#I want HD screens of this movie so bad

[chloecherrysip]

Where was I tonight, you ask? W-Well, I'll tell you what, I definitely wasn't at the MOVIE THEATER again, that's for sure, ahahaha...ha.

[accio-victuuri]

I unfortunately saw an anti post on x which is not surprising tbh - about one of my fave og bxg fansite GlobalFever全球热丨0805x1005. i am very sensitive when so/os attack cpf fansites and accuse them of things because these jiejies work their asses off and pay real money to give us free content. so they are saying GF is from XZ’s team because they managed to obtain wardrobe fitting shots of XZ as Shiying. therefore they are an “insider” and really here for XZ and not WYB. going as far as to say that she is from XZ’s team.

this is a classic example of solo’s ignorance and usual tactic of taking something mundane and turning it into a some dark narrative. like, don’t talk about a cpf fansite, you are not even in this fandom so don’t say shit and stay on your lane.

here’s the thing. what they don’t know is she also had HD shots on set of WOF (p2) or maybe they saw it but ignored it to setup the narrative they want.

what if one day she decides to share costume fitting photos of ruolai? and then what? these could also have been obtained from a third party who sold it off. this is not new. but of course solos love the conspiracy and would love to make big name cpf personalities look bad.

yes she is an insider as you can see she has access to events like how the press would. there are also multiple photos at different events where they are looking straight into the camera like they recognize her. GF has been a fan and has supported them in more tangible ways than all of the toxic stans on x combined so sit down and shut your mouth. yibo wouldn’t even recognize or acknowledge you if he sees you at an event.

and it’s so offensive how they are claiming that GF is from xz team and in that statement is also implying that she don’t give a fuck about yibo. how about all the birthday projects? all the movie screenings she sponsored for yibo movies? not to mention the multiple public welfare projects she funded. of course they won’t say that. they want clout, so they must post something controversial about a fandom they are not even part of. pathetic. honestly. i don’t even think about hating on FLUOXETINE or Nebula85 which are WYB solo fansites. why would i even do that? 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ i can never understand how their brain works tbh.

so yeah, moral of the story is that majority of “hot takes” on places like x are bullshit. especially if it’s by someone who is not even part of the group. toxic solo accounts on there and actually any platform will rot your brain. i’m just sorry for the people who read their garbage and are tricked by them.

and people wonder why a lot of fans prefer to be cpf. this is why. we have lovely fansites and fanworks that keep us busy. we don’t get satisfaction from other people’s misery. we’re just here for xz and wyb. ♥️💚

[transitranger327]

So I actually have a Star Wars story to tell (it’s a core memory): Echo has always been my favorite clone trooper. My family, especially my brother and I, started watching The Clone Wars during season 1 and we became mega-fans (I was 9, he was 6, literally the target demo). Every Friday we’d watch the new episodes, then Saturday we’d go to star wars dot com and watch all the behind-the-scenes content. We missed the first time “Rookies” aired, but we saw the behind the scenes content for it, and caught it on reruns. We immediately knew Fives and Echo were our favorite clones, he picked Fives so I picked Echo. But we were so disappointed when they weren’t in the rest of Season 1 or 2. But we were absolutely stoked for the series 3 premiere when we heard Fives and Echo were in it. And then they were gonna be ARC troopers? We were losing our minds. Our favorite boys, ARC troopers‽ Unfortunately for me, the Citadel arc happened next. Don’t get me wrong, we loved seeing the Dominos in the phase 1.5 armor. But for some reason we missed the end of episode 2 of the arc (where Echo dies), and when the bts content said Echo died I was inconsolable. I refused to ever watch the ending of that episode for YEARS. When Fives kept showing up in seasons 4 and 5 (Umbara arc is like my favorite SW movie), I was always jealous that my brother’s fave was still around and mine wasn’t. Then TCW was cancelled and I thought that was the end of it.

About a year later, I heard they made half of a Season 6 but it was only on Netflix. It took me a while to figure out how to watch it (on the high seas, as my family didn’t have Netflix), but I was in high school now. The first arc having Fives discover order 66 and coming this close to exposing it? I’d been thinking about that kind of story for forever (my favorite Star Wars AUs are where order 66 didn’t happen or was disobeyed). I was so excited to tell my brother…until I saw s7e4 and Fives died. My brother was just as sad/mad as I was when Echo died. But I finished Season 6 and thought that was the end…until I went onto star wars dot com and saw that there were unfinished animations for some episodes called “the Bad Batch”. And then…my world became whole. ECHO WAS ALIVE!!!!! Sure it was janky af, felt dubiously canon, he had been thru hell and was now a cyborg, but MY BABY BOY! My brother was, of course, just as jealous that my clone was alive and his wasn’t.

Then 4 years later. TCW Season 7 was announced. The Bad Batch arc would be in glorious HD. Echo was firmly alive and hanging out with the Bad Batch. And he got me thru lockdown, as TCW was one of my comfort shows I’d watch and s7 was airing in April/May 2020. And the Bad Batch were gonna get their own show? Hell fucking yeah.

Here we are, 16 years after Echo first graced my small TV screen, and he’s still my fave. I see a lot of myself in him. How by-the-book he used to be and isn’t anymore, how his life fundamentally changed and now’s not exactly a man (I figured out my sexuality, gender, and disabilities in 2019 right before TCW s7 remastered Echo’s return). I would almost certainly die inside again if he dies in the TBB finale. Anyway I’ve never shared anything this personal about Star Wars with anyone and TBB tumblr definitely seems like the kind of people who want to hear this.

[ayushipop]

nct nation review? recap? thoughts

ik its been like a week i just saw someone else's post recapping their experience and wanted to add mine ^^

as compared to ytc in busan screening, a LOT quieter?? i did the math and realized 7 members vs 20 members = energy and attention split between a lot more people i guess. witnessing solo/unit stanning irl was kinda crazy LMAO

like absolute silence for LIMITLESS????? HELLOOO???? i get it was the first song but like... this is the 3rd concert screening ive been to this yr maybe people were just shy about cheering ): <- what i choose to believe as an ilichil enjoyer

it was kinda hilarious pinpointing where certain people were sitting based on how loud they got for their ults - there was a swathe of weishennies in front of us including a yangyang bias who sounded like she was actually on death's door every time he came up on screen, a doyoung bias to our right, and ofc me and my sister hooting and hollering every time mark or johnny breathed

i have a newfound appreciation for kangaroo ALL I WANT ALL I WANT WEEOOWEEOO >O<

wayv's stages were sooo good

pado lifechanging.

SILENCE FOR SHALALALA ?? STFU I HATE EVERYONE U ARE ALL ALLERGIC TO FUN ! WE GOT THE BOUNCEEEEE WAOWAOWAOWAOW

i wish theyd kept perfume sooo sosososo bad ))): i was so sad finding out it wouldnt be in the movie

ten just looked so. sooo. sooooooo. if i had a nickel for evry time his WAIST was up on screen in 4k ultra hd 4dx screenx max.......

everyone woke UP for puku puku pow pow and 2 baddies like OHHH NOW WE WANNA NOTICE ILICHIL HUH OKAYYY

THE FUCK ASS VCRSSSS no one gaf about them i heard someone audibly go "womp womp" during the second/third one which was so reall

BROKEN MELODIESSSS i was soo happy seeing it on the big screen. mark's "wings" choreo with all the backup dancers aaa mera angel :')

discovered i had somee muscle memory for the universe choreo from like 2yrs ago ur my worlddd my universeee

wish theyd put all of beautiful and not had the cuts to the audience interviews or w/e

speaking of why were there SOOOO MANY DRONE SHOTS GOOD GOD i did NOT need to see the audience this much

BAGGY ! JEAAAANS ^O^

mark just looked soooo soossosoo crazy good like ik im biased but i was so surprised at how quiet the theater was for him like he looked SOOO GOOD HELLO

they didnt put taeil in the credits )): they did include the og titles of the songs including 2 bitches 1 porsche we were so mad we didnt get a pic of it

i had higher hopes for how hype everyone would be based on the other screenings ive been to but overall a really fun time ^^ i didnt let that stop me from well ackshuallying my encyclopedic knowledge of 127 adlibs to the entire theater

