#I’ll get arnd to it tho

[floorpancakes]

a banshee prima ballerina themed outfit i just freshly cooked for spectra demonica’s outfit contest!! the skirt really draws the eye, doesn’t it? it’s my favourite part.

[girldriveroscar]

Re: size of landoscar. Love your write up haha. Truly any narrative can be validated bc every pic looks different ‼️I do have two pics that are crucial landoscar comparisons imo:

https://www.tumblr.com/answerringg/770682515577077760/their-size-difference-oh-lando-is-getting

This pic is a screen grab from a vid but just in general he looks huge this whole video 😭 like you mentioned I think his bad posture eventuates that + optical illusion but wow. What a satisfying visual re: him vs Lando. Like FINE I’ll buy into the whole ‘Lando’s so small🥺’ that both Lando and Oscar like to perpetuate🤷‍♀️

there’s also a vid of Oscar+ a fan and the comments/fan all mention how surprisingly tall Oscar is. Like Lando said in that first Mclaren vid… Oscar doesn’t seem tall.. but he is. (tall being like 5’10/11 lol)

https://www.tumblr.com/mara-xx/770330916757372928/needed-a-last-minute-birthday-cake-so-i-called-up

^ And this one is just self explanatory 💗

Anyway sorry for the length but my last random thoughts — even as someone who’s never paid attention to lando til like 5 seconds ago, I can tell he’s gone through a massive glow up. And to make this rpf bc why not, how lucky for oscar —the guy who’s been a fan of forever— to experience Lando in his prime (thus far). Oscar said #invest #manifest 

THIS and THIS for ease…

THESE SUITS WERE SO. fuck that ugly ass diagonal suit broOAUGH. this era..peak landoscar size diff cus like oscar Jus grew n lando had Not.

but ok like they r Literally always changing sizes. frm the front to the back to the outfit to the angle

i could find a Billion examples atp !!

why doesnt the big twink eat the little twink seeing this Reformed my brain n the way i see them bc. from the front they r so

0 and o

like oscars small horizontally (again FROM THE FRONT!) while landos smaller vertically. but theyre both Small Basically. (#f1drivers)

but at the same time. theres a lot of muscle mass packed into their frames. and as they shift arnd / have better or worse posture / flex and unflex. theyre either Twigs or Big.

its shrödingers landoscar… theyre big and small… i think the only real conclusion for this wld amount frm seeing them in the flesh. which i dont intend to do or ever report on. LOL. probably.

i fully believe oscars taller than he looks tho. ESP after this year. end of 2023 vs start of 2024 and end of 2024 for reference. i think its a slight growth spurt maybe i am… being kind to oscar though…

anyways thank u for the oscass pic. that photo genuinely makes me Claw and rattle the bars of my enclosure like he is so Perfectly bouncy in that. n lando is my pancake in a way…

and bc youre landoscaring im landoscaring. Under the cut tho.

the fact oscars not even.. big… n they stil BOTH push this narrative of lando is sooo itty bitty…

the way sue Cs it oscar is so giddy about being in on the “lando is the small and fiercely dominant” joke after following said smallest boys career When He was Actually the Smallest… like he is living out his 15 yr old dream please excuse his excitement he Literally is just in on the joke now. of course hes milking it. ijsk he wanted to b george russell soooo bad. hes Crazy. let him have this bit.

lando i think leans into his smallness as a shield bc its all hes ever known and been told. but thats a whole deeper convo. still cannot bring myself to edit that lando analysis Very apologetic the thoughts might hv to die in my drafts <\3

the #invest made me LOLLLL. hes so true. following a guy frm his feeder series bc u Saw the potential in him. Watching him get to F1. Moving frm adolescence leaving everything familiar to u behind to kart with the same team. Stumbling behind in his footsteps. Getting to F1 right by his side. And then u won a championship w him. brought glory back to ur team through the power of Literally Just getting along.. and u have these weird charged events of tension that Somehow get ironed out Somehow.. And ur so completely the opposite of everything he knows and yet the longest teammate he has Ever Had..oOh My Goooood

we rlly dont… give enough time and energy to JUST HOW crazy of a coincidence that is. js think ab how exciting it is for Us when the F2/F3 driver ur following makes it into F1 !! like if Luke Browning or Fred Vesti ever got a seat im Doing Actual Backflips. IT RLY IS LIKE. #invest #manifest now add on everything else??? LIKE WHAT!!!!! god they make me crazy. and somehow lando got super stupid hot and hes a race winner and can actually groan out loud when he fucks instead of whimpering pathetically. that’s crazy man. 🚬🚬🚬🚬

[dearweirdme]

(warning, this got way longer than anticipated sorry)

ik this is probably a dead topic to you and i apologize for bringing it up again but i was just rewatching the leaked jk videos of him in his apartment with that girl bc i saw some discourse abt it in another tkk blog’s comments. some jk stan who’s convinced he’s straight, that he was sleeping arnd/had a girlfriend, and that we’re all delusional came in the comments and basically started stirring shit lol. they mentioned they believed he was dating that tattoo artist girl who he was photographed w his arms arnd as well. but i thought she had a bf at the time of that pic being released? idk fs tho and that pic def gave off close friend vibes to me?

anyways, seeing the discourse made me go back and watch the video again and the more i watch it the more conflicted i get. like he is rlly all over her. arms wrapped all around her and walking holding her from behind like that. ofc it’s POSSIBLE that they’re just friends especially if he is gay/queer (ik that kind of physical affection is more typically acceptable between queer men and straight women than when both parties are straight). but to me for some reason it seems improbable and like that’s just an excuse to keep myself believing in tkk ? like really…we’re convincing ourselves him and the girl he had at his apartment at night alone w him are just friends when almost everyone and their mother would see that as clearly romantic and crossing platonic boundaries ? he’s THAT close, comfortable, and affectionate w a girl he’s just friends with ?

lol subconsciously i feel like im probably submitting this to ur account hoping ur response will give me reassurance that the interaction was not romantic even when it’s likely that it was. to me the video is clearly real and it is actually jungkook so that’s not at all the part that im debating about, but just the nature of the interaction ig ? like how long am i going to convince myself he’s queer and w taehyung when theres a lot that implies otherwise…

but then i think back on the reasons why i believe in tkk and that makes me even more confused lol. bc if i tell myself to just accept that jk is straight/not romantically involved w taehyung then idk how to make sense of many of tkk’s interactions either. like the kappa sweethearts tshirt is the one that rlly gets me for some reason. bc there’s no shot it was a coincidence they were wearing such a specific niche tshirt on the same day at the same time too. and why would friends wear matching literal “sweethearts” tshirts? they wouldn’t right? ik other ppl value the dream premiere and other moments more but those tshirts are so unarguable that it’s something i always circle back to. like to me saying their clothes at the dream premiere were intentionally queer coded is not something that is necessarily factually true. it’s more so an assumption after extensively digging into the background of their clothes which they may or may not have even noticed/intended. that to me could be argued as a coincidence but the kappa shirts are 100% the same specific tshirt and it was 100% the same day. that being a coincidence is less likely to me.

the other thing is the way they keep their friendship/relationship so much more under wraps than the others. but maybe that’s something we’ve just convinced ourselves of when maybe they haven’t rlly been that private/secretive abt it? idk i just go round and round in circles. i’ll come to a point where i feel SO sure that tkk are romantically together (especially with how explicit tae is w his support of the queer community) but then i’ll see some shit like that video of jk in his apartment w a girl and the whole thing gets derailed.

sorry i’ve just talked in circles atp and i could probably go back and forth w more examples for forever but yeah idk just wanted to hear your thoughts bc idk how you’re able to stay so secure in believing they are together. and i don’t think u seem like the type to just continuously convince urself of something that is delusional through confirmation bias and disregard of opposing evidence.

Hi anon!

Yeah, you probably ar submitting this because you want me to reassure you 😊 and that’s totally fine honestly. I mean, we are invested in Tae and Jk and stuff can really become complicated and confusing at times. Being confused is never a great feeling and you just want to not feel confused.

I need things to be realistic myself as well. I don’t need Jk and Tae to be together, I basically just think they are. I’m not afraid to step away from them if I feel they’re no longer together (or.. if they never were). And I will definitely let everyone know if/when I ever feel like something is off (and right after that I will hide because Jkkrs and anti’s will come for my head 😂).

