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kalevalakryze · 8 months

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College of Geonosis (Repost)

Reposting this one for @barrissday ! It's definitely high up on my list of things to get back into once Whumptober, Ahsoka week, wolfwren week, sabine week, and Sabine Bingo have passed; I have some great ideas for this and I love everything so much

Pairings: Barriss Offee & Luminara Unduli, Barriss Offee/Ahsoka Tano, Ahsoka Tano & Anakin Skywalker

Characters: Barriss Offee, Luminara Unduli, Ahsoka Tano, Anakin Skywalker

Tags: Modern AU - Human, Modern AU - College, Slow Burn, Eventual Fluff, Barriss Offee-centric, Muslim Characters, Good Parent Luminara Unduli, Anxiety, References to depression, everyone is neurodivergent, no real hurt (yet)

Notes: This is one I'm actually pretty excited about, but I do have a few things to point out just so any inaccuracies are purely my own lack of expertise over ignorance.

I'm cis, nonreligious, and white. This has typically prevented me from writing or portraying any characters in any other category for fear of misrepresenting. However, when I picture a humanized version of both Barriss and Ahsoka, I cannot see women in my demographic. I'm putting in the work to try to be as accurate and learn as much as possible, however, if I mess anything up, please correct me, the last thing I'd like to do is butcher a representation and do them any less than the full justice they deserve.

I do not know much about any religion truthfully, so I'm learning with each piece I write, and I don't doubt that I will need to revise the more I learn.

I am also completely oblivious to the college experience, so if this works a little too much in the movies or cliche television, that's why. (personally, fingers crossed that one day I'll be able to get a degree, but with the way things have been working, it won't be doable for a while, so I'm just living my college dreams through these two).

Summary: Barriss was half excited and half full of dread as Luminara pulled up to the drop off at last. The dorm building was tall, the Tribunal building would be her home for the next few years, “I’m scared,” She found herself whispering against the window. Her hands were squeezing Luminara’s, and her mother lovingly squeezed back in a heartbeat pattern. “Fear can be a good thing, Barriss,” The wisened woman started, voice soft, even with all the noise of unruly undergrads outside. “Do it because you’re scared, and when you graduate, you’ll feel better about taking that step, the next ones won’t be as scary,” She pulled Barriss's hand until she could offer a gentle tug, leaning across the center console until Barriss’s head fell into her shoulder. “And, even if this doesn’t work out, I’m still proud of you for everything you’ve done to get here,”

Barriss used to believe things would be easier once she graduated high school. Maybe the pressure would stop, after all, she wouldn’t have to pile on her graduation requirements to her early college assignments, she could actually devote her focus on her pre-med track, where she’d earned enough credits during high school. If she could just stack as many classes into each available slot over the course of the year, including holidays and summer vacation, she could be heading for her Masters and her PhD in no time! At least, those were the hopes and dreams.

Her mother had never expressed any kind of expectation on her, not once, but Barriss had always felt… strange. Luminara Unduli was a healer, and so was her mother before her. Like with her own father, Luminara hadn’t known her own, and while the absence never felt large in her life, her mother’s attempts at pulling her away from her work to bond were a greater stressor. Realistically, the young woman knew that her mother hadn’t wanted to pass on the workaholic trait, but she’d been exposed ever since she was little, and if her mom was so perfect and put together, she could be to, if only she could rush through these classes and get a jump on this ‘stable adult life’ she’d been dreaming about since she was young.

Of course, the world worked in mysterious ways. Barriss Offee was moving halfway across the world to the states, where she would, apparently, be rooming with another undergrad in a mechanical engineering track, with minor lessons in law and politics. It seemed a rather… interesting tuition, but then, from the letters the two had exchanged over the summer since the College of Geonosis connected them, this Ahsoka Tano was an interesting character. The girl had apparently graduated high school early, and was going to be attending the same school as her older brother she only lovingly referred to as ‘skyguy’, who was a senior in the mechanical engineering program.

Ahsoka’s letters often rambled on and on, about her summer, and her excitement for the year, or to meet Barriss, or to tell her about ‘skyguy’ and his wife, or her apparently many brothers, she promised Barriss if she’s seen even one of them anywhere in the galaxy, she would know, apparently, for as many as she’d remembered to list off in the letters, they all looked quite similar. Those letters were the longest, and while exhausting to read, she hadn’t wanted to seem impolite.

Her own letters to Ahsoka were typically short, commenting on something she’d picked from pages of rambling to show she’d been paying attention, and filling in her own information whenever asked. Every time her mother retrieved the mail and dropped one of those orange envelopes at her desk, she would smile in a way that confused Barriss, would make her cheeks heat until she would sink further into her chair, pulling an end of her hijab just free enough that she could hide her burning face from her mothers’ knowing gaze.

This was a posture Barriss took for the majority of the trip away from Coruscant, and along the fifteen hour drive to the Geonosian capital, where her new university, new life, and new roommate would be waiting for her. The traffic to get into the school was jam packed, and Barriss considered herself lucky that the school had allowed her to get her assignments, keys, and badges delivered to her home prior to the semester’s start, one of her final tastes of the perks of having a parent much more extroverted than herself.

Luminara’s hand came to rest on her knee, and with a slow, measured breath, both of Barriss’s moved to cover her mother’s hand with her own. Anxiety thrummed in her veins, as they watched the line of cars into the dorms inch forward, and students taking ages to bid their farewells. “I’ve arranged some work, for the first couple of days,” Luminara started slowly, once Barriss’s fidgeting was directly to playing with her fingers, smoothing over the neat black polish on each fingernail, or the brass metal bracelets that adorned her mothers wrists.

The young woman was unable to hide her relief at this knowledge. If it became too much, she wouldn’t be inconveniencing her too much to ask to come home. This was her first trip more than two hours from home, after all, and she was more than a little scared, something her mother had always been keen at keeping an eye out for, and coming up with a solution that wouldn’t further damage her nerves. “Thank you,” She breathed, barely audible from the thumping of a nearby bass. Four young men pulled up in the car beside them, the driver… with a tattoo on his face? Was identical to every other passenger in the car, in a way that made her look twice, but no. The others did not share the goatee and forehead tattoo as the driver banged his head to a song she would never be able to make out.

She hadn’t realized she’d been squeezing her mother’s hand until Luminara had to reach across her seat, to brush her fingertips over the back of Barriss’s knuckles, to remind her that if she started squeezing any harder it would begin to hurt. Her cheeks burned as she released her hold on Luminara’s hand, but the woman did not move her hand away, simply rested her now free hand back on the steering wheel and inched just a bit closer in line. “You’re going to do perfect here, and you won’t be alone, you’ll have Ahsoka, and I’m sure Professor Vos wouldn’t mind checking in every now and then,” She promised, and Barriss felt some of the tension in her shoulders relax.

“I will do my best to utilize the resources offered,” Barriss promised, missing the frown that tugged on Luminara’s lips as her head turned back to the driveway. Enough cars were starting to clear now, that she was able to make a substantial jump in line.

“The temporary office is only ten minutes away, but I’ll only be here for a week, Master Tholme has requested that I return to the home office to work on one of our newer developed strands and vaccines,” She spoke about her work freely and often with Barriss, part of why she’d fallen in love with the pre-med track in the first place. Her mother’s passion for her career helped Barriss fall in love with the world in a way she didn’t think possible, and while she had many obstacles to overcome, she had to stay positive that she would succeed thanks to her hard work and the resources available.

She was half excited and half full of dread as Luminara pulled up to the drop off at last. The dorm building was tall, the Tribunal building would be her home for the next few years, “I’m scared,” She found herself whispering against the window. Her hands were squeezing Luminara’s once more, but this time, she squeezed back in a heartbeat pattern.

“Fear can be a good thing, Barriss,” Her mother started, voice soft, even with all the noise of unruly undergrads outside. “Do it because you’re scared, and when you graduate, you’ll feel better about taking that step, the next ones won’t be as scary,” She pulled the younger woman's hand until she could give a gentle tug, leaning across the center console until Barriss’s head fell into her shoulder. “And, even if this doesn’t work out, I’m still proud of you for everything you’ve done to get here,”

She inhaled slowly, eyes sliding shut as she cherished her last moment of peace. “I’ll take these ones with you,” Luminara promised, before unbuckling and sliding out of her seat. In just a few long strides, Barriss’s door was opened, and her mother’s hand reached to help her out. Another slow, controlled breath, before she grabbed her hand and rose out of the car.

The sounds hit her like a wall of bricks, but the young woman swallowed, squeezing her mothers' hand once more before she moved to gather her two bags from the back seat. It wasn’t much, but she’d practiced packing light. The heaviest things were most likely the books she’d brought, though if it had been up to her, the entire Unduli home's library would be packed into that car, so the dozen or so thick tomes she stashed was a lesson in self-control.

