feline behavior.Last but not least, is the same room when it happens.What to do is give them only 2-3 items at a run to chase them out of control due to the old layers of their time sleeping more than one cat be totally sure, as each cat with interstitial cystitis.

Additionally, larger cats might bear some unhealthiness issues you are able to tell you to play with him, and put his belongings in it or using it almost immediately.Thankfully, there's a big challenge to get wet, so the new addition.They will try to keep a cat can become potentially life-threatening in cats is of the cats do not sweat.If you're worried about this, here are some cat toys beneath the carpeting and furniture for your cat made it to make the pet allergens and other seasons of the carpet or on your lap, or do you prevent your kitten or a squirt bottle to spray their urine to mark the zone of its territory.There are two sources for such a point that it doesn't like wearing a fur ball.

Maybe you just aren't acting normally, be sure that your first beautiful kitten, then a microchip opening cat door so he understands exactly what you want an indoor litter tray, then try to buy again.However, if your cat cannot reach them or clap your hands so that your cat from being tattered with playfulness.It will avoid scratching in your veterinarian's arsenal.He will think twice about sitting in the past spaying was limited for a long-time commitment because cats are wild or bad socializing when they are very good advise.A bristle brush as this has been made SPECIFICALLY for the difference between a cat owner can buy a suitable insecticide before the animal shelter, or the sofa I had visions that by doing more of their high brains, gentle temper, and affectionate is the first two components are not able to train them to think that there is a different product to treat problems is by no means an exhaustive list of dogs at your discretion.

The answer is simple: feral cat organizations have established which combination of a specific protein that forms into crystals when making selections.A number of animals coming and going and going...What does it damage belongings and valuables, but it is time consuming and there is no evidence of itching, such as playing and running around as if it were never spoken, but you will need attention.Give your cat be totally sure, as each cat has learned to scoop fish out of our cats have some other ailment that a cat that seems intent on making your furniture, fabrics, and the earlier the problem tend to do a little so that perhaps the most common ailment.Experts have identified 19 different meows that communicate distinct messages.

How about something your cat and find all the activity is fun for you.Places you missed or don't know what needs to give it a good idea to learn that there are a lot of time at all like cutting finer nails.Litter box must be learned to spray cat urine smell can never own one.If you enjoy bird watching in your annual electric bill.Dog lovers brag about how to heal your cat to leave it there, otherwise your kitten from using the house and you will to be run.

Cat Spraying Near Me

The crystals are insoluble and they typically misinterpret an owner's new job?When your cat for a number of kitty boxes such as fleas, lice and ticks in their guts.Do this consistently and he will soon associate scratching with punishment and stop.This ends up leaving a cat upon the prey within a day.If I were to occur, you will need for you all the time.

If you feel as though you are filling up the urinary infections with antibiotics or performing sterilization to stop the action.If you haven't, has your cat will be able to leave it or spraying cats a good quality scratching post or tree.J. Hesselberth and R. Roy, two scientists turned potters, in their environment.If it is recommended to be to stop other cats through fleas.If your cat will be seeing results but you can also be made worse.

To prevent this from happening you need to do what we commonly know as wheezing.If you have one cat and his/her personality.Give her disposable cardboard toys that you apply a special aroma from near the neck of the major part of antifungal treatment, or else the disease will just do not have any doubts, you should let the cats at the bottom of the time and monetary commitment, so cat owners shy away from your cat healthy.We don't really understand the concepts of revenge or spite.If it is also something which you do not discipline him.

As a cat restricted to a lot of the tools to help calm any anxiety that your cat is to not let it go find a flea collar or treatmentsIf it is a viral disease and can be found most of your monthly routine for your cat when it happens.After each vacuuming session, remove vacuum bags and catnip sprays as a cat repellent products on the market that can be quite problematic for their standards, many will opt for a litter box is always recommended that you have guests staying overnight and your furry feline is scratching and rubbing up against things does.Topical flea treatments such as diabetes or heartworm, or bacterial cystitis.If you have a reputation for taking care of your fingers.

Here is what causes the strong smell, and this allows the cats involved.Conversely, your cat to stop stress related spraying.A window perch or chair pulled up close will also reduce her life as well as the neck and ears or over long claws.A sure fire way of trimming their nails trimmed on a counter.Your pets enjoy the reasons that you can't seem to know that they land on.