4/5 stars just based on the fact that they cut sooo many songs AND kept the stupid vcrs but loved the rest <3

[straightfacedstrangeness]

Broly movie semi-liveblog because of reasons

I only ever watched the original Broly movie once or twice cus of the suuuper long fight scene ending (and I think it came out, or we borrowed it from Blockbuster, around the time I was losing interest in DBZ)…which is great cus watching it now after the reboot movie has me going in almost totally fresh

Krillin’s puppy song (and how he just pauses then keeps singing after the ship lands X’D so you just hear him wailing in the background during Paragus’ big speech)

Paragus: I’m starting a new planet and I want you to be king Vegeta: :/ Paragus: Uhh…there’s also this big strong bad guy and only YOU can stop him! Vegeta: :/ Trunks: Dad, don’t go with him Vegeta: DON’T TELL ME WHAT TO DO! *goes out of spite*

Vegeta gets to the planet, gets his ear talked off by Paragus, sees Paragus’ whole army, doesn’t react to anything, but takes one look at the big buff shirtless dude covered in jewelry and decides “I want to be alone with that guy for a while” (Trunks: “DAD NO” Vegeta: “DON’T KINKSHAME ME”)

Son “cat trying to convince you it didn’t just eat five minutes ago” Goku

“Golly, who could the Legendary Super Saiyan be?” *shows a whole flashback of Broly being the Legendary Super Saiyan and names the movie “Broly: The Legendary Super Saiyan”*

Still gets me that the fan-favorite His Power Is Maximum villain’s weakness is that he flips out at the sight of the guy who cried in the crib next to him when they were babies

I’d still fight Master Roshi if I could risk getting within ten feet of him but thanks man for deflating the tension every time it gets serious here. And more importantly, giving my boy Oolong an actual reason to be here (designated driver). Which kinky freak on staff came up with that sequence of the two of them in bed together though?? XD

Realizing I haven’t seen the old DBZ movies since before my dad got his giant TV, and watching this thing in HD on a huge screen with surround sound blasting the doofy 2000s grunge rock songs shoehorned into the soundtrack just feels so wrong X’D

With Paragus’ whole thing being about trapping Vegeta on this planet so a comet can smush him, how much funnier would it have been if Goku had just shown up and immediately IT’d everyone back to Earth

This version of Broly is SO annoying, OMFG. Hulked-out glowing guy cackling about how he was gonna kill a child, “What do you expect from a true freak?! Wahaha~” Like 100% one of those guys who saw The Dark Knight and went “the Joker’s so dark and edgy, I wanna be just like him” Shut up already

Actually Broly’s fixation on hurting Gohan to upset Goku plus the Trunks-Vegeta dynamic could’ve made for an interesting subplot about father-son relationships, but nope I guess. Gohan and Trunks aren’t even in the reboot movie where they really dig into Paragus’ abuse of Broly (just a brief scene of Goten and Trunks calling Bulma for two seconds to tell her plot stuff)

Piccolo dragging Vegeta to the battle by his hair

I also actually love sad scared Vegeta because it makes him so much more interesting. Goku’s an excitable child whose relationship with martial arts is basically like a good work ethic, so he hears about someone stronger than him and gets all excited cus he wants to test his strength by fighting them. Vegeta’s an arrogant jerk generally used to getting his own way, so he hears about someone stronger than him and his first instinct is to go “pff, no way,” then when it’s clear the person IS much stronger he just shuts down. Probably a remnant of being terrorized and probably physically beaten by Frieza or his minions as a kid, cus you KNOW he wasn’t gonna just start taking orders from some guy who isn’t even his king dad

The classic DBZ squeaky foot noise when Broly walks...bless

“I’m the prince of all Saiyans, even you, Broly” “Then please try your best to make me kneel before you” Get a ROOM

“Did he really think I would die just because this planet is about to explode?”

*gives you my power, but in a tsundere way*

I’d been wanting to watch the first bunch of movies for a while since they use clips from em in the Ocean dub opening, but wound up with the 2nd movie set cus I found a good deal and the Broly reboot made me curious to revisit the original…now I’m torn between going on to Return Of Cooler & Super Android 13 my dumb funny beloveds, or going back to the 1st movie set and working my way up to truly Earn them XD

[doberbutts]

Tolkien (books) have canonical trans characters if you're deep enough in to know some trivia about in-universe languages (which isn't great representation to have confirmation of it buried a couple layers deep, but it's about as much as you could expect from the 1930/40s).

Whereas the movies completely ignores anything about this so there's no representation in the movies at all.

And Alexander Seddig wanted to be an elf in the movies and they literally told him they didn't want any actors of colour to be elves, so...yeah i'm not sure why your friend would think the movies were somehow more diverse.

(I haven't seen the hobbit movies, it's possible they're slightly better. but Martin Freeman did make jokes about how it didn't matter he was tiny and ugly, he'd just roofie his female costars and date-rape them if they turned him down).

I'd be interested to know what characters you're calling canonically trans- there are plenty of characters who are implied to be some flavor of LGBT if you use certain contextual readings but none stated outright, which is what I'm using as "canonical" since JRRT and his son are no longer alive to tell us.

My [former] friend did not believe the movies were much better in that regard, in fact somehow they were worse with racial representation as every actor of color was part of a Bad Guys Only race or used in a blink-and-you'll-miss-it background shot (there's a Maori ranger in a scene in Gondor, for instance, if you look over Faramir's shoulder to see him- he's on screen for roughly 2.5 seconds and only visible in HD). The Hobbit was better in regards to Laketown having some amount of racial variety (which fanboys screeched about btw) but all of the talking characters were, once again, white. Of course the Hobbit also gave us multiple transmisogynistic jokes, multiple fat jokes, multiple ableist jokes, starred human shitstains in large speaking roles, and broke verbal agreement with an actress who signed on with the contingency that she WOULDN'T be reduced to a stupid invented romance, so that [former] friend didn't really love those movies either.

Man. You've just reminded me WHY I changed my main blog's url once I learned about what type of person Cumberbatch really is.

[adultswim2021]

Tim & Eric Nite Live #7: “Tim and Eric HD” | January 29, 2008 | S01E07

A just okay Tim and Eric Nite Live. I love it on paper, but this one doesn’t really have the huge laughs previous episodes did. During, I think the Valentines watch-along, I remember Tim & Eric describing what it was like to make this show by saying that they’d spend all day shooting stuff for Awesome Show and then they’d “go downstairs” to do this show, live. Those episodes might have actually benefited from the fact that they were a little run down. It probably helped them harness the cantankerousness edge that I think yields so many wonderful gags.

None of what I said might be accurate. In fact: there are some insanely funny episodes to come, and I guess I could chalk this one up to more of an anomaly than anything else. For all I know they were busy busting their humps making season three of Awesome Show and were under the same exact conditions. This one is fine, and perfectly amusing; it just feels like it doesn’t come together in a way that produces the sublime moments that make this show incredible. 

This is the episode where Tim and Eric have a little bit of fun with HD technology. They also announce that Steven Spielberg, the world famous director of Star Wars and Jaws 1-4, is here to direct tonight’s show. Also on hand is Richard Dunn, who is overseeing the technical aspects of the show. Tim and Eric ask him pointed questions about the SD to HD conversion we’re about to experience live on the show, I think expecting Dunn to fumble through it. He delivers solidly concise but clearly nonsensical answers. Dunn was on his toes for this one, and his answers are funny, but I feel like Tim and Eric were trying to wring more out of him than they got. 

While Tim and Eric ask Spielberg about Jaws 5, they do their shtick where they mildly berate him for giving bad answers and ask him to tell better stories. This interaction sometimes can yield really amusing results, but this time it just feels like a repeat. During this interview segment an on-screen but appears for FRUMONDUH SODA, which was a sketch from Leon and Andy, another duo that Bob Odenkirk took a liking to. They had a much smaller presence than Tim and Eric, and not a lot of their material is easy to access these days. We wish Leon well. Andy not so much. If anyone knows Andy’s whereabouts please contact the FBI immediately.

