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Ahahahahaha I fucking HATE DRAWING INSTRUMENTS FUCK VIOLINS MAN
#rasazy's ramblings#ena's artist struggles#<- I'm changing the name of the tag that's crazy man#I'll fix everything later#rasazy loses their shit
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I'm obsessed with them
#nerdy prudes must die#starkid#lords in black#I fucked up on pokey just ignore it#I'll fix him later#wiggog y'wrath#pokotho#nibblenephim#t'noy karaxis#blinklotep#team starkid#Jon Matteson as Wiggly is everything to me#my art#fanart#hatchetverse#hatchetfield#the lords in black literally got me out of a year long artist's block
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They still feel off specially the eyes i could feel them about to manifest their own life and run off
Even my linework is ... Idk what's wrong and it's the problem maybe I'm staring too much but I don't think so
Sorry for bothering alot but i loved your last advice ty
i think the main problem with the first picture has to do with the proportions and anatomy of the lower body area aka the neck and shoulders. i'd make the shoulders wider and add some sort of form to the neck so that it looks believable instead of a flat rectangle shape ( maybe make it slimmer a bit too? although that might be just a stylistic choice so you do you). That's the first thing i'd fix because otherwise the head looks too big in comparison to the rest of the body, and it can throw you off
I actually think you did a great job with the eyes, they have a lot of life and that comes from the fact that they are the most rendered part of your piece, which is not a bad thing. The thing is, while it is true that the eyes are the main focal point of a face and portrait in general, that doesn't mean you can neglect the other parts, so i think it is also a consistency issue or not figuring out exactly what sort of style or rendering you want to go with that holds you back (which is totally fine and normal ofc). So let's pick a semi-realistic stylized rendering style for this since this is the vibe i'm getting from this piece.
If that's the style we're going for, then the face should have a bit more form. You have to remember that our facial features ( eyes, nose, lips) are connected with each other via the planes of the face, right? So, for a semirealistic style, revisit your reference and try to idenitify what those planes are and how they connect to those features, and most importantly, where the shadows hit, and just accentuate them more, because at the moment they look like 3rd forms plastered over a 2d surface which is not right, our skin has form as well. Color-wise, don't be afraid to go darker with the shadows, they really make your drawings pop. Without looking at a reference, i'd def add some shadow under the lips, a bit where the lips connect to the nose, under the neck, and in the lower body area.
I'm really trying to avoid the most basic answer which is " practice anatomy !!1! " because everyone can say that however, at the end of the day, this is the main thing the face lacks. And tbvh you don't have to actually know anatomy, you just gotta know some proportions things that make the face look believable enough. I feel like the features are mostly just drawn from the reference without an understanding of the structure behind it. Something tells me that in the reference picture, the person had their head tilted a bit upwards, but here it's kinda flat and the features are just painted without following the motion. Try to draw over your reference picture the vertical and horizontal lines and make up the head shape behind it to figure out the way it is tilting and facing, because the lips, eyes nose, etc will follow that same sort of flow, they're not stationary. I'd also make the eyes a bit smaller, or maybe make the skull bigger bc i think they are touching the outer edge too much now, and also narrow the distance between the nose and lips just a bit. Kinda hard to explain without actually doing it myself. But really, try to play with that, and try getting comfy with drawing 3d forms i know it's easier said than done but..... there really isn't any shortcut unfortunately As for the lineart drawing, yes it's actually pretty solid, i like that duplicate blur thing you did, i'm familiar with that technique and it def has its perks so that's great. Im not an expert on lineart, however here i think there are too many " unnecessary" lines that could easily be omitted (purple). Less is more and all that~ The hair strands at the end feel too stiff and identical (green). If you notice, they all just end in this " V" shape and they rarely overlap thus making the image look flat. Try to break this pattern by introducing more spontaneity aka random hairflies, making the strands overlap, adding more shape variety etc
Make sure that the lines connect properly whenever they meet, and also although you already did it and i think that's great, you can make some lines even thicker, go even further and add even more lineweight. As a general thing, usually, the exterior or contour lines are thicker and whatever it is inside is thinner so experiment with that, you can start from the nose- thicker lines for the nostrils thinner for that nose tip i forgot what it's called and also add thin lines that just hint at the form. Lineart is hardd so i don't blame you, but if you're gonna keep the lineart in, try "shading" with black blocks so to speak, make sure the lineart layer can stand on its own, and pay more attention to the lower part area (neck and shoulders) even if it is less exciting to ink
#ok i lied it's long again#these are pretty fun to do can u blame me#ask iztea#you should also check in with other people don't take my word for everything#but since you asked my personal opinion here u go#sorry for any typos if there are any i'll fix them later#long post#ask iztea: art talk
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idont want to draw the other eye
but im drawing inspired by tht one durge ending if u romance gale hehehehe
#txt#ITS a wip..... i changed the angle of immren's head and now everything is a mess#face too small -_- thas a problem for future me#he also has too much hair right now. i'll fix that later too
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man. I've been reworking a lot of content involving Act II of Home Is Where You Are and like. ugh. it'd work so freaking well in novel form but I just Do Not have the dedication or the drive to start from scratch and rewrite everything that happens.
