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canmom · 1 year ago

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(Me again! Previously I had bothered you in DMs about an article, but figured it might be better to send an ask in this case.) On the topic of environmental concerns, I did have a question about James Hansen's 'Global Warming in the Pipeline' which was published last year. A previous (and rather bleak) Medium article you analyzed had cited this particular paper as proof that we're on track to exceed 3C in our lifetimes, even if emissions were to suddenly halt today. https://pubs.giss.nasa.gov/abs/ha09020b.html Since this paper has now passed peer review, what exactly does this mean in simplistic terms? I understand this means that the climate scientists that have analyzed the paper agree with what it states (and see no issues with it's logic), but does it actually mean we'll reach 4C by 2100? Or have I misunderstood what this is stating? The only way I see this not being the case is if somehow Hansen's paper later turns out to be incorrect (which seems unlikely).

I also understand that the paper heavily advocates for a level of geoengineering, which I think is a better alternative to letting a large majority of people suffer, but I'm not sure if you have any opinions on when you think that'd be best to do.

oooh, i've put off answering this because it's perhaps a bit above my pay grade, but let's see

so as far as passing peer review - it's hard to say how robust that is in terms of whether you should believe its conclusions. it depends a lot on the field, the reviewers, and so on - papers are retracted frequently, even if the initial round of reviewers advised to publish.

in climate science we are engaged in a spectacularly difficult modelling task. this paper also speaks on a pretty broad range of subjects. let me quote the full abstract, adding some paragraph breaks:

Improved knowledge of glacial-to-interglacial global temperature change yields Charney (fast-feedback) equilibrium climate sensitivity 1.2±0.3°C (2σ) per W/m2, which is 4.8°C±1.2°C for doubled CO2. Consistent analysis of temperature over the full Cenozoic era — including 'slow' feedbacks by ice sheets and trace gases — supports this sensitivity and implies that CO2 was 300-350 ppm in the Pliocene and about 450 ppm at transition to a nearly ice-free planet, exposing unrealistic lethargy of ice sheet models. Equilibrium global warming for today's GHG amount is 10°C, which is reduced to 8°C by today's human-made aerosols. Equilibrium warming is not 'committed' warming; rapid phaseout of GHG emissions would prevent most equilibrium warming from occurring. However, decline of aerosol emissions since 2010 should increase the 1970-2010 global warming rate of 0.18°C per decade to a post-2010 rate of at least 0.27°C per decade. Thus, under the present geopolitical approach to GHG emissions, global warming will exceed 1.5°C in the 2020s and 2°C before 2050. Impacts on people and nature will accelerate as global warming increases hydrologic (weather) extremes. The enormity of consequences demands a return to Holocene-level global temperature. Required actions include: (1) a global increasing price on GHG emissions accompanied by development of abundant, affordable, dispatchable clean energy, (2) East-West cooperation in a way that accommodates developing world needs, and (3) intervention with Earth's radiation imbalance to phase down today's massive human-made 'geo-transformation' of Earth's climate. Current political crises present an opportunity for reset, especially if young people can grasp their situation.

As I've split it, the first paragraph is a quantitative statement about equilibrium warming, which is the paper's scientific contribution. The second paragraph adds some qualifiers about the expected trajectory "under the present geopolitical approach". The third para is a political argument - a 'what is to be done' type statement.

That's a lot to cover in one paper! It also invites different kinds of approaches to peer review. A scientist reviewing the first half of this paper would be making a technical analysis: do Hansen et al look at the right data, analyse it rigorously, etc. etc.

Why is this all so complicated? Well, lots of things change on Earth when it gets hotter and colder. The amount of cloud coverage, the amount of ice, the way the oceans mix hot and cold water, etc. etc., the amount of dust and soot in the air from forest fires - all of this affects how much energy comes into the atmosphere, how much gets reflected into space, etc etc.

The main things that the paper talks about are...

the equilibrium climate sensitivity: basically, if you add a bunch of extra energy to the system (what climate scientists call 'forcing'), once everything settles down, what temperature do you end up at, per unit of forcing?

the speed of various feedbacks - how quickly the clouds, ice, etc. etc. change in response to the forcing, which determines how quickly you approach this final equilibrium temperature. Knowing which feedbacks are fast and slow is important since it tells us what we can expect to happen when we cut CO2 emissions.

It's naturally a pretty involved discussion and I don't pretend to have the background to follow all the ins and outs of it, but Hansen et al. use various lines of evidence to try to assess these parameters, see how they affect climate models, and the like. They perform an analysis of how temperature and estimated CO2 varied during the Cenozoic era, and there's a section on estimating the effects of aerosols, both natural and human-made.

On the subject of aerosols, Hansen et al. suggest that previous climate models may have made two mistakes that cancelled each other out:

Recent global warming does not yield a unique ECS [Equilibrium Climate Sensitivity] because warming depends on three major unknowns with only two basic constraints. Unknowns are ECS, net climate forcing (aerosol forcing is unmeasured), and ocean mixing (many ocean models are too diffusive). Constraints are observed global temperature change and Earth’s energy imbalance (EEI) [80]. Knutti [150] and Hansen [75] suggest that many climate models compensate for excessive ocean mixing (which reduces surface warming) by using aerosol forcing less negative than the real world, thus achieving realistic surface warming.

What they're saying here is, though we have a pretty good idea of how much CO2 we put in the atmosphere, since we don't have a good measure of aerosols we don't actually know for sure how much energy humans were adding to the atmosphere. Like, CO2 adds energy, but sulfur dioxide reflects it away.

There's three unknown parameters here, and two constraints (things we can calculate for definite). We use a model to tell us one of those unknowns (the ocean stuff), and that allows us to tune the effect of aerosols until our model Earth matches our measurements of the real Earth. But, if our ocean model is wrong, then we end up wrongly estimating the effect of aerosols.

The upshot is that aerosols have been a bigger deal than we thought, and as the world cleans up the atmsophere and removes the amount of aerosols, the rate of warming will increase. It's definitely plausible - but it's such a complicated system that there could easily be some other nuance here.

I won't try to summarise every point in the paper but it's that kind of thing that they're arguing about here. This isn't a mathematical proof, though! Since it's touching on a huge range of different parameters, trying to draw together lots of different lines of evidence, there is still a fair bit of room for nuance. It's not so simple as 'Hansen et al. are right' or 'Hansen et al. are wrong' - they could be wrong about one thing and right about another.

To say they've passed peer review is to say that they've done as reasonable a job as anyone can expect to try and figure out this kind of messy problem. However, other scientists may still take issue with one or another claim. It's not as definitive as a maths paper.

That said, Hansen's arguments all seem pretty plausible to me. The tools he uses to assess this situation are sensible and he talks about cases where things weren't as expected (he thought that improved climate models would change in a different way, and they didn't). But while I know enough about the subject to be able to largely follow what he's saying, I'm not confident saying whether he's right.

The second half takes on a different tone...

This section is the first author’s perspective based on more than 20 years of experience on policy issues that began with a paper [179] and two workshops [180] that he organized at the East-West Center in Hawaii, followed by meetings and workshops with utility experts and trips to more than a dozen nations for discussions with government officials, energy experts, and environmentalists. The aim was to find a realistic scenario with a bright energy and climate future, with emphasis on cooperation between the West and nations with emerging or underdeveloped economies.

So this is more of a historical, political analysis section, addressing why we are on this trajectory and why scientists may be institutionally underestimating the threat ('scientific reticence', 'gradualism' and so on). Well, more precisely, it's a polemic - a scientifically informed polemic, but this is basically an editorial stapled to the science part of the paper.

This includes an account of how a previous paper ('Ice Melt') led by Hansen was reviewed, and sidelined by other scientists, for what Hansen considers unsound reasons. It leads into something of an impassioned plea by Hansen addressed at his fellow scientists, complete with rhetorical questions:

Climate science reveals the threat of being too late. ‘Being too late’ refers not only to warning of the climate threat, but also to technical advice on policy implications. Are we scientists not complicit if we allow reticence and comfort to obfuscate our description of the climate situation? Does our training, years of graduate study and decades of experience, not make us well-equipped to advise the public on the climate situation and its policy implications? As professionals with deep understanding of planetary change and as guardians of young people and their future, do we not have an obligation, analogous to the code of ethics of medical professionals, to render to the public our full and unencumbered diagnosis? That is our objective.

This leads into Hansen's proposal for how to get out of this mess: a price on carbon dioxide, nuclear power, and rushing to research geoengineering such as spraying salt water in the air. And then e.g. specific political proposals, like 'a political party that takes no money from special interests', ranked choice voting and so on.

Naturally this is a lot harder to take technical issue with. It's more like an editorial. As a reviewer you'd probably say it's worth publishing because it's well argued, etc. etc., without necessarily agreeing with every one of Hansen's proposals. You can say 'that obviously wouldn't work' and so on, but it's a different kind of argument.

So re your questions:

does it actually mean we'll reach 4C by 2100?

If Hansen et al. are right, the IPCC reports are underestimating the equilibrium we approach for the current amount of CO2 in the atmosphere - which would lead to 2°C well before 2050, so 4°C by 2100 seems plausible (I didn't spot a timeline that goes that far in the paper when I skimmed through but I could have missed it).

This isn't the amount of warming that will happen, because the Earth has many systems which gradually scrub CO2 from the atmosphere. If we stopped pumping out CO2 suddenly, the amount of CO2, and the amount of extra energy it adds, would gradually decline. So we wouldn't necessarily approach that equilibrium. On the other hand, the amount of CO2 forcing is only going up as things currently stand - and if the amount of forcing stayed the same, Hansen says it would eventually deglaciate Antarctica, leading to over 10°C of warming.