The actual HD segment of the show is the funniest bit of the episode. For some reason it requires a 30 second countdown that needs to be performed flawlessly between two men, so who better to not screw that up than James Quall and David Liebe Hart. Of course DLH, the consummate bozo he is, fucks up big time TWICE. I’m sure Tim and Eric were counting on this, and it’s nice that it paid off. The HD tech doesn’t work correctly, resulting in the image to be incredibly squished. DLH performs his song while in this squished state, a song about how glorious it is to be in HD. Great!

The back half is solid on this one, but I do think that the stuff leading up to the actual HD bit is not their best. This could be the weakest Nite Live episode, and it still ain’t bad at all.

EPHEMERA CORNER

Aqua Teen Hunger Force: Volume 5 DVD (January 29, 2008)

Volume Five of Aqua Teen Hunger Force, baby! This has all the episodes from the 2005-2006 season, the one I defiantly call season five even though everyone else calls it season four. Look, I know it’s annoying, but I don’t want to go back and edit all my posts. I’m just going to have to keep being wrong about it.

This one is pretty great as a companion to the Aqua Teen Hunger Force Movie DVD; a LOT of the extras are actually stuff relating to the movie. They also present the 11-minute versions of the Deleted Scenes episode rather than the 30-minute version (that’s on the Movie DVD). There’s also the “Chambraigne” episode of Space Ghost on there, which relates to Carl Wash. My copy of this DVD famously went bad, causing one episode to no longer be playable. Buyer beware.

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#5

the world is small (but my heart is large)

summary:

Harri James Potter's world is small.

It focuses on her mum, her tiny council flat, her crap school and the library where she hides away.

She does not want a Hogwarts letter.

She does not want a soulmate.

(Too bad she gets that and more.)

Chapter 2 |

CHAPTER 1: my mum cries and my dad stays dead

CHAPTER SUMMARY: Harri Potter's only family is her mum (but she does hate her dead dad a little bit. Just a little bit though.)

The best way to win at marbles, Harri thinks, readying her finger to flick that glass orb of swirling grey and green and blue, is to guess the next move, wherever it may hit.  

The marble chinks against a yellow and green one, bounding off it and rolling under Harri’s door and though the hallway into the small living room where her mum and Aunt Petunia are. She wonders if she should go and get it, because Aunt Petunia strictly told her, with a shrewd glance and pinched lips, to not disturb her and mum. 

Still, small, young, naive Harri James Potter reassures herself, it can’t be that bad if I just get a marble, can it?

Harri opens her door quietly, green orbs blinking like flickering street lights as she surveys the hallway. 

There’s no one there. 

She breathes a sigh of relief. 

She tiptoes against the carpeted floor, spotting her marble just past the gap of the door that opens to the living room. There’s really no point tiptoeing at all, Harri muses, her nest of curls bobbing by her shoulders as she tiptoes against the wall, but it makes her feel like she’s in a spy movie. 

Like James Bond, she thinks excitedly, or maybe like The Doctor, trying to solve an alien mystery riddled with traps. 

Her bare feet curl in the carpet as she peeps behind the door, noting that her marble is there, just beside the plant pot and box TV. 

Her and mum’s TV isn’t like Dudley and Aunt Petunia’s; they’ve got the latest flat screen TV with premium HD definition thanks to Uncle Vernon, and Harri knows this because of all the bragging she had to endure from pig-like Dudley when she went to their house and had to share the TV with Dudley, watching his stupid cartoons like The Clangers and He-Man.

He also brags about his house, all the time! Honestly, it’s not like his mortgaged house in Surrey, with its polished wood and pristine walls and always-clean kitchen, is better than her and mum’s tiny flat with its box TV and small hallway and two small bedrooms in London. So what if he’s got the latest magician set and she has to satisfy herself with her swirling, whirling marbles? It’s not like she cares. 

At. All. 

(Nuh-uh.)

Still, it'd be nice to have a magician set even if all it did was stay in her room as a showpiece. Harri focuses intently, wondering if she can simply slip her fingers through the gap and retrieve it like that. She’s about to test it out when she can hear Aunt Petunia raise her voice.

“...I can’t keep doing this, Lily!” 

“‘Tuney – “

“No!” Aunt Petunia shrills, and it's almost as if she’s about to blow a fuse. “You say you’ll pay back the money, that you’ll finally get a good, reputable, well-paying job! How much longer, Lily? How much?” 

Her mum is quiet for a moment, her harsh breathing evident.

Suddenly, Harri is undeniably scared.

Her mum’s never been like this before. 

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#4

Bio GCSE exam, today.

Well.

13 notes - Posted May 17, 2022

#3

so i've started watching heartstopper and...FUCK BEN! But, also Nick and Charie are really frickin' cute <3

ASDFGHJK - but what really kills me is that Charlie constantly reassure Nick that he'll keep it a secret, or he apologises for being clingy and annoying, or he says that Isaac won't tell - and, it really breaks my heart.

Cause like, at this point, it seems like he's afraid even one slip up and Nick will be like 'no thanks, I'm done.' and I wonder how many of these accusations of being clingy that Ben threw his way??

Just some thoughts.

14 notes - Posted June 4, 2022

#2

I've cried like...four, five, six times in the past few days.

Wow.

16 notes - Posted May 12, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

home is where the hearts are (and my hearts are a universe away)

summary:

No one truly knows home until they lose it.

The Doctor has never truly known home until he lost his.

And as he continues on, living day after day, with his new companion Martha Jones by his side, he is forced to confront the home he has lost time and time again.

That home?

Not Gallifrey, with her flaming skies and silver-touched trees, but instead a woman.

A woman called Rose.

OR: 10K words-worth of the Doctor being and angsty mess (as usual) with Martha along for the ride.

home is where the hearts are (and my hearts are a universe away)

“Someone asked me what home was and all I could think of were the stars on the tip of your tongue, the flowers sprouting from your mouth, the roots entwined in the gaps between your fingers, the ocean echoing inside your ribcage.” – E.E. Cummings

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Martha Jones is a singularly brilliant woman. She is gutsy and earnest and has potential in spades – just like any good human, any good companion should have; after all, why else would the Doctor choose them above the rest?

But Martha Jones is also simply Martha. She’s brilliantly astute and outstandingly capable and simply a Doctor (well, in training) – she’s unparalleled in her need to look past the symptoms, unparalleled in her knowledge that she needs to find the source if she is to fix, or at least stop and relieve, the pain and the wasting away of her patient.

The Doctor is no patient of hers. He's spectacularly dazzling and informative in his knowledge of the unknown and yet frustratingly elusive regarding the information of himself. Martha can count what she knows about him on one hand whilst she walks along, shivering, in the rundown slums of New New (and many more New’s) New York:

One, he’s alien. Brilliantly, stupidly alien — he’s not got a clue about her interest and it stings just a bit (truthfully, it’s more than a bit. But, she’s Martha – Doctor-in-training-Martha Jones – and she won’t revolve around one man – one alien – she won't! – and yet, as she watches him run his hands through his hair, she can't help herself. )

Two, Martha Jones knows that there is no Doctor without the TARDIS, and that there is no TARDIS without the Doctor; it's a fact, a solid, undeniable, unequivocal fact. She knows that her presence as a guest, as simply someone to be carted off and dropped at the Doctor's fancy, will not change that fact of the Universe –  so, question this, why does the missing presence of Rose change it?

Rose, who was probably brilliant but left the Doctor all the same, why does she change the game? Why does Rose (my friend Rose would know what to do –) leave such a longing, yearning, heartbreaking look on his face and pleading in his voice?

(Why does it leave a hole in his heart?)

And despite it, despite all that she doesn’t know about The Doctor, she (brilliant, brimming - with - potential Martha Jones) is determined to find out.

“What did he mean, the Face of Boe? When he said you’re not alone?” Martha asks, red leather clinging to her frame as she stands million of years ahead of her time, under a different sky and with a different dirt underneath her feet.

The Doctor turns, a musing and honest smile on his face as he throws away a “I don’t know.” It shouldn’t surprise her, but it does – to know that he doesn’t know what she might;

She swallows, stepping forward, a reassurance (a question) on the tip of her tongue, “You’ve got me. Is that what he meant?”