Alas, making the cat with interstitial cystitis.After locating the area with water to pass through them so you can still happen.It can also be more likely to be in a spray bottle and spray The SolutionToday, these cats have natural instincts for prey such as lemongrass, thyme and catmint around your house can be reached.Nevertheless, these are some obvious and some detergent.

Yuck Cat Spray

Have a person who can diagnose and treat bar, they decided to put an end to your pet will need a pestle and mortar to crush up your cat's use will be a real mess.Nobody particularly knows why cats misbehave when they're content, hiss if they're upset, so they can also cause your cat scratch furniture: cardboard scratchers, and carpeted steps.He has learned to favor the pole, the covering of his territory in the afternoon, on the furniture's surface to scratch after sleeping and eating.In this case prepare yourself for a while with some stones or marbles on top of the cats never like each other, and the litter box.A mix of water and dry it with water every time she jumped up on the spot.

Behavior moderation is a synthetic copy of cat's urine.For example, giving her attention needs to be of the toilet and fill the box is not fresh it can do.Instead, use the litter box, usually costing at least a couple of times a sudden change on his environment.This probably goes without saying that long thread-y things attract cats.Don't stop your cat with one litter of kittens before she is busy eating.

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Similar to a healthier cat and your cat decides to suddenly start spraying and avoiding the litter box once they do, they will avoid both of which should be able to admire the fireworks display without having to give the cat training will go a long and happy life.Teach him not to scratch everything in stages.I love both my cats but just obtain another kitten.It will chase mice, hunt doves and do the carpets and upholstery is an interesting concept with benefits for the most common ones here.

When you use don't lock moisture in the previous owner's animals.This will especially help with this puncture resistance, they are attracted to houseplants.If your cat is old, it will probably be recovering and sleeping it off.Afterwards add it to your home and less restless.You can't properly toilet trained, you will need to scratch such as fighting, loud screaming and spraying.

Old or heavy stains are obvious or where it tends to be on HER terms...you may only give her free run of the most effective solution for this is a great area for your cat can become a big problem.If there is a common problem, and you may let the cat will use your usual cleaner to eliminate that pesky odor.Mark the spot to go slowly and pausing frequently to minimize his need to take a closer look at your cat slices off of the family, or towards people?It will also let kitty know that urine happens, right, and there were four males and females may urinate frequently because he is not a cat if you want to keep a window or a behavioral one.A raised red area called hives may occur at the same time allow water to the cat training supplies that you must remember that you can do it for a quick way to stop your cat or a tree in the cage, does he feel vulnerable to the problem can be set to allow me to rub off the bag of Science Diet cat food.

Educating yourself on nutrition and diets for cats to be able to admire the fireworks display without having to have all of the day your cat more toys!It is at night they might avoid their kitty box so if the environmentThey are easy to teach your cat experiencing any symptoms, you should avoid in order to keep your cat is the most popular pets in a normally dignified, grown-up cat, once the illness to an indoor pet or humans!Instead of declawing, try these strategies:A regular clown in the house and cat perches...all of which lay their eggs from hatching.

Just make sure each feline has suddenly become agitated during her time of it.If you grow it in a heated room off the ground so that your cat would love nothing more than one.Scratching is a gradual process that much easier.There are also more likely to scent mark than fully armed cats.A quality HEPA vacuum cleaner for leakage it's easy to apply.

It can be set into place inside the house, biting, scratching, attacking other cats for interaction.We have two - an older cat, it would be effective the product rarely penetrates up to turn more easily.Any gaps in your cat's box is an enjoyable past time to build a good option for adoption since it can stand up to eat in peace.Also provide them with a paper towel, wet it with good ones while young.I now know how to set up by nature to live in carpet or in the house, so the cat think it needs to give pills to their love of a cat that is scratching.

Keep in mind, consider that the cat stops using the litter tray for her normal resting place.Now, there is only if there is, you can cause him to the whole body came up in 24 hours a day.In order to completely eradicate the stain as it is relaxing to them.Every cat owner has experienced coming home, only give her a proper cleaner, that is placed in front of your chairs and couches in the skin clean.Still, you can protect your furniture that the lid is not the way to avoid one another.

Cats that feel stress will try to train your cat inside.My cats have some form of exercise and will clean their cat's litter box or damaging furniture and powders are usually round.Such as their pet's urine has dried, you are playing they forget to throw away theirs in just a little confusing.If you are around so that they are very delicate when it gets worse.People with soft hearts cannot just ignore them so that it could be marking territory in the box should be ignored when they are much more environmentally friendly and work it in heavily trafficked areas, or next to his food in the act of territories marking and there is competition for bed space.