Luminara took one of the bags before Barriss could sling it over her shoulder, and then nodded her way towards the building. “I’ll follow you,” She promised, offering a reassuring smile. The lobby was crowded full of students collecting keys, complaining to the resident assistants, and students saying lengthy and teary eyed goodbyes. She’d studied every map, and had planned for every single scenario that could alter her course to her new home. It was a big step, but Barriss led the way through the winding mazes odd bodies, up until she came to room 332.

There was music playing through a speaker inside the room, Barriss paused at the sight of two figures that occupied the side closest to the heavy wooden door. And older man, long hair, sharp jawline, blue eyes enunciated with a scar that cut across his right eye. His arms were crossed against his chest as he seemed to be caught in an argument with his companion. The woman was young, younger than Barriss even, with dark skin offset by clean stripes of near white skin, she had wanted to guess tattoos, though it seemed highly improbable, most likely an intricate case of vitiligo that cast diamonds and sweeping lines across her face. White and Blue dyed dreads sat piled on top of her head, and her eyebrows furrowed as he spoke.

“If you didn’t interrupt me, every time I tried-“

“I wasn’t interrupting, I was trying to help you,” Which, Barriss believed, threw off whatever intention he was attempting to convey, considering he’d interrupted the younger woman.

The woman’s hands went up in the air as she shook her head. “Which I’d appreciate, if you didn’t interrupt me to do it! I just think maybe you don’t trust that I can handle this on my own,”

“It’s not about trust, it’s about making sure everything’s right,” He pushed himself off the desk then, and a gentle hand on Barriss shoulder had her stepping into the fray, her brows furrowing as she listened to them go back and forth.

“Oh! So you don’t trust me to do it right!” The woman accused, her finger poking into his bicep, which he batted out of the way with an exasperated sigh. “I knew it!’

His posture relaxed, seemingly defeated. “Snips, I never said-“

Her arms crossed defensively over her own chest, now, mirroring his habit of interruption. “No, no. It’s okay, I understand. I’m the freshman, you’re the aide,”The woman turned away from him, going back to angrily folding a sweatshirt that must have been tossed on the made ben when they started their spat.

Their conversation dropped to whispers neither woman could make out, but as Barriss stepped forward, to make their presence known,’snips’ started back up. “If you don’t trust me, why don’t you just send me back,” She snarked, the shirt tossed once again down onto the bed as she spun to face him once more.

“Don’t tempt me, Snips,” He warned, when his hand pulled into a fist, Barriss took note of the rigidness of his hand, it wasn’t hard to see the mechanics of a prosthetic through the black glove he’d placed over it.

“If you’re both finished…?” Luminara started, growing weary of standing in the entryway. Boredom outwore politeness and she stepped past her daughter, into the room, to set the small duffel bag onto the foot of the unclaimed bed. “Well, Barriss, aren’t you going to introduce yourself?” She guided, once she’d finally entered and shut the door behind her.

She caught the man bumping the younger woman’s shoulder, until she’d turned to acknowledge the newcomers. Barriss stepped forward then, cheeks darkening as she dipped her head and curtseyed. “Kinesiology major, Barriss Offer, at your service,” She greeted, her lips quirking immediately at the way the woman she assumed to be her roommate beamed at her.

Ahsoka and the man shared a look, and she shook her head at him. The younger woman’s hand reached towards Barriss. “Glad to meet you, I’m Ahsoka, and this,” She jerked her thumb over her shoulder, to the man at the desk, who’d rolled his eyes. “Is my brother, Anakin,”

When Barriss took Ahsoka’s hand, both woman offered near hesitant smiles simultaneously, and Barriss caught the way her mother’s lips quirked as she stepped closer to Anakin, and the way the two bowed their heads together and seemed to be passing on a quiet conversation. “Your majoring in mechanical engineering, correct?”

Ahsoka nodded, her hand squeezing Barriss before dropping her hand to turn and grab a notebook. “Yeah of course! I know you mentioned your pre med track, and I have a brother who did medical engineering too, he wouldn’t shut up about it when I asked,” Ahsoka grabbed a messy notebook from a spilled open duffel bag, messy notes scrawled across designs all across the sheets of paper, almost impossible to decipher as she peered over them.

“She’s been up Kix’s rear getting him to teach her everything he knew pre-med, since she learned her track,” Barriss heard Anakin mention to her mother. She paused, hand reaching to grab the corner of the notebook. Ahsoka had obviously put a great deal of time into learning about the stranger’s interests, so the least Barriss could do was pay attention.

“these are…” The woman blinked, her lips pulling into a smile. “Most of these designs aren’t used until more than halfway through the course, and you’ve already figured out their uses,” She was truly stunned, there were instruction diagrams and equipment notes for pieces she’d only ever hoped to use in the practice one day.

“I watched a lot of Grey’s anatomy,” The woman informed with a big grin and a nod of her head. The notebook was shut and sat back on the already cluttered desk. “It’s actually really interesting, the subject, not the show,” And then a half nervous laugh, Barriss turned her face, her hand raising to her lips to cover the smile that pulled at her own.

It was Luminara who finally stepped in, her hand on Barriss’s shoulder. “Perhaps you two would like to join us for a quick lunch, then? I’m sure Barriss would love to hear all about what you’ve learned,” Barriss’s cheeks darkened, but she did not her head and focus her gaze on Ahsoka, who was looking at her older brother for permission.

“Hey, snips, you’re the adult here,” He defended, his hands raised in surrender and a smirk pulling at his lips. The young woman stuck her tongue out at him cruelly, before nodding her head up at both Barriss and Luminara.

“I think that’d be great!” Ahsoka’s enthusiasm was starting to rub off on Barriss, who’d set her bags down with the intent of unpacking later. They’d been in the car for quite some time now, and she’d be lying to say she wasn’t starved.

Together, the four of them exited the dorm, Barriss and Luminara piling into their car once more, overheated with the summer, while Anakin and Ashoka dispersed into the student parking lot.

With the air conditioning cranked, and their car rolling down the road, the sight of a black helmet and a white and blue helmet further up along the busy roadways was enough for Luminara to speak. “How do you feel about your arrangements?” She prompted, eyes flickering from the road for only a moment.

“I… I do truly believe it will be an enlightening experience,” The young woman frowned in thought. “Ahsoka took an interest in what I told her, and learned more about it, it is quite an admirable feat,” A pregnant pause, as their car pulled to a stoplight. “Do you know her brother, Anakin?” Because really, the way she’d caught the two conversing was not entirely unusual for her mother, but she’d never taken politeness to a friendly level before.

“Do you remember Professor Kenobi? From the Criminal Justice department?”

“You two attended university together, correct?”

“We had, on Coruscant. Anakin and Ahsoka were his charges since they were young. When you mentioned that the university had put you with Ahsoka, I assumed it as a good thing, I’m glad to see that so far, it seems I was correct,”

Barriss cheeks heated, so she reached to turn the air conditioners vent to point at her face. “She is quite thoughtful, and this does ease some of my fears about being put with someone I would not grow to like… I hope the rest of the year turns out to be as fruitful.”

Poggle’s diner was surprisingly slow as they pulled into the parking lot, their sedan pulling into the empty spot between two sport bikes, one black and blue, with the other in a variety of orange, white, and blue. Barriss took immediate notice that the white designs on the helmet and gas tank vaguely resembled her new roommates vitiligo.

“The mosque is nearby as well, I wish to visit with you this afternoon, and help you get acquainted,” Luminara mentioned as the two women exited the vehicle, the car beeping to acknowledge its locked status.

“That would be lovely, I had a difficult time printing the directions at the library before we left,” Because, if there was one person who still used Mapquest, it was Barriss Offee, with an excuse of simplicity, and being able to draw her route along the map to help her stay oriented.

The inside of the dinner was a little dirty, just as spare as the outside, making it easy to see the two young adults, who kept sliding the paper to their straws back on and shooting them at each other. When Ahsoka’s paper projectile hit the floor, Anakin had shot up and declared her the loser, a sheepish smile on his face as the two women approached. “You made it! Hope traffic wasn’t too bad, I refuse to drive a car anywhere in the city this time of year,” He explained as he crumpled up the paper into a ball, dropping it next to Ashoka’s, before reaching into her hair to retrieve his own white paper that had been lost to white dye.

“He is a menace,” Ahsoka deadpanned, taking a sip from the water in front of her. The woman’s legs were tucked up onto the booth with her, childish, but… Barriss couldn’t help but find it endearing, as she slid herself to the inside of the booth across from her new friend. “Anakin said you were an early grad too, right?”