To me it is all about the things I know for sure. Like Tae wearing that t-shirt for instance.. on the same day as Jk when he shot that mv. To me that is something strong and real talking in favor of them being together. Same goes for other situations: Tae and Jk at that hotel after/before Dubai, Jk singing that song to Tae, BH acting weird about them (and them alone), the way Tae constantly mentions Jk… and I could go on for a while probably. Those are actual things we have witnessed.. things that are real and when you look at the whole of it.. things that are consistent and that we have witnessed for a prolonged duration of time.

When I look at the footage of supposedly Jk with that girl, I see a person backhugging a girl for a real short amount of time. I have no context, I have no clue about there being more people or not. I can also clearly see that the footage is manipulated. I know it was released at a shady timing, with the purpose of harming him. I know that there’s an actual platform where people who hate him gather and plan stuff like this.

So when I put what I know is true about Jk and Tae next to what I know of that footage… the scale just tips over. I do not trust shady footage more than I trust what I know of Jk and Tae. And I might be wrong.. absolutely. But I just don’t think I am.

If I had no knowledge about Tae and Jk before seeing that footage.. maybe I wouldn’t have secondguessed it as well. But, I do have that other knowledge and therefore if I see something that goes against that.. I look at what’s fed to me more critically.

I don’t know if this has settled your mind anon. Personally I always feel fine with not having all the answers, but I can also understand that can be real unsettling. Maybe try and land in the ‘I don’t know for now’ zone for a bit?

[cynicalmusings]

You are under arrest for making me decide to go for Cyno instead of nilou /j

actually tho cause all of ur brainrot and fics abt Cyno crawled it’s way into my brain and now I’m like

maybe I want Cyno a bit more than Nilou

well is this what being a Cyno simp is all abt?

Also I’m planning to do some form of art of the dark sorcerer Cyno AU cause damn the imagery is exquisite (might have to postpone a few days tho cause I have exams for the next week) but I’ll post it when I get arnd to it.

Have a great day/night r!

*twirls evil moustache between my fingers* hehehehehe

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MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ahem. please excuse me.

…you— you want to do dark sorcerer cyno art?

i’m honoured :,) thank you! don’t rush it, though, and good luck with your exams!

[koishua]

i’m cute? you’re cute! 💖💖

i’m also sorry for responding to this so late AKSNSH but school kicked my ass today,, had a long day of school + a shit ton of hw :’) i’m responding to this right before i go to bed though HAHA

i feel like getting to be more familiar is really just spending more time with e/o ig? so hopefully as more time passes, things would get better. tbh i don’t think they don’t respect my efforts HAHA honestly they all seem pretty chill, they’re just … really quiet ^_^ but yeah with things like this i think it’s a two-way street too, i can def try to be less in leader mode and more relaxed and casual w them! but it takes time yeah and i think it’ll get better when we get to know e/o better :]]

it is nice having familiar faces arnd! i’m a lot more comfy w them and we’ve also gotten closer ^_^ it rlly isn’t possible being close friends w so many ppl but i mean,, my mom alw tells me that you only need one or two close friends in your life and that’d suffice!

ooo what’s A Thousand Splendid Suns about? i haven’t been reading much outside of tumblr recently bc of sch :’) hopefully i can start a book soon tho! i’ve heard of Howl’s Moving Castle! unfortunately, i’ve never had the chance to watch it tho,, but i think one of my bucket list items is to watch all Studio Ghibli movies at least once! the art style is so pleasing i feel like i’d have a great time just appreciating the art! i’ve only watched spirited away from Studio Ghibli but i loved it a lot!!

for me,, i’d say my blanket HAHA it’s just like a security blanket (oops pun unintended) for me it’s so warm and cozy inside i just like to snuggle in it! actly i’m typing this ask while tucked into my blanket so i’m feeling so so comfy rn! 🥺 but i’m sorry if this ask doesn’t make sense i’m kinda sorta sleep deprived rn so i need to go to sleep SJDH sooo gn! (even tho we aren’t in the same time zone i think)

- school anon

(yes i’m fine being tagged as school anon … for now! it’s not a very,, pleasant name — cuz ew sch — but i don’t have any brain juice to think of a better anon name rn so i’ll just lyk when i’ve decided if i want to change my anon name/what i want to change it to!)

*insert infinite uno reverse card meme* ur cute times infinity plus one 🙁

im so sorry to hear that school has been treating you like this :(( things are difficult these days, so i hope they'll have some mercy on you guys and at least lighten things up a little bit there ://

ah so they're more low tension ppl, i get it heh :') how longs has it been with them anyways?? so yeah take it easy, love <3 and your mom's super correct too!! i always heard that you only need one true friend who'll stay with you when the other hundred turn against you haha it's kinda like a proverb so it doesn't really make as much sense in english but oh well you get my point. a handful good friends are enough 👌

the book im reading about narrates the life of a few afghan girls in the years 1960/70(ish)-present time and it's kind of triggering in some aspects, so definitely be a bit cautious if you ever decide to read it! i have a few issues with the book bc of how it portrays islam and muslim men and women and stuff (things that really do happen but my issue is just the fact that some people who read it might not get the diff between a culture and the religion they additionally practice and whatever but that's a story for another time!) just thought i should give it a read bc it's a literature classic (i guess, at least) there are so many beautiful quotes that i adore though :( im halfway through so i am not done yet heh

ah you've heard it okay!! omg spirited away is my absolute favourite studio ghibli movie ☹️‼️i have always watched it to comfort myself ever since i was a kid haha kind of nice too bc me and the movie were born in the same year!! can't say i have watched every single studio ghibli movie but everything i have watched just make me feel so complete and fuzzy an cozy inside :')

aww that's so sweet :( i can imagine the safety it brings haha have a cozy cozy warm little sleep then and make sure to try to catch enough hours of resting time‼️‼️us school kids gotta at least try to gather energy for the next day of battle smh

(do tell me when you need a name change bc yes ew skewl ����🤢)

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Alternate Love

Summary: Anon request- I wish you would write a fic where: talk about alternate affection, platonically/romantically. Or Someone who's gotten shit for being manipulative/cut throat to survive life. Teach people it's not bad. You can manipulate people to believe in themselves/out of anxieties. And. Maybe they arent verbal but they know x's fave color is green so they wear green arnd them to show they care. Some1 gave them a ring so they always wear it around them to show they appreciate gesture, tho its not the fave.🐍

A/N: Mini rant- I can’t even begin to put into words how close to home this request hit. Like I am not an overt touchy-feely love person. And for the longest time I always felt something was wrong with me because I wasn’t that way. But there are so many ways to love people, and as long as it’s consensual, love the way you love, whether it’s loud and in your face, or blink and you’ll miss it. And find someone who loves you that way, because fuck watering yourself down for anybody.

Content: Quieter forms of affection

Word Count: 1.2k

And away, and away we go!

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“Fuck, dude. I dunno. I just feel nervous,” the man with striking blue eyes muttered into a phone, a soft chuckle escaping him as he passed a hand through blonde curls. 

“Well, that’s stupid,” the woman next to him scoffed into her drink. 

“Excuse me?” the man asked, quirking an eyebrow in her direction. “No, not you, man. I’ll call you back,” he spoke quickly into the phone. “It’s rude to eavesdrop you know.”

“Eavesdropping would imply I was listening to both sides of the conversation. I was just making an observation. For all you know, my observation could have been about… well, anything, really.”

“Well, the timing is a tad coincidental.”

“Well, if the shoe fits…”

“Why is it stupid for me to feel nervous?”

“Because if we allowed our nerves to control us, then we would never get anything done. Ergo, feeling nervous is stupid. Feel confident instead. Trust in yourself.”

“Okay, but why can’t you just say that instead of calling me stupid?”

“I didn’t call you stupid.”

“Calling my feelings stupid isn’t much better.”

“Got your attention though, didn’t it? And as I said before, I was just making an observation.”

“An observation we agreed was about me.”

“Did we?”

“Are you always this charming?” The man’s words dripped heavy with rhetoric and sarcasm.

The woman shrugged. “Your opinion of me doesn’t affect me. And if my opinion of you matters to you… well… that’s your problem.”