idk how else to share the updated version of that part of the story with y'all tho, considering that Khalan's journal is insanely outdated now and isn't entirely canon anymore, so I'll probably just have to accept that I likely won't ever be able to update the story for y'all in the way I wish I could. >n<;;
#spectre says#text post#delete later probably#tbh i'm so tired of being tired#i've had like. no energy to write or draw#even tho. the ideas are there. i've got so many concepts going through my head that i could work on and turn into some kind of tangible art#i tried writing out a new outline for act ii but i got overwhelmed with all the changes and plot holes that still need working out#so idk if i'll even continue with that#even tho it's just bullet points#fhgdjkfg#anyway#the idea of writing everything in novel form just sounds like. SO perfect for the story as it is now#i'd love. to establish both khalan and antony as main characters and focus on what happens to both of them while in Atria#eventually having their stories collide when antony's side of things merges with what's going on with khalan and aya#it'd feel less jarring than how it worked out in the journal#because this part of the story is just as much antony's story as it is khalan and aya's#and he's ultimately the one who fixes things and has 'main character energy' by the end of that act#so establishing him as one of the tertiary main characters early on makes sense i think#but yeah. there's just a lot i'd need to do and i know i wouldn't be able to keep up with it if i did try to start writing.#IM JUST RAMBLING NOW IM SORYO#it's just been on the brain i guess
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g*lmar rly has to be the best skajrim character on the real like even if you don't like him he just is . literally The best one i think......... on dat note i also imagine that he and ulfr*c despite being fairydust BFFs for lyfe genuinely have the worst communication skills ever seen
#text#but i already talked about how g*lmar is weird about ulfr*c anyways#literally jubilant and feeling special cus he's the only person ulfr*c actually trusts and speaks to outside of formal conversations#he's a very manly man too (like N*loth) for wanting to just control everything... well actually having ulfr*c under 'control' is enough 4 -#- him. unlike n*loth who wants to be above everything that moves. literally not about him tho#i hope that other st*rmcloaks develop a habit of going to hide downstairs in the palace whenever they can tell the vibe between -#- g*lmar and ulfr*c is off because they're gonna be yelling at each other and throwing shit around for 40 minutes in a few seconds#i don't believe they'd fight insanely often but being at an active war probably gets them heated more. Often than usual; and their -#- conflicts are never resolved. i feel like they just don't talk to each other for a good 2 days and act like nothing happened#they're way too manly and prideful to actually let the other one 'win' so they just don't say anything ever post-arguing#Tbhs g*lmar actually really likes that ulfr*c is so unstable and harrowed because it makes himself feel very good and reliable -#- but he has his limits 😂LMFAOO i bet sometimes he gets really tired of him being so traumatized. very rarely but he does think about it#i'll have to desribe that a bit better later tho... don't know how to word it atm#but maybe he wants to punch him or something BYE. no...... 💔savage as hell#he likes it in a very general sense of ulfr*c's personality especially between them but doesn't like it when it causes them to clash#this might just be mostly ulfr*c's doing cus i doubt he's actually talkative about his past issues and Troubles (torture mayhem) and -#- can't communicate anything about it or set boundaries when needed. he just gets mad or very avoidant. No fixing that tho#well it's just shameful to him so he'd rather do nothing than even admit anything to anyone Everrrrr#why does his life suck so bad LMFAOOOOOOOOO#their nasty musty mutualism .. leeching off your traumatized Bff so that he can make you feel good by saying he needs you in particular#while U pay him back with some support.......SOME#Oh well#that zero communication between some sk*rim characters looks yammy as fuck to me. A;lways. ALWAYS#nelvas is power dynamic induced...... g*lmar&&ulfr*c trauma-caused... elituli Um😂 t*llius doesn't even know any hobbies she has#bye this is why they're serving so hard
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"fairy tail fell off" im too good at rewriting shit in my head to care
#fairy tail#spinterest#you dont get it ive been into this shit since 2019 or later. i know it fell off. i dont care though because i rewrote the entire show in ->#my head. and its 100x better.#I'll never be explaining what i changed though. youll have to decipher it all bit by bit if i ever post ft fanart again#however every str8 ship is t4t n stuff now ill tell you that LMFAO.#nobody understands the relationship between me and the show ive been obsessed with since age... however young i was#but yeah.#fairy tail is peak to ME. because i rewrote everything that needed to be rewritten#put me in that writing roon mishima i need to fix all this shit before you release 100 yrs quest.