“Oh, yes, actually. I took my classes during holiday, and received credit from the local community college to aid in my enrollment here,” Barriss explained, her hands folding together on the table in front of her. “You graduated early as well?”

“Yeah! Well, kind of! Turns out, with my last placement, I was taking more classes than I needed to, and getting the credits I needed, so when Obi-Wan took me in, everything fell into place, but I did kind of gap it so I could work in Skyguy’s shop. The customer service is trash, but he can get anything working again,” She pointed out, grinning widely at the nudge of her brothers’ elbow into her ribs.

“That is interesting, and I have to say I am quite intrigued on your perspectives, more so education wise, I have not met anyone outside of my desired study who has taken the time to learn about it,”

Ahsoka’s cheeks darkened, and her shoulders shrugged. The waiter came and went, the two girls left alone in their little world. They continued to pass knowledge and stories back to each other, with Luminara or Anakin only chiming in so often to point out an embarrassing discrepancy in the story. Their meals came and went, and by the time they were all getting ready to depart once more, it would have been impossible to believe that the pair had only met that day.

“It was lovely to meet both of you, Anakin, Ahsoka. I will be in town for the next few days for some work, if either of you needs anything, and please, do pass on my well wishes to Professor Kenobi.” Luminara dismissed, her hand on Barriss shoulder as she nodded to the two young adults. “I am going to cool down the car,” And then her mother was walking away, but Ahsoka was stepping up, her hand extended.

“Guess I’ll see you tonight then, roomie?” She questioned with a smile pulling at the corners of her lips. Barriss took her hand, much more confident than she had been upon their first meeting.

“Of course, I look forward to it. It was nice to meet you as well, Anakin,” The man in question raised two fingers to the corner of a split eyebrow in a friendly mock of a salute, before Barriss took her leave back to the cooling vehicle.

“They certainly are different, but.. not in a bad way,” She confided to Luminara as she sat in the passenger seat and secured her safety belt. “I think I will like it here, to an extent,” She didn’t want to promise that she would love the place, but she was now more willing to give it a chance than she’d been before.

“It makes me glad to hear this, Barriss. I’m proud of the steps you’ve taken today,” Her mothers hand did not leave her own the entire short trip to the Mosque, filling with folks all across the city

Even prayer felt more comfortable than it had in the Core. There were less people, she felt like she could breathe, and as the session came to a close, many stayed to converse, to check in. It was certainly more a community than the closed off life she’d come to know.

Barriss would not get to meet the imam, but she did get her name settled so they would know to expect her, if not every day, than at least four times a week. Prayer at home never came as easy to her, especially not as enlightening as it had been that day, and she quite looked forward to seeing if she would fit in to their community.

The return to the dorm was quieter than their first trip, and Barriss had to take a moment to prepare herself for her first true night away from her mother. “I will miss you,” She spoke into Luminara’s sweater as her face buried in her shoulder.

“I’ll only be a phone call away, little one,” The woman promised, her thumb brushing across Barriss’s cheek with her own sorrow painted on her features. “And I will be nearby as well, as you settle. You need only call,”

In the end Luminara did not walk up with Barriss, had guided her to make the hardest steps herself, and she had. The dorm room was dark, and mostly quiet when she entered. Ahsoka was sprawled haphazardly on her bed, with her phone settled by her head and quietly playing music too low for the older woman to make out.

Her belongings were unpacked quietly and carefully. Computer and books organized on the desk, clothes settled into the provided dresser. Her dead phone removed from her bag and plugged in, settled on the corner of the desk as well. When everything was just as she wanted it, and she could complete Maghrib, it was clear two very separate people occupied the space, with her neat organization, and color coded notebooks, and Ahsoka’s mess of books and notebooks opened and sprawled out with diagrams already across the desk.

It was mildly endearing, though Barriss had to wonder if it would ever come to grind on her. She had to hope it would not, as she quite enjoyed her current arrangement. She had many thoughts about the woman occupying the other space, as she retreated once more to the space provided for her fifth and final vesper of the night. She wasn’t necessarily distracted, but she did find herself pondering questions she’d never had before.

Sleep came that night with a new fear, one she had never entertained before, because no one else had ever held such meaning to her life, especially not in such a short time. The fear that perhaps Ahsoka did not like her at all? As sleep found her, Barriss promised, either to the sleeping Ahsoka, or to the ceiling, she was not certain, that she would wish to learn about the types of different engineering as well.

#barrissday #barriss offee #master luminara #luminara unduli #ahsoka tano #barrisoka #barisoka #barriss offee x ahsoka tano #ahsoka and barriss #alternate universe #star wars #repost #shameless repost #and they were roommates #fan fic #fic share #they're both oblivious and dorks and sweet and I love them okay #I can't wait to get back into this one

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deanwax · 7 months

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Q&A Tag

thank for tag @dyrewrites

i will keep this as an open tag, for i am eepy.

1) Are you named after anyone?

I have my paternal grandmother's name as my middle name, but I won't say what it is.

2) When was the last time you cried?

The older I get, the more easily I get teary eyed, especially when watching performances or pondering big concepts. I think the last actually shed tear was during the orchestral prelude of The Beauty and the Beast musical a couple weeks ago.

3) Do you have kids?

No. I have never wanted children, which surprises people who have witnessed how excited I get about births among my friends and family. I very much like when my loved ones prosper, I still don't want a baby of my own.

4) What sports do you play/have you played?

Trolley Walk, a sport which doesn't exist but engages me to my core. It is Me vs. Abandoned Trolleys in my Community And Also All Uneven Pavement and Hills, and those trolleys are going back to the shops from whence they came. The intensity ranges from Casual to Ahab and the Whale.

5) Do you use sarcasm?

I try not to, because I'm autistic and I remember the pain of not understanding sarcasm properly. I much prefer the games that we do among my squad who plays video games together on Discord, where we say very stupid things ("my hands are cold" - "get bigger hands"). It's more fun and more obvious.

6. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Probably their hair, but that's probably because it's larger than other features. I am more visually interested in people's eyes and the diversity of their bone structure.

7. What’s your eye color?

Green. It's a genetic mutation!

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

I like to be scared for fun.

9. Any talents?

Most people I am close with are impressed at how good I am at self care and housekeeping tasks, or 'adulting'. Even when I am very ill, I still manage to feed and bathe myself and maintain a reasonably ordered living space. This is a very useful trait that I would not trade for anything.

10. Where were you born?

Subiaco, Western Australia.

11. What are your hobbies?

Video games, cooking, writing, going to local theatre shows, listening to video essays.

12. Do you have any pets?

Nope!

13. How tall are you?

5'10", but I will often round up to 6 foot to better convey the bigness of me. People who have not met me in person before are often very surprised by my height.

14. Favorite subject in school?

Visual Art. I was the prefect for that subject.

15. Dream job?

I already have it, but it's not related to any of my creative pursuits. It involves technical copywriting and document maintenance. I am compensated reasonably, the work environment is supportive and considerate of my needs, and I have a junior team member to mentor. Learning interpersonal and leadership skills are challenging, but not draining. I don't aspire to much more under capitalism. While I do have a diploma of Graphic Design, that coursework made me realise that I would LOATHE to be creative for other people for money.

#tag games #writeblr #open tag

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sayoskyy · 5 months

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Something Came Alive - A FNaF Inspired Short Story

It took a couple of seconds for my eyes to adjust to the new scenery I found myself in. The room was filled to the brim with arcade machines, toys, and other attractions. While this must have been a place many would've considered their childhood, I never got to visit one as a kid. And yet... Something about this room felt incredibly nostalgic to me.

It's exactly what I pictured an arcade to look like based on the movies I've watched and the stories I've been told. As if I was being led on a trail, my eyes went from one arcade machine to the other, trying to identify any details I could. I couldn't quite recognize any of them until I noticed the side of one of the cabinets. It had the art of a cartoon character I used to adore when I was growing up.

As I walked towards the machine, my excitement went through the roof. I don't usually get that excited about anything, but this had a grip on my mind. I had to play the game. However, when I finally inserted a coin, nothing happened. I tried everything I could think of, putting in more coins, rustling the machine back and forth, and I was still met with a blank screen.

I was as devastated as a little kid being told it can't go on one of the rides in the amusement park. Just as I was starting to tear up, I realized how silly I was acting. I'm a grown woman now, why am I crying over this crappy arcade game not working? As soon as that thought came, it quickly got replaced with another.

The only exit out of this room was a comically grand and whimsical door, like the entrance to a palace. Once I pushed it open, I was disappointed, to say the least. A huge door like that felt like it would promise as equally huge of a room on the other side. In contrast to the overstuffed arcade, this room was completely empty.