He leaned in with a dangerous smirk. “And what is your opinion of me?”

She met his look, her brown eyes full of dark trouble that made his heart race in his chest. “I don’t have an opinion of you.”

He titled his head back, hand clutching at his chest like he’d been wounded. “Ouch,” he chuckled.

She shrugged again. “World’s not always gonna be nice to you just because you look like you, pretty boy. Toughen up.”

“Name’s Luke, actually.”

“I don’t care.”

“Of course you don’t. Why would you?”

“I’m not holding you hostage, Luke. If you’re offended, you’re free to leave.”

“Maybe I don’t wanna leave. Maybe I like being offended by you.”

“Wow, you really do depend on your looks to seal the deal for you, don’t ya?”

Luke’s hands went up in surrender. “Alright, hint taken. Your need to comment on everything isn’t you flirting with me. Got it. Message received.”

“Good. Now you’re learning.”

“Must get lonely pushing people away like that.”

“Rather be alone than surrounded by fake people.”

“Ooo, now who thinks the observation’s about her?” Luke teased.

“Tad coincidental, no?”

“If the shoe fits…”

~~~

“Oh, that’s a cute shirt!” Crystal told her friend as they got ready.

“Thanks!” Victoria flashed a smile. “It’s Luke’s favorite.”

“Oh?” Crystal raised a skeptical eyebrow. “I thought you guys were just friends.”

“We are!” Victoria defended.

“Is that your favorite shirt, too?”

“I mean, I like it. But I wouldn’t say it’s my favorite.”

“Mhm…”

“Oh, whatever,” Victoria laughed as she slid a silver bracelet on her wrist.

“You don’t wear jewelry…” Crystal pointed out.

“Well I feel like wearing it tonight.”

“Didn’t Luke get you that for your birthday?”

“So? What of it?”

Crystal sighed deeply. “How long have I been your friend?”

“Like forever, which is why it was funny I never ran into Luke before I did.”

“Mhm… And in the what? Six months you’ve known him, you’re going out of your way to wear his favorite shirt and a bracelet he bought you? Even though you don’t like either because you never wear that shirt and you hate jewelry because you think it’s too flashy? But, you’re just friends with Luke?”

“You’re reading way too much into this.”

“Or you’re not reading enough into it.”

“Okay,” Victoria clicked her tongue. “Say I do like him. That doesn’t mean he likes me back. I damn near made him cry when I met him because he thought I called him stupid.”

“Okay, but you didn’t actually call him stupid. And he admitted he was flirting with you. Or trying to anyway.”

“Yeah. He tried, and I blew it, so he stopped.”

“Did he? I mean did any of your other friends get you a bracelet for your birthday?”

“No…”

“Well?”

“Okay, but why, Crys? Luke could easily have any woman on the face of the planet. Why would he want a bitch like me?”

“Hey, that’s my best friend you’re trash talking. You’re not a bitch, Tor. You just don’t play games because too many people have played games with you.”

“That may be true, but you have to admit it’s a little off-putting.”

“So what? You’re just gonna water yourself down for other people’s sake?”

“No. I shouldn’t have to.”

“Exactly. You shouldn’t have to.”

“Okay, and what does this have to do with Luke?”

“He clearly likes you if he got you a birthday gift even though you’re just friends. And you clearly like him back if you’re actually wearing it rather than letting it sit with all your other jewelry.”

“Okay, and what am I supposed to do? Go up and kiss him?”

“That’s certainly a good starting point.”

~~~

“Hey, ya made it!” Luke’s grin was wide, and his hug was warm as his arms wrapped around Victoria.

“I said I was coming, didn’t I?” she asked as she stepped out of his embrace.

“I meant that I’m glad you’re here. Shirt looks good on you. Is that the bracelet I got you?”

“Yeah.”

“Aw, you didn’t have to wear it. Crystal told me after the fact that jewelry’s not your thing. Wish she had told me before, so I could’ve bought you something you actually like, though...”

“I do like it.”

“You do?!” His blue eyes lit up with childlike excitement.

“Of course I do. You bought it for me when you didn’t have to.”

“It was your birthday. You deserved something nice.”

“That’s really sweet of you, Luke.”

“What are friends for, right?”

“Yeah. Friends. About that actually. Do you like me?”

Luke laughed. “What kind of question is that? Of course I like you, Tor.”

“Yeah I know. I mean- ugh. This is so stupid. Nevermind. Forget I said anything.”

“Whoa, hold on,” he said, his hand reaching to grab her arm as she started to move away. “If you brought it up, then it’s not stupid. So, c’mon. Talk to me, Tor.”

She stared up at him, her mind racing with trying to find the right words to say, or questions to ask. But when his tongue poked out to wet at his lips, her mind went blank as all she heard was Crystal telling her that a kiss would be a good place to start. And she hoped the other woman was right as she leaned up on her toes and closed the distance.

Luke chuckled, breaking the kiss, his thumb rubbing over where her lips had just been. “Yeah,” he nodded, his eyes sparkling pools of the softest blue. “Yeah, I like you that way. Didn’t think you felt the same.”

“I’m wearing this damn bracelet and shirt, aren’t I?”

“Ha! I knew you didn’t like the bracelet!”

“Yeah, well I’m pretty crazy about the boy who bought it, so it’s a small price to pay.”

“Pretty crazy, huh? That’s uh… a little different than just plain old like, isn’t it?”

“Oh, just shut up and kiss me.”

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[luvdsc]

Im in uni agn!! I graduated frm my bachelors tho, rn im studying education 😇 i wn b a teacher fr lil kids cos i love them! When u do get arnd 2 making ur orange tree painting id love to c it if ud want 2 show it!!🥺💘itd be so pretty i imagine. CAT oh gosh ahhh ur bringing me literally waves of honey golden sunshine over n over i cant deal omg 😭😭😭💘💘🌻i feel super duper flattered u sed those things abt my art!!! Im NVR gn forget ur words they rly do mean the world to me🥺😢(1/2)

I wanted to comment on each of ur art pieces on my past ask but dangit the limit...i rly genuinely appreciate everything u sed abt my art cat oh god hahaha i rly cant deal😖✋🏻🛑👮‍♀️🚨ngl after our exchanges i ws like I Have Got To Get To Know Her Better (not in a creepy way i hope) n i read ur past asks!! They were so interesting 2 read (i ws a psych major so LOL i love learning ab ppl) n omg u saying im stunning om g ple ase i can t function jdhdhsgsh😔✋🏻✋🏻✋🏻😭 only can say ilysm cat(2/2)

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omg that’s wonderful!!! 💓 teachers are the best, they literally shape the future. what grade level do you hope to teach? 💞 and wait does this mean you’re my age or older? :o i’m a 98 liner, and nearly everyone i meet on here is younger than me aksjhdfajksdf and omg yes, i’ll post a picture of it when i get around to painting!! 💗 YOUR ART IS SOOO BEAUTIFUL like you excel in so many different styles??? each piece i loved was done in a different style, and they were all equally gorgeous and i just― WOW!!!!! i don’t have enough words to describe my feelings properly, but i love your art so much!!!! 🤧💝 are you working on any new pieces? ✨

aklsjdhflaks omg no it’s ok!!! i already was over the moon from what you said about my art 😭💗💗 i really do adore your art omg like i’m always in awe of people who can do digital art 🤩 i tried once way back in high school and gave up because switching different color palettes and trying to find the right brush and all was too hard for me aksdhjfklas for me, mixing up paint and holding a brush in my hand is much easier 🤧  and omg you’re so sweet 🥺 i’d love to get to know you more too!!! and i love psychology!!!! that was my favorite class in hs, and i was sad i never was able to fit one in my college schedule ): which type of psychology was your favorite to learn? 💕 AND YOU ARE LITERALLY APHRODITE REBORN PLS 🤩🤩💖💖 and ilysm too!!!!! i hope your weekend is going well 🌼

[midoriyaizukustan-inactive]

Do you have any headcanons/theories about One for All? Would love to hear 'em if you do. ^^