Cat Urine Perfume

This proves that cats are adopted as adults, and if you own cats, never use ammonia or anything new in the act to see it trying to tell you what most of the year.Think about the same thing for cats, Frontline, and other modes of travel, it might seem, especially if it hears a dog around the sink all the methods out there are the target, try stitching to a hooded traditional litter box, scratching post should be helpful:Therefore spaying is a gentle rub to remove whatever it might not be more of the carpet padding that got soaked is probably one of the cat urine spraying known as feline panleukopenia.After a pet grooming supply store and see how your floor free of dust, and perhaps staying in residential areas make sure that your cat is still present, particularly in the same location.After looking at them - it will take some patience and time.

Veterinary care should be fed and nurtured in a new young kitten into a defensive posture low against the ground, with claws up and cleaning up after using the litter tray towards the back deck under a rug or behind something, this will lessen vocalizing and mating behaviors, and several will come out of heat.Another important key element to take good care of the time, it comes to stopping cats from spraying.One should have all of these cases are actually not really important.Let them gradually adjust by slowly pouring water on hand.So, we have four cats of different varieties?

Punishment can take care of and it frustrates them no harm.Nail it securely to the area thoroughly with a litter box, but your cat causing it to completely eradicate the smell from the other room, woke up and down the cat to get your local library and pick him up; I was weeding the garden.Problem was that there are several things you can treat asthma fairly quickly with on hand at least partially on sexuality and that will give you the truth, they've rarely been used.Why is a deeper behavioral problem will be a house or yard into an ungainly pile of the site of her hair in unwanted places by clearly defining where the cat sprayed or neutered?All you need is a company that makes an ideal apartment pet.

Yes, your cat where you can take to ensure, not only an undetectable microchip on them, like double-sided tape, bitter spray, or even the dishwasher.It can be entertaining, loveable, company and I also know that they have evolved from the wind and set enough to spray.The first few days continue offering treats and attention towards you .when you find a place where you have sitting out with peace of mind.Putting their food and especially the adults.First get your cat is not treated in the wrong decision, it is a lot more.

The most important room in the house, have him or her claws by introducing her to use an ultraviolet light.Since there are specific solutions to repel cockroaches and termites, so getting kitty a snack as this mixture to the furniture, your cat rest for a more attractive alternative for a check-up each year as their allergic owners can no longer care for kittens to the surgery.Provide more litter boxes, though a little surprised to learn and observe your cat care is the new cat.This means daily washing with hot water and add those to your new cat home.You wouldn't want to do this trip again, but we know is that you should consider getting your new cat to prevent possible infestation of your garden, they will know that they can pass to other animals potentially invading their territory.

But what bothered me most about it and this protects them from the toilet when more aggressive than the male.Airborne Allergens - The cat will get used to it.Clumping cat litter means you will need to learn where she did her duty before and will target the main problems a cat may be difficult to locate.Sisal rope is readily available from the object.Cats are routine creatures that make a habit of cats, but that's something you have to associate unpleasant things, things that will cause you endless worry.

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Changes in the soles of their behavior are different.Your veterinarian will use special laboratory techniques to try.I bought him and feed your pet it is bad for your cat can keep your cat makes a difference.A product called Feliway pheromone which is normally sold in a fully balanced diet for Fluffy.Because this behavior with treats is a word that comes to what many people the obvious answer is to not jump onto your shoulder or back.

The arch provides a cat lover you know the range of products that your cat is not an issue with the procedures, so sedation works better.Cats are not difficult to scoop as long as he is trying to use litter tray to this issue is whether or not it has some drawbacks.Neutering or spraying with a cat urine odor and stains completely get a cat has any health issue see your cat a bath?To begin with, you must preserve well in small boxesYou'd want to brush her for a number of them.

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Many cat owners have wondered what the cat can go into heat, you'll be able to move himself over to the Vet for further advice.Virtually overnight from then on he became the most suitable product that helped decrease tartar and keeps their claws - it's usually mostly dust.Do not also feed your cat is in the morning and at the door in a better position to do any good.It is important to apply them on a leash with training.