I suppose it was meant to be some sort of main lobby, judging by the fact the only thing it contained was a bunch of doors with labels on them. I tried reading them, but I couldn't understand what they were saying. It was gibberish to me. I picked a door at random and went inside.

Wires, metal, and various tools — it seemed to be some sort of storage room. What really caught my attention was all the robotic parts laying around. They all looked like they came from different robots, but I could see the consistency in their design. I picked up everything I could find and started trying to assemble them, like putting together a puzzle, with the difference that there were five different sets mixed together.

I must have zoned out while building it because it was ready before I even knew it. In a way, my creation was rather creepy-looking. No face besides its lower jaw, crooked bunny ears, one singular arm, an endoskeleton leg with every part of it being a different color. However, I felt more sympathetic towards it than scared.

The scrap it was made with was very worn down, and it looked at least 20 years old. Just as I was getting ready to move onto something else, I heard a faint hum coming from my robot. The hum then turned to whirring. Painful whirring and clanging. I watched as the mismatched machine tried sitting up straight on the table.

It was like an animal trying to pilot a human body. Jittering, shaking, and making nonsensical movements. The sight was too much for me to just gawk at and do nothing about, so I helped it stand up. I was taken aback by just how tall it was; like a child staring down an adult, as tall as a tower. For a long moment, it observed me, tilting its head left and right.

The ticking that came from inside the machine as it watched was dreadful. I wanted to run, but my body was frozen solid. I had no clue what it would do once it gathered enough data.

"Input your name," the bot spoke to me. I couldn’t comprehend what was happening. Everything that had happened made no sense. Wouldn’t this thing need some sort of power source to move, let alone talk to me?

"Input your name," it repeated. I imagined a far more friendly voice from what seemed to be an entertainer, but it was monotone and robotic. Only a hint of humanity could be heard through it.

"Julie. My name is Julie." Once I replied, there was a couple of seconds of relief... Until it quickly came crashing down with fear. Two red lights beamed through the robot's darkened face, or rather lack thereof. I was like a deer in headlights; I was stunned. I didn’t know what to make out of the situation.

"I remember. How could I not?" As it talked to me, I could hear its voice becoming more lively. Like it gained some sort of consciousness. Was it confusing me for someone else? This was the first time I’ve ever been in the presence of an animatronic, and I’ve certainly never been in this place before. “Where am I even? How did I end up here?” I thought to myself.

"You did this to me. And you get to live without a single worry. Nobody knows. But I always will." With every word it spoke, it took another step towards me. I couldn’t let this go on any further. I took a run for it, pushing onwards to any door or hallway I could find. Every new room I entered was stranger than the last, but I couldn’t linger on it for too long. I could hear the machine speeding up, every step sounding more powerful than the last. This maze of a building seemed endless, and I didn’t know how much longer I could keep up. My head was getting dizzy; I felt like I would throw up at any second.

After what felt like forever, I hit a dead end. I couldn’t quite tell where I was, but my best guess would be an office. There was one large desk with an assortment of monitors, plush toys, and stacks upon stacks of papers. What may have been my saving grace, however, was a row of empty mascot suits sitting limp behind the desk. If I hid in one of them, maybe it wouldn’t find me. I picked the bear mascot, who sat on the far left. I tried my best to hide as deep inside of it as I possibly could.

CLANK!

It’s inside. I held my breath and put my hands on my eyes. I’m not particularly a religious person, but at that moment, I had found an excuse to pray for the first time in my life. I begged God to make this thing go away.

One by one, I could hear it snatching the costumes, throwing them across the room once it identified whether I was there or not. As its glowing red eyes focused on the bear suit, I knew what was coming.

It reached inside and grabbed me by the neck. I tried to loosen its grip, but it was far too powerful. After some struggling, it finally pulled me out.

"I will do what you did to me all those years ago. You’ll find out how it feels to slowly get the life drained out of you while you hopelessly fight for survival. You can’t ignore me forever, Julie." Before it could finish, the dim light in the room went out. First there was silence, then there was relief, and finally — panic.

As I laid in bed, my entire body was paralyzed from what I had just experienced. This was the most vivid nightmare I’ve had in a long time. Usually, I forget them shortly after waking up, but this one really stuck with me. It's been 10 years since the incident; why is my brain reminding me of it now? I thought I had moved on; I thought I had put the past behind me. Before long, I tried to forget about it and calmed myself down. It wasn’t something worth being hung up over.

My clothes were drenched with sweat, so I decided to get up and change. I drank some water and got ready to go back to sleep. But as soon as I closed my eyes, I could hear someone walking outside my room. As it got closer, I could feel my entire room shake. I pinched myself, but this wasn’t another dream. Someone or something was approaching my room. After a prolonged sense of anticipation, a subtle creak signaled the gradual opening of my door. Emerging from the shadowy void, a pair of crimson lights cast a glow upon me.

#fnaf #fnaf fanart #fnaf movie #fnaf fanfic #writing #short story #fnaf bonnie #withered bonnie

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prof-polaris · 3 months

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[ic dm from a burner account]

My name is Nil.

Beedrill will know me by the name Mouse Fauna.

I can give you whatever you want- money, pokemon, free labor - Just - please don't hurt them.

I - have been watching your sons account for awhile- beedrill doesn't speak like that, I've seen him happy - he's not happy- i can't tell if he's safe. I know you're planning on adopting that beartic.

I fear for them.

... Can I please have a photo of bird- again I can pay- she was around 4 months old when I left. Beedrill too- He doesn't sound alive like he used to be - is he alive...?

Please just keep them safe.

-Nil

[ic dm]

....Well clearly you have not been around this account for very long, because I would never. Hurt Beedrill or Bird. I care for them as if they were my own.

I don't want money, or pokemon, or free labor, Arceus above. They're good kids, and I'm taking care of them.

You're right, Beedrill isn't happy. He's having a very hard time right now. He lost his partner porygon to the Team Fauna portal and has no way of getting him back whole, and it brings him a lot of pain. I've been doing my best to help and support him, but there is only so much I can do.

And for Arc's sake, I'm not adopting the beartic, I'm readying the beartic for adoption. I would not adopt a pokemon that would make my children feel scared or unsafe. Unless Beedrill gives express consent and I am sure it is not because he feels pressured, that beartic is not entering my home.

You do not need to pay me, or do anything else. Here are photos of Bird. She's growing up to be a very sweet young lady, and she loves bug types and sweets with apple and cinnamon.

[A few photos are attached, Bird having hot chocolate in a little blanket nest during a movie night, Bird cuddling with her new Sewaddle, Bird giving a Galvantula a treat, and Bird with a Larvesta sleeping in her lap while she tries to hold still but is clearly excited.]

I. Only have one photo of Beedrill. He does a lot of sleeping in his room and ignoring me which is fine. Teenagers will be teenagers. I want him to go to therapy, but he is an adult so I cannot make that decision for him.

[A photo is attached. An appletun is hounding Beedrill for treats. He looks unamused.]

You know... You could always come and see them? It doesn't have to be at my house if that makes you uncomfortable, there are a few local parks. I'm more than willing if it gives you some peace of mind that they are being taken care of.

#Nil :)#pkmn irl #pokeblogging #rotomblr #pokemon irl #pokeblr

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lillyorlyracat · 1 year

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THE F/O LIST!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay babies! This is it! This is the f/o list!

This will include almost EVERY SINGLE ONE of my fictional others! This is linked on my pinned post, which is likely where you're coming from. I'll update this from time to time with new skrunklies when they come up and

As for boundaries, I don't have many! If you happen to share an f/o with me, that's really cool, I'm not uncomfortable with that, they love you. If you need to block me because you are uncomfortable with f/o sharing, that's cool too! I totally understand.

Additionally, I am a minor, so a couple of my romantic f/o's are also minors (around my age). They're growing up with me, by the time I'm an adult they will also be adults,,, anwudggx I'm not weird ;w;

One more thing! I have a boyfriend irl who also selfships! It shares a good ton of f/o's with me, so I'll mark the ones we're both dating with a star (☆)

Okay. NOW I can list the characters...

Romantic f/o's

Tribore Menendez (Final Space)

Randall Boggs (Monsters Inc/University)☆

Marvin the Martian (all Looney Tunes media)☆

Roger Smith (American Dad)

Loki (Marvel)☆

Blitzø (Helluva Boss)☆

Sir Pentious (Hazbin Hotel)

Filburt Shellbach (Rocko's Modern Life)

Hawkodile (Unikitty!)