(“There’s me.” she had said, and back then, he believed her – how could he not? She had captured his hearts.)

She watches as the Doctor’s whimsical smile disappears, a burdened, hard, look entering his eyes; it doesn’t take much to know that she’s just reminded him of Rose.

The smile disappears from her face before he’s even said anything.

“I don’t think so.”

He looks down at his shoes, battered and beaten.

He looks up, open-eyed and trembling.

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Dead Rising: Final Mix (Paradise Twist) has been released

I spent 36 days straight working on this massive texture pack. I got alot, and I mean, alot, to say. This has been by far my biggest project and undertaking. Nothing but The J Show holds the same weight of work. It's been a dream of mine since childhood to make any kind of mod for the game.

At 1,663 files, 1.05gb uncompressed and 375mb compressed, this is, definitively, the Biggest Mod for Dead Rising 1, at least in terms of Texture modifications.

It is also the Biggest Dead Rising Texture Pack for ALL Dead Rising games. (excluding HD packs)

The concept is based on Kingdom Hearts: Final Mix's enemy texture replacements.

Except the whole game, every item, weapon, survivor, stores and the whole mall, psychopath, zombie, UI element, loading screen, god you name it, I've touched it by now with few exceptions.

I truly want this to be a second mall, something people can throw on and forget about. Not an objective improvement to the game, but simply a texture pack. I don't want there to be any dated memes or references. Again, some exceptions.

The pack is currently 50% done, including reworking old textures I did when I first started a month ago. However, from my calculations, it is roughly 40% of the entire game's (BM) textures. BM just means generic texture, they got LM and MM and NM, but you don't need to touch those for the most part nor would practically be able to.

If I were to simplify that, I'd like it to be something streamers can leave on and forget about. Like, so safe and non-memey/driving focus away, no weird politics or bad taste humor. Essentially, a Dead Rising 1 Alternate universe. That's it.

My ground rules are the following:

No memes, if so they have to be diegetic and even then they're on the chopping block immediately if I find something more genuine/in-universe.

Everything changed has to be before 2006, as in, no adverts, no movies, no nothing that's not before 2006. With few exceptions and they're on the chopping block.

If I make references to other creators, I can't just slap their logo in there. For example, I made a poster for Ecdycis to replace another poster that was very simple. I don't think it actually shows up in game, frustratingly, but you would not even notice unless you focused on it. It's also diegetic in that it's advertising in-universe, following the same visuals as the original that it overtook. Just really, make sure, if worst case scenario you do notice it, you no longer do later, sorta thing.

Additional Notes

As much as I tried to, I could not change all posters/advertisements in time. For one thing, finding advertisements is genuinely difficult, especially one's that fit.

So in that instance, I had to make them myself. For the most part, I could get some elements from google, but setting everything up and making it look good is a whole other matter. You can have the ingredients easily accessible, doesn't mean you'll make something good both to you and in-universe. It's all subject to change.

I had a trailer planned but Adobe, fucking, Adobe, their shit ass editing program can't handle the most simple tasks, it had to be cancelled, I'd spend another week editing textures before making any edit in Adobe Premiere. Genuinely? I thought I lost my passion making videos, but no, Adobe just sucks the fucking bursting creative soul of energy from you every god damn second like a mosquito. Fuck Adobe, genuinely? Do not use their products, don't even pirate them, get Davinci, just get it.

I set a deadline for myself, and I had 3 weeks from setting it to now. To be fair, It'd be wrong to call it a 36 day project, it's closer to 35. I wanted this to be specifically 2 weeks from release, and I wanted a trailer to hype it up. It was a good trailer guys, I just can't be fucked to work with child's toys like Adobe's products anymore. It's kind've embarrassing? Anyways, that was a mistake. Because I got so burnt the fuck out man. I don't even count that day anymore because nothing was "done" but making the forum post.

I straight up, woke up, worked on the pack until I straight up, physically could not keep myself up anymore. for 36 days straight. Why? This was my escape from some medical issues. The pack isn't the problem obviously, but I could not make it to the appointment for it, because I genuinely could not handle it in my state. On the ride there just kinda...stopped. Like, the buzzing of the past month only just occured to me then and there. I was not just too tired, my chest was pounding, feeling open and constricted at the same time at random. I was trying to quit vaping, went long periods of time being unable to eat anything, just drinking Ensure-

Basically, this was my escape and you best bet there was some genuine efforts put in by a deeply psychologically troubled but exceptionally driven little loser. I hope you enjoy what I've gotten done so far.

[iqsitespeed]

Quantum of solace pc review

Again, none of it is bad, but the mechanics just aren't compelling. There's the balancing act where players need to keep a wavering dot in the center of the screen with the left analog stick, there's a hacking mini-game where you'll need to match directional button presses in a kind of Simon Says variant, and then there are the quicktime melee events which get stale after a few uses. Every other mechanic just falls a little bit short. You can tell that the developers really wanted to make this game different than COD4, but that doesn't stop the roots of Infinity Ward's from being the silver lining in the package. They're all a little predictable – there's the requisite speeding train and museum levels – but at least you're not running down the same hallways over and over. Also trying to keep the action fresh are the levels which stay varied throughout. When the game tries it does do a good job of delivering intensity and flare but those moments are spaced a bit too far apart. Luckily there are moments when things aren't so mundane. That's fine if things are bright and flashy with lots of blood and guts, but when you're fighting a bunch of henchmen things can feel a little tired. Instead there are too many situations relegated to standard stop and pop gameplay.

That means that the free-flowing way of dispatching enemies from several different angles as was available in COD4 is no longer available. Another problem with the cover system is that the levels are built around the mechanic. It wasn't a massive annoyance, but the few deaths that I was able to chalk up to the faulty cover were a nuisance. Only to find out that I was perfectly aligned and it was the cover system screwing me up. There were times when I felt like I should be able to crouch behind something in front of me and I couldn't. The cover system is better than some (Kane & Lynch) but not as functional as others. It works similarly to what we've seen from the likes of Gears of War and others.Ĭlick+above+to+watch+the+Video+Review+for+Quantum+of+Solace+(HD+Available).īasically any surface can be stuck to by pressing A and you can even dash into a piece of cover by holding the button. Treyarch, figuring that they had a star that most would want to look at, decided to implement a cover system into the standard first-person shooter gameplay of QoS. The biggest deviation from the COD4 gameplay formula is actually one of the few moments when you'll be removed from Daniel Craig's point of view. As you'd expect, Quantum of Solace is played almost entirely from a first-person perspective. They're not bad additions, they just don't meld or work especially well with the rest of the game and therefore come off feeling very forced and artificial. It's just a bummer that roughly everything that was added in an effort to keep the game feeling fresh isn't done all that well. It takes the Call of Duty 4 engine and wraps it around the James Bond universe with a few new trimmings to try and keep the action feeling as fresh as possible. Of course, with every movie comes a game of the same name and Quantum of Solace is no different. Put a beautiful beau in a hot sports car, toss in a gorgeous babe for him to boink and then prop up a bunch of would-be henchman to stand in between our hero and his goal and you have the recipe for just about every Bond film in history.

[nael-opale]

We were so focused on Bruno's adorable awkward smile, we forgot to mention the rest of them...

Give some appreciation to my man Agustín : the guy is covered in bee stings, but he just wants to participate in the group hug !

Can we talk about how he towers over Bruno and decided to just...rest his head on his like that ?

[al-hekima-madara-blog]

The Madara's voices holy war

A bloody war started on Youtube and Tiktok comments when a significant group of people states imperiously that Madara english dub was superior to Madara japanese sub.😀🔪

But first I have to confess : I am a purist.

Raised by purists, baptised in purist water, having received purist sacrements. From childhood, I’ve always faithfully watch anime in japanese with subtitles. I come from the darkest age of internet where netflix in HD didn't exist. You have to find out the next season of Naruto in obscure russian streaming platform or download it on megaupload. The translation was benevolently made by fan but the standard of subtitle was quite excentric : sometimes four lignes of subtitles were covering half of the screen, and those subtitles were fluorescent pink or yellowish depending of the fansub's mood, the zealous fan translator takes the liberty to insert japanese cultural explanations, and othertime he just admits that he doesn't understand the sentence and you felt lost in translation with a blank in the middle of a conversation, hoping it was not essential for the plot. When you were really desperate you add yourself subtitles files from a different website to your video. If you know, you know...