HM well lets see

i think for me to collect my thoughts we should list whats canon abt it first of all nd i’ll add on from there

so its a stockpile quirk obv,,,to branch off of that, i think that that means that u should be able to use the others’ quirks, not just the strength augmentation. like the other users’ quirks (if they had one) are also stored in one for all, but bc ppl usually arent able to handle more than one-three quirks, their bodies just wouldnt let them access the other quirks in one for all (which i think is also canon now?? midoriya’s gonna have like eight quirks or smth right?? poor fuckin kid hes gonna break SO MANY BONES)

its given down the line of generations; cant be forcefully taken but can be forcibly passed on. bc of that last line esp, i think there was a time where one ofa user was like dying after all for one tried taking it, and they had to pass on the quirk quickly. so they gave it to the next user despite the next user bein in denial that theyre dying and not wanting it. sad stuff man but idk why else hori would put that down bc obv that wasnt the case for all might nd midoriya,,,

hm lets see,,,

ok so. line of succession ig. and what i think their quirks were/are

obv that one dude had black whip, but im not sure where exactly to place him in the ordering,,,probably fifth but im not quite sure. i’ll put him fifth in here tho

so obv all of one’s brother was the first, nd his quirk was the ability to pass on quirks, which one for all latched onto obv. the quirk all for one gave him was a strength augmentation quirk. since most ppl can only handle 1-3 quirks, i think that’s why the showing off of the quirks in one for all stopped here (despite the other users’ quirks getting stored inside of it) until midoriya

the second user im thinkin probably had a fire quirk, bc in that one dream midoriya had, he was surrounded by flames, but obv that wasn’t the first user’s quirk. i think it would make sense, then, that it was the second user’s, bc then the first user knew him personally, which would make more sense why, when he’s showing midoirya his own memories, he’s also thinkin of his successor and his successor’s quirk

3-5 we know next to nothing abt tho,,im not quite sure what their quirks might have been. beside for the blackwhip dude, which im putting as the fifth user for now, idk much abt 3 or 4,,,

i think it’s possible that 3 had a quirk that was used to like illuminate stuff (cause once again, in the dream thing midoriya had, there was glowy stuff happening that wasnt related to the fire) but idk abt four. i think its possible 4 was quirkless and thus only focused on the strength augmentation part of ofa

anyway this brings us to the sixth. im sure he had a quirk but im not sure what it mightve been,,,i dont think he was family w nana so idk for sure,,a part of me wants to give him an empath quirk or an analytical quirk just bc heehee parallels to midoriya that way,,but i am not quite sure in all honesty

and then next up is nana. we know a lot abt her relative to the other users BUT i would like to add that i think the quirk she was born with was kinda like shigaraki’s decay. i dont think it was activated w touch tho, i think it was more vision focused, bc we didn’t see her eyes for a while, nd ik part of that had to be “ohh mysterious person who’s dead now” but another part of me is like “QUIRK HINT???” so yeah thats what im going with

nd ofc we have toshinori and midoriya after that, both of which were quirkless (supposedly,,when i buy into the dad for one theory, i think midoriya has the ability to hold multiple quirks at once, thus why toshinori or none of the other users seemed to be able to do much w one for all other than the strength augmentation and what their own quirks mightve been)

ANYWAY

i think the users all live inside of one for all still; theyre kinda restless spirits in the sense that their business isnt technically over until the world doesnt need one for all to be safe anymore, so they stick arnd

i think theyre talkin to midoriya but didnt talk to toshinori bc they only just figured out how to. like theyve just been taking a backseat to all this cause honestly when they tried, it seemed like all they could do was watch the future successors, but i think somehow they figured it out arnd the time midoriya got the quirk and toshinori was losing its embers

i think nana in particular finally figured out how to contact the living users during toshinori’s last stand against all for one; cause he kept thinkin abt her, and i dont think that was purely bc of the fight’s circumstances

anyway so using nana’s knowledge, they now can only communicate w midoriya (cause toshinori doesn’t have any embers left :[), which they do eagerly bc oh shit they can pass on their knowledge nd shit

but yeah. hmm let me think i think that might be it on my end

yea thats all i got so far, other than i like to think that all the users have a similar passion for helping people

thank u for letting me rambling i didnt know i even had this many thoughts on ofa djkfnjkfjnk i just think its interesting nd theres certainly a mystery there,,

but yea. we love them all

[riddlebanshee]

Acai Berry, Earth, French Vanilla, Honeydew, Rain, White Ginger

acai berry: what is something you’ve always wanted to try but have been too scared to?Oh, a lot of things!!!!!!! So many things dhvjdsa like Id be lying if I said I didn’t want to try drinking or like get high just Once in my life but I don’t do it bc those things kind of scare me!! Also i’ve always wanted to go to a summer camp!! I wasn’t able to as a kid bc I got scared sleeping away from home & now Im too old for it!!Ive always wanted to try dancing or something like that too!! Id get embarrassed looking stupid in front of strangers tho dhjavjhk also I’ve always wanted to walk somewhere at night w/o telling anyone where I was going!!! Just a little secret adventure for me & the stars but that’s sadly vry dangerous so I don’t do iT

earth: what is your strongest personality quality?I bounce back!!! I am a positive person and I bounce back from things quickly, for better or for worse!!!

french vanilla: what does love feel like to you?It feels like home vhvdjksa it feels like “anywhere this person/these people go, I’ll feel at ease”. It’s like. Warm in your chest and soft feeling like u could cry thinking abt it but you won’t bc it’s not quite enough to bring u to tears. It feels like being held by your mom as a kid when u were crying or upset or sick and feeling completely, totally safe. And it feels like wanting to make those people u love feel the same way in return, and to help them, and it feels like feeling that feeling whenever you’re there for them!!!! It’s a good feeling. It’s a soft feeling dsvhavdjsa

honeydew: describe an ideal day out with a friend.Oh MAN literally anything. Literally anything dhsavdhsajvkj I would highkey love. To go to the beach & drive arnd like markets and shops and museums and stuff with friends though. Just an adventure. Anything!!!!! Thrift stores or hiking or wandering around a mall or the city or the neighborhood block any of it would be ideal agh

rain: is it easy for you to bounce back after being sad? do you hang on to your sadness?It’s not easy, and the sadness lingers, but I do bounce back!!! I bounce back strong and the sadness doesn’t necessarily leave but I’m no longer fighting it, so it doesn’t feel bad anymore!!! So even if it’s not easy & the sadness lingers (even tho I DO try to move past it!!) I do bounce back, and hopefully I bounce further than previous!!!

white ginger: if money wasn’t a concern, how would you decorate your room?BIG FISHTANK AND A LOFTI love my room how it is right now!!! But I would add a loft for art and books and I would add a HUGE fishtank on one of my walls full of fish and plants and snails lined w bookshelves to either side agh. Also I’d want more floorspace so that way my friends & I could sprawl out on the floor!!!! It’d be so nice aaAAAAlso I’d wanna have a wall just for repainting over and over and over again!!! Which is a little bit silly, maybe, but I’ve always wanted to paint on my walls & to be able to do it so many times over would be so much fun!!!! 

[furbyte]

look who came in today!

they also came with the box! they’re so soft it’s... oh my god

this is the only furb i think i have that i now have a before pic of so maybe i’ll do an after pic of them too! they don’t have a name rn but im playin around with some stuff! they look super clean but im gonna skin and wash them anyway

they have brown eyes! i just didn’t take a picture of them with their eyes open because they stare straight down into hell

idk if they work yet but they were listed as nonworking, im gonna see if i can mess arnd and get em working tho !

[tinybeanhealing]

ASTRO CHALLENGE: Day Twenty-One

Day Twenty-One: Tell us your favorite memory with each sign.

Aries: most recently when we went to see coco n sobbed n held each other n got dinner n hugged n it was the most special.

Taurus: when we planted bulbs in roundabouts in yr neighborhood n it was so special n then yr cat came right up to me n booped me immediately n that’s when u were like “ok this is an ok human” (’: honestly one of the sweetest days ever.

Gemini: when we saw each other once a week for months n u showed me podcasts every single time n we baked things n got baked lol n listened to sza every day n went to the beach n walked arnd the neighborhood just to get jealous abt other ppls’ porches n u were always like “i’m gonna go sit on their porch they’re just wasting that shit !!”