Lord Garmadon (LEGO Ninjago, but specifically the movie. I haven't seen the show)

Jenny Wakeman (My Life as a Teenage Robot)☆

Makoto Kino/Sailor Jupiter (Sailor Moon.. but the og not Crystal.. I don't plan on seeing Crystal)

Judy Hopps (Zootopia)☆

Pleakley (Lilo & Stitch)☆

MoominMamma (all Moomins media, but mostly the 90s series bc i'm the most familiar with that one)

Donatello (TMNT 2012)☆

Minion (Megamind)

Mr. Piranha (The Bad Guys)☆

Rapunzel (Tangled)☆

Triffany Lottablog (Bugsnax)

Crane (Kung Fu Panda)

Bandit Heeler (Bluey!)☆

Chilli Heeler (Bluey!)☆

Invader Skoodge (Invader Zim)

Lard Nar (Invader Zim)

Audrey II (Little Shop of Horrors)☆

Commander Peepers (Wander Over Yonder)☆

Flo (Splatoon 2)

Donnie and Raph (ROTTMNT)☆

Aristotle (Billie Bust Up!) ☆

Rusty Rose (Sonic Prime)

Shawn (Sunny Day Jack)

Thorax (MLP:FiM)

King Trollex (Trolls franchise)

Meta Knight (Kirby)☆

Miscellaneous f/o's that I'm not sure if they're romantic or queerplatonic or what but I still love them

Jevil (Deltarune)

Spamton (Deltarune)

Stripe Heeler (Bluey!)

Escargoon (Kirby)

Spinel (Steven Universe)

Queen (Deltarune)

Rouxls Kaard (Deltarune)

Colin the computer (Don't Hug Me I'm Scared)

Starlo (Undertale Yellow)

Mr Ping (Kung Fu Panda)

Tulio Triviño (31 Minutos)

Caine (The Amazing Digital Circus)

Cooper (Trolls)

There's a lot of deltarune characters in there.. Anyway,

Queerplatonic f/o's

Skelita Calaveras (Monster High)

Hairdresser Octopus/Takoyama (Parappa The Rapper)

Durpleton (Centaurworld)

Bloberta Puppington (Moral Orel)

Familial f/o's

Quatronosto Menendez (Final Space)

Trequeño Menendez (Final Space OC)

Ickis (AAAHH!!! Real Monsters)

Devil Cookie (Cookie Run)

Megamind (Megamind...)

Bluey Heeler (Bluey!)

Bingo Heeler (Bluey!)

Muffin Heeler (Bluey!)

Socks Heeler (Bluey!)

Ghoulia Yelps (G1 Monster High ONLY)

Beezle (Unico)

Vannelope Von Schweetz (Wreck-It Ralph)

Usagi Tsukino/Sailor Moon (Sailor Moon)

Gilbert, Shellbert, Norbert, and Missy Hutchison (Rocko’s Modern Life)

Orel Puppington (Moral Orel)

Ms. Tarantula (The Bad Guys)

Mr. Shark (The Bad Guys)

Ninni (all Moomins media but mostly the 90s series)

Leo and Mikey (ROTTMNT)

Blossom, Bubbles, and Buttercup (Powerpuff Girls)

Bugs Bunny (all Looney Tunes media)

Lock, Shock, and Barrel (Nightmare Before Christmas)

Moomin/Moomintroll (Moomins media, mostly 90s)

Little My (Moomins media, mostly 90s)

Loona (Helluva Boss)

Ma, Pa, and Junior Gorg (Fraggle Rock)

Oh (Home 2015)

All the other turtles (TMNT 2012)

Platonic f/o's

Every other Bugsnax character

Mike Wazowski (Monsters Inc/University/At Work)

Roxanne Richie (Megamind)

Casey Jones (TMNT 2012)

Callie (Splatoon)

Marie (Splatoon)

Rocko (Rocko's Modern Life)

Mr Hemulen (all moomins media,, specifically 90s,, you get it by now)

Marinette Dupain-Cheng (Miraculous Ladybug & Chat Noir)

Adrien Agreste (Miraculous Ladybug & Chat Noir)

All the other Centaurworld characters ever

All the Muppets ever. Every single one of them

Cotterpin Doozer (Fraggle Rock)

Every resident of Radiator Springs (Cars franchise)

Francine Smith (American Dad)

Legoshi (Beastars)

Scootaloo (MLP:FiM)

Apple Bloom (MLP:FiM)

Derpy (MLP:FiM)

Kirby

The whole Belcher family + Teddy (Bob's Burgers)

Unikitty (Unikitty!)

Puppycorn (Unikitty!)

Richard (Unikitty!)

Dr. Fox (Unikitty!)

Nick Wilde (Zootopia)

The rest of the Furious Five (Kung Fu Panda)

And Po (Kung Fu Panda)

Fantoccio (Billie Bust Up)

And Shifu (Kung Fu Panda)

And Zhen!! (Kung Fu Panda)

Barnaby (Billie Bust Up)

Peridot (Steven Universe)

Fictionkin related f/o's🔥🪼

Wade 💧

Wade's family <3 💦

[Note: I haven't met any fictionkin folks who are them yet (I'm not counting my irl bf because he's not fictionkin though associate him with Wade), but I'd really like to meet Bernie & my kraken family 🥲]

Bernie & Cinder Lumen (my parents) ❤️‍🔥

Margot ✨️

Agatha, Arthur, & Sam Gillman (my parents and little brother) 🐙

Uncle Brill 🤪

Grandmamah 👑

Nessie!! 🐾

[+ bonus: my first fictional enemy! Chelsea 🧜‍♀️]

Alrighty! Well, that's all i can think of at the moment... thanks for reading I suppose :)

#self ship #fictional other #f/o #f/o posting #f/o list #selfship #self shipper #selfshipping #self shipping #fictional others #fictionkin

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lu-kario · 11 months

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today my dear followers who did not ask for this,

A Very Honest Slenderman(2018) Review!!!

by a creepypasta fanatic and someone who needs to think about smth else to not k- moving onto the "review". (it's not a real review i'm just gonna shit on it obviously)

It's just gonna be a list of things I noticed that bothered me throughout the whole film and made it physically difficult to watch. That was the second movie that took me two days to watch not because I was scared, but because it hurt my brain to finish it. ((((also yes. i am very . VERY . late to the party. i know. don't worry)))

Starting off, the characters are not likeable at all. None of them. They don't behave like actual teenagers. Someone from that directing team was observing high school students for a week with a notepad and was done after thinking they did a good job. I may or may not be autistic and not behave like that either but I've been in high school and have seen stuff. Obviously.

Second of all who just watches adult vids and calls it a night with friends wtf-

Not important . Maybe someone does?? Also these teenagers are created to be so edgy for absolutely no reason ((pointing out that line from ginger girlie saying that the cat should've exploded at the end i'm so fkn glad she was gone first)).

Another thing. Let's get to the star of the mfing show,,, Slenderman .

What they made of him was some kind of a,,, dryad?? Like there's legit some Slenderman Tree in the woods that he walks out of to collect kids and bear them with his big ol' self. Don't get me wrong that concept would be cool on it's own if not the thing that. It doesn't suit him at all. And the Slenderman Summoning Video as well- wth was that . You're telling me some bells (something added for the sake of the movie I suppose bcuz i never heard of that) with added five stock images of what'd you get if you typed 'illuminati' giving you a high speed seizure attack are gonna summon this big boy? The reactions are so hilarious to me as well WHY WERE THESE GIRLS PANTING AS IF THE DAMN SLENDERMAN WAS THERE WITH THEM give me a break. That would hint at least Slendy is some kind of . illuminati-ish experiment left off in the local woods grabbing kids to expand the tree for decades? i suppose.

Mostly what they did with him is giving marble hornets series but make it a on-budget parody that relies for it's damn life on shock value- flashing images constantly, having those ominous shots to make you feel something and lemme tell you i did feel something(nauseous). Also having the original contest images in the film was fucking hilarious so uh +1 for that but that's the only thing i actually liked.

Yet another thing! Nothing in this movie felt genuinely connected to each other,, if it was an artistic interpretation or smth idk i think i wouldn't mind as much but don't be calling this a damn full fleshed out movie.

The Slendy in this movie felt like a totally different being than the original it was sad to watch.

the effects were ,,,alright? like nothing to hate but nothing specific about it to like . it was just alright at best.

very last thing unless i've decided i remembered smth else-

THE LIGHT WORK IN THIS MOVIE WAS SO FUCKING TERRIBLE I HAD MY SCREEN LIGHT SET ON MAX AND STILL COULDN'T SEE A DAMN THING AND GUESS WHAT? THAT WAS THRU OUT LIKE 80% OF THE DAMN MOVIE

enough of that no matter if you enjoyed the ranting have a great day dont watch this movie unless you wanna suffer uhhhh have this cool cat pic of my cat idk what to put here anymore

edit

oh yeah i remember now

WHY DID SLENDY WALKED SO SEDUCTIVELY.............WHAT,

bro was swinging his hips seducing the victims i am done goodbye

#slenderman #shitpost #bcuz its shit #rant #long post

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wxniesrxse · 2 years

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I really like your blog mabye if your not uncomfortable would you please make a reaction when trainee a s/o is pregnant? Thank you

Thank you for liking my blog! I’m not uncomfortable with this topics but of course it will only be done with 19 and above idols. Hopefully others aren’t uncomfortable with this topic with the members. Only the hyung line.