Years after years this tortuous training made the best of us to awaking a very special aptitude : the Subigan. As soon as you come into contact with a standard and smooth official translation you are able to read and watch a movie in a very fluid and efficient manner. And it's not limited to japanese but all languages to your mothertongue. K-drama ? Hollywood ? Bollywood ? Nollywood ? All at your reach in original version. A powerful dojustu indeed, possessed only by a tiny elite among the purists. An other day I will talk to you about the Eternal Subigan who aloud you to read or listen directly in japanese with no translation, but story for an other time...

I never really question my skills into I came into contact with my nephews and nieces. Big dilemna. I wanted to convert them to Naruto but there was no way in Earth I can convince them to watch in original version because : they don't need to ! Netflix & co make it effortless to switch in dub version so why the hell would they go through a tiring eyes exercises for the sake of japanese intonation ? They will never enjoy the dattebayo signature...and they don't care ! With new technology, the purist chapel is in crisis.

***

Back to English Madara vs Japanese Madara. I took the time to listen to his most famous quotations in english ( my mothertongue is french and so far the french one was awful) and to my utter surprise... it was not bad at all ! It just gave him a different flavour than the japanese one. And I understand why people absolutly love the dub one. The english voice is similar to a classic american villain : deep, icy as steel and unmoved. It resonated with english-speaking culture on depicting badass villains and I find it perfectly fitting during the Great War when Madara appeared for the first time in Edo Tensei or as well when little Obito met him in the cave. He really embodied the cold hearted legendary ninja than everybody fears. It represents him as himself like to be seen by others : far distant, superior to all, almost unhuman.

Nevertheless the japanese version wins my heart by its complexity. Instead of a dark baritone, Madara here has a warm but powerful tenor voice, which offers us more nuances in conveying his emotion. Arrogant and playfully sarcastic during the Great War, cold and so bitter about life in the cave with Obito. Extremely passionate to the point of wildness when sparring with both Hashirama or Night Guy. And yes surprisingly so soft, so vulnerable when he talks with Hashirama above the cliff just after they made Konoha. I don't have yet the Eternal Subigan (and by this I mean I'm not fluent in japanese) but based on what I understood it looks as well like Madara comparing to other Founders seems to enjoy listening to himself talking in an elegant manner and the japanese version, in my opinion, show well his subtle snobbish tone.

To conclude I'm still a purist, but I don't refuse different interpretation because it participates in enriching the original masterpiece.

[obiwan]

How do you make your gifs look so good and hq?? Any tips and tricks please 🙏🏼 ive been trying to make gifs for the longest time now (literal years) but i just cant do it im struggling so bad the ones i do look so shit lmaosjdj i also cant figure out how to do the right movement speed of them either 😭

Hellooo, i’m sorry the “i’m struggling so bad” took me out 😭 I’m sure it’s nothing you can’t fix. I’ll be honest, most of the time it’s about the quality of the video you’re giffing. Like that’s what makes a good gif. The quality of your video is your starting point and it determines about 80% of what your final gif will look like. I don’t exactly know what you’re doing, so I’m just going to link a couple things below: 

I know you said you’re making gifs already but here are two very good tutorials: 1 & 2 

Now there is also the ‘import video frames into layers’ option which looks like this: 

I do not recommend this method because 1, the video needs to be in mov or .mp4, which is not usually not how you get hd videos (you can convert but who wants to deal with this and secondly there is always loss of quality with this method. It's quicker but at what cost. (I'll leave a note below if you're insistent on using this/youtube videos) This gif I made was made with this method, which doesn't look too bad but it's from a screen recording of 660mb for like 40 seconds (meaning it's gigantic, which makes it easier to sharpen and make it look good). If I could download a good version l'd never do this. But if you’re insistent on using this method, make sure to not check limit to every two frames, because then it will skip frames and make your gif look very choppy. 

I always use at least 1080p videos (the bigger the size, the better). If you're doing music videos and using youtube videos I'm sorry they almost always suck in quality and they will never look super HD, unless you have a good quality download from somewhere else. (If it's really concerts/music videos you want though, talk to me off anon and I can give you another source that sucks a bit less.) I also don't always make high quality gifs when I have to gif trailers that are only on youtube. As you can see the last gif in this set (which is from the youtube trailer) is so fucking bad sksikdfdfh. This is from a trailer. This is from a good 1080p movie and these two are a 2160p one. Not a huge difference with the 1080p and 2160p, but you can still tell. The youtube trailer one I won't even comment.

Again idk what you're giffing but most of the time when people say their gifs don't look high quality or crisp or something, I'll look and then they'll be giffing tiktok videos or a bad stream or something 😭 like that will just never look HD as 4k marvel movie someone is giffing. You need high definition videos, there is no way around that, no tips no tricks. OK moving on.

The sharpening might be a bit tricky because I think every gif maker does their own thing - this also depends on the quality of the video. Always use smart sharpen. If it's a good quality video, these are good settings, if it's not, I'd skip the second one. The better quality you have, the more you can sharpen - but I also wouldn't sharpen more than these settings, maybe if it's a 4k video (depending on the colours, the gif size etc) I could do 500 and 0.4, but nothing more than that because if you sharpen too much your gif starts looking cris-crossy. 

The speed is almost always 0.05, (unless in extremely rare cases where the video you’re downloading has a different frame per second rate, but this is very rare.) unless you are skipping frames, which, please don’t because then the gif looks so choppy 😭 A lot of people don’t like this, and with the 10mb limit I think it’s quite okay to not skip any frames. 

The colouring, I can’t really say a lot about because this also really depends on what you’re giffing and which scene, etc. Everyone has their preferences obviously, but I always go with less is more (since I don’t like overly coloured gifs myself, but again, personal preference!) Some people use base psds, they don’t really work for me so I don’t have them, but if you search around (look for gif tutorial on tumblr) you’ll find some. This is a good overall resource blog.

Anddd that’s it? Oh - if you want to do youtube videos, I’d say get 4k downloader  and keep these as your maximum sharpening settings: 

no matter what the quality is. Youtube just compresses stuff a lot. If you want to gif trailers, check apple trailers, they usually have higher quality trailers, but it will drop a bit later (you do not need itunes, just google apple trailers and it’ll be there). I hope this helps, I really am not great at explaining stuff, so please feel free to ask anything specific & happy gif making lol. 

[shorkbrian]

Okay, soo can you write a pseudoincest one for Midoriya? I feel like he’ll be shy at first & the reader will be the one to approach him (in a non sexual way of course) but then one day he’ll just break & pin her against a wall. :> hehe

Okay okei ok lissen listen litsen

Midoriya and his sister are picture-perfect step-siblings. From the moment they met each other, the two have gotten along great, perfectly at ease with each other. 

Warnings! - NSFW, cunnilingus, dub-con. Pseudo-incest. 

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It’s easy to relax around the green-haired man, with how smiley and soft and completely non-threatening he is. You’ve met plenty of men that are the complete opposite; men that make your skin crawl when they look at you. But your stepbrother isn’t like that - you’re pretty sure he doesn’t even know what a girl is, considering he’s never even shown interest in one. 

You like hanging out with him. Going with him to get coffee every Saturday morning (his treat), plopping down in the bean-bag chairs in his room and completely wrecking each other in Mario Kart, even doing mundane things like laundry or homework is always more fun with Izuku around. it doesn’t hurt that the man is a little too kind for his own good, always offering to do your laundry for you, asking if you need help on any of your homework. He’s always happy to drop whatever he’s doing and come help if you get frustrated with a problem. 

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The two of you were watching a movie, parents gone out on date-night. Both of your gazes were zeroed in on the screen, you clutching at Izuku’s sleeve at every jumpscare, your brother leaning forward and mumbling about cgi and the mechanics of the fake monster suits. 

A sex scene came out of no where, gross. This always happens with semi-decent movies, and it was so awkward. Thankfully, it was just you and Midoriya in the room (if your parents were here, both of you would be red and embarrassed and suddenly interested in the thread count of the couch cover) and it wasn’t that long of a scene. You were still shy though, turning away from the screen to fiddle with your sleeve, look at the texture of the ceiling, pick at your nails.