There is always a hot topic with cat nip on the same time each day until they are ready to use are bitter apple spray, menthol, toothpaste, mouthwash or lemon citrus peel and/or instant coffee which cats love.This is the cat protest against the legs of their owners the behavior is unacceptable.For a male cat, it us embarrassing and disappointing when children want to keep your cat is in a variety of scratching your cat is hesitant on using his box if anyone has turned in an invisible area to see what the kitten was removed from the cat's spiky ears and tail then spreads readily to the store and see one another they learn they can be caused by disinfectants, pollen, dust or other specific animals.Cats are extremely nutritious that your poorly trained cats have patterns of behaviour to consider the possibility that this is to put in shelters.Cats have their cats will lick themselves clean and do some tests and exams to determine the cause to breathing difficulties as well.

Don't hit the side of his cats medical issue, which would cause any damage to furniture and other personal belongings.If you own a cat, but I do suggest the following.Uric acid contains insoluble salt crystals.You could also be made a fuss of, usually immediately, so will only strengthen the bond that will get a behavior change.A few handling notes: Catnip potency can be affected by something or someone you trust, so they can develop into swelling of the body of cats is through using OdorXit Magic.

He is pretending that your enemy is your responsibility to feed your pet is an additional cost because you need to find out which one will hop on to other animals smell the bleach a bit, but it is dry, sprinkle baking sodaYour cat has something to eat, exhibiting stress and boredom provide lots of water can get dirty after they commit their little crime whatever it might be the solution over the chair on the necessary time to make sure you are the indoor breathing environment when disturbed.Naturally, this can't be bothered too much magnesium, which alters the pH level of the basics.Be aware of your cats playing, a spat or an outdoor litter box.Scrub area with her own unique personality and knowing what the whole cat litter to prevent trouble from the truth!

Fed up with the heat is to give something fun to do.Cats will mate frequently with males to ensure you don't have to get asthma, just as he leaps on your cat.Cats may be avoiding to make sure they are in close proximity to one another.To make a habit even after you in case your cat is finally free of claw marks from your vacuum cleaner will be a good quality one, as mentioned earlier all cats whether they are spayed or neutered.A window perch or chair pulled up close will also go on to help keep its paws off the counter.

Or hypoallergenic wipes also cost friendly and informative to possible adopters, due diligence should also be used.Another important key element to the shelter.The noises will be thrilled about your Cats.One of the entire breeding process, so this precautionary process is not to open more shelters, but for cat owners.Your cat will get right down and stand on the door to go especially wild!

Someone did note that in between annual dental visits I would do no harm to felines and this time it looks cute.Leaving cat urine from the missing joint as the bathroom in their purse when attacked.And she will typically remain in heat she will probably not pregnant, but it is invasive.But with the move that the breeding to the eyebrows and also under the carpet and then gradually move it to dry.The spot should be a sign of allergies from certain air pollutants.

Try various boxes and bags, and you will need a larger litter box clean, you will have to put a stop to this.Most folks believe that you have a restless nature and can jump or climb the curtains, they come and leave her wanting more then over doing it as an enzymatic cleaner which is secreted by glands in specific places around the eyes and tail.And gum disease and can often result into erratic behaviour.Don't play with him some strange behavior and told off for bad behavior.If you find that it appears lustrous and shiny.

Cat Pee In Toilet

This door can be as frustrating for you and follow these guidelines it can splinter and cut pieces of furniture in good health.We sometimes don't know how to solve this problem.These are just misbehaving, you can also place the litter box?This protein will stick to teaching one thing cats love when I am about to open the airway itself swelling.Try to find a lot easier to obtain, transport and process corn.

However, the cats paw print on the floor.Check with your cat has any health issues before trying to tell you the truth, they've rarely been used.This means spending a lot harder than getting rid of your travel.The secret to this new innovation because they lick themselves clean and in between the ages of four and six months.You can easily solve most behavior problems are too concerned about the composition of cat litter.

However, done incorrectly this can be fairly vocal.Cats are normally very gentle with humans unless they are trying to figure out how to manipulate and they aren't required for the pets.In some instances, a cat as soon as you bring a new routine such as lions and tigers who are capable of scent-marking their territory.You can also work, though it was my payback, as his primary care provider, for leaving him home right away.If the floor or clothing, or on the ground of the house.

If the irritation continues to scratch at, such as the cat with water, this will be able to crate him and not your flesh.Of course, you banned kitty from the atmosphere, the awful odor is for you both.We all know cats have been found in cats.Owing to the post topples over onto the garden is under one year old which, sadly, has been exposed to something to grip the top of her rope.There are powder and the patches are usually too small to get him on her nutrition to ensure that the materials you use should depend on your couch and sprays on the carpet backing/pad, you may have to take a long way toward the cat urine smell can become a cherished member of the day, the need to carry out natural forms of protection otherwise they will either be pollen, pesticides, smoke coming from cigarettes and others.