But working out what will actually happen by 2100 depends on a lot of modelling assumptions - how long do you assume we keep pumping out CO2? Hansen addresses this when talking about the subject of 'committed warming':

‘Committed warming’ is less precisely defined; even in the current IPCC report [12] (p. 2222) it has multiple definitions. One concept is the warming that occurs if human-made GHG emissions cease today, but that definition is ill-posed as well as unrealistic. Do aerosol emissions also cease? That would cause a sudden leap in Earth’s energy imbalance, a ‘termination shock,’ as the cooling effect of human-made aerosols disappears. A more useful definition is the warming that will occur with plausibly rapid phasedown of GHG emissions, including comparison with ongoing reality. However, the required ‘integrated assessment models,’ while useful, are complex and contain questionable assumptions that can mislead policy (see Perspective on policy implications section).

So, will we reach 4C by 2100? We can only phrase this question in a conditional way: if we continue to add this much energy, then...

In practice we will probably end up reducing our emissions one way or another - which is to say, if our present complex societies collapse, they ain't gonna be emitting much carbon anymore...

The way things are going, I think it's likely that people will try geoengineering when the climate-related disasters really start to ramp up, so whether or not they should ends up kind of besides the point.

Hansen doesn't really advocate a specific programme to pursue - only one paragraph in the whole paper talks about geoengineering:

Highest priority is to phase down emissions, but it is no longer feasible to rapidly restore energy balance via only GHG emission reductions. Additional action is almost surely needed to prevent grievous escalation of climate impacts including lock-in of sea level rise that could destroy coastal cities world-wide. At least several years will be needed to define and gain acceptance of an approach for climate restoration. This effort should not deter action on mitigation of emissions; on the contrary, the concept of human intervention in climate is distasteful to many people, so support for GHG emission reductions will likely increase. Temporary solar radiation management (SRM) will probably be needed, e.g. via purposeful injection of atmospheric aerosols. Risks of such intervention must be defined, as well as risks of no intervention; thus, the U.S. National Academy of Sciences recommends research on SRM [212]. The Mt. Pinatubo eruption of 1991 is a natural experiment [213, 214] with a forcing that reached [30] –3 W/m2. Pinatubo deserves a coordinated study with current models. The most innocuous aerosols may be fine salty droplets extracted from the ocean and sprayed into the air by autonomous sailboats [215]. This approach has been discussed for potential use on a global scale [216], but it needs research into potential unintended effects [217]. This decade may be our last chance to develop the knowledge, technical capability, and political will for actions needed to save global coastal regions from long-term inundation.

He says 'we need to research this more to figure out the risks, since we'll probably have to do it' basically. Climate researchers have historically been reluctant to advocate geoengineering for fear it will be mistaken as a way to solve the climate problem without reducing GHG emissions, so honestly seeing them suggest it now maybe brings to light the atmosphere of desperation in the field.

Unfortunately, when talking about politics and economics, Hansen is on much less firm ground than when he's picking apart the intricacies of climate feedbacks. He clearly wants to try to discourage doomerism, and he's rightly critical of cap-and-trade and similar schemes, but he has his specific political fixations and what he suggests is all a bit unconvincing as a programme. I don't say this because I've got a better idea, though.

The problem is that the future is really hard to predict. It's bad enough when it's climate systems, but humans are even more complicated little nonlinear freaks. This isn't a new problem for Hansen's paper. I am pessimistic enough by nature that I don't really trust my ability to predict what we will do when climate change gets more severe. Hopefully by the time we finally decide to stop kicking the can down the road, there will still be something to be done.

#climate change #i don't know if this is a very helpful answer #interesting paper to read at least

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taocc-updates · 1 year ago

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So, I'm just gonna throw in my 2 cents here.

I'm going to remain neutral in this situation as I'm not involved with Tomb and frankly have no say as he hasn't ever really done anything to me.

The oversexualization is a problem, I agree. That's something he needs to work on. However, and feel free to correct me on this, he hasn't directly sxualized characters he was specifically asked/told not to. From what I've heard/seen, he hasn't explicitly sxualized a character or mod who directly said they weren't okay with it.

Once again, I may be fully wrong abt this. I know they sxualize a lot of Autumn's characters, and she's reacted with a mix of exasperation and disappointment. However, I don't fully know how they feel about that so it may not be like that. If I am wrong and Autumn gen is uncomfortable with what Tomb has said, I fully retract my previous statement and apologize.

My point is, clear and direct boundaries. Elsie has Tomb blocked, yes, but regardless he's never gone after her or her characters. Same with anyone who isn't fully comfortable with that. If your boundaries are clear, from what I've seen he tends to respect it. If you ask him to genuinely stop, he does. Once again, and I cannot stress this enough, this is only my perspective and I dont follow what Bob does enough to know everything.

All that being said. I don't think he intends any harm to anyone, but there is a lot that he needs to work out that really is not healthy for him. The sexualization overall is definitely not healthy, whether it's of a mod, character, himself, any of that. Taocc has become an escape that he's using to cope, and I have no idea what he's been through but he's not in a healthy state rn. That's not something taocc or sxualization can fix.

To put it all simply, I don't think he has ill intent but he definitely has things he needs to sort out on his own. We can act as a support, but we and taocc can't fully be something for him to depend on. Once again, I have no stance on whether he should be kicked out or not- it fully depends on the people he's affected the most imo. But these are my thoughts.

So, I saved all of the above that I wrote then checked notifs and saw what Jester said. That's fucked up. What exactly did he ask for? What did he want to see? If I recall correctly he's 14, but that's still no excuse. Wow.

-star

Just putting this here. I will say I have never had any of this stuff really happen to me, but part of that might be because I worked to distance myself as much as possible for a long time.

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yomiurishinbun · 1 year ago

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PR #8: The Deposed Prime Minister Speaks: Long Live The Doshikai!

10 November, 1915 Katsura Taro, leader of the Rikken Doshikai party, has released a press release in a recent interview with the Yomiuri Shimbun:

Statement by Katsuro Taro

“I address the nation no longer as Prime Minister but as an opposition leader with the new, emerging force known as the Doshikai Party. The party that has the backing of the people and supports the people.

First and foremost, I would like to acknowledge the military’s dissatisfaction with the Banzai Act and the allegations of ‘corruption’ that were put forward by the cabinet members that put forward the vote of no confidence.

The 20 million has already been allocated towards the economy and the education sector. It is not an intentional error but a timing issue.

The recent donation of the Prince took place shortly after my directive was processed by the government. In my speech I explained my intention to address the recent update in our budget. This was ignored.

This is the final budget.

BANZAI ACT:

Economic (40%)

Ministry of Finance 40 million yen (20%)

Agriculture and Commerce 40 million (20%)

Wartime Efforts (30%)

Army 30 million yen (15%)

Navy 30 million yen (15%)

Education: 40 million (35%)

*Due to the Prince’s kind gesture to give the majority of his wealth to the people of Japan specifically in avenues of healthcare and provisions, we omit the Health division of the Banzai act, allocating more towards the Education Sector and the Economic centre. The wartime efforts division remain untouched”

I have never had any intentions of stealing from the people and I would like to clear my name by stating that this is a CLEAR MISCOMMUNICATION AND TIMING ISSUE.

I would also like to retract statements made in a previous press release on labelling Matsumoto Itasu a traitor and calling for his execution when in reality he intended to clear my name and decry the Cabinet’s efforts to usurp the position of Prime Minister, which has been successful DESPITE the cabinet, who has time and time again advocated for me to compromise on expansionism, reflected in my decision to only upkeep the military in response to the recent success in the Far East against Germany, supporting our economy, people, and welfare instead, and STILL decided to vote me out.

This is a grave mistake that you will all regret. The Doshikai will rise from the ashes and lead Japan into a prosperous, bright future.

Long live the emperor!”

The Rikken Doshikai, through this statement and the consolidation of the liberal elements within the house of representatives have managed to secure a relative majority in the lower house, with 153 seats, compared to the Seiyukai’s 108.

This statement has angered many military officers, citing the Doshikai’s seemingly anti-Seiyukai and anti-military sentiment, who are now labelling Katsura Taro and his party as traitors to the country.

The Doshikai continue to gain support from the lower and middle class for their populist and liberal approach to politics. But time will tell when a new competitor may arise.

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cosmicbrowniefan · 3 years ago

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how reddie’s first hand-holding happened (pre-dating):

no can convince that this isn’t how it happened btw.

so the losers club decides to go to an amusement park one day over the summer when they’re about 14-15 years old

of course everyone in the group wants to do a million different things. bev and richie are begging everyone to go on roller coasters, bill and eddie want to go around and try to win the rigged games, stan and ben want to see the petting zoo and get all the cliche fair food they can find, and mike is determined to win all the goldfish so he can set them free in a pond in his backyard

eddie HATES roller coasters with a passion. pretty much everyone else in the group can stomach it, but even just looking at one makes eddie want to puke

(ben isn’t the biggest fan either, but he’ll go on them for bev)

richie won’t stop bugging eddie to “just go on ONE roller coaster” with him, which eddie continuously refuses to do

“what one do you even want me to go on?”

“ANY OF THEM! you can choose!”

eddie comes up with a proposition because he wants richie to stop whining but doesn’t want to go on a roller coaster

“if you can win one of the incredibly rigged games here in one try, i’ll go on one with you.”

richie’s jaw DROPS at the idea of actually getting eddie to go on a roller coaster, and he nods enthusiastically

meanwhile, eddie is mentally rolling his eyes because why on EARTH does richie think he can actually win one of these games?

“deal!! i’ll play- this one!”

“no no NO, i’m picking the game.”

“fine, but if i win, that means i pick the coaster.”