Pairing: you x hyung line

Genre: fluff

Warning: pregnancy?

☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎☯︎︎

𝒴ℴ𝓇𝒸𝒽

You haven't told Yorch you are 3 months old of being pregnant. You were so scared. So scared that if you tell him he will leave you. Scared that you could possibly ruin his future. What if he doesn't want to become a father at the age of 19? How are you going to deal with the baby during college? Then you remember he once told you that he would love to have his first baby with you. Of course that made your heart flutter but....was he being serious? You want this child, you really do specially when it's Yorch's baby too.....but if he doesn't want to? 𝐴𝑚 𝐼 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙𝑙𝑦 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑦𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟? "Yorch, I need to talk to you....". You were in the school library. Yorch was sitting in a chair next to a table. He was reading a book. "Ah yes, what is it?". He asked with a small smile. "Yorch, I don't know how you're going to take this....what I'm about to tell you....". You pressed your lips together. Your serious face and voice started to worry him. " okay....". He wasn't sure what else to say but to wait for you to finish. You look down at your small belly and rubbed it. You look up at him. "Yorch, I'm....pregnant". You said still looking at his eyes. Yorch stare at you for a few seconds but for you it felt like long minutes. "What?...". He said. Yorch was astonished. "Wow I didn't thought I would become a father in such an early age....I'm actually very happy". He smiled while nodding his head. What?! I thought he would get mad?! Like how usually guys react to this news.....maybe I've been watching to many highs how movies. Yorch walk towards you and hugs you tightly. He even rub his hand on your belly. You were so shocked to even react. "Yorch, you're serious right? You want our child? You're not mad? I didn't ruin your future right? Yorch-". Yorch grab the sides of your face and kissed you. " Remember the 𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑠 I've told before? I mean them...I love you YN, I love you and our baby". He kissed your forehead. You were so happy that you will start a family with the man you love and will have his baby.

ℒℯℴ

" oh no! It's positive! It's po.si.tiveee!". You yelled as you kept looking at the pregnancy test. "S/n! What am I going to do!! I'm scared to tell Leo!". You told your older sister who was beside you in the bathroom. "Why? Do you think he's gonna leave? Not take any responsibility?". She asked raising her eyebrows. " I thought Leo loves you...". She said. You look at her with a worry look. "I-I.....he does love me, he has told me he does so many times....he's the best boyfriend I ever had and his so sincere with me....but he has dreams!Amazing dreams to accomplish....and his 19 years old! He is a very young adult.....It's too early for him to become a father because of my fault...I don't know what to do!". You sat in your bed. You covered your red face with your hands as you let all your tears flow in your eyes. " I've should've took care of myself even more!". You yelled. Your sister sat next to you and wrap her hands around your shoulder. "No, don't blame yourself for anything! Look you have to tell him, let him know that he is the father, and if he doesn't want to be responsible then we're not forcing him, you're not having an asshole to stay with you and the baby......you have me, and our parents! We will support you! Y/n....you're not alone okay?". Your sister smiled and so did you. You're on your way to the cafe restaurant near you. That's the place you'll be seeing Leo. Once Leo saw you he runs towards you and hugs you tightly against him. " are you okay? Is everything alright? You had me worry during the call, your voice sounded sore....you sounded sad....". He said. His hands rested above your shoulders as he look down at you. "Let's sit down....". You said sitting down first. He followed. "I have something to tell you that will change everything..well....maybe only for me....I don't know how you're going to take this....". Leo furrowed his eyebrows feeling so confused. He held one of your hands tightly. " I'm very calmed, so don't worry I won't scream now tell...whatever it is-". "Leo I'm pregnant!". You quickly said interrupting him. Leo abruptly stand up, letting go of your hand, and making his chair fall backwards. His hands were covering his mouth and he was looking at the ceiling. "You're lying!". He screamed and point a finger at you. Honestly you wanted to laugh at this rare reaction of his. "No I'm 3 months pregnant...I can even show you the pregnancy te-". Leo immediately bend down to reach and give you a big kiss. He gets on his knees between your legs and puts his hands on your belly. He reaches down to kiss your adorable belly. "My baby....". He whispered. You felt so happy that the man you love so deeply actually wants to start a family with you not mattering anything. 𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝐼 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑛 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑚．" what about your dreams? Your future career...I know you have big dreams....Leo I-". " I'll handle all that! Anything I love, you, my baby, my real friends, my family, my career, and my dreams, I'll handle all that, because they're so important to me....I'll deal with it". He chuckled giving you another hug. You felt extremely happy.

𝒮𝒶𝓃ℊ𝓌ℴ𝓃

"Oh no....no no! Nooo!". You yelled. You were in the woman's bathroom. Early in the morning you bought two boxes of pregnancy test before going to your college school. Lately you have been having pregnant women symptoms, like super late periods, dizziness, nauseous, craving so many foods, being all moody, and all that fun stuff. Your friend look at your tests and it was marked positive. "Oooof! My friend is pregnant! She's a mo-". You immediately shut her mouth. "Quiet I don't want anyone else to hear!". You check at your body in the mirror and notice once again how you gain a little bit of weight from your stomach to arms, legs, hips, breasts, and hips. "and I thought it was because of all the food I've been craving". You pouted. " okay but aren't you happy that you're becoming a mom? Aren't you going to tell Sangwon?". Your friend asked. "But F/n! We only did it once! And he protected himself....wait I didn't have birth controls....". Soon you went to realization. "YN, doing it once is enough for a women to get pregnant...and don't worry! Sangwon adores you he won't be angry!....come on tell him". Your friend encourage you with a smile. You nodded as you started to text him. You waited for him in the half empty cafeteria. You were sitting in the chair patiently waiting. You watch Sangwon enter the cafeteria and you waved your hand. "Here!". You said sounding excitedly. 𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑒'𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑚 𝐼 𝑒𝑥𝑐𝑖𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑓𝑜𝑟？ 𝑚𝑎𝑦𝑏𝑒 ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑏𝑦． You felt sad again. "Hey...". He said softly as he kiss your forehead. "Hey....". You also said softly. "So what's the important thing you're gonna tell me....". He asked. His arm resting behind your chair, his other arm resting in the table, his eyes looking at your face. All attention on you. "Sangwon.....". You started to cry not able to control what you were feeling inside. Sangwon pulls you close to his chest for a soft hug. "Hey, it's okay....take your time, I'll be here...". He said, running his fingers through your hair. You sat up again. "Sangwon, touch here......". You take his hand and bring it towards your stomach. " feel it". You said with confidence waiting for him to know what's going on. "F-feel it?". He questioned. He put both of his hands to feel your belly. "Press it". You instructed. "Yeah yeah...". He said pressing your stomach. "Oh I see....you're gaining weight, and you feel sad that I might leave you,but baby, that won't happen, no matter if you gain weight, I'll still love you...". He said sweetly caressing your cheek. You felt your heart flutter. " you're so cute....but no! It's not exactly that....almost...but...Lee Sangwon....I'm pregnant!". You look at him in the eyes. He look at your eyes too. "It's not a joke right?". He asked. "Nope". You simply said. "But we only did it once...". He said feeling amazed. "That's enough baby!". You cheered. " so....were you crying because you thought I might leave you after telling me the news?". He asked and you nodded. " oh no never, you make me the happiest guy in the world.....". He said pecking your lips again. You felt happy too to have the man that all the girls crush on. Not only that but you're having his baby and you loved both of them. You really felt the happiest women on the planets.

Thank you for reading!

@niohoon

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littlecaregiver · 11 months

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My experience on little space and Age regression.

On this blog I'll talk from my big age mostly, so, if you are in little space or doing Agere right now, it could feel a bit boring to read, and I touch a bit sad topics.

I am on my late 20's while writing this.

Like some of us, (maybe a few more than just "some") my real childhood was not the best.

Abusive father, crying a bit too much, seeing my mom cry more than any kid should (the perfect amount is Zero).

And while being a kid my coping mechanism was playing, ignore everything and read books (I learnt to read at age 3), play with my pokemon figures, watch anime (Pokemon, Sailor Moon, and Dragonball were the ones I could watch at afternoon in the late 90's), watch movies, and play pretend, alone in my room.

Because the other option was to face the bad guy who make fun of me, and eat all my food while I was hungry.