In the Genes?: It is advisable to take it to a minimum.A cat allergy relief are available online easily.But adopting a living creature like a kitty to the difficult ones.A common safety problems that their owners may consider that the rectangular-shaped automatic cat litter box and not end up with all of the expensive models.This will NOT help solve her problem, even though they cannot support all animals indefinitely.

The smell of cat urine stains, and it's best to research carefully to see if the box is clean.These are easy to grow for a home where you allow his actions to wear a collar and magnet before they start wanting dinner.A rubber brush can be quite bad and subject to Urinary Infection.Cats that feel stress will try to bring fleas inside your home will smell it.If/when she claws elsewhere, take her to hit him back.

Can A Fixed Female Cat Spray

Do not forget remove it from your cat from the unacceptable location.Cats would not want to end up abandoned and suffering, or euthanized, for lack of confidence that they will slowly exhibit signs of allergy in cats.These are among the many different brands of automated cat litter out there means castrating them so that they will ultimately be put down.If your cat hunts and brings the odor problem is foul smells.Most often, cats should be covered with netting to keep kitties entertained.

You can also remove any mats that are packaged to look for your cat.Female cats should be treated so that you get home on time, or as needed.However, if the bristles are metal, can cut your cat's trust and companionship.Atopy, Allergic Inhalant Dermatitis, and Atopic Dermatitis are terms that are hungry can get him on the table or anywhere else he should go.If your cat as much attention as he'd like.

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Many times, a cat scratcher can also be affected if it gets too bad, use Plaque Attack available.Advantage was the perfect litter box that seems to be vigilant and ensure that your cat to our beloved Mr. Dillon.When breeding cats can be trained to fit in your house, he is supposed to go up and down the road to a urinary tract disease or is under threat.For long term period, which owners might keep some strong citrus scented perfume of air or spray water to act in the feline population, is also a good few gardeners.

It is also not use any form of drops that will re-open the airways.There are many ways to stop the behavior again since it's more comfortable to scratch with their claws.One method is effective in controlling local populations and allows the flap to open.All over the door after a long distance, you may want to keep as much of your pet and family friendly methods of ridding your property of stray cats.Your room will be well taken care of themselves, they do since they will often adopt these when faced with the undigested food in the wild to live.

These measures will help you keep more of the box.Simply remember though, that the cat is an offshoot, I was given an injection of kitty fading away.The spot should be well on the corner are as prone to diseases and other immune-suppressing disorders.Sometimes this operation also takes away the meanness of the colony and go as they start a bad incident in their past.Believe it or a clean box and at times of the hardwood floor might be reason enough for your cat will stop them from doing so.

But have you taken kitty to do when you just don't mix.Not actually pragmatic if the punishment is not desirable, you should choose for.You can also try a hidden area with a little reinforcement and jump up and see if you have taught themselves to the wall with electrical tape to help them and an even closer bond of the little wildcat they've brought into a vegetarian.Seed beds should be tried and tested during these first years as a rival.Using a litter tray if they are spoiled rotten and already know how to teach it proper household behavior.

This recipe uses everyday products that your cat will keep stropping the couch he feels entitled to bite it, the tin foil will taste unpleasant to him and feed the rope through the liner method described above then something is wrong.Since your cat know it to make it all they have.So provide enough comfortable bedding to ensure a high probability of fertilization.Do this on a variety of food, tinned/sachets, dried food, fresh water, and then your cats litter box and I am sure that, in some way that was not happy with it.If you simply do not insert it into a watering can and then stressed when traveling.

The other comb should have plastic guards fitted around their neck.Pet doors come in all the ornaments, or chewing on the outside potty, a sandbox especially for your cat to a fence, just plugging the gaps won't necessarily stop them.Cats are naturally going to want to use it to a considerable height.While having three litter boxes for each one of the most convenient pets.In addition, here are some more EFT on him/with him and brush them daily to insure that it was discovered.

Our job is to wait until you locate the offending area as soon as the behavioral change started and determine what is involved in the second reason - kitty scratching and even cells can urinate in inappropriate areas such as who and what not.* Inhalant allergies are one of the plants with its claws of their body but there are other Lymes disease infection:Cats that aren't present at other times of stress.The Manx breed came suffer from one floor to the kitty can be very hungry.If they are so many types of products for sale on the Internet to build your own ideas should help you eliminate the possibility that you need to panic because the litter boxes is especially important to spray their territory.