Cancer: when we tried to throw a party but only 4 ppl showed up n u stayed in the other room the whole night n i legit left n went to sleep but then came back at 4 in the morning n we giggled for like 3 hrs HAHA wow

Leo: every memory w u is my favorite memory but there was that day/night when we went to golden gardens n the seals were barking at the dogs n the dogs were barking at the seals asking each other if they were ok n we went to that diner n smoked cigarettes n sang valerie the most loud forever n then u didn’t know how to drive home so i drove in front of u so u could save on yr data n it was the sweetest date i’ve ever been on

Virgo: when u scammed our white grandpa into buying me uggs n u stole a northface jacket n got me lulu lemons so that i would fit into our white str8 catholic high school better n u held me tight n said “fuck all of them jas, none of them are worth shit” OR the time u called me yr best friend n then held my hand while i cried bc that’s all i’ve ever wanted lol

Libra: when i was rlly young n u were in high school n i came over to yr house bc our mamas were hanging out n we had nothing to do so u wrote a line of a story n then i wrote the next line n we did that until we were laughing so hard n we came up with the worst most scary stories n it was so fun i can still remember one of them n i feel so proud that we love each other the way we do

Scorpio: when u used to dance with ate n me during wowwowee n even tho it hurt yr back n yr knees u jumped up n down with us “for exercise” n u always held my hand no matter what n called me yrs even tho i’m only half filipino u loved me whole anyway

Sagittarius: when we met up the second time after 2 full years of not talking n we were able to look at each other with actual, non toxic love instead of fear n sadness. That moment, the hug goodbye. I’ll take that with me forever. I love u. 

Capricorn: yr smile is my favorite memory of all time. there was a time that we went to the arboretum for yr first time there n seeing yr eyes get so big at the trees n feel in love with the place even tho u weren’t sure what u would think of it before we got there made my heart sing i can’t rlly even describe it anymore it was too perfect to put to words. 

Aquarius: when i came to LA n u got to show me arnd yr place in yr own way n u didn’t have to rely on anyone else to make it happen so we just had the best weekend On Planet Earth n we ate so much amazing food n u comforted me abt being anxious abt silly things n we watched the last half of season 3 of bake off n cried together n we took selfies n looked at the sky n i ate 250mg of weed n then was like “lol i should have eaten more” n then I did n was like M I S T A K E lol

Pisces: when we wake up every saturday morning just to hang out n get breakfast n we would pretend we were gonna do our homework but we would get high in my car n watch tv n play left4dead for 12 hrs instead n then order pizza n watch veronica mars lol for like 4 months.

[chickenfetus]

ALL MY EGG (and for the four names: jae, killer kang, minhyuk (whichever one), and santa

deadass i did the 100 questions ask meme for this ask and almost posted it rip

🐰 what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone?

theres literally nothing i dont even know what to say ???? 

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be?

not 2 be delusional but i would give up my world to hug changkyun

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why?

glaceon is UP THERE idk why honestly but the sinnoh games were my first and i just??? i was really into ice and snow and shit u know so glaceon... thakn u

another pkmn ill always have is lucario ????? its just so cool?????

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like?

hopefully forgiveness and like???? acknowledging mistakes and learning from those u know jst positive stuff and like?? water. god i love water

👀 what was the most recent vivid dream that you had?

hm okay i think this one was from last night or the night b4??? and like???? idk???? i dont even know how 2 start tbh?

so im like hanging over at this two kid’s im a kid 2 i think place and idk we just talk and shit??? idk whomst the boys were tho

and then we get to a scene where its like??? at a train station???? and i go to the washroom to shit or smth idk thankfully i didnt shit myself irl

then i have to get onto the train which isnt even a train its like a carousel with seats??? and its like on a train track boys this is 2 much and i forgot to get ready my train card thing so the guy (who i was p sure was evil) waited for me to remove it so i got onto the transportation device lmao

and then once im seated i remember i forgot my jacket so i make like hand movements 2 the creep and hes runnig 2 me with my jakcet but the ride’s way too fast so i yell and say ill come back for it even tho im p sure i wasnt going 2

after that i wke up wild

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend?

i dont have a best friend and all of my friends have their own unique qualities if i went into a rant abt them rn this will b so long

😘 talk about your crush or partner

[minhyuk voice] theres none

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back?

ya bc im petty but it really depends on the person

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!)

my personality (the good parts)

my values

my taste in friends (my Big Friends are either geminis or scorpios good)

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it?

the dark and bitch isnt gonna turn off her night light any time soon

🎁 what never fails to make you happy?

seeing my favourite happy, listening to the music i like 

💙 what annoys you about some people?

i jjust went into a full out rant abt this on the other reply so ill be quiet now

😤 do you get angry easily?

yeahhhhh 

🐇 what do you always daydream about?

my faves tbh

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change?

bad people , gone.

everybody only sends love and happy things on anon

i just want everyone 2 b nice & friendly wars of any sort dont exist and no one wants anybody dead

🍓 send me 4 names: kiss, befriend, kill or marry?

if u sent jae’s name earlier id have trouble so im glad

kiss: tihis is so fucking embarrassing wtf minhyku (mx) but only on the cheek basically everywhere except the lips or anyplace weird

befriend: brian :-0

kill: jae goodbye loser

marry: sanha we can yell every time we gotta turn the lights off

✈️ what is your dream city and why?

tokyo bc its NICE

☕️ talk about your ideal day

cant read

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert?

i suddenly thought of the word ambivore which made me think of the word vore i wanna delete im a both? mayb idk

💧 when was the last time you cried?

nov 3 bc my heart hurts whenever i see ppl being a bad friend

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment

oh worm

all alone - day6

with you - astro

dramarama - mx (even though it isnt out yet lmao)

run - bts (the superior bts song)

hellevator - / (i was rly gonna make this mixed languages but rip)

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why?

to fly bc im basic

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say?

dont do that

💚 who are you jealous of and why?

nobody in general????????? 

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why?

intelligence i have 2 live somehow what if my money gets stolen

🙊 what are you ashamed of?

my humor

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn?

i (barely) know chinese despite having 2 take it all my life legends only

i know english but im bad at that 2 and its my first language once again legends only

i wanna learn japanese and korean 

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be?

the cow from voltron 

☁️ talk about your dream universe.

weve already discussed this

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today?

oh w-0rm ok so im a regular anon on this persons blog and i wanted to send an ask but never got arnd doing it so im gonna send her one. soon/

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why?

let me live my life as a furry and cat

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike

are u ready 4 me to b the meanest person yet bc i sure am lets fucking go

so theres this girl. and i know her (unfortunately) and ive known her since like 4 years ago and back then she was already pretty shit tbh

she cried bc she had to sit in between the “weird” and “dirty” girls in our class and she headass cried in front of them and everyone just bc she didnt like the arrangement?? shes called the “dirty” girl disgusting before and has made fun of her in front of everybody its just bad :-/

now. fast forward 3 years and in addition to still being disrespectful and rude, she now vocalizes her weird fantasies for her “oppas”??? some examples: 

“when i go watch __ perform im gonna climb onto stage and then my mother and my future husband will fight for me” and she calls those kpop idols weird shit and basically sexualizes them/???? she says the weirdest fucking shit on her ig story and tags them??????? 

another thing. she went to korea nd took a picture of a complete stranger and posted it on her public ig and called him her “oppa” and said that they had a “fun day together” despite the guy not knowing her at all???? she posted the pic of him??? i still dont get it tbh 

she wasnt even being ironic at all??? she calls herself & classmates “autistic” whenever she/others do smth dumb or mess up and its just sososososo fucking wrong

being one of the people to see how shes basically grown from bad to worse is something i dont fucking enjoy and i jsut want to leave my class already lmao 

ok but there are times where i do appreciate her because sometimes the class will be rly quiet and the teacher is basically talking 2 themselves but she’ll always respond w/o fail so thats great but its only bc she talks so damn much 

i just got a flashback to when she “jokingly” said she wanted to be a trainee for the rest of her life how do i just. god

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately

we’ve once again already discussed this

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?

i wanted to be various things honestly?? ranging from an astronaut to a vet to an editor to an animator to other stuff i get influenced pretty easily so if i watch smth and i think its cool ill want 2 be that i guess?? ive been trying 2 get rid of that habit so now i have no clue what i wanna be