Growing up, even after we left the bad guy, that bad guy still tried to find us, and scared us a lot, threatening to do hurtful things to me and my mom.

What I could do? Being six years old, I didn't want to worry my mom even more.

I kept playing, I kept reading, watching anime and spooky movies. Doing bracelets with shiny beads, colouring, playing with glitter, and cars, and boardgames. I was happy, constantly ignoring the pain that was real life.

I kept growing.

I kept growing all these years.

But there's something that didn't change in spirit.

When I was three years old, playing alone in my room, knowing very well why I what I was doing, why I was playing loud music, or pretending to be a Pikachu myself... I became my own caregiver.

My mom loves me, she always did, and still does. But sadly I knew she couldn't take care of me every single moment. She had adult problems to solve.

I became a Schrödinger kid.

A part of me was a cry baby little kid playing in the mud and wearing lion king onesies to school.

The other was the part that needed to grow up to be sure the little silly kid was safe.

And it has been like that for the last twenty five years.

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I don't fully age regress, as well as I'm not a full responsible adult. In my case is a perfect balance all the time.

"I'm a 7 years old with a debit card, deal with it, dumbass!~" I say to anyone while I buy another two plushies and a new box of crayons for myself.

I pay bills, I have a solid relationship, I work as a commission artist, I do responsible adult things... while carrying my Rainbowdash plushie bag.

My partner is happy with my way to be, sometimes we are watching a horror movie (we are big fans of horror movies, sorry), and suddenly I go "Honey, I want Carl's Jr chicken nuggets stars... Take your keys!! You driving, I pay! I need stars!!" and we go and have dinner of chicken stars, on pajamas, while I probably wear cat ears.

It works too when I'm alone "I finished working for today, I helped grandma with the grocery shopping... time to go play at the playground, eat cookies, and then take a shower before watching Bluey"

For me little space is not a marked moment, I don't feel I'm 5 to 7 years old on an afternoon, I don't act like a toddler who can't use a debit card... because at the same time I'm my caregiver, who knows "we" can spend other twenty bucks on a new set of stickers, or a whole damn cake.

Is a bit sad, a bit weird, a bit funny and a bit odd... to live my whole life as a 7 years old with a debit card, a car, and the freedom to do anything I wanted when I was a little scared sad kid.

#little me #big me #presentation #opinion

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magic-multicolored-miracle · 1 year

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Going to bed soon, and might not be fully coherent but: TAD - Battle Cries is very fitting for Melvin. It could be a conversation he’s having with someone else, but even more it could be with himself.

Who'll save you when you fall? (Who died and made you king of it all?)

Who wins this war? You've a knack/For applause from the back of the stalls, but you lack The conviction to look at me straight and say yes

I am going to be as charming as possible (because it felt like no one liked me as a kid and I need to change their minds, and I can mask that pain behind money/a smile) and convince them to let me make Perfection better (why do I get to decide what's better? because I know what it's like to want this to be home or I would leave it behind and make my money somewhere easier)

Don’t lie with your eyes, you know I despise that look

Everything I am is a persona. People still look at me like they're disgusted, like I am a stain on the town.

I'm Done with your dreams they won't last

This place will never be home, they would choose a monster over me

(For the person 15-year-old me would be proud to have known)

I just want to be worth something

We were gods/We were kids

[I don't have a clever reflection but come on, does it need one?]

"Come at me, you blaggards," you'd yell ("Come at me, you blaggards," you'd yell from the banks)

[also no cleverness, it's just a more grounded fit, given that instead of just screaming and jumping to make as much noise as possible, when they need to distract the graboids from Val's dash for the Cat, if you listen closely you can hear Mel casually shouting typical high school movie fight taunts like "what? are you scared?" at the worms]

You dragged us both into the darkness that grows (You dragged us along to watch all of your shows)

I was negative, an asshole, and tried to make everyone around you feel as unhappy as I was (I had very little agency and mostly had to stand in the back and watch everything that happened)

(Our devils broke rank, and out of the depths came an army)

...of Graboids. Monsters, the stuff of literal nightmares, attacked our town, coming from nowhere, and somehow we had to fight them, even though we were way overpowered and we should have been doomed.

I won't leave without a fight

[very straightforward] If one plan fails, I'll keep trying until I get what I want.

All it took to unearth in the dust and the dirt Some release or respite from the heat and the hurt Was taking the time now and then to ask how I am

The only time adults in my life talked to me was to yell at me or belittle me. No one ever showed me support or affection.

And now at the end, at the end of all things I'm not going to scream, beat my chest at the wind I'm doing fine

I get the picture now, and I give up. I am the only one I can trust, so I may as well put myself first.

#Shye Rambles #The Amazing Devil #Melvin Plugg #Tremors #I'm feeling FEEEEEELings #I'll clean this up tomorrow #(or make it into something more valuable. Like a fic. Later than that)

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flaminhotgarbage · 1 year

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I remember the day it happened vividly even. Portals were opening left and right. Otherworldly beings had come out of them and destroyed anything and everything in their path. Panic was in everyone, nobody knowing what to do. I was scared. But suddenly, when all hope was lost, people started to fight back! It was as if superheroes had become real protecting humanity. This was the first instance of the Ascended. Select individuals with superhuman abilities. In the beginning, I don't know if people were more or less worried at their sighting of them. Nowadays people are much more relaxed with topics surrounding them, but that doesn't mean some still don't trust the ascended in my eyes, they are heroes and here's why.

....

UUuugh this is so embarrassing! I tap my finger on the table and bounce my feet rapidly. Why is viewing your work so awkward!? And even more so when someone criticizes it!

"Sean?"

"Y-yes!?" I jolt up, snapping myself out of my stupor.

"Are you okay? You don't look too good." my English teacher said. I look at myself. My legs were bouncing up and down rapidly. My palms were clasped together and felt sweaty.

"Oh, I'm alright. I just felt embarrassed when you read my work out loud."

"Don't be this is a good start, just use more details and go for the jugular."

"Alright thank you for the advice," I said before taking my work and heading back to my desk.

I sigh, it hasn't been that long since the ascended have appeared yet, it feels like no time at all. In no time, they have fully integrated into society and most media and pop culture have mentioned these unique individuals. Though there haven't been many events to talk about, at least that I know of. Maybe I should research-

"Grade 10s please head down to the gym. Grade 10s please head down to the gym." The PA speaker interrupts my train of thought. Had that much time already passed? Taking a glance at my teacher, she gives a quick nod. Getting the confirmation, I dropped what I was doing and headed to the gymnasium.

Speed walking down to the gym I noticed some people heading there as well. Though there are fewer going than I thought there would be. Well makes things easier for me. I open the front door to the gym and look around. What used to be home to my P.E. class in grade 9 now looks like something from a sci-fi movie. I guess that happens when the government needs to figure out who is Ascended. It used to be young adults making appointments to see if they had the potential, but as time went by, the age range increased to include more groups. For students testing facilities are brought to the school so, appointments won't have to be made for something unnecessary. Thanks to my punctuality I got ahead of the crowd. I got called up and went. I sat down on a chair and the person beside me started to ask questions about myself. Name, age, date of birth, height, weight; simple things. I didn't know the last two so, they checked with a stadiometer and scale. Once all the information was put in, the tester pulled out a device. The first thing I noticed was the crystal sticking out of it. It was about the size of my hand and looked translucent. It was mostly clear but, there was a single swirl of ever-changing colour. It was like a thread of string held by an invisible hand swirling around cloudy water. The crystal was surrounded by a metallic dome. Connected to it was an electronic device. It probably reads off stats and readings and the like.

"Alright," The testing person finally said. "Put your hand on the crystal and we'll see if you're an Ascended."

My hand reaches out toward the device. This is it, I thought. The moment of truth. Am I an Ascended or not? If I am one, then am I a strong one? Time seemed to stretch on and on. In reality, not even a minute has passed.

"Are you nervous?" the tester asked. I nodded.

"That's understandable," she said in response. "This must be a big moment for you."

I didn't say anything because I knew I had been called out. I tried to act like this didn't matter to me but I've been seen through.

"I don't want to try and get your hopes up so I'll just say this," she took my silence as an invitation to continue. "If nothing happens then you'll continue your normal life. If something does happen, regardless of how big or small it is, wouldn't that be good?" she finished.

I considered those words. It made absolute sense. If the device didn't react to me, I wasn't an Ascended. Therefore nothing about my life would change. If the device did respond to me then that would mean I am an Ascended. This would mean I would use the powers I get from that for humanity. Funny how just by stating the facts, I could calm down so much.

"Okay, I'm ready," I say, having found my resolve.

I place my hand on the jewel. The swirl grows and turns red. A faint glowing red orb lies within the crystal. I let out a breath that I didn't know I was holding. I am an Ascended.