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IDK HOW ASK GAMES WORK. um tell me abt the aquarium 🦑🦑🦑🦑with mach B) yeah!!
GIGGLESS AND KICKS MY FEET ... ty so much for the ask i lobe aquariums ...
i think it would be my idea since im a big fish fan im asking her to go with me because i want company to stare at a tank for an hour unblinking and she's entertaining it because she thinks its fun.
i dont think either of us would have a favorite but i feel like she would be a big fan of rays ... she thinks the way they move looks fun. plus the face-looking mouth thing is funny to her she's a little distracted by it.
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Sleepless (Part 4)
Sherlock rushed out of the lab, itching with the need for a cigarette …
. The night air was biting. It crawled up his exposed wrist as he pulled out the lighter and flicked an amber glow to life.
. He could practically hear Mycroft’s chiding voice echoing between the buildings behind him … cold and aloof …
. “... don’t get involved, Sherlock …”
.
“Not likely to, am I?” he asked the night sky.
It had been nearly a year and a half since he’d found out the truth about the Victor Trevor case. And with it, a renewed sense that maybe Mycroft was right …? Alone was safe. Alone protected him.
So,
He’d added a layer of acidity to his demeanour; began calling himself a High Functioning Sociopath to all of his newest acquaintances; and found himself popping his coat collar up more often … Avoiding those around him, even when they tried to engage.
Lestrade was the hardest to shake. He seemed to take Sherlock’s renewed efforts as a sign that he needed more companionship. Not less.
He hoped at least that his latest efforts hadn’t offended Greg too much … ? It was almost too easy pretending to forget his given name …
And it seemed that it was working … mostly.
.
He took a long pull of his cig and watched the smoke curl upwards, the only grey in a starlit, cloudless sky ... and wrapped his coat closer against the wind.
A walk would be good. Clear his head.
. At least he wasn’t the only one going sleepless tonight.
. The thought was somehow oddly … comforting.
“Hey, sunshine!” John peeked in the doorway to find his daughter blinking and stretching the next morning … and smiled at the sight.
“Ready to get up and have some pancakes, kiddo?”
Rosie couldn’t get out of bed fast enough!
Her squeals of delight echoing down the stairs and around the flat as she chased him down the hall and around the kitchen. Floppy bunny dragging and bouncing behind …
“Molly! Have you seen my-”
Sherlock burst into the laboratory with more than his usual sense of urgency …
He was wearing the look of a man who had obtained little-to-no sleep, and Molly doubted if he had stopped moving since his departure the night before. There were telltale rings below his eyes and a harried expression she couldn't quite pinpoint, hiding in them.
Not that sleeplessness was that unusual … for Sherlock …
. …But the unmistakable smell of cigarettes that trailed behind him, however … was …
.
“This?” She asked, “Sherlock? You left it on the table.” She lifted the object in question over her head.
Sherlock swirled around, took it without comment, and rushed immediately, to leave …
.
“Oh!” she added, halting him mid-stride, on his way out, “I also finished up your report? You uh … you left a few things unfinished, last night? and I know how you like the details …? So I-”
Her cheerful smile made him stop and scowl in response, before the mask fell away. He hadn't expected that. “Yes …” Sherlock replied, stepping forward. He took the pages, his mind still clearly somewhere else … as he ducked and gave her a hurried peck on the cheek, "thank you, Molly.” he whispered.
Contrite.
It was an apology for something?
.
. … the next second he was swooshing away, again, and Molly tried to get back to her work, thinking he was gone.
.
It surprised her then,
When he was still there, a moment later …
. Halted in the doorway. Hand at this pocket.