“fine.”

eddie ends up picking a game where the probability of winning is basically like a lottery ticket

you got two tokens and placed them on any symbols you wanted. then the carny spins a wheel, and if it lands on one of your symbols, you win a giant stuffed animal or bag of candy of your choice

richie raised his eyebrows when eddie pointed to it

“eds, that game is practically impossible to win, there are like 90 symbols to choose fr-“

“exactly, now go.”

eddie, bill, and stan stood next to richie and watched as he carefully chose two symbols (mike was still winning goldfish and bev and ben were on the bumper cars)

richie put one token on a diamond and one token on the number 14

“how many more times do you think he’ll beg you to let him play it when he loses?”

“i really don’t appreciate your negativity, stanley, kindly shut the fuck up.”

the carny spun the wheel with force and richie looked at it intensely

eddie knew he wasn’t going to win, this boy wasn’t even looking at the wheel. he was playing crossy road on his phone

“OH M-MY G-GOD!”

eddie quickly looked up to see bill and richie jumping up and down and screaming while stan just watched, an eyebrow raised and a smirk on his face

“i retract my previous statement.”

eddie craned his neck and saw that the wheel had somehow landed on the number 14. he immediately felt weak and knew his face must be pale.

richie turned to eddie with a sly grin

“what prize do you want, eds?”

“there- there’s no fucking WAY-“

“the giant panda, please.”

richie was then stuffing a giant panda into eddie’s arms and slinging an arm around his shoulder, leading him away

eddie could still only stutter and stare at the wheel in disbelief

stan pulled bill in the other direction to get funnel cake while richie surveyed the area for the best-looking roller coasters

“eds, we’re going on that one.”

eddie was finally able to tear his eyes away from the wheel and looked up to see the MONSTROUS roller coaster that richie had picked

“no way.”

“YES WAY! we made a deal! i even won you a panda!”

eddie continued to protest as richie drug him over to the line for “the danger zone”

eddie thought he was going to faint as the carny snapped his seatbelt in

(he continued to cling to the panda richie had won him for support)

“i’m never making a bet with you again.”

the roller coaster started chugging up slowly and eddie felt his stomach churning

“i cannot FUCKING DO THIS RICH.”

just before the coaster dropped over the first big hill, richie grabbed eddie’s hand and held it tight

eddie felt himself go red, but had no time to process what had just happened before he was screaming and shutting his eyes

(he didn’t let go of richie’s hand until they were safely off the coaster and on the ground)

“see? that wasn’t so-“

but richie was interrupted by eddie throwing the panda at him and sprinting to the nearest trash can.

#it #fanfiction #it 2017 #it 2019 #losers club #pennywise #reddie #richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #reddie headcanon #it headcanons #losers club headcanons #reddie headcanons #reddie au

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waitingforwinterwinds · 2 years ago

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ASOS; Steel and Snow: 09 BRAN I (pages 122-132)

Summer has some forest time, while Bran and Co. decide on what comes next for their small group.

Sometimes he could sense them, though, as if they were still with him, only hidden from his sight by a boulder or a stand of trees. He could not smell them, nor hear their howls by night, yet he felt their presence at his back... all but the sister they had lost. His tail dropped when he remembered her. Four now, not five. Four and one more, the white who has no voice. These woods belonged to them, the snowy slopes and stony hills, the great green pines and golden leaf oaks, the rushing streams and blue lakes fringed with fingers of white frost. But his sister had left the wilds, to walk the halls of man-rock where other hunters ruled, and once within those halls it was hard to find the path back out. The wolf prince remembered.

??? ... Oh!

oh.

He means the crypts*. They buried Lady in the crypts* where the interred are marked by statues of Starks and wolves.

*I've been reminded by a reliable source that she was buried in the Lichyard, which is outside the crypts, so Summer presumably just means Winterfell in general. The imagery of 'other hunters' and 'hard to find the path back out' just gave me strong Crypt vibes.

The north through Summer's POV sounds so pretty. And, it's interesting how Summer counts ghost, one of them but not one of them.

... Wolf Fight!

At Winterfell he wanted me to dream my wolf dreams, and now that I know how he's always calling me back.

Yeah, a fine case of "be careful what you wish for, Jojen." Although on the other hand, I do have to retract my previous statements that Bran seemed to be settling into his new reality and physical capabilities, this is avoidance, pure and simple.

"We have plowed this field before," his sister said.

Oh I like that. Subtle world building stuffs, alternate versions of basic phrases that make contextual sense.

"How, Jojen?" his sister asked. "How?" "Afoot," he answered. "A step at a time."

A good way to do things, a step at a time.

Unless it's a dire emergency, in which case it's best to apply the FEMA evacuation plan: Run Bitch, RUN!

"Hoooodor," said Hodor, swaying. "Hooooooodor, hoooooodor, hoDOR, hoDOR, hoDOR." Sometimes he liked to do this, just saying his name different ways, over and over and over. Other times, he would stay so quiet you forgot he was there.

"Mornin'! Nice day for fishing, ain't it? Huh-ha!"

Sorry, if that reference Is too niche. It's the only dialogue/speaking line for the NPC character Baelin from the Epic NPC Man series by youtubers Viva La Dirt League. The just over half hour movie Baelin's Route focuses on him having an adventure, and while they didn't give him any further dialogue options. The actor, Rowan, did an absolutely amazing job conveying what he wanted to say with just that line, augmented by tonal shifts, emphasis, and subtle body language. This scene just yeeted my brain XD In my defense, is it such a good movie.

"- How can I help you master a gift I do not understand? We remember the First men in the Neck, and the children of the forest who were their friends... but so much is forgotten, and so much we never knew."

It's a nice change, for Jojen to be like this, with so many other characters (not necessarily our POVs either, some of the 'NPCs') they don't admit that they don't know things, they bluster and fib and cover up, but Jojen's just "I don't got this, but I know who will."

It's also kind of sad "we've forgotten so much, and we didn't know all that much to begin with."

... MVP Meera! She gave Bran the assurance they'd follow him, support him, so he actually sat there and thought about their options, puzzled out the logistics of it.

And he did well to realise that his allies might all be dead (or compromised), though... should he know the bastard of Bolton is alive? And after him? I thought he only knew him as Reek?*

*Maester Luwin told him with one of his dying breaths. Like A Boss.

Kinda sad that Bran's decision was "I'm not getting any less cripple no matter what I do, might as well do the crow thing," but at least the choice is made and they can move towards a goal. that's important, having something to work on or towards, rather than wallowing in place.

#a storm of swords #steel and snow #a song of ice and fire #bran stark #a chapter a day reading #asos #asoiaf

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cheezeandkrackers · 7 months ago

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I'm also pretty appalled how this was only resolved by just a "slap on the wrist." People are replying to this with "I'm disappointed, but it's ok i forgive you :)"

This is someone who took her friends- people who trusted her- work. Something they spent hours plotting and writing. People can't seem to comprehend just how HURT Venus and Zombie are and that's what baffles me. If it wasn't for Manika and the other anons shedding light, Doll would have continued to have her stolen works up to this day. When she said her friend was manning the tumblr fort, in my personal opinion (as Doll said we're allowed to have) I call BS personally. The MOMENT accusations were flying, the two fics called into question were deleted. Any comments regarding the accusations were quickly deleted. I saw one of my buddies even reblog one of doll's posts and question her and not even 5 seconds after, Doll had deleted it so her following wouldn't see. Doll claims she doesn't live on tumblr 24/7 which is understandable, but how quickly things were being deleted is highly suspicious. And I get it, she was in the middle of exam season, but it takes less than 5 minutes to make a statement in my opinion. It took her like...3 days? And she was active during that time on tumblr, answering questions about HWE. She told me she had to be in the "right mind frame". I agree with previous statements, anon hate- especially the one she received- is atrocious. NOBODY deserves to receive anon hate like that. Not only has Doll received anon hate but I've seen Manika receive some as well. I agree I think this is just someone wanting to stir the pot for drama's sake, there's NO proof that it was Manika sending off people to threaten Doll. The opposite, I've seen Manika publicly saying that she does NOT support the fact that Doll was receiving suicide bait anons. That ask is the only thing I feel sympathy towards Doll for personally because that just wasn't cool.

But the first time when Doll returns since the whole fiasco, it isn't to address the situation, its to promote chapter 14 of her "story". Forgive me for saying, but if I was being accused of such a shitty thing, promoting my fic wouldn't exactly be the first thing I post about :/

And people just slapping her wrist but continuing supporting her is just sad. How would you feel if something you worked hard on was taken by someone- especially if that person was your friend- and they stripped it from you and earned more clout than you? That's exactly how Venus and Zombie are feeling and that's not okay. IMO, THOSE two are the ones who deserve the support for their talent. I agree with the account I reblogged this from, Doll needs to delete everything and take some time to truly reflect. Not only a day after her statement and she's already off promoting stories. Agree or disagree but after being caught lying and stealing, just saying "I'm not gonna do it ever again!" has me side eyeing. Again, if no one would have said anything, those stories would have continued to stay up as they have been for months already.

If the rest of her stories are truly hers, then Doll, you CAN write and that's how it should have been. If you were truly guilty, you'd have fessed up ages ago to your old friends. But no, you're sorry you got caught imo.

With my last post about girl dungeon, I took it down because Doll came forward to me and said they were one and the same so I took it down out of respect because that was my bad at that point. But you 1:1 stealing is still a real matter. Just because you deleted the stories, doesn't mean they're not out there. So if anyone STILL doesn't believe she 1:1 copied, here's one of the recovered stories she stole from zombie that I got permission to show (But Zombie if you see this and decide to retract your permission, please let me know and I'll delete this part. I've cropped whom I found the reblog from for privacy sake and I crossed out Zombies old account due to their personal things)

This is Zombie's story called The Hunt:

As you can see from the comment section, girldungeon was Doll so she's clearly seen the story. Now heres Doll's "version":

So in my opinion, I personally don't think Doll deserves support. She needs to delete, take time, come back and build her support from scratch HONESTLY.