A load screech drew your attention back, thinking that the movie had returned to the monsters and the chasing and the thrill. You were wrong. In full HD, there was a semi-nude woman, chest tastefully covered by her ripped shirt, a man kneeling in front of her. The man was moving his face against her, the shots being vague but not needing much brainpower to figure out what was happening. You frowned.

“What is he doing? That’s so gross.”

You felt Izuku shift beside you, the man looking down at you. It’d be weird if you looked at him now, saw your flushed, embarrassed face. Why was the man on the screen putting his face down there?

“(Y/N)...... do you..... do you not know?”

He was just as shy as you, stuttering over his words. Know what? Sure, you weren’t exactly experienced in the realm of physical pleasure, but you thought you knew the basics.

At your confused silence, you saw Izuku drag a trembling hand over his face.

“It’s uh... well, you see... when a man and woman love each other very much-”

“Seriously  ‘Zuku?”

You turned to look at him. He was blushing just as hard as you, movie now forgotten.

“Okay, uh, it’s-it’s oral. I guess kinda like a blowjob, but for girls.”

“How would that even feel good? There isn’t anything for him to even like...” You trailed off, regretting blurting out the first thing that popped into your head. Gosh, you sounded like a kid, Izuku probably thought you were so dumb. “Nevermind, let’s just forget it.”

Izuku was still looking at you, nervously shuffling closer.

“You’ve never....?”

“Of course I have!” You spluttered, rising from the couch. Now you were angry, embarrassed, humiliated. Izuku thought you were so stupid that you didn’t even know how sex worked. It’s not like you were currently seeing someone, not in the four short months since you moved into the Midoriya’s house. But you’d had experience in the past! Maybe nothing past penetration, but that still counted as experience!

Izuku rose with you, hands held out in front of him as he tried to salvage the conversation. “I didn’t mean! Not like that anyways...... I was just...”

He waved noncommittally with his hands. You crossed your arms, waiting for him to continue. Izuku was a bit on the shyer side, and you knew that talking about sensitive subjects made him stutter and blush, lose his cool and all. You were willing to be patient, expecting an apology. You got anything but.

“I just mean... I could like, uh... s-show you?”

Your jaw dropped.

Before you could speak, Izuku was rushing on, his words jumbled and breathless. ‘Y’know? It’s just like the uh, well the nice thing to do. It-it feels really good and I know you’d enjoy it, well, I-uh I think. I mean, I-I do... enjoy blowjobs! I could teach you how to do that too, if-well, if you want. We don’t have to do that toda-”

“’Zuku, no...”

You cut him off, staring pointedly at the ground. This was the weirdest situation you’d ever been in. You couldn’t look your brother in the eye, this was just too awkward. 

There was a beat of silence.

Automatically, your feet started carrying you towards the stairs, towards your room where you could play on your phone and forget this whole thing happened. 

Izuku grabbed your arm.

“Wait, wait, just.... c’mere?”

You grabbed Izuku’s arm, trying to pull yourself away from him. “Izuku, I really don’t think-”

“No, no don’t-don’t think. just... just let me...”

The man was pulling you back, giving you a gentle push onto the couch. This was so weird. A hand splayed across your chest, keeping you stationary as you tried to sit up, and Izuku was kneeling. The man pried your legs apart, despite you protesting.

“’Zuku, this really isn’t something I wanna do right now, please don’t touch me like that.”

Izuku raised a finger to his lips, before yanking down your shorts. You squealed his name in surprise. He groaned.

“Oh, oh, this’ll feel so good, just-just trust me, okay? You know I wouldn’t hurt you.”

He was still pressing down on your chest with one hand, ignoring the way your panic rose as his other hand gently caressed your leg, climbing higher and higher. You knew he wouldn’t hurt you, but this was making you uncomfortable. The thought of your stepbrother doing oral or whatever made you squeaky. You didn’t know what to label the feeling - only knew it was bad.

You gasped when a finger pressed against the fabric of your panties; began tracing your folds, prodding at your mound. Your hands flew down to grab his wrist, to push him away, but Izuku wouldn’t be deterred.

Izuku was so much bigger than you, so much stronger. You couldn’t stop him when he pulled your panties to the side, shoved his face between your thighs, close to your cunt. A yelp left your throat when cool air blew gently across your pussy. He was - he was literally blowing on your pussy. 

You shivered.

“Hey, please I don’t wanna do this ‘Zuku, please let me up. Stop doing that, I won’t tell dad, I won’t tell anybody! Please just let me up.”

Your pleas were ignored

A finger began slowly brushing against your cunt, as if Izuku was afraid to touch, afraid to break. You groaned; never in your life had you given that area this much attention. “Feels - feels weird.” you whined, drawing Izuku’s green eyes away from your clenching cunt and up to your face.

“It’ll start feeling good In a second, don’t worry. I’m taking care of you (Y/N), just like I always do.”

Your stomach flipped. This didn’t feel like him taking care of you.

“I-I’ve been wanting to do this for so long... god, thank you.” He was almost whispering, you barely caught the tail end of his sentence before a hot, wet tongue was licking up the length of your pussy. 

“Ah! w-wait!”

Izuku didn’t listen. HIs first lick was slow, calculated. The green-haired man was savoring your taste, licking his lips before diving back in. The sensation was good, you were writhing and squirming in Izuku’s hold, but now for an entirely different reason. 

He quickly became feverish as he drooled over your pussy, pausing occasionally to gather the moisture in his mouth and spit. Then he’d let his tongue spread the wet around, flicking rapidly against your clit.

“’Zuku, ‘Zuku! I can’t - stop, stop!”

It was so wet, and so, so messy. It was downright filthy, the way his tongue was suckling and lapping and dancing against your sensitive pussy. You were losing your mind, trying to free yourself from Izuku’s grasp, escape the intense stimulation that he was attacking you with.

Your orgasm hit you so fast, you barely had the chance to gasp out a stuttered, weak “Cumming!”. 

It felt so good it almost hurt.

The hand on your chest stopped anchoring you to the couch, but you were defeated, boneless. You stopped pushing at Izuku, let yourself lay back and try to catch your breath, sweat making hair stick to your forehead.

The green mass of curls between your legs bobbed gently as Izuku gave short, teasing kitten licks to lap up your juices, loving the way you twitched and whimpered as he played with your sensitive cunt. You were too tired to fight him. 

When the man finally stopped, leaned back on his heels and wiping a hand across his face, you didn’t want to look at him. Instead, you buried your face into one of the couch cushions, hiding from your older step-brother.

“I love you.”

You had loved him too, but not in the same way. He was your brother, your friend. What was he now?

Izuku reached forward, slid your panties back into place so they covered your pussy, giving you some semblance of privacy. You felt the couch dip as he sat next to you, far too close to comfort. It was hard to believe what he had just done.

You couldn’t possibly know that he was going to do more.

[dreamescapeswriting]

BTS Reaction | You’re Insecure About Your Acne/Acne Scars [Request]

A/N: I just want to start this off by saying you’re all beautiful no matter what. It doesn’t matter if you have acne or acne scars, or something else that makes you feel insecure because you’re beautiful no matter what in my eyes.

Also thank you to the kind anon, I promise I’m not overworking myself and I’m staying hydrated! As of writing this I’m on my fifth cup of tea, second hot chocolate and first bottle of water XD

Seokin:

Jin knew you always woke up earlier than normal just to make sure you could get some makeup on before he got up but he never understood why and when he questioned you about it you would lie and tell him you were just an early riser. He knew it was a lie because you could never look him in the eyes, it was your tell whenever you were lying. This morning when he felt the bed shift he made sure to stay awake so he could see what it was you were doing each morning.

"Baby?" His morning voice made you jump as you thought you were alone this morning,

"Shit! W-What are you doing awake?" You jumped, holding onto the bathroom door as you came out of the en-suite a little shocked to see him awake this time in the morning with you.

"I wanted to see what you were doing..." As he looked up at you he instantly knew what was happening, you had a small makeup bag clutched in your hands and you tried to hide it.