She saw a flutter of pages as he pulled them out - and couldn't quite read the expression on his face at this angle …
. As he slowly crumpled one up … and tossed it into the bin with a catch of his breath.
Then he tucked her report back in his pocket, and was gone.
Before she could say a word …
.
. He had missed the bin.
.
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Molly wandered over to pick whatever it was up from the floor …
Her radio playing quietly in the corner.
The familiar jingle teasing recent episodes of 'Your Feelings and You':
. “Steadfast in Belfast” … the voice announced, followed by a sound clip of the frustrated caller
. ... “I feel like the more faithful I am … the more he cheats-? ” …
. “Cancelled in Cardiff” …
. “our whole honeymoon was a nightmare!” …
. “Manchester Doppelganger”
. … “he dated me for my sister!”
. … and … “Sleepless in London” …
. “John? What was so special about your wife?" ...
. "Oh ..." *sigh* ... "well ... It was a million tiny little things, that… Somehow, just meant we fit together? … And I knew ... the very first time we touched … Like finding a missing puzzle piece, you didn't know you had lost ..."
.
As she stooped to pick up the crumpled piece of lined paper from the ground ... she couldn't help the hopeful pulse beating in her chest ...
These were drafts of some sort ... ? Maybe ... a letter?
Her hand covered her mouth in surprise, as it dawned on her, exactly what she was reading:
.
. Dear John,
. To little Rosie,
. Dear Dr. John Watson (and Little Watson),
. I know we're supposed to write 'Sleepless and Daughter' or some such nonsense under a misguided attempt at anonymity, however the attempt seemed feeble, if not futile. You will see my return address on this correspondence, and I find no reason to avoid transparency.
. Also, do not be alarmed as your name was simple to deduce. Ruling out the other seven that begin with Wat including Waterhouse and Waterman (more commonly to be found in America these days) and the Asian forms of Watanabe or Wattana (seeing as you yourself are not Asian); That left only a few choices, and your accent bore hints of Scottish descent. It was not a guess.
. I should say first, that I have never written a letter like this before in my life, and am unlikely to do so ever again (yes, everyone begins a letter to a stranger this way. I realise the irony of such an idiotic statement). And as you are no doubt getting inundated with piles of letters, you are tired of seeing this already.
. I do not listen to the radio.
. I was forced to overhear your brief and fascinating conversation the other night by a coworker.
. I wanted to ask you
. My only regret in listening, is I regret that the radio host interrupted you, before you could tell us what invalided you out of the military prematurely? And how you ended up as a London GP. Which you are. You are also an excellent marksman, despite your humility in that regard, and no doubt have many hidden talents to be uncovered. Although your true talent is being wasted. You are clearly a storyteller and should be writing.
. No, I have not looked up your records. Although it would be an incredibly simple to do so. Seeing as how my brother practically runs the British Government. Nor will I make any attempts to search your profile online. I doubt you have an internet presence, under the circumstances, and something tells me it would not tell the whole story of who you are, even if you did. Again, to the writing. If you do not journal or keep even a private blog, I would be incredibly surprised.
. All of this to say ...
. *If* you are still reading this AND
. *If* you are still single this time next year (which I doubt) …
.
. I would invite you to try an experiment with me:
. I will be waiting at the top of Big Ben at midnight, New Year's Eve with a bottle of champagne and two glasses. As I can tell you're a hopeless romantic and I doubt you've seen the view from up there (there are few who have).
. At the very least I can promise a memorable night for you - even if you decide I am not, ultimately your type, or even your preferred sexual orientation. And no, I do not expect anything of you but your company and a toast to ring in the new year (just so we're clear).
. Do give brave little Watson my best regards. I have no doubt she will grow up to be a game changer in whatever field of study she pursues. Not unlike her father. in whatever path she chooses in life.
. And please inform her (if you haven't already) that being single is not the worst crime. Not living your life to the fullest however, might be.
. Do take care, John.
.
. Sincerely,
. Sherlock Holmes
. P.S. If you do not reply, I will assume you have torn this letter up. And I could hardly blame you. I would have. And might still.
“Oh, my … g-”
She snuck a glance again at the door, to verify that Sherlock had not returned-? And caught her reading? … The colour rising to her cheeks at the mere thought!
.
Her hand hovered over the bin …
. … but she just couldn't bring herself to toss it.
.