RECENT UPDATE:

https://www.tumblr.com/explorevenus/778631388885909504/thank-u-for-ur-kind-words-and-support-about-the?source=share

My first and only statement on all the accusations

Hello, I’m sure most of you are aware of the accusations about me and some of the stories I posted on my account. This post is not only an apology post, but an accountability post that details everything that happened from beginning to end. Everything will be here, so I will not be making more posts about this unless it’s to direct to this one.

Adding a tw now for suicide baiting, death threats and mentions of razors. So sorry but it must be included.

First I just wanted to say, no I wasn’t avoiding any of this. When this all started I was still in the middle of finals week, and I don’t live on tumblr 24/7. I had to focus on my finals to ensure I can get my degree and graduate. That was my number one priority. If anyone was blocked or comments were restricted during that time, it was my mostly my irl friend ensuring I wasn’t consumed by tumblr and could focus on my finals. I was already under a lot of stress and she offered to take over until I was finished with finals.

I was also getting death threats (people telling me to skin myself I alive and to jump). So she was ensuring that when I returned to my own blog, I would not see such triggering content. I have a history with suicide attempts and this was necessary for my mental health. The appropriate people were unblocked and remain unblocked to this day.

I always intended to make a statement, I just prioritized my real life first. It also took time to craft the post you are seeing now. I wanted it to be authentic, no misinformation, and well written.

So, as far as plagiarism goes, yes I did plagiarize specifically 3 of zombiekillerbiceps stories. I can’t actually remember the names of them and the author has removed their account from the site. But on my end specifically “Getting Closer”, “Edge of Control” and “Thrills” were not my own writing. Before they deleted her account I had already reached out via dm and apologized. We came to an understanding. I do not know why they deleted their account but they essentially said in DMs they accepted my apology and wanted to put this behind us but they were very hurt that I had copied them.

Edit: I found the post she made calling me out and will attach it.

As far as His Watchful Eye goes, the only plagiarism that took place was specifically the first chapter of it and only the first chapter. The first chapter of Something Permanent and His Watchful Eye are very similar. The remaining 13 chapters are my own writing and ideas. I have already reached out to @explorevenus and apologized. She has responded and made her own statement regarding it if you want to go and read it.

The only reason it was in anon is because this account (dollgxtz) is my side blog. I couldn’t figure out how to send a non anonymous message without exposing my main blog, so anon was the best thing. I didn’t want people sending death threats too that one too. I should’ve put my username in the anon, but it was already very late for me and I hadn’t slept in about 26 hours. I just wasn’t thinking very clearly and for that Venus I am also very sorry.

@manika-whims (the person that first wrote about all this) will remain blocked and some of her followers because I do suspect it was that group of people telling me to die. Manika wrote a very long post as she was upset that I “mischaracterized” Xavier in His Watchful Eye, called me a bitch and a loser because of a fictional man in a fictional story, and I will not entertain such immaturity. Full stop.

One of the anons that sent the suicide bait also called me a bitch and a waste of space. It was just too similar.

I also got this one. It’s too graphic to show the entirety of it.

I apologize for the plagiarism. But I will never apologize for writing characters the way I do or for writing dark content. It’s just not that serious. After she posted that I started getting these death threats and more.

You had every right to call me out for plagiarism Manika, but I stand my decision to keep you blocked. It had nothing to do with plagiarism accusations or me hiding from them, but I do believe you egged on your audience to come attack me over a fictional story and for that reason you will never be unblocked. I’ve attached screenshots below of the entire exchange. This is not to deflect from my own actions. This is simply to explain why she is blocked. She will say it’s because I was trying to hide from this but that is not true. I am just very sure the death threats came from her or her audience. This isn’t to say that she absolutely did but just in case, for my own mental health and safety I had to have them blocked.

Now that that’s discussed, I would like to address my readers and any future readers of mine. The plagiarized stories “Getting Closer” “Thrills” and “Edge of Control”. have been deleted and will remain deleted. Those of you asking for copies, please do not. They are not my writing nor my own works. Any remaining single work story on my blog is my own work and 100 percent my own ideas. My masterlist has been updated to reflect this as well.

When I first made my blog and posted those stories, I was a very insecure writer. I did not think I was truly capable of writing or making a good story. I did those things out of insecurity and not feeling good enough. But as time went on, I began to create my own stories and realize that I can write if I put my mind to it. These are not excuses, only explanations. Nothing excuses my behavior.

If you want to defend me, that is your own choice. I ask that you do not though in terms of plagiarism because I ultimately did plagiarize and that is 100 percent wrong of me to do. But in terms of AI usage accusations, these are not true. I have never and never will use AI to write.

I have spent countless hours writing chapters for His Watchful Eye, pulled all nighters, and even lost sleep making this story. I have timestamps in google docs that show me editing and writing my own story. I didn’t even know AI had advanced to the point that you can write fully blown novels. But make no mistake, Ai checkers are not reliable. I had an incident in my first year of college where a paper I wrote got flagged for 77 percent ai generated content. That paper was written 100 percent by me over countless hours and still got flagged. It was a very scary time in my life and for that reason alone I will never use AI.

If you want to unfollow me, please do so. If you want to block me, please do so. I would never hold that against anyone and am not mad at anyone for doing so. Just don’t come in my anon box telling me to jump, don’t message me rude or disgusting messages telling me to die. I am a human, I am a real person behind the screen. What I did was wrong but you are no better telling someone to kill themselves. Please just block me.

All in all thanks for reading. If you unfollow, thanks for being here. If you don’t, thanks for being here. If you want to be removed from any taglists, please just message me. You will not be blocked. Just removed from any future taglists! I have vowed to only post 100 percent of my own content from here on out, so if you stay I can promise you will only be reading my own work.

I am no longer the insecure writer that I once was, I now know my abilities and am confident enough to make my own stories. I have a 240,000 word fic out right now, I genuinely am still shocked I have done that. Writing has become a joy for me and I will not stop now. I should’ve never been afraid to make mistakes or be bad at it. I’m sorry to the people I hurt, my readers, and anyone reading this in the future. I am still growing and learning from my mistakes, and this has been the biggest lesson I will never forget.

Plagiarism is wrong and hurts authors. If you are reading this and have done so as well, please rethink your decisions and take them down, just as I have done.

I love interacting with you all, when you send me asks and messages about HWE or any of my original single fics. It is amazing getting to explain stuff or gush with you guys over the things that I have truly written. I truly love being an author and want my future as one to be honest and communicative.

The comments on this will be monitored, but not restricted. Voicing your thoughts is okay as long as they are respectful and not a direct threat to me or anyone’s life. Questions are okay as well and I will answer to the best of my ability. Please no:

insulting me or any of the people mentioned in this post (manika, venus, zombie, etc)

death threats or suicide baiting anyone

I want this to be a mature and honest discussion, and that can’t happen if I allow such comments. Despite what has been said about or to me, I do not want to replicate any insults/drama on my own blog. You can voice your displeasure or opinions without name calling.

Same goes for any messages or anon box messages you all may send to anyone involved here. We are all real people with feelings. Keep that in mind please before you message anyone.

We all make mistakes. Without mistakes, we cannot grow as people. It’s what we do after we make those mistakes that truly attest to our character. And this is what I’ve chosen to do. Lay it all out for my readers and the rest of the LADS fandom to see, apologize to the people I hurt and only write my own stories from here on out. Thank you to the readers and friends who approached me with kindness and encouraged me to keep writing authentically. And thank you all for reading, I wish all of you the best in life 🤍

-Umi ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡

#tw cyberbullying #tw threats #fandom discourse #love and deepspace #love and deepspace sylus

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mindmeltonabun-blog · 4 years ago

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Doom At Your Service: Analysis & Theories for EPs 9-10

Anyone mentally exhausted from watching DAYS? Well, you’ve come to the right place where I do the thinking for you, so you don’t have to! As always, if you have any questions, feel free to click on the ask question button! Happy Readings !

The Contract Revisited

While reviewing the contract, I realized there was something major that I had completely missed! Anyways let’s go over the contract again to clear up some confusion.

The Contract is as follows:

1) Dong Kyung must ask for Myul Mang to destroy the world before she dies (It could be rephrased as Dong Kyung must ask for Myul Mang to destroy the world before her tentative expiration date)

2) During Dong Kyung’s last 100 days, Myul Mang will prevent her from feeling any pain

3) Myul Mang has to grant her one real wish

4) If Dong Kyung breaks the contract (does not wish for the world to be destroyed) then the person she loves the most will die

If Dong Kyung does not violate the contract as in she wishes for the world to be destroyed, the person she loves dies anyways because you know.... the world is non existent. If Dong Kyung does violate the contract, meaning she does not wish for the world to be destroyed, the person she loves dies too because her doom is transferred to them. Some have also wondered whether she can has to ask for the world to be destroyed in order to get her one real wish to be granted. In my opinion, I don't think so. I think she can still get her one real wish to be granted regardless of whether she wishes for doom upon the world or not. Other things to note is that nothing will happen to Myul Mang if he does not stick to the terms of the contract (i.e keeps Dong Kyung pain free and granting her one real wish) because as Dong Kyung said "If I violate" not "If either you or I violate".

Now something to pay close attention to is #4. In Ep 2, Myul Mang had said he would take Dong Kyung’s doom (brain cancer) and transfer it to someone she loves. This is the part I missed! I’d thought that all Myul Mang was doing was transferring the death that was meant for her, not that he was actually removing her source of death which was her brain cancer. Therefore, if Dong Kyung breaks the contract, she will live because her brain cancer is removed and is subsequently transferred into the person she loves, causing them to die instead. I feel incredibly stupid for missing this important piece of info. In light of this new info, I will therefore retract my previous theory that Dong Kyung’s one wish will be to cure her brain cancer.

For those who were confused by that scene of Dong Kyung going to the beach and staying away from everyone, here are my thoughts on that. Dong Kyung was trying to find a loophole. The loophole was that she was planning on violating the contract while protecting the people she loves. This means that Dong Kyung was planning on ending herself at the beach (you can't wish for doom upon the world if you're already dead) and accepting her doom (her doom can't be transferred to anyone else because she accepts it in herself).