"Jagiya..." He said slowly as you looked down at the floor, taking the makeup bag over to your overnight bag and put it into it.

"It's nothing Jin-"

"Baby come here," He whispered, pulling back the sheets for you to sit down beside him so you did. Not saying anything as he wrapped his arms around your shoulder and pulled you into a silent hug,

"J-Jin-" You couldn't finish the sentence as you already began to let the tears fall down your cheeks, gripping onto his white shirt as you sobbed.

"Shh baby, it's okay...Just breathe...Tell me when you're ready," He already knew what it was that was bothering you from the makeup back he could put it together. You'd always been insecure about the scars that were left behind after your acne and would never listen to Jin when he told you he didn't care about them.

"Is this what you do every morning?" He questioned when you finally stopped crying and looked up at him, tears filling your eyes as you nodded at him.

"Baby I told you already, you don't need to feel insecure around me...I know there isn't anything I can say to make you feel okay about them but I want you to know that you don't have to hide from me." He whispered to you as he turned you to look up at him,

"You don't have to hide from me, ever." He was cupping your face in your hands as he ran his thumb under your eyes to get rid of the tears that were staring to roll down again.  

"It'll take time for you to accept it but please, believe me when I tell you I don't want you to be insecure about this..." You nodded at him not trusting yourself to talk without crying just yet. With that he kissed the top of your head, pulling you to lay down with him as he snuggled his head into your neck,

"You know we could go and have an early breakfast-" You tried to say but he groaned at you, hiding his head in your neck as he mumbled about not wanting to get out of bed yet.

Yoongi:

The first couple of times when you'd blown Yoongi off for a public date he thought they could have been genuine reasons but as the third date came around and you cancelled right at the last second he decided he was going to find out what was going on. You'd been dating for years and now you were finally public with your relationship and could go out on dates you seemed to lose interest in the whole idea of public dates. You didn't have to hide anymore and yet here you were, hiding.

"Y/n? Open the door baby." He called out as he knocked on your apartment door, he had a key but you'd dead bolted the top of the door so he couldn't make his way inside.

"I'm not feeling well," You lied as you looked through the peephole to see him standing there looking up at you sadly.

"We both know that's a lie, open the door." You wanted to cry out for him to leave you alone, to just not come in but you caved. Unlocking the door and letting him inside.

"What's going on? D-Do you not want to be together anymore?" He questioned as he looked at you sorrowfully, his eyes filled with tears.

"Yoongi it isn't that-"

"You keep cancelling our dates...Did I do something to upset you? Is it revenge for something I did...Tell me what I did and I'll make it up to you," He continued to rant on about how he would do anything to make it up to you and you just snapped at him,

"I don't want to get photographed if I get photographed everyone will see them and then they'll all say something mean..." It took Yoongi a couple of seconds to process what it was you were trying to hint at when it hit him. Your acne and acne scars. You'd always been so insecure about them around him but after a while, you realised he wasn't phased by them but now the thought of going out with him. People seeing you with their huge HD cameras...It scared you.

"Y/n-"

"Yoongi, people will see them. They'll see my insecurities." Your tears began rolling so Yoongi raced to your side and pulled you into a tight embrace, kissing your shoulder and shaking his head.

"No...They'll see them and they will realise that just like everybody else, you get acne, everyone gets spots and acne...And other things babe...Don't let this bring you down...Please." You looked up at him and shook your head, you knew he was right deep down but you weren't ready for it yet...Not tonight at least.

"Can we just stay in tonight? Pizza and a movie..." You whispered to him as the thought of going out crepy into your head.

"Yes...But we will go out eventually princess...When you're ready," You nodded at him and he kissed your nose.

Hoseok:

Tears streamed down your cheeks as Hoseok clutched you close in his arms, telling you how beautiful and amazing he thought you were over and over again. He'd come home from work to find you crying in front of the bedroom mirror when he questioned what it was about, you told him how insecure you were about your acne scars and how moving in together meant it was harder to hide it from him now.

"You're breathtaking petal...I know you won't believe me yet but I'm going to do my best to remind you everyday of how beautiful you are." He cooed as you continued to cry into his chest, he rocked you back and forth softly. Kissing the top of your head as he continued to tell you everything he thought about you.

"There is nothing wrong with having acne or acne scars, no one has crystal clear skin." He whispered as you tried to tell him how bad it was and how you hated it.

"No one has crystal clear skin unless they pay for that treatment...Everyone breaks out. Please princess, you're gorgeous." He reassured you, cradling you closer to his body as he whispered it over and over.

Namjoon:

Namjoon walked into the bedroom to see you struggling to put makeup on, he frowned watching you from the distance as you began to let silent tears roll down your cheeks.

"What's going on in that pretty little head of yours, huh?" He questioned as he walked up behind you and bent down to kiss the top of your head but you moved from his touch. He thought you'd moved past the insecurity stage. You'd been doing so well lately,

"Your best friend said something didn't she?" He questioned as he realised where you had been yesterday, you'd gone to meet a friend for lunch without makeup on for the first time ever and he was proud of you for doing so.

"She-She was just telling me the truth I needed to hear-"

"Which was what?!" He growled, angry at your so-called friend instead of at you.

"That I should wear makeup, no one needs to be put off from-" You couldn't talk any more thanks to Namjoon pressing his lips against yours. You sighed against his touch, pushing him away,

"Namjoon she was right-"

"She's wrong, and she's not a friend if she thinks you should hide away your acne scars...Acne is normal, everyone has breakouts and it doesn't make you any less beautiful than you are just because you have some scars." You teared up at his words and he bent down to kiss you again, picking you up so you couldn't sit in front of the mirror any longer to nitpick at yourself. He knew you too well to know that was what you would do so he was going to distract you all day and remind you how gorgeous he found you.

Jimin:

You didn't even have to say or do anything, Jimin walked into the room and he could feel the insecure seeping from you. He didn't say anything to you, he just walked over to the sofa you were sitting on and pulled you into his arms. Kissing your shoulder softly as he wrapped his arms around you, snuggling against you as he tried to find a movie for you both to watch.

"Do you think I'll ever be as pretty as them?" You questioned when the movie started and four beautiful girls came onto the screen, Jimin sighed at you.

"I think you're prettier than them...You have nothing to be insecure about baby." He whispered in your ear, placing a small and gentle kiss on your neck as he rested his head on your shoulder.

"Jimin I have acne-"

"Who cares princess? I don't...I know you do but you have absolutely nothing to worry about when it comes to things like this. Everybody breaks out sometimes. I do. The boys do. Everybody does-"

"You could never have a breakout..." You whimpered as you thought about him saying he broke out,

"Baby...I have makeup artists who hide my breakouts, I also have people who edit the photos to make it look like we have HD skin when we don't..." A part of you knew he was right so you didn't say anything to him, you just laid your head on his shoulder while watching the screen.

Taehyung:

Taehyung understood your insecurities well, he got insecure whenever he was having a breakout or something was making him insecure so when he came home from a day at the studio and found you crying he knew what to do. He sat down with you in the bed, saying nothing as he held you in his arms, kissing the top of your head and whispering sweet nothings into your ear. He knew there was nothing he could say to make you feel better currently so he was just going to tell you how beautiful you were for now and remind you that he loved you no matter what.

“T-Tae-” You tried to say something to make him stop hugging you but he only held onto you tighter reminding you how much he loved every inch of you. 

Jungkook:

Jungkook knew you were insecure about your acne which was why he was always trying to help you find something to help combat it. He wanted to do anything he could to make you feel less insecure about it and if that meant finding a treatment that would work for you than that was what he would do.

"You know I think you're beautiful, no matter what right..." He whispered when he came into the bedroom that night, you were laying in bed reading from one of your favourite books.

"I know you do," You whispered to him as he sat down beside you, there had been a time in your lives when you wouldn't be able to do this. You would refuse to sleep next to him because you couldn't sleep with makeup on but you had come so far now. He was reminding you how beautiful you were because the treatment you'd been using that was working for you was being discontinued from the market. They were no longer going to be selling it to anyone anymore.

