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lttl3babybug · 8 months

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Cw: vent. Not safe for little eyes. Read if you want, scroll if not

I’m so tired of being tired and I’m so tired of being ill, I hate that my body does this to me. I want to be normal again. I’m trying to think of the good things, my birthday is soon but I’m not ready to turn 16. I’m not ready. I can’t do that, I don’t want it to come to a close so soon. I just got happy. I can’t be doing this again. I’m sick of feeling disgusted with myself every time I get sad. I can’t keep scrubbing my hands clean multiple times a day because I got too stressed and my body doesn’t know how to cope, I’m so damn fucking tired

#cw vent #small vent #i’m not doing well #i wanna lose weight #i’m tired #I’m so unbelievably tired #I just want to be well again #I miss when things were simple and I wasn’t ill #I miss when I wasn’t so aware of all my health problems #this is so out of character I’m sorry #I don’t know who else to talk to #I’m going to have to pretend like I’m fine tomorrow at school #I can’t do that #I can’t break down in front of them again #I’m supposed to be the one who helps them not the one who needs their help

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madigoround · 2 years

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At a hotel in walterboro sc, was too tired to attempt to drive another 6 hours the rest of the way after driving ten today so I’ll have to leave the rest for tomorrow but I’m hoping that a decents night sleep will make it more enjoyable tomorrow, in the last three days I think I got a cumulative seven hours so fingers crossed for more than that tonight 🤞🏻

#I’m so unbelievably tired #and I still have three states to make it through #also tell me how I have spent at least 27 of the last 72 hours driving and somehow I have spent over 500 dollars #like I know it’s from hotels and food and gas but still you’d think that wouldn’t be possible I really have not been a big spender food wise #it’s just that hotels and gas were unavoidable #I’m eating out of my road-trip snack bag for dinner tonight because I’m too tired to go back out and get dinner

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zeb-z · 8 months

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Vanya seemingly being honest in her guilt - something Arthur understands like no one else - but that being what seals the last nail into her coffin, so to speak. Because Arthur gets guilt, this immortal endless guilt, probably more than anyone else. He knows what it means to try to atone for something you cannot. And like guilt, he gets anger. In trying to find some sort of humanity, to relate to his better nature, she just pissed him off - because she was the one who turned him, she was the one who orchestrated and sat back and watched as he did what he did. How dare she be the one who survives and try to move on, how dare she claim to suffer the same guilt that claws at him, that haunts his nightmares. She doesn’t get to feel this, she doesn’t get to have this redemption, or mercy.

And at the same time, I don’t think Arthur was ever really going to let her go. I think her fate was sealed when Arthur reached out to Magnus to be there - a human friend, a hunter friend, called not only to shoot Vanya should things go south, but to take out Arthur as well, should he lose himself in a frenzy. It was probably sealed far before then, despite the century Arthur had to deliberate. There was never going to be any room for any forgiveness for her, because he has none for himself.

#it’s like. she was never going to be left alive bc I don’t think Arthur even plans on making it out of his crusade for peace yknow #a monster is a monster to him. ofc there’s shades of grey and he’s not just so black and white but with vanya? what she did? there was neve #really any question #I got like a billion more thoughts around this but I’m so tired so I hope this reads comprehensively and I’ll probably add more later kfksj #anyways the music for this whole scene with them went so unbelievably fucking hard #jrwi #jrwi the suckening #the suckening #the suckening spoilers #arthur bennett #z speaks

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melhekhelmurkun · 19 days

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I just came across a work on Ao3 with the tag “Ai Generated Text” and I’m just

When did Ai generated stories become big enough on Ao3 that there’s an actual tag for it? Thats just insane to me. Why are we doing that.

#I’m so tired of ai invading everything I really am #I’ve chatted with ai’s #I chat regularly with ai’s I’m on character ai #and some of them are so unbelievably incorrect about important details for their own characters that it’s insane #but now we’re letting them write fanfiction? and we’re posting it??#ai generated works are not fanfiction #I won’t apologize for that #they’re not fanfiction #and it is absolutely insane to me that there are enough works on Ao3 to warrant a full tag about them #probably gonna start muting those authors tbh #ao3 #ai #fanfiction

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shiominato · 2 months

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laundry managed, for some reason i put on actual clothes so i can crawl back into bed. i am so smart. it is time to sleep in street clothes

#i discovered the reason i’m so unbelievably tired and unwell and given that information i ammmm taking nap #delete later

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taibhsearachd · 5 months

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I’ve been literally disgusted with myself for not working on writing things, while I don’t have the meds that make my brain and whole body work.

I’ve been without those meds for so long that my doctor is like “hey, maybe take those meds for two months and then we’ll test your blood to see if this dose is too low”.

I’ve been hating myself for not doing the things that my lack of meds made literally impossible. It’s hard to think when not medicated. Creativity is a no go. And I have been so angry at myself for not being able to do this thing…

Meanwhile my doctors want me to be on meds for two months to probably be at below-ideal levels of the hormone that makes my body and brain function.

#personal post #medical abuse #medical neglect #I’m so tired #I’m just slowly coming to terms with the fact that my doctors made me nearly suicidal #because my shit just fell through the cracks #all of this is so inhumane it’s unbelievable #I only didn’t spiral into suicidality because I have dogs who love me #and I started a craft project so every time I feel despair I can turn yarn into cloth #but it’s not ideal and I am still in hell #it was entirely avoidable and this didn’t have to happen #i am still in the nightmare pit but maybe there is a way out now

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aroace-poly-show · 11 months

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i want out of this fucking house

#marlo’s stuff #fuck dude i love my parents i swear but i’m so unbelievably tired of this #i still have like two years to go i can’t fuckinh do this man

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evilgoof · 1 year

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survived day two of my job :) i go back in thursday but hopefully by then my legs are fine. by how are the beautiful little people in my phone?

#goofy.txt #they had me check the bread again #they’re lucky we had extra out back #otherwise i would’ve said no and a big fuck you #i practically restocked when i was supposed to leave #this is why i need my own car #so i can just leave #and not have to do shit #or wait for other people to get me #i’m so tired though #i just wanna go home #my hands are unbelievably dry right now #i got scabs all over and i’m just bleeding too #this is not very cute for me :(