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods?

sweets and chocolate cake

🍑 what are you obsessed with?

drinking water and staying hydrated

making my friends laugh is great 2

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed?

acne LMAO 

😪 what are you sick of?

the usual

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker?

i love scouting on sif and bandori so yeah 

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have?

lets not 

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person?

to a certain extent

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies?

use my phone???? send nice anons and comment on art/fics 

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself?

none

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?

my tolerance for ppl’s shit is so low

🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored?

my ocs

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams?

i dont have a dream hence myself

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you?

infpt i dont rmb shit but yeah

🐶 send me 3 fictional people and I’ll choose my favourite!

falen i dont rmb what u sent

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why?

i dont follow any :-o zendaya has had my heart ever since shake it off tho

🐴 opinion on day6?

ur rly gonna do this 2m e?

all alone just started playng this is terrible lets get it

so day6. a band i only found out about in late june (thank u boxy) and before this i only ever listened to bts and mx bc my friends stan them so i thought i was gonna expect boys dancing, the usual. 

i clicked i smile and i lost my fucking shit as soon as i saw the instruments because prior to day6 i was a big 5sos fan so this was rly resonating to me tbh and i was just !!! so fukcng excited??? i never intended to even get into day6 honestly??? but after witnessing how good they are and watching about all of the available mvs at that point i was completely in awe so i caved a created a stan twitter for them.

now, this isnt even the most of it. after becoming a fan i realized how much more these 5 boys are. they compose (if im not wrong) and brian writes lyrics for the songs each month because of their everyday6 project and again, im wow-ed because??? the amount of dedication???? they went from releasing 2 title tracks in 2 years to releasing 12 title tracks and 12 bside tracks in a single year. they havent released the december song yet but haviing to work on 2 or more songs in 4 weeks is fucking amazing if you ask me. 

theyre really talented and theyre just so versatile (am i using that word correctly) and each month their songs sound different. this project has given them the opportunity to try new things and you can hear the steady improvement in each of their vocals (dowoonie not so much since he barely gets lines, but we all know hes working hard) and if you listen to their debut song - kongchu and compare it to the version they released along with sunrise it just???? the drumming has even changed from the original version nd its so noticeable that whenever i hear kongchu from 2015 i know its the old ver

to add to those, they do vlives every week and although those vlives are always scheduled it still makes my day seeing them and watching them do the usual. 

one thing im upset about is that how they barely promote themselves, they rarely get on variety shows (the most is individual schedules) and we, as mydays never really get to know the boys so its harder to fall for them as a whole. i dont know if its jyp or day6′s decision but if this is how they want to be known for - their music only, then so be it. we still have jae’s presence on youtube, music access and asc. thats the most we can get and it makes it difficult for us to learn about the rest but thats okay.

another thing. their concerts are something i always look forward to (even though my interest has died down a bit;) their concerts are just so fun to listen to?? there’ll always be mydays who stream the concert so everyone else can listen to them play and they sound so good live it drives me crazy. mydays are always so hyped and whenever mydays sing along it just gives me goosebumps??? bc theyre so???? good????? 

tldr; day6 deserve more, following wise and promotions wise because they work so hard and once this project ends i hope they’ll manage to rest but still remain as a presence that will be known instead of returning to jyp’s dungeon.

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person?

there are days where i am more emotional than usual 

📚 share 3 books that you love and your favourite quote from them.

this is tiring

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help?

i sleep and boy it really helps

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad?

rest

🌍 which country do you live in?

singapore

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words

lame funny swag

🐵 which quotes changed you?

“rocky swag” - park minhyuk, 2017

💭 do you keep a diary?

nope

💫 who inspires you?

brian kang 

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why?

yes bc i love losing sleep

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like?

terrible

🎬 what are some of your favourite films?

i watched spiderman homecoming and i have no idea why i didnt see the plot twist coming but its GOOD watch it

🍦 what is one treasured childhood memory?

theres none lads

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why?

all my internet buddies but sometimes i dont want to bc im kinda....gross

[readmylip-s]

negative nancy.

i’ve been contemplating, a lot. contemplating whether or not to write. or if i should just bottle it up and keep it all inside of me. but after weeks of contemplation, i decided to just let it out here. 

number one, because i guess its the cliche you shouldn’t bottle things up, its not healthy. number two, because i suppose this is a pretty safe place albeit it being a public platform. number three, i have come to a conclusion that a listening ear does not always have to be humans. number three point one, humans are so darn disappointing sometimes. (i mean, they keep saying shit like they gon’ be there for you whenever, or they gon’ be there for you in times of need. but seriously tho, who is ever gna be there for you anytime, 24/7? and a lot of times when you truly need one right there and then, and you decide to approach them, they’re not available for whatever reason. so screw that /i’m gna be here for you/ shit. scratch that. bleagh.)

anyway.

as the header suggests, i’ve been such a negative nancy lately. i was tryna convince myself that i’m just over thinking and that i’m being overly sensitive. bcus i mean, if everything arnd is pissing me off then i was probably the problem. but dude get this - i swear, common sense isn’t common anymore. also, why do people complicate things that are simple? why do i feel like some people are just being so damn bloody self-centered? and why is it that i feel as though people step on my toes then take advantage of my kindness? 

do i gotta go back to where i was when i was eighteen for people to realize how real mental illnesses are? every single time i try to fight for myself, i end up feeling like i was fighting a losing battle. and when i tell myself to choose my battles wisely, i’d end up not fighting any because it is just too freakin’ exhausting. the amount of times i’ve tried to cut back on my episodes has probably rocketed sky high. what’s the point of getting off medications, getting off probation period when the episodes get more frequent? 

just a while back, not too long ago, a friend came up to me while i was sitting on the steps at the tower circuit still decked in my gears. asked if i was alright. i truly wanted to shake my head and bawl my eyes out but i couldn’t bring myself to. my walls were up and i wasn’t about to let them down. but i guess i still wear my heart on my sleeves though i’m tryna learn how not to. i felt a pat on my helmet. and this was what was said to me (not in the exact words. more like roughly how i remember it); you have been exceptionally quiet since the last time i saw you. you used to be so cheerful and bubbly. this might be the last time i get to see you here. it has been about two years since i’ve been here. in case i dont see you here again, i am very glad to have met you. it has been a pleasure. you’re really nice, and maybe that is why everyone likes you too.” (and everyone in this context is everyone i have met through the two year stint)

i held myself back from crying. all i could say was thank you and that i am very appreciative. i got off the steps and snapped myself back to reality. that very evening, i spent quite a hefty amount of time just crying. not just because i was given a rlly unexpected affirmation, but maybe bcus i was really someone different. i wasn’t who i usually am. 

i truly have been exceptionally quiet. i don’t rlly open up anymore. i lose interest in things rlly quickly, especially when i feel jilted. i’d just be indifferent. i try to be neutral. and where necessary, i’ll just blend in with the crowd so no one would question whether i’m alright bcus it would prolly end up with me just bursting in to tears. 

it sucks, it rlly sucks to be crying so much the past couple weeks. sadtember was bad. october is no better. i honestly stopped expecting anything from anyone. i stand by living alone and dying alone. i am not gna drag anyone down with me bcus that shit is unfair dude. i am my own cause of misery and i have absolutely no energy to choke out of myself. if i’m meant to hurt the way i am now then i shall. i’ll be counting my blessings when i go through days that are less painful, for i no longer count on human beings. i no longer hope to be okay again either. if i do, i will be. if i don’t, alright i’m cool too. i’m done trying.

i’ve lost the positivity in me.  i’ve lost my dire need for peace. i’ve lost the appetency to be fixed.  i’ve lost this battle i thought was ending. i’ve lost the longing for a rainbow after the storm.

and i might just be ready, to lose myself to this mess i’ve been struggling with for the past six years. 

no longer headstrong,  no longer jovial, no longer full of life.  but indifferent, lost, empty.