Who’s Going to Get Dong Kyung’s Brain Cancer and Die?

I recently had a eureka moment a few days ago before Eps 9-10 aired that led me to formulating a new theory -- it's actually Dora who will inherit Dong Kyung’s brain cancer and die. Let’s think through some things first, “the person you love the most will die”. The most obvious choice is Myul Mang. However, if you think about that statement in a more abstract way, you can see that if Dong Kyung loves her life, then the person who will die is Dora. Remember that Dora is basically the personification of life.

To further add evidence that supports this theory, I present to you Exhibit A, Dora’s massive nosebleed. We know Dong Kyung has a rare type of brain cancer and it’s located in her frontal lobe. As days pass, the brain tumor is growing or metastasizing. In theory, the tumor could grow into nearby areas such as her nasal cavity and cause Dong Kyung to have nose bleeds (FYI: In real life, I’m a scientist with experience in the field of oncology and most of the time brain tumors don’t grow outside of the brain. It can happen, but it is very rare!). Now, think about the events that occurred before Dora's nose bleed. For example, Dong Kyung was out and about enjoying her time with Myul Mang and her family and friends. Essentially, Dong Kyung was beginning to love her life. This causes Dora to suffer because she is taking in Dong Kyung's illness into herself. Subsequently, this leads to Dora experiencing some of the symptoms of Dong Kyung's brain cancer (e.g nose bleed). Thus, as Dong Kyung is beginning to live, Dora is beginning to die.

Exhibit B: Adventures of Pinocchio. At the end of the story, the Fairy (Dora) heals an ailing Geppetto (Dong Kyung) as a reward for Pinocchio (Myul Mang) becoming a good boy. Following this, we don’t hear much about what happens to the Fairy except that she’s in laying in a hospital on the verge of death. It is implied that in order to heal Geppetto, the Fairy had to take his illness into herself. Afterall, nothing is without consequences, someone must pay so that others can be happy. Much like the story of Pinocchio, Dora is doing the same thing as the Fairy. Dora is taking in Dong Kyung’s illness so that Dong Kyung can freely love her son, Myul Mang, without consequences (e.g Myul Mang dying).

Exhibit C: Dong Kyung walking around like she didn’t have brain cancer while in seclusion. You would think that since she didn’t see Myul Mang to recharge, she would be experiencing some severe symptoms, but nope she was walking around as if she was cured! I wonder where her cancer went.......DORA!

Exhibit D: Dora telling Dong Kyung to be madly in love and live. Basically Dora saying, "Love my son and live, don't worry about your brain cancer or him dying because I'm taking care of it."

Why Dora Didn't Want Myul Mang To See Her

For those wondering why Dora didn’t want Myul Mang to see her, here are my two cents. One explanation is that Dora probably didn’t want him to figure out that she was inheriting Dong Kyung’s brain cancer. It would’ve made him feel guilty to see that his mother was willing to take on even more pain just so he could be happy. Another explanation is that Myul Mang still has a lot of growing up to do (to become human). Dora didn’t want him to get the idea that he’s out of the clear just yet. Meaning if Myul Mang had found out that Dora was doing this for him then he would’ve thought life was a breeze now and have no further motivations to want to grow, thus ruining Dora’s plan for him (to grow up to become a good human). There’s no better motivation to make someone grow than the thought of their love ones dying.

Final Theory on Dong Kyung’s Wish

In my previous post, I had discussed that without knowing the limits of what one could or could not wish for, it was difficult for me to accurately predict what Dong Kyung’s wish would be. However, in this week’s episode, I was finally given the limits: the wish must be a wish that is doom in nature. I thought to myself, what could be a good thing to end? Oh, that’s right, Myul Mang’s immorality. Dong Kyung must say “I wish for your immortal life to end” or something along those lines. The combination of Dong Kyung’s wish + Myul Mang’s willingness to sacrifice himself for her + Dora’s plant = the rebirth of Myul Mang into a real boy....oops I mean real hu-man.

The Ending of DAYS

So, what kind of ending will DAYS have? Prepare yourselves. I think it’s going to be a bittersweet ending because it goes with the one of the main themes DAYS which is dualism. I think Myul Mang will be reborn as a human, but still have his doom responsibilities (so more like a fake human). He will probably end up becoming like Dora in the sense that he gets to experience the cycle of life and death over an infinite amount of time. Dong Kyung won’t be reborn in his next life cycle (remember Myul Mang tells that crazy lady there’s no afterlife; humans only have this one life). I guess the notion that the love he and Dong Kyung share will always be with him and forever serve as a shining beacon even in his loneliest days is sweet, but still I want a happy ending!!!

Now excuse my language, but to hell with dualism and what is logical! I want a happy ending where Myul Mang becomes human, lives with Dong Kyung, and when he dies that’s it. No coming back to doing his doom job in a different life. Dora can create another herald of doom. Dora did it once before and she could do it again lol. Or if Myul Mang must come back in a different life, at least allow Dong Kyung to be reborn at the same time. I mean you can grow the same plant again…. EVER HEARD OF PROPROGATION DORA?!! Metaphorically speaking, if Dong Kyung is a sunflower, then wait until she dies, harvest her seeds and grow her again…. it’s that simple Dora!!!

Some Thoughts on the Writer of DAYS

The writer (Im Meari) of DAYS is at best, pretentious and at worst, derivative. She’s more or less just rehashing the works of other great philosophers (Nietzsche, Schopenhauer, Deleuze, etc). She presents DAYS as a collection of major philosophical concepts with the intention to differentiate herself from that of other kdramas writers. She goes onto placing great stress on the idea that in order to innovate or bring about a new beginning, one must deviate from the norm, yet she herself does not diverge from the ideas of other philosophers. She does not present any philosophy of her own. In this aspect, she is a hypocrite to the very ideas she tries to preach. Oh well, to each their own. Who knows, maybe my opinion of Im Meari will change by the end of the series. Anyways, I’m still here for the romance between the actors and actresses and solving mysteries!

Ep 11 Preview Predictions

Here are my predictions for Ep 11 based off of the preview, they may or may not be correct !

Dong Kyung takes back the bracelet from Myul Mang after their conversation on the beach. Honestly, I’m growing tired of this whole giving/taking the bracelet type situation lol.

Dong Kyung enjoys a nice vacation with Myul Mang on Jeju island.

Dong Kyung returns from the vacation because she finds out that her aunt is sick (probably from worrying about Dong Kyung). Dong Kyung beats herself up about it.

Dong Kyung is sick again (probably from hating life...remember that I had theorized that the more Dong Kyung loves her life, the sicker Dora will be become) and Myul Mang in his desperation pleads with Dora to help him, but Dora’s version of helping him is to …. surprise surprise… teach him another lesson. The lesson is that the grass isn’t always greener on the other side and that Myul Mang and Dong Kyung complete each other for the better. Dora shows Myul Mang what their lives would've been like if they had never existed in each other’s lives.

Dong Kyung having never experience any kind of suffering would live a healthy life but become the most unappreciative and spoiled person ever. She may go on to finding that life was pretty meaningless and would want to put an end to it all. And Myul Mang having never met Dong Kyung wouldn't have any motivation or desire to grow as a person and so he would remain stagnant. And who knows… maybe at some point, that Myul would’ve became so angry with humans that he would personally go around killing every last one of them.

#doom at your service #doomatyourservice #myulmang #Myul mang #dong kyung #dongkyung #kimsaram #Kim saram #DAYS #parkboyoung #park bo young #seo in guk #seoinguk #kdrama #kdramas #theories #analysis #long post

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omegasamwilson · 4 years ago

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I literally had a panic attack when I watched Ayo take off Bucky's arm. I was born without my left arm and see a lot of myself in Bucky. I have a prosthetic and had to stop the episode and watch it later. And it really hurt me to see your completely disregard that and say I have no right to be upset. It really pisses me off. I'm fully acknowledging that Bucky did a terrible thing, and he needed to be stopped. But she didn't have to remove his arm. He wouldn't have hurt her. To see you refer to his arm in the tags as a weapon further hurt me. It's not a fucking weapon, it's his fucking arm. You're trying to twist this into a race issue when it's about fucking ableism. I'm brown not black so I don't know if you'll accept my concerns with your post

Hi, one, I apologize for what is sure to be a very long and very frustrated statement. But I’m dealing with a lot of shit rn (actually related to race and ableism specifically) but I wanted to respond because my ADHD ass will forget otherwise.

Okay. One, you say “he wouldn’t have hurt her.”

We, the audience, knows that. Ayo did not. What she knows is that the man before her was an assassin and sniper, even before he was captured and forced to kill by HYDRA. He was a WWII sniper and seemed to be quite skilled (I’m going to assume that’s one of the reasons HYDRA tried to experiment on him and picked him to he the winter soldier.) In any case, this newly reformed (and at the time, just barely reformed. As in, he was healed a month, maybe two months before the events of infinity war. So he’s been healed for a whopping seven months.) This newly reformed assassin, who had been the victim of either chemical or otherwise mental subjugation freed a terrorist from prison.

Not only did he free a terrorist from prison, he freed a terrorist that was obsessed with HYDRA. If any terrorist knew a back door to unlock the winter soldier again, it would be Baron Zemo, who knew each and every one of HYDRA’s secrets.

While Shuri is definitely brilliant, it’s entirely possible that HYDRA buried a safety within their “asset” just in case he was able to break his programming. It’s entirely possible that it was so well buried amongst the labyrinth that is the brain that even Shuri couldn’t find it. After all, Shuri isn’t a neuroscientist, and the brain is largely regarded as the final frontier. So it’s entirely possible that she missed buried programming.