Sherlock had written this-? Had agonized over it for hours-?
And then … just … binned it?!
.
She tucked it in her own pocket for a while … muddling over the problem.
Sherlock being gay shouldn't have come as a surprise. It seemed like all the guys she was falling for were ... that guy in IT last month had seemed the most promising …
Maybe Sherlock had caught onto it sooner, because of his own orientation?
.
As the radio played on and on, and John and Rosie's voices made an appearance throughout her evening … it kept drawing her thoughts back to the letter burning a hole in her pocket.
Perhaps she should give it back to him? Encourage him to send it?
She texted Mike, asking if he knew when Sherlock might be coming back by?
A text reply pinged almost immediately:
.
. Caught a plane to Italy? Didn't he?
. Said something about being gone a few weeks.
.
Molly blinked. No wonder he had been in a rush!
Even so, a decision was softly forming in her mind.
She opened up a new doc and began typing up a finished draft of the letter for Sherlock ... softening some of its edges ... and hit print.
She had seen a glimpse of something different ...
. Something Sherlock wanted ...
. The real Sherlock.
Not the armour plated one he presented.
. And re-reading the letter as she typed it ... she realized ...
. He would never have really allowed himself to try:
'I will assume you have torn this letter up. And I could hardly blame you. I would have. I might still.'
.
He had built himself too many outs.
She decided to include the original draft in the envelope, along with the finished letter. For its honesty. Determined to post it to the Radio program without a chance to second-guess her actions:
. Attn: Dr. Irene Adler
. Radio KKRX The Heart of London
. 35A Leicester Square, Suite 6
. Covent Garden, London WC2H 7LA
Then took a deep breath as she stuck a little love heart on it to seal the envelope,
and made her way to the post.
.
Hoping … Sherlock wouldn't hate her forever, if he found out.
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#sleepless in london#helloliriels#johnlock fan fic#johnlock#bbc sherlock#au#sleepless in seattle#crossover#cause this is happening#i am sherlocked#and so is everything else#or it will be#*cracks knuckles*#I'll fix links later! sorry!
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Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy
You have... very very very very very very very very smart people you know, and they're say something that not only isn't true, but literally is as opposite of the truth as it's possible to be... and you'll... gently inform them "hey, it's actually a bit more like this" and then they just kinda... go on saying literally the exact same thing
I'm not sure if it's just that... I often feel like I must be very bad at communicating, or people must just not notice/ignore a lot of what I say, but... I don't know
Like dearest friend, you've said something as absurd as... I don't know, it's hard to say without saying it, but honest to god about as absurd as saying the United States was a part of the USSR, that level of completely getting it backwards
...and it just doesn't seem to matter when I try to explain it... I legit don't even know if you read what I said
Really end up feeling like I'm going nuts sometimes
#to be clear; I don't mind people disagreeing with me (though that's not what's happened here... I don't think I came into it at all)#but all I need in order to be able to work with disagreement is just... knowing you at least heard and understood me#like if it's 'I get that you think that vanilla is a good flavor of icecream; but I really prefer chocolate'... ok; this works for me#it's that... a lot of the time it honest feels more like 'what are you talking about? vanilla isn't a flavor' where... huh?#let's take a real example; not everyone needs to agree with me on nuclear#but like... someone saying 'I get that it's way safer these days; but I still worry about waste storage'... well ok then#but if it's just like 'but it's dangerous and will explode' even after I've explained about the designs now#where there's a salt plug that with melt and drain before anything can happen; and these materials don't like to run away#...and it's not like they're asking me to back up the source; it's like I never said anything at all...#what am I supposed to do here? you feel me on that? do you start to get why I feel like I'm going crazy when that's how it often feels?#no one is obliged to agree with me but... literally just active listening would fix this... say you heard me and we're good#acknowledge that I voiced something and it's been noted#honestly... honestly my who life it's felt like I must somehow actually be invisible#...to an extent maybe I'm a figment of my own imagination; I might well be a ghost that's lonely and makes you all up#...for all the impact my actions have#or maybe literally everything I say just comes out garbled... is that it?#this post is about something very specific; but it's also about something that happens a lot with a lot of different people#on a broader scale; why is it no one else seems to be able to connect the dots#and these aren't like... conspiracy theory dots; these are like russia buys drones from Iran; therefore russia and Iran are partners#that's the kind of dots I'm talking about connecting; please tell me that's not a conspiracy theory to you... it seems plain to me#I don't know... I really don't... I don't think much I say will ever have any impact anywhere on anyone#...honestly a good 90% of the time people don't even respond to what I say#not like my posts here; I mean direct in dms or whatever; I'll say stuff and it's just silence or a new subject#again; across multiple people; it's common... it's... I think it happens more often than it doesn't#I can instantly name 4 conversations with 4 different people that's happened with lately#and that's not counting the 3 where I know the reason why it's happened#I really am something unfit to live; the evidence is endless#mm tag so i can find things later
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Step by step for last commission I was going through it with this one, but you don't see it because these are just different layers enabled and you can't see me backtracking like 10 times
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"hey ruru, how's your brainrot?"