x, nvrfa

2239 | 24th October 2019

[joonyovng-blog]

testing , testing, is this thing on ..., . ,, ,, ., ,, ., aH yes!! hello!! t’is i, ur local trash can yumi ( she/her ) n this marks my return 2 the krp community after months of school n org work shoved up my ass at an alarming level!!! i’ve tried to join other rps in between but my activity has been shitty at best n goddamn awful at worst, but i swear !!!!! i will Be Here For My Son ™ n for all of u ♡ this is joonyoung!! he’s v trashy but all of my muses are , to a certain extent; i have a Messy ™ wanted connections page up HERE n i’m going 2 ramble abt him under the cut so if u find any of that interesting at aLL pls !! LIKE this n i’ll come 2 plot wt u aysap ♡

( tw: internalized homophobia / biphobia (?) )

do joonyoung ; twenty-one ; the connard

call him joonie if ur close n joonyoung if u arent

tho most probably he will only refer to u as “dude” “bro” “babe” anyway

born and raised in seoul, child of two neurosurgeons + eldest of two siblings

his younger sister ( she’s two years younger ) sohee is a mute nd he loves her more than anything / anyone in this whole world; he even learned sign language as soon as he found out tht she couldnt speak jus so they could communicate

his parents, on the other hand, he couldn’t care less abt ?? tbh theyre a v affluent family but bc theyre doctors theyre so rarely around

so as long as he wasn’t failing any classes or getting in too much trouble they couldnt give less of a shit abt him 

grew up playin football n ?? Loves it . more than anything. completely

in fact hes been on multiple football teams since he was 8 !!! and its such a big big part of his life like majority of his heart is jus sohee n football

high school was easy for him bc like ..,. ,., , when ur athletic n handsome like joon is everything is easy for u lmao

then when his sister got into high school too he for sure wanted an activity wt her 

nd since she was artistically inclined he went “ok fuck it” n signed them up for some extracurricular art class wtv

n guess wht he ... loVED IT ,, SO MUch .. n started rly getting into watercolor paintings even after the classes ended n hes actually ??? p amAZing w the art

( of course he told like .. close 2 no ppl abt it bc .. wht kind of star athlete is an Art Geek too amirite //: apparently these r #mutually exclusive things ! gotta keep the image up in high school yk )

high school was also around the time tht he got into this group of dudebros on the football team who were ofc all abt .. parties n beer n sex

so obv he rly got into tht lifestyle and hasnt gotten out of it since, ,, baso this part is just him turning into ur local frat boy trash

think loud crappy trap music; six pack of beer; gym selfies; supreme hoodies; obey snapbacks ,,,,, u get th picture

so here he was fuckin arnd n bein the star player of th football team ,, all the guys wanted 2 b part of his crew n all th girls wanted to get in bed wt him ..... #Golden Days

but after his final winning game he got super drunk n ended up .. sleepin wt one of his dudebros?? n it was the first time hed ever slept wt a guy n the first time he thought he could be bi but

his parents were only real hella conservative abt one thing which was his .. sexuality so ofc there was a lot of self-conflict goin around

rn he identifies as bisexual but hes v v closeted abt it like !!!! only a few ppl kno n he doesnt rly want it going around jus yet out of fear of bein judged ///:

after high school he was like fuq dis ! n decided tht hey im good enough to go full time wt this whole football thing

so guess who has two thumbs, skipped out on uni, n is now .,, ., . , an athlete lmao

[ shades emoji ] [ fingerpointing emoji ] this guy ! ! ! ! ! 

so now he lives in an apartment wt sehyun in th downtown district; he still goes home a lot tho to visit sohee but thts ,, p much it considering how much his parents hate his Life Choices at this r8

he still paints !!! watercolor paintings r his stress reliever but he rarely lets anyone know tht he does paint, much less see his art

still v much a fuccboi ...... wears supreme hoodies n obey snapbacks .... only knows how 2 buy cold beer n the closest thing to cooking he does is microwave leftover pizza ,, ,., ., ., 

th type to hit u up w a “wyd? ;)” text bc he can .... a Good Time but also a fuckin Idiot ™

this was a Mess jesus

love him !!!! hes fun 2 be around but also so stupid pray 4 him

[sugasugawarau]

I need one more rank n I’ll reach 40👁 I got him to the max talents level as I could😼 apparently they went at me cuz of my ex best friend. Tbh we were just not it n I couldn’t handle it no longer so I ghosted her after an argument😀 Bruh💀 Sergio just went tired mood and just stared at the wall for 2 hours. I wanna comfort him but he doesn’t want me to see him like that😃 I got another stye and it made me sleep a lot😭😭 What rank are you on??🧎‍♀️-💠

OMGNSJF you’re alr almost ar 40 😭😭😭 the grind is real ,,, I’m only 45 rn HAHA I’ve been procrastinating on the acsension quest bc Xiao apparently gets ascension mats from the new boss and I do not want to fight that thing at a higher world level yet </3

Ughhhh man that’s grody :/ what happened was between the two of you and they had no reason to get themselves involved

PLS.. me too Sergio me too.. I hope he gets comfier with having u arnd when he’s going thru stff bc it rlly means a lot to know that someone is there for u (#freesergiofromemotionalconstipation/joke) On a real note tho I’m sure he really appreciates you being his friend and I hope everything works out ok for him and u !! 😣❤️

Ahdjjgjs whatttt I’m sorry to hear that and I honestly dunno how u got another one again so soon,,, pls get it checked if u can :( in the meantime pls take care of yourself and I hope u’ve been good!! Kith

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AA: spoilern alernt, flarnping in the rnain fucking S U C K S.

AA: got mud all the way up to my goddamn flaps.

AA: n, p surne I've got mud I N them, ugh.

ID: clearly you need me to show you how it's done. =:P

AA: lmao, y, mb when yrn off bedrnest, dude. >:}

AA: I'm playing forn bodies, but that doesn't mean I want Y R N S.

ID: psh not wanting my hot bod, i'm crushed. =:'(

ID: tho i get what you mean, the mud is the fucking worst.

AA: lmaoooo. soz, soz. am I supposed to say yrn hella hot now to soothe yrn poorn ego?

ID: obvs. =:P

ID: my ego has been brushed enough at this fair! =>:(

ID: ...bruised.

AA: too late.

ID: =>:I i'm working with one hand here, i demand a break.

AA: it's been brnushed and now you gotta polish it, orn shit'll just look fucking tacky.

AA: lmaoooo.

AA: I offerned you a wornm, dude.

AA: you C Ö U L D be, wtf did prni say AA: 8/10 hot A N D w two frnonds, but n, you gotta go and get squicked on me. >:P

ID: i think i lost enough blood without feeding it to a worm too.

AA: blood comes back, suck it uppp.

AA HAS ATTACHED lolheded.jpeg! It is a troll trying to wrench his leg out of a bog. AA: lmaoooo, evernyone sucks at this sO harnd. AA: wtf you up to?

AA: feeling bettern yet?

ID: i mean. define better. i'm not feeling like i'm about to die.

ID: i'm on my way to pheres' cart for some bandaging and a shirt. and pay.

AA: k, good. >:} AA: make him buy you food too!!

AA: when's the last time you ate??

ID: uhhh.

ID: the pizza night?

AA: soz forn ditching, btw, totes was like.. not thinking abt

AA:

AA: lmfao, what the fuuuuuck.

AA: congrnats, yrn a trnashcan firne, brnah.

AA: y, make him feed you.

ID: at least i'm not a fucking mud monster. =:P

ID: i mean i'm preparing myself for a whole lot of fussing, don't worry. he's already trying to talk me in to getting a room.

AA HAS ATTACHED godkingmudmonstertoyou.jpeg!

ID: did you fucking roll in the mud?

ID: you oinkbeast.

AA: he is a fussy fangs. >:P AA: and y! well, n. Ï HID in the mud and then jumped out.

AA: tactics, mothernfuckern.

ID: okay godking oinkbeast. =:P

SS: (Wtf, Hads, I thought you were food acquisition extraordinaire. (\ene/) You tellin me a temp -3 to CHA courtesy a lookin like you already been culled's enough to stop you??) SS: (Ain't you supposed to, like, work that ish for pity?)

ID: uh actually i think looking like i do makes peeps want to help me more.

AA: y, y, that's the joke, gj.

AA: >:P

ID: i was just feeling like garbage too much to take advantage.

ID: =>:P

ID: let a one-handed guy finish sips.