So, we have a person that got rid of HYDRA’s programming seven months ago that just freed one of the only people on the planet that could have the information that could potentially reactivate the winter soldier. And THEN, we have a video of this man “acting” as the winter soldier in madripoor. This was uploaded on the internet and I’m assuming that Ayo saw it.

What proof does Ayo have that he won’t hurt her? That she won’t weaponize his arm and hurt her? What proof does she have that he’s not under Zemo’s control, that Zemo can’t control him in a second. The only thing she knows are that Bucky Barnes freed a terrorist that had access to all of HYDRA’s information, the terrorist appeared to control the winter soldier in madripoor, and it is entirely possible that there is buried programming designed to deactivate the winter soldier.

She deactivates it, realizes he’s fully in control of himself and says, “bast damn you, James.” As in, “fuck you for freeing a terrorist and acting like it isn’t a big deal. You are clearly acting on your own accord in this.”

And yes, it’s different being Black vs. being Brown. It isn’t to say that racism and ableism don’t intersect with Brown folks because obviously it does.

But l specifically asked for Black opinions bc of the demonization of Black folks, especially the trope of “big scary Black women” or “big scary Black men.”

It’s ironic I see this today when I have a story that is so relevant and anger inducing.

I work with white parents of Black children, usually through adoption since I work primarily with lgbt parents, but I do have some cis het white parents raising Black biological kids. One of the parents and friends got into it today because her autistic Black child got into it with their sibling (also disabled). The sibling intentionally triggered their older sibling and punched them and it escalated to the point where the bigger sibling finally reacted and shoved the younger sibling. It broke the younger kid’s glasses. The youngest is legally blind and needs very expensive and specific prescription classes to even have 20/40 vision.

The mom called the police on her child and the kid was arrested and charged. She is 15. Mom described the kid as aggressive and awful and terrible and all sorts of names. A ww called the police on her Black 15 year old child having a meltdown. And she played into stereotypes that Black people, Black women, are aggressive/scary/angry. A ww could’ve gotten her child killed for having a meltdown because she broke a white child’s disability aid.)

A ww couldve gotten her child killed because she played into anti-Black stereotypes. That white people need protection from them. Even when the white child was initially the aggressor in the scenario.

Sure, it’s different, but it plays to the same stereotypes. Poor white disabled person needs protection from the aggressive scary Black person, and we’re just going to assume that the Black person was being unnecessarily aggressive because it plays into all of the stereotypes about Black people. No, there’s no way that this Black person was making a decision based on a series of evidence that could point to them genuinely being harmed.

(By the way, in the scenario of the two kids, I think they both needed help and support, and that the police shouldn’t have been called period.)

Nope, it’s just an aggressive Black person being ableist.

The same systems that have everyone seeing Bucky as a cute little uwu cinnamon roll in need of protection are what caused everyone to see Ayo as an aggressive ableist Black woman. White people usually get the benefit of the doubt. The best intentions are believed even when the evidence clearly says otherwise.

The evidence Ayo had indicated that she had no idea whether the winter soldier could’ve been reactivated and whether or not Bucky could’ve been under zemo’s control. She had no idea. None. She made a decision based off that information. And the fact that Bucky didn’t react strongly indicated that he was acting on his own accord.

Mayhaps, Ayo might even have been trying to trigger the winter soldier. I just thought of this but it makes sense. That the WS would react very defensively and even potentially deadly to that level of fighting, even if his previous orders were different.

In any case, this situation isn’t comparable to every day disabled people because our disability aids to not double as weapons. Most people can’t do more harm with a prosthetic limb than they can with a regular limb. Bucky can. Bucky’s arm is also a weapon and that fact complicates matters considerably. If bucky’s arm were simply a regular arm with typical strength, it’d be a no brainer situation. But it’s not. We don’t know the wakanda enhancements of his arms, but we know in the comics, he could kill with a single punch using his arm. He uses his arm tactically to map his surroundings. He uses his arm to send off EMPs that can disabled weaponry. It even has a retractable blade for close combat. It is a disability aid that it also a weapon. It was designed to be a weapon. The normal conversations around disability aids don’t fit it because no one today has a disability aid that could kill someone in seconds and even cause larger scale damage with a targeted EMP.

And finally, I want to say this, I am truly sorry that you had a panic attack while watching the episode. That is never fair and it’s never fun to be triggered by television shows.

I do hope this helped to better explain and clarify my perspective.

#nonny mouse #ayo #tfatws #police cw #ableism #anti blackness

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ihassheepquake · 3 years ago

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DC's Batwoman 3.12 "We're All Mad Here" has aired on the CW and I'm here to talk about it

Penultimate episode time y'all. I don't know about anyone else but the penultimate episode almost stresses me out more than the actual finale.

It's been like three weeks, where the fuck did we leave off? Ope that's right, Alice wants the joybuzzer because she thinks it might be able to uncrazy her. I remember talking about this and thinking that it's not going to work on Alice because it's not the source of her craziness. Considering the whole thing with how Alice is "crazy" as a defense/coping mechanism that's the result of being kidnapped and tortured for years and then when she finally found some semblance of joy again, those joyous memories were erased by a woman who was mad that Alice fucked her brother.

Good to see Alice back to her roots on a murder spree.

Okay did it actually work? Because if so, then yay Beth I guess but it feels like a cop out. That doesn't get rid of the possibility that Beth is going to have to deal with all sorts of mental and emotional shit but I would've liked to see her chose to do the work to become Beth again. Which they could still do, I'm sure she's going to have a lot of guilt to deal with, but not a huge fan of the "oh here's a magical fix for my psychosis" thing.

"Is it just me or did they make Alice a victim?" because she is Sophie??? Does that excuse all the murder and other evil she did as Alice? Not at all! But she is, in fact, a victim. Because she was kidnapped and tortured by a dude for years. I know you don't like her Sophie but get your head out of your ass!

Oop and there's the continuing psychological problems, now Beth is seeing dead people. Oh so did she not save herself or is she having a new psychic break thing? Either way my previous statements may have to be retracted. Or I guess I did say that they can continue to explore these themes after her being saved. Okay whatever. I made my point, I stand by it, and I'm willing to be wrong.

Ha, Jada walking in on Sophie. That's admittedly very funny.

Yes Mary let her have it, fuck her up queen! You owe that bitch nothing.

Barbara Kean??? Looks like Miss Jet knows her and is may be more involved than we already know. She's part of Black Glove?? Okay that actually works, sure. And Jada kidnapped again, maybe they'll finally kill her this time, I still hate this character so much.

Is Mary going to confess?? Blame it on Ivy? Because I say blame it on Ivy, it really was all her fault.

Joker murdered Jason Todd confirmed?? Rad. More support for my "Bruce vanished because he murdered Joker for murdering Jason & paralyzing Barbara" theory.

Joker 2.lame doesn't even look good. Fucking hate that guy.

An Arkham and a Falcone are a part of Black Glove. And Burton Crowne, who apparently is tied to Talon of the Court of Owls. Considering that the Black Glove Society does not exist in comics (according to all research I've done), good on the writing team for picking entirely people from actual Gotham mythos. All pretty good choices too. They could've been a much more fun villain than Joker 2.lame. Although I'm not sure any of their backstory makes sense.

Not delusional Mouse coming and guilt tripping Alice. All here for it.

People think Alice killed the hunter? Is it true that Alice called and confessed?? Damn, that bitch be crazy. Mary going with it is the ultimate throwing her under the bus unless she really did confess.

Joker 2.lame, even your backstory is lame. But I guess good job writing team for seeing an opportunity to connect him to Alice. I guarantee that wasn't always the plan.

Kill her ass Ryan!! Rip his dick off!!!

Big fan of Ryan and Sophie finally talking shit through, deciding to be girlfriends. The gays stay winning! Mary and I are twins in that reaction.

Why do the villains always discover the Batcave? I swear that shit's gotta be on goggle maps or some shit by now considering everyone fucking finds it.

DC's Batwoman season 3 finale "Are We Having Fun Yet?" next week, March 2nd. One last go.

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tech-whale · 3 years ago

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Arrows Mark Chapter 4

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2nd POV

Food, drinks and laughter flowed naturally between the small group at the table, and you couldn't be happier. It had been a while since your group had felt so accepted into any town or kingdom. The four of you had been rather notorious for theft, and arson.

So being welcomed into the palace nonetheless, was a pleasant change of pace from the usual way people act around you and your friends. The group moved through the dinner quickly, the tomato soup was nice and warm, and the amount of meat you got was nice. Once the main dishes had been finished the staff of the castle brought out the dessert, a flakey tart with a custard filling topped with all kinds of fruits.

As you enjoyed your tart, you looked over to the mage sitting at the other side of the table, he seemed to be nervous as he fidgeted in his seat, the mage, Kenma if you remembered correctly, finished his tart rather quickly, then excused himself from the table. You watched him leave the room noticing the air of unease around him.

The King must have noticed your wandering stare as he coughed to gain your attention, quickly reassuring you that Kenma was fine and that he was not the most social person and just needed to take some time for himself. Relaxing at the answer you continued to the joyus conversation around the table.

As the night grew on, you started to get more restless sitting at the table. It is not as though you did not enjoy the conversations or the company, it was just you had never been good at sitting in a formal setting for more than a few hours, and even that was a stretch. Finding a reason, you excuse yourself from the table and walk out of the Grand Hall.

Wandering around the halls of the castle you really took you time to admire the architecture and the art of the castle that you had not gotten to really look at before, looking out the window you noticed a large hedge maze with a garden surrounding it, being tempted by the beauty of the flowers you started looking for the entrance to the garden.

Walking along the paths of the garden, the clicking of your heels hitting the stone paths helped to calm the restlessness of your nerves and clear your head from the thoughts of the mission instead you just focused on the colours and the scents of the flowers surrounding you.