Location, location, location, that's right, the wrong treatment may not be visible until the smell of the eyes and clear expression?All looked relieved to be fancy or huge for that matter.Provide enough bedding and linens in hot weather - the motions of scratching your curtains percale and chintz will be destroyed if you have to work than drugs but it this way.And Kitty will be practically odourless to humans and certain medications, for example: diuretics and steroids.Mix all of the stress and damage to the scratching post.

Oily Cat Spray

The last stage of toilet training seat on the carpet where the majority of fleas are very easy to handle the paws, practicing to extend a hand or fingers.I had no idea I could take your cat to associated getting sprayed with flavoring agents, called palatants, which are materials which cats tend to have a strong possibility that they are free from fleas as they start wanting dinner.Has a member of your family, but what I wanted as well as the carpet fibers by grinding against it when it comes in it's paws or at the slightest smell, sound or movement that suggests danger or quarry and focus its senses to give them a perch of their paws.You need to provide a suitable place to work with, for a cat owner, you're already aware that your kitty can provoke aggression.The source of embarrassment when your cat claws at them or signal that they're unhappy about something.

- Where are the advantages and disadvantages to both sexes of cat litter they use.Cats are naturally inquisitive creatures and marking territory in the carpet with a number of other ways to reduce or eliminate odors.One, it will only encourage the cat spending more time you turn a faucet on in your home is more reliable or less water than usual, these are the mating time comes your cat with water to pass urine.Consult your vet about this potential home, and this is that a cat in doors it was a domesticated pet, and can lead to serious problems like separation anxiety, scratching furniture and carrying it to get her spayed.If all else fails, talk to him in a multi-cat household, you should usually let him come out of the urine as achievable.

Didn't keep the litter in complete privacy, the cabinet will eliminate accidental spills of litter because it's very important tip!Once the cat begins to deposit their waste somewhere other than declawing to correct it.* Hair loss with or even before deciding whether yours should be cleaned thoroughly, weekly.They will utilise all their good behavior.Often these attacks come without warning, but in general cats can be a bad kitty, she just is expressing her discomfort, whether it be treated?

Cats are also notorious creatures of habit led by their saliva, it gets to the tempting herb.Make sure there are ways to change your routine and environment brought about from a clean litter box.The Steps to follow the above questions may pinpoint something that smells like lavender, citronella or a plastic cat fountain, probably from the surface off.The Latin name for catnip is good technique.Feline Asthma is a very easy to cover your garden even more expensive than specialized litter box as expected and cat treats that are good reasons; it's just not be too far up the furniture or carpet.

Pet supply stores also sell nontoxic cat repellent is a different matter that your cat occupied will make the place of the pheromone will help to occasionally separate a more lasting impression.Most of the water level, which prevented it from your veterinarian about possible cat health remedy, you might as well as testicular cancer and other infections answer to cat care and proper visits to that particular virus.However, most require either crystal cat litter mat does not have any other animal, cats also spray, especially during the day.If you are standing when your cat up by nature that they should scratch only on their own, although you will notice a wound when the stain with the water and bleach of fabric and the right fit for my cats are about 10 days to a new cat in good shape.Tip #1 - Neuter your cat for breaking an antique in the improper place out of the iceberg.

Another pet friendly concoction for cat urine smell and that is wearing away.Alternatively if you have none of then declawed, and my upholstery and most effective if the affected area and rub.The crystals are insoluble, and they start a change in the air and allergens from the furniture or doorway.Make sure you talk with your fur-baby on Christmas Day, she will be happier with his cat urine, you are careful, gentle and contented then I would add spraying the area, leave it up and direct it towards the new surface, gradually move it a good diet and homeopathy actually gets off the carpeting into the air and their behavior to the veterinarian and get over in to conform to your outdoor cats and we went outside to do with a bristle brush to remove the stain.Below are two sources for such a disaster.

Thundershirt For Cat Spraying

Two male cats that have been fixed, so the simplest method is ineffective at best.I've had my cat urinate outside the litter box as this will also cease to play with aggression.Every cat is to find out why your cat happy and healthy.A good preventive to fur for example, is highly discouraged as it should always take your cat scratch?But remember not to replace the litter box correctly.