ID: you're just all too fast for me. =:P

AA: lmaoo. well, I can manage arnd stabbing folks, so I think you oughta manage just fine. >:P

ID: well if you finish up soonish, hit me up around pheres'. probably take him a while to patch me up. especially if i can get him to get the fucking stitches out.

AA: mm, mb, mb!! will drnop by, at least. >:} AA: laaal. you wanna come with??

ID: well now you gotta, or else my pumper will get all crushed. =:P

AA: yrn pushern is so frnagile, omggg. >:}

ID: it's been through a lot okay. =:'(

AA: y, y, will come. AA: you taking a whale back orn staying up herne, btw??

ID: haven't decided yet. still got time. depends how much i've healed too.

ID: rather not be in this huge-ass city all busted up.

AA: y, well, come rnide W me and lal. it'll be fuuuuuun.

AA: and i totes will just keep my phone on voice2text. >:} since he whined abt it so much last time.

ID: got my lusus to worry about remember. =:P

AA: oh, lame. laaaaame. AA: .. I can drnive supern fucking slow. >:P

ID: sorry we can't all have easily portable lusii. =:P maybe! i don't want to slow you and lal down if you both need to be back or whatever.

AA: naaah. mb?? AA: .. eh, if you can't rnide w us, you should totes rnide w prni. trnavelling is, like, waaaaay morne fun w ppl. AA: also, you'll, like, look less like cullbait, js. >:}

ID: fucking rude. =:P

ID: pri is a ways away in the wrong direction i think. idk. we'll see!

SS: (Wait, where am I gettin wigglernapped to?)

SS: (Soz, missed some ish through Sipa's unique and charmin quirk accent. (\ eue/) )

SS: (Aka dropped my palm husk in a hay pile.)

AA: dude, when they say a quick rnoll in the hay, it's not supposed to be lits. js. >:} AA:and we'rne gonna go watch hads get bits rnipped out by phern.

AA: it'll be fuuuuuun.

ID: if he doesn't do it you will, right sips? =:P

ID: stitches don't agree with my fragile lil bod.

SS: (Define 'bits,' omfg - I'm delicate, my constitution can't handle straight up guro ish and the bleatbeast!) SS: (Guro or furry ish, pls limit to one.)

AA: n, dude, half the fun is seeing you go grneen when you find out.

ID: just no barfing on me lal.

AA: bc spoilern alernt, yrn totes going grneen.

SS: (No reverse vore, got it.) (\unu/) )

SA: laledy, I believe in you. You were okay for the fight weren't you?

SS: (And shit, pal, here I thought I was gonna go violet!)

SS: (Give or take a stab wound!)

SS: (Nah, I totes swooned! Didn't you see 'em valiantly carry the greenblood away? That was totes me.)

AA: n, n, that only happens when you stay in the trnap forn morne than fourn hourns, soz.

SA: wasn't Hadean in the bathtub for several hours over four when we first met.

SA: I don't remember.

ID: was that when we first met? i did spend a lot of time in a tub.

SA: swooned... laledy, you should get a costume. Maybe you will have fun with Sipara and the others acting

SS: (N, def me! Like we totes said, I'm going violet!)

ID: no gills. =:'(

SA: it's a scientific fact that non seadwellers are softer to the touch anyways

SA: so it's for the best

SA: no scales

AA: oh my god, y. AA: pls get a costume. frnom phern.

SA: 😄

AA: it'll be grn8. >:}

AA: and eyy, you and hads can M A T C H.

SA: please don't put laledy in a stripper outfit. I think they at least deserve better than that.

SS: (Shit, pal, I'm down to be a booth babe.)

SS: (Y, SA's got it right! Gimme the hooker outfit like I deserve. (\unu/) )

ID: i will forever be the booth babe master, let's be real.

SA: I-- oh, well, if that's what you really want. 😮

AA: hads, my dude, you can't just say that.

AA: you gotta C'O M P E T E.

ID: fite me lal.

AA: lmao. >:} y, exactly.

SA: what if others want to compete

SA: a booth babe tournament

SA: Sipara, go

SS: (I nominate Sipa to be my champion.)

AA: n, no one else is prnetty enough, soz. AA: and fuck off, it'd be totes unfairn forn M E to compete, dude.

SS: (For fightin, not for babe-ness.)

AA: do you see these abs?? shit's unrneal.

SA: I think im pretty enough 😠

ID: i'll beat all of you any night. anyways, pris! pheres is at the greenblood circle now. so go there and not the maroon circle or where ever he was before. i'm gonna get walking. and i want my eyes free to watch anyone who wants to mess with me.

SA: Sipara wins on abs alone

SS: (Shit, wait, can we have Pheres judge? He's, like, got a thing for green, right?)

SA: I will.

AA: soz, prni, you totes ain't. yrn, like, qt.

SS: (Sipa wins on accounta I'm p sure she can, like, pick me up with one frond and I'm p sure I'm too intimidated to fight that ish.)

AA: like a barnkbeast.

SA: but I wanted to be handsome

AA: totes diff genrne.

SA: but will you fight her in a contest of looks laledy

SA: that's the most important part

AA: ... idk abt one frnond, but now we'rne totes gonna have to see. >:}

SA: oh. Now you've done it 🙃

SS: (Omfg.)

SS: (I demand a one-fronded Sipa carriage to tote me around.)

SS: (And, SA, think of it this way: if you're up an competin with someone on, like, any front.)

SS: (And they can up and do that.)

SS: (D'you really wanna challenge 'em?)

SA: perhaps at a safe distance, with a required boundary line.

SS: (Zactly!)

SA: but I also weigh little enough anyone could pick me up. I am sure Sipara could lift you and I together

SS: (You hear that, Sipa??)

AA: boundarny lines arne forn cheaters and cowa

SS: (He's totes sure!!)

AA: !!!!!!!!!!!!!

SS: (Are you gonna let him down??)

AA: now we gotta fucking do it. way2babully, prni, jfc.

SA: what is... babully..

AA: ugghhh

AA: I've got some chucklehead trnying to fucking get back up. brnb, brnb. lal, you explain!!SA: be careful Sipara

SS: (Well, you see.)

SS: (When a troll and her ability to talk proper-like love each other v v much, they hook up!)

SS: (But trolls ain't made for datin abstract concepts, so it inevitably goes real sideways-like, and results in ish like trolls decidin they ain't never gonna have ish to do with talkin proper-like again.)

SS: (And that's why Sipara doesn't know how to talk right.)SA: but... what does babully mean

SA: I understand Sipara may have a strange quirk and not speak with perfect grammar or syntax

SA: so is your relationship with the abstract concept of language doing alright?AA: is that also why i'm gonna say you should go pail yrn lusus?? yrn the wornst, omfg. and stfu, prni, you know my quirnk is  G RN8. >:P

SA: :thinking:

SA: :laughing:

AA: it's a bb bully, duuuh.

SA: oh

SA: I'm a good person, I'm not a bully

SA: :lying_face:

AA: that's a box 2 me, brnah, dd.

SA: oh...

SA: I tried

AA: omggg, don't go all glum.

AA: yrn so a bully. bc you darned me and ppl gotta take darnes.  >:}

SA: it was an emoji that was saying j was lying

SA: you could also say no and tell me to hush

SA: another option

AA: LMAO WHAT

AA: omfg, yrn trneachernous. >:'{

SA: :hugging:

SA: now let me hug you with my traitorous hands

SA: I promise nothing bad will happen

SA: this is a joke

SS: (That's, like, the least ominous ish I've heard tonigh twixt the bleatbeast ish and the stitch-pulling, negl.)

AA: oh my god, yrn nevern getting a hug again, jsyk.

SA: I will ask Hadean for one

SA: :cry:

SA: since you won't share hugs

SS: (Sipa, quick, go hide Hads. (\qnq/) )

SA: does that mean I win, laledy?

SS: (Depends, pal, if you win does that mean you ain't gonna go all Bewear on me??)

SS: (Cos I ain't a man of pride, pal, I'm down to forfeit for, like, my life. (\unu/) )

SA: oh I wouldn't do that anyways.

SA: :smiley:

SA: you are all safe with me

SS: (I totes believe you. (\qnq/) )

SA: I'm glad

SA: I must rest now. I will see you later laledy

SS: (See ya laters! (\eue/) )