well thanks for asking! it's terminal
#my art#red dead doodles#sketching these down rq after work so i remember them later and maybe... work on them one day...#rdr2#proportions are all messed up but I'll fix them. eventually.#gotta make everything cowboy flavored#oc: sophia
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alright, perhaps it is time to start colourmaxxing
#just me hi#okay so i got an mp3 player for m birthday (yippee !! woohoo :D) and the earphones i got w/ them don't fit in my. ears hgkfjs#like the left one is fine but my right ear is too small for the bud.. and it's not one of those ones with the rubber thing so i can't fix#the sizing lol </3#anyway so i'm looking for earbuds that won't explode if an ant touches them lol ; i found some that come in blueeee#my player is red.. i Could just get black.. but clownmode starts Now lmfvhsh#/yea so the player situation;#it has radio (YAYYY 💫💥💫💥💫) but it can't hop on any wifi so i have to download onto my computer and then onto the thang#which is okay. or WOULD be [dun dun] if i didn't put every song i liked ever into one playlist Lmaofjvshj#400+ songs in one playlist Is difficult.. and i still have some character playlists i wanna add lollllll#so doing that rn.. oohoo...#i've managed to get it down to like 294 which is cool but i am hanging on to groups of songs i do not care about for some reason kfhsvbh#cuz i add music in clumps so everything is in 'groups' that only i can see lol :)#i don't wanna spend a bajillion years downloading this stuff thoughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh houuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu#ofc there are groups that simply cannot go. like the whiteboard sections and that entire coin album Lmaoo#but also man i don't think i'm in the brain space for this rn pfshv#i am hearing sounds and i do not care. but also i think i do so i just leave them there for future me to check later kfsh#anywho i'm gonna try to get it down to around the 100s#that Does mean i have to removed 94 songs rn tho... difficult decisions really bfsh#//aaaaanywho i'll prolly just save the rest of this for later#i've got other things i should be doing and things i wanna be doing and things i need to do or i'm going to turn into sludge again so hfhs#back at it like always!! i should get some water....#but YEA. toodles :3
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The B plot of the bmw season 3 episode Stormy Weather (you know, where Mr Turner, and Shawn's gf's mom decide to date) is like funny as a concept but also every time Shawn and Dana do that "oh no if they date we'll be step siblings!" thing it makes me lose my goddamn mind. Y'all know me, y'all know I'm obsessed with the Jonathan Being Shawn's Dad™ thing, and that episode really went "uhhh duh obviously Shawn sees Jonathan as his dad" like why did they do that to meeeeeeeeeeeee
#*gasp* we're sisters!#''mr Turner is hitting on my aunt!'' ''were cousins!'' oh my goodness. Holy shit. Bmw you are killing me.#Why did they do that to me and then stab me in the gut with I Never Sang For My Legal Guardian#Fuck OFF Chet Hunter I need Jonathan to adopt Shawn I need it more than anything else sorry.#Also unrelated but I NEED Disney+ to put the bmw episodes in the correct order especially season 3.#Anyway actually Jonathan adopted Shawn and he was his dad and then later Shawn got together with and stayed with Angela and#everything was happy and good for Shawn forever.#I wish I was alive and a TV writer in the 90s specifically so I could've fixed this show 😔 specifically Shawn having a good time#However I probably wouldn't have latched onto that boy if not for him famously not having a good time#Hes just like me fr!#Someone get that boy and also me a therapist#Anyway the point here is uhhh I cannae believe Shawn canonically thought of turner as his dad I hate it here#I wish I had thought of this episode when writing Acting Normal When He's Nervous. Oh I would've had a field day with that#my posts#boy meets world#shawn hunter#jonathan turner#Also the line 'were sisters' Ooooooh if I had had that when writing Acting Normal When He's Nervous. I also would've loved that#Maybe I'll just have to write another short fic to go along with it. Maybe I'm insufferable. Maybe it's Maybelline
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Me, looking at vulgar french words for penis: Oh neat they also have Verga
Also tbt to the time a teacher of mine said "Le bilo bitte" instead of Bic and we spent a full hour laughing
"verge" is commonly used in french smut and is at least marginally better than "membre" which is a nightmare imo. "organe" is another euphemism which i feel like you need to be very confident in order to pull off. i haven't written smut in french in so long i'd like to write some this year