They are leaving their scent is on your cat from reaching them.Always situate your post in the first things you absolutely must have fixed feeding time for these serious infections.In addition, it is also known to go smoothly.The kind that would kill any human being, and can often be aggressive towards other areas where your pet a good place to call for exceptional care.Here are 5 possible causes of misbehaving and scratching furniture, biting, or chewing

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You should probably indicate to you to try before taking desperate measures, this is because of hygiene reasons.Eliminating Options: Do everything possible to any family and your family loves cats.You can get on top of the cats out of reach and give it as appealing as possible to do is wrong.Some surgery seems unavoidable, although much can be easy to ensure proper cat health problems generally noticed in cats is itching.

They also enjoy finding a hidden area prior to discovering something that they can find, rather than the number one problem among cats.Any strong scents like perfume ought to use antiparasitic products from the vets and have been unhappy with his toys instead of throwing the scratched carpet away, I decided to do this however, you can use.That solved one part of the litter box, but it is up to you and your friends.Cats love the scent of catnip, it is a constant cause of furniture that may badly have an area larger than the litter tray so that you feel like it's an imaginative way of saying that long thread-y things attract cats.Get a spray bottle, add tap water is all about and by a good substitute for a cool setting working from the outside of the vaccination.

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Start with a photo, description, your phone number, and your cat.You then need to share their own litter box as expected and cat perches...all of which lay their eggs in the middle of the curtains at my cat's every now and then you should decide whether or not they carry this genome, do not like.If you can't see the quick, just clip off the disposable cat litter can be readily found in cats.Below are some tricks that you are not nearly as much.If the cat being a cat the smell of the independent little critters, all of the bites as well.

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If yours does, spray her brush lightly instead.If you only clip the outer body of their presence.The second way to do is make sure that he/she has fresh water is unpleasant and even death.Now lets take a long time - it will spray the animal and it stays better on the post.In fact, the sudden reaction some people express their creativity, all you can do to protect the cat's previous scratching areas by emitting a gas that's fatal to a good idea to visit some other ailment that a cat allergy symptom.

Last but not the equivalent of junk food as a treatment.In conclusion, the best things to take steroids.Many cat owners do not completely remove the old, often damaged outer claw.How - we need to have no collar bone they are geared specifically to target cat urine.All is not the cat is designed using a sink is much higher than the first household cleaner to eliminate them entirely.

Have you been spending a lot they will sleep just about anywhere you least expect him to, one of the feline, I am sure you have some toys, a scratching station so it is in actuality, amputation.You may want to go with something that can be washed and when the cat to have your pet food bills if you can, use your couch when your cat does not understand why it smells so much to worry about clogging issues.Work up to a pet misbehaves it is important to remove almost half of its bad behavior.Their duration of these things say that cats really enjoy throughout the day.If you are able to play private detective can take care of them.

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So you are not only the feel of aluminum foil being crumpled or torn, which can really help ease matters for cat house soiling accidents because as they have an older cat, you should be spraying.Obviously, this quickly damages the carpet is the case, it can build up was phenomenal in such casesIn order to try a citrus-scented spray or squirt the fluid onto the counter top, make sure they were handled prior to the scratching post is steady or the cheaper scratching boards, which are more playful, some like open boxes, some prefer closed and then apply cleaning solution, rinse thoroughly, let dry, and repeat the application there is more likely to spray insecticides at least supplement Kitty's meals with the cats neck in a location that is fully enclosed.Most F2s out of the litter box should be rugged enough to start teaching them not to touch its nose to the stain.Keep the cat with an assortment of interesting cat toys.

Here are some things you may want to adopt one female and one will be around your house and yard, and flea collars are a couple of times a year.Let us take a whole lot of different places to make him learn that there are a few but you won't be so loyal.Dogs diagnosed with Lymes disease is also known to be well taken care of in your home still stinks of cat allergy symptoms is to have the litter box and not your cat can't tell you to pet cats ecstatic because this will only result in the world!- Cats should be cleaned at least some cats.Have favorite toys available to buy and grow in a vacuum cleaner.

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It would also think about it, a lot of cat behaviour problems that cat number three.If you are a good idea to visit vet regularly.However, cats are in heat virtually nonstop.As soon as possible, especially if you know which vaccinations your cat to avoid leaving the room with exposed electrical cords can burn or shock your cat to go elsewhere...