"I love you," He whispered again as you snuggled into his chest, laying your head on his chest so you could listen to his heartbeat. One of the many things about Jungkook that soothed you at night.

"I love you too," You yawned, looking up at him sleepily as you struggled to keep your eyes open for much longer. He sighed at you, kissing the top of your head as he reminded you how beautiful you were to him.

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the world is small (but my heart is large)

summary:

Harri James Potter's world is small.

It focuses on her mum, her tiny council flat, her crap school and the library where she hides away.

She does not want a Hogwarts letter.

She does not want a soulmate.

(Too bad she gets that and more.)

Chapter 2 |

CHAPTER 1: my mum cries and my dad stays dead

CHAPTER SUMMARY: Harri Potter's only family is her mum (but she does hate her dead dad a little bit. Just a little bit though.)

The best way to win at marbles, Harri thinks, readying her finger to flick that glass orb of swirling grey and green and blue, is to guess the next move, wherever it may hit.  

The marble chinks against a yellow and green one, bounding off it and rolling under Harri’s door and though the hallway into the small living room where her mum and Aunt Petunia are. She wonders if she should go and get it, because Aunt Petunia strictly told her, with a shrewd glance and pinched lips, to not disturb her and mum. 

Still, small, young, naive Harri James Potter reassures herself, it can’t be that bad if I just get a marble, can it?

Harri opens her door quietly, green orbs blinking like flickering street lights as she surveys the hallway. 

There’s no one there. 

She breathes a sigh of relief. 

She tiptoes against the carpeted floor, spotting her marble just past the gap of the door that opens to the living room. There’s really no point tiptoeing at all, Harri muses, her nest of curls bobbing by her shoulders as she tiptoes against the wall, but it makes her feel like she’s in a spy movie. 

Like James Bond, she thinks excitedly, or maybe like The Doctor, trying to solve an alien mystery riddled with traps. 

Her bare feet curl in the carpet as she peeps behind the door, noting that her marble is there, just beside the plant pot and box TV. 

Her and mum’s TV isn’t like Dudley and Aunt Petunia’s; they’ve got the latest flat screen TV with premium HD definition thanks to Uncle Vernon, and Harri knows this because of all the bragging she had to endure from pig-like Dudley when she went to their house and had to share the TV with Dudley, watching his stupid cartoons like The Clangers and He-Man.

He also brags about his house, all the time! Honestly, it’s not like his mortgaged house in Surrey, with its polished wood and pristine walls and always-clean kitchen, is better than her and mum’s tiny flat with its box TV and small hallway and two small bedrooms in London. So what if he’s got the latest magician set and she has to satisfy herself with her swirling, whirling marbles? It’s not like she cares. 

At. All. 

(Nuh-uh.)

Still, it'd be nice to have a magician set even if all it did was stay in her room as a showpiece. Harri focuses intently, wondering if she can simply slip her fingers through the gap and retrieve it like that. She’s about to test it out when she can hear Aunt Petunia raise her voice.

“...I can’t keep doing this, Lily!” 

“‘Tuney – “

“No!” Aunt Petunia shrills, and it's almost as if she’s about to blow a fuse. “You say you’ll pay back the money, that you’ll finally get a good, reputable, well-paying job! How much longer, Lily? How much?” 

Her mum is quiet for a moment, her harsh breathing evident.

Suddenly, Harri is undeniably scared.

Her mum’s never been like this before. 

“See!” Aunt Petunia laughs, high and shrill. “You can’t even answer me!”

“Petunia…” Her mum says at last, quiet and still. 

“Petunia.” Aunt Petunia mocks, standing from her chair judging by the scrape of the chair. “No ‘Petunia’ any more, Lily. I’ve spent five years trying to help you, and you keep holding me back! I’ve got a family, Lily! A husband, a child, that needs me! I can’t spend all my spare time on you freaks, trying to justify helping you to Vernon any longer!”

There’s a moment of silence, as if the air itself is heavy and still, waiting in anticipation. 

“...Why can’t you go back?” Aunt Petunia says at last, resigned and hoping still. “If you had such good grades, if you were on your way for a Mastery…”

“They wouldn’t take me now.” Her mum says, her voice weak and tired. 

Her mum’s always tired, nowadays.

Always one blow away from crumbling into dust, disappearing with the wind.

“Not with who - what - I am…They hate people like me. Like you.”

“I’m not like you.” Aunt Petunia hisses, her voice venomous and chilling Harri to the bone. “I’m not a freak.”

Her mum stays quiet and seems to be sipping her tea. 

“I hate you, you know, Lily.” Aunt Petunia says at last. “You were brilliant - with your talent and your looks and your personality. Going off to that school, falling in love, having a daughter.” 

Aunt Petunia takes a deep breath of air.

“Brilliant, perfect Lily, with her red hair and perfect teeth and unblemished face. Perfect  Lily with her fairytale life…And now look at you, stuck in a council flat, taking loan after loan, working a zero-hours contract job! You’re barely even there for your daughter, Lily!”

Aunt Petunia always said ‘your daughter’. 

Never Harri. 

(It’s as if she didn’t want Harri to exist.)

“War does that to you, ‘Tuney…Losing a soulmate, does that to you.”

Aunt Petunia lets out a disgusted sound. 

“No. No, it doesn’t. You did this to yourself, Lily. Look what you’ve become.” Aunt Petunia is brisk in her next words. 

“I suppose this is what happens after ‘Happily Ever After’.”

Harri’s mum stays silent while Aunt Petunia continues.

“Take the money. Keep it. It’s at least one less loan for you to worry about. But don’t contact me again. I don’t want anything to do with your world or your daughter or you. Leave me and my family alone.”

Mum’s world? Harri wants to ask, but she’s too busy scrambling away from the door so that Aunt Petunia doesn’t notice. 

Harri fails in that pursuit. 

She trips on her feet just as Aunt Petunia comes out the door, noticing Harri sprawled on the floor. She doesn’t say anything, doesn’t even smile; she just looks at Harri, so cold and unfeeling, and shrugs her bag on her shoulder, opening the door and slamming it behind her. 

After that day, Harri doesn’t see Aunt Petunia again. 

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Harry’s world becomes a lot smaller after that day.

With no infrequent trips to lovely old Surrey, she’s stuck wandering the streets of London. Her mum is more scattered than ever, making enough money to sustain them and pay off her loans only just; there’s not a lot she can do, after all. She’s got no O-Levels, no A-Levels and no University degree.

Nothing at all. 

Still, they survive. Harri was only seven when Aunt Petunia walked out that day, and yet, it seems she’s sometimes more of an adult than mum. 

Mum, who forgets to pay the bills on time, leaving Harri to work out how to pay them instead. 

Mum, who forgets to cook lunch, leaving Harri to struggle her way through the cookbook from Neighbour Number 9. 

Mum, who tries to do Harri’s hair for school but always has to leave before seven o’clock, leaving Harri to get dressed, make breakfast and walk to school by herself.

Sometimes, Harri thinks she’s more of a mum than Mum and she knows she’s right. 

Sometimes, when Mum comes back late, eyes tired and looking far older than her age of twenty-seven, she sits by Harri’s bedside and strokes her growing hair, tucking a strand behind her ear and crying quietly. 

Sometimes, when Mum is crying, and Harri is faking sleep because she stayed up too late reading a book on fairy tales, she wishes she looked like Mum who tries so hard to be there for Harri and yet still fails miserably. 

Sometimes, when Mum leaves Harri’s room and stumbles to her, exhausted from her day of work, and Harri opens her eyes, sometimes she wishes she looked more like her mum with her blood-red hair and pale skin and instead of like her dead dad, with his bird’s nest of curly hair and his golden-brown skin. 

Sometimes, she thinks, tucked in her tiny council flat bedroom, she wishes her mum hadn’t been cursed with a soulmate. 

Unfortunately, she was, and now Harri has to deal with it. 

Harri’s world is small, restricted to her council flat home and the looming library and her pretty crap school, but when Mum cries because of Dad (because of her –) Harri’s world is even smaller, making her a prisoner to her Mum’s cries.

When Mum cries for Dad, Harri becomes smaller, and she ends up hating her dead dad just a bit. 

(Not much. Just a bit, though. Just a bit. Promise.)