#I’m talking UGLY crying

[starfire-s]

4 more hours left until we get to see colin suffer let’s goooo

[weadapt]

Most of the time when Cal uses his psychometry ability, it’s usually reliving the last moments of someone’s life. I was wondering if that’s why he keeps those memorabilia items on the Mantis shelf by the kitchen… to be able to touch something that gives him good visions when he needs it? When you click to reflect on the items he seems to be really fond of them. I wonder if he interacts with them after a really bad vision. Since some visions he gets from touching an object can be so overwhelming that he’s paralyzed for a moment; like when the Second Sister took advantage of his ability and let him take her lightsaber with severely traumatizing, dark side experiences attached to it to cripple him long enough to escape. It must be very easy to lose yourself in those moments without training. I’m sure it was vital for Jaro Tapal to train him since he wasn’t like other force-sensitive kids.

(Did some research and learned this after writing the above and now I’m majorly depressed):

Whoever used the extremely rare ability experienced a blinding white light before receiving a Force vision, albeit with slightly distorted input, of the sight, sound, and emotions associated with the object. Though an innate skill, it nonetheless still required some study and practice to properly control it. To an unpracticed individual touching an object that induced a vision could also cause severe headaches and seizures, consequently making these episodes appear more like symptoms of a serious illness rather than a rare and powerful Force ability. Wearing gloves prevents the ability activating when unwanted. The power could taint the force-sensitive if the object they touched had been used to execute dark-side-related actions, like murder. Wielders of the dark side with the ability could rip memories from other’s minds. The Jedi Council strongly discouraged the use of psychometry on dead bodies, as the emotions prior to a violent death were so strong that the deceased would have likely brushed with the dark side. This endangered Jedi by exposing them to these powerful emotions. Additionally, the Jedi Council frowned upon excessive use of this power, as it allowed the user to experience intense emotions, which would make him or her more susceptible to the dark side of the Force. Extreme cases caused the psychometric's mind to become possibly permanently trapped, and rarer still, caused death.

How is Cal even functioning…? How was he when he was really, really young? Could his family have thought he was severely sick or going crazy? And when the Jedi found him, it was a relief that someone knew he was Force-sensitive and knew how to help and train him? I wonder when he was little if Jaro Tapal had him wear gloves for a long while until Cal started really learning how to control his ability… it must have been really, really scary and terrifying as a little kid, or even as a baby, experiencing visions that took over his mind when he touched certain things. I can imagine he was constantly crying and screaming as a baby and as a little kid and his family couldn’t for the life of them figure out why…

[pastelpousay]

This is sort of another rant I think my friends hate me 💀 and this Hadina ship is lowk ruining my life but it’s like the only thing bringing me joy 💀

This is literally me being upset about something stupid that happened earlier 💀I love my friends but sometimes I’m so sick of them. Like okay story time 😽

So a while ago I went over to my friends house and we started talking about my self ship for whatever reason 💀😭 for background my friend is pagan and he believes in Greek mythology and I literally exspressed to him a moment before this that I had been feeling bad about talking about it so much since Hercules isn’t myth accurate but like girl 💀 ain’t no one care I’m sorry it’s a Disney cartoon bruh😭 get over it. and HE LITERALLY SAID HE DIDNT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT LIKE BRO SO TELL MY WHY NOT EVEN A MINUTE LATER HES ASKING ME ABOUT WHERE PERSEPHONE IS IN THE LORE OF MY HADINA STORY 💀I love pershades Like Persephone x Hades for life!!! I don’t have a problem with other hades ships at all like I love seeing it 💗. But Like I already feel guilty for liking the movie and about not being able to add Seph to my story but like I’m sorry 😭 this isn’t about her😭😭like wym girly ain’t here-