"bite" is always funny altho i do think going a step further and reaching for "teub" gives it a real special flavor
#la réponse d#also bite is just always a riot in english.#french smut is a lot less vulgar than in english in general funnily enough at least in fic#people will use euphemisms for everything. even in like pwp#i saw 'bite' only in like. two fics back when i was researching for my in-universe fanfiction#i do have a soft spot for 'verge' tho even if it's silly#when i was writing the bad french smut i wanted to try and use 'engin' somewhere but couldn't do it#i do think augustine would use 'engin' to talk about lysandre's dick to aggravate him tho.#would probably make puns and jokes about him being an engineer.#anyway sorry for going in a tangent i am still shiniless and suffering💔#talking about funny peepee words helps#WHY DID A BUNCH OF THE WORDS GET ADDED AS TAGS LMFAO.#ohhhh it's bc i forgot not to use quotes oughhhhhhh brain empty#okay i'll fix this on pc later but first missing word was bite. second was uhh i think verge. last was ENGIN#my tags are ruined but i'm not retyping all that sry#i fixed it on pc.
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why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up why won't my brain shut up
#i'm overthinking something that i did and was told off for doing by my director#and on my way home i was thinking when was the last time i was even talked to like that during a production#and then i remembered the costume experience from hell of only a couple months ago that i've already began blocking out#but the thing is that that person was someone i knew i'd never have to work with again#i mean at first i thought i would have to work with them more. then they announced they were moving away immediately#so i only had to deal with them face to face for another weekish after that point and anytime they yelled at me#i was like 'cool. i'll do exactly what you say to do. and nothing more.' but then of course me being me#i did some extra stuff and they initially were like 'oh that's pretty' and then days later told me to cut everything i added#and like sure i get that the show was frozen but girl. that costume was unfinished. i was trying to finish it. it was frozen but looked bad#anyway. whenever they yelled at me and had actual malice in their heart i was like whatever. i was hurt. but i didn't care as much.#but this time it's someone i've worked with many many times before and it was about a habit i have that i know isn't great#but at the same time the thing that prompted it wasn't even me doing this habit it was something else#but she interpreted it as that habit and said that i can't do that on a production she's directing#and that if i couldn't stop then i could pull out from the production and there'd be no hard feelings between us#and honestly i think her reassuring that she knows i'm valuable and that she wants me there while also telling me not to do this thing#and the fact that she's someone i like working with and will continue to work with just made it all hurt so much more#especially since she referenced another past production we've done where i didn't even realize she had noticed that i do this.#and i found myself in near tears. and still am kind of in near tears. i can't decide if i need to cry or not.#and i had NO sleep last night so i was looking forward to sleeping tonight but now i'm just overthinking EVERYTHING#and like. i know everything will be fine. if i just stop inserting myself and stick to just my specific tasks. it'll be fine.#but this is one of the ways my ocd manifests. i feel like i have to personally fix something i notice going wrong. or it'll be bad.#because every single time i choose to sit back and not be nosy when i notice something it ends up bad in a way i could have prevented#if i just inserted myself in a situation i technically wasn't part of but knew i could help or fix. so i just need to not do that.#but then i feel guilt if it does go wrong in the ways i immediately assumed it would and in a way i could prevent.#and i've been trying to work on this for like 6 months and aaaahhhh it's hard and being called out on it from her just really really hurt#i still may or may not cry. i don't know. the irony of me telling my therapist THIS MORNING that it's been a while since i last cried.#and the universe being like 'i took that as a challenge' and handing me this situation for me to spiral over.#i need to leave things alone. i need to stare straight ahead. and ignore whatever isn't specifically for me to do. but ahhh i want to help#and then of course my mom has this same habit and it annoys me when she does it yet i do it to other people and ahhhhhhhh#brain please just shut up. i need to sleep. i have to work tomorrow.
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