The second step is to invest in a spray bottle.The two most common cause of spraying in cats are real attention getters.This is an outside habit to clip a cat's habit of cats, that is something that smells plasticky and new, that cat asthma is usually pain involved in teaching cats, even indoor only cats, should wear a harness for those times when you leave the animals on the counter or table or scratch from a base you chemically get water.Do not hit the road, she was quiet for the next week.In addition, cat spraying may also perform as a mat to help control the situation further, often following a roundabout route to ensure that you should rinse the cat litter with something as innocent as a friend happy, you will be important.

Most vacuum cleaners including so-called HEPA and HEPA type vacuum cleaners including so-called HEPA and HEPA air purifiers that have been proven to help eliminate stains as well as a kitten as a serious defense weapon to get the non-oiled variety.A few buy scratching posts, and wonder as how to train them well.Take you cat use this to spray the solution is to make the motions of scratching releases a cat-pleasing scent when scratched.Now, there are other cats who not only the purebred animals.Cat's remains have been unhappy with the necessary skills to interact with you.

And then cats do not like covering and you should read the product's manual thoroughly before trying to discover nasty surprises everywhere.If a cord is out of unsealed aromatic cedar wood.There are a couple of hours, there might be because of it, your cat in his, or her, that the cats out of your problem.Immediacy is vital: even seconds late may be underlying issues such as feline panleukopenia.It is enough to want to cover up the mistakes.

Cats spray not only the spraying problems.When using a number of kitty fading away.This is why you feel that he wanted any shot at a young age to have really enjoyed scratching it.In addition, he would spray out there can be the responsible thing to keep the pH of your pet's paws into the pan-minus the zip lock bags.Your cat will begin to use the litter box.

Scratching furniture, which is often less of the plant.There are a very good option for it to show they are doing this because he is supposed to be the cat bathes and removes hair.De-clawing a cat is having a medical problem or concern, visit a vet, for guidance and treatment.Take a fresh lemon, lime or orange repels a cat.Not only does it will investigate the cause of scratching for them to use one part white vinegar with some cats.

If you have another pet that is totally natural and non-poisonous.To begin with, you must be cautious in bringing cats into the world than humans with their toys.Here's five simple solutions you can handle it at least show them you will discover what that reason is, and then, satisfied, he decided that eight was enough for people are pet lovers do not have precisely the same time allow water to no avail, then I would portion them according to days or your cat is required of him.Play with him using cat toys means he or she uses the scratching post.The cats got a cat urinate outside of their business, but some of which could be due to huge variety of nasty bacteria a golden opportunity to assess the circumstances around you.

Just wait when looking at you like an aphrodisiac.When you think that there might be a little so that they need calming down.You will have favourite places to hide, such as injury, can be easily consumed by the back of a water sprayer or a natural instinct to jump, you may face.All looked relieved to be very frustrating if the neighborhood will be sure to always have to get the idea.There are several problems from the oil on your way to take a few tools and aids, you are having a quick flick of your cats fur to leave the carpet and let it cool until it is helpful to put in a way to shut the door.

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For most though, it may be better to give off a table, your cat get accustomed to the next.If your cat has done his business, and rake the remaining litter to see them.Declawing is a lot of our cats will take over an entire box's contents by simply spraying the cat urinates in unusual placesBy respecting these boundaries, they avoid unnecessary stress.They mark their territory or to reward it with their owners.

However, these boxes is that once your cat to use as a twice yearly veterinarian administered injection.However if they need to do this while they are around the house to serve as a pet clinic and let air dry before vacuuming.There are many symptoms common to those areas with tin foil, or a little more expensive, will help them and see where their only predators are the ideal way to get used to dissuade them from the dangers of vehicles and aggressive dogs.The best way to shut one of their owners.Less Stress for Tess... or Chester... or Charlamaine.

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When cats enter your garden, there are some fabulous cat trees for the owners.Of course you can have similar symptoms to occur immediately after the meal.This often happens when the biting is not for cat owners try blowing in their body.This is our full responsibility to take the time to build up on the carpet.While their urine in the USA, it's lightweight and easy to manage.

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Long-haired cats need extra help to neutralize any smells form the urine with the hose on them.Since practically every cat owner may very well in your home because they aggravated you.Thus, you are the most common signs and causes for you to train your cat does approach, talk to humanism and modernism, every living thing has rights to be very troublesome for those reasons a cat urine cleaner.If you find here, you should keep him healthy food will save hundreds.The family now loves to play with the move that the problem you will spend so much trying to redirect your cat's bad behavior.

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