AND LITERALLY YESTERDAY THIS MF 💀 I LITERALLY POSTED A PICTURE OF MY ART IN OUT DISC SERVER OF RINA ANGST AND LITERALLY HE DIDNT EVEN THINK TO COMPLIMENT MY WORK FIRST AND IMMEDIATELY SAID SOMETHING ABOUT PERSEPHONE 😭 I HATE LIARS NIGGA YOU KEEP SAYING YOU LIKE MY STORY AND MY OCS BUT NO YOU DONT WHY ARE TOU A LIAR. Like I get it’s your religion but let me have my fun and I’ve been talking about this with my bestie and she literally said he needs to get over it it’s literally a disney cartoon 💀😭😭 I CANNOT ITS KILLING ME BRUH LEAV ME ALONE LIKE I GET HE DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING BAD BY IT BUT STILL LIKE IT HIRT MY FEELINGS CUZ WHY DID YOU LIE 😭😭😭😭 LIKE GIRL IM NOT GONNA KILL YOU TF-

okay that’s it I’m done I just had to share this even tho I’ve been talking about it for literal hours but it still pissed me tf off💀😭 btw sorry if this comes off as insensitive I mean every word of what I meant about the I don’t care if you ship hades with others, the ships are cute I love em!! 💗 but can this mf at the bare minimum accept my happiness like girl you want me to kms?? 💀

[liesmultixxx]

there are three things i know for sure

1. my life is a mess

2. no one will ever find me attractive/ be attracted to me (dying alone wohoo)

3. i’m listening to music 24/7

[miguelhugger2099]

it’s like four minutes til midnight where i live so i just want to say my thanks again to those who wished me a happy birthday it means a lot

i didn’t expect so many birthday wishes which may not be anything for yall but i don’t get much of that feel goodiness especially on my birthday so it just means a lot thank u pookies 🫶 i hope y’all enjoyed the fics i had today and i hope you’ll enjoy the ones tomorrow

also ! this is rlly stupid but i drew me and miguel earlier and i wanted to share w y’all ! haha thank u again mwah mwah

[badolmen]

Wrote out a big long phone call rant to have with my mother later because as much as I hate it she is my closest irl spiritual confidant 👍 here’s hoping her response to ‘hey I’ve been spiritually depressed and disconnected for like 8 months and for some reason these last two weeks advocating for Palestine has me feeling alive and burning with divine passion and love in a way I’ve never felt before in my life’ isn’t like. ‘Talk to your psyche abt your meds hun’

[valewritessss]

I feel like I came out of the womb with raging anxiety

[oxydiane]

what the hell is that chin

[lightspren]

I do not know how to explain to a 55lbs dog that the 8lbs cat really does not see her as a Fun New Friend, and in fact sees her as a terrifying eldritch horrorterror. because dog REALLY wants to play. And thusfar seems to think cat’s growling and swatting is weird attempts at playing. and i’m trying really hard to be chill about it but oh my god i’m gonna strangle the dog if she doesn’t leave the cat alone because I feel way too shitty to be playing referee today.

[bo0zey]

anyone else ever get in those silly goofy moods where u just hate urself sooo much that u instantly feel physically almost violently ill just thinking abt urself and also even tho u worked a 12hr shift w no breaks or water running off of the 2 cups of coffee u had for breakfast 20 hours ago, the thought of eating instantly sends bouts of nausea coursing thru ur soul while churning in ur stomach bc ur brain hates u so much that its convinced ur body that u don’t deserve sustenance or anything else that’s life sustaining or promotes ur physical well being because u subconsciously convinced urself that ur such a shit excuse for a human being that u neither deserve nor have any right to anything regarding maslow’s hierarchy of needs bc u r such an awful thing u deserve to be neglected n treated like the nonliving object ur own brain sees ur living body as or am i just mentally ill lol

[satansleftnutcheek]

Just finished GO2 :D

[starlooove]

Wondering why the fuck I ruined my sleep schedule like this and waking up to thunder

[flamedork]

say what you want but the foyet arc of criminal minds was the most gripping story of television history

[kavehater]

“Look at you you’re such a doll you’re so cute and the things you talk about are so entertaining and lively and fun and you’re soft spoken with a soft heart it makes people want to stay with you …apart from when you complain”

THAAAANK YOU ! You see this is why I never speak. I have been hearing this complaint from everybody. Am I as a human being not allowed to be upset and complain about things ?! This is why I bottle everything up. Ykw it’s my fault for that because I AM easy to talk to so it invites everyone even those who are intolerant to everything. Let me get mad let me be upset and complain UGH.

[jellycryptid]

Yes I bought those mystery pack trolls it was rlly bad at work

[cowboyishbabe]

Maybe had the best night of my life meeting Tobi Lou again but finally with my sibling.