“Congratulations!” the tester said.

“Umm, what now?” I asked.

“Now to check how strong you are.”

“Don't you already know that?”

“Well, yes I can see your readings, but it only tells me your level. This doesn't say what your strengths or abilities are. You can check yourself.”

“How do I do that?”

“I can't give a direct answer but most people say they visualize something to tell them.”

Ooookay then. I feel my mouth turn into a straight line. What would be the thing that tells me how strong I am? I tried to think hard about what it would be but one thing stayed in my mind.

“Open,” I said softly.

And there appeared a stat screen straight out of a video game. There are Strength, Dexterity, Constitution, Intelligence, and Awareness. Unsurprisingly my stats are nothing of note. None of them were below the double digits, they didn't surpass 20, not even 15. As I look across the screen, my eyes stop at the top. What was supposed to be my class was something I would not have expected.

[Creator]

While I am not the most knowledgeable about the divisions of Ascended, I know enough to realize that what I am seeing is weird.

"Hey, um, my thing is saying something weird," I said.

"New things tend to be weird for everyone," The tester said dismissively.

"But it's saying something that shouldn't be there," I pressured. She then looked at me with a hard stare. I flinch and move back. It seems like my question will not be answered. She turns back to the laptop, types some things in and drops something in my hand.

"You have been registered as an Ascended and can now participate in the work of Hunters. However as you are a student and of the lowest rank, your options are limited." The tester then said in a business-like tone. I stand up and leave. As I exit the gymnasium and head back to class, I sigh. That could have gone better, I think to myself. Yet I don't feel terrible. I'm an Ascended. I get to be a Hunter. I get to help people. And it seems like I have something different from the rest.

[End of Chapter 1]

#storytelling #my story

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yourstormthlaylirahh · 2 years

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My thoughts on every new GMMTV trailer:

Enigma: cautiously hopeful. It looks very interesting and intense, and I think I will be able to handle the amount of horror in it though it is a genre I am nervous about because I scare easily. I'm just not a fan of student teacher romances, but I'll withhold judgement till after I see it (judging whether I like it. Not judging you if it's a trope you like, whatever floats your boat).

A Boss and a Babe: it looks silly and ridiculous and fun. I genuinely didn't think Forcebook would get another chance to star together and I'm so so happy they did, I love how they play off each other. Oddly I am fine watching boss employee relationships even though the student teacher ones make me uneasy.

Find Yourself: on the fence about this one, though I'll give it a try for Non and Earth. The tropes they are leaning into for comedy in the trailer aren't my favourite and I'm not a fan of them seeming to play drunken sex for laughs, but when the trailers tone shifted to be a more serious examination of age gaps I became intrigued. I'm just not sure I trust how this show will handle that subject in all its complexity.

Double Savage: very excited to have Ohm playing a darker character (I know we still have 10YT this year too). I think he will absolutely kill this role, I love his acting and think he is superb. I also think Film is fantastic and I'm excited to see her too. Looks like lots of lakorn crime type tropes, so that should be fun.

Hidden Agenda: I'm unsure about this one because while I like both Joong and Dunk well enough I wasn't enamoured with eithers' acting in Star and Sky, and they had the most disappointing kiss my god. This looks like the plot is more interesting at least than Star in my Mind, and I love a lot of the side cast. I'm hoping they just felt awkward acting together at first, and they will seem less stilted in this. I'm pretty 50/50 on whether I've liked the director's previous work so this could go either way.

23.5: I'm so so excited for this, it's happening guys!!!! MilkLove GL let's go sapphics let's go! I need this to do well and hopefully herald more long-form GLs. I adore both actresses and love them together as well. I'm expecting very 2015 BL vibes and fluff, and honestly not expecting more than a peck of a kiss (if I'm wrong feel free to point at this post and laugh at me I honestly would love to be wrong), but luckily I adore fluff and softness so I'm going to enjoy it anyways. The yearning! The sweetness! I'm over the moon

Phro Thoe Khue Rak Raek: I think I would be interested if this was just a movie but I'm not sure I have the attention span for a full drama about reminiscing and reconnecting with am old love. I'll probably skip this one unless something really catches my attention. Neo was really cute in this trailer though.

Cooking Crush: I am giddy about this one. I felt so sad Off thought him and Gun couldn't get roles together anymore because of their ages, and then here they are and the trailer looks really funny and cute! I'm also really excited they seem to have reversed their dynamic and Gun is playing the more asshole one, he definitely has the acting range and hopefully this means if OffGun continue going forward they will get to change their dynamic a bit more.

Wednesday Club: I'm not that interested. Honestly don't have much to say about the trailer, beyond Piploy and Jane look so so good! Please I'm already gay etc etc

Last Twilight: I'm definitely the most excited for this one! The plot looks interesting, JimmySea were excellent together in VV, and it's P'Aof who I trust implicitly. It is bringing me back to Want to See You (vdrama), which I overall enjoyed but I need this one to be less of a soap opera, I couldn't handle that twice. Also loved the music in the trailer. Also Jum ❤️ I also think Jimmy will be fun to watch playing the bad boy role, and he is super adorable which is a huge bonus. I'm not knowledgeable enough about adult onset blindness to really judge that aspect of the show.

Loneliness Society: While You Were Sleeping let's gooooo! My third most anticipated, I'm so excited for this! Morally grey and complex lead? With relatable issues around age and loneliness? Sign me up! This looks phenomenal. And I screamed when I saw Jan, I love her so much ❤️ though I am disappointed she got no main roles this year (side note Thailand is doing cherry magic what?????).

Only Friends: holy shit!!!! Second most anticipated and only trailer I've rewatched multiple times because there's so much going on! It's going to be messy as fuck and I'm going to eat up every minute! Can't believe we get Forcebook a second time next year, and KhaoFirst as well. The song they play at the end is fire 🔥 P'Jojo directing AND the cast is stacked!? Book Force Khao Neo Jennie First Mark and Piploy! I'm stoked

Faceless Love: eh. Dew's character really pisses me off, and while I have warmed up to rich asshole business owner types in the past (Poongduck, Business Proposal) my real life dislike of those types of people make it one of my least favourite archetypes and I'm not convinced I'm going to watch. I'm curious to see the reactions of people with face blindness to this as well.

Dangerous Romance: oh this look fantastic! I love this type of messy, high angst enemies to lovers. This is going to be so much fun, and I really liked what the director did with Love Mechanics so I have really high hopes. Plus Chimon is one of my favourite actors, and I would already die for Sailom - he's such a mouthy little sass master.

The Jungle: don't really understand what's happening because there are no subs, though it looks like a spiritual successor to PS I Hate You. Big cast, big drama. I'll watch it no matter what because it's one of my girl Mild's only roles next year and Lookjun's only role. Big downside is having to put up with watching Krusty.

Midnight Museum: not much plot was revealed in this trailer, however the creepy fantasy vibes are immaculate and I'm excited for this. I'm very curious about Gun's character's cryptic past, and hope it's suitably angsty so he can flex his acting, because he is phenomenal! Also Ploy ❤️

Our Skyy 2: oh my god! Special episodes for The Eclipse, Bad Buddy AND A Tale of Thousand Stars? Especially when we had all basically given up on an ATOTS special?!?!? Couldn't be more excited! I'm excited for everyone really (other than another Star in my Mind special lmao please let it fade into obscurity). If Never Let Me Go is as good as I anticipate (and I trust P'Jojo with my life) it will be great to see their characters again as well. My only disappointment is Forcebook is not reprising AkkTheo :( As one of the handful of people who really enjoyed Enchante I just want my Enchante special goddammit!

Beauty Newbie: I really don't think I trust how a plot about someone who's had plastic surgery and is now gorgoeus (let's be real Baifern is fucking ethereal) is going to handle issues like beauty standards. 😬 As someone who definitely falls outside the line of 'acceptable' look wise due to acne, weight, etc I'm not feeling this plot. The only reason I'm torn is my love of Baifern, so we will see if my love for her is enough to give this a try. And maybe I'm wrong and the plot will be amazing and profound, but I have serious reservations.

The Interest: eh. Whatever.

All in all I'm really looking forward to this lineup and think it will be a fantastic year. The ones I'm not liking based on the trailer I'm realllllllly not liking but I can just drop them of not watch.

Side notes: I was really worried Home School had been cancelled, it was one I was really looking forward to and I'm relieved it was only pushed back.

Also does anyone know what Miss Gigie is up to? She doesn't seem to be in anything upcoming other than Warp Effect and I miss her :(

#gmmtv 2023 #rereading this makes me realize i look like i really have it out for simm and i swear i dont #it was alright? but not near good enough to get multiple specials #emilys fandom thoughts

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