Finally pulling yourself from your mindless wandering you realised that you were in the hedge maze, figuring that you could find your way out of the maze later you continued your way through the maze, suddenly the hedges seemed to pull away from each other into one open space.

It was breathtaking, the hedges opened up into a circular stone paved area covered with a white birch gazebo. The hedges and supports holding and around the gazebo were all covered in shimmery green vines with a large array of coloured flowers. In the middle of the mosaic floor was a large fountain, surrounding the fountain were curved benches made of the same stone as the gazebo.

As you made your way over to the fountain you went to sit down on the side of it when something caught your eye. Looking through the fountain’s water you saw Kenma sitting on one of the stone benches, looking at him more you noticed how he just seemed to stare at his feet.

Sitting down beside him you placed your hand on his shoulder, quickly retracting your hand when he looked up at you, you smiled at his surprised face.

“Sorry to intrude, I just thought that you might want some company.” You whispered, as to not startel Kenma any more than you already had.

Kenma only whispered an ok to your statement, and went back to staring out over the garden.

“It’s ok if you are nervous for the trip, that's normal. Especially if you haven't ever had to deal with something like this.” You spoke out, as you started to stand up. Kenma looked at you questionly, before you beconked him up and began walking out of the area and into the maze.

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Kenma POV

Kenma quickly got up and ran over to you to keep pace with you.

“Where are we going?” Kenma asked, as he followed along behind you.

“You tell me, I’ve never been in these gardens before.” You giggled out, sending him a goofy smile. Kenma felt something in him soften and relax at the look on your face.

Shaking his head Kenma started to walk slightly ahead of you, checking behind him every once in a while to make sure that you hadn't gotten lost in the maze. Kenma watched as you spun around trying to get a good look at each of the plants, as he watched you he couldn't help but notice how the moonlight highlighted your skin and made it seem like you were glowing.

Looking forward again Kenma noticed that they were almost to the entrance back into the castle.

“Alright we’re here.” Kenma stated, pulling you out of your trance.

“Oh, I guess it is pretty late and we have a long journey starting tomorrow.” You replied, only looking slightly disappointed that you had to leave the garden.

Kenma watched as you made your way into the castle before turning around.

Heading over to the entrance to his tower Kenma couldn't stop the thoughts running through his head, but this time instead of thoughts of worry and dread they were thoughts of peace excitement and they were thoughts of you.

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mercless · 3 years ago

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@hexmachinations | from here.

Features scrunch unpleasantly while the inventor's question is processed, barely finishing with discerning his previous words that had seemed... complimentary? Perhaps merely statements. He was using so many unnecessary words, and the longest versions of them. Annoyance would call it aristocratic talk, paranoia would call it stalling. Gloved hands stay put on the bench behind them, their cloak pressed to its edge as Talon searched for support from his scrutinising gaze. They hated being so seen. He wanted to... know how they deal with problems. With the problem that brought them here.

The Machine Herald wasn't supposed to be here when they were. The plan had been to find papers of information, discern who and what he truly was. They should have taken longer to learn his schedule, watched for when he braved the hazardous fog outside. Talon stifles a cough from beneath their fabric mask pulled up to their nose at the thought, shaded eyes glancing over the walking armoured body before them in an attempt to find weaponry, always coming back to that third limb from his back. Was it moving? "The simplest solution," The answer is dragged out of their throat, their gaze unhappy on everything it fell on, "Talking and asking, works." They guess at that being the answer Viktor wanted. Even if they attempted to fight their way out - or even surprise him - they doubted their blades would find much purchase in a majority of his armour. And a hasty escape while still not tripping any of the alarms in place seemed a risky gambit.

A hand lifts to adjust further across the desk, only to retract then it finds paperwork instead of the solid surface. The thought of the Blade's Shadow being known already didn't occur to Talon. And what they knew of the Machine Herald was from hearsay at best, and already they were beginning to refute most of it. So it wouldn't be far from possible that Viktor had dealt with curious invaders before, seeking the truth from what was spewed out by poisoned minds. With that theory in mind, Talon chances standing their ground properly. "I want to... know what the truth is. About you, and how."

#‡ rp #hexmachinations #ty for waiting patiently!

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twdeadlysins · 5 years ago

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Not Alone

Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Reader

Word Count: 2,173

Summary: Daryl blames himself everyday for not sticking with Y/N when the Governor brought chaos upon them. The only thing that keeps him going is hope — hope that her and their unborn child is okay and out there somewhere.

Request: 14. “I thought you were dead” - Daryl and the reader (M/F) were separated when the prison fell. The reader, who is pregnant with his child, When the group gets to Alexandria, he finds the reader, but they're not alone. He hugs the reader and says #14 (Baby (G/B) is a newborn when he finds them.) // Requested by: @leej2468

Warnings: some angst?, fluff, pregnancy, mention of possible death of a character and unborn child, the usual walking dead themes, and possible typos by yours truly

A/N: I apologize that I’m barely cranking out fics. The usual writer’s block, laziness, lack of motivation, and other work have been delaying posts. I do have a ton of wips and requests to start and finish!

The gifs I use aren’t mine, so all credit goes to their respective owners.

MASTERLIST

On the ride to their new home, Daryl fiddled with his crossbow and arrows, deep in thought. Although the place was going to be a major upgrade from their previous living conditions, he was unsure about it all. He was doubtful that Alexandria would be any different than the farm, the prison, or Terminus. Every time they took a chance, it was ruined by walkers or people, breaking all hope and trust. Not trust in his family, but trust with the rest of the world. The only people Daryl could count on was himself and his people… and Y/N.

“Thinkin’ about them?”

The hunter stayed silent as he inspected an arrow, not wanting to look Maggie in the eye. He was afraid that if he did, she would see all the guilt and pain that his crystal blues held, so he barely nodded as an answer. Maggie sighed and reached over, gently placing her hand on top of his, prompting Daryl to halt his movements and reluctantly peer at her. She gave an empathetic smile, giving his hand a squeeze before retracting her hand away and folding her arms to lean on the table.

The archer dropped the arrow and brought his back to meet the couch, gnawing on his lip while messing with the hem of his shirt. His eyes connected back to the brunette before shrugging. “She’s alone. She shouldn’ be alone.” Tears started to well up and his bottom lip began to tremble as he stared at his dirty calloused hands, fidgeting with his fingers.

A little over a month before the prison, Y/N had gotten sick and they assumed it was just a stomach bug — until it lasted more than a couple days. Lori and Carol chuckled at the couple and brought up the possibility that she might be pregnant after a week and a half of her feeling unwell. Despite Y/N’s protest that there was no way, Daryl had handed her a test after a run, and it proved her wrong. Although she was in denial at first, she was elated and so was he, but there were underlying nerves there, especially after what happened to Lori. Y/N was with her when it had happened, and she ended up terrified, scared that she was going to end up like that as well. With time and the endless amount of support from Daryl and the others, she became more comfortable at the idea of giving birth.

That secure feeling vanished the minute the Governor came, destroying their home and murdering Hershel, the person they counted on to bring their child in the world, right in front of them. Y/N started spraying bullets alongside him before he urged her to head for the bus, but she was stubborn as hell and didn’t want to be separated — didn’t want to leave him behind. Daryl knew she was the type of person to say ‘If you’re going down, then I’m going down with you’, but he couldn’t let her do that, especially since it was much bigger than the two of them — there was another life. So he caressed her cheek behind the box they were using for protection, taking a moment to remind her that she had to think of their baby before rubbing her very visible baby bump, prompting her to place her hand on top of his. He assured Y/N that he’d cover for her while she made a run for the getaway vehicle and that he’d meet her there. Daryl scanned every inch of her face to remember just in case things went south before kissing her with so much passion like it would be their last -- and with each day that passed, it seemed like it was.

Daryl blamed himself every single day for losing Y/N, for not staying with her and protecting her. In the moment he thought he was doing what was best, that his plan was her best chance at surviving, but what if he ended up getting her and their baby killed? Glenn had told him she never made it on the bus, never stepped foot in it. She wasn’t alive at the prison when he stayed behind either and he didn’t see anyone that resembled her as far as he could tell among the walkers, but that didn’t necessarily mean she was alive. Maggie confirmed his statement since she had caught up with the bus and she wasn’t among the walkers, so where was she? What happened? Was she safe? There were too many questions lingering in his head, but the one thing he knew for sure was that he was the one at fault.

“She’s not alone.” Maggie solemnly whispered. “Y/N has your child with her, always. She’s a strong woman and we both know she won’t let anything happen to that baby, not without a fight.”

Daryl nodded, fighting the sobs that wanted to burst out of him. Y/N was a stubborn woman, she was tough and wouldn’t let anyone near her and their unborn child. He had to keep believing she was out there somewhere because that was the only thing keeping him going.

“They could be out there, Daryl. Just ‘cause we haven’t found them yet, don’t mean they’re gone. Don’t lose hope.” Daryl’s head was bowed, but he bobbed it in understanding at her words. Hope was all he had.

The RV came to a halt followed by Abraham announcing that they arrived at their destination — their new home. The archer wiped his eyes with the back of his hand before grabbing his gear and hopping out the vehicle to be met with a gate. As Aaron instructed for his people to open the entrance, Glenn stepped beside Daryl.

“After we get settled here, we’ll go out and look for her, okay?” He placed his hand on Daryl’s shoulder, trying to give him a little comfort and hope because he wasn’t alone, he missed her too. The hunter caught Rick’s head turning to peer at him from the front of the group. He nodded, communicating with Daryl from afar, which led the redneck to do the same. Rick and Glenn had discussed it some time before, which was assuring for Daryl. She wasn’t forgotten and they were going to help do something about it. The three of them were going to find her.

When the gate opened, Daryl absentmindedly trekked behind with Glenn still at his side, wandering his orbs around the place, getting a feel for it. It was a nice community and it was secure like Aaron described and showed with his pictures. It was a perfect place to raise a family, a great place for Judith — a great place for his child. He shook off the thought, not wanting to break down again, especially in front of everyone. Although it was ideal for Y/N and their baby, he couldn’t quite trust it yet. It made him feel guilty to be able to stay in a place like Alexandria without Y/N who could be out there somewhere struggling to survive.

In order for the group to reside in Alexandria, they had to have a one-on-one interview with the leader, Deanna. Daryl kept his answers short and sweet, she didn’t need to know every detail of his life. After the interviews, the group was split into two houses, not wanting to stray far from each other or bunk with total strangers. Daryl slept for a couple hours, but he was mainly perched beside a grand window, keeping watch. Just because they were behind sturdy walls, didn’t mean they were completely safe — walkers weren’t the only enemy.

Daryl was casually sitting on the porch of their new home the next morning, smoking a cigarette as he messed with his crossbow. The door swung open before someone skipped down the steps, turning their figure to stare at the hunter who didn’t stop cleaning his crossbow.

“When do you not mess with that thing?”

He huffed, grabbing the cigarette from between his lips to discard before staring at Carol who formed a teasing smile that joined her raised eyebrows. “When will ya leave me alone?” Daryl grunted, stomping his boot on the cigarette to put it out.

Carol rolled her eyes as an amused Daryl focused back on his weapon, satisfied with his retort. “When you take a shower,” Carol shot back, striding away, but not without stealing a glance at the archer who shook his head. He grumbled as he watched her walk across the street but before he could go back to what he was doing, he heard a man chuckle.

Daryl peered up and saw a man with crutches, who he assumed was Eric, chatting with a woman who hugged her crossed arms close to her chest as they walked down the road with someone not far behind, approaching closer to the house. The hunter squinted his eyes and held up his hand over them to shield his orbs from the sun that shone bright over the community. His heart accelerated once he recognized a face — a face he could never forget — her face — Y/N’s face.

His task was long forgotten as he set aside his crossbow and stumbled down the steps, getting emotional at the sight of her. Daryl slowly moved towards them, seeming to forget how to work his legs. He lost the ability to talk as well because when he tried to muster up her name, it got caught in his dry throat. Luckily for him, Eric had greeted him which caught her ear. They both froze in their tracks as she made eye contact with Daryl and he could see the gears turning in her head as she tried to process who was in front of her — if he was real.

A river was flowing down her cheeks as she whispered his name, not believing he was there before racing into his arms. She tightened her arms around his neck and sobbed into the crook of it as his arms squeezed around her waist, lifting her above the ground. “I knew you’d find me,” she whispered, voice wavering.

Once they broke apart, Daryl caressed her damp cheek, boring his teary orbs into hers. “I thought you were dead.” It was his voice’s turn to shake, prompting Y/N to place her hands on the sides of his face and rest her forehead against his.

“A nuke has to drop in order to get rid of me.” He could hear the smirk she wore in her tone as he chuckled, but the joke didn’t wash away the guilt that started to flood in.

“M’sorry that I won’t there for ya. That ya were alone.”

Y/N pulled away with a smile still plastered on her face which confused him. “I wasn’t alone.” She pivoted her body to gesture to Aaron who held a newborn wrapped tight in a pink blanket, making the archer do a double take at Y/N. His child — their child. He was so engrossed in the fact that Y/N was alive that he didn’t notice that her baby bump was no longer there.

Y/N giggled, a sound that Daryl had deeply missed. “Sorry, guys, you must be a little confused.”

“I think we figured it out.” Aaron smiled as he handed the baby over to Y/N. She slowly walked up to Daryl and he asked with his eyes for permission to hold her, which prompted Y/N to laugh. Once his daughter was handed to him, Daryl’s heart was close to combusting when his daughter’s tiny hand grasped around his finger. Y/N leaned her head against her fiance’s arm, watching their first interaction in content.

“Although I was terrified, I was prepared to have her out there all by myself, but then Aaron and Eric found me holed up in a rundown house, nearly had the baby right then and there when they approached me.” They all chuckled. “I was cautious, of course, but it didn’t take much convincing. I needed to keep her safe and thought this place would do just that.” Daryl caressed the back of Y/N’s head to press a kiss to the top of her hair. He was so proud of her, she was so strong and he couldn’t believe he ever doubted that she wasn’t alive.

“She’s almost two weeks old and still doesn’t have a name. Didn’t feel right to name her without you.”

“What if I found ya two years later?”

“Still wouldn’t have a name.”

Everyone laughed at their banter before Aaron brought up how they should let their group know about Y/N and for them to meet their new member. Daryl and Y/N walked hand-in-hand with their daughter sleeping peacefully in his hold, ready to tell them the news and that there was no need for that three-man search party.

A/N: Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed it! If you’d like to added or removed from the tags don’t hesitate to send me an ask or message! Also feedback is much appreciated!!

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thesilencesystem · 4 years ago

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*syscourse ahead*

after having done some research, im deciding to retract our previous syscourse statements. im leaving the post(s) up, both because some of it is still largely true to our opinions and because deleting it feels like trying to erase that our opinion changed. opinions change. opinions should change, especially when presented with new information.

i no longer have any stance at all on the validity of non-traumagenic systems. i think that its far too early to try to claim anything concrete about the way dissociation, dissociative disorders, and multiplicity in general work. i have no opinion because i cant find an adequately compelling basis to have one, and because the multiplicity i know about is traumagenic; we have a dissociative disorder, and so other plurality is beyond my experience.

i still support there being mostly separated spaces for these two kinds of plurals. there is far more to being a traumagenic system than just the alters that non-traumagenic plurals simply cannot fully understand or relate to. i similarly think that most of the language for describing each should be kept separate (obviously excluding terms that were intended to be inclusive "plural", "multiple", etc), because system terminology is medical terminal and other plurality is not medical. there should not be any kind of a push to demedicalize systems because it is vital that traumagenic systems continue to receive access to medical care regarding their disorders. period. i am not willing to argue even slightly on the last point. if you call people "traumascum" or have anything toxic like that to say about people with trauma, you are NOT welcome near this blog.

i do think that there should be some shared spaces for plurals of any kind, but these should not by default be the only spaces people with dissociative disorders can occupy.

i will end by saying that we're still learning, and i hope, to whoever might be reading this, that you are too. these will not be our opinions forever because new information will arise and we will adjust accordingly based on that, always.

#alter: default #alter: cain #syscourse #tw: syscourse #actuallymultiple #silence viewpoints #actually multiple

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avisteliterature · 5 years ago

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A Truthful Dance | Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd x Reader

RATING: General ◇ GENRE: Fluff/ Hurt/ Comfort ◇ 631 words SUMMARY: Dimitri comforts you in the middle of dance practice. [If you enjoy my writing, consider supporting me by ordering a writing commission or donating via ko-fi!]

You huff to yourself as you take another misstep in your practiced routine. Your brows stitch themselves together, and you bring your hand up to your face so that you can muffle your frustrated scream. Of all people, why did the Professor have to choose you as the class representative? It's no secret that you enjoyed to dance, but that was only when you were dancing on your own time and by your own free will.

"I figured I might find you here." Dimitri's voice rings out in the open air as he makes his presence known, startling you.

"Your Highness," you quickly collect yourself and greet the prince with a respectful albeit awkward bow, folding your hands neatly together in front of you. "Did you need me for something?"

"I wanted to see how you were doing," he answers while taking purposeful steps towards you to lessen the distance in between. Once he's close enough, Dimitri delicately takes your right hand into his own and leans down to place a kiss on the back of your fingers.

"My love, I'm worried about your well-being," he whispers his concerns into the night, peering up at you through his lashes. "You looked to be on edge ever since the Professor chose you as the house representative for the White Heron Cup."

"I..." You turn your head to the side in an attempt to avoid the prince's gaze. You exhale a soft sigh and continue, dropping your formal speech altogether. Since Dimitri was starting to speak with you as he usually did whenever the two of you were alone, it was only fair that you do the same. "I just don't think I'm the right choice."

You try to retract your hand, but Dimitri continues to hold it firmly in his own. With a gentle tug, he pulls you forward as he takes one step back, and you have no choice but to follow his lead. He eases you into a slow and simple dance that you can fall into without any difficulty, and he responds to your previous statement with a question. "Why don't you think you're the right choice?"

"I don't deal well with being the center of attention. You know this." You allow your eyes to close, placing your trust in Dimitri to guide you along in this impromptu dance. "Moreoever, I... I'm afraid of disappointing everyone."

It's rare for you to show your emotions on your face, whether intentional or not, so the fact that Dimitri can plainly see your fear and anxiety displayed on your features means a whole lot. He tries to reassure you, "You won't disappoint any of us."

"But what if I lose or embarrass myself, or... or..." Your hands begin to tremble, and you lower your head even more. "I don't want to disappoint all of you. I want to meet your expectations."

"The only expectations we have are that you do your best and have fun," Dimitri responds. "There's no doubt some of us are cheering and hoping for your victory, but whether you win or lose, we will all still be satisfied with simply watching you perform."

"Is that... the truth?"

"It is."

"Truly?" You question him further, unable to push back the self-doubt in your heart.

Dimitri returns your question with one of his own. "Have I ever lied to you, my love?"

You press your lips together and shake your head. Dimitri has always been honest with you, never telling a single lie. If that's the case, then surely his words right now are as sincere as always. You breathe out a sigh and let your head rest against Dimitri's chest. You've always placed your trust in him, so you will do so once more and hope for the best.

#Fire Emblem #Fire Emblem Three Houses #FE3H #Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd #Dimitri (Fire Emblem)#FE Dimitri #Dimitri x Reader #Dimitri Alexandre Blaiddyd x Reader #F: Fire Emblem #C: Dimitri (Fire Emblem)#R: General #G: Fluff #G: Hurt/ Comfort #reader insert #fanfiction #avisteliterature

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